#shouldve tried to make everything not look so soft

[staticpour]

new rendering technique idk if it was supposed to come out like this but ehhh its okay, good even

i scanned this old doodle from maybe a year ago and just colored it in recently

sketch below

[mishy-mashy]

Kudo is actually such a kind, soft-hearted guy that had to toughen up because he cared too much

He looked at AFO's rule, and even though he was weak, he had that glint in his eye that has been referred to as the "will of a hero" to oppose him. A hopeful glint shared with Midoriya, Bakugo, and Hawks

He even parallels Hawks when they talk about that particular look in their eye

From a glimmer in the eye, to which eye is shown, how much of the face, a similar angle of the face, and placement of text questioning the existence of that light,

He stormed to kill Yoichi with Bruce, but couldn't, once he saw the state Yoichi was in. Even knowing he was the enemy, he still reached out his hand and never let go, even when they were running

When Yoichi died, even though they'd only been together for two months, Kudo still cried and froze up.

This is a reaction from a man who repeatedly used lives as a stepping stone for his own goal.

Kudo said himself, that victory was life, and defeat was death. He had killed and seen his friends killed over and over, but still cries when it happens again. And to someone he only knew for two months, at that.

Kudo gathered allies under his cause, and they were loyal enough to die for him. Bruce cries (still smiling tho) facing AFO, tried protecting Kudo when he froze up at Yoichi's death, and we see all Kudo's comrades dead in the end. Maybe Bruce was suicidal when he went to face AFO, knowing he'd die, but most of his comrades (and Kudo) were already gone. Their cause was snuffed out, but the will persisted.

Kudo is a bit like Aizawa.

A bit crass and blunt, doesn't like beating around the bush, but he can clearly see what kind of person you are. He's not openly kind, but you know he cares so much, but has also lost too much once. He's seen his friend(s) die, and shouldn't it have been him in that spot? Shouldn't he have died instead, but was forced to continue living for that dead person's sake?

His speech about why we call Abilities "Quirks", recognizing people's intent over raw power is the real power. (Ch 369)

He's blunt and goes straight to the results rather than beat around the bush, but it doesn't mean his heart is frozen and he doesn't care about you. (Ch 408)

He cares so much, and that's why he has to do so much. (His whole Resistance thing, figuring out how Yoichi's Factor works to make sure Yoichi and his will can live on in some way)

He recognizes that Midoriya isn't driven by duty, but that he genuinely adores Quirks too much. (Ch 414) He could look at Midoriya, read that immediately, and even though he looked through his memories, Midoriya's character was his takeaway. Not that Midoriya is an idiot for letting himself be stepped on, or that this kid was bullied, but that Midoriya could see the goodness in others.

Like how Aizawa saw that Midoriya was relying on the reason [It can't be helped] whenever OFA broke his bones and told him he can't always break himself just because he could be fixed (Midoriya's recklessness that showed itself on the first day of school). He called out something that was an underlying, innate belief to Midoriya, that was so normal to the teen, and no one else had brought up as wrong to him.

The first thing they perceive is a person's character.

When Aizawa tied up Midoriya on the first day of school, he wasn't telling him off over his Quirk destroying him being a PR thing or too gruesome for the public. It was out of the fact that his Quirk shouldn't destroy him, because it's dangerous for Midoriya.

Aizawa came off antagonistic, but he was looking out for Midoriya. He didn't want him to keep breaking his whole arm, he didn't want him to get stuck in the mindset that he had to get hurt to use his Quirk, he was looking out for his wellbeing from the start. A kid he didn't know personally until that day.

Kudo did a similar thing. He turned his back, and refused to help, because they were putting their hopes in a delusional boy who would go too far. When the vestiges realized their gathered Abilities and Quirks were letting Midoriya have the freedom to do as he wished, Kudo already knew, only saying "His path is the right one". He could relate to having to run full-sprint to see your goal realized, even if everything opposed him, but didn't want Midoriya to go through that same path alone.

If he were alone, he'd be like Nagant. He had to have comrades to be like Kudo, able to continue and stand for their beliefs, but having comrades to fall back on, or pull him back when it's too much. That's why he follows up in that moment with, "But, if there's something Midoriya does need..."

Kudo and Aizawa could see themselves or their comrades in others, and knew how to approach those character flaws that were normalized to others and said person.

Kudo could see others for who they were, and I think it's this, and his caring nature, that he gathered so many allies with him. He knew when to be blunt, when to show kindness, that the truth hurts but needs to be seen, was actually very logical and witty, and when to step aside and let people do their thing, even if it wasn't the best move (like saving All Might). Because that was what was best for that person.

It's not like people would join someone so wholeheartedly without conviction and being left unseen by that person. So many people were willing to die with and for Kudo, and Bruce believes in him so much.

When All Might's vestige was fading and becoming more solid, Kudo had to look away. They knew it meant All Might was dying in the real world.

Kudo was telling Midoriya not to intervene with Gearshift there. But once he saw All Might genuinely dying out, he couldn't look at him, and kept quiet. He stopped hanging onto battlefield logic of necessity, shut up, let Midoriya do his thing, and it saved All Might. It saved Midoriya from seeing his idol die in front of him, and Kudo didn't have to see another ally die beside him.

The chapter is literally called [We Love You All Might!!]. Even if it's just meant to focus in Bakugo and Midoriya, and only has 2 exclamation marks, it can't discount the world is watching. The vestiges care about All Might too.

When the vestiges come up with the plan to forcibly transfer themselves to deal damage, Kudo volunteers himself as the test dummy. Sure, he backs it with a lot of reason too, but he didn't want anyone else to go first as a test drive

He, with a Gearshift Ability that resembled a manual car, was the test drive. Ha ha pun- *gets shot*

En tried going first. Kudo rejected him, saying he would go first.

"Part ways with Gearshift [me], and you'll be free of the crippling recoil too."

Too. TOO.

KUDO JUST WANTED TO GO AND BE DESTROYED FIRST. HE PUT THE FREEDOM OF RECOIL DOWN AS AN EXTRA BONUS SO THEY'D AGREE WITH HIS CHOICE.

I'd cut the image so it looks better, and I can use Bruce's words elsewhere, but this is an image limit, so,

- Kudo refused to let anyone else go first. This was before giving reasons to convince them he should leave first

- En gives reason to why it can't be Kudo. Kudo just says, "Listen." and reminds them of now.

- Look at Kudo's face when he says that. The guy knows what he's doing when he cuts off En, and would probably be a horrible liar. He might as well be pulling this out of his ass.

He's said "The world will end" "You have to or else" "Five minutes" "You're going to die" a few times in this fight already. DUDE STOPPP

(Terrible liar and a guy who purposely eggs you to torment? What a great friend he would be [yknow, when u make ur friends freak out by being ominous or reminding them of stuff. Like Toast to Lilypichu in a game of Observation Duty])

- "Too."

- Bruce's trust in him, but knowing when to pull Kudo back from going too far

Also, when he's transferred, he smiles to Midoriya. He knows he's about to die again, but the last thing he does for Midoriya is

1) Take away the recoil of his existence as a Factor on the boy

2) Reassure him that it's okay, so it doesn't weigh on his conscience

Even if only in thought, STILL!

KUDO LOOKED SO PROUD OF MIDORIYA!

I bet Kudo is suuuch a sentimental fool

> [Be me and watch your new friend die]

> [I have Yoichi's Factor]

> [It's like I carry his will now]

> [Have a glint of opposition in my eye that drives the Demon Lord and my comrades (Bruce) crazy]

> [Hey Bruce, let's figure out how it transfers]

> [Bruce's common sense VS my rabid ideas]

> [I win]

> [Bruce was unwilling the whole time and still ends up with the Factor]

> [The Factor is named One For All, after something in Yoichi's favorite comic book series]

> [We pass it on to the future to carry forward]

> [Even as everyone else and me dies, I make sure Yoichi and his will are safe from his Demon Lord brother that locked him up]

> [Decades later, my sweet vaulted friend reminds me of when we met]

> [I turn around and give my whole-hearted support to believe in some 15-year old boy because Yoichi believes in him too]

SEN - TIM - ENT - AL!

When Shinomori was stolen by AFO, Shinomori pushed everyone away before they could really notice the invader. Kudo called out for him.

Everyone is in shock, but I don't think it's a mistake that the text bubble calling out for Shinomori is pointing from Kudo.

All For One made it through and is ready to steal them, but the first thing Kudo did was call out for the one at the very front.

[On the post I made that mentions Shinomori pushing everyone away] What if Kudo wasn't pushed away? What if this was him at the front, realizing the danger and turning around, but being unable to do anything for Shinomori when he saw?

Like Bruce, Kudo communicates. He doesn't expect you to just follow or understand him. He actually lays it out and makes sure you keep up.

He explains

- the transfer of vestiges, and why he should go first

- his Quirk

- why Quirks are Quirks

- reports to Midoriya what's happening and what's next

- to Yoichi why they couldn't trust in a delusional boy. In a way that wasn't Bruce's roundabout "we lived in a terrible era and a leader gathered us"

When En panics, he barks at En to keep up. By barking at him, rather than any other way he could've used his tone, it shuts up En in his frantic babbling. Kudo also lets Vestige Might put in his thoughts to understand better, and uses it.

Eye reflection. Kudo can really see people for who they are, and understands others, and himself.

I can't repeat the pics cuz image limit, but look at previous panels here. For example, Kudo saying Yoichi's will lives in him, and when AFO reflected in his eyes

It's something I learned from Re:Zero. When a person in reflected in one's eye, something something that person can see the true core of you, of what you really are underneath everything. The eyes are the window and mirror [glass] of the soul. I finally see the true you.

AFO never reflected anyone.

But Kudo reflected AFO when the man accidentally killed Yoichi. He saw that AFO wasn't seeing anything, so later, Kudo smiled and mocked AFO at his own death.

"Yoichi?"

"He's gone."

"You killed him, Demon Lord."

And AFO hated that reminder.

Kudo was reminding him of what the truth was. Kudo saw it himself, and AFO blocked it out from the get-go. Kudo already knew what AFO was, what he was seeing, what he was doing to himself by blaming Kudo instead of himself.

And then, Kudo's eyes reflected his own hand when he realized Yoichi's Factor was in him.

Kudo clearly saw himself, and in himself, Yoichi. Nothing distorted it. It really was a clear mirror.

He really perceived Yoichi's will was living on, and was right. Otherwise, his eyes wouldn't have shown it.

Kudo was right about AFO. It's even implied back when he and Bruce had their backs turned; Kudo knew what AFO's real goal was. That was back when AFO preached unity and division under him.

Kudo could always see right through AFO. He really understood people from the start. And he never tried making up truths to justify what he was seeing, facing it head-on.

Kudo's lying about the world being black and white.

Kudo and Bruce saw the world as black and white. This was mentioned in the void.

Kudo also says, "Victory meant life. Defeat meant death."

But it's the Resistance. It's when Japan and the world was at their lowest. The world wasn't black and white; there's lots of gray.

Kudo and Bruce would've seen this. Kudo even admits that there's gray, just not directly.

Kudo says Yoichi knows, how he killed and trampled so many lives, to get back at AFO. He knows it wasn't right, or an amazing choice. Later, he says that when your back is against the wall, you have to make callous judgements. These hint at gray moments.

Kudo and Bruce have faced and been in the gray. But it's too hard to make the right choices, and there are times there is no right answer.

Historically, soldiers would convince themselves the enemy were monsters. They wouldn't be able to fight and kill them otherwise. They wouldn't be able to live with themselves without believing in this so badly.

Kudo and Bruce had to have been the same way. They were Meta Humans [Monsters] in a time they were viewed as diseased humans. The monsters were real. And they had a Demon Lord. Kudo and Bruce literally dressed up as soldiers.

Even if they were monsters to society, being Meta, Kudo and Bruce were still human. They knew this. The ones who tried believing in only black and white were inhabitants of the gray itself.

But they have to protect themselves. Kudo is so adamant that the world is only black and white, because he can't stand the gray. What it makes him do, what it means, that he's too weak to do anything.

Yoichi is an example of that gray area. The mortal enemy's younger brother, was actually locked up and sickly. He's just a comic book nerd. And it humanized the other side Kudo opposed so vehemently.

Kudo says victory is life and defeat is death. And Yoichi asked why he reached out to him then. He reminded Kudo of that gray area, and Kudo opened up.

Kudo might avoid the gray area because it's a matter of the heart and a moral dilemma, but it's what makes him human. When there's no right answer in the battlefield, he decides on his feelings instead.

He wishes the world was black and white, because it'd be so easy. But it's not.

Yoichi reminded him of how entering that gray area led to OFA ("when you reached out your hand to me"), and it had been the best choice in the end. The gray area is real, and Kudo's left a bare man with only his emotions when he's there.

Kudo is actually really kind and understanding. He's too soft for his own good. Thanks if you made it this far, I hope it makes sense (tag and image limit)

[soombee]

🫂 ｡ﾟ⊹ you’ve built a home in my heart — 10. drunk confessions

:: u got up at 2 am to get some snacks at the convenience store down the street. for your inconvenience, you quietly opened the door to meet a peculiar sight, someone trying to sleep on the floor across the hallway because their roommate has their gf over .. ?

warnings ⚠️ none

word count ‼️1,043 / 1k wrds !!

yunjins apartment, 09:47 pm

the rest of the day was boring. from seven am till now, nothing eventful as happened, hyunjin wasnt even home so you decided to visit yunjin. honestly, you forgot about drinking till you saw rikis twt

“oh” how thoughtful it was for him to remind you,

10:06 pm — drinking w yunjin

“yunjiiinnnn, this isnt faiirr!!” you sulk, face is hot and sweaty from the soju. “that shouldve been meeee..”

“ynnn, what if shes his sister or something??” yunjin pats your hair, “its okay baby, we’ll ask him tomorrow”

“but i wanna talk to him now, we havent talked since yesterday” you can’t believe youre acting so soft for a Man..

“no ml, uve already had too much to drink” she snatched your phone out of your hands, and damn you wish you hadnt been so stubborn that night

quickly, you took your phone back from her grasps and opened imessage,,

🔍 search : my loser baby 🙈🙈 🎙️

riki didnt even realize he dropped everything he was doing just to come and take care of you,

“im so doomed..”

