#so the aesthetics i post will stay but as i said this blog goes from blood to silk and anne boleyn to marie antoinette

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The problem I have with Cas Crowfeather pt. #1

Usually, I am not doing serious posts in which I talk about characters I don’t like. I did it for fun on my Winx sideblog on which I did/do a post series in which I bitch about season 5. But that is fun. This is serious business. So why that? I started watching Weirdsister College yesterday again and Cas was just the most unlikeable new character ever in a first episode. But let’s break this down:

We see her first when she rides her bike to college and gets stopped by Ethel’s car. She’s angry and switches the traffic light to red. Fine. If I was in her situation I’d be pissed too. Too bad, that I hate riding a bike and therefore as a car driver hate those who do but lets get back to the show.

The first time she attracts negative attention is when she enters Milly’s room, sees Ethel and immediately starts bitching:

And Ethel (at least seems to be) is really sorry and apologizes and what does Cas do?

Ohh, you blame it on the servants! Girl? Ethel DID not drive! So how is that blaming the servants when the chauffeur maybe has a problem with bicycles? Every car driver has a problem with bicycles.

So Cas stays a total bitch and so Ethel volunteers to make the breakfast in the morning as an offering of peace. For Ethel’s standards that is the nicest thing in the world. Yes, we know she only tries to be on good terms with Mildred so that Mildred draws a picture of the all-seeing eye so that they can all pass. But firstly: Cas does not know that Ethel is a bit fake friendly here and secondly Milly does this for Nick only and gets upset later on when he wants to go before Ethel so that the all-seeing eye will also let her pass. So Ethel actually never had the chance to pass the all-seeing eye with Milly's help because she wouldn't help her anyway even though Ethel acts nice now. So Ethel does not even benefit from acting nice.

So but what happens next? It’s the next morning and Cas says this:

(At least that is what she says in the German dub I don’t really understand her accent very well in the English original)

So. Excuse me? Yes, Ethel failed with the breakfast but she did it anyway! Why does Cas need to bitch here again? It’s obvious, that her character is only there to be Milly’s cheerleader. She has no reason yet to be so negative about Ethel. If she’d know her like Milly, yes, then it would be fine if she mistrusted her but out of nowhere?? That’s just pretty damn uncool from her.

And now look at her face when Ethel passed the all-seeing eye:

What.A.Fkn.Bitch.

So don’t get me wrong. Ethel is a bitch herself and we love her for that. The problem I have with Cas is that she treats Ethel like shit from the start without knowing her. I am also pretty allergic to talking behind someone's back. Cas has zero reason to behave that way and while doing so she proves that SHE is the actual bitch in here.

Sorry if you like her but she is just the worst. A badly written character only there to be on Milly’s side in every situation. I really wished they had brought Maud back. She was a lovely bestie and a well-written character who even had some arguments with Milly. But Cas? Is always there to defend Milly out of nowhere for no reason. Milly does not need a cheerleader. We also don't need someone to bitch about Ethel. We know that Ethel isn't the nice girl next door without Cas being bitchy about her

What f*cks me up too is this scene:

It's just the worst to talk about someone's iconic fashion statement as something bad. Especially calling it childish. I'll never forget wearing two normal bunches (without braiding) at age 14 and my friend telling me that it looked childish. Ew. Eww. I remember Cas also criticizing Milly's fashion style later on and wanting to change it - which Milly does. It is not wrong to try something new or to change one's style to make a step into a new stage of life. But one has to do it on their own. Without people judging. It has to be the own free will. And I hate Cas judging Milly for that. It's okay if Milly wants to change it herself but Cas talking bad about it is not okay.

There will be a part #2 eventually if I have to vent again while rewatching. I love the show and just had to get it off my chest lmao.

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I feel like I’m getting annoying with all these agere asks but I’m in a weird headspace rn and so my favs now have to regress and be happy so I can sleep better and maybe someone else gets a kick outta it I dunno? Anyways

I still love the idea that Buggy’s regression is mostly unrelated to wanting to wear certain clothes or long for certain toys or even a specific kind of food or such, I like to think it’s very „No. aesthetic“ type of regression, where you probably couldn’t tell at first glance and it’s not as easy as just giving him kiddie stuff and he’ll be happy. (Not to knock on anyone who does like the aesthetics and kiddie stuff just to be clear.) so he actually doesn’t have a bunch of toys and plushies and such and doesn’t really ask for them either.

…. THAT BEING SAID

Buggy should most definitely have an absolutely gigantic plush Fruitwani. Massive thing. It’s almost as big as Crocodile himself and that’s not counting the tail. A complete impulse purchase by Crocodile as well, being separated from his husbands for a while, having to delay reuniting them for another two days because of unforeseen circumstances and some unfortunate encounters with some Marines. Talking on the Denden to both of them and learning Buggy has had some bad regression days behind him. He doesn’t even let himself slip fully, there’s still a part of him that knows why Crocodile isn’t back with them, so he tries to stay in a big headspace when talking to him, but inwardly Buggy just wants to cry badly and curl up into Mihawks arms all day because Croccy isn’t home and he doesn’t LIKE it when people aren’t with him for too long because they may never come back. It’s a mess. Crocodiles suffering, Mihawk is suffering and Buggy is absolutely miserable.

So when Crocodile spots the giant plush toy sitting in a store window, surrounded by smaller plushtoys, his mind is immediately made up. Yes that one. Just for decoration? Not for sale? Well it is now. No. No that can be arranged. No the price doesn’t matter, he will leave this island with this absolute beast of a plush toy no matter how many Beri he has to spend or who he’ll have to harm if that what it takes. He WILL have that toy.

Buggy still clings to Crocodile more than usual when he gets back, no plush could ever replace the connection he was craving…. But after he has settled down a bit more the plush actually becomes on of his favorite toys. Not even just when he’s regressed, he just loves this thing. Has spooked several people wanting to talk business with Crossguild coming into the room finding chairman Buggy lounging on, what appears to be, a full sized Fruitwani , it just looks that convincing at first glance. For Buggy it’s not only cool and flashy, it’s a very, literally, big reminder that Crocodile cares about him in his own way, even when on some days the most he’ll get from him is a good morning kiss and the rest of the day is filled with snark towards him until he bids him and Mihawk goodnight again. It just means a lot to him to know he’s loved even when he’s being vulnerable or difficult.

Also yes, Crocodile also loves this thing and Mihawk has been on the suffering end of him and Buggy spooning the damn thing at night while he goes woefully unembraced on his side of the bed „ah yes, just me, my fiances, and the eight foot tall Applewani plush one of them threatened a shop owner over.“

Olay lemme preface this with some things

1) you're not annoying at all, and if anyone says you are, I'll eat their knees

2) I get it - honestly posting content for Buggy specifically for age regression was nerve wracking bc like. Idek really. But giving things I experience to characters I love is so cathartic, and I've spent more than a few nights just.... daydreaming about stuff like that just to be happy and comfy and cozy. No judgement on this blog, of that I promise you ♡♡♡

3) agere is valid every and any way, aesthetic or not, visible or not, it's doesn't matter, only the ways people feel. If you're safe, happy, and not harming anyone, you're doing so perfect and I love you and am proud of you

Now with my soap box stuff done, HOLY HECK YES YES PLZ I LOVE THIS I ADORE I NEED IT, GODS YOUR MIND!!!!! (/pos)

Buggy isn't a typical person, head to toe, inside out, he's Flashy but also incredibly subtle. His regression isn't some cookie cutter type of deal, he's wild and slightly feral in some ways, he's unusual and perfect and precious. His idea of a good time is knife games, climbing (everything is sight, nothing is sacred), explosions, and playing poker. He has a special rope that's just for him to tie and play with ((and occasionally chew on, though Mihawk has a mild heart attack every time he sees it while Crocodile cringes into the next plane of existence in disgust)).

At a glance, not much changes, but Mihawk can feel the change in Haki, and Crocodile can see the microscopic things there when Buggy shifts. He holds things differently, stims more visibly, just seems bouncier and even more animated yet somehow much more calm. The best explanation comes from Buggy himself in describing the shifting between his headspaces. "Some things turn off and others pop on open."

The worst thing to Buggy in general is a perception of loss or abandonment. Logically, he knows it isn't the case, and he can cling to that mostly, but experience has taught him that distance does NOT, in fact, make hearts grow fonder - at least, not for him. The one and only time he felt it may have applied - and this is a very tentative maybe - was when he reunited with his crew, made into Alvida's image and her decisions. There was no war over crew nor ship, just an allowance to slip back in as if he'd never quite left. The only changes or acknowledgement was Alvida's slightly awkward, brusque, yet lingering touch to his arm when she gave it a squeeze and remarked that "handling these hoodlums solo is not my idea if a good time." He was needed, and that did wonders for his security but not so much for the mental health.

Crocodile and Mihawk don't need him - he's the face man, sure, and he's got a talent for manipulation, speeches, rallying men. But at the end of the day, they outshine him despite their proclivities for the shadows. It's a juxtaposition. It's safe. It's wonderful, and Buggy still struggles to trust in the reliability there.

Logically, he knows- Croc is out, managing something for work, he's coming back, he will be back, he's not alone or abandoned or suddenly useless and worthless.

But he still feels it all.

And falling into his headspace to decompress is always harder when he's upset or scared, it only really works when he boils over, and the meltdown that would lead to is counterproductive. So he's waffling between the two, assured only by the calls, by Mihawk, and the few other places he can get some semblance normalcy and security.

When Crocodile does come home, a comically large plush toy over his shoulder, Buggy's already practically vibrating and is completely beyond the point of words in a positive way. He just squeals, lunges and the cushion of sand catching his weight is warm and safe and cozy and he clings, a clown themed koala, right there without shame.

The plush doesn't come up until later.

When someone inevitably asks - and, interestingly enough, it is Mihawk who does - Croc is honest. "Thought the clown would like it for longer trios like this."

The toy is big, yes, and also decently heavy, moreso than even it's size may seem. It's partially weighted in the tummy, legs and jaw, a display piece more than a toy for playing with, and Buggy is absolutely obsessed. It's Croco-sized, and it's a 'wani, and it's soft and cute and heavy. He loves it.

His first order of business is immediately dropping down to scramble under it and just... going limp. He wriggles a little, humming softly before falling still, cheek squished into his forearms, hair a mess but he's smiling, he's relaxed, he's comfy and happy and safe and with his boyfriends' Haki on the edges if his muffled, fuzzy awareness, he truly unwinds for the first time in over a week.

Crocodile carefully tugs his hair from under the toy with his hook, and Mihawk hands him a little fidget toy or a rope.

