#sobs in incompetence
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i think the technology bubble will burst at some point and hopefully if humans value healing, we will go back to analog a BIT (some tech is good! but we are TOO RELIANT) and hopefully we can reassess our priorities, but i'll stay guarded. i don't trust that in my life time i will see the life i wished to have lived... but maybe, it can exist for the future.
if we don't all kill each other and ourselves
#like... it will burst. we're too stupid incompetent and greedy and wretched for this current situation not to#but it will go one of two directions and i can only hope to manifest the best :sob:
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this is my mood this week
#group presentation on the second week of the semester + put with people who want to act like they're still in hs/incompetent#has got me 100% in a short-tempered mood recently SOBS#the worst part? I'm in a class specifically revolved around doing presentations and papers. mostly in groups.#I think I'm stuck with these people the entire semester...#SAVE ME HYPERFIXATIONS SAVE ME-
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SORRY TO TAKE SUCH A HARD LEFT BUT HOW DO YOU THINK JO FOUND OUT ARAKAWA WAS DEAD
IM GOING TO SCREAM IF I TRY TO THINK ABOUT THAT NOOOOO I GOTTA GET BACK TO YOU IN 5-7 BUSINESS DAYS WITH THAT ONE............
#snap chats#id shit and cry if aoki was the one that told him in a condescending/bitchy way yk what i mean#like as if to jab at jo like 'oh dont worry about dealing with dad- since you were too incompetent to do it i had someone else handle it'#not that word for word im SURE but yk what i mean. just GENERALLY thats the energy#the timing of this ask is soooo funny i was just talkin to my twit friend bout arasawa#and how youve been inspiring me to draw it more again as of late and this is NOT helping !!!! i am ADDING IT to my LIST#cause i want to be in pain i guess (;´༎ຶ▽༎ຶ`) I JUST SEE IT SO CLEARLY IN MY HEAD EGUUUGHH#im still gonna chew on the idea of How tho im still gonna chew on it cause i have other stuff lined up Obvi but..... OUGH PAIN...#verrrrry awkward when i post a thing in liek an hour cause that shit gon be a lil cute so then i just got this in the back of my dome ☠️☠️#thank you........#throwing up as i remember aoki being like 'you're acting strange lately' brb#OUUGHHGH dying.#LIKE IM JUST THINKIG OF ALL THE EMOTIONS JO WOULDVE BEEN FEELING- /ESP/ IF HE WAS IN FRONT OF AOKI#how would he even cope... i mean judging by the eye scene Not Well butu OUUGHvLKJVALKJ#ITS THE CONFLICTED FEELINGS AGAIN CAUSE LIKE he SHOUULDNT care as much as he does right...#arakawa was just his boss... but if THAT was the case why not take him out when jo was first asked too.....#aoki is his priority in life right...... arakawa wasn't supposed to be anyone important BUT THEN HE DID BECOME IMPORTANT#making myself throw up#anyway this is why jo shouldve been allowed to rip tendo to shreds. in my humble opinion. <- sobbing#NAWWW IT THE WAY I HAVE TO GO OUT WITH MY SIS RIGHT AFTER THIS WELKFJALFKJLKVJ#I CANT BE NORMALLLLL
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i think im gonna ask my therapist to get me an appointment with the private psychiatrist she suggested
#yesterday was kind of the wake up call#for a few days ive been feeling very little… still feeling bad but like sort of numb and i keep questioning wheter i actually need meds or#not which .. in any case i will not decide but a specialist will but anyways#and i was looking through book fairs and how to get appointments with publishers to show ur portfolio and just generally feeling like the#most incompetent person ever and also like i will never get anywhere because my style isn’t exactly what u see in most illustrated books#95% of which are childrens books…… and those styles are just different#anyway i digress#my grandma called and she was like what are u doing and i told her how stressed i was and i just started crying mid-sentence and i told her#i dont know where to bang my head anymore its too difficult and confusing and i feel like im just not good enough and im tired of trying to#keep it together.. she knows im not well mentally#like i was SOBBING#and she was like u shouldnt think like that u have to be patient keep trying and contact those publishers and whatever#and i get that she was trying to motivate me but i just told her flat out i. am. unwell. i dont know what to do anymore with this brain#and i asked her to please not tell me how i should think because i cant#and i know my grandad was there with her because he always is and he heard and like an hour later he came to my house to pick something up#and he was like ‘earlier i heard things i dont like’ aka me being depressed out of my mind#and then he said ‘we should talk about it sometime’ and proceeded to completely change the subject to his gums problem because he was going#to the dentist….ok#and the funny thing is things like this where people acknowledge that im struggling but proceed to say nothing about it keep happening#like i have a friend that i talk to very often and we say p much everything to each other but now shes working so she takes weeks to reply#and i told her i was doing VERY bad and of course she has her problems too… and she hasn’t replied to me in like three weeks or so#and she sent a text basically saying im dorry i havent replied yet i want to have time to do it well and hear how youre doing but hear this!#and proceeded to tell me stuff about her work and whatever… which is fine but dont tell me u care about how i am if u cant even check in#when u do have time because clearly u can send texts…#anyways im rambling good morning i already cried and its not even 9 great !!
