#so i just. i just need to Cope
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ok so um. Thereās certainly plenty to be said about Way of Water, plenty of lil comments I want to make...but before I can post about any of that (separately), I just need to ramble about Neteyam a little bit. Bear with me. ;_;Ā (yes, this will be spoilery)
so the idea that Neteyam was going to die had already been pretty prominent in the fandom for several months. At first it seemed to me to be based on nothing but wild speculation for potential sad plot points. But the more and more promotional material came out, the more and more plausible the theory became, much to my dismay. By the time we reached release day, I had already (if reluctantly) resigned myself to thinking that yes, it was probably going to happen.Ā
And sure enough, it did.
Even going in knowing full well it was extremely likely to happen, even going in having 100% accepted that it was bound to happen and fully expecting it....gosh it still hurt to watch.
I will admit, I did not cry nearly as much as I expected to during this movie. I teared up a bit multiple times, definitely felt the physical heartache plenty, but nothing spilled over. I thought this was kinda weird, given that previously Iād shed tears even over certain shots from the trailer.
When Neteyam died and I absolutely felt my heart breaking in two yet tears still didnāt fall despite the emotional pain I was absolutely in, I realized why: I was just really dehydrated ^^;
see, worried about having to use the bathroom during the long runtime, Iād been very careful to drink as little as possible throughout the day. Well....it technically worked I guess. I certainly didnāt need to go to the bathroom. but it looks like it dried up most of my tears too (maybe not a wholly bad thing given that this was in public, I suppose).
....and yet despiteĀ that, DESPITE my dehydration........that ending???? that ending?????? letās just say I STILL managed to leaveĀ the theater with a tearstained face
ābittersweetā is certainly A Word
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and I mean. from a writing perspective, I get it. I really do. TheĀ ābefore your birth, after your deathā etc theme ran throughout the movie. Using an unrelated character to do it wouldnāt have as strong an emotional impact as using one of the core family. I get it. As a narrative choice, it makes sense.
but from an in-universe/character-pov perspective....gosh golly that hurt. that hurrrrrrrttttt and I donāt know if Iām ok. ngl iĀ legit feel vaguely ill ;_;
My current job is fairly mindless work, so while Iām working my brain can wander. Naturally today my mind was on the fact that Iād been seeing the movie later so of course I thought a lot about it. Like I said earlier, I was already aware of the Neteyam-dies theory (well, no longer a theory I guess) and at that point had accepted it as inevitable, if depressing. Iād been trying to come to terms with it for a while already.
Those who have followed me long enough might know that thereās another movie I like called Wolf Children. Itās a beautiful movie, honestly, one that I appreciate very much, but have only watched a small handful of times because it makes me sob every single time. Itās about a woman who meets a...well, basically a werewolf (except that the transformations are voluntary), they fall in love and have two kids, but right after the birth of the second one the father dies in an accident, leaving the normal-human mother, to raise these two wolf kids on her own. And thatās most of the movie, following the family as the kids grow up until at the end of the movie all three characters go their separate ways. The ending always felt a little bittersweet to me because, even though both children are alive and well living their own lives, the mother is alone again, with only her memories. We saw the whole childhood, that special time as a family unit, and now that period of their lives is over.
That is, essentially, what I was expecting to be done with Neteyam. Watch his whole life, from birth to, well, in his case death. We see the whole thing and then itās over, no more future with the rest of his family. Which hurts. And yes, thatās...more or less what happened.
While the two scenarios are not perfectly comparable, mentally framing Neteyamās (then-impending, now-confirmed) death in terms of Wolf Children did actually help me cope with the then-theory.Ā
I have to remind myself that even though his story is over, and that it ended tragically, that what we saw...wasnāt everything. It was snippets. We saw only very few snippets. For long stretches in between those snippets. For roughly 15 years the Sully family lived more or less in peace. Neteyam had a happy childhood. He lived all that, even though we only saw it so very briefly. I have to remind myself of this, repeatedly.
because even knowing that, watching the tragedy...itās...itās hard...
i just...
i just...