The toy is named later on, as demanded by a tiny jester with a frankly lethal set of baby doll eyes and quivering lip. Really, he could topple nations with that face, the other two swear.

Mihawk simply has to make peace with Addie the Applewani Cuddle Buddy having a semi permanent spot in the bed.

[novelcain]

Please read 🙏

So. I mentioned in the tags of one of my first posts back that I had to announce a few things that'd probably lose me some followers, but like I don't blame anyone if you do skedaddle because I know most of you are here for the monkie (totally understandable tho)

That being said I am no longer hyperfixated on jttw/Sun Wukong and that likely won't happen again for a while cause main the thing that caused me to clock out for so long kinda left a bad taste in my brain. However I will eventually come back to it. I can guarantee that. It just won't be for a hot minute (maybe who knows I can't control my brain lol)

As for the 10 billion asks I have in my inbox rn I'll be taking screen shots of the ones that have to do with monkie and such and putting them in a folder so that when I DO get back into jttw I'll just immediately start with those. So yeah if you sent me a really long ask FEAR NOT!😃 for I refuse to get rid of any of them 🥰

With that information tho, I never really intended for this to be just a monkie blog that's just what my hyperfixation had been on since I started. But I also tried to force that hyperfixation to stay way longer than I should have so that I could keep making content that my followers would like which is a part of the reason why I needed a break for so long. I wore myself out, and I needed to convince myself that it was okay for me to make content that makes me happy too. 😌

Tho unfortunately that does mean all my current projects will be on hold and I'll be updating the titles on ao3 soon to On Hiatus. 😔

I ofc will still gladly interact with/absorb any art or writings inspired by or dedicated to my works even if they aren't something I'm currently fixated on because effort deserves recognition and I love seeing ya'lls stuff more than anything. 🥰 Same goes for any submissions with art or edits/videos.

Also I did finish my Triad AU Sun Wukong character sheet like... forever go and just forgot to post it. 😬 (I KNOW I'M SORRY! 😭) SO I'll be posting that soon once I'm done moving everything around and making things more manageable and ✨️aesthetic✨️ on the blog.

Tho that kinda brings me to the next announcement I'll be merging my art blog and my spam blog onto this blog (so many blogs😫) cause honestly 4 blogs is just too much and I just wanna vibe 😅🤚 lol

The last announcement is that once I'm done rearranging everything I'll be going through all my mentions that I've missed and checking out what you guys made while I was gone cause I heard from a few people that there's quite a bit 😊 *much excitement* (on god I need an emoji that looks like it's vibrating because I need visual representation of how I feel like imma explode sometimes)

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A Washed Up WoW Raider (from original release Cataclysm) Decides to Dip His Toes into FFXIV Savage Raiding and fails to clear an Ultimate

“This is a pretty easy raid tier.”

Had a subject I decided to write another mostly unedited blog post about. Let’s see how it goes!

So, since I started playing FFXIV I’ve been avoiding high end raiding. After having just completely burnt out on serious content in WoW a while back but still enjoying MMOs I’ve been trying my best to do so. Having felt Heavensward be the point where I still felt the toxic WoW player in me before that finally bled out probably around mid-Stormblood, I’ve been enjoying finding what I can to do. But on occasion I have dipped my toes into Extremes, and that’s always when a boss “hits me” right. Like something about the fight or the aesthetic gets me. Susano’s sword qte got me to clear it on extreme while still ‘current’ content, while the hectic nature of Barbariccia’s fight made me want to try it. But I never tried a savage because well, top content. After all, none of the tiers really spoke to me with their normal mode fights. But when Arcadion came out I just felt something click in. Something in me found the whole tournament arc, each boss having a separate theme, being voiced, and just the implication of what the tactics for savage could be. So I decided to take the plunge.

And decide fuck it, let’s make it a whole blog post because it might be fun.

Black Cat: the guild officer in me rears his ugly head

So, when I was first trying this fight I told some friends who said “Hey, let’s get together some other friends to do it for the hell of it!” So I decided why not? Dedicated people, probably better than party finder. So I waited to see if someone would say something since I figured someone else was ‘leading.’ Well waited a couple weeks and nothing came of it, so I decided you know what. I’ll say a day, see if people want to do it. Sure enough the group members we had were all available so we went with it and…

Got in a single pull in which we wiped on the first mechanic before we quit. So. That sucked. And that should have been it but instead I started to have thoughts. “Oh the schedule’s all fucked.” “I let the group down.” “The guild leader’s going to kill… The guild leader?”

So.

Turns out I may have been affected by my time as a guild officer in WoW having a guild leader who expected a lot more out of me than you should trust someone at that age and would chastise me hard for any mistake I made in leading the b team raids and would do things like guilt trip me into doing heroic content even after I said I was burnt out and needed a break and would then chastise me for fucking up on content I told him I didn’t have the fortitude for anymore. Then would talk down to me when I got rightfully mad because he wasn’t respecting my decision to not try serious content for a bit!

But thankfully a friend from that group was kind enough to hear me out and let me know “This has nothing to do with being a grown-ass man shit like that can fuck you up.” And I think having that moment helped me because.

I then tried it again on my own after leaving the pseudo-static to try it on my own. And I found that I can at least handle long prog parties if I have the time set aside!

Because I was there for 4 hours.

Very funny thing, I was told after a few pulls to go off tank because apparently my invincibility button wouldn’t be up for Raining Cats if I did the thing every group did where you used the button on the first tank buster.

We never made it to Raining Cats.

I don’t even think we made it past Mouser 2.

But I stayed with it, even when we had the group seem to break up temporarily. But due to it I had to eat a late dinner while I waited. The night ended with me hearing the group leader complain to me about how their boyfriend and other raiders had decided to make a static without them and while a nice conversation. Kind of an odd thing to just tell a random person from party finder.

But even though I could do it it got me thinking: do I really have the patience for prog like this? Do I really care enough about pixels in a video game anymore to commit to these kinds of parties that go nowhere? While plenty of people have stories of people who made long lasting friendships over MMOs I uh… Didn’t.

Most people in my guild were probably anywhere from 5-10 years older than me and those within my age group wound up… Not being great. Like a Warrior who would pad meters by spamming AOE on a fight in which doing so made us explode and for some reason decided to roll on a sword he didn’t need and when asked to pass it to the person who did decided to…

Disenchant the weapon and mail him the shard saying “Here’s your sword : ).”

So yeah, all the while this slow progress and my own bad experiences made me say something on twitter.

And a different friend said in response “Hey, we have a free company that’s literally serious savage raiders who try to help players who are new to savage.” So after a day or two of thinking about it I thought.

Alright, fuck it. First few weeks didn’t say much, tried doing more party finder. Then eventually I went into voice chat and talked a bit and eventually they got me into a group and helped me clear (Despite me somehow managing to kill the MT WHO IS SAID FRIEND by going to the completely wrong place). So I thought that was as much time as they could spare and I get hit by.

“We’re taking you into Honey B Lovely.” “You Wha-”

Honey B Lovely: NOW THIS IS SPEED PROG

So, at that moment I found out what Speed Prog is.

Speed prog is when someone takes you into an instance and goes “Alright buddy time for you to learn the entire fight in one lockout because everyone here knows what they’re doing.”

So not much prog story, but due to the above happening I FREQUENTLY forget things in the fight. So now even having done it a few times I’ll say that no matter what. Alarm pheromones gets me. And I can hear you saying “Oh yeah alarm pheromones 1 is bullshit.” NOPE. SOMETIMES 2 FUCKS ME UP. REMEMBER ME. IT’S SUPPORTS AND DPS. NOT LIGHT PARTIES.

Brute Bomber: The Frustrations and Limits of Party Finder

So having been essentially carried through the first two fights I was feeling pretty good, and decided to give a shot at continuing prog before I asked for help and first groups were pretty good, frequent progression forward to the point that I even made my way through Chain Deathmatch 2! Bombarian Barrage might still make me take a sharp inhale every time but I was pretty consistent! So I kept going and find out that…

Party Finder lies to you!

Fusefield prog? Nope, Final Fusedown prog!

Chain Deathmatch 2 prog? NOPE. Final Fusedown prog!

Fuse or Foe prog? NOPE. FINAL FUCKING FUSEDOWN PROG!

(Stated by a person who took longer than he cares to admit that it’s SLIGHTLY BEHIND THE MARKER for Final Fusedown.)

So I’m talking to the free company I’m in and someone says “Oh you’re that far? Just prog skip there’s nothing new to see.”

So sure enough I join clear parties and find that yes, the only thing I haven’t done is really easy and

So. Many. Are. Still. Final. Fusedown. Prog.

But again, a few members of this free company came on by down the wire and helped me out with a clear so I could be a part of reclears the upcoming week. Where I learned “AH ONE DOES HAVE TO TIME THEIR INVINCIBILITY BUTTON.” Good news, I only ate the last one and died rather than caused a slow death across the party!

Where I may have died and fucked up a bit but HEY FIRST CLEARS ARE LIKE THAT HEE HOO.

Wicked Thunder: Where Confidence is Born

So we’ve gotten to the final boss and in my first party finder pull.

And we die to the first raidwide. And you know what?

Everyone took it well! We just laughed about “Damn, that raidwide does need mitigation.” That’s one thing I’ve noticed from a lot of Party Finders, most people tend to be good sports and try to figure out what’s going wrong over just screaming at each other. Remember how I said it took me a while to figure out Final Fusedown? Well that was fixed because one of the parties figured out I was out of place and told me where I should be on the marker!

And boy howdy did I have fun with those early phases. No matter how much we wiped there was something hilarious to me about exploding during Electrope Edges. Even had someone who was out of place and overcharged me rage quit with this message:

But sure enough Electrope Edge is where things kept getting screwed up, and somehow during stacks I’d always find that things didn’t seem right.

Doing some runs with the raiding friend I found out “OH. FOR STACKS THERE ARE SET POSITIONS THAT AREN’T JUST MY MARKER SPOTS.” And through that I eventually make it to Sunrise Sabbath!

… I mean I was so overwhelmed by it I just stood in the middle and was definitely the reason that one didn’t wind up being a kill and I think shortly after a DDOS hit that caused use to have to stop pulling but HEY I CAN SAY I’VE SEEN EVERYTHING.

So I pushed on on my own and had plenty of characters that were on my blacklist temporarily. Some people bad, some people just obnoxious, and some that are wonderful people playing very well and making up for the fact that my dumbass died twice when I finally got that clear.

