#so god bless libraries tbh

[13eyond13]

OMG I CAN CHECK OUT THE REST OF THE NGE MANGA ON MY FRIEND'S LIBRARY CARD

[blueberryspyder]

Just realized Discworld audiobooks are free through the Internet Archive

As some as I’ve finished Dune it’s over for you fuckers

[saym0-0]

oh my god. oh my GOD mechs esmp crossover. this is for SUCH a niche audience the esmp fandom is dead i dont care mechs esmp crossover

LISTEN TO ME okay ill have to add a sci-fi element to my established esmp world i am OKAY with this, grimlands are already victorian steampunk its not that big a stretch to add space travel, especially in the place of dimension travel.

okay so in my esmp lore the emperors are blessed by the gods with conditional immortality and flight, they know a new ruler has been born by if they're born with wings. i bet though i could twist that into the king cole/olympians idea of trading their citizen's lives for immortality. although it is kinda reversed? (mechs immortals tend to stop aging but can be killed, emperors still age and can die of old age, but cant be killed). hmm i mean theres definite differences between king cole and the olympians so maybe its just another variation, or something closer to the mechs themselves? though that ones less likely

honestly there literally is an esmp1 musical so i reckon its interesting enough to attract the mechs

but lets be honest with ourselves here, the only reason im doing this is so i have an excuse to draw grimlands!marius lmao

i think raph would be interested in it too though, with how they're so much more reliant on technical advancement than magical.

ivy would love the rivendell library, and crystal cliffs

hmmm jonny might have fun between mythland and the cod empire,,,

hmmmm brian would maybe like to hang out with shrub in the undergrove? he does like his garden,, maybe the overgrown with katherine too,, or gilded helianthia!

hrm,, i keep wanting to put people in the grimlands but i know thats only because its my favourite so therefore the most developed and also the most similar in vibe to the mechs

with that said though, tim really would have fun there,, like hes the gunpowder guy!! fwhip is the gunpowder guy!! they both r in charge of weapons!! guns, crossbows, same difference really

oough back to raph i think she and fwhip would bond over making their own wings,, fwhip made his to prove that he is fit to rule after gem fucked off to wizard school and raph,, uh actually i never found out raphs backstory beyond the fact im like 78% sure she made her and marius' mechanisms,, although that could be widely accepted fanon who knows not me

i think marius would also enjoy mezelea

but OH MY GOD TOY SOLDIER IN MEZELEA,,, i cant believe i almost forgot it,, i think it would immediately blend in with the clones and pretend to be one right up until they leave the planet, and have the time of its life the whole time,,

i dont know where ashes would go either.. i cant just say grimlands again because theres like four of them there already but,, the explosions!!

maybe mythland, or rivendell, those both seem like they'd appreciate a good mob boss taking over the place tbh

i think brian would get along with pix also

okay this isnt mechs but the fandom is a circle so if theres actually any fans of both out there reading this post, has anyone else noticed just how similar pix and jon's (tma) voices are?? genuinely when i started listening to the podcast i had to double check the va wasnt pix (and imagine my confusion when they share the same name too..)

anyways if anyone wants to scream about this with me please do, or if you want to know more about my esmp expanded universe feel free to do that too! in asks replies or reblogs idm

[tanoraqui]

Trick or Treat! Something Silmarillion?

In the early Third Age when Turgon has returned to life and he and Elenwë and Finrod & Amarië are finally fulfilling their long-held plan of having children at the same time, that they might grow up close as siblings like Finrod and Turgon had, Idril and Tuor say, "Hey, we could also do that! We always meant to have more than one child, and there's nothing actually stopping us!"

So they do. Now, there actually is something stopping them a little - the bearing of Elvish or half-Elvish children is more...metaphysically participatory? than that of Men (or Dwarves, etc). For both parents. Tuor had done it once and been fine, but that was in his native land, and even with Ulmo's guardianship and life on Tol Eressëa, which was fairly mild in terms of blessing-intensity, at roughly 3,500 years of age, his fëa is now worn a little thin.

