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aernx Ā· 1 day ago
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IT'S A WRAP ! āŒ— ģ“ķ¬ģŠ¹ ( THE TEASER )
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synopsis āŸ¢ wrapping is easy when it comes to dumplings. but when it comes to your feelingsā€¦not so much. after getting separated from your childhood nemesis, lee heeseung, you think your life will go smooth like butter (js like what BTS sang). but fate has other plans when he was forced to help around in your familyā€™s dumpling restaurant.
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ā—Œ wordcountļ¹’ tba
ā—Œ pairingļ¹’ lee heeseung x fmr
ā—Œ genreļ¹’ childhood enemies to lovers, hs au, takes place in their summer break, reader is taehyunā€™s (txt) older sister
ā—Œ featuringļ¹’ txt, chaewon lsrfm, enhypen, brief mentions of other idols
ā—Œ warningsļ¹’ profanities/cursing, heeyn annoyed at eo lol, lots of cursing guys
read full fic HERE
aerinotes āŸ¢ teaser!! I will post the fic in a week or two! COMMENT or SEND AN ASK to be added in the taglist. This is my first long fic, hope it piqued your interest! (for ppl who didn't know this concept used to be a smau but it's disc)
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ONE WEEK HAS PASSED since you were forced to be Heeseung's mentor in your family's dumpling shop and you are now used to seeing him lurk around the area. Now that heā€™s already familiar with the register and serving people you have to go to the next step: teach him how to make dumplings.
At first, you were against the idea. But your mom insisted that Mrs.Lee wanted Heeseung to be more adapt than any other employee. Hence why he needed to master more than one skill to manage. So, you gave in.
Heeseung was ready to start his new routine. Coming to the shop everyday (excluding Sundays and Saturdays) at 8am and start preparing the register and other things before opening at 9am. Heā€™ll be honest, the first few days, he was dreading it. But eventually, being surrounded with the busy yet calming atmosphere of the shop feels so comfortable? Or maybe because he was spending his summer productively.Ā 
But yesterday, Yn had messaged him to arrive at the shop an hour earlier than usual. Seven am?! Thatā€™s basically dawn! Heeseung dragged his feet towards the welcoming door. The sun greeted him with a morning glow as he slowly entered his demise.Ā 
ā€œMorning, sunshine. Are you awake?ā€ Sitting in one of the chairs, you chuckled, amused at his hunched silhouette.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re crazy for forcing me to work this early on. This is basically child labor!ā€ He sat opposing you, hands folded above the table as he buried his head in between his arms.Ā 
ā€œWell your mother consented to this. Get up, lazy.ā€ Your request was left hanging as Heeseung replied an audible ā€œnoā€, prompting you to leave the boy behind.
Droplets of water soon trickled to the back of his neck, stirring him awake before he-hold on why was he wet? His fingers touched the source of coldness, upon realizing what you have done, his head jolted up meeting your gaze. ā€Youā€™re fucking crazy!ā€
ā€œAwake now?ā€ The smirk on your lips is evident and Heeseung swore that he was going to rip your face off.
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ā€œWhat are we doing?ā€ Instead of answering, you hand a slightly-damp Heeseung an apron and ushered him to wash his hands before starting. ā€œJust go wash your hands first.ā€ He rolled his eyes before complying to your demands.
After finishing with such tasks he returned to his position beforehand. ā€œAll clean now.ā€ He dangled his palms to align with your vision. Now that the two of you are clean it's time to start this mission. Wrapping dumplings.
Heeseung eyes lingered on the swift movement of your fingers. Quick hands easily wrap the ball of meat between a thin layer of dough. He shifted his attention elsewhere for a second and when he returned, you were already done with the process. The perfectly wrapped mandu sat in the heart of your palms, sitting proudly before him.
ā€œThat doesnā€™t look hard, let me do it.ā€ The boy shrugged, earning an amused scoff from you. He took the initiative to try it for himself, but before he could reach the layers of thin dough, he felt a slight sting lingering on his arm. ā€œGosh! What was that for?!ā€Ā 
ā€œDo you ever pay attention? Lace your hands with some flour before taking the dough so itā€™s not sticky, bambi.ā€Ā 
Bambi? Did you just refer to him as a Disney cartoon animal?! Well sucks to be you at least he was a Disney character. Not some meaningless being.Ā 
ā€œCrazy bitch.ā€Ā 
ā€œWhat did you say?!ā€
ā€œI said I got the hitch!ā€ Was hitch even a word? Probably. Or not.
Heeseung grudgingly dipped his fingers into the bowl of flour before spreading a light amount in his palms. He then took a thin layer of dough and a little ball of minced meat mixed with onions and other dumpling stuffings(?). He placed the ball in the center of the surface beforeā€¦beforeā€¦uhm what was the next step again?
His hands froze mid air for a second. Should he ask for help? Oh and get roasted for not paying attention again? No thanks, his ego was too big for that. Right heā€™ll figure this out. This is Lee Heeseung weā€™re talking about. Lee Heeseung vs dumpling, letā€™s see whoā€™ll win this game.
The tall boy recalled your hand movements, trying hard to remember the steps you did. Right it was uhmā€¦.take the left corner, then the right, unite them to the center? Yeah that right. Next isā€¦squish the edges! Heā€™s too smart and talented for this. Heeseung 1, dumpling 0.
The satisfied smile he wore was so apparent. The tips of his finger lightly pressed onto the dough in an attempt to link them together. Except it was not sticking. He kept on applying pressure, more and more as the seconds tick. Once he thought that it would hold, he settled theā€¦ill-shaped dumpling on the table. With his hands on his hips, he turned to face your observing stance. Not bad for his first try. Or so he thought.
Five seconds of victory was cut short when the dumpling slowlyā€“but surelyā€“unwrapped itself from the shape Heeseung molded it to. Heeseung 0, dumpling 1.Ā 
The guise of his face showed it allā€“his mouth hung open, eyes deadpanning the dumpling like it was his sworn enemyā€“it was so hard not to erupt in laughter. You covered your mouth to contain your glee. This was too funny.Ā 
Your oddly timed coughing shifted Heeseungā€™s gaze to yours. At first the look in his eyes reeks of annoyance but the sound of your echoing laugh was enough to leave a ghost of a smile on his face. You didnā€™t get angry, that was a first. Heeseung was shocked to see how calm you were after witnessing his failure (well except for the laughing part).Ā  ā€œI would be a hypocrite if I got angry at you.ā€ You started. ā€œThe first time Eomma taught me how to wrap these, I would always rip the dough.ā€
ā€œOh.ā€
ā€œRight, let me repeat the steps again, slowly this time.ā€
The clueless boy watched your movements distinctly. He noticed how eased you were as you did the task at hand, focused yet you were doing it so effortlessly. He also noticed how you poke your tongue slightly when your fingers pinched the perfectly folded dumplingā€™s little details, and the little specks of flour that landed on the tip of your nose. There was something about youĀ  today that he couldnā€™t ignore.
Heeseung looked at your current expression, and suddenly you both were five again. You were sitting in his living room while your mothers chat in the kitchen.
With a crayon tucked in between your fingers, your tongue slightly stuck out as you fully averted your attention to your drawing before you. His gaze lingered there maybe too long than it should have been. You were so focused on that drawing and little Heeseung can't help but wish you would play with him instead. Maybe he could change that.
Shortly after, young Heeseung approached you slowly, attempting not to make any noise before tapping you in the shoulder from behind and whispered a "boo" that resulted in a big red slash in the drawing and an extremely angry Yn.
Twelve years have passed yet you still look the same to him. The first girl that entered his life other than his mother, the first girl he fought with, and the first girl he ever loved. Not that he realized, of course. But perhaps just for today, he would forget your fuse with him and pretend that you didn't hate each other's guts.
ā€œThatā€™s how you make a perfect dumpling.ā€ The curve of your lips were so warm and inviting. Maybe because it was too early in the morning thatā€™s why Heeseung felt so out of it right now. ā€œEhem, okay. I should be able to do it now.ā€
TO BE CONTINUED
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Ā©ļø aernx 2025, do not steal, copy, or translate
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lukeynewtssimp Ā· 3 days ago
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When Nic is out and about with her bf all I see from Lukolas is pure hate and disdain for them both. Itā€™s only now that the man brought out his gf that suddenly everyone is okay with it. Does that seem like equal treatment to you? Where was your defense before this?