But I got the clear. In Party Finder. And I felt a feeling I haven’t felt in a while. That absolute adrenaline rush when you finally get a clear. The music, the tension, the closeness as sword quiver goes out. It’s that feeling of finally getting done with a boss and knowing that you are good enough at the game to do that. And as I did so I kept seeing that despite my zero parse on M4S, despite the mostly grey parses I had, I could tell one thing.

Wow I am better than most people in PF Jesus.

But what makes me say that? Well…

The Pain of Reclears

So, due to scheduling conflicts and one section later reclears started to not happen over in the free company. Which I was fine with might as well try to do them on my own because aftera ll everyone’s cleared this will be painless. Right?

Fun fact, when I did that 4 hour M1S party one of the people leading it said, and I quote:

“You guys are honestly better than most clear parties.”

I.

I thought he was joking.

HE WAS NOT JOKING. OH GOD HE WAS NOT JOKING.

IT’S FUSEFIELD PROG NOW THEY CAN DO FINAL FUSEDOWN BUT NOW IT’S ALL FUSEFIELD.

IT WASN’T EVEN THE HEALERS THEY WERE FINE JUST EVERYONE FUCKED IT UP FOR LIKE 3 DIFFERENT PARTIES AND THE ONE THAT GOT HIT 1% ENRAGE 4 TIMES AND THE RED MAGE KEPT DYING.

Also somehow the Dancer who it was being cleared for was the only one who didn’t fuck up any tactics which is really funny. They might have gotten a zero parse but fuck man good on ya you got your clear and you can only improve.

That includes me I had the occasional messed up Lariat/Dive because I forgot which he was doing I ain’t perfect buddy let that be the lesson here.

Funny enough, M4S was far easier. Party had a wipe (literally my fault can’t even deny I fucked up Midnight Sabbath and murdered my partner because I tried to correct and just wound up confusing him) but like we had a pull where nearly all the ranged and healers died and we recovered and got the clear with that one.

And I main tanked that one! After that one party made me nervous and even got complimented! Because the summoner kept dying (they were aggravated with themselves sorry poor guy ya kept getting fucked) and happened to die during Mustard Bomb 2 leading to only one safe party member which the OT took so I had the opportunity to HALLOWED GROUND AND EAT IT RAW. THANK YOU OTHER TANK FOR LETTING ME MT SO THAT WAS UP SO I COULD FEEL COOL.

That was week 1 of me doing reclears on my own and well. Boy howdy I have some opinions but the most succinct version of it I can give is.

Uptime Sunrise is the funniest, most worthless resolution in the game. It turns a mechanic that might end with one person dying if someone is a little off to one that kills half the party. If your leader has markers even slightly off it means you’ll be dying and not knowing why. And as it turns out if DPS is high enough you can just skip it. It serves no purpose but to be put into the mind of Party Finder that those like what, 3 extra gcds will totally lead to a clear?

My plan had been originally to just clear and be happy, and now I’m BIS and have the mount. So I suppose I feel pretty good. Good enough to have decided to help out with something the friends were trying to do.

Perfect Alexander: Where We Learn Hell is Other People

So, there’s a funny thing people do if you do savage. And that’s that they say “Let’s do an ultimate!”

At first I was apprehensive but decided fuck it, nothing ventured nothing gained. After all, the group seemed pretty good. All people who had been helping me clear or people who already did Ultimates. By the end we had about 9 people so I even had an out if I decided to leave. So I thought.

Well, we had the three greatest problems any kind of group content has: Scheduling, Personalities, and Desperation.

The scheduling was a mess at first. Members who were only available at super late night and at very specific times (if people even remembered they had to tell the group organizer schedules) meant that early on we had a Tuesday night hat lasted about six hours. That got changed eventually to spread out the raid nights a bit more manageable. Unfortunately as it turns out two of our members just couldn’t make any of the times so that’s two down. But seven ain’t bad right? Well…

Personalities was me finding out that two people who were helping me may have, in fact, been big issues in the Free Company for a while and that the leader had finally had enough of their bullshit. This is made worse by the fact that, when I can only imagine they’re being told they’re going to be kicked, they decided to make a post claiming that they were leaving for their mental health. A real scumbag move! So that’s two more down.

Okay, not bad, there’s me sure but we still have three people who have cleared and are helping and someone who has done ultimates before. We just have to find people. And we found two fills who…

Had never set foot in even a Savage fight before. To their credit, they improved fast. But yeah we started to hit a desperation spiral especially with the last bits of problems.

We could not find a Physical Ranged DPS to save our lives. The first one we found was a pretty nice guy, was willing to adjust his schedule to meet raid times and even gave us a resource I used to figure out some of the trouble points like Limit Cut. Unfortunately data center travel screwed him over and he decided to leave the group as not to force us to have to play by the whims of sever availability.

Our second was a guy who just lied about his prog. Just outright lied. Pretty much washed the night, refused to get into VC for a significant period of time, and was gone the next night.

Our ‘final’ person was… So you know that kind of person who talks when they get nervous, and just won’t stop talking? The kind you feel bad for because you know it’s them just trying to keep themselves calm but they’re taking up the entire VC and it’s getting a little distracting but you can’t tell them to try to be quiet because you know that’s rude then one pull they just mute and deafen themselves saying ‘it’s okay I understand this I think’ and then they wipe you multiple times because you can’t tell them what to correct in time. And sometimes they say things that makes it feel like maybe it’s not a nervous habit but they’re a really big problem person who’s self-obsessive and the pull is going and you can’t ask for clear comms because you have no idea if they’ll fold in on themselves or reveal they’re a giant asshole who was just waiting for a fight.

So yeah we never had a consistent ranged DPS and by the end we hadn’t even made it past BJCC by our last week. And our last week was. Bad. People not able to make it, clear lack of interest due to knowing we’re not clearing, and PUGs that were the absolute worst kind of player.

We had some very nice, very understanding PUGs. But that last week our PUGs were RANCID.

So unfortunately, all this is to say we didn’t make it. It’s frustrating but hey it was a fun time for the most part and I’m glad I did it. Which begs the question of the most important question in this.

Is it worth it?

It’s.

Complicated.

Don’t get me wrong, I had a lot of fun and enjoyed prog as I got my shit together and started to do better until we reached a kill for the fights. Frankly if you’re just going in to see if you can just get a kill and call it a day 100% go for it.

But thing is, I’m seeing stuff that turned me off of WoW raiding over the years as reclear nights go on. That kind of thing where you have no patience for people or the way you get advice is very clearly passive aggressive tone that makes its way through text.

As said in Black Cat I know this is all pixels. Pretty pixels but pixels nonetheless. And having not really gained much past finding out I have a weird trauma response to being in a leadership position in serious content from playing WoW I really don’t feel like having to deal with the MMO “and now everyone’s at each other’s throats because the one guy who actually fucked up isn’t owning up to it while someone else also fucked up and he’s trying to pin the blame on them.”

Don’t get me wrong, I think I’ll try to keep up with Savage content a bit. Maybe even keep up with TEA to see if I can’t get a clear and to see how funny it is with all the serious raiders more than likely doing FRU. Just seeing that the faces of raiding are more the same as what they were is something I keep thinking on.

Unfortunately, I’ve also become more aware of the XIV hardcore raiding scene. While I’m not a part of that boy howdy. Again. That sounds like every issue the WoW raiding scene has. Like shit man, I wish the worst of this was just people who clearly are too hardcore minded to understand that some things they want are things only they want. Now I’m aware of abuse and harassment constantly happening and man. Man that’s disheartening.

I’m here to play a game and people fuck up sometimes.

Anyways Here’s Some Random Advice

In general

You’ll die on first mechanic

That’s just going to happen. Raidwides that go unmitigated and wipe people, failed firs things. Give yourself the chance to learn and you’ll find fun in it.

Even if you’re a first time player you’ll find there are hardcore raiders worse than you

No seriously some of the worst people in some of my groups were literally sporting their legend weapons and titles trust me some people are just outright bad at the game because they try to act like the content can’t hurt them.

Try to be nice

I’m still mad about that fucking Viper getting snippy I will double the curse I put upon them just to be sure. Ask questions and own up to mistakes, practice parties know they’re not here for a clear.

No one will remember you (positive)

The people who will remember you are bad frankly are saying more about themselves than you. Like everything above, practice and improve and eventually you’ll get it.

And for Ultimate specifically

It’s a marathon, not a race

Expect these to take weeks or months. Yes you’ll see the occasional ‘I cleared x in 5 days’ or something videos but expect, especially if most of your group is learning, to be in it for the long haul.

As time goes on they get ‘easier’

Fun fact I learned: food and potions don’t scale with sync in XIV. This means that as time goes on these buffs become more powerful, and thus allow you some breathing room. No, you will not bullshit tactics BUT you will have some wiggle room with DPS checks and can have some screw ups with shields and such.

Just because someone has the weapon doesn’t mean they’re good

Some of our worst PUGs were people proudly displaying their weapon. Oh, paid legends you’d think yes? No. These people cleared. Multiple times. And they were frequently the reason for wipes due to not knowing their role. Or parsing. I am at a stage where I can honestly say I think parsers are the worst thing to exist in XIV, and I will always prefer grays across the board but a clear over someone greeding us to death.

So there it is. My bizarre journey of trying to see if I still got it, finding out I have a weird trauma response that I think I worked through with what they call exposure therapy (I think I’m not a therapist I don’t know terms), and then failing at an ultimate as I’m forced like a cosmic horror protagonist to see the truth of the World. It’s an experience! Figured the day before FRU was a good a time as any.

Thank you for reading here's my character on a capybara.

[dearweirdme]

Hi, Dear weird me. This is going to be a long ask, which is less of an ask and more of countering a point made on your blog. BUT I promise it has literally nothing to do with #straws but feel free to post a cute Taekook picture anyways 💜 Okay I wanted to talk about some of the narratives and questions I see swirling regarding the direction of Jungkook's music.

Jung Kook said on Suchwita that he was searching for another song similar to Seven for his next single. Clearly listening to 3D, we see he was able to do so. This brings me to question why the narrative when Jung Kook chooses to sing about sex , that the songs must have been chosen by the company for him to make him "appear straight", and that furthermore he had limited or no autonomy in choosing the music to represent himself as an artist?

I don't believe this is the primary narrative that was tossed around when Taehyung was singing about romance on Layover. Which is interesting because those songs also mention women, and we know for a fact that Taehyung did not write any of the songs on layover and that every song was in fact chosen for him to sing. And this is not Tae shade, I think Layover is a phenomenal album. However, I find it a bit hypocritical that Jung Kook gets accused of being inauthentic in his artistry due to the more explicit and poppy nature of his music, which brings me to my next point.

