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visit a rez populated by struggling native communities and tell me one more time that everyone living in this country benefits from imperialism
#VICTIMS OF THE IMPERIALISM STILL LIVE HERE YOU STUPID FUCKS!!!#i can't stand seeing one more fucking post about this i can't even play nice about it#how FUCKING convenient that so many of you don't factor in natives at all during these discussions#you don't even consider our existence#some of us do not have that luxury!#and btw i'm an urban ndn who did not grow up on a rez#(i do live in a rural area now and have always been poor but still am not living on a rez)#unlike some people on here however i'm at least AWARE of the people who do live these experiences#there are literally ppl on here living in highly developed countries that happen not to be in the west saying shit like this#and it fucking sickens me. i'm sorry but it really does#you almost definitely are privileged over ndns in especially impoverished communities#native people still live UNDER OCCUPATION. you DO understand this right#we are sovereign nations yet barely treated like it and still forced to live under and answer to the US empire
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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HC they first met a year or two after Yelan got her vision; post fighting the in abyss but when Kaeya was still navigating his identity from Kaeya, Brother and Right hand of Diluc Ragnvindr to Kaeya Alberich, Cavalry Captain and Quarter master of the Knights of Favonius.
#We know Kaeya's a bit of a sadist and does leave his men in the dark most of the time#Back when he he'd been newly appointed i feel he'd be quite reckless as to how much 'pushing' his knights could handle on missions#used to working from diluc's shadow rather than being the one to direct commands#And Yelan after her experience in the Abyss chooses to work alone and secrectively so that the lives of her comrades won't be in danger#She sees that Kaeya operates very much like her but he does not have the luxury to work as 'freely' as she does when it comes to official#missions for there are still people working under him#(ofc both of them do whatever they want when it comes to going of abyss side quests)#There's no way she doesn't feel some sort of kinship they're really similar in many aspects#she does not want to see a repeat of her certain mistakes#Yelan is also questioning how the actual fuck do the knights operate because why is a 16yr old beefing with her to get to a mafia boss firs#They come to 'good terms' as time passes where they have mutual respect for each other#both of them try their best to outwit each other form time to time of course#Kaeya being petty(er) and Yelan being 'i need to set this guy straight'#But back then after seeing Kaeya work missions for the first time Yelan's thinking that this kid is too smart for his good#additional hcs for Back In That Day#Yelan: -still hasn't gotten her signature bob. -often uses a crutch because Abyss did a number on her and her pre existing chronic illness#Kaeya- has a fuckass mullet#yeah.. my apolocheese for the ramble#genshin impact#genshin impact fanart#kaeya#kaeya alberich#yelan#yelan genshin impact#kms mention
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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children#In everything I do#Like legit#I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her#And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything#But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious#Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life#But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends#While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury#And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline#Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else#It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk#It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything#But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently#And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians#I’d be so mad#And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief#For losing their loved ones#This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit#This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow#And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything#Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal#And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just#Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off.#Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night#I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this#Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do#or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up#I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think#p
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@fushiglow hmm….wonder who i’d draw this for all of a sudden and why… 🤔🤔
