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dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram · 1 year ago

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I guess this is 3/3, to the anon above me, don't be quick to judge. I don't think Louis career is sabotaged, but simply the big label didnt see him as lucrative as Niall, and that was what I asked in the beginning, what was the reason for that.

Related to personal trauma, for me, having a good career is like a good omen i can hold on to when the traumas were happening. I too have a sibling that were one on the verge of suicide and other losses. And i feel like my career is my ray of sunshine that time, something that kept me going on and say "life is not that bad". I understand that some people believe that Louis personal issues making him unable to set up a solo career as firm as the others. But one must also understand that there were people like me whose career was the 'delightful part' of life. And I can't imagine the double sadness of Louis when he lost the love of his life (his mom) and the extra work in navigating the career without the correct support in the industry.

Oh anon - I am going to try and be as generous as I can here, but your approach really fucking bothers me. I don't think you show any curiosity about what the music industry is actually like and are drawing parallels based on a complete lack of understanding (starting with the idea that there's a 'correct' level of support that an artist receives in an industry).

The first thing you're ignoring that we know Louis threw himself into work as a way of dealing with his mother's death. He gave a performance days after her passing. He was out on the radio interview circuit within a month had a second single just over six months later and originally had the idea of releasing an album within the year. None of this was making the music he actually wanted to make. None of it helped him build a long term career.

I think you have completely misunderstood the dynamic. He threw himself into work - when he wasn't actually developed as an artist. That's what had the impact on his career.

I've no idea what you do as a career. I'm glad it's delightful. But you seem to completely discount the extent to which a music career involves who you are as a person and your personal life. If you think that the sort of compartmentalisation that worked for you is available for all people or all lines of work - I think it might be useful to listen to a wider range of people talking about their experiences.

#I think English is your second language #so like I said I've tried to be generous #but this sounds really fucking dismissive of trauma

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wellcollapse · 7 months ago

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the way i would pay for oliver to write meta about buck's character

#like. he Gets it. i've been thinking about buck in this ep for five days straight and he said it better in one sentence than any paragraph #i could ever come up with #people are arguing over whether buck #acted the way he did bc he wanted tommy's attention or eddie's attention or bc he was feeling left out or whatever but i don't think it's #any one thing i think it was just a general feeling of Wrongness when tommy showed up borne from thirty years of repressing his sexuality #and he tried to rationalize it as jealousy or whatever and worked through the fact that his behavior was completely unreasonable but #it wasn't until tommy kissed him that all of the rage that was trapped inside him was allowed to escape bc he finally had a name for it #he's been turning over parts of himself for years trying to find that final piece and getting more and more upset when it eludes him #n this kiss was the kind of cathartic relief that he so desperately needed bc it allowed him to understand what's been missing #anyway. oliver stark i love you so much i'm so grateful you play buck #buck #rae.txt #911

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skeletalheartattack · 3 months ago

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Subtitles below the keep reading:

Hey you, shut your mouth and look at my paw! DON'T FORGET!! [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] This... Journey... Money... Loads of coins. [Incomprehensible sped up gibberish] What-about-her? What-about-her? ... What-about-her? 'She still like me? [Quiet but mostly incomprehensible gibberish about subtitles] O P S O P N O-1 1. Here's the spell: Love the mermaid, for sure! The mermaid is HAPPY! Okay! It's pretty normal for a fish, right? Guuuyyyssss, beeeee caaarefuuulll wiiiiith theeee GIIIIIRRRRLSSS!!! [Incomprehensible] Oh! Silly! Oh yes! Lamb chop boy! [Incomprehensible] [Very quietly, while white noise is playing over it] Goood eevening, aand weeelcome too the shoooowww... [In the background] Ohhh, mooney!

