#so hopefully they take that well and adjust accordingly

[hopelesshawks]

Nothing like reading a fic on ao3 and suddenly getting heavy sadomasochist and impact play in almost all of the smut scenes even though the smut tags were only “dom/sub”, “soft dom [insert character]”, and “sub [insert character]” to make me appreciate how well tagged/warned shit on tumblr is

[theskeletonprior]

Write Time: Day Eighteen

This month, my goal is a cool 30 000 words written. I’ll be carrying on with more RAVENOT. If you’re curious, you can take a look at my WIP intro right here. And if you’re really keen, you can read the first chapter (sort of a pilot as I toil) right here! Now onto the daily ramble.

Today I feel a little bit like a grape in the process of becoming a raisin. It's a rest day, so I'm trying to listen to my body and maintain it well, but it certainly is getting in my way. Around 17k left to reach my goal, and things are getting a little bit dicey. I'll be adjusting my daily count to accommodate, which hopefully will catch me up again. A little over 40% of the way there, but at this point, if I only make it to 15k, I'll still be pleased with myself. And now, this.

It was the heat which first announced the Summer Lord. Heat, and the unmistakable stridulations of the hundreds of cicadas which clung to his body. Though at first he had stood taller than the trees, he deigned to shrink some, lowering his head beneath the canopy. There were no eyes, no fair face, but instead the ever-changing blaze of a midday sun, glittering as if captured in the reflection of a pond. The Summer Lord's raiment billowed around him as he drew near, flowering rosettes all growing together, shining in his light. Here and there, amid the flowers, the alluring softness of the disparate petals, Ravenot could see an unlucky insect, or the stray feather of a bird caught in the false nectar. There were no footfalls, as the Summer Lord drifted along, seemingly carried by the breeze. His trunklike body bent, creaking as he leaned forward, his burning attention fixed upon Ravenot. "I thought I felt a shadow falling..." Ravenot touched a skeletal hand to that hollow place where once he'd had a heart, and bowed his head before the fey lord.

Until next time!

Taglist: @alexanderflowerbird @void-botanist @carmillasboywife @ceph-the-ghost-writer @wintherlywords @cream-and-tea

As always, let me know if you’d like to join or leave the taglist, and I’ll act accordingly. You can reply right on this post, if you’d like.

Divider by @/strangergraphics, from this set: here. Thank you!

[artykeldeo]

how i do my (coloring) shit

ok so literally nobody's gonna see this im just doing a tumblr post so i can compile as many fuckin images as i want

first step: do ya line art. bf from friday night funkin is gonna be our subject fo today note: put the white highlights on a separate layer

aight you followin? step two. ya phlat colors

set your lineart layer's blending mode to multiply (shown in the flat lineart color as well) while my lineart color is usually a very deep navy blue, this can also work with black

step three: make a clipping layer/lock the transparency over your line art and then color that shit to make it pop

i unhid the clipping to give you a general idea of what i did to help with my color picking. i hueshift depending on what i want it to look like and go from there. if i dont like the color, i adjust the saturation and/or the value to help with that there's no method to my madness, i just kinda do what i think looks good LOL

step four: shading time! use dark saturated tones to help with making it pop.

here's what the layer blending looks like at normal with 100% opacity

note how i'm mixing in multiple different colors that seem to mirror the tones in the lineart! not required, but helps keep a piece cohesive. mix in different values to really help with this!

step four addendum: this is not required at all but i definitely like the look of it. take your shading layer and duplicate it. take both shading layers to 100% opacity

now gaussian blur the duplicated layer to however you want the thing to look!

and then adjust accordingly!

there's nothing i do this for other than to give a softer look to my shading without wasting my time blending it lol

step 5: highlights :3 this is what REALLY makes the colors go off

do the same thing you did with your shading to add some more interest in the highlights! you can see this particularly where i did the hat highlights

you're basically done here LOL! buuuuut... if you're feeling quirky, you can read below for some extra stuff to make this boy pop!

have fun colorin shit!

EXTRA STEPS!

extra step one: ok so bear with me. y'all remember that fuckin pizza trend? u know this one

ok well do that and blur the hell outta it

also not required but might help: duplicate the pizza layer and use your different blending modes

lineart layer uses the pin light blending option at 100% opacity, the color layer uses overlay blending option at 70% opacity

extra step two: use highlights like you're using a white gel pen on a traditional piece

bada bing bada boom. there he is. the beeper!

hopefully this was coherent enough! if y'all have any questions, rb this post and ask in the tabs OR ask in my ask box! thank you guys so much!

[giovanni-solos]

Hello, How Are You?

- Day 3: Highschool au (with a smidge of the Sunset prompt)

Fair warning, I didn’t exactly write all of the day prompts yet so I’ll be going on hiatus until I’m off school for the weekend and have more free time, so maybe I’ll be dual posting missed prompts with current ones then? Hopefully i will. I’ll try.

And if not, this week has been a lot of fun and actually helped me distract myself from a lot of stressors. Seeing everybody come together for another DazAtsu week was fun and I’m glad to have been apart of it!

Read it on Ao3 or, right here.

The bell rings to signify the start of the break, Atsushi is pulled from his thoughts by the sound, still messing with the longer strands of his hair. Some of his peers put their tables together, others text friends to meet them here in class and a few walk out. Atsushi looks out the window at the clouded sky and watches them move slowly when his phone buzzes.

He pulls his phone out of his bag and looks at the message Dazai sent him, a low quality image he found somewhere on the internet followed up by “mom made extra food for you today, come eat���

With a fond smile and a soft sigh Atsushi gets out of his head, heading past the sliding doors into the school halls. He finds Dazai at the stairs already waiting for him with a smile and two small boxes, extending one to him as they meet on the steps.

“How was math? Bad?” Dazai asks him as they sit in the corner against the wall.

To which Atsushi replies in disdain; “I won’t be surprised if we both fail it this year and get held back”

“No no, I meant like the teacher. Is the teacher strict?” Dazai clarifies for him, Atsushi shrugs still unsure of that. “Well, hopefully not..”

They open up their lunches and dig into their food, occasionally stealing bites from eachother as they sit in comfortable silence. Not a lot of other students pass by this staircase, and for the past two years this is where they’ve been eating since the pair of boys met during their first year. It was a very stereotypical experience, they crashed into eachother and mixed up some stuff they were bringing to their teachers, and then just happened to keep meeting there.

“What university will you go to after graduation?” Atsushi explains, pausing before taking another bite of his food.

Dazai hums in thought, he hasn’t even bothered to look into any that are nearby and now Atsushi’s asking him?? He’ll know the truth just from the look on his face. “Uhh… isn’t it kind of early for that?”

“Well, I don’t think so.” Atsushi closes up the small container Dazai handed to him “I mean, I want to plan accordingly so I can keep being around you, you know that right?”

“Because you’ll get lonely without me pestering you?” Dazai asks smugly.

“Exactly that, yeah.”

“So you want to go to university with me?” The brunette chuckles. He doesn’t think anybody is nearby, he reaches out and interlocks his arm with Atsushi’s and scoots closer. “Are you sure?”

Atsushi nods happily at him and adjusts in his spot. “Of course I’m sure, because I know good things will happen if we both keep working hard together”

They’re close now, Atsushi has his arm around Dazai’s shoulder and their faces are mere inches apart. They hear the bell chime again telling them to return to their classes and both scramble to gather their things before parting ways again.

