#should I tag this with my personal series or my main character there is some information about him in here...
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roger-paladino Ā· 2 years ago
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making that WF video was like. reminding me how much and how deeply Mo cared for Lee it hurts soo so so bad
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winter-spark Ā· 6 months ago
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I know self-diagnosis is valid and that as you learn more you're okay to be like oh I was wrong it's actually maybe this and whatever but I'm a bit of a coward, or well I still don't want to insert myself in spaces that I don't might not belong in and I've always hated the idea of talking about things without 100% certainty/information but uh my possible {self-}diagnosis is sorta leaking into my writing. Or at least I'm doing things in my writing then later hearing about/being reminded of things and sorta going :o so I'm gonna write about that below. Somewhat a vent post I suppose.
So... Uh I guess, besides explaining my potential diagnosis, there's currently gonna be three parts of this. My personal series Letting Go, my A3! writing, and my Buddyfight writing. And there's gonna be a lot of uncertainty here so I apologize if it at all wastes your time but here I go.
Me:
So... I might be autistic. This is something my sisters and I have been looking into for a minute tbh. Like a couple years at this point. We've taken a few different tests and started somewhat watching informational videos on autism and diagnoses and stuff, and like signs are pointing to yea probably. but like, idk. We were gonna put a pin in it until we could move but we unpinned because it wasn't helping to have it pinned. But yea, I might be autistic. Things I've looked into less that I might also have(?) ADHD, AFRID, mild dyslexia, but I've gotta do more research and it's not really about those but I thought I'd throw them out because idk some times holding things in for too long turns them to rot. But anyway, since I've been doing research on autism I was thinking maybe possibly whether I am or not my main character, Miles, is. He's from my series
Letting Go:
Now, Miles, I projected to some extent on when I wrote him but also he's very different from me but none the less there's few things that I had that could be signs of autism and I was wondering how to add more because I did want to sorta write him as an undiagnosed autistic. So in my writing before the research was my movie for my Screenwriting classes. Things about Miles, from the earlier drafts:
He is kinda sensitive to too many sounds, especially voices, at once (trait from me), (it increases when he's in a nervous/panicked state idk if that has to do with anything but I wanted to clarify that)
His, maybe, special interest is space, namely Pluto (and maybe baking)
(I had to sorta look back at this when editing/setting up for version like 4/5 which became a tv series but) he's not always great with picking up what others are putting down socially (version 1 he did not realize that another character was legitimately romantically into him, he didn't realize that, now one of his best friends, was worried about him,) like you do have to be a bit more direct with him (but not as much as Leilani but that's a different point completely)
So like, I was like maybe I should give him more traits? Like like this isn't in order and I can't remember everything but I was like okay, I, maybe, have a chewing stim, maybe I should give that to him too. (I need to double-check what his mannerisms are omg) And I say maybe have a chewing stim because I don't know if it has another name but I know that sometimes I just need to chew on something, but I've sorta conditioned myself out of it because my mom didn't appreciate me chewing on my pajama clothes and my personal stapler broke(yes I used to chew on staples). So like you know maybe that.
But also maybe I was thinking I would line his sorta panic attack with an autistic meltdown. See a big point in the story is when at a party he ends up sorta panicking and running away then he just sits by himself at like a bus stop which is where his grandma finds him, but like I wasn't sure how to do that because I was doing research and I wasn't sure how to quite make that so and if the things around it were right(I didn't do this research recently I'm sorry I'm super blanking). but I was watching this video earlier by I'm Autistic, Now What? called The 4 Types of Autistic Meltdowns, and one she mentioned was leaving/running away. Which as I mentioned he does. And I think maybe I was worried about build up/triggers but now I'm thinking more about that and maybe there is enough.
Ugh I don't want to "spoil" it but like, he's an introvert, he's a homebody(sorta), he's never had that many friends, so this was his first time going to a party with a group of friends, a group of friends that almost immediately split up, and he ends up stumbling back into one of them, but he's a little conscious about his crush flirting with someone else at the party, then his old bully is there and is harassing him and keeps mentioning Miles being a momma's boy and this is sorta more sensitive because his mom is in the hospital at the time(not a spoiler that's the (omg I'm a terrible film student what do you call the event that triggers the rest of the story, sets it in motion that's what that is)). He steps away for like to seconds to talk a breath but when he returns it is being revealed that his mom is in the hospital and [redacted because it was originally a surprise bit of info but now I just don't want to reveal this because it is still sorta a spoiler] which sends him over the edge where he borderline starts shouting and then just darts out.
And like maybe that works? I don't know. What I also don't know is if I should've even included my
A3! writing:
See, after one of the high points of my research on autism I was looking at a lot of Itaru content stuff and sorta was like is... is Itaru Autistic? Now I don't make it a point to write him as such but Itaru has become one of the characters I for some reason feel need to project onto. So when I write him I do give him me-adjacent traits and looking at some things I'm a bit like hmmm, am I maybe writing him autistic?
See-- oh shoot I should have mentioned this in the me category, okay so I might be demi-romantic, demisexual. I'm not 100% sure but with the research I've done I figure that's possibly why of the very few crushes I had it took a while for me to be like "oh! I have a crush on this person!" like literally one of them I didn't come to the conclusion until I was trying that wellness with Steven Universe/Rebecca Sugar thing and one of the days was just write what comes to your mind and as I was doing my best to do that(my mind goes very fast but I had to have complete thoughts) I got to a point where I was talking about one of my best friends and I was like "yea it'd be cool if we were still close in the future and maybe lived together and then we could go on runs together and cook together and cuddle on the couch watching movies together" literally visualizing this future together and then and I don't even remember if I considered a peck or not but I was like "oh shoot Do I have a crush on him?"
Now you're probably like, what's this gotta do with Itaru and autism? Well see in one of my CitoIta fics I gave him that trait of not quite catching on until he gets to a certain point "oh shoot, do I like him romantically, what?" so I figured I was just making him demi-romantic. (Which he still could be idk) but anyway. I saw this post a couple months back that said that not being able to quite tell if it's platonic or romantic can be a neurodivergent trait. So what if I gave it to him as like a subconscious neurodivergent, mayhaps autism, thing, idk if he's written as autistic in this story tho. I was actually initially thinking about in my Apartments au, where he basically starts scripting his interactions with his friendly neighbor (a sorta of "Okay, if we run into each other again I we have a conversation, I can ask this, and if he mentions this I can mention this" type thing. Oh tho he slightly does that in the first one I mentioned not to the same extent but he does prep how to say a line(wording and delivery) if asked what he's doing.
And speaking of characters I project onto let's hop over to
Future Card Buddyfight Fics:
So the closest I personally have ever been to "kin"-ing a character was Kiri Hyoryu, and I simply mean this in a "I related to him so hard" way like he was me foreal, okay, obviously lots of differences but point is I was able to see myself in him. Before they completely ruined him for me, that's an essay I've already written and will write again. but not this essay. So of course I wrote Buddyfight but mainly Team Disaster fanfiction(they aged with me in my writing lol). Some are actually posted too. but like in my most recent unfinished work, I was really feeling that need to project onto him. So I gave him a... something. It was similar to what I experienced but somewhat different. And as I continued writing, a character who happened to be there was like "I want to be able to help if it happens again, what sorta thing helps, can I ask if that a panic attack or an anxiety attack."(he was planning on doing additionally research on them as a whole) & I went ":0". And tried to research them and figure it out but like I couldn't. And going back to the video I was watching on the types of Autistic Meltdowns, I don't know but I kinda think that maybe he had an autistic meltdown?
But like here's the thing, how am I doing that? I not once considered Kiri as autistic. Just like a character that was as me as I was gonna get. He had a hard time making lasting friendships partly because he moved a lot, and latched onto his person(s) and just wanted to know he'd be remembered by those he cared about. Sure he was a bit whiny, I got why people thought he was annoying but it made him more like me, because I got why. I felt his pain. Even if none of it was real.
And I never really thought me and Itaru were all that alike but I feel the need to project onto him at times, and just like adjacently, like that long post about CitoIta playing Kingdom Hearts, I promise you a lot of Itaru's faves are different from my but also close enough, like Itaru being a Kingdom Hearts fan is because I'm a Kingdom Hearts fan, and he's a twewy fan too because I'm a twewy fan, like he's a gamer how can I not? But also he's nothing like me even in those regards. Like I know he's a freaking Shoka fan in terms of Neo and that he played the og twewy back when it first came out. And he's legit a gamer, I'm hardly one.
And of course my own oc, who doesn't project at least a little on their ocs. I don't have a point here on him tho. All in all I'm just like yeesh. What am I supposed to do with this?
I was gonna say I might have to accept that I really am probably autistic but I'm still nervous about trampling on other's space, interjecting myself where I don't be long that I realized something. Accidents do happen, yada yada if it's three times it's a pattern I've written lots of characters and stories so it'd have to be more than three four times... Five, more than five times, shoot I forgot Retsu's also a scripter(still Bfight character). But like yea, I'll probably start rereading my works to see if there's anything more in there that suggests that I maybe give autistic traits to characters I write and I know the less I project onto a character the less I can count it maybe? Idk, but like I just think that maybe I've over reacting idk. Time will tell I guess. I just don't want to be wrong you know?
This I know is nothing solid, I've been writing this for nearly three hours(I'm at work but it is a slow-ish day) without looking at any really research and just vaguely using my memory to make points so I might even more so be wrong idk, idk, idk.
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godmadeaterribleerror Ā· 4 months ago
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No Love Lost Series Masterlist
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Rating/Warnings: 18+ for canon-typical violence, swearing, mental health issues, mentions of rape/non-con, and sexual content.
Tags: Soldier Boy/Supe!Female Reader, enemies to friends to lovers, canon divergence, slow burn, smut, angst, fluff.
Series Summary
Three years ago you were normal, the only demons you had to fight were your own, and you the most you knew of Vought and the Boys were what you saw on TV. But then you met Homelander at a stupid party, and woke up the next morning in a cell.
After almost two and a half years of you being Homelander's little project, Soldier Boy was woken up only go rouge and be put back under. Somewhere in there, you escaped. And before Queen Maeve went underground, she told William Butcher about the Anomaly, a powerful supe who recently escaped Vought captivity and may have an agenda against Homelander.
One month later, the Boys found you.
You spend the next five months helping them best you can, though your control over your powers is weak and your fear of Homelander makes you useless in combat. But you get an idea. A stupid, dangerous idea that turns you into Soldier Boy's keeper, giving him a second chance to take down Homelander, you hanging over his shoulder, a threat should he want to go nuclear again. It's exhausting and frustrating, and you might kill him and yourself as soon as this is over, but you said whatever it takes.
And this is what it takes.
Author's Note
This story is non-canon compliant, with the two main differences being;
1) Butcher doesn't have brain cancer, because I said so.
2) All of Gen V didn't take place, because I don't want to deal with the whole supe-plauge thing. Also that's too many characters to keep track of squad.
Because of this, the story will start in a similar setting as s4e5, but with different events leading up to it, and will deal with similar themes and have similar events to the rest of s4, but at an inconsistent rate. If you have any questions about other, smaller changes I have made, feel free to ask!
Navigation Key
ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ = Smut
šŸš© = Additional Warnings
Chapter List
Chapter 1 - Where Winning Looks Like Losing Chapter 2 - A New Kind of Tension Chapter 3 - You've Torn Your Dress šŸš© Chapter 4 - You Might Be The Same As Me Chapter 5 - Popped, Cool, and Ready to Go Chapter 6 - I've Been Searching for a Fortified Defense Chapter 7 - The Blinding Ultra-Violence šŸš© Chapter 8 - I Just Find My Way Back ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„šŸš© Chapter 9 - Can't Cover It Up ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 10 - Lead Me To The Ark ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 11 - The Wolves or The Ocean Rocks Chapter 12 - While My Blood's Still Flowing Chapter 13 - The Terror of Knowing Chapter 14 - Choke on Sun Chapter 15 - I Found A Martyr ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 16 - Let It Flood ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ šŸš© Chapter 17 - Make My Chest Stir Chapter 18 - Something In The Static ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 19 - Don't Look Back šŸš© Chapter 20 - Forget to Fall Down Chapter 21 - Some Things You Just Can't Speak About ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ šŸš© Chapter 22 - I Stayed In The Darkness With You Chapter 23 - Wherever You're Going ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 24 - You'll Never Be Alone ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 25 - All I Know ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 26 - Iā€™ve Loved Everything About You That Hurts ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Chapter 27 - Just A Shot Away (11/12) Chapter 28 - Something That I'm Supposed to Be (11/19)
Bonus Footage (Standalone Chapters)
Dyingā€™s Up to Me - A Prologue. Takes place 6ish months before Chapter 1. šŸš© Back to Here - Request! They get horny at the dining table, and Butcher takes it personally. Takes place in Chapter 14. It's So Simple - You make Ben do icebreakers. He's a little bitch about it. Takes place in Chapter 14. Just Your Time - You give Ben internet lessons. Takes place in Chapter 14. As Much As I Do - Request! Ben finds you dancing, is immediately very normal about it. Takes place after Chapter 14 and around Chapter 15. Calling Your Name - Ben's first birthday awake isn't great. Takes place in Chapter 19. ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ I Skip My Pride - You share some music with Ben over text. Takes place in Chapter 22. The Only Place That I Call Home - It's team game night, and everyone is sick of you and Ben's shit. Takes place in Chapter 24. ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Can't Help Myself - Request! Ben has a breeding kink, and you're incredibly horny, so it works. Takes place in around Chapter 24 and Chapter 25. ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„ Anywhere Else Is Hollow - A halloween special episode! Takes place in Chapter 25. It Was Smiling Down (11/8) A Call To Motion (11/15)
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djarins-cyare Ā· 6 months ago
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Never Look Down
Part 1: Dinā€™s Evening
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Prompt:Ā ā€œI donā€™t know whatā€™s happening but I love it.ā€
Summary:Ā Din has been ignoring his crush on Groguā€™s babysitter for a while now, with varying degrees of success. But after a misunderstanding leads to some revelations, thereā€™s no denying things any longer. Sometimes you just need to look at things from a different perspective.
Rating:Ā Mature (18+) with a smidge of explicit
Pairing:Ā Din Djarin x Original Female Character (for his POV scenes) / Din Djarin x Reader (for her POV scenes)
Word count:Ā 5,330
Tags/warnings:Ā alcohol, drunkenness, vomit (no description), numerous references to erections, some swearing, references to sex, non-explicit smutty thots, Din carries OFC a short distance, masturbation (male, semi-explicit, but I donā€™t think enough to push up the rating), 3rdĀ person POV (part 2 will be 2ndĀ person POV and OFC will become reader/you).
Authorā€™s note:Ā This was originally supposed to be for @beskarandblastersā€™ Din Djarin Fic Club Drabble Event, although drabble this is not! Kel said there was no word limit, but it grew so long that I couldnā€™t even call it a one-shot anymore, so Iā€™m uploading it in two parts to make it easier to read and I think that probably disqualifies it from the Drabble Event. But Kel, thank you so much anyway for the prompt ā€“ it resulted in me finally pushing through my writerā€™s block and finishing/uploading something new, so Iā€™m eternally grateful!
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Heā€™s panicking. Itā€™s stupid, really ā€“ heā€™s been in situations far trickier and more critical than this. But Karga said he needed help urgently, and now his babysitter isnā€™t answering her comlink.
Should he just go and leave Grogu here? Itā€™s not like he never left him alone on the ship.
Exceptā€¦ somethingā€™s changed since the adoption. Din has started to care what others think of his parenting style. He hears people whisper that fatherhood clearly isnā€™t coming easily to him (he thought he was doing alright). He watches how his babysitter closely monitors every move the kid makes (the Mandalorians never watchedĀ himĀ that closely). He listens when people talk about how they raise their own children (he hadnā€™t realised it was such hard work). And itā€™s made him feel as if heā€™sā€¦ lacking.
He hates feeling less than adequate in any area of his life, but somehow, failing as a father cuts deep. Perhaps itā€™s because he grew up without one. Plus, thatĀ scolding Peli gave him after she found Grogu alone on theĀ Razor CrestĀ still haunts him.
Although the Mandalorian method of letting them learn from their mistakes has merit (and it never did him any harm), he wants to be there for his son. So, no. He wonā€™t leave Grogu here alone. He canā€™t risk him waking up and wondering why nobody comes if he calls. The kid has probablyĀ had enough of that in his past.
Why isnā€™t Maia picking up?
Din paces the cabinā€™s length, listening to the gentle ping of the comlink as it tries to connect with the one he gave her. Even the soothing pulse doesnā€™t ease his frustration. Diligent parenting isĀ hard.
Just as heā€™s wondering if he can wake the kid and bring him along, the comlink crackles to life.
ā€œā€”know what the stinking stang is wrong with it! Ah, frotz! Hello? Is this thing totally borked?ā€
For a baffling moment, he canā€™t work out whether heā€™s shocked or thrilled. She certainly doesnā€™t use that type of language around the kid, but heā€™s delighted to hear her voice nonetheless.
ā€œMaia!ā€ He interrupts her frustrated confusion as loud as he dares, lest he wake the sleeping child downstairs.
ā€œShiny, hi! It works! Whatā€™s up, my metal man? Itā€™s lateā€¦ is this a booty call?ā€
Once again, Din canā€™t decide if heā€™s shocked or thrilled. However, his dickā€™s instant twitch of interest proves thatĀ it, at least, is clearly siding with the latter. Dank farrik, he wishes it were a booty call. ā€œNo, Maia, I needā€”ā€
ā€œCourse itā€™s not!ā€ she interrupts, giggling inanely.Ā ā€œSorry, that was ridiculous, ignore me. Go on, you were saying?ā€
He takes a deep breath and tries to push past the stab of dismay at her labelling the idea of a booty call as ridiculous. At least she sounds in a happy mood.
ā€œIā€™m sorry to contact you so late, but Karga has some kind of crisis. IG-11 is still with the Anzellans for repairs after theĀ lastĀ crisis, so heā€™s asked for my help. Groguā€™s asleep, but Iā€™m gonna need you to come over and wait at the cabin until I return. Iā€™ll pay you double your usual rate. I just donā€™t wanna leave him here alone.ā€
ā€œSuuure! Iā€™ll haul my jets over to you now. Five, ten minutes, tops. If you wanna take off now, I know your door code. Iā€™ll check on the liā€™l bug as soon as I arrive.ā€
Din breathes a relieved sigh. ā€œThank you, I owe you. I shouldnā€™t be long.ā€
ā€œHappy hunting, Beskar Boy! Or happy dispute settling!ā€ Maia signs off with a melodic laugh that instantly makes him grin beneath his helmet, despite the stupid nickname.
The grin fades as he processes the meaning of the words preceding her addictive laughter, and he sighs. Sheā€™s probably right, although he hopes heā€™ll at least need his blaster for whatever mess the High Magistrate wants him to clean up.
Karga was once able to intimidate the townsfolk, but these days, they see him as purely a leader and captain of industry. They respect his ability to govern and improve the town ā€“ heā€™s more than proven himself capable in those roles.Ā But whipping out a blaster from beneath those ridiculous robes now gains him little more than dubious raised eyebrows. By contrast, Cara was a fearsome and capable law enforcer, and now IG-11 keeps the citizens in line.
Except a reptavian tore off both of IGā€™s legs a few nights ago. Apparently, whatever the droid equivalent of ā€˜sick leaveā€™ is, heā€™s taking it.
Din doesnā€™t mind helping out when heā€™s not on jobs for Carson. As long as Karga doesnā€™t solicit his helpĀ tooĀ often, itā€™s an easy way to make a few extra credits. He supposes that kindĀ of makes him a part-time deputy, though heā€™ll never accept a title or a contract. But if tonightā€™s job is nothing more than a neighbour dispute, heā€™ll be a little peeved. His friend is aware of his skillset and wouldnā€™t contact him unless it required weapons and armour. He hopes.
He checks on Grogu once more, then equips himself with his usual arsenal, making sure to lock the weapons cabinet behind him. For some reason, his blasters fascinate Maia. Heā€™s given her several shooting lessons, and she always asks to hold them whenever the cabinetā€™s unlocked. Although he doubts sheā€™d handle them without his permission, heā€™d rather be present if sheā€™s caressing his things.
Truthfully, heā€™d prefer it if she handled and caressed something else entirely, though he buries that thought for now. He has work to do, and an ill-timed hard-on would be awkward at best, if not downright perverse. He can torture himself later.
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Din wraps up the problem in less than an hour. ItĀ doesĀ require his blaster, in fact, and heĀ doesĀ have to shoot someone. Okay, itā€™s in the shoulder to disarm him, but the guy is only on his drunken vendetta because heā€™s heartbroken. He doesnā€™t deserve to die.
A year ago, he wouldā€™ve just shot him in the head and gone home. But heā€™s lived among the citizens of Nevarro for several months now, and heā€™s almost starting to feel like part of the community. Passing through it to visit the old covert was different. The Mandalorians were a separate (secret) colony, and he was merely a visitor who lived on his ship. Even though his new home is still on the outskirts, Grogu attends the school in town, and he already knows many of the other parents by name. These days, the market stall owners try to chat with him instead of looking away in fear as they used to.
The guy standing on a table in the cantina tonight with a blaster trained on his ex and her new flame is someone Din recognises. He canā€™t recall from where, but disarming rather than killing him feels like the right thing to do.
Once he has him in binders, he delivers him to Karga and hurries straight home. The lava flats are quiet and peaceful this time of night,Ā free from the nocturnal bustle of the town and lit only by the celestial display above. Thereā€™s no sulphur fog tonight, and the air smells fresh.
But as pleasant as it is, he doesnā€™t dawdle. Just like every other time heā€™s left Maia in charge, he relishes the chance to walk into his home and see her there.Ā As if she belongs. He finds that image far more dazzling than the constellations sparkling above him. Itā€™s far sweeter than the fresh air he inhales through his helmet filters as he hastens toward his cabin.
He canā€™t pinpoint when his interest in her changed from professional to passionate. Grogu made it clear that he liked her best out of the several childminders they auditioned, so he gave her the job. At some point between then and now, he became enamoured with her.
But he canā€™t do anything about it.
His loyalty to his son means he canā€™t fuck the babysitter, so for now, Maia belongs to the kid, and Din sleeps alone.
Even though heā€™s had no serious relationships in the past, he imagines heā€™d be willing to try it with her. But since itā€™ll never happen, itā€™s not worth dwelling on. Heā€™s noticed a few localsĀ checking him out, so he can always approach them if heā€™s looking to get laid. Heā€™s much more used to casual encounters.
But none of that stops Din from thinking his babysitter is beautiful. It doesnā€™t stop him from wishing he could run his hands over her welcoming body, indulge in her tender touch and heady scent, sink into her depths over and over until sheā€™s crying out his name as they shatter together in ecstasyā€¦.
Dank farrik, heā€™d better quit thinking like that. He has enough trouble controlling his physical urges around her as it is. In fact, itā€™s starting to become a problem. Heā€™s lost count of how many times heā€™s had to dash off and furtively rearrange himself so his stomach padding hides his boner. He canā€™t wear the flight suits with the tight pants around her anymore, so the looser-fitting ones are getting much more use. In fact, heā€™s wearing his last pair. (That reminds him: he needs to do laundry tomorrow.)
Maia teases him whenever she can, but itā€™s always friendly, not flirty, and it doesnā€™t come close to being sexual. Heā€™s never caught her looking anywhere other than directly at his visor. Still, he canā€™t help feeling embarrassed whenever something she says or does causes his cock to harden. He simply canā€™t control it.
Din reaches the cabin and punches in the door code, happy to note that his guest has locked it from inside. Her diligence and attention to detail certainly helped him trust her in his home from the outset of her employment.
Stepping across the threshold, he notices all the lights are out except for the one above the kitchen sink, which is unusual. Stranger still, all it illuminates is a near-full cup of water standing in a pool of condensation.
Nonetheless, itā€™s bright enough for him to survey the rest of the room cast in shadowed shades of grey.
He canā€™t see Maia.
Instantly, his heart rate rises, although he doesnā€™t panic. Sheā€™s probably just in the refresher or the kidā€™s bedroom with him. But the amount of moisture surrounding that cup shows itā€™s been sitting there almost as long as he was gone, which is curious. And thereā€™s no light coming from downstairsĀ either.
The cabin is small, with an open-plan kitchen and living space, and a staircase leading down to two bedrooms and the refresher. Dinā€™s priority is his son, so he creeps down the ferrocrete steps, well-practised at following the route silently. With his night vision on, he can see that Groguā€™s door is open a crack, and he pushes it wider. Little purring snores verify that the kid is sleeping soundly, and he slides the door fully closed to ensure he stays that way. Good.
Since his babysitter wasnā€™t in that room, and she wouldnā€™t invade his private space without permission, thereā€™s only one other option. He bypasses his own bedroom opposite Groguā€™s and heads to the door facing him ā€“ the refresher. He canā€™t pick up any sounds from within, but heā€™s not about to invade her privacy by listening too intently. The door is fully shut, but thereā€™s a faint glow through the ventilation grill at the bottom, too weak to be the usual lights. A glowrod?
Thatā€™s ratherĀ odd. Heā€™s grateful that Maia avoided putting on the hall lights while Groguā€™s door was ajar, but she couldā€™ve switched on the refresher lights once inside.
For an unsettling moment, Din isnā€™t sure how to proceed. He really doesnā€™t want to interrupt her if sheā€™s busy. Butā€¦ his instincts are telling him something is off, and he wants to know sheā€™s okay.
Heā€™ll give her a little longer. Heā€™d rather be cautious than a perv.
He retreats upstairs again, conducting a thorough check of the living space and kitchen but finding nothing abnormal or suspicious. Nothing besides that abandoned cup of water, at least. Next comes his nightly check of the cabinā€™s weak points ā€“ the windows and entryway. He secures them all, figuring he can escort Maia out when sheā€™s ready. Tipping away the water, he runs a fresh cup, turnsĀ his back to the stairsĀ to lift his helmet and drink, and refills it. Finally, he disarms himself of most of his weapons, leaving one blaster in its holster and his vibroblade in his boot. He likes to bring some of his usual arsenal downstairs with him, even though he has multiple spares in a secure cabinet near his bed.
Which is where heā€™s headed now. Din sets the drink on his nightstand, switches off his night vision, and switches on the dim bedside light. His guest has seen him armourless a few times before, so he begins removing his beskar and the rest of his kit. Heā€™s almost finished ā€“ just his armourweave stomach padding to go ā€“ when he hears a thump from the refresher.
In seconds, heā€™s outside it again, listening intently for any further clues. Heā€™s been in the business of handling unconscious bodies for decades, andĀ thatĀ sounded like an unconscious body.
ā€œMaia?ā€ he tries, keeping his voice low to ensure he wonā€™t disturb the kid.
Nothing.
He knocks gently, giving it a few moments.
Still nothing.
Okay, now heā€™sĀ reallyĀ starting to worry. He returns to his bedroom, grabs his vambrace, and flicks through his visual settings until heā€™s replaced his night vision with the thermal overlay. He hopes he isnā€™t crossing a line here, but what else can he do? Walking to his doorway, he takes a deep breathā€¦Ā and directs his visor at the refresher.
Dank farrik, sheā€™s on the fucking floor. Why didnā€™t he check sooner?
Jabbing off the thermal overlay, Din throws his vambrace on the bed, then rushes to the refresher door. He keeps his voice low in case he wakes Grogu, hoping it reaches her anyway. ā€œMaia, I donā€™t know if you can hear me, but I hope youā€™re decent because Iā€™m coming in.ā€
He gives her five torturous seconds to respond or get decent if she isnā€™t already, and then he keys in the override code. The door slides open, revealing his unconscious (but blessedly fully clothed) babysitter slumped near the toilet, lit by a glowrod on the floor next to her. He can now hear her breathing heavily, though it doesnā€™t sound laboured, just a deep state of sleep.