#video #elevenlabs #i generated three versions of this video and basically spliced together the best parts from each one into one thing #and also toned down the flashing of the red and white pound signs to be a lot slower #i'm honestly surprised how well everything spliced together. i was expecting it to be even a little bit noticeable but. nope apparently not #i did a few generations of meet the spy's intro and tried to splice together the best bits but theres just so much happening with the audio #there's a lot of funny portions of that audio. maybe i'll try again at it and see if i cant get the parts i like in one thing #truthfully i also don't know how much folks'll like these. as in compared to around the time the infomaniac stuff was made #so i'm not sure how much of these i'll be putting together and uploading. mostly just been fucking around and showing my friends #i'm mostly just intrigued to hear what the ai tries to say with some of these generations #since it's just trying to translate from one language to another #in this case. providing videos in english. and setting the translation from russian to english.#which seems to be the best thing so far (that i've tried) that causes more of the words being said to be off-script #like it'll usually most be like whats originally being said mostly but other times it's completely different from the source #i think this dub shows it best. between ''hey you. shut your mouth and look at my paw!'' and ''love the mermaid. the mermaid is happy!!''#i am also officially out of characters to generate more so i won't really be doing more than what i've already done for a while #i wanted to try and give it a video that plays backwards. flip that. then let it dub over it forwards.#but i'd have to wait until i get the character limit reset

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van-yangyin · 3 months ago

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I think the funniest thing I've read in hispanic community is someone saying that EA is going to implement generative AI also in The Sims 5 (Project René) and I can't but laugh. Girl, I don't care who implements it, I won't play it WHOEVER IT IS, inZOI, Sims 5, or anyone…. And also saying it's the future and must be accepted plus someone comparing IAG to cars is not the big bright idea you all think it is.

That said, I don't care if you do it just because it's free or for the laughs or for the fun, if you use inZOI demo (who actively do not hide the fact that they use IAG with CANVAS) or any game that generates assets with AI to destroy our ecosystem and steal from all artists you're an enabler.

#seriously i can't but laugh #also some of them were angry at past with sims 4 and rightly so when they added those IAG images of rabbit hole in For Rent #which looked like it was generated with AI by illuminations shadows and weird objects in illustrations #excuse my english its not my native language #if I have said something weird in English it's because I haven't generated it and I've tried to write it in my own words #van-yangyin

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nichiperi · 1 year ago

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happy birthday to meeee~ ヘ⁠(⁠￣⁠ω⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠)

#i have a lot of schmoopy feelings about this year #it started off as one the worst times of my life #but then somehow it morphed into the absolute best #i have a lot of appreciation and joy that i feel for a lot of people now that i feel like i can't adequately express #but i guess the point is i'm actually excited for the future for the first time in years #and i feel like i wouldn't have stumbled down this path if it hadn't been for the encouragement i got from people when i really needed it #i've been really inspired to work at improving my art and to be more open about it #i tried a lot of new things #not just artistically but in general #i'm happy i'm here! and i intend to keep being here and to keep making things that bring me joy.#weird weird things. i intend to get weirder and weirder hehehe. hope y'all are prepared! >:D #so to anyone who said anything nice about my art and writing since i've been here #i know it sounds schmaltzy but the stuff you said meant more than you know. thank you for letting me know you saw me.

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aro-culture-is · 1 year ago

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quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.

totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.

