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happiest of birthdays to my dear friend @aranarumei and their lovely fic the anomalous agate.... I have selfishly rendered my favorite scene with my favoritest guy sorry. but its also with love for the whole thing. anyways this is a scene from the start of chapter 4.... it's read left to right. Also if you somehow found this from looking at jeweler richard tags then i'm sorry but also theres way more seigi and richard in the whole fic. it's really good and awesome. if you're here from the sasaki to miyano general tag then im also sorry. look at my favorite side characters boy.
anyways. rest of the comic under the cut !!
the end... hope everybody enjoyed and also everybody should just go read the original fic. peace and love on planet anomalous agate.
#hanzawa to tashiro#hanzawa masato#tashiro gonzabuoru#the case files of jeweler richard#tcfojr#sasaki to miyano#ssmyverse#nakata seigi#seigi nakata#scheduling for midnight bc im impatient. teehee#this is the second time ive drawn a whole ass comic for a friends birthday#nobody expect this from me again#somebody stop me next time#description in alt text#described#my art#sunnfish.png#also this is the most satisfied I've been with something in a while... i slayed#still little things i'm catching. but overall im proud of myself#feel like I improved a lot from my last comic#and made myself stress less over like. backgrounds and all that.#anyways. finally time to move on to the ssmy exchange
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hey guys I collected all the Xander + David matching/mirrored sprites together bc I'm very very normal about their parallels!
(under the cut just for minor spoilers)
not all of these match perfectly but they're pretty dang close... (and there were also some that I excluded because they only sort of matched)
(no ones with ch2 David sprites bc not all of them are up on the sprite gallery yet, but I'm sure some of them match too...)
#hghsjskshdghg somebody sedate me i need to stop thinking about them#theyre so normal about each other <3#some of these HAVE to be on purpose#xanvid#drdt#danganronpa despair time#holding off on making any posts for the next ep cause im still in mourning lol (im not readyyyyyyy)#xander matthews#david chiem
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companion piece for this
For equality.
#with the other one nobody believed me when i said my intentions were pure. i can say that this time they were not :)#i have an imbalance of who's holding who on my blog!! plenty of dazai holding chuuya not enough chuuya holding dazai#i'm starting the rebalancing process with one big swing first#now what do i tag this#suggestive#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#bsd chuuya#bsd nakahara chuuya#bsd dazai#bsd dazai osamu#skk#soukoku#nawy's art#and next time i start drawing a head at a weird angles SOMEBODY STOP ME#i never wanna draw a nose from below again
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lers that do the shit where they mock u + coo at u CANSOMEODY PUT ME DOWN
#like the fuckass ‘aww this a bad spot?’ SHIT .#OR THE FUCKING WAY THEY MOCK U N GO lmao ur so ticklish that’s gotta suck 4 u#i have so many tropes and shit eating away at the neurons in my brain.#like the fucking shit where ur laughing so hard n sputter out the involuntary ‘stop’ or ‘i cant’ AND THEY FUCKIN GO#lmao cant what😂😂 u should think abt that next time u ask 2 b tickled silly like this🤣 IMFUCKING INSANE😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#somebody PLEEEAAAAASE put me down#tk shit#back w another milHEEEEEEELP! HELP ME!! HELPPPPPPP😭😭😭😭😭😭#silliness speaks
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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN
#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago#and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since#someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line#that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation#where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had#thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was#super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh#that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated#as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying#to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit#because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha#could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to#believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in#the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of#development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school#and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility#and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai#anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin#or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post#addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad#writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into#doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao
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sometimes i feel like extending the kindness you can, when you can, is the only thing there is
#two days ago on the train home from work there was a woman next to me with three very young kids.#she was trying to keep them in the seats#exasperated and tired and yelling.#trying to make a phone call as the kids swung on the handrails and did cartwheels in the train car#i wasn't trying to listen to the call but caught that somebody had died in a station.#I tried to mind my business for a few minutes;#the kids bounced around as their mom tried to wrestle them down and took a swig from a bottle of vodka in their wagon.#when there was a break in her phone call i said “this is none of my business but if you want me to keep the kids busy I can try to help.”#and she said “you're not gonna be able to. they're being real bad. but you can try.”#so I took some post-its out of my backpack and folded them tiny paper cranes#(I tried showing them how to fold cranes but they were far too young for fine motor skills.)#I stuck post-its to the seats and gave them my pens so they could scribble and draw.#I told them I'd draw them anything they wanted if they sat in the seats while I drew.#I challenged them to a breath-holding contest.#When one started showing me that he could do cartwheels in the car aisle I asked him to come sit down and I could draw him doing a flip.#All in all I think they ended up more or less in the vicinity of the seats almost all of the time and having some kind of fun -#I almost missed my stop. I gathered my pens and pencils back from the kids and picked up the post-it confetti from the floor#and when I was putting my helmet on and grabbing my bike the kids waved goodbyeand the mom looked grateful#and told the kids to all say goodbyelike clearly they were in rough times#like clearly they were in rough times#money. health. holding on#there is so much I can't give#but I can give twenty-five minutes
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#next time it’s the henries in a drag race. somebody stop me#sorry if i missed some gloucesters#gloucester in lear has no canonical name yet i’ve decided it’s edward. a family of eds#shakespeare#poll#richard ii#henry iv#henry iv part 2#henry v#henry vi#henry vi part 1#henry vi part 2#henry vi part 3#richard iii#king lear#polls#original post
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Post concert sickness has been especially rough today with a heavy, throbbing head (especially around the nose) and getting out of breath very easily. I am glad I managed to finish my hamburg sketch page but I think that will be all I have energy for today - fingers crossed that I woke up tomorrow feeling just a slight bit better so I can enjoy my 11 month hrt anniversary
#flashing#sort of?.quick movements at least#but yeah it had to be a gif of the plague george himself#also sort of random but scrolling to find this gif i looked at one where nace lifts bojan after ruissi#and for the first time in forever i actually craved/longed to be lifted#to be hold lovingly in somebodys arm and feel weightless in their strong grib#but alas today i ate way too much for i probably weigh a ton#i am already feeling self concious about being heavy and clumsy bc height#i dont need feeling heavy because heavy alsooø#*also#very typical tho that the one time i want to be lifted is when i am sick home alone and going to bed#and also all my faves are tiny#except for maybe nace#i wouldnt ask h or Jere to lift me#heck probably not even bojan#again i feel just like huge when next to shorter people#and while I know jere is more stocky and might be able to handle it (and h had a sickpack) i dont want to hurt them#random babble i will stop now#micahs thoughts
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almost 4am can't stop thinking about the meaning of the idiom 'to have blood on [someone's] hands'—to be responsible for a person's death—combined with the fact that Zach is the one we are specifically shown with Daryl's actual blood on his hands (once for real and once in a dream)... Not Josh who had been holding the sword Daryl fell onto, but Zach who took the sword out.
