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"get me a damned matcha" | Chapter 18: November II

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✧ pairing ➼ levi ackerman x fem!reader, college x coffee shop x roommates!au ✧ summary ➼ After you find yourself plagued with misfortune due to struggles in your personal and family life, you find yourself needing to move last minute. As a junior in undergrad with little money and little social support, you considered yourself lucky when you found a sublease that was close to campus and was relatively cheap. Unfortunately, it seemed that your roommate did not seem to be so excited regarding your presence. ✧ content/warnings ➼ fluff, slowburn, mutual pining, idiots in love, fem!reader, afab!reader, smut (minors go away), kinda the one bed trope except its a sleeping bag lmao ✧ word count ➼ ~7.7k

"Come on, we're approaching the second half of our senior year! The end is in sight!"

You simply watched with an unamused expression as Oluo announced the beginning of your trip and sprinted his way forward down the trail, with Petra following closely after.

The shared class that you had with Oluo and Petra had ended the semester early. That, and plus the fact that Gunther was in town, meant that you were more than happy to set up a camping trip with just the three of you. Eld ended up tagging along to celebrate Gunther's graduation.

You didn't mind bringing Eld, as he was a close friend of Gunther's. What you didn't anticipate however, was that Levi was a close friend of Eld's, and you did a double take upon seeing Levi on the shuttle to the nature reserve. You were the one that planned the trip and you certainly did not budget to bring along your grumpy roommate that you currently found yourself increasingly distressed about.

Ever since that night at the Halloween party, you haven't been able to keep Levi out of your thoughts. This was made especially difficult due to the fact that you lived with him. Every time you walked past him or even heard him through the thin walls of your bedroom reminded you of just how good having him against you felt. You missed the feeling of his hands on your waist as he planted sloppy kisses up and down your neck. You missed running your fingers through his hair as you silently begged for him to continue kissing, sucking, and biting at your sensitive skin.

You felt heat begin to rise to your cheeks and you shook your head to try to get the image of Levi on you out of your head.

Eld had said that Levi said he also had the weekend free and needed to get away from his labwork. You vaguely knew about Eld and Levi's friendship, but you certainly did not know that they were close enough to warrant Levi hijacking this trip you planned.

You didn't believe it for a second. There was no way that Levi, the clean freak that he is, would willingly come into the middle of nowhere for a weekend to sleep on the ground and not have access to a shower or restroom that wasn't public.

"Any day now, _____," Levi said with a tiny hint of amusement in his voice as he looked down at you from the top of the hill.

You stopped walking for a second to catch your breath. Keeping up with the rest of your friends felt impossible.

"Oh, shove it, you asshole," you said as you pulled out your water bottle.

You knew that this trip was going to take a not insignificant amount of physical energy, but you weren't expecting to be as winded as you were. You felt your breath getting caught in your throat and your legs were already cramping. If this was your state after thirty minutes, you weren't sure how you were going to last the entire weekend.

You looked down at the ground as you took a few deep breaths in an attempt to stabilize yourself.

You suddenly felt a hand place itself in between your shoulder blades and you found yourself getting steadily pushed up the hill.

"What?" you said as you turned your head and saw that Levi had come down from the top of the hill to give you an extra boost in getting up the hill. "What are you-"

