#so it's less that I'm not as tired
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#the struggle continues#the clinic was worried enough to call and ask me follow up questions in advance of my appointment#but they decided it's 'not lifethreatening' which yeah. thanks. not technically.#so I gotta wait till tomorrow to get it sorted#I have not fallen asleep on the couch today#but I have also only been out of bed for like 10 or 11 hours and I'm already going back to bed#so it's less that I'm not as tired#and more that I've shifted gears back to being tired all the time. -n-
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Ugh I'm so sleepy. Eepy man. Enjoy this shit I cooked up in ten minutes.
You wake up, only to find yourself just as tired as you were a few hours ago. Your eyelids are heavy, and you're fighting back sleep with every blink. Exhaustion wracking your body with every movement.
You feel Simon groan and sit up next to you.
"Mmm... five more minutes?" You mumble sleepily, shivering at the sudden lack of warmth.
"'M sorry love, we've gotta get up"
"Please? I'm so tired..." You whine quietly
"Negative," he says, chuckling at your miserable pout.
"Please, Si?" You say it so sweetly. The nickname you rarely used. His weakness.
A moment passes before you finally hear a response.
"Fine."
You grin, knowing that you've won. He lays back down and wraps his arm around you, pulling your back to his chest. You close your eyes and sleep quickly overtakes you.
Of course, it was never just 'five more minutes'. Simon called your work shortly after and informed them that you wouldn't be coming in today. However that works.
#I'm actually so tired it's unreal#Dying out here#Ofc I didn't get to take the day off. I have to suffer#Who knew exhaustion was what would make me write smt#That's crazy#Got less than 2 hours of sleep#Which actually normally doesn't bother me#But I guess it adds up over time#*shocked pikachu face*#If only I had a Simon in my life#simon ghost riley#cod x reader#ghost x reader#ghost x gn reader#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x gn reader
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my bf has informed me that Snake wears a corset so i made him this
#if the 2 lines they speak is out of character im sorry i cant do anything about it#“hey mags thats not a corset” shut up it is in my heart#tactical corset#this was made so fast im so sorry#i wish i took more time with this but im v tired so thats it for today#tbh i promised him i'd draw hal tying the corset thing up so imma still do that#with more time and less exhaustion#also heard it's otasune week????? we win!!!#anyways i'm blabbering#metal gear solid#mgs#mgs fanart#sketch#metal gear#solid snake#hal emmerich#otasune#otacon
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normalize liking platonic dynamics just as much as romantic dynamics. normalize being insane over characters as friends and not as a ship. normalize wanting characters to be closer platonically just as you would want them to be closer romantically (I call it platonic shipping). normalize not having characters fall in love for no reason when they were already great and compelling platonically. normalize characters doing things that are usually seen as romantic but in a platonic context. normalize writing platonic fanfiction and drawing platonic fanart. "I am insane about their friendship" can and should be common actually. amatonormativity BEGONE!
#i'm arospec so this probably has something to do with it#platonic dynamics aren't less than or just a step towards romantic dynamics actually#i'm just tired of feeling weird every time i obsess over two characters' platonic dynamic#because you'd assume i ship them from the way i talk about them but no!!!#amatonormativity in fandoms#amatonormativity#arospec#aspec#lukas rants#hila has spoken
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I wish everyone collectively understood aventurine’s character like you…things would be so much easier! I genuinely don’t understand how people keep getting his motivations wrong??? Could it be because some of the most popular Aven fanfics were written prior to his release? That could have contributed to some of the takes we tend to see about him…thoughts?
I struggled all day to come up with a concise way to answer this and couldn't think of one, so here, have a long-winded ramble:
I don't think early fic writers have much impact in the situation with Aventurine's character now, since most people can look at when a story was posted and go "Oh, this was before we had ____ information."
I think that Aventurine's problem is being a male character in a gacha game. Gacha game characters are designed to sell. Hoyo can sell female characters very, very easily. Give her huge tits and a visible underwear strap and you're good to go. I love all my guy friends, but I'm not gonna sugarcoat it: straight men are not the hardest audience to please. Hit a particular fetish (feet, spandex, dommy mommy), and you're gucci.
