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__Lonely__ 05/22/2024
Shadows creep at the edge
Of consciousness.
They curl around corners and
Never fully dissipate
In the light.
The shadows formed years ago
When all that existed
Was the deep dark abyss
Of dormancy.
They are bright
They are so very bright that
I forget the shadows
Exist at all.
But they're still there.
Creeping and curling,
Waiting to pounce
The second I'm alone.
It's funny,
A Demon haunted by fear.
But I am afraid.
I am so afraid.
I hate being alone.
I don't want to return to the abyss.
I don't want to be forgotten again.
The shadows are so lonely.
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__Chess__ (Shitty Prose pt 10 (undated))
I am a Pawn.
The smallest piece,
With minor movements.
Not as useful as
The rook, knight, bishop.
Not as important as
The king, the queen.
The first to be sacrificed,
The last to be cared for.
I am a Pawn.
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Do you know something about the sea? For all its enormity and depth, it won't keep your secret. Ask me, I know.
I once sat by a shore, waves nibbling at my feet, holding a secret close to me.
My secrets have weight and it must have shown, for poseidon came to me.
"Tell me your secret," he said. "I'll keep it safe. My seas are deep and they hide a hundred secrets."
I smiled.
"Tell me," he insisted, and his waves lapped hungrily at my feet. "Whisper it to my waters. I'll keep it safe. It'll lie safe and deep within my waters. I promise."
I shook my head.
"Why not? Are you not tired of carrying your secrets? I can see your shoulders shrivel. I can see your heart, turbulent and roaring. Are you not tired? Tell me, I'll keep it safe."
"No."
His waves grew rougher.
"Why not?"
"Because you are a liar."
The waves dipped, as if in surprise..
"A liar?"
"Your seas will keep my secrets?" I laughed. "Your waves wash ashore everything you promise to bury. The sea never keeps secrets. It holds them, and it washes them ashore. To different shores, far away shores. My secrets will crash painfully against the rocks that hold your waves at bay. They'll scatter like easy waves and the weight I carry will become nothing. Empty, bare, for the world to see. Nothing more than the sea foam that dissolves with the ebb and flow of your waves. Your seas cannot keep secrets. They have a habit of returning what they take."
The waves had stilled. I sat by the shore as the water receded.
"I'll have your secrets one day," I heard poseidon say as he took his waves away.
My mouth cracked into what should've been a smile.
"I'll walk to you one day. I'll carry my secrets and let their weight drown me. You'll have me one day." My voice dipped to a whisper, "But you'll never have my secrets. Your assumed depths could never keep them."
The water was almost at my feet again. I stood up and toed the line. I looked out to the sea.
"Maybe it'll be today."
#im extremely useless and free in life#sea#sad thoughts#shitty prose#sleepless musings#im going insane#better off dead#haha
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I remember nursing you,
With all of the sunlight from the windows, having to use both my hands and both of my mother’s to shape my breast in a way where you could latch.
I remember nursing you,
While I cried because the let down burned and I was terrified you weren’t getting enough to eat and how would I know since I had no way to measure it.
I remember nursing you,
While being forced to drink water and a protein shake by your sweet dad, who had looked helpless in the corner a few moments earlier as you and I cried, both of us in diapers having big feelings.
I’ll always remember nursing you,
Now, when it is dark and it doesn’t take a village to get you to latch.
Now, when you aren’t nursing for food, just for comfort from your Mama.
Now, when it doesn’t hurt, and you and I are at peace. Connected in a way that never was and never will be again.
When you are rowdy and loud and too busy with your own experiences, part of me will always be here in the glider in your room.
I’ll remember nursing you.
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Bruises to remind me
Gifts from you
All my pain behind me
Blacks and blues
You leave marks to remember
And I write about them on tumblr
#bad poems#love#not abuse this time lmao#fourth wall portry ehich refers to its own medium#yes i just invented that#go me#also ouchies#prose#shitty prose
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Hello. I’d like to play a game.
You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling.
If he decides to reach over and touch you, like a prayer for which no words exist, you will feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for. If he does not, there’s a pipe bomb attached to the vehicle’s engine triggered to explode. You must admit your love any way you choose, but you must admit to it. It is the only way to survive in this world.
