#so now that im realizing wait shit i dont like this kind of relationship

[sludgeguzzler]

i figured it out i cracked the code

[innielove]

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[qraceiuv]

"slut!" jude bellingham.

summary — you finally release an unexpected song about your relationship after receiving countless hate for it.

notes — send reqs and shit 😙

warnings — hate comments thats it rlly

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y/nsusername

y/nsusername: 🍒👡

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username: she never posts jude anymore

username: i rlly dont like her

— username: okay...

username: shes using jude idc

username: bet jude got those heels for her

— username: u act like she isnt a model/singer whos just as successful as him

username: she doesnt deserve him

— username: and you do?

username: ur all insane and sad. leave her alone

username: shes too pretty to be acting the way she does

— username: she doesnt do anything...

username: slut

y/nsusername

y/nsusername: coming soon...

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username: OH??

username: yayy

username: nobody cares

username: i cant take her seriously

username: still no jude posts

username: she didnt even go to his match yesterday

username: she always uses guys wtf

username: why does evergone hate her?

— username: because shes dating jude and people are stupid

y/nsusername

y/nsusername: my new single "slut!" drops tonight, and i can't wait for you all to hear it. i love this song and myself, and to be able to share it is a pleasure. 🤍🩵

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username: omg.

username: her naming it slut... not even gonna listen

username: WHAT.

username: im freaking out

username: this is abt to be a power move.

username: oh!

judebellingham

judebellingham: My lovely y/n - I'm endlessly proud of her and everything she has accomplished as of recently. Her strength is beyond me and I will forever admire it.

Lots of things have been said about her these past few months, and I realize I should've made a statement. Her kindness told me not to, but now is the right time to share my love for such an amazing woman. Y/n has dealt with so much hate in the world, and I hate to see it. You never know the person behind the screen, and I have always encouraged kindness. Please apply it to those I love.

I have never felt so happy with anyone than I do with you, Y/n. I love you, and I love all of you who have stuck by us and supported my favorite girl.

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username: i will cry.

username: i hope u all shut up now

username: BRO HE LOVES HER SM😭

username: the hating bitches are silent now

username: js a ton of 12 year olds jealous

username: i love them sm

username: "slut!" was so cunty idc

username: stream slut!!!!!

y/nsusername: ❤️❤️❤️💋💋💋

y/nsusername: i love you so much.

— judebellingham: I love you so much more

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[pixxiies]

hii, how are you?? i've got a req for you to write! (the explanation is a little long please bare with me) anyways to sum it up, its kinda based of the song casual by doja cat. if you dont really the idea i think you'll kinda get it once you listen to the song, (and im not really good at writing) but to sum it up, reader and chris have got a situationship, or like their just casually hooking up w/ eachother (i dont know what the label is 😭😭) but they act like lovebirds tg, like im talking cuddling when their watching a movie w the boys, getting eachother gifts, ALL that mushy cute shit.. chris realizes that he's inlove w/ reader, and y'know how hes like afraid of commitment and proper relationships? so instead of telling her that he is, he avoids her for like 2 days,and tries to fuck with someone else to forget about her for a bit. when she comes into the house to hangout with nick, she hears him fucking another chick, and she gets JEALOUSS let me tell you. she pulls that poor girl out of the room, telling her to get dressed and when the girl leaves she starts going off at chris (gettin a lil angsty). but like the whole point of me wanting it to be based off the song was kind of so that you could realize it was based off the song, so maybe u can add lyrics! (idk, just a thought) "if you is a player, i dont think ima play with ya" , "if you wanna lay with her, why don't you just stay with her?". he tries to deflect, and i guess reader kind of confronts him about how she thinks he wants more then hooking up and he denies it, but she knows hes lyin. "you say you don't want a girlfriend but when we are in person, you always act so different, you make it all seem perfect", "you hold me when we wake up, say you like me with no makeup", "is it casual, or are you tryna spend your life with me?". anyways in my lovely optimistic mind, reader tells him its ok because shes inlove w him too, and he finally doesn't deny it. she tells him shes scared too, but they'll go through it together cuz their in luvv 😛 anyways lets just say the night ends with some slow soft sex between reader and chris. "take it off, follow me out, let me in don't shut me out" i understand if you can't do this req, but i saw your post saying you needed reqs to write on a trip tmr, and i thought of this on the spot so sorry if its really shit 😭

ꨄ ⌒ ⋆｡ ˚ CASUAL

│⊹ warnings ⋆ ;; angst if u squint, y/n is used like twice sorryyy, p in v, pet names (baby nd mama), unprotected sex, lowercase intentional, and word count is 2.2k

│⊹ pairing ⋆ ;; chris sturniolo x fem!reader

│⊹ haven’s notes ⋆ ;; hey.. how y’all doin 😙.. sorry for being gone AGAIN i keep having writers block but i wrote smth for my script so i got motivation to write again 🤌

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you have been waiting impatiently at the triplets front door for about five minutes now. finally, chris opened it for you. “took you long enough.” you scoff with a smile as you walk in. “sorry, matt almost started a fire.” the brunette boy replied, scratching his chin when closing the door.

“what?” you laugh while kicking off your shoes and leaving them on the shoe rack. "oh by the way, i got the shirt you were planning to buy." you giggle softly, handing him a bag. "oh shit! thank you!" he says excitedly as he pulls you in for a warm hug. "of course, c." you give him a toothy smile. you notice how his facial expression changes a little bit once you smiled but you brushed it off. the two you walk up the stairs into the living room and kitchen. you saw both matt and nick try to cook dinner or something. “matt! your gonna burn it’!” nick exclaimed before turning to see you.

“what are you guys even making?” you snicker as you walked up to nick to give him a small hug. “burgers but matt almost started a fire trying to grill the meat.” he rolled his eyes in annoyance. “let me help” you say, walking to the stove and shooing matt away. “but at least i didn’t, i wont do it again!” he stated while crossing his arms. “matt relax, i got this” you say while flipping the patty. the boys talk for a while and from time to time offer to help but your stubbornness always said no.

chris left an argument that he was talking about with his brothers and waddled over to you and placed his hands on your shoulders. “you sure you don’t need any help?” he asked which you reply with a nod. once you finally finished making the food, you plated them nicely on the table. “bon appetite!” you laugh while sitting down next to chris.

the four of you eat while talking about a random topic or plans of what to do for the following week. “do you guys wanna watch something?” matt offered when he finished eating. “im down” you reply and the two others agree as well.

now, nick is currently putting the dishes in the sink as you, matt, and chris are all sitting down on the couch to debate what to watch. “nah i don’t wanna watch a horror movie.” chris whined when you suggested for them to see one. “ugh fine, maybe batman again?” matt quickly agrees, of course.

chris had been laying down on your chest for about an hour or so into the movie. your hands rested on the back of his head, your fingers scratching his scalp gently from time to time and he let out small hums whenever you did. after a few minutes you desperately needed to go use the bathroom. "chris" you whisper, loud enough for only him to hear. "hm?" he hummed while looking up at you. "gotta piss, get up" you state as he slowly got up from your chest.

after you did your necessities, you walked back to the living room and sat down next to chris. only this time he patted his chest, signaling you to lay down on it. of course, you don't mind since you and chris were always so touchy so you did. while watching the last 30 minutes or so of the movie, you heard his heartbeat start pounding against his chest rapidly. mentally, you started to count each one. and you did this till the movie ended.

"thanks for coming over!" nick said to you as the triplets started to walk you downstairs. "of course! i love hanging out with you guys." you reply, looking at each of the small smiles on their faces but except for chris. he looked rather stressed and confused. instead of saying anything about it, you simply just brushed it off. you said goodbye to the three boys then left.

it had been two days since you heard anything from chris. you asked nick and matt about him and they both said that he was okay and didn't know what was wrong with him. you began to get worried, scared if it was something you did or said. so, to clear your head you decided to invite nick to the mall since it was somewhere you guys both enjoyed going together. you got to the familiar entrance of the sturniolo home, quickly seeing an excited smile from nick as soon as you knocked on the door. "hey! you ready?" you ask while pulling him into a small hug.

