#so my immune system is really doing the Most rn

[quarantineddreamer]

Where is my trophy for being very brave (and stubborn) and advocating for myself at my doctor’s appointment 🥺

(If you’ve done this I’m handing you a trophy rn btw 🏆 Careful its weight directly correlates with how proud I am of you—which is: very very)

[sschizoid]

would you be willing to do Tulpar crew getting sick headcanons 👀?

like, who’s popping zinc at the first signs of A Symptom, who burns themself into the ground ignoring it, who’s man flu about it, etc

anon !! gives u a big kiss i love this question sm

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curly

has a pretty strong immune system and only gets sick about once a year, if even that. but when he does, he's not much different from a sickly victorian child withering away from consumption

he lives alone, so any attention he can't get from friends or family checking in on him he gets from social media. posts selfies of himself sick in bed and captions them on his story as "feelin like shit lol anyone else sick rn?" immediate 30+ likes in the first few minutes of being posted

all the while is absolutely downing those emergen-c immune booster supplements with coconut water for the electrolytes. he's trying to get over this cold as fast as humanly possible because honestly it sucks and is super inconvenient

jimmy

just has the worst immune system. gets absolutely sick as a dog— pallid skin, sunken eyes, the works. he's pretty used to it at this point and just expects himself to get sick 3-5 times a year at minimum

at the same time he'll go about his day as usual, now just twice as irritable. spreads his shit to everyone he meets because he refuses to stay home. what, he's just supposed to put his life on hold because of a little cough?

the most he'll do in terms of medicine is down 80mL of nyquil (way too much) before bed and hope for the best

anya

a complete mother hen when friends and family are sick, but the second she falls ill, her executive function is all over the place

stays home, but tries to keep herself busy anyway. uses the extra time to catch up on household chores, to rearrange some cabinets, or to catch up on some of her favorite shows

tries to eat healthy in the meantime, as she knows it'll make her feel better faster. but sometimes she just can't help herself and has to have either a pint of ice cream or a full bag of chips for dinner. she's allowed !!

swansea

the last thing he wants is to be fussed over. will insist he's fine to anyone that shows concern, but is still sure to take care of himself behind the scenes

is a hardcore vick's vaporub truther. the second he feels congested or has a tickle in his throat, he's slathering that shit on like its nobody's business. also he just really enjoys the smell of menthol

can sleep for days when sick, and honestly, he probably needs it. his wife thought he was dead once but it was just a combination of the cold and sleep apnea

daisuke

big believer in the whole "feed a cold, starve the flu" mentality. while he himself isn't the best cook, his mother makes sure to feed him lots of broth-based soups and high-fiber foods

he drinks a lot of tea with lemon and honey, usually making a pot at a time and just keeping it his bedside table for easy refills

big cough drop fan, specifically the ones that taste like cherry candy and nothing at all like actual medicine. this of course usually leads to him finishing the whole bag in one day, but it's just an excuse to buy more in other fun flavors

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THIS WAS REALLY FUN tysm for your request! if anyone else has any requests; my asks are open !! ⁽⁽ଘ( ˊωˋ )��⁾⁾

[jesterwriting]

(for that timeloop post,, uhm this relates to the whole body horror thing ((not too much just a brief mention)) so if rn u don't wanna see that SCROLL AWAY!!! OR DELETE ME!! OK disclaimer ends here)

oh man but what if Law did say room anyway and there were impossible scars on your insides... like littered everywhere, they're not fresh but old, almost phantoms that make no sense, because if they were real you would've died. how would he react to that? maybe not when he noticed them crying but after weeks or months, dunno, where they keep skipping his more thorough check-ups (where he uses his devil fruit) since they're anxious about the pains? and think that somehow there are signs of their previous deaths and the mention of them makes it hurt more and more and they just can't do it. but they can't bring themselves to say it because who could possibly believe them? if Law doesn't, it would just feel even worse, won't it? even if they understand his point of view. maybe they even die in front of him and it gets harder to just hold all of that in,,, oh boy. if you think about continuing your oneshot i'll eat it like a starving animal!

pairing: law x gn!reader

contents: slight body horror, slight gore, timeloops, suicide done to restart the loop, hurt/comfort, happy ending,

word count: 1.6k words

note: OHHHHH I LOVED THIS IDEA OH MY GOD. absolutely so smart. anon your mind is huge and i had so much fun doing this request. <33 i really hope you enjoy :33

playlist: caribou - tanya tagaq

a sister fic to this

This had never happened before. You had experienced hundreds of loops, maybe even thousands, and this was the first time Law saw fit to scan you with his Devil Fruit.

Maybe you were getting sloppy. You had a strong immune system so you never got sick, and the first time Law scanned you for your general checkup upon joining the crew, there was nothing of note. You wondered what changed, as if you hadn’t died more times since you joined his crew than you had in your entire life. Maybe it was because the more you suffered, the more reckless you became, throwing yourself into the fray with little regard for yourself. You could take a bullet for your crewmates, so you would. It was as simple as that.

There was a first time for everything, you supposed. A first death, a first breath, a first kill; there were uncountable firsts that one could experience, and you had experienced most of them.

Not this one, though.

You had tried to avoid it for as long as possible. Your captain was a man who carried burdens, ones almost as heavy as the ones on your shoulders. If he knew how many times he failed you — or how many times you failed him — you knew he would take all the blame for himself. As if you hadn’t been the one lying, and fighting, and dying over the course of countless lifetimes.

Law blinked a few times before his brows furrowed and his eyes narrowed. You fidgeted under his stare. If his reaction was anything to go by, he found something horribly wrong with you. While you had experienced slow deaths before, you had never experienced what it felt like to waste away from disease. Maybe you’d find out this loop, you thought, trying to feel nonchalant about the idea and not like you were about to throw up.

“Um. What’s wrong,” You tried.

Law shushed you, the blue glow from his room still surrounding you. You bit your tongue, fingers playing with the hem of your shirt to try and take your mind off of whatever he could have found.

“This can’t be right,” He muttered, one hand cradling his chin. He pointed to your chest. “There’s a scar inside of you, it looks like a puncture wound through your lungs. When did that happen?”

Three loops ago when you fell off a building and onto some rebar. That was a particularly awful death. The last thing you remembered before everything went black was Law’s panicked expression as he tried to put you back together again. There was terror in his eyes. You tried not to think about that part.

“And here,” Law continued, pointing to your abdomen. “There’s a scar running across the length of your stomach. It almost looks as if you were previously disemboweled.”

