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bookalicent · 2 months ago

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yeah so this was insane

#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov #and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm #everyone’s like wtf except for percy #and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid #and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like #‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all #which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt #and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt #and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it #so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way #that’s gotta mean a lot to percy #also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability #allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about #feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame #and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL #and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him #like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it #also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer #jason grace #percy jackson #pjo #ashla.txt

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bakapandy · 8 months ago

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#gaara #sabaku no gaara #naruto #naruto shippuden #pandy draws #been in a rut even though I've had some extra time to draw #but I just haven't had much desire or inspo to draw...#so to get back into it #I draw my comfort character

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loriache · 7 months ago

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Falin's Nightmare

#og post #my art #dungeon meshi #dunmeshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #falin x marcille #horror #so. you guys liked my last comic. hows........ this #Welcom To My Wild Ride #cw blood #cw nudity #my theory: being turned into a dragon would give a person Some Trauma #and also falin isnt like 100 percent comfortable with her own desires : )#theres a lot of my thoughts going into this but thats one part #dungeon meshi manga spoilers

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ohgreat-moretapes · 2 months ago

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Tim I noticed a lot of indigenous patches on your jacket, are you Native?

Idk what my dad was 'cause I never knew him, but yeah my mom is (or... Was.. I guess..) Muscogee, the tribe native to the part of Alabama I'm in.

If I remember correctly she came to Alabama from Oklahoma (where a lot of Natives were displaced to in the 1800s) to "get back to her roots."

But yknow, I was separated from her in childhood (which tbh is upsettingly common for Native families) and I was raised in a very white very Catholic asylum so I'm not as connected to the culture as I'd like to be.

-Tim

#OOC: Olea speaking #this is kind of a self-indulgent headcanon but HEAR ME OUT it adds a lot to Tim's character specifically #we're talking about a character who was separated from his mom in childhood and locked up in a psych ward #suffers from chronic physical and mental illness made significantly worse by the institution that was supposed to be helping him #forced to regulate his emotions more than other people have to so he isnt misinterpreted as a threat #struggles with addiction #had to work twice as hard as anyone else in his friend group just to be given the same opportunities #a much more common experience inside BIPOC communities #and he clearly has ties to the land (especially the park) nobody else has #you know how in season 2 Alex starts yapping to Jay about how the park is cursed?#maybe he was right #maybe that *thing* has been here for hundreds of years #and nobody was ever able to settle the land so eventually the Department of Conservation turned it into a state park #and Tim isnt some random “patient zero”#but he has ancestral ties to the land and was more receptive/at risk to Operator Sickness (but was also more resistant to it long term)#JUST SAYIN 👀#im half Katu and I desire my comfort character to be a halfie with me we need more non-white rep in mh #ask.txt #marble hornets #mh #tim wright #afterlife au #slenderverse #Native!Tim

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gideonisms · 8 months ago

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tamsyn muir really understood something about the queer experience when she said that if a baby lesbian heard about a girl who could end the world she would definitely try to go meet her and let her loose

#when YOU can't complain about how unbearable you find your place in the world #but if there was conveniently someone whose very presence inevitably ends it for you not as a fault of her own but as a natural reaction #and if that person was a hot girl...#and if she comforted you throughout your youth because like her you had the power to destroy some version of the world...#and you treated her as your object of desire because of what she represented...#then what 😳😳

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yourhighness6 · 8 months ago

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...I'm gonna need more therapy after the end of season 4

#never before have we seen adora look so broken #this is the second time catra has expressed a desire to end her own life in two seasons #glimmer has never been so scared or guilty #bow has never looked so desperate #scorpia trying with all her might to get to frosta and perfuma to offer them some semblance of comfort has left my heart broken #seahawk clinging to mermista unable to do anything about her pain shattered me into a million peices #light hope is gone #hordak has become a sympathetic character #I literally want to die #spop #she ra and the princesses of power #spop season 4 #crying screaming throwing up #scorfuma #seamista

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joelletwo · 1 year ago

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[ID: gintama fanart of kid gintoki and shouyou, zurako, and a takagin kiss described individually in alt]

drawing guys for @soppymilkgin @istherewifiinhell @deadgrantaires thankies thankies for the indulgences 🎉 going insane in the middle of the night learning how to draw on the fly

