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by thĂŠ way. wips roundup that absolutely no one asked for
first of all in the daudmartin brainrot corner we've got
sequel to bctbk, as promised. i have a major "plot" point planned, and then it might go one of two directions... we shall see :3c
the high overseer martin/assassin daud fic that i've posted a few excerpts from. essentially daud manifests himself into the abbey suggestively asking for ~spiritual guidance~ (lol) and things escalate from there. this has to get finished at some point because its like one of the first things i started writing for them. it deserve to see the light of day
a mildly humorous high overseer martin/spymaster daud fic. kind of a challenge for myself also- i find spymaster daud hard to imagine, and am not that used to writing daudmartin where they're not constantly trying to one-up/double cross each other/at each other's throats flirtatiously. presumably will not be nsfw (or at least, i'm not planning on it, but i make no promises. can't know where the ol inspiration will take me).
oh heres another high overseer martin thing! who wouldve thought! this time with Responsibility and Abbey Politics and Decisions. and working through issues. so many fucking issues. this one is actually actively in the works so ill leave it at that for now ;>
daudmartin pwp with genuinely 0 plot. like, negative plot. this thing defies plot. i can barely even tell you if it's an au or what, i might sprinkle a few nonsexual sentences in if i'm feeling generous but that's it. other than that it's literally just about martin being very quiet during sex and daud trying every trick he has in his book (which admittedly isn't many) to change that instead of like, communicating
augh speaking of plot-defying pwps. "what if overseers had (some appropriate equivalent to) confessions". there is some lore in here obviously but the entire point of it is confessional dirty talk. i dont KNOW
[REDACTED] pwp which im not even gonna advertise itll just appear one day and if you find it you found it
mostly unplanned ideas that i might flesh out: sokolov portrait thing. some dunwall noir stuff purely for martin in a cassock reasons (and sexualising religious guilt reasons. if i knew anything at all about priests i'd be working on this much faster). something involving the outsider appearing to martin (this might just get absorbed in a more well fleshed out idea at some point). martin Suffering More, because i want him in a situation where his wit fails completely (more desperation! more excuses! i am weak for this i really am.). something involving some more Action- fighting together against an acute threat? i think there should be more fighty martin out there. i am the change i want to see in the world
(not including the various snippets for the eternal serkonan vacation au which i already laid out there)
in the thief crossover brainrot corner (i bet you forgot i allude to thief crossovers in my description!)
also a sokolov portrait thing, but i have it way more planned out. corvo really, really wants garrett to sit in for a portrait (especially now when he's officially the empire's shadiest most mysterious spymaster ever). he reluctantly agrees, but Under One Condition.
a sort of relationship chronicle via heart lines. definitely starts with corvo's diplomatic mission and possibly ends with some happy dh2 era content. obviously i have the heart lines planned out.
possibly something involving more political intrigue/royal drama type stuff? i'm lucky enough to have access to someone who can give me some really good examples/plots if i fail to come up with anything myself.
(this is just a thief thing but i have had a viktoria/lt. mosley thing running around my brain for AGES. i want to explore how their relationship develops so bad. i know they have literally one interaction in canon but they are my blorbinas and i have mentally expanded their backstories so hard the story is basically begging to be written at this point)
anyway if you read this unreasonably unnecessarily long post i love you. i am sending you a kiss. wanna get married
#long post. be warned#did you know that you can press the j key to skip a post? do that if you open it and realise that Im Not Reading All That#anyway I HAVE DISEASES OF THE BRAIN AND HERE THEY ARE.#j#this better not show up in any tags#these are all at various degrees of completion#some of them are like 2 actual written sentences and the rest lives inside my head#some are This close to being published#i am keeping you on your toes.#ive had this thing in my drafts for weeks really for myself more than anything else#but i thought it might be fun to post it.
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Holly struggled against the ropes on her wrists. She was right there, why wasnât her dad telling her mom where she was. The bonds around her wrists chafed against her skin, rubbing it raw. She stopped struggling when her father walked back into the room.
The woman started straining against her ropes. What was she looking at? Holly strained her neck trying to see what it was that was scaring the lady. Her father had grabbed a sharp-looking kitchen knife and was cleaning the edge. Was he going to cut them free? But then why had he tied them up in the first place? Holly couldnât piece together what was happening. Everything was so confusing.
Her father kept walking toward them, his gaze set on the woman, who continued to struggle against her bindings. She was whimpering underneath the duct tape, her eyes darting between Holly and the knife.Â
There was an odd energy coming from her dad, something Holly hadnât noticed until that moment, it was almost like his sanity had shattered. Like, to him, reality was coming unraveled. He stopped in front of the woman, his right hand fisted around the knife at his side.
âClose your eyes, dolphin. You donât want to see this.â
See what? What didnât he want her to see? Holly strained to see around her father at the woman and caught one last glimpse of her face as her father plunged the knife into her chest.Â
Holly screamed under the duct tape. There was another scream on top of her own, she looked toward the door. Dustin was standing in the doorway, his tiny hand on the doorknob. Tears were streaming down his face as he turned and ran.
Blood rushed in her ears as she tried to yell for Dustin to run, but she just sat there, frozen, as her dad pulled the knife out of the ladyâs chest and started after Dustin.
