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Catherine & Jackson

They’re not a couple, but they kind of are… here’s how… or why… maybe… Starting from S1e1 - written for a friend to show how this show is NOT about Catherine and Jackson... but also, it's TOTALLY about Catherine and Jackson! lol - feel free to chime in with thoughts, feelings, etc.

S1e1 Failure is Contagious

First time we see Jackson, he’s waking up, it’s a mess, he’s coughing and smoking at the same time, he looks outside, gloomy, raining, but wait… his eyes are caught by something, and he follows …

Catherine is seen crossing the street, in her boots and coat and purse strapped across her chest, with the floral print umbrella.

Standish, make her way up the street, clocks Moody at the bus stop, makes her way up the 4 floors at Aldersgate and is unseen/ignored by all of the other Slow Horses.  She gets to her office, turns on the light, puts away her things and 3 seconds later…. “STANDISH!” lol – she’s been noticed!

She is seen making her way to his office with a stack of folders but stands at the doorway to his office and doesn’t speak until she is spoken to –

Are they all in? – Lamb; All except River and Sid – Standish; Last one in can clean my lav - Lamb

*banging happens as someone is opening the door downstairs*

Standish and Lamb look disappointed in the slow horses in general for a moment.

I thought spooks were supposed to be stealthy – Lamb

Catherine grants him a tiny smile as she turns to go back towards her office.

Other Slow Horses comments and interactions w/ Standish

River – makes the “a reason not to blow my brains out!” comment

Struan – that Catherine is a tough nut to crack

Min – She never lightens up. Lamb’s lackey.

Louisa – talks about … what happened before (aka Partner)

Sid arrives with the laptop – aka SOMETHING happens at Slough House and …

“STANDISH! Flash Box!” – Lamb

Standish brings the Flash Box, stands silently, assists in getting it open…

“I’ve got a call to make, so if the pair of you wouldn’t mind, you know, fucking off” – Lamb

To Standish – Get me Lady Di.

Jackson is sleeping (or is he?) with his feet on the desk & Catherine (with coat and scarf on, as if ready to leave for the day) comes in to put a stack of folders on his desk.

She moves another folder to make room for the stack, putting them carefully on the edge of his desk.

Lamb kicks them over, on purpose, without reason… other than his… amusement? Into the trash can next to his desk and onto the floor as he leans back and sighs while watching her

What did your last servant die of? – Standish

Interesting that she calls herself servant, instead of secretary or personal assistant.

She immediately kneels to pick up the folders.

What did your last boss die of? – Lamb

He puts his feet back on the floor and reaches into a drawer to pull out TWO glasses and a bottle.

Because Standish is kneeling, this is at eye level for her and she hears the clinking of glass, trying to keep her head down.

She clearly sees Lamb pulling out TWO glasses, while gathering the folders in her arms, but is seen looking up at him, and then back down to the floor, then at the glasses being filled… as the moody music starts to play – this is dangerous territory, even if we don’t know it yet.

Standish puts the stack back on the corner of his desk and stands up while staring at the two glasses… she glances at Lamb, but goes back to staring at the booze. Dark music continues to suggest the seriousness of the moment.

Standish standing straight is seen as trying to calm her own desires as we see her shoulders go from tense and tight to her seemingly sighing and becoming resolved… as Lamb moves a glass of whiskey directly in front of her, taking a deep breath himself, in direct contrast to her own breathing.

Wanted to add that this particular moment has been brought up to the actors in interviews where Gary Oldman was asked WHY Lamb would offer Standish a drink knowing she’s an alcoholic.  Oldman stated that he sincerely believed Lamb was a bit jealous of her, her ability to say no, her resolve.  He, Lamb, would not or could not say no to whiskey and he admires / appreciates that she won’t… no matter how he tries to needle her – to anger her – to provoke her – and then to offer her – her preferred poison… his preferred poison!

Standish glares at him for a moment shaking her head “NO”… she will NOT drink today, and walks off as he’s already finishing his own drink.

Lamb finishes his drink in one gulp as Standish walks out and he’s left alone looking down at her offered drink, gulping that one down as well.

Next time we see Standish, she’s at her AA meeting.  She is not speaking, just listening, but we see her struggling a bit emotionally.  She is remembering finding Charles Partner’s, her ex-boss…

She is seen with flowers, she’s younger (hair color is darker?!) – she’s got makeup on – she wears no makeup now – her skirts are a bit shorter, her neckline a bit lower – she’s smiling and looks beautiful as she calls out for Charles. She finds him, though, we only see clues – he’s got Opera music playing, he’s in the bath, there’s blood dripping outside of the bath, and she sees him, she gasps and covers her mouth in shock. Music is intense and dramatic, this is traumatic.

Catherine is called out in her AA meeting, asked if she wants to speak. 

My name is Catherine and I’m an alcoholic. I’ll just listen tonight. – Standish.

Slow Horses are gathered in Roddy’s office watching the latest news about the hostage situation when Lamb is seen walking in from the stairs. Lamb says explaining the situation to them is like explaining Norway to a dog, and demands that they all go back to shuffling papers.

[laufire]

The 100 for the in depth fandom questions (of course!)

Top 5 favourite characters: Murphy, Echo, Raven, Emori, and Octavia. The order has varied but the members have been constant since 5x02.

Other characters you like: Indra, ALIE, Becca, Josephine, Jaha, Diyoza, Hope, Anya, Gaia, Lincoln, Harper, Monty... a lot.

Least favourite characters: Bellamy, Kane, Lexa (she bored me). Clarke and I are in a weird place xDD

Otps: Memori, Biyoza, Clarke/Josephine, Indra/Sheidheda, Echoven. Followed by an army of rareships.

Notps: Clarke/Raven, Bellamy/anybody, Clarke/almost anybody.

Favourite friendships: the remaining Spacefam aka snowkru, the og s5 spacefam, Echo’s infiltration team(s), Murven & Memoraven, Murphy & Monty.

Favourite family: Diyoza-Blake clan. They hypenate.

Favourite episodes: 2x12 (Memori’s 1st meeting), 1x10 (I watched it ONCE when it aired and I still remember it so vividly...), 3x02 (Memori stuff!), 3x10 (ALIE VS RAVEN), 3x11 (again), 4x08 (take a guess), 4x12-3 (they made me return to the show c’mon), 5x02, 5x06, 5x09, 5x10-13 really. 6x08. The episode number gets blurry in my head with s7 but I enjoyed the Echo-Diyozas-Blake episode, the Echoven episode, and the finale for the hilarity factor + the opposite feeling of buyers remorse it gave me.

Favourite season/book/movie: s5. Followed by s3 ‘cause a bitch loves an AI plot.

Favourite quotes: “love at first knife to throat” lives in me. Every uber romantic Memori quote does. Also every Blodreina quote.

Best musical moment: 3x01 sing-along scene. S2 had bored me so much and it felt like a breath of fresh air.

Moment that made you fangirl/boy the hardest: everything Memori did in s5-7.

When it really disappointed you: Diyoza and Octavia should have kissed. ON THE MOUTH.

Saddest moment: Finn’s death and Raven’s reaction to it was gutting.

Most well done character death: Diyoza’s.

Favourite guest star: Josephine’s actress, she looked very pretty xD

Favourite cast member: for NON-SHALLOW REASONS, NONE WHATSOEVER- Luisa D’Oliveira.

Character you wish was still alive: Diyoza and Josephine should’ve been there on the beach for my shipping agendas.

One thing you hope really happens: n/a. But we all know Clarke will feel the need to escape to the woods, right? And there she’ll start hallucinating (or not...) Josephine........

Most shocking twist: can’t think of anything.

When did you start watching/reading?: I watched s1 as it aired, for the most part. Quit by a mix of boredom and annoyance at the show. Returned when I heard about How Dirty They Did Clarke in the s4 finale xDD

Best animal/creature: that giant alien whose butthole Clarke & co climbed through is the only one I can remember right now.......... oh thank fuck, Octavia’s poor horse xDD. Helios :((

Favourite location: Becca’s lab.

Trope you wish they would stop using: I don’t want to hear “I bear it so they don’t have to” ever again.

One thing this show/book/film does better than others: male lead swaps and controversial female characters.

Funniest moments: s5-7 Clarke was hilarious and peaked in the finale.

Couple you would like to see: Biyozaaaaaaaa.

Actor/Actress you want to join the cast: n/a.

Favourite outfit: Emori’s blue wardrobe owns me.

Favourite item: Raven’s raven necklace :’)

Do you own anything related to this show/book/film?: nooooope.

What house/team/group/friendship group/family/race etc would you be in?: beachkru is doing alright I guess, now that Clarke left for the woods.

Most boring plotline: s2. I KNOW it’s a fan favourite. Raven had some good scenes, Murphy’s plot was more engaging. But the central stuff/how Clarke-dominant it was? Zzzzzzzz.

Most laughably bad moment: Clarke’s “u want me to be the bad guy? Fine, I’ll be the bad guy”. Ma’am.......

Best flashback/flashfoward if any: the flashbacks in “His Sister’s Keeper” were something else.

Most layered character: Murphy. King shit given where he started xDD

Most one dimensional character: Levitt? But his one dimension is “horny for Octavia” so I’m not judging too hard.

Scariest moment: can’t think of anything.

Grossest moment: did I mention the alien butthole.

Best looking male: Lincoln is objectively pretty af but I’ve grown so fond of Murphy’s owlish face....... I like ‘em a bit weird and with big noses and sharp angles guys.

Best looking female: Emori, to absolutely nobody’s surprise.

Who you’re crushing on (if any): Emori, Echo, Diyoza, Indra (there’s always at least a MILF in my crushes list).

Favourite cast moment: Adina and JR slow dancing in character get up.

Favourite transportation: the spacefam dropship.

Most beautiful scene (scenery/shot wise): Eden was very pretty. Also that shot of the Earth on fire with Braven watching over it *chef’s kiss*

Unanswered question/continuity issue/plot error that bugs you: again, I’m a pro at ignoring/explaining these so I rarely can think of anything lol.

Best promo: absent Bellamy in s7 promo. The way it drove the fandom wild, man. All the Bellamygates that were born of it... groundbreaking.

At what point did you fall in love with this show/book: the s4 finale is went it grabbed me to never let go.

[rhonuscorner]

Yes I know that giving Negan the last name of ‘Walker‘ isn’t the most original thing, but he needed one and it sounds nice so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ANYWAY. THE REGAN WESTERN AU NOBODY ASKED FOR! :D

I was fangirling about RDR2 to my friend @the-ricky-grimes a while ago and was like “Ok but consider this: outlaw!Negan and bounty hunter!Rick!“ And we ran with it.

We both made character refs for our boys so here’s mine for Negan and yeah, if you’ve played RDR2 you’ll probably recognize some stuff, like the satchel, the saddle and horse and the hat accessory.

I had a hard time figuring out what to make Lucille because a baseball bat wasn’t gonna work out and I considered various things from a machete to a rifle but with the help of my friend I settled on a shotgun, which is actually kinda perfect because of how devastating it can be up close.

We’ve been talking about uploading the RP on AO3 at some point so that might happen one day. ^-^ It’s a very fun slow burn enemies-to-lovers AU to write and out of all my different versions of Negan, this one is by far the most unpredictable one. He’s fun >3

EDIT 30-1-21 I ended up changing his horse and finally got around to updating this with some new art! The coat is based on the ingame golden turkoman horse, but it doesn’t make much sense for Negan to actually have that horse considering the breed is extinct and the modern descendant breeds are still pretty rare to find in America and Europe compared to other horse breeds. I went with the Dutch warmblood as a little nod to myself, being Dutch and all lol.

[suffering-and-happy-about-it]

The Ecstasy (Favored Ones, Part 14.)

Series description: Many things were surely fucked up in the year 2038, but no-one ever told anyone how all of it went down. What happened before a group of people left for Seattle to handle personal matters? Why did one girl refuse to leave all of it be? And why there were so many dead in the end?

Part summary: Sometimes, there are no words needed when someone really means it with you. When they love you, they don’t have to say a word, but a single action is all it takes to make you sure about that.

A/N: The chapter is happening at the same night when Dina kissed Ellie, at the same dance, in the same hall and in front of the same people... AND SETH IS BEING A FUCKING CUNT. Enjoy the last chapter before the storm comes to Jackson... And if you think that everyone’s cool about the relationship... Just wait on the Reverse card we’ll pull over the time.