His helmet isnā€™t sealed, so straight away, heā€™s able to detect the lingering smell of vomit. A somewhat grim consequence of being both a bounty hunter and a father means Din can also distinguishĀ typesĀ of vomit. Although she has flushed, thereā€™s no air filtration with the lights off, and the residual odour tells him that Maia has been drinking alcohol.
It also explains her unconscious state, so his worry dissipates a little, and mild annoyance starts to creep in.
She agreed to look after his son when sheā€™d beenĀ drinking?
He kneels down next to her, laying a hand on her shoulder. ā€œMaia. Wake up.ā€ He shakes her, but she doesnā€™t stir.
He assumes she slipped from a propped-up position against the toilet, and the thud he heard was her slumping onto the ferrocrete floor. Did she bang her head? If that didnā€™t wake herā€¦ shit.
He tries shaking her again with as much force as he dares, and she groans and curls up even more. Sheā€™s fighting it, but he sees consciousness sluggishly returning.
ā€œMaia, itā€™s Din. Can you sit up?ā€
ā€œā€¦ yā€™canā€™t make me sing for the cupā€¦.ā€ Sheā€™s still half asleep and confused, but thatā€™s not surprising. A few seconds later, she cracks open her eyes, becomes aware of her situation, and slams them shut again. ā€œOhā€¦ fuuuckā€¦ no no, mā€™sorryā€¦ so so so s-sorryā€¦ please donā€™t be mad at meeeā€¦.ā€ Sheā€™s tearful and rambling but mostly coherent, even though sheā€™s still curled on the floor with her eyes squeezed closed.
ā€œWhat happened?ā€ He canā€™t think of anything else to say until heā€™s established her culpability. He knows she wouldnā€™t drink on the job, so she mustā€™ve been drinking earlier this evening. It certainly explains her overzealous response on the comlink. Dank farrik, he shouldā€™ve realised. But, no, he was busy revelling in his ownĀ drunken high from her joke about it being a booty call. Idiot.
ā€œIt was accidetā€” ac-ci-den-tal,ā€ she continues from her foetal position. ā€œTried to call you back, but mā€™comlinkā€™s bustedā€¦ figured better Iā€™m here drunk than not at allā€¦ ā€™m sorry sorry sorry, kark, pleeease donā€™t hate me. I jusā€™ wanted to make sure the liā€™l man was okay. I didnā€™t realise how much Iā€™d had till I stood up, nā€™ it hit me worse on the way over. But Groguā€™s fine, I checked. But Iā€™ve grossed up your ā€™fresher, ā€™m sorryā€¦ā€
Din sighs. In the scheme of things, Maia did the right thing. Heā€™d rather she was here puking in his refresher than risk his child waking up alone. And it occurs to him that she achieved a surprising amount while seemingly drunk as a pirate. She secured the cabin, poured herself some water, stomached a few sips, managed to descend the stairs unscathed, and checked on the kid. Then she sealed herself inside the refresher and threw up neatly into the toilet bowl with no spills, even managing to flush before she passed out. And she did all that by the light of a glowrod so she wouldnā€™t wake Grogu.
In many ways, his babysitterā€™s actions tonight were more responsible than some of his own questionable choices regarding his sonā€™s safety. He canā€™t be mad at her.
He tells her so. ā€œIā€™m not mad, Maia. Thank you for coming over anyway. Can you sit up? I need to know youā€™re okay.ā€
Her eyes are still clamped shut, but she cracks them slightly as she tries to push herself off the floor. It doesnā€™t go well, so Din reaches forward to help, and together, they get her into a stable sitting position. Nevarroā€™s volcanic environment means the basement maintains a cosy warmth, so heā€™s not surprised she passed out down here. Itā€™s not exactly soft, but those who grow up in the Outer Rim spend their lives making do.Ā He likes that sheā€™s a survivor. Like him.
ā€œEverythingā€™s s-spinning,ā€ she groans. ā€œNā€™ my mouth tastes like bantha balls.ā€
Din suppresses a snort. ā€œHold on.ā€ He climbs to his feet, retrieves the cup of water from his bedroom, and then passes it to her. ā€œHere, sip.ā€
After sheā€™s taken a few delicate sips, Maia gives him back the cup. ā€œDonā€™t wanna puke again.ā€
ā€œYou wonā€™t,ā€ he assures, placing it in her hands again. ā€œPretty sure you got all the alcohol out of your system already. You gotta rehydrate, or youā€™ll feel worse.ā€
Kneeling down next to her again, he watches her try to follow his instruction, pleased she trusts him. He canā€™t help but admire how adorably dishevelled she is. Her hair is mussed, her clothes are wrinkled, and she keeps pouting between sipsā€¦ but itā€™s all soā€¦ cute.
Once sheā€™s had half the cup, he accepts it back, though she follows it up with more apologies. ā€œMā€™so sorryā€¦ , mā€™such a karkinā€™ idiotā€¦ I get it if you donā€™t want me to look after Grogu anymā€”ā€
ā€œStop,ā€ Din interrupts sharply, unwilling to let her beat herself up. ā€œThis is as much on me as it is on you. I didnā€™t ask you if you were busy. I demanded you come over and bribed you with extra credits. I didnā€™t question why you sounded different on the comlink. And I didnā€™t wait for you to arrive. If Iā€™d done any of those things differently, you might not have ended up on my ā€™fresher floor. So Iā€™m sorry too.ā€ Maia doesnā€™t reply besides blinking at him a few times, so he asks, ā€œWhat was the occasion? For the drinking, I mean.ā€
ā€œOne year of freedom from a terrible relationship,ā€ she states resolutely, and for a moment, she seems a little more sober. ā€œMe nā€™ Zandi, we were both in deep with some mudscuffers who locked us in when we were too young to know any better. But we got lucky. Marshal Dune caught them dealing spice, and now theyā€™re spending a decade mining the asteroid field at the edge of the system. The Nevarran tribunal sentenced them a year ago today, so we drank to celebrate our freedom.ā€
Din doesnā€™t really know how to respond. Sheā€™s made some previous passing remarks about the toxic relationships she and her friend escaped from, which heā€™s always taken as hints of her wish to remain unattached. Itā€™s yet another reason he wouldnā€™t feel right about making any sort of move on her. He settles on, ā€œYouā€¦ deserve to celebrate.ā€
ā€œThanks, Shiny.ā€ He bristles at the nickname out of habit, but he secretly likes that Maia has numerous nicknames for him. ā€œNā€™ you deserve a ā€™fresher without a woman on the floor. I should get outta your way, Beskar Boy.ā€
She tries pushing herself up but instantly becomes dizzy and topples to the side. Dinā€™s naturally quick reflexes kick in, and he positions himself to catch her, letting her fall into his chest as his arm snakes around her back. Before he can even process what heā€™s doing, heā€™s slipping his other arm beneath her knees and lifting her up.
ā€œWhoa!ā€ she exclaims, grabbing onto his flight suit with one hand while the other flies to grasp his neck. He almost shivers from feeling her clutch at him so keenly. ā€œI donā€™t knowĀ whatā€™sĀ happening, but I love it! Thanks for the lift, muscles!ā€
Heā€™s glad his bold move has amused rather than perturbed her, so he doesnā€™t answer, too busy willing his cock to remain unreactive to this sudden closeness. His main goal is to get her off the ferrocrete floor and put her down somewhere softer as fast as possible. As he elbows open the door and navigates out of the refresher, he makes a split-second decision. His bed is closer than the couch.
ā€œShiny! This is your bedroom!ā€ Maia whisper-shouts as he steps through the door. At least sheā€™s lucid enough to keep her voice low in case Grogu hears across the hall.
Din grunts in agreement as he approaches his bed and starts carefully lowering her onto it.
She keeps going in a gleeful whisper. ā€œIs thisā€¦? Are weā€¦? Kriff, I never thought Iā€™dĀ actuallyĀ end up in your bed, metal man! I mean, itā€™s been a dream, sure, but I figured your creed thing meant, like, no sex or whatever. But holy frotz, I guess tonightĀ really wasĀ a booty call! Count me the fuck in!ā€
Heā€™s already laid her down by the time he fully processes her words.
Dank farrik, heā€™s a fucking idiot.
He willĀ neverĀ have sex withĀ anyĀ woman in this state. Heā€™s not that kind of guy. The fact that being with Maia is a dream for him too is meaningless, and so is the possibility that she might actually want him. Because does she really? Maybe this is still the alcohol talking.Ā It has to be. Right?
It doesnā€™t even matter. All Din needs to do is extract himself from this situation in the least awkward way possible and without having to reject her verbally.
But how?
He points a finger at her. ā€œStay put.ā€ She bites her bottom lip and acknowledges his order with a sloppy salute.
Damn it, the image of her lip caught between her teeth is now burned into his brain, haunting him with forbidden promise.
He pads back to the refresher in his socks and closes the door, relieving himself, flushing, and then pouring some cleaner down the toilet to sit overnight. He then washes up at the sink as fast as possible and refills the cup of water. Returning to his bedroom, Din places the cup on the nightstand along with the glowrod that belongs to his guest.
Speaking of whomā€¦
In his brief absence, Maia has toed off her shoes, stripped naked and strewn her clothes across the floor, and burrowed under his covers. Sheā€™s still bleary from the booze, but he sees fire and lust behind her hopeful gaze as she blinks up at him.
It kills him.
He remembers he never finished removing his armour, so he retrieves the vambrace from where he threw it and places it on its shelf. Then he finally removes his stomach padding and puts that away too, directing his visor anywhere except at the naked woman in his bed. Heā€™s doing everything possible to deny the physical reaction her presence is giving rise to.
When heā€™s done, Din approaches the bed again, acutely aware that sheā€™s tracking him with a hunger he shares but can do nothing about.
Fuck, this is torture. The blanket has slipped down (or maybe Maia has arranged it) so low that itā€™s daringly close to exposing her nipples. Sheā€™s right there, waiting for him.Ā Wanting him.
But sheā€™s drunk. And sheā€™s his kidā€™sĀ babysitter. He tries to quell his ache by thinking about how sheā€™s thrown up this evening, which would make kissing gross. It helps for a second, although the idea of kissing her at all ends up eclipsing the negatives, and he hardens even more.
Shit, heĀ cannotĀ think about kissing her. Or how naked she is. Or anything like that. Vomit. He should focus on vomit.
Okay. Din taps off the bedside light and picks up the glowrod, then heads to the door in the dark, stumbling over her clothes strewn on the floor. He canā€™t activate his helmetā€™s night vision without his vambrace control, but he wonā€™t put it back on just to navigate his escape. Nor will he switch on the glowrod yet because he doesnā€™t want to see any dismay or regret in her eyes as he leaves her. He wants to remember the hunger he witnessed there.
Hazardous garments notwithstanding, he finds his way to the exit.
Crossing the darkened doorwayā€™s threshold, he whispers, ā€œGet some rest, Maia.ā€ Then he fumbles for the control and taps the door close button, releasing a sigh as it swishes shut behind him.
Switching on the dim glowrod, he traipses upstairs. Itā€™s going to be so kriffing awkward in the morning. Nonetheless, one thought keeps repeating itself to him above all others, one he can no longer prevent his dick from swelling at the prospect of.
Is she really attracted to him?
He has to know.
Din extracts another blaster from his cabinet, knowing he wonā€™t sleep without one beside him. Then he sits heavily on the couch, thinking about how often he used to sleep in his helmet before this cabin became his home. Itā€™s the first place heā€™s felt secure enough to remove it at night, so heā€™s no stranger to sleeping beneath his beskar mask. Itā€™s almost a comfort in a way.
With his face covered in a darkened room lit by nothing but a glowrod while those he cares for slumber downstairs, more memories returnā€¦
Sitting in theĀ Crestā€™s darkened cockpit, fucking his fist by the swirling glow of hyperspace, chasing a release during those first stressful days as a fugitive. In theory, if something had pulled him out of hyperspace, someone couldā€™ve quite literally caught him with his dick in his hand. But the odds of anyone being close enough to peer in through the transparisteel at that very moment and notice his furtive actions were slim. Back then, he was so untethered that in his weaker moments, he desperately sought anything that made him feel good. Fleeting moments when he could pretend his life wasnā€™t falling apart yet again. The risk was worth it.
Here, too, although heā€™s locked up the cabin and closed the shutters, thereā€™s a risk of Maia sneaking up the stairs and finding him. But a similar desperation fills him now ā€“ the utter frustration of loss. Back then, it was the loss of a stable income, the loss of his covert. Now, itā€™s his missed chance ā€“ the loss of what couldā€™ve been with the woman downstairs. And maybe even the total loss of her in his life. Perhaps sheā€™ll be too embarrassed about this eveningā€™s events and quit. Din couldnā€™t take that, nor could Grogu. Itā€™s why he tried to avoid this.
Can they get past this? Maybe he ought to find someone else to care for the kid. Would that be best? This is getting too complicated. He doesnā€™t want to think about it anymore.
So, right now, heā€™ll imagine the positive and lose himself in the fantasy, just like he used to. Heā€™ll think about the hunger he saw in her eyes and let himself believe it wasnā€™t merely the alcohol. Just for tonight, heā€™ll believe itā€™s the truth. The risk, once again, is worth it.
Heā€™s already tenting his loose flight suit pants, so he fumbles to expose himself and relaxes against the couch cushions behind him. The wet spot on his underwear displays just how profoundly turned on he is simply by theĀ ideaĀ of being with Maia.
After all the temptation itā€™s endured this evening, his cock is extra sensitive, so he begins with measured, lazy strokes. Whilst heā€™d love to revel in the fantasy, he knows he wonā€™t last long. As he imagines joining her in his bed, filling his palms with those half-exposed breasts he saw, pressing his naked body against her, his movements begin to speed up and his pressure increases. Very soon, heā€™s plummeting toward the edge of ecstasy like a podracer pilot with the finish line in sight.
His helmet tips back to stare at the ceiling as he pictures how it would feel to sink into her warm depths, and the notion ignites his fuse, burning rapidly. It only takes a few more strokes before the powder keg within him explodes into a million tiny raptures. His hips stutter, his muscles clench, and his orgasm tears through his body. He comes hard, and a fractured groan far louder than heā€™d intended escapes through the modulator as he spills forth his pleasureā€¦
Fucking. Bliss.
Dinā€™s mind is blank for some time, just a sense of fulfilment and contentment gently rippling throughout his relaxed form.
As the real world filters back in, heā€™s able to think clearly, and he now knows what he has to do. He doesnā€™t like it, but itā€™s the mature and sensible option. Itā€™s also a fucking daunting prospect, but heā€™s faced worse. Has he? Yes, he has. He can do it.Ā 
HeĀ tucks himself away and finds a cloth to wipe down the mess on his flight suit. That task makes him realise heā€™ll have to sneak into his bedroom tomorrow without waking Maia to grab his armour and some fresh clothes. And now heĀ reallyĀ needs to do laundry tomorrow. The only pants he has left are the tighter ones, which he tries to avoid wearing around her. Great, thereā€™s another reason to dread the morning. Although itā€™s not as if heā€™s ever caught her checking out his package ā€“ sheĀ may tease him verbally, but her gaze is alwaysĀ polite.
For now, heā€™ll enjoy the security of darkness and the lingering swirl of happy chemicals in his brain.
DinĀ lays down on the couch and switches off the glowrod. With a deep sigh, he surrenders to the relaxing state of comfort brought on by his orgasm, letting himself fall into a contented sleep. Before he drifts off, his last thought is of Maiaā€™s beautiful lipsā€¦ leaning in for a kissā€¦.
If only.
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Main Masterlist | Series Masterlist | Part 2 ā†’
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Those of you who've read my work before will be familiar with my copious end notes:
As usual, itā€™s British spellings Iā€™m afraid. Demographic stats say about 60% of you are American, but I canā€™t help where I was born, so sorry about all the extra ā€˜uā€™s and ā€˜lā€™s and for using ā€˜sā€™ where you would expect ā€˜zā€™. However, Iā€™ve channelled my inner linguist and used American language and speech patterns since the show is filmed in the US and Dinā€™s accent is American. All other wording is internationally neutral, including Maiaā€™s dialogue (since the next chapter is written from her POV and Iā€™ll be switching to second person reader insert for that, e.g. you/your pronouns). Iā€™m a little sad I didnā€™t get to include any Mandoā€™a linguistics in this fic tbh. Maybe another time.
The cabinā€™s layout is inspired by the concept art by Christian Alzmann that appeared in the closing credits of s3e8, in which there appears to be a staircase leading down to a lower level. That makes sense to me, as Din would need total security to sleep without his armour on, and a windowless underground room seemed appropriate. I also like the parallel that on the Razor CrestĀ he used to sleep on the lower level in a windowless room too.
I know Carlā€™s absence is going to be felt when we finally get the movie, so I wanted to write something where Karga is still around. If this had been a longer piece, I wouldā€™ve had him actually featuring in it instead of being in the background, but in any case, Karga lives forever in the universes I write.
The reference to Din wearing looser pants is, weirdly, Canon. One of the ways you can tell itā€™s Brendan WayneĀ in the suit is because he seems to prefer these weird baggy clown pants. Contrast to PedroĀ who likes them tight (Din PeƱa?), as does Lateef Crowder, and as did Barry LowinĀ in season 2. Since Brendan did the majority of season 3, we saw Din in the loose-fitting style a lot more, so I decided to write in a reason for that beyond actor preference.
Though we have no information on Nevarroā€™s judiciary system, theyā€™re an independent world who have a marshal and a magistrate, so my guess is theyā€™d adopt the New Republicā€™s system of having a tribunal. Generally, group decision-making is favoured during this era, in contrast to the single-judge system of the Imperial era, so it seems more likely that Karga would encourage citizens to serve on a tribunal rather than unilaterally passing judgments himself.
Apologies to @the-mandawhor1an for using the name of your longtime established OC ā€“ it was coincidental, I promise! I chose it after looking up the most common female names in the world, one of which is Maria, and I settled on the variant Maia because it sounded like a more Star Wars-y version (and for another reason which youā€™ll see in part 2). I only realised when you reblogged my WIP Wednesday snippet, and it was a bit late to change it by then. I guess itā€™s a common name in the SWU too! But Iā€™m sorry and I hope you donā€™t feel like Iā€™m muscling in on your domain. Your Maia is of course the original Maia šŸ’–
I made the GIF myself. Sorry itā€™s a bit blurry, Iā€™m not very good at making them yet. I tried to use Tumblrā€™s GIF-making function, but it wouldnā€™t let me crop out Groguā€™s ears, so this was my alternative attempt. Itā€™ll have to do.
Definitions: ComlinksĀ are those little cylinder comms they all use. GlowrodĀ is a catch-all term for anything portable that produces light. All the swears/insults (stinking stang, frotz, borked, kriff, kark) are from the Legends list of phrases and slangĀ this time (itā€™s longer than Canon). Nevarran reptaviansĀ are the ones that Grogu saved Karga from in s1e7 and that the Mandalorians were roasting in s3e7. FerrocreteĀ is a compound building material (Canon and Legends) made from concrete and iron, used in roads, reinforced bunkers and building foundations. I figured Din would only be happy with something strong and defensible, so Karga had the cabin built with it. TransparisteelĀ is used for windows and ship viewports, as well as helmet visors.
Part 2 is written and will be uploaded next weekend once proofing/editing is complete. What do we think? Is Din gonna be dumb and tell her she canā€™t babysit Grogu anymore? Deny himself what he wants for Maiaā€™s own good?
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writingmeraki Ā· 9 days ago
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ribs ā€” a rafe cameron series.
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ā In which, you did not think there was a way for you to ever come to love the beach, sea and the annoying sand that never seemed to leave you, but then again you did not think you'd ever meet let alone possibly associate yourself with someone like Rafe Cameron.
( or you hated the beach and all that came with it, but turns out this initially disappointing summer could be changed by the presence of one intriguing person. And the fact that his eyes were probably bluer than the ocean itself. Perhaps you could learn to mildly like it. )
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pairing : richboy!rafe cameron x tourist/newbie!gn!reader, brief one-sided enemies to acquaintances to friends to lovers. genre : fluff, humour, angst, romance, friendship, coming of age, realisations and epiphanies, contemplations and questioning, summer seasonnn!! also ft. rest of the obx characters and ocs too! warnings : cussing, alcohol, drug-use but only for a brief while, mentions of fear of the ocean, slowburn-ish, non-canon ( does not follow the main plot at all but a bit of the relationship dramas- yeah. ), and more to be added as we progress! also ik the synopsis is...messy but pls i promise i will b making this as fun and equally an emotional roller coaster as possible!! series inspo : ribs by lorde. | series playlist : here
not sure if i should make a taglist but ig if you want to be tagged let me know ?
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CHAPTER INDEX.
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i. and the ocean is still the same. disgustingly blue and terrifyingly deep.
ii. and the way you act is very familiar. fake and just for others.
iii. to be announced !
( chapter names likely to be changed....)
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a/n : so i pretty much gave into my brainrot again and welp this somehow sprouted from it. a rafe series. but imma be honest i've been feral for him since like the past two years....i am surprised now is when i write for him hahaha but yes here this is! i created a masterlist for this because im gonna make this split b/w some parts...hopefully finishing it up....but this time i have changed a lot of things and im gonna soo...chapter one will be presented to you in a few hours! enjoy this with me and i hope you like this ^^
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all written works as well as images and edits (unless credited) belong to pri. do not plagiarise, repost, re-edit or claim as yours. pics mostly found on pinterest.
writingmeraki ā’ø 2024
feedback is always appreciated šŸ’Œ ! links : main navi ! | misc masterlist | main masterlist | info !
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alisaint Ā· 7 months ago
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guys, i have good news for once. i've found proof of intelligent life out here in these wastelands:
my favorite excerpts:
Will, Jonathan, and Joyce Formed a Special Trio
If Eleven is the main character in Stranger Things, the Byers family is the conduit through which she flickers. Willā€™s disappearance in the first season spurred the Hawkins community to rush to his aid. The tight-knit camaraderie between Will, Jonathan, and Joyce juxtaposes the stereotypical family composed of kids and teenagers. Parents and children are supposed to fight and bicker in television and other media, often to build the main conflict of the story, but the Byers family already underwent that trauma offscreen.Ā  Lonnie Byers (Ross Partridge) makes a brief cameo in the first season, flexing his standoffish demeanor and abusive nature. Itā€™s clear that the Byers patriarch doesnā€™t possess much empathy for his ex-wife or his sons. Jonathan valiantly steps into the father, husband, and big brother role, amalgamating into a combination of responsibilities that no other character on the show could dream of emulating.Ā 
Jonathan Binds the Byers Family Together
Jonathanā€™s multifaceted arc in the first two seasons made him one of the seriesā€™ most easily dissectable characters. Stranger Things often differentiates itself from other shows by keeping the antagonists separate from the main characters. There are no Walter White or Tony Soprano-style antiheroes in which fans must compromise one part of their moral compass to appreciate the character. One might think this makes the series boring, but itā€™s the opposite. Jonathan was proof that a nearly perfect brother and son can still be fascinating to watch.Ā After Will was found in season 1ā€™s climax, he was taken over by the Mind Flayer in season 2. Jonathan again stood by Willā€™s side as his little brother felt outcasted by friends and society at large. Schnapp and Heatonā€™s chemistry often leads to tender, humorous exchanges like this one in which the boys remind the audience that being weird can be a human superpower in its own right.Ā  These moments became few and far between in seasons 3 and 4. Will and Jonathan were relegated to minor supporting characters as the aforementioned new additions took center stage. Will at least gets to tag along with Mike, Dustin, Lucas, and the other younger friends. Jonathan often only appears in a few small scenes with his girlfriend Nancy (Natalia Dyer), and the writers even flirted with pushing Nancy back into Steveā€™s arms in the most recent season. Jonathan spent the majority of season 4 high on marijuana and frolicking around in a faux buddy-comedy routine with the one-off character Argyle (Eduardo Franco).Ā  The decision to waste Heatonā€™s work from the first two seasons with a 180-degree personality change made no sense. Jonathan suddenly seemed careless, distant, and uninspired, but not in a dense way that could be unlocked by further character development. Little-to-no time was spent on him. While some fans might concur it is a necessary evil to take screen time away from older characters when expanding the world of Hawkins, it certainly transforms Stranger Things from a show about family into a show just about monsters and romances.Ā 
Jonathanā€™s Enhanced Role in Season 5?
Many theories point to Will being one of the critical pieces to defeating Vecna (Jamie Campbell Bower) in the fifth and final season. His connection to the Upside Down and the evils underneath the surface should open up opportunities for Jonathan to lend his ears and counseling once again. Jonathan grows on an individual level when he aids others. When locked out of his familyā€™s life, it stunts his ability to shine as a listener and an empathizer.Ā  Jonathanā€™s best scene from season 4 again features a tear-jerking moment with Will. On the cusp of coming out of the closet, Will needs Jonathan more than ever before, and his brother responds supremely to the task at hand. The poignant conversation validates that the Duffers havenā€™t completely forgotten how to flesh out the Byers family. When the world gets too enormous for the characters and the audience, Jonathan serves as a connector to the most human elements of the seriesā€™ thematic thesis. He may not be as funny as Steve or as neurotic as Robin, but Jonathan symbolizes the good in all of us. In a show shrouded in darkness, Jonathanā€™s presence will be instrumental to forming a satisfying, optimistic conclusion in Hawkins, Indiana.
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That Night of Graduation // Jeon Jungkook One Shot
ā„pairing: Jungkook x reader
ā„genre/rating: 18+ explicit content, f2l, right person wrong time??? if you squint, post college story,
ā„description: After a stupid game of Truth or Drink you are convinced into telling everyone about the time you and Jungkook hooked up together the night of college graduation. A missed connection that you and Jungkook hadn't even talked about. Bringing up some unexpected feeling that you hadn't realized had been lingering between the two of you.
ā„tags: drinking, swearing, smut (hehehehe), you and Jungkook are idiots, happy end
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ā„pairing: Jungkook x reader
ā„genre/rating: 18 + explicit content, enemies to lovers, enemies to friends to lovers, these two really do hate each other
ā„description: You and Jungkook have always been at each other's throats, bound by a mutual disdain that runs deep. You both would rather step into traffic than be alone together. But when a chance encounter at a wedding leads to an unexpected and forbidden arrangement, the lines between enemies and something more begin to blur.
As your fiery clashes give way to stolen moments and fragile truces, both of you are forced to confront the pain and secrets that have kept you apart for so long. When the past and present collide, you and Jungkook must decide whether the scars you both hide are worth revealingā€”and if your fractured bond can ever be whole again.
ā„tags: Lawyer!Jungkook, Nurse!reader, medical things, SMUT, swearing, drinking, smoking, fighting (not physical), they do end up together, angst, hurt/comfort, slooooowwwww burrrrrnnnnnnnnnn, trust me on this one it will be worth it, mentions of cheating (not the main pair), minor character death (none of the boys)
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ā„pairing: Jungkook x Reader
ā„genre/rating: strangers to lovers, 18+
ā„description: How to Lose A Guy in 30 Days! A guide of what you shouldn't do in the first 30 days of a relationship if you don't want him running for the hills! You get to see my experiment with the things I did wrong in the first 30 days of a brand new relationship.
You have just received your first opportunity to write your own column at Composure Magazine. This is everything that you have ever dreamed of and should be simple enough, drive a guy away in 30 days. Across town Jungkook, who hasn't committed to anyone in years, is issued a bet that he can stay with the same person for one month. Both of you being so head strong to achieve your goals cause a myriad of hilariously disastrous dates, unexpected sparks, and a countdown that neither is ready for. 30 days to fall in love or fall apart. After all, all is fair in love and war.