But their daughter is born hearty and whole, and if Tuor is abed for a few weeks with weariness, well, he's back on his feet soon, and Idril is more than strong enough to bear a single mother's spiritual burden now that the babe is born. Indeed, she insists. Unequivocally.

Moriwen ("dark-crowned maiden") is named for her grandmother Rian and the dark brown hair she inherited from her (to no small amusement to many, given that her parents were both very blond). Her hair never quite achieves the natural luster of Elvish locks - instead, it easily gets tangled, bedraggled, and encrusted with sea-salt like her father's.

She grows up on Tol Eressëa at a nearly Elvish pace, because that feels most natural to her, and chooses to live and die (or not) as an Elf. All her friends and family are Elves (or as close as one semi-retired prophet of the sea can be) so why should she wish to be otherwise?

(The Choice is natural to all first-generation half-bloods, though after that, majority-genetics determines it unequivocally, and mortality wins in a coincidentally 50/50 balance...unless complicated by Maiaran blood, see: the heirs of Lúthien. That extends the Choice for a couple more generations, though mortality is still a heavy draw. Usually. Several Valar very quietly wish those guys would stop reproducing because tbh it's freaking them out.)

But the Mannish half of her heritage did enrapture her as well, and even more eagerly than Tuor, she sought tales of mortal Arda from every newcomer to the immortal shores. What were her distant cousins up to now? How was their mastery of metallurgy going? Were Elrond's youngest (her great-niece!) walking yet? Was that cathedral in Osgiliath still under construction?

She started recording accounts, new and old, and copying any books people brought with them when they Sailed. She blinked and she'd founded a library, soon the greatest in Aman for records of mortal lands. She was called Moriwen Peradan ("half-Man"), and for at least half of the Third Age had a thriving covert correspondence with Elrond via specially bred seabirds. (If you combine the migratory endurance of the arctic tern with the seagull's ability to get everywhere, and you're very patient, long-lived, determined, and by a precise intersection of Ainu blood and favor have a particular knack with seabirds, you can create an all-new species that can travel back and forth along the Straight Road, and discreetly share them with family!)

Moriwen ends up marrying Maeglin about a century after his re-embodiment, after he awkwardly shyly sidles into the Great Library of Tol Eressëa to find out (without, god forbid, talking to anyone involved) what happened to Idril's descendants after they survived, y'know, Stuff; and some rom-com mistaken identity shenanigans ensue.

[neonmetro]

OMG MERMAID MELODY ?????? OMG IM GOING TO FUCKING EXPLODE I LOVE THAT SHOW SO FUCKING MUCH. AND SHUGO CHARA......OH BROTHER... THOSE TWO I LOVE SOOOO MUCH AS A KID BUT COULD NEVERR FIND THE TITLES FOR THEM BECAUSE I COULD ONLY FIND EPISODES ON YOUTUBE RIGHT ?? BUT HOLY SHIT MY NEW SCHOOL ACTUALLY HAS LIKE 10 FUCKING BOOKS OF SHUGO CHARA IM THEIR LIBRARY AND I LOST MY SHIT OVER IT ( I'm literally such a die hard for Shugo chara I'm so glad someone shares the love for it like I do )

IM PRECURE WAS LITERALLY MY LIFE I FEAR.........I've watched every single one and ohhh boy 😭😭😭😭 AND IVE WANTED THE TOYS SINCE I WAS LITTLE.....BUT THEIR SO EXPENSIVE ONLINE !!!!!!! *shakes fist in the sky* BUT GLITTER FORCE WAS DEFINITELY INTERESTING ? SO SAY THE LEAST LMAO *cries*

I remember when I first watched madoka magica......God bless I cried so much ( I still loved it though ) I tried to watch it a second time and completely forgot my little sister was in the room LMAO and had to turn it off because she got scared 😞😞😞😞

