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Shift tries to perform his portrait, one more time.
for everyone's favorite little brother, shift ! ( ao3 link )
"I've always wanted an older brother."
Shift pauses. He takes in a quick breath, the quiet air of the empty theater greeting his lungs. The vacant seats and balconies patiently wait for his next act in anticipation. A single spotlight hovers steadily above his head.
Training, rehearsals, and special private lessons exclusively intended for whoever holds the honorable title of 'top actor' had concluded hours ago. Staff members from almost every department begin taking their respective leaves, one after another. Last time he asked, even Reni and his two favorite seniors were already on their way homes, too.
Despite all that, however, Shift decides he still is miles away from calling it a day. (Talk about a hard worker; he claims to have inherited this trait from a certain someone.)
Hence, after clearing his throat one more time, GOD-za's top actor tries reciting his lines again.
āāā ļ½„ ļ½”ļ¾ā: *.ā½ .* :āļ¾. āāā
I've always wanted an older brother.
I thought it was cool... Having someone big and strong that I'd want to look up to while growing up. Maybe someone who could protect me when bad people decide to pick on me, one day. Someone I can talk to and rely on about literally anythingĀ andĀ everything in the whole wide world.
"Shift!"
Hearing a voice call out to me from outside the comforts of my small room, I poke my head through the door I just opened to catch the rest of the message. It's a little disappointing to have myĀ favoriteĀ train of thoughts interrupted, but IĀ doĀ have responsibilities I must attend to. (They're quite big too, actually.)
"I'm about to go now. Take good care of your brother while I'm out, alright?"
Ah...Ā It's a weekend today, so no classes for me.Ā (Thank goodness!)Ā ButĀ of course, mom has a job. She works really hard every day to provide for us, her family; to send meć¼her eldest childć¼to a decent school; and most importantly, to afford buying my baby brother's medicine.
The rusty old handles of the house gates shut and lock with a distinct clang. Mom is officially off to another day, another strive.
"...Okay, mom."
It's the exact same routine since... forever. But it's not like I have any right nor the luxury to complain, though.
With a sigh, I gather up all the energy I could muster to jump off of my bed and head out, as well. One, last glance filled with longing and a hint of regret is the parting gift I offer my room in the meantime.
"Until tonight," I bid my imaginary indestructible fortress of stacked pillows and tied blankets a semi-bitter farewell.
When I said I have quite the big shoes to fill,Ā thisĀ is what I meant.
Arakawa Shift is not a typical school kid.
I don't only have to worry about homework and assessment tests. I can't stay out too late after class playing with my friends (well, I don't have plenty of them in the first place, anyway). What IĀ doĀ have though are personal duties at home that I cannot and must not set aside even for a millisecond.
Every desperate thought and possible attempt of prioritizing acts of self-centeredness in any form ought to be ignored, forgotten, and never be given into. I learned this by watching mom.
When she gets home every night, it looks to me as though she barely has any time left to spare for herself. Immediately fixing her attention onto my little brother, I volunteer to do the rest of the chores to help. Cooking simple meals for supper, washing used dishes, cleaning the houseć¼name it! I love my mom a whole lot, so if I could help her, I'd willingly do so in a heartbeat.
While on my way to my brother's room, my eyes get caught by the big window in the kitchen.
"Hm. That's odd."
Something tells me I should just look away and move on; but that just made me want to know what exactly is going on out there more badly. And sure enough, within mere moments did my curiosity indeed outweigh my instincts, prompting me to grab the nearest chair to climb onto and take a quick peek at the world spinning beyond my life as a dedicated homebody.
From the parted curtains of the kitchen window, kids around my age and range are running in circles, throwing all sorts of toys at each other and playing every kind of game I could think of (some of which, I have never seen nor heard).
A conflicted smile suddenly appears on my face, surprising even myself; but it didn't do so much as only make me resemble a sad young, dumb, and broke loner.
Oh.
Wait a minute.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad though! And I'm certainly not a loner. Heh, why would I be? I mean, I have a cute, little baby brother who I love so much. I could just play with him, and we'd have a lot of fun together! Just the two of us, today. Tomorrow. And always.
Shaking my head at the mess outside, I finally ease myself down from the kitchen counter and move on; all the while defying the tiny sting in my chest by pretending as though I feel absolutely nothing about kids making the most out of their childhood years.