"Just shut up and walk, you brat."

~~~~~

"Uhm, bad news, I think my tent is broken," you heard a voice yell out from across the river. The six of you had spread out around a riverbank to camp for the night. You had cleared out a little corner to yourself and set your bag down right as you heard Petra calling over to you.

You glanced around and saw that your other friends had settled into their tents for the night. You sighed to yourself. This trip was turning out to be more of a disaster than you ever thought it would be.

"Take mine," you yelled back, pulling your folded up tent out of your duffle bag as you hauled it over to the side of the river that Petra was on.

"What are you going to use? These aren't big enough to fit two people."

"His is," you mumbled, motioning towards Levi's tent on the other side of the river.

"Oh, then you can have your tent and I can-"

"No."

You immediately interrupted your best friend's stupidly innocent comment.

While thinking of being forced to spend the night in close vicinity to the one person that has been making you feel all sorts of ways was distressing enough, thinking about Petra spending the night around him was even more distressing.

"Just take the tent," you whispered, dropping your stuff at her feet. "Levi and I are roommates anyway. We'll figure something out."

Petra nodded and quietly took your tent and began setting it up and you turned and walked back across the river towards Levi's tent with the rest of your stuff in your oddly light duffle bag. Levi's tent had been set up a bit further from the others, likely because he wouldn't be able to sleep and didn't want to be shuffling around near everyone that was already asleep.

You walked up to his tent and heard him moving around, feeling a tight feeling arise in your chest, taking a deep breath.

"Levi?" you called out quietly.

You heard him suddenly stop moving. After a pause that felt like it took much too long, he finally poked his head out the door.

"What do you want?" he asked with an annoyed tone.

You shuffled awkwardly as you scratched the back of your head.

"Uhm, well," you started speaking, unsure of how to phrase the situation. "Petra's tent broke, so I gave her mine."

"And?"

He knew what you were saying.

"Well, I was wondering if-"

"What a pain in the ass," Levi said with a groan. "Get in and don't make a fuss about it."

You shot him a half-smile and nodded, crawling inside.

No words were exchanged for a while, with him keeping his back to you as he dug through his duffle bag to continue setting up. You could tell that he was awkwardly tense. Your dynamic with him has definitely changed within the past few months, but his continuous ignoring while you were this close in proximity gave you an unprecedented amount of anxiety.

You pursed your lips as you spoke up.

"What's the catch?"

He looked over at you with an eyebrow raised, clearly not knowing what you were referring to.

"Eld said you had the weekend off and that's why you're here," you said with an unamused look. "I don't believe it."

"Erwin's out of town, so there's not much I can do in lab anyways," Levi said with a sigh, as if he was expecting this confrontation. "Plus, someone had to look after your dumb ass."

His eyes glanced down at your right arm, which had gotten fractured in the car accident from a few weeks ago.

"How's your arm?"

"Huh?" you gave him a confused look before realizing he was referring to your broken arm that had long been healed. "It's fine. It's been fine. What's up with you?"

Levi glanced back at you from the corner of his eye before turning back to his duffle bag.

"You didn't have to come with me on this, you know," you mumbled quietly as Levi got up and zipped up the door to your now shared tent. "I can look after myself."

Levi scoffed as he scooted towards his duffle bag and began rummaging through it again for his sleeping bag.

"I know," he said quietly. "But who else was going to stay back and haul your ass up this mountain?"

You frowned at his comment as a slight pout appeared on your face. You knew that you were not in the best physical shape in terms of exercise, but you didn't expect to be this behind. Levi was right in that climbing this mountain would have been impossible if it wasn't for him.

"You didn't have to," you whispered, repeating your earlier statement.

Levi put down the sleeping bag that he had started to unroll and glanced over at you, clenching his jaw in frustration.

"Well, I wanted to."

Your pout was quickly replaced with a look of surprise as your face began to heat up at his comment.

"Really?" you asked quietly.

"Tch. Yes," he said, shooting you an annoyed frown before turning back to the sleeping bag. "You happy now?"

You didn't respond, trying your best to hide the slight smile that was present on your face as you felt your heart pounding. That feeling was getting harder to ignore with each passing day.

"May I?" he asked suddenly, ripping you out of your thoughts. He was referring to your duffle bag.

You nodded, having completely forgotten that you were supposed to be setting up your sleeping bag. It was already pretty late into the night.

He began digging through your duffle bag before pausing and noting that it was oddly empty, as if it was missing an important item.

"_____," Levi said quietly, glancing over at you. "Where's your sleeping bag?"

You furrowed your eyebrows at him before crawling over to look into the duffle bag yourself.

Shit.

You nervously tapped on your leg as you felt Levi's gaze drilling holes into you. You had been so scatter-brained while planning for this trip and making sure everyone else had everything they needed—except for Petra's broken tent, apparently—that you forgot to double check for your own belongings.

You cursed at yourself for forgetting your damn sleeping bag of all things. You kept your gaze off Levi as you heard him shuffling around after sighing.

You were forced to look at him again as he tossed you his sleeping bag that he loosely rolled back up. It was bigger than yours, which you assumed was due to his own inability to sleep so he desired comfort over practicality if he had to be conscious with it the entire night.

"What are you going to use?" you asked with a look of concern.

"I'll figure something out."

"Well I don't wanna use it if you're not gonna have anything," you said with a frown.

You two sat in silence as a tempting thought popped up in your head. It was foolish and probably much too forward. No matter how many intimate gestures you two had shared, suggesting this idea that you suddenly had would undoubtedly be crossing a line.

You said it anyway.

"We can share?"

You heard Levi's breath hitch, being genuinely surprised at your suggestion. He was also well aware that something was going on underneath the surface. At first, he had chalked it up to high emotions after you almost losing him and after him almost losing you immediately after. The next time, he blamed the alcohol, although he already knew that he doesn't really get drunk, so that wasn't entirely valid either.

This time, neither of you had any type of excuse.

"What?" he asked.

"I mean," you said, getting a little flustered yourself, "it's a fairly large sleeping bag and we're both small people, so I think-"

You immediately stopped talking as you saw him shoot a glare in your direction upon hearing you call him small.

You looked away from him and clenched your jaw, regretting ever opening your mouth or even entering his tent. It was a dumb and intrusive decision.

"You know what?" you said, as you began to get up. "Now that I think about it, this might not be the best idea. I can text Petra and see-"

"Don't," Levi said, grabbing your wrist to stop you from exiting the tent. "We'll figure it out."

You looked straight into his eyes and nodded, sitting back down.

"Okay," you said as you exhaled softly, your anxiety threatening to take over, "Levi."