Youā€™re happy and proud of him for finally claiming her but where is the happiness for Nic? Iā€™m still talking about Lukolas in general.
Do you not see the people saying heā€™s finally with someone well matched with him? And when people said the same hateful things after premiere night because of that stunt where was the support for Nic? You think his choices didnā€™t affect her, whether it was intentional or not?
This side of the fandom is extremely male-centered and you just donā€™t want to admit it. I am still very much hoping to be proved wrong in the future.
Wow okay there is a lot to unpack here.
Let me start by saying that my blog is very new. I only started posting like a month or so ago so excuse me for my lack of defence back when Nic apparently ā€œneededā€ it.
Neither of them ā€œneedā€ anybody to defend them lol. We donā€™t get brownie points for proving we are their number one fan. They literally have no fucking clue who I am and donā€™t care to find out either. I just use my platform to express my love for the people I am a fan of and the things I am passionate about and to express my frustration at things and behaviours that annoy me. Thatā€™s the point of having a personal blog.
idk how to make it any clearer. Like itā€™s literally in my username, yea I am a fan of Nicola too but Iā€™m a bigger fan of Luke. We all have our faves so I donā€™t get why youā€™re so angry that Luke is mine.
Yes I see the very small number of people making comments like that about Antonia looking good next to Luke or whatever. I choose to ignore it because I have seen a very small number of these comments and me talking about it would only amplify these pathetic peopleā€™s voices. I obviously do not agree with this take. It is rooted in fatphobia and those people can say whatever they want but they do not speak for Luke or Nic.
Nic is not some self conscious young girl waiting for a man to notice how beautiful she is. The fact that you think Lukeā€™s decisions about who heā€™s dating affected her, then youā€™re the problem. Youā€™re the one painting Nicola as this desperate girl crying for attention. Nic is a confident and very sexy woman and she fucking owns it and knows it. She literally ruled 2024 and has gained so much popularity last year as she deserves. And you know what? Luke knows it too and that man, unlike what you and other people think, is not and was never ashamed to show that heā€™s attracted to her and finds her beautiful and sexy and smart and talented. Heā€™s not the most talkative when it comes to that stuff, that man literally blushes at everything. But his actions speak louder than his words. Just because he is dating a woman who doesnā€™t look like Nic does not mean he does not find Nic attractive and it also does not mean he rejected Nic by doing so.
As @jenhack beautifully put in the comments: Nic is not bothered! She is busy talking to other SAG nominees and being lauded by her peers. She does not need to, or have to be defined by any man she is connected with.
Crazy Lukolas do not only hate on Jake and Nic but they also hate on Luke and Antonia. Have you seen all the nasty stuff they have called this poor girl?
Sorry this has been very long but I just need everybody to stop projecting their hurt feelings and traumas on Nicola and Luke PLEASE!
PS: the ā€œyouā€ is not just aimed at you specifically anon, but everybody who agrees with that discourse of Luke hurting Nic by dating another woman and taking her to the premieres that I am tired of hearing about. And letā€™s not forget Nic took Jake to that premiere tooā€¦
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myokk Ā· 2 days ago
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MADDDYYYYY !!!!!!! šŸ’–šŸ’–šŸ’– (& ELOISE!!!!!!)
I'm slower than molasses as usual šŸ¤­šŸŒ technically where i live I'm only one day late which is a miracle, truly šŸ˜†šŸ’–
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL (this will conclude my bday spam, I promise) šŸ„³āœØļøšŸ«¶ it doesn't surprise me how much gorgeous art and love you received for your special day. You're such a ray of sunshine in this fandom. Your art and writing are both so wonderful and gave me so much inspiration, but it was definitely your super kind and yappy nature that made it feel safe and fun to actually participate in this fandom instead of just lurking šŸ˜†šŸ’–šŸ’– THANK YOU Ɨ 1000000000000 for being you and for your art and passion and just for being a generally awesome human. šŸ’–šŸ«‚šŸ’–šŸ«‚
I hope you've been having the best time enjoying the mountains, getting settled, and life slowing down again šŸ’– *irl hermit mode reactivated*
(I had to seriously adjust my ambitions after this month of craziness LOL this was meant to be a lil cover of sorts for the comic im making you, which was also supposed to be done for your birthday.........but I'll get to work on that now without a deadline which will be the best because I can let my inner perfectionist run wild šŸ¤­ also, I know clumsy isn't meant to be Eloise, but, you know I love imagining her/her variants as the mc in all your works and I especially wanted to see her in this romantic/moody divination settingšŸ’–)
Can't wait to learn more from you and create more art (maybe even write) alongside ya this year. šŸ«¶āœØļø I hope it's the most spectacular new year of āœØļøYOUāœØļø
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AƑDLCLDKKFLSƑXƑDƑƑSLFKSJFJEBCBID AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YOU ARE TOO SWEET I LOVE THIS SO SO SO SO SO MUCHšŸ˜­ā™„ļø LOOK AT HERšŸ„¹ ALKDJCJSKCJDJSJSJ YOU GOT HER BRAT ATTITUDE DOWN *PERFECTLY*šŸ¤­šŸ¤­ & omg you finished sooner than I expectedšŸ˜†ā™„ļø ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE COMIC OF THIS SCENE BC I LOVE THE DIVINATION SCENE SO MUCH AS YOU KNOWšŸ¤­ (I love putting Eloise into all of these oneshotsā€¦even if I donā€™t name her it is always the same sweetheart bratā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļø)
I am SO happy we somehow started talking last year & now look at usšŸ„¹šŸ„¹šŸ„¹ my (other) Canadian wifeā€¦ā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļøā™„ļø interacting with you ALWAYS makes my day & ALWAYS makes me smile!! Nobody else I talk with really gets all of my weird lifestyle adjustments/health stuff like you došŸ˜† & I always love talking about reading & hearing about your life & literally just yapping about EVERYTHING with you !!!! šŸ«¶šŸ«¶šŸ«¶šŸ«¶šŸ«¶ (be prepared for some Count of Monte Cristo spam STAT !!!!)
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faceofpoe Ā· 2 days ago
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Poe, I was delighted, nay, obsessed with the post you reblogged about Collapsed Coruscant. What do you think would happen there after everyone with any credits fucked off to Hosnian Prime or wherever?
Ha, hello friend! Thank you for the much-needed break from doomscrolling. XD
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My morbid obsession with Coruscant has always been around how we've seen it (it's so twisted! it just keeps burying itself, layer by layer! the iconic episode 10 Luthen&Lonni shot is of course an excellent example of the old mostly-forgotten infrastructure but my favorite glimpse of the depths is actually in the final Clone Wars season (there's a fucking lake! fucking what. and even THAT is like... so HIGH relative to the surface) (the SURFACE! there's some twisted remnant of a dead planet down there!) (I have gathered through the course of researching for a TBB fic that the TCW portrayal is largely born from a canceled video game called 1313? I think? Lost to the Dark Times the Disney I imagine. Anyway I digress)(MiniPoe just came down to tell me about his Sonic Encyclo-speedia and something about Metal Sonic getting too much backstory(?)(maybe?)so I lost my train of thought)).
BUT if we take a moment to imagine the infrastructure that must go into keeping the lower levels habitable (I'm not sure what the canon (if any) on how deep one can go) with food and water and air (I mean - AIR, at some depth surely it's just suffocating surely??) -
Side tangent there was an old EU novel in the New Jedi Order bonkers era where a mass evacuation of Coruscant/collapse of the government-ish happened and the novel Traitor has a character wandering the desolation of the planet and all the destruction and I don't remember a lot from it (there were def monsters though) but it's probably where my obsession was born.