"It's alright, we all have our own timelines. I'll have mine some day..." I try my best to console myself.Ā
Speaking of timelines though, just a little more about my brother, the doctor said he's a little sickly at his current age but his body and condition will improve gradually as he grows. So until he can stand tall on his own two feet, I should act strong on his behalf. IĀ haveĀ to. For aside from mom, I'm the only person my baby brother has.
I may not have a biologically-related big brother, but at least I can beĀ thatĀ personć¼a reliable, older siblingć¼for somebody else. And if I ever had a chance to go back and choose a life for myself? Nah. I really couldn't ask for a better familial circumstance to be in. Honestly.
"So... I'll do my best!"
That's the promise I made that day. How could I forget? It's the promise I'm more than ever ready to uphold and fulfill for as long as I live. It's... the sole, and same promise IĀ failedĀ to keep.
Starting the day off in a good mood is completely shattered, once inside the quarters of my baby brother. He seems fine, sleeping soundly at first glance; but the horrors of the worst scenario occurring right before my very eyes immediately dominated my entire sense of reason.
While holding my pinky finger close to his nostrils, time freezes.
He's not breathing.
In a state of panic, I frantically lean my ear onto his chest for a signć¼any signć¼of hope. Still.
I can't feel a pulse.
And all of a sudden, an ear-splitting scream. I'm not sure where it's coming from, considering I'm the only conscious person in the house.
Oh, wait.
IĀ amĀ screaming.
In that instant, I couldn't see, I couldn't hear, I couldn't feel. Everything else is spinning in a blur, and the only thing I can recall afterwards is sitting alone by the nearest hospital bench; knees weak, fingers trembling, breaths heavily shaky and unsteady.
"This can't be happening. No. I won't forgive myself if anything bad happens to Oruto...!"
Mom had to excuse herself early from work (she had no choice but), immediately rushing home once the neighbors heard my inhumane cries and decided to phone her.
She walks out of the ward that my brother's confined in, together with his doctor, and upon seeing me, they both take a seat on either side of me.
"Don't worry. He's okay. He's okay," the doctor tells me, giving my head gentle pats every couple of seconds.
"It'sĀ notĀ your fault, Shift," mom whispers straight into my ear, as she wraps me tightly in her embrace; each of her words carrying a different weight of assurance I badly need to believe... But somehow can't. "I'm just glad you both are safe..."
The tears can't and won't seem to be stopping any time soon.
It's a memoryć¼a living nightmareļæ½ļæ½that'll haunt me in my dreams for the rest of my life; no matter how many days, weeks, months, or even years pass. The image of my brother's face, pale and limp, will forever be engraved at the back of my mind.
I don't think I'll ever fully recover from that. Even if my brother himself is all healed and grown.
But... I have to make it.Ā WeĀ haveĀ to make it through together, one way or another.
"I'll always protect you, Oruto."
My little brother smiles. When he does that, all the scarring wounds in my heart feel a little lighter; a little better, even.
"Hehe... Nii-san, you can chooseĀ youĀ now."
Five words. And after all those years of loving anybody first over me, it takes just five, simple words coming from his mouth to make me begin asking questions I never would have dared construct into actual sentences in the first place.
"Does my brother not need me anymore? Was there even any point in my own selflessness? WhatĀ isĀ my purpose now that I've been instructed to choose myself by the very person I sworn lifelong protection to?"
I'm lost. Confused. Unsure about where to go, from here. Unsure about a lot of other things. And unsure about the only new door that opened for me.
Direct Invitation for the position of: TOP ACTOR Regards, GOD-za
I had no actual background in theater nor acting; save for the limited knowledge I've gathered from reading plays and reciting lines in scripts I luckily manage to get my hands on at the local library. I'd borrow them, and immerse myself in the tiny universes created by a variety of multiple authors as a way to escape the cruelty life occasionally throws my way.
And although skeptic, initially crestfallen at having been casted aside when no longer needed, it's only upon my brother's very suggestion that I accepted the offer; as the most fabulous theater company in Veludo Way officially scouts me as their reigning top actor.
I couldn't believe it, at first. Receiving a paycheck, people's acknowledgements, and one-on-one special training to prepare me for an upcoming act off. My first show! Ever! With me as the lead! Yay!
The brief phase of adjustment is neither easy nor troublesome, if I say so myself. It's okay for the most part; save for things getting quite tough on some days. One thing's for sure thoughć¼this whole, life-changing experience has seemingly helped me grow a new pair of wings to fly with.
I've also met a lot of cool people I now look up to, at GOD-za. Haruto-san, the top actor right after me. Madoka, our new playwright.