#fun fact sometimes condensing meds just means poorer treatment of some conditions #this is a re-expansion + new thing #so that instead of poorly treating my mental health and using an unusually high dose SNRI for another (physical) condition #i will hopefully both be in less pain AND not depressed af AND also have an appetite again #i doubt i will be lucky and not have a fucked stomach due to meds but one can hope that an appetite will allow me to eat foods that upset #my stomach a lot less #my health is forever a massive balancing act #every time a medical thing is like 'so what meds do u take' i'm like here i wrote it down for u #and they're like 'oh. ooookay. let me just...' *five minutes of typing and clicking later*#'so! what did you come in for again? uhuh. you said you experience pain daily? with your chronic pain thing? hm. have you tried yoga?'#/gen #like. straight up every time i say 'i am in pain all the time due to fibromyalgia' they are like 'ooh studies say regular exercise helps'#and like. theoretically yes! but also. i would be lying if i said the fibromyalgia studies i've skimmed don't set off general 'bad science'#alarm bells in my brain #like... cool you performed a fibromyalgia study with... all male lab rats? mhmm? so are you aware fibromyalgia appears to occur #overwhelmingly in women? like. data seems to suggest between 70-85%?#(not that the data can't still indicate things but it certainly makes male rats a poor choice of model for tests on it)#also just... idk i've looked at some metaanalysis and been like 'okay cool theory and for all i know about human bio or bio in general that #sounds more or less correct BUT. you never discussed that one study on this subject that did NOT support your conclusion.#and that's 1) interesting when it was the most diverse group of subjects and the exceptions often teach just as much as the 'rule'#2) just shitty science. tell me how your theory is still credible when some evidence doesn't fit the model.#like... 'given that all other studies were primarily conducted on white american women in their 30s to 40s it is possible that this model #only explains (the early effects of fibro since that's a typical onset period) / (a possible genetic link primarily found in white women) /#(a possible sign of bias in diagnosis that demonstrates the possibility that there are different causes) / combinations of all of those #like... idk a paper that just throws out things that don't support it is a pretty big red flag #it doesn't mean the conclusion is entirely incorrect but it is often important to understand the context in which it applies #like... it's very easy to jump to an incorrect conclusion if you used something in the wrong context #ie: thumbs up is a good job / positive thing in a lot of western civilizations. teenage kee once went to china and discovered it to be #neutral to offensive in many areas outside of major tourist locations that were used to it #anyways i gotta sleep

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necrotic-nephilim · 2 months ago

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What do you think about the fab five polycule

(Dick x donna x wally x garth x roy)

i'll be SO honest i wish i had like. insightful interesting opinions on them but i've always been a Young Justice kid and sort of. breezed past consuming Fab Five Teen Titans content-

but of what i *do* know, from the few comics i've read with these characters is this is one of the best ships for Dick, honestly. it always deeply annoys me when fanon content breezes past the Titans as if they're just some distant teammates and not some of Dick's closest friends, if not a second family. *especially* the Fab Five. for most, if not all of them, it's the first time getting to actually connect with other teen heroes. so there's something fun about how sort of terrible they are at it, at first. they all care about each other a lot. but they're kind of chucked into the deep figuring out how to work with each other and get along with *very* different personalities, so it's fun to see where the conflict comes.

as a ship, i do really love it. the Titans are a family. like we call a lot of teams found families, but for the Fab Five, that shit is the truest. they depend on each other and trust each other. when Dick and Bruce are on outs and Bruce fires him, he goes to the Titans.

i also enjoy how, to an extent, all of them are outsiders of some kind. Donna is alone in a new world she's never experienced, the same as Garth. Roy is still new and awkward to living the rich life with Oliver. Wally doesn't connect to his parents well. and of course, Dick has lost his parents and only has Bruce, who isn't the most emotionally available. of course they're going to cling to each other, as the first people they can really develop connections too. they're very clingy with each other and i think that's both cute and *fun* to explore like, codependency issues with them. how protective they can be of each other, how they default to trusting each other over their mentors, etc. it's all very interesting for a polycule, especially since for most of them, it's their first real relationship. i'm a big fan of "none of us know what dating looks like bc we've had such strange childhoods so we don't understand the Rules very well. we're all just going to date each other bc why would i date only one of you. do teamups count as dates now." vibes with teenage polycules. and the Fab Five just. have that on lock. they each fulfill a different "niche" in the group. Garth is the softer, more emotional one you can go to if you're upset. Donna is the one for planning bright fun trips and making sure you don't wallow. Roy is protective and can pretend to be suave, but he shows affection through gift giving and grand gestures where words fail him. Wally can cheer any of them up with jokes and distractions. and of course Dick is the logical one who makes sure they all keep their heads on and don't drown in the responsibility.

overall i think it's a really cute ship and i do wish i just. knew more about them to be able to write them/read fic of it because i do love their dynamic. and i'm just a firm believer in the Titans being Dick's family, just as important to him as the Batfam. they're a disaster and for that you gotta love them.