Holly started straining against the ropes again as soon as he was out of view. She didn't care that she was starting to bleed, she had to get to Dustin. Her right hand slipped free from the rope. As she worked she kept her gaze away from the body across from her. She couldnât think about that right now, but despite her best effort, she found her eyes sliding over to the woman in the chair. She wasnât moving, Holly let out a sob and pulled harder against her remaining restraint. Dustin needed her. She struggled to get the ropes untied from her ankles, but eventually, she got all the ropes off. Ripping the duct tape from her mouth, Holly fell to her hands and knees on the floor. Blood had pooled on the ground, covering her palms in the sticky substance before she stood and ran out the door, ignoring the soreness from her wrists and ankles.
Distantly she could hear her dad calling to Dustin. Heâd gone upstairs, he was distracted. Holly had to act quickly. The best way to save Dustin was toâto⌠what should she do? She had no idea what to do. She looked around the empty hallway. To her left was more hallway, but to her right was⌠her momâs office. A phone! Sheâd call the police, they would save Dustin.
Holly ran into the office and started looking for the phone. Climbing onto the chair she searched the desktop. There! To her left was a phone. She reached for it just as she heard Dustin scream. She hesitated, what if her dad heard her. It was worth the risk. She dialed nine-one-one and listened to it ring.
âNine-one-one, whatâs your emergency?â The operator lady sounded like a nice person. She would send help.
âItâs my daddy, heâhe stabbed a lady,â Holly started sobbing mid-sentence, âshe was so scared of him, please help me! Heâs going to hurt my brother. Heâs going to kill him too!â
âSweetie, I need you to calm down, okay? I need you to tell me where you are, can you do that for me?â
âYeah, yeah,â Holly sniffed. She had to stay calm, for Dustin. âMyâmy address isâitâs seven t-two seven south, f-Farris street.â
âIâve dispatched some soldiers, theyâll be there as soon as they can.âÂ
âPlease hurry! I can hear him screaming.â
Holly hung up the phone, ignoring the dispatch ladyâs pleas not to hang up, and climbed off the chair, running toward the screams. They were coming from downstairs now. She hurried down the stairs, almost falling a couple of times. Her ankles were burning but she had to keep moving even as her shoes fell off as she ran. She made it to their mini-gym where the sounds seemed to originate from.
Dustin and her father were inside. They were on opposite sides of the room. Her dad still had the bloodied knife in his hand. The ladyâs blood was dripping from it onto the floor. Holly skidded to a halt. Dustin was on the far side of the gym panting, tears and snot running down his chubby cheeks. She froze there, breathing heavily. Without hesitating, she shouted at her father. âCome and get me, you maniac!â
She turned and sprinted from the room. Please work, please work. Heavy footsteps sounded behind her. It worked! She was nearing the stairs when she tripped over her discarded shoes. No! No no no no no! Pulling herself to her feet as fast as she could, she bolted up the stairs, swinging around the banister and headed straight for the front door.
If she could just get out into the open, sheâd have a better chance outside. The doorknob was slippery under her blood slick hand as she opened the door and almost ran face-first into a man standing there, one hand raised to knock on the door, a gun pointed at the floor in the other. Her father landed on the floor behind her. She spun around to face him. What a sight he was. His brown hair was a mess. His eyes had the look of a crazed madman. But perhaps the most disturbing sight of all was the kitchen knife in his hand, still dripping blood on the floor.
#as promised#some oc stuff#from my current wip of almost seven years#origin story moment for my mc#oc#my ocs#my oc stuff#Shadows of the Past#Holly Leafer#Harry Leafer#Dustin Leafer#I can't believe I'm editing the second draft of this#It's so close#to being on track for publishing#I'm so scared actually#I hope yall like it#Squishy's fics
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I have experienced my first interdepartmental nonsense at work. I think that Officially makes me a member of this office now
#been working closely the past few weeks with another department on developing a new Thing#we just had the final meeting about it yesterday and i stayed late to get all the changes implemented and publish it#woohoo! my project is out there and being used by the first wave of users! I Am Getting A Good Grade In Office for sure#...other department reached out to me today seemingly not understanding how the thing that i had designed to their specificationsâ#and which they had had multiple meetings with both me and my coworker who was helping me aboutâworked#and asking me to make changes to it that frankly do not make sense#had to ask as politely as possible 'hey. What Is The Point?'#theyre gonna get back to me on that#they also didnt take into account how the seemingly arbitrary changes theyve asked for would interact with some other factors#met with my other coworker to make sure i wasnt insane and he brought up that also like#people are already Using The Thing#he has historically been in charge of the thing and as a rule we dont Change The Thing this frequently#bc people are already Using It. if we change it then everyone who already started using it will have to go back and completely Redo It#historically we have waited at least one full week to change the thing (not <24 hours) for this very reason#and if we do that then the data from our first week wont match up with the data from the second week#and once again it is unclear what this change would even accomplish#we are perplexed. i have requested a meeting with me + coworker + boss + other department to ask 'hey... what??'#me and coworker are the Numbers Guys so. hopefully they will listen to us about the Numbers#rambling
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Hiatus
I am going on hiatus for a bit more. I really really hoped the stuff that have been going on lately were already "sorted out" but, uhm... they aren't. I need to take a bit more time offline once again, and try to work things out.
