#sky. im so sorry.

[uhhhitsme]

i wanna hear your curtwen thoughts & analysis sm so. 14!

OH MY GOFD OH MYHGOD AOHYM MY GOD THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE ONES OH MY YUFOD I WOULD DIE FOR YOU

okay, the crux of this song is quite literally about a very complex, uncertain relationship and wondering if the singer and the lover will be able to work it out. because i am. FUCKING INSANE. im breaking it down verse by verse because EVERY SINGLE LYRIC is SO ACCURATE for them you don't understand straighten your tie / we're not alone / i'll tell a lie, just to bring you home / we dance together / you're not that good / i'll tell a lie, but it's understood

"ill tell a lie, just to bring you home" works SO well for curtwen. their relationship is inherently defined by secrecy and lies. they're literally two gay men who are in love in the 1950s, working for two different governments overseas, with a relationship that's clearly had enough foundation and enough work and love put into it that it affects them four years after their separation. i do really think that they tried their best to love each other as much as they could---so they'd almost certainly skirt around corners and lie to their superiors in order to try and spend as much time together possible.

and then, again "i'll tell a lie, but it's understood" is so important to me---in a1p1, we see that owen and curt know each other. they're familiar to each others mannerisms, when to push JUST enough that it doesn't bother the other, they trust each other to turn their backs on each other and work in sync the moment curt's released from captivity. and again, as two gay men in the 1950s---they've likely both been raised with the idea that vulnerability, emotion, and affection are all very feminine traits, and so definitely would have an incredibly hard time expressing them as a result. they probably could never vocally express really how much they love each other, especially around other people---but that lie, the feigned friendship, the excuses and dismissiveness---they see through it, because at some point they've learned each other so thoroughly they can see the care behind the front they put up.

also, i hc that curt can't dance as well as owen and he regularly coaches him (its mostly an excuse to hold him lmao) so double the perfectness. PLUS, they would both likely get involved in black-tie events regularly for spy reasons and i can definitely picture them getting up to some truly foul tomfoolery that would require the straightening of the tie because they're not alone.

then, for the chorus: i guess it's all about timing / i guess it's all about the things you want but never get / i guess it's all about trying / to love someone you've never met

i really want to highlight the "i guess it's all about trying" because. it IS. they're trying so hard, man---in the staircase scene, agent curt gives us two very very powerful bits of dialogue about the time they spent together, and the feelings they shared. and that kind of love isn't the love i think could be built in a short time or for a casual fling---most fans of saf walk away from watching the show under the assumption that they've been in a relationship for YEARS, and for good reason! like its basically canon at this point, at least within the fandom.

and the thing is, when you consider the factors affecting their relationship---spies from two different countries with an alliance that could easily be shattered under the right circumstances, where they could likely only meet a few times a year at most for missions, not for themselves, who are in love and GAY and work for a deeply homophobic government.............. by all means, it shouldn't have worked out for that long. it should've crumbled. but it DIDN'T. and i genuinely, truly cannot picture the reason why it did being anything other than them caring for each other---loving each other---so much that they tried the best they could.

in the second chorus, the lyric "i guess its all about trying" switches to "i guess it's all about dying," which works just as well---especially if you look at this song from owen's perspective. because spying... it was always going to kill them, one day, if they stayed. it's an inherently dangerous job. and the trauma that they endure working as spies, especially as high ranking spies who probably didn't have access to therapy or support systems due to the nature of it being so classified---i do think that it was killing them, too. and i really do believe that owen, who was so so so passionate about the destruction of secrets in his reveal monologue (and for a plethora of other reasons i could yap about in a different post)---he recognised that it wasn't good for them, near the end. that they needed to go.

but curt was very attached to the job---we see how he romanticises being a spy all throughout the show, how he obsessed over the glory of it all (literally every time he smoothed his hair back, his obsession with doing fun and thrilling things, the whole banter that he initiates with owen about the timer on the bomb.) and i don't think owen had been able to convince him to leave. so instead of going without curt---inadvertently saving himself from the fall and the dangers of their occupation---he stayed. i dont think he could leave without him. he stayed in a job that was KILLING HIM. FOR CURT. JESUS CHRIST.