"Don't hold me back, newbie," Haruto-san often says.
"If... If there's anything you want to change in the script, you can tell me," Madoka often reminds.
Haruto-san's a little loud, but he's amazing in way more ways than one. Madoka too; extreme talent hiding underneath that soft spoken nature. I can't lose!
Such a tough challenge we had to take on; especially with all the controversies revolving it. And an equally harder acceptance of defeat, fair and square; but thereĀ isĀ room for all three of us to grow, individually and collectively. So we did.
But for the first time in my life, I felt okay being myself. I may not have been able to be a child during my earlier years alive and kicking on this planet, but it's never too late to unleash the youthful charm of being unapologetically 'Shift Arakawa'.
"Hehe, I have my two favorite seniors to be grateful for too, of course!"
Hence, it's in GOD-za that my long-standing wish has finally been granted.Ā
āāā ļ½„ ļ½”ļ¾ā: *.ā½ .* :āļ¾. āāā
"I'm... just not sure if they know this, but Haruto-san and Madoka are the closest to my heart than I ever was myself."
Shift relives every memory he has of the three of them togetherć¼creating plays, performing etudes, and hanging out after a long day's worth of hard work in Haruto's apartment. He wouldn't have gotten thus far, if not for the both of them.
"I'm aware that I could be a mouthful sometimes... But, they never asked me to change," he stammers, voice wavering from the amount of emotions he's facing and pouring forth into the world. "They never made me feel that I was weird; and that I did not belong here."
The top actor breathes deeply. Feeling content and satisfaction not only for a successful attempt of doing his portrait, but at the particular shifting of his own roles throughout his fifteen years existing, thriving, and living.
"I've always wanted an older brother," Shift beams, the sparkle in his eyes barely visible now that his wide, signature smile has taken full effect all over his face, "but GOD-za gave me two."Ā
#a3!#shift arakawa#arakawa family bits#haruto asuka#madoka ikaruga#oh my god(za)#godza trio#god troupe? more like found family imo#shift-centric!#other characters are only mentioned (kinda)#inside seonne's head
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#persona 4#p4#persona 4 magician manga#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#you know despite all the evidence i dont think yosuke actually realises that he's actually quite attractive and good looking#kou talks about girls coming over to check him out and sure maybe it's just the novelty of him being a new student#but his hometown friend katsuragi FOR SURE has a crush on him look at this classic shoujo scene where katsuragi sees a text from yosuke and#smiles in a way that has him being teased like ooooh is that from a girl#getting a text from yosuke makes katsuragi smile in a way like one would when they havr a crush OK I DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN THIS FURTHER#ITS TOO OBVIOUS AND I LOVE IT BUT#this is a yosuke centric blog and all these to say.... i wonder if yosuke is actually just seriously oblivious#to when people are interested in him#i think it stems from a place of low self esteem like āoh who could possibly like meā even when hes actually quite a solid catch#yosuke probably receives letters of confession in his shoebox and thinks they were placed in the wrong box so he politely returns them#when they actually have his name on it he just laughs and says wow theres another yosuke/hanamura in this school?#or assumes its a prank by someone else#i swear this boy had the most OUT THERE mental gymnastics going on#yosuke talks endlessly about how he wants a girlfriend but i bet you if a girl asks him out his response will be āgo where?ā#āoh maybe later? i have a shift today but if it's a junes related issue you can find me at the grocery dept! seeya!ā#theres the whole ādisappointment the moment he opens his mouthā thing but come on#theres going to be at least some confessions from people who have only seen him from afar#not to mention that yosuke canonically likes fashion and always dresses well#honestly maybe yosuke's rizz lvl is so high that it just circles down into the negatives#only joking i think he does get interest but he doesnt realise#and because everytime he does attempt to flirt hes immediately rejected he thinks hes never had any interest#which i think is just not true#and i havent even started talking about yu lmao#anyway the magician manga was devastating for my mental health and i beseech all of you to resd it as well and then cry about it with me#he's good with his queue
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I'm sorry to put her on blast like this but my irl friend set the bar REALLY high on outlandish guilty gear theories-
She found out Dizzy was the daughter of Justice and her first thought afterwards was "who's the father then? Oh, is it Faust?!"
SISTER... FAUST???