But another mahou shojo I LOVE TO DEATH is Ojamajo doremi. THAT TOOK UP ALOT OF MY CHILDHOOD......I JUST LOVE THE WAY THEY TRANSFORMMMMM THE MUSIC AND EVERYTHING IS SO AWESOME AND JUST SO...RAHHHHHH

I also have the card captor sakura Clow cards sitting in my room rn.....( and up to book 6 of sailor moon ) I stare at it everyday THEIR SO PRETTY. I also have sailor moon figures and I sailor moon.... GUYS, I THINK PARIS ANON LIKE MAGICAL GIRL....!!!!!

while I'm on this may, I recommend some precure you might like based on other magical girl shows you seem interested in.......

Star twinkle precure - I LOVE THIS ONE SOOOO MUCH.....it's about a girl who meets an alien girl, and it's so sweet *wipes tear in yuri* the way they transform is to DIEEE FOR. they draw out their transformations while singing, and it's AWESOME they also collect zodiac pins and can transform into said Zodiac :3

Go ! Princess Precure - this one kinda reminded me of pitchi pitchi mermaid melody for some reason.....probably because theirs a mermaid cure but ANYWAYS it's about a girl who goes to an elite school and it's so awesome, especially with the princess theme

Kira Kira al a mode - this one is about food.....which is so awesome it's about how food provides happiness and if you don't put love into the food you make then the world becomes sad....( they also run a cafe similar to Tokyo mew mew ) they are also based on animals :3

Heart catch - that one is always everyone's favorite, and I swear anyone who has watched precure has recommended this one first. It's honestly just peak

I COULD RECOMMEND THE WHOLE FRANCHISE BUT.......THANK YOU NEON I LOVE RANTING ABOUT MAGICAL GIRLS.....

-paris anon

SHUGO CHARA LEGIT CHANGED MY BRAIN CHEMISTRY. THE SHEER STYLE AND TOPICS THAT THEY DELVE INTO (that aren't about that fuck ass emo cat) ARE DONE SO WELL....

PRECURE LOOKS SO FUCKING GOOD 😢😭😭😭 i really need to watch it but idk if it has a dub and my little goldfish needs it to be dub otherwise i get bored.... (so um. that's why i watched glitter force .)

THE TOYS ARE GENUINELY SO COOL LIKE i got 4 big ones but these are the ones i can immediately find)

YEAH THAT'S THE UNFORTUNATE PART OF PMMM YOU WILL IN FACT GET TRAUMATIZED IF YOU'RE TOO YOUNG AND BE SCARED OF PEAK...

OHHH I SAW DOREMI BEFORE .... tbh taiwan has so much gacha of it ??? didn't know it was so popular there but their designs are sooo cutes

SAILOR MOON COVERS IS GENUINELY SO PEAK. i got a random assortment...?? idk i also got 2 vols of the japanese ver but their covers are of my fav characters so its so awesome

OHHH MY GOD SAILOR MOON FIGURES...... THAT SOUNDS SO AWESOMEEE SAKURA MERCH IS SOOO PRETTYYYY like how do they do it. what crack cocaine do they feed those merch artists

been thinking about getting some bc i just rewatched crystal but also I Don't Think I Have The Room for more figures lol...

I'LL DEF HAVE TO CHECK THESE SHOWS OUTTTTT TY PARIS ANON FOR THE RECOMMENDATIONS!!!! houghhgg you got me at mermaid and zodiac i am a SUCKER for that stuff I NEED MORE FRILLY MAGICAL GIRLS I'VE BEEN DEPRIVED OF IT FOR TOO LONG (RIPS OFF MY SHIRT

(QUICK EDIT I JUST READ THE 2ND ASK)

OFCCC I LOVE HEARING OTHER PEOPLE RANT ABOUT MAHOU SHOUJO ITS SO NICE TO TALK TO OTHERS ABOUT THIS AWESOME GENRE.......