"yeah! let me just go grab my things real quick." the brunette boy said as he let you inside. you didn't bother taking off your shoes since you two were about to leave. upon walking up the stairs you saw matt's face that was mixed with discomfort and trying not to laugh. "what?" you and nick ask him. "whatever you do, don't go downstairs." he mumbled while grabbing something from the fridge then walking back to his room. you give nick a look, he gives you one back that obviously meant to go see what matt was talking about.

hesitantly, you leave your bag on the couch and then walk downstairs to chris' room while nick grabs his things. upon being about three steps down, your ears immediately fill up with moans. both chris', and someone else's. another girl. your cheeks get red as your feet think before your mind and now you're in front of his door. with no hesitation, you grab the knob and swing open the door. as soon as you did so, chris looked back quickly. your eyes observed what was going on. you saw the mystery girl completely blissed out with her face dug inside a pillow and completely naked. you saw chris' hands wrapped around her hips firmly and how his front pieces of hair stuck to his sweaty forehead. "what the fuck chris?"

you feel your cheeks burning up in frustration as you watch chris struggle to put his pants back on. "dude! get out!" he said while the blonde girl turned around and saw you at the doorway, quickly blushing out of embarrassment. "no, you get out!" you tell the girl in his bed loudly, her getting up as soon as you said anything towards her. you and chris make heavy eye contact as she got changed and got her things.

she closed the door upon leaving and you immediately start bashing chris. "chris what the fuck is wrong with you? you ignore me for two days and I find you fucking another chick?" you argue as he quickly tries to find something to say. "you can't just hook up with me casually then ignore me then hook up with someone else." your sigh is shakey, trying not to start crying in front of him. "I feel bad for her even because you're probably just gonna ignore her and then hook up with some-" you were finally cut off by chris.

"why are you arguing about this like we are more than friends y/n?" he argues back, taking a breath to continue. "you're saying this shit like we are together, we aren't anything but friends." the brunette boy said while crossing his arms. "friends that hook up almost every week?" you laugh sarcastically, you process what he said for another few seconds. "don't act like I don't know about how your heart was racing when i was layin' down on your chest the last time i came over." you note. "is we hooking up something casual for you or are you looking to spend your life with me?" your voice is unstable and shakey, biting back the tears coming up on your waterline.

"fine, i'll admit, y/n." he finally said, his voice evenly shakey as yours. "I realized that i'm in love with you that night. you know im scared of commitment. i ignored you 'nd hooked up with another girl to try to get over you." chris sighed and his eyes softening. "im scared of being in a relationship, you have seen what my fans say even if im standing next to a girl—" you cut him off by walking towards him and shutting him up with a soft kiss. you can tell he is surprised when he hesitated to place his hands on you. “im in love with you too chris, and i am scared too.” you say softly as you tuck a strand of hair behind his ear.

“but you know we can work it out together.” you sigh while your eyes look up into his. chris’ hands planted on your waist, rubbing small circles on them. “you think so?” he whispered. you nod in reply, pulling him into another kiss. “‘m sorry.” he whispered again, desperately kissing you like his life depended on it. you start to tug on the hem of his black tank top and backed up a little bit so he could notice that your trying to take it off. he pulled it over his head himself and quickly went back for a kiss. he turns you so your back is facing the bed and he guided you to it. you lay back on his bed and he quickly reaches to the waist band of your shorts. “can i take these off?” he asked with his tone laced with need. you nod eagerly, him taking not another second to pull them down. he then went to your shoes, untying both laces and placing them on the floor.

you watched in awe as he touched your body so gently. he cupped your cheek and kissed you softly, his tongue grazing against yours lightly. he backed up with a smile, and looked into your eyes for a few seconds. with one hand, he went down in between your thighs and hooked his fingers on your panties and pushed them to the side, with the other hand pulling down his shorts.

he held onto your hip while he slowly slid himself inside of you, both of you letting a little hiss. his thrusts are slow but firm and his grip on your hip was light. you whimpering softly and let your body relax as his hips moved in and out of you. chris grabbed your leg and hooked it around his torso, being able to plunge deeper inside of you. “fuck, such a good girl f’me.” he panted with a little smile on his face. you whine back in reply, completely blissed in ecstasy and pleasure. his hips rutted a bit faster inside your puffy cunt as it suctioned his cock. “fuck, feels so good.” you sigh while leaning your head back into the pillow. “yeah? m’cock feels good mama?” he groaned quietly, you nod weakly.

you let out a small moan when his tip grazed that sticky patch inside of you. you arch your back off the bed as the knot in your stomach began to tighten. “‘m so close-“ you gasp gently while the brunette boy started to drill deeper inside of you. “mhm, gonna cum for me baby?” he whispered gently as his thumb went down and rubbed your sensitive bundle of nerves, this just sending you over the edge. “fuck! do-dont stop please please” you whine as your mouth fell agape. the knot in your stomach slowly started coming undone from his thrusts. “‘m cumming!” a small squeak left your lips. “shit, im right behind ya’” he whimpered as his hips remained the same pace. your stomach muscles clenched together as you came on his cock, then you felt him fill you up with his lukewarm cum. he fucked both of you through each other’s high before he stopped.

“you okay?” chris hummed while tucking a strand of your hair behind your ear. you nod shyly while attempting to sit up. “i should go then, nick is probably waiting for me.” you chuckle a bit, whining quietly as chris pulled out of your pussy. “alright, i’ll still see you today then?” he asked as he helped you clean up and change. you hum in reply, standing up and wobbling a little bit. he put his boxers and shorts back on before turning back to you. “drive safe.” he smiled, pulling you in for a little kiss. “i know, see you later chris.” you smile back. you left his room with him behind you, your shoes in his hands.

upon going up the stairs you saw nick with his headphones on, thankfully. “ready to go?” he asked, his tone annoyed since you took so long. you nod with a laugh as you grab your bag and shoes from chris. “i’ll put them on in the car.” you say while you both start walking downstairs.

“what took you so long by the way?” the brunette boy asked when putting his headphones in his tote bag. “sorry, something happened with chris and i had to help” you lie terribly. nick could tell in your eyes that you were lying. “you fucked him didn’t you?” “nick!”

│⊹ haven's notes part two ⋆ ;; IM FINALLY DONE !!!!1

│⊹ taglist ⋆ ;; @deftonesmatt @mattsluttywaist @luverboychris @sturniol0s @mattscoquette @xoxo4chrisss @sweetstars-posts @bambi-slxt

[fictionfixations]

wasnt planning on making a post but im doing it now so uh

helluva boss the full moon episode (i dont remember which one it was. s2 ep8?? i think? idk)

(i just realized i said 'hazbin hotel' my bad. if i make a mistake like that uhh oops)

and yall are stolas defenders so im gonna talk about blitz (dont get me wrong i love both of them)

let me talk about it

(i dont know if i make any sense so oops)

notice how during stolas' proposal basically (cant help but see the gem as like a wedding ring ngl) blitz's eyes are shining because he cant help but hope

and then when he goes 'ohh youre just fucking with me right? this is some roleplay shit right?'

because its so incomprehensible in his mind that this is what he truly thinks it is.

anyway people have explained before about how stolas then proceeds to shut him out like being faced with blitz being in denial about it and taking it as a rejection

meanwhile blitz is like 'wait a second you were SERIOUS?'

and then hes like 'wAIT' because hes trying to understand. to comprehend that stolas was being real about it. that someone wants him. but then he doesnt have the time to think about it because stolas is leaving and he doesnt want stolas to leave

and yknow how blitz is hes kind of an asshole so then he defaults to being angry and frustrated. (i wonder if he feels like he'll only be heard by being angry and yelling. or if by being angry, by shutting people out and being the one to break it off makes blitz feel more in control. anyway-)

no but listen before this hes like 'what the fuck?' stolas leaves, blitz follows him in silence still in that confused and hella surprised state because it was so unexpected while stolas' talking about stuff

hes silent for awhile (probably trying to make sense of it while half-listening)

and then stolas is like 'thats enough to know what this is' and THEN blitz gets all angry and yelling

and inside hes just like. ..thats it? but its like. stolas is going to leave. and he doesnt want him to go. but he also doesnt know how to express that (especially with stolas having completely shut him out at this point in his own feeling, so set in the rejection without realizing that blitz hadnt actually rejected it. had been in disbelief instead of an actual no. and i get why he didnt stay to continue the conversation it just. sucks. so bad.)