ā„warnings: software engineer!Jungkook, writer!Reader, set in the universe of How to Lose A Guy in Ten Days, comedy, sort of a crack fic???, drinking, swearing, dirty talk, eventual smut, some angst, Y/N is a love girl (sigh), Jungkook used to be a playboy (heavier sigh), fluff, Y/N basically torturing Jungkook, Jungkook will never surrender lmao, I watched the movie recently and I haven't been able to get this idea out of my head (like seriously I plotted out the entire fic in like three hours), you don't have to have seen the movie to get this fic.
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Chapter Four - Discordant
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Summary: Morpheus seems to take a turn for the better, but a person cannot change overnight. How does it feel to finally give him a taste of his own medicine? How does it feel to go back to square one, once again?
Notes: ~6.1k words, Please don't stare at the eclipse with your blind eyes, I just didn't know how to write protective solar glasses into this AU ok
Warnings/Tags: Morpheus is trying, it's not working, two deaths of side characters, miscommunication/misinterpretation (?), reader gets their feelings hurt again cause I can't stop writing angst
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Discordant (adj.) - not in agreement or harmony, to be at variance
How do you face Morpheus again after that? The simple answer is you donā€™t, well you try not to. However, when you go to breakfast the next morning, itā€™s a surprise to you that Morpheus is there waiting for you. Breakfast is less formal than dinner, yet here you were, sharing a meal with him right by your side.Ā 
Tension is thick in the air, the only sounds are that of cutlery on plates. You chew your fruit slowly while consciously trying not to look at Morpheus. This was horrible; you need wine, or something to dull your mental ability so you didnā€™t have to be fully here.Ā 
Your throat was still raw from the day before, and the food only seems to make it worse, scraping itself down your throat as you swallow.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m finished,ā€ You rasp and go to stand from your spot.
ā€œWait,ā€ He stands abruptly, the glass on the table rattling with the sudden movement. Youā€™re determined to leave but his fingers grab onto your wrist.Ā Ā Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€ You frown at him, the warmth of his fingers spreading across your arm.Ā 
ā€œThere is a gala coming up. The Summer Eclipse Gala, please will you attend with me?ā€
ā€œDo I have a choice?ā€ You ask, not meeting his eyes. Instead you stare at how he gently holds onto you. His thumb smooths across the tender part of your wrist when he answers.Ā 
ā€œNot really,ā€ He says in a low voice. There was some regret laced in his answer, but you didnā€™t want to pay attention to that.Ā 
ā€œThen that is my answer.ā€ You sigh as you turn away. Morpheusā€™ hand is still around your wrist and even with a slight tug, he doesnā€™t release you. ā€œLet go.ā€Ā 
ā€œShould weā€¦ talk about yesterday?ā€ He says hesitantly.
ā€œWhat is there to say?ā€ You reply back, your voice losing itself again at the very end. When your husband doesnā€™t answer, you pull your arm away more forcefully. This time, he lets you go.
ā€œPrecisely.ā€ You leave, your heart pounding as you so easily defy him.Ā 
The rest of the week was spent doing exactly what he had been doing to you for the past couple of months. Which is to say, avoiding him at all points possible. You try to hide in the library, but that proves futile as he easily seeks you out there. The studio and many bookshelves do little to hide you, ironically.
The only place he doesnā€™t dare find you is your garden. Even he could understand the importance of that sanctuary to you. And though the flowers certainly seem to enjoy the summer sun, you couldnā€™t say the same. The heat had started to become unbearable and it had been days since your last visit there.Ā 
When he asks for you to dine with him, you decline and lock yourself in your room. Your stomach rumbles until Matthew sneaks you a leftover biscuit, but it was better than confronting him. At a certain point, embarrassment of letting your true feelings show turn to resentment once more.Ā 
Why did he suddenly feel entitled to your time?Ā 
ā€œThe King brought you this, Your Majesty,ā€ Agnes says one morning as she enters your room. One of the maids holds a large box, decorated with a beautiful red bow.Ā 
You take a hold of it, albeit a bit hesitant, and unravel the gift. When you lift the lid, youā€™re greeted with something you have never seen before. The dress was a beautiful golden yellow, with gems that represented the sun inlaid amongst the sweetheart bodice. Lacey loops come off the bodice in a delicate design that would wrap around your upper arms. The bottom skirting was decorated with glittering swirls and the fabric soft to the touch.Ā 
ā€œOh! It looks lovely,ā€ Agnes compliments with a soft gasp. Sheā€™s looking over your shoulder as you continue to stare at the dress.Ā 
ā€œHmm, I canā€™t deny it either. It looks beautiful,ā€ You sigh as you run your fingers through the soft fabric. Your fingers come across a piece of paper with a note.Ā 
Please do me the honor and wear this tonight. Written in Morpheusā€™ handwriting.Ā 
ā€œAnd so shall you, your grace, when you wear it today,ā€ Your ladyā€™s maid hums.
Rightā€¦ the gala is today. It seems your plan of avoiding Morpheus would have to come to an end. But, you still have the rest of the day to yourself, best to start savoring it. You start with a bath, with extra Natterhorn milk per your request, and something else to calm your nerves. After which, Agnes starts pampering you to get you ready for the event.Ā 
Hands are grabbing at you at every angle, tugging, brushing, wiping. You felt like a marionette puppet as they direct you on where to step, where to hold your hands so that they may dress you accordingly.Ā 
ā€œAgnes,ā€ You gasp as she gives you another sharp tug. ā€œI request you loosen this horrid corset for my sake.ā€
ā€œApologies, Your Majesty,ā€ She says, giving one last tug and tying the knot, more than less ignoring your request.Ā 
In the end, both you and Agnes are huffing and puffing when youā€™re finally done. You watch as Agnes puts on a pair of white cotton gloves and reaches into a wooden box you didnā€™t have the liberty of noticing before. From it, she produces an ornate crown.Ā 
It pairs with your dress nicely, a warm gold with white gems. The points of the head pieceĀ  were a bit excessive, but your inner judgment was cut short when you realized it was supposed to represent the sun. When Agnes places it on your head, you grimace at the weight of it.Ā 
ā€œForgive me, Your Majesty, but it is part of the uniform,ā€ Agnes apologizes once again as she notices your contorted face.Ā 
ā€œIt is not your fault, do not fret. You did well,ā€ You grunt as you step away from the mirror. Agnes is positively gushing as she looks you over. Her beaming increases as you give your compliments to her hard work.Ā 
Despite the heavy crown, the dress itself was light and made for easy movement. Agnes opens the door and you follow the entourage of silver knights as they lead you from the comforts of your bedroom. Matthewā€™s presence settles your nerves a bit as you feel his protective presence three paces behind.Ā 
ā€œAre you excited, boss lady?ā€ You hear him ask with a smile hidden behind his helmet. He had recently polished his black armor and youā€™re sure if you turn around now, you could see your reflection.Ā 
ā€œIn all honesty, Matthew? For the event, yes. For seeing my husband again, no.ā€ You pause as the unified metal footsteps descend to the first floor of the castle. ā€œWhat of you?ā€
ā€œIf I get to see Jessamy againā€¦ā€ He says beneath his breath, quiet enough that you almost didnā€™t hear it.
You can see the sunlight from the entrance and youā€™re about to ask Matthew to repeat himself. However, the silver knights stop on the final set of stairs, leaving you standing at the intersection that leads to Morpheusā€™ wing. He comes down in time with your steps and meets you in the middle.
Morpheus is dressed in his typical black, simply more detailed than usual. He switches his flowing robe for an off shoulder cape that only reaches his mid thighs. His black tunic and pants were dusted with silver and dark blue, giving the illusion of the night sky at certain angles. Sitting comfortably on his head was a crown: silver with curving onyx gems that resembled the moon.Ā 
Heā€™s close enough now to take you in your full glory. The dress he bought for you was the correct choice. It hugs your figure in all the right places; the dress was, after all, altered to your size. When the fleeting rays of sunlight come through the large window, it reflects off your dress and illuminates you. The Sun only shares a portion of His light, but youā€™ve managed to take it and make it your own.Ā 
ā€œYou look radiant,ā€ He breathes the truth as he comes closer to you. You notice his finger twitch as he resists the urge to touch you.Ā 
ā€œSave your falsities for someone else,ā€ You snap, surprising yourself even. The crown was way too heavy on your head for pretenses.Ā 
ā€œVery wellā€¦ but we should at least pretend to like each other for the guests tonight.ā€ Morpheus offers his arm to you and turns, the breeze from the entrance coming through the hallway.Ā 
ā€œThen let us begin,ā€ You reply as you hook your hand to his arm.Ā 
Crossing the castle threshold, the eclipse was already beginning to start. The trees rustle in the gentle late spring wind, its shades creating crescent shadows on the ground. Youā€™re able to enjoy it from afar as the two of you walk the distance to the grand ballroom.Ā 
Slowly, daylight surrenders to night and the nocturnal critters emerge from their slumber. Crickets chirp, fireflies float around you, and moths fan their wings in the moonlight. The smell of petrichor turns heavy once more as you reenter the castle, the doors opening wide with an announcement of your and Morpheusā€™ arrival. The silver knights part, Matthew leaves your side, as does Jessamy, as Morpheus leads you to the center of the ballroom.Ā 
ā€œWelcome, esteemed guests of the Dreaming. Tonight, we shall once again celebrate the astral lovers of Sun and Moon,ā€ An announcer bellows into a horn. Cheers and unified clapping follow. ā€œDuring Totality of the eclipse, we welcome you to witness the first dance of the night, to be shared with King Morpheus and Queen Consort Y/N.ā€
A fanfare plays and the crowd turns to the open ceiling, watching with shielded eyes as the moon slowly clips into place. Night dominates the sky, the moon blocking the sun except for the defining ring around it. Footmen scurry around as they quickly light the abundance of candles and chandeliers they could reach.Ā 
The grand ballroom gleams with the light of a thousand crystal chandeliers as you and Morpheus turn towards each other. The light fractures and creates halos across the marble flooring and stone pillars. Morpheus bows and you curtsy low, and the action reminds you of your wedding night. Slowly, he clasps his hand over yours gently and a firm arm wraps around your waist.Ā 
The string ensemble starts and you try to fight the smile that creeps on your lips as youā€™re easily pulled in time with his steps. Morpheus smiles as he studies your face closely. You're dancing once again.
The candle light seems to be absorbed into your figure as you glow under its warm light. Spinning hand in hand with your husband, youā€™ve long since given up holding back your smile. Youā€™re grinning, radiant and warm like the sun.Ā 
You and Morpheus glide across the ballroom floor, floating like stars amongst the clouds. He is fluid in his movements and leads the dance easily. You hold on tight as the lights begin to blur together, all together have you forgotten how heavy your crown was. To onlookers, the two of you were beacons of elegance and the definition of harmony.Ā 
The music stops and youā€™re face to face with Morpheus, breathing hard. The sound of applause is muffled in the background of your mind. Morpheus looks pristine as well, perfectly composed as he softly gazes at you through starry eyes. Youā€™re the first to break eye contact, the raw emotions he tries to show you too much for now. You can see that he is trying to be better, but after months of neglect, one dance is hardly enough to make up for it.Ā 
Morpheus doesnā€™t try to hide his emotions, and with deflated shoulders, leads you quietly to the matching thrones at the front of the ballroom. There, they stand high and mighty, dark, and carved with intricate designs of stars and ravens. You see Jessamy and Matthew waiting for the two of you there and some relief returns to you knowing that Matthew would be there to watch over you.Ā 
The roofless ballroom makes it hard to believe that it is only noon. Save for the ring of sun, the sky was casted in perpetual night. The stars make their appearance, as they always do, and accompany their moon, twinkling with admiration at viewing the people of the Dreaming early today. Even the critters of the night came out from their slumber, and if you listened carefully enough, you could hear their chirps and songs of night past the orchestra.Ā 
The throne is stiff and uncomfortable to sit in. When you glance over at Morpheus, he takes to it easily, spreading across the throne like a lounging cat. His presence fills the space and itā€™s easy to see how he is so perfectly fit for this role.Ā 
An emissary comes before you and bows, the lady on his arm following suit. He wears his best for the ceremony and when he speaks, it smells of rich alcohol and fruits.Ā 
ā€œCongratulations on your marriage, Your Majesties. As emissary of the Kingdom of Kreya, we wish you a wonderful Solar Eclipse celebration,ā€ The man smiles at the two of you and you smile back.
You take another glance at Morpheus and see his jaw ticking in the low candlelight. A second passes and he still doesnā€™t respond.Ā 
ā€œThank you, we hope to visit Kreya soon,ā€ You reply instead. It has been long since youā€™ve heard a rumor of your failing marriage. At the very least itā€™s good to know that to people looking in, there was nothing wrong between you and Morpheus.Ā 
This is what he wanted, was it not?
From his perspective, your urge to take control basked you in a new light that heā€™s never seen before. Your response seems to snap him out of whatever deep thoughts he had and a cough brings him back to the present. Or, if he wanted to be honest with himself; your presence brings him back to the present.Ā 
Others follow in his footsteps, giving their congratulations, their salutations from their kingdoms, and other comments they wished to address to you. Morpheus and you take turns responding, each one vague and surface level.Ā 
The last emissary was a face you knew all too well. Soft brown curls wrap around a kind face. She dawns on flowy fabric of white and gold and a cape made of olive leaves. Calliope smiles when she sets her eyes on you, and you hear Matthewā€™s armor clink as he attempts to move from his post. The promise he made early into your relationship is evident in his mind.Ā 
A subtle hand rise from you was enough to stop him and the black knight settles back. The tension remains thick as she ascends the steps. She bows and speaks.Ā 
ā€œI congratulate the King and Queen of the Dreaming on their union. From Boeotia, my sisters and I give our blessings for a bountiful year.ā€ Calliope speaks to you specifically, and even when there is no ill intention written on her face, something ugly deep within you dares not to look at her.Ā 
The pain and suffering you had to endure, half of the reason is because of her. Your anger and despair leave you and instead reveal itself as its true form. Is it jealousy? Perhaps. Youā€™ve long since stopped fighting it. Your bracelet tightens around your wrist once more, as itā€™s always done when it doesnā€™t agree with your thoughts.Ā 
ā€œThank youā€¦ā€ Morpheus responds to her. It was your turn to respond, but you still couldnā€™t bring yourself to speak to her.Ā 
Calliope opens her mouth again, as if to add something else, but stops herself after some hesitancy. Itā€™s not before long that Calliope accepts the short answer and leaves you. An even shorter amount of time for a footman to come to you and Morpheus with goblets of wine that you all too eagerly grab at.
If it werenā€™t for your position, youā€™re sure you would be drunk beyond comprehension. It is a tradition of the celebration: to relieve oneself from their physical bodies and dance amongst the Eclipse. And you can only do that by drinking until your body canā€™t understand the physical world anymore.Ā 
The dark wine glitters as you swirl it around in the silver goblet, and you feel the tingling sensation as it goes down your throat. Other nobles mingle with each other, the occasional ping of glasses touching echos in the large room.
Squinting, you notice a certain blond standing alone in the corner, his dark glasses still covering his eyes. He is talking to some other man, his charismatic smile never disappearing, even when he takes another sip from his glass. As if sensing your gaze, he turns to you and raises his glass in your direction. You were the first to break eye contact, taking another sip of your own drink. You see Lucienne and Hob enjoying themselves at the snack table, watching as Lucienne looks away when Hob stuffs several cookies into his coat pocket.Ā 
The alcohol was potent, leaving you feeling light and dizzy, but a sudden commotion on the other side of the room leaves me sober. Yelling and clashing of metal against metal piques your interest as the ballroom doors slam open.Ā 
ā€œI apologize, we-we tried to stop him!ā€ A silver knight huffs out, chasing after the man who barged in.Ā 
A calm hand from Morpheus quiets him and the knight stops. The elderly man is still charging towards the two of you, dancers parting quickly from the marble floor as they watch.Ā 
ā€œWhere is she?ā€ The man asksā€”or demands, more accurately, standing strong in the center of the dancefloor. He wears red, unblemished armor that stands out like a sore thumb against the Dreamingā€™s more subtle colors.Ā 
ā€œWhoever you seek is not here, stranger,ā€ Morpheusā€™ voice booms across the room.Ā 
ā€œYou, Teleute, will bring back my dead son. I will kill you if it means I will get him backā€¦ā€ He bravely points at your husband, completely ignoring his statement.Ā 
You and Morpheus share a quick glance at each other. Yours is riddled in confusion, what could this random man possibly want with his sister? Morpheus shares with you a more concerned look as he finally pieces together the information.
He recalls the conversation he had with the Corinthian under old moonlight about a madman named Rodrick Burgess. Briefly, his eyes meet with Corinthian on the far end of the room, who seems all the more pleased that his target has waltzed right into his grasp. The Corinthian had taken a small break in his chase so he could attend the festival. In the end, it seemingly works out for him anyways.Ā 
ā€œAre you challenging the throne?ā€ Morpheus accuses, looking down at him. You hear the shifting of feet as Jessamy and Matthew squirm with anticipation.Ā 
Morpheus remembers once more of his nightmare regarding this specific man and you. How you laid cold in his arms, blood blemishing each portion of your body. That no matter how much he wipes away at it, the blood continues to seep and stain into your clothes. His hand slowly ghosts over yours and covers your fingers. He feels the quickening pulse underneath his fingers and allows himself a moment of peace for your still beating pulse.Ā 
ā€œI am challenging Teleute,ā€ Rodrick repeats.Ā 
ā€œDeath of the Endless is not here. I will accept your challenge in her stead.ā€ Youā€™re not sure where the courage was coming from. Perhaps it is how Morpheus is gently holding onto you. Or, more likely, how the alcohol is coursing through your system. That seems to be the more logical reasonā€¦ right? ā€œWho do you wish to be your champion?ā€Ā 
ā€œI am my own champion, the Great Magus Rodrick Burgess.ā€ He brings forth his sword, covered in elaborate jewels.Ā 
ā€œSir Matthew?ā€ You call, head held high. The weight of the crown is no longer an issue for you.Ā 
ā€œYes, Your Majesty?ā€ Matthew responds immediately.Ā 
ā€œYou will be my champion.ā€ You declare. ā€œYou will not disappoint.ā€ It is your first order as queen.Ā 
You watch with fixed eyes as Matthew crosses to the dance floor. The white marble is a stark contrast against his black armor. Your hand turns and interlaces with Morpheusā€™ as Matthew draws his sword.
Itā€™s longer and broader than Rodrickā€™s and even before the fight begins, you know Matthew would be slower than his opponent. But your belief in him is strong and unyielding.Ā 
The two knights face each other, their stances ready. Murmurs from onlookers hush around the room, the tension as thick as the wine they drink.Ā 
Rodrick moves first, his impatience showing easily as he lunges for Matthewā€™s heart. Your champion gracefully steps to the side, bringing up his broadsword in a low arch to parry the attack.Ā 
Blade against blade, the metals gleam in the low candlelight. The symphony changes from a string quartet to that of steel. The two knights dance around each other in the intense duel as both display their mastery of the blade.Ā 
An unhonorable heavy strike to the head from Rodrick leaves Matthew dazed. Itā€™s enough for the blunt of his blade to strike at the young knightā€™s helmet. You watch with an agape mouth as the force is enough to knock off Matthewā€™s helmet, the helm flying across the floor. Your grip in Morpheusā€™ hand tightens as the anticipation grows.Ā 
Matthew is quick to be back on his feet, his black hair tousled from the fight. You catch glimpses of his determined face as he returns to the duel. Each block that Matthew predicts, each strike that he parries leaves Rodrick flustered.
Matthew notices, and when Rodrick was starting to lose strength, he advances with a series of long arching and forceful blows. You and Morpheus watch as Rodrick meekly holds his denting blade up in defense.
With a powerful kick to the chest, the Great Magus crashes to the ground, his sword falling from his hand as the last of his energy leaves him. Matthew advances still, dragging his broadsword on the ground. The teeth-grating sound of metal on marble igniting sparks.Ā 
Your knight points the sword at Rodrickā€™s throat, panting from exertion. ā€œYield,ā€ Matthew commands.Ā Ā 
ā€œI will not!ā€ Rodrick spits at him, pushing the imposing blade away from his throat.
ā€œYield!ā€ Matthew shouts, bringing the blade back and pushing pressure onto the side of his neck. A thin string of warm blood follows the cut.
Rodrick looks around the room, conscious of how the people around him start to whisper about his loss. He makes eye contact with you and glares at his defeat.Ā 
ā€œI yield,ā€ He says hesitantly as his eyes remain on yours.Ā 
You swallow thickly as silver knights drag him out of the ballroom, your eyes following him. Rodrick was glaring at you until he could no longer see you, his cheeks still flushed from the duel and from the embarrassment of losing.Ā 
You let go of Morpheusā€™ hand, wiping your palm against the softness of your dress to get rid of the excessive sweat that started to accumulate. You go to grab at your wine again, finishing the rest with large gulps to calm your nerves. The alcohol is quick to work its magic as it seeps into your system.
ā€œCongratulations on your victory, champion,ā€ You grin when Matthew comes back to your side. ā€œWhereā€™s your helmet?ā€
ā€œI, uh, canā€™t find itā€¦ā€ He mutters, embarrassed. He scratches at his hair as his cheeks flush red.Ā 
You smile once more as Matthewā€™s true personality shows itself again. He was quite young to be a knight, and his face had left the battle without any scars; a testament to his effectiveness. A server comes by and tops off the goblet with more glittering wine.Ā 
Morpheus hovers a hand over his own cup as a silent decline for more alcohol. Meanwhile you were more than inclined to continue drinking. The excitement of the day is already taking its effect on you. When you set your drink back down, you notice that no one is enjoying the gala anymore.
They stand to the side, muttering to themselves behind open feather fans. No one is drinking, or feasting, and they share unsure glances with each other. The duel was a mood killer for the festivities.Ā 
You take another slow sip from your wine, what should you do? You watch through slightly lidded eyes as Morpheus stands from his seat. His hand falls before yours in a silent invitation of another dance. Baffled, you silently stare at the upright hand. Morpheus wants another dance?
Should you? When a bird has been locked in a cage for so long, even when presented with the opportunity of flight, it often finds itself staying. It takes comfort in what the bird knows. The outside world is dangerous, after all.Ā 
ā€œPlease,ā€ He whispers when he notices you hesitating. You see his other fingers twitch against his leg, a tic that youā€™ve long since noticed he does whenever he is nervous. You place the goblet down and grab onto his hand lightly. One more dance wouldnā€™t hurt.Ā 
Before you leave, you turn to Matthew with a smile. ā€œYou should go dance, too. Youā€™ve done well to deserve it tonight.ā€Ā 
Matthew all but perks up at your invitation, his eyes darting to Morpheus, who simply nods in approval of his request.Ā 
The two of you take to the floor and amidst the onlookers and mutterers, for once, you only notice Morpheus. ā€œI trust you,ā€ You say slowly.
Morpheus nods before he places a gentle hand on your waist and leads the dance once more. The music is romantic somber as the two of you glide across the floor.Ā 
Nobles and invitees around you stop whispering amongst themselves and enjoy the spectacle. Soon enough, more and more couples return to the dance floor.Ā 
The orchestra is quick to change its tune and an upbeat swell of strings has everyone clapping and jumping around in a country dance. Your smile brightens your face once more as you witness how your small dance was enough to bring people together.Ā 
You part from Morpheus as a new dance partner whisks you away for the next portion of the song. You grab onto your dance partner as you watch Morpheus spin with a new partner of his own, a soft smile gracing his lips as he witnesses your lingering gaze.
ā€œEnjoying the ball, Your Majesty?ā€ The new voice interrupts your thoughts. Your head turns to your new dance partner and you feel yourself jump in the middle of a spin.Ā 
ā€œCorinthian,ā€ You greet curtly, smile dropping.Ā 
ā€œHello again, Your Majesty.ā€ He grins down at you, sunglasses still on. A silence follows and youā€™re desperate to change partners again.
ā€œIt seems you and His Majesty have started to become amiable with each other. I heard rumors that your marriage was in rocky waters.ā€ He whispers into your ear as he spins you again.Ā 
ā€œTheyā€™re just rumors,ā€ You lie again.Ā 
The Corinthian hums, easily reading between the lines of your statement. ā€œWell, well, would you look at that?ā€
Corinthian focuses his attention behind you and you turn to match his gaze. Couples waltz around you, but your eyes immediately seek out Morpheus. Your newly healed heart shatters as you watch Morpheus and Calliope spin across the dance floor. The two of them look beautiful together, her light colors clashing with his darker ones is a sight out of the romances youā€™ve read in your books.Ā 
Were dance partners always supposed to be that close to each other? Their gazes lock with each other as they share private words amongst themselves. Morpheus says something that causes Calliope to smile, something that lights up her entire figure in delight.Ā 
ā€œPerhaps the rumors are quite true,ā€ Corinthian chuckles.Ā 
You let go of him as if he suddenly caught on fire. ā€œI need some airā€¦ Please excuse me.ā€Ā 
The Corinthian doesnā€™t try to stop you as you weave your way through the dancing couples. Before you leave the ballroom, you briefly overhear a conversation between Mervyn and Matthew.Ā 
ā€œHuh, I thought you were some beast with how you were swinging that piece of crap around. But youā€™re just some normal kid,ā€ Mervyn scoffs as he lights another cigarette.Ā 
Matthew scratches his head in confusion, the refound helmet rests between his arm and torso. It is liberating to not have to wear it for a while, and he can smell the food more clearly like this.
ā€œActually, Iā€™m 1/16 pure Ravenfolk on my mother's side. Not so normal now, huh, Mervyn?ā€ Matthew brags with a high head.Ā 
ā€œPah!ā€ The pumpkin man scoffs again, a cloud of smoke following him. ā€œAnd Jessamy is pure Ravenfolk so what you got to say about that!ā€
Youā€™re sure you see smoke steaming out of your knightā€™s ears and his face turns bright red. Itā€™s a conversation you would have loved to entertain, but in your emotions, you donā€™t linger long. The door is right there and you escape from all the distracted gazes.
By muscle memory, your feet take you to your garden sanctuary. The summer sun is no longer an issue for you as the night wind calms your fraying nerves. You run your fingers along the petals of night flowers and watch as they sway in tandem with the tides.Ā 
You take a seat on a nearby stone bench, watching the eclipse reflection in the small pond of your garden. An uncomfortable feeling like stone settles in your throat as you push down a hiccup. Silent tears still make it past your eyes.Ā 
You wipe away your tears with the back of your hand as you silently berate yourself for always crying. Taking a deep breath, you close your eyes and try to relax your over eccentric heart. The rustling of leaves and citrus smell of flowers calm your nerves quite well.Ā 
You hear a rustle that feels out of place and a presence behind you and you sigh deeply.Ā 
ā€œNot now, Matthew. I really just want to be alone,ā€ You indirectly ask your knight for solitude.Ā 
ā€œNot Matthew,ā€ The presence spits out the name and you gasp as you feel the cold metal of his blade against your throat.Ā 
Rodrick.
How could you forget his voice? You donā€™t move as you watch him circle in front of you. The point of the dagger in his hands remains pointed at your throat. You swallow your nerves, the slight movement enough to scratch your skin against the sharp blade.Ā 
ā€œYou embarrassed me. In front of all of your citizens,ā€ Rodrick begins to monologue. Itā€™s hard to make out his face in the dark light and the angle at which you sat, but the glare he emitted was easy to feel.
ā€œNo, you embarrassed yourself. Who told you killing someone else would bring back your dead son?ā€ You ask to distract him. Your eyes dart around your space as you try to find a path to run away from him, or something that can hinder him while you find help.Ā 
ā€œThe ruler I serve said so. And I believe in their word.ā€ He continues.