Additional side tangent one of the EU X-wing novels has a fun little bit with a star destroyer buried (somehow??? these books were written pre-prequels, mind) under the city and it blasts its way free and just MAYHEM DESTRUCTION DEATH like millions of people just -
LAST side tangent in I thiiiiink the EU Jedi Academy trilogy (do not quote me on that) (also pre-prequels days) the Very Young Solo twins wandered off and ended up finding their way to the bottom of Coruscant where they met a dude who was like... a self-proclaimed king of the underworld (I think he'd once been some govt lackey under Palpatine maybe? I read these like 14 years ago lol) and he'd fled and was ruling happily in the depths and upon being informed 'oh hey yeah it's not like that anymore the Empire is gone you can come back up now' he was all "why would I I am a KING down here?" and just fucked off back to the basement.
Point being the EU was ridiculous as all fuck but it had fun playing with Coruscant before we had a Lucas-approved visual of Coruscant.
BUT if all the wealth up and fled Coruscant after the Empire. Hm. I mean, we still see a significant govt presence on the planet a handful of years later in Mando s3 I believe? So I like to imagine there was a sense of 'hey let's not murder trillions via negligence' but as time goes on and instability heightens and whatever the fuck First Order schisming or some shit (sorry I'm the worst sort of Star Wars fan (the type who thinks Star Wars would be good if only it were good))-
I feel like Coruscant would actually become a bastion (lol (no one gets that joke probably)) for remaining (wealthy) Imperial ideologues. Like - maybe some money would flee but I actually wonder if plenty wouldn't move in and continue enjoying living atop all the poor denizens of the depths. Content to live in the shadow of former Imperial glory and leave the New Republic to its rebuilding.
Ensuing power struggle with underworld warlord sorts who have been moving up since the Empire was yeeted? Waiting until the New Republic gets bored rehabilitating the galaxy to come all the way up and claim the prime real estate?
Eventual massive division and power struggle among a bunch of chaos factions, basically, is my proposal. Eventually, winning becomes more important than maintaining the infrastructure and supply lines. Eventually, maybe, the vicious competition for said supply lines ends up severing them altogether. Plenty of safer business to pursue, in the galactic rebuilding. Coruscant slowly fades from the greater galactic awareness. Left to its madness. Left to tear itself apart. Left to rot. Eventually left, undoubtedly, by many of the same sorts who set it on its slow death spiral in the first place.
Coruscant eventually goes dark.
Coruscant eventually goes quiet.
Every new level constructed through the millennia was, of course, built to be the best, the top, built to last.
How strange to finally have one emerge the victor, standing proud atop a dead city.
But the planet is just the same thing it always was, far back as history remembers - a tomb at the heart of the galaxy.
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do u have hcs for sams post canon family life
Ok so gonna preface this with the fact that I hold opinions that I think are relatively uncommon in this corner of Samblr which is that as a general overarching thing Sam was relatively happy, he and blurry partner stayed together and were mostly happy, and Sam was on the whole a pretty good dad. Not that everything was perfect, far from it, but that generally it all worked out ok. I feel this way mostly tbh because if I didn't I would genuinely struggle to get any enjoyment out of the finale. I'm a FAKE Sam suffering enjoyer lmao. It's already deeply fucking depressing to me to imagine Sam spending eternity in heaven with Dean being squished back into The Roles, I need SOMETHING so cling too lol.
ANYWAYS that being said:
Said this before but although I am fairly flexible on identity of blurry partner my personal favourite thing to come back to is that she is Amelia. So I'm gonna run with her for the rest of these.
Related to this is that I think when we see Sam leave the bunker in the finale to go on the hunt in Texas that ended up being the last time he ever returned. He didn't mean it to be, it just happened. Maybe subconsciously he knew because he'd packed the little memory box with pictures etc in the trunk of the Impala without thinking about it. Anyway keeping this on track, he ends up staying in Texas and eventually, he and Amelia run into each other again - her having left Don again after things didn't work out a few years ago (gonna be real with you I think Don was abusive) and end up reconnecting.
Riot and Miricle are kinda grumpy but tolerant about each other.
They also eventually adopt an old lady tabby cat from the local shelter who absolutely terrorises both dogs, but dotes on Sam.
Sam ends up telling Amelia the truth about his life about 3 months into their relationship restarting, not all of it, but enough to keep her aware. She says that honestly even though it sounds crazy it makes a LOT of sense of how Sam was when they first met. This is the point at which they decide they do want their relationship to last and be serious. Amelia suggests they do couple's counselling together, given both their past issues if they really want to make this work.
He and Amelia never marry for a variety of reasons, but it works for them.
Sam ends up getting a degree - I think in something like anthropology (me an archaeologist totally not biased here lol), he does it through a distance learning program so mostly online but with some in-person classes and workshops.
DJ wasn't a planned pregnancy and it took a lot of discussion between them to decide to go ahead. Sam in particular was very anxious about the idea of being an actual dad to an actual baby, as much as he was kinda one to Jack he knows this is a whole different level. Amelia never wanted kids with Don. Amelia is also in her 40s by the time it happens so there are extra potential complications to consider. In the end they both agree that they want go ahead, and they both acknowledge that this will probably be their only kid.
Already mentioned Sam and DJ being autistic elsewhere but that's very precious to me.
Sam does struggle to find a balance between making sure he's there for DJ in a way his dad wasn't for him and being too much of a helicopter parent. He's SO conscious of DJ being an only child and the potential for loneliness stemming from that (absolutely projecting his own childhood loneliness SO hard and of course, his ideas on sibling companionship are NOT normal lol). As DJ get's older Sam does manage to relax a little, although it is still an issue from time to time.
That being said as I mentioned previously re the autism headcannon this level of worry also means that Sam puts in SO much work and research into being a supportive dad to an autistic kid.
Amelia is the 'breadwinner' in the relationship, continuing to work as a vet, Sam works a series of different part-time jobs over the years, mostly involving fixing stuff. After he gets his degree he works a couple of days a week at the local library as an assistant.
Related, finally stopping hunting gave him time to really catch up with and assess his body, and a lot of the weight and wear and tear of what he'd been through hit him quite suddenly. He has chronic fatigue issues in particular for the rest of his life which is why part-time work ends up being the best solution for him. Although Amelia, and DJ when he's a teenager, do still frequently have to sit him down and force him to stop trying to do too much at once.
Amelia passes away before Sam. She had been dead for about 5 years by the time Sam died.
Sam keeps very little contact with the hunting world, but Jody does still come to visit. DJ is very fond of her, much to Sam's delight.
The first time Sam had to look after DJ on his own after Amelia went back to work full time and was working a nightshift he was stuck to him like glue, Amelia came home to find him curled up on the floor asleep right next to DJs cot.
Sam loves helping DJ with his homework, and DJ loves it too - its their special time together, and its when Sam is able to be most emotionally open and present.
Sam's issues with food never go away, and its one thing he and Amelia do get into fights over is Sam (unintentionally) putting some of his issues on DJ (think Sam telling Jack he shouldn't eat sugary cereal).
Sam and Amelia both discover a love of gardening and they spend a lot of their free time together working on their garden. Amelia particularly loves roses and has a little rose garden that becomes their little sanctuary (Amelia's ashes are buried there). Sam creates a little healing herbs garden, he doesn't actively practice witchcraft but he likes to make little tinctures and teas and stuff.
I'll stop there lol
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ceedak Ā· 1 day ago
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can we get a ceedak timeline šŸ¤” i feel like thereā€™s a lot idk abt them fr šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
yes u absolutely can i could talk about them forever and ever šŸ„³šŸ„³
disclaimer: i do wanna say this is just from what iā€™ve gathered because i didnā€™t become super fixated on nfl rpf until last year </3 one day iā€™ll do a legit deep dive like an insane person and update with all my findingsā€¦
second disclaimer: im delusional yes and a part of me straight up thinks that theyā€™ve had to have hooked up at least once bc i love to psychoanalyze people i'll never meet but iā€™ll make sure to say when iā€™m being fully delusional KSDJFHSKDS
putting it under a read more because iā€™m sure itā€™ll be much longer than necessary
also i will reblog this and add links to some videos!!