#necrotic answerings #fab five #ty for asking!!#i love getting asks liek this even if on things i don't know a ton about #i think the only real comics i've read of the fab five are world's finest: teen titans and teen titans: year one #and some of the silver age stuff but only ever for the plot not for those characters specifically #so like. i know enough to vaguely understand the characters #but i did have to approach it from the perspective of dick bc obviously i know him the best #i am interested in reading more about garth. he's a little cutie. i love him.#he seems very easy to whump. you could do a lot of dead dove things to that boy.#also this is darker in concept #but i find the way bruce dislikes the titans and dick working with them pretty fascinating #bc the reasonable answer is it's the first time dick is operating outside of bruce and it just gives bruce anxiety #but the *fun* answer is: brudick vs fab five polycule #where bruce is hyper possessive of dick developing other potentially romantic bonds #or just bonds in general #so he tries to come in between it #if i ever wrote a fab five polycule fic #that's the route i would take personally. very dark controlling brudick with the titans slowly taking notice and growing more concerned #otherwise tho i leave this ship to be written by ppl who understand them more #bc i know next to nothing about a lot of them #dick and roy i understand #garth i'm interested in #couldn't tell you much about wally or donna tho #and i prefer wally as flash when i do read him. bc he's a disaster man.#i really haven't read much titans content in general i fear #i've read some new teen titans for like. slade content and whatnot #and some of the 2003 run but besides that. i was always on the yj side of the fence #that said i will say *as* a core four truther #the fab five are *always* going to be closer as a team than the core four.

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doodlingwren · 4 months ago

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Ok, back to girlblogging eheh (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

#wren text tag #like I said I got busy with my finals and I still have to take 2 exams in a week or so #and I know I could have been online in the time being #sadly I got ill and had to take antibiotics for the third time since the beginning of this year 😂 didn't feel like being silly #or drawing stuff in general sorry 🙏 mostly I tried to get better #there's no way I will have to postpone those finals #very funny how this month I wasn't online all the things happend #final chapter of StS: ND is out and oh boy #they announced a new Lady Oscar anime and * Oh Boy *#also a new Magic Knight Rayearth might drop in some time (oh boy but we will see)#oh yes I think Lore Olympus should finish soon bc I remember reading the announcement some time ago #and Roll20 got hacked again I'm 😐😐😐 can you please stop getting hacked I don't want my email full of spam again 😊💖#btw I haven't read the latest chapter of ND yet. I think I will wait until it gets published in italian (hopefully 🙏🙏🙏)#tho that doesn't mean that the second I logged in I saw 300 posts abt it 🤨 lol I cannot escape spoilers I guess #but IDK guys... I've seen some reviews and I had a “is this a jojo reference” kind of moment that I cannot explain #well I have the vague feeling of knowing how to explain it but also I will wait until I've actually * read * it #yeah now I will go to check my inbox byeeee 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️#I never get tagged in anything but for reasons I was? Obv when I was in my sickly victorian child era and I couldn't do anything for it #Wren arriving late to the party once again lmfao 😂

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 5 months ago

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I hate when I get into these phases when once I process through one thing causing me anxiety there's another thing right behind it