~~~~~

You both sat at the center of the open sleeping bag, with neither one of you wanting to be the first one to lay down. You held your knees to your chest as you became increasingly aware of his presence next to you. He was almost close enough for your arms to touch. Shuffling around by even an inch was enough to bring him into contact.

You looked up at the open roof of the tent, letting the full moon shine its light over you.

"So."

You awkwardly spoke, feeling your skin crawl as you shuffled next to him, his arm briefly rubbing up against yours.

"So?"

You bit on your bottom lip, unsure of what you were even trying to bring up.

"What?" he asked, noticing your silence.

"Uhm," you began nervously, your fingers tapping on your knee. "With what happened at the beginning of the semester..."

With that statement, Levi immediately knew what it was that you wanted to bring up.

"Ah."

You looked over at him.

"What about it?" he asked, avoiding your gaze.

"I just," you started, with a solemn look on your face, "I noticed that you hadn't come in and that there was a fire at your lab and the thought of never seeing you again made my chest fucking hurt like I was actually dying."

Levi finally looked at you, making eye contact.

"Yeah?" he responded quietly.

"Yeah," you said, feeling heat begin to rise to your cheeks as he continued to look at you. "And then once I saw you again..."

You took a deep breath, shooting him an embarrassed half-smile.

"I just kinda lost control. So..."

"So?" he repeated your last word, waiting for you to continue.

You broke eye contact, too embarrassed to continue looking at him as you continued to talk.

"I'm sorry," you said quietly. "For that, and every other time after that. I couldn't stop myself from thinking about you and it was driving me nuts—but I know how awkward of a situation that puts you in too."

The way you were speaking made it seem like every kiss the two of you had shared was one-sided and initiated by you, but that wasn't entirely true. He had returned it every time and you had returned it to him every time it was him that pulled you in. It was always reciprocated, no matter how much you tried to convince yourself otherwise.

At this point, your shoulders were in full contact as you leaned slightly into him, which only increased your anxiety.

Every second of silence that passed was agonizing. It felt like you were holding your breath as you waited for him to say something. You couldn't tell what he was thinking or even what expression he held on his face. You had no idea what was going on through his head.

You clenched your fist as your anxiety took over.

"I'm sorry for always being selfish," you whispered as you finally gathered the courage to look up at him again. You met his gaze as he watched you.

"I'm sorry for always feeling like I want more, and yet-"

As soon as you said the words 'I want more', Levi immediately lifted your chin and planted his lips onto yours, cutting off your words.

You felt chills running throughout your entire body as you felt him on you again, your heart soaring as you parted your lips and returned the kiss, pressing yourself into him.

This had been the fourth time that the two of you had shared an intimate moment and it still felt just as euphoric as the very first time that you placed your lips on his after being so overwhelmed with the relief that he was still in front of you in one piece. Every time that you felt him on you made you long for him even more. His presence would fill up the entire room and your only point of focus was just him.