…

Atsushi is sitting back in his classroom daydreaming through the last ten minutes of school. The bell to go home rings and he’s the first to jump up from his seat and bolt out the door despite his teacher telling him to walk. Even Dazai can hardly catch up to him when Atsushi runs by to get outside.

“You’re too fast!” Dazai claims as he holds onto Atsushi’s bag, barely catching his breath. “Can’t we slow down???”

Atsushi pays him no mind, running to the crosswalk and crossing the street. They stop there and Dazai leans against a wall panting and out of breath.

“I-” Dazai gulps, standing up straight “listen I know you have to pick Kyouka up but can’t you slow down??”

“But I’m always right here when she gets out.” Atsushi comments as he heads toward a separate gate, “it’s my job to walk her to the station wether I go home or not”

Dazai wheezes, but he doesn’t complain again.

They wait together for a few minutes before a short looking girl runs up and hugs Atsushi from behind, his sister Kyouka who they gaurd on her way to the station. it’s a quiet walk, and when the station is in view she runs off on them to head home. While Atsushi however keeps following Dazai, and without her to look after that’s where all his attention goes.

“Want to stay for dinner tonight?” The brunette asks him kindly, “you can even stay after. The servers won’t finish updating until later so we’ve got time to kill.”

“Hmm. Sounds like a plan.” Is Atsushi’s quick response, they hold hands as they walk along the less crowded streets. the sun sets along their horizon and their shoulders bump together. This is all they need, a quiet moment to themselves.

[osarina]

hi carina !! havent been in ur inbox for a while, hru :)) i hope ur well >^< !!

i'm mainly here to ask if u have any writing tips/advice bc ur lit one of my fave bsd writers ever i adore all ur works sm and recently i've hated everything im writing ajkrnjekncvej SO IM WONDERING IF U HAVE ANY ADVICE CEJFCNJ (hopefully this isnt strange eabfihri)

you dont hafta answer this is u dont wanna btw !!! have a great day mwah <333

REDDDDDD MY SWEET LOVE BUG i've been doing okay!! work hasn't been as awful as i expected it to be, i rlly got lucky with my boss HAHAH - how are you doing?? you had exams right?? i hope they all went well!! sorry it took me so long to answer this one, but i wanted to actually be able to give u a good response so it had to wait until i had time i fear

IT'S NOT STRANGE, ur so sweet im giving u the softest forehead smooch. i'm sorry to hear you've been feeling that way about your writing though - i get it, trust me i do LOL, i go through days and weeks where i literally am revulsed by every word i put down in a doc. actually, i just went thru it like 2 days ago while writing the first chapter of civilian dazai so it's all fresh in the head LOL

honestly, i think the most important tip i have is really basic but u should never force yourself to write just for the sake of getting something out. like, i've done it before and whenever i do, i'm soooo unhappy with the results that it usually makes me go through a huge writing slump -> this happened with uu6 actually, i was so busy but i was trying to force the chapter out on time that i ended up rewriting it like 3 times because i hated it so much. finally i decided to move on to write some pmzai drabbles to clear my head & then came back to uu6 when i started feeling it again and behold, it came with ease. sometimes when i want to write but none of my wips are doing it for me, i'll literally conjure up a huge list of tropes and just read through it until one pops out to me LOL and then ill work on that

another i think basic piece of advice is reading. whether its fanfics, or novels, or whatever. whenever i have trouble liking what i write, i find something to read. reading is actually how i taught myself to write HAHAH my go tos are fantasy/scifi- tolkein, martin, herbert, rf kuang, i've been meaning to read sanderson but haven't had the time yet. honestly, in general, if i have free time and i'm not writing something, 9/10 i'm reading something.

i think plotting is also really important!! even for like one-shots, sometimes i get so lost in the writing that i lose focus of what the fic was originally supposed to be about and that frustrates me into deleting everything i've written. so something i do is i list out all of the scenes i want to see in a chapter or a one-shot before i start writing it so that i don't lose focus.

dialogue is a huge hurdle for me - sometimes i struggle to figure out whether or not my dialogue is realistic, so LOL sometimes i just sit there and speak it out loud, acting out a conversation with myself to see if it flows properly and then adjust accordingly. sometimes i do it for like descriptions/narration too if i think the narration isn't flowing or is too clunky. reading things out loud is a go-to way for me to figure out what's wrong with my writing.

and then lastly, this is more of a mental thing than anything else, but i've just slowly had to teach myself not to be too hard on myself. like i'll get so mad if something doesn't come out exactly how i envisioned it, and it used to genuinely make me so disappointed that i couldn't bring myself to write for days. so i've just slowly been working myself into a mentality telling myself that it doesn't have to be perfect to be great, yknow. and ten times out ten, you're seeing faults in your writing that no one else will take notice of.

so the whole tldr:

only write what you WANT to write, dont force urself to finish/write something

read when you can, whether its fanfic or novels or whatever u can get ur hands on

plot things out so you don't get lost

read things out loud that aren't making sense

work on not being so hard on yourself

[sicknessbysalem]

tw emeto, treatment, mentions of serious illness, single dialogue mention of another character suffering an overdose, self doubt

for all of those lovely readers who have been so eagerly waiting to figure out what’s up with kostya, here is your fic.

*kotyonok means kitten, there is other Ukrainian dialogue in the fic but it is answered to in english

if you have requests/comments/questions/concerns, send an ask (please i beg)

Kostya wants to hide in his hoodie the minute Amanda comes into the room.

Well, technically, legally, it’s Lana’s hoodie. Lana’s hoodie from high school at that. When he played sports, Kostya couldn’t remember which one right now.

“I’m sorry Kostya,” She said.

Kostya was sure that Amanda was a wonderful woman outside of the hospital. Really. But right now, shes the last person he wants to see. In fact, he tells himself he hates her. And in this kind of moment he does.

“It’s procedure,” Kostya said, giving in.

Amanda nodded, “Has anything changed?”

Kostya thought for a second. Anymore his thoughts were hazy. Days and nights blurred together. He couldn’t think.

Thankfully he doesn’t have to. Lana looks at him and offers a reassuring smile, “You want me to start?”

Kostya nodded, pulling up his sleeve so Amanda had access to the vein she needed.

“So, then Lana,” Amanda said, “Anything new? The same?”

“The things I know about are the fatigue, the nausea, the lightheadedness, and the lack of appetite,” Lana said, shrugging.

It’s enough for Kostya to take over, “Headaches, sensitivity, cold a lot, lots of feeling like I might pass out but…”

“Have you passed out at all since last week’s appointment?” Amanda asked.

“Sunday afternoon,” Lana answered. Lana heard Kostya sigh defeatedly and click his tongue. “We went grocery shopping. And yes, yes I know he shouldn’t go out more than he needs to but-“

“It’s alright Lana,” Amanda said, “What happened?”

“He was fine… like at the store and everything, it was after we put everything up he just…” Lana tried to explain.

“I remember getting dizzy and grabbing the counter, next thing I know you somehow moved me and I was waking up on the couch.” Kostya said.

Amanda frowned, “Sounds like overexertion.”

Kostya nodded slowly.

“What about everything else?” Amanda said, “Bruising? Nosebleeds? Or your gums when you brush your teeth?”

Kostya nodded, “They don’t happen as much. Well, I mean I was anemic before this all happened so I’m used to bruising and my gums bleeding. I had a nosebleed… I think Monday?”

