#so absolutely do not be embarassed to use lyrics

[iris-draws]

Verosika in her apology tour fit🔥🔥

Okay WOW that episode was amazing and also a lot so I'm gonna ramble for a bit.

Verosika absolutely slayed and ate (surprising nobody) and I love how sweet she was with everyone and especially stolas. Her talk with blitz was great and I'm glad she got the closure she needed. She truly is a kind soul for throwing a party for all the people who have been hurt by this horrible guy, and everyone there is understanding and comforting, it was so cute to see. Also the fact she was able to forgive blitz was incredible in itself. If I saw how many people he had hurt this badly and also been hurt and embarassed by this guy, I don't think I'd ever be able to forgive him with just him feeling sorry for himself and a half-baked apology.

This episode really showed us what a terrible person blitz really is. And honestly? I don't really sympathize with him anymore. Yes, he has trauma. But he refuses to work or just get better and can't even apologize. Getting a bit personal here but I had a toxic ex who was very similar to blitz, so maybe I'm biased and that makes me hate the character more. Nevertheless, blitz was absolutely terrible this episode and yes you can feel bad for him but I better not see anyone condoning his actions.

There is a party EVERY YEAR specifically for this guy and everyone he's hurt. There were SO MANY PEOPLE there?? He's screwed over and fucked a lot of those people, and he can't even bother to remember them or apologize?? His excuse is "Well it's hell so everyone is shitty" which is a terrible excuse. Just because it's hell doesn't mean you have to be a shitty person. Bro really needs to go to the hazbin hotel and take Charlie's lessons cause he needs to learn "it starts with sorry."

Now for stolas. Omg my baby ATE this episode. I loved seeing him be passive aggressive and sing his heart out (btw, that song is one of the best in the series, MY GOD. it doesn't even sound like stolas it's so different from the rest of the songs but it's SO GOOD. THE VISUALS, THE VOCALS, THE LYRICS AHDJDANKQ SO GOOD OMG) I do think stolas has some issues as well. He needs to understand he DID look down at blitz. He doesn't really understand that he truly is privileged. He treats blitz and his butler imps completely differently. If they're going to be in a relationship they both need to change. Stolas needs to learn his worth (which i think he will start to realize he's better than blitz deserves until he changes with that succubus dude) and blitz needs to get his shit together. But stolas does need to look back on his actions and the things he's said to blitz to give him the impression that he was nothing more than an "impish little plaything" to stolas.

I could ramble for hours about this episode but I'll stop for now lol if you made it this far you get a cookie🍪

[pinchinschlimbah]

Thank you again for the message, and the references, the "Melty-chan" info (I thought it was just another overpriced ugly toy he was trying to sell, my bad!)

I admit, I didn't check on Kyo's other bands or any recent interviews. Just social media (with google translate) and live / PV. So yeah, my general opinion is 20 years old (shame on me!) like : "arrogant and full of himself and seeking out mindlessly devoted followers" it's definitely from 20 years ago and that toxic person I used to hang out with. They were my "Kyo channel" since I was "to dumb" to understand "his incredible talent" and "too obtuse to even grasp an atom of the sheer and fathomless poetry of his lyrics he was kind enough to throw to us, mere mortals." (It was not said in english, this is translation, but you get the idea) And you know? they were right. He was just another screaming, jumping, vomiting and self cutting edgy singer for me :/ I was just waiting for him to go full GG Allin and take a dump on stage.

I've talked with someone about him a few month ago and they had the feeling he's on the spectrum too, this would explain the clumsiness in M&G and the difference of attitude on stage and out of stage. Because a lot of autistic people are mistaken for asshole while they're just not socially adapted. Considering his age, if this hypothesis is true, he might be exhausted of "masking" or diagnosed... But, no idea about japanese feeling toward atypical persons. So this remains pure speculation.

About the infamous dango episode, I didn't managed to form an opinion. It was funny if he was doing it for fun, cringe if he was drunk or high and absolutely embarassing if he was just not giving 2 fucks. I felt bad for the director of the movie. But since he did the promo tour in other cities I finally came to the conclusion it was either a meltdown or a strange way to be funny and nothing malicious. Ok, I'm going to burry the hatchet and cut the guy some slack (for now…, still have my eyes on him, just in case). And for the sake of my feeble sanity because I have spend too much time (yours and mine) projecting IDK what on a dude I will never meet. LOL!

Talking in private crossed my mind, but maybe someone else is interesting in the topic and might want to join the talk. Use another account and I'll make one too and we'll talk shit 'til we drop dead.

No problem! I'm glad I was able to help you find some peace, and I definitely recommend looking into Kyo's more recent work and interviews because it's clear he's in a much better place now. Sukekiyo is a pretty solidly queer/femme-centered project and it seems having that new space to explore those sides of himself where there are less eyes on him has been really good for him and then has had those sensibilities reflected back into Dir en Grey once he became more comfortable with them. He's even spoken recently about that dark ages era, that he wishes he could give his past self a hug for being so angry at the world and handling it in such a damaging way and that "despite coming close to accepting his past self, he still feels like it committed something against his present self." Sounds like the people you used to hang out with were indeed toxic assholes, I'm glad you got away from them! I personally don't feel comfortable making commentary on whether Kyo might be neurodivergent or not since I myself am (probably) not autistic, but its an interesting theory and it's possible that that's the case! However, I also think it's a lot more common than people realize for performers to be completely different on and off stage...no one can be at 100% power like that all of the time and are often expressing something through their art that they don't feel capable of expressing in normal conversational words, so that larger than life performance persona can only come out during those times and in fact many iconic performers are quite shy and reserved and awkward off stage. In the same Metal Hammer interview I posted screenshots of in my previous post, Kyo says this

It's my understanding that this is still the case, since Kyo said in an interview about Sukekiyo that he specifically picked members who also weren't into drinking or drugs (can't currently find where I saw this one I'm sorry), and fairly recent Shinya channel videos and interviews with other members have indicated that Kyo does not join the rest of the band when they drink backstage or go out after their shows.

I truly do think the dango incident was just him being stupid and silly, if you watch the video you can tell the other members were also entertained and actively humoring it so I wouldn't worry too much about what was going on there!

[suck-a-egg]

Domino Headcanon Time, Hoes

I am working on a fic for this post but it wont be out for a while because I have a dumb dumb idiot baby brain and will focus on it way more than anything else.

so in the meantime, here are alot of headcanons about the Domino Squad some of these are sad

Domino age order from oldest to youngest: Hevy, Fives, Echo, Cutup, Droidbait

Domino squad is an actual defect squad where as the bad batch was made to have their 'defects'

because they were defects none of their chips worked the way the were supposed to

Hevy isnt good at spelling. He's not allowed to send out any reports without someone proof reading them for him.

Fives is the motherhen of the group. Hes the only one who can safely get inbetween Hevy and Echo when their arguements go a little too far.

Echo was considered the runt of the batch, and was often watched for decommisioning. It was constantly held over his head, which is why he became obsessed with the rules. If he could follow their rules and hit all the bench marks then they would have no reason to decommission him.

Cutup loves music but has absolutely no musical talent. This does not stop him from screeching lyrics to the galaxies most popular songs across the base.

Droidbait is often left behind on accident, he has been left in the mess hall more times than he can count.

Hevy and Echos relationship wasnt always rocky. At one point they were pretty close but after the multiple decomming scares, Echo pulled away to make it easier for Hevy if anything happened.

Echo didnt choose his name, he didnt like it at all but the rest of the squad made sure that he never had the chance to introduce himself so he was stuck with what they had named him. In the end, he kept it because he saw it as the one and only gift he had left from his batchmates.

Outside of missions, Fives went silent for months after the citadel and the only person who could get him to talk was Rex.

Droidbait insists on going by db because its 'less embarassing'

Cutup was the only one to embrace their squads differences. He would would practically hold an open mic night on any other cadets who would pick at them.

the cadets around Kamino will often tell one another about the "Fall of the Dominos" about how three died heros but were never spoken of again and how the two survivors went insane from grief and one lost his mind while the other lost his body.

Hevy use to steal pudding cups for Droidbait when they were cadets. he never had a reason to do it he just would.

theres a dent in one of the walls in their pod room and no one really knows how it got dented (Hevy Kyled the wall)

Echo has spiral curls that he purposefully keeps buzzed down because otherwise Cutup would start playing with them

This is a pretty common headcanon for Fives but theres too much evidence behind it, Fives shows affection through boardline violence, he gave Cutup a concussion once after an overly affectionate headbutt. Droidbait has multiple bruises on his arms from loving punches. Hevy got shoved into Sergeant O'Niner once and was given cleaning duty for a week that he forced Fives to do with him. During their 501st days he got a little too touchy with Echo and he started fighting back and ended up chasing Fives to Rex's office on multiple occassions.

and yes i do think Fives and Echo are pod twins, its another reason why Echo was watched for decommisioning.

[bruciemilf]

Do you have anymore headcannons for Martinez?

Youngest out of like. 9 siblings

Jake Peralta coded with a sprinkle of Jake Lockley thrown in

Surprisingly smooth??? That " Hey ;)" scene from Spider-Verse with Aaron and Miles but it's Martinez and Bruce, or Martinez and/or Dick/Jason

Watches Rupaul's Drag Race religiously. 50% of his vocabulary is just gay stan twitter references

Learning about Bruce's trauma surrounding guns, he stops using his; VERY handy with a taser gun, thought

" God, I hate men" " Martinez, WE'RE men" " Do I make you feel bad about YOUR flaws, Jim?"

You know how every workplace has that one guy that all the female co-workers just...Unanimously trust? That's Martinez; HAS punched a sexist bitch in the face for his female co workers, and he'll do it again. And take a selfie

I feel like Bruce really likes having him around but doesn't like visiting the precinct if he absolutely doesn't have to; That's how Martinez got hired as his personal driver

" I feel bought"

" You were worth the expenses"

" I feel EXPENSIVE "

MARTINEZ AND DICK!!!! MARTINEZ AND DICK!!! MARTINEZ THE FUN UNCLE!

" MCDONALD'S! MCDONALD'S! MCDONALD'S!"

Has a carpool karaoke song for each member of the family; Alfred listens to Celine Dion and Queen. Bruce insists on quietly bopping to Matchbox Twenty while Martinez punches the radio

Dick and him wig out to Lady Gaga and Dick WILL throw a tantrum if Martinez doesn't harmonize to the first part of " bad romance" also Beyonce; Beyonce all day everyday.

Jason LOVES Panic! At the Disco and they'll listen to House of Memories on LOOP. Even if Jsson cries sometimes when he's too drunk (also, Martinez has recordings of Jason drunk calling Bruce to tell him that he loves him and that he forgives him)

Tim canonically loves Green Day but I've never seen a character that reeks so much of " I listen to Britney Spears in my sleep " more than him

Damian loves K-Pop but he threatens Martinez to NEVER tell a soul; It's very embarrassing, 'Amm " Everything's embarassing, squirt. Let's get you some merch" he also has the Naruto soundtrack

Cass loves instrumentals of mainstream rock songs, and Martinez always lip syncs the actual lyrics to not single her out

Stephanie and him are One Direction stans and they scream " YOU'RE INSECURE DONT KNOW WHAT FOR" at like, 3 in the morning for her waffle run

Duke likes to pretend he's in a music video everytime and Martinez makes his playlist be just old vintage gangster music; " We here, boss" " Good. That's how we DO - omgthosekidsfromschoolsawme DRIVE DRIVE -"

Has a whole wife that NO ONE from the family knew about; " What? I don't tell you people everything. Except Barbie. Barbie knew."

Barbara, knowing this is gonna piss Bruce off so much: I was his maid of honor :)

Bruce: >:/

[eremiie]

Hiya! I saw that you followed me so I wanted to be nice and send a lovely request :>

I am sending this for Eren since we have good taste 😌 and so here’s your prompt—

Prompt; Reader is wearing baggy clothes (just cause that’s my thing, you don’t have to include it if you don’t want to) while blasting music and dancing; just having a fun time, not paying mind to the fact Eren is watching everything, occasionally recording and taking pictures, that is until he gets caught by the reader and attempts to share those visuals. It’s preferably fluffy, but I don’t mind having some or twist. Run wild!😉

delete it!;

❥ eren x reader | 1.3k words | fluff

❥ thank you so much for being nice & sending in a request i appreciate you sm!! & yes we both do have some immaculate taste i see😏. i also love baggy clothes so i love that we are alike in that aspect hehe i hope you enjoy🤲.