Your hands grabbed at his shoulders as you felt him kiss back harder, with his own hands moving up to cup the side of your face, pulling you in even closer. All inhibition flew out the window as you continued to pull yourself into him, with your kisses quickly transitioning from gentle and loving motions to sloppy ones that were rough and had you gasping for air in between. You felt his tongue prodding at your lips as he continued to push you back.

As he continued to push you backwards to the point that he was basically hovering over you, you briefly broke away from him, taking deep, heavy breaths as you gasped for air.

"Lev', are you sure this is the best place? Shouldn't we-"

He pulled you back into a kiss, biting gently at your bottom lip.

"I don't care anymore," he murmured in between kisses, crawling on top of you. He didn't miss the way the edges of your lips slightly pulled up as you smiled into the kiss. “Packed a condom?”

“Pill,” you muttered into his ear, a gasp escaping your lips as you felt him planting kisses on your neck, back up to your jaw and then your lips again.

It felt right. This felt right. As aloof as he always made himself seem, Levi would be lying if he told himself that the tension wasn't bugging the shit out of him too. Every time he saw you or brushed up against you, he felt his entire body tense up as he struggled to keep his gaze off of you, because he knew that if he placed his eyes on you, he wouldn't be able to take them off again.

Once he was fully on you, your hands traveled down to the bottom of his shirt, feeling him take a sharp inhale as he felt your hands on his bare skin. You gently brushed your hands over his abs before moving onto his chest as you slowly raised his shirt. You had caught a few glimpses of him the few times he came out of the shower without his shirt on or when he only had one of his unbuttoned dress shirts on as he was getting ready for the day. You had found yourself fantasizing about it in recent weeks, but that couldn't even compare to how blissful you felt right now, with him actually on you, with your hands running up and down his body.

Impatient, he pulled his shirt over his head and threw it over to the side and you looked at him with elated eyes as you saw his hair fall back onto him in what seemed like a perfect manner. It was ruffled and messy, for sure, but it was perfect.

You pulled him into another kiss. Every one of your senses was on fire and you felt yourself shiver as you felt his hands reach underneath your tank top, promptly removing it.

He held himself up with one hand and firmly clamped down onto your breast with the other, which resulted in a soft whimper escaping from your lips.

You brought your hand up to your mouth to cover it in an attempt to muffle the noises he was drawing out of you.

He pulled away from your lips and began planting kisses on your neck, trailing his tongue over you, which sent intense chills down your spine. His hand that was grabbing at your breast trickled down past your waist, reaching into your pants, and you heard a soft chuckle come from him once he realized how wet you already were.

"F-Fuck, Levi..." you whispered shakily as you felt his fingers rubbing over your heat.

He looked up at you again with lust-filled eyes before connecting your lips again, effectively muffling the squeal that came out of you as he pushed his middle finger into you.

"Shh," he whispered into your ear, his voice barely audible. "I got you."

You felt your chest rise and press up against his as your breathing shuddered as he gently ran his thumb over your clit. Your mind desperately tried to come up with a response, but went blank as soon as you felt him also insert his index finger into you.

You began to grab at his back, pull at the hair at the back of his head, and bite at him as he continued to kiss you while pumping his fingers in and out of you, all while drawing smooth circles around your clit with his thumb.

He was quickly working you to an orgasm and you were slightly ashamed to admit just how good he was making you feel.

You wrapped one of your arms around him and pulled him into the crook of your neck as he began to plant sloppy kisses over it again, your eyes rolling to the back of your head and your bottom lip quivering as you began to feel your core tighten up as he continued to pump into you, curling his fingers up to hit the one spot that took away your ability to think properly.

Your orgasm came on suddenly, like a white hot flash, and you were so overstimulated that you momentarily lost your ability to see. He was making you feel so, so good that you had to bite down on your own lip to keep yourself from screaming.

Your body was shaking and your mind barely registered the sound of Levi unbuckling his own pants. You were barely coming down from your high, with your clit being overly sensitive to the slightest touch, when you felt the tip of his cock against your folds.

A moan escaped your lips, much louder than intended, as he gently pressed his cock into you. Levi immediately slapped a hand over your mouth to shush you and paused, giving you a moment to adjust to his size. He kept his hand on you as he slowly began to move in and out of you, with his own breathing beginning to destabilize.

"Easy there, _____," he whispered into your ear. "You don't want the whole group to hear us now, do you?"

You shakily nodded at him as he slowly removed his hand before he began to gently bite at your neck, switching between biting, kissing, and trailing his tongue over it, setting all of your senses on overdrive.

