#so I'm trying to look neutral

[irenespring]

Look at my evil princess. I love her so much. She's an unstoppable force of chaos that is simultaneously bent on assimilation. She is the worst person ever yet I am always rooting for her. Companies rise and fall based on who she wants to invite to dinner. I want her to destroy the world.

[rockethorse]

Feel free to elaborate in the replies 🤔

[terresdebrume]

I keep going back and forth on the topic of where I fall on the allo/aro spectrum, partially because I kind of like. Don't wanna be aro (I'm already trans, queer and autistic with depressive tendencies, I don't need to add another thing to the list)

But another part of it is that even if I am capable of romantic love I probably just wouldn't know, because I already don't really know what platonic love feels like? And I'm not saying I can't love anything or anything like that it's just. Like many other emotions, I kind of have to retroingeneer it, sort of

I know I love my cats, not because I feel a surge of Something when I look at them, but because it makes me smile when they do something cute—my face knows what I'm feeling in those moments, I'm not sure I do. I know I love them because when Pouet died I cried every day for a month and I still cry sometimes, when I think about her. I know I love my cats because my brain keeps lighting up with fear signals when they're sleeping and I don't immediately see their chest move as they breathe.

I know what anxiety feels like, I know what anger feels like (when it explodes), I know what depression feels like because I dealt with them for so long I learned to recognize their physical symptoms! If these emotions didn't leave specific signals in my body then I'm not sure I'd know what they are.

And the thing is... I don't really like. Know what love or affection feels like, I think. Yes I can feel myself smile when I speak to certain people, but I also habitually smile at everybody because it makes things easier socially. I know I like people because if they ask me if I want to do an activity I either say yes or I have regrets about saying no.

My point is: I feel like I don't know my emotions so much as I know the buttons they push in my body, so to speak, but the problem about platonic/romantic love is that I can't imagine they make that different a shame, so who's to say which one it is?

It's funny, in a way, that I don't know something like that at my age. It's also really inconvenient, tbh. There's not really a reason for me to think about this rn except sometimes if I meet a cool dude whom I know is gay I wonder for a minute or two what a relationship with him would be like (which I'm going to assume is not that weird a thing to do) and the last time that happened led to, well. Ponderings about romance I guess

Anyway, the tl;Dr is that it took me decades to figure out the emotions I can recognize now, and I've largely approached social interactions with the inner spirit of a wet Chihuahua for most of that time, so how the fuck do I know if I can't identify those because I'm shit at self understanding or because I don't feel them???

Idk, it's complicated

(Tho honestly it would also be a little bit hilarious if after all this shit I landed on nah just aro. Not my preferred option right now but eh xD)

[busterbby]

am I really about to be the first nsfw request on this blog... sorry for being a whore. can you write general ichiro nsfw headcanons pretty please 🙇✨️

lol dw anon. I too am an abolute whore for Ichiro. though who can blame us 😔 but I shall try !! This is my first time ever posting nsfw, so I hope it works!! haven't actually written much nsfw on my own, but I want to get better~ (and also I'm horny lol). but please enjoy!! and lmk how it goes!

— general nsfw hcs.

nsfw. gn!reader. ichiro. 18+ only ; minors do not interact!!

Ichiro . . . is a gentleman, in and out the sheets. a very sweet and attentive sorta lover (though at times a tease)

sorta like candlelight or rose petals on silk sheets. like moonlight that kisses you tenderly. a cute lover through and through; he wants to pleasure you first and foremost

(really though, he's still a dork deep down. still a nineteen year old loser with a huge crush)

he’s definitely a little awkward at first since Ichiro hasn’t had much experience in the past with these sorta things; most — almost all — his knowledge comes from hentai and adult visual novels, Ichiro embarrassingly admits

(and he definitely learns that some of the stuff in porn does not translate well to real life; but it's fun and you guys have a good laugh about it)

his hands seem hesitant when they roam up your shirt — heavy as they are on your skin, gentle yet. his dimples your hips or thighs, sweet; he fumbles a bit with the condom as it slips from his grasp a few times, Ichi a little (a lot) embarrassed; and, Ichiro seems to waver, when he pulls back from a kiss. his warm hands up your shirt, hot breath tickling your lips; and, as much as his eyes say, they still shake uneasy. are you sure?

but he only wants to reassure that you want this as much as him! and- man, trust him. Ichiro wants it very much. He just.. doesn't know; it's your guys' first time after all! and he wouldn't want to make the first move if you weren't entirely ready yet

but he’s a quick learner! there’s definitely more confidence later on, when Ichiro takes off his shirt so swift and smooth, when he shoots you that handsome smile — softness in his gaze

(and he gets cutely proud of himself when you cum like three or four times)

he’s a giver, first and foremost; Ichi is attuned to your needs. it’s just- he loves taking care of the ones he love!! call it his older brother instinct or whatnot. and he’d try to not cum until you do so first

you don't have to go down on him, Ichiro insists. but well, he's not opposed either. he's a little filthy inside, and he hates that he loves the look of you down in between his legs oh so much

very attentive to all your little sweet spots and what makes you cum. though sometimes, he can be a total tease with that too

he’s gentle too!! his little touches are so tender yet hot — never too harsh. especially if you're smaller than him. he could never be too rough (unless you're into that sorta thing)

more of a switch, really; ichiro doesn’t have a particular preference, and he’s more than happy to try out new stuff, especially if it's something that you're excited about (what can he say? he loves to please)

he’s not very loud since Ichi tries to contain himself. Sure, the house is usually empty — that, or Ichi makes extra sure to lock his bedroom door. but he doesn’t think he can ever look his brothers in the eye if they accidentally heard anything

