#sincerely: a fellow autistic

[teatitty]

The only thing missing from this episode for me was when Laios says "rice was Shuro's favourite food" and in the manga version of that Toshiro's face pops up in the corner to say "no... it wasn't..." further cementing that Laios is ignorant of asian culture and just made a very bad assumption based on where Toshiro is from

[winndycakes]

Winndy Rambles And Gushes About Chuck Tingle

Wanted to ramble a little about one of my favorite authors, creators and overall just super rad people; Chuck Tingle.

Like many people, when I first heard of Chuck, I took him as some sort of meme. A troll, a joke, someone not to be taken seriously. After all, the majority of his works are "silly short erotica stories around dinosaurs, cryptids and even living concepts and items". How COULD this be serious? It's a question I asked before, years ago, and one that many still do to this day.

One holiday season, a friend had made a post on FaceBook saying "first five people to comment I'll gift you a book". So I did. The book I got was a physical copy of the "Space Raptor Butt Invasion Trilogy" by Chuck Tingle. Since I had a book of Tingle's now, I really had no excuse to not read it for myself.

Erotica normally isn't my thing (I'm pretty ace and grey aro too), but very quickly, I was charmed by the prose. As you read Chuck's stories, there's a fact that becomes very apparent. Chuck Tingle is a great writer, a really great writer. How he writes, how the words flow together, one sentence going into the next. The characters, the plot, the little bits of lore, dialogue and all he puts in... You quickly begin to see; this is NOT a joke.

It is not a meme. He is not trolling you. It is art. Passionate, sincere, genuine art. And it's beautiful. The more you read, the more definitive it gets.

I will admit, I have read aloud many a Tingler for friends and others in Discord servers, both to share my joy of Tingle with others, but also, it is fun to look at how different his works are. It's fine to laugh along with them even.

The moment that really was like... angels singing, light shining down and there's bishi sparkles and a heavenly soft pink background appearing for me though was the summer Chuck Tingle released on of his first full novella's; "Trans Wizard Harriet Porber and the Bad Boy Parasaurolophus". Like many, I was crushed and gutted at JKR's extreme turn to committing to transphobia (and of course the hindsight of realizing... the HP books and universe were not as kind and welcoming as I remembered growing up). So when Chuck Tingle (in one weekend mind you) came out with a 50k novel affirming trans people and their belonging in not just queer spaces, but being on this Earth, as fellow human beings, it was... affirming. It was the welcoming feeling I had gotten with the original HP books all those years ago, but it was real. (Also please read both Trans Wizard Harriet Porber books. They're delightful, fun and the magic system Tingle creates is so, so cool and interesting).

The next thing that got me just mega hype for Tingle was his first foray into horror; "Straight". "Straight" is Tingle's answer to the ever popular trope and genre of zombies and the apocalypse that comes with them, and what a fun turn of tables he takes on them. Zombies in the Tingleverse are not undead beings, they're not humans afflicted by a virus, instead a strange cosmic event happens once a year, when one night, all cishet people on Earth get this animalistic, violent urge to brutally harm and even kill all queer people. I won't get too spoilery about it but it is a very fun romp, and as someone who has been fatigued by zombies, it is a welcome new perspective.

Not long after this, Chuck came out with two full, traditionally published horror novels; "Camp Damascus" and "Bury Your Gays". Both are very different experiences in horror, both a joyful celebration of being queer and your authentic self even in the face of those looking to silence you, permanently if they must. I had the pleasure of meeting Chuck (twice!) while he was on tour for both of these books, getting my copies signed (along with my copies of the Trans Wizard duology and my beloved copy of the Space Raptor trilogy) and was able to tell Tingle myself just how important he is to someone like me; another queer autistic creator. (I was also one of the few people to win the little mini games he gave, twice, but that's a different story).

Ultimately that is what I am trying to get at. Growing up, and even for all of my 20s, there wasn't really someone like Tingle. Someone unabashedly authentic, themselves, queer, open and imo most importantly, joyously so. One is often told "just be yourself" but that can be hard to do when it seems like the world is against you for one reason or another.

Seeing a creator like Chuck shows how important it is to have such a presence in the world, and I was glad I got to tell him myself. I've had a lot of hardships in life, a lot of losses, a lot of grief, but someone like Chuck is there to tell you to keep trotting and remind you; Love Is Real.