ā€œWho? Desire of the Endless?ā€ You scoff as you look at his red armor. The lustful color and crest he bore on his chest plate was easy enough to piece together. ā€œHave you ever considered your ruler is merely using you as bait?ā€
ā€œThey would never,ā€ Rodrick says back in disbelief. The blade dips slightly for a moment as he backs away.Ā 
You take that slight moment as your chance, grabbing at the layers of your dress and sprinting back towards the castle.
ā€œMatthew!ā€ You scream at the top of your lungs and you pray that it's heard past the music.Ā 
Hedges and thorned flowers scrape at you and get caught in your dress. The sound of pounding feet catches up to you and a yelp leaves your lips as Rodricks tackles you to the ground. Your crown dislodges itself from your head at the impact and youā€™re screaming as you fight back as best as you can.Ā 
His hands come around your throat and you grab at his wrist in panic. Rasping breaths leave you in huffs as he squeezes harder and harder. The edges of your vision start to go black as the lack of oxygen leaves your body wanting.Ā 
ā€œM-Morpheus,ā€ You call out weakly.Ā 
ā€œNo one can hear you now, you pathetic queen. No one can help youā€”ā€
The weight is lifted off of you abruptly and you turn on hands and knees as you intake as much air as you possibly could. You turn back around and stand on wobbly legs and watch as two silhouettes fight each other. One, you knew to be Rodrick but the other was new. The person was armor clad in silver, so it was neither Morpheus nor Matthew. One moment, Rodrick was standing, and the next he fell to the ground in a slump.Ā 
ā€œCome, letā€™s get you back to the palace, Your Majesty,ā€ Your savior comes closer to you. The dagger that Rodrick had threatened you with is still in her hands.Ā 
ā€œWho are you?ā€ You ask as she takes your hand and begins a fast walk away from the dead body.Ā 
ā€œYou may call me Gault, Your Majesty.ā€ Her pace is faster than yours and in your still shocked state, you fall to the ground. Gault turns around quickly and bends to help you up from the elbow.Ā 
ā€œJessamy, subdue her,ā€ You hear Morpheus' voice nearby. The sound of armor accompanying him.Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€ You question as you fall back to the ground. Matthew is by your side in no time, holding you up steadily.Ā 
You watch with confusion as Jessamy holds both of Gaultā€™s hands behind her back and kicks her knee in so that she kneels to the ground.Ā 
ā€œForgive me, for not coming sooner,ā€ Morpheus whispers to you. He unclips the half cape he wore and drapes it over your shoulders. Your abrasive run through the gardens leaves you more exposed than what would have been considered appropriate.Ā 
ā€œWait, no, stop,ā€ You interject as he returns his attention to Gault.Ā 
Morpheus ignores you, insisting to himself that your ramblings were from shock. Itā€™s obvious to him that Gault was going to hurt you. As soon as he noticed that you werenā€™t in the ballroom anymore, he was quick to leave the dance and come looking for you.Ā 
To find you being hovered by one of his own soldiers with the weapon in her hand was evident enough in his eyes of treason. You looked horrible, your dress in shambles and thin cuts scattered across your body.Ā 
ā€œI was protecting the queen,ā€ Gault states the truth slowly. ā€œI had no intention of hurting her. I merely wish to keep her from harm.ā€
ā€œListen to her, my lord. Please, I beg you, she is speaking the truth,ā€ You plead once more. The hold that Matthew has on you shifts from protection to restriction as you try to fight against him.Ā 
Morpheus ignores you once more, and while your cries hurt him, bringing you justice will satiate the pain. ā€œYou do not get to decide what I saw with my own eyes. How do you think you should be punished for the attempt on my queenā€™s life?ā€
Gault pushes her head up higher even as the realization dawns on her. ā€œI am not afraid.ā€
ā€œYou should be.ā€ Morpheus stalks closer to her.
ā€œI will rather die afraid than knowing I lived without truth, my lord.ā€ You hear Gault whisper.Ā 
Morpheus doesnā€™t bother with a response. The shadows of the eclipse seem to elongate his shadow as he paths closer to her. Your pleas once again fall on deaf ears and tears sting your face red. Your screams have turned raw in your throat as you helplessly watch.
In the darkness of the eclipse, you barely register the sound of Morpheus unsheathing Jessamyā€™s blade from her scabbard. You donā€™t see it, but you feel itā€”the sticky warmth of blood splattering across your face. The iron taste rests heavy on your tongue as your mouth falls open in a gasp. It mixes with the wine and creates a concoction that makes you dry heave in the grass.Ā 
You hear it, too. As Gault doesnā€™t die from the first strike and her blood effectively drowns her as she tries to breathe. Morpheus swings again and the head thuds to the ground, her body following quickly after as Jessamy lets her go.Ā 
Your scream echoes across the vastness of the night.
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Ah, Morpheus you walking red flag you. Also, I'm not going to lie, idk how to redeem Dream boy over here after this chapter cause wtf is this bitch on (I know I wrote him but what the fuck?)
Someone tell me I did good, it's summer and I no longer get academic validation
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Congrats, Babe - Toji Fushiguro x Black!Reader ~ FFL Series
Summary: Toji couldnā€™t believe you actually invited him to your graduation. Watching you walk across that stage, his son in his arms, sitting next to your family, he couldnā€™t be happier. Toji - 24, You - 21, Megumi - 3
Characters: Toji, Megumi
Words: 4,239
Tags: Fluff (kinda sorta Tooth-Rotting), Soft Toji, Tojiā€™s a Good Dad, Suggestive Thoughts, Crushes to Lovers
Disclaimer: This work is part of a Black!Reader x Toji series I started called Fushiguro Family Life. It's basically a slice of life series with you, Toji and Megumi. None of them are in order and can be read on their own unless stated otherwise.
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author's note: Hiiiiii! Don't have much to say except I hope you all enjoy this. I feel like it's really cute and I think I'm doing pretty good on giving small insight on Megumi's personality, Toji's parenting, and what led to his divorce with Megumi's mother who I've decided will be named Ayano. Her name won't come up here but it will down the line. Toji's past will be revealed more and more as the series continues.
ā€œUm, daddy?ā€
ā€œYeah?ā€
ā€œWhere are we going again?ā€
ā€œA graduation.ā€
ā€œOh. Whatā€™s that?ā€
ā€œItā€™s a ceremony.ā€
ā€œOh. Whatā€™s that?ā€
ā€œSighā€¦ā€
On a regular day, a simple drive with his son babbling about nothing in the backseat wouldnā€™t be so nerve wracking. However, today was a bit special.
Toji was genuinely shocked when you gave him your number after months of friendly flirting. He never actually expected to get anything from you, he was having too much fun watching you get frustrated. But, now that he thinks about it, you have been warming up to him for some time now. The two of you only ever talked at the gym. You went in only a couple of times a week, so he had to make every second count. And he may have purposely changed his availability so he would be there.
You hadnā€™t said yes to a date just yet, but heā€™s hoping it was only a matter of time. The two of you were becoming much closer with each other, sometimes spending hours just talking on the phone. Last nightā€™s call was especially sweet. His ears have been heating up all morning from thinking about it. You were so excited about finally graduating, not having to worry about school for what may be the rest of your life, and starting your career. You were so ready for a steady income and to move out of your parentsā€™ house. And it took everything within him to not suggest you move in with him instead of living on your own, as he knows how expensive it can get.
The journey to your graduation was a bit nerve wracking. He knew heā€™d be anxious when you invited both him and Megumi a week ago. A couple of family members hadnā€™t been able to make it, meaning Toji would be meeting and sitting down with those who could. Meeting the family before even one date. Unheard of.
He hadnā€™t even met his last wifeā€™s family before marrying her. He can see how stupid of an idea that was now that theyā€™re divorced. Imagine how much heartache he could have avoided had he done so.
After going through hell (finding parking) he lifts Megumi out of his car seat and takes his hand to follow the hordes of people heading to the auditorium. Looking at his tickets, Toji heads over to their assigned seats.
He sees a group of people who resemble you and deduces that it must be your family. At first he panics. He wonders if you told them about him coming or if he should even say anything. But, his question is answered when the older woman of the group taps his shoulder after sitting down. He guides Megumi to sit in the seat next to him, to which he simply refuses by putting his arms on his fatherā€™s lap and jumping to try and climb it. Toji rolls his eyes and lifts his son up.
ā€œAre you the person my daughter Y/N invited? Toji?ā€ She asks. Ah, so this was your mom. You donā€™t really look like her.
Toji puts on his charming smile and holds his hand out to her. ā€œYeah, thatā€™s me. Itā€™s nice to meet you.ā€ He gestures to the little boy on his lap. ā€œThis is my son, Megumi.ā€
Megumi, whoā€™s usually shy, lifts a small hand up and waved at her, looking down and away nervously. Your mom twiddles her fingers which makes him smile. ā€œAw,ā€ she says and reaches over to tickle his stomach. Megumi giggles and kicks his feet. Toji jerks his head back in shock.
ā€œIs this Toji?ā€ He hears.Ā 
Your mother turns to the man sitting next to her and nods. ā€œMhm. And this is his son.ā€ Megumi gets nervous again and his smile drops, but he does give a small wave. The man waves back and looks up at Toji. He holds his hand out. Now you do look like him. This must be your father.
ā€œItā€™s nice to meet you.ā€ Toji shakes his hand and says the same. The other two look over at the commotion and smile. Toji waves at them. Megumi hides his head in his shirt.
ā€œHi! Youā€™re Toji?ā€ One of them asked. She looks to be around the same age as you and sounds like it too. In fact, so does the boy sitting next to her. ā€œIā€™m Kennedy. This is my brother. Weā€™re Y/Nā€™s cousins.ā€
ā€œItā€™s really nice to meet you,ā€ he said after introducing himself as Kwame. ā€œShe talks about you all the damn time.ā€
Tojiā€™s smile freezes and he rubs the back of his neck. ā€œShe does?ā€
Everyone nods and starts going on and on about how much you gush about him. Up until he accepted your invitation, he was known as, ā€œthe fine ass gym ownerā€, a statement that made him blush even harder. However, it was nice knowing how you truly felt about him. Itā€™s not as if you would ever admit to having a crush in front of his face.
He was a bit shocked. Yeah, you flirted back with him from time to time, but you didnā€™t actually like him, right? It was justā€¦friendly banter. Right?
Some time passed before the lights in the auditorium dimmed and the graduation music began to play. As much as Toji loves that you asked him to come and as excited as he is to see you, it was extremely boring. The only reason he was awake was the clapping from various families. Didnā€™t bother Megumi, though. He was fast asleep in his fatherā€™s lap. Thank goodness, too. Megumi hated staying still if he didnā€™t have anything to distract him. It was something Toji was working on with him. Heā€™d be getting somewhere with it, and then Megumi would go see his mother and itā€™s as if she pushed some sort of reset button and he was asking for Tojiā€™s phone again.
Toji was feeling a bit anxious. Your name hadnā€™t been called yet, and even when it was, there were still hundreds of other students after you. Itā€™s only a matter of time until-
Feeling a stirring on his chest, Toji tears his eyes away from his phone to look into his lap. Megumi was twisting back and forth into his shirt. He did this a few times before sitting up and rubbing his eyes with a yawn. ā€œShit.ā€ Toji whispered to himself.
As if itā€™s a homing beacon, Megumi twisted his head to his fatherā€™s hand where his phone was being held. He reached out for it, becoming irritated when Toji put it in his pocket. Megumi looked up at him begrudgingly while Toji stared back. Crap. Megumi was a good kid overall, but he was still just a kid. He really didnā€™t want to have to leave because he started crying, and he also didnā€™t want to give Megumi the phone. Well, he would have to make a decision soon, because Megumiā€™s chest was heaving and getting worse with every passing second. His eyes grew big and sparkly, his bottom lip started to poke out, ahh shit.
Like an angel in disguise, your mother leaned over his lap and smiled at Megumi. ā€œDid your daddy make you mad?ā€ Tojiā€™s jaw drops then drops even more when Megumi actually nods.
ā€œAw, come here baby,ā€ she holds her hands out and lifts him into her lap when he reaches for her. ā€œDonā€™t cry, hm?ā€
ā€œDonā€™t you want to watch your friend graduate?ā€ As if Megumi knows what graduate even means, he nods his head again. Toji is appalled. She flips him around and points to the stage where you had actually just gotten to the stairs. ā€œLook. Itā€™s Y/N.ā€
Megumi doesnā€™t know who she is either, he hadnā€™t met her yet. But still, he looks around for a face he does recognize, and Toji takes this chance to talk to her. ā€œHowā€¦how didā€¦ā€
ā€œHold on, sheā€™s about to walk,ā€ she shushes him. Toji turns his head back towards the stage where he sees you standing at the top. He sees your black and blue cap and gown, your decorated neck, and the bright smile on your face and lights up. He adjusts his posture.
You begin to walk and Toji takes notice of your heels. Your legs and feet look fantastic in them. He wondered what dress you were wearing underneath all that. He knows it looks great on you.
Your name is called, and he joins your family in a round of applause. Even Megumi starts clapping. Toji decides to throw in a whistle, laughing to himself when you turn to the crowd in confusion. You try to look for him in the crowd to no avail, but you smile anyway and walk off.
Toji leans back in his seat, still reveling in your smile, but stops when he feels some eyes on him. He turns to look at your mother who was giving him a stare he couldnā€™t read. Megumi was successfully distracted. He was counting on his fingers. Hopefully the number was 1000.
ā€œSo,ā€ she starts, ā€œhow long until youā€™re ready to put a ring on her finger?ā€
After a second of choking on his own spit, Toji responds. ā€œIā€™m-what?ā€
ā€œWhat comes after 19?ā€ Megumi asks.
ā€œ20,ā€Answers your mother.
ā€œOh.ā€ He puts one more finger up. Afterwards, he puts all of his fingers back down and starts again. ā€œWhat comes after that?ā€
ā€œ21.ā€
ā€œā€¦Oh!ā€ And he starts silently counting again while mouthing the words to himself.
She looks back up at Toji who was waiting patiently for an explanation. ā€œWell, now that sheā€™s a graduate and is entering a sustainable career, I think sheā€™s more than qualified to be a wife. Donā€™t you?ā€
Toji blushes profusely. His heart runs a mile a minute. He doesnā€™t know what to say or think. Is that why sheā€™s been so nice and talkative to him? She thinks theyā€™re dating? What have you told her?
She was anticipating his answer. Megumi was halfway through his 20s. ā€œUhmā€¦I meanā€¦yes, butā€¦I think you might have the wrong idea.ā€
She leans back and gets a wistful look on her face. ā€œAh, I see,ā€ she says. ā€œYou want to wait until the right moment and all of that. Well, I say the right moment is now, but thatā€™s just me I guess.ā€
Tojiā€™s mouth hasnā€™t closed for the entire interaction. She doesnā€™t acknowledge him at all. Just goes back to telling Megumi what numbers come after what.
-
After the ceremony, you all meet up outside and wait for your arrival. Toji decides not to bring up what happened in the auditorium. It was a little awkward, but mostly, he kind of likes the idea that your mother thinks the two of you are dating. No one else has said anything, however. Maybe itā€™s just your mother being a bit ridiculous.
Megumi, whoā€™s still being held by her, taps her shoulder. ā€œIs that her?ā€ He asks while pointing.
They all look in the same direction and lo and behold, there you were. Your gown was unzipped showing off your beautiful white dress that stopped at your thighs and hugged your curves. It showed only a bit of your cleavage and left a lot to Tojiā€™s very active imagination. Your makeup was stunning, and you had texted him earlier today saying that you did it yourself. You did an amazing job. Your Cajun spice locks framed your face beautifully. You told him you wanted your hair to be blonde so you stopped staining your new growth after bleaching it. Your cap was hiding the blonde. He would have loved to see it.
Your beautiful smile filled his heart, and he found himself gravitating towards you, even getting in front of your family. Your smile grew even bigger as you wrapped your arms around his neck and buried your face in it. He did the same to you and squeezed you closer by your waist.
ā€œCongrats, babe.ā€
ā€œThank you Toji. Iā€™m so glad you came.ā€ He rocks you back and forth before pulling away.
ā€œOf course we came.ā€ Your face lights up and you look at your family. You hug and kiss them all, your mother being last. She puts Megumi down to hug you tightly. Toji sees a tear run down her cheek. He looks at Megumi, expecting him to come running back, but he just stands there and looks up at you while holding your motherā€™s pants.
ā€œHave you met Megumi, yet?ā€ Your mother asks you, putting her hand behind his back and nudging him in front of her.
ā€œNo,ā€ you answer, crouching down to speak to him. ā€œHi Megumi. Iā€™m Y/N.ā€
Megumi smiled shyly and waved at you. ā€œYouā€™re very pretty. I see why my dad likes you so much!ā€
ā€œMegumi!ā€ Toji reaches for his hand and picks him up while blushing. Kennedy and Kwame giggle off to the side. Your father was too busy trying to record you to notice what he had said. You cover your mouth and look at him. He knew you were laughing underneath your hand.
ā€œOkay!ā€ Your dad put his phone away after looking at the time. ā€œWe have to get going before traffic gets bad and we end up late.ā€
As if he pressed a button, your whole family jumped into action. Toji looked at you in confusion as you walked up to him. ā€œWhatā€™s going on?ā€
ā€œWeā€™re throwing a graduation party,ā€ you explain. Sheepishly, you rub your ear. ā€œIā€¦wasnā€™t sure if you wanted to come to that too. Itā€™s mostly going to be family and I didnā€™t want you to be uncomfortable-.ā€
ā€œIā€™d love to come!ā€ He says a bit too excitedly. He clears his throat afterwards. ā€œIā€™d love to come.ā€
Your beam made his heart pound. ā€œOkay! Iā€™ll send u the address.ā€ You approached him and put your hand on his arm. His palms became sweaty and he had no clue what you were trying to do, but he was prepared for anything. Especially a kiss.
Unfortunately, you werenā€™t trying to do that. Instead, you tickled Megumiā€™s tummy making him giggle sweetly. ā€œAre you okay with that?ā€ You asked while looking at the baby boy.
Megumi nodded enthusiastically. ā€œI love parties!ā€ He shouted.
ā€œYay! Youā€™ll have so much fun. Thereā€™s going to be a kids room, okay?ā€ Megumi nods even more. You take out your phone, send Toji the address, then turn to catch up with your family. Toji continues to watch the back of your head longingly. Heā€™s knocked out of his trance when you turn to look at him. ā€œCome on. Weā€™re going to the parking garage.ā€
Toji blinks and gulps. Thatā€™s right. He could walk you to your car. ā€œComing.ā€
-
Toji pulls up to the banquet hall 30 minutes later. Your family had made it a few minutes before, but were all already inside having a time. Getting out of the car, Toji looked around. There were a lot of cars and even more pulling up. Whole families getting out and rushing to the doors, some of them with gifts. Tojiā€™s throat dries up. He thinks heā€™ll keep his gift in the car.
When he walks inside with his son, itā€™s clear that he is a fish out of water. There was a large dancefloor already housing hoards of people. He nervously looked around for someone he recognized, and got even more nervous as the seconds went by. He looked at Megumi, who was getting more and more nervous by the second.
He began walking inside with no clear direction. Some children ran past his legs, which captured Megumiā€™s attention. They took a second to stop and look at the large man that they had never seen before, then went right back to playing. Toji watches them run to the other side of the building and go through a door. Toji wonders if thatā€™s the kidā€™s area you were talking about. Then, a couple more children run past the doorway, with an adult chasing after them. Heā€™ll assume the answer is yes.
Upon walking through the door, he finds himself in a hallway. Itā€™s a long corridor, but right on the wall opposite to the party, there was an open door. He could see from the cartoon paintings on the wall, the bright colors, the puzzle piece mat, and the sound from within that this was his destination. When walking in, he gained many stares from the various kids inside. He grew worried for Megumi who had his hand over his mouth staring nervously at the crowd of kids. He was gripping Tojiā€™s shirt tightly. He knew his little heart was beating a mile a minute.
Toji pulled his son to the front of him. ā€œHey,ā€ he tells him. ā€œYouā€™re gonna be brave for daddy, right?ā€ The boy shakes his head. Toji shifts his jaw and sighs. ā€œCome on, Megumi. Iā€™llā€¦ā€ he squeezes his lips together and his eyes shut, not wanting to have to bribe his son. ā€œIā€™ll get you pizza and ice cream tomorrow. We can have it for breakfast.ā€
It didnā€™t excite him, but it did the job. Megumi nodded his head and let his father put him on the floor. ā€œOf course,ā€ Toji whispered under his breath. He watches Megumi shyly walk up to some younger kids around his age, talking about nothing and playing with blocks. They watch him sit down then go back to playing. Megumi looks back at his dad who gives him a smile and a thumbs up. The boy takes a second, turns back around and reaches for a block. Then, one kid decides to hand one to him. Then another. Soon, Megumiā€™s being offered blocks galore. Toji feels a warmth growing inside him along with relief. He fit right in. And, maybe heā€™ll forget about that promise.
ā€œWell that seemed to work quite well, huh?ā€ Says a familiar voice from behind him. Toji turns around to face you. Your cap and gown was off just leaving you in your stunning dress. Your skin looked so smooth, and your hair was even more beautiful than before now that he can see it in its full glory. You never failed to take his breath away.
He clears his throat, checks back on Megumi once more, then follows you back out into the hall. The door leading to the party was closed so the children wouldnā€™t run into it so easily, and they wouldn't be disturbed in the play room. Despite the blasting music, it blocked off the sound pretty well. ā€œYou heard that, huh?ā€ He laughs. ā€œYeah, it always seems to work. Sometimes he forgets so it still works out in my favor.ā€
You let out your adorable giggle. ā€œI wasnā€™t aware that you were so conniving.ā€ You tease.
ā€œYou havenā€™t seen nothing yet, doll.ā€ Toji gives you a sideways grin and leans towards you with his hands in his pockets. Youā€™re beaming with your fingers covering your mouth.Ā 
You push his shoulder. ā€œWhatā€™s that supposed to mean?ā€
ā€œCanā€™t say. Kids around.ā€
ā€œExcuse you?ā€
ā€œYou should push me again.ā€
ā€œI probably will. You always give me a reason to.ā€
ā€œCan it be because I like when you touch me?ā€
ā€œToji!ā€ You exclaim quietly, looking around to make sure no one was in the hallway to hear him. He was giving you the most shit-eating grin. He reveled in making you flustered.
ā€œWhat?ā€ He feigns, leaning even closer towards you. He gives your face a good once over. Then he looks down at your lips. They look so soft and so full. He just wants to know how they feel on his skin. On his lips. On his-
ā€œOh my gosh!ā€ You gasp and grab his arm, knocking him out of his trance. ā€œThis is my favorite song!ā€ You grab him and run to open the doors, dragging him onto the dancefloor thatā€™s become even more crowded.
Tojiā€™s feeling a whirlwind of emotions. But nothing compares to you throwing him forward and getting in front of him. Your back faced towards him and before you started dancing, you turned your torso to look at him. ā€œPut your arms on my waist.ā€ You yell.
He blinks. ā€œWhat?ā€ Heā€™s sure he didnā€™t hear you correctly over the loud music.
ā€œYour arms,ā€ you repeat. You take his hands and put them on your lower torso. ā€œJust catch my whine, okay?ā€
And he does. And he does it well. You start to move your waist slowly. Youā€™re barely touching him, but he still feels hot all over. He really is perfect. Heā€™s not grinding against you, but heā€™s not letting you go either. He squeezes you, which pleases you immensely. Both of you feel amazing in the otherā€™s presence. As if youā€™re the only two there.
All good things must come to an end. The song, the dance, and eventually, his time at the party. It was getting late. He had to get Megumi home. After what you pulled, Toji didnā€™t even bother to fix the boyfriend allegations. He wondered how awkward that would be. For you to dance so sensually on a man you werenā€™t with in front of your family. Heā€™s sure they wouldnā€™t appreciate that. And there were so many people asking him about it. It would be a headache to correct all of them every single time.
Even then, he had a lot of fun. He enjoyed spending time with you and your family, despite how awkward he could get. And you - oh, you. Your eyes didnā€™t leave him all night. He thought he was imagining things. But when the clock passed 10, and he told you he had to leave, you eagerly followed him to grab Megumi. Him, amongst other children, were asleep. Toji picked him up and carried him outside.
ā€œGood thing youā€™re walking little olā€™ me to my car.ā€ He whispers once they get out. ā€œI wanted to give you something but I was afraid you wouldnā€™t have anywhere to put them for the time being.ā€ Toji walks around to Megumiā€™s seat and sits him down safely. He was still sound asleep. He would have been confused, if it wasnā€™t for the food stains around his mouth and on his shirt. Heā€™ll be asleep until next week. ā€œAnd Iā€¦was nervous and couldnā€™t think of a good time.ā€
ā€œAw, you didnā€™t have to get me anything.ā€ You assure him. Toji shushes you before strapping him inside. Once he does, he picks up a gigantic bouquet of white flowers, walks back around the car, and gives them to you.
You gasp. ā€œOh, Toji.ā€ You appreciated all the presents you got, but this was all you really wanted. Something simple and cute that still showed that whoever gave it to you was thinking fondly of you. And they were your favorite.Ā 
You accept them graciously. For a few seconds, you and Toji just look at each other. Heā€™s overwhelmed with pride and joy for you. You really graduated today. You achieved something great. Something that he was never able to do. He admires you so much. Not just your looks, but your brain and personality. In his eyes you wereā€¦perfect.
Today went just the way you wanted it to. You got to celebrate your achievement with the people you truly cared about. And you did care for Toji. You think itā€™s about time he knew that.
So, you grab his shoulder, pull him towards you, stand on the balls of your feet and give him a smooch right in his left cheek. You hear his small gasp and it makes your heart run. You began to sweat a bit. The nerve of you, to kiss him like that. He looks genuinely shocked and you almost begin to regret what you did, until he takes his arm and wraps it around your waist before you can pull away. Toji breathes harder and harder as he stares longingly at your parted lips. Then, he finally leans down and kisses you for the first time.
For a moment, your hearts feel as though theyā€™re beating as one. The kiss is tender and filled with need. Toji is steady pushing your head backwards as he deepens it. When he realizes what heā€™s doing, he stops abruptly and pulls away. You both continue to stare in each otherā€™s eyes as you catch your breath.
Despite his dry mouth, Toji swallows. ā€œI-Iā€™m sorry,ā€ he begins. ā€œI justā€¦Iā€¦ā€
He had seen you smile a lot today, but the one that spreads across your cheeks was the brightest by far. Everything, every anxious thought and insecure feeling he had washes away. ā€œNo. Itā€™s okay. I liked it.ā€
Absolutely perplexed, Toji letā€™s out a sound of disbelief. He tries to keep from smiling, but he canā€™t help it. ā€œYou did?ā€
And you nod. Eagerly.
Ever the rascal, Toji gives you his signature side grin and brings your body closer to him. ā€œYou want another one?ā€
His chagrin makes you burst into a fit of laughter and you throw your arms around his neck, smacking the flowers onto his back. Filled with joy, Toji fully wraps both of his arms around you and lifts you up, twirling you around.
