#shin replies

[kyouka-supremacy]

Thinking about that time I said “bit weird how in fancontent Atsushi is never portrayed to be jealous of the attentions Akutagawa gives Dazai” and someone replied “that's not how Atsushi would want to be loved” and like, 100% true. But today I'm thinking, what if that was the only way Akutagawa knew how to love. What if he didn't know love could be anything but devotion and obsession and negation of self. What if he started seeing Atsushi too as an angel and a saviour and a flawless being. What if loving Atsushi was just putting a different person on the same out of reach pedestal. What if he could never imagine love to be a balanced relationship. What if love had to mean pain and it's unthinkable for it to be any different. What if he couldn't love Atsushi without hating himself.

[danikatze]

If you're still doing the expression meme thing, I'd like to suggest Shin (Dorohedoro) in I5 or E9

I did both again! :)) I like Shin a lottt, so thanks for the suggestion anon <333

[fangsforiris]

How would the Diaboys react to their S/o having a mental breakdown after they feed on them to much?

Diaboys React to S/O’s Mental Breakdown After Feeding

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Doesn’t care: Everyone.

Limits their intake: Subaru, Ayato, Laito, Azusa, Yūma.

Feels bad but is unsure how to comfort them: Subaru, Laito, Slightly Kino and Shū.

Would comfort them in a manipulated manner: Reiji, Shin, Carla, Ruki, Kou, Kanato, Slightly Kino.

Interactions would be limited due to the help of comfort-ability of their S/O: Reiji, Laito, Yūma, Ruki.

Would rethink themselves and their character in the perspective of their S/O: Shū, Subaru, Ayato, Carla, Shin, Slightly Kino.

[softneomiro]

Ra mi ran's cameo as a reference to reply 1988 🥺

[blueteller]

hello! i was just wondering where your reading TCF / LCF? i can't find a good place to read it that has a good version of it

Currently, you have 3 ways to read TCF. I am talking about the book of course, since the manhwa is a separate adaptation of the story.

First option, for Korean readers, is on Munpia. It is the original source where the author uploads chapters 3 days a week: Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Of course, you have to pay for it, which I personally do despite not knowing Korean, to support the author in the most direct way possible. It is as of today running for 1156 chapters. I know there are raws out there for the newest chapters, but I haven't read them myself. I just keep up with the community and learn about the storyline live as the chapters come out and people discuss them on discord.

Second option is on Eat Apple Pies site, which is in English and for free. Of course, due to being "unofficial", you can imagine it is not the most polished translation. However, it is readable and currently has 924 chapters, not counting those they have available on their Patreon.

Your third option is the most recent release of official English translation. There is currently 1 volume out (available in US stores such as Barnes and Noble and Amazon), which covers 42 chapters converted into 9, both available in e-book and paperback versions, only paid for of course. While I am still in the process of reading and reviewing it myself, I have very good opinion on it; that is is better translated and polished, and I also have it on good authority that it is better for dyslexic readers. ...I have to mention though that the way the names are translated are an entirely separate matter (like the fact that they translated the title as "Lout of Count's Family", without even leaving any "the's"), which is a topic I won't fully dive into just yet. Still, the official translation is solid and highly recommended. We are going to be getting a new English volume release every 3 months, so Volume 2 is scheduled to come out on December 1st.

I hope this helps! Please support the author, but I would be a hypocrite if I said not to read the free EAP version. Especially since the new, official version is essentially translated by the exact same person: Henry Shin, also known as MiracleRifle. So the same person did both English versions (with second person's help with the new one, but MiracleRifle is still listed as the primary translator and it shows), they just got to improve with time and make the official one better. Henry was not responsible for the name changes though. That's a whole other can of worms I'll get to in the future.

[inamagicalhallucination]

"the jinko is my rival. thus it is essential i know every aspect of his life and of he. thus it is important for me to study every inch of his body, including inside."