SO before i get into like when ceedee was drafted and such i wanna talk about how invisible string coded they are because i love shit like this sm
both were born in louisiana only about an hour and a half apart from each other until ceedee moved to texas as a child after hurricane katrina hit (heā€™s said heā€™s moved around a couple of times as kid in interviews before)
dak went to mississippi st. in college and ceedeeā€™s dream school was LSU (rival collegesā€¦ šŸš¬) but he had committed to oklahoma (also they wouldnā€™t have met or anything in college anyway because dak was drafted in 2016 and ceedee started playing in college in 2017 but i digress it makes my brain light up anyway lol)
when dak was drafted he was projected to go like late second round/early third round of the draft but šŸ—æ he got into some trouble beforehand (driving under the influence) and ended up falling to the 4th round (after the front office kept trying to trade up to get a different backup QB)
dak also had to compete for his spot as a backup and was named starter after romo was injured in 2016. this was dakā€™s rookie year and he led them to the playoffs - almost to the nfc championship game. after this he basically took the job from romo
okay so FAST FORWARD to the 2020 draft. ceedee was projected to go top 10 and he fell all the way to SEVENTEEN so the cowboys were able to grab him then (drafted bpa instead of for need)
idk all of this is just very <333 to me that so many things managed to fall into place just right and they managed to find each other on the same team out of THIRTY TWO teams it makes me weeeep šŸ¤§ also just something else that i think is very cute because i truly am a little insane: ceedee was born april 8th and dakā€™s jersey number is 4 and ceedeeā€™s is 88 so 4/8 ALL THE DOTS CONNECT SOMEHOWā€¦
so weā€™ll go through a teensy bit about dak i suppose and then ceedee this wonā€™t be too long
dak: baby of his family and has two brothers. his parents divorced when he was little and he was very close with his mom before she passed away in 2013 (heā€™s started a foundation since then for cancer research and suicide prevention/mental health). went to mississippi st, cowboys starter his rookie year, etc etc. he also lost his brother to suicide in 2020 and heā€™s said before he feels a responsibility to live on and carry his and his momā€™s legacy throughout his life. heā€™s like suuuuuper underrated in the league i feel and a lot of cowboys fans are complete assholes to him all the time it makes me so mad cos they could literally never ever make me hate him - he makes me so weepy šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ umm but yeah heā€™s donated a ton to children cancer funds too and donated during BLM protests and things like that - he won the walter payton man of the year award. he just had a baby and got engaged in october (remember for the yaoi LOL) ok im gonna stop here cause i donā€™t wanna rant too much lol
btw i know what you are dak prescott:
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ceedee: MY BELOVEDā€¦ my favorite my absolute favorite. he has two brothers and two little sisters. idk if heā€™s the eldest or not tbh i see different things all the time that heā€™s the second eldest whatever not that important i guess. so blah blah college blah blah - he wears 88 on the team because thatā€™s considered really special to the cowboys franchise and is reserved for elite receivers. idk heā€™s the most beautiful man ever and he does a lot of donating too - i know he participates in a lot of football youth camps a lot to help kids out and he likes to provide meals to families around thanksgiving and christmas time. a loooot of cowboys fans have criticized him for not being that much of a leader and pouting a lot on the sidelines (which he does sometimesā€¦ my mimir) but i think this last season heā€™s reaaaaallyyy taken a step into more of a leader type position especially with dak being out and heā€™s proven himself more than enough. he LOOOVES spending money on clothes itā€™s so cuteā€¦ gonna be a sad day when the class war happens and iā€™m faced with cedarian lamb. ummm i also legit think heā€™s gay and closet is made of glass but whatever
see this is the problem i never stfu but okay CEEDAK what you actually asked about ksjdksjdks
PRE-2020 SEASON: this was before ceedee was drafted (some stuff i found last night) and this is what i mean when i say i havenā€™t done like a deep dive into these things bc iā€™m sure thereā€™s soo much more but this kinda gives the general vibes
ā€œI was like a little kid at the playground,ā€ CeeDee tells us. (on the first time Dak texted him to invite him over to his house, says it was surreal.) august 21, 2020
and i actually hunted the exact clip down where he says this: (will reblog with link - skip to 4:25 he talks for like a minute or so - sorry the audioā€™s funky itā€™s because of covid so all the reporters werenā€™t in the room iā€™m pretty sure) DELUSIONS: you canā€™t tell me ceedee wasnā€™t nursing a crush here idgaf
2020 SEASON:
ceedeeā€™s rookie year
personal stuff happened with dak before the season started - this is when he lost his brother to suicide and heā€™s been really outspoken about mental health since then. on top of that he broke his ankle during week 5 of the season (and tried to snap it back into place by himself on the field). dak was performing on like a sort of insane level before the injury happened so </3 what couldā€™ve been and all thatā€¦ the what-ifs of it allā€¦ so that year they werenā€™t able to play together as much
Oct 11, 2020: ā€œCeeDee Lamb said he texted Dak as soon as he got out of the shower. Thanked him for everything heā€™s done for him and they were gonna hold it down for him until they see him on the field again.ā€ (after the game dak got hurt in)
POST 2020 SEASON:
"He came back from his second surgery about two months ago so heā€™s walking around, rehabbing, doing everything right," Lamb said Wednesday. "Itā€™s great to see, especially when you seen him go down. You saw the look in his eyes and you saw how sad he was and how much this game meant to him. Just to see him smiling again, happy again, being with his guys is a great deal."
"First day he kind of caught me by surprise with his arm strength," Lamb said. "He knows the little nuances of the game to be better. He makes it easy to follow him, if you will."
2021 SEASON
ceedeeā€™s second year, he was in a WR room with amari cooper (currently on the bills) and michael gallup (now retired) blah blah season happened whateverrrr but AFTER this season the front office (iā€™ll always be mad about this lol) traded amari to the browns for a 5th round pick šŸ’€ hence THIS!!! which i consider the #Real beginning of ceedak:
ā€œDak Prescott asked for CeeDee Lambā€™s locker to be moved next to his: ā€˜My two other locker mates left, so I was a little lonely. With him being young, hopefully heā€™s my WR until Iā€™m done playing. Just bring him closer, more conversations, heā€™s right there to talk and communicate.ā€™ā€
said he had no doubt ceedee could become his "main guy"
hereā€™s some fun stuff i found from 2021 too
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t3hCmIZN-YI&ab_channel=DallasCowboys (7 min mark this was after a game winning td in overtime against new england)
ā€œCeeDee Lamb on game-winning 35-yard TD: ā€˜It was the best feeling ever, honestly.ā€™ā€
2022 SEASON:
https://youtu.be/T73xGDsFiVo?si=Qn_dwK1yfnHPiMya talks about dak here at 7:50 ā€œall i need is himā€ šŸ¤§
heā€™s actually said this a couple times lol he says shit like ā€œweā€™re all we gotā€ about each other - heā€™s said it this most recent season too so <3
dak injured his thumb this season though so he was out for like 7 weeks i think i canā€™t remember off the top of my head lol but again another season where they didnā€™t get to play much together
fun 2022 stuff:
ā€œLast year, Cowboys caked Dak in the face on the field for his 28th birthday. On his 29th today, CeeDee told us they planned to do the same in the locker room. Hoped Dak would think he was safe after no cake on the field, and then locker room ambush.ā€
ā€œScene here: Dak was talking to us at his locker. CeeDee walks past wearing metallic red lens sunglasses indoors and eating chicken. Says the key to following up ass-kicking is ā€˜keep kicking ass.ā€™ā€
ā€œDak on CeeDeeā€™s vibe: Yeah, cool as hell - says ā€˜keep kicking assā€™ while heā€™s eating.ā€
ā€œDak Prescott walked by during our interview with CeeDee Lamb - QB1: CeeDeeā€™s that dude! / WR1: Happy birthday, Dak!ā€
link posted in reblog: skip to 2:30 he almost says he loves dak lol also very
2023: THE SEASON OF CEEDAK!!!
