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colorful-horses · 21 days ago

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Guys, I'll be honest, I may need to go on hiatus

#im Pretty Sad #i want to make more stuff so i can have things to show you. but its been so hard to make anything #how do you get over the feeling that everything you make is inherently lesser just because you made it #yeah its an imposter syndrome situation. lets goooooooo #its so scary to hate everything you make and then have to post it an account where people ....... will SEE IT???????#life is a neverending nightmare #anyways sorry to throw one of my patented pity parties in the tags #the tldr is that im pretty sad and i need a little bit to not be sad anymore #so ill be back. i just need some me time #some time away from feeling like twelve billion eyes are gonna look at my art and see everything wrong with it that i see #im gonna go drink a pure leaf sweet tea now #not art #thank you for supporting and following. i appreciate all of you more than you could even know

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xxplastic-cubexx · 3 months ago

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charlies turn for the reference sheet beam

#xmen #xmen comics #xmen tas #charles xavier #professor x #snap sketches #i feel weird posting a charles ref cause ive done so many 'ref sheets' for headshots.. i need to stop making doodle pages for him apparentl #this started out because i wanted to practice charles' body type and then i figured id just. ref sheet vjaelkjvae #if i were bold id just post him in just briefs and paper doll it if you catch my cold. he got a lot of outfits i like...#i wanted to make refs for the og5 actually so maybe i will just do these ref sheets throughout the week before bed #the funny thing about this ref sheet is this is prob the only time ever actually going to draw charles' whole back... lmao...#i mean never say never so Very Rarely will i draw his whole back. and standing ajerlkvjalkj #idk ref sheets are just fun and easy and relaxing for me to do .... and brother i wanna relax gjERLKJAEL #i have my mandatory sketches lined up to finish this week so i earned a lil doodlin i think !!!!!!#i usually dont work on weekends but.. its a lot so jvLRKVJARLKJV BUT ANYWAY #observe. god its so illegal having him stand i promise ill never do it again unless i like have to for some rare reason vjEALVJAE #i had a savage lands arc idea but who knows if ill go through with it #i debated adding that lil ring from that scrapped tas design but i dont think ima make that a consistent thing #prob use it for like. one or two jokes or whatever other temporary purposes...#was i going to say anything else. OH YEAH i wanted to see what charles looked like wtih brown eyes...#i was stalking my tags and i was reminded he had brown eyes sometimes and as your resident brown eyed bestie i wanted To See..#i fear i do like giving him contacts...... but his blue eyes arent bad either so now im in a predicament !!!!!#we'll see what happens ill probably stick with blue just for popularity sake but who knows #anyway !!! i am very weary and i am very busy this week so good night !!!!!!

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accidentallyadoptedbybatman · 5 months ago

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"The new Supermans too bright its too colourful"

shut up SHUT UP SHUT UP HES THE SYMBOL OF HOPE AND THE SYMBOL OF HOPE ISN'T GOING TO BE SAD AND DEPRESSING THIS AIN'T A REALISTIC UNIVERSE HES FLYING FOR CRYING OUT LOUD LET MOVIES BE COLOURFUL AGAIN I'M SICK OF THE BLANDNESS AND HAVING TO SQUINT AT EVERY DARK SCENE AND LASTLY ONCE AGAIN

HE'S THE SYMBOL OF HOPE LET THE SYMBOL OF HOPE BRING LIGHT AND COLOUR TO DARK TIMES

#i will fight so many of those snyder cultists on this #LET MY BOI BE COLOURFUL AND BE FRIENDLY AND BE GOOD IM SICK OF THE EVIL OR DARK SUPERMAN GIVE ME BACK MY CHILDHOOD CHRISTOPHER REEVES SUPERM #AN I NEED SOME JOY IN THESE TIMES THE WORLDS GOIJG TO HELL #*holding david corenswet's superman* get behind me pookie ill protect you #i just love him smm and i cant keep warring over him being the symbol of hope #superman #clark kent #smallville #david corenswet #christopher reeves #superman 2025 #dc #metropolis #lois lane

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krotiation · 4 months ago

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i'll genuinely never stop thinking about codependency in rhack and how it's mostly coming from jack's side. both jack and rhys treat their relationship like rhys is the one who needs jack to not just survive but also thrive, but it's really the opposite and i think that REALLY adds to how much jack twists the narrative to make it seem like rhys can't do anything without him just to keep giving rhys a reason to keep him around and trust him