#this was hot off the heels of hearing Fausts win quote against Ram and her response was '... Ohh Faust doesn't know he's a gear?'#and now that she knows he's human gears have shifted into now he's where Dizzys human half came from-#why are all of her theories Faust centric-#guilty gear
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Sophie Okonedo in Flack Season 2, Episode 4
Always recruiting more folks for the Absolutely-Destroyed-By-Caroline-Mills Club š¤
#Sophie Okonedo#Caroline Mills#Flack#honestly I've never truly recover from this scene/this episode#it's how much one actor does with one episode to elevate a whole damn series#Sophie - you're a fucking goddess who deserves her own Caroline-centric series#forever obsessed by how seamlessly she shifts emotions in her characters
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if i ever actually get around to making my charlie-centric comic about the gang in their senior year of highschool, featuring literally every character ever mentioned, itās over for you folks
#its been my dream project for YEARS i think i started working on it likeā¦6 years ago?#it shifted into being charlie-centric later but i really feel like the plot is coming together slowly in a way where im like. i could do#this. (then thereās the adhd but letās ignore her for the moment)#i wanted to make something where charlie is the focal point and where he actually had a chance to get out at one point but stayed back in#the end.#and to show the different characters from charlies pov and let him be the narrator. cus in my comicworld he is not nearly as stupid as he#pretends to be.#oh and dee mac and dennis each get their own chapter too.
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idk how to explain this without sounding like an anti-woke conservative but
i rly think black sails is so interesting because it's literally About Minorities but because it was made by some white harvard classics major who was only interested in the subject out of intellectual curiosity about 'people rejected by society' and untouched by a lot of the mindnumbing representation discourse that wld follow (imo,, which has created rly cringy television) - i can watch it without feel like im being condescended to. and. now. theres a little condescension happening in early s3 which messes with what is otherwise a rly interesting and unique arc about the difficulty of cross-racial solidarity. and also i'm not here to say its Good that a white straight man ran a show about all these brown and gay people, i obv would prefer to have people with more expertise telling such stories (so.. brown people) and like i said he got it wrong a lot. i'm just saying i think black sails got lucky it was (mostly) able to portray marginalized groups and explore marginalization without feeling like it was gonna get hashtag cancelled if the characters didn't recite lines from an instagram infographic at the camera. aside from the issue of slavery nothing in all the interviews indicates that steinberg felt pressure to portray any given group "properly".
#og#different point i cant rly elaborate on but iwtv does this better#idk i think hiring black writers / scholars for one is smthn studios only realized they needed to do bc of the shift toward diverse media#+ apparently amc+ didnt Want a straightforward adaptation of iwtv because of the racism. according to rolin jones#obv in both cases its still american centric cuz like. what counts as marginalized here. whos determining that#whos determining what good rep looks like#whatever
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so what if I per se wanted to make another long fic. What If I per se wanted it to have each chapter be inspired and borderline following events from Epic:the musical but itās Jayās off screen journey in DR. Iāll outline it saga by saga to demonstrate my idea.
Also no same time frames wonāt apply because mentally I could not handle Jay being away from everyone for twenty years. Let alone write that myself. Iām weak and want him living a very full rest of his life.
and pretty much some characters donāt have perfect parallels so theyāre very interchangeable.
this is long.
Troy saga- Iām thinking this mostly could have chapters/songs 1-4 be on a field mission Jay is sent to command by the administration. Maybe around or in imperium because they were trying to gain intelligence on the āunethical energy sourceā.
Also Jay keeps his yin pendant and knows that heās either married or engaged. He has no clue who but heās given her a name in his head. For reference sake Penelope.
the issue is my dude has no child. So there is no chance he should mention having one.
Unless he got vaguely stuck with one post memory wipe. Maybe a literal infant at first, but would roughly now be 3-5 by the events of S1. He is left in the administration.
Or we go Nya pregnancy before the merge route, but she found out a week before the merge. They made little cards to tell everyone and he kept it in his wallet that also had his ID. So he knows he has a child, but he has no idea where that is.
because Telemachus doesn't actually know who his father is and I would like to keep that so I can keep the vibe. Acidentally created a need for a child oc, shit.
warriors of the mind would be hard to translate but I could just treat it like a dream sequence. Probably Nya or smth. Maybe she is a figure he thinks he makes up in his head who only appears when he sleeps and he befriends.
he just assumes heās crazy because realm of madness and all.
cyclops saga- could easily be that second half of that mission where they do find something willing to wipe out his people. However at the end there is this thing where Odysseus is cursed by the cyclops and Poseidon follows him every where. Now because no character is going to be consistent parallels, what if the cyclops was just Rasās master in hiding for reasons. And also I guess the Poseidon stand in would mostly also be Ras. And one out of three Zeus appearances.