https://youtu.be/7_WRIzb5fPA?si=R0TETc2qtW0IOP5P the infamous "was gonna take him out for dinner tonight" clip is from this aka what got me hooked on ceedak lol (this interview is just so good in general i love ceedee sm - def recommend watching! such a nice look at his personality)
this is where my delusions take over i deadass think they hooked up at LEAST once around this time lol maybe end of 2022 season maybe early 2023 season IDK but anyway during this year the offense was soo wack for a couple of weeks until the bye week and then ceedee made some noise about it bc he felt like he wasn't being as utilized (which is true i'm so serious mccarthy was SUCH an annoying coach lol) but quotes:
ā€œCowboys WR CeeDee Lamb said Dak Prescott approached him and said: ā€˜If you have a problem with anything, just come up to me and weā€™ll talk about it.ā€™ Lamb said he and Dak worked on getting on the same page their first day back in the building after the 49ers loss.ā€
Dak: ā€˜I mean, a frustrated player that feels like we all couldā€™ve done better and feels like he can change the game, I understand it. I really do. So itā€™s in the sense of just communicating with himā€¦ CeeDee is a guy that Iā€™ll never lose confidence in and trust who he is and understand why heā€™s frustrated. But at the end of the day, heā€™s a leader. Itā€™s about him leading other guys and picking other guys up and him just trying to make sure weā€™re all pushing our best. Thatā€™s where the frustration is, we have to remove that. And he will. Heā€™s a young player thatā€™s growing by the day and heā€™ll only get better. Heā€™ll be better because of that.ā€™
but after they switched the offense around dak and ceedee went craaaazyyy - ceedee was named all pro, dak was in mvp talks (should have won it to be honest i'm sorry lamar i still love you <3) but 2023 cowboys will seriously haunt me forever lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sudQu72KDXs&ab_channel=NFLonFOX
DELUSIONS: dak announced he was having a baby like two weeks after this game SO letā€™s just sayā€¦. maybeā€¦. perhapsā€¦ they were hooking upā€¦ ceedee probably knew before the public did - not saying thatā€™s why he seems a little upset at the beginning of this clip cause who knows šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø like i said DELUSIONS butā€¦ i canā€™t help it when the timeline timelines donā€™t shoot the messenger
also i do wanna mention that dakā€™s fiance follows a loooot of cowboys players on ig but she does not follow ceedee and he doesnā€™t follow her AGAIN just delusionsā€¦. butā€¦ iykyk šŸ‘€
sooo they were poppin off in 2023, ceedee was breaking records and shit, won nfc east, went to the playoffs and then i DON'T wanna talk about it i have my theories about wtf happened during that playoffs packers game but šŸ’€šŸ’€ anyway the offseason before the 2024 season was genuinely the worst of my life because BOTH ceedee and dak had to get extended and jerry jones (who is the worst) waited until after training camp to get them both signed lol so ceedee wasn't participating in training camp at all which affected them in the beginning of the 2024 season which was a complete mess A MESS but here's some fun stuff after ceedee signed his extension/during that offseason
ā€œRemarkable. Thatā€™s who CeeDee Lamb is. ā€¦ Heā€™s special. Heā€™s just getting going and as long as Iā€™m here, heā€™s gonna keep stacking these records year after year.ā€
ā€œCeeDee Lamb strongly defended Dak: No one deserves the criticism that he gets. The way he gets talked about is crazy.ā€
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2023-2024 OFFSEASON:
worst months of my life lol ceedee was holding out for his new contract and didnā€™t get it signed until likeā€¦ august i think? anddd dak was signed fucking three hours before kickoff the first week of the season lol i HATE this front office
but hereā€™s some fun quotes after ceedee was signed:
CeeDee Lamb: ā€œWe were texting quite a bit. Obviously I missed being out there, competing with himā€¦ for is being so in tune together and all it takes is one text message or one conversation, one phone callā€¦ for us bothā€¦ having the same passion for the game, same love for the game. I want whatā€™s best for Dak and vice versa. Shout out to him too for getting that bag, too. Weā€™ll be together for the next five years.ā€
Dak Prescott on CeeDee Lambā€™s added muscle weight: ā€œHeā€™s wearing a lot more sleeveless shirts. As long as the speed is there, and it looks like it is (in practice), Iā€™m fine with however big he is.ā€ LMAO??
Dak Prescott: ā€œI peeped the biceps. Heā€™s wearing more sleeveless shirts now.ā€
Dak Prescott recently on CeeDee Lamb: ā€œHeā€™s talented. He works hard. Heā€™s special. Heā€™s the best receiver in the league for a reason. And Iā€™ve seen Instagram videos. I know youā€™ve seen him. Heā€™s working. And he works hard. So I have no angst, no worries about when he gets here that weā€™re not going to pick up where we left off. And when you're a stud like that and youā€™re smart like he is and youā€™re good at communicating, that makes that process that much easier. So itā€™s not like weā€™ve got to build something. Weā€™ve got that. We just got to reignite it when he gets here.ā€
on how much ceedee worked with dak at the field at dakā€™s house even though he was staying away from the team: ā€œOften. I would say quite often. Anytime that Iā€™m back in town, and heā€™s obviously back here, I hit him and thenā€¦ itā€™s veryā€¦ good having a rich quarterback.ā€
Dak Prescottā€™s thoughts on the tandem of him and CeeDee Lamb being compared to legendary duos like Joe Montana and Jerry Rice: ā€œI think that says a lot just cause weā€™ve only done it for four years and you just named some of those duos that did it for their whole careers. But then again, I feel like we can be better than all of themā€¦ so love the comparisons, they sound good and all, but hopefully one day people are saying these next duos and next tandems can be like me and CeeDee.ā€ (i will kms over this quote one day)
iā€™m sure thereā€™s things iā€™m missing but this is already sooooo long lol so
2024 SEASON:
WORST SEASON OF MY LIFEEEEEE / ceedak angst era
the front office set this team up to fail and let like a ton of players walk in the offseason, didnā€™t use free agency, injury riddled team, had a bunch of rookies starting but anyway just gonna go game by game really quick because this is when i was locked tf in and itā€™s more recent so ?? more detail seems alright when it's necessary also i wrote so many half-finished post-game fics this season to cope with how terrible it was iā€™m cryingggg it was insane
cowboys vs browns: i was at this game :) good game they won
cowboys vs saints: blocked this game out actually!!!
cowboys vs ravens: fake ass comeback also the game ceedee CRASHED OUT on the field lskdjslkdjsskjdsk which is so funny bc i literally love lamar sm and was so excited to watch butā€¦ my players wanted to make me MISERABLE
this was said a day or two after the game by ceedee (bc he fumbled during it and then wasn't there for post game media people andddd was yelling at dak on the sideline šŸ—æ)
ā€œOur relationship has, if anything, gotten stronger. Donā€™t let what, whatā€™s out there fool you. Weā€™re brothers to the end. We know that we all we got, and I tip my hat off to him. I got the utmost respect for him.ā€
ā€œSo with that being said, everything is gonna come out - the energy, the passion, the love, the fight - and then weā€™ll make up in the end. So no, no craziness now. Donā€™t.ā€
dak also said something about his rhythm with ceedee being a ā€œrare feelingā€ whichā€¦ okay internalized homophobia but i CANNOT for the life of me find the actual quote iā€™ve searched through my gallery but itā€™s not there </3 if i find iā€™ll add later (iā€™m pretty sure it was after the baltimore game but i canā€™t remember)
cowboys vs giants: this is a tremicah game no need to mention ceedak idt - nasty ugly win but whatever
cowboys vs steelers: dak prescott giving me a heart attack 12 fucking times during this game
cowboys vs lions: donā€™t wanna talk about it! iā€™m a hater! always will be sorry!!! ben johnson statpadding on my sorry ass terrible team i was SICKKKKK
BYE WEEK: my trials and tribulationsā€¦. my nfl rpfā€¦
CeeDee Lamb on getting in some extra work with Dak Prescott during their bye week: ā€œWe love our bye weeks. We took advantage of it. We got right. We used every opportunity to get better and I feel like itā€™s going to show. We got on some routes, and obviously the timing is everything. We needed that.ā€
now ummm this is the week dak got engaged so. which is really funny because after the announcement post on ig ceedee went GHOST on instagramksjdjks like i went back to check because iā€™m crazy (these are delusions btw) and he had been posting like once a weekā€¦ maybe once every two weeks PRETTY consistently like for at least a couple of months but after the engagement happened there was pretty much nothing for likeā€¦ almost two months?? ummm which AGAIN iā€™m not saying anything iā€™m not insinuating anything buuuuutā€¦ā€¦ buuuuutā€¦.. also itā€™s really fucking funny because in this same interview ceedee dropped that he left the country during the bye week but didnā€™t post it on socials at all so iā€™m like ohhhhā€¦ youā€™re coping w the engagementā€¦ i see LMAO anyway
cowboys vs 49ers: sigghhhhā€¦.. lets get into it
SO this was a loss but two ceedee touchdowns.. iā€™m leaving with something!!!
