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celestelunisea16 · 7 months ago

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Angst idea: for some reason they don't see eachother for an extended period of time with no contact whatsoever (say like a month of nothing from the other)

Ok, Angst Time? We got this!

Oh, and warnin' for all of you, this has angst. (Mentions of not eating, Depression, etc...)

I'm going to put a cut here in case cause womp-

So I feel like there would be a huge reason for why Lucifer and Starlo would deal with staying away from each other for a while for that amount of time.

If it was on Lucifer's side, I feel like it would be because something that can be very dangerous to Starlo's well-being is happening. Like for example, say Heaven's extermination hour turns into weeks or hours. Lucifer would probably cut contact for about a month because he doesn't want Starlo to worry about him. See, to Lucifer, it seemed like a good idea, but to Starlo?

He's panicking as if Lucifer got kidnapped or hurt. See the first week, he's moderately ok as hey, maybe they're preparing for Extermination again or maybe he's making upgrade for his daughter's hotel? Maybe...

The second week passes, and this man starts realizing something is up. He starts trying to get ahold of Lucifer with his telepathic communication that he has with him only to end up with nothing but silence. This makes him more worried about him. He tries to make up some excuse, any excuses just to calm himself down, but the fact Lucifer hasn't even responded to him makes him feel almost like he's done something wrong...

The full 30-31 days pass and Lucifer returns from the issue that made him unable to see Starlo, only to return with Ceroba shouting at him for abandoning her best friend for a month. Lucifer would probably try to explain to Ceroba about what kept him from talking to Starlo, which would make Ceroba calm down in understanding, but she would tell him to go talk to Starlo and explain what happened, as he thinks that Lucifer abandoned him or even thought he had gotten hurt.

Once Lucifer goes to look for Starlo in the Fiestyj Five's hideout, it turns out he's curled up on his bed. He just looks so distant and disheartened because he has been gone for so long, and Lucifer feels horrible for not telling Starlo sooner, but any time he tried, there was an angel trying to kill him.

"Starshine...? I'm back!"

"... Luci? Is that you...?"

As soon as Lucifer makes his presence known, I feel like Starlo would have a huge amount of joy when he sees Lucifer is back, but he would stay silent, thinking that he's probably got bad news in hand. He looks disheveled and hurt, and he's glowing dimly in the darkened room of the base. The other four seemed to have gone out of the base for a few days, so it was only Star in that room. It was clear that Starlo had started to barely eat because he couldn't find the strength to while he was gone... This was all clear sign he wasn't taking care of himself. What shocked Lucifer the most though was the question Starlo asked after he sat down on Star's bed with him...

"... Are you goin' to break up with me?"

"... What?!"

Lucifer immediately engulfs Starlo in a hug, his heart heavy with hurt and sadness. He's almost kicking himself at leaving him alone for so long without letting him know...

"Hon, no, I'd never break up with someone as beautiful as you are..."

"Th-Then why did you leave me for so long? I was so afraid a-and I... I jus'... I thought you h-hated me a-and-"

*Lucifer presses a gentle kiss to his cheek before going back to hugging him tightly...*

"My Starlight... I could never hate you, I... I love you too much to hate you at all. Just let me explain everything, ok?"

After he explains everything to Starlo, Starlo would basically come to understand why Lucifer had to leave him for a month. Though, he would still shed tears because the amount of stress and worry on this man was heavy on his back. Lucifer would promise not to leave him for a long time again without letting him know again, and if he did, he promised he would do everything in his power to make it up to him. But also since Starlo hadn't been caring for himself, I'm pretty sure this would happen.

"... My Radiance, did you eat anything?"

"... I ate a piece of Beef Jerky two days ago."

*He stands up and pulls him up with him*

"Starshine!"

"But I'm fine, Apple Pie, trust me-"

"No, we're getting you some food whether you like it or not because you didn't eat for two whole days straight, and you can't live off of a tiny piece of meat product!"

Expect Starlo to get treated like a prince/princess after this whole ordeal!

Now, it's time for the swapped role.

Starlo wouldn't really have much of a reason to have to stay away from Lucifer. Like, yeah, sometimes, they have little disagreements or something they have to get away from each other for, but he wouldn't have much of a reason...

Unless...

So, taking lifespan into account, Lucifer has lived for years. Starlo has lived for around maybe 30 years, I'm assuming?