"F-Fuck...Levi," you moaned as you began to get noisy again, which Levi promptly quieted down by planting his lips on yours again, with his tongue entering your mouth, swirling around yours in an elegant dance.

His movements began to get sloppy as he began to drill into you faster and harder, quickly bringing you to the brink of another orgasm.

You moaned into his kiss as you were brought over the edge again, with your vision blacking out over how intense it was and how overstimulated you were.

He continued to pump into you through your orgasm and your back arched into him as you clawed at his back. You couldn't think or form coherent thoughts, all that you could even register was how good he was making you feel. His thrusts began to slow down as he continued to snap his hips into yours, panting as he also fucked his way through his own orgasm.

You opened your eyes once you came down from your high and looked at him as he panted from his own euphoria running through his body. You saw that his hair was stuck to his face from the sweat that had gathered on him while he was fucking you.

You shakily exhaled as you felt him pull out of you before collapsing onto his back next to you. You felt him roll onto his side to face you and you turned to meet his gaze, only for him to pull you into another kiss—a gentle one this time, with his hand gently grazing your cheek as he pressed his lips against yours.

You buried your face into his neck, planting gentle kisses. There was just something about the way he felt on you—about the way he affected your very ability to process the world around you—that made you want to nuzzle into him and never move again. You desperately wanted to stay in this moment, wanting to implant a permanent image of this memory into your brain to visit again and again. You didn't want this moment to end.

For the first time, in a very long time, you felt content, happy, and at peace.

~~~~~

You woke up to the sound of leaves rustling around you. It was gentle, peaceful, and made you want to keep your eyes closed and simply fall back asleep. You kept your eyes closed as you shuffled around, frowning as you felt some resistance against you.

Your eyes shot open and you blinked a few times to process the scene around you. You were in Levi's tent after being forced to spend the night with him. You had foolishly forgotten your sleeping bag and were "forced" to share one with Levi. You began chatting with Levi about some of the more intimate things that had happened throughout the beginning of the semester—and then you-

You felt all the blood rush to your face as you recalled everything that had happened the night before. You somewhat knew about the way that Levi's presence made you feel, but you had never expected it to actually come to fruition.

As you began to stir, you felt a strong and sturdy arm that was wrapped around your waist pull you in.

Levi planted some gentle kisses on the back of your head as he pulled you in towards his bare chest. Although you had been against each other all night, feeling your skin to skin contact once he pulled you in sent a surge of euphoria through your body and his body heat began to merge with your own.

You were addicted to his touch. You couldn't deny that anymore. Your fingers intertwined with his as you brought his hand up to your mouth and planted kisses onto his knuckles.

After a few minutes, you began to roll over so you could face him. You rested your head against his chest, his gentle heartbeat threatening to lull you back asleep.

No matter how much you wanted to avoid thinking about it, you knew you had both crossed the point of no return. You couldn't deny that there was something going on between the two of you—that you had long moved past the point of being just roommates, or even just friends.

You smiled to yourself as you felt him give you a gentle kiss on the top of your head.

"I guess we can't really ignore this anymore, can we?" you mumbled.

You felt Levi take a deep breath, with his chest rising and falling.

"Ignore what?" he responded, his voice being scratchy and deeper than usual due to just waking up.

You ran your fingers up and down his chest as you tried to find the appropriate words to vocalize your feelings to him.

You felt Levi tense up as you heard distant footsteps approaching from outside of the tent.

"We should probably head out in about 20 minutes if we want to make it to the lake by sunset tonight. Everyone, make sure you grab all your things," you heard Eld call out before you heard other footsteps begin to roam around the camp.

Levi let out a long sigh, pausing for a few seconds, letting you lean up off him before getting up.

You looked up at him and shot him a half-hearted smile upon realizing that your conversation wasn't going to continue. You couldn't help but be disappointed. You didn't know how well you'd be able to adjust back to "business as usual". You had to live with Levi for nearly another year and this wasn't something that you could just brush under the rug again.

Stolen kisses were one thing.

Having sex was another—and although you knew it could just be a friends with benefits type of situation, you didn't want that. Something had happened between now and the day you found out about his lab fire.

No, it was even before that. Going all the way back to the beginning of the year, in January, something changed the minute he dropped everything in the middle of the night to come find you after you had wandered off from a party that had gone a bit too far. You couldn't ignore it anymore. You didn't want to ignore it anymore.

You glanced back up at Levi, who had already clothed himself, leaving the image of his bare body—and your time with him—from the night before as nothing but a memory that was meant to gradually fade away.