1:38 am

ding dong, the doorbell rang and yunjin went running to it

“thank god youre here, just go straight n take a right and she should be over there”

“alright, thank you.” he bowed as a sign of respect, “im riki, btw” reaching his hand out to the brown haired girl in front of him

“yunjin” they shake hands

whys he so sweaty… - yunjin

“ugh hes so pretty its so annoying.” you yelled from the room you were in, not realizing you were shouting “i cant keep pretending like i dont wanna kiss his plump ass lips when i see him..” you cried out, tears falling down your cheeks

“youre so dramatic, yn!” yunjin made sure u heard her, “why are you crying!?”

whos she talking abt ..? — riki

suddenly, you felt a hand lift your chin up, forcing you look up to riki with teary eyes. the sight tugged his heart strings, he cant bear to look at you like this. he took a seat beside u, and with a gentle touch, he reached out and wiped away the tears from your cheeks, his fingers lingering for a moment longer than usual, a flicker of romantic tension between you two

“stop crying, u look so ugly”

“…”

“why were u crying anyways”

“cause i fuckign hate you”

“wtf did i do”

“i hate you so much, u do all of this just to get my hopes up” you punch his chest

“what..?” rikis heart skipped a beat

“i dont even know how i liked you in the first place, youre such an ass to me.” what a blatant lie you just told, even he treated you better than most of your exes

“…”

“you make me jealous even though you arent mine,,”

“yn, youre drunk go home” yunjin cuts you off but was too late to save you from the embarrassment in the morning.

rikis car, 2:22 am

riki watched as you stumbled out of yunjins apartment, steps unsteady and words slurred. concerned, he approached you with caution

“yn, are you alright?” riki asked

you looked up at him, eyes glassy and cheeks flushed. you giggled, swaying slightly as you tried to maintain your balance

“riki!” you exclaimed, voice overly enthusiastic. “i have something important to tell you!” the anger from earlier left your body

“yn, maybe its best if we wait until youre sober,” riki suggested gently, his voice filled with concern and nervousness

you pouted, your expression morphing from excitement to disappointment. you leaned closer to him, he can smell the alcohol from your breath

“why do u have to be so cute..” — riki

he sighed as his heartbeat raised, “lets get you home, and we can talk about this when you’re feeling better, alr?”

you nodded, eyes still filled with a mix of nothing and everything at the same time. riki guided you gently, supporting you as you walked into his car. the silence between you two felt heavy with tension, both aware of the awkwardness that hung in the air

your apartment, 2:48am

upon reaching your doorstep, riki helped u unlock the door. you stepped inside, and flopped down on the couch, head spinning from the alcohol

“hyunjin??” riki looked around the apartment for him, looking for someone to take care of you when he leaves, but he wasnt there “ig ill do it..” his ears turned red

riki gently led u to the bathroom to help u freshen up. with a warm washcloth, he began wiping away the remnants of the night, gently dabbing at your flushed cheeks and smoothing ur disheveled hair (niki husband material era😍)

with u cleaned up, he led u to the bedroom. he helped you settle under the covers, making sure you were comfortable. as he turned to leave, your hand shot out, gripping his tightly

“dont go,” you pleaded, voice vulnerable. “stay..”

riki paused, his heart fluttered at your touch and your words. he could sense the sincerity in your plea but he also knew you were drunk. like yunjin said, u werent able to think on your own yet

“i dont want to take advantage of you, yn” riki replied, his voice filled w concern. “youve had a lot to drink, ill be back in the morning dw”

your grip on his hand tightened, your eyes pleading him not to leave

“i know im drunk, riki,” she admitted, her voice tinged with vulnerability. “i have known ever since you washed my face. i dont want you to go, i need you here with me, please”

riki looked into your eyes, searching for sincerity and clarity amidst the haze of alcohol. in exchange, he saw the raw honesty and the fear of losing his presence.

“alr then,” riki conceded softly. “ill stay with you but we need to promise each other that we’ll talk abt this conversation when ure fully sober”

you nodded, relief washing over your features

as your breathing steadied, riki stayed by your side, hands intertwined. he watched over you, his presence offering solace in the midst of your vulnerability

“goodnight, yn” he whispered gently as he thought about everything

did u guys miss me 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🩷🤍🩷

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jonesmith analysis ep 31-32, 1-10 (part 3)

its here :D

episode 31 aka the shortest episode ever but I had a lot of fun pulling stuff from this one :)

"girls make him break out in a rash" Davy & Mike sensing another fag:

this ep was just Mike torturing Davy heh

Peter: "you know, it's going to be tough to replace a man like Frankie. after all, where do you find a guy that can't sing, act, or surf?"

Mike: "you could go out for the part, Davy."

^ came for him out of no where

manhandling and dragging him around by the scruff of his neck. I love that Mike rolls his eyes in the first gif.

also I love when the guys scoop up Davy at the end and tie him to the volleyball poll (a compromising position for him to be in). Mike shouldve pressed his crotch against Davy when he grabbed him from behind 🙄😔

ep 32

love Mike aggressively manhandling him here, he goes for a full choke... I also think Mike being goofy during the radio show and Davy giggling at everything he says is so fucking cute.

SEASON 2

ep 1 not anything specific to jonesmith I’d say since Davy is kidnapped most of it. I do love Mike's line deliver on "David means business, baby"

also when theyre singing and it looks like Davy is yelling into his ear.

ep 2

using my one video per post early bc theres no way to convey this through a gif

this ep was a great jolenzmith ep as they quite literally say "we're all in this together"so I’d feel too bad cutting Micky out of the jonesmith analysis BUT I will include this frame bc its so cute and silly

ep 3

this scene where Mike tries to barge into the room like a knight in shining armor there to save Davy and Davy is just chillin.

^ my gif doesnt do his little voice break justice.

Mike touching Davy's arm here during the scene where theyre telling Davy not to marry this random girl and Davy's like no im not gunna.

their adorable shenanigans in the background pointed out here.

ep 4

Davy descibing Mike as "comfortable and familiar" cuteee.

damsel in distress bit

Davy straightening Mike's tie is so cute to me and the little hand pat after gahhhhh so soft "take it easy Mike, dont be nervous" I love them

ep 5

waist grab

ep 7

whatever he was doing here

Davy Jones 🤏👏 all ground up.

when they go back to Ella Mae's house and Davy's pants get caught on the nail so he calls out to Mike for help AND his cute little "hiya Mike" when everyone comes running outside. literally only acknowledging Mike in these scenes. I know, he only got two eyes.

ep 8 i love this ep all of the guys are super touchy with each other. I was determined to include every tiny little scene they were in physical contact but it was genuinely too much so i picked my faves (and its still a lot).

Davy's deathgrip on Mike's wasit, as he should.

Mike grabbing Davy when hes startled, role reversal.

kinda went crazy with gif making this ep 🙈 whatever. love is stored in the grabbing of each others arms.

ep 10 gay ass episode

finger sword fight. an analogy to a different type of "sword fighting"

Davy big smile Mike teeny little smile wahhhh. from HERE.

Mike draping his arm over Davy. I am in a coma from this scene

Davy resting his chin on Mike's shoulder AUUGGHHHHHH. + them being cute dorks.

[prettynhot]

12.01.2024 Fri the start of something? maybe?

2024 has been an amazing year so far! with the whole discovereu thing and the overall feeling,i’ve been doing good mentally! i feel and know that 2024 is going to be great!

i watched a vid yesterday about how our habits create our identity which goes hand to hand with our present moment. the girl on the vid was talking about the people who say “oh i used to be so skinny yet i thought i was fat, i was so skinny back then wish i knew!” she was making an analogy about how theres no end to a downfall. just goes and goes and goes until you decide to take things up a bunch of notches.

so i want to.

i love me,i love the girl i am,i love everything about me but not fulfilling my potential makes me feel unplesant.so i geniunely want to change. i’ll see how that goes. but i want to treat myself like a loved one again.

theres not so much ive achieved academically though yet.the reason for that is me. no bs. its me who didnt study hard and as much as i shouldve did and fell of my tracks. thats my fault and i know. just as i messed up though,i know im capable of getting everything back together as they were and maybe even better.with the whole huge exam thing i felt like i needed to push n push myself, not to care for myself and such. i thought that was the way it had to be.but no its simply not. im okay as i am. i have time. i have time for this and i have time for that. im good and on time.

lovin and caring for me has been a long journey and am not willing to give up just yet.

on that note and to take an action, i started getting help from one of my teachers. hes been great for this little time. i know thisll help me so much academically.

one other thing about that is the fact i have developed a crush on him.

and i know.

okay

i know!

but it was inevitable eventually.

hes a good and young looking man,who is quite fit and tall,knows how to dress, incredibly intelligent,mean to everyone else but me.

it was inevitable.okay.

i couldnt help but melt at all those times he made a joke and looked at me first to see if i was laughing,looked at me the most while teaching,always protecting me from other students.

plus considering all the di i have and my little tc history before,its not shocking. however i cant say that im not disappointed in myself a little. i thought my tc era had fully ended n i was recovered,healed,past that.appearently not. it does feel like going back a bit,like i’ve came back to an old self which shouldve been far far behind. however im not judging me cuz i know i had every single reason to and tbh,having a crush is very very fun. but anyway! theres that.

and actually,for some time i had noticed the little signs of me developing a crush,but i tried to ignore them signs and push them back time n time again,however they didnt magically disappear as i truly hoped they would.

and one other thing about all this is, after i realized i seriously had a crush on this man, before i started taking special academical help from him,it showed up in my behavior. and yes obviously thats very immature and childish for an 18yo. i know. im supposed to be an adult now and here i am going to my teachers office asking him “why are you working in the dark?would you like me to turn on the lights for you?” OUT OF NOWHERE.🤦🏻‍♀️ EMBARASSING UGHHH. i dont know what came over me truly. guess i want just behaving instinctively. but that was a dead giveaway from me and it sucked. he literally laughed when i did that💀cuz even he thought that was certainly absurd💀very embarassed.done with this.

anyway,ever since then i did have some little moments of instinctive behaving which were little giveaways. since then he has not been acting the same, which was what i loved the most,him being mean to everyone but very soft on me.

ever since these incidents, he has been incredibly mean to me. to a point where i was just about to cry once.

that one day i was about to cry,the one he really hurt me,he was dropping me off at my house since it was quite late. and it’s actually a nbd because he always drops students off and im always at seated at the back,for everything to be appropriate. yk,teacher student boundaries etc.whatever that means.

anyway he was quite chatty despite playing on me n being mean to me the whole time of both his classes but i was actually hurt. i had to keep myself from bursting tears in front of the whole class so i focused on my breathing n posture in order to not cry. and i did not since i made great efforts.but i couldnt help but feel like clown since i had dressed prettily,done my make up prettily just for him to maybe look at me more. notice me more. for him to be even nicer to me.i just wanted to be pretty for him to look at okay. i liked his validation i still do. so maybe i wanted that more i genuinely dont know. now writing all this maybe(probably) i was desperate n it showed. whatever the case maybe he was too mean. wayy too mean. yet still on the way home,he’s on his best behavior trying to talk to me,while we are alone in the car. he asks me questions about class,i answer them as they are.he did notice i was upset. he asked me about it. i told him nothing happened. he kept asking and asking. finally i told him how he hurt me so much during class. to this he got on full defensive mode, explaining himself quite ambitiously yet somehow mainting to stay relaxed and being able to laugh. going on about how teachers could be hurt from students but students cant from teachers and how just messing with students was the only thing he liked about being a teacher and i was trying to take that away from him?

honestly? bullshit to me. after he was done i explained i wasnt mad, i wasnt acting weird towards him or anything like that and i wasnt accusing him,i was just telling him how i felt upset by his behavior. to that he stayed silent for a while. then went on to say that i should focus on my studies no matter what and shouldnt care about what he says that much. then i told him we’ll see about that, thanking him while getting out of car.

and that day i had actually promised i’d go to see him for an academic review the day after but i decided not to go because i had a far more important thing to do.

today we had a class together.i intentially did nearly no make up,dressed slightly below average and avoided eye contact as much as i could, just cuz tomorrow ill go all out,so i wanted to create that contrast. im not trying seduce him nor am i willing to date him in any way, i just like his attention very much and i like the feeling of “winning someone over”. so i will. i believe in no time he’ll be doing his best to not like me so much. hes a strong minded man of principle so i know he certainly wont even get close to passing any lines in the teacher-student relationship,however id like to see him struggle :)

so thats all about him and my little crushing.

after im done writing this,i’ll get back to my house and study for tomorrows big big exam n pick out my outfit n make up for that day. then making myself some hot milk foamed coffee and resting is also in my plans.

thats all i can say for today. my friends didnt come to attend any classes tdy so i dont have any updates on that part,other than one of my friends texting me they have ripped the blouse they borrowed from me n could repurchase the same thing ‘if i’d like them to’ 🙂 obvi i said that wasn’t necessary because i know she wouldnt be able to get her finances right to afford that but im still upset because that blouse made me body look incredibly amazing:( but it’s okay ig.

well:)

all for now. see you tomorrow? ;)

[winderlylandchime]

1/2We are on 4x08 and he is sitting with his fingers crossed and repeating to himself ‘not cancer, not cancer, not cancer’. ‘BRIAN IS BACK AT BABYLON! SEE! It was just a scare. Where’s Blondie? Go find him- VIC?! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? Vic, i miss you baby. I miss you so much. What’s with the old guys? Oh fuck. I don’t like the sight of Brian in a hospital bed. Horrible’ ‘is Ben still a bitch because Rage might become a movie? Grow up man.’ Deb is shopping for the gravestone ‘promise me, you wont pull some type of shit like that. Just give me a little stone and write ‘well fuck’ on it and that will be perfect.’ ‘BRIAN IS BACK! He looks like shit, poor baby. *jumps up and screams* HE HAS TO GET TO CLASS! HE WENT BACK TO SCHOOL! HE LISTENED! Of course Brian wants to drive him. (Cuts to britin in the car) LOOK AT THEM! Brian, you gotta come clean. HE MISSED HIM! HE FUCKING MISSED HIM! The man who was willing to do anything to get rid of him in season 1, just casually said “i missed you”. I AM NOT OKAY. (Brian tries to prove justin he missed him with a kiss) oh just suck his dick! (Justin keeps saying he’s not convinced and brian laughs) THAT RIGHT THERE IS SOME BIG DICK ENERGY. He has that man wrapped around his finger. Good for you Blondie. (brian takes his shades off) oh poor baby, he looks exhausted.’ ‘I don’t know what this lindsay and the painter bullshit is. But i need it gone because it is taking air time away from Brian’ the Justin/Mikey/Keller scene is up ‘oh is this the producer or whatever? Why does he looks familiar? I have a very soft spot for Justin calling Brian his boyfriend.’ ‘Aww look at Brian listening to Justin. Unlike some other boyfriend. How is he planning to hide the surgery from Justin? HE DOES LOOK TIRED! Brian just tell him. Does he plan on not having sex for a whole month or? (Justin is about to hear the voicemail) oh no. SHIT. OH SO THATS HOW HES GONNA FIND OUT?’ Justin is now confronting Mikey ‘oh poor baby, he looks so sad. He looks like he cried. Wait? He’s gonna tell Mike? Dude, go to Brian! WHY IS NO ONE TALKING TO EACH OTHER IN THIS FUCKING SHOW? It wouldve made more sense to go to Ted than Mike. Or Cynthia! Mike is gonna blow this out of proportion like i would. NO HE CANT HAVE CANCER! Okay, here’s what we’re gonna do fellas. Mikey you keep your mouth shut. Justin, you go to Brian and have a talk with him and I will continue to freak out’ and now we are at Brian in the office scene ‘you can hear it in his voice that he isn’t okay. Baby, please tell Justin. He looks and sounds like shit. Ted looks worried as fuck. THIS FUCKING SUCKS. All of it. He cant catch a break. Why didn’t he tell Ted? That would make sense.’ Deb has a breakdown in the diner: ‘oh my poor sweet Deb. This is gonna be me though if something happens to Brian, just so we’re all clear on that’ He is now groaning because of Linds and Sam ‘I don’t like this. He grabbed her ass. He suggested a threesome. She calls him a pig or whatever and now we’re friends? Weird and i hate it’ and we are now at babylon ‘Justin is trying to be sweet and caring and Brian is trying to be the Brian Kinney that Justin knows. If only this could be solved by, oh I don’t know…TALKING. (mikey tackles Brian) is he fucking stupid? Be honest? I swear he’s dumb. WHAT DID I SAY, he’s worse than me. He shouldve gone to Ted. Or Emmett. EXACTLY JUSTIN TELL MIKE HES BEING STUPID. I don’t like this producer dude, but that could be just because i don’t trust hollywood people. Ben really is a piece of shit. This is some shit Brian would pull in season 1 not mister Buddha.’ And we are at Britin scene ‘aw Justin’s not feeling well. ALL IT TOOK WAS CAN YOU COME WITH ME AND BAM BRIAN DROPS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING FOR HIM! Although why is he peacocking? He clearly cant fuck right now so who is he trying to impress with these dudes?���

BRIAN DROPPING HIM OFF AT SCHOOL IS EVERYTHING. It's such an incredible scene.