“Did you feel dizzy or anything after?” Amanda asked, getting Kostya set up.

“Dizzy, but I sat down and Lana grabbed some water so I was fine,” Kostya said.

“I think you’re down to get another round of blood work next week,” Amanda said, “We’ll see how the disease is behaving. Better, worse, the same. And we’ll adjust your treatment accordingly.”

Kostya nodded, “I’m just ready for it to be over… I don’t like feeling sick all the time.”

“Unfortunately thats what the aplastic anemia does,” Amanda shrugged, “It’s not cancer. But things like leukemia and others… well, they do the same. But, that’s why you get these sessions.”

Kostya nodded again, “I know. I just…. Hate it.”

-

The sterile hospital room was filled with the soft hum of machinery as Kostya settled into the treatment chair.

At first, Lana's touch was gentle and comforting, his hand softly petting Kostya's hair as they waited for the treatment to begin.

At the start. There was small conversation. Kostya hated silence when he was here. He hated it.

“How’s your album coming?” Kostya asked, shifting to look up at Lana.

“Slowly,” Lana said, “Lex is great. Soren too. The girls are phenomenal. But it’s still not the same without you.”

“Hopefully after next week’s blood work they might clear me to go to the studio and work again,” Kostya shrugged. He really hoped they would. He missed working in the studio. Missed going with Lana. Missed everything.

Lana continued stroking his hand over Kostya’s bangs, “Hopefully. But I promise, nobody is upset about you not being able to work. Well, nobody but you.”

“It just sucks,” Kostya said, “I mean Lex was back after three months and I’ve been out for six… it sucks.”

“I know,” Lana said, “But Lex’s situation was different than yours is right now. Neither were worse or better. But they are different.”

“Still, feels shitty that he was able to go back to both music and paramedic work in less time than I’ve been away because of-“

“You have aplastic anemia,” Lana said, “You get chemotherapy three times a week. Lex suffered an overdose that miraculously did minimal long term damage. You both lucked out to an extent, he’s alive and functional as before and you have this, not leukemia. But what you’re going through takes more out of you than Lex’s circumstances did to him.”

Kostya nodded. Lana was right. It wasn’t fair to compare his circumstances to Lex, he knew that. But it still messed with him more than he wanted to admit.

Lana continued petting his hair and Kostya leaned into the affection, grateful for Lana's comfort.

As the clock ticked on and the treatment round progressed, Kostya's symptoms started to show up.

First there was no conversation on Kostya’s end. Lana was talking, Lana always talked to fill the silence. The chemicals coursing through his veins left him feeling dizzy and nauseous, a familiar yet unwelcome sensation that he had grown accustomed to enduring.

Lana noticed the subtle shift in Kostya's demeanor, the way his breathing became shallow and his complexion paled.

He continued for a little bit, talking and petting Kostya’s hair. But as soon as he felt sweat on Kostya’s forehead, he stopped. Sensing that physical contact might exacerbate Kostya's discomfort, Lana withdrew his hand, giving Kostya space while still remaining by his side.

Kostya appreciated Lana's understanding, knowing that Lana was trying to support him in the best way possible.

"You're doing great, kotyonok," Lana whispered, offering words of encouragement as Kostya closed his eyes, trying to focus on something other than the queasiness in his stomach.

But Kostya's condition continued to deteriorate despite Lana's efforts to provide comfort. His nausea intensified, accompanied by waves of dizziness that left him feeling disoriented and weak. He struggled to maintain his composure, his hands gripping the armrests of the treatment chair tightly as he tried to ride out the discomfort.

Lana's concern deepened as he watched Kostya's distress escalate.

"Kotyonok, you look like you’re going to be sick…" Lana said gently, his voice filled with worry.

Kostya forced a weak smile, trying to mask the severity of his symptoms. "I'm okay, Lana," he replied, his voice trembling slightly.

He hoped that convincing himself he wouldn't be sick would somehow keep the nausea at bay, but deep down, he knew it was a losing battle.

Lana's voice faded into the background as Kostya's focus shifted to the overwhelming urge to throw up. He clenched his jaw, trying to hold back the inevitable, but his body had other plans.

As the minutes passed, Kostya's condition only worsened. The queasiness in his stomach became unbearable, and he could feel the telltale signs of an impending bout of vomiting.

Lana heard Kostya’s breaths grow more shallow. Panicked. He was already on his feet grabbing the basin when Kostya finally spoke up.

"I-I think I need..." Kostya's words were cut off as he leaned over the basin, retching uncontrollably as the contents of his stomach emptied in a violent upheaval.

Lana's heart ached at the sight of Kostya's suffering. He wanted nothing more than to take away his pain and discomfort.

"It's okay, kotyonok. Let it out," Lana murmured, his voice filled with empathy. He knew that this was part of the harsh reality of chemotherapy, a necessary but grueling process that took a toll on Kostya's already fragile health.

Instinctively, Lana found himself starting to rub Kostya’s back. A lapse in judgement. Kostya reached far enough to nudge Lana’s hand off of him, hoping that was the last of the vomiting but knowing there was more.

Lana's heart sank as Kostya nudged his hand away, a silent indication of his discomfort with physical contact during moments of nausea. Lana immediately withdrew, cursing himself for the lapse in judgment. He knew better than to touch Kostya during these moments, but his concern had momentarily overridden his better judgment.

"Oh kotyonok… I'm sorry," Lana whispered, stepping back and giving Kostya the space he needed to cope with the intense nausea.

He felt a pang of guilt for adding to Kostya's distress, even unintentionally.

Kostya continued to retch into the basin, his body convulsing with each wave of sickness. Lana watched helplessly, wishing there was more he could do to ease Kostya's suffering.

After what felt like an eternity, Kostya's stomach finally settled, leaving him exhausted and drained. He leaned back in the treatment chair, his breathing labored and his face pale.

Kostya felt dizzy. Almost lightheaded even. Throwing up took more energy out of kostya than he was sure he had, and the thought of getting up and getting out to the car, let alone going home, felt like more than Kostya could handle.

And yet he wanted nothing more than to go back home. To lay down in his room. To be anywhere but here and sleep all this off.

His breathing was the first thing he noticed. It was shallow, breathless. More than usual. Definitely because of the lack of energy, existing alone was taking too much energy.

“Hey… kotyonok, you okay?” Lana asked softly.

Kostya shook his head, “meni… meni ne po sobi…”

Even though it was his mother tongue, the words felt so foreign coming out.

“I know, I’m sorry,” Lana said softly, grabbing Kostya’s hand and rubbing his thumb on the back of Kostya’s hand, “But we can go home soon and you can sleep this off.”

Kostya shifted, pulling the hood up, covering his eyes. Lana's worry deepened as he observed Kostya's exhausted state. The toll of the vomiting was evident, and Lana wished he could do more to alleviate Kostya's discomfort.

Just then, a gentle knock on the door signaled the arrival of a nurse. Amanda is back.

"Excuse me, Kostya," Amanda said softly as she entered the room, her voice carrying a reassuring tone. "We're almost done with your treatment. I know it's been tough, but you're doing great."

“He got sick, and he’s exhausted,” Lana said.

“Ya mozhу hovoryty za sebe,” Kostya said.

“You’re so tired you’re speaking Ukrainian,” Lana said, “I don’t doubt Amanda is smart but I highly doubt she can speak Ukrainian. I don’t think she’ll be much help if you speak for yourself.”

“I can see that,” Amanda said softly, “Are you still nauseous Kostya?”