Jung Kook has always been inspired by the likes of Justin Timberlake, Usher, Michael Jackson, Justin Bieber, Harry styles, the list goes on and on. Every single man I've listed has sung about sex. And furthermore these songs stick out in their discography as massive hits. See Sexy Back for Justin Timberlake, Watermelon Sugar for Harry Styles, Climax for Usher, Dirty Diana for Michael Jackson, etc etc.

We know for a fact Jung Kook wants to be recognized as a global pop star, outside of BTS. We know this because Jung Kook has said this multiple times via his lives, and also in interviews. How do you become a global pop star? Why not look at Jung Kook's early steps as a solo artist from left and right, to Seven, to now 3D. Look at these songs and then look at the songs and steps that all of the Massive male pop stars before him have taken, and you can quickly see the similarities. All of this is to say that however, you feel about his sexuality and who he is or isn't dating doesn't matter to me. What does matter to me is to dismiss Jung Kook's art as primarily a form of "bearding" And when I say his art I am discussing the music that he chooses to sing and the visual aesthetic that he either chooses (creative director of the Vogue shoot) or makes his own tweaks to (dazed Korea shoot). As I've stated above none of the songs, or visual aesthetics Jung Kook is choosing is super unique to him, they sound and look great because he's Jung Kook, but they're simply not unique. So either every single male pop star chose to sing about sex to conceal their sexuality or a much less sinister idea, they chose to sing about sex because that is what the general public wants to hear. And what artists choose to lend their voice to does not always have to reflect who they may or may not be off stage. Now we could get into why the GP makes perceived straight sex music popular, but I'd like to stay on topic. Which is why Jung Kook gets accused of using his music to conceal something as opposed to just making the music he wants to make, the music that sounds just like the people who have inspired him and the music that will make him a global superstar.

At the end of the day however you feel about Jung Kook's music,I would gently challenge you and people who automatically jump to relate Jung Kook's music to his sexuality whether it be positive, negative, as a form of dismissal or a form of confirmation, I would challenge you gently to just try not to do that? I think it's easier to realize that maybe Jung Kook is singing about fucking, because every single male pop star does. Maybe he has his shirt off because that body is rocking because every male pop star takes their shirt off, Maybe rappers are being featured because not only does Jung Kook like rap but because pop rap crossovers are super popular. In fact, they are so popular that they beat out BTS several times for Grammys. His music is perfectly aligned to what Jung Kook says he wants for his artistic career and it's healthier to say "He makes this music because it bops and it's going to help him reach his goals" than to say "He makes this music because he's trying to convince the world he's straight" I say all of this to say Jung Kook is going to continue to sing about love, relationships, and sex. And he's probably going to keep taking his shirt off, and looking sexy for the camera. It really shouldn't bother trekkers or anyone who believes he's not straight, because it's his art, and his art does not have to be connected to who he chooses to love. Sometimes art can just be art 💜

Hi anon!

You know what, I agree with you. It wasn’t my intention at all to dismiss his music as bearding, that’s absolutely not the case and I apologize for coming across that way.

I do feel they’re taking a certain route with him, but that’s to reach the goals you mention.. not to make people see him as straight. The main goal is absolutely to get as big as he can get, and he deserves that. Jk is an amazing artist.

Not coming across as queer is never the main goal.. people don’t put out songs for that reason specifically, it’s more something that exists in the sidelines. Like Taennie for Tae (imo ofcourse). Jk singing about sex isn’t that to me.. everyone has sex no matter what sexuality they have. I do feel Jk’s song is specifically about women, no room for queerness and with the exclusion of a queer possibility the general public (or just those who don’t think Jk can be queer) will most likely take him as straight. If Jk is actually queer like a lot of us think, that might be some sort of choice, depending on how many people actually know about him being queer. That does not have to be a reflection of his actual sexuality though.

Thanks for your ask 💜

[justtormentcrewthings]

danke social media au

I don't have the time or energy to write this right now, so I am putting this here for the record

social media AU in which Dawn and Iskander communicate via tumblr. Both accounts are very private and don't reveal much about them, although Dawn doesn't know who Iskander is even when he drops his full name. (Which gives us a parallel to how Dawn said to Wedge!Iskander, "Do I have to know that name?")

Dawn originally posts a lot about his "rommate" who, judging by the posts, is a huge asshole but bringing it up doesn't help much. There are some anon asks (most of which from Ledge who has a very private profile and mostly posts about coffee and aesthetic pictures of his outfits), but they never get through to Dawn.

Iskander posts about art but will sometimes have personal things scattered throughout his blog, like how he hates coming home but does it for his sister.

After months of following one another and liking each other's posts, Dawn DMs Iskander. They have a full conversation, slightly awkward but sweet, in which they introduce each other and talk a bit about their interests and their past.

This marks the start of their friendship, but it's only a couple of weeks later that Iskander confesses that he wasn't actually texting Dawn during their first conversation. A friend of his (Wedge) took the phone and responded to Dawn - and at that point it escalated. Iskander expects Dawn to ghost him after that but Dawn is pretty chill with it.

Texting Iskander is interesting, but sometimes he won't respond for hours or even days. He mentions a lot of doctor's appointments and a "friend" living with him to take care of him. He also tells Dawn that his accident is the reason he's not very comfortable with showing his face anymore.

At some point, Dawn stops mentioning his "roommate" from before. When questioned about him in asks, he just says that he moved out. Wedge is now mutuals with Dawn too, he posts a lot of activism and speed racing content, and he's the first person to learn the full story of what happens with Dawn's roommate.

It's during that time that Iskander makes a post that goes "her room looks like she's about to come home any minute now". Dawn asks about what happened, and Iskander tells him that his sister died and he sees now reason to come home anymore - or to stay alive at all.

They exchanged numbers at some point, so when Iskander texts him that, Dawn calls him.

"Hey," he says. "Hey," Iskander answers. He sounds like he's out of breath. "Are you alright?" "I think so," Dawn says. "I'm here for you, you know?" Iskander chuckles. "Yeah. I know." They don't say anything else after that, but they stay on the call until Iskander gets interrupted by Spess. It's the first time that Dawn hears Spess' voice too, which has a slight accent to it, a lot more than Iskander's. "Sorry, I have to leave," Iskander says. "It was nice hearing your voice." "It was nice hearing your voice too." "If you knew how it sounded before, you wouldn't say that." Iskander's breath rattles in his chest. "Until next time, my friend." "Until next time. Say Hi to Spess from me." Spess mutters a greeting back. He sounds surprised that Dawn knows his name. Iskander is the one to hang up.

[gestures] and then they get through everything together, and they meet up and start dating etc etc

Iskander still gets insecure about his appearance and disability, and Dawn still gets flashbacks of what his roommate did, but they can heal together. Oh and also. They keep on the fairy lights in Ellian's room.

[tea-with-evan-and-me]

I miss the dynamic we used to have in fandoms too, it was pretty funny and genuine, now no matter which fandom you're part of, I think the whole thing has become very toxic for so many reasons. Everyone expects you to be perfect, to agree on their opinions, to be active all the time (even when you can't), to make your profile look in a certain way because it needs to look 'aesthetic', and sometimes you're tested to see if you're enough fan of someone, like having admiration and love towards an artist has to be measured and it's some kind of competition.

I had this account I created around 2014/15 on Twitter, I was part of many fandoms and it used to be so fun and relaxing to have a place to talk about the things you like and interact with people who understand this. But years later it started being so uncomfortable to be there because what it used to be about being just a fan turned into make yourself look in a certain way, pretend and act in the coolest way possible so everyone likes you. It actually affected a lot my mental health because I felt I needed to be accepted by everyone all the damn time, and I couldn't say what I wanted anymore I was so scared to be rejected by anyone and I didn't want to stay the incorrect thing, I loved posting about my favorite shows or shipps, but I realized that around 2021 that what I posted was not what I thought at all, it was just what everyone wanted me to say because if you didn't like certain scene from a random show (just to give an example) and you shared that opinion, you were attacked. I didn't even feel safe to give my opinions with some friends I made in these fandoms. I remembered specifically that many of my mutuals were harries and I had to pretend I liked him too because otherwise I would've been the weird girl or something, and it's not that I didn't like Harry, I love many of his songs and I think he's very talented, but I don't consider myself his fan because I didn't create that kind of connection with him. But I felt the pressure to said I was obsessed with him too. It got so bad, i ended up deleting my account because, which I actually regret, because I definitely wanted to leave all that nightmare behind, but I had so many great memories from the previous years that I wish I had thought twice before I deleted it, maybe I should have just logged out.

Sorry I overshared 😭 basically to sum it up I miss the old years so much, it's probably one of the reasons why I love your account <33

And I'm glad I'm not the only way who feels this way.

don’t apologize! i get it completely. times have changed and not for the better. i do hope that eventually things mellow out as far as stan culture goes. i’m happy people can enjoy coming here, just as i do on this blog 💗

[fereldanwench]

Hi! You can call me Wench. 💙 Pronouns are she/her. I'm 35, married with two cats, and absolutely smitten with Goro Takemura and my V, Valerie Powell. (In theory, I have other interests, too, but in practice, they're pretty much on my mind 24/7.)

Virtual photography is my main creative outlet these days, but I do dabble in a little bit of everything. Here are some tags where you can find my things:

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I also wrote a comprehensive guide on how I create my Cyberpunk screenshots using the Appearance Menu Mod to spawn and pose characters. I'm more than happy to answer any questions about anything in the guide, but please do check the FAQ below for the quickest assistance on the most common issues.

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This section will be updated as needed if I get more recurring questions. You can also browse my cp help tag to see if an issue you're having has come up previously.

Q: How do you make your Cyberpunk screenshots? A: The main tool I use is the Appearance Menu Mod, which is used to spawn NPCs, decor, and lighting. I wrote a very detailed guide on how to get started with AMM that you can check out here. I also use Reshade for the Cinematic DOF and Real Long Exposure shaders. All color editing is done in Adobe Lightroom and Photoshop.

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Most likely, though, the pose .archive file and the NPC you're working with have different locomotion types; e.g. Johnny uses the corpo locomotion, so only corpo locomotion files will work on him unless you also use an .archive file that converts his locomotion to another type. You can read more about it in this section of the guide.

Q: What mods do you use/recommend? A: I have a list that I update every few months that lists all the publicly available mods I use in my game as well as a more general mod tag for any mods that look interesting/useful. I've also dabbled in making pose mods, which are available for free at my Ko-fi shop. (Disclaimer: Please note that a mod recommendation is not necessarily an endorsement of the modder.)