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Series master list: H E R E (Inspired by Bon Iver’s & St. Vincent’s Rosyln and Ecstasy by the Crooked Still)

Joel Miller’s playlist for the bonfire occasions: H E R E

Youtube playlists: JACKSON DAYS | SEATTLE DAYS

The spring of 2038, one night before the incident:

The talk about patrols was too long for you to care about. And since there was a dance that day, you rather chose to go there with Ellie way sooner than going to the boring meeting where you'd listen to Tommy, Joel, and Jessie laying into each other the whole fucking evening.

You, both you and Ellie, had been drinking, sometimes dancing with the smaller kids for good laughs. Dina, freshly broken up with Jesse, was there too, dancing all over the place. The two of you, you and Ellie, were just at the bar to have some good bourbon and beer, looking into the crowd. - "How’re things lately? Haven't spoken to you in a while."

That was right. Ever since your thing with Joel started, you've been distancing from your friends. Not because you'd want any piece in his and Ellie’s shared drama or because you didn't like to hang out with the group anymore, you were just... Too busy to hang out with them lately. Mostly because you spent all the free nights in his bed and other times, you were on patrols. So yeah, Ellie and you didn't talk for a while. Truth be told, you missed your best friend very much. But you couldn't tell her a single about you and Joel... Spending time together, so it wasn’t easiest to look her in the eyes either.

Also, there was this whole situation about the winter - it was already March and it still was snowing, there were blizards and huge snow storms almost every week. So, everyone was doing their best to supply the city - whether it centered around taking care of the animals or taking extra patrols. This situation was on ever since February. 

"Busy. All I can say is that things are busy now. How ’bout you and Dina? Any new developments in the current situation?" - You smiled slyly, giving Ellie one of your encouraging looks, having the green-eyed girl smiling and blushing all of the sudden. As it was usually when she got nervous, the tip of her boot was tapping the wooden dancefloor as she thought about what she wanted to say.

You had Jessie and Dina’s newest break-up on your mind. Everyone knew that this couple is pretty fiery, arguing and breaking up the whole time just to be together the following week again. But when you saw Jessie in the dining room and talked to him briefly, this one was feeling different than the other ones. You didn't know how serious relationships work, yet he was uncomfortable when you asked about her.

"I think it's just one of their motherfucking pauses again. My bet is two weeks before they get back together and I’ll go fuck myself again." - Ellie hissed while watching Dina jumping around in Daniel’s arms, laughing all over the hall.

"You're doing it again and it's making me fucking pissed." - You muttered out, putting the empty glass on the bar, asking for a bottle of beer. - "Thinking about yourself as of a third wheel or shit. You're not a third wheel Ellie and to me, you'll never be one." - You sighed, leaning your head into her shoulder while closing your eyes.

"I missed you telling me this sort of stuff, baby." - She sighed with a soft smile, leaning her cheek to the back of her head. Yeah. You missed them too. With Joel, you weren't that crazy and loud girl who would curse in every sentence - it wasn't that he didn't like that, you just felt calmer when he was around. But you needed to be that person from time to time. - "I missed telling you this sort of stuff, hun."

At that, you saw Jesse finally entering the building. You just knew from Jesse’s look that Joel was telling him something again, there wasn't a word that Jesse has to say for both of you to know that. This time, he seemed more pissed than usual, but that could be caused by his break-up, so you didn't immediately jump to the conclusion to talk with Joel about it.

"Uh, ever told you that you're hot when you're pissed?" - You asked, having Ellie whistle for you. Jesse chuckled sourly at that poor compliment, telling you that you should go fuck yourself without using words.

"You're not too cool to spend time with your friends now, huh?" - He grinned back, making a point. After you scoffed ironically, you gave him a look.

"I was always way cooler than you'll ever be, young man. Now excuse me, I will be talking to the adults for a while, letting you guys play with your mud pies." - Was the last thing you told Jesse before patting his back with an honest smile, already nodding at Maria. It was obvious, at least to you, that you just wanted to take a look at Joel when you'll be walking to cool auntie in the corner of the room. And to be honest, the man was leaning his elbows to a table while talking to another man from Jackson, checking your location almost every twenty to thirty seconds.

And when you finally were patting Jesse’s back after winning your little pissing contest, he suddenly shifted to sit more straight, taking in what you had on. The shirt he loved, the jeans which made your ass irresistible to not to stare at, and a pair of the same cowboy shoes that Dina girl had. You once got them in one shoe shop during scavenging for supplies in a nearby city. And ever since, these were your go-to shoes for a dance.

Joel wasn't looking too bad himself either, you had to say. His hair was still way too long, his beard was messy, but boy-oh-boy, that khaki brown leather jacket screamed danger all the way around. And of course, there was this well-known blue shirt you wore a million times during the nights you spent at his place. It was nice of him to remember such small details.

If you weren't smiling practically all the time, it would be obvious that there are some sparks in the air when you walked around the table. You sent him a nod first, raising the bottle of beer you've been holding in your palm.

"Mr. Miller." - You smiled and winked at him before the other man even noticed.

"Miss Y/L/N." - Joel nodded back with a serious face, taking off the imaginary hat to tip you. That made you chuckle when you continued on your way to Maria.

There were two persons Joel wanted to talk to about you and what on Earth should he do with himself. The two people being Ellie and Tommy, his choice was fairly obvious. Tommy wasn't the best source of information either, yet it was better than nothing. All Joel had told him was that he was seeing a woman from Jackson that caught his eye - that they're spending some time together and that she recently told him he had some feeling for him, and not knowing what to do, he came to talk to his younger brother.

Tommy, who was genuinely surprised by this piece of information being finally confirmed, widened his eyes at that. Joel wanted a piece of dating advice from someone? Did he have some heart inside the survivor’s chest? First of all, Tommy didn't spare a moment to tell Joel she must be crazy to want to be with him, laughing at these words. The other thing he told his older brother was that if he wants to show her that he is sure about caring for the woman, wanting to be with her, he would not have a better chance than to ask her for a dance in front of everyone.

A slow one, of course. And that was what Joel was planning to do, just waiting for the right song to play. And that was why Tommy and Maria were excitedly watching Joel the whole evening. So far, nothing had happened. They placed their bets on Bobby, mom of your dead friend Harry, and Sandra, a woman who was working with horses.

"You guys seem to be super-excited about something tonight. Should I be worried?" - You furrowed at the couple, having a nervous laugh at the end. Tommy dismissed it with shaking his head, still having his brother at the corner of his eye, not knowing that not even five minutes from that moment, Joel will ask you for a dance.

"Don’t be worried, honey. It's about this little bet, nothing to worry about." - Maria chuckled, leading the conversation while Tommy was spying on Joel. - "You're looking good tonight. Trying to impress someone?"

"Of course, I was dressing up for you the whole evening, wondering what you'll tell me about these beautiful shoes." - You tipped your leg at that, showing her the shoes she had seen at least a million times before.

"She's lying, she’s trying to impress me because we've been secretly dating for a while now." - Tommy chimed in, kissing Maria on her cheek. Tommy and his sense of humor... That was something you had to get a hang on before you knew what should offend you and when he's just ducking around with you. This was the other case of the spectrum. But if you'd told him that you're sleeping with Joel, he’d go nuts or dismiss it as a dumb joke - there was no other ending to this statement. But you just gave him one of your looks. - "But even tho I saw these shoes a million times, they make me always go wild."

"Keep on dreaming, old guy, I'm all about Maria these days. How you're doing? Haven't talked to you in a while?" - You asked, starting a chit-chat with Maria only. Tommy usually didn't talk about the girly stuff, as he called it, he was all about jokes and when you were sad, he was the man to give you an emotional support speech. That was why you liked these two so much. While Maria was someone who could kick ass, Tommy was mostly the goofy guy everyone liked to hang out with. When the first and probably the last song of the night started playing, both of them suddenly snapped, looking around like crazy.

"You see him somewhere?" - Tommy whispered to Maria, having her shaking her head. The man with the bun suddenly shut up and watched his brother walking to their group with that cold-facade look on his face, although it was obvious that he's only trying his best to stay calm. Was Joel into Maria? Oh, if he was, Tommy would kick his damn ass for having the audacity to ask him for a piece of advice.

Yet at that moment, Maria noticed Joel's looking at someone in front of the couple. At their back, to be specific. He was looking at the back of the confused girl who was standing in front of them and had a chit-chat with them. Well, that was wild. Wild if you'd ask her.

"Y/N, would you maybe care for a dance?" - Joel mumbled when he finally stopped in front of your back. Both of the people you've been facing could notice that you stiffened suddenly, not knowing what to think. Your mouth opened up, eyes widened and you even had that small wrinkle between your eyebrows. Slowly, you turned at Joel, looking at the couples chiming onto the dancefloor. He had never danced to a slow song with anyone, even if it was a woman’s choice. Nobody made him.

"Joel, what are you after? What do you mean? Here? Now? In front of everyone? Are you crazy?" - You mumbled out, looking at the old man taking your bottle of beer, giving it to Tommy as he took your palm, leading you between all of the people without answering you. When first people started to notice both you walking around the tables, you heard first whispers and the weight of the words looks was making you feel very much unsafe.

You were walking behind Joel, yet the man felt your palm getting seriously sweaty with each passing second. The air was too hot for you to breathe as your cheeks were on fire as well, everyone suddenly knew your darkest secret. Maybe not the darkest, but the biggest. It was out just like that. Tears were making your eyes watery and no matter how hard you tried, you couldn't see Joel.

"I mean what I've said. All I want is a dance." - The man answered once you've walked to the middle of the dancefloor. You've been wonderstruck and fucking afraid. There was the same void in your head as in the moment you accidentally slipped the tea about your emotions. For a while, Joel was worried that he maybe took the things too far.

Everyone could see you and bet your ass people have been watching you with shock.

Someone like you, a young girl, was expected to marry a young man, to have kids and family, and to continue the cycle life was. And even though, you and Joel were there, looking at each other, showing everyone that there something fishy going on. Tommy couldn't speak for at least a minute and Maria’s mouth slowly widened into a smile. Even Jesse stopped for a while when he realized what he's looking at.

Nervously, you stepped away to keep the social distance between you and him. It didn't mean much since as soon as Joel had the chance, his arm circled your waist pulling you so close that your body copied his. At that moment, when you were sure he can't see you, you smiled and bit your lower lip. If you wanted some kind of statement as a follow-up to the situation occurring inside his bedroom, this was it. There wasn't anything much more to do tell the others that you and Joel are a fucking thing. It wasn't exactly I love you, but it was stating that you belong to the man in some way or another.

"The rumors will be... Oh, God." - You mumbled to his ear, finally circling his shoulder with his arm to be sure he won't let go just like that. After that, you leaned your temple there, feeling safe. People were looking. They were. And why the fuck should you care?

"I'm kinda good at gettin’ a hang of these, baby girl." - Joel answered the comment, having you raise your head with a beaming smile. So, now it was kinda official, you guessed. He was your man just as much as you were his girl.

When you looked him in the eyes, you both got serious, quite staring at each other before leaning in to share a kiss. It wasn't just that peck on the lips, it was full-blown kiss where you tangled your fingers into his hair, tugging it to keep him close for a while. It was the one where you stopped even dancing so you could feel the other one. And Joel tugging you even closer by putting a hand on your waist? That was even better.

When it ended, there was a smile on your face and your cheeks were on fucking fire. - "People will tell me that I'll go to hell for this." - You whispered, putting your face into the crook of his neck while moving along with the flow of the song. Your arms were circled his shoulders to keep him close. At the remark about hell, Joel chuckled dryly.

"I'll see you there, then." - The man whispered, gently kissing your temple before exhaling out loud. It was a long time when he danced with someone. It was almost two years when he last time danced with Ellie for fun - it was before the outbreak the last time he danced someone because he felt something for them. Maybe it was when Sara’s mom was still alive... But it was completing something inside Joel. He was a lonely soul that would beg just to be loved by someone like you.

Fucking? That was great. But to be honest, since night one, Joel was sure that this won't take too long before you get bored with him. Instead of getting bored with Joel, you accidentally told him that you're in love and that you were in love for a long time. Which made him feel... Necessary in someone's life. That was a thing Joel needed - whether it was the girl he adopted or her friend who made an old fool in love out of the roughest survivor in Jackson.