You had been. Multiple times. It was a common and very disturbing loop ender that you tried to avoid if you could. Watching your organs fall out of you in a steaming heap was never something you liked to experience, but for some reason, your opponents kept aiming for the gut. You wished they’d aim for the heart or the head more often. At least then it’d be quick.

He didn’t stop there, jaw falling open when he stared directly where your heart was. “When were you stabbed, Y/N-ya, this looks recent.” Law blinked a few times before realization dawned on his features. His eyes shot to your face, expression going from open to unreadable in seconds. “How did you survive without my intervention?”

Your mouth was dry. How were you supposed to respond? There was no way you could tell him that you had died on his watch more times than you could count. Law didn’t deserve that. Your captain was a good man, one you loved admired far too much to allow this to weigh him down. He would take your failures to heart, completely discounting the amount of times that he had saved you from having to start anew.

You must have been quiet for too long because Law was speaking again. “Answer me.”

“It’s from a long time ago,” You said.

That was a lie. It was from the previous loop. A quick death by your own hand over the cold corpse of your captain. If Law didn’t survive, there was no point in continuing, and if there was one thing you had grown accustomed to, it was taking your own life after one loss too many. You knew how to make it quick, no suffering. So with a precise hand, you drove your knife into your chest and let the timeline begin anew.

When you saw Law again, whole and alive, you vomited. You were under the impression that he believed that you simply ate some bad seafood, but from the concern that was slowly etching its way onto his features, you weren’t so sure of that now.

“Don’t lie to me.” Law’s eyes flashed, barely contained frustration needling at the corners of him. “None of this makes any sense, half of these injuries should have killed you. The other half would have needed to be treated.”

The truth sat on the tip of your tongue. You felt selfish and needlessly cruel for your desire to tell Law what was really happening. Your eyes burned, and their glassy sheen didn’t go unnoticed. Law handed you a tissue, expression softening.

“I- um.” You hated how your voice cracked. It had been a long time since you told someone about your Devil Fruit. You always died, and they always forgot. For a long time, you thought it was better that way, carrying this weight on your own. The way Law looked at you, though, it made you want to pour your soul out to him. Every pain, every loss, every death lain at his feet, and for once, you could stand unburdened. “It’d be wrong of me to tell you.”

Law’s eyebrows knit together. “Now you’re being stupid.”

“No, I’m not. You’ll regret asking once you know. Don’t pretend like you don’t carry the weight of the world on your shoulders, you don’t deserve my troubles on top of that. It’s better for both of us if you just forget what you saw.”

With that, you stood and made to brush past Law and out of the room. He grabbed you by the shoulder, not allowing you to go any farther. Though his grip was firm, it didn’t hurt. If you really wanted to, you could wrench yourself away from him.

“You’re trembling.”

Your lower lip wobbled, your resolve ebbing away by the second. “It’s complicated.”

“So tell me.” Law’s lips twitched upwards ever so slightly. “Doctor’s orders.”

You let out a small huff. He didn’t deserve this, but there would always be another loop. This current one hadn’t been going so well, and by your estimation, it would take at least three more before you managed to reach your next checkpoint. It wouldn’t hurt to tell Law what he inevitably wouldn’t remember. You steadied yourself with a deep breath and turned to face him, his eyes met yours with a mix of concern and exasperation.

“It’s my Devil Fruit,” You started. Law leaned back on his heels and crossed his arms, attention solely on you. Your heart thundered in your chest. “I’ve died so many times.” Without your permission, your breath hitched. Law’s hand encircled your own with a small squeeze, encouraging you to continue. “It, um, brings me back, I guess. I’ll die, and then wake up in the bunkhouse days earlier, and I’ll be the only one who remembers what happened. All those scars you saw were what killed me in a previous loop.”

He was silent while he chewed on his words.

“How many times have you died since you joined my crew,” Law finally asked.

Your hand was still in his and you gave it a squeeze. “That’s not fair. I know what you’re doing and I won’t let you do it.”

Law’s shoulders slumped as he brought his free hand to pinch the bridge of his nose. “I believe you. It explains a lot. I noticed you cry in your sleep sometimes.”

“You watch me sleep?” The tips of Law’s ears were tinged pink while you laughed.

“I was worried so I checked on you.” With a sigh, he began to lead you out of the clinic to his office. “Come on, you’re telling me everything you can remember. We’re going to come up with a plan.”

Humoring him, you followed close on his heels. It didn’t matter how long or how hard you planned, there was no accounting for the unpredictability of the universe. This comfort wouldn’t last long. Soon, you would be dead again and the cycle would start anew. That didn’t mean you couldn’t enjoy sharing a space with your captain, listening to him meticulously craft tactics to keep you, and everyone else, alive.

It wasn’t until four days later you found yourself breathing, though covered head to toe in blood, with the rest of the crew. Everyone was safe and sound, and Law wouldn’t stop looking at you with a smirk on his face. When you found yourself next to him, he bumped his shoulder against yours.

“I told you my plan would work.”

Just like that, for the first time in your life, you were no longer alone.

[ragnarokhound]

>:3

just saying Icarus au would be too easy for this rn

uhhm

JayTim fire water personalities, clashing, hurting each other, fitting together as opposites

still not really an au hmmm

just gonna keep throwing ideas here

ohh wanna see a mermaid au in your style

or one of those free willy mermaid aus

deaging 🤔 of one character and the other gotta take care of them

bound by magic (in what way? who knows)

take ur pick

For the ask game!

AUGH ABYSS HOW DO I CHOOSE

But omg mermaids is so fun... It is one of my all time favorite self-indulgent urban fantasy aus haha, I still want to finish my teen wolf mermaid fic... Someday...