~~~~~

You thanked the heavens that it wasn't another hill you had to climb today.

What this mostly meant was that you weren't forced to be around Levi as you struggled to climb the hill. As a result, you were walking ahead of Levi, essentially leading the way down the trail, falling a few steps behind Eld. You couldn't be around him right now. Being around him meant you had to address whatever it was that you were feeling and you didn't even know where to begin.

Were you just overcome with emotions again this morning when you were thinking of confessing to him? Did you even want to actually go through with it?

You heard footsteps run up to you and sighed in relief when you saw that it wasn't Levi.

However, you quickly tensed up again once you saw that it was Oluo with a mischievous look on his face.

"So?"

You raised an eyebrow at him.

"So what?"

"Anything interesting happen last night?"

Your eyes widened as your cheeks turned slightly pink.

"W-What the hell are you talking about?" you asked, stammering a bit as you turned away from Oluo, only for your face to heat up even more upon realizing that Petra was walking next to you on your other side.

"Y'know," Oluo said with a shrug, "with the whole thing with sharing a tent and all."

You looked back at him with a frown.

"We're roommates, it's not as weird as you seem to think it is."

"Sure it is," Oluo said dismissively.

"You're insufferable," you snapped at him, picking up your pace to walk past him and right up to Eld, deciding that the blonde was better company.

"Oluo giving you trouble again?"

You sighed, your shoulders slumping forward in a defeated manner.

"Yes."

~~~~~

Levi watched silently as you stomped away from Oluo towards Eld. Although he had lagged behind, he hadn't been able to take his eyes or mind off you for the entire trail. A somewhat permanent scowl had set on his face whenever he looked at you, but you weren't what he was frowning at.

"We can't really ignore this anymore, can we?"

His mind was fixated on that question you had brought up moments before the two of you set off for the day and especially fixated on his lack of a proper response.

What the hell was going on through his head?

He knew exactly what you were talking about, yet the words "ignore what" was the only thing that came out of his mouth. He wasn't sure if he froze up due to a defense mechanism or instinctual reaction, but some disconnect had formed that prevented his thoughts from translating into speech or actions appropriately, and he had been mentally berating himself for it all morning.

"Rough night?"

Levi looked up and saw Gunther walking next to him, having noticed that he was lagging behind. Although Levi did not look actively distressed in the same way that you did, Gunther was able to at least tell that he was acting different.

Levi responded with a grunt.

"Define rough. _____'s annoying as ever," he grumbled, although his face currently carried an unreadable expression as he spoke.

"Hmm," Gunther said, looking down as he tried to formulate what he should say in response. "Well, appreciate you coming along. I know it must feel kind of out of place, being around mostly undergrads."

Levi scoffed.

"No kidding."

His official reasoning was that he was friends with Eld and used this as an opportunity to get away from the university and relax, but he knew that was a lie. Camping in the woods was not something he'd willingly do. He'd rather be sitting in his coffee shop reading or drawing or doing literally anything other than dragging his ass to the middle of nowhere to sleep in grime and filth for 2-3 days. Levi even being here was incredibly out of character for him.

His eyes landed on you again. He felt an uncomfortable feeling build up in his chest that radiated up into his throat, making it hard to breathe properly. No matter what he did, he could not shake that feeling off.

He knew that if he didn't address this soon, he was going to lose his mind. He couldn't possibly go back to "just living" with you after this trip. He couldn't think about anything else and could barely function around you before this trip and he especially couldn't now after the events of last night.

He knew what was causing it—and it was because he knew, that he was able to deduce that he was royally fucked.

~~~~~

The entire day felt like it was never going to end. Part of it was because of the annoyingly warm weather. It was towards the end of November, so the weather should have been fairly cool. It was the perfect weather for you to throw on a flannel over a t-shirt whenever you went outside. Today, however, was stupidly warm and you felt your clothing stick to you, which significantly soured your mood.

The other part was because you were agonizingly aware of Levi's presence on the trail behind you. He had been lagging behind you all day and didn't seem to show any intention of changing his pacing. That alone was enough to leave you more than exhausted by the time you arrived at the lake.