Thank you for your patience â¤
Wren
#EDIT: I've deactivated my IG for a bit because it wasn't helping at all. I'll be back there but I need time#wren text tag#somehow issues from mid July/early August have managed to get worse. Like I'm not even surprised bc I'm used to it but GIRL . What the fuck#âit's finally summerâ+âcan't wait to draw!â * gets 3 hiatus in a row * maybe drawing or summer isn't really meant to be đ¤¨đ¤#I hate having to log-in to post a hiatus message and then dissapear again when I'm supposed to post my doodles n have fun#Feels like one of those jesters that appears at luncheon to entertain the royal court and then they go missing for the rest of the month#bc I'm trying very hard not to hide in my shell + having a bit more presence here to post my artwork#and somehow I fail at both like fucking heck. How can you be so bad at this.#but in short I won't be here to answer stuff and being silly or whatever people expect me to do#because if you're here for the silly stuff. MAN. I'm am sorry but I don't feel silly at all.#Somebody once said âthe horrors are never ending yet I remain sillyâ but I forgot the âremain sillyâ part#And if you're here for drawings. I don't even have time and I don't feel like drawing at all. Idk which one is worse#The bakery hangs up the âclosed todayâ so people know they have to go to buy bread somewhere else. Same here. But it won't last a day#idk why the bread analogy. Guess I'm a birb after all#this is also the closest thing to a vent post I will ever write and I managed to say nothing at all. Vagueposting about vent. Good job Wren#tw: vent#tagging in case somebody like me needs to have some tags filtered#the hiatus will go on also a bit longer because the last few weeks my mental health suffered a lot and I know my limit#also this post was queued. If I see I can still be active before publishing I will delete it otherwise see for yourself#also queue doesn't work ig like I programmed this for 9 pm hopefully it will be up by then and not any other random time
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OH MY GOD is that a background ???
#tommyinnit fanart#raccooninnit#this is about a sbi fanfic that i'm âââwritingâââ#i say with a lot of quotation marks cause i'm writing some words once every blue moon#it's already been two years since i started it lmaoo and i only have a chapter and a half#anyway so this is tiny little baby tommy being guided by forest spirits to the nice winged man's house on the other side of the forest#and wilbur is the one who will find tommy hiding under the house and phil will adopt him and it's cute#also wilbur has baby feathers still that's adorable#can't say anything about techno that would be spoilers if i ever finish and publish the fanfic lmaoo but he's really cute too#also tommy really wants to eat the weird floating shiny things but they always disappear when he gets too close to them#this is only backstory btw the fanfic starts three years after that
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Sometimes all of my ocs decide they wanna do laps in my head all at the same time so I just end up sitting there like "I want to draw tyrian and Daeran, and Aviae and Morrigan, and Lucio and Anders, and Selene and Sera, and my other Hawkes and my other warden and-" and then none of it happens
#I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT DRAWING DAERAN AND TYRIAN. FOR WEEKS NOW#i still havent played the dlc <//3#dragon age obsession hit and also im back into sdv so#i am in a yapping mood tonight (does not want to go to bed)#maybe ill reread some of my tyrian and daeran fics hm#i need to post more than just the one#but most of them are not even CLOSE to being publish worthy#im so nit picky about my fanfic#for fanart im just like 'here take it or leave it.' meanwhile for fanfics i get so nervous posting that i just geniuenly wont look at ao3#for days on end#i think i have another Daeran and tyrian fic close enough to done that i couls wrap it up#but i feel like dae is slight ooc#ugh#i should go to bed#i wanna draw my first kc too#she romanced arue i love her#i just have like. no stuff for her sadly
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i've finally finished compiling all my scraps of writing for beach house and between the two documents that aren't my outline, i have a little over 10k words. they're not polished, they're barely in order, and there are gaps the size of the grand canyon but the words are THERE
#a few scenes are pretty close to being publishable-quality#but most of it is just wholecloth cut and pasted from my notes app#i have been writing a decent amount out longhand in a notebook tho too#i'm kinda just writing whatever scene inspires me#and fitting it into the pre rough draft where it's supposed to go#but i should probably start trying to fill in some easier gaps#blue team beach house#btbh fic
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finally clearing my works off google docs and onto my ancient version of word and i keep going "oh wow i forgot i wrote that"
#there were so many mechs things that are so close to being finished but aren't#like raphaella being mechanised#so much carmilla stuff#the rest of the love me not with words series (ts's fic. ivy's. nastya's part 2. one for brian.#one for ashes i'm certain i had a plot for that has long since been forgotten#wow i was struggling then hjgdfjhgfd#2020 was a bad year folks#but also a whole load of original works too that i do want to come back to#songbird was one that i'd like to touch on again#and i had a thing about vampires that went hard. i was in a phase of writing super stylised stream of consciousness that was very fun#some of these might be published as the wips they got left as#especially the mechs stuff because people were excited about those fics#who knows. we'll see. i might get taken over by a spirit of that special interest and return to it
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I say misleading stuff all the time with no real recourse because sometimes the truth is simply not Revealable. For example, every time someone tries to talk to me about trad published current romance novels I have to be like, ah sorry I donât really read those. And the reason is not because Iâm a sophisticate who wouldnât deign to read genre but because if you hand me a romance novel Iâm going to eventually hit a sex scene and be like. Wish I were reading my illicit pdf of the fallout instead.
Over my dead body will I be telling this to people. So solidifies an incomplete reputation as a prim book snob (which I absolutely am, Iâm just also a feral moron).
disclaimer: I donât think fic and books are at all comparable. just because something falls under the header category of âreadingâ doesnât mean it should be held to some universal standard. I have separate standards for all my consumed media. what Iâm saying here (beyond the joke) is that my reading preferences are very distinct between categories.