And from inside, a couple of your baby cousins watch the adorable scene. One of the older ones took many pictures to show everyone later on. ā€œI told you that was her boyfriend.ā€
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šŸ“Chapter summary: When Mikrokosmos goes missing, you donā€™t know what to do and when Jimin suddenly starts talking to you, wanting to help find your horse, youā€™re not sure if you should accept or not. When you canā€™t find Mikrokosmos and have to spend a night with Jimin in the wide open land, will old feelings bloom? šŸ“Chapter title: The First Touch šŸ“Pairings: jimin x reader (main), jungkook x reader (only happens once in the first chapter), jungkook x OC (jessi), namjoon x OC (jessi), yoongi x hoseok, namjoon x oc, seokjin x oc, taehyung x oc šŸ“Characters: female reader (isnā€™t mentioned by name and no ā€œy/nā€), Jimin, Jungkook, Namjoon, Yoongi, Hoseok, Seokjin, Taehyung and four female original characters. šŸ“Genre/AU: ranch!au, slice of life!au, soulmate!au, cowboy!au + smut, humor, fluff, romance, slow burn and angst šŸ“Rating: mature/explicit/R18 ā€“ this is mature/explicit content, so minors, please do not interact!
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šŸ“Disclaimer: I do not own BTS or know them personally and this work of fiction is purely fictional and for entertainment purposes only. The actions and personalities described in the story do not reflect those of BTSā€” itā€™s just fiction. Also, if you would kindly read the tags/warnings before reading, that would be lovely: and if you donā€™t like whatever is described in the tags, just hit return and find something else to read. Thank you šŸŒø šŸ“Chapter warnings: explicit smut in the form of unprotected sex; sex in public (they are outside in nature by themselves), oral (both male and female receiving), very very brief anal play (female receiving), nipple play, hair pulling, sweet/dirty talk, pet name (babe), cock warming, multiple orgasms, a loooooooot of kissing (so much that it should be illegal), just very slow and tender love making. Jimin is very gentle, but he is also a devil šŸ‘æ šŸ“Status: completed šŸ„³ šŸ“Word count: 16.4k (whoopps, but itā€™s smut!)
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šŸ“Now playing šŸ’æ ā€œThe First Touchā€ by Rebecca Lavelle. [Wanna listen to the serieā€™s playlist?] šŸ“Authorā€™s note: hello, how are you doing? After weeks of leaving you high and dry and potentially crying, I finally come bearing a gift in the form of slow and sensual smut. I really hope you love it, otherwise, shame on you (Iā€™m sorry I just really love it, and it will get dirtier later (yes, that was more smut promised!)). This chapter was so fucking fun to write, and can you belive I wrote it in a day? The last three previous chapters have been harder to write, because they were more angsty, but this, oh dear god, when I write smut and fluff, the words just flows differently šŸ„° So I really hope that you enjoy this, I ended up turning myself on with the smut, so yeahā€¦ I hope that means that it is good, please let me know okay???
And I am so sorry for all the angst I put you through, if you need therapy like me, send me the bill, okay? šŸ„¹ We also finally get some answers to Jiminā€™s behavior the last chapters!! I really hope you enjoy, and I hope you havenā€™t given up on this series šŸ˜­
PSA! For the ultimate reading experience, I recommend grabbing a warm blanket and something nice to drink (whatever you like; water, tea, cocoa etc) šŸ«‚
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ā€œWhen I finally touch you Soft upon your skin You travel to the heart of me And so it beginsā€ - ā€˜The First Touchā€™ by Rebecca Lavelle
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You find yourself yearning for the ground to swallow you whole. The aftermath of the gala weighs heavily on your mind, and youā€™ve been evading Jimin ever since. Anger still lingers, but embarrassment overshadows it. Why on earth did you let yourself unleash such a torrent of emotions on him?
You release a frustrated groan, urging Marshmallow to stretch his stride, his powerful hooves churning up the earth beneath. The wind whips through your hair, carrying with it the anticipation of your imminent arrival at Bell Ranch.
Praying to avoid any encounter with Jimin or his undoubtedly furious girlfriend, you navigate the winding path to Bell Ranch with a knot of apprehension in your stomach. The thought of further embarrassment looms over you like a storm cloud, urging you to keep a low profile and escape unscathed.
Marshmallow ambles toward the pen, Yoongi immersed in his labor. Presently, his focus is on a horse adorned with a tapestry of brown and white spots, each stroke of his skilled hands an intimate dance with the wild spirit captured within the creatureā€™s untamed gaze.
You bring Marshmallow to a stop, securing the reins to the fence, before settling into your customary perch. From this vantage point, you observe Yoongi, his hands orchestrating a ballet with the untamed energy of the horse.
Suddenly, a stir in the vicinity of the house catches your attention, prompting you to shift your gaze. There, you spot Jimin making his way toward you, an unusual limp in his stride suggesting he might have overexerted himself today. Despite the evident fatigue, heā€™s adorned in a button-down shirt, sleeves casually rolled up, revealing the golden hue of his skin and the well-defined contours of his biceps. A gentle breeze plays with his blonde locks as he traverses the yard.
A curiosity nags at you as you observe Jiminā€™s solitary figure, wondering about the absence of Deiji and the distant expression etched across his face, brows knit in contemplation. The air seems to carry the weight of his thoughts, leaving you to ponder what might be troubling him. Just as youā€™re caught in this web of speculation, the abrupt roar of an engine pierces the air, drawing your attention. Swiftly, Jimin mounts his blue dirt bike, tearing out of the yard with an intensity that propels him over hills and into the expanse of a distant paddock.
Heā€™s likely headed off to some task, a sentiment that resonates with your own responsibilities awaiting attention. A soft chuckle escapes your lips as you shift your gaze back to Yoongi, his tender gestures toward the spotted horse capturing a moment of tranquility amidst the ranchā€™s bustling routine.
Yoongiā€™s playful grin widens as he teases, well aware that your attention involuntarily drifted towards Jimin once more. ā€œHow are you doing?ā€
A light chuckle escapes you. ā€œWell, hanging in there. Just grappling with the lingering sense of embarrassment, you know?ā€
He erupts into laughter, the kind that reveals his gums and sets his chest into a hearty jiggle. ā€œGot it. I heard Jiminā€™s girlfriend was less than thrilled with your little performance at the gala.ā€
You scoff, indifferent about his opinion. Regret lingers for your harsh words, a realization that an apology is overdueā€”a bridge youā€™ve yet to cross.
ā€œI understand, but I was just so mad, and I couldnā€™t hold back,ā€ you admit, your scuffed tone matching the internal storm that rages within, hands tightly clenched atop your legs.
ā€œItā€™s alright. I donā€™t think Jimin minds. Youā€™ve given him plenty to ponder,ā€ he mentions, continuing to pat the spotted horse. Your raised eyebrow prompts him to elaborate.
ā€œWhat do you mean?ā€ you ask, curiosity sparking in your eyes, eager to understand his insinuation.
ā€œThe house has been unusually quiet since the gala. Maybe Jimin has taken your words to heart?ā€ he suggests, eyebrows dancing in speculation. You scoff, skeptical of such a notion.
ā€œLetā€™s shift the conversation, shall we? Iā€™m done with Jimin,ā€ you declare, though a part of you acknowledges that youā€™re far from finished with the unresolved tension. Uncertain whether you should approach Jimin ā€“ preferably without yelling this time ā€“ or wait for him to make the first move, you consider extending an apology to both him and Deiji.
Yoongi chuckles, orchestrating a rhythmic dance with the spotted horse as they traverse the pen at a leisurely pace. ā€œSure,ā€ he replies with a hint of amusement in his voice.
A heavy sigh escapes you, and a pregnant pause lingers, only to be broken by Yoongiā€™s next words.
ā€œI have a date with Hobi,ā€ he announces, a radiant smile gracing his face, yet beneath the joy, a subtle tremor betrays a touch of nervous anticipation in his voice.
A grin spreads across your face, mirroring your genuine excitement. ā€œThatā€™s fantastic!ā€Ā 
Your enthusiasm bubbles over, revealing just how genuinely thrilled you are for him.
Your eyes light up with genuine joy as you congratulate him, ā€œIā€™m so happy for you, Yoon.ā€ Your smile reflects the warmth and sincerity of your words.
A playful glint in his eyes, he teases, ā€œThank you, Iā€™ll tell you how it goes.ā€
Anticipation bubbles within you, eager to hear the tales of their date, whenever they get to have it. As your thoughts wander, a silent wish lingers in the recesses of your mindā€”hoping for a touch of joy not just for Yoongi but for yourself as well, because you both deserve it, dammit.
ā€œAre you ready to get Mikrokosmos home?ā€ Yoongiā€™s question jolts you from your daydreams, nudging your focus back to reality. You silently curse yourself for entertaining thoughts about how their date would go and then your mind instantly wanders to sex. Damn, you really need to get laid. Why does your mind always have to go there?
You laugh nervously, your excitement bubbling to the surface. ā€œAbsolutely! I canā€™t wait to welcome Mikrokosmos home at last.ā€
ā€œIā€™ll wrap things up here, and then we can ride her home together, sound good?ā€ he suggests, a hopeful smile lighting up his face. You eagerly nod; a ride with the wind in your hair always has a way of soothing your heart.
As Yoongi wraps up his work with the spotted horse, coaxing it into accepting the halter, you watch attentively. Once done, he opens the gate, guiding the horse into a paddock. Together, you make your way to the stables to saddle up Mikrokosmos.
With unwavering patience, you nuzzle Mikrokosmos gently as you expertly fit the bridle and saddle onto her. Leading her out of the barn, you make your way down to the pen where Marshmallow awaits, tethered to the fence.
ā€œMind if I take Marshmallow? Later, Soo-ah or Ara can give me a ride home,ā€ he proposes, deftly unfastening the reins from the fence. With a fluid motion, he swings one leg over Marshmallowā€™s sturdy back, securing himself in the saddle.
With a nod, you replicate the motion with Mikrokosmos. Grasping the stirrup, you press your weight onto your foot, smoothly swinging your body over the black mareā€™s back. A soft, airy whinny escapes her as you settle into the saddle.
ā€œLetā€™s go!ā€ you exclaim with enthusiasm, gently pressing your legs against Mikrokosmosā€™s side. She eases into a lazy canter before bursting into a steady gallop. Yoongi follows in your wake, and together, you ride over the hills, the sun casting a warm glow on your skin. In companionable silence, you savor the moment, connecting with nature and the rhythmic pulse of the horses beneath you.
Your heart races within your chest as you revel in the sensation of riding Mikrokosmos. Her movements feel like a dance, as if sheā€™s carrying you to extraordinary places. Today, that destination is home. The anticipation builds as you look forward to having your horse with you at last. Countless hours of hard work have led to this moment, and the thought of bringing her home fills you with excitement and satisfaction.
The wind gently tousles your hair as you grip the reins, relishing the familiar sensation of freedom while riding. Thereā€™s a profound joy in being so intimately connected with nature. This feeling, the rush of wind, the rhythmic gait of the horseā€”itā€™s something youā€™ve truly missed. Since your dad took you away from the ranch, youā€™ve felt the absence keenly. Now, as you ride, youā€™re determined to reclaim everything you lost, to rediscover the simple yet profound joys that the ranch offers.
In no time, you and Yoongi arrive back at the familiar embrace of home. Guiding your horses up to the barn, you expertly stow them away, each finding comfort in their respective stalls.
As you and Yoongi make your way to the house, the air is suddenly pierced by the thunderous roar of an engine. Turning, you spot Jungkookā€™s sleek bike charging into the yard, your sister snugly positioned behind him. With a smooth halt, he steadies the bike, kicking the stand into place and plants his boots on the ground, unveiling his disheveled black hair as he removes the helmet. Following suit, Jessi frees her own brown locks, letting them playfully dance around her face in the breeze, a tandem display of casual grace as the bikeā€™s engine settles into a quiet hum.
Your hand rises in a friendly wave, reciprocated by the warm smiles adorning both Jungkook and Jessiā€™s faces as they draw near.
ā€œHi,ā€ resonates in perfect harmony from both, your sisterā€™s fingers intimately intertwined with Jungkookā€™s. A twinge of happiness for them pulls at your heart, yet itā€™s hard not to let a tinge of personal sadness creep in as well.
Yoongi strolls up to Jungkook, nodding toward the bike, ā€œMind if I borrow that to ride home, in case youā€™re crashing here?ā€
Jungkook laughs and gives a casual nod, ā€œSure thing. Jessiā€™s playing chauffeur for me tomorrow.ā€
Yoongi grins with satisfaction, sharing a quick hug and bidding you farewell. He hops onto the dirt bike, revving the engine to life, the sound echoing through the air.
You stand there, watching as Yoongi rides off into the distance, a cloud of dust rising in his wake, the roar of the engine gradually fading into the peaceful surroundings.
ā€œIā€™m going to grab a quick snack before dinner, do you want some?ā€ You cast a casual glance toward your sister and Jungkook as you leisurely make your way toward the house.
ā€œAs long as itā€™s a sandwich, count me in,ā€ Jungkook chuckles, with your sister in tow. The duo follows you into the house and converges in the kitchen. Opening the fridge, you survey the available ingredients for sandwich-making. Jungkook and Jessi settle at the small table on the side, eagerly anticipating the creation of the culinary delights.
You retrieve the bread, butter, and a medley of ham and cheese from the fridge. Your hands move with a rhythmic grace, deftly assembling the ingredients, all the while humming the sweet melody of a love song that resonates in the air.
ā€œHave you talked with Jimin since the gala?ā€Jungkookā€™s question punctures the air, shattering the peaceful rhythm of your sandwich-making. The ingredients lay untouched as you turn your attention to him, his words echoing in the kitchen.
Without turning away from the task at hand, you respond to Jungkookā€™s inquiry, your voice laced with a mix of uncertainty and a tinge of regret. ā€œNo, and Iā€™m not sure he even wants to talk to me after everything that happened.ā€
As you continue working, your back facing Jungkook and your sister, you sense his understanding nod and his voice carries a gentle insistence. ā€œI really think you should talk to him this time.ā€
You pivot, your eyes locking onto Jungkook, a giant question mark etched across your face.Ā 
ā€œWhy?ā€ You inquire, curiosity and a hint of reluctance evident in your expression.
A sly smirk lingers on his lips, aggravating you further. The infuriating knowledge he possesses irks you to no end. ā€œI think he has something to tell you,ā€ he teases, and you find yourself caught between irritation and curiosity. A sarcastic chuckle escapes your lips as you refocus on the sandwiches, allowing the knife to slice through them, the sharp blade echoing your conflicted emotions.
ā€œHere,ā€ you offer, presenting Jungkook with a plate laden with half a dozen sandwiches, though your sister politely declines any.
You snatch one for yourself, shooting a casual yet meaningful glance back at them, ā€œEnjoy.ā€
Savoring each bite of the sandwich, you ascend the stairs to your bedroom, where your eyes linger on the canvas mounted on the easel. The palette has shifted, with softer tones emerging ā€“ hints of pink intermingling with delicate whites and purples, forming a composition reminiscent of a blossoming cherry tree.
Sinking into the soft embrace of your bed, a cascade of thoughts floods your mind. The weight of an overdue apology to Jimin and his girlfriend hangs over you, a lingering echo from the turbulent gala. Yet, Jungkookā€™s mysterious hint at something he knows adds an intriguing layer to your contemplation. Recognizing the need for resolution, you resolve to extend the olive branch of an apology first, aiming to pave the way for a more composed and genuine conversation with Jimin. The anticipation of what both interactions might unveil stirs within you, pushing you to take the first step towards reconciliation.
In an unexpected twist of events, you drift into an unplanned slumber, the embrace of sleep enveloping you so thoroughly that dinner becomes a distant echo. No one ventures to rouse you, and you awaken later on your bed, a half-eaten sandwich still clutched in your hand. The rhythmic resonance of hooves reverberates, drawing you to the window. A herd of wild horses, led by the imposing brown stallion, unfolds in the yard, remarkably close. Its flaring nostrils and challenging hoof scratches paint a vivid picture of defiance. Despite the intriguing spectacle, weariness tugs at you as you wearily retreat to your bed.
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A disquieting sensation grips you, seeping into the very marrow of your bones and settling like a heavy stone in the pit of your stomach. An unsettling intuition whispers that things are amiss, and you canā€™t shake the ominous feeling that something, somewhere, has gone terribly wrong.
Emerging from your bed, your hair a tousled birdā€™s nest, you scan the room, finding the familiar unchanged. In the bathroom, the routine of brushing your teeth provides a momentary distraction as foam swells in your mouth, only to be expelled and washed away. The warm shower cascades over you, but an indefinable unease persists. Hastily drying off, you return to your room, donning a shirt and pants with urgency. Boots secured, hat in hand, you bound down the stairs, a sense of urgency propelling each step.
Entering the kitchen, a picture of concern greets you ā€” Jungkook, your sister, Soo-ah, Ara, and Ha-rin all wear furrowed brows, leaving you bewildered as to the unfolding situation.
ā€œWhatā€™s happened?ā€ You urgently inquire, your voice tinged with a mix of apprehension and foreboding, a silent acknowledgment that your unsettling intuition might have been onto something significant.
ā€œThe herd of wild horses were here last night,ā€ Jungkook informs, a flicker of annoyance crossing his gaze as it shifts from your sister to you.
ā€œHalf of the horses are missing,ā€ she exclaims, her voice tinged with frustration, a deep sigh escaping her. You stand there, gaping at them, a sinking feeling settling in. Half of the horses gone? The implications of this revelation weigh heavily on your mind, leaving you bewildered and searching for answers.
ā€œHow in the world are half of the horses missing?ā€ you demand, furrowing your brows in disbelief. Nausea churns in your stomach as you contemplate which horses might be gone, a sense of urgency and worry gripping your every thought.
In a calm voice, Ha-rin explains, ā€œIt was the stallion. He kicked down the fence, and the horses boltedā€¦ā€
You nod solemnly. Yoongiā€™s cautionary words about the troublesome stallion echo in your mind.
Your voice trembles with fear as you ask, ā€œWhich paddock?ā€
Jessiā€™s voice drops, ā€œThe East paddock,ā€ she says, her anger seeping into every word as she sinks into a chair.
Realization crashes over you like a tidal wave. After stalling Mikrokosmos for the night, you released her into that same East paddock for some freedomā€”whatever freedom a fenced enclosure could offer. Oh, no. Could Mikrokosmos be among the missing horses?
ā€œMikrokosmos?ā€ The word escapes your lips, a desperate plea wrapped in the echo of your worst fears. You donā€™t need them to confirm it; the sinking weight in your chest tells you everything. The truth is etched across their faces, mirroring the dread thatā€™s settled in your bones since you woke up.
Fury courses through Jessiā€™s words as she spits out the painful truth, ā€œSheā€™s gone too, along with some of the other mares.ā€ Her hand crashes down on the table, a symphony of anger and frustration. Jungkook steps in, his calming touch a feeble attempt to soothe the storm unleashed.
Hatred drips from Jessiā€™s words like venom as she rages, ā€œThatā€™s why I hate those damn wild animals! Always stealing our horses. That stallion probably wanted Mikrokosmos backā€¦ā€ Her words pierce the air, causing an uncomfortable twist in your stomach. Is she implying this is somehow your fault?
You begin to protest, ā€œI didnā€™t have anything to do with this,ā€ but Jessi dismisses your words with a quick and dismissive wave.
ā€œI donā€™t think you did. Iā€™m not blaming you. Iā€™m just furious at that wretched stallion,ā€ she explains, her anger palpable and raw, but thereā€™s a softer edge to her words too.
Itā€™s a relief to know she doesnā€™t pin this on you, that youā€™re not burdened with the blame. A soft sigh escapes your lips.
ā€œSo, whatā€™s the plan then?ā€ You inquire, scanning the faces in the crowded kitchen, a sense of urgency in your voice.
ā€œWe need to mend that fence, Jungkook, can we count on you for help?ā€ Your sister implores, turning to him with a hopeful expression. He responds with a firm nod and a reassuring grip on her shoulder.
ā€œOf course.ā€
ā€œFeel free to track down the wild horses and check if you can locate them. Unfortunately, weā€™re short-handed today,ā€ your sister suggests, rising from her seat and gazing out the window.
ā€œNo worries. Iā€™ll head over to Yoongi and see if he can spare some time to join me,ā€ you assure them with a gentle smile. Beneath the surface, a mix of sadness and frustration bubbles as you long for Mikrokosmos to return.
With determined steps, you rush out of the house and bound up to the stables, the urgency echoing in your every movement. In the quiet embrace of the stable, Marshmallow awaits, his presence a comforting balm to your racing thoughts. Swiftly, you open the door, embracing him in a soft hug before gearing him up with a bridle and saddle. Together, you emerge from the barn, and with a decisive leap, you saddle up, urging Marshmallow into a gallop, heading towards the Bell ranch with determination in your heart.
The wind tenderly weaves through your hair once more, a melancholic symphony echoing the turbulence within. Fueled by a potent mix of sorrow and frustration, your heart clenches with a resolute desire to reclaim whatā€™s rightfully yours. Your grip tightens around the reins, a silent vow etched in your clenched fists, urging Marshmallow to race faster, the earth stirs in a tumultuous dance beneath his thundering hooves.
The pen materializes on the horizon, and there, amidst the rhythmic ballet of wild horses, you spy Yoongi immersed in his labor. Urging Marshmallow to a thunderous gallop, you charge towards the pen. With an abrupt tug on the reins, the air fills with the gritty harmony of skidding hooves as Marshmallow halts, an abrupt punctuation that seizes Yoongiā€™s attention. Descending from Marshmallow, you plant your feet on the ground with a flourish, the dust settling around you like a curtain call.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong?ā€ He queries, a flicker of concern lighting up his features, as your uncharacteristic entrance sends ripples of tension through the air.Ā 
ā€œThe damn stallion,ā€ you seethe, your breaths punctuated with fury, ā€œheā€™s run off with Mikrokosmos.ā€
Yoongiā€™s eyes widen in shock, but without hesitation, he declares, ā€œIā€™ll help you search for her.ā€ You nod in gratitude as he leads his brown horse out of the pen, and you guide Marshmallow to the stables, anticipation coursing through both of you.
Prepared and determined, you and Yoongi lead your horses by the reins out to the yard, a shared sense of urgency fueling your quest to find Mikrokosmos.
Yoongi gathers the reins in his hand and directs your focus to the task at hand, ā€œWeā€™ll start looking at the Eastern paddock, okay?ā€ Just as the urgency builds, Jimin emerges from his house, adding an unexpected twist to the unfolding events. You shoot him a questioning look as he stands before you, curiosity and apprehension blending in your gaze.
ā€œWhat are you up to?ā€ Jimin questions, catching both you and Yoongi off guard. The unexpectedness of his inquiry leaves you standing there, dumbfounded, your shared silence reflecting the tension that lingers between you and Jimin.
ā€œThe wild stallion snatched Mikrokosmos last night; weā€™re going to search for her,ā€ Yoongi explains, his voice filled with urgency, his movements swift as he places his foot in the stirrup and gracefully swings his body over the horseā€™s back. The gravity of the situation hangs heavy, and you can feel the collective determination to retrieve your horse cutting through the morning air.
ā€œI can help,ā€ Jimin offers, his voice carrying a light and airy tone that catches you off guard. You stare at him, momentarily questioning your sensesā€”did he really just say that? The unexpected offer hangs in the air, and youā€™re left wondering what might be going on in his mind.
Yoongi and you both fixate on him, and Jimin responds with a soft chuckle, the contours of his chest subtly moving beneath his shirt.
ā€œI can assist. That way, Yoongi can focus on his tasks,ā€ he suggests, approaching Yoongi and motioning for him to dismount so they can swap positions. Yoongi glances at you, seeking approval for the change. Meanwhile, you continue to stare blankly at both Yoongi and Jimin. The situation feels oddly surrealā€”Jimin offering to help you search for your horse, especially considering the tense silence since the heated exchange at the gala. This ride might just turn out to be the most awkward one of your life.
ā€œSure,ā€ Yoongi concedes, dismounting from the horse. He hands the reins to Jimin, who skillfully collects them in his hands. With a swift motion, Jimin places his boot in the stirrup and swings his body over the horse, mirroring Yoongiā€™s earlier move.
Silent as a shadow, you remain grounded, words held captive within the walls of your thoughts.
With a subtle tug on the reins, Jimin redirects the horse, casting a teasing glance your way, ā€œAre you coming or what?ā€
Jiminā€™s playful remark snaps you back to the present, and without a second thought, you slip your foot into the stirrup, effortlessly swinging your leg over Marshmallowā€™s back.
You trail behind Jimin, bidding farewell to Yoongi, who lingers with a knowing smile. Silently cursing him for abandoning you in the company of Jimin, you brace for the imminent awkwardness. Despite the uncertainty, the urgency of finding Mikrokosmos eclipses any reservationsā€”youā€™re grateful for any help that might lead to her return.
Jimin confidently guides his horse, setting the pace as you both return to your ranch. The eastern paddock looms ahead, where Jungkook and Jessi ardently mend the broken fence. Their curious gazes lock onto you, expecting Yoongi but finding Jimin at your side instead.
Venturing deeper into the forest, the towering trees cast a verdant embrace around you. Silence hangs heavy between you and Jimin, a palpable tension that begs to be shattered. It dawns on you that speaking up might be the only way to dispel this awkward atmosphere before it becomes a permanent fixture.
Amidst the rustling leaves and dappled sunlight, you finally muster the courage to break the awkward silence. ā€œIā€™ve been meaning to say, Iā€™m sincerely sorry about the gala. I hope my words didnā€™t cross a line with you or upset Deiji too much,ā€ you confess, your gaze sweeping through the foliage in search of any sign of the elusive wild horses.
His laughter dances through the air, a warm melody amid the rustling leaves. ā€œItā€™s fine. Did it feel good getting off your chest?ā€
A subtle blush graces your cheeks, and you admit, ā€œIt did. Iā€™m still sorry, though. Sorry that your girlfriend had to hear that, and for pointing at her like that.ā€
You release a soft sigh, reminiscing about the regrettable way you conducted yourself.
He laughs again, the sound echoing like sweet melodies in your ears, yet the mystery behind his continuous laughter leaves you utterly perplexed.
ā€œShe did not like it,ā€ he starts, weaving his words with the rustling leaves as you venture into uncharted territory beneath the expansive canopy of a towering, ancient tree.
ā€œI deeply regret my words and actions,ā€ you offer in earnest, the weight of remorse evident in your voice.
ā€œItā€™s fine. We actually broke up,ā€ his words hang in the air, a revelation that jolts you, and you swivel your head towards him so swiftly you fear a case of emotional whiplash.
Your words tumble out rapidly, laced with uncertainty, as you press him for answers, ā€œYou broke up? Why?ā€ The shifting dynamics between you two send your heart racing, and the reins in your sweaty palms seem to tighten with anticipation.
In a hushed tone, he reveals, ā€œShe was tired of being compared to you.ā€Ā 
His voice carries a soft, steady cadence, devoid of anger, as though heā€™s entrusted you with a profound secret. He turns to face you, a gentle smile playing on his lips, revealing his slightly crooked teeth. His eyes disappear behind lowered eyelids as he adds, ā€œShe isnā€™t you.ā€
A suspended moment, as if time itself hesitates, your heart momentarily halts its rhythmic dance within your chest. Breath catches, and for a beat, youā€™re left in breathless suspensionā€”did he truly utter those words? The weight of his revelation seeps into your weary frame, and a blossoming warmth unfurls within your chest. The air lightens, the sun bestows its gentle touch on your skin, and you find yourself smiling at him, words caught in the surge of emotions.
ā€œI also had a conversation with Yoongi,ā€ he reveals, and you find yourself gaping in astonishment. The horses have settled into a leisurely walk, a welcome reprieve as you grapple with the influx of information, making it nearly impossible to focus on the ride.