You sipped on your beer as you watched Oluo, Petra, and Gunther argue over who got to use each skewer for the marshmallows that you had packed to make s'mores as the last activity of your trip before you pack up and leave for home in the morning. Eld was tending to the fire a few feet away and a frown appeared on your face as you realized Levi wasn't with the group.

You knew that he had been lagging behind on your way here, but he was certainly smart enough to not get lost on the trail. Suddenly feeling a surge of regret over pretending he didn't exist all day, you started scanning the area around you, feeling more panicked with every passing second.

You felt yourself let out a relieved breath that you weren't aware that you were holding in when you finally saw him sitting near the lake on a picnic blanket that he had laid out to keep his clothes clean—another reason why you were surprised about his presence here in the first place—even something as simple as sitting on the ground was dirty.

You looked over at your friends that were gathered around each other, celebrating the almost-end of their undergraduate experience, and then at Levi, who looked alone, although he had tagged along to be a part of the celebration.

He looked quite lonely.

At least, that's what you told yourself when you found yourself headed in his direction and away from the rest of your friends.

You saw him glance over at you once he heard you approaching. Seeing that he didn't tense up, move away, or show any form of resistance or discomfort, you took a seat next to him.

The two of you sat in silence for a while, both staring forward at the still waters of the lake that reflected the moon off of it like a mirror. It was an annoyingly peaceful scene that you knew wouldn't last. You occasionally heard an excited yell from Oluo in the background, but you were far away enough from everyone that even he was barely audible.

Sighing, you leaned back, placing your hands behind you to hold yourself up.

"Moon's pretty," you said quietly.

"Yep," Levi replied, feeling just as awkward as you did.

More silence followed.

"Have a fun trip?" you asked.

"You could say that."

The tension was agonizing for the both of you. He glanced at you as you wrestled with your thoughts.

Part of you desperately wanted to get up and run away and continue to ignore him going forward, but you knew that'd fall apart as soon as you got home—and the longer you ignored this, the more you were afraid to address it.

You didn't want to ignore it anymore, but you didn't know how to move forward. You glanced up at him and noticed that he was now looking at the lake again. The two of you continued to steal glances at each other, but not at the same time, almost as if you were afraid of making eye contact.

Memories of the previous night brought a small smile to your face as your cheeks flushed up.

Levi wasn't one for words—in fact, most words were used primarily to insult you more than anything else—but he was somehow able to make you feel like you weren't a complete and utter failure and that your life wasn't just one shitshow after another. Through nothing more than the way he looked at you or the way he would easily set aside everything to be by you when you were struggling or the way that he never seemed to push you away when you were worried for his well-being, he made you feel appreciated, or at least worthy of the space you took up.

You slightly shuffled to adjust yourself as a surprisingly pleasant fluttering feeling entered your gut. However, you tensed as soon as you felt your hand brush against his.

"Shit," you said quietly as you immediately pulled your hand away. "Sorry."

He didn't look over at you, but he reached out and grabbed your hand before you could fully retract it and weaved his fingers through yours.

"Don't be," he mumbled.

The small smile reappeared on your face as you relaxed and leaned into his shoulder, feeling some of the built up tension from earlier today dissipating.

Something was there, and you knew it. You knew that something was reciprocated, although you weren't sure exactly what. The fact that you had shared multiple kisses, slept together, and were now holding hands while basking under the moonlight meant that you shared something special with him.

The silence between the two of you suddenly felt comfortable and no longer awkward or tense. You scooted a bit so that you were closer to him as you continued to lean against him.

"This is nice," you murmured.

"Yeah?" he responded quietly.

He smells nice.

You shut your eyes as you enjoyed the feeling of him on you again. Everything about him was alluring, and you never wanted to let him go again. This moment—with just you, him, and the moon above you—felt right. None of your problems or stressors mattered as long as you stayed in this moment.

"Is it wrong of me to be dreading tomorrow?" you asked.

Levi tilted his head down to the side a bit so that he was also leaning back against you, allowing yours to rest on his shoulder. He squeezed at your hand, knowing what was going on through your head.

"I don't want to go back," you continued. "Going back means real life and real life things and I just-"

You suddenly stopped.

"You just what?" Levi asked quietly.