And that's truly the ending message:

Love Is Real.

[bluewoolf]

(I hope it’s okay to send non-questions here, this is just an appreciation ramble :3)

The disability rep in CHNT is so deeply meaningful to me (and others I know), I can’t even put into words how impactful it’s been to feel so seen by a work of media,,

I’ve got too many tangled up thoughts to verbalize properly, many of which get kinda heavy due to the nature of the subject, but that’s… maybe why Sydney’s portrayal is so dear to me, I think? Seeing chronic illness/ disability portrayed in a way that’s raw and authentic, not sugar-coated or diminished by the narrative, and so so SO deeply relatable was groundbreaking to me when I first started listening years ago… it still gets me emotional even now! It’s written so powerfully.

Thank you for that, from me and soooo many others. (Sincerely, a trans & autistic fellow with fibro/ chronic pain & illness, bpd/psychosis, aaaand a food intake disorder. This series really hit home 😅)

Being physically disabled is not fun. It's pitiful and it's frustrating and it's painful and it always aches a little bit in the heart. You constantly have to grieve yourself and what could have been.

I have gripes with the trend of physical disability in media, which is to ignore it beyond a quirky trait. I can understand the sentiment of only wanting to see marginalized characters happy, but physical disability is something which makes your life harder by definition. If you don't allow your disabled characters to face any practical, interpersonal, or emotional struggles from it.. then you're just not writing disability, you're writing tokenism. 

Even if you had all of your needs met by others, not being able to do basic care tasks of the self that 90% of the population can do without significant aid is humiliating and terrifying, and no matter how much society as a whole improves to accommodate disabled people... this reality will not change. To be so beholden to other people and unable to express autonomy is a lot to contend and self actualize.

I appreciate the love for him. It's great that the exploration gets people thinking about it or resonating with the concepts.

[warframe1999]

hello fellow amir beckett warframe 1999 enjoyers

i am so happy to see so many people like him, i saw that poll going around asking who everyone plans to romance and its an amir SWEEP. i’m super excited to have more auDHD representation in this game, but therein the problem lies.

i come to you with a humble request (especially to the neurotypicals/allistics out there) to be a bit more mindful of how yall go about talking about him.

some of the things i see being said about him veer dangerously into the infantilization territory that is ALL too common with autistic characters in media, and its kinda disheartening to see. i wouldnt be saying this if it was a throughline for all the male characters (or any of them for that matter), but im hard pressed to find any of these kinds of comments about arthur, quincy, or even aoi. things like “oooh my little baby boy i want to squish his cheeks hes so adorkable hes my little blorbo my poor mentally ill baby” ring way way different when it’s pointed at the one (canonically) autistic character that got released.

like i said i’m super pumped that people like him!! i love him and can’t wait to get to see more of his character development in the coming updates. all i ask is people try and be a bit more mindful of the way that they talk about this. as eleanor said: “He’s not a beautiful, broken marionette, and he’s nobody’s project. He’s one of us.”

let’s talk about him like an equal.

sincerely a fellow grown adult w auDHD

[youngprinceartisan]

hi. just call me artisan. im curious about radqueers, in regular circumstances i'd be against you fellows but honestly maybe I could hear you out.

im what you'd call cisautistic, quoigenic cisplural and (most likely) ciscluster-b. I am also transspecies (a term I associate more with alterhumanity than transids), transgender, and anti-c pro-para as one of our sys members is a non-disordered paraphile. also pro-endogenic if it wasnt clear by us being quoigenic.

i know atypical dysphoria and such is a thing, I experience it myself as a transspecies dragon, but also often finding myself wanting 'worse' trauma than I already have gone through, even though I perfectly understand that would only worsen my mental health and cause a plethora of problems and also even if others have had it worse I am just as valid a survivor, so in a way i empathize with transharmed folk.

as for specifically some other transids, I am confused about them. transabled for instance, BIID I get it but otherwise I find it quite odd, as bodily disabled folk (as I've heard) find this to belittle their struggles; getting diagnosed, getting treatment, trying to function. however, ive done quite some thinking on my own as a creature on the autism disorder. me, personally, I cannot truly and sincerely bring myself to care about transautistics as a "threat" to the autistic community. i find that ableist people are way more a concern. i struggle with sensory overload, some verbal issues, and i am a major stimmer. and, again, i cannot really bring myself to care about people wanting those symptoms, with all the bad that comes, or even with just the good "cutesy" stuff.