And it seemed that you completely got the message even if you didn't hear the words he was trying to say. And of course, as all of Joel's happy moments, something had to fuck up just right after everything got good for a second. You saw someone stepping into the crowd, so first, you let Joel abruptly go, feeling the panic inside raising as you waited for the punishment.

But to your surprise, it was Seth stepping to Dina and Ellie, telling them something. It was hard to make out what is happening there, but before you could stop Joel, he was already walking there. You tried to catch his forearm and stop him... But even though you two were together, you couldn't stop him from taking care of his daughter.

"Oh, just what this town needs." - Seth told Dina’s back when the girls were leaving. It looked that if you'll be lucky, Joel won't even insert himself in there. The old jackass was drunk as well. If you hated someone in Jackson with passion, it was that wrinkly ballsack. Seth and you never had a personal problem with each other, yet there were moments when Ellie and he did; so naturally, you took Ellie’s side in this. - "Another loud-mouthed dike."

And with those words, you closed your eyes and sighed, seeing Joel speeding up in from the place you were standing at. Right. As if one scandal for the night wasn't fucking enough.

"What the fuck did you just say?" - Ellie turned at her heels, pointing her finger at Seth. The expression in her face was blatantly obvious - all Seth ad to do was saying another wrong word and she would just fuck him up like that. Dina was holding her away from Seth, yet at that moment, the cavalry arrived. Joel pushed Seth back, looking him in the face. The atmosphere had tensed as the music stopped playing completely - the silence in the room was the loudest thing you've ever heard.

People were watching all five of you - you were nervously staying away from the men, not knowing what the fuck should you do, Joel was about to kick Seth's ass just like that and Dina and Ellie were watching what was happening.

"Get the hell outta here." - Joel warned the old ballsack in a quiet voice, expressing all the curse words he didn't tell Seth out loud. The ballsack walked right up to Joel, it was a wonder he didn't spit in his face, straightening himself. This was getting real bad real fast. - "Get your hands off me!" - Seth gritted through his teeth. Yeah, it was time for you to go there. Maria and Tommy had the same idea.

Your heart stopped at the moment as you quickly ran behind your old man, circling his shoulder with your arm. Maria stepped between the two men, Tommy having her back from the other side. Ellie was too angry to notice that you're trying to pull Joel away, and not because you didn't want him to fuck Seth up, but because you were worried for Joel.

"Hey! Enough! Come on, you. Let’s go for a walk." - She tugged Seth away with Tommy, nodding at you to drag away Joel. You nodded back, trying to catch the man’s attention - but when Joel was in his protect Ellie mode, nothing could make him calm down. Both Maria and Tommy talked with Seth, taking him away and at that moment, Joel’s attention shifted to Ellie to check if she and Dina are okay. You were just standing there, being completely ignored by the man.

"You alright, kiddo?" - He asked silently, being extremely vulnerable at that moment. Again, you were watching how the situation will go, letting him and Ellie talk. You hoped for the best, which would be, in the ideal scenario, them not fighting in front of all these people. Ellie’s expression immediately told you that it's not the case.

"What is wrong with you?" - She asked boldly, furrowing at the old man.

"He had no right," - "And you do? I don't need your fucking help, Joel." - Oh, she hit the sweet spot at that exact second. The sweet spot of him being someone who will always help her, accept for who she was, to be her guardian and father until the end of his days. You could tell how was he feeling just by the way his shoulders had dropped. She hurt him - all Joel wanted was to see her being alright, but she could be so fucking stubborn. Usually, you loved that about your best friend, but you were torn at the moment.

While she was your best friend who was with you in the best and the worst, Joel was someone... You loved. And even if you'd like to stay there with Ellie at the moment, this time, you had to reevaluate your priorities on Joel. - "Right." - Was the only thing Joel muttered out before he left the room as well. While he was walking away, you stood there for a second, looking at Ellie with your eyebrows knitted, expression full of sadness.

Her look fell on you almost immediately. It took a while when you looked at each other and in the end, it had Ellie rather confused. She has never seen you so uncomfortable after some scandal happened. You two usually laughed and mocked the shit out of Seth together - but this time, your eyes were full of worries, your mouth was slightly opened and you were fidgeting your fingers at a fast pace. In the end, you shook your head and followed Joel outside.

"Hey! Stop, please!" - You screamed after him, fastening up, having people turn after you. The only thing Joel did was that he looked over his shoulder at you. - "Come on, Joel." - You begged, finally catching the hem of his sleeve in your palm. When you pulled it, he finally stopped. His breath was shallow, his eyes were looking everywhere except you.

"Hey, hey, hey." - You whispered, circling your hands around his jaws, making him look at you. A small smile appeared on your lips. As the adrenaline rush fell out of your body, the usually nicely warm march night felt cold. - "Hi there, big guy."

"I'm not in a mood for this now, okay?" - Joel put your hands off your face, giving a cold look to everyone who was just staring at the two of you.

"Mood for a talk? Joel... You shouldn't insert yourself into that." - You whispered, following him once he decided to continue his way home. Instead of answering you, he just inhaled, closing his eyes for a second. And even if he was mad like crazy, when he saw you trembling, he circled his jacket around your shoulders.

"I had to stand behind Ellie. I don’t expect you to understand." - He turned at the end of the street, walking forward, not caring if you're still following or not.

"She’s adult just as I am. She doesn't need your help when something goes down. She’s not fourteen anymore." - You answered Joel. When he stopped, you thought it’s good - his eyes were as dark as the night and even his finger was pointed at you in the next second. He was mad. And not only at Seth and Ellie, now you were on the list as well.

"You’ve never had a kid, you never lost them and you don't know how it's like to be worried that you'll lose them. I will protect the girl until the day I die, you understand that?" - Joel gritted through his teeth. Well, the first couple-fight was there. Yet Joel forgot that you can be a stubborn asshole as well.

"I never lost a child, Miller, but my parents were both bitten and shot. I was fucking seven and I have seen every single second of the execution before Marlene pulled me away. And now, when I open up to someone because I like them, there's this fear I have every single moment I'm awake. I’m worried about losing them. You think you're such a know-it-all, Joel, don't you? But guess what. You should shut up sometimes and listen to the others when they speak. Ellie doesn't want your help so just accept it already. Stop living in the past, will you?" - You mumbled and then walked to his house, having the man behind you the whole time.  

His house became your home some time ago. You had a portion of your stuff there since you started sleeping with Joel, sometimes you just picked up some clothes or hygiene in there, but the time you spent there alone was dull and lonely. So it was kinda natural that you wanted to go to Joel’s house when you were mad and wanted to feel safe.

You knew that Joel won't follow you to the bed, so you threw his jacket on the couch, running the stairs to lock yourself in the bathroom. You couldn't know that while you were there, Ellie and Joel were having a conversation on the terrace. Ellie talked about the incident in the diner, about Seth and Dina, suddenly changing the topic to what happened in Salt Lake.

"I just..." - Ellie whispered, putting her palms to fists, being torn apart on the inside. - "I don't think I can ever forgive you for that." - She looked at the profile of his face, watching Joel play around with the mug of coffee. When she said that, it was visible that Joel was panicking, feeling hurt - his breath shallowed again, his eyes started to wander around and at one moment, he stood up just to lean back into the railing. He nodded almost invisibly.

"But... I would like to try." - Ellie told him, holding the railing in her palms. Her voice was shaking. This girl wasn't the one to cry, but she wasn't too far from sobbing at that moment. Thit was highly uncomfortable, but it was crushing her not to have Joel but the ber side. Even if Joel didn't look at her directly, it could be felt in the shifting tone that he's feeling safer with each passing second.

"I'd love that." - Joel answered honestly. He would hug her or look at you, but he was having tears in his eyes, so he rather leaned into the railing and smiled into the mug. Ellie waited there for a second, nodding to herself. This was something that could save their relationship.

"Okay... Okay... So... You and Y/N? Is she here?" - She asked, looking into the pitch darkness inside the house. How could something like you starting a relationship with Joel could slip past her? How? Joel didn't answer, but his smug widened a bit as he chuckled. Ellie was chuckling too, holding the railing in her had, rocking herself on her heels. - "She is. Already sleepin’, probably."

"Be nice to her and take care of her for me, will you? Or I’ll fucking kick your motherfucking ass, old man. She's an amazing girl, one of the best I've ever met." - Ellie smiled, making a few small steps off the terrace. Joel finally looked at his baby girl, his eyes telling everything his words didn't. - "So, I'll see you around, I guess."

Joel was on the terrace for quite a long time. He was sitting there, playing with his guitar. He was happy, so fucking happy. He and Ellie made a truce, which meant that these two maybe will have a future. Yet you were still pissed with him. He fucked up. He indeed fucked up. Joel should know better than talking to you when he was pissed, telling you such things.

Around three in the morning, he finally stood up and went to the bedroom, seeing you sleep on your side of the bed, being all curled up to a small ball under the blanket. Joel took off the jacket, climbing on the mattress after you, finding your hip somewhere under the blanket, pulling closer to your back.

"Ugh, I'm mad at you, let me sleep." - You mumbled a bit angrily, trying to take his palm off of you. But he didn't give up after that, gently kissing the back of your neck. smoothing your lower back. - "Hey, I told you to leave me be. What are you after?" - You turned your face to look at him, obviously being still half-asleep. Joel just smiled, kissing your shoulder dressed in a t-shirt.

"I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry." - The man whispered, putting his palm on your outer thigh, drawing small circles there, kissing your shoulder again when he ended the sentence. - "That you were right." - Joel continued and did the same thing again. - "That I had no idea about what happened with your family. And that I was acting like a fucking asshole. Again." - After that, he left his nose inside the fabric of your t-shirt, watching your face with these dark eyes of his.

There was a small moment of silence when he was just rubbing your thigh to relax you a bit. When you were done with thinking, you shook your head, turning your head away from him. - "This could so wait until the morning, Miller." - You mumbled, putting your head on the pillow under you, now at least holding his palm on your thigh. The apology seemed to be accepted. So it was time for Joel to continue to encourage your patience with him.

"I don't think it would wait until the morning." - The man whispered, gently biting the top of your shoulder while his hand gently palmed your ass, skillfully slipping under your shorts.

It was three in the fucking morning and this man just wanted to apologize in the best way he could. Yet for you, it was three in the morning and all you wanted to do was to fucking sleep.

"Joel, this can wait, come on." - You tried to wiggle out, yet he was quicker and disappeared under the blanket in the next moment. And his arguments in form of gentle kissed on both your inner thighs and his palms gently tugging the t-shirt above your boobs were making you convinced that you want it too actually and that it really couldn't wait until the morning.

To see the man between your legs, you pulled the blanket off of him, raising yourself on your elbows. Having you cooperate in such a way made Joel chuckle with small devilish shining in his eyes. Without another word, you let Joel take off the shorts while rising your ass into the air.

As soon as he dived in, you had to say that he was utterly right. This couldn't wait until the morning.

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Prom Nights- J-HopexReader

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"Baby, are you ready? Hobi's here!" Mom yelled. Hobi is your boyfriend of six years. We've been together since 6th grade, now we're in 12th grade.  He wore a monochromatic crimson red tux and black Vans.

You gathered up your dress in hand and walked down the stairs.  Everyone was in awe. You walked down the staircase gracefully in these painfully beautiful heels with a smile on your face.  When you got down you hugged your boyfriend he pecked your cheek and whispered in your ear,  "You look stunning, as always." He smirked then released me.  You blushed slightly at his words.

"Y/n, look amazing." Dad says patting your back as he hugs you tight.  

"I always look good.  What you mean?" You joked.  We all laughed and headed to the car for pictures.

You and Hobi sat in the back of the car talking about what kind of poses we should do.  

"How about this y/n?" He asked posing his hands as guns and looked at me his lips seductively smoldering.

"Very James Bond. I like it." You said mirroring him then we laughed.  We finally arrived to a semi-crowded park and got out.  

Mom started to take pictures of us being cute and couple like.  In one pic, we kissed each other.  Dad was a lil uncomfortable, so we didn't do that for long.  Then we both looked at the pictures in the car.  He held your hands in the car ride to the dance.