ā€œYeah, I found CeeDee,ā€ Prescott said when reflecting back on Lambā€™s breakout in the Bay Area. ā€œHe did a good job of getting open, running all of his routes hard no matter where he was, if he was the one or if he was backside on a concept. Loved his intentionality in the game. He kind of said something like that to me during the game, midway through the game, like ā€˜Yeah, weā€™re back.ā€™ And that was before, I think, his two touchdown drives. So just him even playing with that confidence, communicating that, it gives me a lot of confidence.ā€
super hopeful right maybe they'll really connect again and things'll be fine LOL
cowboys vs falcons: worst game ever dak tore his hamstring off the bone like a fucking idiot and ceedee sprained his AC joint and would not stop going back out into the game i was ready to kms
cowboys vs eagles: not talking about it idc
cowboys vs texans: loss because ofc but whatever ceedak hugged before the game tho so i didnā€™t gaf about the loss - i canā€™t find the clip rn but if i do iā€™ll post it
cowboys vs commanders: this is when i accepted they were tanking and then they decided to just be elite for whatever reason lol made me so happy though ceedee was so happy <33
cowboys vs giants: whatever
cowboys vs bengals: worst fucking game of my life nothing to do with ceedak but one of my other fave playerā€™s (i also ship him w ceedee idgaf) knee EXPLODED so that was so much fun to deal with
cowboys vs panthers: i still canā€™t believe bryce young decided to forget how to play football in this game im crying
cowboys vs tampa: again they just wanted to be elite for whatever reason
cowboys vs: eagles: donā€™t wanna talk about it idc
cowboys vs commanders: WHATEVER thanks for the 12th draft pick ashton jeanty you will be a cowboy
SO. thatā€™s basically where everything's at lmfao worst season EVERRRRR with ceedak ANGST um but yeah hopefully 2025 will be better... iā€™m cautiously optimistic because their old coach is finally FINALLY gone because he was really limiting them and their ability you know? 2023 season was amazing and then 2024 started and it was likeā€¦ mccarthy just reverted back to his old scheme that wasnā€™t working. it was really annoyingksdkskds. but the new coach (despite it seeming like a silly hire) had a decent press conference (that ceedee didnā€™t attend bc he was playing around in paris LOL) andddd he seems to be setting up a nice staff around him so hopefully hopefully hopefully 2025 is a lot better and ceedak will save me againā€¦ canā€™t wait for training camp omg
anyway if u read all this iā€™m SO sorry i hope itā€™sā€¦ expansive enough?? i wanted to include kind of how itā€™s been through the years and i had a lot more to add for 2023/2024 because thatā€™s when my adhd was just like Yea letā€™s hyperfixate on this so. been stuck here for awhile and iā€™ll probably be stuck here for years and years and years <3
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I was going to jokingly be like 'three threads one post GO !' lol but then I was like- no, I need to sit down re-read all of this and organize my thoughts better and probably still miss stuff I wanted to say. Time to have multiple tabs open !
Mark and Kate talking about surviving horrific body altering trauma! About struggling to relate to people after enduring horrible shit! yess. Figure out that you can be vulnerable with someone and you don't have to be having sex with them or insisting you love them so much they have to understand- you CAN have platonic meaningful relationships with people! Sometimes it IS very good to have an outside perspective. If TT were essentially Kate's family (and then they just... splinter into nonsense- okay- detour- why the hell weren't TT WAY more up in Robot's bizz about the fact he was a 30 year old man hanging out with teens for years? Aside from just letting the narrative give us general logistics on how they all got together- where are their personal feelings on this? Presumably they did treat him differently bc they believed him to be a robot- how do they feel about that trust being violated? Things they were willing to say to him? Things he might have seen? Why would any of them be okay with someone who lied to them like that still being in charge of their well being? Why am I once again stuck with an awkward romance storyline (Amanda and Rudy) instead of what is naturally there in the TT dynamic? Just?? hello?? Like, 'I violated one of my coworkers bc I realized he made you horny' is wild as it is- but the fact that I am getting that storyline instead of 'my coworker is mad at me because I lied to him for years'? Where are the GoG and TT dealing with liars meetings? Where is Immortal talking to them about what its like to have someone not turn out to be who you thought they were??
TT and GoG 'guess I wasn't the only one being lied to' dynamic we SHOULD have gotten.
On the retiring heroes line- where is more stuff with Samson! He didn't retire, he was SIDELINED bc he lost his powers and then he clawed his way back in. How does he feel about people willingly stepping away? Is he an insane adrenaline junky? Was he going to lose his health insurance if he didn't get back into things? What are his motivations !! If he was a member of GoG why wasn't he at the funeral. Why wasn't he up there talking with Nolan. Why didn't he come by for drinks. Lemme see THAT dynamic. Let's hear what Nolan has to say about his 'coworkers' when one of them trying to mourn is RIGHT THERE. What would his advice be to Mark about loss? Like, people who work jobs like that have a certain degree of disassociation from things/dark humor etc etc, but how would he not have a different outlook than Nolan? Was he pissed at GoG bc he wasn't with them after his powers were gone? How did he feel about the Nolan reveal? Secretly glad that you weren't around with the deaths happened? Insanely guilty that you weren't?
Aside from Atlantis being pissed about their dead king, like... did any other country demand reparation for what Omni-Man did? Was all that destruction apparently limited to the USA? Were aide packages sent? Refused? How many times even outside of contexts like that, were heroes sued for interfering in the matters of other governments workings? What are the extradition laws of superheroes? If they are all secret identity types- how do you identify where to send the court order? Do all heroes belong to a global registry official or not, and that is where their rights are determined? There has to be some sort of court for dealing with heroes no ??
Nolan isolating Mark and Debbie initially viewing it just as him being protective, bc it's a dangerous world out there! Stuff happens! But then Mark starts to push back against his dad, and she wants him to have human friends and suddenly it doesn't seem so protective bc Nolan is ALSO keeping him from that. Debbie finding superhero partners but struggling to find superhero PARENTS and just trying to figure out where the line is. Why are so few heroes parents? Just bias of where she is? Do most retire/take a break to raise their kids before going back? Are most too paranoid about the GDA taking an interest in their offspring to risk it? Are there RULES/laws about heroes having kids? How fucked would that be?
Does Mark ever wonder why he's an only child? Did they only want one kid? Was he an accident? Was Debbie willing to have more but Nolan's behavior with bby!Mark weirded her out too much? Was him being absent just enough of a deterrent to her not wanting to deal with all that again? If the GoG were a network for them, was Mark like a weird little celebrity to THEM bc yeah, heroes tend not to have kids? Aside from just being nepo baby, was he basically only child'd by an entire superhero team? What was that like?
While I'm not too familiar with the DCU- your batfam meta posts are intiguing- so in transfering some of the broader strokes from them- I think you tackling a 'Mark isn't Nolan's biological son' fic would be fascinating. Sort of a step to the side of the 'what if Mark never got his powers' fic that sometimes pop up in the fandom
OOOOOO chewing on this currently, hm, the much a distinct flavor of exactly what youā€™re talking about, but the potential for more family drama depending on WHO knows. Does Mark know?? Is he waiting every day only to be crushed? Does he confused non-Debbie features with Nolanā€™s? I suppose Iā€™m not the most enthusiastic about non-power AUs, but I think thereā€™s something very fun to explore about Mark having to settle with, if he knows all his life, he will never have powers? I think the trajectory of his dreams will obviously shift, I can see him still having that distinct fatherly idolization, but perhaps embraces being useful to the GDA? Cecilā€™s number one internā€”only internā€”curtesy of nepotism, ha! There is something tickling me about Mark taking the Robin Route/Role for the Teen Team in terms of having no powers, just insane skills, BUT thereā€™s something way more delicious about intern Mark when s1e01 happens and Mark tries snooping around to find out the truth about what happened to his Dad.
