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me when i make a drawing based off of a scene from a fic i wrote
(and YES i know that i had written silver as having the leading role but i drew sebek with the leading role, i forgor and by the time i realized, i realllllly didnt wanna fix it.... sorry not sorry :P )
#and NO i didnt draw the background. i took the one from the game and blurred it. in my defense ive been working on this bitch for like 3-#-weeks and i just wanted to FINISH IT#so im sorry but i had to. for my sanity.#twst#twisted wonderland#silbek#silsebe#sebesil#i still dont know their ship name#glorious masquerade#athena's art#they have MATCHING OUTFITS!!!!#sebek's soft smile means everything to me#twst silver#sebek zigvolt
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headcanon: donnie is very finicky about his appearance actually
he pays attention to his clothes. how they fall on him. how the patterns match. if they catch his eye pleasingly or if they clash and he needs to change them. he cares a lot about fashion, but not in a Pays Attention To What's Popular way; he cares in a I Have My Style And I Will Adhere To It Under The Penalty Of Death way. i think about the way he makes a logo for his tech when he's a kid. it's trademarked he says of his brand. he cares about how things look. how his name is attached to things. appearances matter.
(it's common in the animal kingdom too, he consoles himself, looking into the mirror and tugging at his new shirt before going to see you. birds. fish. it's just biology. so he's interested. it's fine. natural. not extra at all. he just wants to look good. put on a good show. convince your eyes to land on him.)
this translates over when he starts courting you hard. plucking at your outfits and complimenting your choices. giving you suggestions when he comes into your room and his eyes finally slide off where you're lounging and into your closet. he asks if he can take a look inside. opens it up, thumbs through, muttering to himself. he'll pull together things you never thought to put together, and huh. that looks. really really good actually. thanks, donnie. giving him a sparkling smile that makes him look away because it's too bright to look into directly.
it starts then. before you're dating, when you're just... something. a question mark. a potential. you see him while you're walking down the street. he's looking into the glass storefronts, but the items inside don't seem to make any cogent sense or slide into one particular category. shoes. technology. dresses. flower arrangements. the items all over the place, not anything you can use to try and guess what he may want to his birthday coming up, which is annoying since you kinda want to spoil him a little.
(it's not until years later, seeing it again, curled beneath a possessive arm at a crosswalk, that you ask what that's all about. only then that he tells you he is admiring how the two of you look next to each other: fashionable, complimentary, coordinated;
fitting together just. right.)
#i reblogged the cute art and had Thoughts about how i disagreed with the headcanon but i didn't want to put them into the tags for op to see#also i am DYING to write things and im SO BUSY and even though i had time this weekend i was SICK and COULDNT#[actively clawing at the drywall of my house for the need to get words out]#anyway. have this. im so sorry everyone. i'll be writing soon i swear it. for my own sanity if nothing else. :')#donatello/reader#fragment tag
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#i have to fly out to capetown to see mother and im literally debating if i could land in the morning and leave at night on the same day#like. anything longer than that is going to ruin my year.#when she called and did her “katherine. you have to be here on the 10th” i literally sobbed in my bed for the rest of the day 😍😍😍#not dyeing my hair black for a year and its getting lighter and lighter everyday and i look like her again#and my therapist telling me “you need to do things for yourself.” but like can i? sorry that woman traumatised me and i actually cant :)#like everything i do is informed by her#I'm going to go and just like everytime the only way to keep my sanity is to mirror her. talk and sit and speak and read and eat like her#and its such a terrifying experience bc i remember that im capable of emulating her viciousness and maybe i am my mother's daugher 🤢🤢🤢#and im going to come back and its going to take fucking months for me to feel like myself again#“oh you look so beautiful just like your mother” i hope you DIE lol !!! the fact that my conception of beauty was shaped by her#growing up with this cruel beautiful detached woman and realising that at the intersection of beauty and wickness is a lifetime of pain#and still being so desperate for her approval- for any metaphysical proximity to her that i felt elated when#people would tell me i look like her. that it meant i was also beautiful like her and maybe she'll love me a little for it#but now i know for a fact that i do look like her and it makes saliva swell under my tongue - that moment right before you throw up-#when people mention it 😍#last time i was in capetown my optic neuritis flared up (and i know for a fact it was that it was ms-stress related from having to see her)#and i thought i hid it so well even though i had near constant headaches & lethargy until she said “katherine give me the red notebook”#and i knew that she knew all along. it was so acutely humiliating standing there and knowing she knows i cant see which one is the red one#and she tilted her head and said “whats the matter? do you not know what red looks like?”#im never going to have kids. my mother and i read eachother so well it can only mean im never too far removed from becoming her#lol!!!!!!!!!