Most people are so ungrateful to love, to be loved, to be told they’re loved by the one that loves them … but you won’t be. Not anymore.
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i don't believe anyone knows who i am
i've been hiding for so long
i've done it since i was a kid
push certain parts of me forward
when with different people
try to alter my persona
repeatedly, different for everyone
try to make people like me
it never did work
but now i'm left with the aftermath
i stopped doing it as much
i'm not the me that people remember
-k.c.
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I am the Same Person I was in August
"Oom Sha La La", Haley Heynderickx//"All That Wanting, Right?", Devin Kelly// "Funeral" Phoebe Bridgers//"Extracting the Stone of Madness", Alejandra Pizarnik// "Little Beast", Richard Siken// all photos are mine! Photography on @el3ctraaa
#web weaving#poetry#prose#spilled ink#intertextuality#haley heynderickx#devin kelley#phoebe bridgers#alejandra pizarnik#richard siken#sooooo it's been a sec since the last time i made a web weaving lollllll#this one is basically just me being at my parents house and miserable#like i thought to myself wow i was so happy in june but then july comes and reminds me I'm the same person i was in may!#who was the same person i was last may and the may before and wowwwwww I can't escape myself!#no matter how happy i think i can be and how long i think i can make it last i like have to face myself again#and this myself is like the awful thing but i know it's me because it just feels like it#and i feel like i did all this shit last year and i thought i had truly changed my life but I didn't i am still the same shitty awful perso#and that's what i wanted to convey with this
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i'm sorry
i'm sorry
for not feeling so sorry
looking at your
sorry state
i'm tired
of being tethered
my mind is tired
chipping away at your mind
it's slow work
slow fixing
but i'm not a mechanic
nor a therapist
never want to be
yours
never want to be yours
i'm dreaming
i hope you do well
i don't want to see you succeed
but i hope you succeed
#surprisingly not based on an experience of my own!#it's a lazy one btw#mithi's own#poetic lil mithi#original poetry#original poem#original poets on tumblr#poems and poetry#prose#poetry#poetic#spilled poem#short poems#short poem#sad poem#poems on tumblr#poems#poem#writers and poets#spilled poetry#poetscommunity#poetsandwriters#poets on tumblr#poetry quotes#poetry on tumblr#shitty poetry#words words words#poems and quotes
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kick in the teeth
@thefudge | rpf | walton goggins/ella purnell; mature (2, 744 words)
And he feels the minty coolness of an ice cube melting on his tongue and he shares it with the girl who is twenty-five years his junior, because he wants her to swallow this ice cube, he wants her to feel that yellow shade of summer inside her very throat.
#thefudge#@thefudge#i DO not tag this braintumor of a post with anything else but your name darling#because i try to appear as a normal person here you know#anyway!!!!!!! a freak to freak gift *luv luv*#hope this answers the 'who asked for this' question to its fullest lol#because i'm still shuddering and shaking over your fucked up dizzying brutally uncomfortable sexually tense dreamlike#deliciously heavy with a bite of some sinister subtext piece of prose!!!!#and i needed it out of my system one way or another#whateverrrrrrrrrrr#either 'born too late' by the ponitails or 'la foule' by edith piaf is playing softly in the distance#shitty things i do for love
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__Everything__
You are everything and more.
The first dust cloud and
collapse of the last star.
The atoms that make up matter
and the spaces in between.
You are all sources of light
and the shadows they create.
I am an eternal being,
here before everything was created
here after everything will be destroyed.
But I never knew what "everything" meant,
until I met you.
#eternallyforher#yourdarlinghellion#sinisnotapoet#demon alter#what is eternity to a demon?#eternal being#eternal entity#demonic alter#shitty prose
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carried by music
she fell into your arms
maybe it will be better anyway
for me to get away
took my own road - the august one
with my head down
and while picking wildflowers
i would chase another man
still with him i'm all alone
he filled my house but he never felt like home
#poetry#poets of tumblr#im scared to post my poets because i think theyre shitty#poet#prose poem#sad poem#my poem#girl poetry#girl poem#original poetry#this is what makes us girls#depressing shit#girly stuff#im just a girl#lana del ray aka lizzy grant#maniac pixie dream girl#looking for moots#lana del rey#just girly posts#girly blog#cinnamon girl
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Gifts.