#art tag #gintama #sopping wet gintoki posting #SORRY THE. EATING AND DIGESTING THE UNCONSCIONABLE VIOLENCE made me understand dearly the desire to see takasugi freshly laundered and calm #its still gonna weird me out when i see him in show but kjsfg looking at shoass panels intending to draw some freak shit and instead got #derailed dreaming about it. one must imagine a world where he could be #gintoki's dead fish eyes escape me at the best of times and i dont know how to draw kids. lol.#and comfort zone zura of easy drawing easy coloring to take a fucking break from painting kjsfg i hate painting i hate lighting (eats it up #dont get my ass for saying postcanon takasugi im in denial.

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spacemanxpaninis · 6 months ago

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Not @ almost all my f/os being the characters in their respective media referred to and portrayed as unattractive/romantically unappealing 💀

Me: *sees character specifically referred to by other characters as Odd™ and/or Not Hot™*

#text post #f/o community #f/o stuff #self shipping #comfort imagine #it’s funny because of how wildly off that makes my taste 😂 but also kinda sad #because then I have to hear my f/o’s friends/acquaintances around them joke about their looks/lack of appeal and I just :(((#like being surprised someone likes them or making jokes about things like their height or features and I wish I could tell them #how wonderful they are!#some of the exact personality traits mocked on two of them feed well into a kink I’ve recently acknowledged so there’s also that lmaoooo #but I just want to show them so much love and make them feel desirable as someone who struggles with that even if #they can laugh off or ignore the jokes (one of them it really gets to though and it’s like no baby! I’ll fight them off for you!)#and show you how sweet I find you

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serpulalacrymans · 7 months ago

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//SO! Was thinking a little bit about my muse portrayal. I think I've grown too comfortable playing Lawrence... Submissively. I think I write him far too soft. He doesn't bare his teeth enough, and while I like playing him gentle, I have to admit I have been slacking quite a bit in giving him that sharp edge he has. I've never been very good at balancing soft but cynical, but this is something I will be trying to correct from this point onward.

#//It just gets a little bit too “THINK HARD NOW” for me sometimes #//Knowing he would try to appeal to his friends or try to play nice to keep the attention he so desires #//Yet would also go out of his way to secure his comfort zones and stand his ground- THIS is what I've been lacking on.#//I haven't been giving him that eagerness to remain comfortable. I haven't made him selfish enough.#//We can look forward to some muse molding. Thanks for understanding !!#ooc #screamo-mun #//I often forget he's.. YOU KNOW. Unforgiving in his actions.#//He's just as much a freak as Ren or dare I say Strade is #//I need to implement this in less “silly but creepy as fuck” ways and more “harmful and threatening” ways.#//IDK. WRITING IT OUT HELPS ME GRASP IT. ENJOY ME SCREAMING INTO THE VOID !!

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rhaenys-queenofkhyrulzz · 2 months ago

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wip Wednesday (it's Thursday morning here but it must still be Wed somewhere)

haven't fed y'all in a while so here's an excerpt from the upcoming Ch 6

#mctna #kisaeng!seonho au #nam seon ho #my country the new age #Tried to include some of meta analysis points in here #Oh sea where would I be without your colour analysis 🙏#Also I can't remember who said it but someone talked about Seon-ho’s desire for creature comforts being one of his lesser motivations #hopefully it makes sense

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wertpq · 5 days ago

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hmmm. weird thoughts about gender have been happening again. oaugh

#happy being a guy but there's still something missing #i want to be a guy but i am already a guy. but i do not feel complete #like something is stolen and i need to fill it with something new #and yet i do not like the guyness in a way that feels weird: i am happy with the concept of being a guy and yet i aren't???? i only like #some facets i like some facets i dont and i. don't know what i want #i don't want to be a woman: thought about that and while there are parts of femininity i desire i do not wish to be a woman #i don't think i want to be enby: i am happy enough with the guy label that i want to keep it in some fashion #maybe he/it? but the label doesn't settle with me i think #he/him or he/they feels comfortable enough. but ah well. testing can be done at a later date i suppose #but aouuuughhhhhh. whyyyyyyyyyy #definitely some flavour of demiboy i suppose. but >:[ it is too bloody late in the evening for me to go through Fifth Crisis of What Am I