ā€œHe mentioned the kiss,ā€ he confesses, and you detect a glimmer of pain in his eyes. Yet, it doesnā€™t weigh as heavily as it once did; thereā€™s a newfound lightness in his demeanor as he continues, ā€œYoongi explained that heā€™s gay, and that the kiss was merely a friendly gesture.ā€
You nod, each word he utters peeling away layers of weight from your shoulders. Itā€™s precisely the message youā€™ve been struggling to convey all along. However, you hesitated to betray Yoongiā€™s confidence by revealing it. Yet, confessing to Hoseok about Yoongiā€™s feelings for him seemed to work wonders, paving the way for their upcoming date.
ā€œThatā€™s what I desperately wanted to convey that day, you know... but you slammed the door shut in my face,ā€ you confess, a tinge of sorrow sweeping over your heart at the memory of the pain etched on Jiminā€™s face that day. While you comprehend the source of his hurt and anger, the lingering confusion remains about why he refused to engage in conversation or hear your side of the story.
ā€œIā€™m sorry. I was just so hurt at the time. Later, when I noticed how close you were to Yoongi, I jumped to conclusions and assumed you were dating him,ā€ he chuckles, the sound carrying a tinge of sadness as he reminisces about the past. ā€œFortunately, he clarified things for me, assuring me that you two are just friends and always have been.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s right. Weā€™re just best friends. Honestly, heā€™s like the annoying brother I never asked for,ā€ you chuckle, a weight lifting off your shoulders. Yet, an indescribable sensation begins to bloom within your chest, a mix of warmth and tingles, leaving you intrigued by its unfamiliar presence.
ā€œIā€™m so sorry. I really should have talked to you and listened. Iā€™m so sorry.ā€ As Jimin utters his apology, his voice echoes with remorse, a melody of regret that resonates within you. Itā€™s a bittersweet symphony, soothing to finally hear, yet you ponder the missed opportunities for dialogue that could have averted the storm unleashed by this stupid mistake and now your recent outburst. The apology, though overdue, forms a bridge between you, and you find solace in the fact that, at last, you stand on the same side of understanding.Ā 
ā€œI had hoped for you to listen back then as well. But, letā€™s leave the echoes of the past behind, shall we?ā€ Your suggestion carries the weight of anticipation, a sense of hopeful exploration into uncharted territories. He nods in agreement, yet a palpable silence, thick with the unsaid, envelops you both. The journey continues in quietude, but within that stillness, you sense the unspoken words echoing in the lingering gaze of his brown eyes, a silent conversation that paints the canvas of possibility.
As twilight descends and the hours in the saddle accumulate, your fatigue is etched into the soreness of your seat. The weariness must surely weigh on Jimin too, his body silently protesting the prolonged ride. Amidst the encroaching darkness, Mikrokosmos remains elusive, a mystery yet to unfold, and the elusive presence of the wild horses eludes your diligent search.
Frustration settles over you like a heavy cloak, and an audible sigh escapes your lips, carrying the weight of your disappointment. Just as the gloom threatens to deepen, a rebellious rumble emanates from your stomach, capturing Jiminā€™s attention and coaxing a playful laugh from him.
ā€œHungry?ā€ His question, a beacon of concern, draws a nod from you, and you respond by absently rubbing your stomach as if coaxing it to silence the persistent growls of hunger.
As the undeniable pangs of hunger echo through your stomach, you admit with a rueful tone, ā€œI forgot to eat before we left,ā€ the regret audible in your voice.
In a gentle yet scolding tone, he remarks, ā€œThatā€™s not good, you know. Itā€™s important to eat.ā€ Leaning towards you, he suggests, ā€œI think we should call it a day and head back. Itā€™s getting late anyway.ā€
As you nod, a flicker of disappointment crosses your face. The elusive search for Mikrokosmos remains unfulfilled today. Yet, a spark of hope ignites within you as you remind yourself, thereā€™s always tomorrow, right?
ā€œThen you can get something to eat, a good nightā€™s sleep and then Iā€™ll pick you up tomorrow and we can continue the search?ā€ His soft smile and warm, glowing brown eyes captivate you, quickening your heartbeat. With a hopeful nod, you sense something stirring deep within your stomach ā€” a sensation that goes beyond hunger, something akin to the birth of hope.
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The rhythmic tapping on your door pulls you from slumber, and you respond with a drowsy yet receptive, ā€œYes?ā€
You emit a groan of protest as the door inches open, revealing a fully alert Jimin. Clad in a snug white tee, its slight transparency inadvertently exposing the soft hue of his pink nipples, you chide yourself for letting your gaze linger. Blinking away the remnants of sleep, you note his dark blue jeans, strategically torn at the knees, leaving you curious if itā€™s a deliberate fashion choice or a result of untamed adventures. His hands nonchalantly find refuge in his pockets, drawing your attention to the pronounced veins that traverse his arms, subtly visible in the soft light of dawn.
As you rise from your bed, a sudden awareness floods your mind, recalling the choice of your sleepwearā€”a camisole paired with shorts that might be deemed too short for comfort. Hastily, you reach for the duvet, intending to conceal a portion of your body, only to inadvertently accentuate the contours of your chest. The fabric presses against your breasts, and you canā€™t help but notice the subtle shift in his gaze, his eyes lingering on the unintended display of cleavage.
ā€œRise and shine, sleepyhead,ā€ he chuckles, advancing deeper into your room. His gaze sweeps across the array of your personal belongings, lingering on the easel in the corner adorned with a painting bursting with vibrant huesā€” a stark contrast to your previous, darker works. Despite your eye roll, you pull yourself out of bed, allowing the duvet to cascade from your body. In that moment, you sense his eyes tracing every contour of your nearly naked form.
ā€œJust a minute,ā€ you reply, swiftly retrieving a t-shirt and pants from your closet, tossing them onto the bed. Jiminā€™s gaze lingers on you, a subtle intensity that sets your hair on fire, the air thick with an indescribable energy. ā€œMind if I take a shower first?ā€ you ask, breaking the charged silence.
He chuckles, running a hand through his tousled blonde hair. ā€œNo time for that. Besides, you already smell nice.ā€ His playful demeanor adds a spark to the moment, making you smile in spite of the urgency.
A blush tints your cheeks. Did he just say you smell nice? You did take a bath yesterday after dinner, but youā€™re not entirely convinced you actually smell nice. Nevertheless, heā€™s spot on about time slipping away ā€“ you canā€™t afford to lose daylight like you did yesterday.
ā€œFine,ā€ you hiss, the word escaping through a playful smirk. Chuckling softly, you grab your clothes from the bed and dash out of your room, disappearing into the bathroom.Ā 
Returning to your bedroom, you discover Jimin holding a photograph featuring the three of you. His smile reflects the captured moment as you take the frame from his hand. ā€œI found it a few weeks ago. Isnā€™t it just adorable?ā€ The warmth of nostalgia floods the room, threading through the air as the image triggers shared memories.
A smile graces your face as you gaze at the photograph capturing the innocence of childhood, featuring you, your sister, and Jimin at the tender age of eight. Bright, childish smiles illuminate the image, with chubby cheeks and round faces. You and your sister playfully squish Jimin in the middle, a moment frozen in time that radiates cuteness. Reflecting on it, you marvel at the transformation; once adorable, Jimin now exudes a different allure, an almost dangerous charisma, akin to the allure of sin.
ā€œIt was good times,ā€ nostalgia colors his words as a warm smile graces Jiminā€™s lips. Without a word, he walks past you, hand reaching out to intertwine with yours, a gentle pull guiding you downstairs to the kitchen. In that touch, echoes of good times and cherished memories bridge the gap between past and present.
ā€œHere you go,ā€ Ha-rin offers you a bundle of carefully prepared food, a thoughtful gesture that instantly makes you feel cared for. Simultaneously, Jimin secures water bottles, gearing up for the dayā€™s journey. The barn becomes a hub of activity as his sleek black horse stands poised, laden with sleeping mats and saddlebags filled with provisions. The air buzzes with anticipation as you prepare for the adventure ahead.
ā€œYouā€™re really prepared,ā€ amused by the thorough preparations, you share a light chuckle while heading into the stable to retrieve Marshmallow, your trusted companion for the impending journey.
ā€œYeah, that way, if we still donā€™t find her, we can just sleep out there instead of having to ride all the way back and start over again tomorrow.ā€ His practical explanation resonates with you as you prepare Marshmallow, donning him with a bridle and securing the saddle. Anticipating the possibility of an extended search, you fasten saddlebags, graciously accepting the additional supplies from Jimin, ensuring youā€™re well-equipped for the journey ahead.
His strategic approach resonates, and you nod in agreement, a surge of determination coursing through you as you gear up for the mission to locate Mikrokosmos.
Guiding Marshmallow from the stable into the morning sunlight, you revel in the warmth that has lingered for months. With reins in hand, boots in the stirrups, and a shared determination with Jimin, you swing into the saddle, urging your horses into a brisk trot toward the Eastern paddock.
The silence becomes a tangible presence, weaving an awkward tapestry around you. Armed with the knowledge of Jiminā€™s recent breakup, a peculiar tension lingers. Heā€™s now within reach, available, and your desire for him simmers beneath the surface. The challenge lies in navigating this uncharted territory, uncertain of how to bridge the gap between longing and action.
After a few hours in the saddle, you take a well-deserved break, replenishing your energy with a quick snack and a sip of water. The brief pause allows you to catch your breath, fortifying yourself before embarking on the ongoing quest to find Mikrokosmos.
Between bites of the delicious sandwiches Ha-rin crafted for you, you cast a concerned glance at Jimin.Ā 
ā€œAre you okay?ā€ Your attention focuses, especially on his leg, as you inquire about his well-being.
ā€œYeah, Iā€™m fine,ā€ he reassures you, as though casually dismissing the likely pain heā€™s enduring.
ā€œI know that long rides can strain your leg, and I donā€™t want you to push yourself too hard,ā€ you express with concern, your voice softening. The last thing you want is for him to endure any pain because of you.
ā€œItā€™s okay,ā€ despite his soft smile and dismissal, you canā€™t shake the feeling that heā€™s in pain. It reflects in the furrow of his forehead and the way he favors his left leg, dragging his right leg more than usual. Stubborn, you think, as you let him have his way, but deep down, you know heā€™s masking the discomfort.
As you take a sip of water, you gently probe, ā€œI remember you telling me about your accident, but what was it like for you afterward?ā€
With a gentle smile, he begins, ā€œAs I told you earlier, I underwent surgery after the accident. It lasted for hours, leaving me with numerous scars on my hip. I despise them; they keep reminding me of that day,ā€ his voice resonates with a mix of sadness and lingering anger. ā€œIt happened when I was alone, unable to move or feel my legs. My foot was trapped in the stirrup, the horse struggling to rise immediately after the fall.ā€
Empathy wells up within you as he recounts the harrowing details. It sounds truly dreadful. Reflecting on the first time he mentioned the incident, you realize he held back so many of these distressing details.
As he exhales, a poignant mixture of sadness and defeat tinges his voice. ā€œFinally, the horse got up and ran off, presumably back home. A few hours later, Jungkook found me and took me to the hospital,ā€ he shares, his recollection carrying the weight of a painful memory.
ā€œLearning to walk again was also pretty hard. But I managed,ā€ he confides, a resilient smile lighting up his eyes. In that moment, you find yourself smiling back, realizing the depth of his strength. Despite the pain, heā€™s willingly embarking on this quest with youā€”a testament to the extraordinary kindness that defines this man. He is truly too kind for his own good.
ā€œIā€™m so sorry,ā€ you utter, a genuine ache in your voice, yearning to alleviate even a fraction of the pain etched across his features.
ā€œItā€™s life, I guess,ā€ he murmurs with a touch of vulnerability, his shoulders lifting in a nonchalant shrug as he concludes his sandwich, deftly stowing away the remnants into the saddlebags.
ā€œReady to continue?ā€ He inquires, rising to his feet and dusting off his pants. Following suit, you tidy up, brushing away the dirt from your clothes. Grabbing the reins of Marshmallow, you mount him once more. With the sky shifting from orange to purple in the approaching dusk, the urgency propels you to search fervently for Mikrokosmos.
Youā€™re hit with a wave of disappointment as the realization sinks in that Mikrokosmos wonā€™t be found today either. Frustration knots in your stomach, and a heavy sigh escapes, echoing your dejected feelings.
ā€œWe will continue tomorrow,ā€ under the star-studded sky, Jiminā€™s comforting words envelop you like a gentle embrace. The vast expanse of the open land, with trees and mountains on the horizon, hints at the distance youā€™ve coveredā€”perhaps even farther than the previous day. Tomorrow holds the promise of a new search, a fresh chance to reunite with Mikrokosmos.
ā€œFine.ā€
Resigned, you dismount Marshmallow, carefully removing his bridle and saddle, placing them on the ground with a sense of weary determination. Jimin mirrors your actions with his own horse, unfurling sleeping mats that create a makeshift bed beneath the starlit sky. Blankets join the ensemble, and side by side, you both recline, gazing upward. The stars, like distant diamonds, twinkle in the vast canvas of the night sky, creating a breathtaking image of beauty.
As you lay there, surrounded by the gentle rustling of grass and the fragrant whispers of wildflowers, a part of you canā€™t help but believe that this is the stuff dreams are made of. The soft earth cradles you, a natural mattress beneath the vast expanse of the cosmos, each star above a guardian in the nocturnal symphony orchestrating your descent into slumber.
The night breeze plays a gentle melody around you, and you sense Jimin shifting beside you. Your eyelids flutter open, and you gracefully turn your head to meet his presence in the tranquil darkness.
ā€œYou know that brotherā€™s talkā€¦ā€ in the hushed embrace of the nocturnal wilderness, Jiminā€™s voice resonates like a sacred incantation. He breaks the silence with a low, calm tone, his words weaving through the nightā€™s symphony of your shared breaths, distant crickets, and the flickering dance of fireflies.
His words, like an unexpected gust of wind through the serene night, jolt you awake. Tension grips your body, and a nervous gulp escapes your throat, shattering the fragile cocoon of impending sleep.
His words cut through the tranquil night, each syllable heavy with the weight of his vulnerability. In the dimness, his eyes lock onto yours, revealing a hurt that lingers like a shadow, haunting the depths of his gaze. ā€œIt really hurt... seeing you with Jungkook,ā€ he confesses, laying bare the ache that still throbs within him.
As your heart sways with remorse, your hand moves instinctively, bridging the gap between you and Jimin. Gently, your fingers trace the contours of his cheek, a silent apology etched in the tender gesture. ā€œIā€™m so sorry. Both that it happened and that you had to see it,ā€ your words hang in the night air, a delicate offering of regret that seeks solace in the quiet.
Jiminā€™s hand intertwines with yours, and his touch becomes a comforting anchor in the obsidian night. ā€œItā€™s okay. Stuff happens. I just like you so much, it made me really angry,ā€ his words, a vulnerable confession, echoing beneath the starlit canopy.Ā 
ā€œIā€™m sorry. I really like you too. And I didnā€™t know he was your brother at that time, Iā€™m sorry.ā€ The apology lingers in the night air as you gravitate closer to Jimin. His breath, a gentle caress, plays on your skin. Proximity tightens the space between you until your noses almost touch. A symphony of rapid heartbeats reverberates in the silence.Ā 
An electric charge courses through you as Jimin cups your cheek, his gaze penetrating into the depths of your soul, intertwining two fates under the starlit embrace.
A subdued moan escapes your lips as his touch fans the flames within, setting ablaze the desires youā€™ve long suppressed. Itā€™s that magnetic pull, the sensation lingering each time Jiminā€™s presence envelops you, a denial unraveling at last. The tension snaps, akin to a taut elastic band reaching its limit. Eternity seems to pass as you lock eyes with him, noses grazing. Inevitably, his plush, inviting lips find yours. Your hands eagerly cup his cheeks, drawing him closer, intensifying the kissā€”a convergence of longing and surrender, an electric union that transcends mere touch.
His lips, plush and tender, evoke the sensation of cotton candyā€”irresistible, almost ethereal.Ā 
In this stolen moment, the kiss becomes an endless dance, a rhythmic exchange that could easily stretch into eternity. A dormant ember within you, quiet for far too many moments, now kindles to life. The realization floods your senses, a surge of awareness that travels down to where desire ignites. Your panties dampen, awakening the passion swirling between you and Jimin.
Jimin expertly rolls you over, maintaining the unbroken connection of your lips. As he gracefully assumes the position above, a tantalizing dance ensues. The subtle pressure of his hips against your crotch sends shivers through your being. You can feel his erect cock, concealed beneath denim, pressing fervently against you. In a harmonious rhythm, he grinds down, a symphony of need escaping him, as he moans into your mouth.
You gasp for breath, the air thick with lust, your eyes locking onto Jiminā€™s, both sets heavy-lidded and pupils dilated, mirroring the intoxication that courses through your veins. Itā€™s a heady sensation, a collision of longing and desire that feels almost surreal but undeniably right. Your fingers find his cheeks once more, a possessive urgency guiding your movements as you draw him down towards you. As your lips meet in a fervent kiss, the hunger between you intensifies, a voracious yearning thatā€™s been building for months. Each brush of your lips against his is a moment suspended in time, where your need is laid bare, and the surreal truth of it all leaves you breathless ā€“ a fantasy finally materializing into reality.
Jimin gently pulls away, a glistening strand of saliva lingering between your parted lips like an invisible tether, a tangible testament to the magnetic force pulling you both back. His breath hitches, a raw intensity in his eyes as he utters, ā€œFuck. I want you so bad.ā€
He exhales, a tangible wave of frustration emanating from him as he plunges back into another searing kiss. His tongue, a silent plea, prods at the barrier of your lips, and in a breathless agreement, you grant him entry. Tongues entwined, a passionate dance ensues, heightened by the rhythmic grind of your core against his. The ache of desire consumes you, a primal need that has been dormant for what feels like an eternity. Itā€™s a shared hunger, an unspoken acknowledgment of mutual longing, as if both of you are starved for each otherā€™s touch.
His hands travel down, tracing the contours of your stomach beneath the fabric of your shirt. A soft, involuntary giggle escapes your lips, betraying the ticklish sensation that dances across your skin. His touch ventures further, slipping beneath the shirt, and youā€™re met with a surge of anticipation. The warmth of his palms cups your breasts, the delicate barrier of the bra heightening the sensory encounter. A moan escapes into the heated exchange of the kiss, the responsive melody to his skilled touch, as your nipples respond, hardening within the confines of your bra.
You reluctantly part, the air charged with desire, and you confess breathlessly, ā€œI want you so bad too, Jimin.ā€
Your fingers glide along the contours of his snug shirt, tracing the rhythmic dance of his abdominal muscles beneath the fabric. The aftermath of your prolonged kisses paints his lips a tantalizing shade of red. His tousled, golden locks only add to the captivating disarray of his appearance, a visual symphony that threatens to engulf your senses. Rising with a newfound determination, you assertively push him away, breaking the intoxicating proximity. ā€œI need that shirt off,ā€ you declare, a hunger lingering in your eyes, aching to explore the canvas beneath.
You eagerly tug at his shirt, a silent invitation that he willingly accepts, lifting his arms in a seamless motion to unveil his honey-colored, velvety skin. As your hand grazes over his pectorals, the rhythmic pulse beneath your fingertips resonates with the accelerated beat of his heartā€”mirroring the anticipation that courses through your own veins. Your gaze traces a tantalizing descent, capturing the sculpted landscape of his face, collarbones, and the inviting expanse of his stomach, where a subtle trail of brown hair beckons you further. The air is charged with desire as your fingers deftly find his belt, unbuckling it, each deliberate motion a step closer to unraveling his dick hiding in his pants.
A throaty moan escapes him, a vulnerable symphony of desire, as you expertly undo his belt. Returning to him, your lips meet in a kiss, the touch soft and tender, like an intimate promise whispered between you two. In the gentle exchange, he tastes like a blend of love and flowers, a heady combination that lingers in the air. Brimming with anticipation, your hands deftly navigate the delicate task of unbuttoning and pulling down his pants, a challenging feat in the confined space of your current sitting position.
Your hand boldly cups his cock, the fabric of his underwear the only barrier between your skin and the pulsating dick beneath. A soft hiss escapes his lips, a symphony of pleasure and anticipation, as you sense the subtle twitch, a physical manifestation of the intensity building between you. The desperate yearning within you intensifies, aching for him with every heartbeat, and as you explore the contours of his cock, the undeniable thickness in your grasp fuels the flames of desire, leaving you breathless with need.
Breaking away from the intoxicating exchange of kisses, you lock eyes with his nearly obsidian orbs, the depth of his gaze holding a universe of unspoken desires.Ā 
ā€œCan I touch you, Jimin?ā€ you inquire, the words charged with both vulnerability and a raw, palpable need.
His teeth capture his bottom lip, a silent struggle playing out as he releases a frustrated exhale. Finally, with a resolute nod, ā€œFuck, yeah.ā€Ā 
He raises his hips in anticipation, granting you the freedom to skillfully peel away both his pants and underwear, leaving them discarded somewhere behind you in a forgotten tangle. In this suspended moment, you revel in the sight of him, completely exposed in all his naked gloryā€”an embodiment of your deepest, most intimate fantasies. His beauty surpasses even the vivid images painted by your most explicit dreams. With unabashed admiration, your eyes roam over his form, settling on the scars that grace his hips, perilously close to his crotch. A particularly long one commands attention, stretching from the pinnacle of his hip and tracing a courageous journey downward, almost reaching his knee. Your fingers delicately follow the path of this scar, a silent tribute to the tales etched into his skin.
As your touch navigates the landscape of his scars, you witness the subtle interplay of tension and release in his body, a testament to the vulnerability that accompanies such intimate revelations. His cock responds with a telltale twitch, betraying the electric charge that courses through him in response to your every caress.Ā 
Among the prominent, sprawling scar that graces his hip, you notice a constellation of smaller, shorter scars, each telling its own story. With a delicate touch, your fingertips embark on a tender exploration, tracing the intricate map of his history etched into his skin.Ā 
Meanwhile, his eyes remain hooded, a veil of pleasure shrouding them, while his head arches backward, supported by his hands resting behind him. The cadence of his breath is a slow, deliberate rhythm, accentuating the intimate atmosphere that envelops you both. His teeth find refuge in his bottom lip once more, a silent testament to the waves of sensation cascading through him at your every touch.
ā€œMy scars are ugly, donā€™t look at them,ā€ he confesses, his voice carrying a weight of vulnerability, as if he bears the weight of shame. The realization hits you like a waveā€”perhaps no one has ever taken the time to remind him that, even adorned with scars, he is undeniably beautiful. Gazing into his eyes, you speak with a gentle resolve, ā€œYou are beautiful, and so are your scars.ā€
With tender determination, your fingers resume their exploration, tracing the intricate paths of his scars. The touch is a reassurance, a gentle affirmation of his worth, and as your fingertips dance along the imprints of his past, a ripple of shivers courses through him. In response, an involuntary twitch emanates from his cock between his legs.
He dismisses your words with a subtle shake of his head, skepticism clouding his expression, but youā€™re determined to rewrite the narrative etched into his self-perception. He needs to understand the depth of his beauty and uniqueness. Your fingers resume their tender dance, tracing teasingly along the ridges of his scars, each touch carrying the weight of your conviction. ā€œThese scars,ā€ you affirm, ā€œthey tell your story, a story of resilience and strength. And, my god, they are beautiful, just like you.ā€Ā 
The words hang in the air, a testament to your unwavering belief in the profound beauty etched into the very fabric of his being.
Witnessing the softening of his gaze, a solitary tear breaking free from the confines of his eyes, you seize the poignant moment to plunge back into a kiss with his lipsā€”soft and plush, like a velvet haven. Itā€™s a moment that transcends time, and in those stolen seconds, you realize you could lose yourself in the artistry of his lips for an eternity.
Heaving with the weight of shared intimacy, his breaths resonate with depth and intensity. As he withdraws, the shadows of his eyes glisten with unshed tears in the night. With a voice that trembles with sincerity, he utters, ā€œThank you,ā€ a phrase that echoes with layers of gratitude and vulnerability.
Gazing into his eyes, you observe a vulnerability that renders him utterly exposed, laid bare before you. In the depth of his gaze, a profound mixture of emotions surfaces, the hues of desire and longing mingling with the rich brown of his eyes. Embracing him, you pull him into the sanctuary of a hug, your lips brushing against his ear as you murmur, ā€œIā€™ll keep telling you forever, because I feel like you need to hear it.ā€
Gently trailing your hand down the terrain of his stomach, your fingertips navigate the uncharted territory until they encounter his neglected cock. The moment your touch cradles him, a guttural groan, steeped in the heady brew of desire, escapes him, echoing in the charged air around you. Your fingers embark on a careful exploration, appreciating the girth and thickness of his dick, veins almost popping out of the poor thing. The flushed redness of the head and a delicate sheen of precum only intensify the allure. Licking your lips in anticipation, you lower yourself. Your lips encircle the engorged head, and in response, a deep, primal moan reverberates from him, resonating with the harmonious dance between pleasure and need that binds you together.
Reclining amidst the soft embrace of grass and wildflowers, you have somehow trailed off your sleeping mats, but you donā€™t care. Your tongue embarks on an intricate exploration, tracing a sinuous path along his cock, each lick an artful dance that circles around him with an unspoken promise of ecstasy. Youā€™re drooling, and your saliva runs down your cheeks, down his cock and down to his balls.
His dick fills your mouth with a perfect fullness, a tangible overflow of desire. The parts that donā€™t fit in your mouth are skillfully tended to by your left hand, ensuring no inch of him is left untouched. His legs, betraying the intensity of the sensations, exhibit a subtle yet enticing twitch as you move rhythmically, a symphony of pleasure in every rise and fall.
Your devoted attention centers on his frenulum, a delicate dance of your tongue that elicits the softest, most melodic moan youā€™ve ever been privy to. The sound, a harmonious melody that resonates like a sweet lullaby, fuels your determination to continue this enraptured dance, even as your eyes threaten to mist with water. The need for air tugs at the edge of your consciousness, yet the ethereal music of his moans compels you to keep sucking.
The air is punctuated by squelching sounds, an audible testament to the fervor with which you suck him, utilizing every ounce of your skill. His hand, a gentle guide, finds solace in the maze of your hair, fingers intertwining as you diligently navigate the rhythmic ascent and descent along his pulsating dick. Sensing the subtle tension beneath your touch, you discern the hastened cadence of his breath, a telltale sign that he might be close.
You surface from the intoxicating depths of his crotch, parting from his cock to catch a breath of much-needed air. In that fleeting moment, as your eyes lock with his, youā€™re ensnared by the sinful intensity of his gaze. Itā€™s a look so profoundly wicked, so enticingly feral, that you sense the very essence of your being might either melt into a puddle or evaporate into the charged air.Ā 
Pooling a teasing amount of saliva in your mouth, you audaciously release it onto his dick, eliciting a surprised yet lustful chuckle from him. As your mouth envelops him once more, you revel in the tangible connection, savoring the unique sensation he offers. Yet, the sensation also sparks a cascade of anticipatory thoughts, your mind drifting to what it will feel like with his cock deep inside your pussy, and you feel it clench pathetically around nothing. Oh, god, youā€™re so wet already, itā€™s like a waterslide in your panties.
In rhythmic harmony with your measured breaths through flared nostrils, you descend along the full length of his dick. The audible moans that escape him blend with the sensation of his fingers tensing in your hair, creating a symphony of pleasure. Gradually, you sense him responding, pushing up into the warmth of your mouth with a deliberate slowness, each controlled thrust an exquisite dance. You relax your jaw and let him thrust into your warm walls. Itā€™s slow and tender, like heā€™s very mindful not to hurt you.
In a breathless maneuver, you inhale deeply, creating a vacuum of anticipation as you envelop him in the suction of your mouth. A subtle, resonant hum reverberates against his pulsating dick, a seductive melody that prompts a tantalizing twitch within him. His fingers assertively tug at your hair, commanding a release that you give in to. With a sensation-laden pop, you surface from his cock, leaving an electrifying echo of desire lingering in the charged air.