#the sex in the falloutâI cannot emphasize this enoughâmakes me want to kill myself#the sex in published romance is like. oh ok. thatâs nice i suppose#Iâm like other girls but worse mostly#you might be wondering why I would admit this here and itâs simply because thereâs actually a layer beneath this thatâs even worse lmao#so itâs not like Iâm spilling my darkest secrets#just being mindful of my audiences!#this is what Adrienne Rich meant when she talked about refining the truths you tell someone. right?#also if I mayâsex scenes need to push the emotional narrative in ways I think is difficult for writers to effectuate#and I think some part of the publishing process necessarily curbs what can be accomplished#because you have to prioritize what makes something sellable#in a way Iâm actually a huge romance snob because Iâm so particular about what I like about romantic dynamics#but I can see how someone could assume Iâm trivializing the whole genre by not reading in it#hm#thinking more about it and itâs probably because romance is so close to my heart that I hold it to a more exacting standard
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average United States contains 1000s of pet tigers in backyards" factoid actualy [sic] just statistical error. average person has 0 tigers on property. Activist Georg, who lives the U.S. Capitol & makes up over 10,000 each day, has purposefully been spreading disinformation adn [sic] should not have been counted
I have a big mad today, folks. It's a really frustrating one, because years worth of work has been validated... but the reason for that fucking sucks.
For almost a decade, I've been trying to fact-check the claim that there "are 10,000 to 20,000 pet tigers/big cats in backyards in the United States." I talked to zoo, sanctuary, and private cat people; I looked at legislation, regulation, attack/death/escape incident rates; I read everything I could get my hands on. None of it made sense. None of it lined up. I couldn't find data supporting anything like the population of pet cats being alleged to exist. Some of you might remember the series I published on those findings from 2018 or so under the hashtag #CrouchingTigerHiddenData. I've continued to work on it in the six years since, including publishing a peer reviewed study that counted all the non-pet big cats in the US (because even though they're regulated, apparently nobody bothered to keep track of those either).
I spent years of my life obsessing over that statistic because it was being used to push for new federal legislation that, while well intentioned, contained language that would, and has, created real problems for ethical facilities that have big cats. I wrote a comprehensive - 35 page! - analysis of the issues with the then-current version of the Big Cat Public Safety Act in 2020. When the bill was first introduced to Congress in 2013, a lot of groups promoted it by fear mongering: there's so many pet tigers! they could be hidden around every corner! they could escape and attack you! they could come out of nowhere and eat your children!! Tiger King exposed the masses to the idea of "thousands of abused backyard big cats": as a result the messaging around the bill shifted to being welfare-focused, and the law passed in 2022.
The Big Cat Public Safety Act created a registry, and anyone who owned a private cat and wanted to keep it had to join. If they did, they could keep the animal until it passed, as long as they followed certain strictures (no getting more, no public contact, etc). Donât register and get caught? Cat is seized and major punishment for you. Registering is therefore highly incentivized. That registry closed in June of 2023, and you can now get that registration data via a Freedom of Information Act request.
Guess how many pet big cats were registered in the whole country?
97.
Not tens of thousands. Not thousands. Not even triple digits. 97.
And that isn't even the right number! Ten USDA licensed facilities registered erroneously. That accounts for 55 of 97 animals. Which leaves us with 42 pet big cats, of all species, in the entire country.
Now, I know that not everyone may have registered. There's probably someone living deep in the woods somewhere with their illegal pet cougar, and there's been at least one random person in Texas arrested for trying to sell a cub since the law passed. But - and here's the big thing - even if there are ten times as many hidden cats than people who registered them - that's nowhere near ten thousand animals. Obviously, I had some questions.
Guess what? Turns out, this is because it was never real. That huge number never had data behind it, wasn't likely to be accurate, and the advocacy groups using that statistic to fearmonger and drive their agenda knew it... and didn't see a problem with that.
Allow me to introduce you to an article published last week.
This article is good. (Full disclose, I'm quoted in it). It's comprehensive and fairly written, and they did their due diligence reporting and fact-checking the piece. They talked to a lot of people on all sides of the story.
But thing that really gets me?
Multiple representatives from major advocacy organizations who worked on the Big Cat Publix Safety Act told the reporter that they knew the statistics they were quoting weren't real. And that they don't care. The end justifies the means, the good guys won over the bad guys, that's just how lobbying works after all. They're so blase about it, it makes my stomach hurt. Let me pull some excerpts from the quotes.
"Whatever the true number, nearly everyone in the debate acknowledges a disparity between the actual census and the figures cited by lawmakers. âThe 20,000 number is not real,â said Bill Nimmo, founder of Tigers in America. (...) For his part, Nimmo at Tigers in America sees the exaggerated figure as part of the political process. Prior to the passage of the bill, he said, businesses that exhibited and bred big cats juiced the numbers, too. (...) âIâm not justifying the hyperbolic 20,000,â Nimmo said. âIn the world of comparing hyperbole, the good guys won this one.â
"Michelle Sinnott, director and counsel for captive animal law enforcement at the PETA Foundation, emphasized that the law accomplished what it was set out to do. (...) Specific numbers are not what really matter, she said: âWhether thereâs one big cat in a private home or whether thereâs 10,000 big cats in a private home, the underlying problem of industry is still there.â"
I have no problem with a law ending the private ownership of big cats, and with ending cub petting practices. What I do have a problem with is that these organizations purposefully spread disinformation for years in order to push for it. By their own admission, they repeatedly and intentionally promoted false statistics within Congress. For a decade.