Kostya managed a weak nod.

The nurse approached Kostya's chair, carrying a small tray with a cup of water and a packet of anti-nausea medication.

“I have some medication here that should help with the nausea," she explained, handing the packet to Kostya. "It might make you feel a bit drowsy, but it should provide some relief."

Kostya accepted the medication gratefully, pulling his hood back and swallowing it with a sip of water. He leaned back in the chair, closing his eyes as he hoped for the medication to take effect soon.

"Thank you, Amanda," Lana said softly, as Amanda started getting Kostya ready to go, "We appreciate everything you do."

Amanda smiled warmly. "It's my pleasure. Just remember to take it easy for the rest of the day, Kostya," she advised before leaving the room.

As the effects of the medication started to kick in and Kostya's nausea gradually subsided, Lana felt a sense of relief wash over him.

“Do you want to wait it out?” Lana asked, “Or do you want me to help you out of here?”

Kostya hummed, thinking, before sighing softly, “Ya khochu piti…”

“Okay, we can leave,” Lana said, helping Kostya stand. “I’ve got you. I promise.”

[salvadorbonaparte]

weighing in on the ppl telling you not to study in the US—I am living in Germany now for my MA and studied undergrad in the US. I would actually argue the academic rigor in the US is a strong contender for why you might want to go! But there are some very important things to consider about the state of public transport wherever it is you’re going. My US uni had a uni bus system and technically buses within the city area, but cars were and are the main way to travel in most US small-medium (and even large!) cities with the exception of a select few. Can you reach a supermarket with a bus? Is it a cheap one or overpriced because they are taking advantage of folks without car access? Can you reach medical facilities or a PCP in your plan with transport? Is accommodation easily accessible within the areas public transit serves? These may not necessarily be deal breakers for you (they weren’t for me, it was fine), but people do ride share or taxi to these locations because of the difficulties associated with getting to them. Obviously, if you’re in NYC, this will not be an issue, but prices will be like nothing you’ve experienced before (but hopefully your compensation is adjusted accordingly!! If you have any thoughts on commuting into NYC from NJ, I have lots of experience lol).

Separately (and I’m sure you’re doing this), look and see if the PhD students have had any recent complaints or strikes. My uni (comparable to Amherst as a public institution) recently had a several week strike over working conditions for PhD students. May be worth seeing if they’ve made any gains, or if folks have long standing issues with the administration. Just food for thought, I’m sure most unis or locations have their own issues, and I really cannot deny that within the US itself you will be able to practice quite a few languages if you’re lucky.

Happy to answer any questions you might otherwise have, and good luck! I’ve been following you for what feels like ages, and your MA application journey really inspired me with mine :)

The places I'm looking at are NYC and Amherst and the first has a good public transport system and the other a free public transport system I've been told works well enough (and my standards are low by now).

I've actually thinking about commuting from NJ and would love some input. I'd be getting a fair amount of money but I know it's also a very expensive city.

My undergrad uni had like three strikes while I was studying there so I'd be able to handle that. I've been told Amherst is unionised which sounds good.

[thana-topsy]

You mentioned liking character healing and improvement arcs..

If Neloth DID magically spawn out of spite, would you try to fix him or would you back off? Why?

If you’d fix him, what do you think it would take? Do you personally believe it would work?

Though Neloth being alive isn’t realistic at all (I hope.), this is an on earth irl scenario

Oh what a fun question and I'm going to take it way too seriously... so unhinged rambling below the cut.

So for one, I absolutely love healing and redemption arcs, and I've written quite a few, but never does it actually involve "fixing" anyone. Saying "I could fix him" is a fun meme, but an absolutely bunk practice. It implies that I am somehow the arbiter of what someone should be like, and that it is within my power to mold them into my perfect idea of who they should be. It takes away the other person's agency completely. So while I'll use it jokingly, and while I (as the author) have godlike control over my characters in a sense, once I put them onto the page with their own logic and motivations, I just stick them in scenarios and then they play things out according to the logic and motivations that I've given them. In this sense, they have the closest approximation to "free will" as any fictional character can feasibly have. Obviously, plots are plots, and I, as their God, have my own motivations and ideas, but I'm a very flexible God, and if they react in a situation that takes the plot in a different direction, I adapt accordingly.

OKAY BUT TO YOUR ACTUAL QUESTION: If Neloth turned up on my front porch tomorrow, in our world, would I try to fix him? Obviously my answer is 'no'. I think Neloth is wonderful the way he is. But I would attempt to befriend him and earn his trust. And...I'd probably try to get him back to his reality.

In this scenario I can only assume his connection to Magnus has been severed by crossing into our reality. So he's magic-less, which will be a pretty traumatizing thing to experience, especially for someone like Neloth. It may very well kill him, if my headcanons about magicka extending his life are proven to be true, and if that was the case, I'd just make him comfortable until he either died or I could get him back to Tamriel.

If he isn't immediately withering away, we'd probably be able to settle into a routine as begrudging roommates after a bit of an adjustment period. I think through the trauma of losing his magic and being in a situation that is entirely out of his control, he'll be a little difficult to be around at first. Probably very unpleasant, honestly. But I think I could teach him about our world and get him interested in science to the point that he'd keep himself occupied and probably would take up experimentation. I feel like the man would love theoretical physics.

Would we fall in love? Probably not. And besides, I have a husband, and while he likes Neloth, I don't think he feels that way about him. So we won't be bringing a third into our marriage, not even a Telvanni wizard.

Hopefully I'd be able to get this poor elf back to his reality, but if not I'd love having him in my life, in whatever capacity, until he didn't want to be in my life anymore.

Thanks for such a fun question and for enabling me! I am out of control.

[tjemegames]

HSR: 2.4.1 AS, 2.4.1 PF, & 2.4.2 MoC Recaps

Another patch has come and gone which means it is once again time for me, your resident yapper, to talk about my endgame experience.

As previously mentioned in my last EGC recap post, the format for these has changed; I’ll be walking you through my thoughts and feelings for the last cycle of all three modes in this post. The sections were drafted out on the days that I completed the challenges (unlike past recaps), so you’re getting a better insight this time around.

I’ve also started filming my clears for the highest level of each mode because it seemed like a fun thing to include: the videos are meant to be a visual representation of my struggles/triumphs within the hardest parts of endgame. These videos are not guides; they’re just the raw footage of my completion runs, and solely intended for the enjoyment of anyone who might be interested in that type of thing. The videos are hosted on my YouTube so I’ll embed all three of them here (the section headings will also lead to them just in case something glitches out) for quick access.

As always, apologies for the image distortion: long photos and Tumblr do not mix well.

Alright, with all that out of the way, the yapping begins under the cut!

2.4.1 Apocalyptic Shadow

Dominated Evils was a very fitting name for this cycle of AS. Overall, it wasn’t very difficult to complete; I got my twelve stars within a total of three challenge waves!

I probably could’ve finished with two waves, but I decided to try the follow-up buff; relying on Aventurine was not the way to go here, I should've changed to the basic atk + additional dmg to weakness broken enemies buff. I won’t lie to you, DHIL dying (I wasn’t paying attention to my shield duration) and Hanya being slower than Tingyun during my initial attempt were also large factors in needing to reset. Once my relics were adjusted accordingly, I was able to put in a decent attempt.