-- akutagawa at some point probably

[turboghast]

This line in the context of the Septentrione Arc has to be the dumbest thing a demon has ever said, right? Two sentences into being fused back from the dead, Kama brought up the fetish that started the series of events that killed him.

[wine-sluts]

Put that man in girly clothes with that slutty little waist. Do it, succumb to your indulgence, don’t be a coward.

[hwangyeddeongie]

idk using your paid bubble subscription to complain to lia about how the non-English speaking members are selfish for not replying to English comments just makes you look like a xenophobic asshole

[denkies]

Wanted to mention the lyrics to the BSD 5 opening and their significance to a specific scene

「立ち止まる事でしか見えない場所が」

A place that can only be seen by stopping [movement]

「行けない場所がある」

There are places you can't go.

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So when showing the rift between Atsushi and Akutagawa (life and death), the lyrics mention the afterlife. A place only Akutagawa can see, after death. Then, "there are places you can't go."

From Akutagawa's perspective, it would be "I am in a place only seen after death. You can't come to this place; you can't follow me."

From Atsushi's perspective, this would be "You are somewhere that I can't see, that I can't reach. You can't go there [you can't leave me]."

[Don't go where I can't follow]

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Edit: more detailed analysis about it here

[flowers-of-buffoonery]

I SAW SOME OF YOUR ANALYSIS STUFF AND AUAUYAAUAUAHAHDKAKDISIAJRSIJAFKXKAIDK SO CAN I ASK WHAT YOUR THOUGHTS ON AKUTAGAWA/SSKK ARE 🙏 if not it’s ok !!

hi!!! I haven't thought extensively about akutagawa and sskk so I don't have general considerations – what I do have is thoughts specific to certain aspects of akutagawa's character, or certain sskk interactions. akutagawa and atsushi's first three fights gave me lots of food for thought re: akutagawa's early feelings towards atsushi. and so!! I present to you...

fascination, jealousy, sameness

akutagawa's thoughts on atsushi in chapters #4, #11-12, and #33-35

at first, atsushi is nothing but prey for akutagawa. the mafia wants to capture him alive; akutagawa, as a "humble dog" (his words) of the organisation, hunts him down to fulfil his duty – nothing more.

atsushi is something to be caught – something akutagawa has absolute confidence he can catch. he's so confident he stops to chat, to tell atsushi about rashōmon, to make threats. in short: he underestimates him. he doesn't see him as a threat even when atsushi tries to fight back.

but then, atsushi half-transforms into the white tiger, and that gets akutagawa's attention. atsushi stops being a helpless prey and becomes a vaguely challenging prey instead. akutagawa takes his time to observe him, taking in atsushi's skills, marvelling at his speed.

fighting him becomes interesting. of course, dazai steps in before long, ending their fight, and akutagawa has to go back to the mafia empty-handed, with promises of retaliation. what he thinks of atsushi at this point we might never know. what we do know, is that every neutral thought he could have had is abruptly killed the moment he speaks to dazai in ch. 9.

dazai tells him that atsushi is "far more talented" than akutagawa ever was; akutagawa, whose primary drive is to make dazai proud, is immediately consumed with jealousy and murderous spirit. atsushi might still be a prey, but his main status in akutagawa's mind is that of a rival – someone he needs to cut down to achieve his goals.

so the next time akutagawa has the chance to capture atsushi, he tries stabbing him to death. he doesn't even try to fight; he simply doesn't want him alive any longer. of course, atsushi's power heals him before he can die, and so akutagawa has to fight him again.

this time, akutagawa is absolutely ruthless with both his words and rashomon. atsushi is an obstacle to be removed; someone weak, someone worthless, someone dazai couldn't possibly consider training – and yet.

atsushi took the possibility of dazai's praise from akutagawa; he can't forgive him. so he mocks him, taunts him, toys with him. he's still so sure to be the superior ability user out of the two of them that, when atsushi manages to hit him by being smart, akutagawa can't help but think of dazai's lessons, of the cruel training he underwent, the skills he learnt – all of which atsushi lacks. and yet dazai has more faith in his skill than he does in akutagawa's.