("Can I get a fucking minute to think" got stuck in my head) and then blitz gets angry and blames stolas because thats whose infront of him. someone he can yell at and get angry which is so much easier then trying to decipher his feelings, or stolas' feelings. to try to understand. to be vulnerable especially in front of someone who he may like but its also complicated considering the power imbalance, or how all royals are asses so surely stolas cant be different, how its just a transactional relationship and nothing serious.

hes also saying things he doesnt necessarily mean meanwhile stolas is taking it to heart like 'this is how he really feels about me' when that isnt true (blitz is kind of just making excuses. and instead of being 'set free' as it might seem to stolas, it seems to him like stolas is just. throwing him away. getting bored of him. hes ignoring the love confession stolas just says 'i want you' PLEASE be more blunt about it oh my god theres so many wordings that i have an issue with from stolas im going to be honest.

like LISTEn he goes 'i want you'. blitz is in denial. stolas then starts to acceptance/resignment and blitz is like 'wait a fucking second'

so blitz who thought they were going to have a sexy time. suddenly gets hit with feelings out of the blue. and he doesnt do good with those. and its so incomprehensible that he doesnt believe it. and then basically stolas rejects him right after with blitz realizing 'wait you were serious?' and then gets angry like 'what? no, it can't be over. ..well fuck YOU then!' like. he kind of feels betrayed? like 'how dare you spring this feelings bullshit on me (and then LEAVE)'

also is he projecting? has he experienced something??? and i really dont think hes had the chance to properly process so he's just shoving it aside and focusing on the then and now. which is stolas leaving and dismissing him which blitz takes offence to and accuses him of being like all the other royal assholes. because he doesnt know how else to communicate. this is not to say that he isnt an asshole because he is, but id like to say that theres reasons to all of it.

ALSO ALSO. i think its less that blitz believes stolas to be like that but (besides reasoning to himself that stolas is just like all the others so he can distance himself and cut ties even if it hurts) that its because thats the position stolas has and so its what he turns to for insults. i had more to say about this part but i already forgot, oops.

and ive seen people talk about this too but stolas conversing through words while blitz converses through feelings. so its like for blitz youre not meant to listen to what hes saying but to listen to the feeling? meanwhile stolas being through words (thus probably feeling like 'i want you' is explanation enough while blitz needs more clarification then that)

and potentially with stolas being all horny around him cause haha my crush is here and hes hot and i love him and aaah making blitz think stolas just wants him because of what he can offer? (and maybe if hes never faced love that its unrecognizable? especially towards him?) a thought to go onto another time

also another thought to go down. you think after blitz realizes hes serious that hes trying to coomunicate. with the 'can i get a FUCKING moment to think'

and then his mouth goes on autopilot and starts insulting him trying to stall trying to get him to stay even if its with hurtful words because thats what hes used to thats what he does (also defaulting to anger)

just like yelling at him trying to get stolas to just stop walking. to stop turning his back on him.

and hes just running on anger at that point because he didnt get too long to process that stolas was serious so a part of him still thinks that its just. not real? and hes running off of that because again its so much easier than being vulnerable with someone

blitz has. probably been very trustful of someone, only for them to betray him and hurt him and use him so ahdishfu

also probably blitz's attempt at trying to get them to actually communicate

to get him to stop. stand still. stop leaving. stop moving. just turn around, face him, and talk. to get all their feelings out and explain. to clarify.

maybe he even wants stolas to get angry because that's what he's used to. wants him to get angry so they can get it all out there. maybe wants a part of him to feel vindicated of 'he was right, stolas was an asshole', the part of him that doesnt want to be close to anyone in fear of being hurt

..and then stolas doesn't react how blitz expects him to. (because they DONT understand each other at all! they don't interact all that much outside of sex, and stolas offering it to blitz is rejected)

blitz realizing 'wait... shit...' to wheres hes immediately brought out of his anger by stolas' words

'goodbye'

also it almost sounds like blitz is saying 'Stolas, wait I'm s-' as in 'im sorry'

realizing it wasnt going as he expected it to. that stolas really was serious. that stolas was hurt. that stolas was going to actually leave and blitz. doesnt. want that to happen. so then he. tries.

and then goes 'what the fuck' when he appears outside

and honestly sometimes a lot of relationships need space from each other to realize who they are without them. and also to realize how much they care about the other, yknow? to understand their feelings without anything else complicated thrown into the mix.

listen: blitz could go back into complete denial like 'no fuck stolas actually-'. realize he misses stolas, actually.

cause i feel like he really did try at the end only to get shut out (its a really complicated situation because ive also seen people talk about how blitz yelling could remind stolas of stella(?) i think the person he divorced)

and it could be seen as rejection of him trying to do feelings talk. which he could double down on his 'no one can love you, itll only bring you hurt' idea, or bringing other people hurt (as in his mother's death or fizz getting hurt)

but i feel like he also needs time to just realize things. to think things through instead of being faced with immediately having to respond because theyre talking face to face. immediately having to respond because stolas is leaving and if he doesnt say anything then that'll be it.

its complicated. honestly, though. i feel like its for the better for them to have this break. to rebuild their life without the transactional relationship. i just wonder how they'll get back together (daughter plotting time? maybe?)

i wonder if hell has therapy. (...but also. what if the therapists were corrupt and didnt hold any form of patient privacy???)

hh

anyway i dont know if i made sense. ive just had these thoughts stuck in my head so ive just been spewing out all the ones related to this so i could stop thinking about it

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holyfuck ok

also also i have more to add

okay so you know stolas' line of 'you have no obligation to touch me or to bed me'

you know what that sounded like with loona having told blitz 'hes getting tired of you'

it sounded like stolas didnt want blitz to basically touch him anymore. which is probably blitz' interpretation of it and thus his anger of 'you think you can do this shit just because im an imp and youre a royal?' or whatever (hes not even touching the fact of the gem. its 'am i not good enough? i can do better!' because the book was the only reason in his mind why he could interact with stolas. and just. aghhh)

any more thoughts im shoving here in the future before i get more brainrot over this

[morgansplace]

HOLY SHIT I WAS TAGGED BY @konnorhasapen AND IM SO HAPPY I WANTED TO DO THIS GAME SO BAD

Songs that remind me of certain redacted couples! (Rant under the cut!!)

Freelancer/Lasko 1. Talk Too Much by COIN Do i have to explain? i mean, the song literally talks about their dynamic as a couple??? 2. First Sight by Adiescar Chase I cant really explain? it´s only because Lasko said he had a crush on them for as long as he´d known them. 3. Glue Song by Beabadoobee The cutest song for the cutest couple!!! This song is sweet and so beautiful, i can only think about Lasko´s crush on Freelancer, and how he felt before confessing, and being in disbelief after they reciprocated that crush, too!!

David/Angel 1. Je te laisserai des mots by Patrick Watson shut up it´s not only because my angel is french, i swear 2. Angel Baby by Troye Sivan I´m not gonna lie, i didn´t associate them with this song too much until i realized the pronouns used for the person he´s talking about were he/him pronouns. Until then, i always thought the song was cute, but personally, it wasn´t the vibe i had for them in mind. now, after months listening to it, i fucking adore it, and i can't agree more about the fact that it´s THEIR song.

Gavin/Freelancer 1. die first by Nessa Barrett I always think about the fact that Gavin will outlive Freelancer, and thanks to that thought, i feel like this song somehow explains how Freelancer feels about it, even though they never say it. 2. sex by EDEN im inviting people to listen to this song because its amazing and personally, i associate this one with gavin the most, especially about how he felt for freelancer once he realized he had feelings for them.

Sam/Darlin´ - j´s lullaby (darlin´ i´d wait for you) - Delaney Bailey i dont have to explain this one. this is their song.

Asher/Babe - Stupid for You by Waterparks I found this song in a spotify asher playlist and i fell in love with it. it´s so ashercore!!!

