#sober journal

[bruisekiid]

spent the last three days in a fugue state reading semi-charmed kinda life only to realize it's on hiatus. having to lean on my friends during this difficult time.

[faggotdraws]

I Wish I Was Sober - Frightened Rabbit

[riddikulusaquarius]

feeling like myself again after a brief period of mild psychosis (undiagnosed)

[goldenpoet1]

These past few days, I've been sober. I left my emotions dormant. Drinking demons to fix the leaking pipes like duck taped wrapped around a water hose. The problem wasn't addiction; no, it was the feeling of not feeling. Not feeling the pain, tiredness, depression, anxieties, alone, problems, not hearing the voices, and the brokenness. It was the novicane to the pain like a toothache. Addiction is the feeling that it gives you; the comfort of not being alone. Not alone from the outside world but in your head. That dark place you get trapped at sometimes. Now I feel everything, overwhelmed and overflowed of feelings that I thought I would hide. I thought it was dormant, but it just became more torment. Yet, these past few days, I've been sober.

[rexscanonwife]

I miss sportacus 😭💖😭

[delightfulwombatyouth]

Back to 1 week no drinking. Feeling good about that.

Cut my caffeine down to 1 cup in the morning and decaf after. Was really tempted to stop at dunkin donuts on my way into the office but thought better of it. Reminded myself that I can only overcome myself in times of difficulty like that. You can only be brave if you're afraid, you can only make progress through some sort of struggle, and thought this was a struggle I could cope with or at least try to.

I want today to be my day 1 for sugar. I got a weird feeling in my foot last night during sleep after another sugar evening and I noticed some intense plantar fascitis in my right foot which has only come about since my dietary change. I don't want to wait until I'm prediabetic to do something nor gain all my weight back.

The good - happy to be almost 9 months off weed. For a long time I thought that would be the hardest thing for me to quit but now it's by far the easiest / least appealing to go back to.

Tbf digital screens and social media are probably up on the chopping block too but all in due time.

Happy 🐫 day everyone

[vulpine111]

I've been alcohol free for 4 years. 🙏💖

[albertayebisackey]

“Addiction is the only prison where the locks are on the inside.” - Unknown

[starmothpress]

[ignorancelive]

guys. its getting ROUGH

[officialjohnjones]

Captain Jones War Journal, Entry 10

The more I find out about this... "IO" alternate me, the more my stomach turns. Was I really so close to becoming a monster? Have I always been that close?

The details both Wrecker and Valeria provided (however scant for the latter) were enlightening... But more enlightening was the short message the man himself sent. The man has an ego a mile long, but what's worse... I've no doubt he has the skills to back it up.

It puts a pit of dread in my stomach to think that the IO simply replaced me with a crueler counterpart once I defected, but it worries me more, the idea that we may have worked for the organization... At the same time. I'd ask if they'd really use me like that, but obviously, the answer is yes.

I need to get into contact with Jersey. If this IO alternate is targeting Jones snapshots, he needs to know, both for his safety, and Hope's.

[juodojimirtis]

I wonder what would have happened if Duretti had succeeded in his Conclave. Would he, and his grandpa squad, have tried to help the OCS battle Adriel on their electric scooters?..

For the record, I know everything would most likely have remained political, I'm joking.

[yourannabellee]

This year the silhouette changes again, I try to adopt a new one each year. On a sober excursion right now, as this past year was one of my most excessive yet. Lots of poison. Lots of unhealthy decisions. 20lbs gained. Trying to cleanse my body but mostly my brain as she has gotten the worst of it all. It’s no drinking or drugs and most of all the self talk conversation has to change its tone. Very hard rewiring has to happen. But this is the year. 33. A death and a rebirth. Stepping into it very healthy. 5 days completely clean and 360 to go. Ready to make my best shit yet + also optimize this vessel.

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

so am i sober enough to go to bed yet or,,,

[therosevest]

abt to go to a family party please pray for me. my family’s cool. but um they’re a lot and esp rn when im kind of living my lowlife um life it’s gonna be hell a little bit. maybe i’ll stand on a table and come out

[graevs666]

I rlly wanna be able to not smoke weed but I just dunno if I can honestly. Like I’ve been sober maybe for a week or two before last year and I felt happy w myself I went that long but I also was in England visiting my family so I didn’t have any left to smoke anyway