❥ in which eren jaeger is a sneaky thing, and takes pictures of you while you dance your heart out.

“i’m going back to 505!” you were prancing around your bedroom listening to your playlist for the first time in a while. it had been so long since you last listened to your favorite tunes and it was a shame since the last time you clicked on your spotify you added a lot of new songs to your playlist and then blatantly abandoned it for a few weeks.

eren had took you thrifting earlier and here you were, trying on some of the clothes for the umpteenth time making sure everything was to your liking and deciphering if you had to tailor anything or if you could revamp some of the shirts and jeans you bought. he rested on your bed scrolling through his phone, throwing you quick glances as you danced a little bit before throwing one of your shirts onto the bed and bending down to pick up another one and putting it on.

“it seems like once again you've had to greet me with goodbye!” you giggled while you turned around in your full body mirror making sure the current outfit you had on was cute, your jeans were baggy with ripped in the knees, the bottom overlapping your feet in the slightest while your shirt hung loosely around your waists, a graphic design detailing the front. “eren, is this cute?”

he looked your way his eyes lingering for a second too long on your frame. he absolutely adored the way you dressed and thought it was the cutest thing ever, how you dressed so comfortably and made everything look so good. he especially loved when you adorned your body with jewelry, pretty necklaces, rings and bracelets; but one thing he never understood was your infatuation with expensive sneakers. he watched you shake your hips and use your fist as a microphone while singing to yourself in the mirror and voicing the lyrics. he couldn’t help but smile at his girlfriend’s antics and chuckled. “yeah, i told you i like all your outfits.”

eren went to his snapchat on his phone, making sure his ringer was off before pressing down on the white rimmed button down near his home button, recording you singing to yourself in the mirror grinning stupidly at you. when you bent down to pull off the pants you were wearing eren immediately stopped recording, wanting to get more photos and videos of you to embarrass you later first. he saved the video to his snapchat memories.

“okay well i’m gonna put on these sweatpants since we’re not going out again.” you said while standing up to pull the sweats over your legs. “this shirt is cute though so i’m keeping it on.” eren hummed in response, now on his camera to wait until you did something ridiculous to take more photos.

the song switched and your hand slapped over your mouth, smiling underneath it. “eren, baby this is my song!” you bounced on the balls of your feet and went over to grab the hairbrush from your dresser beside your mirror, turning towards eren to give him a show. “eren, watch.” you said, snapping your fingers to draw his attention, little did you know it was already on you the entire time.

you stuck your leg out, stuttering your hip and grinding in mid air with your hands covering your face and eren immediately went to snapchat to begin to record again, you beginning to sing. “you got more than 20-20, babe. made of glass the way you see through me...” you started to laugh at yourself as eren’s smile got bigger and he began to laugh as well. you pointed at the brunette directing the next verses towards him with the brush up to your mouth.

“i wanna love me, the way that you love me! oooh, for all of my pretty, and all of my ugly too,” you stepped towards eren dragging your feet behind you singing dramatically while he snapped more photos of you acting silly, absolutely in awe with you, his girlfriend. “i’d love to see me from your point of view.” and with every word of that line you twisted each leg back and forth with your hands on your hips before busting out into laughter at how stupid you looked, eren joining in again.

“did you like my performance?” you asked him goofily heading over to straddle his legs on the bed.

“the song isn’t over, keep going.”

“so you do like it?” you poked at his chest right underneath where his phone was propped up by his arms before smoothing your hands over his shirt in adoration at the man in front of you.

“of course, now keep going!” he insisted and you huffed stretching your arms out.

“i couldn't believe it or see it for myself, boy, i be impatient, but now i’m out here

falling, falling, frozen, slowly, falling got me right,” you pumped your fist with every drag of the last couple words oblivious to the fact that eren was recording you from down below once again until the chorus came back around and you leaned down. “you’re not even paying attention to me you’re staring at your phone!” you whined flipping the device back with your hand and eren grabbed it hastily.

“baby i was paying attention.” it took you a second to process that was you who he was staring at on his phone, as a matter of fact it was a whole video of you singing to him, moving aimlessly sat on top of him, and you began to get flustered.

“eren! was that me on the phone? were you recording me? oh my gosh, this is so embarrassing, delete it!” you groaned reaching for his phone while he laughed at your despair.

“noo, you looked so cute and good and pretty.” he continued adding on words to butter you up, he didn’t want to delete the photos.

“eren!” your tone came out whiny. he grabbed your wrists and pulled you forward against his chest wrapping a secure arm around you and trapping your arms on either side of him so it would be hard for you to reach up and grab his phone which he kept at a distance.

“______, just look,” he went to his camera roll and went to the first photo he took of you and you narrowed your eyes, realizing it was when you had the jeans on and we’re dancing in the front of your mirror. he then swiped and the next one was you turned towards him with the same jeans on, the photo slightly blurry but you seemed to be about to sit on the floor.

“eren, this is embarassing, oh my gosh stop.” you were restrained from reaching for his phone and pouted against his chest, your cheek smushed.

“no it’s not. you’re so gorgeous baby, look,” you looked up at the phone again and he was now on snapchat, attempting to show you videos of you dancing without a care in the world, you using your hand as a microphone.

“i bet you’re gonna post these on my birthday, you’re so annoying.”

eren kissed your forehead and rubbed your shoulder with the arm wrapped around you. “i could post them now if you want.”

your body tensed up and you began flailing in eren’s arms causing more laughter to leave his throat. “eren stop! give me your phone!”

he flipped the two of you over so he was now on top of you, cooing you with soft ‘shh’s. “i’m just kidding, i’m just kidding.” you pouted again, but you were secretly relishing in the feeling of your sweet boyfriend on top of you, basking in his warmth as he closed his eyes. “just cuddle with me for a little bit babe.”

another huff of annoyance came from you, but you secretly too didn’t mind cuddling with him; no matter how many embarrassing photos or videos he had of you, and no matter how annoying he was.

[thesecrimsonstrings-if]

I have come back to smut galore it seems. I usually get second hand embarrassment from reading smut, which I don't usually read, let alone write, but I do have to admit that yours is very well written, so props to you. 😂😂❤️

On a serious note your writing is absolutely incredible. How did you get your writing to such a high level? Its so good!! 👀

Can't wait to see more of this project and of your work I already know it's going to be an absolute masterpiece.

STOPSHFKSJF I WAS SO EMBARASSED WRITING THAT 😭 BUT I'M HAPPY THAT MOST OF Y'ALL DID ENJOY IT ❤️ THE AMOUNT OF SMUT REQUESTS I'VE GOTTEN SINCE THEN ISTG— I'LL BE WORKING ON AN S AND RONAN SMUT SCENARIO ONCE THE PROLOGUE IS RELEASED (HOPEFULLY BEFORE FEBRUARY HEHE)

also i really don't think my writing is anywhere near as good as some of the authors here 😭 i suppose i just focus more on humanising the characters and try to make the atmosphere and their feelings formulate in a lyrical way? i've written manuscripts on unfinished projects before but interactive fictions and straightforward novels are very different things tbh. i'm a novice when it comes to writing interactive stories so it was kind of difficult to understand how can i turn the novel format, that i was used to writing, into an interactive one.

i'm still learning and i doubt TCS will be a ‘masterpiece’ of an IF, if i'm being honest. you might even think that the pacing of the story is more like a novel than an interactive fiction 😭 it's something i'm still working on tho. however, hearing people say such sweet things about my writing and how they can't wait to read more has my heart swelling with so much joy ❤️ y'all know i'm the typo king atp and it's surprising to me that you all actually like reading whatever scribbles i write 😭

literally, you all have no idea how much you've boosted my confidence in my writing during these past couple of months (starting from my WLB days). to know that so many people are awaiting the release of TCS's demo and are eager to play is such an exhilarating feelings, albeit a bit scary. i think i've finished half of the prologue now, bonnies, y'all won't have to wait for long! the only thing i'm fearing right now is the word count for chapter one 💀

[i-am-just-a-kiddo]

shuffle challenge

you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs!

thank you @vishcount! 💕 you know am always happy to post my music so thank you for tagging me! am following your example and put three different playlists because i listen to all of them a lot currently. 

since this is gonna get long again, i will tag everyone else at the beginning: @cortue, @intyalote, @sassyassassy, @not-saying-revolution-but, @the-cloud-whisperer and whoever wants to share their music! 

playlist I. ‘Kikimora a vodjanoj’ aka my original story project 

the same by mehro

this playlist if for my original story that i’ve been creating for the past month; i don’t really know what i can - and want - to share about it? i think the lyrics of this song might be a bit too cheesy for my characters but the vibes are impeccable.

Намалюй by Go_A

to be fair, this whole Go_A album is perfect for my project but this song was absolutely haunting (together with Сонце). also please, if anyone has more slavic music recommendations, i will love you forever. děkuji.

BACK HOME feat. Kacha Kowalczyk (Coals) by Daniel Spaleniak

once again, impeccable vibes. i think they capture the atmosphere of my project quite well? i know i am being incredibly vague here but  it’s for you to judge what vibes these are (sorry).

playlist II. ‘burn the world burn myself’ aka Wen Kexing character study

Comet by SEVDALIZA

for my wen kexing playlist, this song is a whole gem. i adore sevdaliza but man, the lyrics of this?? “there is light on your body” will haunt me for fucking ever. 

Begging To Bleed by 8 Graves 

no comment needed

You Know What They Do to Guys Like Us in Prison by My Chemical Romance

it’s embarassing how late i noticed that mcr fits wkx’s vibes - especially Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge which is the superior album lbh 

playlist III. ‘leggo’ aka everything I’ve liked for the past 6 years

MAD by mokyu

i think youtube recced this to me and i vibed with it instantly? it’s a shame that it’s so short to be honest. maybe i should check more of mokyo’s stuff

Dead Leaves ( 고엽) by BTS 

i say this about the majority of bts’ songs but this one? immortal masterpiece in my opinion. it especially has a soft spot in my heart because it was one of the first songs i listened to regularily when i got into bts and i had a friend with whom we shared this song? so it has a lot of good memories.

Cold Little Heart by Michael Kiwanuka

this song is just so good, i don’t know what else to say about it? i discovered it around two years ago and i never get tired of listening to it.