No, I like it so Iām keeping it.
and my good bye could be some dream sequence after he makes it home to his office. Itās of the Nya figure being a manifestation of his own disappointment and is like āokay Iām outā
months have now passed. Maybe a year.
storm saga- Easily could be the entire way back to the realm of madness on the mysterium mission after his appearance in season 2 pt1. People lost their portal devices that day. They make a stop at the cloud kingdom for a deal to ensure safe passage home because writers of fate and such and they give him a thingy/ Euphrasia?. Wind bag. Master of wind. Eh?
Then boom Ras. Shows up like āyou hurt my master now I have to kill you.ā
people die once more.
Circe saga- I feel that most of it could work out like actually story. Get on island, save men from magic, Hermes is replaced by a helpful messanger dragon of sorts, figure out a way home. Bonus points the witch tryās to prove that all men suck by trying to seduce Jay and heās just like. āBut my hypothetical probably real wife...ā That he can barely remember.
point is theyāre directed to the remains of the cursed realm or departed realm.
underworld saga- they go to underworld. See parts of their squad. The dead ones. (Bonus points for fitting in an elpeanor moment). Now, treeās a whole thing with Odysseus seeing his mother. I donāt know if I want it to be that way. Granted grief killing Edna, who was already old, could punch a lot considering he doesnāt even remember her, just vaguely recognises the voice of his mother. Anyway the go see a prophet like. āYou can go home this way. And yes you do have a wife/fiancĆ©. However I see her with a very creepy dude.ā
yes itās in the same way as the play.
also the chorus just works so well.
āI see a song of past romance, I see the sacrifice of man, I see tales of betrayals and a brotherās final stand. I see beyond the brink of death, I see you draw your final breath. I see a man who gets to make it home alive. And itās no longer you.ā
Anyway guess who decides to embrace his inner monster.
-thunder saga
Once more very simple one. Go through danger the same way, shit Ras. Thunder bringer is the point where Jay switches sides.
-wisdom saga
this one I have trouble with solely for plot reasons. it mainly because of Telemachusās role and the suitor plot line. At best I could have it do we can make it the tournament or sources.
I've decided unkown pregnancy route for the kid's origins because it's much easier than the other version. Point is Little boy loves his mother and can't wait to meet his father. Telemachus has a whole battle with antinous over saying natsy shit about his mother, later Athena helps.
Consider this, the kid, still to be named, aged around 6, maybe 7, actually picks a fight with a random child, who disrespects Nya in some way, and who has clearly been raised too violently. At this point the general "punch your way out of this one" conclusion can not be reached but instead replaced with Nya picking up her child and leaving, telling him he should know better than to resort to violence, and instead use his heart.
The entirety of legendary- we'll be fine, for plot aligning reasoning would be the kid feeling akward in the crowded and new environment and being extra vigelant of creeps or general bad people. Also most of we'll be fine probably wouldn't apply well, but we keep Nya telling the child about Jay and how similar they are.
love in paradise would be very hard. Unless....
It's literally a one off where Jay finds himself stuck on an island. Probably stepped on a portal device and is now completely stuck, with no way home. Or even knowing where home is anymore. Instead of regular events, lets say Calypso- stand-in is actually a powerful being that helps him with clearing his mind and healing a bit because the man is a wreck. She's forcing him to self care and he wants to leave. Also I'm gonna give her mind related powers, kinda like neuro.
God games is fun because I could have that just be Nya finding a way to call on the source dragons, specifically energy and begging for some devine intervention. She has to convince many dragons.
Vengance-
I'm not sorry for loving you could either be another dream about Nya that helps him realise she was being genuine. Or It's the calypso stand in who is a shape shifter who tries to convine him to stay by shaping herself into "who he loves most" even though he doesn't know that is and just takes it as a further sign to go and pay the ninja a visit.
The same messanger dragon that helped him with the witch comes by to provide assistance across the sea and to the shore then leaves.
Now this could go down the forbidden Jay route, but here me out, he does find Nokt and the forbidden five randomly and kinda goes off on attacking them. At this point he'll electrocute anything in his way. Then Ras and Arin show up, the tiger man fully healed. Less intentionally and more they all ended up in one place type thing. Fight ensues. A storm approaches.