ā€œItā€™s so fucking good. But you have to stop. I donā€™t want to come in your mouth,ā€ he pants, his voice a raw fusion of vulnerability and urgent need. As he leans up, the desperation in his tone intensifies, ā€œI want to come inside you.ā€Ā 
You might as well be surrendering to the abyss, for the power this man holds over you is staggering. The softness in his eyes is laced with an intoxicating lust, and the sly smirk he graces you with sends an electric current straight to your pussy. The dampness between your thighs becomes an undeniable testament to the effect he has on you, as his mere expression ignites a storm of arousal, leaving you helplessly entrapped in the spell he effortlessly casts.
With a firm yet gentle pull, he elevates you into a seated position, an unspoken desire lingering in the air. Urgently, he tugs at your shirt, mirroring the unveiling you orchestrated for him. As the fabric succumbs to gravity, revealing your form, he takes a moment to appreciate the canvas before him. His fingers trace a tantalizing path from your collarbones, across the curve of your breasts, and down to the waistband of your pants. Eyes locked with yours, he skillfully unzips your trousers, teasingly patting your ass before lifting them and guiding the denim down your legs.
The night air caresses your bare skin, its touch not a chill, but a soothing embrace. Despite the darkness that cloaks the surroundings, the lingering warmth from the day creates an intimate ambiance, allowing the freedom of being naked outside to feel not only acceptable but almost cocooned in a sensual comfort.
ā€œBabe,ā€ he murmurs, his gaze dropping between your open legs, a single finger delicately tracing the contours of your pussy, ā€œYouā€™re soaked.ā€Ā 
You bite down on your lip, a flutter of lust coursing through you, as his finger skims the exterior of your panties, causing them to uncomfortably adhere to the contours of your folds. The urgency intensifies, a palpable desire radiating from your core, a silent plea echoing in your mindā€”you need them off, and you need it now.
ā€œNo need to silence yourself; itā€™s just us beneath the open sky,ā€ he gently reminds you. With his reassuring words, you liberate your teeth from the captivity of your lips, allowing the unabashed moans of pleasure to cascade freely from your mouth, blending with the nocturnal symphony surrounding the two of you.
His fingers dance over your clit through the fabric of your panties, coaxing a guttural groan from the depths of your stomach. The subtle tremor of your thighs betrays the exquisite intensity of the sensation, a response that echoes through the sultry night air like a secret shared only between you two.
A smug smirk graces his lips, a silent promise of the pleasures yet to unfold, as his hands maneuver deftly up and behind your back, skillfully releasing the constraints of your bra. It cascades down to your lap, unveiling your liberated tits that eagerly spring forth. His hands, warm and purposeful, eagerly grope the newly revealed treasures, gently massaging your boobs.
Diving in with hunger, he presses kisses atop them, an unhurried descent leading him further down and to the left. His plush lips encircle a pert nipple, initiating a sensory dance that sends ripples of ecstasy through you.
ā€œFuck,ā€ escapes your lips in a resonant moan, a symphony of pleasure commencing as he avidly sucks at one nipple while his fingers skillfully engage with the other. The sensation is beyond exquisite, a tidal wave of arousal surging through you. A fleeting realization of your panties still sticking uncomfortably to your skin. Yet, the relentless attention he bestows upon your breasts holds you captive, rendering you powerless to do anything but surrender to the intoxicating pleasure.
And take it you do, as his tongue deftly laps at your nipple, each stroke a rhythmic dance that occasionally escalates into a teasing bite, sending electric sparks that illuminate your vision with stars. Simultaneously, his fingers tug at the other nipple, orchestrating a symphony of pleasure that resonates through your body. As his exploration continues, you feel the warmth of his saliva tracing a tantalizing path down your breasts, descending over your stomach like a sensual cascade. The molten trail reaches the brink of your panties, a frustrating barrier to the carnal desire that courses through you.
With a tantalizing pop, he releases your left nipple, ascending to your mouth for a kiss thatā€™s both needy and all-consuming, as if he canā€™t satiate his hunger for you. The fervor in his lips translates into an intense connection, leaving you breathless and yearning for more.Ā 
Descending once again, his focus shifts to the other nipple, where he wraps his lips around it, initiating a dance of sucking and biting that elicits unrestrained moans from deep within you. Simultaneously, his fingers weave an intricate symphony on the previous touched nipple, propelling you into a realm of uncharted pleasure. The crescendo builds, and you moan unabashedly, teetering on the edge of an orgasm, the anticipation of release hanging in the charged air.
He persists in his relentless assault, biting and pulling with an intensity that coils a spring deep within your stomach. As the tension reaches its zenith, the spring snaps, unleashing a torrent of arousal that surges through you, adhering to your panties in a sticky testament to the powerful release. The realization hits like a thunderbolt ā€“ you just came without the direct touch on your clit. The sheer amazement washes over you, compounded by the rhythmic pants for air, transforming the aftermath into a heady cocktail of astonishment and unbridled ecstasy.
He relinquishes his hold on your breasts, eyes gleaming with satisfaction as if savoring a delectable feast. With a hungry gaze, he looks at you, and you can almost feel the intensity of his desire ā€“ as if heā€™s contemplating devouring you whole.Ā 
His tongue darts out to lick his lips, a prelude to a ravenous declaration, ā€œI want to taste your pussy too.ā€ The words hang in the air, charged with a primal hunger that echoes the undeniable craving between you.
Your pussy continues to pulsate, a rhythmic echo of the recent orgasm, its clenching sensation persisting even in the absence of direct touch. Biting your lip, you nod your head in silent agreement. The desire intensifies, a relentless ache for the magic of his lips and the dance of his tongue on your pussy.
His fingers trace a tantalizing path to your hips, teasingly tugging at the edge of your panties. With deliberate intent, he pulls them off, a gentle yet purposeful maneuver that leaves your arousal adhering to the fabric, forming a glistening string of liquid in its wake.Ā 
His gaze lowers between your legs, and he licks his lips with a deliberate slowness, an anticipation building with every inch he descends towards the place you ache for his touch. But just before he immerses himself in your pussy, he looks up, locking eyes with you. In that fleeting moment, he bestows upon you the softest look, so angelic and innocent, creating a deceptive contrast to the sinful delights you know heā€™s about to unleash upon you.Ā 
As the first tantalizing touch of his tongue graces your folds, an instantaneous moan escapes your lips, and a kaleidoscope of stars seems to burst behind your closed eyelids. His tongue skillfully dances across your lips, a deliberate sweep that not only dissipates the lingering echoes of the previous orgasm but also revels in the unique taste of your essence.Ā 
His tongue, a sinful indulgence, possesses a length that seems to explore the depths of your walls with deliberate precision. The unhurried entrance sends shivers through your core, each languid movement a seductive dance that unfurls the layers of pleasure.Ā 
He fervently licks at your folds, savoring every essence, his tongue a relentless tide that laps up the intoxicating cascade of your juices. As you lean back on your arms, the anticipation of a new orgasm steadily builds within the depths of your stomach. Suddenly, a finger makes contact with your clit, and a moan of desire escapes your lips. Panting and gasping, your naked chest rises and falls above him, caught in the rhythm of a primal dance, as he devours you with the hunger of a man starved.
His skillful touch initiates a hypnotic dance, tracing sensuous circles around your clit.Ā 
ā€œFuck, Jimin, Iā€™mā€”ā€ you begin to say amidst breathy pants, and suddenly, a new sensation courses down your ass. The realization hitsā€” itā€™s one of his slickened fingers, probing at the hole there.Ā 
Gradually, he eases his finger inside, and an involuntary clenching reaction coupled with erratic breaths engulf you. Thoughts scatter, the intensity of this entirely new sensation overwhelming your senses. Itā€™s foreign, yet undeniably not unpleasant; in fact, itā€™s oddly good, a revelation that surprises you. As his finger delves a bit deeper, you feel the subtle stretch, accompanied by a moan that weaves into the midnight air.
ā€œYou said I should stick it up my ass. How does it feel with my finger up yours?ā€ he taunts, his voice laced with a provocative edge that sends a shiver down your spine. As you clench around his invading finger, a surge of arousal releases a trickle of liquid from your pussy. The sensation is overwhelming, igniting a primal heat that consumes you entirely. Fuck, why is this so hot?
With deliberate tenderness, he eases his finger into your hole, maintaining a steady rhythm that tantalizingly grazes the threshold of previous depths. The sensation is nothing short of exquisite, sending ripples of pleasure cascading through every fiber of your being. But as quickly as the euphoria engulfs you, he withdraws his finger, leaving you to groan in a poignant emptiness that echoes through the night air.Ā 
He lifts his head, locking eyes with you, his gaze penetrating the depths of your blown-out eyes. ā€œYou liked that, huh?ā€ he murmurs, his voice a husky whisper that reverberates with a potent mixture of satisfaction and desire. The intensity of his stare ignites a fire within you, each word laden with the weight of pleasure and unspoken longing.
You bite your lips, a fleeting moment of hesitation passing through your mind as you contemplate the truth. But the honesty between you is palpable, a silent understanding that binds you together in this intimate moment. ā€œI did,ā€ you confess, your voice carrying the weight of undeniable desire, a raw admission that lays bare the depths of your longing.
ā€œThatā€™s good to know,ā€ he chuckles, the sound reverberating through the night like a whispered promise. With a hunger that borders on desperation, he kisses you again, his lips consuming yours in a full embrace that tastes of your essence. Itā€™s a kiss thatā€™s wet and sloppy, needy and unapologetic, yet every sensation only serves to deepen the flames between you. And as you savor the taste of his lips against yours, youā€™re reminded of the intoxicating allure that drew you to him in the first place, igniting a flame that burns brighter with each passing moment.
He returns to your pussy with a hunger that borders on obsession, his lips eagerly tasting every inch of you while his skilled fingers tease your clit with a maddening precision. His tongue, devilishly good, sends waves of pleasure coursing through you, compelling you to arch your back and press your core deeper into his face. The sight of his glistening cheeks, adorned with your essence, ignites a primal urge within you, a visceral desire to consume and be consumed in return. With his head between your legs, he becomes a vision of untamed passion, his devotion to your pleasure evident in every caress and every lingering kiss.
With the skill of a master, he works his fingers over your clit in a mesmerizing dance, tracing circles that send sparks of ecstasy coursing through your veins. His touch is both gentle and assertive, at times pulling on your sensitive nub, eliciting a chorus of moans that echo in the heated air around you. Each movement sets your body ablaze with a searing intensity, every sensation heightening your arousal until you feel like youā€™re consumed by a blazing inferno of desire.
As he continues his relentless assault on your senses, you feel the coil of desire winding tighter and tighter, on the verge of unraveling at any moment. The dual sensation of his sucking at your clit while his finger expertly rubs it pushes you over the edge, and with a primal cry, the coil inside you finally snaps.Ā 
A powerful wave of liquid cascades over his face, a testament to the overwhelming pleasure that consumes you. Gasping for air, your vision momentarily blurs, spots dancing before your eyes as the intensity of the moment washes over you. You feel the liquid trickling down your folds, leaving a trail of evidence on the grass or flowers beneath you.
As Jimin continues to lick and coax you through the euphoric waves of your orgasm, you ride out the intense sensations until you gently tug on his blonde hair, a silent signal that itā€™s becoming too much to bear. Sensing your need, he obediently returns, his lips meeting yours in a modest kiss that speaks volumes of his reverence for you.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re so hot, you know that?ā€ he murmurs against your lips, his words laced with genuine admiration and a hint of awe, leaving you with a lingering warmth.
For some inexplicable reason, a blush graces your cheeks, a subtle yet undeniable testament to the torrent of emotions swirling within you. Itā€™s a curious juxtaposition, considering the uninhibited pleasures youā€™ve shared thus far. Yet, amidst the intoxicating haze of desire, thereā€™s a deeper sensation stirring within youā€”a profound sense of being utterly and unequivocally full, not just of passion, but of an overwhelming and boundless love.
ā€œCan I make love to you?ā€ he asks, his voice a tender whisper that reverberates through the charged air between you. As his eyes search yours, a silent plea etched into their depths, his breath washes over your face, carrying with it the intoxicating scent of himā€”sweet and musky, a heady blend that envelops you in a cocoon of desire and longing.
ā€œGod, yes!ā€ you moan fervently, your voice a breathless plea that echoes in the heated space between you. With an instinctual urgency, you open your legs wider, a silent invitation that beckons him closer, drawing him into the intimate embrace of your pussy with an irresistible pull.
He lays you down gently on a fragrant bed of bluebonnets, their sweet, flowery scent wrapping around you like a comforting embrace, infusing the night air with a delicate fragrance that speaks of love and serenity. As you pant softly, your eyes drink in the sight of Jimin poised above you, a vision of strength and vulnerability intertwined. His scars, a testament to his journey, only add to his allure, while his tender gaze holds you in a spellbinding trance. With deliberate movements, he hovers closer, his hand stroking his dick.
ā€œDo you happen to have a condom?ā€ He asks, a note of realization creeping into his voice as he acknowledges the crucial detail he nearly overlooked.Ā 
You shake your head, a sense of disappointment washing over you like a wave crashing against the shore. Despite the nagging concern for safety, your desire burns fiercely, eclipsing rational thought with an unyielding craving for closeness.Ā 
ā€œNo, I donā€™t. Iā€™m on the pill and Iā€™m clean, are you?ā€ You inquire, your voice laced with a mixture of longing and urgency, a silent plea for reassurance amidst the whirlwind of emotions swirling within you.
He chuckles softly, the sound a mixture of amusement and apprehension. ā€œYeah, I usually always wear protection too, but I really didnā€™t plan on this happening tonight,ā€ he admits, his words tinged with a hint of uncertainty. ā€œYouā€™re okay without it?ā€ He asks, his gaze searching yours for any sign of hesitation or doubt, his concern for your well-being evident in the furrow of his brow.
ā€œIā€™m good, just fuck me, Jimin,ā€ you pant, your voice trembling with a raw mixture of desire and urgency. With a fervent desperation, you spread your legs even wider, your glistening pussy shimmering in the moonlight, a beacon of temptation that beckons him closer. The sight leaves him licking his lips in unadulterated lust, his gaze fixated on you with a hunger that mirrors your own.
With a slow, deliberate motion, he strokes his dick once more, a silent promise of the pleasure to come. Aligning himself with your eager entrance, he begins to push his cock into your welcoming embrace, each inch a tantalizing reminder of the intimacy youā€™re about to share.
As he enters you, a surge of sensation washes over you, and youā€™re struck by the realization that heā€™s thicker than you anticipated. A fleeting moment of panic flits through your mind as you remember that he didnā€™t stretch you beforehand, but to your surprise, the slickness of your arousal makes the slide effortless. Thereā€™s no discomfort, only a delicious feeling of fullness that leaves you breathless with pleasure.
He reaches the deepest recesses of your being, his balls grazing your folds, and a primal moan escapes your lips as he ignites a firestorm of sensation within you.Ā 
Every inch of him stretches you to your limits, leaving you feeling gloriously full and alive with desire. With each withdrawal, a shiver races down your spine, only to be replaced by an electrifying jolt of pleasure as he thrusts back in.Ā 
The intensity of it all is overwhelming, sending you spiraling into a frenzy of ecstasy that surpasses even your most vivid fantasies. Itā€™s everything youā€™ve ever imagined, and yet, so much moreā€”so much better than your wildest wettest dreams.
You revel in the sensation of his dick twitching inside your pussy, a primal confirmation of his arousal that sends a thrill coursing through your veins. With each powerful thrust, the simplicity of the missionary position becomes a conduit for profound intimacy, every movement drawing you closer together in a passionate dance of desire. Youā€™re soaking wet, to be honest, youā€™re dripping. His cock feels like a revelation, igniting flames of ecstasy that consume you wholly, leaving you utterly lost in the intoxicating rhythm of your passion.
His hands, initially anchored on either side of your hips, move across your trembling form. Each caress leaves a trail of tingling sensations in its wake, electrifying your senses with a fervent urgency. As his fingers glide over your curves, they pause upon the soft swell of your breasts, lingering there with an almost reverent touch. With a gentle tug on your nipple, he elicits a fervent moan of pure pleasure from your lips, each sensation unraveling you further in the throes of unabashed ecstasy.
As he continues to thrust deeply into you, his fingers teasing your sensitive nipple, you find yourself drawn to the raw intensity etched across his features. His expression, a captivating blend of desire and longing, captivates your gaze, his furrowed brow a testament to the depth of his passion. His eyes, wide and dilated with arousal, hold you in their hypnotic gaze, each glance igniting flames of longing within your core. His plush, red lips beckon to you with an irresistible allure, stirring an overwhelming urge to taste him once more, to lose yourself in him.
ā€œKiss,ā€ you pant, your voice a desperate plea that hangs heavy in the air, and he chuckles softly at your fervent request. Without hesitation, he leans down to meet your lips, his kiss a fiery collision of passion and need, even as he continues to drive his dick into your heated depths with unwavering intensity.Ā 
Each brush of his lips against yours sends shockwaves of ecstasy coursing through your body.
ā€œFuck, youā€™re amazing babe,ā€ he groans, his voice laced with a mixture of awe and desire, as he drives himself into you with a fervent urgency tempered by tender affection. Each powerful thrust is a testament to his adoration, his movements a symphony of passion and intimacy that leave you breathless with longing.
ā€œJimin, Iā€”ā€ you gasp, the words caught in your throat as he delves deeper into your depths, a surge of pleasure coursing through you as he gathers your legs and presses them against his shoulders, driving himself even further into your pussy.
Your gasping, overwhelmed by the depth of sensation as he plunges into you, exploring places you never knew existed, igniting sparks of pleasure that ripple through every fiber of your being. Itā€™s as if heā€™s reaching parts of you that have long remained dormant, his every movement sending shockwaves of ecstasy cascading through your body, leaving you teetering on the edge of blissful oblivion.
When he delivers a particularly powerful thrust, you surrender to the overwhelming wave of emotions coursing through you, your heart soaring as you release the words that have been simmering within, ā€œI love you.ā€
With a husky grunt, he responds, his voice a low rumble filled with an undeniable tenderness, ā€œI know, babe.ā€
Gazing at him through a veil of desire, your breath ragged with anticipation, you press him for clarity, your voice trembling with curiosity, ā€œWhat do you mean, you know?ā€
A soft chuckle escapes his lips as he withdraws completely, leaving you with a sense of emptiness that mirrors the sudden absence of his presence within you. ā€œYou told me at the gala,ā€ he explains, his voice carrying a hint of amusement and fond remembrance, casting a glow of warmth over the memory.
Your expression morphs into a puzzled question mark once more, prompting another bout of laughter from him as he teasingly teases at your entrance once more.
ā€œWhen you told me you hated me, you also said you love me,ā€ he reveals, his voice laced with a mixture of humor and desire, before driving his dick back into you with an intensity that leaves you gasping, your cries of pleasure echoing in the night, mingling with the sounds of nature around you. Youā€™re almost afraid you might startle the horses with all your noises.
ā€œFuck, I did?ā€ you gasp incredulously, your voice tinged with disbelief and arousal, feeling the powerful grip of your pussy tightening around his cock, as if itā€™s instinctively pulling him deeper, craving the connection with an intensity that matches your own desire.
ā€œYeah. It was actually really hot. Do you know how sexy you are when youā€™re mad?ā€ He leans down, gently pressing your thighs against your stomach, drawing you into an intimate embrace as he lowers his lips to your ear, his warm breath sending shivers down your spine as he whispers, ā€œI love you too.ā€
Youā€™re consumed by a surge of sensation, questioning whether heā€™s grown larger or youā€™ve become tighter, the intense throbbing and twitching of his dick inside you driving you to the brink of madness. Every nerve in your body is alight, ablaze with desire, leaving you gasping for breath as if on the verge of spontaneous combustion.
As he ascends, his hand resumes its gentle ministrations on your clit, sending shockwaves of pleasure through your core. The intensity is overwhelming, pushing you to the brink of release once more. Every fiber of your being is electrified, teetering on the edge of ecstasy. You feel like you could come at any moment now.
Despite the exhaustion that blankets your body with the way that he fucks you, youā€™re enveloped in a whirlwind of love and desire that leaves you feeling utterly spent yet infinitely fulfilled.
ā€œAhhh, fuck!ā€ You cry out, the sensation of him delving so deep sends shockwaves of ecstasy coursing through every nerve ending, igniting a kaleidoscope of sensations that leave you seeing stars and unraveling at the seams.
ā€œThatā€™s it, babe. Youā€™re taking me so well,ā€ he pants, his voice thick with desire and need, echoing the frantic rhythm of your own breathless gasps. ā€œIā€™m almost there. Are you close?ā€
ā€œYes,ā€ you moan, elongating the word as if savoring its taste, your voice a symphony of pleasure and desire. Every nerve in your body ignites with a fiery intensity, fueled by the intoxicating sensations Jimin evokes. His touch, his presence, itā€™s unlike anything youā€™ve ever experienced before, a blissful surge that consumes your very being.
As Jiminā€™s pace intensifies on your clit, perfectly synchronized with the depth of his thrusts, you surrender to the torrent of sensations cascading through your body.Ā 
Every touch, every movement, sends shockwaves of pleasure coursing through you, a culmination of the emotions that have been simmering beneath the surface for months. With each exquisite moment, you release the pent-up tension, allowing yourself to be consumed by the raw, unbridled passion between you and Jiminā€” you simply let go.
ā€œJimin!ā€ The cry tears from your lips like a primal invocation as you spiral into your third orgasm, a deluge of ecstasy flooding around his throbbing cock.Ā 
Youā€™re left panting, a disheveled portrait of desire, as your core tightens around him, pulsing with each wave of release, coating his dick in a glistening sheen of your arousal.
ā€œFuck!ā€ His voice is a raw mix of frustration and longing, his body trembling as your insatiable pussy seems to draw him deeper into your depths, culminating in a primal moan of your name as he spills his essence inside you.
Youā€™re both left breathless, your bodies suffused with a warmth that courses through every inch of your skin, igniting a tingling sensation that dances along your nerves. Itā€™s not just the aftermath of passion; itā€™s a shared ecstasy that leaves you both on the brink of shivering, though not from the chill of the night air.
As you ride out the waves of your climax, he continues to thrust inside you, his warmth flooding your depths, and you revel in the raw intimacy of it all. Even as his dick gradually softens, he remains nestled within you, both of you panting for air.
Droplets of sweat trickle down from his forehead, teasing your breasts with their warm caress. Despite the exhaustion etched on his face, he still radiates a captivating allure that leaves you breathless.
You feel the warmth of his semen trickling out of your pussy, tracing a tantalizing path down to your ass, leaving you feeling both sticky and sweaty.
You gently lower your legs from his shoulders, allowing them to find solid ground beside him. Gasping for air, a wide grin spreads across your face, punctuated by playful giggles. Jimin leans in, his lips meeting yours in a tender kiss that elicits a soft moan from you. Breaking away, he grins, revealing his endearingly crooked teethā€”a sight that never fails to warm your heart. Damn, you love this man.
You lose track of time with him nestled on top of you, his warmth enveloping you as he remains inside your pussy. The gentle thud of his beating heart against your chest creates a soothing rhythm, one that seems to sync perfectly with your own.Ā 
In that moment, entwined together, it feels like your souls are dancing to the same beautiful melody.
As he withdraws from you, he gracefully shifts onto his side, beckoning you to join him on his sleeping mat. You comply eagerly, settling yourself beside him, relishing the warmth of his body against yours. With a tender gesture, he draws both blankets over your entwined forms, cocooning you both in a comforting embrace against the nightā€™s chill.
Entwined in each otherā€™s arms, you drift into slumber, lulled by the rhythmic cadence of his heartbeat, a comforting lullaby in the stillness of the night. With your head nestled against his chest, feeling the gentle rise and fall of his breathing beneath you, you find solace in the intimacy of the moment. Your fingertips trace delicate patterns on his pectorals. As you lie there, embraced by the tender embrace of nature, the symphony of the wilderness envelops you, a melodic harmony of chirping crickets and dancing fireflies. Above, the celestial canopy twinkles with a myriad of stars, casting a celestial glow upon your sanctuary, a sanctuary where time stands still and love knows no bounds.
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As the first light of dawn paints patterns of gold through the foliage, coaxing you from slumber, you awaken beside Jimin, cocooned in the warmth of his presence. Stretching languidly, you feel the gentle weight of his body beside you, a comforting anchor in the hazy morning. Nestling closer to him, you bury your face into the curve of his chest, savoring the familiar rhythm of his heartbeat. With a contented sigh, you greet the new day softly, your voice a whispered melody against the tranquil stillness, ā€œMorning.ā€
He stirs beneath you, a soft chuckle escaping his lips, a sound that resonates deep within your core. His gentle touch traces the curve of your spine, sending shivers cascading down your skin, igniting a familiar heat within you. The memory of last night dances at the edges of your consciousness, teasing and tantalizing, as his fingers linger on the curve of your ass, coaxing your body to life with every caress.
ā€œGood morning, did you sleep well?ā€ His voice, warm and inviting, rouses you from the haze of sleep, like the first light of dawn piercing through the darkness. You blink away the remnants of dreams, meeting his gaze with a soft smile. His laughter, a melody of morning, dances in the air, wrapping around you like a comforting embrace. As he opens his eyes, you find yourself captured by the depth of his gaze, a silent exchange of morning greetings between two souls entwined in the quiet serenity of dawn.
ā€œAmazing,ā€ you exhale the word against his chest, the warmth of your breath mingling with the gentle rise and fall of his chest. Soft kisses pepper his skin, each one a testament to the tenderness between you, yet thereā€™s a playful edge as your teeth graze his flesh, drawing forth a soft chuckle from him, like music to your ears, a sweet symphony of affection.
He moves with a fluid grace, rolling you over and settling above you as the weight of his presence envelops you once more. His lips meet yours in a gentle caress, carrying the essence of dawn itself, a blend of morning flowers and the earthy musk of the forest. You inhale deeply, savoring his scent as it ignites a primal longing within you, tightening your core with desire. With a soft moan, you surrender to his kiss, your hands pulling him closer, as if trying to meld your beings together in a timeless embrace, unable to quench the thirst for his lips.
You sense the subtle twitch of his cock against your crotch. The warmth of his skin against yours reignites the embers of desire, and you become acutely aware of your nakedness, a lingering sensation from your passionate sex last night, that you still feel wet from. The memory of his touch lingers, and your body responds instinctively, still tingling with the echoes of pleasure. As your mind drifts, envisioning how easy it would be for him to slip right into your walls again, a shiver courses through you, your breath catching at the mere thought, while your core instinctively clenches, yearning for his familiar touch.
ā€œAre you okay, babe?ā€ Concern colors Jiminā€™s voice as he notices the faint furrow of frustration on your brow.Ā 
You offer him a soft smile, your fingertips tracing the contours of his cheeks with affectionate tenderness. ā€œIā€™m absolutely wonderful, Jimin,ā€ you confess, your voice laced with longing and a hint of playful desire. ā€œI just miss you and I want you inside of me again already.ā€
ā€œOh, yeah?ā€ His teasing tone sends a shiver down your spine as he playfully grinds his cock against your drenched pussy. You gasp at the sensation, overwhelmed by the flood of arousal coursing through your veins. How could you still be so wet, so ready for him, even after everything?Ā 
Itā€™s like your body has a mind of its own, craving his touch with an insatiable hunger.
His dick presses against you, throbbing with anticipation, and as he eases his fully erect cock between your slick folds, a rush of pleasure surges through you, igniting every nerve ending. Your moans escape in soft gasps, lost in the bliss of his touch, as you feel the heat of his dick melding perfectly with your own.
