#so i just. i just need to Cope
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nattikay Ā· 2 years ago
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ok so um. Thereā€™s certainly plenty to be said about Way of Water, plenty of lil comments I want to make...but before I can post about any of that (separately), I just need to ramble about Neteyam a little bit. Bear with me. ;_;Ā  (yes, this will be spoilery)
so the idea that Neteyam was going to die had already been pretty prominent in the fandom for several months. At first it seemed to me to be based on nothing but wild speculation for potential sad plot points. But the more and more promotional material came out, the more and more plausible the theory became, much to my dismay. By the time we reached release day, I had already (if reluctantly) resigned myself to thinking that yes, it was probably going to happen.Ā 
And sure enough, it did.
Even going in knowing full well it was extremely likely to happen, even going in having 100% accepted that it was bound to happen and fully expecting it....gosh it still hurt to watch.
I will admit, I did not cry nearly as much as I expected to during this movie. I teared up a bit multiple times, definitely felt the physical heartache plenty, but nothing spilled over. I thought this was kinda weird, given that previously Iā€™d shed tears even over certain shots from the trailer.
When Neteyam died and I absolutely felt my heart breaking in two yet tears still didnā€™t fall despite the emotional pain I was absolutely in, I realized why: I was just really dehydrated ^^;
see, worried about having to use the bathroom during the long runtime, Iā€™d been very careful to drink as little as possible throughout the day. Well....it technically worked I guess. I certainly didnā€™t need to go to the bathroom. but it looks like it dried up most of my tears too (maybe not a wholly bad thing given that this was in public, I suppose).
....and yet despiteĀ that, DESPITE my dehydration........that ending???? that ending?????? letā€™s just say I STILL managed to leaveĀ the theater with a tearstained face
ā€œbittersweetā€ is certainly A Word
just
m a nĀ šŸ˜­
and I mean. from a writing perspective, I get it. I really do. TheĀ ā€œbefore your birth, after your deathā€ etc theme ran throughout the movie. Using an unrelated character to do it wouldnā€™t have as strong an emotional impact as using one of the core family. I get it. As a narrative choice, it makes sense.
but from an in-universe/character-pov perspective....gosh golly that hurt. that hurrrrrrrttttt and I donā€™t know if Iā€™m ok. ngl iĀ legit feel vaguely ill ;_;
My current job is fairly mindless work, so while Iā€™m working my brain can wander. Naturally today my mind was on the fact that Iā€™d been seeing the movie later so of course I thought a lot about it. Like I said earlier, I was already aware of the Neteyam-dies theory (well, no longer a theory I guess) and at that point had accepted it as inevitable, if depressing. Iā€™d been trying to come to terms with it for a while already.
Those who have followed me long enough might know that thereā€™s another movie I like called Wolf Children. Itā€™s a beautiful movie, honestly, one that I appreciate very much, but have only watched a small handful of times because it makes me sob every single time. Itā€™s about a woman who meets a...well, basically a werewolf (except that the transformations are voluntary), they fall in love and have two kids, but right after the birth of the second one the father dies in an accident, leaving the normal-human mother, to raise these two wolf kids on her own. And thatā€™s most of the movie, following the family as the kids grow up until at the end of the movie all three characters go their separate ways. The ending always felt a little bittersweet to me because, even though both children are alive and well living their own lives, the mother is alone again, with only her memories. We saw the whole childhood, that special time as a family unit, and now that period of their lives is over.
That is, essentially, what I was expecting to be done with Neteyam. Watch his whole life, from birth to, well, in his case death. We see the whole thing and then itā€™s over, no more future with the rest of his family. Which hurts. And yes, thatā€™s...more or less what happened.
While the two scenarios are not perfectly comparable, mentally framing Neteyamā€™s (then-impending, now-confirmed) death in terms of Wolf Children did actually help me cope with the then-theory.Ā 
I have to remind myself that even though his story is over, and that it ended tragically, that what we saw...wasnā€™t everything. It was snippets. We saw only very few snippets. For long stretches in between those snippets. For roughly 15 years the Sully family lived more or less in peace. Neteyam had a happy childhood. He lived all that, even though we only saw it so very briefly. I have to remind myself of this, repeatedly.
because even knowing that, watching the tragedy...itā€™s...itā€™s hard...
i just...
i just...
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and then that. that ending I--
I just--
my heart is broken, it is aching, i cannot ;_;
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kensatou Ā· 2 months ago
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(āœæā—•ā€æā—•) die (źˆ ź’³ źˆāœæ)
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chloesimaginationthings Ā· 5 months ago
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Abby went into the pit and made a FNAF friend..
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bonerot19 Ā· 6 months ago
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I know we like writing fics where Jason is all "I'm not the kid you lost" and "he died and I'm all the worst parts of him that came back" and whatever. but lately I've been thinking about a Jason that's angry bc everyone thinks he came back wrong, because to him, he's the same as he's always been. sure, he's more upset and angry and traumatized, but he's still Jason.
I've been thinking about a Jason that spent most of the time since his death underground and then catatonic. to him, hardly any time has passed at all. to his family, three years have gone by. and Jason knows he looks different than he did, and he knows he's sharper around the edges, now, but he's still Jason. he's the same kid that died and now he's back and why doesn't anyone see that?
they're the ones that changed, not him
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chatlote Ā· 10 days ago
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Not a moment of rest.
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rika-mortis Ā· 3 months ago
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Headcanon: Deep down they both want to be their fairy godparent/godkid again after losing them, but don't believe they deserve each other and feel like they aren't worthy to be their companion anymore
They both need counseling and therapy as a whole package
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hinamie Ā· 3 months ago
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itakugi sillies fr the soul
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starcrashedsatellite Ā· 3 months ago
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This has been a most insightful operator background story
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biruesque Ā· 6 months ago
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one of ariane's many attempts at cheering elster up when her health started to decline
check out this this dub done by @voicequills also!!! (her voice acting skills r so good i will cherish this forever)
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negativespace06 Ā· 3 months ago
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conduit
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wistfulwatcher Ā· 3 months ago
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puppyeared Ā· 1 month ago
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(yes I know siffrins cloak grows sleeves when its convenient but I wanna play around with this)
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kitamars Ā· 1 year ago
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oh no! more ginhiji
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aq2003 Ā· 6 months ago
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has anyone gotten the idea that odysseus' storyline in hades 2 is a depiction/exploration of trauma over his SA and how he's blaming himself for things that were out of his control? because that's the impression i'm getting from what i've seen. he talks about "goddesses" as his "greatest weakness" and that "he's not one to say no to them"...
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when mel invites him to the bath, he brings up mortals having different standards for intimacy than gods and how it usually has a more romantic/sexual connotation. she then asks if he's uncomfortable and he has a startled reaction and brings up circe and calypso again (but never actually by name)
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(this isn't ship/romance bait btw. odysseus knew mel as a kid and they're stated in-game to have a sibling/uncle-niece relationship)
also he grew apart from penelope after his return, but the game makes a point of showing that his love for penelope and telemachus is what drove him on at all so that element of his character isn't brought into question
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kurara-black-blog Ā· 21 days ago
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Damn, Light legit thought people would find it ok to set up an explosive trap in your drawer just cuz you didn't want people reading your diaryā€”
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circadianrhythmofthekiller Ā· 6 days ago
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I remember the first few posts here had pretty vivid, detailed backgrounds. I'd love to see more of that, especially from an in-game location you haven't drawn yet.
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day 114 - puppets
nearly every drawing is a gif now, which takes a lot more time to draw, as much as iā€™d like every post to have a nice background
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