[p4nicaker]

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> send in a ⭐star⭐  to have the author select a section they’ve been dying to talk about!

thank you for the ask!!🫂��

Lore: it's a fantasy rewrite of how Greek mythology morphed into Roman one. Once there were the Old Gods(Greek ones) who created companions(/helpers/priests) for themselves to help solve humans' prayings. But humans' needs grew and so did the amount of gods. Therefore the New Gods(Roman ones) appeared to take new responsibilities and become the Old Gods' apprentices along with their priests. But then The Thing(™) happened and the Old Gods completely left the world. Old Gods' priests and New Gods inherited their places and become the new real gods for humankind.

Morpheus (pov character) used to be Dis Pater's(OG) priest and now he's the current God of dreams.

I really like to write from his pov bc in some point he was one tiny step away from becoming a villain. The truth is, OG's priests didn't really like humans that much, considering the said humans have forgotten their dearest creators. That's why the use of lapslock is more intentional - Morpheus admired and loved Dis Pater a lot, so (out of respect and some plot reasons) he uses capital He and never the real name.

"pieces of hearts" - OG created their priests, but NG lack that much power and use human souls. (If you're familiar with Heaven Official Blessing or Noragami, it will make more sence)

"to be like birds" - no deep meaning, just brief allusion on angels. Tbh my writing is just a challenge of how many strange metaphors I can squeeze into one piece.

"salty floods and fiery madness" - in my story tragedies of Atlantis and the Library of Alexandria were caused by OG's priests grief and anger after humankind has forgotten the first pantheon of gods.

oh and that brother Morpheus refers to is the story's main character, the current God of Underworld. Dis Pater took him in as his apprentice(and future heir), so he and Morpheus are pretty close, despite mc's awful difficult character.

Text under the cut:

we were like children looking back at adults, waiting for their permission or approval. but new gods are different. they don't need anyone above them. they don't reach out for any lord to ask what they were made for. we all know, the new gods are not born, they are made. not for but from. from needs and worship and hope and desperate ache. and a pray. we weren't made to be gods, we're just tiny pieces of Their hearts, bright and marvelous golden hearts, that They left behind. once we used to be like birds and now our hollow wings are shattered all over the horizon, soaking with grief and crimson every sunset.

some nights when the sky is deep and blue I wonder if They would be disappointed  knowing our rage and sorrow turned into salty floods and fiery madness. some nights when the sky is lucid and dark I wonder if He would be upset knowing there were times when I wanted to watch the world burn. some nights when the sky is glistening with tear tracks of stardust i ask Him if He made me of His part then why do i not feel that light anymore.

whether He answers you, brother, to what you're asking?

[loemius]

1, 13, 24, 30 (hi k i miss u)

