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you know those birds that can’t land on solid ground without like fully crash landing. castiel supernatural.

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Jared | Paleyfest

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something something shared heaven…

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ok but seriously when ppl talk about the angels manipulating samndean’s heaven memories in DSOTM to drive the brothers further apart do you genuinely believe that about dean’s memories. do you think it was in any way consequential how sam felt abt them. even if what sam expressed abt the one (1) he actually saw Wasn’t just “poor dean 💔” which it was.

the whole episode otherwise was dean being upset by sam’s memories and berating him abt them. girl the staggering power imbalance. please. look at it.

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I don’t think we take enough time to appreciate the periods in our life when our noses aren’t runny. Is your nose runny right now? No? Think about that. Honestly reflect on it. Enjoy this era of peace. There are dark times on the horizon

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Sam + prayer ❤️

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13.21 "Beat the Devil"

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this is crazy lmfao. post from 2018

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Devil on your shoulder

Supernatural S5E20 The Devil You Know S5E03 Free to Be You and Me S7E17 The Born-Again Identity S13E21 Beat the Devil

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COUNTDOWN TO LOWER DECKS SEASON 5 4 WEEKS – Cameos

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So there’s been some discussions about Dark Side of the Moon on my dash over the last week or so, and ordinarily I just ignore anything to do with that episode for my own sanity because it is so upsetting. But I just really feel I need to take a second or two to talk about my feelings regarding discussions about Sam’s memories in Heaven. This isn’t new territory but I just feel I have to put this down.

Nearly all discussions about Sam’s memories lead to one place general place, “were they really Sam’s best memories?/did Zachariah interfere to remove memories containing Dean?” or some permutation thereof and it just makes me so uncomfortable. And what makes me even more uncomfortable is when people rush in to “defend” Sam by saying “yes of course those weren’t his real best memories. Of course Zach removed the ones that had Dean in.”

Look, I understand that inclination, its a reasonably natural thing to do, I get where it’s coming from and it’s usually from a place of generally wanting to defend Sam, and I’ve done it myself when I first watched the episode and a few times since then. The problem is this notion that Sam needs defending for his memories at all. By leaping to explain away the memories that we saw there we are implicitly saying on some level that Sam’s memories ‘aren’t good enough’, we are buying into the Dean worldview and we are using Dean’s standard to judge what Sam may or may not hold as the ‘best’ things in his life.

Even versions of this argument that say these are his memories, Zach didn’t interfere, but these are just reflective of the state of mind Sam is in at that point in time, are still problematic, because they still come with this unspoken implication that they need explanation.

I’m not going to say we shouldn’t discuss it, it is an interesting and discussion worthy topic and it’s certainly something that is debatable (and far be it for me to be the arbiter of what is acceptable discussion anyway!). I ask only this, next time you jump to defend or explain Sam’s memories look hard and yourself and ask “would I still be ok if these memories were 100% Sam’s? No angelic interference, nothing to do with the circumstances or Sam’s mindset at the time, just Sam’s best memories” and if the answer is “no” then take a moment and seriously think about why you’ve given that answer.

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aw why do you hate the Sam's heaven memories being angel-supplied? I think they're real, but were also deliberately chosen (and so were deans)

I don’t care too much abt the mechanics of what exactly they both saw/were shown along “the axis mundi” - like it’s fine to assume the angels had a hand in it in general because they had a hand in all the conflict btwn samndean in s4-s5. however. what the fandom is doing with this theory, as they do with almost every popular fan theory, is erasing any possibility that sam could be happier/could Belong without dean, and centering everything about sam on his relationship with dean. like this is a popular headcanon because the fandom reacts to sam’s heaven memories exactly like dean does. it’s Cruel To Dean for sam to not prominently feature dean in his happiest memories after dean saw his fireworks memory (not that our sam was with him for this bit). it’s Cruel To Dean for sam to include memories where he Ran Away (flagstaff, stanford) among his best memories, though anyone who knows anything abt sam should realize just how much he values independence and freedom from hunting/the family as a character who is denied choice all his life.

never mind that one of dean’s memories is a moment that could be considered Cruel To Sam if the audience was even a fraction as determined to be uncharitable to dean as they are uncharitable to sam.

dean’s memory that excludes sam makes the audience (and sam, despite his pain over it that is given little to no screentime relative to dean’s) more sympathetic towards dean for his difficult upbringing. sam’s memories that exclude dean make dean (and thus the audience) less sympathetic towards sam and in fact furious with him for acting out of line with the expectations of his role as dean’s partner, though he isn’t even controlling it here. this happens quite a lot throughout the series. what do you think this should tell the audience about sam and dean as individuals and about samndean as a pair?

there’s so much more I could say abt DSOTM because it has always been a very bittersweet episode for me and on the one hand I LOVE that samndean are misaligned this badly; they always are at their core though few people truly understand why. on the other hand I fucking hate the fan response to that episode - typical of fandom to Poor Dean and Fuck Sam’s Feelings in the same breath without bothering to dig past the top layer of narration.

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side profile appreciation hours

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lesbiannatural sastiel bc i cant stop drawing them!!!!