"I just want to stay in this moment," you whispered, "being against you, feeling you next to me. It's like every shitty thing that ever happened is just gone. It's like, as long as you're around, my life actually feels like it's worth something and that I'm not just a walking disaster."

Levi was quiet for a bit before giving your hand another gentle squeeze.

"You're not a walking disaster," he whispered. "You've just been dealt shitty cards."

You turned to look at him as he spoke those words, finally meeting his gaze again. Your mind got lost in his steely gaze and the only thing you could focus on was how absolutely beautiful his eyes looked as he gazed into you. His gaze was intense and gentle at the same time and you never wanted to look away again.

"And this," he spoke again, his voice barely audible, "it doesn't have to be just this moment."

You blinked at him a few times as your cheeks flushed again. Your mind went blank and you lost your ability to think as you felt your heart beating harder and harder against your chest.

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" you muttered.

"Well," he said as he gently grabbed your chin with his other hand, tilting your head up so he could get a better view of you. "What do you think I'm saying?"

You parted your lips to speak, but found that no words were coming out.

You wanted this. More than anything, you wanted this—and now you were fairly certain that he wanted it too.

After what felt like an eternity, he finally pulled you into another kiss, and for the first time, it didn't feel like it was on impulse. It didn't feel stolen or like it was something that should be brushed under the rug. It felt real.

You felt like you could cry from joy as you quickly returned the kiss, grabbing at the back of his neck to pull him closer. Your heart was soaring through your chest and you felt your heart beat in sync with his as you pressed yourselves against each other. He wrapped one arm around your waist and pulled you up against him as he continued to kiss you, never wanting to let you go—and wanting to forever stay in this moment.

"I knew it!"

A voice shouted out from the distance, which rudely pulled you out of the otherwise perfect moment you were finally getting to share with Levi.

Levi shot a glare over at Oluo as you hid behind him, slightly burying your face into his shoulder out of embarrassment.

"Don't you have more marshmallows to burn?" he yelled out to him with a not-so-surprising amount of hostility in his voice as he rolled his eyes before grumbling, "fucking undergrads."

You peeked up as you heard more commotion coming from the direction that Oluo shouted from.

"Oluo, how loud do you have to be to take a piss?!"

You heard Gunther walk up to him.

"What's going on?"

You groaned quietly as you saw Petra walk up to Gunther as she asked that innocent question. You began banging your head against Levi's shoulder, desperately wanting to escape the gaze of your friends that were rapidly surrounding you.

"I knew you two were hooking up!" Oluo shouted out again.

"We're not just hooking up!" you yelled out, beyond irritated. "We're-"

You cut yourself off, not entirely sure of what you were trying to say.

"You're...?" Petra asked.

You noted that all three pairs of eyes were on you and you parted your lips to speak, although there were no coherent words that were coming to mind.

What the hell were you supposed to say? Are you together with Levi now? What did he want to call it? What could you say as you announced it without checking with him first? You felt like you would literally die of embarrassment if you had announced that you were in a relationship if it wasn't actually the case.

Before you got a chance to answer, you saw Eld walk up and begin to nudge everyone back towards the campfire, glancing at you and nodding. He was leading everyone away to give both you and Levi some private space without ogling eyes and you silently thanked the heavens that he came along on the trip.

You buried your face in your hands while groaning, beyond embarrassed about and annoyed at your friends.

"My head fucking hurts now."

It was the emotional whiplash. You had gone from annoyed to anxious to sad to anxious (again) to overjoyed to embarrassed. It was like you were trying to experience everything on the spectrum of emotions all at once.

"What were you going to say?" Levi asked, prompting you to look up at him.

"Hmm?"

"To Oluo," he said, taking your hands and lowering them from your face so he could see you better. "What were you going to say that we were?"

You froze. What were you supposed to say?

Roommates? Reluctant acquaintances? Friends with benefits?

"We're..."

You paused, thinking of the best way to put it.

Fuck it, you thought, shoving away your anxiety.

"...official?"

You kept your gaze on him to see his reaction. This could either make you feel ecstatic and elated or horrifically embarrassed and dejected.

A subtle smile tugged at the corner of Levi's lips and you felt a wave of relief wash over you before it was quickly overtaken by that stupid feel-good feeling that kept coming up whenever you looked at him.

He gently pulled you into another kiss before resting his forehead on yours and whispering.

"Official."

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