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Feeling just every single kind of horrific now I’m literally living my nightmare and have no where to run anymore
#lost my home my escape from this place and now im forced back into this awful living situation in a horrible town#its taking a physical toll im dizzy my stomach hurts i cant sleep right im sweaty i cant breathe#its just not real like this just cant be real#i can hear them chewing through the walls and i want them to stop but i cant cover my ears cuz then im vulnerable#my curtains are gone everyone is watching me theres spies all over the town the all report to each other#nagging nagging nagging because my god im so incompetent i cant even make a phone call#ive literally procrastinated rescheduling a very important doctor appointment for 2 weeks now cuz i literally cannot remember to do it#if i run away itll be pointless cuz theyll just find me and bring me back here#i would do anything just to cry and sob cuz then id get to feel better but my body wont let me im like emotionally constipated#ive been for who knows how fucking long#my father tells me that i need to overcome my autism and that im just not trying hard enough and that i need to talk to jesus#i dont love anything here i cant be bothered to try#and the ‘support’ i get is just. a cheap way of forcing me in#im gonna explode im seriously so uncomfortable so fed up so terrified so nauseous#its not even a dream this time but maybe it is but maybe it isnt i dont know i just punch the wall but never bleed#i want to breathe but its not working
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actually no i’m still fuming about being called a “little princess” for uhhhh [checks notes] not wanting to sleep on the floor for three fucking weeks because my mother is having a whole fucking mental breakdown over my move.
#rae talks#she also told me i’d be sobbing about it because i’m basically incompetent and i’m about ready to blow a gasket#my dad stepped in but i do feel guilty bc i think he’s probably#gonna get reamed by her in private for having tried to help me lol#like i’m sorry but i am fully capable of taking my bed apart and taking it to a dump myself lol#oh and!!! and!!! told me all my sentimental items are absolutely useless and i should throw them away#i think the fuck not#like i know she was picking a fight bc she’s in a mood but i hate how easily i fall for the bait too lol
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heads up you mispelled vanished in your last art post
god fucking dammit. I can't spell to save my life istg
#i even double checked man#why cant i spell#sob#belladonna rambles#anon#anon ask#anonymous#asked and answered#i hate my life#geuienly spelling is just so hard#especially after i was hit by the bus#my brain just sucks at words#which sucks more as a writer#im not incompetent#my brain just doesnt function properly#wahhhhhhhhhhh
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Damn bro I wish I could communicate better 😭
#I have to make burger patties and we don't have any food-grade gloves I'm gonna fucking cry#Fukkin Relapse right before school starts#I hate the texture I hate the smell ggrgrgrgrgrrrrrr#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#Fucking sobbing my family just thinks I'm fucking incompetent and childish and fucking stupid and a shitty kid#Fuck all of this shit#Vent
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even if ive been on artfight for 7 (?!!) years now, i still haven't done a proper art reference for my ocs. and i see people updating their oc sheets every year... how?!!!! how do y'all have the energy?! 😭
#kas speaks#i feel incompetent....#crying screaming sobbing <- he has finals this of the year always
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@tavustlik said : i don't want to flood your inbox, so pick one or mix multiple idc: gutter. the trail of blood ends and you find the sender broken on the ground. plaster. it's not pretty but it'll do; you wince as the sender patches your wounds. waiting. you duck into the bus stop to escape the rain, intruding on the sender. listen. the sender disobeys and you swat their curious hand away. crossfire. you realize the sender asking you to put out a hit is your next target. ↬ ⭒˚。🖁‧₊˚ 〖 down these mean streets . . . 〗
⸻ vanished was his anticipation , when he hurried to seek shelter , away and out of the downpour that showered relentlessly. though the hammer of droplets is a concern washed away when a deafening thud strikes , causing two collapsed figures to tumble onto the pavement — extracting a hiss from the fallen practitioner. fortunately , the spot he lands upon is absent of puddles that litter the streets.