#super dark times#+ part of it that's insane to me is: Josh COULD have easily ALSO gotten (literal) blood on his hands—we see him go to check for a pulse#after Zach did... but we don't see his hands during that—they're left out of the shot! we just see his face. and when we see his hands next#there's no visible blood on them (if any got on he theoretically wiped 'em off ig? similarly Zach's hands when seen AFTER the shot of him#touching Daryl ALSO don't rlly show blood anymore—we see his hands in the leaves tho so it prob went there) BUT SO there was a CHOICE made#to give us a close up shot of ZACH pulling his hand away from the wound with blood on it... but to NOT do the same/smthn similar with Josh.#and yet ZACH is the one who CAN'T ACCEPT THE ROLE HE PLAYED IN ANY OF ITTTTT!!!!!!! GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!#this post brought to you by me rewatching the Zach + Charlie on the phone scene and needing to just. stop and scream at Zach being#like 'Josh‚ or fucking somebody else‚ they went up there and if they found Daryl alive—' LIKE BRO. YOU *KNOW* HE WAS DEAD.#YOU KNOW. YOU KNOOOOW. YOU WERE THERE. YOU KNOW HE WAS ALREADY DEAD. the denial. the trying to find any fucking way that#there could be even a sliver of a possibility that it WASN'T even PARTIALLY his fault.... shifting the blame entirely onto Josh...#[plus like. the 'somebody else' only added in after Charlie was giving him shit for trying to complicate this more—at first he was#straight up saying Josh was the one that fucked with the body]... aghghghsfd he makes me INSANE#also fwiw. i'm forever a 'Josh didn't harm anyone on purpose until AFTER his fight with Zach at Zach's house' truther. that provides#at least SOME sort of motivation to push him over an edge into... the shit that happens. anything before that just fuckin' doesn't make#sense. To Me. ive already written a lot on my thoughts about all of that though [uhhh in the tags of my gifset of the fight at Zach's house#anyways. im also NOT trying to say 'ah so we should Just Blame Zach' because nah nah this whole thing was a fucked up accident. they're all#to blame. plus Josh did horrible shit at the end On His Own there's no way of getting around that—but the messiness of how Zach handled the#initial incident and how that ripples out across the whole movie is simply soooooooo... ghghGHGhghGHGhghghgh. To Me.#in conclusion: im soooooooo normal about the characters in this movie (<- lying)
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Okay, started and finished reading Bungou Stray Dogs today (both anime and manga) and you are telling me that the most sane one is an impaled speaking head???
What the heck? I absolutely adore the chaos, tho
#yes I'm sick#no I mean literally sick and in my week off work#Yes I'm absolutely loosing my mind with boredom#No I cannot go back to work because when the drugs stop working I'm f dead once again.#Yes I'm absolutely dramatic and I don't get sick often.#Yes getting sick once every two three years is a blessing for everyone that knows me in real life#I assure you I'm insufferable#bsd manga#bsd bram stoker#How I ended up stanning an impaled head I don't know but at the same time I'm not protesting#I like how nobody really dies in this manga#<- Next month somebody will die just because I run my mouth#bungou stray dogs#Sigma deserves better#He's just some guys leave him alone#(Theory: he will end up as the decaying angels true boss just because)
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sry i also started thinking abt how great my life would be if i was trapped in a timeloop again. i meant again as in i thought abt it again not as in I was trapped in a timeloop and id love 4 it 2 happen again. never been in one unfortunately.
#id be so awesome in the timeloop dude. you guys dont get ittt id slay in the timeloop#id memorize every single thing that happens nad itd be awesome id write a book abt everything that happens even. and id be able to sleep so#much and therd be no consequences for anything (aside from. what. me being stuck in the timeloop longer? DONT MIND IF I DO!!!)#and like if itsba 24 hour timeloop. dude i can do anything in those 24 hours. i could go across the world PROBABLY#like i could just empty allll of my savings and book a same day no stops flight . and then id just like be somewhere else. ajd i wouldnt#even have to worry abt getting back bc timeloop my guy!!!#sighh .. yk. every day alreadh feels all the same due to depression so mayyybe everyday feeling the same due to timeloop wouldnt actually b#awesome but i think it would be avtually bc the reason every day feeling the same feels Bad is bc i know they shouldnt.ik theyre different#im justgoing through the motions every day and i hate it. if every day actually was the same ? dudeee i wouldnt be sad abt every day#feeling rhe same bc it straighr up would be. i wouldnt feel like im missing out on something... And idbe able to DO different things bc i#wouldnt have to worry like Omg what will happen tmrw if i do something reckless today.. omg i cant spend this money bc rent is due next#week. omg i cant go do thus activity bc i have 2 work today.. Brother nobody has to work in a timeloop!!!#and all id have to do is like. kill somebody every so often so the time god or whateber doesnt think ive learned my lesson. and itd suck to#kill someone yk id feel badd. ig rly i could just rob a bank and not have 2 kill someone#well yk. some ppl. i would murder. mainly bc i think itd be kiiinda funny. but i shant go into thay more#Dude i could literally learn every language and read every single bookkkkkk god i wanna be in a timeloop so bad id thrive in the timeloop