#plus the irony of it all #being someones obsession and then becoming so dependent on that someone to the point of YOU becoming obsessed with THEM #i just love it #yeah im rambling about rhack again #every once in a while i get reminded of what makes them so damn interesting and i turn into a sucker #their dynamic is just soooo good and theres so much stuff to look into and dissect #and like there are moments in the game where jack does mention that he needs rhys alive to survive himself outloud #but its always when rhys is actively in danger #other than that its 'ill have your back' and 'ill get you whatever you want'#but honestly rhys does a pretty good job of keeping himself alive #and he does have fiona and co with him too who (as much as jack doesnt wanna believe it) have rhys' back too #i just think jack trying to isolate rhys from them to reel him in is so interesting and fucked up and i love it sm #and of course i cant make a rhack ramble post without mentioning the murder-suicide thing HAKGHD someone has to keep talking abt that #bc thats really the moment that cemented to me how personal jacks feelings towards rhys were #where jack reaches the point of rather wanting to die than let rhys walk away from him alive #I JUST GJKHKDJG not even in a romantic way. jack just needs rhys painfully much #it just gets 10 times spicier when you slap some romance in there too #rhack #txt #this is just a long winded way of saying jack is really clingy in a very ugly and fucked up way #and i love that abt him <3 genuinely it might be my favorite part of his character

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avocado62524 · 9 months ago

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#im lazy as hell #4 boxes in i lost my mind hahaha #megastar #im rewatching g1 #ill draw better latee trust me #i just need to learn how to draw #hes supposed to be kissing the gun i uhhhh couldnt portray that so take my word for it #maccadam #transformers #anyways how yall nerds doing? i found my megatron figurine that survived getting ran over by a car. hes on my desk now.#anyways on the topic of g1 WTF IS WRONG WITH THESE TWO????#you ever see some shit like damn i hope you two die together #they give me secondhand cringe. head in hands i cant be near these deranged mfs #5 years ago ppl tried to pressure me away from this ship lmao #megatron #starscream #dawg im being ran through by my workload.#wanna hear another very real problem i have? so im a starscream fan since i was like 7. always a ss fan #and one time when i was a teen my mom accidentally ran over my megatron toy with her car so i begged my parents for a model kit #ss was out of stock for years so i got tc. i bought that for $24 and it was all chill #recently i was thinking i want the entire dumbass squad. all 3. i checked the price #$58??? MINIMUM???? AVG PRICE IS 70???? for HIM???#so what i need yall to do is i need a recs so i can infiltrate hasbro and character assassinate ss so bad the merch price drops back to $30 #for the small cost of 20 rec letters i promise to destroy the franchise. how about it? then we can all get merch for better prices. cool!#or we can start a gofund me and raise millions so i can become an investor and tell them to lower prices from outside the club #maybe i should email the board. some shit like hey i was planning on having kids but i cant if the toys cost as much as the hospital bill #can you lower the prices so i can buy my future kids toys so i can indoctrinate them like my dad indoctrinated me to become a lifelong fan #sincerely. two generations of TF fans (your franchise isnt that old yet and i hope my kids can afford to be the third gen)

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sapphicjigsaw · 28 days ago

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its been fun yall see you when splatoon 4

#dedf1sh #its been actually crazy to have been a f1sher since s2 #our little fucked up gender and mental illness capsule to pass around ahato mizuta made for a fucking crazy little community #and s3 artists going back and making their own f1sh was such a good time #and acht in side order real has delivered an insurmountable amount of life to the tag #going from a tag that has something new maybe once a day to the absolute flood that side order caused was fucking incredible #but all hype dies out eventually #many fewer people have their own f1shes theyre shaking around for fun. many more arent really as into splatoon anymore #i dont think the ride is over but the dedf1sh tag has not been this barren in quite a long time and these droughts will likely get longer #and more frequent as time passes #some previously big f1shers have just moved to bsky or gone offline since the boom #if youre taking the time to read this and you love this character then make them your own and share something about it #im kind of a hypocrite in that regard but i guess you need to start sometime #over the past 6 years ive never written down my own headcannons #ive never drawn my own design #ive never put out anything i wrote #but ill make you a promise to start to try if you stick with me in our green mental illness octopus fanclub #the most beautiful part of this community has always been seeing the pieces of the souls of the people giving unique life to a character #who even now has limited lore and personality and motives #and watching the way their fish refracts their own #this is a unique fandom and i want to try to keep it alive while we wait for our next big wave of popularity #and maybe help some acht fans find out why ahato was such a beautiful moment in time to so many. and maybe help make another moment