Nah, we all know why Jade's trailer is Like That.™
Male characters in gacha are harder to sell because women as consumers are a little harder to predict. Does every woman want a tall, ripped hunk? Shit, no, small cute boyish models like Aventurine are selling better now? Why?! Would a bad boy be more popular than a nice guy??? It's harder to account for women's tastes, especially because they are often (a little) less visually-oriented.
Hoyo is good at what they do though, and they've figured out that male characters sell very well when they possess at least one of two specific traits:
Endearing vulnerability/helplessness
Gay ship tease
Give a character both, like Aventurine? They might as well be printing money.
That sound you hear is Hoyo's stock prices rising.
So, from the very beginning, Hoyo is incentivized to create a character that appeals to people, a character people will want to crack their wallets open for. And they achieved this, first and foremost, by giving Aventurine traits that female players (in particular, but men too), find especially appealing: emotional and physical vulnerability.
We see Aventurine's pain. We sympathize with his grief. We identify with his struggle to make meaning of his difficult life. He's our woobie, blorbo, babygirl, whatever the hell they're calling it now.
He can't hide his suffering anymore. He's on the very edge. He's a dude in distress. He's surrounded by enemies! He misses his mama! He's been betrayed! No one understands him like you do, dear player!
The ultimate feeling evoked is: He needs to be saved.
When people talk about male power fantasies, I think they forget that women can experience them too, and "Emotionally vulnerable man that only I (or my favorite character) can fix" is actually a female power fantasy.
And from there it's really easy, right: the people who shell out cash to buy warps for their harmed-husbando feel like they've saved him; the people who are into mlm ships look for the nearest hot dude to be the savior Ratio was waiting for his time lol.
Morally and intellectually, this type of deep-down-golden-hearted, emotionally-wounded male character is very easy to digest. There is nothing to dislike about this type of character or role in the story: this character is a good guy who has just gone through so many terrible situations, whose victim status makes him endearing, and whose lack of agency means that any of the questionable or downright bad things he does are always the result of someone else forcing his hand, and never something he would have chosen himself.
His motivations are always clear and consistent: get free, heal, and live happily ever after.
Insert the Wreck-It Ralph meme: "Do people assume all your problems got solved when a big strong man showed up?" But to be fair, a big strong man did kind of solve Aventurine's problem, so--
Anyway, it's simple. It's straightforward. Morally, it's pretty cut and dry, black and white: Aventurine is our hero, which means everyone dictating the course of his miserable life is evil.
Hoyo is not remotely discouraging people from literally buying into this emotional appeal.
And trust me, I get it. I'll be the first to admit that hurt-comfort is its own entire genre in fandom because it is so appealing. People eat up Aventurine's tragic backstory like candy! The idea of watching a character go through hell at the hands of bad guys just to finally find a happy end is like the definition of everyone's favorite story.
In fact... people love Aventurine's suffering so much, they have invented whole new ways for him to suffer that aren't even in the game.
This is where we get all the headcanons that Aventurine was a sex slave, every single person he meets hates him because of his race, the Stonehearts are executioners holding knives to his throat, Jade enslaved him to the IPC with a lifelong contract, his material possessions belong to the company, the IPC is forcing him to take only the most dangerous missions where he is being required by his evil jailers to continually put his life on the line... You name it and I promise you, I can find a fanfic where Aventurine suffers from it. 😂
Bro can't even sleep in on his day off; life is so hard for this man.
Being serious: if the game is telling us that Aventurine is a victim... Why not make him the perfect victim?
Why not envision an Aventurine with no freedom, who bears no responsibility for any of the horrible situations he is in or any of the dubious things he does?
It's so natural to like that version of Aventurine, so appealing to see a totally powerless underdog use his own wits and charms to claw his way up to freedom. Or, if you're the kind who really relishes angst: It's even appealing to see Aventurine lose more. To delight in fics where he loses his wealth, where the IPC punishes him for past crimes while he's powerless to stop them... (I assure you, this is many people's cup of tea and the fanfics prove it!)