and then that. that ending I--
I just--
my heart is broken, it is aching, i cannot ;_;
#awow spoilers#avatar#avatar 2#the way of water#neteyam#i'm sorry for rambling so much about this I just. i need to cope#i have many other comments to make about the movie both silly and serious but this...#idk man this is just weighing particularlyĀ heavy on me right now; my heart is legitimately still hurting#there was so much good and/or interesting stuff to discuss in this movie and#i really really don't wanna let my heartbreak over neteyam's death negatively color the whole thing for me#especially when I went it very much expecting it#so i just. i just need to Cope#bear with me please#it's getting late though...i'll post other more lighthearted comments and such tomorrow#but i really needed to get this one out of the way first#man. just.........man#ow ;_;
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(āæāāæā) die (ź ź³ źāæ)
#MY GIRLLLLLLLL <333333 you're doing amazing sweetie kill them all you deserve to#anyway. coping mechanism. the problems in my life i could solve if society just let me have a death note#this show really is an exercise in patience and suffering i get SO squicked out#by how much the horrible characters and situations mirror the insanity of what's happening in real life#also the revelation that some of the actors are Exactly as shitty as their characters are is. ugh.#but every time i'm like okay i can't take it i need to stop to protect my headspace#i think of kimiko and am like.... no... i need to see my gir....#hope karen gets jucy roles in other shows too PLEASE#the boys#kimiko miyashiro#karen fukuhara#theboysedit#tvedit
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Abby went into the pit and made a FNAF friend..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#abby schmidt#oswald fnaf#spring bonnie#william afton#into the pit#fnaf movie#fazbear frights#fnaf fanart#INTO THE PIT CONTENT RAHH š„š„#OSWALD MENTIONED š„š„#okay so Iām hyped for ITP obviously#the more we see of this game the more I want to play it#so I HAD to draw something for it to just get the need out of me#this is my coping until I can play it š#I hope all the frights books gets adapted into games#maybe Iāll draw some other book characters soon.. weāll see#Abby in the movie goes into the ballpit#lil joke that what if she met Oswald there#and his āādadāā/sping Bonnie#again just Abby befriending everyone moment!!#Oswald probably does need the friendship too cause heās gone thru it
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I know we like writing fics where Jason is all "I'm not the kid you lost" and "he died and I'm all the worst parts of him that came back" and whatever. but lately I've been thinking about a Jason that's angry bc everyone thinks he came back wrong, because to him, he's the same as he's always been. sure, he's more upset and angry and traumatized, but he's still Jason.
I've been thinking about a Jason that spent most of the time since his death underground and then catatonic. to him, hardly any time has passed at all. to his family, three years have gone by. and Jason knows he looks different than he did, and he knows he's sharper around the edges, now, but he's still Jason. he's the same kid that died and now he's back and why doesn't anyone see that?
they're the ones that changed, not him
#anyway#I just think it'd be neat#bc I love a good 'Jason has no self worth and everyone needs to convince him he's worthy still'#but the angst of trying to convince you're family you're still in there#under layers of trauma and pain and anger#that you're still YOU despite it all#and I want him to recon w the fact that Dick and Bruce and Alfred are different now#that part of that is his fault (for dying)#that the rest is their fault (for coping so poorly)#(batman used to smile is the thing)#jason todd#batman#batfam#bruce wayne#dick grayson
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Not a moment of rest.
#my art#goro akechi#persona 5#shuake#p5r#ren amamiya#persona 5 royal#akeshu#low key vent art but im doing better now :D#i started my post graduate and the week was just kinda A Lot#i rly need to open comms but anxiety nghngh#anw#akechi having a bad time always helps me cope I'm so sorry akechi
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Headcanon: Deep down they both want to be their fairy godparent/godkid again after losing them, but don't believe they deserve each other and feel like they aren't worthy to be their companion anymore
They both need counseling and therapy as a whole package
#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#peri#peri fairywinkle cosma#dev dimmadome#fop a new wish#peri fairly oddparents#a new wish#periwinkle#the fairly oddparents#dev#my art#fanart#I like how both Peri and Dev is the type who prefers not directly express their feelings because they want to be seen as cool/independent#and be loved by the people that they care of#in other words#a tsundere//hit#jokes aside I like to think another reason why Dev cried during that scene is because-#he realized he's doing the same thing that his dad has done to him but on Peri#and yet Peri still cares for him despite his treatment towards him#like how Dev still loves his dad despite being a terrible father#and just..want to do everything right by him to earn his dad affection#man#Also ngl I have a hunch that Dev might still remember since Hazel's ''no rule'' wish was pretty vague#so maybe he counts in that wish?#plus he was wearing sunglasses before the memory wipe which maybe that won't affect him as well?#you can see I'm coping rn#I do hope this is only temporary and we will see them being back together in season 2 tho#giving them both some time to reflect and growth#because Peri clearly needs more experience in his job and Dev needs his character development for season 2