그리고 남겨진 것들_The Day Before by NELL  (tw: depiction of suicide in the mv)

sometimes you just gotta be sad and listen to nell on loop. my dear vishie must know my undying love for this band. once in a while i just get emotional about all the wonderful music they have gifted to the world. i’m not up to date but i’ve seen them posting something about a new album on instagram? i hope am not wrong because a nell album sure would bless this cursed year. their music feels like a comforting hug

if you listened to all the songs, i hope you found something you liked! this was nice 💗

[fallencrowkarma]

Him correcting grammar and showing no mercy is hella accurate-

Everyone changing their name and PFP to reader YESSSS! He's sitting here like... "wait... reader has the owner role HAHA!" But was still hella confused as first

He has a harem- everyone is married to him welcome to Scara's harem- every person who did the marry thing gets "Subtitle-San's Harem" role lmao-

There are some actual Japanese speakers in there- whether that's their only language or not is up for debate. If some of the people only know Japanese, well Scara is there so dw- and then the others who knows English AND japanese like fluently are having a fucking BALL out here-

There's a chat just for the JP speakers and it's almost as chaotic as the general chat-

Eventually the harbingers seen some of the subtitles that are insulting Childe while doing the lyrics- or Dottore- him too-

Everyone getting suspicious like "who else knows of Childe and/or Dottore and hates them??" Scaramouche is ready to kill them- no survivors no witnesses

Catch him willingly scarring himself and subtitling covers of the fox's wedding and gomenne gomenne that reader made- he a little masochistic

If reader doesn't understand Japanese he says "I love you" in Japanese cuz fuck saying it to their face where they can understand- and EVERYONE, ESPECIALLY JP SPEAKERS go crazy like. "YES! BITCH YES" one of the admins makes a ship chat just for scara and reader

Fucking that one bot- the userphone bot doing the "— ship Subtitle-San (y/n)"

Compatibility 100%

And if it says anything other than that the whole discord server is rioting

Lmaoooo at some Point the subtitle-san Harem role becomes a choosable role upon entering the server bcs too many people want it🗿🗿🗿

Omg yes Theres an english only chat, a jap only chat and a mixed chat. Scara, of course, can use them all. Other people trying to learn more languages so they can Chat more with him🗿

Oh No His funny comments could very well be His downfall Ur right🗿🗿🗿 the Thing is He probably doesnt Name them outright. More something Like 'that annoying ginger' and the 'insane wannabe doctor' and both Childe and Dottore are Like mhm ... Thats kinda sus....🤨

He absolutely subs all the darker songs. He loves it smh

Thats so cute tho😭 everyone is Like,,, duh! Ofc subtitle-san and Reader need to get together! They are a perfect Team! And It's so cute. I think He would be a little cryptic with His confession because he's embarassed 🗿🗿 Either way His fans will find Out and call him Out on it ehe The two get a happily married role as Well <3

[dolphin-enthusiast]

Bucci Gang's reaction to they're drunk s/o singing "Freek'N You" at 2:00am, Hc's? (i dunno my before sleep thoughts are weird🙃)

OK BUT ME TOO

- Bruno first questions your sanity once he oh so crudely gets y e e t e d back into reality by your booming, screeching yet still somehow angelic voice yelling out such sinful lyrics at only 2 am. He'll literally just 🧍 in the doorway for a few seconds until slowly but surely starting to sing along with you and yet you'd still be outscreaming him since the poor man is, after all, half asleep and also weary of your unfortunate neighbours. He'd normally be the one busting Mista and Narancia's asses because THEY are usually the ones disrupting public peace in the dead of the morning/night but would he put everything aside for you and you only and join the chaos since he loves you too much? Absolutely. He'll oversleep the next morning and pretend as if he wasn't totally screaming shit like "waKE UP FEELING SO H O R N Y Y Y-" last night when the others question you both about the matter as you slowly come to your senses after such a wild experience.

- Giorno is quite similar to Bruno except he actually puts LEGIT effort into his sleepy singing and let me tell you, the boi's voice is absolutely ANGELIC dude. Like even if he's singing absolute gibberish Giorno still somehow manages to make it sound as if he's singing Mozart's Lacrimosa. The man's face will quickly twist itself with an unbearably cute shit eating grin as he'd hear your chaotic antics only to join in mere seconds later and slap a full on beautiful ass falsetto at the end that secretely causes both you and Bruno in the other room to shed a few tears. The latter ain't even mad that he had woken him up tbh.

- Abbacchio totally grumbles that you woke him up like the grandpa that he is and tries his best to keep up that 🗿 persona only to break character not even 2 minutes later when you passionately grab a fork that you use as a mic whilst screaming "S E C S I N G YOU IS ALL I SEEEE" as you point towards him. That's when Abba starts chuckling and says fuck it and begins cheering you on and turning the FUCK UP even if he isn't really straight up singing the lyrics per se. You know he's highkey shy with shit like singing even if it's you, and teasing him again and again isn't exactly helping his case either but you really can't help it especially when you know how cutely he blushes whilst scoffing as he looks away in embarassment. However he WILL be quietly muttering or lip syncing the entire time.

- Mista will absolutely start singing this shit whilst banging pots and pans on top of the kitchen table LONG before you even think of doing it. It's almost like a ritual to him, disrupting public peace and getting several complaints from the neighbours and even a few warrants once in a while. But that's exactly why you love him anyway. You two will abdolurely wreck havoc and break your goddamn vocal chords as you go from Freek'N'You to Ginuwine's Pony until Bruno and the others bang on yall's door demanding that they're gonna ground yo asses if you don't shut the fuck up already because it's already almost 4 fucking am. Best partner in crime 11/10.

- Fugo will also deadass let loose and start screeching alongside you but not before trying (emphasis on "trying") to be the "wise one" as he'd tell you to stop this madness with a lowkey cute sleepy look. That is until you take him by the hand akin to Oceanman and encourage him to shout out "EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES....", that's when Fugo says F U C K I T and eagerly continues the lyrics that you start screaming, albeit just a little quieter because he's still a lowkey shy boi.

- NARANCIA OH MY GOD HE AIN'T EVEN SLEEPING AT ALL BRUH HE HEARS THE INTRO TO THE SONG AND RUSHES HEAD ON LIKE "Y E A A A H." Mf climbs on top of the table, BREAKDANCES on it as you keep singing and screams his lungs off louder than you'll ever manage. Narancia will keep clapping as you keep singing once his throat gets all scratchy and fucked up until, as always, Bruno angrily zips into the room and threatens to take away his Nintendo DS if he doesn't stop already.

Bonus - Trish: She leaves as soon as you start and goes to sleep on the fucking couch downstairs because you're fucking ruining her beauty sleep.

[nicollekidman]

dude ...I used to hope Taylor swift was bi / a fellow lesbian out of optimism lol, because i admire her work and when seen through the lens of a closeted woman all the secrecy metaphors make a lot of sense.... it would be so fascinating and heartbreaking if it were true! but I’m getting too old for conspiracies . I dunno. What keeps you believing?

okay so! i’m gonna preface this with a few things: it’s gonna be long bc i haven’t talked about taylor in a long time and i’m having Feelings and Thoughts, and my journey with miss swift is necessarily very personal and i won’t pretend otherwise! 

firstly: i don’t think i need to “keep” being convinced. for me it’s not an ongoing search for evidence - i believe that her songs speak for themselves and all the personal clues that might or might not be reaches are just icing on the cake. 

i grew up in a country music-listening household and loved tim mcgraw when it came out as a single when i was in middle school! i was pretty much hooked on her songwriting for then on, and her albums always seemed to come out at pivotal points of my life. “we are never ever getting back together” was the soundtrack to my move to university in 2012 and 1989 coincided with my junior year which was revelatory in that it was the time when i was really coming to terms with being gay. my journey with taylor dovetails super closely with my own personal journey, in ways that i think are familiar to a lot of people. as a young girl i latched onto her storytelling and her confessional voice and then as i began to realize i was experiencing attraction to women, i found a lot of comfort and understanding in her lyrics. this happened for me really late in life compared to some people! i was 21/22 when i first identified as bi, and it wasn’t until later i began to think it was possible i was a lesbian. my experience with unlearning compulsory heterosexuality, examining my own emotional interior life, and thinking about why it took me over 20 years to even consider i could possibly love women made me look at taylor in a new light. 

i think everything i need is in her music. that’s where taylor is at her most uninhibited and truthful. i think when you look at the themes/relationships she’s been writing about since she was a teen, you can see that as long as you’re willing to suspend the presupposition that everyone is straight until proven otherwise, she writes in a way that resonates with gay women for a reason!! as a younger artist she relied on a lot of fairy tale imagery, perspective shifts, and idealized stories of love. especially when she talks about those songs.... (and she still does this), she’s always connecting them to movies, to books, to things outside of her own experience. and when she is clearly talking about herself, she takes second-person pov or otherwise spins narratives that are full of yearning and a hope for a perfect fairytale in the future. i think that mode of almost.... daydreaming about an idealized version of a love story hits close to home for us! and then her later albums are MUCH louder, with themes (as people have pointed out over and over again) that just don’t hold much weight if you view them through the lense of a very famous wealthy woman writing about equally well-to-do white men. when i hear songs about forbidden love, itching to hold the hand of your beloved in public, crying over seeing heroes die alone, spinning a portrait of a life in the future where she can share her home and her love with all her friends.... when she writes so acutely of pain and agony associated with living in a fishbowl and enduring long periods of being undercover and secretive with only stolen moments of peace/beauty.... EVERYTHING i need to believe she’s not straight is in her songwriting, which i view through the personal lense of being a gay woman myself. 

everything else... the masterposts and the powerpoints and the “clues”... those are helpful in terms of opening your eyes to the concept of PR relationships and recognizing that just because you’re fed something by a celebrity doesn’t mean it’s real, but it’s not the base of my feelings about taylor. i will say though, i originally was convinced that taylor was a lesbian because of swiftgron, what we know about the two of them publicly without any reaching was enough for me to recontexualize lyrics i thought i knew the story behind, and to start thinking about her whole body of work differently. i will say also that i was never one to follow along with taylor’s personal life until this point, i had a passing awarness of the men she was supposed to have dated but i didn’t give it much thought. however, i saw swiftgron stuff right as i was recognizing i was gay myself, so it opened my eyes and almost... gave me permission to understand that het is not the default!! then of course i’ve been active since 1989 and watced kaylor unfold in real time. it is still my belief that during the glass closeting era, they were obvious because the kaylor rumors benefited both of them and laid the groundwork for a coming out that was derailed by kissgate. everything afterwards..... well... 

i am not a fan of thinking of this as a “conspiracy” i think that that idea is perpetuated by homophobes that think that everyone is straight and assuming otherwise is somehow an insult or a gross invasion of privacy. i think the vast majority of people who think taylor is gay are doing what all swifties do, which is analyze her music with a layer of projection and personal identification. however i do think that taylor encouraged the speculation for a while, and fully intended to leverage existing kaylor fans into a solid base when she came out (which i do think was planned post-yntcd but was shelved). i think there is PLENTY to look at in her public image and personal posts/behavior that would lead to a person who is willing to look at things objectively to come to the conclusion that she wasn’t straight. she has absolute control over her image and there were too many public outings and “coincidences” to be an accident. 

HOWEVER i think that people who run blogs or talk about her gayness based on obscure clues and overanalyzing every micro-movement are missing the point and often too dedicated to their own placement as “Big Blogs” or receivers of “intel”, in a way that is mostly embarassing and myopic. i have always always been of the general opinion that we will never know every detail of taylor’s relationships, nor are we entitled to that information. she is a breathing, thinking, complicated woman with a HUGE public life and an equally huge private life that belongs to her alone. 

building a public platform based on smoke signals and secret messages and inside sources has never been something i’m at all interested in, and is largely unnecessary. her story is all right there in the lyrics of her songs, and the things she shares with us publicly. i do think there have been hints/clues in the past and they’re very fun to analyze (which she encouraged!!), but much of the digging/reaching is unnecessary! we will never know for sure until she comes out herself, but i believe that her whole body of work and her messaging speaks for itself. the only thing keeping people from more widely accepting this is truly the assumption that being heterosexual is a default, and you have to Prove otherwise with a preponderance of evidence. i readily admit all of this is influenced by my experiences and emotions as a gay woman, but everyone projects onto taylor swift. 

i’m fully convinced based on her music + her past public relationships with women like dianna and karlie + her intentional hints that she is a lesbian. however i am not interested in inventing “evidence” because she’s not on trial! and i’m happy to wait for her to come out, which i absolutely think was planned for lover era and then abandoned for various reasons!! 

[robin-the-enby]

Hii congratulations for your 400 followers!! Could I please get a ship with a male Marvel character?🥺 I’m Italian (sorry for my english btw) my pronouns are she/her and I’m bisexual. I’m an ESFJ and a Gemini. I have green eyes and dyed cherry red hair. I dress with black clothes and I wear black eyeshadow or eyeliner. I’m the sweet mom friend of the group, always there for everyone and my friends say that I’m really good at comforting people. I’m very optimistic, I always try to see the good in everything and I often put other’s needs before my own, I would do everything for the people I care about and sometimes I’ve been told that I’m too kind for my own good. I have a sarcastic humor and I love making others laugh, people say that I should be more serious and that I shouldn’t joke around so much. I don’t like when people tell me what to do and I’m not afraid to stand up for myself or for someone else. I absolutely love listening to music ( Mother Mother are my favs!), it helps me relax, after a bad day when I get home I put on music and dance. I also love watching horror movies even though it’s impossible to scare me. I really hope I did this right, have a great day :)

I'm kind of worried that you meant to send this to another person, because I'm nowhere near 400 followers, but thank you still <3 I am excited for this one, because it's the first thing I'm writing for Marvel! Also, your English is just fine ;) That said, I match you with:

Tony Stark

You two would be the sweetest couple, istg

We all know that Tony, despite the playboy front he hides behind, feels and cares deeply.