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[Silly shenanigans in the tags, just need to vent, don't mind me]
#so my colleague used to be a flight assistant and she is supposedly skilled in first aid okay#i have autonomic dysfunction which is a common comorbidity of my genetic condition#long story short i faint A LOT#it's not the first time it happened to me while working with my colleague but the other times there was either somebody else present#who could assist me or i've otherwise always managed to ride out the presyncope in a safe way#today it was just me and her and i felt it coming and i went down like in a weird way#next thing i know i am lying down on the veranda while my colleague is in tears completely panicked#because of course when someone faints what can you do? drag them across the floor and carpet for several mts and bring them outside 🤦🏻♀️#and now i have huge bruises on both of my arms in the shape of my colleague's fingers#i am perfectly fine now but the whole situation was so silly! and i also have rug burns on my lower back 💀#so much for someone trained in first aid#thank god i know how to deal with this shit myself lmaooo#just let me pass out in peace 💀#my colleague just couldn't stop shaking for the whole shift because she thought i had cracked my skull open ⚰️
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i will never outgrow responding to people in confusing ways but it will be ok because people are patient :)
#post tag#wish people online were more patient. constantly you see somebody fucking up an interaction in a way that would be forgiven irl#but is punished harshly here#and then everyone laughs and reblogs it#like. idk. please consider that we are all people on here and these are all interactions#when you make a joke at somebody’s expense there is a person on the other side of the screen being made fun of!#it doesn’t happen to me but i don’t really interact with strangers online much#i dont want to get too preachy here sorry. this was supposed to be a post about how i confuse people at the start of interactions constantly#but i stumble my way to the middle of the conversation and then it’s mostly ok. frequently#however i have been thinking about how mean people can be on here recently… idk#i slept 3 hours last night and i blame the fact that i saw a tweet that pissed me off and got mad for like an hour and a half#and eventually calmed down but still couldn’t fall asleep. for some reason#anyway i wanted to say that i’m not sure if the way people react to social missteps on here is the way people want to react to me when i do#it irl. or not#i don’t . like the idea that people might want to punish me for it but feel unable to due to pressure to be polite. pressure that then doesn#t exist online#i hope not. lol#however i do ask you (yes you. the girl reading this. or whatever) to step back & think ‘would i say this to somebody’s face’ next time you#want to reblog with an epic comeback#oh god my sentences are getting so long. girl who simply cannot stop talking#girl who is blogginggggg <3#ANYWAY. enough. let’s return to my original point which was that i like it when people are nice to me
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what if i
persona!akira au
#take your time { ooc }#// somebody should stop me bc this is probably a dumb idea khekdfjskj#// but my gf and i have been talking about a verse we have where her grima muse became the next mementos deity#// and it's gotten progressively more complicated from there#// but it's ended up w/ akira achieving a sort of immortality through the public's cognition of joker#// idk if it's interesting enough though to refine into its own separate verse here 😂#// if it sounds like sth you'd wanna explore hmu though i guess
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hi! heard the released “Merry Christmas, Please Don’t Call” (which i’ve seen you’ve heard live, if i’m not mistaken!!) this morning and i don’t know if there’s really a particular vibe/dynamic/ship hrpf-wise (personally haven’t yet been able to put my finger on it) that quite relates but the lyrics have been rotating in my head all day and i was wondering if you had any thoughts? hope you have a good one! <3
OH ANON HAVE I EVER SEEN IT LIVE!!! and the second that song came out i zoomed it straight into my fic playlist and unfortunately there are so many guys this could be. right now the one that's resonating is, of course, the golden boy and his haunted ghost themselves: mcstrome.