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itakugi sillies fr the soul
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#yuji itadori#nobara kugisaki#itakugi#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk leaks#jjk manga spoilers#jjk spoilers#jjk 267#eye horror/#cant see the haters <3#not pictured here megumi holding the camera like ......................#also i dont know how i feel abt eyepatch yuuji but fr the sake of itakugi wearing each other's eyepatches he can have one :'>#entertained the idea of them having Matching ones but i scrapped tht pretty quickly dhsdfgfdf i like them distinct#i think yuuji might b able to pull off the larger snaparound kind bc the scars on the other side of his face maybe balance it out#but i like nobara having a smaller more traditional eyepatch personally#1 bc i think she would not want to mess up her hair but also bc i LOVE th look of her scars i want as many of them visible as possible#the eye socket itself tho is ....kinda gnarly GGHJFHFS#speaking of which ik nobara's eye kind of. exploded. but what exactly happened w yuuji's did it just ???? burn away????#idrk if yuuji shld also have a more defined eye socket tbh but fr the sake of my own enjoyment n sanity#i am pulling the fanartist I Do What I Want card#i make the rules and i want his scars to look Like This smile#anyway i love them so much i missed them so much they r so SIBLING CODED#u dont understand officer i need them being dumb n chaotic. to cope#hands and knees itkg save megumi itfskg make it out alive plspslpslplspslpslspsl
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This has been a most insightful operator background story
#arknights#doodle#shu#shennong#wanqing#i promise im drawing actual serious stuff of them i just need to cope through memes to survive the emotional destruction they hit me with#that monty python scene lives rent free in my mind. Shennong was so unimpressed with Shu's threats i had to redraw that JNKNFDSJDS
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one of ariane's many attempts at cheering elster up when her health started to decline
check out this this dub done by @voicequills also!!! (her voice acting skills r so good i will cherish this forever)
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#signalis#lstr 512#elster signalis#ariane yeong#arielster#biruesque art#comic#doodle#iv been swamped with a buncha school stuff so i think i'll be making more comics like this one? idk#just small indulgences bc i need 2 cope with academic stress lol#Youtube
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conduit
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#sonic idw#surge the tenrec#iām so excited for school#<coping#um anyway#i wondered what super surge would look like#i scribbled this down and liked it so i cleaned it up#i enjoy drawing feral characters#like every time i draw shadow heās just. screaming LOL#eyestrain#cw eyestrain#BIG TIME#it actually used to look worse and i was like#ok. we need to tone this down#thatās how you KNOW itās bad#my art
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#criminal minds#criminalmindsedit#criminalmindsverse#proceduraledit#emily prentiss#emilyprentissedit#cmverse#cmverseedit#criminal minds evolution#cmevolutionedit#tvedit#filmtvcentral#dailyflicks#ladiesblr#femalecharacters#bitchys#mine#edit#*#internal*#evidence*#p r o o f#i have been struggling for AGES with how i wanted to do a set pairing the lauren arc and the 'play along' scene#and then cme just gifted me this perfect container scene *chef's kiss* i know there's hella nuance that needs to be read into this set#(like the warehouse scene is really just representative of her mindset undercover) but i think you guys Get It#otp: you are who you pretend to be#(feels so ... to use that tag on this set specifically but it's also exactly how i ship them - as emily's coping mechanism - so!!!)#someday i will let go of the lauren arc. someday. (no i won't.)#criminal minds evolution spoilers#(tag issue resolved!! sorry for the duplicate set guys you'll never guess what the issue word was)
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(yes I know siffrins cloak grows sleeves when its convenient but I wanna play around with this)
#also the cloak IS crafted to grow with him so I guess it being able to grow sleeves when he needs em might not be entirely untrue#tbh when I heard his cloak can grow with him my first thought was to have everyone gather under it and stretch it like a parachute lol#I think the one with like two folds stitched together to make impromptu sleeves makes more sense..#the holes are big enough to quickly fit your arms thru so its more suitable#the witch hat cloaks are designed so that witches can draw their spells without anybody seeing so its specifically to hide the users hands#siffrin doesnt necessarily need to hide his hands but he doesnāt like to be touched so I guess it just has to cover his body than hide it#idk anything about sewing or tailoring though so this is all my imagination. i dont actually know if this would work or not lol#my art#myart#doodles#I got thru a little bit more of the game and Iām coping. Iām coping#Iām imagining siffrin suplexing loop for my own sanity#in stars and time#isat#isat siffrin