Sam! That's the fucker's name! Ugh what a terrible arc.

And yes, the failure to communicate about the cancer... so frustrating.

[doebt]

oh my god i am really in it now. you know its bad when a post apocalyptic fanfic is making you have realisations. i need to meet my mom again before she dies or i will die alone and consumed by guilt and regret and every other horrible feeling there is. i cant... live with myself

[anne-i-write]

moriarty the patriot headcannons pt. 1

| requested by anon: Can you write about all male characters in moriarty has a same look of their  children and hpw many children they want? |

william x reader; louis x reader; albert x reader; sebastian x reader; fred x reader

word count: 2397

pt. 2: 221b boys

a/n: I DONT KNOW WHY I DIDNT WRITE THIS EARLIER IM SO SORRY THIS REQUEST HAS LITERALLY BEEN IN MY INBOX FOR SO LONG I AM SO SORRY I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS

william: 487 words

with his whole plan to clean the world of the filthy nobles, william never really stopped to think about having children

well, until he met you

you both were in town one day and he saw you fondly watching a child speak with her mother

“i think two children would be nice”

“i didn’t even ask”

“i know, but the look you gave that mother was telling enough”

n e ways he is a simp and he did eventually give you what you wanted

fast forward a few years, you have two children: a boy and a girl

and they look exactly like their father

like,, it lowkey pains you how much they physically take after their father

you wanted to be like “oh they have your personality, but they look just like me!”

no

granted, your son took after you in an emotional sense but your daughter was a daddy’s girl through and through

like she looks like him, she acts like him, speaks like him, she even EATS like him

ok but the men w your children

fred is a freaking sweetheart ok

like he’ll watch over the kids when no one has the time and they love him too so they’ll help out in the garden which you are SO thankful for

tbh they only like uncle albert bc he brings them lil trinkets from when he gets back from london LMAO

louis doesn’t show it, but he absolutely adores your children and makes extra snacks for them at tea time

you caught onto this at one point bc for some REASON your kids would not stop bouncing off of the walls before bed and they told you uncle louis gave them chocolate

and sebastian loves messing w your kids bc,,, sebastian

but he accidentally made your son cry ONCE and he was at the mercy of every adult in the moriarty estate including the boy’s younger sister

needless to say, he watched his actions and words around your children after that

now, william

i’m just gonna say this straight out: most of the men never really thought about having kids (save john and albert)

but when you finally had kids, william had a different outlook on life

like fr,, this man works overtime now trying to get rid of the filth that is called nobles

he doesn’t want his kids to be raised in a world where just because you have more money than another means you get to look down on them

you still instill in them those good morals ofc

he also tries to be very present in their lives since he and his brother were raised as orphans

when he was younger, he didn’t mind it all much

but now that he had this small family and a brighter future, he did everything in his power to make sure they’re happy and grow up in a cleaner and kinder world

louis: 320 words

it took you a week to get him to at LEAST humor you

“if you could, how many kids do you want?”

“none”

like, this guy is so dedicated to his brother and his cause it is a WONDER you somehow wormed your way into his heart

but you did and honestly, the brothers are actually very happy that you’re with them

william especially

louis rarely emotes but when you came into their lives, you got louis pissed at one point and everyone was like,,,, wtf?? he has emotions???

anyways, his answer is one kid LMAO

and when you get that one kid, he looks just like louis

yall already KNOW that he’s ready to die for that child as soon as louis holds him in his arms

the only kid sebastian wouldnt even try to mess with

he can deal with william’s albert’s or fred’s kids but louis lowkey intimidates him so he’s as nice as he can be

that being said, louis teaches his kid how to properly handle stuff around the house

you want to cry bc ur son is just so??? the little kid just loves helping out no matter how small the task and he’s just so cute it hurts

even sebastian’s kinda like,, “aight he’s the only kid i will tolerate”

louis grew up with only his brothers so he also wants to give his son a shot at a normal family

is actually aware at how he thinks he’s indispensable for william’s cause and he doesn’t want his son to end up like him

he also teaches his son some badass fighting moves

oh and louis smiles a lot more too

cried bc his son saw the scar he got on his cheek, rubbed some dirt on his lil face and said “i have daddy’s cool scar now”

all in all his son is the best thing to happen to all of you

albert: 505 words

same as louis in the fact that it takes him a week to answer

“you know you haven’t even answered my question”

“i’m sorry, what did you say?”

“how many kids do you want?”

genuinely takes time to ponder that question

he hadn’t thought of that since his family adopted william and louis

but with you?

“i think two darling girls who take after their mother is enough for me”

pls he’d be so sweet 🥺🥺🥺

you two end up having a girl and a boy, who look just like their father

and tbh, you’re not even mad

you love them so much so when albert comes back north, the three of you are ecstatic

the happiness was short lived for albert tho

he found his son spending time with william and there’s nothing bad right????

“where’s your sister?”

“she’s with mr. moran”

his heart DROPPED

out of all the people in the manor

HIM

he sees the two running around the garden

it all happened as soon as albert’s daughter went up to sebastian and said “you’re very pretty! you’re my knight now!”

he decided to “adopt” the little girl and now he’s lowkey whipped

you found albert staring at sebastian playing with his daughter and updated him about everything going on

“but him??”

“he’s just a big softie for her let it go”

isn’t really surprised when he finds out they can fight a little

actually glad that they can hold their own, God forbid anything happens to them

otherwise mi6 has to deal w family matters lmao

“albert, she only tripped”

“you shouldve seen the fear in her eyes as she fell”

“IT WAS A STRAY COBBLESTONE”

would raise hell if anyone even THOUGHT ill of his kids

william and louis are the doting uncles

william more so than louis bc your kids have never seen louis smile

now they’re on a mission to make uncle louis smile

louis was on child duty one day and they managed to slip away

omyGOD he was stressed but also,, extremely worried

so when he found them he had the most genuine smile on his face

your daughter was like (・∀・)

she loves uncle louis

ofc your son adores his dad like,,, who else wouldn't feel awesome at the age of 10 if you found out your dad was a high ranking general

feels superior to sebastian bc of his dad

lmao this 4’5 kid thinks he can rule sebastian for some odd reason

the house is always dirty bc him and sebastian always prank each other

your daughter is trying to catch a butterfly but she can’t so fred helps

instantly loves fred

“is that what heartbreak is”

“i guess that’s what happens when you try to get close to my kids colonel”

albert is kind of afraid of turning into his dad but he has you and everyone else to remind him that: no you are not your father, you are so much better than him

loves your family with his entire being

sebastian: 844 words

“i see you looking at those kids and the answer is none”

lmao you’ll get so pouty around him bc you want kids dammit

that and he spoils you to no end so that's why you’re pouty lol

“fine we’ll only do one kid and bc one kid is all i can tolerate”

bruh

this man gives you three in four years LMFAO

two boys a year apart and a girl in the fourth year

you wanted to smack sebastian

when the two boys grew up, it was obvious they were already taking after their father in the physical sense

it was terrifying

they genuinely look like mini sebastians and you know everyone in the manor is afraid that you two birthed satan

and the satan was your eldest one

he’s just a feral sebastian moran in a tiny body

your second son, god bless him, looked just like his father but with fred’s temperament

and see, you were fine with your sons looking like their father

it was FINE right

you prayed to God that your third child would have at least some physical resemblance to you

your daughter was birthed, she grew up

and you cried

“HOW DO THEY ALL LOOK LIKE YOU”

“i’ve got some strong genetics, baby”

you sulk for a lil bit

but you accept it anyway because you love your goddamn kids

thankfully, your second and youngest child are both soft spoken and it's only your husband and his tiny clone bringing hell to earth

smacking sebastian bc all of your children suddenly started swearing up a storm at each other

“WHYD YOU HIT ME”

“YOURE THE ONLY ONE WHO SWEARS AROUND THE KIDS”

finally sitting down and trying to convince them to stop swearing

“father does it!”

“your father’s stupid”

speaking of your daughter

she’s his little princess and no he will not take criticism

spoils her more than he spoils you

did she glance at a toy at a passing store?

he buys more toys than he should from said store

you have to physically hide some of his money bc there is only so much you can buy

and her older brothers are so caring you want to sob

if a person accidentally shoved her over bc she was tiny and they couldn’t see her

oh boy

get ready to restrain them like chihuahuas

“little sister will be protected at all costs”

since his second son is so different from him, sebastian actively makes time to talk about what the little boy is doing and what he’s getting from it

doesn’t want to be pushy and suffocating like his dad was so when his younger kid does want to be left alone to his devices, sebastian does so

but honestly loves that your second son is so literate

lddhsajdsfk what yall dont know is that they’re all in cahoots

kinda funny to see them all together bc they all take after their father so much it's like having three tiny sebastians go around town

anyways,,,, yall know the promised neverland right

you got ray, norman, and emma

granted one of them wasn’t as smart as ray but he definitely knew what stealth was

regular sibling rivalry was still a thing but if they could smell the pudding from the kitchen, they know they have to work together

sebastian caught his eldest smuggling biscuits into a small bag

he had half a mind to scold him

but then he ended up giving tips TO ALL HIS CHILDREN on how not to get caught next time—

bc of this they beg him to tell them some stories from afghanistan bc “there’s no way a man as old as dad knows this many stealth tactics”

louis is so fed up lmao

albert is in london most of the time so he just thanks the lord that he doesn’t have to deal w the propaganda that sebastian feeds his children about how “mr. albert is a bad man”

william is fine w it as long as they don’t trash the library

your younger ones love the library so they would cry at the thought of one of the books losing any of the pages

your second and your daughter are definitely the moriartys’ favorites

they don’t show it, but you just KNOW

your eldest could care less about that though

as long as you and his father still love him

and of course you both do

and fred is definitely your youngers favorite

they like to hang out in the garden

ok they still fight all the time though

just because your second child is soft spoken doesn't mean he’s afraid to throw hands

their sister likes to join in for the hell of it

but if someone wrongs any of the children

just because the younger ones are the moriartys’ favorite, doesn’t mean that they’re not gonna hunt someone down if they even think about trying to hurt the eldest too

yeah,,, good luck to them and their families

they got the entire moriarty estate coming after them

fred: 241 words

cmon yall are like,, young

but you did ask him bc you were curious if he thought about it

he wants one

and when yall do have the kid, you guys actually do have one kid and its a girl

since you both are young, you can immediately see a resemblance between her and her father

everyone who meets her would die for her

ABSOLUTE CUTIE

especially when she walks around the garden w her hand in her dad’s and he’s showing her all the plants and telling her how to take care of them

needless to say she grows up loving plants

any type of plant

the boys love giving her flowers or anything from bc she has the biggest smile every single time

no matter if it’s just a single rose or a rock

this was found out one time when sebastian gave her a rock bc everyone else had given her like,, two roses each

was afraid she was gonna cry

“thank you so much mr. moran! i will treasure this until i get old!”

she was like 4 at the time

and had the widest smile you’ve ever seen on her

guys u don’t understand she smiles a lot but this was like,, genuine happiness

but everyone was just,, i will destroy the world and myself if anything happens to her

fr it’s just sunshines and rainbows every single time she’s around

everyone just loves her ok

moriarty the patriot general taglist: @zoehanji

[haikyuuthots]

Hellooo!! Uhm,, could u write a dad ushijima with a wife whos insecure abt her body afer giving birth to their daughter ?? 🥺👉👈 thank you!!

- 💭

Your beauty is remarkable. - Wakatoshi Ushijima

Pairing: W. Ushijima x Reader

Word count: 1.5k

Warnings: talk about insecurity, some self depreciation.

A/n: how’d you know I have baby fever hahahah jk. No but seriously, dad Ushijima makes me so soft 🥺🤍 thank u for requesting, hope you enjoy this bestie.

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There was no doubt your daughter was a blessing, you genuinely couldn’t be happier with her in your life, but even so you couldn’t help but be bothered with how your body looked. You knew it was irrational to be so hard on yourself, especially now because your daughter was everything you ever wished for, but you just couldn’t help but feel very insecure.

You’ve always tried your best to be confident in your skin. You never really had issues with your body, especially not with your husband Ushijima who always reminded you of your beauty. Whenever you pointed something out that you didn’t really like he was always quick to shut down any negative comments you had for yourself.

When you first got pregnant, you thought the baby bump was cute at first, but as time passed and you continued to grow, you couldn’t help but feel a little insecure. Sometimes you’d subconsciously makes comments about how other women looked so much prettier than you, and Ushijima would always get a bit upset

“Love you’re beautiful. Those women aren’t carrying our baby, so they can’t possibly be any prettier than you.”

His words would always make you smile, making you feel confident all over again.

When you gave birth to your beautiful baby girl; Celine , you thought nothing could take away the happiness you felt. She was perfect; she resembled her daddy so much, and you loved the fact that she did. Taking care of her has been the highlight of your life. Ushijima even took time off of work so he could attend to all of your and her needs, everything was great, you shouldve been ecstatic but the truth was, you found yourself feeling a bit sad still.

You couldn’t ignore how drastically your body changed after the pregnancy, and that has you feeling the most insecure you’d ever felt. You tried not to pay attention at first, but it’s been four months since you’ve given birth , and all you could notice was the new marks you had , and the new weight you’d put on. Also, to top it all off, you always looked tired and never bothered to get ready, because your priority was caring for Celine.