Mermaid aus are so good for the yearning. The secret keeping of it all, the 'we're from different worlds and idk how it will work unless one of us makes a sacrifice' of it all. And I kind of sort of already played this trope straight with the selkie fic I wrote for jaytim week this year, haha (selkies aren't technically the same as mermaids, but there's a big overlap there lol)

But I also like that the existence of Aquaman in DC lets you flip that trope on its head while still complying with canon! There totally could be real life mermaids in DC because low-key there already are lmao

This isn't quite what you asked for, but in that vein:

please entertain with me Atlantean!Tim who admires the Bats from afar. Most of my exposure to Atlantis/Aqualad is via the Young Justice cartoon (the glow up between the first seasons and the later seasons is still insane to me lol) so please imagine Tim found out about Robin when YJ made an appearance in Atlantis, or Tim got himself on the same track as, say, Lagoon Boy and hopes to join one day. He has the biggest crush on Jason Todd and Jason doesn't even know he exists

There are two vastly different directions I am torn between from here, but the funnier one is: Tim basically follows Jason home to Gotham. Cue Gotham getting a new harbor cryptid that's just an Atlantean with a crush and a very robust immune system lmao

Tim gets horribly sick for the first week or two (he's not keeping track) while his system reacts to the bullshit that is Gotham Bay - but he is determined to stick it out. Naturally, he gets found by a bat while he's shivering near the docks one day, following up on rumors about the kid from the black lagoon who keeps dodging harbor security. Bonus points if it's Babs, and she agrees not to tell Batman and Robin, at least until Tim is healthy. Bonus bonus points if it's not a bat who finds him, but Catwoman :^) (Fishy-fishy, I wouldn't let a goldfish swim around in this water, where are your parents, you're coming home with me--)

Meet-cute between Jaybin and Harbor Cryptid Tim involves a smuggling operation that Jason's been tracking. During the sting, he gets in over his head, ends up in the harbor, and Tim saves him from drowning

Jason knows Bruce hates it when Supers and other capes come to Gotham. He knows who Aquaman is. Ergo, he has to keep Tim a secret from Bruce. Cue sneaking around and hiding from Batman and all kinds of teenage dating tropes and shenanigans. Tim blushes 24/7 because, omg he's hanging out with his crush and he isn't freaked out by the whole Atlantean thing and he's helping Robin wow; meanwhile Jason is fascinated by Tim, exhilarated to have a secret from Bruce, and wondering more and more what it would be like to hold Tim's hand.

(Bonus: When Bruce finds out about Tim, the first thing he does is tattle on him to Aquaman. Follow those dominoes down to Tim being an Aqualad equivalent on the Young Justice team a few years down the road. OwO When they find Red Hood with the League of Assassins, Tim is right there with Dick trying to get him back.)

When I started writing this out, I did not intend for this to become cute baby jaytim with an atlantean twist, but that's where it ended up going haha

[neixins]

idk if you have already made a post about this but could you please elaborate on your hc that gija has pots id love to hear more about it

ngl i was just gonna sprinkle the headcanon into my fic and let that speak for itself because i didn’t think anyone would care about it, but now that u asked…. (smiles beatifically) <3

first, i wanna note that i actually headcanon gija as having both pots and heds, and i’m fully basing this on my own experiences so i’m gonna talk about both conditions in a more rambly manner instead of going through a checklist of symptoms or smth like that. i’ll do my best to keep it somewhat organized though!! also i gotta put this thing under the cut because i ended up having. so much to say

starting with the most obvious: gija faints A Lot. like i didn’t crunch the numbers on this or anything but i feel reasonably confident claiming that he’s shown feeling faint or fully passing out more often than anyone else in the series. just off the top of my head, there’s chapters 16, 18, 41, 95/96, 143, 147 (and given how badly injured he is during the xing arc, i wouldn’t be surprised if he lost consciousness off-page too), 182… and obviously many of these instances occur when he’s injured/exhausted, but the others get hurt and push themselves too hard as well and they’re not fainting nearly as often.

the author’s note in ch 116 and the fanbook both point out that he’s not good at pacing himself and that he has a tendency to pass out, and the former also mentions that dragon warriors are often sickly (historical fantasy speak for disabled) as a result of their powers. also, on that note, both pots and heds can be caused by physical trauma, like let’s say, getting slashed by your deadbeat father’s dragon claws as an infant perhaps…. but let’s put a pin in that for now!

gija’s stamina is notably Bad, as jaeha points out in ch 95 (jaeha why are u paying such close attention to another man’s stamina? 🤔 anyway, gija’s also the first to fall ill in that chapter, which points to him having a weaker immune system), and gija himself says in ch 18 that he’s not especially strong, with the obvious exception of his dragon arm, and the thing is. he cares so so so much about being useful so admitting to something like that, especially so early in the series, really stuck out to me. his stats in the fanbook also support this. aside from his arm strength, all his other stats related to physical strength are average and lower than the other dragon warriors’ and hak’s. zeno’s partially an exception for obvious reasons but here are the stats for arm strength, leg strength, and stamina, respectively (the fanbook includes other fun stats too but those aren’t relevant rn): gija ∞/3/3; hak 5/5/5; jaeha 5/∞/4; sinha 4/4/4; zeno 1/2/∞. gija’s stats are actually closer to yona’s (2/3/3) and su-won’s (who is notably Canonically Disabled; 4/3/3).

the endnotes in vol 43 also mention that he has fairly small wrists which. is just so very heds-coded of him if i do say so myself. (side note no.1: and all of this is why i’ve been saying that after losing his dragon arm, gija should learn to use a knife!!! it’s a light weapon, he’s already used to close combat, AND it would be a chance to deliver on the “let’s train your left hand” line because while jaeha primarily uses throwing knives, he does appear to carry other types of knives too which means he knows how to use them!! kusanagi if u can hear me……)

let’s go back to the fainting for a bit, because i really want to focus on the moments in chapters 41 and 143 since those don’t have an overt trigger like, say, ch 147 where all of the dragon warriors faint from burning up too much energy, but i find them very interesting. in ch 41, gija’s the only one to pass out after taking the love potion, and he in general has a stronger reaction to it (like yeah gija blushes easily but he looks downright feverish after taking it), which to me points to the love potion triggering a flareup (which is kinda funny considering his comment in ch 16 about how his granny and the other villagers kept him from getting sick. put a pin in that as well btw). as for ch 143, yes he’s already injured at that point, but he literally stands up, exerts what should not be excessive amounts of energy by his own standards, and almost immediately gets dizzy and at the very least gets close to fainting (though i’m inclined to think he did actually faint considering how jaeha’s holding him up a few panels later). (side note no.2: if u pay close attention, the blocking in that scene implies that he stumbled back towards jaeha to lean on him before fainting. love is real <3)

also everyone should know by now that i have never and will never buy into the whole gija has/had a crush on yona interpretation (on account of the blatant homosexuality on display whenever he’s on page. and also the age gap. and also their interactions simply don’t read that way to me. he’s ride-or-die for her gbf style <3) so the jokes like the one in ch 52 about his heart hurting genuinely just read like tachycardia to me. i’m willing to accept that the dragon blood is a factor but. that’s just tachycardia. someone please make him sit down.