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At the dance the music was loud and so many people.  Hoseok took your arm in his and walked in.  We gave them our tickets then headed towards the photo booth.  Hobi's signature heart smile shone brightly as he held your waist, posing.  His hands didn't  leave their spot when we left the photo booth.  We headed towards the tables of food and drinks.

"Hey y/n, do you want some punch or something to drink? eat?" Hoseok asked you grabbing a couple of cups.

"mmm... Fruit punch is fine.  What do you wanna eat?" You asked as he filled both cups of punch.

"You, later." He smirked.  You slapped his arm.  "Of course, if you don't mind." He added. You rolled your eyes.

"Ha, you're funny. We'll share a bag of white Cheddar Cheeto puffs." You said heading to a random empty table and sat our stuff down.

"I'm just saying... It's not like I haven't seen you naked before.  So why not smash tonight?" He laughed putting an arm around your shoulder.  You slapped his chest playfully and replied.

"Because, it's cliché for people to fuck after prom night.  Plus, we're not even virgins." You said taking a sip of juice.

"Ah, I see.  I respect that." He snickered. He brushed his light brown hair out of his face and sighed.  "Y/n do wanna dance?"

"Yeah, did you think we were gonna sit here all night long? Took you long enough." You hit his arm playfully and headed to the dance floor.  The DJ's played some songs for slow dancing.  He held your body close to his as you danced together.  His hands found your waist once again and you lay your hands on his shoulders. We stopped slow dancing when the music changed to pop.  Some of the songs that were playing, were songs that you listened to from your childhood.  

Right now they're playing 'Pop lock and drop it' by Huey.

"Omo! I love this song!" He screamed dancing to the song perfectly.  You couldn't ever dance as good as he does but at least you tried to follow his steps.  People started to crowd around us which made you a little uncomfortable.  So you stopped dancing and headed toward the table with your stuff.  You ate the rest of the Cheetos in the bag until the song was over.  Hobi must've figured you were gone so he headed towards the table to see If you were there.  

"Hey, y/n why did you leave? You alright?" He asked crouching to your height, putting one hand on your chin for you to look at him, the other hand on your thigh.  

"No I'm not okay, lets go outside, I need some air."  You chocked.  Tears started to form in your eyes.  You closed them to prevent them to leak out. Hoseok just nodded at held my arm as we headed out of the crowded room.  

Outside we stayed silent for a while until you said something. He embraced you In a hug, his hands snaked to your ass squeezing lightly.  It's calming when he does this, but also turns you on so you let him.  

"I had to get away from the dance floor, too crowded." You said.  

"It's not my fault that I can dance better than most in there."  He laughed, trying to lighten the mood.

"I'm just..." You started but couldn't find the words that you wanted to say due to the many thoughts racing in your head at the moment.

"Just what, Precious?" He said in a low, hushed, and calming tone.  

"I just don't understand why such a talented, kind, and attractive man like you would ever want me?  I'm just loud, nerdy n' annoying." You hung my head low.  Trying really hard to not cry and ruin my makeup.  

"Nonono precious, you're not annoying.  Yeah sure you can be loud at times and it's kinda cute when you fangirl because of things you like.  You're comfortable enough with me to screech like a dinosaur."  You hit his chest playfully and smiled lightly. "And to be honest, I look like a horse so I'm not that attractive.  I wonder why a beautiful, funny, and passionate person is dating me?"

"Yes you do look like a horse, but a hot horse. Though that's not the most attractive part about you, it's you're personality."

"Aww, precious... I love you." He kissed me passionately.  You kissed back not caring if there's cameras or if your lipstick was getting messed up.  His hands squeezed your ass harshly.  You hung your hands around his neck.  We stood there kissing for approximately five minutes until we ran out of breath.

"You feel any better?" He smirked.  Bright red lipstick smudged all over his mouth, you laughed at the sight.

"Better." You pecked his lips one last time before heading into the bathroom to clean up.  Minutes later we headed back in and danced the night away.

When the party's over mom picked us up. She said that dad's hip was hurting bad.

"Mrs. F/l/n, do you think I could spend the night? I asked my parents and they said it was alright." Hobi said.  You lied your head on his shoulder.  He pecked your head and put his arm around you.

"That's fine with me. But do we need to swing around you're place to grab some clothes?" Mom asked.

"That would be great cuz I don't think sleeping in this would be comfy." Hobi giggled.

Hobi smells like pears, sweet and delicate. Which is ironic cause I smell wretched from all of that dancing in these stupidly painful, beautiful heels. That's why you're rubbing the balls of your feet right now.

We drove to Hoseok's apartment. He came out with a duffle bag on his shoulder and he changed into a white tee and pink bunny PJ pants wearing a black beanie.

'Cute' You thought.

"I have to put my night n' morning face washes and creams somewhere." Hobi said showing off his bright heart smile.

When we got home we watched some movies in your room after I changed into my white silk night gown.  Then got ready for bed after a couple of movies.  For the rest of the night we kissed and cuddled each other.  He whispered 'I love you ' between sweet and soft lingering kisses.

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The Rock angel shines; Queen x reader

Hello people and beyond. Well like I promised here is the first part of my Rock Angel series.  So for those who have asked to be tagged I have you up, let me know if it doesn’t work and I’ll try to fix it as best I can. I hope you all enjoy this and have some warmly big brother feels with this chapter. Not really any warnings except for some mild swearing, scars (not suicidal but of this triggers you this is a warning for you) and TOOTH ROTTING FLUFF.

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April 20th, 1982

Frank Bough was hosting his Breakfast time interview discussing the next rising star of Britain.

“We first saw her make her big debut at a Queen concert at Madison Square Garden last year and ever since then she’s been recording her first album which will be released at the start of summer. Her biggest single ‘Set it all free’ took her to the charts as the youngest performer at 19 years old. Let’s have a listen.”  What would then play on the television was the newly made music video for “Set it all free”.

(Y/n) was on the guitar in the same attire she wore that day at Madison Square garden, her hair this time was dyed a blood red as the chorus of “Set it all free” was being sung.  As (y/n) would rock out in one shot, in another she was wearing normal clothes trying to escape the confines of what appeared to be a jailcell she would constantly beat against the walls trying to escape but then cry every now and then.

“(Y/n) (l/n) welcome to the show.”

“Oh Frank it’s an honor to be here, how are you?” I asked as I leaned up against the couch and extended my hand out to him.

“I’m doing well and you?” he said as we both shook hands.

“Fine thank you.”

“Well you have truly made a name for yourself, the Rock Angel tell me where did that name come from? Did you come up with it yourself?”

“No I’m terrible at coming up with names” I joked out as I laughed. “It was actually Freddie who came up with the name Rock Angel. Back when I was helping them and when I told them that I had written songs and played music he’d always just call me their little ‘Rock Angel’.”

“Now when you say, ‘work for them’, how do you mean?”

“I was an intern for Jim Beach.”

“Oh really?”

“Yeah. At the time he was asking for interns at my University and I was one of probably hundreds of other young kids to apply and by some miracle I was picked and the rest is history.”

“Now on your album ‘Set it all free’ you also include Queen on a couple of your tracks. Is that because of your history with them?”

“I love my boys so much. When it was fully announced that I was to make my first full length album after my single was released, they were so supportive and happy for me. And actually it’s a sweet story, I was recording my album at Rockfield studios, the same place where they recorded their hit Bohemian Rhapsody as well as the rest of their Night at the Opera album. And while I was recording they just suddenly popped in for a visit…..”

*November 11th, 1981*

I have been here at Rockfield studios for the past six weeks now recording my first album ‘Set it all Free’. Now I began to understand why Fred said they needed to be away from all distractions to record A Night at the Opera, because out here with all the country side, the fresh air, never have I felt such creativity flow through me.

I mean sure I’ve hit a couple of speedbumps and obstacles when it came to some songs but after feeding the chickens and riding the horses, I would suddenly get inspired.

I was currently in the studio now doing my latest song that I’ve titled “Who I am”.  I had completed the guitar and vocal portion of my song and now I was recording the drums.

Now I know what you’re thinking? Why are you doing all the work? Why hasn’t a band come in and help you with the percussions?  Well the answer to that is because of the sudden reservation I had made with it being the autumn season now, no one wanted to risk driving along the roads to the studio so living at the studio is just me, Mack and a couple handlers just to keep an eye on me.

Using the lessons that Rog has given me, I twirled my sticks and began doing the rhythm I had in mind.  After the first half of the song was done, I stopped and flexed my hands and I said.

“How’d it sound Mack?”

“Come out and have a listen.” I took off my headphones and left the booth as Mack played the first half of the song back to me.  I bopped my head up and down as my voice came up for a brief moment before I heard the strum of my guitar.  The whole song so far sounded good and I said.

“Sweet, okay play it from the second verse.” He gave me a thumbs up and I went back into the recording booth and quickly put the headphones back on and as I gave him the signal that I was ready, I began the next verse of the songs for the drums.

We kept going with the song until it was perfect and as I had Mack play back to me the entire song, I got goosebumps all up along my arms and shivers up my spine.  I did a successful ‘Deacy’ dance as I was happy for the song.

“Love it, I fuckin love it!” I praised.

“Sounds good love, why don’t you take a break now love?”

“Mack my deadline is fast approaching and I still got three songs to do, plus one of my songs that’s already been recorded is still missing something. I can’t afford a break.”

“But you’ve been hard at it for the past week with no break love, if you don’t slow down your fingers will bleed out and your arms will pop out.”

“I’m fine Mack.”

“Doesn’t sound like it love,” I froze right there in my spot. Mack looked just as surprised as I was, when I turned around there stood my boys.

Freddie, Brian, Roger and John.

“Oh my god….what—what are you lot doing here?”

“Well we heard our little Rock Angel would be here, so we’d thought we’d check on her to see just how her first big album is coming along.”

“And it’s a good thing we did, cause from what we just heard, you’ve been over working yourself, haven’t you love?” Brian asked using is dad voice.

“No” I said shamefully kicking my foot around as I avoided looking at them.

“Then let us see your hands.” John stated using his dad voice.

Damnit.  Now I knew there was no escaping this lie this time.  Truthfully my hands were heavily imprinted with both base and normal guitar strings, and my palms were scarred and cracked from the drumsticks.

“(Y/n) (l/n) show us your hands” demanded Roger.  I sighed and held them out palms down.  Both Roger and Bri took my hands and flipped them over and they were all horrified at how extreme they were.

“Love do you know how serious this could’ve been?” stated John.

“Based on these string imprints, any longer and you could’ve damaged a nerve allowing you to not be able to feel a note again.” Brian answered.

“And your palms, you’re lucky these scars don’t need stitches, not to mention they are as dry as the desert.” Hearing the boys say this made me rethink a little bit on how strict I’ve been to keeping my schedule.

“I’m sorry guys. It’s just that—my deadline is in a couple of weeks and with it just being me and no one else willing to travel this far up north during this time I….I had to work three times as hard as I am just a soloist and I didn’t just want my songs to be recorded separately from what I’ve already delivered through singing. You guys get what I’m saying right?” They all looked at me and Deacy said.

“We do love, but we also understand when we need to step away and not strain ourselves to the point of almost losing the limbs that need to be required in order to play them.”

“And don’t take offense to this darling but you look like shit at the moment.” Freddie stated.

“Oh gee thanks Fred.” I sassed sarcastically.

“What Freddie means is that you look so exhausted. When was the last time you had a proper sleep?”

“I’ve tried to get my daily 8 hours but so far I haven’t.”

“And what about a decent meal?”

“I had a big breakfast earlier this morning before we started recording.”

“But that was hours ago.” Mack piped in. I turned and glared at him but he explained to the guys, “In fact that usually all you would eat minus a piece of fruit, a granola bar or some water to stay hydrated.”

“Thank you Mack” I sneered at him.

“Alright. (Y/n) you need to take the rest of today plus tomorrow off, you are running yourself ragged at this point. You need a proper meal, some rest, and all the pampering you deserve.” Roger said.  One look at these boys and I knew I wasn’t going to win. So I gave in and told them.

“Alright, I fold. Take me away.” I was then taken out of the studio picked up bridal style by Roger and taken back towards my room.

John unfolded the sheets from my bed and Roger put me in and John tucked me back in.

“Anything in particular you would like me to cook up?” Roger asked.

“I’ve been kinda craving for Tikka Masala. But you don’t have to make it if you don’t want to.”