wanting-to-be-another-race also comes to mind (won't be using the term transrace as that belongs to adoptees). i would also bring up me being bodily latino, but for one i literally cannot give two fucks about my race and two, i live in south america and thus everyone is a latino, so there really isnt any racism against us and thus i don't have the experience to speak about the topic. i honestly wonder if there's any folks bodily of oppressed races willing to explain and defend this one to me. transnationality to me would basically be same situation to me as transautistic is: can't care about someone wanting to be of my country and learn my language and stuff.

transharmful is also something i wonder about. how do you approach the possibility of transitioning? if it's something similar to BDSM as in both parties are consenting and such then it's alright by me frankly.

[courtkossai]

I am confused about physical nonhumanity. I am autistic so I am sorry if this comes off as blunt or rude. I am attempting to be sincere and ask a genuine question so I can learn.

I am wondering, how does physical nonhumanity work? Maybe it is just because I am autistic and enjoy categorizing but to me if a creature has human features such as human organs/skin/brain/etc, then that means the creature is physically human.

So how can you be nonhuman but still have those features? Do you literally see yourself differently when you look in the mirror? Ie, literally with eyes not seeing human features, and/or believing you do not have human shaped hands/feet/hair/organs. Or is it a mental thing of believing you have those features, but not associating those features with humanity?

Sorry if I am completely wrong in my assumptions. Your blog seemed nice and I was hoping you could help, because I cannot seem to find information. Sorry if this is rude. Again, this is very genuine question and not meant to be anti-physical nonhuman.

not rude , appreciate want to understand ! but , answers to this will be different for different folks .

some folks experience as veil , in magical sense - there is true body , and then magic which wrap around to hide . others experience as sense that human appearance is some form of experiment or curse , something to take away from home among fellow creatures-of-type . others still see as expression of family history - say , great grandma have love affair with handsome elfin prince .

certain experiences tend toward magic and religion , others brand as delusion , but kossai feel this is less important to hash out so long as one do best to understand limits , needs , and safety . 

as for kossai in specific ... this dive into parts of religion and spirituality , for sure . 

what most people see as " physical world " is just one of many potential realms . each realm is physical to inhabitants , but effectively non-physical to those outside . picture this to be cake of sorts , where each layer of cake is unique realm . frosting hold these together as one whole cake ( world ) , but also prevent direct contact . 

so - do not like to share deepest details , but in short , this body which kossai use and inhabit receive faerie claim and blessing , with dual presence among both humans and faeries . 

with that dual presence , could say sort of twofold physical faeriehood . out here where humans live , kossai appear human . even so , actual makeup of this body is ... weird , to say least . best like to describe as if faerie materials on human blueprints - able to get job done technically , but not always very well . 

of course , understand that is headscratcher to some people - if appear to be human with disabilities , then why say anything else ? and of course that is legal necessity to say sometimes , because of how systems design . but even that in mind , body of kossai also do go through faerie cycles and functions not in experiences of humans at all , aspects which follow moons and seasons and weather cycles , as well as have connections to faerie realm senses and faerie magics . 

still , again this body do look human to those who see . faeriehood do not grant magical control over this form , even if sometimes truly wish could ! would have so much fun switch hormone system back and forth and sprout wings - but even without such abilities , people in know can recognise as faerie . 

then as other half of that duality , body among faeries and in faerie realm is more obviously faerie - persona which represent in art is current resemblance . kossai do not see these features in mirror , and even phantom feelings can be hard to come by . aim to strengthen connection to faerie realm senses so these might come easier , but this in self is not easy task unfortunately . 

hope that all make some kind of sense - kossai grow up with paganism , so these lines of thoughts very natural , and sometimes not sure of what might pass right over anyone else . :)

( OK , well , of course paganism can mean great many things . but not really have any name more specific - learn of faeries very early , learn of realms beyond , and learn to ask questions , discern , and build understanding ever since . kossai do not speak for all paganism , etc etc , disclaimer over . )