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#chimon wachirawit#gifs#chimonac#chimon.gif#I CANT WITH THE 10MB GIF LIMIT#I HAD TO SHORTEN THIS TO KEEP IT BIG BC I DID NOT WANT TO RUIN THE QUALITY#AND NOW IT'S SO SHORT UGH#ANYWAYS THIS CHIMON IS MAKING ME INSANE#I HAVENT BEEN NORMAL SINCE I FIRST SAW IT A COUPLE HOURS BACK#IM SORRY FOR WHO I AM WHEN IT COMES TO HIM#BUT ALSO NOT SORRY#YOU CANNOT BLAME WHEN HE'S OUT THERE LOOKING LIKE THAT#CHIMON SHOULD STOP HITTING THE GYM FOR MY SANITY THANK YOU#YEAH I FUCKED UP THE SHARPENING BUT WE IGNORE THAT OK <3#naomivents
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you single handedly both made me love midori and yuzuru more and also ship them i love your art sm <33
TYSM!! :> if mdyz has 1000 fans etc etc ive truly never recovered.
they both on their own too are rly neat characters that are very dear to me go listen to mahiru no zanzou and green to the sky btw. or again if you already have. did u know how much midori loves and adores ryuseitai. he means everything to mee her growth is soooo good i think abt climax so much hearing the voiced clips still kind of break me. and yuzuru where do i start. all i can say is that im doing this to him
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#asks#anonymous#sorry to ramble but also i love yuzuru and toris relationship..... i dont like to call characters family coded but its very much in#text that he sees tori as such and it means everything to meeee theyre so important to each other#go read magnolia and also graduation#i quite genuinely cannot listen to zutto soba de for my own sanity. ive listened to it like twice and each time i had to lie down on the#floor for a while after. its great im never getting near that again i dont need him higher up in my list of favs#AND IT IS KIND OF FUNNY i love these two a lot but theyre not. actually fav favs. valk naru and souma still holds that spot tbh#yuzuru is a secret third thing though i dont know what it is about him that compels me
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I used to say i dont give a shit so often people would ask me a question and then answer it themselves
#like at work#people would constantly ask dumbshit like should i make 2 burgers or 3#like it doesnt matter? i cant predict the future? youve worked here 3 times as long as me? far quicker to say#anyways. i need to bring back this mentality more. i be giving shits i cant afford to spare.#mine#so yeah. i couldnt sleep.. not even for femslash. im sorry women.#this was at a job where multiple people were like myahs so sweet she never curses. i wish that were true uf im not directly in front of#a customer i have no filter#i worked separately but around people in my last job so i would just kind of .. forget (for my own sanitys sake) that there is almost always#someone within ten feet of me even if alone in a room. but that box isnt going to tell itsself to fuck off..#not too bad i had a coworker who would yell at the ovens EVERY time they went off which is often- constantly or near constantly
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Day 4: Pride i wrote it on his shirt instead of the black text in the bg like I've done for the past days, since the space is surprisingly occupied Okay so i kinda went crazy with this one... If you wanna read my decisions and thoughts behind this thing feel free to read below the cut !