No wonder it never made sense. No wonder no matter where I looked, I couldn't figure out how any of these groups got those numbers, why there was never any data to back any of the claims up, why everything I learned seemed to actively contradict it. It was never real. These people decided the truth didn't matter. They knew they had no proof, couldn't verify their shocking numbers... and they decided that was fine, if it achieved the end they wanted.
So members of the public - probably like you, reading this - and legislators who care about big cats and want to see legislation exist to protect them? They got played, got fed false information through a TV show designed to tug at heartstrings, and it got a law through Congress that's causing real problems for ethical captive big cat management. The 20,000 pet cat number was too sexy - too much of a crisis - for anyone to want to look past it and check that the language of the law wouldn't mess things up up for good zoos and sanctuaries. Whoops! At least the "bad guys" lost, right? (The problems are covered somewhat in the article linked, and I'll go into more details in a future post. You can also read my analysis from 2020, linked up top.)
Now, I know. Something something something facts don't matter this much in our post-truth era, stop caring so much, that's just how politics work, etc. Iâm sorry, but no. Absolutely not.
Laws that will impact the welfare of living animals must be crafted carefully, thoughtfully, and precisely in order to ensure they achieve their goals without accidental negative impacts. We have a duty of care to ensure that. And in this case, the law also impacts reservoir populations for critically endangered species! We can't get those back if we mess them up. So maybe, just maybe, if legislators hadn't been so focused on all those alleged pet cats, the bill could have been written narrowly and precisely.
But the minutiae of regulatory impacts aren't sexy, and tiger abuse and TV shows about terrible people are. We all got misled, and now we're here, and the animals in good facilities are already paying for it.
I don't have a conclusion. I'm just mad. The public deserves to know the truth about animal legislation they're voting for, and I hope we all call on our legislators in the future to be far more critical of the data they get fed.
#big cats#tiger king#my research#news#big cat public safety act#animal welfare#big cat welfare#legislation and regulation#vent post#long post#crouchingtigerhiddendata#more on the problems with the bill in the future
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the desire to quit comics and give up on creating art forever before i've even started my career vs the travis moore answer to my ask in his inbox when he still had a tumblr when i was in high school telling me it was both the most difficult and fulfilling work he ever took on and i should pursue it if i want to and the guy who bought the first ever mini comic i sold this year at my first ever con i tabled asking me to sign it. sniffle sob
#art school really does put you through the wringer man. it really does. i have never felt worse about what i make or struggled to make work#so much in the entire time i've ever had art as a hobby or in class form. this has been the worst year yet. but i still cant let it go#i still at the end of the day want my life to be involved in comics in some way. i've accepted i dont know if i'll make it even close to#anything anywhere within the realm of it professionally. but i dont wanna let go of making them in my life#i still wanna try. i wanna quit and give up so fucking bad every other day. but i still fantasize about being published and having my work#out there for others to see. so i cant let it go no matter how bad i wanna. because i know i'll come back to it#so i just have to keep going. so i can retain them in my life forever. because i love comics. i love making them.#as much as i hate it and it makes me wanna scream and cry and how nothing has ever made me feel worse about myself and what i make.#making comics is everything to me. it is my life and it is my joy when i can remember there is some worth in what i make.#static.soundz
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Iâd really love to see more of your fics ! đ
you must be on some wavelength with me, because I was working on one fic early this morning before i had to get up. here, have a snippet:
#i know i keep saying how close to being done some of my WIPs are - and they are! a lot of them just need loose ends tied up#but with how busy i've been the past 6+ months i usually just watch a movie or game in my free time#and when i do sit down to write in a notebook or on my laptop i immediately get exhausted and go to sleep instead#my new insomnia medicine: attempt to write and suddenly i can't keep my eyes open any more lmao#i am ATTEMPTING to publish at least one soon. but i have an art commission that is due in about a month that takes top priority
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basketballer!Gojo who knew you from college. You often showed up to his games with your friend (who liked Suguru) and just, in the most uncreepy way possible , stare at him.
basketballer!Gojo who stayed in contact with you even when he went pro. The blinding lights of fame didnât blur his deep attraction and fondness of you. Even on his least busiest day, which was still pretty busy, he made time for you.
âMorning, my loveâŚyour smile lightens the world and my heart, love G.Sâ
You smile at the note that was amongst the several bouquets of red roses, your fave.
basketballer!Gojo who made sure he returned to you every night. Unlike his teammates, he wasnât the type to go clubbing or anything similar. He was just a guy, obsessed with playing basketball and his girlfriend.
âFuckinâ love you, Y/NâŚâ He breathes into your ear. After a very deserved win, he made sure to let you know how much he appreciated your support. A string of whimpers left your mouth as his dick slid in and out of you. âAlways so good for me, baby..â
basketballer!Gojo who, for some reason, gets a little jealous when you steal some of his spotlight. Maybe it was just an ego thing. He was fine at first when it came to you being called âWAG of the seasonâ after sporting some cute outfits. But then when magazines and publishers hit you up, something shifted.
It was no longer Satoru Gojo and his girlfriend. But now Y/N L/N andâŚwhatâs-his-face..?
basketballer!Gojo who you no longer recognised after a heated argument.
âYou know, this is so predictable. I supported you since we were in college and the one time something good goes for me, you bitch and complain!â, you yell him, your index finger was firm against his chest. âIt pisses me off, Gojo. Iâm done.â
He scoffs, âI just think itâs too much. The red carpets and shit, I donât get it.â
âYou donât get it because youâre used to me being just your stay at home girlfriend. Things change!â You release your own scoff to his response.