What do gifts mean?
Different gifts can have different meanings.
When you go to a store and buy something you think would be appropriate, it is a distant gift. You are not closely acquainted with the reciever, your gift is a fulfillment of social courtesy due in an occasion, like a birthday or some other ceremony. The gifts you buy would be based on price (what is this person's social worth?), length of acquaintance (how many years have we attended events together?), and relation to you (getting a dinner set for a friend's daughter's wedding or a sweater for a distant aunt). You are probably unaware of their personal tastes so the gift will be generic. These gifts are always purchased.
When you go to a store and meticulously search to find something that you know the reciever will like, it is a close gift. It means you are familiar with the person and their tastes. It is usually not reliant on price, length of acquaintance or relation. It is something you give someone you consider a friend. Sometimes these gifts are given without occasion. You might find something they'll like and purchase it for them. These gifts are also always purchased.
When you take something you owned, something you used and cherished and give it to someone, it is an intimate gift. You are giving a part of yourself to someone. Cutting out a bit of your soul and presenting it for keeping. It is when someone steals your shirt and you let them keep it. When you wish to see a part of you reflected in their souls. When you gift them a shirt from your cupboard or a ring off your finger. This is the greatest gift of them all. It forgoes price and standing. It is purely out of care and mutual understanding. When you gift someone something you owned it means there is no jargon of social relationships between you. You aren't gifting because it is necessary but because you wish to. You wish for them to keep a part of you, no matter how far they go. These gifts are for people closest to you, people you care for and who care for you. These gifts cannot be purchased.
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Special
You want to die,
You’ve told me before,
I just cannot understand why.
You mean so much to me,
More than you will ever know.
I don’t want to see you dim,
You have such a bright light,
I know I’m going out on a limb,
But I don’t want to see it
Go away forever.
I wish you could see it,
Just how special you are
To everyone, but especially me.
I can’t begin to explain,
Just know how special you are.
-Sparrow
#original poem#poem#poetic#poetry#poets on tumblr#shitty poetry#this is about the same person that all the others have been#i just love them so much#trans poem#poems and poetry#poems on tumblr#prose#trans poetry#poetrycommunity#words words words#poems
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What if i was a dog that curled up at your feet at the end of each day in the hopes you would spare me a second of attention? What if my teeth were sharp and in one fell swoop i could tear your heart loose from where it sits delicately in your chest? What if i could mutilate you in any number of ways but i wont? What if my fur was matted with burs and patchy from scars yet i still lay my head on your lap like a child?
What if I was a dog that curled up at your feet every day hoping just begging for you to spare me a second thought? What if the door was scratched from all the times I spent filing my claws down on it? What if i rolled over to show you my stomach when you returned home? 'here! You can do whatever you wish to me and i wont fight back!'
What if I was a dog that curled up at your feet each day and ignored the itch under my skin to run and run and run? What if I was a wild creature who built myself a prison out of my own love? What if my blood curdled like milk in my complacency? What if I had to fight the urge to bite down whenever you peel back my lips to examine my teeth? What if I sat at the table like a good dog, chewing on the bones you left behind? (they're my bones, I will wittle down my own ribs till theyre naught but dust if you wish)
What if I was a dog that curled up at your feet at the end of each day because I could never bring myself to gorge myself on your lifeblood? What if I was a dog? what if I was your dog? would I be a good dog do you think? would I do it right?
#yeah idk man#tosses this into the void and crawls back into my cave i guess#shitty poetry hours/pos#poetry#prose#canine poetry#dog poem#dog poetry
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i don’t wanna be the last option
i don’t want to be the one you text when there’s nobody left
when you’ve already tried to talk to everyone else
i want to be texted first
i don’t want to always have to start a conversation
i don’t wanna be your last choice
i don’t wanna be the last bet
-k.c.
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