[smosh-fessions]

genuinely don't understand why people think damien seems more eager to be friends w angela and she seems completely uninterested in being friends with him? i'd say damangela is probably pretty low on my list of favorite smosh duos, but i think they seem to like each others' presence equally? maybe i am too autistic to see angela as anything but super friendly and willing to befriend everybody, damien included! damien's just been super busy but i remember late 2021- 2023- during BAF Legacy era, angela, shayne, damien, chanse and amanda were shaping up to be The Team™️- at least to me- and damien's only been excluded from these conversations since the falling apart of Sword AF and damien's VO work has made him step away from smosh more.

i truly don't get the amount of scrutiny damangela gets because trevrasha has just as much "coworkers standing next to each other" energy as damangela but some people act like trevor and arasha could be in love. genuinely so baffled. like, yeah, both pairs seem to like each other well enough and get along and i can see the appeal of it but as an audience member, i prefer them with other people. if anything, i actually prefer watching the angela-trevor/ damien-arasha dynamic more than trevrasha and damangela, but making up fanfiction that damien is creepy and eager to pander to damangela shippers while angela secretly hates him is so odd ESPECIALLY because angela seems like a sincerely accomodating, open and friendly person to everybody she encounters? and wasn't damien the one who actively shut down angela saying she knew his sex catch phrase and called her "bud" and "pal"?? and damien always tries to make jokes with people that don't always land and are awkward, not just with angela but with literally everyone excluding shayne. maybe i'm not seeing what everyone else is seeing but? genuinely so confused? i'm not trying to excuse any of damien's previous problematic behavior, or angela's if there is anything- but they seem to get along and like each other, on an on-screen chemistry level? to me, it feels like a subconscious bias against damien because he has autism but i could just be being totally unfair to people who think differently, i'd be open to hearing people's opinions on this!

sorry for being so rambly i've been stewing on this for a couple months.

There are multiple hours of compilations of them being kind and friendly towards each other, so at this point it boils down to petty fandom drama, I think. It's the "my fave would NEVER like your fave." Its childish bs and I've watched it happen across every fandom I've ever been in.

Certain groups of Angela stans mock damangela relentlessly and they deeply dislike Damien. They're largely on Twitter but it leaks over here occasionally. I find it's best to block liberally if any of them, or anyone in general, makes you uncomfortable with the way they talk about it.

As a fellow autistic person, I also dislike the amount of 'evidence' that gets presented to show that he's annoying Angela is just ableism and nitpicking autistic behaviors.

Damien gets a lot of unwarranted shit and basically anyone who gets shipped with him gets subjected to it in their own manner.

Sorry if my answer is also rambly.

[meowmeowriley]

Hi MeowMeow Costume anon here sorry it’s taken a couple days for me to reply life got busy finding one’s honour is harder then I thought!

You want my autistic head canons for Zuko? Strap in for some unhinged rambling because I have ✨thoughts✨ this will be long

(CW: implied child abuse (Fuck Ozai))

Zuko likes music (Iroh mentiones he’s talented with the Tsungi horn) and his swords I also think he would have picked up dancing at some point with how he moved during dance of the dragons.

When he’s around people he trusts he emotes more with his face and masks less in general and I’d say if he felt safe enough he’d do more overt (for him) stimms like humming, minor rocking or tugging on his hair Iroh would be one of his safe people and eventually the gaang would be too

*I don’t think he’d have very obvious stimms in general being raised royal he’d be expected to act a certain way and hand flaps are not it. Also flaming 💩lord Ozai would have seen any aberrations as weakness and stamped that shit out fast

*I honestly think it could be one of the reasons the flaming 💩lord despises Zuko being inherently different would be a weakness in his eyes and reflect badly on him

I think he and May get along well because they’re both autistic and are a safe space for each other. she has trouble processing her emotions he has trouble controlling his they make good emotional counter balances

He cares so much about the people and animals around him even his enemies a strong sense of justice is a common sign of autism and speaking out of turn was the initial reason for his banishment.

He’s so socially awkward he doesn’t know how to talk with people instead of at them his entire pep talk to himself and subsequent introduction to the gaang when he tries to join them is peak “how do you do fellow kids” and his “that’s rough buddy” is as iconic as it is socially inept.