“Nonsense, I’ll get right on it.” He kissed my head before leaving my bedroom.  Deacy came back with a first aid kit and he said to me.

“Okay give me one of your hands, love.” I handed him my right one since it was closer to him.  He took out the rubbing alcohol and some cotton swabs and he began to lightly dab around my palms which made me wince in pain.  “Sorry.”

“It’s okay, not your fault. It’s mine. You all were right, I’ve been overworking myself.”

“You have such dedication poppet, that’s the first thing that I noticed about you. But it is always best to take a break. You’re already a star to us and to the world. And you always will be, don’t let the pressures and stress of this business affect you, otherwise we’ll lose our Rock Angel forever.” I looked up at John and nodded.

He paused his doctoring and looked straight in my eyes and softly smiled before leaning forward and pressing his forehead against mine. I smiled softly as his nose bumped up against mine in an Eskimo kiss before he kissed it and went back to doctoring my hands.

Once they were bandaged up John adjusted my pillows and soon Brian came up and he said.

“How are things up here?”

“Well I’m officially the mummy’s wife” I joked as I raised up my bandaged palms.  The two of them chuckled then Brian came in and he sat down beside me as he handed me a cuppa of Jasmine tea.

“Your favorite, just how you like it.”

“Thanks Bri,” I took the mug and took a small sip and hummed in content.

“Dinner is served madam.” Freddie gestured as Roger came in with a tray with my meal, plus a plate of cracker, and some ham and cheese sandwiches.

“You guys really did go the full yard of pampering.” I said as the tray was sat down in front of me.

“All the best for our little angel.” Freddie said as he gingerly took one of my hands and kissed my fingers, his tache lightly tickling them. I then began eating my masala and my taste buds had died and gone to heaven.

“Oh my god, Rog this is…..this is incredible.”

“Thank you darling, of course I had help from Fred here.” I thanked them both and continued eating.  I would occasionally dip the crackers into the masala for a little kick.  I then moved to the sandwiches before finally feeling so full I felt like I was going to burst.

“Ohh that was so good,” Brian gathered my now empty tea mug and placed it on top of the tray and he took it back down to the kitchen.

Once he came back, I noticed he had actually brought up one of the acoustic guitars.  Probably the one I may have left in the kitchen one time just to practice my chords and experiment with a song.

“Alright now that that belly of yours is full, its time you got some sleep.” Freddie said.  Brian strummed on the guitar and I said.

“You guys are gonna sing me to sleep?”

“What better way, with the way your little brain has been buzzing lately, it needs a sedative. Allow us to be that sedative you need.” Brian then began to play notes to “Love of my Life”.  Even without a piano, it still sounded just as beautiful as Freddie began to sing the song.

I adjusted myself to lay down on the bed as Fred kept singing the song and soon the rest of the guys joined in on the backup vocals.  Their voices harmonizing so beautiful which soothed my mind and I began to relax and shut my eyes.

“The next day after just hanging around the farm, in thanks for all that they’ve done I asked them if they’d be interested in being featured in my album, at first they were hesitant but I managed to convince them and so we got to recording once my hands were better of course. And as for the song I had a problem with, it was fixed up when I decided to make one version of the song just me singing, and then the same song featuring Queen, which to be honest I prefer the latter’s version.”

“So what’s up next for you?”

“Well I’m gonna take a summer vacation but then get ready for my first ever European tour.”

“Well, all the best of luck to you. (Y/n) (l/n)’s album hits the shelves this summer and you can catch her up in her upcoming tour. We’ll be right back after these messages.” With that we went off the air.

After my interview I was back at my flat and collapsed into my couch after having to wake up at 4am just to get to the station and get ready for that interview.  Just before I went back to sleep, my phone rang and I groaned as I answered it.

“Hello.”

‘We saw your first television debut love.’ I heard Brian’s voice say on the other end.

“Did I screw up?”

‘You were perfect darling, and the press won’t hold anything against you. Well done love.’ I heard Roger’s voice say.

“Thanks lads, well I’m bloody exhausted these past few months have been brutal, I’m getting some sleep and sleeping until supper time.”

‘Alright love, you deserve the rest. Rog and I will pop in on you later to make sure you aren’t oversleeping too much.’

“Okay, good day guys.”

‘Sleep well love.’ I heard them both say. With that I hung up the phone and fell right asleep there on my couch.

[officialleehadan]

Masterlist 09/02/2018

Hello Darlings, here is the updated masterlist as of 09/01/18

If you want to blacklist these posts, which will update every other week or so, the tag is Lee Hadan Masterlist

All the stories here are arranged by series, and the stories are arranged chronologically within their series. If there’s only one story in a series, I already have continuations written (or planned) and more will be coming soon!

EDIT: There seems to be some technical stuff going on, on Tumblr’s end, because the links here are not posting up on the Desktop version of Tumblr. I’ve already submitted a report about it, but if you’re having trouble seeing links on this post, that would be why.

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Goblin Armor

There has never been much in way of peace between the Faerie Realm, and  the Shadow Wold of the Goblins. Generations of hostility and mistrust  will do that. Still, for two generations, the border has been quiet, and the fearsom Goblins hidden away deep in their dark forest. Until now.  With the Goblins on the march, and Princess Snowbell’s king-father  flying to meet them, it is all Snow can do to keep her family, and her  Realm, from falling to treason, and murder. 

Return Again

I thought my father was normal. The kind of dad who deals with work, and homework, and the troubles that come with being a single father to a   seventeen-year-old girl. I didn’t know he went to a different world when he was a teenager. I didn’t know he was the Chosen One of a magic   sword. I didn’t know he saved a whole kingdom, maybe their world, before he was twenty. That was thirty years ago. Now they need him back, and   I’m going with him.

The Idol of Astre: ($2 a month on Patreon)

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

The Unsettled:

Handful of Salt

Critter Jar

Appropriate use of Craft Glitter

Unafraid

The Ghosts of Pinewood Estate (Patreon-Only!)

This Old House:

Experienced Home-Buying

Living Negotiation (Patreon-Only!)

White Roses and Deck Railings 

Twins Together:

Brothers Apart

Sanctuary Always

Twins in Crime

Twinning Disagreements

Bond of Brothers

One Mind, Two Heads (Patreon Only!)

Deities and Demigods:

Boredom

Inconvenienced

Luck’s Chosen

Golden Apples

Brewer’s Glass (Patreon-Only!)

Apocalypse:

Come Again Another Day

Invasion from Below

War-Beasts

Four Horses

Four Horsemen

Horsemen Four

Mercy Mercy Mercy

To Save a Bird

Together Time (Patreon-Only!)

Breaking Waves:

After the Storm

Winter Wind

Storm At Sea

Uncollected Faeries:

Faerie Ring

Glitter Poo

Skitter

Wine-Dark

The End of Indian Summer

Purple Handed

At the Sign of the Silver Rose:

Cold Iron Buckshot

Troll Market

Selkie Skin:

Seal Coat

Over the Sea (Patreon-Only!)

Uncollected Dragons:

Exploration by Wing

Iced White Wine

Mine to Hoard

Hoard of Memories

Uncollected Witches:

Best Served Cold

Casual Friday

Exotic Components

One Eye on the Other Side

Spelled Cooking

Thyme can Heal

The Lightning Witch:

Static Charge

First Strike

Black Lightning on the Horizon

Storm Breaking

Copper Pipes

Crash Down

Husband to the Queen

When the Wolf Star Rises

Treebrothers:

Snow Elf

Wild Roses and Birdsong

Bare-Handed

Spider-Eating Elves:

Beauty is in the Eye of the Beholder

Introductory Trouble

Lady of Grace

Lady of Stone, and her Girlfriend

Lady Retrieved

Monsters on the Wing

Spiderwebs and Cookies

Royal Match

Lines in the Sand

Worldbuilding Essays:

Blood Magic

Elf Forest

Green Magic

Forge Magic

Thread Magic

Dragons

Light and Dark Magic

13 Moons

Frost Moon

Blue Moon

Jasmine Moon

HGE - Human/Alien Relations

Get That OUT of Your Mouth

Medical Attention

Claws

Ingenuity

War and Peace

Echo-Folk

HGE - Invasions

Invasion Denied

Blood Will Tell (What Waits in the Dark)

No Moon

HGE - The Others

Through Shattered Glass

Sea and Sky

HGE - Mismatched

Death Valley Sand

HGE - Conflagration

Fire District

HGE - Smoke before Fire

The Legend, The Rumor

Deep Water and Scales

Black Scales and Open Spaces

Screams in the Dark

Warning Lights

Into the Wild

Nobility and Flames

Packmates

HGE - The Maw

Back Room Handshakes

New Understandings

Poker Face

Brassy Secrets

HGE - Learn to Fly, Learn to Breathe:

Red Sun

Red Baron

Red Prince

Red Sky

Stone and Intuition:

Pack Hunters

Attack Droids

Dragon Bones

Dream of a Desk Job

BulbasaurBot

Explosive Foolishness

Inferno Grenades

Married Life

The Hand of Bone:

Death’s Kiss

Death’s Glow

Supers Beyond

Card Shark

Heroic Rescue

Housekeeping Before Villainy

Jet Fuel

Lobster Bisque

Opposing Elements:

Cold Front

Elemental

Reality at Will

Altering Reality

Reality Bent

The Pen is Mightier

Will of Fire

Chinese Pepper

Firepower

A Moment’s Peace

Burnout

Doctor Rimeheart (Supervillain Coffee Shop)

Handicapped

Power Rests in the Eye

Nuclear Option

Incidental Villain

Second in Command

Cut a Deal

First Summon

Even Supervillains run from Fangirls

The Blackest Coffee

Deal with the Devil

Opportunity for Advancement

Fear and Coffeegrounds

Personal Space

Broken Countertops

Christmas Cookies

Revealed

Wannabe Wannabes

Home Life

Shadows Unleashed

Old Villains (Patreon-Only!)

Higher Being Housemates

Bright Red Panties

Black and White Feathers

Demonic Comfort

Demonic Intervention

Unwanted Attention

Magpie Wings

Don’t Fall

Sparklers and Demon Smiles

Holy Words

Uncollected Demons:

Accidental Oops

Bloody Mirror

Brimstone Portal

Burn My Body and Bury Me Deep

Holy Protestation

On Repeat

The Gunsmith

The Wrong Victim

Over the Edge

Sinners

Seven Sins

House of Demons

A Deal Once Made:

You Scratch my Back

Contract Lawyer:

Blue Frosting

Fine Print

Uncollected:

Awaken History

Command.Awaken

Isle of Monsters

One Punch Man

Stonebreaker Caldera

Hot Potato, Hot Potato

Vigilante Vampire  

Crawlspace

Blood on the Walls

Between Us Girls:

Surprises Abroad

Uncollected Fantasy:

Below the Fog

Glitter Bold

God-Touched Tide

Into the Darkness

Turn Me

Wolf Moon

Blood Moon

Hallowed Halls Memorial

A Kiss to Heal a Broken Heart

Cursebroken

Nothing but Trouble

Build a House of Paper

Unspoken Words

Imagine Reality (Patreon-Only)

The Mistlands:

Foolhardy Errand

Letters Sent

Desert Glass:

Spellborn Lost

Smoked Glass

Books and Shared Experiences

Burned and Blasted

The Rise to Power:

Behind Closed Doors

Two Minds as One

Political Assassination

Gates Torn Down

Heaven’s Gates

Counter-Code:

Code for Magic

99 Shiny New Bugs

Blood Magic:

Blood Fire

At the Last Moment

Healing Touch                                                                                            

Unbound, Unbroken

Student Discovered

Claimed as Ours

Never Free:

Round and Round Again

Mistaken Step

Spinning Wheel

Stronger Together

Tea and History

Girl Talk

Golden Scales:

Tigerfish

Riverside

Blood and Passion:

White Marble

First Negotiation

Blood Summit

Blood Claim

CovenHold

Wolf Club

Blood-Traitor

Slow Burn:

About-Face

Dancing Lessons

Guiding Stars:

Procyon Moon

Altair Chariot

Vega Dignity

Secondhand Souls:

Partnership of Flames

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[alien-fanbitch]

Okay, so I have had the best! weekend! ever!

Parts of it you would've seen from my good friend Milo (@milomeepit) but I figured I'd tell you my experience of this weekend just passed!