#your reblog surprised me#THREE BUNS SUGURU (STAR WARS ER JUST FOR YOU!)#theyre covering riko or smt and smuggling her places (??)#drawing this i was like ‘oh suguru’s curses in a star wars environment should be robots and stuff#so this suguru is a mecanic (he makes them from scrappy parts people have thrown out#and trash materials (and hard work 😎)#diy pokemon#because what is the cursed energy people are letting out if not junk theyre letting go of#so yeah ; basic geto takes shit and turns it useful#i do realise thats already very generic for star wars (junk robots junk robots!) but like. yknow. this guy takes shit people wouldnt bother#trying to sell. miam. junk of the junk. geto my favourite recycling bin you were designed for a luxurious lifestyle clearly (gege not me!)#(and stuff…………. but im lazy to put my vision in words rn hah..)#gojo’s probably a princess#(let’s not lie. hes basically a prince already (clan heir is a different look on him))#this made me want to write ?.??#problem is i dont remember much about star wars (watched it as a kid (we have the cds) appart from the very basic storyline… i forgot 😔#then theres the jawa’s first appearance cuz for some reason they scared me and i am marked for life (THEYRE JUST SILLY LITTLE GUYS 😭😭))#thankfully i lowkey want to rewatch everything so these issues can be fixed#(unthankfully either way the chance of me writing anything is very slim BUT WE NEVER KNOW RIGHT)#(hashtag diverging your attention from that other older post is it working /j/j)#omg glo i still didnt read balance (i think of it from time to time but im intimidated to read it because i know its right up my alley and#that i will love it and lately idk why but i need to ready myself emotionally to read peak fiction (this is so dumb but its true 😭😭))#my bad im rambling lol#WAIT FUCK SAME THING FOR BUNNY’S RECENT THINGY THAT GOT IN MY AO3 UPDATE MAIL#A LOVE STORY TOLD THROUGH THE LENS OF A THIRD PARTY MY BELOVED#(itsg ive searchef for these types of stories in advanced search before#AND NOW THAT I HAVE SOME BY AUTHORS I ALREADY ADORE .. IM- I SEE THEM BUT. THEIR CONTENTS STAY A MYSTERY. IS THIS MY BODY SUBCONSCIOUSLY FI#FIGHTING THE TEAR LOSS I WOULD GET??? IS THIS MFING [BALLING-MY-EYES-OUT] PREVENTION !? WITHOUT MY PERMISSION..!? TCH!)#my bad. ramble again o7 — see ya glo !#wip
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Omg fam ur so not alone about the sleeping thing, my partner has both some health issues and also just a completely different sleep schedule from me that makes us sleeping together difficult, and a small apartment that makes it difficult to separate ourselves. And like. It's not his fault but its FRUSTRATING so I feel u ❤❤
😔😔😔Its frustrating bc its not her fault but also it kinda is bc i keep asking for basic communication
Im like hey are you coming to sleep in the next hour
And shes like in twenty mins
Which turns into two hours and im not going to dog her or ask again so i have to roll with the concept shes showing up whenever
I also sleep light so without fail if she comes in three hours later i wake up and it takes a while for me to return to sleeping
Its just a combination of stuff that makes this scenario like she doesnt say anything like dawg all i want is for u to poke your head in or msg me like im not gonna sleep yet but she gets mad abt it like its not super late!! FOR YOU ITS NOT you also work from home :/
Thats it and ill just bury myself under the covers n hope i dont wake up when she does come in
#ahh nothing like tumblr morning venting w the lads#i dont care that we have different sleep schedules#at the end of the day#i just want COMMUNICATION 😭😭😭😭😭#i know im ass at it in other ways but im always initiating convos like this and i keep telling her im not nagging u i dont want you to feel#like thats what this is but my god it will be if she keeps this up#i think im just annoyed that she uses the not late excuse but its like yeah i know but some of us have to go to an office to work and need#to mentally be on their A game. like constantly which is what Sleep assists with#not all of us have the luxury of working from home post covid#like dont give me a fakeass time that we both knkw you arent keeping#and shes always like WAIT FOR ME!!!#SO I DO????#AND THEN U PIKACHU FACE WHEN IM CRANKY AND SLEEPY AND AWAKE WHEB I COULDA BEEN ASLEPE?????#😭😭😭 im PRAYING FOR NO BS TODAY AT WOEK I SWEAR#also not to be slightly petty but i do all the goddamn housework
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Does the podficcing community know I love them? That they are doing god’s work and have my respect for all the time and dedication they put into what do? Cause editing stuff is hard and yet they are all so good and sometimes I forget I’m not listening to like, an audible production or some such thing. And even those that aren’t quite as good yet still bring light to this world and are awesome. Do they know I wish them all the best in life? Do they know they are a treasure and deeply appreciated? Cause they should.