The guy totally hyper fixated on hunting the Avatar and when he could no longer find his purpose in it and realised he was wrong he did not cope

He has no tackt. none. and he takes things at face value and he hates lying his humour is also a little left leaning and he tries to relate to others and their experiences as a way of bonding.

While he’s not a prodigy fire bender like his sister he found ways around his limitations that helped accentuate his natural talents like his sword fighting (dancing would help with sword work) being incorporated into his bending (I don’t remember any other character bending with weapons).

He’d know a lot about tea from Iroh and I think he enjoyed working in the tea shop

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk!

I hope these make sense it’s kinda late now but this was fun to write thanks for reading my insane rambles :D

Also in response to the (non gendered) Prince! line you gave me so much surprise gender euphoria I cried 😭🫠🥹 sincerely thank you. I’m going with he/him pronouns atm but he/they is something I want to look into.

if you don’t mind me asking what are your pronouns?

I’ll probably send another ask in the next couple of days to annoy you with lol but in the meantime have a great day!

Sorry I took so long to get back to this, but damn I needed it today so I guess it's good I kept this in reserve. ❤

Holy shit, I can't unsee Zuko as autistic now. Like it's impossible. He's so perfectly coded to be on the spectrum. He's generally monotone, until he's not, and that's always when he's dealing with big emotions. He'd be a lip biter for sure.

Zuko doing dance as a stim 😍 the first time the Gaang sees him dancing when he thinks he's alone, they'd be so supportive, and have no idea what that would mean to him.

Fire lord Zuko infodumping about tea to some random person who tried to ask if he'd like them to make him some, as he heats the tea himself with his bending, and damn if that isn't the best tea that servant has ever had in their life.

Until next time my non gendered Prince Zuko! (Which will be in like, a few minutes, when I get to your other ask. Again sorry for the wait 😭 I'm bad at this)

[orcboxer]

What do you think about autistic people who use assistive communication devices full time asking people who only experience temporary speech loss to stop using the term nonverbal to refer to those episodes?

You misunderstand, I don't refer to speech loss (i.e. mutism / voice loss) episodes as nonverbal. Using words to communicate through any medium is also, definitionally, verbal communication. When I say "nonverbal" I mean it literally, as in, no language, no words. So if someone cannot use any words, written or signed or spoken or typed, that is, by definition, nonverbal. It is an episode of total wordlessness, not voicelessness. To call it mutism or speech loss would be inaccurate. During speech loss episodes, I can use words through typing or signing. During nonverbal episodes, I cannot.

But if what you meant is that even those episodes shouldn't be referred to as nonverbal, because it isn't full-time, then I would suggest (not with decisive finality but as sincere ongoing discussion with intent to continue to listen) that we consider following the example of other disabilities in regard to part-time vs full-time disability.

If a fully mute person asks me to stop using the word "mutism" or "mute" to describe my selective mutism, on the grounds that it's only episodic and not full-time, should I?

I interact with fully mute people fairly regularly, and the general consensus between us has always been that we all share similar struggles, and that even if the severity of our mutism differs, we are still experiencing mutism. I've never been asked to stop referring to myself as mute, but if I was, I don't feel that it would be a reasonable demand. I would challenge that. (again, not with finality, but with intent to engage in honest discussion).

Similarly, if someone asks that I not refer to myself as autistic on the grounds that some autistic people have more severe symptoms than me, that wouldn't exactly be reasonable either. A "part-time" disability is still a disability.

I feel that, if anything, we should be focused on solidarity across the spectrum of severity of nonverbality, rather than on arguing over who has it worse. It's certainly not my intention to trivialize, just to describe my experiences as accurately as I can and to encourage solidarity between fellow disabled folks.

[invinciblerodent]

I know this is a hardish question bc probably depends on game factors, but as it is rn you the brain sauce

Do you think Emmerich notices right away that Tristan isn’t alive in the same sense as pm everyone else? Or is he like quicker than others to notice? I assume Tristan isn’t quick to explain the full truth of his… condition.

(Sorry if I seem obsessed, bc I kinda am. I blame my adhd for the hyperfixation. Love the whole idea! )

Oh absolutely no worries babe lol, I'm just happy that you find the big fellow interesting! ❤️❤️

Have a song I've been listening to a lot over the past few days and have kinda started associating it with him-

(this, as well as "Ghost" by the same guy, very Tristan-coded to me, only this one also has that soft, deep-voiced crooning in "Orlesian" in the middle there that's. Very A+.)