hi quartz!!! miss you too, feel free to dm me literally any time <333 thank you for the ask!!! hope youre doing good my friend, sending you blessings and love <333 1: What are your opinions on AI in Witchcraft? i'm not really huge on AI in the first place tbh. i think it can be a helpful tool for gathering resources or summarizing complex texts into digestible bits to help your comprehension, but i don't really think it's a replacement for doing the work yourself. i think a large part of any spiritual practice, whether that be religion or witchcraft, is hands on experience, and AI simply cannot give you that. you gotta do it yourself. i draw from historical texts and sources, so i personally don't vibe with the idea of like. asking AI to come up with a spell for me. it doesn't have the same connection to me. you do what you wanna do, if that's your jam don't let me sour it, but it's not for me personally. 13: Do you think you can hex/curse/jinx a deity? Do you think you should? i would never suggest it. to me, the gods are the most powerful things -- that's part of why we worship them. they're larger and grander than us, more powerful than us. to think that you can put a curse on them is like... it doesn't compute in my brain. i don't want to be too harsh but like. to me it's pretty blasphemous and hubristic to attempt such a thing. hard pass for me. i don't even really think it would do anything honestly. any kind of magic i do is theurgic in nature, so i'm calling upon the gods for that, and to basically turn that around on them and use their own power to try to harm them or their family members kinda feels like a spit in the face to me. it's kind of like a minnow trying to take down a shark. like buddy you can try but the most youre going to be is mildly annoying and you will reap the consequences of what you sow for that action. 24: Outside of the online space, where do you get your resources from? i mean pdfs are online but i read a lot of pdfs. i go the library and explore when i have down time, which is always fun for me. i also try to talk to my professors at university about things when i can, or my very educated friends and loved ones. basically i ask a lot of questions to people more informed than me and go to the library LMAO. this is your local polisci nerd reminding you to support your local library and get a library card 30: What do you think is a scam in witchcraft? honestly i am not a fan of those deity confirmation readings on etsy or whatever. if they work for you then im glad they do, but i honestly am a big believer in just praying and making the relationship. if you feel called to a particular deity, that's your sign. there you go. make a water offering and a prayer. i also just think its really hard to interpret sometimes because so many deities have overlapping signs. i've done some of those readings myself early in my own practice and in retrospect like... looking at that original reading i could draw multiple deities from the cards i pulled. i also think overconsumption in witchcraft is a huge issue. a lot of people, more informed than me, have talked about this before, but it still like.. grinds my gears a little. like you dont need to go out and buy x specific thing. witchcraft by and large was about people using what they had on hand and using things that are local to them. i think sometimes this idea of 'you need x specific thing' can lead people into just learning lists of correspondences and associations and not really understanding WHY things are associated the way they are or making their own connections, which only hinders their own practice. thank you again for the ask my friend!! so good to hear from you, please feel free to reach out any time <33 gods bless you always with happiness and health

[quarterprioritymidnight]

whoa imagine if you went to the event at the library and were sitting so close you could see every single freckle on Dan’s face lol

tbh i spend most bas gigs wishing he would stay further away from me but god bless

[amazingmsme]

Omg that tag vid 🤣 I can completely picture the main trio just spinning around the watch post and feigning going left or right at the cafe tables, tossing chairs to try to slow down each other. As for your most flustering fics hmngh so many of yours put me in Lee mood, and this got long and turned into my rambling like a nerd- apologies in advance!

I'm gonna say the Stanley Parable fics Disobedience Shan't be Rewarded, and Is the Bucket Worth it, Stanley? are some of the ones that get me the most. I think it's the way you right the Narrator. I have a weakness for Gods using their powers to mess with someone helpless and those fics scratch that particular itch for me wonderfully. Also, mock sympathy, and condescension fuck me up so bad in Lers and you write it so well? 🫣

Ooh Hands To Yourself gets me bad though 😭 Pretty sure that fic made me hide my face in blush multiple times; Essek especially took me out in that good Lord I haven't even met him but you made me frightened to haha as an easily flustered Lee. 🤣 There was also quite a few neck and ear tword focus and given those are some of my own worse spots, I was scrunching up reading certain parts there lol. Oh! Another thing about Essek's characterization I loved- how he feigned genuine anger, because I would absolutely panic and trip over myself to people please out of fear and fall right into his trap 🤣 Then after it comes out he's not actually upset and my bad anxiety would go away and turn into anticipation, like right before i go on stage for a performance. I think I'd more just get flustered, jumpy and skittish.

I thought your Castlevania fic The Moderator and the Monster are One in the Same was also super cute; I also wrote an Alucard/Reader fic a while back based on the library scene since it took me out. Still haven't finished the show because I don't want it to end/make me sad haha.

Fuck Off and Let Me Sulk took me out jfc, just found that now and we have similar tword thoughts lmao- Alucard calling Trevor out? I am always down bad for mean, teasy as Hell, Alucard. His voice and mannerisms kill me, and his adorable back and forth with Trevor at the end was so cute?

Okay no more rambling I swear! Hope you had a good rest and that this is semi-coherent; I'm gonna pass out now cause it's nearing 7am 🤣 Getting creative in the middle of the night is both blessing and curse

LXGSMAHSKD THIS IS LIKE THE NICEST THING ANYONE’S EVER SAID OMG THANG YOU ILY!