#and it’s so cool to watch people’s evolution#like to listen to a podfic by an unfamiliar name and then watch as they slowly get better and do more#or to see some ao3 account that has a grand total of one podfic they made and it’s just so obvious they loved the fic#like legit ya’ll are heroes (especially for those of us who don’t have the luxury of reading a fic cause of whatever reason and so instead#are able to drive on a trip#work or clean or even just take a walk in nature while listening to it?#and that’s not even mentioning those of us who for whatever reason find if difficult to sit down and read#like dyslexia or ocd
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god, i suck at mario 2. i'm disparaging my legacy.... seriously, how the fuck have i beaten the lost levels without save states but can't get past 1-3 in american mario 2???? why am i not instantly good at a game i've never really played, god!!!! my mother would be disappointed in me
post writing the tags turtle here: i started rambling about my childhood made the tags longer than the actual post and don't feel like putting them onto the actual post because that'd be too much work and i'm feeling lazy. read em if you want personal bullshit! or don't. i'm not care
#one of the few luxuries we had growing up was a super nintendo#it was pretty much exclusively my mom's. and some of my earliest memories are watching her play super mario all stars and a link to the pas#she only specifically ever played mario 2 and 3. i never saw mario 1 or the lost levels as a kid#guess they're not as replayable to her. she says she's beaten both once#for some reason i remember playing a fair amount of donkey kong country. we had all 3 of them#i think as a kid i got farthest in the 3rd one? always got weird vibes from that one but it was still fun#growing up *my* home console was an N64. mom didn't really like it for whatever reason so it usually lived in my room#i still remember buying majora's mask from a toy store that's not in business anymore. i think that was one of my only games that wasn't a#hand-me-down. i think it was that and turok rage wars#as far as i remember everything else was given by a relative or a relative's boyfriend or something#still don't know where a lot of them went#i used to have the tony hawk games on there. and i think i remember gex? i think those were my cousins boyfriends stuff#i guess he took em back at some point#last i heard about that cousin she was in jail wacked out on drugs#i remember her boyfriend being a good guy. i think she got him on drugs or something. bad influence i guess#i hope he's doing better now. as an adult i'd say he's too good for her#or maybe i'm just nostalgic for one of the only positive male figures i had as a child. hell if i know#tags are now longer than the actual post. i don't feel like movin em to the post now. too much work#oh well! such is life#or as the franch say... Say Luh V!#i hope reading that made a francophone physically hurt. i hope they feel pain because of me#sorry that's not very nice. i'm not gonna delete that though.
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we have been venturing into getting pre-prepared meals that get thrown into the slow cooker and it is really a glimpse into how the other side lives. my fellow white people truly do eat the most bland food glfkfjd the reviews all said this specific brand was so flavorful but my wife has been adding a BUNCH of extra seasoning after the first one was so underseasoned and somehow it still isn't enough. how do people live like this.
my wife is currently fixing up the last one and was just like "if msg can't save this, nothing can" LFLFKFKD
#*dykeposting#negative#delete later#this is the brand what a cr/ock btw do not buy this stuff if you like seasoned food lmao#we have been getting like precooked stuff for lunches that has luckily been more well seasoned#it is such a shame that this kind of thing is basically a luxury at this point bc it is so fucking nice to have#the executive dysfunction relief of not having to figure out what to have for lunch every day is truly life changing#we used to get into fights bc by the time we both remembered we would be so hangry lmao and then i would just shut down#now we can just grab what sounds best out of meals we already picked out ahead of time#it is so nice 😭😭😭#we are trying a few different ones but cook un/ity has had some of the best stuff so far and lots of non-european options
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saving up is so hard lol i keep having to talk to myself like: did you know the amount of money doesn't grow if you spend it...in fact there will be less of it. 😔
#i KNOW this obviously. im actually doing pretty well but i used to spend more money on things like train rides and lol smoothies#i can just cycle about half the way and save 20. and i ughgg i don't Neeed a smoothie that often i can just eat fruit#it's exactly because im denying myself the very minor 'luxuries' atm that i feel permanently pissy about it 💩#i did some calculations tho and these small things add up to 150 a month or so. i will have to spend less time saving up if i can just#drink some fucking water instead of juice and not take the train when i can but don't HAVE to because it's fun and lazy
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Everybody going to bat for millionaires will always piss me off… like there are millions of millionaires in America… do you NOT think that they are a significant subgroup of people in comparison to the ~800ish billionaires??? (To be clear, billionaires should just die 😐 yes I’m serious)
Like, I think it’s significant that there are millions of millionaires that Don’t Give a FUCK and aren’t doing shit in comparison to millions of people in literal poverty or just living paycheck to paycheck.