Arin is encouraged to hide. He actually comprehends the power scaling he's up against and does just that.
During the fight instead of finishing Ras off themselves, the five all stratigically retreat. The strength and at some point they realised you don't want to be on the other end of an electrical shock. Maybe Jay kills the weakest one. for funsies.
He goes for a beaten Ras next, aiming for the kill. He tries his best at least, but doesn't bother to confirm before taking the cloak and hat of one of the five that had been lying on the ground, and walking off to whereever home is.
He notices Arin, does bother much to question the kid on too much, and asks him where the ninja live. Arin just points to the vague direction of the monastery and says "On the mountain outside Ninjago, can't miss it."
And so Jay walks.
thats all I got so far. Until the Ithica saga comes out I guess.
I was very loose with vengance but that saga is all about just getting the vengance.
#wow this is kinda messy and a lot#welp I shoud get writing#*questioning how I could ever pull this off*#This so did not take me two hours to write.#I've been meaning to do this type of thing for a while actually#jay ninjago#ninjago jay#jay walker#Ninjago#spork likes to write#Epic: the musical#au's that aren't completely different from canon#ammi right?#THis will not be read over#If spot of inconsistancy just tell me#When writing I could wierdly feel the shift when this became less admin Jay and more wolf Jay centric.#Definitely left out how Jay gets closer to his team as this goes on
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I think that analysis post I rbed Really put things into perspective for how some kin memories of mine fit together. 'Cus Holy Fucking Shit dude.
it's funny 'cus my canon's Arlecchino fuckin sucked. But I do like her as a character (and I have that cat plush of her too which makes it all the funnier).
But through the lenses of That 4.1 scene being intentionally planned as like a test of the dynamics Father and myself/my siblings had... Ough yeah.
I think that grudge against Wriothesley for the whole thing finally vanished, realizing this now..
anyways Wriothesley & Neuvillette are cool as shit, and Neuvillette's a cooler dad than 'Father' ever was, *suck it Arlecchino-* /lh
#š | og posts#fictionkin#also if you see a kinfession abt this later & elsewhere no you didnt /j#also side note / rhetorical thing why the shart have i had so many lyney shifts recently Gods Fucking Damn /silly /nm#like it feels like every day / every other day i add a lil something to the notion page w/ things that remind me of my canon oh my gosh#...i also Really should finish reading the fic series where my canon likely comes from / where I got the memory of the Iudex adopting us#1/3 read and two more to go- the next one's me-centric too which is fun#...that being said im still scared for 4.6 bc i've heard arly's kit is really good but i also want me. L#...i should make another sideblog justto put this shit shouldnt i
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honestly though I think I need to be better at taking that "write self-indulgent shit" advice
#I mean everything I write IS self-indulgent to some degree#if I cared about growth then I would commit to a niche instead of writing whatever character or relationship I'm excited about at the time#with little consideration on how many people will actually read it or how well it would do numbers-wise#but sometimes I feel like I need to go back to where I was last summer when I was writing stuff exclusively for myself#I wasn't putting pressure on myself to finish things I was writing for the joy of it and out of passion for the idea#I think my priorities have shifted to writing things I want to post rather than simply writing things I enjoy and I need to fix that#I have a Bianca and Nico-centric AU I love a whole lot but I haven't made a real attempt at writing it bc I'm worried I won't finish/post i#and I think I need to allow myself to indulge in writing it even if I never finish it and I'm the only person who ever gets to experience i#(to be clear I'm still going to post fic it's just this one idea I think I need to let myself write even if I never post it)
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About that misogyny in fandom post. I think itās likeā¦ a complicated enough net of āwhat people want to see in fan creationsā, āwhat people can relate to in fan creationsā, āwhat kind of people make up for most of the creative side of fandomā (remember that āall men do in fandom is make power level tiers and theoriesā post? Itās bad but like. Shows the general sentiment), āwhat will give an author interactionsā, and āhow do people approach each other about their favourite thingsā. Like there are many factors, and I think sexualisation and fanservice should be counted in too, and the diversity offered to male vs female characters. Iāve said it once before but itās generally much harder to find a female character who has the same freedom of expression as a male character. And a lot of them are not made with the same enthusiasm as the male ones. Like yeah, that is misogyny but I think itās not like. A fandom-root problem but a source material problem too? And imo the audience will subconsciously or not react to that.