Ushijima could care less, to be honest he didn’t even notice the change in your figure. You were perfect in his eyes. His beautiful wife, and the mother of his baby. You’d always be gorgeous to him, but whenever you looked in the mirror you couldn’t say the same.

You tried your best to hide your insecurities, you didn’t want to make this about yourself, you had a beautiful baby and a supporting husband, you didn’t want him to worry about your inner thoughts.

One day you were in the living room doing your best to cradle your crying baby. Ushijima was in the kitchen preparing a bottle for him to give to your daughter. Making his way over to you two, with the bottle in hand he gently takes her from your arms

“Come here, my angel.” He gently says to your daughter as he grabs her from your hold “lets give momma some rest.”

You can’t help but stare in complete awe as you watch him cradle and feed your baby. The sight of them two always made your heart swell with complete joy.

Celine quickly halts her crying in her daddy’s arms.

“Traitor.” You jokingly whisper, pretending to be offended at the fact she stopped crying as soon as her dad grabbed her.

Ushijima just lets out a small chuckle. “She’s already a daddy’s girl. I always knew she would be.”

You jokingly roll your eyes, “yeah, yeah.”

His eyes soften as he looks at you, with his left hand he gently caresses you face “you should get some rest, I’ve got it from here.”

You knew he said this with the best intentions, he was only looking out for you, but for some reason you couldn’t help but take offense to his comment. The smile you had quickly fading away, as a pout begins to form

“Do I really look that bad.”

Ushijima is caught off guard, he had no idea how you came up to that conclusion, still you continue talking

“Is it that obvious that I need the rest?” Your words are filled with hurt, not being able to take your emotions anymore you make your way out of the living room, towards you room. Leaving your husband there with your daughter.

Ushijima has no idea how to react to your outburst. He meant no harm in his words, he was genuinely concerned with the lack of sleep you’d been getting lately, that’s the only reason he said that. He felt upset that’s he’d offend you in any way, all he wanted to do was clear up this misunderstanding.

You on the other hand had locked yourself in the bathroom. Staring at yourself in the mirror, you couldn’t help but point out every flaw you could find. The dark under bags under your eyes, the acne that has developed because of stress, your new stretch marks, the way your stomach looked, everything, you hated it all.

As tears begin to form from your eyes, you hear a light knock come from the door, your husbands voice following right after.

“Y/n, love, please open the door.”

No response, you had nothing to say.

Ushijima sighs from the other end, “please.” He says more desperately.

“I can’t! I feel so ugly, just leave me alone!” You shout, tears still falling from your eyes

Ushijima’s chest tightens, he couldn’t help but feel upset, he absolutely hated when you talked down on yourself

“You’re not! Don’t say that!” He yells back

You let out a small gasp, still overwhelmed by emotion

“Don’t lie to me,” you say a bit quieter

“I’m not lying, please y/n open the door”

You hesitate for a second, but his pleading voice was enough for you to listen to his request.

You quickly unlock the door and swing it open, with your tear stained face, you quickly speak

“Look at me Toshi. I’ve never looked worse.”

Ushijima instantly grabs you to wrap you into a tight hug

“Stop talking about yourself like that. I hate it when you do. You’re beautiful, the most beautiful girl I’ve ever laid eyes on.”

You’re gently crying as you listen to him speak, reciprocating the embrace

“I love you darling, everything about you. Your beauty is remarkable, it leaves me breathless everyday.”

Gently pulling away you look up at him “but I’ve changed so much, my body looks so different, I don’t like it.”

Ushijima holds your face to look towards him

“Love, you’ve been growing a baby for nine months, OUR baby. That fact alone makes you remarkable. You’re so gorgeous it hurts me knowing you don’t feel that way.”

“You’re only saying that.”

“I mean it. Every single word, you’re so beautiful words cannot even describe it.”

As you look up at him, your eyes soften as you continue to listen to him speak, he always knew what to say to make you feel better.

Ushijima gently begins to lean towards you, kissing you softly as he holds you close. You immediately reciprocate tangling your hands in his hair as he continues to move his lips against yours.

Pulling away he stares at you lovingly “I adore you. My gorgeous wife.”

You finally let out a small smile “I love you so much. Thank you Toshi, I’m so lucky to have you, I’m so sorry I put you through this.”

“Don’t ever be, I’ll be here every moment of every day to remind you of your beauty, inside and out. Always here for you.”

You two lean in for another kiss when suddenly you hear the soft cries of your baby from the other room.

Ushijima smiles down at you, still holding you close “thank you for the biggest blessing in my life. I owe it all to you.”

“I love you. That blessing is calling for us.” You chuckle out

He pecks your lips one last time before you two begin to make your way over to your daughter. Following right behind him, Ushijima gently picks your daughter up from her bassinet.

“Shhh baby, daddy’s here.” He gently coos, to soothe her.

He continues cradling her until she calms down, prepping kisses on her every now and then. When she finally stops crying you both stare at her in awe, Ushijima breaking the subtle silence

“She’s so beautiful. Just like you.”

You smile at his words, “she’s perfect.”

“That’s how I feel about you y/n. You’re perfect.”

“I love you so much Toshi. Thank you, I don’t know what I’d do without you.”

“I love you more.” He replies, leaning down to kiss you again.

Insecurity wasn’t something that could go away in a second, but you were beyond grateful you had someone like Ushijima, who was there to remind you every day how beautiful you truly were.

[parkjiminiemouse]

Eyes

I’m going to be 100% honest, this is pretty fucking dark. I’ve never written anything like this before but I kind of like it. Plus it’s October so I thought why not? Please please please read the warning and proceed with caution!

Warnings: Gore, explicit language, fem reader (not specifically mentioned by heavily implied), cheating, murder, attack, implied homophobia

Please let me know if I missed anything

Not edited.

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If I had the time to tell you all the fucked up things I’ve done throughout my lifetime, you would think I was the devil himself. To be fair, the people whose life I did fuck up deserved it. Though, there was this one man who started it all.

I remember that very night, I was sitting on the steps and I had met a man that was around my age, had red hair, and a beautiful singing voice. His name was Choi Jongho I would soon come to find out. When I tell you I was stupid enough to not just fall in love with him but to dedicate my heart, mind, body, and soul to this very man, it was the worst yet best mistake I had ever made. Sometimes I thank Jongho, he made me into the person I am today, the very best me I could possibly be.

Anyways, he was just, amazing in every sense of the word. I distinctly remember laying in bed with him for the first time, our legs tangled as a small giggle escapes my plump lips. He had the softest brown eyes and they held millions of stars in them. His soft hands caressed my cheek, a hint of a smile on his face as he finally whispered the words I longed to hear, “I love you.”

When he said that, his fate had been sealed. I didn’t know it at the time nor did Jongho but those words would be the very reason why he was murdered, love. When people said love can make someone do crazy things I didn’t believe them one bit, they were making things up, right?

It was one of those quiet nights again, laying beside Jongho as he looked at me with starstruck eyes. My heart swelled in my chest, a soft blush appearing on my cheeks as he whispered sweet nothings into my ear. Opening my mouth to speak I was quickly interrupted by his phone ringing. A frown soon replaced the soft smile that was once placed upon my face as he sat up and answered it. The warmth of the moment fading as quickly as it came.

He left moments later and what was once blissful silence had now turned into bitter silence. He had been leaving very often lately and I had grown curious so naturally I followed after him. What I found was a sight that broke my heart but to this day, fuels my anger. The soft lips that once kissed mine were now meeting someone else’s, a male. A gasp escaped my lips which caught their attention, tears streamed down my face as I watched a look of terror fill both of their eyes. I was being used, I was being toyed with, I wasn’t about to allow myself to continue being the puppet, I wanted to pull the strings.

So that’s what I did, I had him wrapped around my finger, dangling the information I very much knew would ruin his whole career. Now, it’s widely accepted, soft of, but back then, back when we had first met, coming out wasn’t welcomed. Did I mention that I liked to record just about every moment in my life? No? Well I guess now would be a good time to mention that I got their little, dirty, make out session on camera. Oh and don’t forget the look of terror in his eyes. Every time I see the video it makes me laugh, that look, I love it, every second of it.

“Please…” small whimpers escaped his chapped lips as he begged me to delete the video. “Please please please! I’ll do anything!” He yelled as my fingers hovered over the post button. A devious smirk on my face, seeing him this way filled me with joy, but it also made me sick, I still wasn’t used to being so cruel especially to a man I still loved deeply. Turning the phone off I give him a quick peck on the lips before smiling. “Good boy.”

Ah, the night I remember vividly now has its time to shine in this little story of mine. I remember the night perfectly, it was pitch black only a street light illuminating the sidewalk only a few feet in front of me. I was walking towards my car, phone in hand, rewatching the video that had started it all. Reaching for my keys my mouth is swiftly covered as strong arms wrap around me. Struggling, I tried my best to escape from their grasp when I saw Jongho. A part of me felt an immense amount of dread fill my body. I had been blackmailing him for months, using him for my own pleasure, he wasn’t here to save me, he was here to ruin me. The person holding me back was none other than his little slut.

He spit in my face before he grabs my phone and smashes it on the ground. I continue to struggle but I feel a sharp pain overcome my body. Everything had happened so fast, I felt warm blood stream down my face as my vision turned pitch black. A scream escapes my lips as I’m let go, left on the ground, the sound of footsteps fading in the distance.

When I woke up I still couldn’t see. It took me a moment to realize what had happened, the reality had just sunk in. Reaching up to rub my eyes I find that there’s nothing there, just empty hallow holes where my eyes should be. A blood curling scream escapes my cracked, dry lips as I heard the door open.

“My eyes! My eyes! Where are they?!” I scream, trashing around as what I assumed were nurses attempt to hold me down.

“Calm down!” A man yells and while the yelling should’ve alarmed me it seemed to bring me comfort. Slowly I took deep breaths and started to calm down. “There’s nothing to worry about. You still have your eyes.” A wave of relief overcame my body as he placed a jar in my hands. My eyebrows furrow and he must’ve seen my expression before he adds, “they’re in your hands.”

So you see, I had a clear motive to kill Choi Jongho and that slut he replaced me with. To be honest, I shouldve savored their death more but it’s alright. To cut this long story short, (I know you’re probably feeling quite impatient) I carved his eyes out along with his precious lovers once I got my hands on them. His sweet sweet screams filled the soundproofed basement as I placed his eyes into my empty sockets. Now, I can’t exactly see but that’s because I don’t have the perfect fit yet. My next victim though, Kang Yeosang. His eyes are beautiful, I hope they’ll fit just right.

[wastelandlovingscenarios]

Head canon: Romanced companions and their first kiss with f!sole? How’d it happened? When did it happen? Where'd it happen? Who initiated?

Crushing companions with their first kiss with f!sole ! 😍

i mixed up the crushes and the already romanced so it’s a variety. this took me forever to finish because my brain farted at least 5 times in the making so it didn’t turn out the way i wanted.

(deacons part could be seen as the aftermath of that one prompt of sole confessing their love to him before leaving to the institute!)

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Danse:

everything would happen post blind betrayal, when danse is on the road to recovery and is doing much better, his life finally getting back on track. though he does slowly regain his confidence back, it doesn’t stop the sudden mood drops that tend to hit him like a train from time to time.

sole would know when it happens; danse becomes quieter than usual and looks drained upon first glance. she knows that familiar fidget and the way his head hangs low from time to time that somethings on his mind. no matter where they are, sole will always drop everything and kindly excuse them both to pull him away to the nearest private area.

their first kiss would happen in the privacy of their own room. they’d both be preparing for a short mission, casually packing their stuff in silence. she’d turn around to talk to danse but pause, watching as he stared at the photo of sole and her family that laid on the counter with a sad expression.

sole would drop whatever she’s holding and make her way to him, placing an a hand on his bicep. “hey.” she whispered as she looked up at him with a small smile. he didn’t smile back, much to her distress, and instead continued looking at the picture displayed in front of him.

her thumb brushed his bicep softly as she tried to speak in a soothing voice. “what’s wrong?” danse would close his eyes, shaking his head. “it’s nothing.” of course, sole wouldn’t believe it one bit. “you know i’m here for you.”

after a long period of silence, he’d let out a breath, still unable to lock eyes with her. “it pains me knowing that i can’t provide you with the life you desire. i can’t give you what a real man would be able to.” sole would wince at the sadness lurking in his voice and she’d move closer to him, “i’m not real, sole. i’m a synth. someone who can’t give you a family, someone who can’t give you something real.”

sole would move her hand to his shoulder and gently push him away from the counter to face her before he could let out another word. her hand would sprawl against his chest as she tiptoed to place a kiss on the former paladins lips, sending him to a state of utter shock.

he wouldn’t know what to do at first and would simply stare down at sole who continued to kiss him despite his lack of reaction. once sole pressed into the kiss more, he finally kissed back just as hard, closing his eyes in bliss. his hands found her waist and he pulled her in closely as if he couldn’t get enough of her.

his mouth followed hers in desperation to continue the kiss as she pulled back, slowly opening her eyes. she’d grab his hand and placed it on his chest, allowing danse to feel his own heart beat tremendously from the kiss.

“you are real. this-,” she whispered quietly, pressing his hand down more, “- heartbeat is proof that you are. you may be a synth but it doesn’t make you less of a human. i will still love you just as much no matter what or who you are.” he would still be dazed from the kiss, his fingers twitching at the feeling of his heart beating through his chest.

with her other hand, she’d caress his cheek lovingly, “what we have? it’s real, danse. you are the realest thing i have in my life and i’m so grateful you’re here with me. trust me when i say that this is the life that i want.” danse would stare down at her with a soft expression as she continued, “now a life without you is something i don’t want.”

there wouldn’t be words that could explain the amount of relief and joy that filled his chest so he pulled her into a tight embrace instead, burying his face into her hair in an attempt to hide his blush. “thank you.” he’d mutter against her hair and she’d smile, returning the hug. “anytime.”

Deacon:

deacon would take his feelings for sole seriously when he’s placed in a position where there’s a chance of losing her. that being said, her being transported to the institute with no idea if she’d make it back hit him harder than it shouldve.

he’d spend endless nights praying, crying that sole was still in one piece somewhere and that she was at least safe. deacon beats himself up over the fact that he took advantage of soles kindness she offered him and regretted every moment he wasted by being distant.

him praying in the north church wasn’t a common sight, but god, it was the only thing he could resort to at this point. he closed his eyes as he hunched over in his seat, listening to the sounds of the now silent building.

everything they’ve done, all the memories they’ve shared replay in his mind like a broken record and he begins to breathe heavily, his chest bubbling up with that bitter feeling that surrounded him for days.

it would be silent for a few minutes and he’d hear a few footsteps echo behind him. he took a deep breath, collecting himself so he wouldn’t appear troubled to whoever needed him at the moment, “i’ll be there in a moment.”