some other observations:

he’s the only one shown to get dizzy from tracking the other dragons (ch 26. which to be fair is partially jaeha’s fault, but jaeha’s also implied to be using the same ability to keep track of the other dragons and he isn’t affected).

in ch 155 his neck is still visibly bruised, while we don’t see any injuries on jaeha, even though they both sustained similar injuries from the same weapon at the same time, and delayed wound healing is common with eds.

this is more of a silly observation but in ch 19 he falls asleep sitting with his knees pulled up and all i can say is. so real so true.

he’s a total lightweight and a picky eater, which i get is supposed to portray how sheltered he was (though there’s no way there was no alcohol at those feasts he mentions…) but it could also be a result of intolerance to alcohol and certain foods that trigger flareups (it could also be a texture thing).

he looks incredibly exhausted for a portion of the hot springs chapter. like i know he’s being tormented by The Spider but he looks Unwell…. speaking of hot springs, hot baths/showers generally make pots worse but it depends on the person so gija enjoying hot springs doesn’t necessarily go against my headcanon. but i am jealous of him.

now back to those pins!! my interpretation is that gija probably started experiencing symptoms at a very young age, to the point where he wouldn’t really think to bring it up to his granny or anyone else because he wouldn’t think it was a big deal. also, lest we forget, gija doesn’t take his own wellbeing especially seriously, and he’s way more inclined to act like a dying dog when he’s not feeling well instead of drawing attention to himself and worrying or inconveniencing anyone. but it’s also possible that everyone in his village was aware of it, which would add an extra element to how much they dote on him; i’m just leaning more towards the former option because i think gija would be more aware of his limits if he had a gaggle of village elders constantly warning him not to overexert himself. and the “kept me from getting sick” line to me feels like it’s referring to acute illnesses, which, yeah i can totally buy that he didn’t get sick much in that sense, considering how dedicated everyone was to looking after him.

the final thing i wanna say is that i find his dragon arm to be such an effective metaphor for hypermobility because like. yeah he can do cool shit with it but it also impacts his health, which mirrors the sort of cool-party-trick/yeowch double-edged sword of hypermobility.

[kowwpow]

~Zeno Headcanons~

A/N: headcanons for my lovely wife, @larz-barz! I will probably add to these every now and then, I’ll reblog it when I do!

It is no secret that Zeno is tall

Like, man is a giant

A whole 6’1”(or 6’2”, I can’t remember-)

Point I’m trying to make is, he likes to carry people around

Like, even if the person is taller than him or the same height, he will swoop up behind them and carry the bridal style

He also likes putting people on his shoulders

Especially kids

OH MY GOSH HE LOVES KIDS

He has no siblings, so when he interacts with young children, he gets really happy

He wants to have at least 2-3 kids so they won’t grow up lonely like he did

Zeno lore drop? 👀

Zeno has a very weak immune system, which was the cause of most of his loneliness

Super big lore drop, Zeno has lymphoma—

Its minor though, it doesn’t hinder him much besides making him get sick a lot

But his parents didn’t want to have more kids in case they had lymphoma too

And since he was sick often, he wasn’t allowed to play with other kids much as to not get them sick either

OKAY THAT’S ENOUGH ZENO LORE FOR TODAY-

TUNE IN NEXT TIME FOR HIS ✨ MOMMY ISSUES ✨

*Ahem-*

ANYWAYS-

Zeno’s favorite food is Zosui, a Japanese rice soup!

He likes it because he learned to make it from a very young age (like… 9?) and his cousin taught him how to cook it

Zeno is very good at household chores. He cooks fairly often, even more so when he becomes a demon slayer since he’s out on his own

He also enjoys cleaning, finding the process rather satisfying

He also sewed his haori himself!

Zeno took a collection of fabric of his two favorite colors, and turned them into a haori

So in conclusion, the man is good housewife material

Someone better wife him up rn

*AHEM* Larz *AHEM*

….. yall hear smth?

Moving on, Zeno obviously is a very teasing dude

He LOVES to tease the living daylights outa people

Whether that be flirtatiously or not

But he is also, ✨ easily flustered ✨

Perfect combo, I know 😎

He’ll tell someone how cute/handsome/gorgeous they are without breaking a sweat

But the moment they throw it right back at him, he is suddenly a very blushy blushy boy o////o

He’d freeze for a few seconds then probably rub the back of his neck, a habit of his

OH YEAH

HE ALSO HAS VERY WARM HANDS

Larz can confirm, this is in one of our rps

His hands are like little heating packets

Oh, you’re shivering? Zeno to the rescue 🤩

GOSH IM RUNNING OUT OF IDEAS-

Zeno is a very pretty sleeper

Bro looks majestic in his sleep and I have a photo to prove it.

:>

Also yeah, he got some long lashes

Bro is just pretty 24/7

One thing that really irks Zeno, is when he gets accused of being a player/fboy bc of his personality

And yes, this has happened before

He was jokingly flirting with Aoi when he was helping her buy groceries and some random lady from the street stomped up to him and started lecturing him to “not play with a young lady’s heart”

Yeah-

Zeno has his own house(ik, weird for a 17yo)

But he stays there the days/nights he doesn’t have missions

He lives alone(poor lonely bby 😢) but likes to have people over often

He also likes to cook large portions of food and take them to the elderly people who live in his village, that way they get a free meal and they don’t have to eat alone(if they live alone)

He’s just a cutie patootie + bbg

A/N: THATS ALL FOR NOW, ILL ADD MORE WHEN I THINK OF THEM!

[chaoortu]

hi hello bestie it’s me again - LOVING anatomy of a rose rn, absolutely obsessed and speechless after each chapter asdfghjkl

for the fic writer ask thing: 3, 5, 8, 10, 15, 18, 19, 23, 29 & 30 😜 (pls dont feel pressure to do them all at once or even do all of them, i just love hearing about ppls processes 🥰)

3: how you feel about your current WIP

I always have more than one going at one time but sort of afraid people will hate it nejifnkjgh. Writing a sequel is really intimidating what if it doesn't live up to the og you know? but the sick fic wip i am. excited to get in the hands of the public. i love writing it.