#we've moved on to ye olde ''what if i have repressed memories and horrible things have happened that I don't remember''#which...#like...#to some degree you have to go with a schrodinger answer. like... it's inherently not true #but the weird part is that I have weird anxiety when I think about certain family members bc of this #but when I'm actually around them it's no more uncomfortable than any family member you're not around often #so I'm like OH NO WHAT IF SAID FAMILY MEMBER WHO I HAVEN'T SEEN IN YEARS DID SOMETHING TO ME #BUT I REPRESSED IT #and like... a what if is just a what if. do I believe it? no. do I fixate on it and get wildly afraid? sometimes #also it's not even consistent sometimes I'm like ah yes family member I haven't seen in ages I wonder what he's up to #and then other times it's like I'VE HEARD SO MANY STORIES OF FAMILY MEMBERS RAPING THEIR NIECES AND STUFF #WHAT IF THAT HAPPENED TO ME #actually I feel like watching law and order SVU made a lot of these anxieties worse like that's part of why I stopped watching it #bc it exacerbates a lot of anxiety my mind tries to throw at me #anyway I do not actually think any family member has done anything and I don't actually believe I have repressed memories #or else I would have probably brought it up to my parents. I'm still like ''ooogh anxiety monster what if?'' about it tho #which is why we have philippians 4:8!! is is true? categorically due to being a ''what if'' anxiety — nope!! okiedoke moving on #k I just needed to talk through this I'm done now #*I'm barely any more uncomfortable than with any family member I haven't seen in a long time #(tbf I'm generally less comfortable with my dad's family bc 1) no female relatives other than grandma and 2) I see them way less often)

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stellacadente · 5 months ago

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actually confuses me how so many nonblack people want to make it seem like it's hard or something to not use aave bc it's literally so easy? you just have to not say words. and you can start any time. you didn't know a word or phrase is aave? now you know, don't say it anymore. it already happens anyway bc we bastardize aave so much, overuse one word or phrase that belongs to black people for a few months or something until it's not "trendy" anymore and then it's cringe to say it, so nonblack people stop saying it. what we can and should do instead is every single time we learn something is aave (and if you know/follow black americans you will hear about it!! just pay attention and stop only listening to white people!!) we immediately stop saying it and i guarantee you it won't take you long at all to start recognizing aave without having black people holding your hand through it. literally just listen and learn and then you'll be more and more used to recognizing aave and its appropriation and it'll be so incredibly simple to just not appropriate it even unknowingly

#that said i have still found myself recently realizing something is aave (but also widely used in the american south. i'm not american tho)#and i didn't know or realize before #so i mean it's fine to still mess up but i feel like we all know that! you do have to try tho!!!! and put effort into it!!!!#otherwise you can't say oh it's hard i can't do it well have you Tried first?#that goes for more than just aave too btw like the amount of times i've fought other white italians bc i told them they couldn't say the #(italian) n word especially older white italians and they were like but IT'S HARD and IT'S NOT FAIR and IT'S RIDICULOUS IT'S JUST A WORD #like fully insisting it didn't matter and it was hard to stop using it bc in their generation it was normal and accepted (by white people.#obviously. go tell them that tho) so why should they #it's not hard you just want to keep being ignorant and comfortable and not make an effort. die #nico rambles

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rustycottoncandy · 6 months ago

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I somehow made it through the school day running on one hour of sleep

#I went to sleep at 5am yesterday #not by decision though - or not fully at least #i was feeling very shitty so I tried drawing to calm myself down but it didn't work and I ended jp just getting worse #Nobody at home was awake ans I couldn't talk to any of my vontacts because again they were all asleep #and I really needed to talk to somebody so I ended up reaching to a Mental Health helpline #I thought of reaching out to a suicide prevention hotline at first but I didn't because I wasn't going to #nor thinking of #commiting suicide.#I didn want to do something pretty bad which I was trying to distract myself from doing but not kill myself #eventually I found a general mentak health helpline and texted a woman through there at early 3am/very late 2am #we talked for two hours. she was really nice and helped me calm down and gave me advice on what to do if that happened again #it was 5am when we stopped talking and I had to wake up at 6am so I didn't sleep much #I really appreciate whst she did she helped me a lot - she also offered to call my parents but I said no because I didn't want to worry them #and she understood she was really nice people behind these kinds of things are like wingless angels #I've been able to take short naps between classes and a considerably long one after an exam but I dtarted the day on 1 hour of sleep #AND SURVIVED IT yippee #my stuff #vent