Aventurine was very helpful for resisting Kafka’s domination and avoiding being frozen by the elites. I'm glad that the eff res buff from his shields worked in my favor on this side; if DHIL had gotten cc’d it would've set me back even more than I already was with the bad plays I was making. I should've reset when I messed up my rotation at 1655 AV, but I was being stubborn, so it is what it is.

Here are the builds I used for IV-I:

The Doomsday Beast felt much easier to deal with. Not sure if it’s because the team was better or simply because I was able to dispel any cc that happened with Gallager. The ease could also have been attributed to the fact that I didn’t have to think about skill points (thanks to Boothill’s e1) and knew exactly how my rotation was going to go regardless of how things played out. At the end of the day, this side carried the overall run and, ultimately, got me 27 points over the score that I needed to get. I could always try again to see if a better score is attainable, but I’ve already gotten the rewards so there’s no incentive left to make that worthwhile.

These are the builds I used for IV-II:

800 jades down, and two more endgame modes left for this cycle. Hopefully we’re in for another queen sweep!

Oh hey, look who’s back. Aha. So, there may not have been any incentive to try for a better score, but that didn't stop me from being motivated into doing so by the DHIL clear one of my discord friends did. Since I'm not usually one for “casual gaming” (which is not causal in the slightest), I only gave myself 12 reset attempts to achieve as high of a score as possible on IV-I:

First three resets: +203 points, bringing me up to 3198

Next three: +97 more points, taking me up to a grand total of 3295 (yippee!)

Last six: absolutely abysmal, I got endlessly cc’d and DHIL/Tingyun got obliterated every other run

Sadly, I couldn’t get to 7K points like I had been hoping, but I’m still pumped to have gotten as close as I did. And, on top of that, taking a second crack at IV-I allowed me to get new (shorter, far less embarrassing) footage of my DHIL clear. Doing so meant that I had to re-edit and re-upload the video for it; that was probably for the better though, nobody needed to watch me poorly battle Kafka for twelve minutes...

Anyway, that’s officially a wrap on AS for this patch!

Um, hey again. When I was reviewing the challenge data for the last set of attempts, I realized that I never changed my chosen buff for the first side (please hold for the internalized screaming at my unintentional self-sabotage.) Naturally, I gave AS one more shot with the correct buff equipped:

First reset: +46 points, bringing me up to 6973

Final reset: +153 points, making a grand total of 7126 (yippee! but with more excitement)

Over 7K points achieved! I'm free, for real this time. Can't believe I let the casual gaming demons get to me for Apocalyptic Shadow of all things. I think it's safe to say that I've sufficiently played though this mode for this patch. I'm interested to see what they do with the next one. My money is currently on having to fight Yanqing. We'll see if I was right about that in the next one of these.

What’s poppin’? It’s been two weeks, and I found myself back in AS because I rolled a great new piece for my resident dragon boy, Mr. Daniel Heng, the cuntiest dragon on the silver rails. I can’t add the build showcase here—I’ll hit my image limit early if I do—but trust me when I say it was a solid upgrade: the head rolled well enough to bump me up by 51 places on the SeeleLand leaderboards. I’m currently ranking in the top 1% of DHIL players (in my area) using the same build—number 26 to be exact! The new ranking motivated another set of runs out of me and I was able to increase my overall AS score by 102 points:

IV-I: Kafka vs e2 DHIL, e2 Hanya, e6 Tingyun, e0s1 Aventurine (3515 points)

IV-II: Doomsday Beast vs e2s1 Boothill, e1s1 Ruan Mei, e1 Bronya, e6 Gallagher (3713 points)

Totaling out for a final grand score of 7228 points with 25 cumulative challenge attempts! Great stuff, a genuinely fun time: Apocalyptic Shadow is quickly working its way towards being my favorite of the endgame modes. Since I’m quite satisfied with how everything played out, that’s a wrap on this section!

I also recorded a Honkai: Support Rail bonus run of IV-I with E4 Dan Heng (4-star) if you’re interested in seeing that!

2.4.1 Pure Fiction

Words of Deceit was [redacted colorful complaining]. I didn't think it was possible for my hatred towards PF to increase, but here we are. I’ll admit that it was partially my fault for being both sleepy and hangry. I’d argue that it was mostly the whimsicality's fault for being rather ineffective overall, felt like sabotage to me. It's fine though, I managed to obtain all twelve stars within ten attempts (yippee!)

Clearing this time around would've been a lot worse without team suggestions from discord—big shoutout and thanks to the folks there for their encouragement and assistance!

So, this PF was the fastest I've ever cleared. It was also the most frustrated I've been whilst playing this mode. Usually, the struggle only applies to stage IV; this time around, stage III was the reason for my infuriation. I sincerely don't know what came over me, but I was malding enough to have to force myself to go back to sleep. I tried four different teams and couldn't hit 60K points: the closest I came was just over 59K and that was with all of my focus and Frankensteining together better builds for every character that I tried to use. It was tragic to say the least. Ultimately, sleep, food, fresh eyes, and the 8th attempt were the saving graces that allowed me to move on to the true challenge, stage IV.

Stage IV took significantly less tries; I only ended up taking two attempts to get the three-star clear! Aside from having to change my buffs and making sure that my speed tuning was right for IV-II, I didn't have to put in all that much effort. Still a bit baffled by that if I'm being honest: I thought I was in for a very tumultuous experience considering how the previous stage had gone. Thankfully, that was not the case, and I can move on from this for the time being.

These are the builds I used for IV-I:

Some of Herta’s stat information is incorrect because she was actually lvl 60 at the time of this run; Fribbels only generates maxed out showcases and I wanted the pictures to match. :)

These are the builds I used for IV-II:

Not the best, not the worst. I got it done and that's really all that matters. Another 800 jades added to the Sparkle funds!

Well, well, well, look how the turn tables. Hello again, it's been a few weeks since wrapping up my clear. I pulled Sparkle, motivating me to go back into PF for some casual gaming (I know, two endgame modes in a row—I've stumbled down a dark path this patch.) This third round of attempts went much worse than I was hoping for. I did manage to get a better clear, so I decided to have that be my representational video instead. It took so many tries that I'm afraid to go look at the updated info on Hoyolab. I think it's better for my overall happiness and sanity if I let that remain a mystery—high score chasing at its finest (I have so many regrets. Why did I do this to myself?)

In the end, I was able to increase my score by 4129 points:

IV-I: Kafka vs e1s1 Ruan Mei, e0 Seele, e0s1 Aventurine, e6 Herta (40000 points)

IV-II: Cocolia vs e1 Bronya, e6 Asta, e6 Gallagher, e6 Serval (27805 points)

I went through a good amount of team lineups, relic swapping, buff changing, and character upgrading to make this happen. Desperate times called for desperate measures, I was so hung up on getting a better clear that I leveled Herta to 80 and 6/10/10/11'd her traces. I had not planned on doing that for at least a couple more patches since her relics are still a bit trash, but it was the most effective option that I had at the time. Doing so made getting to 40K points on IV-I possible, which was most of the point increase, so I'd say it was worth it.

Now, IV-II was painful. I can't explain my thought process here because there wasn't really one to begin with. Serval gaming is fine for what it is. I genuinely do not think that it was possible for me to hit 30K on this side at all. Don't doubt that I tried every sensible double dps comp that I could, because I did, and failed miserably. Swapping Aventurine and Gallagher didn't work; using Sparkle didn't work; hell, even stealing the entirety of Seele's team didn't work! I don't know what else I could've done… and I'm over it, so we're moving on.