Anyways, Pride. Bon. Where the hell do i start. I see Bon as a very proud person, at least proud of his craft, at what he excels at, which is playing guitar. SO. Why is he so many colors and shit? Hes the colors of the people closest to him. Friends. Malva/Usagi is the blue, Mangle/Meg is the pink, Toddy's the red, Joys yellow, and Bonnie's purple. All the different colors and expressions represent what they sorta do to Bon? How they affect and influence him n shit... All with his pride at the center of it. Malva/Usagi. Shes his sister, his twin. They are directly compared what feels like constantly to Bon. He's specifically in his school uniform because school is where they show their true personalities most. Where they differ the most. Malva is organized, in control, plans thing out, is a natural leader, book smart. She's always 'on top of it' and mature. All things he feels he lacks/inst enough of. A point of shame and envy within him, at least in comparison to her. Same situation and she can somehow 'handle it all better'. Whether that's all true is a different matter lol. perception and reality am i right? Anyways onto Joy. Yellow. All the toys boost each-others egos and shit, but where Bon and Mangle are comfortable being brutally honest and blunt, but giving genuine compliments is sorta few and sparse, laced in their silly stupid sarcasm and fake hatred of each-other. Joy just says what she wants straight up. If the others are going off, she'll say it, if they're blowing it, she's gonna say it straight up. Shes always energized, and imbues the other two with that same energy. For Bon, Joy is someone who pushes that cocky side of him further out. Full of himself, thinking he's hot shit. (I mean thinking that isn't completely undeserved, hes impressive for his age n shit, but kid has an ego is hat I'm saying lol) She brings out his fiercer energy. She gasses him up, inflates his ego, and his pride gets the better of him and can turn kinda shitty and egotistical and mean ect ect Mangle/ Meg, lol. haha stupid stupid stupid decisions. They are both. very proud of their craft and Mangle is someone who has peen put through and continues dealing with a lot of pain. He pushes through it though. She pushes through her pain, through their days, through everything that's handed to him because she's determined to get through shit and not let things like constant aches and loss of balance hinder him. They'll do what they want and it doesn't matter what hurts. Bon. Was already a dumb-ass with that sorta mentality, but alongside mangle they both push each-others pride to being a detriment to their own health and safety. lol
Toddy. Toddy, Toddy, Toddy. Longtime family friend, has known that blue rabbit family since. ever. okay? Okay. She knows. She just knows what the fuck is up with their house and situation, she's seen Bon at his worst and helped him. Moments he'd rather not be aided, moments he'd rather not be seen. Moments of shame. Along with that shame of being seen, comes the discomfort and shame of being known. They know each other, they do, yet they feel like strangers at the same time. They can hang out and have fun, but they don't click in the same way Bon clicks with the Toys. There's a seed of shame in Bon that he cant be the good friend Toddy wants and needs. The friend she feels she had. The friend she feels she lost somewhere. Bonnie. Bonnie. End of sentence I cant do this anymore I cant fucking tackle that one i cant do it you cant make me- Okay what if you someone really pissed you off. Like super pissed you the fuck off. You have this one thing you're really good at, you have this one thing you you are GREAT at, you consider yourself unmatched. Then you get matched. Then you aren't an untouchable god at your craft. You're tumble down from your pedestal, you ego is more bruised than you can admit. Then he bugs you cause he think you're cool and can teach him shit. Even though you feel like you totally lost just by being matched, and part of you hates it cause he's a walking reminder that you aren't untouchable. but part of you likes it because someones fucking gawking at you and looking at you with admiration, directly. SO you fucking cave and do it and whoops oh shit you kinda vibe with this guy. Shit he likes Zelda. shit hes letting you use is switch cause you mentioned never having played any of the Zelda games even tho you've both been passionately ranting about the games for a while now. You became friends with the guy who irritates you good job doofus. Goodluck with the weird mix of friendship and resentment idiot. And the underlying romantic bullshit cause fuck you , fuck you royally. And scene. Killing Bon fnaf highschool my curse to carry. lololololol
Pride, Shame, People.
#fnafhs#fhs#fhs week#bon fnafhs#fnafhs bon#fhs bon#i got phytically sick making this but its bc i have 0 time mamagement skills#absulyl none#my eyes still burn#at least this looks cool#genuinly proud of this one#i mean theres some mote things i ould add and change around if i had the energu and brain space and smarts n shit but im. im satisfied lol#bon fnafhs.....iiiiiiiuhghgh my son and my curse and eveything and nothing.#i wanna punt him.#i need to kill him#fnahfs#he lives in my head rent free and im gonna blend him into a blueberry smoothie for it#i could talk abt him forever and yet andyet#auauagh#g o d#this one kicked my ass....#so did owynns fucking braid why did i do that to myself#why did i draw a braid at a back angle curved upwards why did i do that#9 fullbodies#2 cartoony fullbodies with onnie#two technical full bodies in this one bc i did VAUEGLY sketcht them out but. im saying they dont count for my sanity#if anyones reading all this shit im so sorry#if anyone read all that crap below the cut im also so sorry#loops post
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jon doesn't seem like the person to be touchy- and hes not. usually. he despises strangers touching him. hates super touchy acquaintances. but. when he finds his special person he literally becomes a koala bear. demands to be cuddled and wants to be touched so !! bad!! he isnt a big fan of pda but behind closed doors he will be attached at the hip.
