#so just put a bullet in my head
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unironically, i need to be put down
#good omens#good omens 2#neil i am in your fucking walls#the last vestiges of my sanity have finally died#so just put a bullet in my head#this is it for me
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laugh with me while i make my own posts real
tha fuckin outfits under the cut
#snap chats#i dont have a selfie tag but its because i plan on posting selfies once in a blue moon#idk the under the cut’s a warning enough#anyway ive had these shoes for. a while ive just been too lazy to actually put everything on djOAZJAK#oh yeah those are the y3-walk-sound gator boots. i love them very much#i didnt even include the bullet chain meant to go on the gator boots … lol …#ive had these outfits in general for a while but every time i think of showing them i throw up#but i feel brave today…. so what EVER#ok bye i think im eating.#idk im supposed to head out with my bro soon to go grocery shopping but he taking a year so#oh while im here. i still dont know who to go as for animenyc… in august…#my bestis planning to go as aerith so either option would be hilarious#ok im done rambljng now bye
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(for @foolforbuffy || further explanation about this post)
So first things first, Willow ressurected Buffy which ended up leading to Warren trying to kill Buffy, and with that Tara died. This doesn't mean Taras death is Willows fault, it just kinda happened, like Tara would've survived if they had decided to go out for icecream, they were both just really unlucky.
When Buffy was shot things weren't looking that good for her. Like she may have slayer healing but she was shot in the chest. Slayer healing probably only really kept her alive for as long as she did so she didn't die imediatly like Tara.
Because Tara died, Willow absorbed all the books and went dark. Now more powerful than ever, she saved Buffys life, since we've espablished Buffys life was actually in serious danger.
Meaning if that bullet had missed Tara, Buffy might've died instead. And Willow would've lost one of them either way. But since Buffys ressurection ultimatly caused Taras death, Taras death also then ultimatly caused Buffys survival.
Its a life for a life.
And Willow accidentally ended up chosing Buffys life over Taras that day when she ressurected her.
#'i put her in the bullets path' - willow in the comics#also 'i chose you over her' - willow to buffy in the comics#this all connects very nicely to the theory that willow always knew the ressurection spell was a life for a life she just thought itd be#-*her* life#cause yeah. she lovesboth buffy and tara a lot more than herself#in the perfect reality for her they are both alive and well#anyways its hard to put exactly into words how it all connects in my head#but itsreally like. if buffy being alive cause taras death then taras death has to cause buffys continued alive-ness yk#its really depressing and great and complex#and the saddest part is that little willow'genre aware' rosenberg overthere is so completly aware of all of this#willow rosenberg#tara maclay#buffy summers#tillow#willow x tara#summerberg#yes this is about both tillow and summerberg if you hadnt already realised#'i laugh like me again. she laughs like *you*'#btvs#buffy the vampire slayer#btvs season 6#pzyii rants#btvs s6#buffy fandom
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i'm taking prompts - again haha
i had SO MUCH FUN with taking prompts last time for the Silver Bullets girls (MOTA), that i can't help but do it again - especially now that we have some relationships more fleshed out too (and a better introduction to other OCs and such hehe) SO, please feel free to send in a prompt and an OC or OC/canon character pairing of your choice!!! pairings sent in also don't have to be with the romantic pairing below - it can be platonic, or against a foil too! pairings can also be two SB girls, or just one of the SB girls too!!! feel free to mix and match!! it's all about the fun and the vibes! <3 (things can happily be sent on anon too if you’re not comfortable 🫶✨)
Silver Bullets girls are linked here !!!!
-> interested in pairings? just below!
Annie Bradshaw x John Brady
Kennedy Farley x Bucky Egan
Judy Rybinski x Rosie Rosenthal
Carrie Achterberg x James Douglass
Margie Harlowe x Benny DeMarco
Bessie Carlisle x Thomas McKenzie
and here are the prompts i'm looking into as well!! <3 please feel free!!! these get me going *BIG TIME* and are so much fun, more than anything. thank you all for the love and support and for taking the time to look into the Silver Bullets girls - seriously, you've made my heart so warm and it has helped me through more than you can imagine :) (we're definitely going more angsty with some of these, but i eat it up every time so hehe!)