I remember having so much fun with the Stanley Parable ones, especially the first one! It was pure self indulgence rewarded by an unexpected shower of attention lmao. & omg my sweet baby boy Essek, trust me you’re gonna love this prissy bitch once you meet him! I was literally like a horse trapped in that box before the race & once I officially met him I shot off like a rocket! I really need to write more critickle role tbh cause I have so many ideas! Although I gotta admit, I’m not sure that one’s mine, so can’t take credit for that one, but I do have a long ass shadowgast fic that just so happens to have a very teasy Essek. & don’t get me started on castlevania! Omg I fell so hard for those boys! Their dynamic is so fun & their banter is hilarious! They need their own get along shirt, I feel like it would end badly lzavakdhkq but yeah, Alucard is a teasy bastard & he loves to bother Trevor, & the human is just too cute for his own good

Please don’t apologize for rambling! This made me really happy & it’s so cool to hear about what fics y’all really like! Especially when they’re ones I really enjoyed making! Wish I got better sleep, but the fucking construction woke me up & bug man is coming to spray, so fuck it, we ball. But omg please get some sleep! I mean, I’ve definitely been there after a night of endless creative flow, so I absolutely feel you. Sleep tight, & hope you have sweet dreams! & to everyone else… good morning! 😂

[seveneyesoup]

hello girls guess who’s on their way to getting a copy of doctor omega (1905)

[unladylikc]

｢ @cosmicstardreamer​ ｣ — writes:

[ PORTRAIT ] sender paints a portrait of receiver (Neff wants to help Vivi realize she's pretty and isn't sure how well it'll work out but she's gonna tRY )

selectively accepting → non-verbal meme prompts !!

     “ ...Not gonna lie, I still don’t understand why you would want to paint someone as ugly as me, ” she’ll eventually admit. Honestly, her shoulders and back were beginning to feel stiff the longer she attempts to  MAINTAIN  her posture, but considering Neff wanted a reference while she painted, Vivian figured the least she could do was at least try not to move around too much. That, however, proved way easier said than done, even after the lights were dimmed and a window became cracked open at her request; then again, she also wasn’t used to being an artist’s muse.

     “ I mean, you might be better off, doing a portrait of someone who is actually cute... like Lexy, for example, ” Vivian finally proceeds to add. Why, compared to her, she believes Alex was just much prettier and feminine - not that she was ever jealous, of course. If nothing else, Vivian simply didn’t think she was suited for this modelling task.

[tamsinbeybey-she-no-porcupine]

Live-Blog 4.4

Spoilers and babbling below the cut. Seriously I mainly don these to get my initial thoughts and emotions out of my head

dafuq where is Robin

Also thinking about Marys flashback it was really clever how they adressed the trial

NO WAY NO FUCKING WAY you have got to be kidding me!! 😭😭😭😭 My chaos gremlins! My witchy chaos Gremlin Noooo! I hate this 😭😭😭nobody touch me. I mean it's theoretically nice for her but nooooo

also Captain burying himself in Work

I can't believe she's gone

Cap getting slightly unhinged

Pat Bless your little Heart

Gate of Herbert 😂

Oh god Thomas 😑

I love the kids outfits

You can't give wine to children

tbh a lot of our traditional food is also beige

Omg I would have died If i had been in one of the cars

Omg the ways in which they grief are so interesting for the individual character

Robin🥲

Is she really not coming back?