âMaybe I liked it that way because you had time for me-â
âBut you never had time for me!â
basketballer!Gojo who has no comment to reporters when asked about the âbreak up rumours âwith long term girlfriend, Y/N. But behind the scenes, heâs yearning for your forgiveness. Heâs constantly at Suguru and your best friendâs house, hoping heâll bump into you but you were never there.
it wasnât until the seasonâs final where Satoruâs team were up against the undefeated (3 years in a row) champions. He was definitely shitting himself. As team captain, he was physically present, but not mentally.
But when he walked out and saw you in the crowd wearing his jersey, he suddenly felt calm. Were you attracting all the cameras? Yes. Were you dragging attention away from the game? At times, yes. But did he mind? No. For you were there for him. Even when you hated his guts.
basketballer!Gojo who fucks you like itâs his last night with you after his team won the finals. You canât even remember how many times youâve came but Satoru wasnât gonna let you go.
âToru-hnnnggghhh..! Itâs too much!â You cry out real tears as he fucks up into you. He bites your shoulder, he wanted to be so close to you after so many separated nights.
âIâve missed this body, Iâve missed you so much, baby. You have no clueâŚâ He growls.
basketballer!Gojo who has the biggest grin on his face when paparazzi swarm him, asking about his engagement with Y/N. Truth be told, he hasnât stopped smiling since he popped the question.
âSatoru, whatâs next for you and Y/N?â A reporter asked.
âBabies. Lotâs of âem.â He smugly replies.
Youâll defo punish him for that comment.
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I'm getting depressingly good at identifying the formula for Pop Academic Books About ADHD.
Regardless of their philosophy it pretty much goes like this:
1. Emotionally sensitive essay about the struggle of ADHD and the author's personal experience with it as both a person with ADHD and a healthcare professional.
2. Either during or directly following this, a lightly explicated catalogue of symptoms, illustrated by anecdotes from patient case studies. Optional: frequent, heavy use of metaphor to explain ADHD-driven behavior.
3. Several chapters follow, each dedicated to a symptom; these have a mini-formula of their own. They open with a patient case study, discuss the highly relatable aspects of the specific symptom or behavior, then offer some lightweight examples of a treatment for the symptom, usually accompanied by follow up results from the earlier case studies.
4. Somewhere around halfway-to-two-thirds through the book, the author introduces the more in-depth explication of the treatment system (often their own homebrew) they are advocating. These are generally both personally-driven (as opposed to suggested cultural changes, which makes sense given these books' target audience, more on this later) and composed of an elaborate system of either behavior alteration or mental reframing. Whether this system is actually implementable by the average reader varies wildly.
5. A brief optional section on how to make use of ADHD as a tool (usually referring to ADHD or some of its symptoms as a superpower at least once). Sometimes this section restates the importance of using the systems from part 4 to harness that superpower. Frequently, if present, it feels like an afterthought.
6. Summation and list of further resources, often including other books which follow this formula.
I know I'm being a little sarcastic, but realistically there's nothing inherently wrong about the formula, like in itself it's not a red flag. It's just hilariously recognizable once you've noticed it.
It makes sense that these books advocate for the Reader With ADHD undertaking personal responsibility for their treatment, since these are in the tradition of self-help publishing. They're aimed at people who are already interested in doing their own research on their disability and possible ways to handle it. It's not really fair to ask them to be policy manuals, but I do find it interesting that even books which advocate stuff like volunteering (for whatever reason, usually to do with socialization issues and isolation, often DBT-adjacent) never suggest disability activism either generally or with an ADHD-specific bent.
None of these books suggest that perhaps life with ADHD could be made easier with increased accommodations or ease of medication access, and that it might be in a person's best interest to engage in political advocacy surrounding these and other disability-related issues. Or that activism related to ADHD might help to give someone with ADHD a stronger sense of ownership of their unique neurology. Or that if you have ADHD the idea of activism or even medical self-advocacy is crushingly stressful, and ways that stress might be dealt with.
It does make me want to write one of my own. "The Deviant Chaos Guide To Being A Miscreant With ADHD". Includes chapters on how to get an actual accurate assessment, tips for managing a prescription for a controlled substance, medical and psychiatric self-advocacy for people who are conditioned against confrontation, When To Lie About Being Neurodivergent, policy suggestions for ADHD-related legislation, tips for activism while executively dysfunked, and to close the book a biting satire of the pop media idea of self-care. ("Feeling sad? Make yourself a nice pot of chicken soup from scratch and you'll feel better in no time. Stay tuned after this rambling personal essay for the most mediocre chicken soup recipe you've ever seen!" "Have you considered planning and executing an overly elaborate criminal heist as a way to meet people and stay busy?")
Every case study or personal anecdote in the book will have a different name and demographics attached but will also make it obvious that they are all really just me, in the prose equivalent of a cheap wig, writing about my life. "Kelly, age seven, says she struggles to stay organized using the systems neurotypical children might find easy. I had to design my own accounting spreadsheet in order to make sure I always have enough in checking to cover the mortgage, she told me, fidgeting with the pop socket on her smartphone."
I feel a little bad making fun, because these books are often the best resource people can get (in itself concerning). It's like how despite my dislike of AA, I don't dunk on it in public because I don't want to offer people an excuse not to seek help. It feels like punching down to criticize these books, even though it's a swing at an industry that is mainly, it seems, here to profit from me. But one does get tired of skimming the hype for the real content only to find the real content isn't that useful either.