D.A.M.N Polycule - Nobody Loves You by Similar Kind This is probably the sweetest song i´ve ever heard and i can only think about the polycule with it. For me, their love is as pure as this song and i love it <3

Vincent/Lovely - Overdrive by Conan Gray This song talks about catching feelings too fast and going all the way in in a relationship, and i think it fits them a lot.

Asher/David (Imperium) - Sparks by Coldplay "And i know, I was wrong But i won´t let you down"

Vincent/Stranger - You´re Haunting Me by Blackbriar This song gives me the chills in the best way, specially if we take in consideration the hc about Lovely being the surge stranger´s reincarnation. i guess this also counts as Vincent/Lovely???

I´m gonna end this here and tag @readyandnot, @sealriously-sealrious, @friendlyfaded, @epsi-l0n, @thesunandmoons-blog and @milophiliac !!! feel free to say i tagged you if you want to participate as well <3

[kasaneteto]

obviously been in my posting era for the past few months & ive been thinking about that and what it means for me so some thoughts on that

posting as much as i have been was sparked by having to end my most recent relationship due to the realization that we were codependent & it was making it hard for us to function effectively. finn was always my guy to ramble at but there would always be times that they didnt have anything to say in response so they would just be like “okay” and i would feel so annoying :( they were never annoyed (well not usually i cant say they were NEVER annoyed by me) but my mind always catastrophizes social interactions that leave me feeling self-conscious to mean “oh they hate you”

anyways. for a while i was kind of worried that my codependency habit has graduated from finn -> posting & while im not sure that ISNT the case… i do think the posting has been good for me. ive been journaling for a couple years now but it doesn’t help me in the same way as posting stuff like this. its harder to process thoughts when im just talking to myself vs writing something out thats meant to be for someone else to read. writing with the intent of it being for someone to see helps me process things so much easier, and that doesn’t really work when im writing it in a place nobody can see it. when i was a kid i would post deviantart journals in the same way. of course back then i was a neglected child who was just looking for validation in any form & where i got it most was the internet.

i think its the fact that ive been doing it ever since i was a kid that made me feel like making posts like these were juvenile in nature and something i should move on from. but since making an effort to be more true to myself & not let embarrassment or the fear of being judged get to me, ive found that i have the strong urge to make posts and that it brings me joy when i do! it really has helped me have a clearer understanding of the way i think/feel. plus tumblr rly does kinda feel like a home website. it helps that it hasn’t changed much and a lot of the userbase i was around in its heyday are still here. it feels like a comfortable place to scream into the void where im not worried about who’s potentially seeing this shit. & thats another thing - it has helped me feel less annoying in general!

im so used to feeling like my presence is inherently bothersome and that any self-assertion is going to make people wish i wasn’t there. this feeling extrnds to posting anywhere. but thats so fucking stupid!!!! if people dont like me or are that annoyed by me they dont have to fuckin look!!!!!! just unfollow me idfc!!!!! i feel good about the level of clarity i have in my life rn and posting long rambling introspective shit like this has been doing wonders in helping me keep myself grounded. so i will continue to do so. i will say though i sometimes wonder who all is reading this shit lmao. watch there be someone out there who’s just obsessed with my ass waiting on baited breath for my next post. if thats the case then get well soon bitch….im probably too unhinged for you to handle 💅

[whatmyface]

tbh this ep really gives me the vibes that the hera and hades affair was a massive retcon because i so dont get the vibe that they were ever in a relationship or even liked each other, maybe because its been a long time but there should at least be some kind of spark there?

i think its really cool that when hera and zeus are flirting in front of hades we dont see him but hes blurred out to show that hes liek the outsider in their relationship and in Olympus

adding more into hades and minthes relationship, liek the more im looking for detail the more im realizing hades cared very little for her, and all her really wanted was someone to be with him so he wouldnt be lonely, without doing anything about it???? also im def on minthes side here imagine if ur SO had racist relatives who consistently shamed you and made you feel like shit, ik some ppl defend hades by saying," WELL HE COULDNT HAVE STOPPED HIS RELATIVES!!!!!", well maybe he shouldnt have taken minthe to those events? Hades is just as awful for not trying to stop them, i think this is him showing everyone that he'd choose the Olympians and hera and zeus more then minthe.

hera and zeus looks so childish here? maybe its because its their anniversary that its the only time we see them being happy, but it makes me think about their past and is this how they acted in the titanochomy as teens? but also as i think about the titanochomy they had to fight a war, i think that definitely wastes away your teen years, and it makes me think that they're both childish to some extent? because they never really got a chance to grow up. tbh zeus x hera in LO feels liek high school sweethearts that are perfect together in their teen years, but eventually grow out of each other and stay friends, but now theyre stuck together, and i do think that zeus and hera became king and queen as some sort of traumatic protection that their egging to be happy now and stuff. and maybe their anniversary reminds themselves of their feelings at the beginning and makes them feel nostalgic, i just,,,,, feelings

i reall like the dollish art style, like thye all look like dolls

ii like the mystery and how we wait to see persephones face

on the topic of persephones dress, i think narratively its be nicer if she went into the party in her greek dress and stood out from everyone and was laughed at, and it would definitely make her look like an outside (like hades), also i REALLY dont like that persephone never gets to pick her clothes, also she looked better in the greek dress

[musubiki]

Now that you mention it, I realized we get to see Lime liking all flustered in post time skip, clearly and fatally infatuated with Mochi, but we never think of Coco and Taffy's relationship, because coco is clearly different from mochi.

But at the same time I imagine taffy being even worse than lime with his reactions, mostly because he's less used to them.

So like, when do we see taffy lose it and melt on the floor? What about coco?

AH SO TRUE!!!!1 the nature of taffy and cocos relationship is a lot different than that of mochi and lime!!!! m&l is very heavily the mutual pining, dying inside from how much you love them but too scared/proud/anxious/busy to confess to them

TAFFY AND COCO ON THE OTHER HAND...........taffy is less used to his emotions, but since he was so isolated and fucked up being raised (molded) by amanita, he also lacks any restraint in telling coco how he feels when hes comfortable enough around her. lime is like "shit shit no cant ruin my friendship with mochi" vs taffy who is like "what? thats how i feel, so what? whats the big deal?" and doesnt realize how heavy it is. taffy would say the softest, most heart-warming loving beautiful affectionate words to coco (in front of everyone) and stand there like it was nothing. meanwhile everyone is like "BRUH?!?!?"

and coco is not a super stranger to romance. she dated people in high school before so shes a little more comfortable with love as a concept, and shes extremely gentle with taffy because she knows what hes like and what hes been through.

ALSO NOTEWORTHY: when taffy first tells her how he feels shes 100% not ready for it. i dont even know if she felt that way about him remotely when he first tells her, but again shes very kind to him about it and tells him exactly something along the lines of "youre a good person and im glad you came around and i like being around you and i think we could be something in the future im just not ready right now." but taffy knows already he wont love anyone but her so says something "thats fine, ill wait." and continues to love her until she IS ready.

(regardless hes so sweet and gentle and caring to her she does fall in love with him for real and they start going out during the timeskip)

(the only time we see taffy genuinely get flustered is when coco flirts with him and makes very obvious s*xu*l teasing hints and he blanks out LMFAO!!!!!)