OKAY ONE MORE VERSE AND I PROMISE ILL FINISH MY YAPFEST:

we eat our dinner, then we undress / and now we're equal, more or less / now i am sick, and you're probably drunk / you're saying things, and they sound like love

god, the undressing line............... it's literal in the sense that they're undressing for bed, but also a metaphor for taking off their emotional layers. showing their vulnerabilities to each other. something that's obviously hard for them as gay male spies who have been taught that vulnerability is a weakness and know not to trust easily. the line about equality...........

i think one thing that both of them were very insecure about, pre-fall, was whether or not the depth of their feelings were truly matched. to owen---curt is a thrill seeker. he dives into danger without a second thought, decides blowing up a building because anything other option is boring, treats them survival on the job as a competition, a game, a challenge to prove themselves. and i do think that there would've been that fear, for him, that owen to curt was just another one of those things---a challenge. not a lover. not someone to care for. after all, curt wouldn't leave---he loves his job so much he wouldn't do it for owen. when owen knows that this job is hurting him, but he stays---for curt. there's uncertainty there, about whether or not they've been equally vulnerable, if owen knows him as well that curt knows him. and those doubts definitely fed into owen's mindset post fall.

and the bit about drunk / love... in order to keep this from being any longer than it needs to be---most people agree that pre-fall curt had a drinking problem that was significantly worsened by owen's death, so it works really well for him. and "sounding like love" would imply it isn't love---just seems like it. and like i yapped about in the last paragraph, i do think that insecurity and anxiety they both had about their love being unmatched is referenced here again. owen is wondering if curt really loves him like owen does, or if he's just drunk and saying stupid things. he's afraid. they both are.

i.... this is a monstrosity. holy shit.

[cirrus-grey]

[the-phantom-peach]

Meeting the Light Dragon ✨🐉

[tagged as spoilers!]

[coatl-cuddles]

Hello, Sky? Yes, I'd like to order three (3) doomed, self-fullfilling prophecy princes? Thank youuu

[justaz]

merlin (immortal) giving arthur (pendragon) the only blade that could kill him

[monzterzack]

He talks too much

[bsideheart]

what kind of fuckign crack did they put in bulls in the bronx. wbat the fuck

[sweeteastart]

Ravioli day 5 four days later for raviolishipweek by @breannasfluff

I finished this 25 panel hell of a comic. It's resolution is a bit quick but i don't think I'm impartial after spending days on it

[ratgingi]

little thing based on smth that happened in me and @skylilywolf 's game last night bc i can't stop thinking about it

[lover-of-mine]

Buck, Eddie and The lightning mirroring the well.

[sweeneydino]

👉👈 dragon...

So maybe I am a sucker for the watercolor brushes- you can't stop me

Should I do more colored art? Idk.

Gotta disappear now ✌️

[kikker-oma]

[arecaceae175]

Promt:

Growing pains, Wind. Hurt/comfort. Linked universeeeeee. Or just Wind being a teenager 🙏🙏🙏🙏 I believe in u Ace

Sky looked up from his carving as he heard feet shuffling towards him. Wind's expression was pinched and his shoulders were hunched inwards.

"Sailor?" Sky asked.

"Mmph."

Wind slowly lowered himself to the ground, so Sky quickly moved to help him. Wind ended up curled against Sky's side with his head on Sky's lap.

"Ow," Wind mumbled into Sky's belly.

Sky sighed, resting a hand in Wind's curls and scratching softly. "I know. I'm sorry."

It was hard for all of them to watch Wind deal with growing pains and be unable to do anything about it. On the bad days, their usually boisterous sailor was dulled by the pain, shuffling around camp and grumbling at anyone who irritated him.

"Nn yr fah."

Sky huffed a short laugh through his nose. "You're gonna have to move if you want to talk."

Wind only shook his head. "Soft," he said loudly enough to be heard.

Sky smiled and patted Wind's shoulder with his other hand. "Have you had any of Wild's relief tea?"

Wind nodded, then turned his head so his mouth was free. "Mmhmm. It helped. 'M sleepy now."

Sky couldn't hold back a fond smile. "Go to sleep, then. Here." He draped his sailcloth over Wind's shoulders then his blanket over Wind's legs. Wind snuggled into Sky's side and let out a relieved breath.

[coatl-cuddles]

" WIP DELETE LATER 🤪🤪🤪" ok who gaf?

[randomminty]

Um. He is so small

[weltraum-vaquero]

Jokes aside, though, act 2 fumbled Jayce and Viktor’s arcs. Pretty fucking hard. I’m sure a lack of screentime was a big factor, but I also hate the route they went with Viktor. (And I’m trying to moderately keep my hopes up for act 3).

I wish we would have gotten some sort of scene, ideally in season 1, where we (and Viktor!) would have been given like, the smallest reason to give a fuck about Sky beyond just guilt. As things stand, the only fathomable emotion Viktor could have had towards her was shame and regret, and it makes zero sense to me that she’s now an advisor/(near-romantic) partner to him.

I wish they would have stuck to guilt as a motivator. It would have been a much stronger and logical driving force for Viktor than… whatever the hell they decided to pull.

You cannot just demand that I, as a viewer, suddenly care (or believe Viktor cares) about a character you made zero effort to introduce, much less endear to me in any way. Come on now