Ultimately, there's nothing wrong with liking characters who are exactly this straightforward! It's completely fine to embrace characters that are intentionally written to be morally above-board, whose primary role in the story is to generate angst by being a good person who suffers, or those characters who never show unlikable traits, bad decisions, or contradictory actions.
The problem is that that's just not who the game is telling us Aventurine is.
Hoyo may be capitalizing off people who love to envision poor Aventurine still living his life as a slave... But the game also needs to tell a complicated enough story overall to appeal to people who don't care about this specific husbando--Aventurine's role in the actual game's plot has to be interesting enough for almost everyone to appreciate it, not just Aventurine's simp squad. (Don't get mad, I'm in the simp squad with you.)
So his character doesn't stop at just being a pure-hearted victim who is still waiting to be saved.
Aventurine is not that easy to label, and I think the biggest struggle in this character's fandom right now is between people who prefer the even-more-angsty, still-a-slave Aventurine versus people who want a morally grey, self-destructive character instead.
To me personally, while I greatly understand the appeal of fanon!Aventurine and the joy of a really juicy angst fic where characters lose it all, I think that missing out on the depth that canon is suggesting would be a real loss on the fandom's part.
The character motivations that Aventurine shows in the game are complicated. They cancel each other out. They're basically self-harm! He makes almost every situation he's in worse for himself--on purpose.
He is a good person, but also a person who has done unspeakable things. He does have morals, but he's not above allowing those who don't have them to use him to their advantage.
He's both the victim and the victor. He's his own worst enemy. He's a lost little boy who's been making terrible decisions for himself since he was like eight years old, and a grown ass man who is barely managing to fake his way through an existence that destiny is not letting him quit.
This kind of character is a lot harder to embrace. He's done things that most people would find appalling--like willingly joining up with the organization that let his entire race be massacred. He's invented a whole new peacock persona to frivolously flaunt riches he doesn't even care about (Poison Dart Frog Self-Defense 101). He actively plays into racist stereotypes about his people to manipulate others through their preconceived expectations. He's made a mockery of his mother's and sister's hopes and dreams by endlessly trying to throw his own life away.
He has flaws! He bet everything he had on a ploy without doing his homework to find out if the people he was risking his life for were even still around. (Maybe he already knew, and couldn't bear to admit it, even to himself.) He's intentionally off-putting and obnoxious to everyone he meets (Poison Dart Frog Self-Defense 102). He terrifies everyone who gets close to him by (seemingly) carelessly throwing himself into the jaws of death without the slightest provocation.
He knowingly allows the IPC to exploit his power and talents for profit. Did everyone forget that his role in the Strategic Investment Department is asset liquidation?! Like, his actual day-to-day job is ruining people's lives. Canonically, Aventurine kills people when his deals go bad.
His motivations change off-screen in two lines of story text. We're told in one line that his biggest reason for joining the IPC was to make money to save the Avgin, then in the next line we find out that's impossible. And... then what? What motivations does he even have now? The whole point of his character arc from 2.0-2.1 is that he was on the edge of giving in to utter despair and nihilism because he couldn't even perceive a single reason to stay alive. He has no purpose in life before Penacony, and that didn't start with the Stonehearts at all??
People keep saying Aventurine was held in the IPC by golden handcuffs, but how do you tie down someone for whom profit is meaningless? What can you offer to a man whose only desire is to bring back something already lost forever? How do you imprison someone whose only definition of freedom is, canonically, death?
Working for the Stonehearts is obviously not healthy. But that's why Aventurine was doing it--because taking dangerous missions allowed him to put himself at risk. The job that he originally pursued hoping to save his people became a direct means to self-harm, and the IPC's only real role in that was just happily profiting off the results.
The journal entries for Aventurine's quests are there deliberately to tell the player what is on his mind, and none of it has to do with escaping from his job:
Like... Work is the least of this man's problems.
At really the risk of rambling on too long now, he's also just a massive walking contradiction:
Aventurine is among the most explicitly religious characters in the game, yet he's one of the only people in the entire game that we have ever seen actively question his people's aeon.
You might be tempted to think Aventurine's risky gambles with his life as an adult are a result of giving up after finding out about the Avgin massacre... Butttt no, Hoyo makes sure to tell us that even at knee-high in the Sigonian desert, Kakavasha was already willing to risk himself in a fight to the death against monsters because even back then he found his own life to have less value than a single memento.