I wonder if, with Mark having a whole another father, if theyā€™re more or less distant relationship, depending on WHEN Nolan entered Markā€™s life? Like if Debbie met Nolan later for this, or just for fun, they dated once, separated (Mark being born during then), then they happened to stumble into each others lives again and Markā€™s already been born, anywhere from tween to teenager so thereā€™s a gap in how close they are. I feel like one important aspect of the whole Family Drama is how close theyā€™re supposed to be, a functional, loving family turned upside down? So I wonder what more distance does. I wonder how Nolan copes when his family is entirely human and he canā€™t project onto Mark.
I love thinking about these, omg.
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redid the heel. it fits now! mostly. its honestly still a smidge too long, but its not enough to bother redoing the whole heel again. i hope this heel will fit me well, it looks like its a square heel, which i've never tried before. its also a questionable length... seems to be 2.5 inches, which is how long i knit my heel flaps, but we will see how i like the fit when the socks are done! which should be soon enough, now.
i just have to knit the leg until its as tall as i want and then start the leg cable pattern. not a very difficult sock all things considered. the most difficult part was getting the size right, because following the pattern exactly did NOT get me a fit i enjoyed lol
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#Jesus christ. what a fucking week. its been January for a million fucking years#but this week has been good. very busy. i gave my 1st departmental presentation which i was real nervous abt#but i think my presentation was good. the department has a high standard for students to meet. like one of the guys who goes to the adjacent#department's student talks was like man it is night and day. the presentations in this department r so much better#so i feel like im getting a good education lol. and everyone was super supportive. like no one congratulated me besides my lab when i gave a#departmental talk for my masters. but here like everyone stopped to say good job and that the work sounds exciting. so that was nice.#and i feel like i spent so much time being social this week. im kinda drained and like oh god im fucking insufferable. but also im like well#if im being fucking annoying and ppl still Associate with me its their fucking problem lol. and also if u spend enough time around anyone#they become annoying and i still like my friends even if sometimes theyre annoying and its fine. everyone has the right to b a little#annoying haha. but i really like my lab mates. its fun talking to them. also everytime i talk to my old boss im like oh wow i am learing a#lot bc we talk abt my old system and my old work and i have new ideas abt how things function on a community level and she's like oh wow how#does that work? and i kinda kno what im talking abt and i still kinda love my desert cyanos a lot. and thats the other thing. i feel like#thats the other thing. i thought astr0biology was my guiding light but i think its actually just that i lov cyan0bacteria. somebody's gotta#and thats me... and my old boss haha and i have her to thank for that šŸ˜Š anyway. im feeling a lot my confident in my being here and in this#project. which is so crazy after the last 2 years of my life. Anyway. an aside but its been a crazy fucking week to b a scientist#bc of all the funding stuff. the post docs r really really stressed. as r the PIs. and my dad works for the government so he was telling me#all abt the fear within the VA. its crazy. and scary. but anyway. im so tired. Hopefully ill b able to properly draw this weekend but well#see. im a lil strung out haha#unrelated
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I am already a big enjoyer of Friede and Amethio's rivalry and dynamics in general, so if Crave turns out to be Amethio's father, I feel like this knowledge would reframe their rivalry in very interesting ways and give additional readings and perspectives..
#something something about amethio rejecting his father and friede stepping in to be the positive male figure in his life at that point#Not saying friede takes on that role (dad) because i don't interpret him that way at all#however he is very much meant to be someone amethio takes inspiration from#most adults in amethio's life aren't inspirational i think so friede is probably the first person he met who is free and independent etc#i need to be moderately invested in that theory so i'm not disappointed if it doesn't turn out to be true lol#but i think it adds a lot to the narrative.. amethio and liko's parallels etc and even friede's character!#the thought that he is giving back to the younger generation after being nurtured by teachers and mentors#oh friede the man that you are. the coolest guy ever that you are.. luv you#horizons tends to be very intentional about its writing.. the mentor character (friede) has been helped by Very Specific People#and feels indebted to them. before his rvt era. those people are liko's mother (lucca) and roy's grandfather. and director crave.#hmm. i wonder what that means!#(not saying friede isn't helped by the rvt. but they act as equals. lucca was a hiearchical superior as a teacher etc.)#also. on a personal level. i think it's funny if friede knew amethio's dad before meeting him#crave going like 'i'm glad my son has taken a liking to you professor friede :) i hope you can continue to get along'#and ame being like 'we don't get along? smh'#we'll see where that leads. but hz doesn't really trick its audience. it expects us to pick up on all these themes and hints here and there#like how this ep points out that yeah gibeon still being alive at this point seems odd and for him to be ame's grandpa too.#it's intentional! so i'm just pointing out reocurring patterns.. but yeah. we'll see#friede#hz074#character notes#episode notes
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rriverrunning Ā· 3 days ago
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ok back here again because these two excerpts are soooo interesting to look at together. brienne and catelyn's relationship is really deeply important to both of their characters, despite the relatively brief amount of time they spend together on-page, and imo its significance to the story doesn't end with catelyn's death.
in the yellow highlights, catelyn and brienne bring up the notion of doing things for the living vs. doing things for the dead (there's also a lot going on thematically in the green, but that's for another post lol). this question is extremely prominent in catelyn's chapters, especially as we see the way she is changed by grief. in earlier parts of acok, she brushes off offers of revenge for ned's death:
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she also makes a similar argument to brienne to stop her from essentially throwing her own life away to kill stannis on renly's behalf. (sidenote: knowing how brienne ends up in the last published chapters wrt lady stoneheart and jaime (living as of yet, unlike renly), and the general difference between brienne's feelings for renly vs jaime, this is something i'm personally really interested to see play out).
as the books progress however, the intense amount of loss and grief catelyn experiences throughout changes her view on this: after hearing about bran and rickon's alleged deaths, we see her savoring roose bolton's gift of theon's flayed skin, when just a book previously she was thinking of how seeing the lannister's heads would change nothing for her (after ned's death). and of course, this culminates in her final chapter after she witnesses robb's death and kills jinglebell, an innocent, with her own hands.
but while as readers we saw this evolution (devolution?) from catelyn's pov, we also have to remember that this isn't the cat that brienne knew. throughout asos brienne also experiences a lot of character development, but even so continues to think of the version of cat that she left at the end of acok, still acting on behalf of her wishes.
therefore i am so, so interested to see how this theme plays out for brienne (i haven't finished affc yet lol) because i think there's definitely something going on here with her competing allegiances: to the catelyn of her memories vs. lady stoneheart vs. to her living daughter(s but brienne thinks arya is dead) vs. her relationship to jaime vs. hers to the people of the riverlands/protecting the innocents who are casualties of their lords' actions. she's a character so defined by her idealism and desire to do the right thing -- though she often struggles to determine what the right thing is -- in a way that catelyn, who is quite jaded and tends to prioritize family and close personal ties, is not. and now that catelyn (or something close enough to her, at least in brienne's eyes) is walking around having been reduced to her desire for revenge, brienne is going to have to confront these theoretical questions about duty to the living and the dead in a very, very literal physical way.
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grvntld Ā· 8 months ago
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26 may 2024ā€”got my much wanted (((and needed))) pamper sesh (*į“—ĶˆĖ¬į“—Ķˆ)ź•¤*.ļ¾Ÿ im so happeh like yay!
š–”¼āŠ±āœæāŠ°š–”¼ hand spa x foot spa Ɨ hot stone massage Ɨ microdermabration and perfectio x face therapy
š–”¼āŠ±āœæāŠ°š–”¼ miss v, the one who attended to me, told me my hands are like a baby's bc theyre actually already soft prior to the hand spa lol
š–”¼āŠ±āœæāŠ°š–”¼ i supah dupah mega ovah missed doing this!