Okay, I got to go to ComicCon! And it was amazing! I had so much fun!

- I made new friends

- Got to see so many people dressed up in different outfits!

- Got to meet Katherine McNamara! Oh my God! I just about died! It was incredible! And she loved my name! I was dying! I was speaking so fast and fangirling hard! She was so nice and sweet about it too! (She signed a photo for me! Best $40 ever! I will cherish it forever!)

- Played Just Dance with my Patton, had it videoed, which you can check out on Milo's blog (I was Logan and I was too concentrated on the game to dab!)

- Saw a friend I hadn't seen in years! It was great!

- Then Milo and I played on a VR horse, fighting off zombies. I may have freaked out and hit my back on the edge of the platform thing (someone said I was a mood so it was worth it! 😂)

- Got to see Katherine McNamara's panel (after going to first aid, I'm all good, just sore)

- Got to hear Milo say that they were so gay! (Yes you are friendo! 😂)

- Also Katherine McNamara is from Shadowhunters, the show. Also some other stuff but I only know her from Shadowhunters.

- Took some photos with some cosplayers

Then Milo and I decided that we would leave, in order to get food and hang out together which was great!

- We got burgers and chips

- Then decided we would go walk around for awhile, which just turned into us chilling by the water, which was great!

- Then we thought that they had to leave which was pretty freaking sad because I didn't want them to leave yet!

- They missed their train

But PLOT TWIST!

- It turned out they didn't have to go to work the next day so we hung out all night! And although we didn't sleep, I don't regret a second of it

- We sung

- We were being all cute holding hands

- We got slushies and watched YouTube together while sitting on a bench!

- We danced together under a bridge while playing a certain song that I got to pick

- We got a coffee as by then we were almost out of money

- I broke an automatic door! 😂 It was really slow okay?! 😂

Helped out a drunk woman, more specifically getting her into the casino. It helps to have a "bumbling idiot friend" and a "I'm wearing a white and pink onesie while drinking a slushie friend" I didn't even get a chance to get my id out and I got the attention of two security! Good stuff!

- We walked around the streets looking for adventure

- Made inside jokes

- Watched Shadowhunters (as in I got Milo to watch it and I got to watch it from the start again)

- We spoke about deep stuff

- Were being silly together

- And just had the best time ever

I just can't wait to do it all over again!

Of course, I'm not sure about the staying out in the city all night part, although that was super fun but I would 100% do all of it again.

[anxiety-trademark]

The week in review:

Raw 10/19 NXT 10/21 NXT UK 10/22 Smackdown 10/23 Hell in a Cell 10/25

Raw:

I’m here to give Alexa credit once more for making me give a shit about the Fiend. I do like his entrance, especially without a live crowd.

What a visual... them standing together hand in hand.

I love that they kept the monitors set on the graphics for this segment. No offense to the audience, but seeing them would’ve ruined this.

Amazing transition from Fiend and Alexa to the next segment/match. Major points.

Still a vicious elimination to Lacey by Natalya.

I intend to take this title match as seriously as wwe has - not within a football field of giving a shit. I know how this entire angle ends anyway (preemptive welcome back, Queen) but let’s watch it through. See how this face turn worked out for Lana.

Asuka really is insanely fast, I’ll give her that.

Great rollup attempt by Lana (shades of Nattie/Alexa), great counter by Asuka into the Asuka Lock, and great job to Lana for grabbing the ropes. Points.

I’m sure this is all rehearsed, but Lana obviously puts in the work. Do I think she’ll ever be a singles champion? Absolutely not, but at least she isn’t complacent.

Is it the tables? Is that what led to Lana turning face?

This was good for Asuka. This was good booking. She didn’t look like a chump giving Lana offense, and she looked both strong and smart post-match. Solid.

By that logic, ShaNia owns NXT’s division as well. Just saying.

Really wish they’d nix the “Mandy” intro.

Stop I never wanna hear Peyton’s theme again, plz.

So they really never did explain why Peyton and Lacey became a thing? Mk. They seem like genuine friends, it’s just too bad they aren’t a compelling tag team in the ring. Would much rather watch Sexy Muscle Friends, ngl.

Hi I like Riott Squad and have no problems with them theoretically being in this match, but why the fuck are they still here lmao. Go to SD.

This better get longer than 10 mins, there are way too many women here for y’all to rob them of time.

It’s nice to see more women give a shit about tag team wrestling/becoming a cohesive unit.

Lacey just cuz you can do a moonsault off the apron, doesn’t mean you should. That was dicey. Fine, but dicey. There’s a reason Charlotte goes up to the top turnbuckle when she does it to the outside (not that I’m suggesting that incredibly high risk spot but I’m js)

Wish Lacey wasn’t so wooden. Wish she was more trusting and flexible like Charlotte.

I’d bet anything Mandy and Dana actually could suplex Nia. Let them try.

Good break up by Shayna. Protect Dana and Mandy’s finisher. Also that was a WICKED knee strike by Mandy.

Everyone’s gonna get a move in now huh. Le sigh.

NICE interrupt again by Shayna, girl with the good timing.

Fair ending. How long was that? 5 mins to the second lmao. Mk, wwe. Mk.

Welp Alexa is officially on Firefly funhouse. Good. Now we get to blur some lines and have a bit more fun with her character.

Highlight: Asuka looking like a dominant champ without squashing Lana

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NXT:

Rhea Ripley #1 in nxt, these are the facts. She’s literally gone through them all. Throw her up to the MR, lesgo.

Watching her handle Charlotte and Piper is so impressive. Beast.

“Gone against Bianca Belair and Shayna Baszler,” so got squashed by Bianca and Shayna lmao. Hey, everyone’s got a role I guess. I remember when Alexa was enhancement talent that did a 450 splash and blew glitter all over the stage.

I don’t understand how Ember was wiped out after doing a mere roll off the ropes. It seems like a work since Jessi didn’t react and continued on as if she scored some offense (she didn’t) but that was a nasty landing on Ember’s lower back. Weird.

One count off an uppercut bahahaha

“You done messed up now,” Ember exclaims, after flipping off a fucking snapmare. I liked her better when she had no personality and just wrestled amazingly.

Is Ember a heel now? She’s acting like a heel. Why is she doing submissions? Why is she talking so much trash? Why is she so arrogant? Not a fan.

A springboard back elbow drop? Intriguing, Jessi. Intriguing. Points.

Jessi was too quick for Ember’s (now slow) setup into her codebreaker out of the corner. I’m gonna watch Charlotte vs Ember from 2019 after this, Ember was a lot quicker and cleaner - also cuz I miss Charlotte.

Yeahhh Ember used Jessi’s hair to pull her head back so she could do a crossface. She’s either a garbage babyface, or a heel.

Welp Dakota just turned babyface. Jeeze she be looking fine too. 10 points.

Dakota should be mad. She bumps like a motherfucker for every person she faces, and she made Ember’s botchy moves look amazing. Sucks she had such a stinker against Io, but there’s no way Ember should be rated higher than Dakota rn.

Interesting to note that Dakota came out on her own, as opposed to bringing - or even sending - Raquel.

Why does Xia have to win? Is there a kf contract that’s riding on her victory? Why is a random ass match against Kacy the biggest match of her career lol

Also this interviewer is gorgeous. Eyebrows on fleek, beautiful eyes and flawless hair.

*The Garganos prepare to Spin the Wheel* No.

Love Kacy’s speed. Always a joy to watch in the midcard.

Oh holy shit Kacy won, I did not see that coming. Where we going with this Xia stuff?

Xia gonna single handedly wreck both Kacy and Kayden?

WHY IS RAQUEL OUT HERE? What the fuck did Kacy and Kayden do to Raquel lmaooo

Commentator said Raquel sees Rhea Ripley in everyone she looks at. I say that’s the weakest explanation ever. Y’all just trying to find any reason to give her screen time, and this ain’t it.

“She’s sending a message to Ripley,” RHEA DON’T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THESE BITCHES. Also she’s like 3x the size of all of them lmao what?

“And next week? At Halloween? Havoc?” Girl stay backstage with your promos.

I don’t know wtf the wheel is, but I absolutely loved that segment with Io.

She’s such a special attraction to me. I miss her when she’s not on, and she’s so under saturated that I never get tired of seeing her. 

Highlight: Segment with Io

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NXT UK:

Man I really like Nina’s theme song.

After seeing last week’s fucking wrist lock marathon, this aggression is such a breath of fresh air. Not really much of a match, as it a brawl... but that’s perfectly fine lol.

Ahh Nina’s a runner? Interesting, I wouldn’t have guessed that.

Not a fan of Amale’s boots with her gear. Pressing stuff, I know.

Lol thought Nina was about to do a dis-arm-her. Man, I miss Becky.

Nina is a bit awkward with her transitions, I’m noticing.

Beautiful landing of the back body drop by Nina. Practically a swan dive.

Amale did such a lackadaisical pin attempt, and then could barely muster the strength to kick out of one. Ma’am isn’t the worst, but with as green as she is, she should be limited to 3 min sprints.

Seems to be a popular complaint I have with UK, they get gassed insanely easy. wwe needs to build a pc over there or something.

Final Act is a really weak finisher, but considering the speed, I will give points for the way Nina holds her opponent’s neck forward. We like to see performers protecting their partners from getting whiplash.

Love Nina’s voice. Love her whole shtick tbh.

She wants Piper? *sigh* okay. Should’ve just done a tournament to determine KLR’s next opponent, but whatever.

Highlight: Nina’s backstage interview

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Smackdown:

lmfao Bianca’s reaction to being slapped. Ahhhh she’s funny.

Jeeze fucking tossed Zelina across the ring.

oof that speed by Bianca after flipping out of the hurricanrana. Whew.

Bianca straight threw Zelina into the air just to punch her in the throat lmao.

So this match was literally just “watch [Bianca] shine now” aye rep those lyrics, girl.

Confession: sometimes I fangirl over Bayley’s demeanor. She got BDE and you know what? Good for her, good for her.

Points for the chair, Bayley.

“[Sasha is] an ungrateful brat” you know... kind of accurate.

Tbf Bayley, Sasha’s name kind of is bigger than your title, cuz she’s kept herself as an A+ superstar for like 4 years without holding gold. That deserves respect and recognition. That’s a woman keeping solely her name relevant without even being champion. Now in all fairness, I think all 4 of the horsewomen are up to that standing now, but let’s give credit where it’s due.

Sasha deserves to be champion in a meta sense, this is a fact, but man her character is so unlikeable. Like Bayley is a coward and an absolute tool but she still comes off as more genuine. A face turn for Bayley will be so easy. Not asking y’all to rush it wwe, but I’m just saying.

“Just give me the title back and we’ll talk about it,” Bayley says, as if she won’t grab that shit and bolt out of the arena.

Oh that was such a good set up to the spot with Bayley caught upright in the chair. I saw that screenshot months ago, but watching it be set up makes it so much better.

Ma’am I feel like being physically forced and coerced into signing a contract automatically makes it null and void, but hey this is your universe, what do I know.

Vicious - Bayley falling over with a fucking chair wrapped around her neck. Whew what a bump.

“Go help her Cole” LMFAO legit the last person in the company that would come to Bayley’s aid. Good line, Corey. That was a great promo and segment. Mega points.

Highlight: Go home segment for Bayley & Sasha

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Hell in a Cell:

Kind of a weak video package for this feud, ngl. They didn’t bother with the Raw women’s championship, didn’t bother with 2019, Raw 2016/2017, nxt... Closest we got were a couple 2 second clips/screenshots.

By definition, this feud has to be one of the biggest disappointments in recent memory. It had the potential to blow Becky/Charlotte out of the water, and didn’t even enter the same stratosphere. Shame. This is a perfectly fine feud in a vacuum... until you remember it’s fucking Sasha and Bayley. Okay I’ll stop beating a dead horse. 

If Sasha were a real babyface, she’d drop that awful Snoop remix.

Sasha looks amazing. Love the contrast of Sasha wearing white and Bayley wearing black. Gonna miss Bayley’s old gear though.

Love Bayley spray painting 1-0 on the chair, since we all obsessed over Sasha’s shitty record ahead of this match lmao.

This feud just never picked up that mountain of tension Becky and Charlotte had at Evolution I’M SORRY.

Why can’t everyone do a headscissors takedown as fast as Sasha can.