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rbtlvr · 4 months ago

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& by the way i literally CONSTANTLY think about how loop uses the partys titles to create distance to remind themself that those arent 'their versions' of them. that theyre not loops party anymore. and yet and yet and yet

#talk tag #i think about 'and because of you bonnie was-' DAILYYYYYY #god. god. they care s mcuhghfjkbjkdklj #i think that may be the only time until twohats that they ever use any of the partys names. except! for reminding sif if u get that dialogu #which. im also normal about. clearly obviously absolutely #they create that distance as much as they can and yet. for siffrin.#godddddd i need to be sedated #isat spoilers #okay oh my god i went back to check to make sure i was right and turns out i forgor a couple of times both of which make me even more ill #one is technically under the umbrella of twohats bc its at the very end when loop says theyll need to accept everyones thanks. and they say #-everyones names. and the other is at the very very beginning in the initial battle tutorial they say everyones names + stats #(which btw PROVES MY POINT abt so much of loops help going under the radar bc in any other game itd just be a regular tutorial with no-#-in universe correlation or effect)#but they start with 'heres some basic stats about you and your party members to remember' and i. the. like realistically the explanation-#-for loop using their names instead of titles. is bc adrienne thought using their titles would make it too obvious someone else was talking #since u havent met loop yet at that point and dont know its not a regular tutorial thats only directed at the player and not the character #But Also: heres some things you should remember about your party members [lists their names]#im normal. im fine and normal. prommy #... okay it turns out they also say isabeaus name when giving the paper mache hands tutorial. no idea what to make of that one aklfjdlksjf #and after the change god event when u bring it up they say 'mirabelles statue'#And Thats It. fascinating. what is the logic there #isatposting

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sieglinde-freud · 5 months ago

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oh im obsessed with this actually… who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tight… inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng

#ann plays awakening #EDITING TO SAY I STARTED TAG VENTING HIT READMORE AT YOUR OWN RISK #anyways #LAST LINE IS A KILLERRRR WOW #‘ann werent you just pairing olivia with thar—‘ OLIVIA IS A BUSY WOMAN OKAY #but also i just had this old save file from when i wanted to see pink inigo and decided to get some more supports #im obsessed actually like #ok tag venting time maybe this should be its own post but u guys know who i am #not only does this support in my very educated opinion do a good job at emulating inigo’s way of speaking #but i think theres also a very underrated characteristic he has that not a lot of people talk about and its that hes honestly quite morbid #him spending hours talking to and dancing with his mother’s grave is very beautiful and moving but it is also not a normal way to grieve #which makes sense because duh nothing about his life is normal but its j like. you know #if robin is his father (and maybe j the normal convo i dont remember) in the hot springs scramble he’ll insist upon bringing—#severed risen limbs home as a way to remember the peacefulness (lol) of the springs #and he thinks absolutely nothing of it!!#i think he gets attached to things just a little too intensely and because his life is surrounded by death how he expresses that can be #very interesting. and he talks about death all time more than the other kids #bc while a lot of their coping mechanisms are based in fear and the need to instill confidence in themselves (think cyn or gerome or owain #or sev or yarne or noire)#and how their SCARED of death and of loss and adapt different behaviors to act like theyre not (to varying degrees of success)#i think inigo is much more accepting of the fact that death follows him and has made it a normal presence in his life #which is not a good thing it means that he hasnt let himself grieve. he lets death hang over him and follow him instead of pushing back #also guess which one of the awakening trio in fates has the canonical story death. just by the way lmao #anyways bc im writing this in the tags on my phone i cant actually see what the hell ive been saying im j stream of consciousnessing this #but my point is that inigo has a weird fixation on death and dying that stems from his inability to make peace with death and grieve #and i think him idolizing death in this support (this BRILLIANT fan support that made me ill) is so in character and so lovely #i miss him so bad (hes literally in the photos im posting) grghhhrgah #i wuv him :(

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triglycercule · 5 months ago

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horror is so BLESSED he's the only one out of the murder time trio that has actual good people trying to influence his story 💔💔 dust and killer were both driven to INSANITY because of the choices of their respective humans but horror??? every time without FAIL the polls for horrortale's plotline have always ended in a good place for aliza (either by bettering her relationships/reputation or for her to just. not DIE)

horrortale's potential alternate timelines my beLOVEd🙏🙏 they're SO lucky that we're being kind and benevolent hehe (≧ω≦) now where are the aus based off the possible different outcomes that could've happened in horrortale HUH???? (like how aliza couldve killed toriel or chosen horror's puzzle or gone with undyne to the core........)