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madqueenalanna · 10 months ago

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sorry (lie) to defend hate crimes md but. i think a lot of 2020s discourse misses the context within which the show originally operated. and this is NOT to say "well racist jokes were funny back then" cause that is NOT my point. my point is all the stuff that isn't the racist jokes

like, house md started airing one year before supernatural and bones, two other shows i'm deeply familiar with. supernatural is rife with casual homophobia, racism, misogyny, you name it. bones is so deeply entrenched in boot-sucking post-9/11 government that it's almost unwatchable these days. house... isn't very topical. he makes a lot of 80s references, or older. there are maybe two troop episodes? but let's be real we've been in the middle east so long that hardly dates it. and like, what does the show house md have to say beyond house's personal bad actions?

prisoners on death row deserve respect. homeless people deserve the same treatment as anyone else. mental health conditions like schizophrenia (presumed or otherwise) or munchausens don't disqualify people from actually being sick. being fat is sometimes a symptom instead of a cause, and people overlook genuine health concerns in favor of blaming obesity for everything. orthodox jewish beliefs deserve respect, while christian grifting should be mocked. there is significant, murky overlap between chronic pain and opioid addiction and there is no easy middle ground (the show itself muddles this point repeatedly, to be fair). autism is more akin to another language than anything else, and autistic people deserve to be met where they're at. abortion UP UNTIL BIRTH is acceptable, even desirable given circumstances. it is acceptable, even preferable, to repeatedly defraud insurance companies and bureaucracies if it's in the best interest of the patient. eating disorders are dangerous/fatal and should be treated as such

like, i get it. a lot of aspects of this show have not aged well, particularly the main sell of "edgy epic atheist" house, which WAS a very mid-00s type of character. and i'm as guilty as anyone as doing pepe silvia on this show to make it sound epic (like here) but i do genuinely believe i'm not wrong. even if you don't read house/wilson as romantic, and you don't need to, their relationship is so intense that it eclipses either of their various romantic entanglements. wilson went through 3 ex-wives and an ex-fiancee, house gave up on at least 3 significant relationships. house gave up his vicodin, his medical license, his entire life so that wilson didn't have to die alone. how can that not be poignant, even now? how can anyone deny the emotional impact of that? fuck your destiel, fuck your good omens. you didn't earn eight years of THIS

rambling as usual but i'm right. this show can be a really difficult watch at times for cringe reasons but it can also be so unusually astute that it takes the breath away. what other show, especially in 2005, was giving the circle speech from "lines in the sand"? that episode aired the same year as supernatural's racist truck or bones' "troops did friendly fire but iraq was still justified" penultimate ep. can i say house was a GOOD show? idk. but it raised a lot of interesting points and had a lot of against-the-grain compassion that i still find sorely lacking even now, 20 years later

#House #And what I really respect is that through Good Doctor. David Shore is still learning and growing #Like he fucked up on intersex supermodel and fucked up again (but lessser) on intersex basketball kid #So he tried AGAIN on trans people in GD and it's better! At least in the ep I saw I'm not caught up #It's not often you get a creator so openly willing to adjust their beliefs to the current era so. Thank you David #And I've said it before and will say it again. I think it matters that David Shore is Jewish cause the show just makes more sense #Than it would from a Christian context. Esp the orthodex ep and House vs God but even casually?#Life is worth preserving? Protect the existing pregnant woman over her fetus? That is NOT a Christian belief generally #I'm not Jewish so I don't want to speak too much BUT I'm deeply familiar w Christian-led media and it sucks worse. Sorry. Not