[infiniteseriesofhalfways]

anxiety is a real bitch

so my uncle died on saturday, but we didn't find out until monday because apparently the county was figuring out who to contact and also my father is not the kind of person who picks up the phone for random numbers. we don't live in same county as my uncle, either, and it's a different area code.

anyway, they finally got ahold of my father, who called my mother, but she was in the shower so i answered, he told me and i told her, and it's all been a lot to try and process for a lot of reasons. my father has now lost every single member of the immediate family he grew up with. my mom and i are fucking terrified about how this is going to affect him. we've also been hesitant to tell my sister, because she's trying to work and live her life and we dont want to fuck that up, but also she deserves to know. we felt like it was my father's decision on when to tell her, because that's his brother, you know?

so he called her tonight and let her know, and she reacted the way we all have (according to him) which is to say we don't know how the fuck to react, because grief is fucking weird and our relationship to him is fucking weird, but he's still family and it still hurts and it doesn't make sense but also it does and it's. you know how do you process this? how do you reconcile grief and guilt and regret with reality? how do you deal with other grief and guilt and regret that is being stirred up?

at about 9pm my sister texts me and my mom 'I love you.' and a heart, to which i responded immediately with 'i love you too' and hearts, and like twenty minutes later i realize she hadn't responded. which is unlike her. and im already anxious about so much, and i suddenly get this bad feeling. so i text her again, asking how she's doing (besides the obvious) and she doesn't answer. half an hour goes by, which feels like a fucking lifetime, i text again, saying i know im probably worrying for nothing but i just want to know that she's okay.

an hour goes by, she finally texted me back to say her phone was charging, she's okay, or at least will be.

and i knew it would be something like that! she does that shit all the time! or she might have been with someone and not looking at her phone! i knew that the most likely scenario was that she was (physically) fine, and i had no reason to be fucking terrified that she'd done something to herself. but in my head i just kept thinking that she might be going through something we haven't talked about (wouldn't be the first time, and hell, where was i a fucking week ago, and she has no idea. like who the fuck knows what could be going on.) or that and us waiting to tell her makes her feel left out, being the last to know, etc. and/or we're already hurting, and if she feels shut out maybe she thinks it wont affect us, we'll have the same 'don't know how to react' reaction (which is so not the case, i literally can't imagine my world without her, which ive told her)

but like. i had zero real reason to think any of it, but my catastrophizing ass immediately decided she was killing herself over the news of our (sort of estranged) uncle's death. also, i was convinced that it would in part be my fault! if i didn't make sure she was okay, it would be my fault.

its been over an hour since i heard back and i know that shes fine. i still feel like im going to throw up. i hate living like this. and im like this with everything! i hate turning left in intersections because i am convinced im going to get hit, even if there are no other cars around and i have an arrow. i forget where i parked and my first thought is the car was stolen and crashed and somehow it's my fault and i'll be in trouble for it. my father goes to check the mail and doesn't come back in within a couple of minutes, surely he's had a medical emergency and is outside on the ground and by not going out there to check it's my fault if he dies. (in reality he's talking to the neighbor) when he called about my uncle i had that thought. ive had it a hundred times when he calls at an unusual time. when my grandmother calls i assume something has happened to my great aunt, or 'family' on that side.

i don't know how to turn it off. i don't know how to stop going to the worst case scenario. the best ive got is being able to distract myself, i guess. in the sense that i will watch things and focus my attention on it, but im still feeling the physical anxiety. still getting chased by tigers while sitting in my bed watching tiktoks, checking the time to see if it's acceptable to call and make sure my sister is okay.

which is another thing, in that i think maybe i can come across unfeeling or like an asshole because i say my uncle died and then i post about watching 911 or dnp and i seem like im having a great time or whatever, and part of me is but also i know that im actively Not Focusing on What's Going On, so im not processing it, and i know that's not healthy either. but its like if i busy myself with everything else, i can keep it from hurting. i did it when my grandfather died. i wrote and read fanfic and did everything i could not to look reality in the face. which is why i had a breakdown last year when we picked up some of his old stuff from my uncle's place, because it became real having his things at our house.

and i worry about this too, people thinking im callous or that i dont care, and that's not it. i care so fucking much i can't deal. so i don't. i used to drown it in alcohol and pills and my version of 'partying' but i can't do that anymore. so it's tv shows and youtube videos and anything but my reality. and then i think im being overdramatic because ive typed all of this out like it absolves me of being shitty and not coping. it doesn't. it's just word vomit.

i dont know if i even have a point anymore. if i ever did. anxiety sucks and so do i, i think

[pesterloglog]

John Egbert, Jake English, Tavros Crocker

Candy, page 36

JOHN: dad?

JOHN: jake?

JOHN: what are you doing here?

JOHN: wh–

JOHN: HOW are you here?

JOHN: did something happen with jane?

JAKE: Oh nothing er happened exactly.

JAKE: Just thought we would pop in for a bit of r and r with an old pal isnt that right tav?

TAVROS: Cripes,,, sorry, uncle john,

TAVROS: I’ll replace it,,,

JOHN: it’s fine. that’s actually just a piece of garbage.

JOHN: aren’t you cold?

JAKE: I am in fact!

JAKE: These old duds...

JAKE: Well you see janey bought all my other clothes.

JAKE: She had a certain way she liked me kipped out and well, i didnt want to bring anything that belonged to her when i left. Nothing she er, might miss.

TAVROS: You took me,

TAVROS: And,,, you took you,

JAKE: Then i daresay i made the right choice not rustling the bushes in the making off with inanimate belongings department.

JAKE: Wouldnt want to give her any more reasons to get all retributive!

JAKE: Shes got a lot to worry about right now! Incredibly busy woman you know.

JOHN: okay, so, uh...

JOHN: i guess i’m just gonna move past the fact you’re 90% naked in my house.

JOHN: i’m not forgetting about it. we’ve got to address that at some point.

JOHN: but i guess we can put that on the backburner for now.

JOHN: are you trying to tell me that you left jane?

JAKE: Eh heh heh whew when you put it like that it sure sounds erm...

JAKE: Well i suppose that is what it looks like isnt it. Ha ha.

JAKE: What i did that is. Thats the thing thats looking like that. Hoo...

JOHN: so i guess this is the thing that’s currently happening now.

JOHN: what exactly do you want me to do?

JAKE: Well. I suppose i was hoping you might be willing to help me and wee tavvy out a bit here.

JOHN: help you out?

JOHN: that’s pretty funny.

JOHN: i remember trying to help you for years, and you never seemed that interested back then.

JAKE: Look here chap sometimes not everything is so simple!

JAKE: It isnt as if i couldve just walked out the door whenever i wished!

JOHN: i mean... yeah, you kind of could have.

JOHN: not now. but years and years ago.

JOHN: back before everything got so...

JAKE: Warlike and tempestuous?

JOHN: i was gonna say stupid, but yeah.

JAKE: Well its not as if janey got like this overnight.

JAKE: None of this happened overnight john!

JAKE: Its just like you go to take a dip in the water and everything starts out cool and fine...

JAKE: But then it just keeps getting hotter and hotter. Gradually. Degree by degree.

JAKE: So slowly that by the time the waters boiling you dont even realize youre being scalded alive!

JOHN: are you guys... i don’t know, hungry, or whatever?

JOHN: i think i have a frozen pizza.

JOHN: i’m sorry for being... i don’t know. a bitch.

JOHN: it’s just been kind of a rough forever.

JAKE: No offense taken chap! Whisky?

JAKE: As you may know im not in truth the biggest fan of the stuff but it gets the job done right quick eh.

JAKE: John.

JAKE: Do you think im a bad person?

JOHN: wait. what?

JAKE: Do you think ive ruined my whole entire life and all of my relationships and especially the most important relationship in ones life, the divine and unbreakable bond between a man and his son?

JOHN: haha.

JOHN: um.

JOHN: not sure if i’m the best person to talk to about this, considering i kind of did the same thing?

JOHN: but, no. i don’t really think that.

JOHN: it’s not as if anything that’s happened to you is your fault, like, existentially.

JOHN: or like, even non-existentially. i guess even in straightforward non-metatextual-jerkoff terms it’s also not your fault your wife was treating you like shit?

JOHN: it may be all my fault in both an existential and non-existential capacity, so i wouldn’t sweat it too much either way.

JAKE: Eh? What do you mean?

JOHN: i don’t think you’d really understand.

JOHN: all i’m saying is...

JOHN: you’re alright, i think.

JOHN: i think you’re doing the best you can.

JOHN: i don’t blame you for anything, jake.

JAKE: I wish i could tell you hearing that was a load off my mind john.

JAKE: The me of yesteryear probably would have drunk to your health and exclaimed, thats grand ole chap! Now im off to wrestle with a robot and engage in dalliances and whatnot!

JAKE: Except i would have been drinking flat cherry coke back then probably. Gran left an astounding amount of cherry coke behind when she died and it took forever to get through it all.