I have to practise my gun noises

Okay but "is it too much to ask for alphabetical ordeeeeer" If there'll be a Sticker it'll go in my library

i dont want her gone

Damn your eyes Thorne indeed

The picture😭😭

the fennel 😭

5 potatoes high im crying (and laughing a bit)

Cap almost crying my Heart and He and Julian almost hugging 😭😭😭

Robin 😭😭😭

Oh No Humphrey 😭😭

Robin 😭 the Stars and the names of the Ghosts😭😭😭

I think this Episode broke me

[centralnart]

kakashi playlist

tired dog man my beloved

rambling abt the songs under the cut

scarecrow

stolen from kirpy's playlist, it just. fits too much. it's like a theme song. yknow. cause his name means scarecrow.

running up that hill

ah yes, the guilt. this is The Vibe, kakashi about everyone he's lost or feel like he's wronged in his life. survivor's guilt, trying to believe he's not worthless. i love angst and if I only could / i'd make a deal with god /and I'd get him to swap our places you don't want to hurt me / but see how deep the bullet lies

despicable

i don't have anything to say about this song just lyrics to share. it's very very anbu era kakashi tbh one day you will understand / why I pushed you away as I ran / and you will find a better man than I am and if I were you, I wouldn't love me neither the boy who fell into the sky / had no one there to watch him cry / he looked at you with his empty eyes

sleeping with ghosts

depressed almost adult kakashi, post minato death. his entire team is dead. he doesn't have any family to speak of. at least he's still got gai <3 soulmate dry your eye / soulmate never dies

hayloft I & II

it's literally just a vibe, there is nothing else to say i just wanted to have them in his playlist. it's unhinged and there's so many cool lines. also for some reason now on the internets hayloft is a trans song. trans kakashi my beloved <3

how soon is now?

the hatake urge to have daddy issues <3 kakashi's feelings about his father are probably very complicated, and i love the fic shadows, blinding for the hatake clan lore, but also for exploring both the way kakashi resents and misses his father since his death, and because of the choice he made to die and leave him alone as a child i am the son and heir / of nothing in particular

song to say goodbye

ngl when making kakashi's playlist i went through my library just picking the saddest songs i love. this is absolutely one of my favourite placebo song too. i feel like it is simultaneously his inner monologue to himself (you are one of god's mistakes / you crying, tragic waste of skin) (now, I'm tryin' to wake you up / to pull you from the liquid sky / cause if I don't, we'll both end up / with just your song to say goodbye) but also about obito and rin, who, to him, died before they got to grow up. they remained frozen in time, and more ghosts than people to him (before our innocence was lost / you were always one of those / blessed with lucky sevens / and a voice that made me cry)

on the nature of daylight

nice instrumental break, idk it makes me think that maybe after the war, even if he still had his ghosts, some parts of him have started healing. this song is like those split moment in recovery that you get, where everything is clear and you go it wasn't all my fault after all

lights are on

for some reason it made me think of babykashi having to learn to live without his dad. without any family. grief is hard, even more when you're a kid, so he probably only really processed some parts of that grief as an adult, looking back on his childhood, before and after sakumo's suicide god stood me up / and I don't know why / lights are on / but nobody's home

please, please, please let me get what i want

the truth is in the title, and also the lyrics see, the life I've had can make a good man bad

last words of a shooting star

kakashi dying in the pein attack vibe, just "well this is it i guess" and I am relieved that I'd left my room tidy / they'll think of me kindly when they come for my things / they'll never know how I'd stared at the dark in that room

no one is ever going to want me

i just. please listen to this song. in full. the build up and drop around 6 minutes in is insane.

I'm armed to the teeth / like a fucking animal / I ruin everything / I get my bony hands on

over the bridge of sighs / we will get a cross like christ, crucified

i wanna feel like i feel when i'm asleep

[lesbiancolumbo]

Okay. I have seen Westward the Women (had to support whomever works in DVD collections at the library who ordered it). I was not expecting it to be so brutal. I was totally fooled by the cute dog and tone of the earlier scenes.

Hi! This news is one of the high points of my day and God bless our local librarians. I agree and love how brutal it is tbh. Like in that early scene where Robert Young is like a third of you will not make the journey!, I was like sure Jan. But no. The movie holds nothing back and it is SO MUCH. But i appreciated that - it really doesn’t try to romanticize the journey west the way I see some others try to do.