seeking out physical affection
dialogue assortment
lack of sleep starters
protective sentence starters
#welcome to the Silver Bullets-MOTAverse where its me losing my mind and fangirling over things in my head#hi hello how are you#prompts! again!#i cant help myself#i have a francis piece brewing (thank you bluuuuu!!)#but wanted to just put this out incase people had ideas ;) i had a few people with plenty of wonderful ideas so i figured id open this#opportunity up again!#thank you all!!! <3#silver bullets#masters of the air#mota#mota writings#SB-MOTAverse#WOOOOOO#send in whatever you wish + how ever many you wish - im all ears :)
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Have you guys ever felt so emotionally and mentally bad that you start to get a headache, cramps and dirreah at the same time??
This must be some kind of new human experience, shittiest dlc ever 0/5 would not recommend.
#kabra bits#someone please put me out of my mysery#there's just so much I can handle#currently at my workplace's bathroom writhing in agony#frew up a little too fuck#trembling like a baby#how am I supposed to work like this??#have mercy on me and put a bullet in my head pleaseeee
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felix ranstrom and isabella belcourt @rviner
Felix berated his own idiocy because only a true moron would request space from someone as understanding as Isabella Belcourt, then obsessively scour their phone for any notification from her. Of course, she honored his request with the grace of a saint, not even her name popping up under his stories. Just a week of separation might seem like nothing in the grand scheme of things, but for Felix, it served as a stark reminder of her absence. A dull ache gnawing away. If anything, it only proved him right. They were abysmal at being exes. And he was glad for it, not wanting them to suddenly be efficient at parting ways. Regret had become his shadow ever since he sent the stupid text, worse than when he used the wrong "your" in a group chat.
Avoidance became his faithful companion for the week after Paris, following him even back to the corridors of Asphodel where it finally scampered away. It wasn't only avoidance from the institute's attempt at helping him but Felix wished to avoid the conversation with Bella, despite how boldly he claimed they needed to have it. He lingered down the hallway by her office, conveniently early for his own therapy session. He half expected to find her door firmly shut while she worked, or to perhaps catch the faint sound of her melodic voice through the walls. To his surprise, the door was wide open once he reached it. The curious sight of a box perched on her desk, full of the personal touches she decorated the space with.
Oh shit, did I make her leave? Panic momentarily raised within Felix, until his rational thoughts perked up just a second later. No, obviously not. She's not hysterical. His shoulders eased from the slight tension and he made himself at home in the vacant office, gaze sweeping over the leftover art and cheesy puns she somehow found hilarious. His thoughts were soon interrupted by the familiar sound of her approaching steps, making Felix turn to greet her once she reached the office. A mischievous grin instantly touched the corner of his lips as he saw her and he gestured lazily to the box on her desk. "Did I say something?" he teased with a mutter before he lifted the small frame from the nearby wall. "Or did having to look at this every day finally break you?" Felix added as he carefully added it to the box before returning to a more sincere demeanor.
"Where are they moving you to?" he asked with genuine curiosity and his glance landed to the array of plants she had lined up ready for departure. A look of appreciation for the way she arranged them by size. Felix took it upon himself to hoist the box under one arm and snagging one potted plant with his other hand, lifting it to take a closer look. "Oh, you saved this one." he observed the flourishing growth before he glanced back to Bella. "Grew fast. Thank God you didn't know me when I was a kid. I'd be eight feet tall by now." Felix quipped, gesturing with a nod of his head for her to lead the way. "I know I said...about space but if you've been promoted I...would've liked to have been kept in the loop so I could say congratulations."
#felixranstromchat#interactions; felix and bella 003#This is better but I wrote so much more than the other one#Just put a bullet in my head at this point
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A question did you plot your Taryn X ghost fic aka outline it or just wrote it and let the story come to you?
I'm a methodological pantser (thanks ellen brock for helping me realize my writing process is not crazy ✨) so I started with a very loose idea of: (1) where I wanted the characters to start, (2) where I wanted them to end, and (3) big developments that needed to happen along the way. all the little details came together in the process of writing, revising, re-outlining, restructuring, then rewriting. that might sound wild haha but it's just how my brain works—so yes I had a plan, but my outline was very bare bones to begin with & became more fleshed out as I wrote!