JOHN: that’s pretty gross.

JAKE: Different strokes for different folks i suppose!

JAKE: Anyway my point is...

JAKE: Maybe you should blame me?

JAKE: Maybe i need someone to blame me. For once.

JOHN: ...huh?

JAKE: I think im starting to realize that ive been going through life with the mindset that nothing has ever really been within my control.

JAKE: Maybe its been the people i surround myself with.

JAKE: Janey always seemed so sure of what was right and what she wanted!

JAKE: And one of those things was me.

JAKE: I dont think i ever really tried to challenge her. Not when it ever mattered.

JAKE: And before her there was dirk.

JAKE: Hoo boy. Dirk would have written me out an annotated schedule for every minute of my day if id asked him to.

JAKE: Or um, especially if i hadnt asked him to.

JAKE: Dirk... he...

JAKE: Ah maybe its best if we dont dwell too much on that...

JAKE: In a way i think i found all that comforting.

JAKE: Havent you ever wanted to let someone make the tough choices for you?

JOHN: maybe. yeah. i dunno.

JAKE: Im starting to think ive been a bit of a fool about it all though.

JAKE: Its easy to shrug it all off when its just your own life being jostled about.

JAKE: But this is all something i shouldve been thinking about when ole tavvy was born isnt it?

JAKE: Too little too late.

JAKE: Ive not done right by that boy at all.

JAKE: Even now all im doing is making excuses for myself. Phew!

JOHN: jake, i guess i actually don’t know you that well, but i think there’s a difference between making excuses and just giving reasons.

JOHN: there’s reasons for what you did, sure. and i guess you can think of it as an excuse, but that’s only if you don’t make the effort to start trying to fix yourself.

JOHN: and i mean... okay, look. you left. you’re doing it. you’re making it happen!

JOHN: you got your son out of there.

JOHN: better a decade late than never. i guess.

JAKE: You... youre right john!

JAKE: I did do that didnt i.

JAKE: Nobody swooped in through the window and rescued me.

JAKE: I did it myself! I finally stood up for whats right and im going to make way for a new and better me!

JAKE: I have my immortal life ahead of me. Theres no point in sitting around hating myself and regretting the past!

JOHN: i...

JOHN: thought it would be harder to convince you?

JAKE: Golly john, i–

JAKE: Gee willikers, do you hear that?

JAKE: John.

JOHN: yeah?

JAKE: Take my hand.

JOHN: what? why?

JAKE: Dance with me!

JOHN: oh, jesus christ.

JAKE: Im excited, john! I havent been excited in such a long time.

JAKE: Its just so great to be out on my own! Here with you after so long!

JAKE: You and me and tav, gosh were going to make such a team! Two crockers and an egbert!

JAKE: A cracking good comedy to be sure.

JAKE: Heck. Perhaps ill take back my good old name back! Who knows, maybe tav would want to be an english too!

JAKE: This place is a bit smaller than wee tavvy is used to but im sure well make do.

JOHN: you want to move in with me?

JAKE: Oh yes i suppose id ought run the plans by you first before letting my imagination run wild eh.

JAKE: Im sure i could find somewhere else to stay. But i must say i do feel much safer bringing tav up with family!

JOHN: sure. why the hell not.

JOHN: oof...

JAKE: Eh? What are you looking so glum for there chap?

JOHN: oh, you know. the usual.

JAKE: Do you need help getting up?

JOHN: nah.

JOHN: i’m cool down here, on the floor.

JAKE: You know john. Maybe wed ought embark upon this journey of self-betterment together!

JAKE: What do you say my boy?

JOHN: what...

JAKE: I got my tavvy out. Have you been thinking about making amends with roxy and such? Maybe give her the push she needs to get out herself?

JOHN: not really.

JAKE: And why in the hell not!!

JOHN: like i said, you wouldn’t really understand.

JOHN: i don’t think there’s really much of a point in me trying to talk to roxy.

JOHN: she’s not...

JAKE: Shes not what?

JAKE: You cant rightly go and blame the woman for all your troubles john.

JOHN: i’m not!

JOHN: i’m not blaming her at all.

JAKE: Then what ARE you saying johnnyboy?

JOHN: that even if i COULD talk to her and try to set things straight...

JOHN: why bother?

JOHN: she may not even be, like, real. strictly speaking.

JAKE: Eh?!

JOHN: like i said. you wouldn’t understand.

JOHN: trust me. it’s all a whole lot of crazy stuff.

JAKE: Youre right. That is an awfully crazy thing to say!

JAKE: Not real? Why i just saw roxy yesterday!

JOHN: ...

JAKE: Shes as solid and real a person as you or i john.

JAKE: Its hardly becoming of a man to say something so dismissive even if its tough to know what a lady is thinking from time to time.

JOHN: i’m not...

JOHN: ...

JAKE: Whats that now?

JOHN: i fucked up too bad, too long ago.

JOHN: it’s just too late to change anything now.

JAKE: So what?

JOHN: huh?

JAKE: So what if it doesnt change anything? Wont it matter to your family to see you care?

JAKE: Wont it make you feel better to try?

JAKE: To at least be able to say that when the chips were down, you gave it your honest all?

JOHN: ...

JAKE: And what about harry anderson? Do you really want to go the rest of your long life knowing you never tried to be the father your son needed?

JAKE: My word john. Are you... crying?

JOHN: haha...

JOHN: jake, do you have roxy’s number?

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

part two of this:

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everyone say hello at my bushcat :) her name is Maple.

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Thank you for all the kind replies! ^^ to celebrate I’m letting Maple share some words of wisdom:

6)nvd .,c-%@#0”sxmlkp. d

Truly inspiring.

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you all should send my sister anonymous hate it would be funny

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NOT ME YOU FOOLS

#MY PLAN IS BACKFIRING

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I dont think that snatcher realizes that people just pecking hate him

#hatchat

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YOOOO CHAT I GOT SO MUCH CORGI MERCH FROM THE SHOPS IN NYAKUZA TODAY ILL POST IT L8TER BUT THIS IS SO RAD HOLY SHIT DUDE IM SO EXCITED!!1!

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anonymous asked: Um you do realize putting ��Domesticated the Snatcher” in your bio is hella creepy right? Like it’s weird as fuck to dehumanize an already demonized species like ghosts are people too. You’re already disrespecting the dead with that but it’s especially weird seeing as he’s literally an actual murderer on top of that? Like taking away the ghost thing that’s even creepy to say about a fucking serial killer as well. Like. What the fuck man. Actually what is wrong with you??

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“what’s your gender” ermmmm im silly?

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Godssss if I have to see one more post about the lost prince of subcon I’m going to break the moon again /j

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like not just posts talking about him but ones that are just blatantly wrong or infactual but I can’t be too mad because no one knows what really happened hardly but STILL. thank stars I killed him by transitioning but STOP PUTTING HISTORY ARTICLES ABOUT HIM ON MY DASH!! PLEASE!!!!

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Anonymous asked: WAIT WHAT?????? Amy did you???? Know the lost Prince of Subcon?????? Also what’s the context of the transition thing? What????

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go talk to @ thesnatcher about it because I don’t care about that guy anymore (referring to the prince, not snatcher, love u ^^🩵❤️(i want to trap him in the horizon sometimes))

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anonymous asked: YOUR SISTER IS THE FUCKING SUBCON PRINCE WHAT THE FUCK???????????????????????

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oh gods what happened why are we talking about this GET OUT OF MY ASKS.

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anonymous asked: Amy why did you say to talk to your brother and not you?????

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���because he’s the prince too…? I thought everyone knew this??