Such an innovative way of utilizing a table and the cell to deliver a meteora. POINTS FOR SASHA *applause*

So I like the concept of Sasha rolling under the table and pushing it up into Bayley, but the landing of the table near Sasha’s head made me uneasy. I like the concept of Sasha rotating her body on the apron before jumping straight into a meteora against the cell, but the way she landed against the LED was awkward. The ideas are there though.

Cool watching Sasha jump from the apron to scale the cell, then back to the apron, then jumping over Bayley onto the floor. She’s like a rabbit. I’m underselling this tbh, like 95% of the women in the company can’t do the things Sasha can do.

OOF at Bayley being dropkicked into the steps. What a landing.

At this point, I don’t even want to see a women’s hiac match unless Sasha’s in it, or at the very least has a hand in producing it. Ugh she’d be an amazing match producer, whew.

Ugly landing through the kendo stick onto the steps by Sasha. That’s a spot that would’ve received an audible gasp from a live crowd.

OOF a sunset flip powerbomb into the fucking cell. oof. rip Bayley.

OOF a sunset flip into the fucking chair. oof. rip Sasha.

Positive on Bayley’s botched kendo stick/tape spot: lends credence to how inexperienced Bayley is with handling weapons in kf, and Bayley did a great job vocally improvising - probably earned herself points backstage. A negative: what a disaster of a spot lmfao. Should’ve had it already created and ready to go beneath the ring, or used a broomstick/crutch for the spot instead. Having people handle tape mid match is stupid. Wasn’t Bayley’s fault, but the crowd would’ve shit all over that lesbireal.

If you’re a specified Sasha fan, you’ll probably deem this the greatest match of Sasha’s career, cuz my god did she look amazing in it (and she actually won) but if you’re not, I’ll tell you, they did not do a good job making Bayley shine at the end of her historic reign imo.

Sasha bout to have a breakdown. Good acting.

This match lacks cohesion. Very spotty, but most of the spots are fucking incredible, so it gets a pass.

I like the ladder on the chairs.

Sasha jumping off the set up ladder to do a meteora in the corner was nice. Sasha using a fucking Bayley to Belly onto the ladder was beautiful.

Sasha looking like she wants to cry. Man she’s amazing.

BEAUTIFUL counter out of the Bayley to Belly by Sasha; dropped Bayley into the chair to set up her Bank Statement inside the chair.

Mega points for that single chair being the center of their entire feud, as the rivalry began and ended with that chair. Bravo there.

That’s it, Bayley’s reign is finally over. This match’s review was hella long, but deservedly so. Extremely happy for Sasha. Took her 4 years on the MR giving people banger after banger before wwe trusted her with a legitimate title reign, but we’ve finally made it.

Highlight(s): Both sunset flips by Bayley & Sasha against the chair & cell, respectively

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*hiac blew everything else out of the water by default thanks to Bayley vs Sasha, but both Raw & SD were very enjoyable to me this week as well.

[jilliancares]

do you have any book recs? like real books not phanfic im going on vacation and im needy af for some good literature

yeah tons!

cassie clare’s books:

if you haven’t already read the mortal instruments series by cassie clare then you’re about to have a grand ol time. this is great if you love reading a series and really getting to know characters and becoming so attached to them that you think about them long after you’ve read the books. basically, she has this giant universe and different series that fit into it. there’s the main series, then a prequel one, with the main series’ ancestors, and then a sequel one, happening in the present a few years after the main series. there’s also side books about side characters and more series that she’s planning, and i KNOW it all sounds overwhelming. with any other offer you’d be like ??? beating a dead horse ?? but nope. no. not at all, this horse is very much alive and it’s fucking,, like, not even a horse dude, it’s a unicorn.

it’s these teenagers who are shadowhunters, meaning they kill demons and shit, but they’re like ?? just kids ?? and theres love stories and drama and action and twists and it’s all so great i can’t put my love of it into words

if you want to read this series, here’s what i suggest! read them in the order they were published! this means that you’ll read a few of the main series and then a prequel one, etc. this isn’t mandatory BUT the series kind of spoil each other, which, you know,, spoilers suck. and it’s just awesome when you realize that something that happened in one series influenced the other, or came from the other... if you do do this, read them in this order:

City of BonesCity of AshesCity of GlassClockwork AngelCity of Fallen AngelsClockwork PrinceCity of Lost SoulsClockwork PrincessCity of Heavenly Fire

otherwise just read the whole main series first :] of course you can always ask me if you forget/are confused

rainbow rowell’s books:

rainbow rowell is a literary genius whom i’m in love with. she wrote eleanor and park, fangirl, and carry on, all of which i suggest. fangirl is about this girl who’s,,, a fangirl,, and she writes fanfiction which is like a subplot because mianly there’s this really cute love story between her and this guy. nice! BUT carry on is like the fanfiction she wrote, only rainbow rowell’s take on it. AND it’s gay! actually gay!! i love it so so so much dude it’s,,, it’s,, so good. if you’re just looking for a single book to read i recommend carry on. it’s almost like a parody of harry potter it’s great

jandy nelson:

she wrote i’ll give you the sun and the sky is everywhere. both are great!! i super recommend i’ll give you the sun! there’s a gay love story in it, and it’s just so good. there’s these twins, a girl and a boy, and the girl’s pov is from the present and the boy’s is from three years earlier. it’s so good!! they’re supes close in the past but not anymore and you slowly figure out as events from their chapters line up and you realize everything and it all ties together and is so beautiful and wonderful i cry. there’s these cool little quirks too, i just,, you’ll see if you read it. i don’t remember much about the sky is everywhere except i think the main characters sister just died or something? and then the book starts and she’s all upset you know and she writes poems everywhere [on trash, a park bench, a tree, etc] and it’s cool. also there’s a love story i’m sure haha

sarah dessen:

her books are kind of hit or miss, but my favs of hers are the truth about forever and this lullaby. if you like those and want more come back to me ;] (OH what’s really cool about these books is they’re all in the same town!! sometimes you’ll glimpse a character from another of her books and it’s always like AHHHH WHAT!!! OMFGGG AHH!)

sarah j maas:

another series. not my absolute favorite but maybe only because i’ve only read it once so far and i can’t really remember all the characters/plot until i’ve read it a couple times. i remember really liking it when i was reading it though! if you’re interested i would suggest to start with the throne of glass, first in her series, and see what you think. oh it’s not finished yet though! there’s still like a book left so keep that in mind. (i remember when i was reading these thinking: it gets better with every book omfg!!! there’s characters you don’t even know yet in the first book so!!) she also has a second series just finished, i’ve read the first two if you want to google that bc i can’t remember what it’s called lol

christopher paolini:

the eragon series! i loved this back in like? freshman year i think? generally a p awesome series. you’ve all heard of it, i’m sure. eragon finds a dragon egg and becomes a Rider and gets powers and goes on an adventure and stuff, it’s very fun! i remember thinking the beginning was a bit slow the first time i read it, so if you have trouble getting hooked then maybe not for you. thinking back now i don’t even think it’s too terribly slow soo !

rick riordan:

if you haven’t read percy jackson by now, just do it. it’s so great, i love it to pieces, god(s). it’s hilarious and action packed and wonderful and ,,, i love it please read

stephenie meyer:

umm? didn’t that bitch write twilight? yes. shut up. read the host!!! it’s so good! oh MAN it’s so good! basically aliens have come and taken over the world by invading human bodies, and the humans are fighting back. the main character is an alien, but the person’s body she’s in is still kicking, and they become friends and the alien joins the human resistance it’s tight.

jk rowling:

i expect you all know i love hp so i put it all the way down here just to remind you in case you forgot. if you haven’t read it yet, read it. that’s all i’ll say.

[fierrochase]

my favorite moments from the lightning thief musical: a list

far from comprehensive, because it was all-around amazing :D 

also geez i meant for this to be short?? ok this is the long version and i’ll post an abridged one that’s a bit less wordy in a few

in terms of production value, it reminded me a bit of a starkid musical - there were no fancy special effects, but i liked it that way! it felt homemade almost, like they didn’t try to convince the audience that they weren’t sitting in a theatre watching a show and i appreciate that! brecht would be proud lol (sorry for the lame theatre nerd jokes)

they included blue food!! sally and percy had blue marshmallows at montauk!! on that note, percy and sally’s relationship was absolutely spot-on, it was clear from the start how much he loved her and how much she loved him :’) 

they included the “you drool when you sleep” line boy I nearly cried!! ALSO she said that to him when he was still all dazed from the minotaur attack (a guy with a paper mache head, btw haha) so later when he meets her again when luke introduces her percy saw her and shouted “YOU’RE MY DREAM GIRL! no no wait I mean the girl from my dream!” it made me laugh like a fool and it was sooooo THEM like thank jesus lord, we’ve finally got a GOOD REPRESENTATION OF THESE CHARACTERS!! 

jumping off from that: chris mccarrell as percy was INCREDIBLE. he perfectly encapsulated everything percy should be - his impulsivity, his frustrations with dyslexia/adhd/not doing well in school, his love for his mom, his friendship with grover, his disrespect for authority (i refuse to use the word “sass” in relation to percy but i mean if it was 2013 that’s how i would describe it), his confusion, his bravery, his goofiness - when he picked up his sword for capture the flag he went “COOOOOL” and started making lightsaber noises and i almost teared up a bit i kid you not because I really finally felt like I was seeing Percy up on that stage. also, the boy has some wicked pipes. 

also for reference i’ll try my best to list who all played what part because there were a lot

percy and annabeth were just themselves the whole time, and grover also played mr. d in a few scenes but the rest of the cast played all the different parts

mr. brunner/chiron also played a random aphrodite girl (he wore a wig with long blonde braids skdjhfsjdh), medusa, poseidon, and hades

sally also played silena, the oracle, echidna, and charon 

luke also played smelly gabe and ares

clarisse also played mrs. dodds, katie gardner, a squirrel (to be explained later hah), bianca (also to be explained later), and thalia (also also to be explained later) 

& i’m probably missing a few but those were the major ones! they also played generic students, tourists, etc. 

chiron was really funny, when he revealed himself to be a centaur he sort of just stood up from his wheelchair and was wearing a fake horse tail and he walked everywhere by prancing which was funny

mr. d was ABSOLUTELY HYSTERICAL? as mentioned he was played by the guy who played grover! he was angry and he was loud and he wore this floppy hat and pants pulled up to like his ribcage and he shouted every line and i LOVED IT. a random/unnamed half blood came in and set up a metal chair for him at his table full of paperwork and he kicked it over in rage so she set it up again and he kicked it again later and she ran away and he tried to kick his chair over a third time but it wasn’t there so he went and picked it up just to kick it over again. ALSO HE CALLED PERCY PETER JOHNSON GOD BLESS THE WRITERS!!

also i’m giving them a thumbs up for diversity!! luke and sally were both african american and grover was latino!! it was nice!!

annabeth did call percy out for assuming her dad was the god, like i think that convo was almost word for word from the book AMAZING

also her crush on luke was super obvi, she got all giggly every time he talked to her or put his arm around her shoulder aw

they sort of condensed a few events, which makes sense because most people wouldn’t sit through a 6-hour musical (i would but that’s beside the point!), so annabeth’s capture the flag strategy was to send percy into the bathroom as clarisse bait. ALSO the toilet explosion & the later tidal wave he hits ares with were done by attaching toilet paper rolls to leaf blowers and blowing them all over the stage - like i said, no fancy special effects, but it got the point across pretty well!! 

percy’s claiming happened at the bonfire after they all sang a fun song about how much it sucks to be a kid of a god (during which grover ate his marshmallow roasting stick, like it’s the little things that make this show so great!!) and for that they stood downstage and all pointed vaguely outwards and said “look! the stars are arranging themselves into a trident!” hah

ALSO mr. d’s bit about wanting to turn percy into a dolphin was in there god bless

percy wore the winged shoes the whole time instead of giving them to grover!