Each movement of his cock inside you feels like a divine symphony, a perfect rhythm that resonates through your entire being. With each deep thrust, he fills you so completely, sending waves of ecstasy coursing through your body. Your breasts sway in tandem with his movements, a visual testament to the intense pleasure heā€™s giving you, each pull and thrust sending you spiraling into euphoria.
As your hands find their way to his back, you grip onto him with a fervor you didnā€™t know you possessed, the intensity of pleasure coursing through you like electricity. Then, as you tilt your head to the side, your eyes catch a glimpse of itā€” Mikrokosmos.
ā€œJimin-ah!ā€ You pant urgently, your voice breaking the rhythm of your thrusts. When he catches sight of your startled expression, he halts his movements, his gaze instantly flooded with concern.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong, babe?ā€ His voice carries genuine concern, his eyes searching yours for any sign of distress.
ā€œItā€™s Mikrokosmos!ā€ You exclaim, a mixture of awe and urgency in your voice as you tear your gaze away from Jimin to focus on the majestic sight. Sensing the shift in your demeanor, Jimin withdraws from your folds and joins you, his eyes following your gaze to where your black horse grazes lazily nearby.
You rise to your feet, embarking on a quest for your scattered garments, your fingers brushing against the damp fabric of your panties, eliciting a frustrated groan. Resolving to not put them on, you swiftly opt for your pants, slipping into them with haste. With determination, you locate your bra and shirt, swiftly adorning yourself in a flurry of movements. Meanwhile, Jimin is engaged in a similar pursuit, his efforts mirroring yours as he hastily dons his own attire.Ā 
Amidst the shared chaos of dressing, your laughter fills the air, a delightful symphony blending with the rustle of fabric and the gentle morning breeze.
As you don your attire with practiced efficiency, you slide your boots on, the leather molding comfortably around your feet. With deliberate steps, you approach Mikrokosmos, the ground yielding softly beneath your weight. Jimin shadows your movements, his presence a reassuring anchor amidst the morning serenity. Each stride brings you closer to the majestic creature, your heart echoing the rhythm of hoofbeats as you draw near.
ā€œCome here, girl,ā€ you murmur, your hand extended like an open invitation. Mikrokosmos raises her head, her gaze fixated on you, a mysterious glint dancing in her eyes, elusive yet captivating.Ā 
With measured steps, she saunters toward you, a graceful dance of trust unfolding with each stride. As her velvety muzzle meets your outstretched hand, a surge of warmth envelops you, a sense of belonging washing over your soul. With a gentle whinny, she nuzzles against your palm, a silent affirmation of the bond between kindred spirits. ā€œGood girl,ā€ you whisper, your voice a tender melody amidst the tranquil embrace of nature.
You pivot slowly, no halter, no rope, no nothing, your gaze fixed ahead with quiet determination, ā€œLetā€™s go home.ā€
Mikrokosmos follows your lead with unwavering trust, her hoofbeats falling into rhythm with your purposeful strides. Jiminā€™s eyes reflect admiration as he watches your natural affinity with the majestic creature. Returning to the other horses, you secure a rope around Mikrokosmosā€™s head, just in case she should get any ideas of leaving again, before tending to your belongings with practiced efficiency.
You saddle up Marshmallow, feeling the familiar comfort of the leather beneath your hands. Leading Mikrokosmos by the rope, you guide her onto the path, her presence beside you a reassuring anchor amidst the vast expanse of wilderness.Ā 
The serendipitous encounter with Mikrokosmos fills you with an indescribable joy, as if destiny itself had intervened to bring you together. With each step, your heart swells with gratitude and happiness, a feeling that courses through your veins like a warm embrace.
As the trail meanders homeward, you turn to Jimin, a soft smile gracing your lips. ā€œThank you, Jimin,ā€ you whisper, the words carried away on the gentle breeze, a heartfelt acknowledgment of his unwavering support.Ā 
His warm smile washes over you, and you feel a rush of gratitude for his understanding. ā€œNo problem at all. Iā€™m just glad to be here and help,ā€ he murmurs, his eyes reflecting the same tenderness that fills your heart. Drawing closer, you intertwine your fingers with his, the simple act weaving a thread of intimacy between you. In that moment, riding side by side, the world fades away, leaving only the comforting embrace of each otherā€™s presence.
His question catches you off guard, but the warmth in his voice draws you in. ā€œDo you remember your fifth birthday?ā€ he asks, a playful glint in his eyes, as if unraveling a cherished memory. His lips, so inviting and tender, curve into a smile, inviting you to journey back to that moment in time with him.
You chuckle softly, because you do remember, the memory flooding back like a cherished melody. You recall the innocence of that day, the laughter shared between you and Jimin as you played hide and seek, weaving tales of fantastical adventures. In that moment, surrounded by the whispers of childhood dreams, you realize the depth of your love with Jimin, sensing that perhaps thereā€™s more to your bond than just friendship. Itā€™s a realization that tugs at the strings of your heart, igniting a spark of hope for something more.
ā€œDo you remember when you told me that guys couldnā€™t be friends with girls, that youā€™d get boy-lice or something?ā€ he grins, his voice laced with nostalgia as he squeezes your hand gently. You roll your eyes playfully, the memory sparking a smile on your lips, because yes, you remember that too.
ā€œI know I was insufferable back then,ā€ you confess, a soft chuckle escaping your lips as you wave off the memory.
ā€œYou werenā€™t. But you were oblivious to the fact that I had feelings for you back then, werenā€™t you?ā€ He chuckles again, his laughter like a sweet melody that resonates deep within you, leaving you longing for more.
ā€œI honestly didnā€™t. I just thought you were being a typical boy. But hey, I was fiveā€”how was I supposed to grasp the concept of love at that age?ā€ You laugh lightly, a soft smile playing on your lips as you reminisce about the innocence of childhood.
He chuckles softly, his gaze holding a hint of curiosity, ā€œIt doesnā€™t matter now. But I was wonderingā€¦ā€
You find yourself lost in his hazel brown eyes, their warmth enveloping you, as youā€™re drawn to his captivating smile. With a soft breath, you respond, ā€œYes?ā€
With a tender gaze, he lays his heart bare before you, his words echoing with sincerity and vulnerability. ā€œIf you want to be my girlfriend. I donā€™t want to waste anymore time. I love you and I want us to be together,ā€ he asks, his voice tapering off, a hint of uncertainty creeping in. Yet, you offer him solace, intertwining your fingers with his, leaning into his side, and pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek, affirming your affection without words.
ā€œIā€™d love to be your girlfriend, Jimin.ā€
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steviebbboi Ā· 5 months ago
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Last Updated: 10/15/24
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tmnt-tychou Ā· 8 months ago
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What is Ninja Turtles: Brotherhood?
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Brotherhood came into conception February 2023 when we started to see more of the Mutant Mayhem movie set to release later in August. While I don't mind the franchise skewing young--I myself first saw Ninja Turtles as a child-- I found myself wishing there was also some TMNT animated content for older fans. At the time I was watching DC animated series like Young Justice and Harley Quinn. It was nice they recognized that there were fans of all ages and they were putting out animated content for older audiences while also making content for kids. I found myself wishing that TMNT would follow that example. And then I asked myself, if I had the opportunity to make a TMNT animated series for older fans, what would it be about? At first, I had nothing and wasn't intending to explore the idea further. Then, one day, I was driving home from work and I suddenly had an idea.
For most of 2023 I explored the concept. Since animation is my background, that was the medium I had in mind when putting it together. Of course, there's no way I could animate a whole series by myself as a fan project. I first thought about maybe trying animatics, but that also seemed a bit overwhelming. For a time, I thought maybe I would let it go as it seemed too big of a project for one person. But then the 40th anniversary came around and I decided I wanted to do it for them. For a lifetime of turtles. So I decided on a web toons type format. It seemed easier as a one-person project than the typical comic book format. So here I am after a year of development, attempting my best at putting out a TMNT fan comic for the anniversary. It's meant as a love letter to both the franchise as a whole and the fans. It pulls from many different iterations while also telling its own story. As such, it's meant for not just fans of one iteration, but for fans of any of the iterations. Just Ninja Turtle fans in general. And I'm aiming to provide a full character arc for each turtle so, no matter who's your favorite, you'll get some good content.
Plot: The series takes place five years after the defeat of the Shredder. In a story meant for older fans, I decided the turtles should be older, too. No longer teenagers, they are now 25. The idea is that everything that you expect to see in a typical TMNT series has already happened to them, and now they are navigating their world and experiencing new adventures as adults, trying to find meaning after their main adversary is gone.
You can find development art I've done over the year by checking out the #ntbrotherhood tag. I post new parts every Monday. And I usually post here on Tumblr unless I feel they are too big. You can find the full comic collected on Webtoons (for as long as they'll put up with hosting a fan comic.)
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cult-of-the-eye Ā· 1 year ago
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Mag 81 A Guest for Mr Spider
FUCK FORMER HEAD ARCHIVIST
Wait I need to check the timelines - this was 2 days after leitner's death
New spooky music???
My man is so fucking dramatic I love him so much "grand of sand behind my eye" love the way he speaks
Yeah FUCK JURGEN LEITNER
Omg the greying hair is canon??
Child in the 90s makes him at most 27 GOD DAMN. I was imagining like mid 30s...can you imagine a fucking 27 yr old using words like "ilk" when talking to you
Oh shit he's an orphan poor guy
Yeah ok a lot of his personality seems to make sense if you realise he was raised by his grandma
You know those memes that are like people raised by their grandparents are exceptionally polite but in a brisk way, talk fancy and are super posh? Yeah that's him.
Getting such neurodivergent vibes
Yeah he sounds like a main character from the start Jesus Christ he's such a kid who got traumatised and then grows up to be a horror protagonist vibes
My First Leitner lol like kids had to be introduced to them at a young age like those my first toys
He's so funny I can just imagine him as an 8 yr old getting super like affronted at this like how dare my grandma think I am of subpar intelligence he's such a little bitch from the start
"The eponymous Mr spider" even talking about his childhood trauma he's busting out the vocabulary
Fuck that story actually kinda rattled me I had my hand over my mouth in shock for most of it
I think it was the bit where the horsefly brought his son and they were both crying that got me, I could definitely imagine it scaring an 8 yr old
The way it drags out as well, with the pages of the same scene it really heightens the suspense
Is his childhood bully someone we should keep track of?? Love how he says Michael probably cause he sees him as a bully lol
It's interesting how despite him bullying him (quite badly seeing as though he beat him up) he's still like yeah but he saved my life and that means he deserves to be remembered
My bro didn't save your life on purpose, he was just trying to make it worse and happened to come to a terrible fate cause of that
I guess underneath it all he was still a kid who watched someone die, knowing they'd get eaten by a fucking spider, he still held him in some regard
The way he specified the guy was his bully even after he was being eaten though lol
He was desperate to get the book back? That's a leitner thing I guess, the book makes you want to keep it so it can finish whatever it wanted to do to you
On my relisten (which I will do once I've finished the series I'm sure of it), I'll have to look out for any reaction of leitners name
I wonder why Jon didn't react more to Carlos vittery's statement, like it must've terrified him? I saw a post a while back explaining Jon's thoughts and IT WAS GENIUS it was like of course he doesn't react, he must be terrified that someone knew about his experience and somehow did this to mess with him or it was a joke and he can't let anyone know that the Head Archivist is not Good at This ugh it's so good I'll tag it if I can find it
AHHHHH HE REGRETS DISMISSING THE OTHER STATEMENTS AHHHHHH
HE FINALLY ADMITS THAT HE NEEDS HELP WE LOVE THIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT YES YOU FUCKING DO BITCH.
yeah at least he's right about Elias killing leitner
GEORGIE THE EX GIRLFIEND
ITS SO WEIRD TO SEE HIM ACTUALLY NICE TO SOMEONE WOW HIS VOICE CHANGES SLIGHTLY AS WELL HES LESS ACADEMIC
THE ADMIRAL
Awwww he's so cute with georgie
GHOST PODCAST GHOST PODCAST
THE WHAT THE GHOST T SHIRT IS CANON???? AHH THATS SO CUTE
Can he not go back to his own flat?? Did he bring all his clothes to the archive and then subsequently leave them there? Does he even have a flat??
God Georgie is so nice I would kill for her
It's so funny that an apparent supernatural cynic dated a ghost podcaster
WOW SEASON 3 OFF TO AN AMAZING START I CANT WAIT TO KEEP LISTENING IM GONNA TELL MY THERAPIST ABOUT THIS TOMORROW!!!
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kynimdraws Ā· 7 months ago
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Name: Kylee (they/them). 30+
A totally normal Korean American mostly known for my drawings, specifically my Pokemon nuzlocke comics. But I will talk about other things on occasion because I do have periods of being fixated on certain topics. I also am a doctor!
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FIRE EMBLEM FYI: Specifically for 3Houses/3Hopes becauseĀ I need a separate one for this franchiseĀ specificially given how many crazy things I got due to being involved in this fanbase via my fanworks:
DO NOT try to convince me to like or tolerate Byleth/student ships, ESPECIALLY the ones with the lords (aka CIaude, Dimitri, EdeIgard). I already summarized why I donā€™t like FE3H Byleth ships with student chars here. While the spinoff game FEW3H has now removed that teacher/student problematic situation, the fandom keeps putting the FE3H elements into the FEW3H fanworks (i.e. remembering Byleth from ā€œanother lifeā€ trope)...so no thanks!! DO NOT SHOW ME IT!!!
As for the Byleth ships with faculty members, my response is here so donā€™t try to bait me about that topic either thanks.
I do not care whom you ingame S-support. 3Houses limits the dating-sim part of the game to that character, so I cannot care less about how you play the game. The main issue I have is when people treat Byleth theĀ ā€œcharacterā€ as a legit ship material when I personally think they are a cool character ruined by fans who are too obsessed with badly executed self insert otome tropes bc they self-project super hard onto them. Just to be clear, any FE3H or FEW3H OC/Canon >>>>>>Byleth ships personally. Even Byleth-sonas that remove the teacher/student aspects are better than canon FE3H!Byleth
Please don't drag FE VA statements as some sort of ā€œgotchaā€ on my opinions like this post here. IDC what other people prefer with ship shit, thatā€™s their problem and not mine. I am not gonna bother them about it. So donā€™t bother ME about it.
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rwbyrg Ā· 6 months ago
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Hello!
I would like to ask if there's already a post a long the lines of "Why Rosegarden is a good ship" or reasons to ship RG? If none would it be alright to ask for your insights?
It's my first time being interested in them but I just can't wrap it around my head for now. I would love to read about them!
Thank you in advance ^^
Hi Anon!
I have not yet made any posts specifically with these questions in mind, no. Just a small, unfinished, series about why I believe the ship is likely to be canon. I am happy to offer some insight, but I don't know that I'm going to give you the answers you're looking for. šŸ˜…
First and foremost, the questions you're asking aren't really ones that can be answered objectively. What makes a ship "good" or "bad" is largely subjective, as there are as many ways to view a ship as there are people viewing it. I could make an argument about how I think it is - objectively speaking - a well written pairing that follows the typical beats and tropes (with delightful subversions) of a good romance arc, that also parallels how other canon ships within RWBY have been established... but at the end of the day, if you're not a fan of what RG is about, then there's not much I can say to change your mind.
Which brings me to your second question. The best reasons to ship RG are going to be the same reasons for why anyone should ship anything: ship it if you want to, ship it if it resonates with you, and ship it if you enjoy it.
If their characters, interactions, themes, parallels, allusions, tropes, symbolisms, foils, designs, messages, etc., aren't your cup of tea, it's completely okay if you pick something else on the menu! So long as you don't like. verbally harass people that do like it or fill the tag w the same discourse that we are all very tired of seeing.
I don't know if that is a sufficient answer to your question, so I'll take a chance and also provide some of my personal reasons as to why I think it's "good" and why I ship it. While there are many reasons I can't all include, the main things are just how much they mirror each other:
From their complementary character designs (red vs. green, silver vs. gold, moon vs. sun, etc.),
To shared fairytale allusions (Little Prince and the Rose, Dorothy and Princess Ozma/Tip, Warrior in the Woods, etc.),
To the narrative parallels (both being the youngest of the group when they joined respectively; how both of their attachments to each other keep being put into focus; to their shared themes around choice and identity: Ruby having chosen adventure but feeling as if she has no choice but to keep moving forward, while Oscar was chosen by adventure but chooses to do what he can despite his circumstances; Oscar not knowing who he is because of the merge and asking: "I'm just going to be another one of his lives, aren't I?", versus Ruby not wanting to be who she is after chasing the the ghost of an unachievable ideal, but being asked "what if you could be anyone?"; how they're both just kids thrown into war and unfair responsibility before they even have a chance to figure out the kinds of people they want to be, etc.),
to perhaps, most importantly, the show of mutual support between the two of them.
Ruby supports everyone as best she can. She is always giving to and supporting others as a show companionship and leadership. But thanks to V9 and also E4 of RWBY Beyond, we know this was not sustainable or sufficiently reciprocated.
She was let down by Weiss who constantly managed to hit her right in her insecurities; let down by Blake who - even while trying to uplift her - just ended up adding more pressure by treating Ruby like a role model; to Yang and Qrow who both tried to support her as best they could, but kept comparing her to Summer in the process; to Penny having so much of her own lack of experience, stressors, and very immediate worries going on that she couldn't offer Ruby the support she needed even if she wanted to; to Jaune flipping his lid at her and pointing the blame even when he himself was guilty and knew he was out of line; to Ozpin, Qrow, Maria, Tai, Summer, Cordovin, Ironwood, etc., all being adults who could have taken responsibility or done the right thing, but fumbled or failed leaving her to pick up the pieces in their wake. But Oscar? We see it from Oscar's introduction that he - like their shared fairytale allusions - is in awe from the moment he meets her. But after one conversation about the weight of her grief, trauma, and the responsibilities she is carrying - a conversation she has not had with anyone else up to this point - he immediately sees how heavy Ruby's burdens are. Saying, as early as V5: "This must be really hard on her too". And while it is subtle, he never stops looking after her as best he can as the volumes go onward ("Looks like you're needed elsewhere."/"You're sure?"/"Yeah, I've got it."). However, it's only in V9 that her sister Yang is asking "why didn't she just talk to us?". It is only in V9 when her partner Weiss admits: "Maybe it's because she didn't feel like she could". It is only V9 when Ruby finally lays her burdens out to someone else again, this time to the Blacksmith, after almost having given up completely.
For a character who's 116 episode long arc has been about carrying the weight of responsibility far beyond her limits, never asking for anything in return no matter how difficult it gets... to meet another character that instantly notices her struggles and makes a conscious effort to help where all others have failed? To have one conversation and say "that looks heavy, let me help you carry that" without her asking or waiting for an answer? It's just one of the most beautiful acts of care I can think of. The themes and the parallels all resonate very strongly with me on a personal level, making it - in my humble opinion - a brilliant, and very stable foundation for a relationship, and for a story.
Thank you for your question, I hope I was able to offer some of the insight you were looking for. šŸ’•
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Kurloz Makara and Meulin Leijon: Till Double Death Do Us Part
Hello! Today I wanted to make a little (long) essay of The Prince of Rage: Kurloz Makara and The Mage of Heart: Meulin Leijon. I feel that these are two characters who the Homestuck community has greatly mischaracterized and as such, I wish to rectify any false claims made against these two characters, as well as give my own personal interpretation of them, as well as their relationship. Let's begin with my utterly favorite of all the dancestors, Meulin. Meulin as a character seems very surface-level to the average reader. She's loud, excitable, and obsessed with romance. However, if you dive deeper into Aranea's expositions, Horuss' moraillegiance, and even her conversations with Meenah and Kurloz, you can see that she harbors a lot of feelings of regret, shame, and self-doubt. Meulin is a character who is VERY interested in romance and craves being in one. However, according to Aranea;
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Meulin isn't very lucky when it comes to romance, not just with Kurloz, but with other characters too (Ex. Her moraillegiance with Horuss). This fits her as a Mage, since Mages are known to not fully have their aspect, or rely on others to feel their aspect (Like how Sollux, as a Mage of Doom, repeatedly "half-dies" throughout the series, never FULLY meeting his doom). This clearly causes her lots of shame, as the whole reason she became moirails with Horuss was to mimic the relationship between Nepeta and Equius. She copes with these negative feelings through repression, even telling Horuss to repress his feelings too. The main reason why she does this is to portray an image of sorts. An image that she's fun and lovable and always happy. She wants to portray an image of the perfect, lovable girl because she craves a romantic relationship. She wants to be loved. That is Meulin's main character motivation. To be loved and be deemed attractive by someone (In Naranjo's terms, she's a massive Sx3). She's also known to ship her friends together, like Nepeta, however unlike Nepeta, Meulin does it so she can feel some semblance of warmth and love, "THE F33LS!!!" as she calls them. This is even shown, as she prefers making red ships over black ones.
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So how does Kurloz tie into this? Well, it's because her and Kurloz's matespritship was perfect in her eyes, and even considered perfect by the other Dancestors.
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But of course, it all got ruined. One day, as they slept, Kurloz had a horrific nightmare. A nightmare, so utterly terrifying and monstrous that when he awoke he screamed. He screamed so loud that his poor, loving matesprit was permanently deafened, and out of shame and guilt, Kurloz sews his mouth shut and chews his own tongue off, and they slowly drifted apart. That should be the end of the story, right? Wrong. Because I think that, as much as Meulin attempts to deny it, they both still feel red for one another.
In her conversation with Meenah, they both talk about Kurloz, with Meulin poking fun at his silly little rambles about his religion and angels of double death. However, it's when Meenah pushes a bit further about making fun of Kurloz when THIS happens.
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Meulin immediately becomes dismissive of Meenah, repressing her emotions so much that all she can offer is a blank expression and a dismissive, passive sentence. Not even giving any it any tags as she does for every other sentence. It should be noted that this is the ONLY time where Meulin's "happy-go-lucky" facade cracks. It's clear that she harbors an intense amount of guilt from Kurloz's self-mutilation, most likely believing it to be indirectly her fault. This single sentence of completely optional dialogue is probably where we get the most understanding of her as a character. She's ashamed of herself, repressing her true emotions and shipping her friends just to possibly get back any semblance of those beautiful red feelings she lost. She doesn't care that she's deaf, she doesn't care when she's insulted, she doesn't care if the relationship she has with Horuss is unhealthy, as long as she's loved she's fine. But the second someone insults her Prince, insults his self-inflicted disability, she immediately retreats, disengages, and stops the facade, not only does the image break but the mage breaks alongside it, until the conversation finally changes subjects.
Even with Kurloz, she portrays repressed red feelings in their mimes, starting with the first mime.
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A Tododile with heart eyes, while this is most likely just a reach from my end, I do think it could possibly be interpreted that Meulin still has an unconscious desire to be "hearts" with Kurloz. A desire to rekindle what was once lost and it's not just on her end either, Kurloz clearly feels the same way too. How do we know this? Well by taking this CANON Purpleblood description and applying it to Kurloz. "In love, they tend to be strictly monogamous and fiercely devoted, ready to pledge themselves to a person the same way they do their goals-utterly, and without reservation." Purplebloods are incredibly devoted to their romantic partners, this can even be seen with Gamzee, who only held flushed feelings for one person throughout all of Homestuck. Needless to say, like their religion, Purplebloods take romance VERY seriously, they love once and never again, committed to their partner even after death. They don't just fall OUT of love. It's even implied that Kurloz is one of the few characters who hasn't had flushed feelings for Rufioh. His sights are set on Meulin, and Meulin only. While we're on the topic of The Prince of Rage, let's talk about HIS life now. Kurloz, unlike Meulin, seems to be unanimously disliked throughout his group. At the BARE minimum, it's shown that Meenah, Cronus, and Aranea dislike him. He is constantly insulted and belittled by the others, whether it be his religion, the way he expresses himself, or even just his hair. Heck, even Gamzee dislikes him. It's also implied through the 2014 Homestuck calendar (not even joking) that Kurloz was the last person to enter the medium since no one actually wanted to be his server player. On top of this, in Openbound, every character is seen near their lusus, or at the very least, their lusus is in the same area as them. However, Kurloz's lusus is nowhere to be found, implying that either his lusus is like Gamzee's and abandoned him for long portions of time, or that he never had a lusus to begin with. From the constant belittling from his friends, his lack of love from anyone around him, and the fact that he's incredible at blackrom pairings, it can be implied that Kurloz is a character who is very familiar with hate, frustration, and of course some good ol' unbearable shame. Kurloz as a character is described as secretive, mysterious, and preachy. He's also shown to be incredibly inquisitive and curious, only stopping his insatiable curiosity when he realizes that it's teetering into religious blasphemy.
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Kurloz is also incredibly devout to his religion, going so far as to want his friends to experience double death because of it, mocking Meenah for her heretical words and behaviors, saying that she will be "DOUBLE SLAIN BY OUR LORD LIKE ALL THE OTHER MIRTHLESS HERETICS"
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Considering this, and him flipping Meenah off, we know that at the very least, he dislikes Meenah. His only other known feelings towards the others are his "friendship" (absolutely repressed red feelings) with Meulin, his moirallegience with Mituna, and his admiration for Gamzee. It should also be noted that I don't personally think his relationship with Mituna is toxic or abusive. I do legitimately think that Kurloz is interested in Mituna's condition, and since the "incident" they both saw most likely had something to do with Lord English, he is probably enthralled by the chance to learn more about his Lord. Also, considering that he's a Prince of Rage, he'd actually be a pretty good moirail to have. But back to his relationship with Meulin. If you clicked on this post, you're probably curious about how I view Kurloz using his chucklevoodoos on Meulin, so let me first explain some of Kurloz's religion. Kurloz believes that once Lord English destroys the world, his spirit will ascend to The Dark Carnival, which is essentially clown heaven, but there's a problem with this. Only those who believe in The Cult of the Mirthful Messiahs pass into The Dark Carnival. Meulin is not actually a follower of the Mirthful Messiahs, and as such, will get destroyed along with everyone else. This is where the internal conflict with Kurloz happens. Since Purplebloods are extremely devout to both their beliefs and their love, Kurloz is faced with a horrifying decision. Does he choose his religion, assisting with Lord English's plans and ascending to The Dark Carnival alone or does he choose the love of his life, the love he so painfully deafened and hurt, and get destroyed alongside her? This is also what I think the nightmare he had was about, he had to choose between two things he loved, and because of that, was so distraught that he screamed himself awake. And this is also when he begins planning. You see, as previously discussed, Kurloz is a Prince of Rage, and as such, destroys doubt and negative emotions, he will never be dissuaded from his beliefs. He's also highly inquisitive, no doubt pouring himself into his religious scripture, looking for some way to save his beloved Meulin, his sweet mage, his darling matesprit. That's when he comes up with an idea. If he manipulates Meulin, if he uses his chucklevoodoos on her to do Lord English's bidding, makes her preach his teachings, then surely that will count, right? Surely the Prince could save his Mage. So that's what he does. I believe that Kurloz's use of chucklevoodoos on Meulin is an attempt to appease Lord English and get his beloved into The Dark Carnival. Kurloz found a way to both save his darling and still stay faithful to his religion. And luckily for The Prince and The Mage, their double death didn't happen, and they never had to part, as shown when Kurloz and Meulin are telepathically communicating as Gamzee complains about Vriska during the retconned timeline.
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Thank you for reading this. Meulin and Kurloz are my favorite Homestuck characters and I adore their dynamic. Let me know if you'd like this kind of analysis with any other characters, and let me know if you have any types of criticisms to give! Once again, thank you for reading this and I hope you have a lovely day! ā‚¬o: <3 :33
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