Emotions can be hard to handle, so he would appreciate you being there for him so much, you have no idea.

He's not used to having someone be there for him, making sure he's alright and taken care of, so he's very grateful for everything you do for him.

He's a realist, but he'd find your optimism (in good measure) endearing, with the right encouragements and assuring words, you manage to lift up his spirits when he's feeling blue.

He would look after you as much as you look after him. You make sure he's alright, physically and mentally and he makes sure nobody is taking advantage of your kind and giving nature.

You both share sarcastic humor and so playful banter is something that can be frequently heard in your home.

But if you join forces...Gods have mercy on anyone who decides to cross your path with ill intentions. You two are capable to shred that person to bits, with style nontheless!

You can joke around him as much as you want, Tony is definitely the type of person that is frequently told that he should be more serious.

Tony would absolutely love your independence and would support you whenever you'd stand up for someone or yourself.

Your love for music is also something you two share. Your music taste might not be the same, but Tony would love to take you on a concert of your favourite band, either for your birthday, anniversary or just for a date, because he's extra like that.

If he ever caught you dancing, he would just watch with an amused smile, before complimenting your moves and continuing on his merry way.

He himself is not too into dancing, not that he can't, he just nods his head to the rhythm, mouthing the lyrics. If you're really sneaky, you could catch him playing an air guitar/air drums. Tony probably will not even get embarassed, just winks at you and continues his bass solo XD

I can also see you with: Basically anyone - I had a hard time choosing tbh, because your caring personality would go well with anyone (that's, like, the whole deal with ESFJs, isn't it XD). Steve is the mom friend, but also need someone to remind him to take it easy, because he goes hard on himself, he would love to dance with you, your indpendence and the way you want everyone to be ok. Bucky is also a lot like Steve, he was actually the one I thought about putting as a main, but Tony won. I think I don't have to tell you about how that man would appreciate someone to be there for him, he'd love your sass and, like Steve, would love to dance with you and watch you stand up for what you think is right. There are many others, Bruce, Thor, Loki, T'challa, everyone would appreciate you for being there for them and if you don't think you could be in a romantic relationship with them, you would still make the greatest friend <3

[ikevamp-annalyne]

Hello! I may have been stalking your blog for a while and i absolutely love it!! Can i make a request of Arthur, Leonardo, Comte, and Sebastian caught MC singing and decided to join her? Please and thank you!

Hi there! (｡･ω･)ﾉﾞ

Thank you so so much for requesting! I am so damn happy TwT you are all so sweet! So here is your request ^^ I hope you will like it!

Arthur:

Since you have such a sweet voice, he was sure you would love singing. So when he hears you, singing in the leisure room while cleaning the billboard, he smiles and listens to you for a while.

He doesn't know the somgs you are singing so he cannot join you. But once you shift to an English lullaby he also knows, he comes behind you and hug you while singing in your ear.

You jump out of surprise and, embarassed, you kust push him back. But he is unphased amd then leads you to a slow dance with him while you both sing to the sweet lullaby.

For sure it will lead to some touchey touchey moments and a lot of sweet kisses.

Most romantic moment ever with him.

Leonardo:

He is also a music man so his ears are trained: he will hear your sweet voice coming from the library while you are sorting out the books -books he has probably left on the floor after studying...- he knows your voice since you already sang to him in his route.

He will come in and stand next to you, just saying that his Cara Mia has the sweetest voice possible. You will blush and to brush off your embarassment, he will ask you what was the song you sang.

You will spend the rest of the afternoon singing together, you teaching him the song and him correcting your possible wrong notes. It will be fun as well as instructive!

Once you are done cleaning -he helped just because he wanted to keep singing some more with you- you will probably follow him to the music room.

He will pull out the violin -let's imagine Mozart's not here- and he will then play the melody you were singing all afternoon with him.

You fall in love with his voice as well as his talent, and you are in awe at his genius.

Comte:

He had just returned the mansion when he hears a voice coming from his room: he immediately recognises your voice and will listen to you from outside the room. Once done, he comes in and claps in his hands.

"Ma Chérie, you have the most beautiful voice. May I know what was this song? It sounds so adorable."

You are embarassed but let's be real: no one cam say no to Comte. So youbtell him about the song and the lyrics. When he requests for you to sing once more, you shyly agree and go on.

While singing, you can feel his gaze on you. It is so soft and nice. You finish the song and he gently pats you on the head, saying you should sing with more confidence because you have the prettiest voice.

He will then tell you to use his room as a practice room if you want to.

Sebastian:

One day, he had just finished his chores in the garden when he comes back to the kitchen and hears you singing. He recognises the song and immediately follows.

You are surprised, but Sebastian seems to have fun so you keep on singing. Louder and louder, until you both scream your hearts out. The door isn't even close: you both don't care at all.

Once you have finished singing, you both laugh like crazy. It felt so good that you cannot help but do it again! Disney songs, anime songs, romantic songs... You act as in a musical.

You dance, you act, you use the kitchen ustensils as mic and you have the time of your life... To the point you forgot dinner.

This evening, all the residents were surprised to see hamburgers and fries.

I hope it meets your expectations! I had fun doing it!!! (´ ▽｀).。ｏ♡

[just-jordie-things]

All I Want For Christmas (Is You) - Richie Tozier

word count: 5722 warnings: swearing summary: Richie has a bit of a crush on resident Loser (y/n), and everyone else knows it.  He spends most of their annual christmas party getting teased, until finally he’s found a way to make a move (with only a little help from Ben... and a piece of mistletoe) ___

The christmas party was an essential event of the Losers Club.  It was by far the best party they threw, with the presents, the cookie decorating, and the nonstop dancing to christmas music, it was always the best time.

(y/n) and Bev were twirling around in the kitchen to Jingle Bell Rock, waiting for the cookies to cool down enough so they could be frosted.

Eddie and Mike were on present organizing duty, while Bill, Stan, Ben, and Richie, were lounging and doing nothing.  Not that anyone minded.  Eddie had a particular order of passing out gifts, which he’d only trusted Mike’s help with.  And Beverly and (y/n) were always off ditching the boys.

“So, what’d you get (y/n)?” Ben spoke in a bit of a hushed voice.

And even though he hadn’t turned away from his game of checkers with Stanley, they knew that he was talking to Richie.  The boy in question was sprawled on the sofa with his feet kicked up on the armrest, arms folded under his head casually.  He gave Ben a bit of a glare, knowing that this was his way of both teasing him, and prying.

It was a little known fact that Richie had a thing for (y/n).  As in, everyone knew, except for her, or course.  It was honestly a bit of a miracle that she hadn’t figured it out, seeing as the other Losers were always poking fun at him about it.  It’s been months since he’d first admitted to Bill that he was starting to develop feelings for their friend, and the next thing he knew, everyone had heard about it and took it upon themselves to constantly beg him to ask her out.

Thing was, he was pretty sure she didn’t feel the same.  In fact, he was pretty sure she’d never even looked at him as anything more than a friend.  Sure, she was sweet, but she was sweet to everyone.  And she always hugged him goodbye, but she hugged the others too.  And maybe she held his hand that one time at the scary movie, but she was terrified, it’s not like she wanted to hold his hand.

Richie shook his head at the love-obsessed boy on the floor.

“I’m not tellin’ you” He huffed.

“What?” Ben asked, offended by the attitude.  “Why not?”

“Cause” Richie answered bluntly.

“Don’t tell me you’re worried about being teased” Stan snickers, and jumps over one of Ben’s pieces.

“I won’t tease you, promise!” Ben pleads, but Richie just rolls his eyes.  “Please?”

“What’s your fuckin’ deal, man?” Richie asks, “Seriously, what’s with your obsession-?”

“It’s not an obsession,” Ben interrupts, “I just want to see you fall in love with each other”

Bill laughs, which was his first time displaying he was even listening to this conversation.

“That’s d-dumb” He says once his laughter calms down.

“No it isn’t,” Ben argues.  “He obviously likes her a lot-”

“It’s not obvious” Richie grumbles.

“-and maybe if he would just fess up already, she’d tell him that she feels the same way” Ben finishes, and gives an optimistic shrug.

Richie flips him off.

“Ha.  No chance,” Stan snorts.  “What?” He asks innocently when both Ben and Richie gave him a dirty look.  “Richie has never tried to make a move.  He can barely even talk to her, why would she ever take an interest in him if he doesn’t act like he likes her?”

Richie doesn’t say anything, and he would never agree with Stanley out loud.  But he had to admit, there was some logic there.  Why would she like him like that? He had such a hard time keeping his thoughts and feelings to himself when he was around her that he’d distanced himself a bit, maybe even a bit too much…

The boy suddenly shoots up from the sofa, and is out of the living room before anyone can ask where he’s going- not that they don’t have every idea where he’s headed in such a hurry.

(y/n) is giggling uncontrollably when he reaches the kitchen, and the sound alone is enough to make his cheeks and ears burn hot.

He doesn’t even notice Beverly dancing around like a maniac, (y/n) had captured all of his attention.

Her laughter settles when she sees he’s joined them, and she gives him a bright smile.

“Hey,” She greets him, and her smile only widens when she sees how pink his cheeks are.  She found it absolutely adorable when Richie blushes.  “Here to decorate, or eat, because if you eat them all-”

“Decorate” Richie speaks so fast he almost bites his tongue, and he mentally face palms at how stupid he sounds.

Jesus he really had to get control of himself.

“Great!” (y/n) chirps, and moves the tray of sugar cookies to the breakfast bar.  “There’s still a batch in the oven, but if you want to get some started with me you can”

I would decorate a thousand cookies if you asked me to, he thinks.

“Sure” He says.

He takes a seat on the opposite side of the counter she’s standing at, and admires her while she grabs one of the few cans of frosting she’d brought over.

The past four years that they’d thrown a christmas get-together, (y/n) had always brought all the supplies for cookies.  The ingredients, the oven trays, the frosting, the sprinkles- it was her favorite part.  Everyone used to decorate all together, but somewhere along the line, only a couple of their friends helped, and now, it was just her and Beverly.  She never complained, but the more Richie thought about it, the worse he felt for not helping her out more in past years.

Everyone ate the cookies after all, it was her specialty, the least they could do is give her some company while she made them all.

“Trying to figure out what Santa’s gonna bring you this year, Tozier?” (y/n) jokes when she sees the dazed look on his face.

He blinks rapidly, and wills his face not to get hot since she’d caught him staring.

“I was,” He replies, picking up a cookie and one of the knives to spread frosting on it.  “But you could do me one better and just tell me what you got me instead” He says with a nonchalant shrug of his shoulders.

(y/n) lets out a short giggle and shakes her head, spreading frosting over her own cookie.

“Richie, you’ll open it in like, twenty minutes,” She teases.  “Are you that impatient?”

Her eyes meet his for a moment, before quickly glancing back down to her task.

You have no idea how patient I really am, he thinks, but he just laughs, and jokes back with her.

“You could always just let me open it now…” He suggests, and the girl shakes her head.

“You’re something else,” She hums.  “So, what do you want for Christmas anyways?”

“Good fucking grades, I guess” He jokes, and she laughs a bit, but gives him a look.

“Come on, be for real,” She says, placing a white frosted cookie on a separate plate, and picking up another one.  “There’s gotta be something you’re hoping to get”

Richie thinks about it, but he shrugs and puts his cookie next to hers.

“I’m not really crossing my fingers for anything in particular,”

He’s only lying a little bit.  What he really wanted would be a miracle, and there was just no way that it would ever happen.

“But, you know” He shrugs, not finishing his thought.

“Know what?” (y/n) asks with a crinkled brow, wanting to know what he was thinking.

She often wondered what ran through his head in his quiet moments.  It wasn’t often that he was silent, and it had always sparked her curiosity.

“Oh,” Richie looks up to meet her eyes.  She’s halted her actions halfway through frosting a cookie, and there’s an intrigued look on her face.  “Just that surprises are always nice”

It’s one of the kindest things she’s ever heard him say, and it makes her heart flutter a bit that he’d shared something like that with her.  He goes back to frosting cookies, but she’s still smiling at him.

“Yeah” She agrees.