At the end of this excursion, I don't have anything good to say about PF. It does not spark joy for me. Hopefully that changes some day; Himeko will save me once she decides to grace me with her presence, she is the vital unit that I am missing to achieve greatness. Until then, I'll just have to ride with it. I'll keep working on my characters and, eventually, clearing will go better for me.

That's a wrap on this section. I'm 1000% burnt out on PF after this whole ordeal. I don't want to think about it anymore.

2.4.2 Memory of Chaos

The Big Sleep was a snoozefest: I got all twelve stars without any resets this time around! And I four-cycled floor XII for the first time! You absolutely love to see it. I can't believe that just nine months ago I couldn't even get through floor VIII without wanting to cry from frustration. Oh, how the times have changed.

Since this challenge flew by with ease, I don’t have much to say about it. I was a big fan of the buff this time around; I love it when the buff is universal and aligns with pretty much anyone I want to play with. I foresee a lot of casual gaming in my future.

With the help of my newest addition, Sparkle, I was able to clear the first half with renewed efficiency. Daniel and Hanya have been separated after nine months of partnership, it feels so good to no longer have to hyperactively think about my skill point usage. I knew that Sparkle was going to be a large upgrade for my DHIL team, but I didn’t think she would shave off four cycles worth of turns (and I haven’t even finished her build yet! Like huh??? She’s great, I’m a big fan.)

Here are the builds I used for XII-I:

The second side faired just about as well as the first. Boothill shredded Aventurine down before he even got the chance to take me into a showdown. As much as I love Aven, I hate his boss form, so it felt incredibly satisfying to enact my revenge on him after struggling so much against him the first time he was introduced into endgame. No more are the days of having to make Jingliu brute force her way through the dice rolls (thank the Aeons!)

These are the builds I used for XII-II:

Another one for the books! Got the final 800 jades for this patch, this time to be added to the Feixiao funds (yes, I’m pulling for her now. You may call me a hypocrite this once. I will be betraying Danny boy by going for a new and improved wind hunt unit. This is a stain on my pride as a four-star Dan stan; unfortunately for him, Feixiao’s hot, clever, strong, one hell of a badass General with dope animations and a back tattoo that fucking glows, brother. What kind of gay would I be if I didn’t at least throw a solid 50 or so pulls in her direction? Have you seen the lesbian kryptonite of a banner lineup that’s coming in 2.5?? It’ll be a miracle if I go into 2.6 with any savings at all!)

Surprise, surprise, the prodigal gamer returns. Did you really think I was going to one and done this mode after casual gaming all patch long? Not much to report aside from going back in with my original teams to try for a cleaner run. My efforts were well worth it, I managed to shave off a cycle from my original clear, netting me with my first ever three-cycle in MoC 12 (yippee!)

Whoop whoop! We're officially wrapped on all the endgame modes for 2.4! What a yapfest this was, I cannot believe I prattled on for this long. If you made it all the way here, thanks for sticking with me until the end. I'll catch y'all in about six weeks for the next recap.

[aikoiya]

Arcane Prompt - JayVik x Female Who Struggles With Emotional Blunting

JayVik x Fem!Reader who struggles with dysthymia, her symptoms being anhedonia (lack of enjoyment), apathy, & lack of motivation. Generally very stoic due to past trauma, she's working through it slowly.

This tends to make her a very level-headed, down-to-earth, rational, logical, & reasonable person, who tries to see both sides of an argument before making decisions. She operates on logic & is a very introspective person. Is often the mediator in fights due to these things. Often, she will sit down with one side of the argument to listen to their perspective before approaching the other side to relay their feelings in a way that the other can understand. Then, she'll listen to the other argumentor to get their perspective & feelings before relaying that to the first in a way that they can hopefully understand as well. All the while giving comfort when needed.

This tends to make her come across as a bit of a busy body & nosy, but honestly, she just wants people to understand each other.

In this way, she becomes a middlewoman or fight translator.

Very much enjoys debate, especially civilized debate where both sides are open to each others' arguments & willing to admit when the other has a point, thus adjusting their perspectives accordingly. Is quite skilled in diplomacy, but does not dance around issues. Instead being very forthright & honest, at times even being very blunt.

Will give a little chuckle of appreciation if she thinks a joke is clever or witty enough even if it didn't quite strike her funny bone.

Has high emotional intelligence or intuition due to the years of her trying to overcome her own lack of emotions despite having very low empathy. Legitimately wants to be a good person if for no other reason than because she wants to.

Despite having blunted emotions, she tries to be an empathetic & compassionate person despite typically not feeling much for those around her. Going out of her way to try & understand the perspectives of those around her.

She can feel, just not very much unless a chord has been struck inside her just right.

Like, you know you're funny if you have her breathless & in tears from laughing. I can see Jayce & Viktor both becoming enamored with her genuine laugh & becoming determined to make her make that sound as much as possible.

Though, on the flipside, when she cries, she's very quiet & tries to refrain from making sound. A silent sufferer.

Or when, like say, a new installment of her absolute favorite book series comes out & she becomes a giggly, wiggling mess to express her excitement.

Other than in these specific situations, her emotions are little more than twinges.

Sassy & kind, enjoys making dry jokes because even if she has trouble feeling, she likes to see others smile & laugh.

If either of her boys are going through things, pays expressed attention to them & makes sure that they know that she's there for them. Making herself emotionally available for them. Is well versed in the art of comforting & easily steps into the spot of someone's rock. Even if all they let her do is sit there with them quietly, holding their hand as they process their emotions.

Her motivation is very, very low due to her condition, so it takes a herculean effort on her part to move forward. Despite that, her determination is insane, so that helps. However, because of this, her forward progression feels empty at times.

She resents her emotional bunting, wishing that she could feel more as she finds that it hampers her enjoyment of life. Yet, despite this, she still tries to live her life as full as possible.

Studies psychology & neurology in an attempt to better understand herself & others.

Because of this, Reader is very, very against Viktor getting rid of his emotions. It's one of the few times that she actually feels the heat of real anger in her chest because it's like he thought her struggles were inconsequential.

So, she laid it out like he was a 3 year old. No emotions means no motivation or desires. No motivation or desires means no moving unless you have to. Then, if he actually manages to get rid of all his physical needs (which is impossible with the current level of technology; as it stands, organic brains are still FAR superior to anything technology could make for information storage, data processing, logic, & problem solving, at least in terms of space; which would mean that he'd still need blood, oxygen, food, & sleep to keep his brain alive & healthy due to the brain being made of cells & cells require oxygen to work correctly, while the brain requires fuel from food, which is broken down into usable nutrients by the stomach & then brought to the brain via the blood; meaning he requires, at the very least, his brain, heart, lungs, & stomach), he won't move at all unless he has an internalized program forcing him to do things. At which point, he'll have stripped away his own free will, turning himself into a big, metal puppet.

Reader: "If you won't listen to the woman who personally experiences a lack of emotion & struggles with it daily, wishing with what little want that she can muster that she could really, truly enjoy life again. Then, maybe you'll listen to the woman who's been studying the human mind for years & can back up what she says with scientific facts. Oh, wait! They're both me! Maybe emotions do color one's logic, but only if you let them control you rather than the other way around. It's better than living a drab, colorless life where nothing really, truly matters to you! I live in quiet dread that I might one day wake up & feel absolutely nothing for anyone or anything especially you & Jayce. I can live with your other augmentations. I'll miss your skin & your warmth & your heartbeat, but I'll move on eventually if you get rid of them, but please, Viktor, don't get rid of your emotions!"