[gwaaaaar]

I posted 5,713 times in 2022

102 posts created (2%)

5,611 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@choco-myth

@beth-bethar00

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I tagged 441 of my posts in 2022

#mazm - 31 posts

#vatican miracle examiner - 20 posts

#vatican kiseki chousakan - 16 posts

#mazm thy creature - 12 posts

#identity v - 11 posts

#mazm hyde and seek - 9 posts

#mazm phantom of the opera - 7 posts

#baccano! - 7 posts

#baccano - 7 posts

#ganji gupta - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#reminds me of that one meme you made where its like this edible aint shit and its a pic of light music club cater saying i always wanted to

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Ok hear me out, Ganji and Mike accidentally crash into each other during a match or something and they drop their Red balls. They scramble to pick what they assume are their own items but we cut to Mike trying to flip over a rail and the ball bounces back and hits him square in the face, he's out like a light. Now zooming over to ganji he's taking aim then BOOM! his bats on fire, Ganji is now chasing the hunter with a flaming glorified stick,ganji is now banned from Duos

Holy shit yes oh my god 😭😭😭😭. Clusmy anime girls with toast in their mouth except, threats to the hunter that dropped their balls.

30 notes - Posted February 15, 2022

#4

Raoul de Chagny (Mazm one maybe idk) is such a sigma male but also an L bozo. Mans literally cannot get manipulated by erik bc hes too stupid but at the same time he goes into eriks box to assert dominance only to pass out like an idiot. And the scene in the forest where he HAD A CELAR SHOT AT ERIK AND MISSED. L bozo.

32 notes - Posted April 24, 2022

#3

Having finished Hyde and Seek like 3 days after release here are some of my thoughts. There's gonna be some stuff implied so read with caution, i wont say outright but ill talk abt the implications. Sorry most of this is Alan rambling I have brainworms and I'm ill.

-Alan is literally my malewife. Love at first sight, if Noah is my little meanwhore Alan is my malewife. I love their big boobs.

-Pollie>Sally. My heart dropped when Alan tried to ask Sally out like out of all people, Sally? Good news though hes single by the end.

-Pollie is literally that one tumblr post where its like let women be pathetic little meow meows too. She is the definition of a pathetic meow meow and i love her for that.

See the full post

45 notes - Posted March 13, 2022

#2

LOLIROCK IS OUT FOR MY BLOOD WHY DID THEY GIVE HIM M SHAPED LIPS WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS THEY DID THIS ON PURPOSE HWGWJAGEJAHEHNSGEJSJSGZ

93 notes - Posted May 22, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Alright so ive been seeing this going around, the lack of paint on Sam in ENG . I dont want to start shit though, im saying this as a disclaimer. And i want to say this as controversial as it may be: it was for the best probably.

Voodoo has a history of being portrayed as dark magic which is horrible. Voodoo is a religion not satanic not dark magic. It is as much of a religon as Islam, Christianity, Hinduism, Judaism, etc. Respect it. I like the bone paint too, it looked cool, but clearly its more cultural appropriation rather than appreciation on Sam (voodoo practicers if you can please tell me if ive said something wrong).

"Cancel culture" isnt just an "sjw" thing, its used to talk about problems. Saying "twst shouldve just stayed in jp" bc of the problematic aspect isnt good. We have to address problematic issues with culture and racism. Twst has racist aspects you cannot deny that. It doesnt mean you cant enjoy twst at all, but stay openminded and listen to minorities when they speak. Cultures arent "aesthetics" :/

284 notes - Posted January 20, 2022

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welp, isnt that a doozy

[mistofstars]

Hey man, how did you know you were ace? I’m not sure how I feel at the moment - is it my anxiety that’s stopping me from having a relationship, or is it that I just can’t see myself having sex? Do I not see myself having sex because I have major self love problems and can’t see anyone loving me? Am I anxious about it because I don’t want it? I am so confused about what I feel. Any suggestions for figuring it out?

Uff not sure if I'm the best person to ask that, anon, but I'll try to answer.

Some options to get a good idea is

- follow ace blogs on Tumblr and what they post about (especially the memes were enlightening for me ��)

- there are ace / aero tests online

- but in the end it's important how *you* feel about the term and its definition (there's even more detailed definitions but for me ace fits fine). If you read it and think, yeah, this sounds like me, it's probably true

Some of the signs I figured I was ace (and also very late, I'm in my 30ies and I didn't know of the term until a few years ago!)

I can imagine doing lots of things / hobbies rather than having a relationship

I very much like to be on my own and am not looking for "another half"

I don't have problem with intimacy and can have sex, but I don't *need* sex with another person. I could happily live until the end of my days without having sex with another person.

In my teenager years, everyone was starting relationships but I wasn't interested in them. I rather read fanfiction or made music, anything else. They called me a late bloomer lol but I just wasn't interested. I felt like something was wrong with me

A handful of people fell in love with me and I just couldn't reciprocate and it made me feel like, again, it was my fault, that I should be able to love them back and have these romantic feelings

Started a relationship and had sex because I felt this was society's expectation of me. No one ever told me it's okay to not be with someone!

I never understood people lusting after one another. Like, their urge. I don't have that.

Same goes for celebrity crushes. I don't have them in the "normal" way that I find someone hot and want to do the dirty with them.

My celebrity crushes are like I find someone aesthetically pleasing, beautiful in a "this is a perfectly shaped human being" way. And it's not their muscles or biceps or whatever people find "sexy", it's more about their character and behavior, their beard perhaps, the way their eyes glow, the love they show for someone else. This is what my celebrity crushes look like

You could show me 1000 men and I might find maybe 2 of them attractive. Because I'm not attracted to anybody 😂

Shipping fictional (and real) people because I love their love. But I don't want to be intimate with them 😂

Also, and my psychology friend voiced something like this too, I'm female and I mostly ship male / male, and we think that is because it's as far away from my own biology as possible.

Regarding reading / writing, it's more about non-sexual intimacy for me (even though sex creates intimacy too, don't get me wrong!) like hand-holding, cuddling, forehead kisses and embraces. I live for that stuff

That said, being asexual doesn't mean that you don't crave intimacy with someone else. I do. I would murder for a good embrace

Some people can be happy in a relationship and br asexual. As long as both (or how many people you want in a relationship) are fine with the lack of sexual actions and nobody feels forced or inclined to do something, that's good!

I just know for me that it would be difficult to find someone who would be fine with this, as it is currently in our society and the usual sex drive of men (Sorry for that big bucket but that is my experience)

And I know I have such a self-sacrificing nature (cough, people pleaser, cough) that I rather stay away from relationships now before I return to the vicious cycle "let's have sex, because I read once a week is normal / mandatory". No way, José

Anon, I just want to ensure you to take your time and don't force yourself to anything

Do what feels right for you

[we-are-indeed-villains]

Some things I wish I had known before getting sucked into the whole “dark academia” business:

I waited a very long time to start posting here because It just seemed necessary to wait a bit since DA exploded out of nowhere last year. I just couldn’t bring myself to write when I was so disgusted with the community. Now that it seems like we are out of fashion again (lol) I decided it could be worth giving this blog a try.

Also, almost everything I say here goes for pretty much any change in lifestyle, and these are just some general guidelines that I find particularly easy to follow, but do what works best for you!

1 - You DON’T have to spend all of your money to fit into this “aesthetic”.

The biggest problem with what is now called dark academia (but really, it has been a thing for such a long time) is that people put it in the same category as, for instance, VSCO girls or Indie (not that there is any problem with these aesthetics in specific, they are actually quite cute!). I know this sounds like rubbish, but DA really is a little bit more than that. The clothing/visual part of it may be important to some, but the way you choose to live your life and the hobbies you opt to engage with are crucial for everyone!

That being said, don’t spend a ridiculous amount of money on expensive linen shirts and fancy blazers. You don’t need a brand new pair of Oxfords or a 100% leather messenger bag to consider yourself DA. Start small, then make investments if you find it to be worth it. That brings us to our second point:

2 - Find your favourite aspect of the community.

I know it can be very overwhelming to adhere to any new style of living, but there are some easier ways to make a smoother transition (also, you don’t really want everyone to notice that you went from water to wine in one week, and then back to water after two more because you felt lost amidst all of those weird nerds you found on Tumblr, right?).

Begin with figuring out what part of the lifestyle you identify with the most. Is it the musical part? Classical dance? Are you into poetry? Books? History?

Once you have that done (I plan on doing posts on all of those topics and more, so stay tuned!), narrow it down until you find the very core of your interest. For example, I absolutely love literature, but what do I love about it? Is it the writing part? The reading part? Both? Do I have a favourite style? If the answer for the previous question is ‘no’, try to find one! There are so many amazing styles and eras to explore!

After determining what is/are your main interests, make sure to find time to fit them into your life. Buy more books, if possible. There are also public libraries with a great variety of literature to choose from! If you already do that, I encourage you to try getting out of your comfort zone and attempting something new. Why not experiment reading a different style of books? Or maybe getting into the more poetic part of literature?

3 - Get into it!

Have you found your main interest? Great! Now it may be time to actually get into the fashion aspect of the whole thing. Also, remember that, although it is not a requirement per say, being academically successful is something you may want to achieve, so put some effort into that as well.

I won’t get too much into the fashion rabbithole, but I may write something about it later. In the meantime, you can definitely find some great guides on different DA related blogs.

4 - Don’t adhere to all the negative habits that DA romanticizes.

We all know that mental illness and self destructive behaviors are heavily romanticised, and I will say this from the bottom of my heart: DO NOT LET YOUR MENTAL HEALTH SLIP BECAUSE OF SOME 15 YEAR OLD ON TUMBLR! Trust me, it is NOT worth it.

Cigarettes, alcohol, coffee, all-nighters, heavier drugs. All of that may seem cool and edgy from the outside (why people think that, I could not tell you), but it can also defeat the main purpose of DA and, even worse, ruin your physical and mental health for good. How are you going to stay ahead in school and go to Oxford if you are too busy partying and snorting coke? You will get a sore nose and a big hole in your pocket, that’s all.

Nihilism is another one. Note that I said “nihilism”, not "existentialism" (more on that coming in the future). If you enjoy pondering the reason for human existence and you question the religious beliefs that control our society, welcome to the club! But please, please, don’t let that get too much in your head. Existential depression is a very painful and difficult thing to deal with. It will take away any joy you may find and it is not in any way productive. If you have it, you will know what I mean. Thinking about it sometimes, writing poems, debating with friends, that’s all good, even encouraged, but don’t let it go to your head and become a problem. Not worth it.