“and here i was thinking you missed me.” a familiar voice rang out and he jolted up, looking over his shoulder to find the one person he’s been waiting for staring at him with a tired smile. “sole!” he jumped from his seat and pulled her into a tight embrace, lifting her off the ground.

she’d let out a surprised, “woah!”, before returning his embrace with just as much force. once he placed her back on the ground, he hid his face in her neck, unable to loosen his grip around her torso. “guess you really missed me..” sole laughed into his ‘hair’, lightly caressing the back of his head.

deacon would pull back, moving both his hands on either side of her face as he spoke in a voice filled with disbelief. “missed you? you had me fucking terrified you weren’t gonna come back!” he brushed his thumb against her cheeks, resting his forehead on hers as he spoke in a shaky whisper, “i was scared. when they crossed your name off the board, i just- i didn’t know what to do. sole, i-“

sole would cut his words short as she pulled him down onto her lips, pulling him close. deacon would freeze in shock at first but would close his eyes, his grip on her torso growing more firm the more he melted into the kiss. this felt right. no matter how many times he tried to avoid it, this was what he’s always yearned for. now that it was happening? there was just no way he could run away any longer.

she would pull back, leaning her forehead on his once more, locking eyes with him, “i’ll always come back for you.” she smiled warmly, making his heart swell. he let out a soft sigh and pulled her closer against his body, a playful smile dancing on his face. “guess this is the part where i say i love you, huh?”

sole let out a small, genuine laugh in response and they both leaned in for another kiss under the light of the church, the silence and tranquility of the moment surrounding them.

Maccready:

mac would have to be in love with sole for quite a while for him to truly initiate a kiss. the first time they kiss is when mac informs sole about medtek and the situation with his son. of course, sole being a mother and whatnot, she immediately sympathizes with maccready and gets to work as soon as she can.

even if mac had told her it was alright to finish some of her duties before they could head down, she denied without another word and refused to hear anything else come from his mouth.

he’d feel bad at first for pestering sole about it and pulling her away from her responsibilities but would immediately feel a sense of loyalty and happiness knowing that she was more than willing to go out of her way for his needs.

sole would make a stop at diamond city to stock up on items before heading there and smile at maccready who blushed, “we’ll get that cure. i promise.”

once they’d reach medtek, sole would take every challenge head on without a complaint and a determined look on her face as she cleared the area. once they had reached the lab and cleared it out, she would immediately jump in to search for the so said cure.

after scavenging through drawers and cabinets, sole finally let out a squeal and called out mac within seconds of finding it, “mac! i found it! i found the cure!” and he would immediately run over to her, eyes falling to the serum locked in her hand.

he’d gently take it from her, a big grin growing on his face as he bounced excitedly. “we did it..” mac would beam, staring at the serum with disbelief, “holy crap, we actually did it! we just gave duncan a fighting chance to live!”

he’d instantly envelope her in a tight hug out of pure joy, nearly knocking her down in the process. sole would hug him back, letting out a warm laugh at his happiness.

mac would pull back, tears glistening in his eyes as he kept his hands on soles shoulders, sending her a huge smile. “god i’m so happy i could frickin’ kiss you!” and upon realizing the words leaving his mouth and the shocked expression forming on soles face, he’d immediately hold both his hands up in surrender.

a look of horror would cross his face, realizing he outright confessed to her without control and a huge blush would form as he stuttered out excuses. “i mean, i would never kiss you!” he panicked, realizing how bad that sounded and tried to pull anything out of his ass to save him, “n-not saying that i’d never kiss you! a-anyone would if they were given the chance. i mean i totally would but it’s not like you’d ever kiss me!”

sole would cover her mouth and giggle at his embarrassed babbling as he tried to recover from his mistake as quick as possible. she knew he meant well so she took no offense to his comment and took his hand in hers, staring up at him with a smile. “shut up and kiss me already, mac.”

a small ‘o’ with form on his mouth and he’d shut up as she patiently waited for his next move. “wait, r-really?!” she’d roll her eyes and grabbed his collar, pulling him down so his lips would meet hers.

he wouldn’t know what to do at first as he stared down at sole with a surprised expression and a heavy blush but would soon send her a needy kiss in return, his hand finding her waist while the other held the serum tightly.

it’s been a while since he kissed anyone and god did he miss it. he missed having someone by his side to call his and spend his days with. someone he could call home and love forever. he wasn’t gonna let this moment slip and he’d be dammed if he didn’t treasure every moment of it.

sole would release his collar, retreating from the kiss and smile up at him with a blush. he’d look at her dreamily, his eyes following her as she moved back. “i don’t know how i’ll ever be able to pay you back for this,” he said softly, trying to steady himself, “i owe you big time.”

“all i care about is curing your son and besides,” she ruffled his hair, earning a pleased sigh from him, “that kiss was more than enough to pay me back.”

“i hope that wasn’t the last time.” he inwardly begged that she reciprocated the feelings he held, biting his lips as he waited for an answer. luckily for him, she did. “not like i’d let it be.” and he let out a relieved grin, pulling her into a hug once more.

Hancock:

it would happen upon confession between the two. it wouldn’t happen in a city, settlement, or in any crowded place, but in a temporary shelter they decided to bunker down in for the night.

“i’m gonna change.” she’d mutter, grabbing her bag and heading towards the vacant room of the house. hancock would let out a hum, acknowledging her words before rolling out the sleeping bags on the floor.

while changing, sole realizes that this might’ve been the perfect opportunity for her to admit her feelings. there was no one; only him and her in this very house and it wasn’t very often they found themselves in privacy, often being pulled left and right. and if hancock didn’t feel the same way, well.. well she’d just have to deal with it. at least in some way, it’ll give her closure.

after putting the last of her clothes on, she’d shyly call out for the ghoul, tapping on the door to attract his attention. “hey hancock.” she wouldn’t hear the sounds of his feet shuffling towards the room due to the loud pounding of her heart. she’d only realize how close he was to the door when she had heard his voice across it. “sunshine?”

she’d see the door knob wobbling and panic would immediately wash over her, causing her to grab the handle. “don’t open the door, please.” the desperation in her voice was embarrassing but there was no other way she could truly confront him about it other than this. “are you alright? is there something wrong?”

she’d take a deep breath- it was now or never. through stutters and a shaky voice, she’d respond. “y-yes, i’m fine. i just, uh, i just wanted to talk to you, hancock..” her voice would die for a mere second before speaking again, “.. about something important.”

“i’m listening.” he responded, voice muffled through door but still comprehensible. “hancock, i just-“ she composed herself, “-i didn’t know how to tell you this and- and i was just so afraid you were gonna hate me if i did.”

a lengthy silence filled the air for the moment before hancock decided to break it, “you know i’d never hate you, sunshine.” soles hands would begin to shake, wanting to get the confession done and over with so she could finally be at peace.

“i know you wouldn’t hate me, i just- i like you hancock, okay?” she admitted, feeling herself choke on her own words, “you make me feel so safe and happy and- and i- fuck. i know you don’t feel the same way.” silence followed after and she closed her eyes, feeling the tears beginning to build up.

she expected a rejection, so why did it hurt so much now that it was happening? despite her tears, she tried to say anything to end the subject and send him away, but nothing came out except a strangled sob.

her eyes shot open upon hearing the doorknob turn and before she could rush up to lock the door, hancock was already bursting through it with a soft expression. she froze, unsure of what to do as her face reddened, tears falling out of her eyes.

“hanc-“ he’d move forward before another word could leave her mouth and he’d crash his lips with hers, wrapping an arm around her waist as he pulled her in closer. she squeaked in surprise at first, slowly processing the moment for a mere second but immediately kissed back, placing both hands on his chest.

she’d try to catch her breath as he withdrew, keeping his face close to hers. “what are you talking about? i’ve had it bad for ya for ages now.” he whispered against her lips, “was kinda getting tired of waiting, thought of doing the job myself.” sole gripped on his shirt desperately as he brought his hand to her face, brushing a thumb over her lips, “i want you just as bad, trust me.”

“don’t stop.” she entreated and he chuckled huskily. “wasn’t planning to, sunshine.” and just like that, he’d kick the door shut behind him, locking his lips against hers once more, but much more passionately this time around.

Nick Valentine:

nick is a man of class and had planned this for a few weeks, the idea dwelling in his mind for a good period. he wants the moment to be absolutely special and memorable for him and sole. this is the first time he’s ever showed such interest for an individual after all.

he’ll plan this romantic ass date for sole and go out of his way to make sure it turns out perfect and exceeds post war standards. a romantic dinner date, a walk around the city or at a peaceful area, and perhaps a long talk while doing so.

you can also expect he does stuff like flowers when he greets you, a nice outfit to post war expectations, and all the ins and outs of being a prewar gentleman. holding doors open, compliments galore, and so much more.

as they’d take the long way home to sanctuary, they’d chat about their life before the war and life during it, wanting to get to know each other better as individuals and not as people trying to survive. he’d hold her hand gently, lighting brushing his thumb over her knuckles.

he’d drop her in front of her home and hold both her hands in his with a stare full of happiness and love. “i had a great time,” he’d grin at her, “i hope the feelings mutual. i’d be honored to be given another chance to take you out.”

sole would shyly smile at nick. “of course. id love that.” he’d lean forward and take one of his hands to place on her shoulder as he kissed her on the cheek softly as a way of saying thank you. she would smile at him teasingly as he pulled away, standing up straight. “is that all, mr. valentine? i was expecting just a little bit more.”

nick would find himself shocked at her boldness at first, but then he realized that this is sole- of course she’d pull some crazy move like that. quietly, he’d let out a chuckle and put a strand of her hair behind her ear. “daring tonight, aren’t we?”

sole would let out a playful pout, rolling her eyes at his comment. “very much so.” he would move in closer, holding her chin gently and tilting her head up as he closed the distance between them. though his lips were cold and tasted of metal and ciggerates, she found comfort in the way his lips moved with hers as she gripped onto his sleeve loosely.

he pulled away, sending her a small grin, his eyes illuminating in the darkness of the night. “ain’t that a way to end the night.” nick would comment, “couldn’t have imagined anything better.” sole would flush, looking up at him with a timid smile and he’d ruffle her hair affectionally, “get some sleep, alright? after all, a beautiful girl like you needs her beauty sleep though youd still be stunning either way.”

she would playfully swat his arm, letting out a giggle before heading to her door. “you’re so cheesy.” nick would tip his hat, “only for the best. goodnight, sweetheart.”

“goodnight nick.” she’d return his words, sending him one final grin before rushing inside her home with a happy heart. quickly, she got ready for bed with a jump in her step, wanting tomorrow to come by as soon as possible.

Preston:

itll be a long while before a first kiss happens between the two. they’d have to be already dating for it to happen and it would probably occur post institute when everything’s a little more settled down.

in fact, it’d happen on a peaceful night where both of him and sole would be in bed, resting from all their responsibilities. sole would be fast asleep as preston watched her with a loving expression, a smile plastered on his face as he observed her.

he didn’t know how he got here or what he did to deserve a life like this. one moment, he was stuck in concord, debating whether he’d make it out alive with a heavy weight on his shoulders and now, he was laying next to his other half he’d never thought he’d find, happier than he had ever been his whole life.

he dwelled on how innocent and pure this moment was as he gently moved a strand of hair out of her face to get a better view. the way her chest rose with every breath, the soft pink that stained her cheeks, the quiet snores, and how relaxed she look while she sleeping only made him fall in love with her more.

as he continued to stare at her features, his eyes fell on her lips and he flushed, wondering how it felt upon touch, whether that was on his fingers, skin, or his lips.. or that was what he thought. what he really wanted was to kiss her right then and there. he wanted to feel the softness of her lips against his more than ever.

he would be so focused on her mouth and lost in his thoughts that he wouldn’t notice sole, who had woken up, staring at him with a blush. it didn’t take a blind man to know what preston was thinking and he made it very visible and obvious for sole to figure out exactly what he wanted.

“if you wanted to kiss me, you could just ask.” she teased with a whisper, softly chuckling at the sight of his eyes going wide as he pulled back in shock and embarrassment. she reached over to caress his cheek, sending him a reassuring smile. “im okay with you doing it, preston. you know that already.”

“i-i, um-“ he stammered, trying to catch his words, “- are you sure you’re o-okay with it? we could always wait till you’re ready.” sole scooted closer to him, “you’re my boyfriend, of course i’m okay with it.” she shushed him before he could continue worrying, “and yes, i’m ready. i always have been, i was just worried you weren’t.”

he swallowed nervously, knowing that was all he needed to know before he could truly initiate the kiss. “i could say the same.”

sole noticed his tenseness and moved her hand to his arm, squeezing it softly. “relax. it’ll be easier once you do.” and he did. he let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding in and stared at her soft expression, feeling himself calm down. yeah, it was much easier to think now that he was.

he closed his eyes as he leaned forward, his hands shakily moving to her waist. sole did the same and met him halfway, softly brushing over his lips at first only to be met with a much more deeper kiss. although the kiss seemed a little awkward and tense at first, they both eventually melted into it.

sole sighed in pleasure, snaking her arms around his shoulders as preston rolled over so he was above her. this went on for a few more seconds until they both lost breath, eventually pulling back with a pant. sole would slowly open her eyes to find preston on top of her with a reddened face and shy smile.

she returned his smile with a soft laugh, bantering, “someone got a little carried away.” preston looked down at her and ruffled her hair gently. “can’t help it if i have someone as beautiful as you as my partner.”

“corny.” she muttered with a grin, pulling him back down slowly so they could lock lips once more.

Sturges:

even though sturges is horribly inexperienced and hesitant of things that are foreign to him- such as love, in this case - he’s willing to let that go just to be with sole for the rest of his life. he’d be a fucking fool to let someone as amazing as her slip through his fingers.

there are many days where sole protects his ass from dangers and he feels guilt, knowing it should be the other way around. yet, he can’t help but avoid violence, knowing that it isn’t something he’s used to.

but on many days, he protects her too. it may not always be with weapons and violence like sole does, but instead with moments where he cares for her health and takes care of her on her bad days. whether emotionally or physically.

the moment with their first kiss happens, however, is when sole falls ill with a fever and isn’t healthy enough to function properly. “i told ya to slow it down a little, sweetheart.” he mutters, sitting by her bedside as he moves the hair out of her face, “some days, ya gotta know when to take breaks.”

