#so much heartbreak

[savemefromanepicoftimewasted]

fuck marry kill

Joel, Simon, Bucky

OH

OH HOW DARE

Oh my god how am I gonna choose???????

Well, after too much deliberation it’s going to be

Fuck Simon

Kill Joel 😭😭😭😭😭

Marry Bucky

[lauranalanthalasa]

So here's another devastatingly sad song for your ineffable playlist in case you didn't hurt enough already.

[vizthedatum]

Why are UTIs a trigger and also I fucking hate trauma bonds: a rant

Definitely a UTI. Awaiting another covid test and other test results. They’re going to give me the week off of work? But I honestly don’t know what to tell my boss. I have a note. DO PEOPLE KNOW HOW PAINFUL THIS IS WHEN YOU HAVE INTERSTITIAL CYSTITIS AND YOU REALLY LOVE SEX FOR YOUR SUPPORT NEEDS AND YOU ASSOCIATE BLADDER INFLAMMATION WITH THE EMOTIONAL ABUSE YOU INCURRED DURING YOUR ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP?! My whole job is juggling, and I just started and already feel super low. Ugh. I’m telling myself that it’s ok but my ex’s words “YOU ARE ALWAYS IN A CRISIS” echo in my head.

Oh and I guess like… finally dropped in the precursor paperwork that comes before signing the divorce decree. After they completely discarded me and financially devastated me. I’m so easily discardable. So I guess it’s just a lot.

And all I want rn if I’m being absolutely honest is for either my one gf (who’s going through a lot rn and she needs her space too - AND I RESPECT THAT - gosh she’s so regulating, and I love her so much), a person I love but am not in contact with who probably has never really cared enough to be a part of my life and who I should have not spoken to after all of the sketchy behavior (I have decided that I am going to raise all my standards for friends, lovers, hookups, partners, and family in my life), or my ex/spouse (who is soon to be my ex-spouse (a hyphen this time)… I miss their comfort even though they terrorized me with their psychotic and narcissistic ways that they’re not in treatment for (I would have stayed if you had gotten help)) to hold me while I cry, drink a million beverages, and watch TV.

Sigh. Time to pick up my antibiotics, continue sobbing in my car, email that medical note to my boss full well knowing that I may get fired (which I can deal with, I guess - not the end of the world), and then just sit in my unpacked apartment waiting for the pain to subside.

[miothle]

Farewell, Kakavasha.

[p3acel1lly]

It’s been a while since I used this blog omg. Literally only coming back to say that I’m now in med school (yay!)

[densewentz]

mmm not to be a solasmancer on main but im thinking about those few days after the Cole debacle if a solavellan Inquisitor encourages him to remain a spirit. just. Solas, watching her fret so much in the aftermath, terrified that she may have taken someone's choice away, worried that she influenced what Cole wanted somehow, watching her sheer relief and unbridled joy after Cole's, free and light and brimming with happy incredulity, "but you didn’t change, didn’t make me change. Thank you". He watches her, and thinks of Mythal. Thinks of devotion, and abuse. Regret. Thinks of Cole, and spirits and Wisdom and Pride- Thinks, wistfully, achingly, "in her hands, I might have been safe".

[fraternum-momentum]

yeahhhqwaa

[soyochii]

Grown adults but also Highschool bullies fr

[umblrspectrum]

3 years of this godforsaken show

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Normal Friend Behaviour.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

[bishicat]

you'll be their little birdie for the next fifty years

[somewhereincairparavel]

Imagine, a few hundred years after Jason's death, he becomes a historical figure, unbelievably famous, that people write books about him and New Rome has his face printed on their gold coins. It's a Van Gogh situation where he isn't appreciated or noticed of the work he's done until centuries after he's gone, simply because one archaeologist decides to dig through the past and discover his true character, even offering Apollo a gift in exchange for an interview in the process, since only he had seen Jason alive for the last time. And Apollo starts to tear up recalling Jason's last moments .

[snippets-from-my-mind]

"when he died, all things swift and beautiful and bright would be buried with him." - the song of achilles, by madeline miller

[vaguely-concerned]

can you even imagine what a fucking horror show the early game is from spite's perspective, though. not only is this funky forcibly severed little slip of the fade having to deal with the reverse cosmic horror of physical reality as perceived by a spirit and being trapped in it against its will -- existentially confused and disoriented and hurting and nothing makes any kind of sense, at the mercy of human cruelty at its most deliberately sadistic. and then the one source of comfort and compassion and some kind of safety and clarity that lucanis surely must have been to him in the ossuary despite everything just goes and shuts himself in his room inside with a seemingly passive aggressive number of locks between them and no explanation and won't speak to him and they're STILL in the fucking ossuary. rook came and found them and they could be free now (rook is here!) and still lucanis keeps them in the ossuary even though he PROMISED he promised they'd get out of there together!!! what the fuck DO you think at that point? like did he trick me that whole time??? he wasn't like zara before, so why is he doing this to me now? why isn't he saying anything? 'he won't move. I can't reach him'. at least in the ossuary they had a deal, a goal, a hope -- each other. at least he wasn't entirely alone, before.

this poor poor poor little spite spirit really was ferried into the real world like 'hey welcome to reality! as your first introduction to it you're first getting horrifically tortured and then getting to vicariously experience one of THE most distressing and harrowing psychological conditions the human brain can cook up for itself (a fully fledged and deeply entrenched freeze response flaring up with catastrophic severity due to an unbroken ongoing and unlikely to let up any time soon chain of Unfortunately... Recent Events). I think spite is being extremely reasonable and patient about the whole thing, when you put it into perspective. I'm not saying let him eat the self-lighting candles or anything, but he's got some extremely valid points along the way lol. spite is not only child-like, the metaphor work going on is a lot more pleasingly flexible and complex than that, but he is also helplessly existentially dependent on lucanis in a way that, if anything, is a heightened version of the way a child (or child part) has to depend on a parent to navigate the world and survive.

tl;dr: we truly don't give enough sympathy to spite for having to live in the head of lucanis dellamorte. a place even lucanis dellamorte would prefer not to be. to be fair to him I think lucanis would be the first person to agree with this lol

[hurtingbuck]

"And until that happens, you still got me, 'cause I'm not going anywhere." (4x08)

[salemontrial]

Say whatever you want but Missy explaining Orpheus and Eurydice to Spider while he listens with genuine awe going "woag. Fr?? No shit?? Thats tragic asf waog.." is indeed peak romance and you can't do a thing to change my mind