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oh no! more ginhiji
#hhhhhhhhhhhh theyyy areeee eatinggggg myyyy BRAIIIIIN#using them as a coping mechanism to avoid the horrors of silver soul#i reached the second half and i. i need a breather#iām trying to figure out what my favourite dynamic of ginhiji is so i can make comics about it later but rn my brain is just like#haha they want to punt each other into the sun yet they are inexplicably drawn to each other so they may as well burn together#gin san being like oh well i guess this is happening now?? and toshi trying to gaslight himself out of this waking nightmare#itās very funny to consider#they are very much a romantic comedy but more emphasis on the comedy aspect with tragedy bits coming out of nowhere to kill you dead#so like gintama yk#also hijikataās hair is a nightmare to draw im trying so hard#girl help#sakata gintoki#hijikata toushirou#ginhiji#hijigin#gintoki x hijikata#hijikata x gintoki#there are so many tags for one pairing hhhh#gintama#ok bye
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has anyone gotten the idea that odysseus' storyline in hades 2 is a depiction/exploration of trauma over his SA and how he's blaming himself for things that were out of his control? because that's the impression i'm getting from what i've seen. he talks about "goddesses" as his "greatest weakness" and that "he's not one to say no to them"...
when mel invites him to the bath, he brings up mortals having different standards for intimacy than gods and how it usually has a more romantic/sexual connotation. she then asks if he's uncomfortable and he has a startled reaction and brings up circe and calypso again (but never actually by name)
(this isn't ship/romance bait btw. odysseus knew mel as a kid and they're stated in-game to have a sibling/uncle-niece relationship)
also he grew apart from penelope after his return, but the game makes a point of showing that his love for penelope and telemachus is what drove him on at all so that element of his character isn't brought into question
#i made a post abt it but deleted it bc it was speculating and i don't have the game bc i don't have a pc#but i found more screenshots and now.. i think it's a VERY real possibility they're going in this direction.#circe is in this game also. so i really need to see whether odysseus has any character specific dialogue about her#hard life when you can't even play the game and are hunting down bits of story from other people#hades game tag#hades 2 spoilers#sa mention#hades 2#hades game#odysseus#penelope#i don't have any hard coping shipper brain on or anything but like. just. thinking about where his character can go given what we know#guaranteed penelope will be in this game too from how much she's brought up. we'll probably meet her on the surface#SO ITS LIKE. story wise. are we going to make a wife forgive her husband for cheating on her#or are we going to make a guy realize him being assaulted wasn't the same thing as him cheating on the love of his life#and i am heavily leaning towards the latter.#it's like if he genuinely did cheat on her and they grew apart what direction would his story go in.#how will us as the player help him in the same way we helped achilles/patroclus or orpheus/eurydice
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Damn, Light legit thought people would find it ok to set up an explosive trap in your drawer just cuz you didn't want people reading your diaryā
#like... that's even more suspicious than having a notebook titled ādeath noteā with the names of criminals#you do realize that's more suspicious right?#no one would bat an eye if you showed them your death note and said āheyā I write the names of everyone I wish was dead to copeā#you could even add fake pages with the names of people in your day to day lifeā like an annoying teacherā so they don't die#therefore making the claim that's just a stupid notebook with a list of names you want dead seem valid#and the rules? eh just say it's creative writing. maybe even say it's inspired on Kira it's not loke they need to know when you got the note#idiot#death note#light yagami#yagami light
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I remember the first few posts here had pretty vivid, detailed backgrounds. I'd love to see more of that, especially from an in-game location you haven't drawn yet.
day 114 - puppets
nearly every drawing is a gif now, which takes a lot more time to draw, as much as iād like every post to have a nice background
#anthology of the killer#of the killer#artwork of the killer#bb#asking the killer#face of the killer#also this blog is something i do in my spare time between college and work#i kinda use it to cope with stuff going on in my life#so iām still trying to draw for fun#yāknowā¦ despite it all#sometimes i just need the days to be simple for a bit. sorry
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