5: first sentence of the fifth paragraph of an unpublished WIP

"The elevator dings for a final time"

8: if you had to write a sequel to a fic, you’d write one for…

so! i've already written a sequel for poppyseed but i also nearly wrote a sequel for no alarms, no surprises as well. it's a fic universe i'd love to explore again 10: what is the longest amount of time you’ve let a draft rest before you finished it?

i don't let things sit for very long. i usually follow a rule of writing five chapters (or 20k words, whichever comes first) before i begin posting it online. 15: favorite weather for writing

i'm lame and i write in all weather. although i am more proactive on a sunny day! 18: if you keep them, share a deleted sentence or paragraph from a published fic

i don't usually keep up with things i delete. here's a paragraph from the next chapter of anatomy of the rose instead:

Isaac looks up from his book, “Nick’s been gone?” Shit. “Yeah, uni,” Charlie lies. “He’s coming back for the weekend–” “Charlie, it’s Wednesday.” “A long weekend!” He says brightly, gathering his lunch box together and snapping the lid back on to his tupperware.

19: the most interesting topic you’ve researched for a fic sex work laws in the uk, ancient forests in the uk, and the effects of chemotherapy on the immune system.

23:pick three keywords that describe your writing brother i'm so bad at keywords: angst, intention, love.

29: how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

bro. impossible. it's my least favorite part of having to put my fics on the internet bc it's so hard for me.

[nuevo-city]

can i have. oc infodump please im genuinely so curious

HI HI OKAY HI.

some background info on this world; ~700-1000 years in the future. cyberpunk dystopia. almost all of the world is a desert, with only one city of mutated humans remaining. nuevo. these humans main survival adaptation is their ability to survive the slight remaining radiation from the nuclear apocalypse that happened, as well as their ability to drink saltwater, but they have powers too. the city has been divided into three “levels”, all built vertically on top of each other.

the lower levels are a cyberpunk undercity type place, with crime both violent and harmless running wild due to the lack of the hero society’s influence here (i’ll talk about them in a seperate post, but unfortunately to convey it simply, imagine the heroes from mha if they were basically the fbi and the cia at the same time and also even more corrupt and like. paying off the villains to kill people)

. the middle levels are basically solarpunk aesthetic with none of the e benefits of solarpunk, vaguely-futuristic nyc. think spider-verse earth 1610 for what daily life is like, just a lot more future-y.

upper levels are where the hero society mainly influences, the city in the sky. the RICH people live here. generally if you’re up here you’ve got ties to the hero society or the government, or you just work here and live in the middle levels.

NOW. this is my precious son leo grayson arnaud. vigilante name red noise. bisexual transmasc disaster/professional enabler older brother/part time wannabe wine aunt. he is sad and pathetic and here for a bad time, not a long time. (*cough cough* leo-grayson-arnaud.carrd.co check it out if it still works)

he’s a vigilante!!! he’s awesome!!!! he’s a boyfailure!!!!!! he’s cool as fuck!!!!!!

some info: he’s deaf! his powers let him control sound waves, so he uses them to be really fucking loud so he can utilize noise to electricity to electrocute people with the power of punk rock, but uh…. (garfield meme here) you are not immune to power drawbacks. safe to say, he’s lost most of his hearing. he was also raised the cyberpunk equivalent of a catholic lol? but it’s more akin to like,,, the legal religion from the silt verses than anything. he’s also got an AWESOME boyfriend

(the cowgirl in the second image is @the-lonelyshepherd’s oc shay. if you’re reading this and don’t know her, check her out!!! she’s cool and shep’s stories are so awesome)

this is sam pines. my BOY. fellow disaster tboy, professional hunter noceda relater-to. absolute poor little meow meow. he’d probably like mother mother but he doesn’t even HAVE a mother mother, carrion bird motif, “my guilt does not purify me” ass.

(the flower clasp is only part of his design while he’s in the cult.)

anyway he’s a born and raised lower level kid. he was abandoned by his mother (DO NOT THINK SHE WAS BAD FOR THIS. it was her only option) and grew up in the foster system until he was nine. at that age he was roped into a cult known as the sentinels. (ill go more in depth with them in another post too) they promised him food and shelter, and he needed it, so he took it. over time he was made to be a soldier for them.

he’s basically a prophet for the sentinels? of sorts. it’s very confusing and strange because it’s a Cult and that’s how they are but yeah. he does get out eventually but it’s more “outcast as a heretic and hunted down and almost killed and then saved by the leader because she thinks he’ll be useful if he still has some devotion left”

bonus info: he’d probably like will wood and jhariah tbh. he lost an arm to his own powers (if i had a nickel for every time power drawbacks showed up in my main ocs if have two nickels which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice). he feeds stray cats. he falls asleep in the weirdest positions. chronic pain haver (the haverrrrr). all i can think of as basic info rn but im working on making full refs and posts for the rest of the team

[fairchilds-glasses]

Sick headcanons of Junior surviving and living with the trio and Miss Fairchild (most of these are based on things I do/am doing rn)

Junior essentially as a cough rag. It’s a small rag that he coughs into rather than spread his germs everywhere. It’s also a precaution since sometimes his coughing fits get bad enough that he throws up.

Junior will basically bury himself in blankets and multiple hoodies to try and keep himself warm when he’s getting the chills. He’s also demanding cuddles during this time.

Junior as a roll of toilet paper in his room that he keeps and restocks when he gets a runny nose.

Speaking of runny nose, Junior’s sleep patterns are inconsistent because he’ll wake up in the middle of the night due to his congestion.

And speaking of sleeping, Junior will sleep with a cough drop in his mouth. It freaks Rachel and the trio out because they’re terrified that he’ll choke on it in his sleep, but he secures the cough drop into the corner of the inside of his cheek, he just doesn’t want to wake up or have a hard time falling asleep because he’s coughing.

Junior has a pretty weak immune system so he gets sick pretty often. They can range from colds, flus, to stomach bugs. Everyone is used to them but Junior absolutely hates when he gets sick.

I’m sure there’s more but that’s all I got from the top of my sick brain for now

Holy shit I absolutely love these, I thrive on sickfics so of course I’m gonna love it lmao (Really hope you feel better soon tho lol)

I can totally see Junior doing all of these things while he’s sick and I actually do a lot of that stuff as well.

I can totally see the sleeping with a cough drop in his mouth thing freaking the others out because yeah that’s a choking hazard but it’s understandable that he just doesn’t want to wake up coughing or have a hard time getting to sleep in general.

Also Junior having a weak immune system is incredibly accurate because he totally would after all the shitty diets and stuff that Logan forced him to be on, so of course the poor kid gets sick a lot and i don’t blame him for absolutely hating it.