i am thinking about connor, specifically, after the stanley cup final. that game seven. how angry he was, how loud the silence when they told him he won the conn smythe. how close he's come before and again and again lost. there's nobody else to blame but himself. he's in the empty room and he knows why (1)
at!! your best!!! you were magic!!! oh, golden boy. connor the anointed, of course. at the very beginning of his career we always knew he was something special and who wouldn't have fallen in love with him? weren't all of us a little bit dylan strome in awe of the generational talent? we were all bathed in radiant light just by being in the vicinity (2)
don't even tell 'em that you know me breaks my heart (3). in terms of building a narrative i think i've said before there is a universe where connor/dylan were together before the draft and to protect both of them, dylan breaks up with him. connor says i love you and dylan says i don't. because he doesn't, you know? he loved connor. he loved davo. he can't be in love with connor mcdavid, first overall pick of the edmonton oilers. i'd rather be hurt forever than have to watch us try to make this work and destroy us.
and after connor mcdavid left the otters, dylan strome captained them to a memorial cup win. what a haunted home, eh? to be captain of the team you and your best friend were on, only now he's left you? don't call me to tell me about your rookie season with the oilers--we both know about your broken collarbone. don't call me to tell about becoming the youngest captain in franchise history when i stepped into the shoes of your captaincy here. don't call me. (4)
narratively: dylan's the one who broke connor's heart and his own but by god it wasn't easy. we both know what happened, you went first overall. please don't make this harder on me. please don't call.
this verse can be about the weight of dylan having to live up to connor's standards and always being measured by him. i would just like to bring up the connor stepping stone chart for absolutely no reason as well (5)
we are, at long last, at the potential future of now: dylan strome, happy, smiling, thriving on the washington capitals. connor, on the oilers. i'm not yours, dylan can say. haven't been for a long time. it took some time but i made this. please don't call and ruin this for me, stay out of my life. i don't want you or need you (6)
[p.s. this took a while because when i received this ask i was a) immediately possessed to write this verse by verse breakdown i had never thought of before and then b) immediately plagued by the idea of making you a little graphic (above the read more) and finally got to do it after banging out all the actual lyric thoughts two (?) weeks ago. emerging two and a half hours later from the fugue state of GIMP with 37 layers in this bad boy hope you enjoy!!!]
#not me being like did i tell y'all about seeing bleachers? and then just proceeded to take it at face value like yeah i probably did#do i remember when or in what context absolutely not. maybe re: popstar jack? also very possible i was just. yapping.#anyway we're gonna put tag footnotes for other potential pairings &dynamics because otherwise this post looks frankly. unhinged. which it i#(1) because i am nothing if not a parody of myself i would like to provide an honorable mention to the death of the goon in this lyric.#when does time stop? when is it just you & your anger? who's the person you've divorced yourself from because you couldn't catch their fist#in case it was not clear this is also incredibly a trade narrative. did we pick that up? this is lovers to enemies. this is we were not goo#for each other and i don't regret that. parise suter fans rise up. the speaker in this case is the minnesota wild org.#(2) there is a note of nostalgia and longing here--when you were magic. i remember when you were a giant to me. i remember the hope#and possibilities. rip to sidney crosby the next one and golden boy of this generation but this is sung like a rookie to the vet they once#idolized. i was sold and maybe i shouldn't have bought it. maybe you tarnished over time. or in a softer light it is a comfort not a#criticism i bought tickets to the show. at your best you really were something and you made me believe i could be magic too. SORRY. dylan.#sorry. he'll come up again later. but every team has a golden boy don't they? do we know the cathal kelly bedard article where he talks abt#eating your prospects alive by building a narrative they can never live up to & promising them every year so that when they can it's a shoc#(3) three line devastation here my god. don't pretend you were kind golden boy! don't you dare tell anyone what you told me because then#they'd know too. the “coming out” narrative of it is discussed but while i don't love this it's the easiest example i have: jamie & trevor#have we heard jamie talk about trevor in a single interview? sometimes after a guy you loved gets traded you don't want the reminder.