Some extra things I would like to mention:

1 - Don’t force yourself into doing or enjoying anything. Sure, reading is good, but if it isn’t enjoyable there is no reason to become obsessed with it! DA should not be a burden.

2 - Stay away from the eurocentric ideals that come with the community. Racism is bad even if you want to live in the 1800s. There is simply no excuse to think that European culture is richer or more refined than any other. Remember that the only reason you think that is because some rich, old, white men decided to murder and opress millions of different people for pure egoism. Not really something to be proud of.

Also, if you are thinking “Yeah, whatever, but English culture is a lot nicer than Mexican, or Indian culture”, then you should probably reevaluate the reasons for your interest in DA.

3 - Don’t be mean to people just because you think it fits with your all-new pretentious and arrogant character. I don’t care if you want to be perceived as such, but it can be very bad in the long-run. Just be aware of that.

And most importantly, don’t let DA take away your personality! It’s okay to like video games and read gossip magazines every once in a while. It is also okay to be yourself. You don’t have to (and probably shouldn't) get rid of all the qualities that make you unique (yes, this is a cliche, but there is a reason why people say it all the time). Be silly, say dumb things and play minecraft with your friends all night, for godsakes!

“This above all: to thine own self be true,

And it must follow, as the night the day,

Thou canst not then be false to any man.”

(Hamlet - Polonius, act 1 scene 3)

-- Shakespeare, William

Memento Mori, dear villains.

[dcpravities]

task 011: luke skywalker.

technology & social media.

luke has been in the city long enough at this point to understand social media fairly well. considering all of the different sorts of technology that he was accustomed to in space, this is was nothing too out there from what he already had seen. that being said, given the nature of him being known as the president’s brother, he does tend to keep all of his accounts completely private. staying in line with an image is something that he can do in person when needed, but with these sort of things he doesn’t want to have to act a certain sort of way. he mainly uses them to follow just about all of their family, and the few people that he’s become acquainted with in the city. he does follow some popular meme accounts, and does have a habit of following some fashion blogs ( gotta keep up with all of the trends he can pair the chanel boots with ). his twitter is mostly retweets of things that he likes, with some original thoughts and posts sprinkled in between. with instagram, he does enjoy posting selfies or photos with the fam, as well as some aesthetic type photos. he’s good with any technology at this point, learning things quickly and becoming skilled at them without too much effort.

hobbies & free time.

truthfully, luke doesn’t have many hobbies. he enjoys flying, but it’s not something he can really do in his spare time around here given certain restrictions. there’s a lot of what he does that’s also so intertwined with the ways of the jedi and the force that he doesn’t consider them to be hobbies. if anything, the closest to that would be working on cars at the garage, but he usually goes there more for the socialization with han and allana more than anything else. i don’t know if luke truly knows what he would want to do in order to relax or what he would want to do in his spare time. the majority of his life was essentially laid out for him, and while it’s not necessarily a bad thing or something he would change, he doesn’t know what he enjoys outside of all of that.

tinder bio.

don’t listen to what they say about short guys

[janiedean]

I feel bad for all the nice J*nsa shippers who like their ship for whatever reasons (tropes, pretty art, aesthetic appeal, whatever) and know it's not canon but get associated with the misogynistic Dany hating crowd who act like Jon being attracted to Ygritte is J*nsa foreshadowing because red hair (I guess Jon should fuck Edmure Tully too? Omg give me Dark!Jon getting revenge on Catelyn by seducing her brother!) Tell me something. I'm new to the fandom but was J*nsa popular before the show? And I've heard something about the OG J*nsa shippers being alienated by the new shippers who insisted it had to be canon and acted like the series is called, "A song of J*nsa #danysux." I don't find that hard to believe because I know people who are now ashamed of calling themselves J*nsa shippers. Like, at this point, it's not only rival shippers who hate it. Even Gendrya/Braime/Jon stans/etc have started disliking that ship. You know your fandom is a problem when people who have nothing to do with Jnsa have a problem with it.

me: reads this ask

me: iwastheregandalf.gif which I can't find now but

okay anon buckle up because I am sadly well-equipped to answer this ask but before I do lemme tell you dark jon seducing edmure to take revenge on cat is LITERALLY THE BEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD but *clears throat* ALL RIGHT THEN.

disclaimer: as anon says I have no issue with like the shippers mentioned by anon in the beginning and ngl I agree, I have ABSOLUTELY ZERO FUCKING STAKES in the j*nsa vs j*nerys war and the only het jon ship I gaf about is jon/ygritte and we all know where that ended up I just... have been here since 2011/adwd was over and all the fic around was just for the books under secret lj communities and asoiaf qualified for yuletide and I have... seen... things.... and I actually have like uh had... beef... with some people in there and I know things bc ppl who hated those others told me stuff so anyway *sigh* buckle up anon I'mma tell you the story of jon shipwars through the years

in order, the old gods help me here, under the cut bc this is long as fuck

when I got into fandom also given what numbers were on ao3 one ship was popular and it was sansan. no like sansan was lit. the only asoiaf ship on ao3 with more than 200 fics. jb had twenty when i checked first. jc had like around 100-ish because of the show but sansan dwarfed anything. I posted the first jon/ygritte fic on the ao3 tag and the fourth throbb fic and like the others were all reposts from lj kinkmemes. nothing was popular before the show except for sansan when it comes to huge numbers bc grrm doesn't like fic and it was all hush hush until the show made it impossible to control and that ship was the one with a huge enough fanbase it actually had numbers, so like... j*nsa wasn't popular in the way nothing else was popular until it got screentime on the show

now, that stated, j*nsa had a... fair amount of fic for a rareship which was mostly book-based and from og shippers that were there from before the show and liked it for what it was but literally none of them thought it was gonna be canon, like it wasn't huge or anything but it had a small but dedicated fanbase who did their own thing and thought it was fun/liked the idea but that was it

that fandom had their own niche of hcs that they cultivated and shit except that like... at the end of S5/beginning of S6 there was a surge in shipping for... well obvious reasons bc it was obv sansa was getting to the wall and that would have been all nice and good but a) it was the time puritanical shipping was starting to take root and the 'shipping sansa with sandor or tyrion is hella problematic' rhetoric had started to circle coming from sans*ery shippers mostly but I'mma not open that fucking can of worms here, b) while the ending of S5 had more of a theon/sansa spike, the j*nsa stuff started getting big

now here we have to mention my villain origin story ie: j*nsa fandom had this one stan whose name I won't make because honestly it's been years and if she's still around I don't want her to remember I exist who was a bnf, wrote for... the website that created the whole larry/carol thing etc who was really fixed on this thing that j*nsa was actually canon and started writing extremely popular meta about it. now you're gonna ask how do you know, I know because this person once wrote a meta named 'why robb stark is a dick' and I told her that it was really fucking bad meta and she took it so badly she kept on trash talking me on her blog/her podcast (I was apparently the insane robb stark fangirl l m a o good lord) and like that was when some sane ppl who argued with her informed me in pvt that she was basically harping on the CANON thing when they'd have been okay with like... it being crackshipping and that she was basically cultivating a hoarde of followers who were harping on them/the ogs and basically ostracizing them;

I would like to add that this person - before her tumblr got 'accidentally deleted' and remade it therefore deleted most receipts for, er, her so-called meta which included stuff like ned and cat raised sansa as a sexual object and only wanted to sell her like cattle - had at some point started a round robin fic thing where... some of the characters mocked openly said stuff that some of the og fans had said specifically targeting them and people in that side basically went harassing anyone who didn't agree with that specific notion

now never mind that this person basically coined an entire term to describe ppl who liked white guys and excused all their wrongdoings out of my conversation re robb basically lying about everything I said as if I didn't have the receipts and tried to sell shirts with it and it didn't work and like then she got kicked out of her own website because she was telling her commenters disagreeing pretty shitty insults (considering I was called psychotic for disagreeing with her that time I don't doubt it) I think at some point she stepped back from fandom bc idk wtf she's up to these days and I don't want to, but basically at that point the dam was broken and there was a bunch of puritanical shippers harping on anyone who didn't agree with j*nsa is canon endgame stuff

this also includes an incident when those ppl were like... passing themselves as throbb shippers and ended up trying to tell t*hramsay shippers off the theon tag based on moral reasons and I ended up arguing with all of them (and they were all from that crowd) which in turn landed me in contact with other og j*nsa shippers who were like detached from that fandom bc those same people harassed them away as well ssooooo fun

anyway when S6 happened everyone was high on it and whatnot but I wasn't gonna begrudge them that I mean... you shipped it for years, canon is delivering you, good for you, but then j*nerys happened

god j*nerys happened

aaand basically...... I mean personally I was there like are y'all seriously arguing about the best incest jon ship out there but like basically the j*nsa endgame side was like AH JON IS PLAYING DANY SEE IF IT DOESN'T HAPPEN, the j*nerys obv got defensive af and both sides were sort of alternatively shitting on jon/ygritte anyway and depicting any other romantic rship jon could have as abusive™ and during S8 it just got worse and like I tried to stay out of it but basically from what I'm seeing now idk how the j*neryses are doing but on the j*nsa one it's ah jon's gonna play dany anyway and she's going to go insane like in the show so SHOW TRUTHING EVERY OTHER WAY and like again denying that sandor exists or that tyrion exists and like I barely touch my corner (sansan) but I ended up arguing with j*nsa/th*nsa people on twitter who were antis and is2g it was white-hair inducing and I know for sure the sansa/tyrion shippers were harassed to hell and back throughout so FUN

and even if the show didn't go there now since everyone there banked on the jnsa endgame thing and admitting you're wrong is like... not a thing, they still haven't let go of it and attach to that ship any shred of evidence which honestly is grasping at straws half of the time (like... the sansa/alysanne parallels like guys please no) and which is why every other ship is starting to get fed up, attaching canon proof of stuff from other ships onto theirs see that batb argument and jb is platonic but jonsa is not nvm taking all the sansan stuff and throwing it on j*nsa but then denying that sansan has canon evidence (like guys I had to read sansa touching his shoulder when saying gregor wasn't a true knight wasn't meaningful and we were seeing things please) and blah blah blah

this also goes hand in hand with the fixation on like... villanizing dany at all costs and like is2g I have zero investment in dany or her storyline I don't even remember it and I don't particularly care abt her either way and sure af I'm not for j*nerys endgame but like.... some stuff I read is completely excessive esp when fixing on how she's a completely mad tyrant who's gonna have to be put down and like... guys no