Like again, I criticize my own damn peers for their ambivalence, I sure as hell am gonna criticize a piece of shit with millions in the bank who doesn’t want to do FUCK ALL for fear of losing the ability to gain millions more… like, idc if it’s not “speaking out” or donating or going full hog on becoming an activist, it pisses me off.
Inaction is an action, and it is often a violent one.
#im not saying stop watching movies#im saying you can call them on their bullshit#without feeling ANY amount of guilt#it’s embarrassing when they’re like ‘I can’t speak out :’(‘ meanwhile they’ve got four documentaries made about them#FUCK YOU#if I lose job opportunities and/or university opportunities#because I’m publically pro-Palestine on my non-anonymous socials#I’m not gonna regret being pro-Palestine#I’m gonna be pissed at the institutions#yes it would fucking suck#but unfortunately I’m used to working shitty ass minimum wage jobs and I’ll live just like all my friends and family do 🤷🏻#I do think it’s FUCKING EMBARRASSING#to be so attached to material luxury and wealth that you won’t even engage with your own goddamn humanity#like these millions of people are actual fucking citizens of this country with the political responsibility that entails#every human being has political responsibility#some just have more agency in it than others#(aka millionaires have more political agency and CHOICE than people in poverty or who are institutionally disenfranchised)#anyways rant over maybe#to delete later
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hi!!
I do actually have a question about IDW1 Optimus Prime for you... it may be a weird one, but still. So. If you were an IDW writer, what would your OP be like? I mean, if you had that chance to make your vision, you know, officially canon? Would you change something, or create something new?
And thanks for all your works, those are amazing
Tbh that's a little bit of a tough question? Because the way I interpret your question, I think of it in a couple different ways like: If I were a writer at IDW during the IDW1 run, what would I have done? Or if I were just given an opportunity to add an OP-centric story? Or if I were completely starting/writing for a completely different continuity? It's truly not as simple as just me writing whatever my own vision is, because my understanding of IDW1 in particular is it was a very collaborative effort with writers and editors (iirc Barber wrote his own series as well as being the editor for JRO's stuff and possibly others, for example).
I guess if I were an IDW writer and got to write an Optimus-centric story, I would've preferred that his post-war story be more focused on Cybertron and Cybertronian politics. It's not that I don't like the Earth story (in fact, I think I'm one of the only people who cares about humans in the story and thought the Earth plot was fun), it's just that the plot is so contrived and full of mess/unrealized potential that I would probably scrap everything except a few bare bones things and start fresh. ANYWAYS.
TLDR: If I'd gotten to write for the IDW continuity, I'd have 1. focused more on Cybertronian politics and 2. set up a rivals-to-friends/foil relationship between Optimus and Pyra Magna
I would've liked to see an Optimus-centric story that focused on Cybertron's politics instead, especially with his efforts to create post-war peace and arbitrate issues between Autobots and Decepticons. I really enjoyed the Punishment story which showed the pitiful state of the Decepticons (mostly jobless, everyone sees them just as fighters and criminals, pushed to slums on the outside of the city) and how it was an Autobot who was going around murdering Decepticons based on his own sense of vigilante justice. I really liked that story because it showed how Optimus' ideals of post-war conciliation clashed so much against reality, the way that not everyone is as willing/able to move on as he is. I think more stories where Optimus specifically works to resolve Autobot-Decepticon differences while also trying to deal with Starscream's shitty behavior and getting involved in politics and Primacy shit with the colonists would've been great. Because I mean, Megatron isn't here to give a shit about his Decepticons being in slums, so if someone is going to help them it might as well be Optimus.