He's the "chosen one" who will lead his people to prosperity... except they're all dead.
He's explicitly suicidal... andddd also a pathstrider of Preservation.
He wants to die... He doesn't want to die. He wants to make it end, yet goes to staggering lengths to continually survive. (Every plan risks his life on purpose--but every plan's win condition is also to live.) He life is the chip tossed down, but his hand is trembling beneath the table. When faced with an otherwise unsurvivable situation, Aventurine literally became a winner of the Hunger Games. He beat other innocent people to death with his own chain-bound hands just to come out alive.
He knows the IPC failed the Avgin and left them to die... and he still willingly sought out a position of power in their organization. Maybe he really is after revenge... but maybe not.
He starts his journey in the IPC with a truly noble goal in mind: to help his people using his newfound wealth and power. He's a good guy who did genuinely want to save the Avgin and repay all those who helped him. But once it became clear he was too late, once it was obvious he would have no use at all for that monetary wealth and power he risked his life to get... What did he do with it? Unlike Jade, we don't see him over here donating to orphanages. (I'm not that heartless; I'm sure he does actually do a lot of good things with his money on the side, but the point is that the game does not show us that--it shows us, over and over again, Aventurine putting on a wasteful, over-indulgent persona toward wealth. We've supposed to feel how meaningless money is to him, how meaningless everything is becoming to him.)
He outright refuses to use underhanded tactics or to cheat at gambles, which is meant to show us that's he's more morally upright than his coworkers. There's an entire exchange where he says that he'll never stoop to using manipulation the way Opal does. But... he doesn't have any issue fulfilling Opal's exact agenda. He was never remotely morally conflicted about denying the Penaconians their freedom by dragging Penacony back under IPC control.
He's willing to risk his own life, which is one thing--but he's also willing to risk other people's well-being. Topaz accuses him of constantly egging their clients on into dangerous situations; we've actively seen him shove a gun into Ratio's hands and pull the trigger with no care for how Ratio would feel about that on their very first meeting... Dragging the Astral Express crew into the entire Penacony plan in the first place was exceedingly dangerous...
To me, I just think it's vital to understand his character through the lens of these contradictions because they demonstrate the extreme polarity of Aventurine's life: from rags to riches, from powerless to empowered by multiple aeons, from willing to kill to survive to killing himself... He has quite literally lived a life of "all or nothing," and while he is the victim of many terrible situations out of his control, his arc as a character involves facing the truth of himself and the future his own actions are hurtling him toward.
Frankly, the Aventurine that canon is suggesting is a little annoying. You want to grab him by the shoulders, shake him, and say "Why are you like this?!" And he won't even have an answer for you, because he doesn't even know why he's still alive.
In the end, to me, this is so, so much more interesting. I can read an endless supply of hurt-comfort fics where Aventurine escapes the evil IPC and Ratio is there to fill the void in his life with the power of love and catcakes and be a perfectly happy clam online, but I want canon to continue to serve us this incredible mess of a man who constantly takes one step forward and two steps back.
Who is fully aware of his role as a cog in the grotesque profit-wheel of cosmic capitalism and still manages to say he never changed from the rags-wearing desert rat of the Sigonian wastes.
Who over and over again flirts with nihility but, ultimately, even if he has to wrest it from the grip of the gods themselves with bloody, chain-bound hands, chooses life.