though , that does not undo the fact he is already wet from his prior episode of weather exposure.
faintly , the pitter — patter draws him back to the land of the living , and his eyes crescent until the full moon waxes towards his run — in. ah. ❝ you ? ❞ strain echoes , summoned from his chest that rises and falls. in a tempo faster than his usual rate. ❝ why are you here ? ❞
speculation stirs before he can help it , pondering what ifs and hypotheticals , before he moves onto verifying potentials — whether or not they uphold any semblance of truth. all in the span of a few seconds whilst he moves to upright himself.
but he cannot hide the struggle as his legs straighten , and a grimace works its way across an afflicted countenance.
and it seems his company catches on quick , with how his eyes search his personage. his exploit to conceal is a fruitless one — when there is a dark patch that stains his cloth. even if it borders on being faint as opposed to noticeable. so too , does the doctor follow the trail of his gaze , identifying how it slips to the clash against his otherwise pristine garb.
knuckles bruised , he plants a hand to obscure the splatter on his attire , veiling it from prying , avgin eyes. ❝ it’s just a scratch. pay no mind to it. ❞ yet , it is never enough for the stoneheart , and dissatisfaction announces itself as a hand strides to its mark — snatching the wrist belonging to the barricade over his wound.
before he pries it off , and a layer of crimson greets him.
immediately , his scorn follows in the swatting of his intrusive grasp , and the academic narrows eyes at the director. it was to be expected , since he never did adhere to prescribed directions , but veritas still mirrors his annoyance in his scowl. ❝ did you not hear me ? i said leave it. ❞ he did have every capability of dealing with it , as a doctor and all.
to his dismay , the act of swiping a curious hand brings him to stumble. and on his last legs , he collapses once more , against the male that occupies this bus stop. fingers climb , before he grips the material that adorns the sigonian , if only to steady himself from tripping completely. there , a sudden breath curls , exhaled upon the torso pressed forth , instantaneous once he detects the hand that flaps his garment aside. where gleaming dual — toned irises can survey the laceration.
he dismisses the chide that falls from the one expected to receive it instead of dishing it , until agony spears from the nerves that fire once his body stations into the vacant seat at the scheduled pick — up zone. soon enough , he recognises there is no room for protest once the liquidation specialist makes up his mind , and in this case , it refers to the insistence to attending his injury.
an offering he would have declined to any other asker.
❝ stubborn gambler , try not to do a sloppy job. it would be counterproductive if your application requires readjusting. ❞ glancing , he observes the tools of his sleight , now tasked with staunching rivulets.
but as he does so , he scopes above , eyeing the covering that shields the two. and it stays , tipped skywards , to watch until the clouds roll away and take its storm with it.
perhaps , it is a good thing , that the other is distracted. leaving the rain to be nothing more than a distant memory.
#* ✦ 𝐈𝐈. ❮ asks ❯ ⸻ ❝#* ✦ 𝐕𝐈. ❮ muses ❯ ⸻ ❝ 「 veritas ratio 」#* ✦ tavustlik#* ✦ tavustlik | aventurine#i just think that veritas is the type who doesn't let people tend to his wounds because of their incompetency#but at this moment he kind of has no choice since he's lost a bit too much blood and he does trust aventurine#but also aventurine being distracted by needing to tend to veritas i dunno i sobbed#him watching the sky as if to will the droplets to stop falling#don't fret though gambler#he'll be okay#and don't go chasing down the assailant cause ratio has no idea who it was ngl#am i sorry to do this on aventurine day#no :)
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hi saanjh
hi blair my love my lady my life
#life is so tough#why do people suck so much#why do i keep fucking up#I think my 16yo self sobbing in her bed and feel like such a failure#I was going through post grad programs in lse and I know there is no way in hell im getting in#but I still yearn to move out and study in a foreign place#why is everything so difficult and why am I so incompetent#anyways I miss you please meet me on 23rd
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#two screaming sobbing burying face in shirt 30-second-long breakdowns at work today. good grief#it is so boring to talk about and entirely my fault for being incompetent but it is like#work has been so fucking bad. my god. it is consuming my every waking moment thinking about it#and could be circumvented entirely if i was simply better at my job. and did not cry about it. because i cannot handle it on my own#whatever.