I honestly feel a bit more "free" headcanoning and rambling on about this guy and this story than about anyone else, specifically because the base idea is kind of on the sillier side? Like, I feel fairly confident ~~hazarding a guess~~ that there's not going to be a subplot in the actual game about the main character needing to hide that actually, they're kind of, sort of a zombie, lol.

So while I'm intentionally keeping my girls vague (beyond "very autistic bisexual elf rights activist", "viking pirate lesbian(?) dwarf", and "tiny dommy mommy"), I'm like, fairly sure that I was gonna need to do extensive rewrites and annotations to the game to make this one work anyway, so I'm not super concerned if I end up needing to "retcon" something I think about now.

What I was thinking so far is that Tristan, as of the beginning, could count on one hand the number of people he's told about his "condition" over the past two decades, and of those people, he's not sure if there's even one still left alive. (Maybe a fellow Warden healer, someone who's patched him up enough times to catch on that something is fishy? Maybe the longest and most serious relationship of his adult life that ended tragically one way or another? I'll have to brainstorm that one)

So as a Grey Warden, Tristan spends a lot of his life traveling alone (which suits him just fine), and quite often, the preternatural survivability and even the unusually thick blood can be reasoned away with "it's a Warden thing, don't worry about it, we're all like this". Most people will believe it, and aren't very quick to jump to conclusions that shouldn't be possible.

Except maybe those who are intimately familiar with death, spirits, and the undead. And are, yknow, actual professors of the occult.

So I think it's not exactly a closely guarded secret, but one Tristan wouldn't reveal unless absolutely necessary- and for as long as possible, none of the companions would know, but Emmrich would absolutely suss him out on his own.

Regardless of whether there's been any light flirting before then, I like to kind of imagine there being a singular moment --perhaps after a hit taken too close, maybe in defense of him, when the odd, stale, almost slightly mildewy scent of Tristan's blood hits Emmrich's nose the first time-- when their eyes meet, and there's this Moment of mutual recognition. This "oh shit, I know what you are."- "oh shit, he knows what I am.".

I of course don't know, like, the particulars of his character, but from his tone in the blurbs and the short stories, I assume that if pulled aside afterwards and asked sincerely, Emmrich would be willing to keep it a secret- and that he would immediately feel intense scholarly interest.

I mean, Tristan is an anomaly: by all means, he should not exist. The undead of Thedas are created via possession, and his body has not been possessed by any spirit, and isn't being controlled by anything. He seems whole, hale, and himself (not a darkspawn, either), he breathes, eats, sleeps, heals and bleeds pretty much as normal, and the things that aren't quite normal, are still not outside of the realm of possibility: many completely normal people breathe and blink slower than average, many people prefer their meat on the rarer side, many people have troubles falling and staying asleep. Nothing about him on its own is indicative of anything strange, and yet he is intelligent undead! Just the fact that he can speak in a way that is convincingly human is incredible!

I want to believe that Emmrich (like many of us are about our blorbos) would immediately kind of be like "I want to study you under a microscope." (paraphrased ofc) (Is he the playful kind? Would he jokingly paint studying Tristan as repayment for his silence? Who knows! It's fun either way!)

And at first, Tristan would be hesitant (it's awkward, to be under such scrutiny, and to have his whole Situation upended and dissected like that, especially by someone he probably already considers somewhat intimidating, in a handsome, charming sort of way), but even if it's not suggested, he'd consider it repayment for keeping it a secret, and agree. And if I can make it work, I'd really enjoy for there to be an opportunity for a moment between the two of them that has Emmrich kind of like... "I have been around enough bodies, both dead and alive, naked and clothed, to not be affected by anything corporeal. I know flesh well, I know what lies under it, and my interest in this particular body is purely clinical, scholarly, and in no way romantic or sexual. This dimly lit office/surgery is not in any way romantic, nor does any sight of his body arouse anything in me. .......... oh, his nipples are pierced. That's not a good thing for me."

("oh, strong muscles shifting enticingly under inked skin." "oh, the big man is large in every way." etc.)