the problem is – akutagawa can't see it. he refuses to see it, refuses to entertain the notion that atsushi, as untrained as he is, might be a match for him – because if he admits it, then isn't dazai right? so he underestimates atsushi again, and loses their first full fight because of it. which of course only makes him angrier.

in his anger and hurry to kill atsushi, akutagawa decides to ignore the truce between the mafia and the ADA, and joins him on the moby dick to kill him. at this point, akutagawa has been obsessing over atsushi for a significant amount of time, and I think his obsession didn't just strengthen his resolve to kill him – it slowly, subconsciously, made him see atsushi as a partial equal. he's been thinking about him so much that he identified similarities between the two of them; he hates him enough that he wants to kill him in a fight; and his previous defeat has forced him to realise that atsushi does have some skills.

so instead of attempting to kill him swiftly, akutagawa fights him. and as he fights him, you can clearly see there's a part of akutagawa that's fascinated by atsushi – this person he could almost see himself in, the only other person dazai chose to train. he's unaware of this fascination, and thus unable to conceal it.

akutagawa doesn't understand atsushi, and he doesn't understand dazai's choice to train him. but then fitzgerald reveals the horrors of atsushi's past, and suddenly akutagawa does understand, and his anger skyrockets – but so does his disdain. he despises the way atsushi wallows in his own pain, dwells on his own past, instead of recognising how lucky he is to have dazai's recognition and praise.

akutagawa can see himself in atsushi's past self. they don't share the same past, but their experiences are equivalent; yet akutagawa hasn't wallowed in his own misery for a single second, while atsushi is still bound by his painful memories. "I got over my past and got over myself; why can't you do the same and achieve greatness?" is probably what plays in a loop inside akutagawa's head. his disgust can only be so intense because atsushi's circumstances feel unbearably personal.

but akutagawa can also see himself in atsushi's present self, who is a student to dazai. the similarities end there, as akutagawa is convinced atsushi has done nothing to deserve this, and is wasting his good luck. "I got over myself and have been trying my utmost for years. you, meanwhile, are still stuck in your misery by choice, and don't make any efforts to become better... and yet dazai has taken you under his wing. why? why did it have to be you?"

these are, I think, akutagawa's thoughts. but a part of him can already see why dazai chose atsushi, why he deems him talented; he just refuses to acknowledge it, wrapped up as he is in jealousy.

[eijunes]

(Hi getting out of lurkerland for a bit) I am really intrigued by operation: only one umbrella xdd and the fyoatsu beast au...I neeed to know moooore

heyy good to see you here too 💛 I'm always ready to ramble about my never-ending pile of wips, thank you for the ask!

operation: only one umbrella is supposed to be a silly comedy where the ADA tries to make dazatsu get together. they orchestrate situations for them to share an umbrella like in shoujo manga because Ranpo said it's the best way to make them confess, but dazatsu are so hopeless they manage to mess it up every time. it's a lot of fun but I haven't been in the right silly mood to finish it yet 😅

and fyoatsu!!! I think they could be sooo interesting if only the fandom was brave enough to think about it. too bad Dazai keeps Fyodor all to himself and they didn't even have a proper interaction in canon 😔 for this wip I have only random lines and half-finished scenes and I can't seem to be able to put it all into a coherent story. the idea is that at the end of beast AU Fyodor finds Atsushi before Mori does. he wants to get information about the Book out of him, but Atsushi is shaken after Dazai's death, so Fyodor needs to spend some time to get Atsushi to trust him and promises Atsushi to free him from the tiger. also, there's some tragic one-sided dazatsu because I am me and I can't not put dzats into everything 😆 I'll put a small excerpt under the read more

"It wasn't your fault."

"You don't know that. If I was stronger, maybe he wouldn't... We'd find a way to protect—" Atsushi stopped, eyes wide.