They’re quiet for a bit, listening to cheesy christmas music while Bev dances and belts out the lyrics.  They frost probably twenty cookies in their focused state of mind.

It dawns on (y/n) that it’s been a while since she’s spent one on one time with Richie.  Sure, Beverly was just behind her, but somehow it felt like he was the only one in the room with her.  She wonders when the last time was that she’d hung out with just Richie, and why they had stopped.

A part of her wants to ask him to hang out with her soon, maybe see a movie, but just as she opens her mouth, she shuts it, and shakes her head a bit at herself.  It felt dumb to ask him such a thing, and she found herself embarassed for almost asking.

Richie notices this small action, but he doesn’t say anything about it, and just pretends to be too focused on frosting cookies to have seen it.

A few minutes later, he hears her softly humming to the tune of the song playing, and he tries so hard not to notice.  But the longer she does it, the more he has to focus on biting back a smile.  He’s barely paying attention to what he’s doing he’s so wrapped up in the sweet melody.

He realizes too late that he pressed the knife a bit too hard against the cookie, and it broke clean in half from the pressure.

(y/n’s) humming stopped as she looked over to see what he’d done, and she laughed at the sight of the mess in Richie’s hands.

“How’d you manage to do that?” She asks, taking one half the cookie to nibble on as she searched for paper towels.

“I- I don’t even know-” He stammers out, and gratefully takes the napkin she hands him to wipe the frosting off the palms of his hands.  She’s still giggling quietly to herself.

Richie crams the rest of the cookie into his mouth before he can say something stupid.

“Well?” (y/n) asks, staring at him expectantly.

His eyes widen as he looks at her, nervousness taking over his entire body.  She was batting her eyelashes a bit, and her lips were parted.  She’s waiting for something, but he’s not sure-

“How are they?” She speaks again when he doesn’t answer right away.

“O-oh,” Richie swallows.  “The cookies?”

“Yes, dummy,” She laughs again.  “Are they good?”

“They’re g-great” He can’t seem to stop stuttering, and he just wants to crack his head over the countertop.

“Good” (y/n) grins, and gets back to work with decorating.

“Well, you two have this covered,” Beverly speaks, and it jolts Richie a bit.  

I keep forgetting she’s still here.

“I’ll go let everyone know cookies are almost done, and we can do presents soon” The redhead finishes, and leaves them alone in the kitchen.

“Alright” (y/n) replies in a cheerful voice.

Richie pauses for a minute before he sits back down on his stool.  They’re even more alone now, and his heart is beating so hard in his chest that he worries it might burst right through.

“Hey, um, (y/n)?”

Her eyes flicker up to his as she hums in response, before looking back down to her cookie.

He wants to tell her, fuck, he wants to tell her so bad that it hurts, it physicaly pains him to keep everything bottled up and shoved way, way down inside.

But he pussies out before the confession can reach his tongue.

“Sorry I haven’t helped with the cookies before,” He says instead.  She gives him her attention now, a slight furrow on her brow at the apology.  “You really have your hands full with all of these- I guess I just didn’t realize how much work-”

“Don’t worry about it, Richie,” She says dismissively.  “It’s no big deal, I don’t mind it-”

“Still,” He says, and has to look back down at the counter before her gaze makes him blush again.  “I should’ve helped”

(y/n) smiles at the sentiment, and her smile remains as she speaks.

“I do rather enjoy your company, though,” She tells him softly.  “You know, in case you want to help me next year”

And fuck the sweet compliment sens his heart for a loop- he swears he almost fell off his seat.

“Noted” Is all he says, but the blush is back on his cheeks and (y/n) doesn’t miss it.

They’re both smiling to themselves as they finish the cookies.

When Eddie calls that it’s time for presents, they wipe the frosting from their hands and everyone gets situated in the living room.  Bill, Stan, and Ben are sat on the sofa, while (y/n) and Bev are on the floor in front of them.  Eddie, Mike and Richie are kneeling at the coffee table.

They always sat in the same spots every year, like it was a tradition, but really it just felt natural at this point.

“Bev open mine first” (y/n) says excitedly, and Beverly happily agrees, taking the small wrapped box that said it was from (y/n) out of her pile.

When she opened the box, she grinned at the bracelet inside.  It was a homemade friendship bracelet, with green and blue strings tied intricately into a braid.

“I love it!” Beverly declared, already tying it securely on her wrist.

(y/n) laughed, and pulled up the sleeve of her sweater to show her the red and orange bracelet on her wrist.

“I haven’t taken it off since I made them,” She told Beverly proudly.  “It’s been really hard hiding it from you”

The girls laughed and admired the adorable jewelry while the others began to open their gifts.

While Stan was excitedly flipping through a field guide to woodland birds, Richie opened the last gift he had in front of him.  He’d saved the best for last, and (y/n) eagerly watched as he ripped apart the neat wrapping she’d folded it in.

She was biting down on her lip so hard it was starting to go numb, but she was so excited to see Richie open his present that she barely even cared.

She knew she’d done a good job when the boy’s jaw dropped open, and he looked across the room to her in shock, as though to ask if this was even real.

“No fucking way,” He gasped, flipping the CD over in his hands to read the titles on the back.  “How did you even get this?”

Actually, finding a bootleg of The Cure’s concert performances was probably the hardest thing she’s ever had to do.  She’d gotten the other Losers’ gifts within a few days, but tracking down that CD for Richie was near impossible.

“I have my ways” She giggled.

It made her heart feel so full to watch Richie marvel at her gift.

Once everyone’s presents were opened, and Eddie and Stan were frantically picking up the mess of paper and ribbons and bows, Bill set up the ame christmas movie that they watch every year.

(y/n) went back into the kitchen to finish up the last of the cookies.  Adding a few sprinkles, and setting them on plates to bring out to the living room so everyone could enjoy them while watching the movie.

When someone joined her, she was surprised that it wasn’t Richie this time, but Ben.

“Here for first dibs?” She asked, offering him a sugar cookie, which he gladly accepted.

“I was actually gonna ask you where you got that CD,” He said, lingering by the counter while she moved about the room.  “The one you got Richie”

“Oh, it was hard,” She chuckled humorlessly.  “I had to get my cousin to buy it from a guy he knows, which was sketchy enough, cost me like fifty bucks, but it was worth it” She shrugs a shoulder, and mutters under her breath when she accidentally sticks her finger into a drop of frosting on the counter.

“Wow,” Ben comments, and she meets his skeptical gaze as she pops her finger into her mouth to lick the frosting off.  “You must really like Richie to spend so much time and money for one gift”

She pulls her finger from her mouth, and there’s a rosy blush on her cheeks at her friend’s insinuation, but she shakes her head in denial.

“What? No- not like that- I mean he’s my friend-”

“Right,”  Ben said, not believing her for a second.  “Anyways, I also wanted to say thanks for the nice book and pens”

She nods back, too nervous to say anything.  She’s worried that he’s pretty much figured out about her little crush, and she doesn’t want him to tell Richie.

He turns to leave, but stops in the doorway of the kitchen, and reaches up to the frame above him.

“What are you…?” She starts to ask, but she doesn’t have to finish her question before she sees what he’s doing.  He taped a little piece of mistletoe up there.  She gives him a look, but laughs to herself anyways, because she can’t help it.

Ben Hanscom is such a romantic, she’s not sure how he’s been single all this time.

“You’re ridiculous” She tells him with a sweet smile, and heads to the fridge for a soda.

“We’ll see” Ben shrugs, and goes back to the living room to join his friends.

“Finally,” Richie rolls his head back on the sofa cushion with a loud groan.  “Wait, where the fuck is (y/n)?”

“Oh, she’s still finishing stuff up” Ben says, and gives the glasses wearing boy a sly sort of grin.  It looked out of place on his sweet baby face, and Richie furrowed his brow.

“You should go help her,” Beverly nudges Richie, who shoves her arm away.  “Come on, go in there!” She hisses.  “Go give her your actual gift”

“Fuck off” Richie mutters back.

“Wh-what actual gift?” Bill asks the question everyone else is wondering.

“You got her something else?” Mike asks, and Richie wants to pull his sweatshirt over his face and hide.

“He did, and it’s very cute, go give it to her”

“We’ll leave you alone,” Ben chirps up.  “We’ll stay out here and watch the movie and we won’t even listen-”

“We might listen a little” Stan mutters.

“-just muck up with courage and go do it!”

“Fine! Jesus fuck you guys are nonstop aren’t you?” RIchie grumbles as he gets off the couch, and drags his feet towards the kitchen.

The others quietly squeal with anticipation as they play the movie.

When Richie wanders into the kitchen, (y/n’s) back is turned to him.  She’s leaning over the stove, and fanning off the fresh sugar cookies that she’d just pulled out.  It was a batch to be decorated later, and she’d timed their baking just right so when the movie was over, they would be cooled off enough to frost.

“H-hey”

His quiet stutter makes her jump a bit as she whirls around, not having heard him come into the room.

“Oh my god, Richie, you scared me,” She says with a sigh and a nervous giggle.  “Don’t sneak up on me like that”

She turns back to move the cookies onto a rack on the counter so that they’d cool faster, and halfway through her process, she looks back over to him.  He’s just standing there, strangely quiet, and he looks like he’d just seen a ghost.

“You alright?” She asks sweetly, “Did you need something?”

“Um, yeah, actually,” He says, and walks around the counter to be standing with her.  Her brows are furrowed, confused by his odd behavior, but she waits patiently for him to say something.  “I wanted to um- give you… your gift”

He’s so nervous he can barely speak, and even when he is he’s not sure if it's english, but he’s trying his best.

“Richie, I already opened your gift,” (y/n) giggles, “I loved it”

He’d given her a cute little bear, holding a jar of quarters, so that she’d be able to play games with him and the others when she came to the arcade.  She usually didn’t come on days they went, because she rarely had change and didn’t want to sit around while everyone offered to buy her games for her.  It was a sweet gift really, very thoughtful.

“Um, yeah, well, I mean y-your real gift,” He stammers.  She still looks confused, but she’s smiling, and she nods to prompt him to show her.  “Okay… um…”

His hand fishes into his pocket, and she watches as he pulls out a small black box.  It’s clearly meant for jewelry, and her eyes widen and shoot up to his in surprise.

Richie Tozier surely didn’t seem like the jewelry-giving kind of guy, and it stunned her to see him even holding this little box.

“Richie-”

She starts to decline the offer, before she even looks inside.  Her hands push his away gently, trying to politely turn it down.  She couldn’t accept something like that, whatever it was, it surely cost more than anything else he’d gifted.

But he pushes the box into her hands.

“Just take it” He chuckles at how cute she is when she’s flustered.

(y/n’s) eyes flicker between his and the box, debating on accepting it.  But eventually his eager expression makes her sigh and finally take the box.

Her fingers are quivering as she flips open the lid, and her soft gasp is audible as her eyes land on the pretty necklace inside.

“Wow…” She murmurs, gently touching the small silver heart pendant.

Richie grinned down at her, and again his heart is just a few beats away from bursting through his chest.

“You like it?” He asks, even though he doesn’t have to, because it’s clear that she loves it.

“Rich, I-I love it” She answers, smiling up at him sweetly.  Tears are beginning to well in her eyes, and he laughs quietly.

“Here,” His voice is softer than she’s ever heard it before.

He pulls the necklace carefully from the box, and prompts her to turn around.  She gladly does, pulling her hair to the side so that he can clasp it behind her neck.  When he manages to do so, she spins back around, admiring the little heart that laid perfectly centered on her collarbone.

He smiled to himself on how perfect it looked on her- how perfect she looked wearing it.

(y/n) peered up at him, eyes full of tears and adoration.

“I love it so much,” She said, voice cracking a bit, from both the softness in her tone and the tears that were burning in her through while she tried to hold them back.  She reached forward, and wrapped her arms around his neck to hug him tightly.

Richie thought that she was the perfect size for hugging- she always stood on her tiptoes just a little to rest her chin on his shoulder, but that was for her casual goodbye hugs.  She wasn’t on her toes now, and while standing flat-footed, her face was buried in his sweatshirt.

He chuckled as he hugged her back, and maybe he lingered and held her a little longer than necessary, but who was complaining?

“I’m glad you like it doll” He hums.

When they do part, she wipes at her eyes with the sleeves of her sweater.