[d3ad-on-arriva1]

im stealing your survey peter

Do you love yourself more than the person you’re with? not with anyone rn, but never in a million years man

Do you believe in marriage? not really its a fucked up little institution

About how long does it take you to get ready in the mornings? with phone in bed time and dawdling? 2 hours. without? 15 minutes

Have you ever dated someone who was married? nope thatd be weird

Do you go to school, if so where, and what are you studying? i go to highschool and im studying everything because im in highschool

How often do you drink alcohol? never have and dont plan to it grosses the shit outta me!

Do you smoke cigarettes, what kind? doesnt gel with me, cant see myself ever doing it

What do you do when your bored? write fanfic, listen to albums and try not to move, draw and then erase it all bc im crap, cry

Is there someone that you think about more than 10 times a day? pete wentz haha

Do you like your hair? What color and style is it? its good but i wish it didnt get so oily so fast istg. its blonde and like above my ears ig. i miss my red money piece tho

Do you ever hear a song and think it was written to explain your situation? one hundred percent, most of them are fall out boy

Is there something you want to tell someone right now? a certain someone that i desperatedly want to be their girlboyfriend

Do you think you will be sucessful in what you want to do with your life? god i hope so

Whats something that keeps you going when you feel like you’re falling apart? my pride and ego #hellyeah

Do you have a close relationship with your parents? yep love them to bits they put up with my stupidity and forgive me whenever i fuck up. could not be more grateful

Do you believe you can love someone you hardly know? oh yeah baby

Where do you stand on body piercings and tattoos? ear lobes. BORING. wanna get labaret and upper snake bites and possibly earbrows

How often do you get sick? not often my friends can attest to the fact that i eat fucking dirt and shit off the ground so my immune system is made of lead

Are you more of a comfy dresser or do you dress to impress? i think its comfy but my parents keep telling me to stop dressing up so idk

How often do you wear high heels? once for a costume

Do you get your nails done or are they natural? all natural. chewed and painted by yrs truly

How often do you go out and not tell anyone where you’re going? sometimes if im pissed off ill ride my bike and ignore my parents phone calls. thats fun

What’s your favorite song right now? drain you by nirvana

Is it your favorite song because it reminds you of someone? nah its just really good. one baby to another says im lucky to have met you.... love it

Is there someone who when they call you drop what you’re doing to see them? @misericordiia

Do you have kids, what are their names, or what will their names be? dont have kids, if i did an option would be veronica bc i love the nickname ronnie or for a more masc option william bc i love the nickname billie. im a big nicknames guy

Where is your favorite place to vacation? havent been on many but noosa, queensland was pretty good

Have you ever fallen going up the stairs? nah but ive come close

Whats your favorite food? my sisters sphagetti with garlic bread

Do you read very often? a lot during school i read during class when i shouldnt be

How do you unwind after a long day? watch video essays on youtube

How long have you lived where you live now? lived in this town all my life, lived in this house for 3 years this year

If you were granted one wish what would you ask for? everyone in the world to be kind to eachother

Do you think more than 5 people love you? yeah defo but probs caps at 10

What was the last movie you watched? alien: prometheus. cool concept but i didnt totally understand how it fit into the serious also really fasted paced? felt super short but in a bad way

Do you think a friend will screw you over? they have before, likely to happen again.

Are you more outgoing or shy? outgoing id say. ill do anything man

Have you ever been in a pagaent? nope!

Do you have unrealistic expectations? all the time

If you could go back and redo your life would you? too early to think about that, id just be redoing a shit load of school. BORING!

How many texts do you send and receive a day? a few, the real questions is how many tumblr posts i make. too many is the answer

Do you have to keep your phone hidden or delete your messages? dont exactly do that but im protective of it

Has someone ever hurt you so badly that you can’t forgive them? oh yeah man. loads

Have you ever contemplated a career which your parents didn’t approve of? dont know if theyd approve of bassist in rock band but i dont think thatd be possible anyway. also wouldnt be able to do that im a terrible musician

Do you cuss alot? fuck yes i do

When was the last time you got mad enough to cry? uhm uhmmm like. two nights i got mad that i couldnt see greenday live (which i now am seeing haha) and cried while listening to homecming lmao

How about the last time you were sad enough to cry? few nights ago probably. i cry a lot after 11pm so whos to say. i know for sure a week or so ago i cried so hard that i then had to comfort myself by imagining myself as ellie from the last of us then ellie being comforted by joel. yikes!

Who were the last people you rode in the car with? my daddio

Where did you go last? my mums work to help her set up her classroom

When do you think you will have your life together? probably never or maybe when im older, 40s maybe

Do you pay your bills or do your parents? parents no way id be doing it

Have you ever liked someone you know you shouldn’t? mhm who hasnt

If your parents knew all your secrets how disappointed would they be? probably pretty dissapointed but mostly exasperated haha

What song are you listening to right now? temperature by sean paul. dont ask

What time do you normally go to bed? 11:30pm to 12am

What’s something you do every night before bed? jack off <3

Do you listen to music or watch tv before or while in bed? music at all times its vital to my survival

What pieces of jewellery do you wear every day? beaded necklace with a star on it, pendant with rayn ross in it, bracelt with lyrics from lonely day on it for my btich wife, a fall out boy bracelet percy made me, a turtle bracelet my mum bought me in queensland, and a bracelet that says kiyoko that matchs with percys yachi one

Is there something that means more to you than anything in the world? music

Is there a word you say too much? probably fuck or like. filler word queen

Do you think you can handle life on your own? haha unlikely

How are you feeling about the way your life is going? not good man not good

[bunnygirl678]

okay friends i'm drunk again (so this christmas ale i'm drinking is delicious buttttt also 9.8% alc so you know)

anyway, spotify wrapped came out which also means AO3 wrapped time

My 2024 word count was 350,356 (year is not over! I have a few more things getting published before then but as of dec 4 at 7:15 pm EST)

Top five by hits (of things published this year, including ongoing started last year)

Blood bank (no surprise)

Eevee save Green (surprised, I felt like it was a weaker story of mine)

The Graduate Assistant (i'm so sorry i felt like the ending was shit)

Corrupt (my beloved)

Pour a Little Salt, We Were Never Here (I really enjoyed this one)

I think the big statistical elephant in the room is that my reguri stories do better, which makes sense since it's a bigger fandom, but honestly my PMS/HS fics are better written.