(also there's some srs stannis hate in that corner which I honestly don't get why they even care abt stannis but I had to read stuff like ppl don't recognize that dany and stannis are the real villains in this saga and like........ idek)

I think most of the og shippers are gone or don't ship it openly bc they don't want to be attached to the drama but like I also think they're pissing off everyone else bc like... I mean a bunch of them also were down with sansa being paired with other ppl as long as it meant a good ending for her except those ppl were... like everyone but the ppl she has actual contact with in canon which meant that at some point sansa/gendry was a thing and like.... you can imagine why arya/gendry shippers & arya stans were fed up, and there's also this tendency to behave like sansa is the center of the entire saga which like these books is named a song of jon snow basically can we pls make peace with it and personally I've had it with both j*nsa and j*nerys people since they started with that dumbass JON/YGRITTE WAS AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP rhetoric but I'm also fed up with the total ignoring that sandor exists/depicting us as delusional and honestly I also was by proxy fed up from the harassing of the sansa/tyrion shippers soooooooooooo

there were also instances of 'well theon is an acceptable choice other than jon bc he can't threaten her' which... i mean we all know what that meant and I'm not even commenting it bc it's one AM and I have no force to but I don't have to explain why it's not a progressive take now do I

there were also metas about how cousin incest being legal in half of the world means that jondany is a worse incest and j*nsa doesn't count as such and I was basically there like guys please just fucking own up to it but honestly I chose to forgot where I read that and I couldn't find the link if I tried

tldr: no one wants to admit that it's not gonna be endgame which considering the amount of fic they have on ao3 is imvho useless bc they have more content than like.. anything I ship that's not jb or that's actually like canon *cries in joncon/rhaegar but I mean renly/loras is canon and has less fic than them* so idk what's the problem with enjoying that instead of insisting it's gonna be canon when not even the show validated it while show truthing anyway when the only show truthing that can be truthed is the small council made of minorities and possibly jon eventually fucking off with the wildlings but not like that but like most people who thought it wasn't gonna be endgame had left/were made to leave by the time S7 rolled by and at this point since wow isn't out yet everyone is fandom-grasping at straws to find stuff to discourse on and we're here beating dead horses *shrug*

so that's... how it is but I would again like to point out that I don't judge ppl on their shipping, I don't particularly care about this entire feud bc I only ship jon with ppl he's not related to in whichever way and I try to stay out of this mess bc I don't really care to argue with ppl who have already decided to bend canon to whatever they want and will have to realize that it's not what grrm wrote at some point but like I have a very good memory and the above rant is as objective as possible also bc again I don't literally have a stake in that race I just think romantic/endgame j*nsa is not a thing and that ppl should stay in their lane and not harping on other ppl who ship whatever in general but especially when their ship is the most popular thing in fandom in the first place /two cents

[mrpenguinpants]

Lisa and Diluc: Book Bonding HCs

Ah..I remember getting this so long ago..and only now am I writing it. I am so sorry inquiring anon I hope you are still there;; But don’t worry too much^^ and I totally get the Lisa and Diluc ship. The manga gave them some moments and Lisa is so mysterious but I’m into it. I might have piggybacked off it hehe. 

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Okay, today’s appreciation post goes to sweetstrawberrybabe. I’m going to see if I add people’s @ in the tag list then maybe tumblr will be okay with it. [WHY ARE YOU NOT OKAY WITH IT] Hopefully. Honestly, with you I don’t think it matters since you’re mach 20 speed and I can always count on you to pop up in my activity haha. But ty for the really fast and constant support and I love the aesthetic of your blog. 

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[taglist]  <- if you want to be added, please read this first.

@hanniejji  @mikeysbike @unionwitch @musekala @twistedsunnshiii @stanzastic @akaasea @xoneaboveallx @adoring-ghost @asheseiler @childelover @dilucsz​ 

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Lisa and Diluc: Book Bonding HCs

It first started when Jean had sent Lisa to investigate Diluc about the evil eye delusion his father had. He was in the garden at the time and it was her first time visiting this specific part of the Dawn Winery. She and Diluc were more on acquaintance terms, both of them working in their own way to protect and serve the City of Freedom, but not close enough to be considered close friends. It was a bit of a passing joke she made when she recommended him a gardening book specifically on cecilia flowers that was in a specific section in the library.  That if he ever decided to switch career’s and become a florist she would have the book on hold. 

As much of an intellectual Lisa was, she couldn’t peer into the future, so she was a bit surprised to see Diluc walk into the library right when it struck noon. His aloof nature only made him nod at her before he retreated to a corner to the library. Well, it didn’t matter to Lisa. Just so long as he was quiet and didn’t disturb anyone else then he could do what he wanted. He never took out a book out, just simply flipping through the collection Mondstadt had to see if anything peaked his interest. After a while of him loitering and scanning the pages, Lisa had enough of this awkward tension and recommended that if we was interested in cecilia flowers, it was on the bottom floor, right most corner. 

From then on, it seemed to be almost a weekly ritual. Diluc would come in and Lisa would direct him to a different part of the library that she thought he might be interested in. First starting with things that the winery business man that Diluc was would be interested in. Different plants that could be added to distill wine or how potatoes could make something call vodka only seen in Snezhnaya. But then it turned into personal interests, Lisa was well aware of Diluc’s night activities so she recommended books written by Fyodor Dostoevsky. He simply sighs under his breath and mentioned he already read it before. She chuckled at that and said that Kaeya had mentioned he read it when he was young. She was simply wondering if he would humour her or not.  

Lisa still keeps her charming persona and was never bothered by Diluc’s aloof personality and likewise, Diluc respects her but never understood why she only remains as the Favonius librarian. He’s seen the “cauldron” she made and that she only uses it for warming tea. Lisa catches on quick to his shifting attention and invites him for tea time. At first Diluc declines, he’s far to busy to be having “tea time” which cause Lisa to chuckle. 

Lisa enjoys the small things in life. Even when she has to collect overdue books it’s a time for her to catch up with others and enjoy the slowness of the days. While her life is a nice and steady drawl, Diluc’s is always set to max with broken brakes. She always feels a tiny bit of pity whenever Diluc makes his weekly visits to see if anything new or interesting came in, which she’s always happy to provide, but she can’t help but feel this is his little escape. Even if Diluc’s stay is short it’s nice to see him wander about rather than staying cooped up in the tavern or working on what the winery needs. 

Diluc began to find his weekly visits with Lisa slow but pleasant. Walking into the quiet but warm library early in the morning to see the ever present librarian sitting at the counter like a languid cat, yawning and giving him a small wave, mentioning that Sarah finally found the overdue book she was missing and if he was interested in reading it, before going back to her nap. She always offered for him to stay a bit and keep her company but even still, Diluc always declined. 

Until one day, Diluc found himself with a free day and found himself back at the library. Lisa seems a bit surprised to see him on an off day but smiles charmingly and offers once again, if he would like to keep her company and have some tea together. To his surprise, he agrees. 

It became a bit of a tradition for them both. Diluc would come in at least once a week, ask if she had any thing to recommend, she would point him to a section on the library, and they would have tea together until it was time for him to leave. During their tea time chats they always seem to talk about everything and nothing. It was fitting that Lisa was the librarian since she herself had a library of information and trivia locked tight in her mind but sometimes they just sat in silence and read. They still aren’t on the same page as close friends but they are definitely closer than acquaintances. But the day is too slow and too fast to worry about labels. 

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I FINISHED MY QUOTA!! I ended up just writing this at work on my phone so if there’s any typo’s that’s probably why. God, why do we live in a society that needs money. I want to go back to caveman times where we 1v1 for a dying corpse of an animal. Time to commit sleep [I’ll answer everyone tmr^^] and hopefully wake up at 6 so I can get a few hours head start on the next fics. 

I don’t want to make these shorter than my usual posts because people have been waiting on them for a very very long time but holy jesus I might have to because I can’t keep up. I’m going to crash and burn one day and sleep the entire 24 hours. But we’re gonna try! Tomorrow’s 3 fics are on Diluc and Childe. 

[thirsthourdemon]

Headcanon on their online platforms but mainly on Twitch, onlyfans stuff, patreon, tumblr

Includes: Demon bros + undateablesss

Genre: Crack, Fluff and slight smut

Warnings: NSFW mentions

||Lucifer

-He didn’t have a big online presence because he was active, no no

-He had an online presence cause everyone always sees him on Diavolo s pictures and such so for a time they shared an audience

-One time Diavolo and Barbatos were doing a thing where they read a book aloud for some sort of game

-Diavolo kind of recorded that for a little bit

-ASMR I TELL YOU

-People liked it so much they suggested for “the one with the deep cold voice”, luci, to do asmr on youtube or something

-He doesn’t know what an Onlyfans is however he does have a patreon.

-Diavolo was interested in the idea and discussed it with him

-HE BLEW UP CAUSE EVERYONE WAS FREAKING OUT OVER HOW AMAZING HIS VOICE WAS OF COURSE! 😡

-His fandom consists of either people who are interested in what he reads or...Horny people who get off at how proper and low his voice is

-His profile picture is a picture of him with his head cropped out where he’s fixing his gloves

-Luci isnt like super famous but he has a loyal fanbase that appreciates him a lot also lots of simps with daddy issues

-He was confused as to why someone would ask him to be their father

-He gets the daddy kink but why???

-Last post: A picture MC took where he’s holding a whip cause mammon fucked something up 🙂

||Mammon

-Bold of us to assume he didn’t already have one

-You already know why he’s on here.

-He has random content but he mainly got his audience since he kind of tried modeling thing for a while. It was for a big brand on their new jock type jackets

-Mammon really wanted cash at that time and he got the thing over and done with making him a couple more grims richer

-The photographers told him they could transfer the pictures though! So he just saved his pictures because “Who wouldn’t want a picture of THE mammon?”

-That gave him the idea

-His audience? Whoreknee

-They even accept the fact that his captions for some pictures are “You should be honored you get pictures of me”

-He posts that with a blushing face half of the time HAHAHAHA

-Levi found it and just laughed at the pictures

-Surprisingly enough the pictures were actually well taken because MC was forced into em

-His most popular picture was the one with him was actually a picture that the brothers took of him tucking in what appeared to be goldie on a seperate MINI BED WITH A SMALL TOY LAMP BESIDE IT

-He did a QnA for his followers to celebrate on his instagram

-PFFTT He got so many questions about Goldie

-Was dubbed “Goldie’s Daddy” after that

-Last post: A picture of him wearing the new Luxury brand jacket he got and his keys in front of his car with the caption “Daddy’s going for a ride”

||Leviathan

-I’ve always head canon that Levi knows how to draw digital emotes. Like he just picked it up cause he wanted to make fanart of him in henry together 😔

-Also has a red bubble or an etsy where he sells some prints and stickers of fanart 👀

-He went on twitch since there were so many TSL streamers there who just played games while they discussed theories as well

-Levi is an emote artist and while he draws he sometimes just discusses the theories with his fellow Yucky Otakus

-He’s the type to really interact with everyone even though he barely does that in real life

-Sometimes though when he gets packages that fans sent or ones that he ordered he’d stream unboxing them.