I also really enjoyed the parts of various stories like the Autocracy trilogy and Death of Optimus Prime that showed how neutral Cybertronians only saw his legacy with Zeta and/or the 4 million year war. Those are very real positions for members of their species to take: not trusting Optimus to be anything more than another corrupt Prime, or hating him because of his involvement in the war that painted their species as all bloodthirsty warriors and led to mechanical species being persecuted to some degree. I feel like a story focusing on the politics of Cybertron would've been a way better way to criticize Optimus than the weird crap that became canon (Optimus being equated to Megatron for the annexation of Earth which only happened because of tricky politics and to get more resources to avert another invasion, being framed as 'going too far' by killing Galvatron, and some other stuff I don't care to get into). And I feel like a story focused on Autobot-Decepticon social conflicts post-war, and the division between the war faction mechs and neutral non-combatant mechs, and the different cultures of all the colonies, would've fit in better with all the pre-war lore brought in by MTMTE/LL. MTMTE/LL would've given us a lot of pre-war lore that would've then given more context to how and why people see Optimus the way they do in the present on Cybertron. There would've also been more chances to show Decepticons as sympathetic characters suffering from a similar systemic discrimination as they did before the war. I mean, there ARE sympathetic Decepticons, but there's not as many as there could've been IMO.
I also would've set up Pyra Magna as a more fleshed out rival/foil to Optimus. Canon gave us fucking nothing, man. Pyra and Optimus met, Pyra (as Victorion) made Optimus admit that he doesn't believe in the Primacy and doesn't think there's anything good in that legacy, Pyra is like "you know nothing and you're a shit Prime, I can try to teach you something though".......... and then Pyra Magna and Optimus literally never talk about anything except tactics and Pyra is only there in the background to punch people, until OP when all the sudden she's bitching at Optimus for manipulating people and being "unteachable" when she never fuckin taught him anything??? Maybe Optimus wouldn't have been like that if Pyra had actually had character interactions like the story SET HER UP TO HAVE, but I guess Barber just really wanted to have another person scream at Optimus about how much he sucks.
I would've liked to see Pyra and Optimus butting heads over the issue of the Primacy and having a lot of cultural clashes because of the separate histories of their planets. Because clearly Pyra Magna is offended by Optimus viewing the Primacy as nothing more than a tool, but she came from a planet where Primes were venerated as gods so of course she's offended by Optimus' secular position. Optimus grew up on a planet where the legacy of the Primes was corruption and oppression and genocide/colonization of organics, so of course he's really jaded about the Primacy and thinks that it's nothing more than a corrupted mantle that he's trying to clean up by being as good of a leader/person as he can be.
It would've been nice for Optimus to have a genuinely spiritual person as his critic/advisor and eventual supporter/friend who could try to alleviate Optimus' cynicism about the Primacy and maybe teach him more about the history of the Primes and the spiritual importance of his job from her perspective. While simultaneously, Optimus could talk to her about the burden of leadership and how his position is tied so much in warfare and corrupt legacies, and Pyra Magna would come to see Optimus with more empathy as a person who's suffering under the burden of trying to be a good Prime and questioning whether it's even worth it. I really would've loved to see Pyra and Optimus having some sort of rivals-to-friends dynamic in that regard. Pyra could've been a little bit like Windblade, providing Optimus with advice on the culture and politics of Caminus (and other colonies) but with a firmer and more aggressive style that Windblade doesn't have (and Windblade would be busy doing politics, herself). Just UGH Pyra Magna was so fucking interesting the way she was first introduced in canon. Also she's so fucking sexyyyyyy why did Barber have to do her dirty by giving her basically 0 meaningful purpose in the story for all of exRID.