“I didn’t mean to make you cry, though” He teases her a bit, and she gives a soft laugh.

“I didn’t mean to start crying,” She replies.  “It was just- um, really sweet”

The corner of his lips tug up into a smirk, and he feels pretty damn good about himself right now.

(y/n’s) flustered in the sudden silence, and jerks her thumb over her shoulder towards the living room.

“I bet they’ve started the movie without us,” She says, “I’m gonna go get a seat while I still can”

He nods in agreement, and she reaches forward to squeeze his hand.

“Thank you” She says one last time, and gives him a big smile before heading out of the kitchen.

He hesitates for a minute, standing in his place and coming down from the high he was currently riding.  He’d made her cry of happiness, she loved his gift so much- he was never going to get over his feelings for her, she’d proven that.

When he finally calms himself down, and is about to go watch the movie with his friends, he notices the mistletoe taped at the kitchen’s doorway.

Fucking idiot- you really could’ve had a chance had you not stood around like a dope.  

He shakes his head at himself, and one again is dragging his feet to take a seat.  Wedging himself between Ben and Stan, he ignored their impatiently excited looks, not wanting to explain to them how big of an idiot he was.

“Did you see I put-”

“Yeah, I did, shut the fuck up” Richie cut off Ben before he could say anything more, and then promply crossed his arms and slumped down further into the couch cushions.

“Pouty much?” Stan muttered, making Ben chuckle a bit.

Richie rolled his eyes and did his best to block them out and just watch the movie.

It was a bit boring, they had watched it for the past four years, and everyone could just about quote it word for word.  But Richie wasn’t much of a christmas-movie-lover anyways, so when he’d complained, no one paid him any mind.

Half an hour or so in, Ben had left his seat to go to the bathroom, and Richie didn’t really think much of it.  Until someone else occupied the space next to him.

He looked down to see (y/n) settling in on the cushion, eyes still focused on the television while she readjusted the blanket on her lap.  It wasn’t until she was settled that she peeked over at him as well, a nervous smile gracing her lips when she saw that he was already looking at her.

Not saying a word, she lifted the blanket a bit to offer it to him.  Richie wasn’t stupid, so he grinned, and moved just an inch closer to her to share.  Much to his surprise, she shuffled to be sitting right against him, leg to leg, arm to arm.  His face went pink right away, and hers didn’t look much different either.

She went back to watching the movie, but her blush and almost-hidden smile were an ever so present feature, and Richie didn’t feel so dumb about missing the misteltoe anymore.

Ben didn’t say anything about having lost his seat when he came back, and happily too the now open space next to Beverly.  Richie was just glad that no one had teased him, and he could just sit next to (y/n) and enjoy her presence.

She did him one better a few minutes later, slipping her hand under their shared blanket and blindly finding his.  Her touch was gentle as she laced their fingers together and squeezed his hand sweetly.  He was frozen for a second, but took a deep breath and relaxed, and curled his fingers around her hand.

They stayed that way through the rest of the film, absolutely content.  No one knew, they couldn’t tell with the blanket covering their arms, and Richie liked it that way.  This was just their moment.

It wasn’t like the last time she’d held his hand.  There wasn’t a scary movie playing, she wasn’t shaking in fear, she’d just done it… well, just because, he supposed.  He still wondered, however, if it was her way of displaying her feelings, or if this was just another (y/n)-being-confusingly-cute moments.

When the movie was over, Mike and Stan had to go home right away, since it was later in the night and they still followed their curfews.  Ben, Beverly, and Eddie helped pick up the last of the mess they’d made, while Bill went upstairs to tell his parents that the party was just about over and everyone was getting ready to go home.

Eddie was the next one to leave, and as per usual, (y/n) hugged him at the door, wishing him a merry christmas before he headed off home, bundled up in far too many articles of clothing.  He would die of heat exhaustion before hypothermia ever got to him, but no one was all that surprised.

She hugged Beverly even tighter when she left, and they both promised to never take off their friendship bracelets, even though they were bound to fall off in a few months- but then (y/n) would just make them new ones.

When it was just the four of them, she went to gather her gifts into her bag so that she was picked up and ready to go when her mom came to pick her up.

“Oh hey (y/n),” Ben said when he saw her there, “I’m heading home”

“Okay,” She smiled and hugged him goodbye.  “Did you take any cookies to go? I don’t want to bring them all home-”

“Of course,” He laughed.  “I made the others bags of them too”

Ben was probably one of the nicest people (y/n) had ever met.

She helped him make sure that he had all his things before walking him to the door.

“Oh, and by the way, Richie’s trying to clean up in the kitchen, you might wanna take care of that”

(y/n) laughed, and swiftly made her way to pick up the mess Richie had likely made while trying to pick up.

However he wasn’t cleaning up the kitchen, like Ben had said.  He wasn’t even in the kitchen.  He was walking out of it, and she crashed right into him.  She probably would’ve tripped over her own feet if he hadn’t grabbed her arms to steady her.

“S-sorry-” She stammered out, “Ben said-”

“You’re welcome!” The boy called from across the room.  

He nodded above the pair, who both stared up at the piece of mistletoe that had been taped to the doorway a few hours ago.

With that, Ben waved, and was out the door.

(y/n) stared at Richie with wide eyes, waiting for him to say something.  He was just standing there, staring at the little leaves above them.

“I-I forgot that Ben put that there” She mumbled.  Her eyes kept flickering from the mistletoe to Richie, not sure what to focus on.

“That sly son of a bitch” Richie grumbled.

She let out a soft laugh, and then took a small step towards him.

“I think he knew what he was doing,” She hummed.

The look on his face was priceless, she’d never seen him so stunned.  She bit down on her lip, trying to suppress a grin of excitement from taking over her face.  She wanted him to think that she was calm, but she wasn’t sure how convincing she could be when her heart was beating so erratically in her chest.

“Pretty sure you owe me a kiss, Tozier” She added in a softer voice.

It was a bold move for her, but she was fairly certain that he’d wanted to kiss her, and the idea that he did gave her the confidence to make such a bold move.

Her breath fanned over his lips as she leaned up on the tips of her toes.  His hands, which were still holding onto her elbows, tightened a bit, and in turn he pulled her a little bit closer.

Her grin broke loose, and her eyes fluttered up to meet his.  She raised her brows, waiting for him to do something.

For a second, she thought he wouldn’t do anything.  He hadn’t said anything in quite some time, and she wondered if he was too scared to make a move.

And then all at once, he pulled her completely forward by her arms, and slanted his lips down over hers.  The kiss was fast, but it was sweet, and Richie was surprisingly gentle.

His arms wound around her waist, keeping her comfortably tucked into his chest, and his lips were so soft that she thought maybe he’d been using chapstick.  The thought passed her mind quickly though, easily overpowered by the realization that she could stand here and kiss Richie for hours.

They’d definitely share more than enough kisses required when caught under the mistletoe, but neither were complaining.  (They’d have to stop kissing to do so, and who would suggest something so ludicrous?)

Her hands tangled into the curls behind his neck, gently combing and twirling the soft strands.  She’d waited for this kiss for a long time- she wasn’t going to waste away her moment now.

When they did detach, it was reluctant, and (y/n) couldn’t find herself to open her eyes.  She just stood there, smiling, eyes closed.  Richie smirked a bit to himself, waiting for her to open her eyes.

A short laugh left her lips, but her eyes fluttered open and she was smiling at him again.

“Took you long enough,” She murmured, her hands falling to his shoulders.  “Didn’t think you were ever gonna do that”

He bumped his nose against hers affectionately.

“Well sorry,” He said teasingly.  “Didn’t exactly want to throw you on the counter and ruin all your cookies just cause I felt like kissing you senseless”

She giggled, pulling him close to kiss him again.

“I might’ve been fine with that” She replied rather smoothly, and then planted her lips on his again.

“W-well finally”

They pulled apart when they head Bill laughing at them.  He didn’t say anything else, just shook his head and left the room.

(y/n) and Richie laughed to themselves, because they’d been thinking the same thing.

“Merry Christmas” She mused pleasantly.

Richie kissed her forehead before embracing her tightly.

“Merry Christmas, (y/n/n)”

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probably shoulda posted this before xmas huh *shrugs*

xoxo ~ jordie

[theravenouswriter514]

Day Twenty of the 30 Day Writing Challenge

I love today’s prompt! It’s, “Write about three of your celebrity crushes.”

As I’ve said time and time agian, I am a romantic. I fall for people and things fairly easily. This means, you guessed it, I have a number of celebrity crushes. My list somewhat scattered all over the place when it comes to the people on it, but I have a reason for loving each pf them. Laugh it up, because this one is gonna be corny.

First and foremost, this person will always be number one on my crush list. If you ever hear me say that I am no longer in love with this person, then please check on me and make sure I haven’t been kidnapped and forced to say it. My first celebrity crush is the deeply missed, late, great, Patrick Swayze. I have adored this man for longer than I can remeber. My mom and grandma were both huge fans of him while I was growing up. Every opportunity she got, my mom told me that “Dirty Dancing” was the greatest movie ever made. And I believed her. I still very much believe her. He is the ultimate image of masculinity and heart. So tough, yet never afraid to show vulnerability. From playing a kick-ass bouncer who ripped a man’s throat out in “Roadhouse,” to playing an equally badass drag queen in “To Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything! Julie Nemar,” even playing an adrenaline junkie beach bum in “Point Break,” his acting range was incomparable. Not many people can play the tough guy who can dance and get away with it, but Swayze did it with grace. He brought the perfect balance of the tough, protecting man, and the soft, romantic lover into each character he played. I’m absolutely convinced he’s perfect. As a plus for me, he was a tough southern man, and being a tough southern woman myself, that makes him that much more attractive. I can remember when my mom found out that he had passed. I was a young girl, but I understood my mom’s heartbreak. When we lost Patrick, we lost a tried and true Hollywood legend.

Let me get on my soapbox just for a quick second. Another reason I love this man, is because he was never fond of the idea of sequels, especially ones out for quick money grabs. Which is why he turned down the opportunity to reprise his role in the, rightfully forgotten about, sequel to “Dirty Dancing.” That’s my opinion, take it or leave it. Patrick Swayze was, is, always will be my standard for men. That may be why I’m still single, but I’m okay with that. I’ll wait. 

Second on the list is another legendary actor that we lost far too early. I only discovered this person fairly recently, as in, the past couple of years. I knew who he was before, but I didn’t pay him much attention. Then I was doing some research and discovered a lot of interesting things about him and about who he was. My second celebrity crush is River Phoenix. My crush on him really began as a young kid when, I first saw “Stand By Me” which remains to this day one of my favorite movies. I saw his character, Chris Chambers, and just wanted to bundle him up and save him. I can’t genuinely say I knew that I loved him until I saw the film “Running On Empty” in which River plays the eldest son of two fugitives. As corny as it sounds, I had a crush on him because his character was a music prodigy, and I have always had a thing for musicians. From there I watched more of his movies and paid him much more attention. His acting was kind of like looking at a painting. It always feels so mature and artful. He was never one to choose an acting role based on money or reputation either. He chose each of his roles based on whether or not he genuinely believed in the production. 

But when you look into the unusual life that River Phoenix as a person led, then you’ll find that he was kind of out of this world. He had it pretty rough growing up, which I think also led to his tragic death. His parents were in a cult and they basically lived constantly on the road for a good portion of his childhood. Despite all that, he was the most empathetic and caring person toward every living thing on the planet. He wanted to change the world by bringing it peace. While all but impossible, that is a very noble and honorable goal for a young person to have. Most young people are dreamers who think they are going to change the world in a big way, including myself, and I really think that River was, and still is, the face of that dreamer stage in life. It’s a beautiful thing, and we should all hang onto our dreamer selves like he did until the end of our lives, even if we don’t end up going to extremes to actually change the world. A lot of the things he stood for were so innocent and hopeful, discovering him and how he lived his life put hope back into my own. Even though he passed before I was born, I still think that he embodies what each young generation reaches for, innocent and pure dreams. 