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deepfriedpaddymayne · 1 year ago

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I know I roast Augustin for this moment all the time but also the more I look at it the more I want to bang my head against the wall because like. my immediate reaction to this is "my man how touch starved do you have to be to enjoy yourself in this situation" but we KNOW he's not touch starved. we see him be very physically comfortable with his friends. which brings me to my other question which is HOW REPRESSED do you have to be to enjoy yourself in this situation

#sas rogue heroes #augustin jordan #paddy x augustin #ok so here's the thing #i don't think augustin sees himself as repressed #i think he IS comfortable with his sexuality and that he knows what he wants #however i also think he keeps a pretty tight grip on all of it #so like. of course physical desire is fine he's a grown man but only when he can rationalise it and control it.#i genuinely think that's why he lies about having a wife after i think he just gets kind of overwhelmed with huh. you know. in this scene #and just blurts out the first thing that comes to mind #also because the moment immediately after that gif you can see him setting his jaw like he's annoyed #and I SWEAR at least some of that annoyance is at himself #anyway i think paddy should keep making him insane. never forget what they took from us #whoops ramble in the tag alert #i am sorry i have thoughts and crunchy is away and i am giving myself a short writing break so i need to get them out SOMEWHERE #oscar rambles

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artanogon · 2 months ago

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thinking more about being trans

#because i want the voice drop of testosterone because training my voice has not been enough for me. i want some of the body shifts with it #and i want top surgery at some point #half because aesthetics + dysphoria and half bc they're just inconvenient #but i dont want to be a “man”#i dont want the capacity to grow a beard or a bunch of hair and have to shave all the time to keep up my looks the way i want #i dont want to “pass” the way some people do #i dont want bottom surgery for sure and i don't have any desire to have a dick or anything. ideally i would be like a doll with no features #i certainly have no plans to stop dressing feminine #i like being my androgynous twink self #and theres certainly a lot of aspects of femininity i do enjoy #jewelry makeup skirts certain aestheitcs long hair etc #i just want to be able to wear those things in a way that i am no longer a woman but a feminine man instead #i want to be one of those weird 80s twinks who would steal your boyfriend while wearing your dress and looking better in it #or like half the men you see in regency shows with the long hair/fine features/gentle manner etc #idk. i dont want to be a man. i genuinely feel like im putting on the wrong skin saying im a transman #genderqueer/agender is the closest i think ill ever find #but god i just wish id been born a man and then had the freedom to explore looking like a girl #little fucked up freak femboy stuck in some body that doesn't feel like its mine #maybe going on t will help me feel comfortable with growing out my hair again tho #idk. spitballing #it doesnt even matter that much rn. i have to delay my t appointment because of other medical shit #but man are there a lot of thoughts up here that will never in any way make sense to most people or be accepted by greater society

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stainedglass-sketchbook · 9 months ago

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This is so funny to me bc this is about my tav who is very much not the dark urge! just a bit of a freak

#tav yeric #astarion #bg3 #started rambling about yeric in the tags couldn’t stop lol #yeric is pretty well adjusted for a guy who’s been living in the woods alone for a decade #he is generally really reserved and quiet #but off putting stuff just spills from his mouth sometimes #and when he does open up he says things without thinking them through (and that��s on his 8 INT)#also the thing about cannibalism is that yeric got trapped in the mountains with a bunch of travelers when he was 23 #and they ended up having to cannibalize some people and eat their dead #Yeric’s partner died and he ate her #this launched the previously mentioned decade long woods isolation #and so yeric has issues around food and hunger #and a deep deep fear of people around him starving to death #so I’m some ways like getting fed on by astarion is genuinely a comfort to him #doesn’t need to worry about astarion being hungry!#he has direct proof that astarion is physically well!#all he has to do is take care of himself and cast lesser restoration and someone else can be sustained just on that! how wonderful!#yeric is also a big acts of service guy so that desire also gets fulfilled by the blood sucking agreement #at the same time #yeric also processed the cannibalism thing in a weird way where his survivors guilt manifested as a desire to be eaten #so while he genuinely does get a lot out of the agreement with astarion it is also triggering to him and does not help at all with #his self worth issues #astarion and yeric have a long talk about this post game - I think their relationship would need a break from the feeding for a while #yeric needs space to be see himself being loved outside of his utility to other people #and also to know that astarion is going to be okay if yeric takes a break from being his personal juicebox for 5 minutes

