#so i will just casually go insane

[nekomimithoughts]

Honestly because finding partners is hard in general. And as much as you want to be that for a couple, as you've talked about it the past, the attraction (sexual and otherwise) has to be there both ways. That kind of relationship is incredibly hard to find while it's also not you being exploited and we both know you don't want that. I really hope you can find a great couple to be that for 💕

Thank you <3 made me feel a bit better

I was half-joking, since I know partners are hard to find and how much has to match. I'm genuinely surprised so many people find partners at all.

I simply experienced too much (albeit polite) rejection* in the short span of this week for my sensitive little brain to handle. And I admit that it feels a but strange or maybe even dishonest but definitely frustrating to be told I'm the "perfect unicorn" and that there are so many people who fantasise about exactly what I want, but the couples that I'm actually talking to don't, want something different. And then even those couples tell me that I should have no trouble finding a couple since that's "everyone's fantasy". I'm starting to think that it's actually just a widespread myth that this is a popular fantasy. Maybe everyone is overestimating the popularity of certain fanatsies. Because if my fantasies were so common among couples... I should meet at least a few couples who have them?? That's a bit confusing indeed.

The issue is that I won't feel valid in my fantasies and desires until someone validates them by wanting the same, and that's just how it is (sociometer theory, basically). And until then I will feel kinda pathetic probably. Because I have no frame of reference.

*there is three couples that I've been talking to recently, like get-to-know-you, which also involved sharing my fantasies (which is still pretty difficult/mortifying to me), and they all didn't like my scenarios, or weren't interested in realising them. Outwardly I handled the communications/negotiations really well, respecting decisions, showing understanding, thanking them etc. As you do. While inwardly feeling unwanted and crying like a baby 👍 oh and also the one person who I met who shares my fantasies not responding for 2 weeks. Damn my heart, for it can break.

[mishaesque]

my issue is that just rewatching Supernatural isn’t enough. It takes too long. I want it all at once. I need a room covered in 327 monitors that feed me every single episode at the same time. I need the DVDs melted down and put into an IV drip. I want every single minute of the show tattooed on the inside of my eyelids. I need to live inside its flesh.

[dangeroustaintedflawed]

[journey-to-the-attic]

mephistopheles: "ik came out with a freestyle of increasing intensity for every beat we sampled........... a lot of it was unbroadcastable"

[taxinealkaloids]

horrible children who are. so so mean to each other

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Surprise bitch! I was interview anon this entire time!

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HELP MEEEE ok i see why i kept gettin asked if id seen this yet vjaLVJA THANK YOU SO MUCH

[recent-rose]

yknowwww there is something... deeply uncomfortable about the way mel never speaks directly to viktor in the 'build hextech weapons' scene. she really only speaks to jayce. plenty of people have pointed this out already but like the one scene they actually share a meaningful interaction and she treats him like he's beneath her. all this after jayce has emphasized how important viktor is, that hextech is theirs, together. she unequivocally ices him out, there's no other way to interpret this scene. the way it's shot too - from viktor's perspective, looking up at her, as though to reinforce the same belief in him. like he doesn't even bother expecting respect from her - or anyone from the upper echelon of piltover. he's fully accustomed to being dehumanized by everyone around him at this point. sometimes even by jayce, despite the trust they clearly have in each other.

then of course after this scene is viktor experimenting on himself. it's pretty clear that he has internalized his own dehumanization. crazy.

[makeriia]

Fantober day 31!! A free day again.

Recently gotten into HADES, and I think about them a normal amount (lie)

[casualavocados]

Why did you do it? I don't know what you're talking about. I was drunk that night, and you told me you would always look at me— You want to get back at me, right?

KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 09

[neosatsuma]

when John tells Arthur his finger is bleeding and Arthur muses wryly, "Should have used our left hand," I'm going INSANE like it used to upset him so much that John "took" his left hand but now it's a) "ours" and b) a neat trick to avoid feeling pain I'M. !!!!!!! NO ONE is doing it like them (??????)

[a-bucket-in-the-void]

i really need a good hyperfixation right about now

[ink-blot-thoughts]

Okay for a while my genshin bio was "Arlecchino simp, Childe stan, Dottore apologist" and while that was my bio, someone joined my world and asked me why I liked Dottore? At the time I just said heeheehoohoo man funny cause that's true but thinking about it, I've realised why I like Dottore.

So, picture this. I joined genshin in around 3.2ish. I didn't do any events that I hadn't unlocked the story for and I wasn't really in the fandom. So lil old me was just playing through the story, and having the time of my life in Sumeru cause it was so fucking weird.

Then. You defeat the big boss. You cry about Rukkhadevata. Nahida is gonna give us some lore now, right?? Nope get fucking flashbanged.

So this was already shocking enough then out walks Mr Doctor, who had seemingly left Sumeru in a boat. Okay weird, guess he came back. WAIT WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE HAS CLONES?!?! And then his clones get merked the second I find out about them?!!?!?

So I'm reeling from that when he promises knowledge not even the god of wisdom knows. And I perk up cause lore!!! I like lore!!! Then. Then the motherfucker. He says "Sky's fake."

Remember, I knew none of this. Bitch just dropped sky's fake on my head out of nowhere. And while I was going "THE SKY IS FUCKING WHAT?!?!!?" Man just casually faded to black. Like he hadn't dropped the most batshit insane lore possible.

Now if you're normal and you knew the background genshin lore, that would make sense. You already know about the fake sky and Dottore's segments and all, so the casual delivery totally tracks.

But I didn't. So to me this man walked up, drugged us, revealed he had clones, murdered said clones, then dropped one of genshins biggest lore bombs before fucking off. In the space of one conversation. Fucking iconic.

So that's why I like Dottore :)

[wildsaltair]

I’m suing him for irreparable mental damage, from which I will never recover

[poutycowboy]

you wonder why i’m bitter.

you. wonder. why. i’m. bitter.

you wonder why i’m bitter?

[skinnypaleangryperson]

I can't imagine how quality my life would be if people were willing to listen to niche, incredibly strange cornered personalities. I'm such an interesting person, but people don't speak my language 98% of the time and nobody cares to unless you speak the mainstream, boring oversaturated languages that people speak with celebrity pop culture, influencers, and the so forth. The worthlessness that I feel from not being able to fit into mainstream society has made a black mark. Still, the niche incredibly strange personality persists.

I'm just a incredibly strange mentally ill, genuinely schizophrenic incredibly imaginative maladaptive daydreaming mentally ill person who cannot tell fantasy from reality, but I feel like it could have been so much more than that if society had spaces for more niche corners like us to speak.

[courtillyy]

im sorry chilled is another mcc ????? why tf am i just finding this out now. im going to lose my actual shit. god bless the gods who decided to make it easy to accidentally sign up. god Bless them