Plus, maybe this wouldnāt be so visible if fandom wasnāt mostly ship-centricā¦ Because as it stands, even if there is a voice to explore non-romantic and sexual relationships oftentimes it just ends up being a very sad/isolating experience still. Hmm
#d0 stuff#rising my ācan I have a over powered non-male lead in an actions seriesā flag again#like even looking at sth as small as action or isekai itās Impossible to find that thing Iāve been looking for#itās sad and revolting#but like. this is not about the fans. itās about the creators also (mostly?)#like idk. I can be frustrated but I wouldnāt blame the people for not being enthusiastic about sth that the creators didnāt care enough ab#eh#like I get it it was a post that probably wasnāt meant to breach containment but you know#it always irks me when people thing itās only one factor at play#and not to mention gender#and the romance centric thing#yeah okay I will leave this dog alone#but as people said#no amount of telling people to enjoy female characters more will make them do it#the shift most probably has to come from the source material
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Red Dead Redemption 2 was so real for creating the most in-depth, realistic clothing system I've ever seen in any game, and exclusively using it on burly, unhygienic men.
You choose every layer, every accessory, with dozens to hundreds of each to choose from. You can go in and fine-tune minute details like whether or not to roll up the shirt sleeves, or button the collar, or whether to wear your pants under your boots. These clothes get dirty in real time depending on what you do in the game. Mud, dust and blood linger unless washed off. Every garment has a warmth rating based on its material, and the game calculates what temperatures an outfit is suitable for based on the combined total. Dressing too cold or warm for the weather causes health debuffs.
You can choose which way he parts his hair, and whether he gels it. If you eat too much he gets bulkier and gains a double chin, and if you eat too little he can go underweight and get all bony and sallow. Both of these states come with stat changes. His hair and beard grow in real game time, and you need to routinely style and shave his facial hair if you want any style other than a full Santa. You need to bathe him regularly or people will start commenting on his BO, and he'll start visibly appearing filthy long before that. He sunburns in the sun, and in the heat he becomes slick and glossy with sweat.
This shit is IN DEPTH. It blows the customization systems of actual fashion-centric games like tf2, Monster Hunter and Splatoon out of the water in every regard. They honestly look basic in comparison. It's a paradigm shift for sure once you experience RDR2's level of customization. Everything else starts to feel smaller.
The player character all this customization is applied to, and I simply cannot stress this enough, is a 36 year old, 6'3" smoker weighing well over 200 pounds, with facial hair thicker than a sheepdogs, forearms like gnarled tree trunks and a dark, dense forest of body hair covering every reasonable surface. His skin is pocked and marred with scars from a rugged, nomadic lifestyle, and his teeth are the colour of cornbread. He has a thick southern accent, is a known mean drunk and knows how to skin pretty much any North American animal. He has never worn deodorant, flossed or moisturized. He eats canned beans, fruit and the like by simply pouring them into his mouth and gulping, often while walking or riding a horse at full gallop.
I can think of NO better use case for such customization. Not some fresh-faced little twink, not some busty anime babe. Just a gross, hairy, unwashed homeless dude with crippling self esteem issues and a chest broader than a barrel laid lengthwise. A non fashion-centric game, certainly a non-fashion centric character, but for some reason the best clothing and customization system ever concieved, bar none. What the fuck.
#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption two#arthur morgan#rdr arthur#rdr2 arthur#rdr2 fandom#video game#video games#gaming#rockstar games
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ive never considered myself a furry, if anything ive always felt like i create furry art for non-furries, but the more I draw my fursona the more divorced my usual style is from my furry art
not to mention some of my heaviest and most meaningful pieces ive made being furry art like at what point do i become a furry
my roommate also pointed out I consistently gravitate towards designs that are not human now in terms of like characters ive played or designed as npcs for games we've played which is true and has been for awhile. sometimes a guy just needs to be a critter
#rambling#me and my roomie talked abt this for so long last night#now that im on meds again ive been listening to new music theyve been recommending me#and my first immediate thought to one of these songs was i should revamp my old furry oc from high school#which like whatever ive been an oc artist longer than my memory spans back#but the shift my art has taken especially in the last couple years i will say is very like#furry-adjacent if not furry-centric
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The Hero and the Crown by Robin Mckinley or any of the books from Tales of Inthya by Effie Calvin :3c
added to TBR | on my TBR | couldnāt finish it | did not enjoy | it was OK | liked it | loved it | favorite | not interested
ooh, interesting! neither of these were on my radar before. Iām picky about what I read in terms of YA fantasy these days but Iām tentatively putting them on my TBR for now for when Iām in the moodā¦
#I see women centric fantasy and dragons and queer romances and my ears perk up#they seem like the kind of thing I would have read/enjoyed in high school#which is not to say that I wouldnāt enjoy them now even if my reading tastes have shifted#but back then I was reading a lot more along the lines of tamora pierce etc#book.answers
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I understand that people want Taylor to speak out about the genocide in Gaza given her platform, but given that the President of The United States who actually wields some power in this situation is saying that these recent atrocities donāt cross his red line and continues to aid it rather than put an end to it feels like an bigger issue and more focus and pressure should be applied to that than whether or not Taylor should speak up.
