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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

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erinwantstowrite · 25 days ago

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thinking about them atm (couldn't focus while writing so i had to doodle)

#alessandra parker #she needs her own tag #for context in case any of my readers forgot:#she's mary parker but if she like got to have a personality and a life #also i changed her name because for the context of the story it felt weird having dick's alt self marry someone with his dead mom's name #so yeah this is her #dick grayson #peter parker #ao3 #ao3 fanfic #leap of faith ao3 #leap of faith catch me if you can #peter parker in gotham

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rocketbirdie · 2 months ago

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fateful encounter

#one of my favorite things about ffvii's story is that every tiny event comes with a million new What Ifs.#what if tifa didn't recognize cloud at the train station? what if she chose not to help him and instead just minded her own business?#what if cloud didn't have that sword? would tifa have even noticed him? or would she have assumed that he was just another mako junkie?#what if someone else had found him first? what if someone called public security and shinra came to 'investigate?'#why was cloud in sector 7 anyway? what if he'd been in sector 5 instead? would aerith have discovered him?#was he trying to catch a train up to the shinra building in order to follow the reunion? since jenova's body was up there?#every answer creates a bunch of new questions. the story writes itself in your own head. uuUUAAHHGHH i love this game #ffvii #cloud strife #tifa lockhart #my art <3 #.............what if cloud had stumbled onto the tracks and gotten run over

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cubbihue · 4 months ago

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Does Mr. Turner like rubbing his “son’s” successful career in Dinkleberg’s face??

He does! He brags about Timmy's success to every person within the neighborhood's vicinity. Mr. Turner loves how successful his son is! It really secures his reputation at the neighborhood HOA meetings they host at their house.

Timmy's worked very hard to gain more successes than failures. The more successful he is, the greater his family's social standing!! And the less he gets to overhear his dad ranting to the neighborhood about his failures.

Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]

#fairly oddparents #fop #fop a new wish #fop timmy turner #fop timmy #timmy turner #chimmy changa #asks #raven with a pocketwatch #itty bitties fop au #tw parental neglect #<- ask to tag #using the neighborhood gossip is a very good way to reign in your son when he gets too cocky or proud for your liking.#but its also a good way to boost your social standing!! wow!! the joys of reaping the rewards from someone else's hard work!#by contrast mrs. turner doesnt mention his successes to her friends #which timmy does appreciate somewhat but she also doesnt really. give him much of anything.#so.#cant really tell whats worse. the oversharing or the ignoring.#timmy's parents hosts a LOT of events at their house #so he's usually juggling like. hundreds of tasks at once.#he has to get the drinks the plates the food the clean up watch the kids get more drinks respond to his dad's calls handle 3 conversations #prevent his mom from offering him to clean her friends yards stop that kid from spilling ketchup over the grass catch the loose dog #get more drinks for his dad watch the grill avoid the aunt's mlm scheme pitches reject the neighbor's pitch for a potential girlfriend-#all while picking up work calls and scheduling office hours and fixing his coworkers' mistakes and emailing clients and and-#....which is all to say that timmy does most of the hosting. while his parents partake in the celebrating and partying.#man. you'd think doing this for 20 years you'd be able to handle stress

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tenderjock · 1 month ago

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I’m with you, my love The lights shining through on you Yes, I’m with you, my love It’s the morning and just we two