All as quiet tears slowly begin to trickle down her cheeks.

Viktor will have never seen her so distressed before in all the time they've known each other.

[bboisawesome]

Probably lmk season 4 spoilers. I type things and rant without thinking so, just a fair warning.

We good?

Okay….

First things first…

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

WHAT!?!?

I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN!!! HOW DO I BEGIN!?!?

I just wanna say, I might have missed certain contexts because I watched English sub on YouTube, and I was freaking out the whole time. So if there is something I miss or misunderstand that might be why.

I guess some simple thoughts is where I’ll start?

Official monkey MK design!! How are y’all feeling about that one!?!? My boi was glitching and I felt real bad for him!

I couldn’t really tell if they were trying to say he was also born from a stone, or if Monkey King somehow made him? Or…what? Or if it was purposely vague just so they could do the whole, “It doesn’t really matter who you are, you are who you choose to be thing.” I was slightly confused and freaking out.

Either way, I was screaming the whole time. I died when MK called Pigsy his dad, because yes! He is. And my boi Pigsy really had the gall to say he was more of a godfather!?!?!? MK says you’re a dad? You’re a dad!

Which also, MK kind of went ahead with calling Azure Lion Uncle, soooo…confirmed Wukong dad as well?

MK getting all the dad’s and uncles. Kind of jealous. Even if some of them are causing issues. Especially Azure. Not cool dude.

They really heightened the MK angst this season and AAAH!! I can’t handle it!

Seeing the crew with the old crews weapons and stuff was super cool too! I like how during the training scene they had qualities that their past lives or ancestors or whatever hadn’t learned or learned as quickly. But that didn’t mean they couldn’t also learn from the past. Mei is awesome, but I agree girl has to plan ahead more and stuff. I love her to death though.

Pigsy’s was nice to see. (Also soup bending from my man Pigsy.) He may be a bit tough on the outside, but he really does care for his friends and family, and I love that! Now he just needs to get super strong to help them out!

Calling Tang out was funny. My poor useless scholar shall be useless no more! Flex those brain and courage muscles boi! It was so cool to see more of Tang’s abilities!

And Sandy was perfect all along. I always knew it. 😌 I love how the dude kept sticking silver stars on him. 😂😂 His only flaw? Maybe being a little TOO nice. But, even Sandy knew that and can probably adjust accordingly. He had that character growth in season 2. 😂

Usually I like torturing characters I like, but seeing MK suffering and sad made me sad, and I just wanted someone to hug him. Which he got when reunited and getting his friends out of heaven! So I’ll take it! My boi was still glitching though. Someone gotta do something about that.

There was just so much, I can’t even think of it all or what I want to say or do, besides screaming. Plus I was a little confused in places because I am dumb and it is late. I am definitely gonna rewatch a couple times, and absolutely rewatch when the dub comes out! So maybe my thoughts will be in better order by then? Hopefully I’ll process it more by the time the special or finale comes out? Whichever it may be?

Until then, sorry for my insane ramblings. I just needed to process and yell some more.

I don’t even know how I’m gonna sleep or go to work tomorrow like a normal person! Especially after that cliffhanger!!! AAAAH!!

Definitely gonna look for something to draw too! I need to draw something! Okay, okay…I’m chill. I’m cool. See y’all later, and I hope you can process this new season well.

[justagalwhowrites]

Im thinking of writing a book, do you have any tips to get started? Just planning out the plot, characters and whatnot

OMG HI BESTIE!

I'm so excited for you to write a book!!! That's amazing!! It's going to be fabulous :D

So I may not be the very best person to ask about this? My creative writing is all pretty intuitive but I can share with you how I think about stories (both fics and novels) and how I approach writing. Hopefully you find it helpful?

To start with, I decide the kind of story I want to tell. This is often very vague at this stage (for fics, it'll be a universe I find interesting.) Using Lavender as an example, I started with "What would it be like for someone to love Joel through his trauma?"

Then, I think up a character I want to write (all my books and fics have female POV main characters so I'll be using she/her pronouns throughout for this.) Who is she as a person? What are her core drives? What's made her into the person she is today? What does her daily routine look like? What about her makes her friends go "Oh that's so her thing"? What is going to drive her to action? For Doc, she's defined by her loving and caring nature. She tries to overcome her feelings of abandonment and loss by loving people very hard. She loves the soft and beautiful things about life and tries to make the sad, dismal things in her life better by making them beautiful. She appreciates small things and often finds motivation through small things. She is a caretaker by nature and will do damn near anything to help someone, especially if it's someone she loves.

Next, I pick a starting point and and ending point for the story. Usually, the starting point is right around the time that things change in a characters life and the core conflict/arc is going to be introduced. The end point is when that is resolved. For Lavender, the story starts just as Doc and Joel first start to become more than friends. I'll keep quiet about where it ends for now :)

Then, I look at what changes need to happen to a character to get them to the end point and make them who they are to meet that resolution. I'll design plot points accordingly. For Doc, I wanted her to be able to empathize with Joel's trauma, so I put in McCarthy, the death of Jessica and the miscarriage. Then thought through how she'd respond to those things, how Joel would respond to those things, etc. I wanted to make sure they stayed connected and tried to create an immersive reality with the QZ so I set up some conflicts within the QZ for them to navigate and tried to place those conflicts appropriately in the story. I wanted Doc to have some romantic ties outside of Joel that would drive Joel to reflect and start to change, hence the Tommy arc. All things designed to drive the characters forward through the plot.

Finally, once I think I've got the big plot points down and I think I know how I'm getting characters from point a to point b, I just kind of write it out. Sometimes a conflict will rise and resolve in a chapter, sometimes it will take 3 or 4. I try to not force it and let the characters drive the action. My plots stay a bit fluid because of this - I don't like shoehorning characters into unnatural places. That can lead to some unplanned detours, though! (In Beskar Doll, Din and Doll weren't supposed to actually have sex until after the Tatooine arc but it ended up happening damn near 10 chapters sooner because it just didn't make sense for them to NOT do it anymore. Things adjusted accordingly.)

Anyway, that's kind of my method! I'm not sure I can fully recommend it but it does work really well for me. I think you need to kind of decide if you want character or plot to be the main driver of your action and kind of plan accordingly? For me, it's always felt like the characters can exist and do things without the plot so that's where everything kind of flows from.

Thank you for asking! I'm sorry this was 1.7 million years long but I hope it helped. Love you!!

[enjoycameralife]

Asakusa, Tokyo

and my trip to Tokyo comes to an end with a full day of wandering around waiting for my midnight flight back to KL. like all of my last days during any overseas trip, i was exhausted and running on fumes, doing my utmost best to get through the day without collapsing. photography usually isn’t much of a priority on my last days, but i had so much time to kill after checking out of my hotel that i decided to spend a few hours walking around at none other than the biggest tourist attraction of Tokyo - Asakusa. throughout my week-long stay, i’ve noticed that there has yet to be a full-blown invasion of foreign tourists in Tokyo. however, for some reason Asakusa was packed to the brim with all manners of local and foreign tourists, it certainly felt more packed that it used to be before the pandemic. getting around the place was without a question a chore, but i still walked along the edges, photographing the place (and mostly the people) in its post-pandemic glory. you could tell that the tourists were glad to be here in Tokyo - i most certainly was. after Asakusa, i spent the rest of the day hanging around in Ikebukuro, meeting up with an old high school friend for dinner, and making my way to Haneda Airport only to find out that my midnight flight was delayed a couple hours.