**JO.N.MARTIN SHIPPERS DNI**
#sorry i just do not want this breaking containment and having to see jm stuff in my tags#so i had to add that last bit#jon#tma#croaks#this is an autism experience btw#jon desperate to be manhandled but only by some unicorn person he needs and doesnt have cause making connections is hard#*want to make it clear im not actually saying dni if u ship jm just do notttt pust jm stuff in the tags#please save my sanity
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i love the swiftie fandom cause like every week we’re just dicking around and then friday night comes and suddenly we’re all sat to see that woman’s ass
#i thought of the end rhyme and had to make the post#im so so sorry#kelly babels#kelly makes terrible jokes#jokes that make my fma mutuals question my sanity
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My friends disregard for my work situations and then her complaining about her own when it's literally not even that serious for her is really starting to piss me off
#im gonna snap one of these days lmao#like im stupidly planning tbis whole trip for sept bc i gave up and have been spending all my money#and idek if ill have a job at that point and ive been making a lot of big purchases lately like an absolute idiot#and now that my sanity is back im so stressed out i cant even be excited#and she like. last time i brought it up she was like 'youll be fine' in a kind of annoyed tone and im like?#and then today she was coming to me all stressed out because she perceived her manager to be displeased w her#leave request. which she wasnt my friend just had anxiety#but like it was such a stupid thing and sbe turned it into a thing#but im sorry i have legitimate concerns about my future finances and employment and that's supposed to be nothing?#throwback to last year when i got laid off and was having the worst time ever meanwhile she kept complaining about her#comparatively better work situation#she's fine in every other way but on this subject if she does smtn similar again im like 🤏🏽 this close to saying#something really fucking mean and causing irreparable damage lmfao
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#im going nuts and bolts#why is sex so good holy fuck man lol#i was already latched onto new song on repeat earlier and now i have 2 new songs to throw in the pit with ich tu dir weh#gonna watch them fight (fuck) to the death in my brain#why tf did society latch onto du hast as their 'known' song (i knew them as the rammlied song before i learned what other ppl liked)#like im not hating on du hast at all but holy shit man i shouldve had them blasting and kept up with new songs#i guess i was too deep into metalcore to seek out more from them like every song i heard from them was either random listen or...#...from the radio or in the bg of other media so its not like i was getting the chance to listen and find what i like#im so sorry i forgot how much i love industrial spectrum music (metal and edm) like hoohhhh#i need to make 2025 the year of industrial for my sanity#truly going nuts and bolts#lmao i started saying that for the new industrial song in nikke but its sticking to me like a magnet. new fave phrase#ughhhh its almost 3am i havent showered yet and i gotta be up at like 730 fml its so fucking cold in my room#maybe the new strings did hurt my fingers and i havent felt it yet bc my hands are too cold lol#ill find out in the shower i guess when i defrost but ill be cold again when i have to sleep on wet hair#wish me luck getting to sleep with the sounds of SEX blasting lmao#if only ausländer were easier to play i couldve been in bed by now#gonna have to do a... im forgetting a word... the word when something goes wrong and ppl open thinsg up to see whats wrong#like autopsy but not for bodies. for like programs/systems/idk. im gonna have to do that with that song later so i can learn the strumming#its not intuitive for me for some reason even tho i wasnt having problems with other weird meterage (idr another word)#im fucking tired man 0253am aight lemme take meds and shower before i stay up another hour typing#delete later / /#ShitPost.exe
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#fave#music#mood#the utter emptiness of this song is how it felt. just barely grasping at sanity so barely grasping at words to say#feeling like a ghost after being disposed......#i just feel like everything was wiped. like i was trapped in an endless white room. there was nothing.#a few months earlier my life was love and color and full of interesting things. atp my mind only had the capacity for blankness.#they were slowly trying to essentially colonize my world and my ocs. taking piece by piece one by one. trying to claim it all as their own.#so when i sought refuge inside- they wanted to make sure all i saw was them. so i had to push it all away. and i had no one.#i didnt feel like i could interact with my ocs anymore. not the same way.#ive gotten better since then and can interact with them and my world is slowly coming back to me but man...#it was like when coraline walks off the edge of the other world and everything is white... i felt trapped in there.......#if im addicted to weed its their fault. it was the only way i could cope with the emptiness they left me with.#ripping my heart out- not in a cute 'oh haha u have my heart' kind of thing. no. filling it up and then ripping it out. taking it all back.#and then shitting on me. leaving me with less than i started with them...#and its not even just that its that alone either- building me up then bringing me all the way down then shitting on me but also they were#gaining my trust while building me up so when they brought me down it would hurt more because I would actually care about and trust their#opinion of me. im sorry but its really hard not to see them as just an evil person.#its also hard not to believe it was narcissistic abuse bc this is like... step by step what happens... and this isnt just regular emotional#abuse. regular emotional abuse is already shaming you. this is some weird fucked up anti social strategic shit.#i just wanted to finally escape. i thought they were going to be my way out.#i really thought they loved me enough to help me...#vent