#i have to have a general plan or else i flounder#but my plan can't be too rigid or else i feel stifled and lose momentum#my early plotting process is a lot of bullet points of things i want to incorporate (often for thematic purposes - sometimes just for fun)#with only the loosest idea of where those bullet points will slot into the overall timeline#in addition to ellen brock#maggie stiefvater's writing course was a huge help to me#she encourages writers to hold their stories in their heads for as long as possible#bc as long as it's in your head it's limitless#but once you start jotting things down you put fences around it#which is necessary of course. but you don't want to start doing that too early#so a lot of the details just live in my head for a long time and then naturally find their place in the story as i'm drafting#i hope this makes sense#i feel like a lot of writers have much more straight-forward writing processes than me#and it took me a long time (and a lot of trial and error) to learn that there's nothing wrong with that lol#which is part of why i love fanfic - it gives writers a venue to test things out & learn their own writing processes#in a more low-stakes environment#anyways fun fact for you if you made it this far into my tags:#when i first jotted down a loose outline mniwyd was supposed to be five chapters#ask tag#anon#mniwyd
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What do you hc are some of utena & anthy’s specific n mundane favorite things about each other?
I.e Utena having a subconcious habit of always circling a couch once before she plops down on it to watch tv, or anthy’s hands often smelling like the specific brand of cat food that anthy swears by even though there’s no difference between it and the rival brand, and how anthy’s improved a good bit at cooking since ohtori, but for the life of her she can never manage to fully manage frying eggs, so the edges are always a bit burnt when utena eats them, and utena’s taken up wood working n carpentry as hobbies, and she ends up seeming to trail the slightest bit of wood shavings everywhere, with a habit of having one hand gloved and the other not so she can do whatever it is she took a break from the wood working for
aww i love all those examples :)) i actually included that exact thing about the burnt eggs in one of my fics, so that's a fun coincidence. here are some more:
anthy has a habit of humming songs she likes while doing any of her hobbies (painting, writing, cooking/baking, gardening, etc etc) and even though it's always slightly out of tune, utena loves listening to it
utena has a habit of falling asleep on the floor in the exact same way their cat does which anthy finds both funny and endearing
utena loves anthy's laugh more than anything in the world, especially because she was so unused to hearing it back in ohtori
just in general she appreciates anthy's openness, whether she's rambling abouta cute bug she saw or expressing her annoyance at someone she had to interact with earlier (even when that someone sometimes is utena herself.)
she also always enjoys it when anthy is really passive aggresive to people neither of them like. they can both be kinda mean and petty sometimes, but usually it's to people who deserve it
anthy likes the feeling of the callouses on utena's hands when she holds them. there's a scar on the back of her hand that she likes running her thumb over
utena talks in her sleep occasionally (kind of canon already) and sometimes it wakes anthy because she's a light sleeper. she thinks it's sweet, if a little annoying at times
when anthy concentrates really hard on something she gets this expression on her face that utena finds adorable
anthy thinks utena's clumsiness and tendency to trip over things is cute
#i'll be honest i don't think i'm great at coming up with specific headcanons especially when it comes to small mundane things like this#so this was a bit of a challenge. like i have this pretty cohesive idea of what their lives and relationship looks like in my head i just#don't really know how to put it into words. and when i do i do it in the form of writing where the headcanons are weaved naturally into it#and not in the form of bullet points i have to come up with on the spot.#THAT BEING SAID . i love receiving asks like this because it makes me think about them being happy and that makes me happy :)#and i don't usually talk much about them post-ohtori otherwise even though i want to#headcanons#utena and anthy#asks#m#don't be afraid of this world where we'll meet
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boo!!!