“i k-know but i have.. things to do..” she whispered hoarsely with half lidded eyes. the way her face flushed due to the heat of her skin made him worry only more and he sighed softly, moving his hand to cup her cheek. “the world can wait a little, sweetheart. understand?”

sole looked at him for a moment before nodding obediently, leaning into his touch. “good.” he smiled gently, continuing to caress her face. soon enough, his smile faltered into a worried expression, feeling her temperature rise immensely after a short period of time. he’d carefully pull his hand away, not wanting to wake up sole and rise from his seat to go to fetch some supplies.

before he could completely retreat his hand, he’d feel a small one captured his wrist weakly and sturges would look over his shoulder to find sole staring at him. “don’t leave, please.” she’d plead, her voice quivering in what seemed like fear. “i... don’t you to.. go.”

itd take him a moment to process the scene but once sole let out another, “please”, he’d break out of his trance, immediately taking action to resolve the issue. he’d turn to face her and loosened the hand wrapped around his wrist, interlocking fingers with her. he’d lean forward, bending down to place a soft kiss on her lips as a message of reassurance that he had absolutely no intentions to leave her in this condition.

sturges would let it linger for a moment before pulling back, chuckling softly at the dazed expression planted on her face. “i ain’t goin’ no where. i just need to grab your medicine and some water, ‘lright?” he placed a gentle kiss on her cheek, his free hand cupping her face before standing up straight, “i’ll be back before you know it.”

she brushed her thumb over his hand, another murmur escaping her lips, “i’ll be waiting then.” he nodded, squeezing her hand before retrieving it. sturges headed towards the the exit of the room, stealing one last glance of her still figure before leaving. he’d be sure to give her a thousand more kisses once she recovered.

Gage:

it’s a moment of hesitation and vulnerability. sole would be tipsy from a get together, but still sober enough to operate and gage would take care of her. she’d be on her bed at fizztop, cuddled in her sheets.

quietly, he’d be complaining about having to go through the trouble of taking care of the overboss but secretly kows that he’s more than willing to do so above anything else. “lay the hell down, boss. don’t make it harder than it ‘lready is.” she’s pout and let out a small, “fine”, following his orders.

“you’re lucky you’re my boyfrien’ or i woulda thrown you off this floor.” she slurred, glaring at him from across the room as he began placing their stuff down at a desk nearby. “and yer lucky i’m protectin’ yer sorry ass from gettin’ killed out there.” he shot back, sending her a glare in return. he turned away from her, wanting to hide the blush on his face upon hearing the word, ‘boyfriend’, escape her mouth.

sole let out a small ‘hmph’ and crossed her arms, laying back down on the bed. gage grabbed a bottle of water from the counter before heading to her bed, placing it on the desk nearby and turned around to leave her at peace.

“i never said you could leave.” she’d complain, almost childishly. he’d look over his shoulder, giving her the side eye for a moment before pulling a chair nearby and placing it near her bed. he sat down with a huff and leaned back, trying to ignore the stares sole sent him. even if he wanted to say no, he couldn’t. she had his hand wrapped around her finger and there was just no goddamn way he could deny her wishes.

“come here.” she’d order, stretching both her hands out as a signal to move closer. he wanted to make an excuse not to, say a denial even, but instead moved forward to her curious hands, silently wondering what she’d do if he’d give her the chance. he didn’t trust himself to speak, not when he was placed in such a vulnerable position.

sole cupped his face, tracing every scar that littered his skin with a dreamy gaze. his throat tightened at the sight of her looking so innocent; something that she refused to show outside of the walls of fizztop. he didn’t know what to say or do in this situation, only secretly admiring as the moon shone on her face through the darkness of the night and god was she beautiful.

her hands would slowly move down his face and fall on his lips, her fingers soon brushing over the soft skin. the way she gently ran her hands on his skin felt so foreign to him, but it didn’t feel wrong. for once, gage wasn’t afraid of such contact and he didn’t want to pull away, even if his mind was telling him to. perhaps he was so used to his usual rough routine to the point where he didn’t realize how much he yearned for this.

“i’ve always wanted to kiss you,” sole admitted, her cheeks dusting red as she observed his lips with wonder, “i’ve always dreamt about doing it.” and he’d stiffen at her touch upon realization. gage wanted the same thing just as much and there was absolutely no denying that.

maybe for once, he could be vulnerable; show his soft side and allow himself to indulge in the moment instead of pushing it away. “if you wanted to, you could,” he said, trying to keep his tough exterior up, “yer the overboss after all. nothin’s stoppin’ ya.”

sole continued brushing over his lips, “it’s not the fact that i want to. it’s if you want to do it also, gage.” he’d try to swallow down his pride for once, but nothing came out and he couldn’t find the words to say. he’s fucked a ton of girls beforehand so why’s it so difficult to admit that he wanted to kiss her.

“do you want to?” she’d ask hesitantly, her eyes flickering up to meet his. ‘fuck it.’ he thought with a skip in his heart, giving her a hard stare. “yes.” and that was all she needed to hear. she pulled him closer to her, connecting her lips to his slowly. gage would close his eyes and allow the kiss to happen, keeping his hands to himself to avoid any desires taking over.

he’s kissed a ton of girls before, but this? this was different. it sent an electrifying feeling within his body and his heart had began beating in way it had never done before. for once, this was something he did not want to let go.

he felt sole grab his hand, sliding it under her shirt and he immediately withdrew, pulling back. he wanted this so bad but fuck, he needed to know if she truly wanted it and it wasn’t the heat of the moment nor the alcohol. sole looked at him with wide eyes, “gage?”

“boss, you sure you want this?” he’d ask her without missing a beat. “cause once ya give me the go, yer in for a long night.” sole would laugh at his indirect consideration and take his hand in hers once more, placing it back under her shirt. gage felt himself grow rigid at the sight of her batting her eyelashes, “im sober enough to make decisions like these, now shut up and come here.”

he’d immediately throw off any weapons slung over his shoulder and remove his armor, rising from his seat. he pushed her down until her back was on the bed and climbed on top with the hungriest eyes ever. oh it was gonna be a long night, alright.

[aestheticsuwu]

4 times Johnny walkin in on someone +1 They walked in on Johnny

( Excuse my terribly writting )

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1 .

At first he didnt understood Daniels annoyance of walking in on the kids making out or fooling around , They were kids once and by Johnny experience he had babes to makeout 24/7 . He told Daniel always announce to make your presence know .

Johnny didnt think it was necessary for the day he went to pickup his phone that he left behind at the dojo , there wasnt class that day but Daniel wanted to go over some stuff hence his missing phone .

He shouldve seen all the warnings signs but his brain was too tired to notice , it wasnt late but Johnny was tired maybe his age is catching up to him .

First sign was the car that was parked , the lights were on inside the dojo maybe Daniel stayed longer , the duffle bags and cellphones outside . He can blame that on his eyesight .

Sliding the door expecting Daniel inside going over some paperwork

" I left m-- oh God ! Diaz ! "

" Sensei ! What are you doing here ?! "

Why him ? Why , couldnt god just let Daniel suffer , he shouldve known his luck would finish now that he was dating that non stopping talking twink , that he dearly loved his mind supplied quickly .

He was outside waiting for the kids to step out outside to proceed to look for his phone . Diaz and little LaRusso shyly didntt catch his gaze , probably to embarrased getting caught fooling around by their sensei . He cant imagine getting caught making out with Daniel by Kreese , he supressed a shudder .

He tells them that he wont mention what happened if they kept their free time away from him , quickly agreeing little LaRusso hugs him quickly and dashes away with a sorry and Miguel in tow .

He goes back in quickly to find his phone to see if Daniel really had send that picture of him wearing his old Cobra Kai Jacket , wasnt a suprise that it fit him , he was still small .

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2 .

The second time, he walks in on  Hawk and Demetri at the Larusso's . Him and Daniel decided to move in together with Sam and Robby , And they had spare room where anthony could sleep when he's isnt staying with Amanda .

When hes not , Daniel lets Demetri stay in the room sometimes when the pale kid mother isnt home . He didnt quite like the kid that much , too much of a nerd he thought but Robby, Sam and Daniel liked him . Later on he sees that the skinny kid isnt that bad after all .

He takes  back his comment soon .

Johnny was bringing in some boxes in , too concetrated on bringing in his stuff he didnt see the motorcycle nor the shoes in the doorway .

What he sees in the living room , he thanks God for saving him from needing to bleach his eye if he had came in few seconds late to see what Hawk was planning to do .

" What the fuck ! "

" shit , shit , shit . "

He quickly cover his eyes and shifts around quickly leaves the house , he hears Demetris sorrys while Hawk laughs  and he does plan to never revisit what had happen but he will make Hawk do 50 extra push ups just for making Johnnys eyes suffer .

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3 .

He loves Robby , he likes that he isnt like every kid . Robby is smart and kind with a big heart something Johnny wasnt . Although Daniel likes to remind him that Robby gets it from him and he's a good dad . He tries to be , He wants to be a good dad .

He was happy that him being with Daniel wouldnt affect Robby , Johnny was worried he would get mad but once he told him it looked like he told the kid he was giving him 10,000 dollar check .

When Daniel and him talked to Sam and Robby of the idea moving in together , Robby joked about calling Larusso dad now since they would be a family . He could tell Daniel wanted to cry from how happy that he heard those words .

Everything was almost done , mostly all his belongings were at the new house he just needed to pack his last few remaing clothes and some documents .

He does quick look around  his crappy empty aparment that he will soon leave behind , opening his door to his room he hears a noise across the other room . He brushes it off thinking is from the neighbors next door but then he hears something like if someone knocked down a vase . He quickly rushes across the room to open the door to beat the crap out of the intruder , what he sees is the opposite what he was expecting of the other side of the door .

" Robby ?! "

There was his inoccent pup in the lap of a boy on his bed , both without a shirts . He wonders how many years would he get in jail and if Daniel would go visit him .

" Dad ! What are you doing here !? "

Robby flushes , he guess it wasnt ideal to get caught by your parents .

" Im here to pick up whats left , what are you doing here with this guy , Get off his lap will you . Listen kid you got ten seconds to get out of here before Robby has to go visit me in jail . "

Robby quickly slides off  but not before handing a pillow to the guy to put on his lap .

" Dad , he's my boyfriend Doug , he's in our class re-- "

" Rickenberger ! Ok , i want you two to dress up and to step outside , Now ! . "

He didnt get a good look at first but when Robby mentioned it was his boyfriend he recognized the face of the tall kid . He tried to be menacing to scare the boy off and threaten him if he ever thought about hurting Robby . But the kid took it as a champ and did showed up for sunday dinner , and if his son is happy then he guess he will have control not to be an asshole to Doug .

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4 .

Carmen had told him Yaya needed his help in moving a furniture at the apartment , and even gave him a spare key because she wouldnt be around because of her shifts.

Johnny loved YaYa , she was like a grandmother he never had . She always looked out after him , he was worried he wouldnt see her often now that he was living with Daniel . But soon Amanda announced her and Carmen started dating , soon Carmen , Miguel and Yaya sometimes  would join sunday dinner .

It was saturday morning and he was so comfortable with Daniel in his arms , soft sheets , nice big pillow and did he mention Daniel . It was nice morning especially from having a good night , he thinks they should have sex everynight .

He wanted to sleep more But he was a man of his word ,  well sometime when he tried , so with all his willpower he got up and showered and headed off .

Using the spare key they had given him,  he opens the door and walks in on Amanda and Carmen having some fun time in the couch , if it was another life he wouldve thought it was hot , but all he can think of right now he could've of been sleeping with Daniel .

" Shit ! Im sorry i will come back another time . "

He quickly leaves , the laughter of the two women is left behind while Johnny rushes off to his car .

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+ 1 .

Nobody was home .

Only him and Daniel , Amanda and Carmen decided to take shannon to the new mall that opened , the kids wanted to go as well . Johnny was thrilled but Daniel was trying to convinced the kids to let the adults go and next time he would take them .

This was his opportunity , so he took it . Now here he was with an empty house with his babe . Johnny waits for Daniel to come out of the restroom , but he was taking way too long and he got hungry waiting for the suprise .

He went downstairs to quickly to get something to eat , opening the fridge he decides to make a sandwich .

" Johnny  , i told you to wait in the room . "

" I know , i just didnt know i was suppose to wait a year for you to come ou-- "

Closing the fridge to look at Daniel , He wasnt expecting for him to look so hot that it made him without words . Ever since he first met Daniel , his eyes were the first thing to catch his eye then his soft plump lips . His eyes were so big that it resembled Bambi , and thats what johnny calls Daniel when their alone .

One day he told Daniel he would look hot in a skirt but this was way better . Daniel had black stockings with one of his shirts that just swallowed Daniels frame and to the final touch he had a headband with antlers . Fuck that sandwich he was hungry for something else .

" You like it ? "

" I think thats an understatement , How about you come sit on my lap and let me show you how much i love it , Bambi . "

...

" Anthony stop that,  Dont bring that in ! "

Amanda yells , getting the keys out of her purse while the kids wait for her to open the door . They had to cut their day early because Anthony's friend got sick , she offered for the rest to stay at the mall but they preferred to go home . And if she knew what she was going to walk in , she would've brought out her phone to take pictures . And she only felt a little bit bad for Daniel but this was blackmail worthy .

" Oh wow , Daniel . "

Covering her sons eyes and making sure the rest eyes are closed , Johnny turns his head at their direction .

" Your back  early . "

Sam , Robby , Miguel are asking for bleach while Hawk and Demetri are laughing , Doug helps Robby go to the backyard as everyone else rushes outside to let Daniel change . Johnny thinks it was time for payback for all times they had to suffer but unfortunately Daniel wont escape Amanda's teasing any time soon .

[hitoshisbabygirl]

Author's Notes ♡: Hello hello! Here’s my POCuties collab piece for Valentine’s Day. Even though today sometimes makes me feel unloved please know everyone is deserving of love and even if you don’t have someone this year, you can have me! I love you and so do your favs okay? (✿◠‿◠) ~ bunny ❥

Warnings : none! Just very sweet (a bit of the reader feeling like a burden to tamaki so a touch of sadness here and there)

Word count : 2.1k

Paring(s) : Tamaki Amajiki x F! Reader (fem pronouns)

Enjoy ♡

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Forever // T. Amajiki

Being with Tamaki for a few years taught his lover a lot. She saw more sides of him than most, and it made her heart swell to see the usually quiet boy happy and determined when he accomplished something he was trying for or when he was down she knew just how to cheer him up.