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#hey siri how do i tell my boyfriend i am feeling the way i am#even after i told him i was feeling this way but i didn’t want to go in depth until i knew i had his full attention#and it’s been almost a month and he hasn’t brought it up again or made time for me#and i’m just so frustrated but i also know that he is autistic and does not understand unless i tell him#but telling him the first time was such a fucking hurdle for me because of my own confrontation issues#and i’m reaching my limit on how much bullshit i’m willing to tolerate#and basically everyone in my life is telling me to break up with him#but idk if i want to cause i do like him i just wish he would fix the issue and make me feel important#but i also think one of the reasons holding me back from just ending it is my fear of being alone#cause it took 5 years of trying to actually find someone that i liked that back#and i just want to be loved by someone whole heartedly#but it’s so fucking hard to find someone that idk how long it would take for it to happen again#but i also don’t want to settle because im worth more than this#but i’m so scared of being alone again but i basically am anyway because he’s barely around#it’s been nearly 5 months that we started dating and he said he loved the drive and was gonna do it often#but we haven’t seen each other since he left and he never wants to talk about it or plan something#i know what i have to do for my own sanity but FUCK is it hard#sorry for the rant to my followers and moots who see this#i just wanted to scream into a void
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I remembered that I was called a piece of shit and gatekeeper for raising this question. MIND THAT-
Gale is down to having AN ORGY WITH THE HELP OF HIS PROJECTIONS dr. Manhattan style, astral or no, yet some people choose to go against his wishes and add someone else's dick to taunt a poor monogamous man.
It's not about denying you the horny or self discovery in fan fiction. Nobody's denying you that.
It's about the right of saying NO.
And the fact that fans of one character defend his right to say no to the death while supposed fans of the other are essentially making fun of other character's sexual autonomy just because he wasn't SAed and just abused is the levels of fuck up I can't comprehend.
You can choose wherever you treat someone with respect or no, fictional characters included. Don't feed me bullshit about that you can do anything you want with fictional character while you are defending Astarion and not doing that for Gale.
He deserved better from the fandom.
The duality of BG3 fandom for me comes to this:
There's a group of people who are - despite this being an option in game that bears (no pun intended) no consequences - convinced that based on voice acting and previous trauma Astarion is absolutely not into having a polyamorous relationship and at the same time there are people who completely ignore Gale's reaction of explicitly not being into poly and he's still being put into poly in fanart and fanfiction.
Some things are just beyond my understanding, I suppose.
#i had to block lots of tags to keep my sanity#and yet tumblr still shows them to me but#says hey you blocked this tag so here's a blanks post know it's here abd suffer#when you post poly with your tav gale and asty in the bloodweave tag it's not goddamn bloodweave#adding halsin to bloodweave is no longer bloodweave#bloodweave is astarion and gale TOGETHER TWO PEOPLE NOT THREE#im sorry but if you tag something what it is not for likes is you know what
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looked for stars and i found a supernova !!!
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which it takes a random song drop and a feature from a university student for their relationship to come to light.
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for when it became true, opposites do attract. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
social media au // charles leclerc x fem!sargeant!reader
warnings - language
author's note - i am SO sorry i have no explanation for not posting except for the fact that i am now unemployed (i finished hs and don't start college till like august) and i just do Nothing the entire day. i love u all thank u for sticking around <3
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i NEED a angst fic (with a happy ending ofc) based on tolerate it by taylor swift please 🙏 big chance it’s been done before though and im just the most unoriginal bitch ever
tolerate it ❀ s. reid x reader
in which spencer reid gets out of prison, and you baselessly feel like your relationship is growing increasingly one sided. pairing: spencer reid x reader genre: angst tags: post prison reid. neglectful bf spencer reid. happy (open) ending. communication yippee. themes of self doubt in reader. mentions of spencer not eating. word count: 2k a/n: writers block isn't real you just need to watch criminal minds season 12 episode 13 'spencer' and then listen to tolerate it on repeat for three hours straight. iiii know human beings don't talk in long monologued speeches but for the sake of my sanity let us pretend i am shakespeare and spencer reid is my leontes. plzzzz tell me if u liked this or if u didn't yay thank u ily
i sit and watch you. i notice everything you do, or don't do. (lines 3–4)
A fork scrapes against ceramic. It emits a scratching sound that hurts your ears, and you're cringing from your curled up position on the couch as you hear it. Silverware shines beneath the bright, warm glow of his kitchen light, his food barely dented as he pushes it around his plate.