I've had a total of 21,331 hits in 2024 (probably 20k of those are me rereading my own stuff lmao)

Blood bank is my longest fic (duh) coming in at 91k words unfinished

next is corrupt which was 69k words all written and published in 2024 (gonna be honest corrupt is my favorite fic that i've written!)

But if I were to publish the top 5 of the shit i've written this year it would go in this order (ish, idk if it's accurate i like some equally lol)

5th most loved fic: moonshine and bonfires, based on some of my own experiences bein' a sloot and also country music cause again i'm a hick

4th: scrapbooks, short sweet to the point, it was an experiment in style that I ended up loving! and it ended with Gold having lots of kids which always is a winner in my book

3rd: The Soulmate Next Door, a prequel to an ode to my soulmate but huntershipping instead of reguri, tons of fun to write, made me miss my university days, also not nearly enough soulmate fics, don't worry i have drafts but lets be honest i'm slower than mollases runnin uphill in the winter (i misspell things cause phonics + accents don't really work)

2nd: Blood money, i love this fic, no one else seems to, which is okay (not counting you here love if you decided to get on tumblr today and saw this) i'm still writing it but i abandoned it for ao3 as of rn.

1st!: corrupt, easy answer, it's such a fun fic, explores lots of tropes and ideas, plus gold gets to be a TR executive lol and you get my shitty sex scenes every few chapters lol

Honorable mentions Mama, Can You Die From A Broken Heart? texting fic a la that one meg cabot book that I got exorscied while reading at 13ish. and Serving where I showed my age and lack of understanding of currrent slang, and of course Good Boy which is a kinky fic but has plot and a dive into Gold's shitty immune system... that's not the right phrase... ummm fuck... uh not immune system uhh the thingy where you feel like your worthless but you aren't??? like during his breakdown during GSC??? the word is not immune but for the life of me i can't remember what it is, probably doesnt matter since i doubt anyone but me is reading this---- i know i lost a lot of readers when i switched from reguri to pms/hs but i'm happier writing gold and sivler than i ever was with red/green. sorry friends

it doesn't matter i like hearing myself talk or write or whatever

an interesting piece of information is that i wrote a total of 114,532 (as of today) more this year than last year butttttt i didn't start posting until July of 2023, so halfway through the year. which means i probably would have been about 471k+ had I had the same trajectory as last year. There are a few reasons for that, 1. i got a promotion at work (baby girl is D level!!) which means unfortunately you know more work 2. I am really only publishing finished work with the exception of blood bank/corrupt 3. this only counts published work, my word count in my in progress fics is huge, i've written way more this year than last just not published 4. last year i spent 14 days in the hospital with pneumonia where all i did was write and be high on cough syrup (fun fact, blood bank was created during this time i wrote the first 4 chapters while hoping i didn't die lmao), I also had significantly more hits last year, again I'm blaming that on my switch away from reguri.

I did manage to meet some amazing people this year due to my writing so i'll count it a win (hi bb ily marry me plsssss)

Lots of stuff coming in 2025, Im hoping to hit 500k in published words, hoping to finish a good portion of the drafts I have sitting waiting on editing/scenes, I'm going to explore some themes from the manga, going to publish some more cringe (hanahaki/soulmate/omega yall know i eat that shit up), going to improve my porn skills, and hopefully publish a lot for corrupt and blood bank

I have a singular (besides blood bank lol) fic for reguri, it's jazz and coffee but idk when i'll finish hoping in 2025, Gold/Silver really is one of the rare pairings where I feel idk they're on the same level as 616 stony to me, which i deleted my blog from 2012-2015 but it's special lol, I''ll be publishing some yuri (wristshipping???? i put ??? but lesbianhonest it's that or crys/sapphire in my heart) in 2025 including smuttttttt cuase licking pussy is my favorite passtime (to think i managed to stay with a guy for 7 years, honestly shows that i will ignore my own desires for years lmao

A note about blood money...

I love that fic so much, it holds a special place in my heart, more so than blood bank tbh, for now I'm leaving it as abandoned, mostly because I really haven't had any comments/interactions on it, as of right now i'm sharing the ch with my one friend who i know likes it but idk for the future. I feel weird about just killing it but i think it's too obscure for most people idk....

this is a lot of words, i'm pretty drunk but also i'm writing a PMS spotify wrapped fic??? gold is a hick who listens to country western don't @ me. Anywhosers...

I love you, thank you for reading, go eat some brussels sprouts!

[xplrvibes]

*clears throat* i’d like to confess to a crime i have committed… i have not watched any of the hell week episodes. *stage audience collective gasp* i know, i know…

so listen. i’m going to watch the finale (bc my baes are in it) but do i need to know anything beforehand? do i absolutely positively HAVE to watch eps1 and 2?

the reason i hesitate is because i started watching ep1 and i… i just could not with the over exaggerated hype. maybe bc i’m sick (side note, i have been sick for 2 months with only like 2 weeks in between where i was ok… wtf is my immune system rn?) and couldn’t stand it but… yeah

anyhooooo

- aussie anon

I haven't watched the finale yet (oops!) so I don't really know how much of the important stuff from 1 and 2 they recap in 3, but here's the need to know basics:

Sam and Colby bought the school.

They are sleeping in it for a week, in a different location every night.

Ghost wise, they aren't sure what's haunting it, but most of the entities don't seem that bad. There's a "principal" who is safeguarding the place and some childlike spirits. snc believe they aren't welcomed/liked/trusted so they gave an "offering" in the first episode.

There's a dark presence in the boiler room and they don't quite know what it is.

They have challenges for each other - Colby already pulled Sam's (Sam had to dig his own grave and do an Estes session in it) but Sam hasn't pulled Colby's yet (hogtied in the boiler room).

I think that'll basically catch you up.

And I hope you feel better soon! That totally sucks when you can't shake a bug.

[whispereons]

I love your oracle reader fics❤️ I just wanted to check up on you and see if you were alright(in your last post you sounded stressed)1 h. Make sure to work hard on your finals and take care of yourself!!🫶

School ended a little more then a week ago but I go right back in it around mid Jan so I'm really trying to relax with what little time I have.

Thank you so much for the love!! I do have a few other asks that I see and just haven't responded to yet. (I'm sorry!)

My immune system is crap so I'm still just the littlest bit sick despite chugging down more medicine then I can count.

But the most important thing rn is that despite my desire to finish my chapter, writers block is messing me up. Like this is probably the worse it's been since I started. I get a sentence or two in before I'm at a loss.