"Protect what?" Fyodor asked gently. It was a pivotal moment. If he pushed the boy too far now, he could lose him. But if he played his cards right, this could be his win.

He was so close.

"I can't tell you," Atsushi sobbed. "I promised him. I can't disappoint him."

Finally all the pieces Fyodor had been gathering for weeks created a full picture. The depth of the Atsushi's grief could only be explained in one way.

"You loved him."

Atsushi's eyes widened. For a second, he looked like the scared, wounded animal he was when Fyodor had found him in the forest.

"I... I did," Atsushi said. It sounded like a surrender. "He was everything to me."

Fyodor took the boy's tear-streaked face in his hands, caressed his cheeks. Violence was an easy method, but the smallest acts of tenderness seemed to melt Atsushi in to a puddle so easily under Fyodor’s fingers.

"He knew that and he still left you. You don't owe him anything. He didn't free you, only put you from one cage into another."

Death thrummed beneath Fyodor's skin, just like beneath Atsushi's. They were both cursed with an ability that repulsed them. Maybe no one else in the world could understand Fyodor's goal as much as Atsushi.

When he said the next words, they weren't just a part of a calculated plan, years in the making. It was a promise Fyodor truly intended to fulfill.

"But I am different. I promised I would free you from that beast inside of you, didn't I? I will keep that promise. I will free the world of the sin of abilities and I will free you. But for that, I need your help."

[fangsforiris]

Hallo! Can you make How Diaboys react if Yui join the student council club? Hope this not much! (Have a good day!)

Diaboys React to Yui Joining Student Council

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Confused if anything: Reiji, Ruki, Shū, Carla, Shin, Ayato, Kanato, Kou, Subaru.

“Without my approval? Who do you think you are?”: Reiji, Ruki, Carla, Shin, Kino, Ayato, Slightly Laito.

Doesn’t like the fact that they’ve lost Yui’s attention: Kou, Kanato, Ayato, Shin, Slightly Yūma and Azusa.

Would support Yui and do their best to make it work without getting jealous too much: Azusa, Subaru, Ayato, Yūma, Slightly Reiji.

Patronizes Yui for being apart of the club and makes her home life even more difficult due to the extra workload: Reiji, Ruki, Laito, Kou, Kino, Shin, Carla, Slightly Shū.

Would go to the club on days with her to bother her and tease her: Laito, Ayato, Kanato, Shū, Kou, Kino.

[kleyamarki]

the funniest thing i’ve ever said here on tumblr.gov was that i’ve written more about kleya marki than tony gilroy. and i have

[number1villainstan]

Do you have any headcannons on how the Hassaikai (other than kai) interact with Eri?

Ooo, that's a good question. Let's break it up into canon/canon-adjacent and an AU where Eri, at baseline, isn't being tortured for her blood.

(Important note: 'Expendables' usually refers to the Eight Precepts + Chisaki, Kurono and Irinaka; they're all Expendables. Precepts or Eight would refer to the group of Eight that doesn't include Chisaki, Kurono, or Irinaka.)

Canon 'verse:

In a canon/canon-adjacent 'verse, I don't think the Eight interact with her at all; most (if not all) don't even realize she exists--although some of them suspect that their boss is hiding or just not talking about something--and if they find out later it's probably a huge test of their loyalty.

Kurono canonically interacts with her, probably regularly; he probably worries a bit over what they're doing to her, but as someone who grew up in a shitty abusive orphanage and then in the yakuza he doesn't exactly have a solid conception of what a healthy childhood is supposed to look like, so Kai's explanations of 'we're feeding her, we're giving her shelter, and we're leaving her alone except for getting her blood' satisfy him anytime he brings it up.

Irinaka has probably interacted with Eri a few times, but not frequently or regularly. He also doesn't have a solid conception of a healthy/normal childhood (tbh I don't think any of the Expendables do), nor does he fully realize what's going on with Eri.