Something something hearing an otherwise abnormally sluggish heart suddenly beat faster at a touch, something something intense examination of all bodily reactions making them both feel both flayed and more naked than it should be possible, intense eye contact, oh in this kind of light his eyes do look reddish and eerie but I can't look away, and from there on I think it can kinda progress however it's going to progress in the game.

I am havign SUCH a normal time of it, man!!!!!!!

[horreurscopes]

hey i love ur blog n im sorry that a fucking phone blog is being an ass. love seeing ur posts

hi! thank you, i'm alright! it got to me for a second because i too am autistic about phones and found phoneid very delightful, so it was shocking + hurtful to recieve because i am a person with feelings. but i was cheered up by my many beloved mutuals and friends reminding me they have my back when people are disproportionately disparaging and demeaning online. the live-in bestie kissed my head and made me laugh and we had phone time in bed together. it was extremely cozy :')

the important takeaway here is that it is indeed possible to be around 30 and older and like, be online and have interests. any kind of insult along the lines of "how are you [age] and still..." is just reinforcing the idea that life ends when your 20s end and will eventually bite anyone using it in the ass

the implication was that it is somehow immature of me to be interested in ~dark themes~ in storytelling and fiction and talking about them with fellow adults on the very much completely insignificant-in-the-grand-scheme-of-things blogging platform tumblr dot com. the reality is that building connections with your community in real life is gonna have a much more real impact in the world than years of wasted time harassing strangers online

i think it'd be much more embarrassing for me to still feel like i'm somehow a terrible person because i want the homestuck clonetwins to kiss. as you age it becomes clear that, sincerely, in the words of a long gone great blogger, not to be fake deep but none of this is real

[radlyradar]

my g.i. joe headcannons are (this is going to be SO LONG but you asked for it so I feel only a little guilt <3)

Bazooka is autistic (if you watch 'a real american hero' he tends to only speak a few words at a time)

Bazooka isn't supposed to be away from alpine or else bazooka will do some wild shit (again, if you watch the 80s one you know he's wild)

Shipwreck has gotten at LEAST 3 male g.i. joes to wear skirts/dresses (canonically there's only one so far)

Scarlett makes everyone watch Spider-Man with her (cannon one-off background scene I took to heart)

Gung-ho got his outfit at a stripper store and still hasn't noticed (no one says anything bc it's funny and the people who would say something don't know)

Cover girl and Shipwreck are in a wlw/mlm alliance

Spirit got his nickname bc of Spirit the horse (based off the fact anytime I'm like 'yeah they named the native american character Charlie Iron-Knife and gave him the nickname spirit :/' everyone goes 'like the horse???'

Destro, Cobra Commander and The Baroness are in a poly relationship. So are the dreadnoks. (Cannon. It's cannon.)

The reason Barbecue has a like, radio announcer type accent (i think its him? Its either him or a seperate guy whose in a similar big suit) is because when he's in the big suit he started talking like that as a joke and it stuck

Wild Bill isn't actually from a ranch or whatever in Texas. He's from like, the middle of Austin and has just been pretending. (I dont know his actual story but I'm from Texas and he's a goofy stereotype so it's funny to think he's just.. lying and that's why he's like that)

yippee!!!!

first off, I totally I agree, I’m pretty sure I’ve said it before that I think bazooka is catholic and my only proof is that he’s from Minnesota lol. He’s like my GI to projecting character because he’s one of my favorites.

also yeah, I don’t think it’s like a spoken thing that he’s not supposed to be with Alpine, but everyone knows that if he’s seen by himself or just with quickkick (theres an episode of them together and doing crazy shit) other Joes immediatley go ask him what’s up because he’s probably gonna cause a ruckus.

I hc Shipwreck as bisexual, the only reason for this is because it would be so funny, I just wanted to say that. But yeah I agree. I sincerely doubt it’s out of a place of goodwill, this guy is getting them the worst dresses you’ve ever seen.

ALSO AGREE, I hc this along with footloose is one of those guys who will always do the most god awful dance then try to get someone to join (oftentimes dusty because they’re paired up a lot).

The Gung-Ho one is fucking hilarious, when you consider his circumstances. He was in the marines right before GI Joe for years, he lived in the middle of a swamp, the other Joes are mostly confused on how the fuck he could have gotten ahold of that?

I love covergirl and Shipwreck but she’s totally a lesbian, no way the former model, turned army mechanic, likes men, she’s been surrounded by too many sucky ones her whole life.