As the day drew on she realised just how much she loved him and how much she wished for him to be home, to give him a big kiss as he came through the door, knowing that his day was long, plagued with paperwork and patrols. Hearing the door open she saw her tall boyfriend enter, hood over his eyes as he let out a sigh, stretching as he felt his body being encased by his girlfriend “Hello butterfly how was your day” His low voice spoke out as she gave him a bright smile “It was nice heaving the day off but i missed you Tama” she pouted as he gave her a chuckle, kissing her forehead “I missed you too, the office was a bore without my adorable secretary” Moving into their shared apartment Tamaki saw food already laid out in front of him “I ran you some bath water too” [ ] called out as she rounded the wall separating the kitchen and living room “Y-you didn't have to do that love im-” A finger silenced his pleas “Let me take care of you okay? You need your rest and i didnt want you to worry about anything coming home except relaxing and cuddling with me okay?” [ ] said as she stood on her tippy toes, kissing the top of his cheek “Tamaki Amajiki we have been doing this for years, won't you please let me love you without trying to outdo me ; you deserve it, you're a wonderful hero, you're my hero and eventually...you'll be our family hero..once we have one..” She trailed off as he stared at her, watching a sadden face appear over her features. Shaking it off as soon as it had appeared she gave him another smile “Its alright. There's no rush, i'm here for the long haul , me and you okay?” she said as she let his face go , heading to the couch “Now go go, hurry up before the food gets cold.” She teased as he gave her a soft look, coming over to kiss her cheek “Okay i wont argue butterfly”

These little things stuck with him, her caring ways, cooking for him, cleaning his office while hed be gone, even doing some of his paperwork while he was on parole. He loved her so much and enjoyed all of the little things here and there she did for him. He ddi the same, and each time made her cry, not out of being upset but for how caring he was to her. Bringing her roses, making sure she didnt have to cook if he could help it, spa days and doing more crafts and bonding with her whenever they could. But he realized while she helped him with so much he felt like he struggled. She struggled with her own issues too, similar to his. Sometimes she felt like she wasnt enough, she had her own anxieties and could get in a sup when she felt inadequate, unlovable and unwanted. But to him, to tamaki he loved everything about her, and she was one of the strongest people he knew. He felt motivated and glad to have her as the one he wished to marry , to have kids with, to start a family. But that also broke his heart when the topic came up she did usually didnt talk much about it, happily making plans but going back on them by saying ‘if i was a good mother’ She didnt want to dissapoint their future kids, didnt want to be a lacking mother or wife. As usual Tamaki came home, but htis time he went past the wonderful smelling food in the kitchen and to their bedroom, his cute girlfriend wrapped up in a blanket “How are you feeling butterfly?” He asked as she gave him a smile, reaching over to hug him “Im oaky! Just a bit overwhelmed is all, im sorry i passed out during the meeting..” She said as she gave him a hurt look before continuing “I shouldve tried harder to stay and present with you i-” Before she could finish he gave her a kiss, stopping her words “You needed rest. Im still surprised you got up to cook, did you at least take a nap love?” He asked as she shook her head , causing him to smile “Good. i love you butterfly and i woudnt change that for the world” he said as she smiled, giving him a hug “I’d hope so” She giggled as he pouted “Never doubt my love for you [ ], no matter what im gonna be here, i promise okay?” he said as she nuzzled the boy, kissing his nose “ And i for you Tamaki”

February came in , the happy couple had started up to take more time off to do more things and enjoy eachothers presence in the month of love. As the days went by Tamaki noticed [ ] was having odd days. From sleeping long hours of the day to just crying randomly, he knee something was wrong. Coming from the store he heard sobbing from their bathroom. Terrified , he tried to enter only feeling the door being locked “[ ] baby whats wrong? Can i come in?” with no response he nervously knocked again. “[ ] please...whats wrong” He pleaded as the door unclicked, showing his still beautiful but tear stained cheeked girl. “T-tama..” She cried as she just jumped into his arms, scaring the indigo haired boy “Baby are you okay?” he asked as she took in a breath before smiling sadly “Y-yeah i am..” She said as he picked her up, taking them into the living room. “I love you..and whatever is making you feel like this..if i can help let me okay?” Tamaki said as [ ] shook her head, placing it into his shoulder as they fell asleep.

Every day from her breakdown Tamaki came to her office with a rose, ate lunch with her and made sure she was hydrated and well. Once the week of valentines day came up, he had his plan set in motion. He had their schedules fixed, the week off for themselves as they did different things. A spa day the first day, a picnic the next, shopping at an expensive store for clothes. Then an art day where they drew (or tried to ) eachother and made art fro and about the other. Once the day of Valentines came however, it was different. It started with them taking a shower together, Tamaki cooking breakfast in bead for [ ] as they talked through the morning. Tamaki told her the outfits they ha gotten the days prior was for tonight which gave [ ] the jitters. She was excited for what her pro hero boyfriend had instore for them. Once they got to the restaurant all eys were on them. [ ]’s long black dress falttereed tamakis white suit and black bow tie. The two of them sat and started to eat, coversating with some fans who so happend to be around thwm. One was a small girl with wide hopeful eyes. She came to the couple with her mom in toe “Im so sorry to interrupt you two, my daughter wouldnt let mt husband and me rest until she came over to you guys” the wmoan laughed, causing bothe members to smile “Hello there how are you?” Tamaki asked the girl as she stepped from behind her mother “ H-hi my name is Shiemi a-and i really like you suneater!” The small girl said , causing [ ] , Tamaki and her mom to smile “Why thank you Shiemi, i hope im a good hero for you” Tamaki responded as the little girl shook her head “The best! Youre so cool. A-and your wife is pretty like mama! I like you dress miss suneater” The girl said , causing [ ] to stutter as she sipped her water “O-oh why thank you Shiemi but Im-” before she could continue she saw her boyfriend give the woman and her daughter a wide smile “She is, inst she?” He said as he turned to [ ] , moving from his chair “Tama what are you-” [ ] asked again as he leaned to the little girls ear , then to the mothers as they both gave him a smile, the woman happily shaking her head as her daughter followed the hero. Confused, [ ] watched as he picked the little girl up, putting her atop of the bar table “Hey everyone! Suneater has an announcement!” she yelled as most people turned around or to the table in the middle of the room, watching and smiling at the energetic child and pro hero “In fact I do, [ ] would you mind standing?” Tamaki asked as she gave him a wide eyed look, standing as he gave her a smile, extending and hand to her as she joined his side

“H-hey guys , as you know um..this si my lovely girlfriend and partner [ ]” He started as she gave everyone in the room a wary smile, her face feeling hot as he continued “ Ive known her for years, and weve been dating for some of those, she's seen me through thick and thin, helped me out in a pinch and made me feel like the strongest man alive, well next to almight…” he whispered as some of the people laughed, more paying them attention “And through all of this….i could think of a more beautiful and right person to spend the rest of my life with” And with the the young child handed the now kneeling man a ring as some whooped and hollered, others recording as both [ ] and the girls mother had tears in their eyes “[ ] [ ], the love of my life, my butterfly, i couldnt think of a more beautiful person inside and out to be with, will you give me the honor and make me the happiest man on this earth to be my wife?” He asked as the ring was revealed, diamond glistening as his own tear filled eyes looked to hers. Thinking her voice would fail her she shook her head yes, causing the room to yell as she had her ring put on her finger , jumping to hug her standing fiance as they hugged and cried, video of the engagement spreading as he thought to himself ‘I can now have my family, my endless love with you my dear butterfly’

As their wedding came , all of their friends and family came, including the new found friends of the young Shiemi and her parents. The ceremony went though flawlessly, Shiemi being their flower girl as the newlyweds ran down the easel , heading for their limo as they herded for the reception. The family spoke on how happy they were from their marriage, friends giving their comments on how they knew the couple would get married as the couple laughed at some stories and comments about their relationship. The night ended with so much love and joy for the new couple, startint their life together\

Two years went by before valentines day came again, three years to the day he had proposed arrived. Happily and ready to celebrate Tamaki woke up to his wife missing, hearing her fumble in the bathroom. Heading to the room he was shocked to she her in a disarray , eyes foggy as she met his “Tama...i have a surprised” She said as her teras fell down her face. Confused and still a bit tired , he gave her a look as she handed him a blue and while stick. The word pregnant snapped him awake as more tears started to fall, handing him two and three more all with the same small but powerful word “Im..gonna be a dad?” He asked as she smiled, shaking her head as she hugged the trembling girl “T-tama i'm gonna be a mom..what if i'm not good enough…” She sobbed as he cooed her, kissing her lips as his tears fell with hers “You're gonna be great Butterfly, i promise, you're gonna be so so great” He said as his heart swelled feeling her lips against his ‘This...This is forever , a love i wished for...and i couldn't have asked for more of a way to live my life...i love you butterfly’

[ivyuns]

love me in a year ✰❆♣♞

bang chan

genre: angst, fluff 

word count: 2.4k

warnings: kidnapping, restraints, y/n gets pregnant, grinding, drowning, weapons, a bit suggestive. if i missed anything lol oops

A/N: another shet show + from 365 dni (the ending isnt exactly like the movie btw)

for my gurlieeeee + happy birthday to @stanstraykidswoo​ <3

masterlist

mafialeader!bangchan x fem!reader

enjoying the summer breeze on the islands of hawaii, next to your friend made you feel relaxed. from all the work and stress you did, you finally earned yourself a vacation.

“babe!”

opening your eyes, you see your boyfriend (in a unhappy relationship) walks towards you. taking off your glasses and sitting up next to the pool, waiting what your boyfriend had to tell you. “i just got back from seeing the volcanoes babe! you shouldve seen it-” “we were supposed to go look at it together, dumbass” you cut your boyfriend off.

“w-wait y/n-” running away before he said anything, you got lost in a dark area. wasnt just sunny? seeing a group of guys look at you while trying to come closer. damn these outfits. your outfit consist of a short flowy, off the shoulder dress with heels. running with shaky legs, you looked around and saw everything get dark.

“are you lost babygirl?”

waking up in a soft bed, you look over and look at the unfamiliar room youre in. “where am i?” you whispered softly. walking towards a door to the hallway, the door wont budge open. shaking the door knob, it still wont burst open. giving up, you go lay back down on the bed.

closing your eyes to relax, you hear the door unlocking. quickly putting on your heels, you open the door and see nobody. following to which ever door took you, it seem endless. the endless numbers of stairs and doors you went though, you came across to a massive painting of a portrait of yourself hanging on the dinning room’s wall.

“oh my god”

continuing to follow where your legs take you, you were yanked away from seeking to your freedom. “are you lost babygirl?”. feeling someones presence behind you, you see a man. someone who you never seen.

“who are you and what do you want from me” you say and slowly back away from him. “chris is the name. you see, five years ago, i saw you on a beach. then suddenly i got shot and all i could think was you. these pass five years, ive been trying to find you and now” chris pauses his sentence and walks to a cup of ice, making you suck on it. “now i have you”

spitting the ice out, you got angry. “so what? you think kidnapping me is some kind of way to have me?” chris gets angry after your tone of your voice you gave him. he pushes you on a chair and chokes you lightly.

“i will give you 365 days to make you fall in love with me. and if that doesnt work, i will release you.” chris slowly lets go of your neck and continues talking. “i promise i will not touch you without your permission.”

chris gets interrupt by his phone. reaching his pocket, he sees his mafia friend who works with him calling him for help in the front. running to where to meet him at, you gave a few minutes before running on your feet again, trying to escape.

finally outside with a big open field in front of you, where you will be free. running, you stop midway as you see chris kill a man. witnessing what happened, you pass out due to pressure from everything.

-

the next morning, you wake up in the same room before but a whole different dress on you and a shirtless chris sitting in a chair in front of you. “let me out of here now” you shouted at him. “i need to get back to my family, my boyfriend!”. “you really think he still loves you? take a look at this” chris says and throws a small stack of pictures. pictures of him fucking another girl.

“a-are you serious?”

“yes im serious. oh and we’ll be leaving this place tomorrow. be ready” chris says and exits the room. “where are we going?” you quickly grab his wrist and stops. “to australia”

landing and going to the hotel. chris stops you and gives you the keycard to your room. “my room is next to yours if you need me”. nodding your head a yes, you enter your room and place your bags down and sighed. what is happening right now.

chris walks out of his room to see you look like a goddess. “y/n” chris calls out. turning around, chris grins with his dimples showing and grabbing your hand to head to the place you two are meeting with. chris opens the passenger door for you and makes his way to the drivers seat after youre in. while driving, he places his hands on your thigh, making you want more of him. avoiding his hand, you close your eyes.

arriving at your destination, it turns out to a bar. entering the bar, chris leads you to a room. seeing people, you hide behind chris bc youre antisocial as fuck

“y/n, this is aeyeong. ayeong meet-” “y/n. yes i know her name” aeyeong says, looking at you then back to chris, seducing him. “you know y/n, me and chris used to talk.” walking up to you. “and fucked each other” aeyeongs whispers into your ear. feeling chris wrap his hands around yours, you push him away and left the room.

“this happened a long time ago-” feeling tense, chris was about to turn and find you til aeyeong grabbed his wrist. “i thought you said we would last forever hm? took you long enough to find her. even of all our messages.” aeyeong grabs her phone and pulls up their naked bodies in photos. sexting.

“enough aeyeong.” chris grabs her phone and throws it onto the floor. running out of the room to look for you, leaving aeyeong to laugh.

-

“mr bang!”

chris turns around and sees his partner running to him. “y-y/n. shes with aeyeongs boss. i just got a call from him-” “shut the fuck up and tell me which room” “room 325.”

chris runs to room 325 and sees you grind on the boss. “y/n” chris growls. not paying attention to chris, you feel aeyeong’s boss grope your ass and suddenly putting a knife towards your neck.

suddenly feeling someone pull you away from the man and unable seeing things, chris and the rest of his members pulls out their weapon.

opening your eyes and see yourself on a yacht, you walk around and find chris. seeing chris talk shit about you to his other partner. “she just really had to run away-”

“im sorry chris” you spoke out. chris turns around and tells his partner to leave for a moment. “this is all your fault. youre the one who left the room and potentially tried to seduce him. do you not know what he couldve done?”

arguing on the boat and heading to the railings, you slip off and fall into the water. panicking, chris falls into the water and saves you. taking you out of the water and goes to lay you down on the bed and stands by your side.

a few minutes later, you wake up with water coming out of your mouth, coughing. chris turns around and goes to you with worried eyes. “y/n, i-im sorry. please dont leave me, i need you” chris softly says and strokes your hair with tears starting to fall down his cheeks.

lifting your weak hands up to caress his cheeks, you pushed him down and began kissing him roughly. regretting as soon as you saw the red in his eyes. “so now you want it?” chris growls and begins to attack you with kisses and hickies. feeling your clothes ripped away from you.

a few weeks later, youre back in korea. chris leaves you for the day, saying he has business to attend to and will call you later. but hours flew by and still didnt have any calls. sighing, you call your best friend, minyeong who yells at you though the speakers after the first ring.

“are you kidding me y/n? you cant just leave me behind at hawaii?!”

“i know i know, ill explain if you come over”

after she hears you say the sentence, she hangs up and runs to your place. opening the door for her, she starts speaking nonsense and you just laughing at her.

“y/n, this is serious. stop laughing and tell me what happened.”

sitting down next to her, you tell her everything. even when you love him back. minyeong at first didnt like what chris did to you and what his job it, but you beg her for you to have happiness atlas. with minyeong wanting you to be the happiest, you two go to the bar.

feeling someones eyes on you, you told minyeong you were going to the restrooms as she continues dancing. almost at the door, someone slams you onto the wall. “y/n, baby. i missed you so much. im sorry-” feeling tears streaming as you remember the past events and pictures. you forced him to let go of you and run back to your place.

he follows you back to your apartment without you noticing and as you take a seat with his loud voice scares you. “baby please” he goes closer to you and tries to kiss you until a voice rang.