#honkai star rail#aventurine#aventurine meta#hsr meta#character analysis#listen I see you angsty fic writers who bully our favorite for maximum emotional gain#I am a ratiorine fan with the best of them#so I fully understand the appeal of the “I can fix him” fic#but like#there is so much else just waiting in the text of the game#that makes Aventurine such a rich complex and nuanced character#admitting that the IPC is the least of his issues makes him MORE interesting#not less#I promise#also like#getting so tired of reductive reads of my posts#just because I don't think Aventurine is a slave of the IPC#doesn't mean I think the IPC are good people#I'm not sure how many times I can say#'They're evil and are actively exploiting him for profit'#before people will stop saying I'm an IPC apologist lollll#I promise it is possible for Aventurine to have agency AND for the IPC to still be evil#those two statements can co-exist
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And errr whatever this guy is
#I want to make a lot of things. but making a lot of things takes a lot of work and a lot of time#I love feeling pressured by time !!#I'm young. so I shouldn't feel that way. but time has literally passed by so fast I still feel like I'm 11#that's was years ago bro. I need to remmeber I'm growing up#idk school makes me really tired#I just get so exhausted. even just at the thought of it#school takes away half my days. makes me feel like I have less time#that's why I end up staying awake at night. but I'm tired I don't wanna do that :(#well erm my bday was pretty nice though so yeah it's probably fine#killer sans#horror sans#sans au#utmv#undertale au#i wanna be cool I think to myself#ms paint
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Every variation of Tim gets a cat brings me so much joy
#I'v been feeling a bit rough lately which gave me massive art block#But I just had this flash all of a sudden n what do you know I blazed this in about 20 minutes#Just a doodle but it helped me destress n relax so much#Not my best work for sure#But that doesn't matter because I feel substantially better#There's something off with the anatomy in the face and I'm pretty sure it's the nose but I'm too tired to figure out why#Sides I'm trying to be less anxious with my work and not he such a perfectionist. So we ball#Man sorry for the whole essay in the tags 😭#Just a fun little doodle :3#Tim Drake#My art#I need to draw animals more often I love doing it
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take two
#wasn't happy with last night's version#i was tired and cranky and lazy#so i'm doing them justice because it's what they deserve!!!!#also made zack's dress considerably less shy. not that it was to begin with ;)#ffvii#zack fair#kunsel#my art <3
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"Genesis...that's rude!" - Angeal Hewley
In which a salty teen Genesis gets a little bit cheeky over losing a spar with Sephiroth again.
Angeal still thinks it's a hilarious addition to his growing photobook, though. :P
#genesis rhapsodos#sephiroth#angeal hewley#final fantasy 7#crisis core#ff7#ffvii#young sephiroth#not quite miniroth though#they're like 18-19 years old here :P#also Seph is coat-less because I did not want to draw it#and the fire is a creative commons photo because my brain was tired#also I drew this before the FS part 2 teaser happened#so I went with purple for Gen as a second class SOLDIER#ugh I cannot WAIT for bby trio shenanigans#please square show me my baby boy already#I'm making the baby Angeal crumbs last as long as I can#also Seph is nip-less because I didn't want to offend Tumblr
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I'd love to have something witty to say here, but I think this one post speaks for himself in a way no words could.
Originally, I wanted to do a "simple" redraw of a silly meme, I have no idea HOW it eneded up being a four pages comic. And WHY there's also a JOJO reference within of all things. So uhm, anyway...
✨ Sources and references ✨
The "Dilf Detected Comic" [original unedited comic, meme format, meme format if you want the rebloggable tumblr version]
The "Oh? You're Approaching Me?" panel from the manga JoJo's Bizarre Adventure: Stardust Crusaders (chapter 143)
Hope you've liked the Aries™ Rizz©® ok bye