He's been playing with it since he sat down to eat it.
You're not too sure what's going through his head as he takes barely there bites of a meal you cooked. You don't think you want to know. But it takes him all of twenty three minutes to come to the same conclusion he made last night, and every other night before that. That he isn't going to eat any more of the food, and just like his fork, his chair scrapes against the floor as he stands.
He wraps the plate in aluminium foil, the crinkling of metal being your only indicator that he has plans to eat it later. At least, that's what you hope.
When he disappears into the bedroom, you follow him. Like a lovesick puppy, you're trailing after him, and your chest feels hollow with how embarrassing it all is.
He doesn't know you're watching him, though.
At least, not to the extent you are. He's field trained enough to know that you're keeping an eye on him, but your silence is only indicative of you giving him the space he so politely asked for three days ago. He's not in his right mind to assume you're silent for any other reason, and you've battled to a loss with the thoughts of letting him into your disaster of a brain.
He doesn't need to know that.
The ensuite door shuts behind him, and you hear the water turn on minutes later. You take the cue to curl up on your side of the bed, your fingers toying with the paper edges of a book you now had in your lap. The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe, for you were rediscovering your love for children's novels amongst this trying time between you and Spencer.
"Hey, did you buy me more shampoo?"
Your head lifts at the voice, the snowy Narnia world you had built in your brain shattering in an instant, as you're met with the dull colours of Spencer Reid's bedroom, and a showered and dressed Spencer Reid standing only a few feet away. His bedroom hadn't always been dull. Really, nothing had actually changed artistically within it to make it dull. But there's something about no longer laughing in a room once filled with so much love that mutes its vibrance.
"Yeah," you say, dog-earing the page you were on and slipping it onto the nightstand. "I saw you were running low."
His lips part as he exhales, and you hate that you can tell he's pushing away something snippy. It wasn't that he was actively trying to start fights with you, but his temper has grown short, and he has more anger in his heart than before.
"You didn't get the right one, that's all."
And though it isn't said rudely, your chest opens up like a black hole regardless, and a thick ball of emotion lodges in your throat.
"I'm sorry," you force past your lips, despising the hollow sound of your sad voice, and the fact that he notices it. His eyebrows frown towards each other at the sound of you, and he takes a step towards the bed.
It's pathetic, right? To be this upset over him letting you know the thing you bought him wasn't correct. In that almost fake sounding soft, kind voice he has when he is trying to keep his unnecessary frustration at bay.
But it wasn't like this was the first time you'd done something for him in recent, and been told you did it wrong, instead of simply being thanked. Acts of service he was finding problems within no matter what they were, each new critique chipping away at the scales of your self confidence. You don't even think he's meaning to do it.
Every time this happens, memories of the other times flash violently in your head, reminding you that he could not find the beauty of being cared for by you the way he had before this. This, this thing you were barely even able to string the letters of together, because it seemed so foreign and faraway to you. Spencer Reid in prison is not a sentence that makes sense in this — or any other — timeline. You don't think it ever will. And yet.
You'd cooked him meals every single day since he got out. Meals he'd barely ever touch, wrap in foil, then put in the fridge for his work lunch the next day. You don't know if he's even eating them at work, or if he's just taking them there to throw them out. You've been too scared to reach out to any of his team members to ask. Knowledge is power, but knowledge makes his negligence all too real.
There's a fear in calling it negligence. It isn't fair of you to expect the same man before and after prison, and you know he's dealing with more than you can fathom. You were prepared for distance.
Just not this much.
The submerged sound of your name tugs you from your thoughts, and suddenly Spencer is closer than he was before, and he's repeating your name over and over in calling. Once you rapidly blink and shake your head, he determines you've returned to Earth, and he's falling silent again. There's concern knitting his eyebrows together, and he's got his hands hovering in the air, as if he's reaching for you, but second guessing himself at the same time.