-He hates showing his face? Oh dont worry He’s wearing a facemask and all that

-His fandom is genuinely into him. Like they actually like him as a person but kinda once got into a scandal on gatekeeping

-He took a break for a bit but he kind of said sorry and everyone just forgave him because he isn’t really the type to do drama and it was just that one instance-

-Overall loved by the community due to how chill he is and how invested he is on fan theories

-He has a twitter btw and lemme tell you it’s just threads and threads of discussions

-Whenever he does stream unboxing videos though and he shows his shelves everyone freaks out how he has EVERY FUCKING VOLUME OF EVERY ANIME AND GAME

-People sometimes ask him personal questions and he tries his best to try to answer them but he shows a face where he looks uncomfy

-Everyone just bullies anyone who makes him uncomfy giving his fanbase a very protective reputation

-Last post: “Unboxing fanmail L8er @ 10pm LOL CYA GUYS XD”

||Satan

-He has a tumblr. You cant tell me he doesn’t have one.

-He had tumblr like back in the old day though like when porn was still available here.

-Get this...He’s known all through out the academia blogs. He INVENTED Academia

-Satan has 1 blog and that’s it. It’s his main blog and he just posts pictures of the book cover and does essays, reviews or sometimes he writes the ending he wanted to happen.

-Dont get me wrong he has a patreon but only because people loved getting more exclusive takes of stuff like his book notes on certain pages or sometimes his notes and thoughts on Artistic Erotica

-Probably has a Ko-Fi because he though he needed it after most of the blogs he followed had it

-He thinks it should be “Table of Content” and not “Masterlist” so he uses just that

-Profile picture is him wearing his signature washed out green grandma sweater while he has a book in hand and a cup of earl grey on his table

-People go to him falling in love with his aesthetic and Book reviews but they stay in love with him because he is big on one on one discussions actually

-He goes for one on one voice calls where he just...He talks to you about any book of your choosing

-Fans send him tea but he knows better than to eat something a stranger gives so he makes beel take a taste first sometimes but ultimately scolds the boy when he takes too much

-He wasn’t supposed to have merch but everyone liked the idea of small packages (More like letters) that really do look old and vintage

-He usually only give those to the people who pay for the top tier stuff

-It usually contains 1 type of tea, a letter he wrote for them himself and a bookmark with his name stamped on it

-He got the stamp custom made ❤️

-Last post: (Insert 5k word essay)

This is what I thought of Edgar Allan Poe’s “A cask of Amatillado”

Playlist: (Insert soft classic Music playlist on Spotify)

Tea: Black Currant

||Asmodeus

-ONLY FANS THROUGH AND THROUGH

-Is a brand influencer as well

-The brand ambassador of this pretty well known semi-luxury skin care brand

-His devilgram? Perfectly made by his PR team which is just him and solomon

-Before I move onto the NSFW stuff I want to emphasize how Beautiful his instagram is and his aesthetic

-His aesthetic is romantic/sexual tension/Unparalleled beauty

-Also a make up brand influencer and has his own make up line

-something along the lines of “The Devil’s box of charms 🖤”

-The type to DG live whenever he’s just showing off the make up look he did or the outfit he got

-The house of lamentation may have PR packages stacking up due to how most of them have an online influence but out of 10 boxes 7 of them would be for Asmo

-OKAY NOW ONTO NSFW STUFF

-Lemme tell you this...He has a specific drawer and space in his closet just for the sexy outfits he has.

-The demon’s onlyfans has pictures of him just teasing his audience where he’s wearing a black skintight get up and his bulge is showing

-Nudes are for mid and top tiers

-His fandom loves seeing in stocking and chokers

-“The choker is from etsy and here’s the link to their shop~”

-He doesnt completely show his body but...Him in suggestive clothing gets everyone pre cumming

-His fandom is just filled with simps 😔

-He loves them and blows a kiss towards the camera everytime he ends a live

-Probably has had a scandal or 4

-Posted an Ahegao once and everyone lost it

-Has been the face for Ahegaos ever since

-Belle delphine who?

-Definitely tik tok famous too 😎

-Has memorized all of Doja Cat’s songs

-Last post: “Hope you guys are ready for tonight’s session~ 😈” With a picture of him in an Fuchsia and black themed lingerie set. A collar with a bell on it.

-Bonus: One time Solomon summoned him while he was taking pictures and he was still in his lingerie set. 😛

||Beelzebub

-Was originally inspired by Mukbangs Channels so he did them on youtube too

-You get his Mukbangs on your recommended, You subscribe because of his cute and funny reactions whenever someone in the backgrounds is astounded to how much he’s eating

-Everyone knew beel as a cute guy who just does Mukbangs and loves to eat

-He once did a fridge raid and ended up eating everything in the fridge

-That was THE MOST CHAOTIC VIDEO on his channel cause you can just see luci and MC trying to make him stop

-He eventually got a patreon because mammon told him people will give him more money for food like that and to be honest he made a patreon but mammon takes care of it from time to time

-Oh you knew him as this sweet beautiful boy who just likes eating? hERe HavE sOmE WorKOUt pICs

-His body got everyone thirsty or may I say Starving

-S I M P S everywhere

-His patreon content is just him making small videos eating or pictures of him being all sweaty from the gym 😛💦

-“DADDY BWDONMXMSKC PLEASE FEED US”

-“Eh? You should feed me instead” *opens his mouth*

-Fans send him lots of boxes of weird food to see his reaction sometimes

-Did the fire noodle challenge a bit late but everyone is surprised to how he isn’t giving the reaction like they expected him

-Spice tolerance? Unmatched

-His fandom is either “UwU Beel please eat try this!” Or “Daddy Please FEED US WITH YOUR DELICIOUS THIGHS! 😩🥵💦💦💦”

-He does the service where he sends you his body building pictures except he isn’t sending them, Mammon is.

-Manager Mammon 😎 Gets a half of the profit

-Can I just...BeelProbablyHasnevergottenintoanyscandalbuthasalotofhaterssayingthefansonlylikehimforhishandsomefaceandgreatbodyandnicevoicebutlikewhatiswrongwithlikinghimbecauseofthosethings?Itisntbadtolikethatstuffatall

-Last post: “🍙 Thank you to @(Your Username) for the Onigiri! I finished the whole batch! Please send more food”

||Belphegor

-Sleep Guru

-Im sorry but I cant see him having any other social media aside from tumblr, twitter and Devilgram

-Belphie barely checks his phone but he has tumblr because apparently there’s a thing called the SandMan’s Box Community

-It’s like LootCrate, a subscription service that gives you stuff like Comfy Pillow sheets and tea for better sleeping

-This even gives you something like sleeping masks or ear muffs.

-The community is well...nocturnal

-His ask box is always full of his 100+ mutuals who just discuss stuff with him

-Whenever he actually does try to type online he makes articles about the best sleep positions or stuff like that

-His fandom is just loving mutuals who sleep and take care of each other

-They have a discord server where it just plays soft music to help everyone sleep

-Last post: “Humans aren’t so bad when they’re asleep”

||Luke and Simeon

-He has a big following on twitch where he just bakes sweets in his cute little hat and-

-Clearly you can tell I follow him on twitch

-The type of twitch streamer that no one hates on because why would you? He is literally just baking and cute comments

-Sometimes he streams with Simeon and everyone loves both of them

-When people give money they dont give “money” no no...they call donating headpats

-Luke is just so adorable that everyone just...

-“Angel Lulu’s Protection Squad⭐️”

-He got famous when he...He doesnt want to call it a collab but He made a lot of sweets and gave them to beel so everyone freaked out and thought

-THE SWEET BOY THAT EATS A LOT AND THE ANGELIC CHILD THAT MAKES SWEETS A LOT ARE FRIENDS?!

-He is now pissed that everyone thinks they’re friends 😠

-Basically his fans started making dishes and candy inspired by him

-Sometimes they send it in and Simeon has to confiscate some because

-“Im sorry, guys. You are all really sweet and I know that you mean well but Luke isn’t allowed much sweets yet”

-No one ever EVER lewds luke

-Fortunately Luke’s fandom has the least amount of pedophiles because everyone drives them away the moment they try something

-Whenever luke does fan mail/unboxing videos people just adore how Simeon places a glass of water at the table below the camera and the scissors or cutter he uses is child proof

-Even though Luke is the main person on his account everyone also notices Simeon.

-How couldn’t they? He looked like he wanted to make everyone in the audience live a better life

-Add that with luke’s wholesome baking and BOOM! You are now ready for a better life🌟

-Last post: It’s a picture of Luke shyly showing of his new batch of sun and moon shaped sugar cookies. “Sun and Moon. Tune in later at 3 pm to see how we made these!”

||Solomon

-He barely posts but he helps asmodeus with his stuff

-Too busy with anything else but helps out when things get interesting

-Proposes Ideas for Asmo sometimes when the demon doesn’t know what to wear for a live or a story

-Laughs at Asmo sometimes when he gets into scandals and drama

-Happy cameraman ❤️

-People follow him because 1.) He’s hot 2.) The fans ship him with Asmodeus

-Last Post: “When will you learn 🙂”

||Diavolo

-He is a vlogger~ Not a very active vlogger but a vlogger nonetheless

-He films anything he can but he’s more known on tik tok and devilgram rather than twitch or youtube

-People have been thirsting for him ever since and no one can convince me that they dont just shamelessly call him daddy whenever he goes on live

-Barbatos makes sure however that whenever it isnt appropriate anymore that he would tell diavolo to turn the camera off

-Wranggled Luci into his mess and now everyone knows the face of that one dude who just reads documents

-Everyone lowkey ships them

-Diavolo is the type to take a picture of a big meeting or a retreat out of instinct to just document his life

-He actually didnt know about vloggers before but he just liked the thought of documenting it

-Everyone picks up “Master” vibes as they say from him hehehe

-He doesnt have an Onlyfans or patreon 😔😔😔

-I honestly would have subscribed to his services

-Last post: “Barbatos made a delicious meal for us at the retreat today” Along with a picture of the Beautiful Demon Delicacy Spread in the table.

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