me wgen I'm so inconsistent
#i just realized its all sky au stuff i apologize#(not rlly)#its been in my head for a good while and I've been wanting to ramble abt it#i just. dont know how . so theres some pages in my sketchbook where i wrote little bullet points of lore#instead of putting it into the doc i made specifically for it#RAAAH#anyways sorry for the camera quality. room light is broken so i have to rely on sunlight and flash#umm if u have any questions abt the au then send em !!! maybe it'll help with me making lore#(tho i am still trying to assign planets to the other sillies so um. be patient with me on that)#ok bye stay cringe and free#danganronpa#mondo owada#kiyotaka ishimaru#ishimondo#ummm#celestia ludenburg#chihiro fujisaki#sorry for plaguing the tags guys#kry k(art)#sky au#oops
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Ah, I just finished my second Danganronpa 1 playthrough. Very refreshing and my head is filled with juicy new drawing ideas. Really, what an amazing game!! 🥰
#The trust Makoto puts on his friends and fighting off any thought that says otherwise 💚#Makoto's and Kyoko's growing bond as the days passed by is just 💚💜#Makoto reminscing about the dead like#at some point in chapter 5 I think; if you visit the library and click on the bookshelves;#he says something about “Hifumi being upset that there were no comicbooks”#and in the Rec room if you click on the othello board#he wonders if “Celeste ever found someone to play othello with her”#and in Chapter 6 after Monokuma opens all door; when you try to interact with Sayaka's door#he says “It has nothing to do with the investigation. No time for detours now. *Right Sayaka?*” ouughh#and if you click on that 'drum-like thing??' next to the wooden lockers in the dojo#he says “I can imagine Sakura out here trying to train”#and that part of the game with all the options being 'The Togami family fell' Chills!#and lastly of course the incredible final moment; Makoto shooting 'Hope' bullets to his almost-despaired friends#also makoto's japanese voice is going to live rent free in my head now. So do some other characters' voices!#and genocide syo's laughter is also gonna live rent free. Kyehahahaha!#Seriously; this game!! 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛#chirpos chirps
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obsessed with the bullets from my 'physical impacts from 'gaming'' notes for class cause they all talk about violence and aggression an yeah that sure is a thing in videogames but have you considered ichiban deserves to enact a lil violence. just a bit. also he's the light of my life and the ray of sunshine in the dark and
#snap chats#the videogame segment funny as hell in general cause theres bullets where its like#'yeah youre putting yourself in the position of these hyperviolent and dangerous people'#and then im thinkin of ichiban calling a fuckin crawfish on his phone like yeah. deadly stuff right there youre right professor#tho now that i mention ichiban Aw Fuck he might be the worst/best example of videogames and the correlation of violence#if not solely because his fighting method is literally influenced by dragon quest but i repeat hes valid and its ok <3#anyway sorry i have to be sick in the head stop reading now if youre a fish. or daigo bear GET OUT#theres a note here like 'increase in arousal' and Honey. if my eyeballs observing this community have a comment on that--#im not guiltless tho 😔 saw that forbidden masato katsu screenshot and i got sick <- still obsessed with how gorg he is#AND WHY DID THEY REMOVE THAT SCENELVKLVKJ ITLL FOREVER BE FUNNY AS HELL#THERES JUST THIS GORJUS AS CHRIST SHOT OF KATSU AND ITS LOST TO THE RGG VAULT#rgg please one high-rendered cutscene of ishin masato is not enough for me. his smile was so cute in the scene pleeaaaaasssee bro#im so ill. anyway im gonna lay in bed for the next five hours until my last class#i thought i was gonna stream but if i even try talking i just might throw up. also i should prob do my comm work instead OOP#luckily its just sketches this week so.... maybe i can stream tomorrow or thursday...#dont quote me on that i suck. anyway bye
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someone hype me up and tell me im not an absolute fuckin dick so I can finally just finish breaking up with my partner/ex(??)
#vark posts#delete later#had the inital convo like maybe 4 days ago? idk#it was supposed to just be a couple days to process and then we'd come back to it to make it definitive and set boundaries#since ya know we fuckin live together#but weve been avoiding eachother like the fuckin plague and theyre just notorious for avoiding conflict in general#its driving me up the fuckin wall#but i mean ive also just been a fuckin coward too ig#its not that i dont want to just get this over with already#but ik the next 24hrs after is gonna make me wanna fuckin die#like how do u keep ur fuckin sanity after breakin things off with someone youve talked to everyday for almost 2 years#im not really emotional so id probs be fine after like a week#but its like initiating this convo is gonna feel like im putting a bullet into my own head#this is lowkey embarrassing to put out there but im in a fuckin constant state of stress i need to be put down
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Good Grief I need to meet more dykes....