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MOON YOU DID NOT JUST OUT ME TO ALL YOUR FOLLOWERS WHAT THE HELL

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STOPPPP MY BOSSES DO NOT WANT ME TO HELP THEM MAKE A HORROR DOCUMENTARY ABOUT SNATCHER OH MY CLOTHHHHHHHH BYEEEEEEE

anyway happy day for subcon history fans i guess :p, so sad no one knows i was the one who cracked moonies egg but wat ever *kicks rock and walks away with head lowered + tail dragging behind meoh stitch i just reread the top half of the post for a microsecond i lived in a world where my bosses didnt pitch that idea to me it was so beautiful

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shady-sunburntdeactivated03122017 is both my best friend (wrote pretty accurate books on subcon history and spirits :)) and my worst enemy (wrote books on subcon history ft my deadname being everywhere in it)(I mean I suppose it is also my brothers name but it’s NOT MINE OK he can keep it)

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[icarusredwings]

Dhawan!Master:

(Slightly biased)

Do I have to put a trigger warning for a discussion of toxic relationships?? I mean.. this IS Thoschei... So I dont think so but just incase-

Tw: Emotional munipulation/abuse (?)

(And kidnapping- duh)

9 and dhawan wouldn't get along JUST enough to be a DISASTER together. And what I mean by this is that he would hate him so much but also roll his eyes and say something heavily childish every time he claimed to be evil or horrible because while 9 would think he's annoying as shit, he'd also be annoying as shit. 9 is very unhealed, and the bloke is about as mature as a super genius 17 year old with anger issues, so their arguemnts would sound more like two teenage boys.

This also being said, dhawan would LOVE tormenting 9. He wants to be noticed, even if that means being punched in the face so 9 would be perfect. All he would have to do is say something like;

"Big ears cry baby says wot?"

"Wot!?"

"Ha!! Got you!"

"Just wait until I get my hands on you -!"

"😏 Now, now, dear doctor, take me out for dinner first!"

"Oh, you wish 🙄"

And he would get all the attention he'd want. Dude doesn't know when to shut up, and someone might have to kiss him to make him stop yapping.

Theres two ways 10 is going to go.

He's either going to fix him, or he's going to make him WORSE. There is no in-between. 10 is not strict enough to handle the discipline and routine that dhawan needs. Dhawan could bite a kid at the park, and 10 would go. "Aww buddy, we talked about this!! But im 83% sure that those big wet puppy eyes could convince him to become good. Just a little bit. Enough to be able to take him to Burger King and only eat food, not people kind of good. He's still gonna growl and bite, tho.... maybe 10 should muzzle him..

Play fighting except this man wants you to full fist him in the face while sparring.

11 is just as much crackhead energy as he is and I think this would scare him at first until he realizes that someone finally can keep up and match his freak enough to spend 12 hours striaght in a bouncy castle while talking about different subcultural issues on various planets... that is.. until dhawan pops it or feels the need to do something really evil and just cages him because he doesn't want him to be friends with anyone else.

Obviously, dhawans obsessed with 11. Playing is a HUGE part of their relationship (cat and mouse/tag/hide and seek/super heros/cops and robbers/pirates specifically). He found his childhood best friend again 💕(even if he is a little stupid now). He feels like he's missed him for so long, and now that he has him again? Good luck prying him from his cold, dead hands.

He even steals his fez, but he draws the line at fish fingers and custard.

"Dude.. That's just gross.."

"It's good!!"

"It's not. It's really - really not."

(I dont know why, but I keep feeling like 11 gets kidnapped. Maybe it's because he was sitting in handcuffs smiling and waiting for his wife to rescue him. Which does inevitably happen.)

(Why is he so awkward? Oh, that's right because the guy has 0 people skills, and honestly, idk how he even managed to mask so long to get voted in as PM or if that was what Lucy was for)

12 is extremely annoyed, but that's okay because any attention to dhawan is good attention. I can see 12 walking away and him following him STILL talking and teasing him, trying to impress him and one up him in any way, calling him "Old man" like he's his grandpa or something weird. I'm not entirely certain that 12 has the patience to fix him. I dont think he makes him worse, though? I imagine dhawan is about to do something really stupid and 12 shout at him;

"What are you doing!? Get down from there, you idiot, you'll hurt yourself!"

"Who let grandpa out the home?"

"What!!?? 🤨 WERE THE SAME AGE"

"Nu uh"

"What do you mean nu uh!?"

Either that OR

They're jumping out windows TOGETHER.

No in between.

Look at this face of disbelief. "I can't believe you just ignored me. God what a cunt" Like babes, you got a new face now, give it a bit, mkay? Her Time Lord sensors have been broken from being around River for 20+ years. You'll get her, and she'll be so shocked, I promise honey <3

Take everything domestic from spydoc, 10s playfulness and understanding and shove it together and BAM you have 14 and spy which consists of 14 laying down strict rules and routines (much how 13 does for missy) and because of these rules, he therefore gets rewards as well. Because of the fact 14 is settling and most of the people in the house work full-time jobs, it means he will have his full attention. No, unless its a very good day 14 will not be in the bouncy castle but he will infact cuddle in bed, watch movie marathons, tell him about therapy, take him to get galactic ice cream, take him on walks, and graciously accept acts of service like tea and sandwitches.

Now, I don't think this is perfect, there is times when spy is still naughty and gets purposly ignored (not the healthiest communication, but it works).

Dhawan blew up the microwave for fun? Suddenly, the garden outside needs tending, and 14 is busy for the next 2 hours. Dhawan is not allowed in the garden. It's one of the rules. He's told to replace the microwave. If he does, when the 2 hours is up, they'll watch a movie and talk about why he blew it up. If not? He's ignoring him until he does.

Because dhawan just wants to be SEEN. He wants to be praised. He wants to be noticed and valided. He wants the Doctor to acknowledge hes on the same level as him, if not higher. That he IS capable of stuff then just party tricks and that he IS special, important and needed.

Why? Because this is how it's always been. Doc has always been the one to get the attention of the adults and get the special praise despite being expelled, failed his TARDIS test, had no friends and was late for exams, AND murdered 3 kids. He wants the Doctor to acknowledge that he is his equal (even though technically he has more degrees than the Doctor and is actually licensed)

Bonus points if the rewards scream puppy play like going to the park or petting, because that's kind of what's happening. He's being trained. It's a very conditional and toxic relationship, but eventually, it works because soon enough, he's conditioned to earthly social rules, that exploding microwaves while jumping up and down and clapping is not acceptable behavior.

The whole trope is very kinky 'pet' vibes, except the "pet" is just an autistic coded super bored universal genuis who craves affection and chaos at the same time so yes Donna, You gotta knock or else you're going to see some things.

Lemme know if im onto something here because I was kinda nervous to say that last part and I don't know if it's just me or if after a couple of months these two would actually work out pretty decently.

It would turn into dhawan giggling because he left a very obvious banana peel on the floor, and 14 can't help but smile, roll his eyes and starts laughing too because dude- hes cute. He swears he's evil, but he's just adorable.

(And the Doctor knows adorable when he sees it, he's met Rose Tyler)

Hand flaps. Thats all.

I WOULD say 15 could fix him because 15 is energetic and is kinda stable, but then again... the man failed at fixing himself so likkkeee.... Would they kiss? Most definitely. Would dhawan become a love sick obsessive stalker? What? Like he isn't already?? (Yes) Would 15 make him worse? Yes. Do I care? No. #let them kiss

*Clamps a metal braclet onto his wrist*

"Uhh babes, what are you doing?😅"

"Just a lil tracker so I know where you are at all times dear nothing to worry about teheehe 💞"

"..... I fear I have made a mistake..... FIREBALL!"

"Awww what is that our safe word?"

"No. Its her cue."

"Whos cue?"

*Ruby comes in with a flamethrower*

Ruby, who has learned some references from Rouge: I DIDN'T ASK HOW BIG THE ROOM WAS I SAID CAST FIREBALL!!

And that is bassically Doctor Who folks.

Regarding my "Switching up the masters and their respective doctors" post.

How I think Nu who Masters would react to being placed with Nu who Doctors that aren't theirs.

(A thread)

(I would include classic, but I couldn't bare the idea of separating 3 from delgado. They're a bonded pair 🥺 This is all in good fun <and over exagerated>, but I can't promise anyone didn't get hurt during this experiment. Someone most DEFINITELY got hurt. It was me. Im in the hospital as we speak.)

Notes: Technecally, since 9 did *meet* a master in the audios but never actually got one, him and 11 are in for a real suprise.

Going in order! Feel free to comment on what you think!