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...🙃
#i know i sound crazy (and maybe i am) but i'm so disappointed in myself for failing at the job interview tomorrow#yes disappointed in myself in advance lol you got that right! :)#i'm so disappointed in myself for freezing during the teaching sample or otherwise completely fucking it up#(i tried to go through it once just to see if there's actually enough content for 15 minutes but i kept fucking up and became so frustrated#so i just gave up)#i'm so disappointed in myself for coming off as an empty-headed idiot during the interview#(i have given practically 0 thought to any of the mandatory interview questions because i have no faith in myself at all so why bother?)#i'm so disappointed in myself for being so incredibly incompetent that i can't even answer the most simple content questions about my major#(i'm terrified to do research on the basic terms of linguistics in case the content questions have something to do with those#because what if i understand nothing or what if the questions will be about something else entirely?)#i know i'm full-on bullying myself at this point but i'm just...tired#i'm so tired of the emotional roller coaster of today. one moment i'm ugly-sobbing because i'm so stressed out and feel so inadequate#then i manage to pull myself together and focus for maybe half an hour max until i burst into hysterical tears again#all the while chanting in my head: ''i can't do this i can't do this i'm not good enough i'm not good enough''#by now i'm so exhausted that i wanna be like ''fuck it'' and go to bed and just. let go#i can't control everything so i should just go with the flow. whatever happens tomorrow happens for a reason right?#if i fail then i guess that proves i am indeed inadequate for the job. a bullet dodged by both parties etc.#it proves i wasn't meant for that job. it proves that i deserve unemployment. because i'm terrible at my job (or average at best)#i wish i could live like that (the ''fuck it'' attitude) but i want to succeed so bad 😭#i want to be perfect but i can't because i'm not and i know i'm being unreasonable because NO ONE is#ignore this please. i'm inconsolable lol
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Jason: What is this??
Dick: it’s the flour and butter you asked me to buy?
Jason: No. No it’s not.
Dick: ye-
Jason: I asked for CAKE FLOUR and UNSALTED BUTTER.
Dick: but-
Jason: now am I just supposed to trust the salt content of this salted butter???? And this is BREAD FLOUR this has opposite qualities and PURPOSES! Does it look like I’m making bread to you??
Dick: I’m-
Alfred: it was a foolish decision to ask any of your siblings to purchase any sort of ingredients.
Dick: Hey!-
Jason: I know Alfie but you already do so much. I thought he could get two items without infecting it with WEAPONIZED INCOMPETENCE! *begins to fake sob into Alfred’s shoulder*
Dick: ???
Alfred: *patting Jason on the back reproachfully* A shame really… perhaps you should leave.
Dick: okay tragicwing I get it! I’m going back! Who taught you such dramatics?
Jason: You.
Dick: 😐… worst decision of my life.
#Jason and Alfred are partners in crime and conspire in the kitchen#Jason guilt trip Todd#dick grayson#jason todd#incorrect batfamily quotes#alfred pennyworth#bring the wrong cake ingredients and you get no cake
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Can I request bkg and reader getting in a fight so they still share the bed but sleep while facing away from each other. But then reader gets nightmare about him dying and clutches to him. How do you think he would react??
A/N: Sobbing because the manga has me in shambles TY ANON FOR THE REQUESTTT <33 Here's the masterlist!
Warning(s): Mild cursing, you and Katsuki get into a fight, he's a little hot headed but he means well, you both love each other so much, you both are dating, mentions of an anxiety attack, nightmares, angst to comfort, mentions of blood and death, slight spoilers, reader is called princess and baby, f!reader.
Pairing(s): Bakugou Katsuki x Reader
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"Katsuki you can't keep doing this to yourself!"
"Jesus baby, ya know that this is my job, I don't have a choice! I can't just stop savin' people 'cause my girlfriend wants me to."
It went on like that for a while, back and forth, between "You can't just keep coming home like this, it's not healthy!" and "It's my fuckin' job - what the fuck do ya want me to do about it?!" as well as every single variation of the two.
It was exhausting.
You were understandably worried sick about your pro hero boyfriend, Katsuki Bakugou, you always had been. You loved him to death, you always would, but your heart simply couldn't take the sight of him coming home bruised and bloodied and on the brink of death.