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hadesknockedupintheunderworld · 3 months ago

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Hey no way it's one of my fav Archie rarepairs

(Ajsjsjs I gave up on finding pictures that match. This is also the first one that features ages because Archie Sonic had those😂)

#sonic the hedgehog #elias acorn #archie sonic comics #sonelias #sonlias #sonic x elias #elias x sonic #elias the squirrel #shipping meme #sonic shipping #i just be ramblin #I've got tons of Sonic rarepairs under my belt and this is no exception #the sizing is not necessarily accurate but we gave it a guess #The age gap is based upon my memory of the text and the sonic grams from around Elias's introduction and backstory #If I remember correctly once they said Elias was like 5 when he went missing and then like 5 years later Robotnik took over #So he was 5 years older than Sally #Making him 4 years older than Sonic #Sonic's age is calculated via the two onscreen birthdays and the single year long timeskip which makes him 18 at minimum #For the others I tried to use images from the same time frame/image or that looked like they could be at the very least #this time it could not be helped #Not a lot of Elias shots I liked in my pictures standing by shots of Sonic I liked also #so I made do #but yeah if someone wants me to do one of these for something they know I ship or has specific questions as to why I picked what feel free #to ask me about it #All final note. This is my interpretation of Archie Sonic rather than Sonic in general

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wereh0gz · 30 days ago

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Not feeling great abt some of my creative endeavors rn

#ramblings #neg #specifically abt project: new moon #i can feel myself actively losing interest in continuing to write for it #like the main story is already out there and that's fine #but even tho i have ideas for oneshots and stuff to introduce more characters (like those redesigns for rouge and shadow i did a while ago)#it just. doesn't feel worth continuing. idk why #i guess it might be the lack of interest for my writing in general #or maybe project: new moon just. isn't that great #which is fine the point of the project was to do it for fun not to make something objectively good #but ig i'm just. not feeling it anymore? i don't feel satisfied with it like i did when i finished writing it #i still love my ocs and the redesigns i did of canon characters for it #and i'm glad i got the story i've had in my head since i was like 12 out there. even if it's very different from how i first envisioned it #but. i really just wanna put it to rest #i really don't feel like i can promise any more writing for it. not like anybody cared abt it anyway besides like 3-4 ppl + myself #idk man i wanna move on from it. i have other stuff i wanna write that i feel guilty for not doing #bc i'd said i'd write more for project: new moon and still haven't #i think i'd be happier if i let the fanfic go and just draw my ocs and my redesigns when i feel like it #without worrying abt the fic anymore #bc frankly ever since writing the epilogue my heart just didn't feel like it was in it #thinking abt it felt like a chore more than anything. so maybe it'd be for the best to just leave it as it is #that comic i said i'd write is still happening tho i still really wanna do it #but that's different from writing fanfic so #anyway. might turn the project: new moon blog into a general writing blog #if i finish the corrupted au fic i'm currently working on. idk yet we'll see #but yeah. i know i shouldn't trust how i feel past 9 pm but I've been feeling this for a while now so whatever #i think i should've seen this coming in retrospect. pretty much everything i do that isn't just art never gets much traction anyway #can't say i'm really giving up on it considering it's TECHNICALLY complete #but the way things are going feels almost exactly like the rp and ask blogs i've tried to run in the past #idk man. i gotta stop thinking abt this before the vague feelings of inadequacy spiral into something worse. goodnight

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tommyssupercoolblog · 4 months ago

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hey how much is sapnap and matpat in the new tommyinnit video, i want to watch but i don't really want to see them

Matpat isn't in it. Sapnap is but it's just Tommy seeing him coming out of a store, asking if he's fucked up mentally, sapnap says no and Tommy is like "nice seeing you" very dryly and sarcasticly, and leaves. A lot of people say Tommy was being a bitch to him on purpose but he has autism and I ALSO have autism so....idfk