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recognition

for being the one who inspires all of this activity feels so good i have been wracking my brain trying tofigure out why i am being punished for being someone who had no idea any of my theoretical concepts were being fully realized, & who just wanted to enjoy some of the fruits of all yalls hardwork while not even boasting about how i totally inspired cody who motivated all of you.. but hedidnt even realize that it was me who did that til just now. and shit is about to get a whole lot more fair and righteous & that is a super dope thing. i have a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach cause i talked too much shit to people who generally are just admirers & supporters.. its sometimes hard to appreciate that kind of support when i am so far from happy. i know i dont show it, i probably come across as totally peachy keen but it is not the case at all if i am away from my beloved. he knows this. he should. the only reason he would be anything but cocky would be because someone else is telling him lies or something because he knows full well he is the only thing that has ever made me give a damn about anything ever in this wholefuckingworld. i dont know if he does know this.. and apparently hes the onewith his feet up against the window.. just waiting for me to somehow get into his apartment.. just likehe was waiting for me to get on to the roof with him earlier.. andthen he apparerntly drove away in a carbut is now back in that apartment.. im confused. so whoever is there is either someone who needs to be told how to fix my fuckingbroken relationship or someone who needs to be worshipped like the sex god he is.. either way, i dont understand why everyone acts like i am some problem because i cannot walk through walls & have had a hardtime being anything but totally repsectful this entire month where i have been going through hell.. as politely as possible. i worry that all my casualties have made me come across as uncaring or uninterested in my husband but thats not the case. i just dont know how to texplain any better how many times i have already tried every single thing that you want me to try again and its just a lil discouraging and ihate lookng like a crazy person or drawing unwanted attention...plus i dont know why im supposedto know things like that youre there waiting for me or that youve had this thing that iddnt know about or that youre not the one whose in that apartment or that youve beeen upset all night and burning things and everyone is totally unaffected by your obvious upsetness. i want to doeverything right the first time but i fear ive alreeady fucked that. al i can do is try to fix it so here goes nothing :

[alphadaddyderek]

oh so we're lying now? interesting. babe you know damn well this post was not in the t*mmy tag don’t even lie. how was it in the t*mmy tag when i didn’t fully spell his name out and i tagged it anti bummy and anti t*mmy kinard? i did my due diligence. it’s not my fault you’re stalking the anti tags. unless you follow the bummy tags which...is weird lmao cause thats a terrible ship name and people obviously use that name to talk shit about b/t, so, maybe you shouldnt?

second of all, i realize the scene happened AFTER bobby was ok which is why i used the word WASNT which is a word in the past tense. didnt think i'd have to spell that out but, here we are.

buck did say something to the effect of "so we both have daddy issues" but he wasnt joking lmao. he was being dead serious because they both do. how is him saying he and t*mmy have daddy issues him flirting and joking? lmao.

also buck was not dismissive wtf LMAO. buck started the convo talking about how he was worried because he sees bobby as the father he never had (which then lead to t*mmy saying "but your father is alive" like a fucking idiot). then buck says he doesnt have a good relationship with his biological father. then t*mmy says he's jealous of buck because he has a shitty father and had a shitty captain in gerard. like he completely turned this conversation from buck venting to his maybe-sorta-bf (we never did get any kind of confirmation that theyre dating) about almost losing someone very important to him to his sorry ass pity party about not having a great father or captain. like im sorry, that sucks, but maybe dont do that? right now? im not saying he cant ever talk about it, but to shift the focus of the convo from buck's feelings to his own is weird. but then to also use that moment to make a daddy kink joke is sooo wild to me and it's weird that youre defending it.

"yeah i know your father figure almost died but i hope you have daddy issues cause i find daddy kinks to be hot" no yeah, nothing wrong here. joking or not, weirdo behavior.

i'm not even gonna touch on you saying i'm waiting for a reason to hate on t*mmy and bummy because truth be told there's been plenty of other times i couldve said good fucking bye to that stale ass ship but i tried.

now please stay out of the anti tags cause you clearly cannot take it.

after that bummy dinner scene i am fully anti bummy and anti t*mmy like holy shit. i tried to see what the t*mmy fans and bummy shippers saw but i never could. but now that he said he hopes buck has daddy issues??? theyre done. i cannot with t*mmy and bummy anymore.

like even if bobby (someone who buck said he sees as his father) wasn't a hop, skip, and a jump away from dying that would still be such a weird thing to say? imagine someone youre seeing saying they hope you have daddy issues. bitch what?

not to mention having daddy issues doesnt automatically mean youll have a daddy kink

fucking weirdo.

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if i may---how does malorie feel about the diaboys? what's their relationship like?

(im going to make only sakamakis and this might be a bit short because im planning on making a story for each of them and also, im very lazy😭)

Shu

- their relationship kinda doesnt exists??

-like they knew each other because they see each other in school and mainly because Malorie is coming to sakamaki's house once in a while but thats pretty much all.

- shu thinks she is "annoyingly optimistic"

- but also whenever their paths cross at school or the sakamaki's house, he cant help but look at her in awe because she is so pretty. but will rather die than admit that.

-Malorie also finds his hair very pretty and wants to touch it but she knows damn well that shu is going to make fun of her for it.

- also they are not even friends so they dont really talk much and also because he finds her quite "troublesome"

Reiji

- ohh now this man can not understand if he hates or loves her company.

- when reiji first saw Malorie, he tought she was a "lady who needs improvements on her attitude"

- but one time he offered her a cup of tea that he made while she was waiting for kanato

- and she really loved the tea

- and when she started complimenting about how the tea was great, this man's ego went up like mount everest.

- and he realized that she is not that bad after all because they have a lot in common like; reading, having coffe addiction(yes thats my headcanon that he is a caffeine addict), and much more.

-so every now and then they kinda talk with each other while drinking tea/coffe whenever she cames to their home.

Laito

-they are besties who flirt with each other

- everyone propably thinks they are dating atp

-they hang out a lot, going shopping together, doing their skincare routine together even going on dates together..

-and laito actually sees her as a good friend. To him, she is someone that he can feel even a little bit like himself. İts like she is his therapist at this point😭

-they are kind of like the perfect person for each other but they are just friends.

Ayato

- oh he hates her.

- he thinks she is a mean bitch

- and the reason he hates her because she rejected him lmfaoo💀

- he saw her at school once and fell head over heels for her.

- he started to watch her from afar and admired how cute and kindhearted she is to everyone.

- and one day when he finally had to guts to go ask her out, he went to her closet while she was getting her books for the next class and he said exactly this; " ore sama demands you to date him"

-let me tell you the way she laughed

- literally everyone in school came to see to find out what the fuck is that noise

"Dude i dont even know you how can i date you?"

"well you should because ore sama demands you to"

"are you talking about yourself in third person?? And what the fuck is ore sama is it like oreo or sum shit?"

- the way he felt so ashamed and embarresed

Kanato

- omg they are lovers atp and Malorie adores him.

- when kanato first saw her he tought wow this can be a perfect doll.

- but no his stupid ass fell in love instead💀

- he doesnt know why but whenever he sees her, that butterfly feeling is always there and he finds himself wanting to be closer to her and this feeling annoys him so damn much.

- he is lying on his bed, and suddenly starts thinking about Malorie. He is doing his makeup and all of a sudden he wishes Malorie was there so they can do their cute little silly makeup together. He is having a nightmare and for literally no reason, he just wants Malorie to be There and hug him.

- he wants her gone but he literally cant do it. Because even the tought of her being death makes him sick.

- he cant stand the idea of it and its SO weird to him since he didnt felt anything like this before.

- their relationship is like sun x moon. Tropes in books/movies

- also Malorie is such a good influence to Kanato that even his brothers can see that

Subaru

-like shu, Malorie's relationship with Subaru kinda doesnt exists.

- i mean he sees her at school and whenever she comes to the mansion but thats pretty much all.

- but one time tough Subaru broke a vase accidently out of anger and Malorie saw that.

- so when she came the next day, she bought a vase for him

- he really appreciated that and is thankful to her since then

- he thinks she is a pretty kind and delicate soul that doesnt belong in this cruel world just because she gave him a fricking vase💀