#wren draws stuff#artist on tumblr#art#fanart#comics#saint seiya#saint seiya fanart#knights of the zodiac#los caballeros del zodiaco#cdz#les chevaliers du zodiaque#i cavalieri dello zodiaco#aries mu#taurus aldebaran#appendix kiki#aldemu#aries kiki#taurus harbinger#appendix raki#visually I had this drawing sitting on my desktop since August in a folder named “Aries_RIZZ_2024”#what else to say. First 2 images kinda ate with colors and backgrounds fr. WE'RE GOING PINK BOIZ (I thought I was a pastel blue person 😞😖)#tbh this is the first time I'm drawing Harbinger 💖 he's so silly I love him. Also he's like... meme material... I have to meme redraw him#also the jojo part eh. I think I could have done better but I didn't want to change the iconic pose too much and I end up like that#not bad but I think I could've add my own twist to it instead of simply copying it :/ next time I guess#or maybe spending less time adding 300 flames overlay effects hmm... I don't know really😬🤯#also raki my beloved 🥰💖 might draw her a bit more (she's funny to draw and I'm tired of drawing only men)#Also yes Mu is trying super hard to rizz poor Alde 😳 Kiki tried the same with Harbinger#but he slept for most of the original Aries Rizz Class. Kids these days don't have attention span anymore 🙄🙄🙄 (boomer humour or whatever)
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Quick thing
#submas#submas art#emmet#subway boss emmet#ughhh I'm so tired I can't#really all I have is sketches of my own characters right now#school got me stressing way too much ugghhh#I'm on like less than 4 hours of sleep every day#also this is messy because I wasn't really planning on posting it#sorryyyyyy
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Puts the “plates” in “Fellplates” (Patreon)
#Doodles#Handplates#UT#Fellplates#Gaster#Papyrus#Hurt Gaster! Do it! Maybe classic will get a shiver down the infiniteness of the multiverse!#I wonder if he'd actually do it to himself or if he'd get it put on him by someone else for the full dramatic twist haha#Who even would? Asgore from sheer force? Alphys?? Idk lol#It's just the irony for me for now ♪#Although to completely cover them there'd have to be four rather than two :0 Hmm#Alphys' gift of fingerless gloves was a lot less invasive hm ♪ But that's part of the fun#I don't mean to keep doing crossovers - quite anyway lol - but hmm could that be 2-P from Fellplates with so much empathy in his eyes?#I guess it's the question of if Monsters Are or if they are Made ♪ Personally I'm partial to the latter but I do still fall into the former#Well either way - the important part is a Papyrus that doesn't like what he sees! He knows how much those hurt first (or 2nd? pfft) hand#And then just some errant thoughts about the Lost Soul head style and Gaster's void scars - give 'em to this version why not#Does any Gaster remain unscathed? Would he even be Gaster in that case? :)#A smile behind the white glow and tired eyes ringed by dark scars ♪ Fellplates is fun because he always looks good when he's suffering#The void smoke is still quite fun to draw hehe
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Snoopy #31
1/11/2024
#peanuts#snoopy#art#31#I'M TIRED OF IT!!!!#actually i didn't even work monday this week so i've had a 4 day work week#but this sentiment applies all the time not just how i feel now. no moreeeeee i've had enough! i would like my job more if i did it less!
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Heian Era! Sukuna, back when he was a human Curse-Sorcerer ; If Gege won't give him to us, I will =_=
#ryomen Sukuna#Sukuna#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fan art#my art#fan art#human sukuna#heian era#curse sorcerer#jujutsu sorcerer#We got that ''love'' comment by the narrator again#i don't get why Gege is so stingy with regards to Sukuna's lore#like For God's sake please develop him and his backstory already i'm so tired of waiting; Give us his Cursed technique while your at it too#gonna do a bit of PR for my goat Sukuna though <3 you'll always be my number 1#I think it's possible he may have had blue eyes when he was human or perhaps his OG form still has them#i think it fits in the color palette rather nicely too :p#wanted to add less beef on him too but i guess that didn't work out :T#curse user#jjk sukuna
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that one very important meme...
#pokespe#pokemon#pokespe blue#pokespe yellow#my art#I've never remembered a ship name in my life I'm so sorry#I have to get up for my first day back at work in like 5 hours and I'm anxious so this was more important...#I don't feel less anxious just more tired 👍👍👍#silver week rly got my brain kicking about pokespe but Im still too stuck in zeldaland dfhudsj
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jed and octavius: *wrapping up augustus in bubble wrap* "there! now you can scoot around all you like without fear of breaking"
#wow so realistic. this bubble wrap is basically just like the real thing it's like looking at a photo or something wow (I'm being sarcastic)#night at the museum#natm#augustus caesar#Augustus natm#natm jedediah#natm octavius#octavius#jedediah#jedediah and octavius#jedtavius#parents or bust au#ask#anonymous#art#fanart#traditional art#i'm so tired#like. I feel tired all the time. I don't feel rested when I sleep. I hate it here#drawing this ask over some others because it required less effort#+ I made an irreversible mistake and I'm debating with myself if I should post it as is or if I should redraw the whole thing
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