#listening to my barber talk abt their gf w tears in my eyes. i love lesbians <3#ik i literally live w another lesbian but all she talks abt is how married she is to her besties (both guys)#and her fictional guys or celebrity crushes (also all guys). and she hates all the dyke media i love (tlt baru etc) im literally starving#to be 100% clear im not invalidating her sexuality at all i would never#but i need someone to lez out with..... (figuratively. and literally inshallah) like what do i gotta do to talk abt women around here..#one of the queer community spaces here does gay speed dating but they call the dyke one 'sapphic' which puts me off it lmao#not a fan of the word... and i dont wanna meet uni students (there are a TON in this area). but maybe i just need to bite the bullet#and go anyway. when im not sick i need to get back on queer parkour too..#auuuurgh. but not this weekend cuz i have furniture to put together and a flat to clean and elden ring to play and myself to kill SLASH J#.diaries#feeling so bad in the head. im gonna put the hot water on and build another shelf and shower once its done ah...
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tell me if you think I'm breathing good...
[collaboration with @dxppercxdxver again]
#em draws stuff#flintlock fortress#team fortress 2#a better caption would be 'please sit down for five minutes you literally just got operated on'#as it stands it's lyrics from 'doctor' by gawain and the green knight. love a lyrics-caption in this house.#one of these days I will stop only drawing 3/4 of the polycule but the proportions are most truly driving me up the wall#posing's a bit awkward here but this was an outfit sketchup that got out of hand#also this is a fascinating sort of. step back from your own brain moment for feeling weird about posting something I drew#the rat says 'this is too ...something for tumblr' and the logical mind says 'you drew this man sticking his finger in his own bullet hole'#and Then I got weird about showing his legs and also giving him a little hat? That's really going to be what I got weird about?#the inside of my head is truly a wild place to hang out#anyway Stay Tuned there's going to be writing that goes with this. eventually?#'em shouldn't you write the part that actually happens at the beginning instead of skipping right to the big finish'#ha! that sounds like rule-followers' talk! certainly none of that going on in here!#watch me put ansel through the plinko of horrors live on tumblr dot com. or whatever.#also I desperately needed to take a break and from long years of experience I know that Scrungled Fellow in Shirt is simply Where It's At.#he looks weird and wrong with no glasses but hey so do I!
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i hate it when people ask me about school so much
#no im not graduating this year im failing and then im dropping out and im probably not going to college and im gonna spend the rest of my#life working shitty dead end jobs. my greatest achievement will be that i didnt kill myself as a teenager. every time someone asks me about#this i feel the urge to reply that im gonna put a bullet in my head. stop#sorry im sleep deprived and extra edgy td#irl friend i hadnt hung out w in months was going on like. how is school going are you doing enem are you going to the us to work#shes in college to do something fancy i can never remember the name of. shes gonna go to europe to work. and i was just like. you and me are#not the same. im writing this instead of paying attention to class bc i already accepted that im not passing this year so it doesnt f matter
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I just finished the Big Encounter tm in Disco Elysium, and... Jesus fucking christ, man
#vu's posts#disco elysium#so uh. heavy spoilers ahead in the tags. so if you haven't gotten very far in the game then stop reading this#...#ok now that spoiler-free people are gone. i need to ramble#by 'big encounter' i of course mean between the scabs and the hardie boys. just to give context#not long before the encounter though i finally met ruby. and that was also a tense situation. like my god#anyways. once i headed to the whirling i saw the whole thing start yknow#as soon as kim dropped a 'fuck' i was so Tense because like. he *never* swears. so i knew that things were gonna go down#i managed to pass both the rhetoric and suggestion checks.. somehow. but that didn't do anything in the end really.#i didn't ever find my gun so i was left on the defensive ��� luckily i put on the chestplate... thing.#i'm pretty sure that that's what kept me alive tbh#i got hit with two bullets but like i said. the first one hit the chestplate. that took most of the damage there. my leg got hit though#AND i kept kim alive yippee! i have a hunch that he can die if you fail a certain check#(i.e. the one where you warn him about the guy behind him)#also i got a bonus on that check that said that kim *really* trusts me and... 😭😭#ok i think i got all my thoughts out! for now...#i also screen recorded the whole thing. thinking about sharing it tbh. who knows though#WAIT. one more thing. i am *so* shocked that kim made *that* shot. because yknow. he's got vision problems yeah?#like what a fucking badass. like hello#ok NOW i'm done. and i gotta go to sleep now 😂#va4 rambles in the tags
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