[fixielixie]

look i never thought when i first created a tumblr account back when i was like 13 that id ever reach the point where i would be sitting down to make a post on how a fictional character being a DomTop and indulging his partners noncon kink does /not/ somehow destroy his characterisation but here i am.

so the incense burner chapters... admittedly, i can understand why theyre not to everyones taste but ive seen some wild takes on how it "destroys lwjs characterisation and boils him down to a stereotypical top" and tbh i just wanna defend lwj.

as a disclaimer, i just wanna say that personally, i think porn is one of the hardest things to translate well. like porn is already so hard to write well in the first place, so having it go through a translator is always gonna change the quality. so i feel like we should all take that into account before we start the whole "mxtx cant write porn" shit, because maybe her porn slaps but we arent getting the full experience (if any chinese speakers out there who've read the incense burner chapters in chinese wanna correct me on that, feel free to do so).

okay so the first point i wanna hit is that wwx, in contrast to popular belief, had stated his interest in CNC before the incense burner chapters even happen (i would nearly say that him bringing it up might have influence lwjs subconscious in a way). in chapter 115, wwx has a clear fantasy of what he thinks rape play should be, and tries first to insinuate it with lwj. when lwj makes no interest in being the reciever here, wwx offers himself up to which lwj enthusiastically responds.

what this scene does is basically set up a roleplay scene between two consenting parties that they eventually follow through with. an almost foreshadowing of whats to come if you will.

then we have the first incense burner dream. here we see two different vision, wwxs domestic haven and then lwjs fantasy of him and wwx in the library. now, to be fair, lwjs dream is told in a lot of detail and if youre anyway uncomfortable with noncon at all, of course you would find this a very uncomfortable read. to wwx and lwj its just a fantasy, in the same way that when wx first had sex, wwx told him that he should have just forced himself on him in the first place. its clearly a concept wwx in particular thinks a lot about.

but my point here is that lan wangji fantasising about something like this doesnt destroy his character, for the direct narrative sequence it follows, it actually makes sense that he was fantasising about this. especially when so much of wangxians sex dynamic is wwx pushing and prodding at lwjs restraint until he snaps. its clearly a dynamic they both enjoy and eagerly participate in. anyone is perfectly within their right to not like these chapters, but it also probably means you dont like wangxians sex scenes in general considering nearly all of them hold a similar tone, just not as intensely as the ones in the incense burners.

in the second incense burner chapter with a young lan wangji and an older wei wuxian, you actually see wangxian doing the bare minimum of setting up a cnc scene. wwx teases a younger lwj, unsure if its his one of just a dream one like the pervious dream. he wakes up and finds out lwj was actually playing the role of his younger self. both of them with that knowledge enter the dream a second time and then we have the infamous bichen scene.

idk i just feel like people want to make these moments into something theyre not. personally i think wangxians bedroom dynamic fits them perfectly, gay men are allowed to like topping without it being some hidden hate crime. let wangxian do their cringey role play and be freaky. god bless.

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tbh it actually genuinely impresses me that in the year of our lord 2022 my father has no email address, no social media, no websites, no online shopping accounts, and no smartphone. Truly admirable. Dude is like persona non grata on the internet. my mom does all the online shit they need to do and has 1 email she bought in 1994 with dial-up-internet and still uses. god bless.

plus mom and dad pay for 0 streaming media services. mom thinks streaming music subscriptions are stupid and don't make sense. They just like, listen to internet radio stations (hello radio paradise man) (rip hober, music for people of the internet), public radio (NPR, WDCB, wfmt), songs they bought individually on itunes and burned to a cd, library cds, LPs they've owned since the 80s, and their ever growing cd collection (they're the people who go to a show and buy the CD AND the LP afterwards lmaooo). They just watch weird foreign films on dvd from the library and all the movies they bought at the blockbuster going out of business sale in 2009. Before mom cancelled netflix last year all she used it for was to get 2 DVDs in the mail each week -- she was an OG 90s netflix subscriber and cancelled because "they just got so expensive and the library is free with better selection". They also have not paid for cable/TV since 1991.