Les (not his real name) was diagnosed at the age of 236. Charming, well-read, and wealthy, he still spent much of his afterlife feeling deeply inadequate about his perceived shortcomings. "Vampire culture doesn't really acknowledge ADHD as a condition," he says. "My sire wouldn't understand, even though he probably has it as well. You should see the number of coffins containing the soil of his homeland that he's left lying forgotten all over Europe." A late diagnosis validated his feelings of difference, but on its own can't help when he hyperfocuses on seducing mortals who cross his path and forgets to get home before sunrise. "I have stock in sunburn gel companies," he jokes.
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Part 2
Can't stop thinking about reader finally cutting them loose.
For three days there was nothing but radio silence. In those three days you had told yourself that it was a grace period. Time for Simon to cool off and realize how much of a bastard he was for saying all those things he obviously didn't mean. Johnny coming back over with a bouquet of flowers and endless apologies and cuddles.
Simon didn't apologize for his harsh words.
Johnny didn't call you later, as promised.
For three days you jumped at every single notification, silently hoping it was one of them. Any of them.
But it wasn't.
And you, unfortunately, got the answer to the question you had been asking yourself for months.
Did they still want this?
The answer was clear.
You didn't let their unofficial dismissal get to you. You still had shit to do. A life to get on to. A book signing to go to.
Jesus.
A book signing. A book you wrote. A book that was being published and released the day of the expo. You weren't expecting a huge line because this was your debut novel, but with the help of some ARC readers who had took to social media, there had been a bit of a storm brewing.
You had listened to John when he had mentioned writing under an alias. Don't know how crazy people are out there. They'd do anything to get close to you, Dove. Just better to protect yourself where you can. You almost hated yourself for listening to him now. Now you would just have to keep writing under your pen name.
You were getting ready to close up shop early when your phone finally pinged.
Kyle.
Fuck.
Of course it was Kyle. The one who hadn't treated you like you were constantly bothering him. Not the one who made you feel guilty for agreeing to your arrangement. Nor was he the one who fucked you and left you. No. He was just the one who just wasn't there.
Maybe that was just as bad.
What are you up to today?
That was it. Almost two weeks of radio silence and that's all he had to say? It just added more evidence that you were making the right call in ending this now. It had already carried on for too long.
You had two things on your to-do list and you wouldn't let Kyle's sudden reappearance deter you.
E-mail the publisher back.
Change the locks.
You didn't have the strength to face them again. If they groveled, it would be too easy to take them back. One against four wasn't much of a fair fight. And if they didn't care to fight for you... you don't know if you could survive it. Coming face-to-face with the proof that it didn't bother them to give you up even though it was killing you.
No. Cutting it off completely was the best thing to do.
So you didn't respond.
You left Kyle's text unanswered as you e-mailed the publisher back that everything was set for your flight on tomorrow morning. You would spend Thursday adjusting to the time difference and Friday you would rest up before the expo this weekend. She assured you that you would need to rest up your writing hand. Whatever that means.
You left Kyle read as you closed up shop several hours earlier than usual. You needed to drop off the bank deposit before you started on task number two.
You didn't bothering responding to Johnny when he had texted you when you were leaving the hardware store, purchase in hand. Asking if you were free Friday. Promising dinner. 'In or out. Your choice.'
It was almost second nature when you got home to pull up your phone. Ready to text one of them to see which one of them could come over and help.
Fixing a leaky sink? Nothing Johnny hasn't seen before. Need help moving furniture? John won't mind when you change your several times on what should go where. Kyle would always come in with take out the moment you mentioned you were hungry and whenever you felt like going for a walk when it was a bit too late in the evening, Simon was the first to volunteer as your personal guard dog.
But asking them to come and change the very lock you planned on using to keep them out seemed... counter productive, if not downright petty.
You were almost done with the lock when your phone sounded off. Only this time it wasn't a text. Someone was calling you.
You almost faltered when John's name came on your screen.
Fuck.
That almost got you.
You almost answered it.
Almost.
You clicked on the 'Sorry, I can't talk right now. Options, before finishing up your work.
And just like that, you were done. No help needed. You had changed the lock. Even adding on a deadbolt. Replacing the flimsy chain Simon had taunted you about. If someone wanted to get in here, that wouldn't stop them.
Well, now you didn't need to hear it anymore.
Not that you would really hear it again...
Your flight was in twelve hours. Although that seemed an ample amount of time you hadn't even begun to pack. You had luckily narrowed your outfits down, but now was the task of folding it nicely into your suitcase rather than just stuffing it in there.
On my way. We need to talk.
It was too late for talking. Three days too late. Several months too late.
The last message sent was four weeks ago. A new Thai place had opened up close to your apartment that you were wanting to try. All of them had given you excuses.
Not my taste, Dove.
Cannae do it tonight. Next weekend? Next weekend didn't happen either.
I can do tomorrow. Kyle ended up bailing. You forget the excuse he used.
Simon hadn't even bothered to reply.
The final nail in the coffin of your relationship. Almost two years wasted with nothing, but a broken heart to show for it. And the worst part is, they had all chipped away at your heart, leaving you to deal with the final blow that would shatter it.
Im sorry. I canât do this with you anymore. wish you all the best.
Your fingers made quick work in blocking their numbers. It was best. If they wanted to reach you, they couldn't. On the other side of the coin, if they didn't care to reply, you wouldn't spend countless hours crying over the fact that none of them had been affected the same way you had.