The third person on this list is different and my crush on them is for much different reasons. It isn’t a physical attraction exactly, but rather just an overall attraction and romanticization of the person and the music they produce. My third celebrity crush is Billy Joel. Again, I attribute this one to my mother. She was and is a big Billy Joel fan, though she doesn’t find him as attractive as I seem to. I grew up listening to his songs, but the songs I was most drawn to are his romantic love songs. Imagine that, a romantic being drawn to love songs. There is something about his music and lyrics that just seem real. His lyrics tell such stories that they feel less like cheesy rom-coms and more like real couples. Which there is probably something to that, the lyrics are probably based heavily on real experiences. I can’t imagine writing songs like that without a little shred of truth to them. Lots of other love songs make love out to be always cheesy and fake, but Billy Joel writes it to where it feels true. And most modern love songs don’t do much for me. Talking about physical love or hook ups isn’t my idea of a love song. There again, that’s just me. When I hear Billy Joel sing that he loves a woman, I believe him. And I’m not saying that Joel never sings about sex, he most definitely does. But the way he goes about it is classy, and it doesn’t make me uncomfortable to listen to it with my own parents. So yes, I love Billy Joel. I have a crush on him and the idea of romance that his songs produce. 

And there you have three of my celebrity crushes. I give you permission to laugh, because I am aware at how funny and cheesy I am. I embrace it. I like being a romantic. I like that I like what I like. I really enjoyed this one. I used to be embarassed to share the things and people I like. I used to be ashamed of my dorkiness, but now I enjoy it. I am who I am, weird and cheesy interests and all. 

[rochey1010]

PART 3:

Ok, so this is about Eliott and the link between S5 and S6. Like Eliott out of everyone was crafted in this season so damn well. And yeah his arc in S6 was plotted here but it's the whole character. And it goes back to his S3 debut. France has remained so damn consistent with this character. Nothing is forced or out of place. It's a natural flow to this point now, and probably what is to come.

So just before i jump into S5. What do we know of the Eliott character? So we meet him in S3 and he's beautiful, like out of someones league beautiful. And he's mysterious, and has a loner vibe but from the trailer looks troubled. The trailer shows so much that will crop up again throughout the show in regards to Eliott. He enters the school with a prison atmosphere (just left one or is about to enter one). He quickly walks through, hurried, not wanting to make an imprint, hiding in his environment with the 'catch me if you can' vulnerable hoodie up style. Everyone notices him but he notices no one. He just wants to get this over with (same cycle different environment). The people either know him (Imane) are attracted to him (Alexia) or intrigued by the new guy (Emma). So he walks down the corridor and bumps into a very important person. That is Lucas and it's the first inkling from Eliott that something has penetrated his bleak dark world. The first hint of the light/dark motifs that S3 would be centered around. Before we know it's even a concept POLARIS is everywhere.

Eliott does something that i love. He stops, but doesn't turn around just yet, Maxence plays it like he's taking something in and waking up. And then he turns and looks, and we get everything in that look to Lucas. You feel his intrigue, attraction, fixation, awe of this unknown guy. That this guy has shook his world. And then he does something else i love. This tiny wry smile appears for like a milisecond, and then he looks him up and down signalling to the audience that we're in for a hell of a ride, and that Eliott is showing some playfullness towards Lucas. The hint that he's gonna pursue him. Then crucially he walks down the corridor to Colouring - In motion (range remix) awesome and reflective lyrics. Into the black, back into the dark he goes. And this is a direct contrast to Eliott and his world. Sees nobody but Lucas and is turned towards him looking, and then there's Lucas turned towards Eliott but oblivious and not looking.

So as the season goes on we see that he is all those things but so much more. He has a romantic, goofy, sweet and tender side, he's very vulnerable and fragile but he also has a darkness and it comes out as fear, anger, jealousy etc. He's the Even that we see snap at times e.g. class outburst, Chloe, Lucille.

And another thing is that he's the Even that gets developed off screen with the brilliant utilisation of his insta for mental/emotional state. It fits Eliott with the mystery, puzzles, metaphors and plot foreshadowing that takes us through the season. It's Eliott's journal and we're the therapists in a session with him. Each time he posts isn't fickle. Everything has meaning, everything connects and it's linked up so well onscreen. So we see Eliott onscreen but we see into Eliott offscreen. And that mental illness insight has continued and remains true to not only real life but who Eliott is.

We find out that he has so much fear. That it makes him hide in relationships and quite literally hide in the dark. That he created his magnum opus POLARIS that is all about fear and running from true connection. That has so much bipolar symbolism in it and that has Eliott settling in this dark world of MI. Because as any one who can identify with Eliott, sometimes there is a morbid comfort in staying stagnant and not reaching for something because deep down the light and happiness is something you don't deserve. It's horrible negative feelings of shame, embarassment, and self loathing that permeates. Anyone that struggles with their mental health will attest to this.

So he, facing this fear reaches for Lucas, and they fall in love. Eliott is chasing the light in Lucas that has made him want to enjoy life again. Then something horrible happens, Eliott is confronted with all his worst fears of himself being reinforced by the one he loves the most. Eliott being a crazy person that Lucas doesn't have time for. He's literally slapped in the face with his SKAM. And he's the Even that literally bleeds out right there on the screen. There's no mask which racoon Eliott is adept with it. He took it off and it shows how deep he was in with Lucas as he can't even pretend anymore. In that moment he is truly exposed and to this day it's heartbreaking to watch. He also does something that no other Even did either. He begins to ghost Lucas in this scene with the hair ruffle and that truly disappointed look when he's backing away. It's almost like a self resignation in himself like "well i was right, the light is not my world, and i shouldn't have been stupid enough to think this would have gone any other way" and he's truly disappointed and so damn heartbroken.

So he goes back to the ex thinking it's a clean break. But he realises he can't stop what he feels for lucas. So he pines on his insta, trying to reach out and trying to be honest but comes to the conclusion the only way to have lucas is to hide his darkness (bipolar). So they reconcile and are happy, and then it goes to absolute shit. He has a manic episode and the truth comes out. Eliott runs again back to the dark. Back to the comfort of his world. Doesn't expect anything, doesn't reach out because he has no hope that he can be loved with this defect, and just cries. 😭 in total despair. It's that level of self loathing that keeps cropping up rooted in his MI.

Lucas proves him wrong and saves him (this is crucial for Eliott's S6 arc) and he accepts him but now we see that Eliott still doesn't accept himself (S5, S6) minute par minute is a very important scene that is being revisited in S6 and will be crucial for Elu. Eliott wants to end the relationship, he sees no way it can work, and Lucas fights and gives him a perspective to hold onto.

Sorry i got into a S3 character study there. But i felt it was the only way to show how Eliott as a character has been built through the show and layered with so much depth but so much darkness. He's actually not only one of the darkest Even's but one of the darkest SKAM characters. And the reason i feel that, is because of the contradiction of the character. That he has such a postive sunshine aura and will smile at anyone and instantly bring a warmth. But yet has this deep well of struggle and pain that you can feel is there underneath that "I'm the happiest person in the world" energy. And you have to ask yourself how much of that is Eliott projecting to keep the demons at bay? As someone who can relate to MI. There is a level of exhaustion where you feel like you pep talk yourself on an almost daily basis. Quite literally you fake it untill you make it. And i just feel that Eliott is such a walking dichotomy between 2 extremes. That he perfectly represents the bipolarity of this character.

But rambling aside, so that's the Eliott we know and in S5 we kick off his arc with an insta post. He posts his new job 'new job, new school, same boyfriend' caption with a pic of the video club. Lucas follows it up with 'and soon, new appartment'. This tells us Eliott has not only started working but he's in Uni now and about to move in with Lucas. The video club is also dropping the hint that Eliott has found his new vocation within art. And that is movies. Now, what we know of Eliott is that he dabbled. He had many artsy interests. And we saw his love for not only movies (POLARIS) but he enjoyed literature (Virginia Woolf) and painting (Jackson Pollock) and he liked greek prose (Apollo and Hyacinth, Pygmalion). He had an affinity for artists who suffered with mental illness (pollock and Woolf both bipolar) and a true identity fixation with Woolf (mentally ill, bisexual and drowned through suicide) now that takes on a much more serious meaning with what Eliott revealed about suicide in S6. So he was an artsy hipster and he added graffiti and urbex too. A very talented and creative guy is our Eliott.

But considering POLARIS was how we were introduced to Eliott and that art side. We had to have known that his chosen field would have been movies, as it is now confirmed with his job, his uni project and his insta this season focusing on movies. How they add to the plot and how he's using them as inspiration for his project.

So it's setting him up to make a movie and to bring back something from his past that failed for him, and could have led to a spiral as we don't know how long after that all the Idriss stuff went down. All we know is that Idriss was there with him in the video interviewing him as he explained POLARIS. So the fallout must have been very soon after. And the failure of the movie on top of that must have been horrible for Eliott.

Lucas posts instas of him basically of him supporting eliott with this job and visiting him etc. So we see Eliott loves his job. And S6 shows us this more in depth.

The next we see of Eliott is a nightclub scene of new years and just basically the gang and elu happy, having fun and in love. It's just showing you for Eliott that he's come so far. Obviously we know what happens with Arthur so i won't get into that. Then there's the house warming and this is a crucial scene because Eliott has to explain something, and the audience is learning something. That this is the 2nd house warming and the 1st had to be cancelled. Eliott starts to explain himself and it's same feelings in regards to the mental illness again. Maxence plays it like Eliott is so fragile, that he's vulnerable and embarassed, and it oozes out of him. That Eliott finds it hard to go to that place where he has to talk about his mental illness. We see Eliott struggle to get the words out, look over towards Lucas, Lucas quietly reassures him and then steps in when he senses that it's too much. We see Eliott curl into Lucas in gratitude and like a child who needs comfort. And again it tells you that Eliott is very affected by his bipolar. That it's a huge effort for him to confront it and even talk about it. And now you see how it's such a focus in regards to power and agency over himself, the fear of not having it, how he can help others and how he frames it in his love with Lucas.

"And i have Lucas...i can't lose this"

That this is the crux of everything. That all the fears, insecurities, feelings are rooted in his SKAM. And we further see this explored as we begin to see the domestic scenes between Elu. How Eliott doesn't seem to be around the chaotic boygroup like the fanbase thought he would. And that's an issue because we have to admit to ourselves that we built Eliott up in a certain way, and we expected him to integrate with the gang, but the show naturally evolved Eliott the way the character is at his core. And that is why his spirit animal is a raccoon (curious, intelligent, friendly, mischievious, nocturnal, wild at heart, will lash out if threatened or cornered, wears a mask said to protect against night glare) basically Eliott is at heart a wild creature, that he goes off at night exploring, that he's chaotic in nature and a lone wolf. That he gravitates towards situations and behaviours that reflect his inner nature. That is who Eliott is.

So we see a lot of chaos and loudness in the boygroup centered in Elu's appartment in early S5. Lucas joins in and they scream over social media, and they literally hangout there all the time. After the party they stay the whole weekend, and Lucas does eventually say guys c'mon not tonight it's date night with Eliott. But you're shown basically that they do it alot. And probably more hangouts happened off screen. Crucially you're shown Eliott is not there joining in on the chaos. And in S5 the boygang were dialed up in energy and i don't think that's a coincidence at all. They were so much that even i felt over stimulated. Now like i said i do think this is important for Eliott and important to his arc. He told Lola that he needed something for himself in the urbex and that he needs to be by himself and breathe. I can attest that people who suffer from mental illness need to get the fuck away sometimes. That the mind becomes chaos and over stimulated and you need to recharge your batteries in a safe space. I believe, and i think S6 is showing this, that this is what happened with Eliott. That it was too much, and in his own love nest, so he left Lucas to do what he wanted with his beloved friends, never kicked up a fuss and just went and did his own thing e.g. urbex and otteli. That he found peace in this natural art environment channeling his raccoon and made it a safe space. And that now Lucas is shown hanging out a lot with the boygang and Eliott is otteli the extreme urbexer. I also believe that this may come up between them as part of minute par minute. That they may be letting things slide on both sides for fear of upsetting the other. In S6 Lucas was hanging out with the boygang sans Eliott and Eliott was alone and able to go help Lola at a crucial moment. Lucas is out of the loop as he was away and that caused conflict between Elu the next morning. I think all of this will finally come to a head in the following weeks.