(which is highly unfortunate since he makes the prettiest of sounds

but sometimes, a particularly load moan will slip through, and the flustered look on his face, the red blush to his cheeks, is the sweetest thing. God- did that really just come out of him??)

he does that sappy thing, where Ichi will trace his fingers up your arm and then hold your hand sweetly; he'll give it a little squeeze too, and somehow, it always makes his heart skip a beat each and every time

and he grunts your name underneath his breath during climax. a little raspy, a little rough; he says it with so much love. your name rolls like velvet off his tongue

he never does moan too loud though, but it's just enough for you to hear and make your heart tremble. they’re hushed, like a secret meant only for your ears

always mindful not to leave hickies anywhere too visible! maybe a bit lower on your collarbone, or on your inner thighs, but Ichi would never want to embarrass you or make it too showy. Unless he's feeling a bit more confident that day, of course. perhaps a little jealous too

but, ichi does get a tinge flustered, mostly very dork-ily happy, when he sees the marks on your skin. they're very pretty on you.. ( and hickies look quite good on him too! so make sure to give him lots and lots. they just suit him so )

and he likes to cuddle afterward, always. you’re just so warm in his arms, within these sheets. and it almost feels like your heart beats are entwined, breaths too; that's the romantic in him

[uncanny-tranny]

I laid out the crochet blanket I'm making for my cat, and she's lying on it even though she can only fit two thirds if her body onto it right now and this is making it all worth it 😭😭😭😭

[ndntighnari]

Hate that I have to start this post with a disclaimer but it's tumblr so. Anyways this post is about my own personal experiences. If you disagree maybe shut up because it isn't about you.

I can't say much because my memory in general sucks but. I honest to god don't think I was particularly feminine until doctors made me go on estrogen based medication, against my will, at 14-19. I was fairly androgynous. Fairly small chest, fairly square build. But the second I came out as trans, I was told the only way to stop having debilitating monthly periods was 100% estrogen based medication.

It didn't even help. The pills gave me migraines and nausea; the patch worsened my acne, made the few periods i did get ten times worse, and changed my body in the exact opposite ways that I wanted; no one ever let me CONSIDER implants, depo shots, or even a copper IUD. I had to BEG a doctor to let me try out Danazol (synthetic androgen) which is when my body FINALLY stopped freaking the fuck out. After the damage had been done. After living for 10 years with endometriosis no doctor even wanted to do a laparoscopy to confirm and actively tried to scare me out of.

My insides are beyond fucked as it stands, and at 24 I'm only NOW maybe going to be able to get a hysterectomy. I don't think I'd need any sort of breast reduction/top surgery had I not been made to go onto estrogen. It took a long time to come to terms with this. PCOS runs in my family on both sides. I've never had a gynecologist willing to check. The most ob-gyns have done for me is tell me i don't need their care because i was planning to start T.

I'm not transmasc, even if people insist that I am because I'm on T/am trans and afab. I never was supposed to fucking develop this way, as it fucking turns out. We know I have some sort of endocrine disorder thanks to my current doctor taking me seriously, even if we don't know what it is yet.

Anyways. I'm gonna be real here and just say that I think maybe listening to intersex people's experiences with open minds will lead to a lot more progress than just assuming everyone who doesn't agree with your point of view on a type of transphobia is a bigot with unexplored internal biases who hates you for being part of the "worse side" of the trans umbrella because it might let you understand more about yourself in the process. Like obviously don't take bigotry lying down, but also. Not every contradiction is bigotry. Sometimes two things can be true at the same time.

[rimouskis]

can I be so open and vulnerable with you guys. the card I was given from people at my old office was sincerely so nice and really validating but also I feel like the main impression I left other people with was "she's really nice" WHICH IS GOOD, I DO WANT TO BE KNOWN AS NICE but also part of me is like... should I maybe strive for "innovative" or "creative" or "a go-getter" because being The Nice One just feels a little mealy-mouthed of me y'know?

[kartoonatic]

Meizan of Kanjallen design and fit check.

[anhydriite]

[the-earthling-gem-historian]

In light of the Lars of the Stars announcement

I've decided I'd like to see what actually happens to Jasper, if anything, in the upcoming show before I begin here. I may need to readjust the concept quite a bit. Depending on what happens and whether or not it's relevant to the concept I've already drafted up, I'll probably tell y'all what was GOING to happen in this comic before it changed (just to make sure you're not missing anything major!) In short, this project is shelved but not cancelled!

See you sooner or later!

[eris-of-disco]

my gender is whatever you call being afab but you like being referred to as they/them, your friends call you dad, you like being referred to with gender neutral terms/words and you don't mind/actually like it when people misgender you, you want to look genderless, but you don't get uncomfy in rooms such as changing/bathrooms.

I have no idea rn so imma hope things make sense in like a year or so.

[altruistic-meme]

realizing that i probably spent half of my shift looking pissed off bc i was tired and had a headache and that that's probably why my new area manager came up to me and asked me if im always that quiet cmsjfjjs sorry ma'am like,,, yes i am but also im not like Angry or anything im just thinking about my blorbos while trying to get through the shift without killing myself or dropping a wrench into an engine or throwing my torque gun outside in a fit of passion or something

[skrunksthatwunk]

no this is not an important topic BUT im curious. note: i forgot to put a "i literally don't care i just do whatever" option but. pick im bald for that i guess

[sysig]

DAX is just so expressive ♥ (Patreon)

[nyano64]

Just a reminder that a vote for no one is a vote for the opposition

[nexus-nebulae]

wait so i had a thought. so if you're transitioning to a guy you would usually be transmasc. and transitioning to a girl would usually be transfem. but like. what about agender. transnothing??