Nemoto knows something's up--he's known Chisaki for years at this point, and can tell when he's getting cagey, but he can't get the answers out of him. If he were to stumble across Eri in person, however, he'd probably put some very concerning pieces together almost immediately and end up demanding answers instead of just gently nudging like he usually does--as cynical as he is, and as much hope as he gave up while on the streets, he still doesn't like it when children get hurt. And part of him thought that Chisaki was better.

Sakaki knows that Nemoto thinks something is up, but doesn't worry too much. If he ran into Eri, he would not put the pieces together, and also wouldn't really know how to interact with her. He has...very limited experience with children. (Sakaki: So, uh...you want a beer? Nemoto: SHE'S FOUR)

Setsuno would probably realize some stuff--not as much as Nemoto, but enough to know that something fucky is going on. Unlike Nemoto, he'd be scared rather than angry, so instead of demanding answers he'd resolve to instead keep an eye on her, and try to visit her when no one else is around to catch him. Setsuno has (or had) several younger siblings and often helped his older sister care for them (yay parentification from having depressed and overworked parents), so he's a lot better with Eri and a lot more responsible when it comes to Eri than anyone else expected. He'd also trust Chisaki a lot less after that, which Chisaki would notice but not understand, and that might end up causing problems in the circle.

Hojo, I don't (yet) have a solid backstory for, so I don't have a clear idea as to how he would interact with Eri like I do for the three I've listed so far. I want to say he'd interact with her in a similar way that he interacts with Tabe, or at least he'd try to. He might put together some pieces or not, but he'd almost certainly tell the other members of the Trash Trio about her. Eri herself might be intimidated by how tall and big he is.

Tabe would be curious. I headcanon him as intellectually disabled and mute (which is a headcanon I probably stole from you), so he definitely wouldn't realize what's going on. I think he and Eri might get along well, although Eri would be curious as to the signs he makes and why he doesn't talk.

Katsukame would scare her at first, completely by accident, just because he's so big. He'd probably sit or lie down so as not to scare her so much, but much like Sakaki he doesn't have a lot of experience with children and wouldn't really know how to interact with her. It's kind of a coin toss as to whether or not he realizes she's in a bad situation.

Rappa, like Katsukame, is a Big Guy and scares Eri at first, but he probably wouldn't totally process like 'oh she's scared and hurt.' He's just as loud and boisterous as he is with anyone else, in part because like many of the other Eight he has very little experience with children, and that would scare her even more. He might even try to pick her up which...would not go well.

Tengai also has very little experience with kids. He also have very little patience with them, because he doesn't understand them and he's probably already tired from dealing with Rappa. He'd be fine with Eri while she's quiet and not bugging him with questions, which that might be the whole visit, but if she started grabbing at him or bugging him with questions about his mask or earmuffs or why he's got his eyes closed all the time he's out. Only later would he realize that maybe that little girl is in a not-fantastic situation.

A kinder AU:

Let's take this AU as something like canon divergent, where Eri and Chisaki were introduced in a way that didn't make Chisaki think he was being replaced as Pops' child and trigger the abandonment issues he's in deep denial about. Maybe she just wandered into Kai's side of the complex one day, or they met before the Quirk accident. Things would definitely be different in that AU.

In this AU, I think Nemoto might end up volunteering as the primary caretaker, with Setsuno right behind him. A lot of people would be surprised at Setsuno stepping up. She'd still spend a lot of time with Chisaki, Kurono, and Irinaka, probably along with Pops, but Nemoto and Setsuno would have the most understanding of actual children among that group. She'd also probably warm up to Katsukame faster than to Rappa, since Katsukame would be calmer around her; it'd take a while for her to warm up to Rappa's boisterousness. Tengai would probably avoid her most of the time. Hojo I think would like letting her sit on his shoulders, and she'd probably like hanging out with Tabe. She'd like Sakaki while he's sober and calm. Not so much when he's drunk.

[ningenshinkouku]

Just the two of us?

is there a need for more?