At one point under all the fanbase jokes and memes about Eliott and Lucas being adoptive parents to these idiots. It start's getting serious, because we find out Eliott has been going through a depressive spell. And while all this shit was happening too. That he was probably going through one as far back as the house warming, and put a brave face on. That him waking up at 3pm was part of it or even a hint to Otteli urbexing. But they show you that the boys wake him up. That he's not part of the meeting but joins later.

And then another scene that sets up Otteli the raccoon urbexer. He brings the gang to an abandoned building. This is the confirmation of what the fanbase always suspected about Eliott. That he has an urban exploration hobby. With La Petite Ceinture it was debated that Eliott liked to explore the Parisian underbelly in S3 but it wasn't expanded on. Now we see it. And Eliott brings sprays and they graffiti and have fun. This sets up so many things e.g. urbex, otteli tag, street art and the expression of art as a seasonal theme focussed on Eliott. This clip is about Arthur but now looking back it's actually Eliott. It sets up his hobby, how he helps people using art, how specifically he expresses himself through art, his secret identity, and his passion for urbex. All in this little clip. To add he's already tagged the building, probably when he found it. He uploads graffiti insta art that day of him in practice. Once again it's positive art and it's a beautiful flower. And in S6 we see all this. Eliott as an artist is a direct contrast to Lola and when Lola expresses herself through art it reflects through damage and breakage, ugly and negative depressing photography. I believe this is a theme and we see it with Lola and Eliott. Eliott will use his art to help her and seeing how he expresses love and connection through art e.g. polaris, love mural, friendship mural, possible art we have yet to see. Lola will change her view of not only the world but of how she expresses herself artistically. I do believe that is a theme of S6.

Then Eliott goes away for a few weeks. Lucas is asked about him and he lets the audience know that Eliott is struggling with his mental illness and lucas can do nothing but love him and wait. The week after Eliott posts on insta a cuddle selfie with the caption 'spring of the senses' and a hedgehog emoji. This tells us that Eliott is out of his depressive spell, that he's grateful for Lucas and considers it a rebirth. Again we see that Eliott's MI is ongoing and doesn't just get fixed in this relationship. We see Lucas's maturity with Eliott's illness but we also see hints that this mental illness is a weight on the relationship. That Eliott has sorta hinged the love on his mental health. That there's a theme in S6 right now of Eliott trying to lead Lola out of the darkness that he once found himself in. That Eliott himself was led out of the darkness by Lucas but there are now issues of agency and capability. That he fixates on this sorta 'saviour complex' maybe, and it'll be something very important for his rock bottom moment. Maybe Eliott must face and save himself this time to bring his arc full circle.

There are little hints which i don't think are accidental for Elu in S5. One of them is Lucas being late to the laser tag. Now i must stress Lucas is never late. That's Eliott's department, and the fanbase picked up on it. And i think it was to hint at Elu issues. Also when Lucas has his outburst at Arthur on Valentines, and Arthur rips into him. If you look at Lucas you see that he goes to say something, like he's trying to explain something but stops and doesn't continue. And the way Axel plays it is like Lucas looks stressed and strained. Again i don't think that's an accident at all. There's issues at home clearly.

Then Eliott shows up for the holiday. And he rents and drives the van for the gang. We see Elu domestic and in love, and again a pattern, as once again in S6 they'll fight but make up being all cuddly again. We see it when Eliott posts a love declaration to Lucas 2 days after their big Idriss fight in S4, we see it in S6 when they fight and then post a couples selfie later on. And it's probably hinted at here. They fought in the background at some point and are now super in love. So the show is depicting that they'll argue and still love each other. But it's also depicting issues being pushed to the side so they can be in love again (love bubble).

Ok, so Eliott is super happy and bouncy sunshine just loving life and Lucas. At one point he falls in love with a bunny he names Fifi. Now we see this is a habit as he also fell in love with a chocolate labrador and tried to steal him in the past. So Eliott just responds to vulnerability with affection and adoption e.g. lab, fifi, taking lola under his wing. For all his demons we see Eliott has a lot to offer the world. He's just well meaning and cares. Lucas gives into his pleading which is cute and then Fifi is killed and Eliott is heartbroken. So we see he gets attached to things and he puts a lot into that attachment. And when it backfires it hurts. Now i don't know if this is true but someone from that group chat leaked that Eliott was supposed to have an episode but it was cut. If true it again highlights how stressors can make Eliott spiral and he may spiral again (S6) but again i don't know if that S5 spiral is true, so i'm not gonna go further into that.

So then there's the cheating conversation and Eliott gives his view and then answers Bas's question. He's aware of what he did to Lucille. He says he's not proud of it but he emphasises Lucas's importance to him. He does it again in S6 and he's hinged his mental health on it which is crucial. Again it's just Eliott being Eliott. A hipster view of humanity, and not really judging anybody in particular. Just a general statement of the human condition. I just feel it's Eliott wanting to see the better in everything and not label anyone specifically.

You do see though that oblivious nature to Eliott's perspective. Like he says this around Lucas who has huge abandonment issues. Now i must stress it's not Eliott's fault because Lucas shows with Arthur later on that he hasn't confided these fears in Eliott. So Eliott is kind of blind here. Like he's playing with Lucas's hair. He's not even talking about their relationship. So i feel bad for the attacks that happened on Eliott. But it sets up how Eliott being friends with Lola is going to lead to miscommunication and mistrust. And it's setting up when Lucas comes clean to Eliott about his fears how puzzled Eliott's going to be, how on another page Eliott is. And it's setting up Eliott finally declaring to Lucas himself how much he means to him.

Then as Lucas is talking to Arthur about Eliott, Eliott bursts in early in the morning super sunshine giving zero fucks cuddling and kissing Lucas. And it shows that divide right in front of Arthur. How Lucas is like all worried and stressed over Eliott straying and then a second later he's all loved up and happy and just pushes that shit to one side. Like Lucas literally turns it off and on in this scene. And Eliott has no idea his boyfriend feels like this. This is the definition of the love bubble. And look at how well Lucas's hides this. That scene shows it all. It also sets up Eliott having a friend in a girl (Lucas and pansexuality) and Lucas fearing that Eliott will find something better and leave Lucas, it sets up the movie spoiler and how Lucas will take it, and it sets up the abandonment issues coming to the forefront in S6. It sets up them both understanding just how much they've been afraid to share and it sets up them trying to keep the relationship in the honeymoon mode. They're basically afraid to be real.

Last we see of Eliott he is back in that building and partying and vibing being Eliott. He then paints another mural. This time it's a friendship mural. And cements Eliott's art being used as a theme for the season e.g. S3 love, S5 friendship, S6 connection (upcoming theory). He is used to wrap up Arthur's themes and motifs in his season (Arthur fixated on space and the cosmos and using his insta to reflect the vacumn and loneliness of being HOH) now Arthur is among this huge cosmos grounded through the connection of friendship. It sets up the completion of the gang being at the forefront of the show, it shows the importance of them in each others lives. But crucially it shows Eliott seperated from that. So it is here where we see that Eliott doesn't include himself in the mural. This is Eliott establishing himself as a lone wolf on the periphery of connection. That he also has a perspective because he's on the periphery of the group, which serves him in S6 and connects him to the story. That he's not insulated, so can navigate the bigger picture. Can see what the group can't. It also sets up no matter how deep the demons run in Eliott he can still see love, positivity and connection in the world. That he gives back through his art. So the friendship mural was a gift to the gang and because he loves Lucas and knows the place the gang have in Lucas's life. And he has never interferred in that, or felt threatened. We see how Lucas looks at him and the gratitute and love coming from him.

Then Lucas posts an insta of him and Eliott in front of the mural holding hands. We see that Lucas has brought Eliott into the mural to say you're important to me too. But we see that he's there through Lucas and not because he belongs there. We see that Eliott doesn't feel a place in this group. That he'll be at the big events but other than that Eliott may be yet to find his place, or it could just simply be that Eliott forms small connections and not big ones. And now in S6 with his friendship with Lola and what he said in the church about not being comfortable around people? I took that to mean large groups and i took it to mean Eliott expressing himself with his MI and largely being an introverted person, as introverted people can be drained by their environment.

Finally i just wanted to address what Maxence said in the recent interview about. "He's lonely" first of all i was sad because i feel deeply for Eliott, but i'm also trying to work out what this means. Does he mean Eliott's lonely right now, or always has been? Is it to do with Lucas spending a lot of time away from him and it's caused him to try to find a distraction of his own? Is it to do with his introverted nature? Is it to do with him wanting someone to understand him? Is this his arc, to accept that's it's ok to be alone and not feel shamed, or is it simply his mental illness making him feel out of step with everyone? I haven't worked it out yet as you can see all the questions. But i may do a seperate post on this at some point. But i do believe right now it adds to the S6 themes of insulation v isolation.

My final post will be about Eliott and Lola's friendship. Thanks for reading. 💜

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i’ve been doodling in a random notebook and like yell singing to every song on bullets, then out of curiosity i looked through that notebook and LMAO it was from around the end of my freshman year of high school when i was just coming out as trans,, ok more like that summer,, BRO first of all the difference in my idealized self portraits from back then vs my idealized self portraits now are HILARIOUS (i’ll post later, lmao i can draw so much better than i could back then-) at some point i was having some sort of breakdown and literally HAND WROTE “qwertyuiopasdfghjklzxcvbnm” (i mean everybody has their methods but what the fuck was happening w me..) and also i’m reading some.. poem?  i don’t know.  about wanting to be a punk and honestly i used the word “purchase” too much for my own good i mean mind you i was talking about hair dye and a leather jacket (lmaooooooooooooooooooooo @ just coming out me,, i have 3,,,, loser <3 ) but like at the same time like damn i gotta say i’ve come pretty far since then wait i’ll type word for word like this is wild.  and mind you i was still hella like stereotypical emo i don’t think i even listened to against me! or anything at that point hell this was before i even saw green day anyway i’m gonna make commentary and bully this kid i unfortunately was in parenthesis 

“i want to go to target (LMAOOO) & purchase (1) black hairdye & spiking hair gel (sweetie.. no not yet), familiarize myself with the sensation of clippers against my head (ok i vibe w that). i want to fill the bathroom with the perfume of the dye & black nail polish. i want to scare them off with a single glance as if i’m a skeleton, the grim reaper, and am coming for them (i am sO glad i write better than this now). i want to go to a thrift store & purchase (2) a leather jacket (sweetie i have 3 now), second hand like my heart and soul (did you have to add “soul?”), & get patches of all sorts (... i didn’t understand “punk,” now did i) to iron on & (stop dOING THAT) paint logos and lyrics on the back. i want to make spikes, boots, and belts my armor. i want to stretch my ears (UMM NO I DO NOT!!!) to the extent that i’m considered a threat (can you tell that i was really into pop punk at the time) i want to be a punk. (there’s a song for that!) i want to spend $35 on a binder (welp there it is) so i can flatten my chest and relax for once (RELAX???? damn i wish). i want to take a weekly syringe(is that what they even call it) full of hormones (just call it testosterone.. this is what taking back sunday meant by “worse than teenage poetry”), deepening my voice, eliminating my discomfort. i want to love myself & hate the government & know what living fast & dying young (NO....) feels like. i want to be a punk. (hon..) i want to make out with someone (nOW WE’RE TALKING!!), boy, girl, nonbinary, i don’t give a shit (i mean i woulda worded it some other way but ok kiddo) i just want to feel wildly in love blind to the rest of the world with passion (yeah ok here’s the thing i was going through a really fuckin’ rough breakup period..) i want to be the skinny shirtless boy jumping into the lake(.....?), pulling my best friends in by the leg laughing like an absolute idiot. i want to be a punk.”

anyway that was embarassing it appears actually i had just gotten into against me! at the time, the four fucking bands i listened to that sorta fit into that genre were am!, pansy division (not too much though i was an innocent littol boy), green day and the menzingers, also i had a serious “&” problem it appears.  anyway glad to go on this adventure with you also i couldn’t draw for shit i think i’d also just gone to warped tour bc i had seen hawthorne heights and i came home and started writing niki fm lyrics everywhere fdsdkjsakjlf

this was also apparently my embarassing phase where i listened to every cliche emo band BUT mcr because fourteen year old me apparently thought he was too cool for that lmao