Ough Spirit, the 80s did that poor guy dirty

ITS CANNON

dude, I love him because he’s supposed to be from BOSTON. WHAT IS THAT ACCENT. You may also be refering to Blowtorch who’s Irish and from Florida for some reason??? 😭 what’s wrong with them?????

As a fellow Texan, I think he fits the rich Texan stereotype. Most folks aren’t like that, but I’ve met people who honest to god act like that.

[justletmesmokeandsleep]

*otp with fellow autistic friend*

Friend:*screech*

Me: *immediately mimics*

Friend: (very sincerely) thank you

@justtosaygoodbye

[gripes-withthesun]

some people reblogging that addition with the story about my friends and I gushing over each other behind each other's backs are saying "or you could just say that to their faces" or "this is why you need to tell them instead of keeping it in your mind" but the thing is!! I got to know about it in the first place BECAUSE I was told.

When I exited the staff room after our discussion on the paper presentations I found them talking and they said "we were just talking about how cool you are" and i was like "no way! We were talking last night about how cool you are!" That incident was reassuring because it helped us open up to each other as a friend group too. When I hear a song that reminds me of my friend I text her now and say 'I think I like this song only because I imagine it in your voice'. When I'm at some fun event I text my friend saying 'wish you were here with me'. But the knowledge that our friends don't "secretly hate us" had to come from that incident for me.

Because at the very centre of it is this insecurity that they might lie when they're saying it to our face, they might be saying it to be nice, they might be pretending to like us for whatever reason, they might have liked us once but don't anymore and don't know how to say it, etc etc. And I think it's far more reassuring for a lot of us to know that even when we aren't there, even when there is no impetus to be lying, even then our friends will express their love towards us. Not just to us, but to anyone who will listen. It's a beautiful thing!

And likewise there are so many people tagging the story with how they have a hard time expressing their affection too, or they don't feel ready to gush about someone to their face, and that's not a flaw, that's also coming from the same insecure place of coming off as caring too much, as being too invested, as being too close, as being too "desperate", all of which has been used against a lot of people. Or it's simply a difference in communication styles. And that's why just knowing that your friends' love for you is still constant and expressed without your presence is reassuring and opens up more avenues to communicate all this in the first place.

Lot of people, especially fellow autistic people👋🏻, who are saying that's not been their experience? That's absolutely valid. Because it hadn't been mine either until I was in college, and it really is hard for neurodivergent and particularly autistic folk when every friendship is a guessing game of when their patience with your lack of social understanding runs out and they start "dropping hints" that they don't wanna be friends anymore but you never pick up those hints. Those insecurities don't just come out of nowhere and that's why it takes us long to feel secure enough in a friendship to both 1) know that our friends love us for realsies and 2) be able to express the sheer magnitude of our own affection without fear of it being another thing for them to mock. It takes time to feel secure in our connections again! And that's okay we're all just trying to find our place and recovering, and that's why incidents like those mean so much to people like us.

Sorry about this getting so long, but tldr: "just tell them they're cool to their face instead!" hasn't worked for many of us because of valid experiences of ostracization. It's a great practice to have to tell your friends you love them! But for anyone who isn't feeling secure enough to do so, it's okay to express affection in other ways. Gush about your friends to other friends! Maybe even with that friend present. Because that first time my friends said "we were just talking about how cool you are" it was said in this casual manner but that opened up the gates for much more ardent and sincere expressions of love

[fallowtail]

@ my fellow autistic adults when do you stop feeling like a tween piloting an adults body and not in the “adulting hard!” way but in a genuine “i sincerely don’t think i’ve cognitively grown past 12 to 14 at the most and it is severely impacting my ability to function in adult society and i need to heavily rely on my partner to be a caretaker to survive because of it” way 🫠

[voidandcold]

hey, fellow autistic here.

trans rights are human rights. everyone in the LGBTQIA+ community faces oppression, so why the fuck do you discriminate against other members of the SAME COMMUNITY?

sincerely, a concerned cishet.

What rights exactly do they not have???

I'm fighting for female only spaces, for lesbians to be able to talk openly about their same sex attraction (and to have their own spaces) and for people whose brains aren't fully developed to not be treated as test subjects