#something something all three of them have their fates determined by an outside force #ermmmm but horror doesn't- yeah he does. what aliza does decides EVERYTHING for horror and horrortale #just because its not direct like dust or killer doesn't mean theyre all subject to the same community x3 #PARALLELS MTT PARALLELS FOR THE 500TH TIME THEY HAVE SOOOO MANY PARALLELS OHHH MY GOOOOOODDDDDD #mtt going to visit horrortale would just be dust eying aliza (out of paranoia. he knows shes a good kid)#and then killer knowing in his head that the poor kid aliza that horror weirdly seems to like doesn't have control over her actions #she doesn't know horror doesn't know nobody knows except killer. is that a bit sad?#theyre all living in the dark unaware of the reality of their world. i mean thats how its meant to be after all thats what the players want #but....... it would be tempting to tell horror...... hehehehehe- and then he's interrupted by horror and dust #(theyre trying to get killer to eat papyrus's spaghetti in their place. he's the only one that can stomach it even though there's no human)#mtt i love thee SOOOOO much. theyre back in horrortale for the holidays ✨✨ coming back to visit the family ✨✨ WHAT horror's visiting.......#not dust or killer of course. this isnt their world noooope thats not papyrus. but that doesn't stop dust from having everyone like him #its just like the good old days :333 except now there's three sanses and triple the insanity :333 almost like nothing's changed!!!!!#oh killer??? yeah he's there. probably won't try taking up the sansish type of role horror and dust do but he'll find a way to get used 2 i #after all the point of this is whatever he wants it to be now ;33333 were these tags all just a reference to my mtt fic. yes. yes they were #LMAOOOO i forgot that aliza didn't fall into horrortale yet in my fic. still a fun thing to imagine tho!!!#i think it would be fun having aliza be the first of humans for horrortale to deal with that they won't instantly kill #itll be hard but really rewarding for all of them........ especially horror i believe!!! man he didnt even go through therapy but #just being away from horrortale and out doing new and FUN and NOT MURDEROUS things has done wonders for him :3 #i need to get to writing smh..... winter break is the day after tomorrow (TECHNICALLY AT 2:32 PM SINCE THSYS WHEN SCHOOL ENDS SO HAHAHA)#so ill probably work on it more over break since i'll have nothing to do hehe.......#today was an amazing day for me ✨ TWO mtt angst death related hcs..... some work on my latest chapter i've yet to post..... SWAPINVERSE FAN #ARE YOU KIDDING ME MORR SWAPINVERSE ART THIS IS SOOOO AMAZING THABK YOU UNTITLED29876011111 I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY YOU DO THIS!!!!!#tricule rant #killer sans #dust sans #horror sans #murder time trio #utmv #sans au

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mrmeepsmadmind · 5 months ago

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idw bumblebee and prowl shouldve broke up bcs he wouldnt stop 𝚊sking prowl to pause his report for just one lil astrosec so he can change his various pastel colored pens while making his cute little aesthetically pretty for no reason & very time - consuming notes with big colorful fonts & cute designs real quick

also another thought abt annoying ass bb trying to make running a literal planet cotteque so he doesn't go crazy bcs hes now a politician when all he ever wanted was to deliver mail & smile & wave at bots who call him cute ---

bee: 𝚠heeljack, im so sorry about this but do you mind repeating the time-stakingly long introduction, instruments, research references, modules, hypothesis, counter thesis, procedures, analysis, second - retrial, results, & explanation that you just spent 700000 earth hours saying because i was busy drawing a cute little bee in the corner of my notes please :] ?

wheeljack:

idw bee trying to run a planet that fucking hates him is just rlly funny to me, especially since everyone views bee as the goody character who everyone loves & he views himself as that & then they finally win this consuming war & he can reap his rewards of being loved without holding a gun & no one fucking likes him. hes even getting on his own old team's nerves & not in the loveable scamp way but the get the fuck out of my face way