^that all was act 1! act 2 was the entirety of the quest which meant that a lot of the events got cut or shortened

the medusa scene was awesome, and pretty true to the books!! also they both sort of ran offstage and then percy ran back onstage with his sword and the head in his hands lol

while grover went into the back of aunty m’s to look for supplies annabeth had this amazing, utterly badass song called “wise girl” about how she’s had to fight all her life to make it, like she talked about her stepmom hating her and running away from home and stuff and it was SOOOOO GOOD like at one point she said “boys who mess up are given a second chance, but i don’t have that luxury” like DAMN GIRL TELL THEM!! also she did call him seaweed brain a few times and i was like oooooh man i’d almost forgotten my vintage percabeth feels

also yes percy did mail medusa’s head to mount olympus and did this very percy-ish little “heh heh heh i’m clever” laugh as he did 

instead of a poodle grover asked a squirrel for directions which was cute!! and yes, annabeth did yell at percy to apologize to the squirrel for offending it :D 

most of the trip west was done as a song/montage sort of thing, from post-medusa to vegas all happened in one song! so echidna and her chimera were there, but it was just her holding a dog carrier and it biting percy’s hand when he reached in and them all screaming and then it moved on!!

OK UM the part that made my day was the lotus hotel, it was like 5 seconds long because annabeth was like “wait!! in the odyssey if you sleep in a lotus bed you wake up years later!” so percy was like “that’s ridiculous! here let me ask this girl how long she’s been here” and the girl was like “my brother and I have been here since thursday!” and percy was like “see? we’re fine” and then she went “in 1939!!” and they sorta screamed and ran out lol and she charlestoned off but anyway the point is she had black braids and a little hat and i turned to my sister and whisper-shouted “THAT’S BIANCA!!!” and she was like “OMG IT IS” i loved it!!!!!!!!!!!! thank god the writers of this ACTUALLY READ THE BOOKS!! 

ares’ first scene was kinda short too, they cut the bit about going to waterland/the tunnel of love ride and just had him give them a ride to the next place, also it was suuuuper obvi foreshadowing because when he gave percy the backpack an ominous chord played lol

my other fav moment was when they were on the train to LA (they cut the zoo truck too) grover told percy the story of getting annabeth/luke/thalia to CHB and they reenacted it as he sang about it (that sounds cheesy, it was the three of them up on the top platform sort of doing it in slow motion while Grover sang) and like ngl i almost teared up a bit when thalia died

no procrustes :(( i know i’m listing thing after thing that they left out but like i understand why they did and i don’t think it suffered too badly!! like someone who hasn’t read the book would probs be a bit confused but in what they did have they were so spot-on that i really didn’t mind!

charon was reimagined as a cool beyonce-esque r&b singer, she was like “hey, y’all want a copy of my mixtape?” lol, also they sang this real fun and upbeat song welcoming to the underworld, like telling them about all the cool dead musicians they have (janis joplin, kurt cobain, and mozart all made cameos - annabeth was fangirling over mozart it was adorable!) and the trio was like “oh this is cool!!” until they realized they were about to die lol and charon started evil laughing it was great!

percy did almost get drawn into tartarus, that was cool bc a trap door opened and all this fog lit with red light started billowing out! also when annabeth was like “that’s tartarus!!” percy went “THE FISH SAUCE??” adorable

hades was great!! very sulky like, “why does everyone always think I’M the bad guy?? maybe it’s the decor” i loved it

also the lightning bolt itself was really nice-looking!! it was like described, a tube with metal caps, but it lit up really brightly as annabeth took it out from the backpack and it looked real cool!! 

instead of the pearls they escaped the underworld with a conch shell that poseidon gave percy in a dream way back after he defeated the minotaur and he did have to leave sally which is sad every time :( 

the final battle against ares was fun, that’s when percy sang his showstopper “son of poseidon” which was truly #lit. if/when they release the cast album that’s the one i’ll be playing on repeat and full blast. and he exploded the toilet paper ocean at ares and it was fun! 

poseidon showed up then to take the bolt back to zeus and chat with percy, he was in his hawaiian shirt and looking real cool! and he got sally back and after she hugged percy real tight she saw poseidon and they had a heated moment of “you’re as beautiful as ever” “you’re as charming as ever” and then percy was like “OKAY THIS IS WEIRD” truly great!!

and they did include the final chat with luke about kronos! i was wondering if they’d cut that because it’s not like they can do a series of musicals (though if they did i’d go see every one) but they had it! plus they needed to tie up the loose end of percy being betrayed by a friend! and he stabbed percy in the lower back but was disarmed by annabeth go girl!! but he didn’t take long to recover hah because he was able to sing the badass closing number about being cool demigods and saving the world!!

anyway there’s much more that i forgot to mention but just know overall that it was amazingly true to the characters and the tone/world/humor/etc. of the books and i was almost giddy for the rest of the day because it was one of the most loving, fun, entertaining, and on-point adaptations of a book i’ve seen in any form. m*vies who?? i only know the musical!!

feel free to send me asks if you want to know more about a particular scene!!

jesus lord this was long!! like i said, short version forthcoming!

[littlebitofbass]

Hi Jen! I'm a new ed fan and lately some people in my country's fandom started being really mean towards new fans. There's a M&G contest and I don't want to participate because old sheerios say that since I'm a new fan I don't deserve it. I'd really love to meet Ed, I've discovered him late, but also at the perfect time, right after I've experience one of the most difficult things in my 25 years. I feel like I'm so late to the party, and that I'm really bad fan :(

New fan pt.2 Circumstances in my life cause me to shut down from things I enjoyed when I was young, by the end of 2016 I was really depressed and then he come back. Thanks to my 15-year-old niece I started listening to him more, first ÷ and then obviously fell in love with + and x (speacially +) I just didn’t know there was so much more than TOL. Now I’m trying to listen and learn everthing I can. Your blog has been very helpful, thanks for spreading your Ed wisdom to newbies like me

Hello! I’m so sorry that other fans have made your experience here rough. I honestly think there is no bad time to discover Ed’s music. It only makes sense that we all come across different things at different times. You can’t help when you find something, and there’s no way to speed up or slow down the process, especially if you don’t know what it is you’re looking for until after you find it. You know? And just because someone randomly discovers a thing before or after you do, that doesn’t have anything at all to do with whether or not they’re a “good” fan or “deserve” anything more than any other fan. Let me show you one of my favorite things Ed himself has ever said about becoming a fan: 

He actually tweeted that a little before I discovered him myself, but it used to get shared around all the time. Back when this fandom was a bit smaller and more welcoming, I guess. But the point is that we’re not and never have been some sort of exclusive club with rankings based on how long we’ve been around, and anyone who treats this fandom like it’s a thing that’s not allowed to grow and change or thinks new fans shouldn’t be allowed the same opportunities as older fans is trying to make this whole thing into something other than what it is. The truth is there’s no hierarchy here. No one is even running this place like an organized group. We’re literally just a big crowd of people who all like the same music, and everyone here holds exactly the same level of importance as everyone else. Trying to assign more significance to some of the people in the crowd than others is pointless and silly. I suppose the fans you’re talking about just want to feel like they are special… but I think there are only two ways to look at it: either no one here is special, or everyone is. I prefer the second one. :) 

If it makes you feel any better, though. You’re not alone in your experience. There are actually quite a lot of people from a lot of different countries who feel the same way as you – that because they’re new, that makes them bad fans. Nothing could be further from the truth! There’s also a lot of pressure to learn everything you can learn about Ed and his older music as quickly as possible so people won’t think you’re… fake, I guess? But something to keep in mind - both for older and newer fans - is that no one can instantly know everything there is to know about something as soon as they find it. You know? And “testing” people on their knowledge of older stuff just so you can judge them is mean and uncalled for. 

I remember I went to a concert once in 2013, and it was a One Direction concert but I was wearing an Ed Sheeran t-shirt, and since I went to the concert alone I tried to talk to the girls who were sitting behind me. One of them noticed my shirt and immediately started testing me to see if I was a “real” Ed fan, like asking me my favorite song off Loose Change, clearly expecting me not to have ever listened to anything but +. She was impressed with my answer, but gosh it made me angry that she thought it mattered, like I wasn’t worthy of wearing Ed on my shirt if I only knew The A Team and Lego House. Which is so not the case. If you like Ed’s music – any of it! – then you should feel proud to wear his merch, not wary that some stuck-up person is going to give you an exam. Coincidentally, that was the same day that Ed had followed me on twitter, and I didn’t have a smart phone at the time and hadn’t talked to anyone about it – I was still a little bit shocked over it, really – so I told the girl just so I’d have someone to fangirl with, and right away she pulled out her phone to check and see if I was lying. :/ 

I think we probably all have experiences like this within our fandom. I like to say that we’re a big group of great people, and I do think that there are tons of great people around here, but there are also people like this girl, and like the fans that have given you a hard time. It doesn’t stop once you’re not new anymore, either. I’ve been around for a while and I get hassled online all the time. Every day, actually. I mostly don’t post the shitty messages I get, but I can’t remember the last time I checked my inbox and didn’t have at least one message either insulting me or insulting Ed or someone close to him. Some of them are super easy to ignore, like the ones that just say “fat” and “stupid” but there are also those passive-aggressive messages from people who hate you specifically but whose friends probably wouldn’t consider them a troll, questions intentionally designed to make you feel bad by playing on insecurities, the kind that are like, “Don’t you think that Ed probably finds you annoying?” or “Your last post made me cringe. Aren’t you embarrassed that Ed might see it?” or even, “Why do you think your opinion on his music even matters to anyone? Just curious.” Of course, those answers are 1. No 2. Nope and 3. Literally someone asked me my opinion, but I tend to immediately delete the question and/or block the user and pretend they never existed because I refuse to let some anonymous asshole take up space on my blog with their horse shit. Sometimes I also turn off anon asks for a while when that happens (which is what I’ve done now).

I guess what I’m saying is… some people are mean. Some people think it’s acceptable to treat others poorly. And just because we like the same music doesn’t mean we’re going to get along all the time. But you can’t let that sort of thing stop you from being you, doing what you like to do, and enjoying the good experiences that also come from being in Ed’s fandom – like winning a meet and greet if you can. I promise you will be able to find other fans in your country who aren’t rude. Maybe they will end up being your best friends! Just please don’t let the haters affect your sense of self worth. You’re better than that. 

:)

[alien-fanbitch]

Okay so, I think I just had the best! weekend! ever!

If you've been following Milo's (@milomeepit) blog you would know some stuff already but I figured I would tell you my experience

I went to my first ComicCon!

- I got to hang out with Milo

- Make new friends

- Meet Katherine McNamara (from Shadowhunters) and she signed a photo for me! She even loved my name! She was so sweet and I was just dying and fangirling! 😂

- Got to see a whole bunch of cosplayers which was awesome! Got to take a picture with one too!

- Played Just Dance with my Patton and had it videoed (which is over on Milo's blog) I was Logan and I was too focused on the game to dab!

- Played a zombie fighting game on a VR horse, which I then freaked out half way through and fell injuring my back (someone said I was a mood so it was worth it! 😂 I also made people laugh)

- Went to first aid to ease ren's (Milo) mind, I'm okay, it's just sore.

- Went to Katherine McNamara's panel which was great! I got to fangirl over her some more! 😂

Then Milo and I headed out to get food which was burgers and chips (fries)

Then we decided to go hang out before Milo had to leave because they thought they had work in the morning.

- We just ended up talking by the water

- They missed their train

PLOT TWIST

Turns out they got the date wrong and they didn't have work the next day!

So... We hung out together all night! 😂

- We got slushies and sat on a bench watching YouTube videos and laughing together

- We walked around the streets being weird and deep and cute

- We met a drunk woman with guy troubles who wanted to get into the casino

- We helped her get in, thanks to "the bumbling idiot friend" and "the I'm wearing a onesie and drinking a slushie while getting slightly offended by not being able to get into your fancy establishment" (I really wasn't offended and had no intention of going in)

- Milo killed a spider on a fancy table and wiped it on a fancy chair 😂

- We made some inside jokes

- I kicked a bottle and splashed us both with what was probably cheap wine in an open coke bottle (I was curious)

- Danced together

- Had coffee and leftover chips (fries) together

- Went back to the water

- I broke an automatic door (it was being really slow and I was not patient)

- Went to an arcade! Because we got a 30 free card! Which was awesome!

- Some asshole of a woman decided to pull on my onesie hood and then make conversation with me, pulling on a random stranger's clothes or touching them is not okay unless you ask first.

- Then we ended the night off by chilling out at the train station watching Shadowhunters and me trying not to fall asleep

Also, if I forgot something, I'm sorry, I'm still exhausted from staying up all night even though I slept all day yesterday 😂