Sorry that I used your ask to vent and give a update, thank you checking on me Anon <3

[definitelynotshouting]

MINECRAFT SHINGLES, OMG HEGSJAGAGAKA

This is an amazing way to word it, and I'm stealing that, bcuz this is also exactly what happened to me lol. I'm 21, I've watched MC vids for 6 months now, I've played for 2 xdd

No immunity, only blocks lol

Also, let's unite in being anti-chest-monster, I very quickly realised how overwhelming digging through chests of junk can be for me, it just sucks the enjoyment right out of the game. I've been looking into building some sort of a redstone sorting system, cuz I discovered I really like redstone, but I don't think I'm on that level yet haha

But I love exploring, flying around, collecting pretty blocks, and orgainising everything into neat stacks (that last one scratches my autism brain pfftttt), so it's only a matter of time before I attempt a storage system like that

And I must unfortunately dissappoint you, for I have no real rhyme or reason when it comes to planning my builds 😅

Ideas and block combos just usually pop into my head, and then I try them out straight in the survival world. I sometimes mess up, change blocks, remove things, so it's not an efficient way to do things, but it does work for me. Plus I've noticed I'm kinda like Etho, my houses are mostly just interior lmaoooo. It's usually a hot mess of things I thought are cool at a time, and a consistent building style is something I lack xd. For example, my island is decorated with moss, spruce leaves, ferns, a fire pit, etc. (cabin in the woods vibes), my fields and animal pen are on interconnected artificial islands on my lake, my potion lab is in a basement I dug under said island and I made it with blackstone and a lot of the nether warped stems (evil scientist style), and the house I made is on top of a... futuristic tree I made from glass and leaves, and said house in itself looks like a Rich Person Seaside Mansion, and it's in white and blue

I supppose this is a real representation of my brain xdd

Also, I'm the person who makes farms for communal use, I was sleeping under the sky for SO LONG, cuz I made a gunpowder farm for my friends, an xp enderman one, now I wanna build a gold one in the nether, and I'm wrangling villagers into a trading hall rn (they are a nightmareeeee xddd)

~🌠

Oh gods redstone scares the crap out of me, i feel like i definitely fall on the builder side of things rather than being a more technical player-- but then i also havent messed with it much yet, so maybe i will surprise myself!!! Still, building a redstone sorting system seems real fun!!! Me when i can just sort things automatically.... the autism is Winning™ truly.

Tbh out of all my friends i am the person with the most Planning Brain. Cannot do a single thing on the fly it Must be scheduled, hopefully about three business days in advance at least /hj 😂😂😂😂 this apparently applies to minecraft in that i will open CSP and meticulously edit a screenshot to reflect what i want the area to look like, then meticulously plan a build outline, then carefully mull over multiple ideas for the block palette, then go BACK into the creative world to double check ive got the right measurements from the outline before ever setting foot back in my survival world 💀💀💀

Your builds sound so cool and unique though, thats amazing!!! Glass tree..... looking so intently at that tbh. Also gods i am dreading the part where i need to wrangle villagers for farms 😭😭😭😭😭 especially bc im entertaining the idea of putting all my farms underground so they're beneath/within the ruins i plan to make under the lake near my base. Luckily there is a village literally on the edge of the lake so at least theyre close by 💀

[karamazovposting]

Hello, I hope you’re doing well!

Have you watched any Karamazov adaptations? If so, how many and which is the most accurate or best, in your opinion? I sure do like the Italian version like most!

Thank you & Have a lovely day! :)

Hii, I'm currently sick with the flu for the second time this month thanks to my worryingly weak immune system but I could be doing worse I guess lmao.

I haven't watched many, I usually avoid watching any book adaptations in general because they can never include every single book detail for obvious reasons and I get very bitchy about it, but I'm gonna go with the Italian adaptation as well because it's pretty accurate (it's one of the few adaptations that include Lise's character and I love her), the series format works way better for TBK than the movie format imo, and everyone is so cunty. There are some things that I don't like, like the actors being older, but it's so good I can get past that for once.

I'm really curious about the rock opera since I study musical theater so I guess that's what I'll watch next, I got plenty of time to kill rn y'know.

Have a lovely day as well!

[monkeyroseone]

Hihi, sorry for being inactive but some things have been happening (this'll be long I think so under the cut)

So I was sick last week, got a concussion this week, and then this morning my favorite bracelet broke that I was honestly using as a secondary protection charm even before I lost my evil eye anklet (which I still haven't found.)

But so, ever since it broke this morning my health has been rapidly declining to a point I wasn't at since years ago. I've been coughing all day and it's triggering my asthma so I'm having to keep my inhaler close to me, also not that I'm not coughing UP anything, it's really harsh dry coughing.

And then, everything starts to hurt. My back, my neck, my arms, my legs, I can barely think rn.

My mom also made me take cough syrup that I almost threw up, and it only helped for like an hour before I was coughing again.

I also can't find ibuprofen, the only stuff I can find is the gel ones but in my experience gel pills (DayQuil and NightQuil) ALWAYS make me extremely nauseous and feel like I'll throw up. Same with most cough syrups.

I also got yelled at a bit about how I need to accept I'm going to have to take meds or drink mystery liquid as an adult, which upset me even more. My mom also told me I wouldn't be any fun at parties, (which I am, I'm just usually the designated driver).

So to summarize, I got sick, had to call out an entire week of work. The day after my first day black to work, I get a concussion and have to call out for the rest of the week. And now, while still having a concussion, my favourite bracelet breaks and I get extremely sick over the course of a day.

I know I have a bad immune system and I'm very accident prone, but THIS BAD? It's genuinely out of left field for me, this is ao3 author curse levels of bad, or getting close to it at least.

And I'm starting to wonder if my various protections are failing? Bcs I always wear a mask to work bcs it's cold outside. And now my two main defenses from bad energy are gone. And my third is nowhere to be found. And I'm too sick to check on my fourth (a spell jar).

So I do believe someone may be out to get me, but I can only think of two people and they're both VERY Christian and I don't think would turn to witchcraft or negative energy for cutting them out of my life? (My abusive stepmother and her youngest daughter who's only 3 weeks older than me)

I also haven't had the energy to light my altars but I'm sure the gods wouldn't do this, their altar is in my room too, it's not like they're in the dark about what's happening. (They're also gods, so like, I'm sure they'd know ANYWAYS)

Yeah, so this is my little rant, I could feel the negative energy building up for a while now but it couldn't have overflowed at a worse time honestly. And yes, I've been dispersing it when I can, but this last month I haven't so.