#it's even worse if he chooses to leave. claude giroux hater-era au arc where we don't talk about him. jt leaving the islanders dead to them#(4) while not a trade the other draft narrative we grew up together to enemies is of course zach and dylan. zach roaming around ann arbor#please also apply to subsequent usntdp team 100/101/102 narratives. alex turcotte i'm sorry they never speak your name you will hurt foreve#(5) to counter the rookie to the vet narrative of the golden boy this is fairly explicitly To Me a vet about his rookie who's supposed to b#the promised one the one who'll save them all. dallas is coming to mind here but not for any real reason. nail yakupov are you there.#taylor hall curse of the 1OA. pretty common also for guys to take in a kid when you're barely 26 yourself & haven't got ur shit figured out#so. dealing with a neurotic driven kid? yeah this is somebody who had a golden boy &fell out of favor. got traded. ty smith j'accuse style#(6) or in another story please don't call because i'll come right back#goodnight chicago the playoff handshake line. please don't call me. please don't call me.#HELLO BESTIE!!!! i think this is a wonderful song for Fic Purposes and could be applied well to SO many different narratives. i picked a#specific example but do feel the dynamic is very much what the song says: toxic ex and/or family/friend you don't need in your life. trades#seguin leaving boston etc etc. there IS an answer eluding me besides mcstrome though. not toxic enough. tk pat trade? OH TK PAT. or older#trade deadline tragedy
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I know it's not forever with him and I've known that since the first month of talking to him, but like....it's suddenly very clear to me that we exist only as a temporary bubble of time in each other's life and could not possibly be permanent. There's no version of the future where we make it, that doesn't exist.
Not because either of us have some fundamental personal issue, but because i will never understand the deepest part of him and he will never be able to reach that part of me.
It sounds crazy to stay together when I put it like that. He means so much to me and it does not matter, so why would I do that to myself? You see though, I want this bubble of time so bad that I will burn for it. I want the texts, laughs, secret looks, hidden touches, late night conversations, sex, waking up in his arms, forehead kisses, and history lessons. I want all of it so bad and I can have it! I can have it, and I can have him in my life and he can have me in his, and we can do all of that until the end. We'll be a bad movie montage of young reckless people, and I want every single part of it until the credits roll.
I'll hate myself when it's over but I don't think I'll ever hate him. I think it would've ended that way anyway though
#sorry guys but im treating the Internet as my diary again so just look away#hes so religious. its such a deeply ingrained part of his life and it shapes everything about his worldview#and i don't get it#i never will#i don't understand the idea of being 'deserving' of the things you want#i don't understand the shame of sinning or of not being good enough for god#i dont understand treating this life as a stop on the way to heaven rather than the emtrie fuckin point of existence#and he wants to badly to share that with someone#which i get it. of course i do. how could you not?#but ill never be that person for him#and likewise#i love exploring concepts and ideas rather than holding on strictly to beliefs#and i want to be wanted (a void in the shape of a woman) i want to be chosen and I want reassurance#and i want somebody to feel as strongly as I do about love and whats right#that kindness and love for others is The Point. theres nothing without that#and you don't have to deserve everything#you get it because you're here and you're alive and you exist only to experience the wonders and horrors of the world#to partake in the beautiful tragedy of life itself#not to serve some god or purpose#and he will never be able to understand that#his very foundation doesn't allow for any of that#and mine doesn't allow me to see him#and so there is no version of us out there that gets to have a life together after college#we'll always be this#young and reckless and skating on the edge of being in love trying not to fall in#fucked and moving on post grad to a new life forever touched by each other but unable to do anything with that#but i will kiss him next time i am with him and breathe a sigh of relief when i curl up on his side#and he'll gently caress the side of my face when im half asleep. kiss me on the forehead when we watch tv. make me coffee in the morning#and we'll exist in our little bubble for a while longer#vent post
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