“im pretty sure she wants you to leave”

he looks at chris then back to you then slaps you. “you fucking whore. youve been cheating on me when you left me didnt you” shaking your head a no and the tears uncontrollably falling as you try to shield yourself from another slap.

receiving nothing, you look up and see chris holding his wrist to prevent him from hitting you. “if theres someone else who was cheating is you. now leave you fucker” chris whispers in his ears and runs away.

chris looks down and sees your shaking figure. he goes next to you and wraps his arms around you so you can start feel calm. reaching to that point, chris picks you up and lays you on the bed.

slowly kissing you from your lips to your chest. chris begins undressing you til you stop him. unbuttoning his top, you see the semi open wound from his business. grazing your fingers over it as you hear chris slightly whimper.

“chris, im in love with you”

chris smiles widely. “im in love with you too”. you two continue the heavy make out which turns into a passionate sex for you both.

waking up with you on chris’ chest, you feel him showing a smile. he turns to the nightstand and grabs something small but worthy.

“y/n l/n, would you please marry me?”

nodding your head yes a bunch of times, you kiss chris on the lips.

-

heading back to hawaii, youre back into the palace where chris kept you in. waking up from your slumber, you go outside and talk to chris. chris sees you and tells his partner that he’ll be right back.

“hey hey babygirl, what happened? you alright?” chris leaves his seat to go to you as you start feeling shitty. “chris, i dont feel goo-” your eyes are shut closed and almost falls on the hard concrete til chris caught you.

“c-changbin! help!” chris yells out to whoever is out. your lips are slowly turning pale. changbin runs to chris with a blanket to cover your cold body and helps him carry you to the car. changbin speeds to the hospital with chris’ tears falling onto you, holding your hands and kissing the back of it. “please be okay, please please” chris whispers.

changbin parks at the emergency lot and chris grabs your body and puts you on the stretcher as the nurses sees you two. “please save her” the nurses all nodded their head and disappeared into the doors with a chris on the floor, sobbing his heart out, praying for you to be okay.

-

finally hours passed by and chris was left alone as he told changbin to go back to the palace. eyes all red and puffy with his legs shaking, full of anxiety. “mr bang?” the doctors call out chris. he stands up too quickly, making him almost loose his balance but the doctor helps him balance for a few seconds. thanking him, he follows the doctor to your room.

chris runs to your side as he sees your eyes open, with all type of wires attached to you. “y/n baby are you okay?”. nodding yes with a small smile, chris looks at the doctor.

“it looks like miss y/n was 1 month pregnant. and also looks like she wasnt taking care of herself either so mr bang, do y/n a favor and help not only her, but the baby”

you and chris nod your head, understanding as the doctor leaves you two. chris turns into his soft self. “i love you” he giggles. “i love you too chris”. scooting further away from him, you pat on the empty spot on the bed for him. chris smiles widely and goes to lay down next to you. you fall asleep from the warmth of your fiance as he hugs you. “and i love you too baby” he whispers and puts his free hand on your growing stomach. kissing your head and falling asleep next to the love of his life.

END <3

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Tell us how you'd write fp different from season one if u were in control 📝

ultimately id probably keep season one the same if we’re still keeping it r*verdale and not... parentdale lmao because then that becomes an entirely different show

but i do think he couldve been utilized a little more like we couldve done some things there. 

first and foremost im making that bitch GAY and yes that is very important to his character but i dont need to tell you that. but the layers that would add bitch! the layers! oh but i also wouldve given him and hermione/the lodges a proper backstory because that shit was not explored okay like i made a post about it before how all these people went to school together and then hiram randomly calls fp up one day cuz he needs a plot of land cheapened by his presence ksjgbkjbg and then add on the whole thing with fp hermione and fred. bisexual love triangle i would like to see.

OH and i would like to see his relationship with the serpents explored more i need to see him actually being a leader and making deals and running shit PLUS how joaquin came to be his like.... second in command i mean i know he was being used to seduce kevin but i really need that backstory too lmfao i need to see that conversation and honestly i think fp pulled that from his own experiences like i can 100% see fp in his younger days having to flirt his way through some situations just to gain some knowledge about whatever. but ALSO!!!! if we had a parallel of fp seducing fred to get info for hiram and fp first agreeing to it cuz hes still pissed at fred but then shit gets complicated because obviously hes still in love with him and then fp starts feeling bad and then oh no fred finds out just when he was starting to maybe open himself up to the idea of being with fp again..... we truly couldve done so much. and then you have freds slutty ass being caught betwen his ex girlfriend and ex boyfriend while also being sad about his ex wife still. so much drama

its really not until season 2 that his character fucking derails. I WANTED TO SEE HIM ACTUALLY IN PRISON! HIM RUNNING THE YARD! PRISON FIGHTS! SEXY!

i would have liked an actual sobriety arc. he said he got sober in prison and was attending meetings and then poof. that ended immediately. and fine. we could keep that but like... at least show the struggle and the guilt over it ya know? also he did not struggle nearly enough for coming out of prison for DUMPING A DEAD TEENAGER IN A RIVER like that town truly shouldve been on his ass about that theres no WAY him working at pops wouldnt have caused a scene.

like my main problem with fp as a character is that he truly never suffers any consequences for anything but also hes written to have all these problems that are never dealt with or remotely explored. and for as much as i would love for that bitch to get some therapy i also realize its not entirely realistic for him as a character and thats fine! but i want to see him struggle i want to see him actually acknowledge he has demons to face and work at them in his own way and both fail and succeed. 

ultimately what it all comes down to is he wasnt written as a person. which.... no one on this show is. they all just tick their little boxes of stereotypes and caricatures and its very annoying. if youre gonna give fp a drinking problem, show it! not just him passed out on the couch but him actually struggling. show him trying to get better and doing good for a while only to relapse, show how he actively has to make the choice every day not to drink. have him apologize to the people he hurt. let us see the actual damage it did to not just him but those around him. 

give him relationships with other people that are fleshed out and actually matter. the fact that he never once checked in on fred after he was shot is INSANE to me. gladys was only ever used as throwaway lines that never went anywhere. he had an entire daughter he presumably never tried getting in contact with based on her reaction to see him again like....but yet he has her name tattooed over his heart? so either that was a hollow gesture to appease his own mind or he actually deeply loves her but was so ashamed of himself and what caused gladys to leave that he couldnt even pick up the phone to call them. SHOW ME THESE THINGS!

show us what the serpents meant to him as a kid who got thrown out by his father at 16 and found a family in them instead. show us why he wound up back there after fred fired him. show us why hes so bonded to them. hell, even if he just went back out of desperation because times were hard and no one else would hire him and he needed that easy money.... fucking explore that shit! 

show us him forming these relationships with the younger gay serpents because hes got all this baggage from his own upbringing and he has a soft spot for kids like him and wants to protect them, even if it is through a drug running gang. show us that abuse fucks up your perception of love and how to do it but its all he knows so hes working with what hes got.

fp honestly works best as a tragic character. trying to do good but he can never quite make it. always drawn to shadier things because ultimately its what he knows and its where he feels safe. but he wants to be better at the same time! he just truly cannot help himself. and thats what needed to be explored more with him but not in a way that romanticized it. like he really is a fucked up person when you break him down and the fact we were all supposed to look at him as the hero or something is so bizarre to me and it never worked because we were expected to just forget everything he was. 

hes not an evil guy either hes just deeply misguided because thats just the shit he grew up in and he doesnt know anything else. except for fred and what he saw with the andrews and that shouldve been an important relationship like they really couldve played on how opposite fred and fp are and used that to a narrative advantage, them being best friends. theres SO MUCH to be done with that but fuck me i guess. 

idk i just always think about how fun fp wouldve been if they had just let him indulge in his devious ways like theres no way fp jones wouldve ever taken a cop job seriously and not used it to his own advantage. theres no way he wouldve been that bent out of shape about gladys running drugs when hes done SO MUCH worse. we shouldve gotten more scamming against hiram and him and hermione being in cahoots. 

like hes a street rat. he will always be a street rat. he cannot shake this. fucking play with that! indulge in it! have fun! have him settle down with his husband but he still cant stop himself from living on the fringe of the law

[shhh-no-ones-home]

tickle me emo chris motionless x reader

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Infamous era chris

Song: riptide by Vance joy

tag list: @musicsexandpizza69 @svintsandghosts @alilpunkrock @cynic-spirit @theoneandonlykymberlee @thisplace-ishaunted @lifeisabitchandsoareyou @xyours-eternallyx +++++++++ I walked across the living room slowly, looking to the tv as I tossed popcorn into my mouth. It was at my favorite part of the movie and i didnt want to miss it. it took everything i could muster to get Chris to even think about watching the first lord of the rings with me. i was not gonna miss this.

"You gonna sit?"

he asked through a laugh and I shushed him, never taking my eyes away from the film. I did however creep my way to the couch and sit beside him, offering the bowl over. we had agreed that when he came back from tour we'd have a sleep over and hang out since he had been gone so long. we missed each other after all, and i knew he needed a break form writing. as the scene ended i got comfortable in the couch again, sitting back with my legs folded under me and the blanket making its way to my lap. i stared intently, mouthing the words as bilbo spoke him disappearing a second later.

"are you doing what i think youre doing?"

chris said, taking my confused attention.

"doing what?"

i asked, oblivious.

"are you silently quoting him?"

he asked and i drew my brows.

"of course not."

he laughed, pointing from me to the tv and back again.

"yes you were! you were reciting the fuckin' movie."

he said, wiggling in his seat. i frowned.

"i am not."

i said, crossing my arms over my chest. he leaned over and poked me.

"yes you are, what is the next line?"

he asked and i sent him an annoyed look.

"Gandalf yells at him."

he rolled his eyes at me.

"y/n, what is the next line."

i sent him a bashful smile.

"no, wait, its here in my pocket."

i said along with Bilbo as he reached into his pocket for the ring, sending chris a knowing look. he laughed hysterically at me.

"of all the movies you could quote, it has to be the fuckin lord of the rings. i shouldve known."

i hit him with a pillow.

"whats that supposed to mean?!"

he shook his head, hitting me back.

"it means youre a big nerd."

he said in a nasally voice and i mocked offense.

"okay, sure i am. who knows all the words to harry potter?"

i asked, pushing the blanket with the slytherin symbol on it into his face. he pushed it away.

"hey! wizards are cool!"

he said, making me laugh.

"and so are elves."

he rolled his eyes at me again.

"yeah right."

i huffed.

"yeah, right."

i confirmed, hitting him again.

"will you stop that?"

he said, hitting me back. i did it another time, sticking my tongue out at him.

"no."

i said firmly.

"excuse you?"

he said and i crossed my arms over my chest.

"i said no."

he sent me a wicked smirk, poking my arm. i looked down at it for a second.

"youre not."

i said and he poked me again.

"maybe i am."

he said, i went to get off the couch but he grabbed me before i could stand.

"chris!"

i yelled as he began tickling me, making me wiggle against his grasp.

"let go."

i said through a fit a hysterics, leaning back into the couch but trying to get away from him, squirming around.

"no."

he mocked as i breathed heavily through the laughter.

"Stop it!"

I said as he continued to assault my sides with his finger tips.

"Stop tickling me!"

I gasped out, jerking around

"No, not until you admit I was right. wizards are cooler than elves."

He said, laughing at me. I swatted at his hands, trying to roll away from him. He crawled towards me though.

"Never!"

I called, smiling widely and pushing his hands away as we rolled onto the floor.

"Come on!"

He said.

"admit it."

i shook my head, still laughing. Then I finally grabbed his hands, rolling my body on top of his and holding his hands above his head. i inhaled sharply.

"Ha! No more tickles."

I said, breathing heavily, trying to calm down but still laughing a little breathlessly. He tried to pull his arms out of my grasp as I adjusted myself on top of him, straddling him to be more comfortable.

"Come on, let me go."

He said through a wide grin. I shook my head.

"Not unless you promise not to tickle me anymore."

He sat up as best he could and shook his head.

"Not until you admit I was right."

He dropped back down onto the ground with a soft thud. I held his wrists a little looser.

"Never gonna happen cerulli."

He groaned.

"Oh I love it when you defy me."

He joked, Making me laugh and roll my eyes at him.

"Oh yeah? Is that why we just got in a tickle war?"

He thought for a second.

"Yes."

He said slowly.

"Dork."

I said back and he mocked hurt.

"Wow rude."

I laughed at him, readjusting my grip.

"Maybe you deserve it."

i said playfully.

"Do I?"

I nodded, scooting his hands closer to his head again so I could sit up higher.

"Yes."

i confirmed.

"If you really think so why don't you come back down here and say it to my face."

He said a little cocky, brow raised.

"Oh yeah? Maybe I will."

"Good."

He Torted back.

"Yeah."

I leaned back down, looking over his face.

"I think you deserve to be on the ground for your crimes."

He nodded.

"Uh huh, I definitely do."

he said snarkily. I nodded.

"Yes you do."

"Mhm."

He hummed. I laughed a little bit. Before I knew it he was pushing up again, slamming his lips onto mine. I was beyond surprised, letting his hands go and sitting upright. i looked at him with wide eyes as he let out a nervous laugh.

"sir, i think the fuck not."

i said boldly, watching him sit up and rest his weight on his elbows.

"why not?"

he tempted and i raised a brow.

"you know how i feel about that."

i said, sending him a stern gaze."

"so i shoudlve asked first?"

he said and i inhaled deeply.

"maybe but i dont know if the answer wouldve been what you wanted it to be."

he side nodded, moving to sit all the way up. i scooted back onto his thighs, staring down at him.

"look, im sorry. that was probably wrong, but i have been wanting to do that for a while now. i didnt exactly know how to bring it up though. this just seemed like the perfect time."

he said, moving to scratch the back of his head. i could see his face starting to go pink. i looked around the room for a second, trying to decide what to do. id be lying if i said i didn't want it to happen too.

"maybe it was."

i said, side eyeing him and he sent me a knowing look.

"oh?"

he asked and i sighed.

"aw, hell."

i said before grabbing his face and kissing him back. he froze in place for a second before melting into me, his hands making their way to my waist. i tangled my fingers into his hair and tugged lightly, hearing him moan against me. when i pulled away he rested his forehead against mine. he smiled at me like an idiot before the tv took both our attention, the hobbits being chased by the ring wraiths and it getting louder. we both breathed heavily at the shock. i looked back to him and laughed, him pulling me back into him, his hand grazing my cheek.

"im still not admitting harry potter is better."

i said and he huffed, falling backwards onto the floor again and making me laugh harder.

"fine, but youll have to accept a date to make up for it."

he said, pointing at me and i nodded, a huge smile on my face.

"i think i can do that."