You believed in him, you really did, but the little voice in the back of your head never seemed to stop asking the one question you wish never had to be asked in the first place.
What if it finally became too much? What if one day, he didn't come home back to you?
The scenarios that voice would create were almost as bad as having to experience it in real life, and Katsuki's blatant disregard for your feelings only made it worse.
To him, you didn't believe in him. Your worries made him feel weak - your worries made it seem like his skills were incompetent, as if he wasn't enough. After all, when you see a hero like All Might on the screen, no one is simply worried for his wellbeing, because they know he'll win.
Why don't you think he can win?
The two of you don't speak to each other for the rest of the night, still sleeping in the same bed but turned away from each other.
And it was hard, trying to fall asleep without the other, so accustomed to falling asleep in each other's arms, but you finally managed to do so.
However, without Katsuki's presence to soothe you in the night, the voice in your head decided to take the reins on your dreams.
Except it was much more worse than that.
You were on a battle field, there was so much happening except there was nothing happening at the same time.
You can't see your hands, or the rest of your body, eerily making you a spectator to the chilling scene around you.
The ground was slate grey, and then it wasn't, crimson blood staining the ground until all you could see was red.
You try to scream, but you can't because you have no body, and consequently, no mouth.
Still you persist, opening an invisible mouth to let out soundless screams in the hope that someone, anyone, can get you out of this soulless empty hellhole.
And then you see him.
It's Katsuki.
He looks fine, unharmed except for the hollow look in his eyes.
Your heart aches and you reach out an invisible hand to do something, to apologize for losing your temper, anything to have him back.
But the moment you blink, Katsuki isn't fine, or unharmed anymore.
Now, there was a gaping hole in his chest, and half of his face was stained the same crimson that was splattered across the ground.
You could only watch in horror as Katsuki's life was sucked out of him, seeping out through the blood that dripped out of his body, staining the ground even further, pooling at his feet.
You scream even more, but nothing comes out. You can't do anything, and the love of your life is bleeding out and you're just standing there.
Shit!
You didn't realize you were crying until you feel two strong hands gently shaking you awake, finding yourself buried in Katsuki's chest, clutching onto his shirt like it was your lifeline. Or in this case, his.
"Princess? I'm here, baby I'm here...everything's okay..." he murmurs, his gruff voice soothing you as he strokes your hair, allowing you to soak his shirt with your tears, not minding it at all.
You look at him, and his heart breaks at the broken look in your eyes.
"Katsuki...?" you whisper, and he looks at your with those piercing vermillion eyes, ridden with guilt.
"Baby, m'so sorry I talked to ya like that.... I'm so stupid, damnit." he whispers angrily, not to you, but to himself.
How had he not realized how bad your anxiety was?
He sighs - he wasn't the focus right now, you were.
He brings a large and gentle hand around, cupping the back of your head and tenderly pressing it against his chest.
"Feel that princess? That my heart, beating for ya. And only for ya, ya hear me?"
You giggle softly, feeling your heart warm. The two of you fall asleep together like that, and the little voice in your head finally gives you a few words of assurance.
Katsuki's okay.
#⋆。‧˚ʚ 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖈𝖑𝖔𝖚𝖉 𝖆𝖗𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖛𝖊𝖘 ɞ˚‧。⋆#bakugou katsuki#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou katuski x reader#katsuki bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugou#bakugo katsuki x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugou x y/n#bakugou katsuki x reader#bnha bakugo katsuki#katsuki x reader#bakugou x you#bakugou drabble#bakugou fluff#bnha bakugou#mha bakugou#katsuki#bakugo katsuki#mha#katsuki bakugo#katsuki bakugo mha#bakugou#katsuki x you#katsuki bakugo fluff#bakugo fluff
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how am I supposed to live on after buddy daddies' epilogue
#crying sobbing screaming wailing rn#buddy daddies spoilers#i don't know yet what to think of the ending#can someone force kazuki to go see a hairdresser please#also i'm sorry but rei's incompetence to cook anything other than french toast is not cute#at least they're happy for ever i can die in peace#i did not expect that flash forward but i think i like that they did one#even if it wasn't entirely satisfying#also i was not impressed by the no-homo line you know the one#it was unnecessary come on#but they're all still alive ten years later how wholesome is that 😭😭#they're a familyyyyyy#they can live a normal liiiife#i'm gonna miss them#ramble#my post
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