#spike btvs #spuffy #spuffyedit #btvs #btvsedit #buffy the vampire slayer #it's terribly simple #you know you want to dance #injuries cw #bites and chews and gnaws on anyone who says buffy didnt love spike. BITES and CHEWS and GNAWS on them.#like is that not the whole point? of him? of his entire character arc? of his burning to ash as he breaks the sunnydale high school #(AKA buffy's personal cage within the slayer's cage that was sunnydale itself AKA the place where he and buffy first ever fought #and he nearly killed her for the very first time but was foiled by the immense love someone felt for her) as he breaks that place to rubble #in a way also very reminiscent of the first time they slept together and Literally Fucked A Building Down. anyway as he's doing ALL OF THAT #like sure she doesnt HAVE to love him she doesnt owe him anything and even if she did love isnt about obligation. but when buffy says #that she loves him in that scene. theres nothing to indicate that she doesnt feel it. that she isnt telling the truth.#idk man. people take a man who is dying telling someone not to love him as the gospel truth when i feel like its more ... like maybe he's #making a misguided effort to be kind? he's telling her ''dont get too hung up on the vampire thats about to catch on fire #and get your pretty ass out of here while you still can please.''#whatever. WHATEVER. in the perfect btvs that lives in my head most of ats isnt canon but esp the part where spike comes back and doesnt #immediately 1. ASK IF DAWN WAS OKAY 2. upon being told by angel that he cant be put in touch with buffy because [mumbles] misogyny?#go ahead and engage in a flirt campaign at harmony until she breaks down and calls buffy for him. those would be like the FIRST TWO THINGS #that spike did after he came back to unlife. first two things frfr #i'm gonna end the tag rant there. hmm

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roemantics · 8 months ago

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abigail hobbs I miss u

#hannibal #hannibal nbc #abigail hobbs #my art #fanart #doodles #ignore that i posted the first image i fixed it #i stressed so hard for this girl watching the show like someone save her #hannibal lecter when i catch you

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backpackingspace · 2 months ago

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Odysseus with his head in his wife's lap, happily not paying attention to anything, humming one of athenas song and carving something

Some random guy: your majesty----

Odysseus: not bothering to sit up: whatever my wife decided is fine.

#the odyssey #epic the musical #Odysseus #Penelope #Odypen #Post-canon my beloved #Odysseus tried to hold court exactly one time before he 1. Realized he's very out of date with everything and #2. Remembered that these meetings sucked so much #Odysseus then quickly climbed into his wife's lap and was like penelopes been ruling for 20 years she's got this #The first time someone tried to insist that it wasn't acceptable for penelope to answer ody nearly killed the guy #Nobody tried to force the issue after that #The only time odysseus sits up to contribute is to be like 'no no we can take that route now I killed the monster that lived there years ag #This is not to say he isn't listening and paying attention! He is! He's just scoping everybody's out #Noticing who's more pushy when they're trying to deal with penelope than they are with him #He's got twenty years of politics to catch up on! And he's going to be sneaky about it #Odysseus post return gaining a reputation for being uninvolved and uncaring only to pull the rug out from underneither the other person #Penelope is a okay with this for many many reasons #First off her system is one of beauty and the fact that her husband didn't spend all her hard work to take back over the second he came bac #Is rare and penelope is grateful everyday for who she married #Second she gets to show off look at how well she did odysseus look at how clever she is ody ody watch as I scam these people isn't that hot #(It is and yes of course odysseus was watching)#Penelope enjoying how odysseus lays out over her like a lazy lion #It scratches her possessive side to show him off like this and she gets to play with his hair #Telemachus attending some of these meetings to learn (tm) and spending the whole time deeply embarrassed #Odypen being 🥰🤝 rat bastards in love

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claraoswalds · 1 year ago

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The Girl Who Died // Hell Bent

#dwedit #doctor who #usertennant #userveronika #userteri #twelfth doctor #clara oswald #doctor x clara #twelveclara #*#I'M SICK OF LOSING PEOPLE. LOOK AT YOU WITH YOUR EYES AND YOUR NEVER GIVING UP AND YOUR ANGER AND YOUR KINDNESS.#ONE DAY THE MEMORY OF THAT WILL HURT SO MUCH THAT I WON'T BE ABLE TO BREATHE AND I'LL DO WHAT I ALWAYS DO.#I'LL GET IN MY BOX AND I'LL RUN AND I'LL RUN IN CASE ALL THE PAIN EVER CATCHES UP. AND EVERY PLACE I GO IT WILL BE THERE.#anyway idk if this makes sense outside of my head but the journey between like #she might meet someone she can't bear to lose -> gives her a second repair kit so she can make someone else immortal too ->#he can't bear to lose clara -> he brings her back from the dead which makes her functionally immortal ->#look how far i went for fear of losing you #ok actually i need to make a full parallel set. someone remind me to do that

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chicken-blitz13 · 1 month ago

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I'm so normal about this but the AvP Storyboards....