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phagodyke · 22 days ago

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the masculine urge to take a saucepan off thr draining board and bash myself repeatedly over the head with it until I pass out and no longer have to experience feeling Bad 😍

#struggling to tolerate this one ngl its fucking dire this weekend. i just cant do this man #thr things i would fucking do for attention please. just one person to notice and care in the slighest i feel like im losing my fucking #mind out here how does every single person who has ever mattered to me in my lifr see me in distress and choose to ignore it or maybe they #dont even recognise im ij distress in the first place i dont know whats worse i dont think i hide it well at all im just so done #listen like ultimately its fucking fine. i will get myself through it like ive gotten myself through everything else in my fuckijg life #i dont even feel bad that often these days im doing so so so much better and its so much more tolerable to only have to deal with this #once or twice a week instead of it being a struggle every single day like i dont think i could go back to feeling like that again ever i #dont know how i managed to get througyh it before jesus fucking christ. but i can deal with it i can deal with this #ik ill feel fine tomorrow. its just thr fact im so desperately fucking alone with it that makes it so much worse than it has to be #i fucking hate repression i hate being so incapable of expressing myself that its easier for me to injure myself than it is to talk about #how i feel to anyone i hate being trapped in this stupif fucking torture labyrinth and not knowing how to get out of it and never being #given a single avenue anything to hold onto i hate having to do it alone every single fucking time and when i do try i just freeze out #entirely i cant form a coherent thought my brain enters total fucking shutdown pure static white noise fuzz and i dont know why please #its so unfair i dont think its that much to want a little comfort. just once just for someone to stay with me while i cry it doesnt have #to be more than that i just dont want to be alone like this i just want to feel safe around someone just close to someone just once #and well ill survive without it bc i always have i guess. so far at least. and there are many things im grateful for and i do in general #feel pretty okay my life is pretty good at times even. i feel so pathetic and stupid and ashamed for even feeling like this #but do i have to go my entire life without ever experiencing any kind of real intimacy with another person emotionally that is #i mean physical is nice too and they go hand in hand in some ways but i just want to feel seen and safe over anything.im tired #i feel like i try.but not hard enough i know its all my fault really but i dont know how to try any harder but nothing will ever change if #i dont i cant expect anyone to do anything if i cant rven communicate in thr first place. oh i dont want to think about it anymore #i have a headache from crhing and its not even 8pm ugh. okay. well it is what it is.#ill breathe until i calm down and then tidy up whatever i left in the kitchen and get my work stuff ready for tmr #and polish my boots maybe. and read and go to bed at 9:30 i think. and ill feel fine in the morning #my fault for thinking about it earlier i know i shouldve nipped it earlier on its such an easy spiral to fall into i need to get better #it happens. okay anyway. no cause for concern im good guys. weakly thumbs up at the camera all covered in blood #my period is late actually thats probably all this is lmao. makes sense thinking abt it #cant wait for it to finally start and all earthly desire to leave my body so i never experience pain again amen #.vent #ignore this sorry for being mentally ill im not even that mentally ill anymore so no excuse rly ummmm. bit embarrassing innit.

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a-box-full-of-eneco · 1 year ago

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I just wanted to say thank you for your doodles because even though they are just cute skitty art, they make me really happy. Especially on days where I am hurting a lot, mentally or physically.

Today was a bad physical pain day so coming here to look at art made me super happy.

Happy to have you here, welcome to the nest

#Thankyou for your message im glad to learn the Skittys can bring some joy and comfort #skitty #eneco #pkmn skitty #skitty art #asks #i desire to add some type of emoji or similar to give clearer indication of vibe but head empty #forgive hh

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