I'm thinking something would happen in the Wild East. One day, while people were asking him questions about how life was with a king, there was this one monster who was an absolute fan of the Sheriff. We will call this monster, Grapefruit.

Grapefruit was a big fan of Starlo, and now that he's dating the King of Hell, would probably try to do something to cause their relationship to fall apart out of jealousy.

(Author note: GIRL, HE DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU, GRAPEFRUIT, PUT UP THEM HANDS, WE FIGHTIN'!)

So one day, while everyone was asking him questions, Grapefruit would be the one to ask one specific question.

"Hey, Sheriff! How do you feel about knowing that you're going to die while your boyfriend is immortal and stuck to live with it when you do?!"

"I..."

That would cause Starlo to actually breakdown, I think. He wouldn't break down in front of everyone, but he would excuse himself and speed walk out of the Saloon to cry in private.

After that, he would make a decision to avoid Lucifer for as long as he can. Even keeping himself from getting to Lucifer telepathically by just keeping his name out of his head.

Lucifer for the first week is concerned, but he's assuming that maybe Starlo is having some fun doing missions or maybe needs some time alone...? He's trying to keep himself calm, but something in the back of his head is telling him otherwise.

The second week, he starts getting really concerned... He tries getting ahold of Starlo telepathically, but only he doesn't relent until he realizes Starlo hung up intentionally. To which he's getting horribly afraid that he's either been kidnapped or worse. He even tries to go to the Wild East himself, but when he asks around, everyone stays silent... When he returns to the castle, I'm pretty sure he's crying into a pillow or he's making more rubber ducks to keep himself from thinking on it too much.

When the whole month goes by, he almost gives up on trying to see Starlo or finding him...

At least until Starlo telepathically communicates with him for the first time in a month. As soon as Lucifer hears his broken and ragged cries for him echoing in his thoughts, he immediately opens up a portal to him and asks him what's wrong.

When he gets there, Starlo is having a really bad breakdown, clutching his knees like a lifeline almost to the point he's making wounds in his own legs, magic entity (Monsterkind's basic "blood") dripping from the scratches in them as he's muttering and sobbing like he's been deathly injured and attacked.

Lucifer immediately goes to him and gently puts his hands on his shoulders. He has so many questions, concerns, fears, and worries on his mind, but he's pushing them back to comfort Starlo as much as he can.

"My Starlight, please, calm down, it's me! It's me..."

"Luci...? Luci!!!"

Once Starlo realizes it, he's hugging Lucifer tightly, crying into him as he just sobs uncontrollably...

"Lucifer, I-I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have ignored you! I-I should have never ignored you! I'm sorry!!!"

*Lucifer hugs Starlo tightly*

"My love, it's ok-!"

"No, i-it's not ok! I-I ignored you 'c-cause I listened to that other monster in the Saloon, a-and when they asked the question, I-I didn't know how to respond, and- a-and-!"

"Starlo, it's ok... What did they ask you?"

*Starlo tries to wipe his eyes as he takes a deep breath...*

"Th-They asked me what I thought about the fact that you'd outlive me and how I felt about knowin' that I'd be abandonin' you when I die..."

Immediately when Lucifer hears that, he almost goes into his full demon form, but since he doesn't want to scare Starlo and make his breakdown worse, he silently goes into it before wrapping his wings around Starlo and gently speaking to him.

"Who did it?"

"I-I dunno, they were in a crowd a-and..."

*Lucifer sighs as he just continues holding Starlo, petting his top Ray gently as he presses a kiss to his head.*

"Well, since you don't know them, then don't ever listen to them."

"B-But, Lucifer-!"

"Listen to me, Starlo, that person only wants to bring you down. They're just trying to make you feel broken and want you to feel sad."

"But Luci, they're right, I'm able to die, a-and you're not, unless by some heavenly weapon... Wh-What if I were about to jus' die tomorrow and-!"

"I would spend every second with you. I would stay with you until the Heavens crash aground... I don't care how long you live for, I still love you. You're my one and only Celestial Guidance, and God knows I would never give any of our time spent together away for anything..."

Starlo would cry because of this. Lucifer basically admitted that no matter what, he'd love him, even if he were to die tomorrow or anytime soon.

I'm telling you, after that whole situation? Lucifer and Starlo are even tighter as a couple from that whole fiasco. The amount of cuddles they'd give each other after both situations is a HUGE number.

(I can see the angst now... Give me a moment- *goes to silently cry in the corner*)