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in the end, the entire trip felt a little bit of a mixed bag for me. for one, the ravages of age is slowly creeping up on me, and i can’t seem to travel like i used to before the pandemic. years of being a sedentary shut-in definitely didn’t do well for my body, furthermore, expectations for this “return to travel normalcy” was at an all-time high that you cannot help but feel some levels of disappointment at the end of everything. i did all that i came to do in Tokyo - i took a whole lot of photos, bought all the stuff i wanted, visited the places i had intended to visit, met up with my old buddy, ate most of the food i wanted to eat. admittedly, the little stomach upset i had the day prior soured most of the trip for me, and i couldn’t do much about it but hole myself up in my hotel room for half the day. i guess when it comes to future travels, i have to allow myself some room for unexpected incidences - what more with my body experiencing a certain amount of degradation, it comes with the package. furthermore, this trip was mostly planned on the fly - thinking that i would attempt to adapt my plans on the fly like i used to, but lately my indecisiveness has gotten the best of me, leading to increased levels of anxiety and me ultimately wasting a lot of time and energy trying to pull myself together. but it’s something i’ll have to take note of in my future travels - to be more better prepared, to travel with a more open mind, to set priorities and adhere to them, and perhaps to give myself more room for error and to be able to adjust accordingly. when the next trip comes around, i’ll hopefully be more mindful and prepared. but it goes without saying that i enjoyed a good portion of my one week stay in Tokyo, and look forward to travel to Japan (or anywhere else) in the near future.

[greenleebuchanan]

“And I could hear the thunder and see the lightning crack All around the world was waking, I never could go back.”

Greenlee Buchanan

A Ravenclaw studying at the Hogwarts School of Witchcraft & Wizardry 

Hogwarts Legacy MC Roleplay Blog

     Muggleborn, Greenlee Buchanan’s parents, Aileen and Bernard, were weary of letting her embark on a journey they hadn’t the faintest idea about. So weary, that it took several years before they even allowed her to embark on it. It took the persistence of Professor Eleazar Fig appearing every year to try and grant their permission before they reluctantly gave in on the conditions that he would mentor her before she embarked on her journey in Hogwarts finally as a fifth year. Fortunately, he had always left her materials to study with each time he showed up so she wasn’t completely lost when she started under his tutelage. The school year approached swiftly and Greenlee began a journey that she had no means of comprehending just how intense it would be nor the potential she had just below the surface. 

II More information on her journey in the game and some basics below~ II 21+ Mun II WIP - Will update along the way II 

Basics

Name  —  Greenlee Buchanan Age  —  She is aged sixteen as of the fourteenth of January. Zodiac — Capricorn MBTI —  INFJ House  —  Ravenclaw  Abilities or powers — Ancient Magic, Dark Magic, Spellcasting Physical Appearance  — Green eyes with bits of blue, red hair, a variety of freckles scattered across her face, a scar that is travels down from her eyebrow to just below her eye, roughly 5′4 Wand - Fir Wood ; Phoenix Core ; 10′’ Length ; Hard Flexbility  Patronus - TBD

Just some small Gameplay Notes but just so there’s a general idea of her personality and how her relationships played out in the game. Obviously, this is just a reference!

Greenlee chooses to learn everything that she can. She is willing to help her friends but doesn’t mind asking for compensation when it is a lot more than she agreed to. She’s ever curious and always ready to go somewhere if it means she can learn something new. She often let’s that get in the way of her rationale and will usually go along with what her friend wants even if she was cautioning them moments before. 

Sebastian  — She helped Sebastian throughout his quest to save his sister, believing that it was better than to try than to do nothing at all. She empathized with both Solomon and Sebastion, but was ultimately on his side. Her thoughts aligned with his regarding access to all knowledge rather than restricting it thus him taking the fall for her in the library set a solid foundation for their friendship. She urges Ominis to not turn him in the end.  Ominis  — She butts heads with them due to his constant remarks about her making waves and they exchange remarks but she always chose to want to keep him in the loop whenever Sebastian suggests otherwise. She tries to mediate between him and Sebastian when prompted. 

Natty  — She cautioned her to heed her mother’s warnings but helped her whenever needed. They are good friends. 

These relationship notes are just a little basis for how she interacted but obviously muses can vary from canon so I will adjust accordingly and dependent on the timeframe within the rp. 

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So  — not sure if anyone is interested in rping with a character that is the MC, but I wanted to give a try anyways! I created her with the mindset of creating an OC and played as such as well. She is her own individual, not the mun. 

I don’t have any particular rules, just the usual ones! I am 21+ though so I greatly prefer rping with 18+ individuals. 

I will likely default into during the school year but open to doing post-game ending as well!.

Mun usually goes by Elspeth~

Anyways, hopefully we can have some fun!

[alexbkrieger13]

I wasn't able to watch all the game but saw some of the highlights.

Our offense did well today. Especially with pressing forward and moving constantly. Not slowing down the ball in the middle helped and using Sam as a pure striker was excellent planning. Having Kirby and James act as a solid one-two punch behind Kerr (without LJ slowing down and literally dribbling herself into a corner) made the offense work. Three pure strikers that were being set up by a solid, and not yet completely burnt out, midfield led by Guro was excellent. Perisset and Cuthbert were excellent in taking the load off Guro and helped keep the ball moving.

Defensively, Magda back in the center defense was excellent and it was clear her leadership and vision were needed. Her guidance was crucial with setting up the defense and making sure they were in correct positioning and they were even able to help with the press. Whatever was ailing her, I'm glad that Emma gave her rest and adjusted accordingly.

In all, an excellent performance. When Chelsea plays like this, they're one of the top three teams in the world. Hopefully we can keep up the consistency and pace without exhausting ourselves towards May.

Yea they just looks so much calmer tonight than we've seen them all of 2023 so far

[moviesludge]

I have a mood disorder and a personality disorder (related to mood), I get huge drops during the cold season. I tend to feel detached from reality, very foggy in the head, dizzy, so on... not to mention the low emotions and even physical sickness. My psychiatrist says it's incredibly common for mood disorder patients, or those who are more susceptible to these changes, and in fact it's better to live though it knowing I'm not alone (and it doesn't last too long!). I'm not diagnosing you with anything of course, I'm not a professional and I don't know you at all, but just so you know it's not odd, or rare, or hopeless to feel like that. Acknowledge you feel like out of energy and act accordingly, as much as possible, and you'll be back in shape before you even know it. Take care, and thank you for your content

context

Thanks for sharing your experience.

I know other people feel like this too. I don't feel like it's an anomaly or something. Knowing other people share the same experience doesn't make me feel any better or worse, but I'm glad it helps you and I appreciate the helpful spirit of your comment. I'm not sad about the situation, really. It's a thing I deal with and am trying to recognize & work on. Hopefully my post will help people understand my behavior more, if they have a concern.

"Act accordingly" is vague, but I assume is intended to mean "do what you need to do to feel better", which I'm trying to figure out. It could also mean "Don't try to do things that you can't do well". I'm dealing with it, trying to be as mindful as possible with myself and others by trial and error, like anyone would do with anything else that isn't fully understood, wanting to live their life. I've adjusted the way I handle certain things over time, and hope people can understand if not empathize.