You would deal with getting them their belongings that they had left behind another time. You had big things, great things happening for you. You were cutting your loses. You were cutting them loose.
You just hoped you didnât regret it.
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WOW.
Scientists found an amazingly well-preserved village from 3,000 years ago
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LONDON â A half-eaten bowl of porridge complete with wooden spoon, communal rubbish bins, and a decorative necklace made with amber and glass beads are just a handful of the extraordinarily well-preserved remnants of a late Bronze Age hamlet unearthed in eastern England thatâs been dubbed âBritainâs Pompeiiâ and a âtime capsuleâ into village life almost 3,000 years ago.
The findings from the site, excavated in 2015 to 2016, are now the subject of two reports, complete with previously unseen photos, published this week by University of Cambridge archaeologists, who said they cast light onto the âcosy domesticityâ of ancient settlement life.
âIt might be the best prehistoric settlement that weâve found in Britain,â Mark Knight, the excavation director and a co-author of the reports, said in an interviewThursday. âWe took the roofs off and inside was pretty much the contents,â he said. âItâs so comprehensive and so coherent.â
The reason for the rare preservation: disaster.
The settlement, thought to have originally consisted of several large roundhouses made of wood and constructed on stilts above a slow-moving river, was engulfed by a fire less than a year after being built.
During the blaze, the buildings and much of their contents collapsed into a muddy river below that âcushioned the scorched remains where they fell,â the university said of the findings. This combination of charring from the fire and waterlogging led to âexceptional preservation,â the researchers found.
âBecause of the nature of the settlement, that it was burned down and its abandonment unplanned, everything was captured,â Knight added.
âAs we excavated it, there was that feeling that we were picking over someone elseâs tragedy,â he said of the eerie site in the swampy fenland of East Anglia. âI donât think we could smell the fire but the amount of ash around us â it felt close.â
Researchers said they eventually unearthed four large wooden roundhouses and an entranceway structure, but the original settlement was probably âtwice as big.â
The site at Must Farm dates to about 850 B.C., eight centuries before Romans came to Britain. Archaeologists have been shocked at âjust how clear the picture isâ of late Bronze Age life based on the level of detail uncovered, Knight said.
The findings also showed that the communities lived âa way of life that was more sophisticated than we could have imagined,â Duncan Wilson, head of Historic England, the public body responsible for preserving Englandâs historic environment, said in a statement.
The findings unearthed include a stack of spears, possibly for hunting or defense; a decorative necklace âwith beads from as far away as Denmark and Iranâ; clothes of fine flax linen; and a female adult skull rendered smooth, âperhaps a memento of a lost loved one,â the research found.
The inhabitantsâ diet was also rich and varied, including boar, pike and bream, along with wheat and barley.
A pottery bowl with the finger marks of its maker in the clay was also unearthed, researchers said, still containing its final meal â âa wheat-grain porridge mixed with animal fatsâ â with a wooden spatula resting inside the bowl.
âIt appears the occupants saved their meat juices to use as toppings for porridge,â project archaeologist Chris Wakefield said in the universityâs news release. âChemical analyses of the bowls and jars showed traces of honey along with ruminant meats such as deer, suggesting these ingredients were combined to create a form of prehistoric honey-glazed venison,â he added.
Skulls of dogs â probably kept as pets and to help with hunting â were also uncovered, and the dogsâ fossilized feces showed they fed on scraps from their ownersâ meals, the research found.
The buildings, some connected by walkways, may have had up to 60 people living there all together, Knight said, along with animals.
Although no intact sets of human remains were found at the site, indicating that the inhabitants probably fled the fire safely, several sheep bones were found burned indoors. âSkeletal remains showed the lambs were three to six months old, suggesting the settlement was destroyed sometime in late summer or early autumn,â according to the universityâs news release.
Ceramic and wooden vessels including tiny cups, bowls and large storage jars were also found. Some pots were even designed to nest, stacked inside one another, Knight said â evidence of an interest in aesthetics as well as practicality.
A lot of similar items were found replicated in each home, Knight added, painting the picture of completely independent homesteads for each family unit rather than distinct buildings for shared tasks â much like we live today.
Household inventories often included metal tools, loom weights, sickles for crop harvesting, axes and even handheld razors for cutting hair.
The roundhouses â one of which had almost 50 square meters (nearly 540 square feet) of floor space â had hearths and insulated straw and clay roofs. Some featured activity zones for cooking, sleeping and working akin to modern-day rooms.
The Must Farm settlement has produced the largest collection of everyday Bronze Age artifacts ever discovered in the United Kingdom, according to Historic England, which partly funded the 1.1 million pound ($1.4 million) excavation project.
The public body labeled the site a âtime capsule,â including almost 200 wooden artifacts, over 150 fiber and textile items, 128 pottery vessels and more than 90 pieces of metalwork. Some items will go on display at the nearby Peterborough Museum next month.
Archaeologists never found a âsmoking gunâ cause for the fire, Knight said. Instead, they suspect it was either an attack from âoutside forces,â which may explain why the inhabitants never returned to collect their possessions from the debris, or an accidental blaze that spread rapidly across the tightly nestled homes.
âProbably all that was left was the people and what they were wearing; everything else was left behind,â Knight said of the fire.
But the preservation has left a window for people to look back through in the future. âYou could almost see and smell their world,â he said.
âThe only thing that was missing was the inhabitants,â Knight added. âAnd yet ⌠I think they were there â you certainly got glimpses.â
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