"Whats going on in your brain?" he asks you after a few beats of the two of you just staring at each other.
Like a dam breaking, his question triggers an onslaught of emotions, and every fear and insecurity you've had inside you spills out.
"I feel like you suddenly hate me," your eyes rapidly search the duvet in front of you for your words. "Or—or I annoy you with my presence? Or my care? I mean, I try to do things for you and you barely even spare them a second glance, or thought. You barely talk to me anymore outside of updating me on your schedule. We sleep with miles of distance between us," you gesture to the bed beside you. "I cook you meals you don't eat, I wash your clothes you don't fold. Both of which are things that I'm fine with, because I can't imagine how skewed your appetite is, and I—I know laundry is a trigger now. But there is not even a slight hint of you—you being thankful. You know, appreciative. I feel like I'm following you around like a servant, and I'm doing things with no gratitude in return. I'm doing things I shouldn't have to, because I'm your girlfriend. Not your maid. But they are things that I want to do, because I care for you, and I love you," you pause, a self deprecating smile appearing on your face. "And—and you haven't even told me you love me since the day we got you home. Do you even love me, still? No, don't answer that. I don't think I want to know. I mean, I do. I don't know. God, Spencer, can you say something?"
He doesn't. For a long while, he stares at you, and you train your eyes on the pattern on the bedding you're currently sitting under. His gaze is pulverising, and every second that passes is another limb turning to dust beneath it. His silence should be enough of an answer for you. Yet, you hold onto groundless hope still.
It feels like eternity has passed you by, by the time you hear his voice again.
"I don't mean to make you think I don't love you," he says. "I do love you. Which feels meaningless to confess to you now, knowing how you feel, and I wish my expansive knowledge of words could come up with a confession that does justice to how you feel, but also makes you feel better. I can only hope you take it at face value, and don't assume I'm saying it because it's what you want me to say."
He finds a seat on the bed in front of you, fingers fidgeting with each other as he fixates on the wooden flooring in front of him.
"I am grateful for everything you've done for me recently. I'm sorry I haven't expressed that. I'm having a hard time putting one foot in front of the other, let alone stringing together sensical thoughts. I wish I could tell you what my mind sounds like without feeling guilty about it. It isn't nice, and every thought I have is far from positive," he lifts his eyes to you, and you watch in real time as they soften, for the first time since he came home. "I will tell you that there's you. Among every awful thought and feeling I have, there is you. I think I... I think I've been coming across as ungrateful because you are a breath of relief after every bad thought and feeling. Am I making sense?" you nod your head, and he sighs in, namely, relief. "I take a step back from processing my emotions and figuring out how I'm going to talk about them with that bureau therapist when I think about you, because you are the one good thing I have to hold on to. So I just bask in the thought of you, or the sight of you, and focus on nothing else."
You aren't sure when you began to cry, and you only realise it when you have to sniffle before speaking. "You can focus on so many things at once, though."
"Not anymore," he admits, looking back down. "I don't know what's happened. I've gone from having a brain that works inhumanly — which is objectively an incorrect statement, but I digress — to one that cannot multitask on two separate things at once."
"Oh," you whisper. "I see."
"I'm so sorry I've made you feel as though your efforts go unnoticed, honey," he murmurs. "They don't. This has just been really difficult."
"I know," you say, wiping your tear stained face with the back of your hand.
There's a part of you that wants this to be the end of it. The end of self doubt, and distance, and instead the beginning of your relationship rebuilding itself alongside Spencer.
There's a larger, more logical part of you, that knows you cannot just sweep every self conscious doubt under the rug and move on.
"I just want some time," you tell him, and his shoulders tense as you speak. "Not to—not to break up. Or even for us to have a break. I don't want that. I've just felt very... unloved. Like you're merely tolerating my presence in your life. And now, I know you aren't. But I have to find my confidence in myself in this relationship again before I can move on."
"Okay," his voice is strained as he speaks, and you know he's not exactly content with your request for space.
You try not to focus on that, in order to stand firm in your decision.
That is where the conversation ends. And just like every other night, he climbs into bed and leaves a considerable amount of distance between your two bodies. You choose not to dwell on it, because this is now him giving you the space you so politely requested. You were catastrophising, and you'd be damned if you let such a thing control your life any longer.
It maybe wasn't all in your head, but you still had to take the self doubt shaped dagger from your stomach out.
now i'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life. (line 30)
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