Lex and Scar escaping the pyramid

EXCUSE ME THEY LOOK CUTE SNUGGLED UP TOGETHER

AVP CREW EXPLAIN YOURSELVES

#I NEED TO GET A HOLD OF SOMEONE WHO WORKS ON THIS FILM #AVP CREW WHEN I CATCH YOU #YALL I NEED TO THANK THEM AND ALSO CRY #WAIT I THOUGHT HE WAS HOLDING HER WAIST FOR A SEC IM SO BLIND #they're trying their hardest to not make them a couple until they went “damn their dynamic is a little...”#someone from the storyboard team probably drew them smooching but they had to scrap that😔#scarlex #alexa woods #scar predator #predator #yautja #predator franchise #alien vs predator #avp #alien vs predator 2004

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i-dreamed-i-had-a-son · 4 months ago

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jon val jon or something

#jean valjean #les miserables #les mis #meme #no bc i just read the part where FIRST of all he's 'so happy his conscience began to bother him' and immediately goes 'can't have that'#and then he 'lived in the backyard like a dog' OF HIS OWN HOUSE WHILE COSETTE IS IN THE MAIN BUILDING #and jvj my beloved i am obsessed with you king but it is SO unhealthy to intentionally deprive yourself just so someone else can tell you..#'no no don't do that you need to take care of yourself' like bro i know you want to be nurtured and have someone prove their love for you #but it's really not great that the only way you keep your room at a liveable temperature and eat good food is when cosette is making you #i say this without judgement bc that was me once too but good GOD man your identity cannot be her!!!!#and stop with the preemptive self-inflicted harm!!! stop with the self-protective and yet -destructive distancing!!#you're only doing that because you want someone to tell you to stop!!!!!#alternate chapter title: in which an old man finds himself at home among the youth (2014 tumblr)#ANYways all this to say jvj is a projectable 10000% and i hate him because i love him because i hate that version of me bc i love me #or: SHUT UP AND BE LOVED YOU SILLY OLD MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#kay has a party in the tags #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay is a classical literature nerd #my meme

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dykedvonte · 3 months ago

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I think any fix-it mouthwashing au has to have the mandatory scenes of Curly either being able to blink again or speaking for the first time.

#like metaphorical nature aside can you like fathom the relief in being able to hear your voice again? or like blink your eye even if manualy #how many times to you think the phantom actions triggers only for nothing to happen to be asked something and it catch in his throat from h #his torn vocal cords probably from how loud and hard he was screaming in agony #or the feeling of having to cry with tears and the instinct to blink them away like those little relief would make him break down #also just like I want the fix it au to have a scene of Anya feeling truly safe and content with nothign in the back of her mind #like I like playing with the struggles and angst but really just have her subtly realize shes fine alone or with one of them I dont care #shes like reading and someone unintentionally sneaks up on her but she doesnt jump or she wakes up and its not the first thought in her min #or maybe just her realizing she can finally push it away maybe someone not recognizing her or Curly from the incident and realizing it wont #define her forever and she'll move past it like please let them be happy have them meet Daisuke's family who pointedly dont ask #or Swansea appriciating his kids in a way Daisukes didn't appiciate their useful ray of sunshine like LET THEM SMILE #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #captain curly #curly mouthwashing

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aspen-charminghearts · 4 months ago

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A Normal Day in Red and Chloe’s Dorm:

Chloe: [Peacefully doing her homework]

Red sitting on her bed bored: Chloe!

Chloe already knows what’s about to happen: [Ignores Red and continues her work]

Red now on the edge of her bed upside down: Chloooooeeeeee!

Chloe: [Ignoring]

Red now standing, smacking two books together to make noise: CHLOEEEEE!!!!

Chloe: [Struggling to focus]

Red startling Chloe from behind, wrapping her arms around Chloe and her chair: CHLOE!

Chloe startled: [Squeak of Shock] Goodness Red what is it ?

Red: Hmmm.. I don’t know. I think I just wanted attention! [Smiles sheepishly and snuggles Chloe]

Chloe: Of course you did.. And to think a few months ago you were threatening to feed me to the Jabberwocky.. [Proceeds to give Red her required Chloe time]