#Iāve said it a lot but stop taking cues from celebrities and take them from politicians and activists#celebs have platforms but I donāt really need or care to hear their opinions on ongoing matters that they may not be informed on#I also feel that often times a celebrity using their platform causes the conversation to revolve around them and not the issue#like the whole thing with Ari is being framed as āAriana Grande did xā not so much āmillions of dollars raisedā#like obviously her name is still going to be attached but itās often becoming the focus of it rather than a detail#like I feel like the conversation needs to shift yāknow#and I get that itās echo chambery because weāre in a Taylor centric space but Iād love to see some discussion about people who have power#yes she should be called out for her silence because silence = complicity and standing with the oppressor#I just think the attention paid to it is more than whatās being paid to those in positions of power
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Meta's recent introduction of ad-free subscriptions for ā¬9.99 a month in Europe is just one example of a broader trend. Twitter (now X), TikTok, and Snapchat are also testing ad-free subscription models, providing an escape for those with the means to avoid the constant bombardment of online ads. Uneven Adoption of Ad-Free Platforms: Insights from European Perspectives and the Growing Appeal of Video-Centric Experiences (globalpostheadline.com)
#Ad-free platform adoption#European perspectives on ad-free experiences#Video-centric preferences#Shifting consumer behaviors online#Digital media trends in Europe#Meta platforms and video content#YouTube Premium success#Ad-free content demand#Consumer choices in digital advertising#European online behavior patterns#Facebook#Meta#Twitter(X)
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Image 1. Screenshot of tags on post, that say, "#i tried to look up men's fashion on pinterest in hopes i could find inspiration for myself since my wardrobe is just t shirts and jeans
#and it was genuinely demoralizing how boring everything was
#i don't know what to look up to get his results bc otherwise everything is just women which obviously clothing has no gender
#but i would like things catered towards masculinity ? i don't know what im trying to say anymore
#i don't have money for clothes rn anyway"
Image 2 and 3. Two skinny people sitting down wearing same outfit coord but with different clothing pattern. Their faces are cropped. The aforementioned combination of "larger overshirt, collared undershirt, wide legged pants, a cross body bag and sneakers."
Image 4 and 5. Somewhat similar outfit coord of black, loose clothing worn by two different skinny people. First one in leather jacket, baggy jean pants, and black boots. The second one in black long-sleeve shirt and pants tucked in with belt, and black boots. Both don't show face.
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How do you make interesting male character designs, male fashion is so fucking boring and bad, and you seem to have a good sense of fashion, please help im suffering
two important tools you must remember:
1) there is no such thing as 'mens clothing' and 'women's clothing' theres just clothing and if you see something a lady is wearing and it looks good you dont have to say 'aww but a guy can't where that' yuuuup buddy you can. draw whatever and wear whatever you want forever. my wardrobe is completely mixed in terms of 'men's' and 'women's' clothing bc it's just MY clothing not anyone else's
2) pinterest
almost went on this entire rant about 'women's fashion is more expansive in part due to misogynistic double standards of appearance and men's fashion is only bad/boring because of years of being funneled through capitalism patriachal expectations of power homo/transphobia and racism' but if i do that people will start throwing rocks at me with the intention to kill and if i write multiple paragraphs of reflection on the false gender divide within fashion and the patriarchy and someone only reads 2 sentences to get mad at ill start blowing things up gotham city style
anyway these are the secrets to good mens fashion there is no brand that will save you there is no purchase that will save you utilmately you must study what you like blind to gender and then mix and match what you believe looks good. because i cannot just tell anyone 'this is fashionable' it is about going and finding what you specifically feel reflects yourself (or a character in this instance)
#unrelated but lot them viral fashion inspo very skinny-centric damn. even ambiguity n impression gender shift. from available that size.#described#addition#s catmask#r strangeauthor#fashion
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