#everybody regarding bee during the war: aw cute lil guy! bringing some positivity to this cruel war!! his goofups are so sparkwarming #it's ok lil guy!! we will always support u at the end of the day bcs u remind us of our sparks inside & love is rea-#everybody regarding bee constantly fucking up on how to run a wholeass planet: WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU #he was just a scout trying to do his best to appease optimus and now hes a bitch still trying to appease optimus for some reason #wheeljack: so i set these tools aside to route a waste system whenever you're ready to establish that legally & ill get to bui-#bumblebee: CAN WE HAVE A TIME MACHINE SO I DONT K*LL MYSELF :D ??#wheeljack: ....... we need a waste system due to disturbed population disrespecting your rules & this planet is getting worse &#bumblebee: please primus wheeljack i Dont know what youre Saying i just want my DaMn tiMeMacHine so people will LiKe mE!!!!#wheeljack: im gonna kill you .#scout bee: grahh who does that guy think he is >:[ im gonna go kick his BUTT!!! being mean to my FRIEND! grah! TAKE THIS #wheeljack: haha no lil guy dont do that ull die lol lets reel back & go back to base to build some cool bombs instead YAYYY they will die :#not US! YAYYYY!!!#* they celebrate in guys who are desensitized to violence *#guys who are desensitized to violence now forced to govern a planet that hates violence but no one else is trusted to do it->#bee: WE NEED TO BUILD SODA FOUNTAINS EVERYWHERE SO PPL WILL STOP PREFERRING WAR CRIMINAL STARSCREAM OVER ME PLS #PLS JACK PLS 😸!!!!!#wheeljack: bumblebee i havent blown up a mech besides myself in so fucking long. im so fucking close.#when ur squad so fucked up the mentally ill undiagnosed ppl pleaser obsessed teachers pet bitch is the best choice #to run a planet bcs everyone else will bomb 99% of the populatjon and leave #bee stills bombs like 5% of it but it's ok bcs theyre decepticons & theyre bad guys & this is def not problematic thinking at all :)#<- literally murder #transformers idw #bumblebee #wheeljack #prowl #transformers #maccadam #tf idw

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daftpatience · 1 year ago

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one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

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zzoupz · 5 months ago

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ik i said that i still like faith and would still draw it, but man after losing like half of my friends from that fandom i feel very discouraged to go back :-/

#like believe it or not all of my art has a target audience in mind that isnt me. sometimes i draw stuff bc i think my friends would like it #so after losing that hhhh i just dont have a lot of motivation #still. it has such a special place in my heart ill try to come back eventually. i just need some time

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jalo-parker · 10 months ago

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This is actually a cropped version of the drawing but uh more sad and tired hels cause like.. me too

I referenced someone else's drawing for the pose and it ended up looking too similar so I didn't want to post the whole thing :') I (mostly) just cropped my sona out though so dw you aren't missing any helsknight content

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andragoras-in-vanity · 10 days ago

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update! the orange did not take and the length of my hair looks like a highlighter threw up in it.

my bangs are cute tho!

#sorry #agender #hairdye #the turmoil if trying to do streaks in curly hair....#i need to train those streaks separately from the rest of my hair when i style it i guess.m #next time i wash it ill scrub the length out and then redo the green just at the end i guess #manic panic comes out super easy #just some headb and shoulders and ill be back to platinum #also aw my lil t shot bandaid #ny tattoos look so cute in this picture too i need more #i need to message my artist back too for my final session #pray for me...idont wanna deal with the lineart

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ghost-bard · 7 months ago

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something has possessed me i think bc why am i in the year 2024 thinking about merlin/gwaine but also merlin/lancelot but also gwaine/merlin/lancelot. what have i done to deserve this

#merlin #bbc merlin #bbc gwaine #bbc lancelot #in truth this is not surprising at all #gwaine is my favorite character #and there is no world in which gwaine didnt know about merlins magic #i love the merlin tv show so much #it couldve been so much better. IT COULDVE BEEN SO MUCH BETTERRRR #and no one knows just how much this show means to me #like in terms of comfort shows this is the number one #even though i dont rewatch it all that often #i think about it so much #chat do i rewatch merlin in its entirety for the first time in years #i usually just rewatch my favorite eps #the ones with gwaine as a main character #and the ones that make me sad #i also love lancelot so much and i do kind of hate how the show did him SORRY #when morgana brings him back. love my toxic queen but i cant watch it #to me gwen was always in love with arthur and morgana #idc about actual legends i care about the tv show #one day ill read some retelling of the whatever and WHATEVER #but. i can feel how i want #the way i view the various different ships... its wild #like i can go into depth one day... but not today IM TIREDDD #sorry im rambling its 3am and ive had a rough few days rip #im gonna take some melatonin and go sleep good lord #why does my pc think melatonin isnt a word its literally a drug???? whatever #anyway. ramble OVER i need SLEEP

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altarfates · 2 months ago

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#ok im fixed !!! turned out i just needed to watch some gays with my wife !!!#but ive discussed potentially studying part time so i can balance things better #and hopefully #that will be manageable and not make me wanna turn inside out !#catch me playing LADS for the rest of the night so i can think abt raf #ill try to get back to dms soon ish #stay hydrated m #ooc.

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