#squiggposting#idw op love#it's late and i'm tired so i rambled a bit and also may have overgeneralized or simplified#i've talked about this in depth with a friend in DMs so like. i think i used all my best words in those DMs lol sorry#but also like full disclaimer just bc i'm saying i didn't like canon and i would've done things differently#doesn't mean i think i could totally do as good a job or better at writing than everyone else at idw1#they're professional writers and i'm not. i have no idea what the actual job duties entailed or what restrictions they were under#i talk big shit bc i'm a fan and i have the luxury to sit back and criticize lol#that being said. some of the things that were written were just stupid and wastes of time
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genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim
#purrs#delete later#covid19#i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill /#immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in#any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy#for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the#throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more)#disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in#ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and#healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to#school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist#anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to#access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i#HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i#need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have#that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way#it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator.#* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear#for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in#part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I#think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.
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remodeling the beach house was the right thing to do. it's treating me right (creative serotonin)
#i want to show pics but i also want to do a v1 and v2 comparison#it's just. so much better#it's more intimate#but still has plenty of space#i'm using better design techniques. there are rounded corners on some of the rooms now#it looks more luxury sci-fi#they have an actual greenhouse right off the kitchen#i'm obviously still working off the principle of#'what would a spartan-designed house look like'#'guided by the hand of a real estate company that would love to be able to resell it without a major overhaul'#just goes to show that rough first drafts apply to everything#anyway. this is scratching the creative itch that's been bothering me lately#blue team beach house
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ive gotta read more Black thought books bc. my brain won't stop thinking about the cultural condition (detachment, alienation) of the african american.
#lauren.txt#i saw a tiktok a while ago with that fame audio (“fuck being underrated i wanna have everything they did”) where a black person#talked about how african americans don't have culture like other people do and my mind travels to that a lot. bc it's true.#even some white people can have claim to a specific language homeland traditions etc. where we don't have that luxury bc#of the effects of chattle slavery. we are so far removed from african culture that we can't lay claim to it#let alone a specific culture or country in africa. we don't have a right to. it's not Ours. and if that isn't ours then what is?#the largely white american culture devoid and unaccepting of black people to the point of government and institutional violence?#the western culture that steals from us time and time again without giving back? the african american culture that is still#detached from our african roots and sometimes even hateful fearful or even xenophobic towards said roots?#im not saying african americans don't have culture bc we definitely do but i am questioning our similarities to other cultures#since we are a disenfranchised and systemically traumatized colonized and enslaved people.#that don't have a lot of the things people of other cultures or nationalities (not even poc exclusively) possess.
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Spices From the West. character guide: TOMOYA.
LIKES, GIVE: 1.- it’s similar to their specialty. loves the soft texture, tomoya is a big fan of lightly sweet things as this. 2 and 3.- simple, fresh, and easy to cook. The flavour is just right, not exceeding nor lacking.
❝ Mm, a field of FLOWERS has bloomed in my tongue with a single bite. It feels like SPRING all over again !! ❞ ❝ MEOW ~ ❞ ❝ W - wait, Tama !! Don’t eat all of it in one go, leave some for me too ! ❞
NEUTRAL, GIVE: salad, fried / grilled food, steak, soup, etc.
❝ It’s evident you are good at this. We shouldn’t waste any of it. I know ! Let me take some of the leftovers for my travels. ❞
DISLIKES, GIVE: 1.- hates mint in general, mainly when it’s the main ingredient. 2 and 3.- their palate is not used to extremely flavoured dishes.
❝ There’s a STORM of FLAVOURS in my mouth that I can’t exactly describe. . . ❞ GULP. ❝ I really hope it doesn’t last for long . . . ❞
#the event is over but i still wanted to post it#︾╼╼ █ █ ║˚ ▹ HEADCANONS.▕🗲#they like them mild. sweet and fresh. that u do feel some flavour but not a full bomb#spices were a luxury at the time so tomo is not used to dishes that depend heavily on them#considering their position they have always prepared recipes that contain ingridients easy to get and find#and when it comes to the texture. they prefer the soft bread-like texture but doesn't mind a light crunch#︾╼╼ █ █ ║˚ ▹ MUSINGS.▕🗲#tomo: i like fresh and sweet things !! mint: -is a thing- tomo: EXCEPT YOU
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