š–”¼āŠ±āœæāŠ°š–”¼ gosh tell me why did i stop doing this again???Āæ?? right, life happenedā€”
š–”¼āŠ±āœæāŠ°š–”¼ felt like a princessā€”nawp, wait, scratch that hMpf i felt like a dyosa fairy queen thank you very much
#grabe im so doing this again gRrRRRrRRRrrrrrr#ang saya ko kasi im doing things for mahself again#which no one has stopped me naman like even moosey kept telling me that i could do everything i want naman#and he will support me naman like kahit saang dagat ko pa gustuhing pumunta lol#namention niya yun kasi lately na-open up ko na plan ko magfreedive#and he was like oo nga diba matagal mo na yan gusto gawin#and then i was like oo nga noh why am i stopping mahself ba from doing things like?ĀæĀæ?Āæ?ĀæĀæ?#eniwey ive been doing a lot of things talaga that i love lately hehe pati nga yung mga matagal ko na gusto itry#nagpainting lessons me!!!!! sa church namin!!!!! IM SO HAPPEH HUHUHUHU#been a while since i held a paint brush like last time was high school pa ko#would u believe me if i tell u i was our batch's associate head artist for our school mag and paper#yEp once upon a time i was THAT kind of artist#and then šŸ‹šŸ‹šŸ‹šŸ‹šŸ‹šŸ‹ happened so i rlly lost touch doon sa creative aspect slash side ko na yun#like me being a writer is still with me pero yung one with the colors grabe nawala talaga kasi nagkaroom me ekis experience#so ayOrn we r going to hv another painting sesh soon!!!!! flowers naman ata hehehehehehehe#im so happeh kasi may mga ganitong activities sa church and i feel like im going back to my roots ganOrn#tapos nagstart na rin me practical driving classes ko sa car hehehe next is motorcycle maybe after this week#drivers license here i come!!!!!!!!!#tapos maybe freediving or ewan ko pa how abt sewing hehehehehhehe#gosh ang saya ko#may moments of lungkot pero dama ko rin yung gaan ykwim#naiiyak ako anUe bAaaaaaaaAAAaa#donut#cottoncandy#icecream#cookie#i did not check this for errors so excuse me if you ever see anything#skl ; šŸ¦‡ ba
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jrueships Ā· 3 months ago
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A HEAARRRRT IS A HOUSE FOR LOOVE AND IVE LEARRNNED THAT IT DONT TAKE MUCH TO BREAK A HEAARTT
sorry I just had to get that out lol I love that damn movie. That film, the temptations film (Paul and Cornbread my loves) and the little richard biopic will always have Leon as one of my fav actors idc idcccc also it took me way too long to find out the five heartbeats weren't a real group šŸ¤£
IS A HOUSE ! FOR LOVE !
And I've LEARNED ( ive leaarnnned!!) šŸ—£ā€¼ļøā€¼ļø
NO NO, DONT SAY SRRY FOR HAVING GOOD TASTE. NEVER BE SRRY FOR HAVING GOOD TASTE !!!!
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ALL ur takes are MWAH. Just MWAH.
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PAUL AND CORNBREAD LOL!! THE LOVES!. OUR BEAUTIFUL LOVES!!!. UGH. UGH. IM SO OBSESSED WITH THESE MOVIES. BOTH!! OF THESE GROUPS ARE REAL AS LONG AS U BELIEVE!!!
& i know dresser ran to that limo once he heard Eddie begging for his job back (our poor softie gentleman baritone baby..) but i think somebody should be jt's moral compass bcs duck is just šŸ˜­ sick of him
Leon deserved SO MANY MORE major movie roles just by being beautiful and bitchy like . His 50 cent movie cameo was so fucking funny.. TY FOR SAYING THIS. GENUINELY. I AM SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE LOVES THESE MOVIES TOO. The characters are hilarious and tragic and I am. Infatuated with them all. They all have their lil moments to solidify them as real or to reflect them being real and it's just. Mwah.
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Eddie almost at rock bttm begging for his job back bcs he loves music. He Loves. Music. But he has trauma so much trauma but he's Trying. He's trying so hard and then he opens his coat to reveal he still has their old performance uniform but makes a funny noise:
JT:
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#robert townsend just like me fr. obsessed with this diva leon#he was like ok hes playing this prettyboy role Too well.. LITTLE RICHARD MOVIE IS CALLING !!!#leon is such a pretty man. and now he is my cringe oldman wife like idc hes my everything still idc idc#and the 5 heartbeats are REAL!!!!!!!#i just seen them!!!!! dresser was telling me abt how hes an english teacher during the days off bcs he loves it#it's true i never lie#actually i am lying they cant be a real band bcs jt would probably be dead of aids im srry#manslut king partied too hard#speaking of king i love cornbread and paul's friendship so much in the movie#irl theyre friends too bcs paul dumped a bucket of mop water or smthing on cornbreadeddie & they fought#then ran away together to live their singing dreams after eddie stole his brothers car or smthing#but eddie irl started gravitating toward david even while paul was alive#but in the movie they were together forever until paul wasnt and thats just so sweet to me#cornbread is an unbothered cigarette boyboss. i like to think movie cornbread is lowkey just tired of david#but deals with him bcs hes the only other one who hates otis#the movie and the reality differs a lot cus it's otis'd say on things so it's like 2 dif worlds to me#but one remainder is paul is my favorite and he deserved so much better. so much more appreciation#a love i can see is my favorite song of the tempts and pointstop one of my favs. i love his singing voice. it's so energetic but full#of emotion#hes šŸ©µšŸ©µšŸ©µšŸ©µ PAULLL!!!! ARGHH!! we are the second biggest paul fans aside from cornbread šŸ©µ#pls feel free to tell me ALL ur thoughts on these movies / leon movies in general LOL ive seen like#allmost all of them i could like i could talk so much abt leon#one of my fav actors ever as well !!!! hes a cutiepatootie aaa!!! his obsession with jamaica...#ted asks#ted doodles#PLS. PLS GEEK OUT WITH ME ABT THESE MOVIES MAN. I AM SO STARVED#the temptations#the five heartbeats
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lilworms Ā· 3 months ago
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#last night was really so so so fun and it was super hard to get myself to go out? like#in the sense of I really wanted to because I knew it would be fun but I also knew my anxiety was eating me alive#and it would be an obstacle getting through that without alcohol and I need to be ā€¦ careful#but I got fun drunk and didnā€™t have too bad of a hangover and didnā€™t feel super anxious once we got out :#and a different friend wants to make plans for tonight but I am really bad at making plans in advance because sometimes I physically canā€™t#do things after work bc tired bc neuro disorder and itā€™s frustrating to my friend with severe control issues#bc she needs to make specific plans like a week out and Iā€™m like erm babe I canā€™t like#do that? and then if I donā€™t feel well day of and need to be home she gets (rightfully) frustrated because Iā€™m bailing but itā€™s#challenging. and you donā€™t understand unless you live with it.#and itā€™s frustrating for us both. I donā€™t want her to think I donā€™t value her because I do and I force myself out often enough bc I#genuinely feel bad. but itā€™s so fucking hard sometimes . she also lives sort of far so going from work and having#to drive an hour to her place to then go somewhere and be out like#Iā€™m spent before I even get there#friend I saw last night and I donā€™t talk consistently but when we do itā€™s always the same vibe and so fun and we just catch up about life#I feel like when I see my other friends they have things to always talk about because theyā€™re in a discord call almost every night#I donā€™t have the energy!!!!!!!!!! like Iā€™m so sorry thatā€™s so much for me#idk she isnā€™t answering me now but if she wants to do something I need to know in the next hr bc if not Iā€™m literally going to bed#I love her but thereā€™s a disconnect between us rn and I donā€™t know how to mend that gap#but I do love her friendship so Iā€™m just like. sigh#idk it would be different if she was closer and I know that#I hope getting back on medication helps get me being more social again. Iā€™m just so tired this week that speaking is hard lol
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foreverxdaydreaming Ā· 4 months ago
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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people#'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately#mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year#familys always got me up the wall#i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED#it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG#ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again#wtf is the purpose#i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth#how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit#years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing#and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be#of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying#(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired#and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness#and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot#to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding#common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm#but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies#if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol
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