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life is about fucking yourself over for attention from ur parents and still receiving none. sometimes.
#personal#i havent eaten anything in 10 hours!#bc i didnt know i was supposed to prepare my own dinner!#and when i said it my sister AND my mom bitched about it!#and now its almost 10:30 and i went downstairs to grab the water bottle and she didnt say anything and im so tired#of her being like this#'just ask' isnt as simple as it sounds when u grew up praised for ur intelligence and subsequently got ridiculed for asking questions#i cant ask for help. its something im physically incapable of. its called childhood trauma you fuckgjfnhsb#so yeah shes gonna head off to bed soon and i am starving ! delightful#its not even gonna matter in 24 hrs#ive never had an ED (at least not a no eating ED. binge eating & ARFID debatable)#so its not like this is some horribly dangerous relapse stunt#im just miserable bc im hungry AND tired instead of just tired and its really fucking frustrating#and i want to stay home tomorrow but my mom probably wont let me and its just. its so exhausting#i want to focus on my painting tomorrow#no classes just art#which is a class. like i want to do the project i have to do for art class which i cant do rn#bc i feel SICK from the favt that i havent eaten anything since 12:30#and i cant face my art teacher still without progress i just cant ok#shes disappointed enough in me
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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?
What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.
#this is my curly slander post ig#disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception#but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things#to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im#having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point#with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men#mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#shitpost#suggestive#ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig#but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its#crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see#body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments#like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save#the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to#the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself#to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya#and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing#their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of#his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve#Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain#between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over#just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up#to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise#verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct#and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to#tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho#i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would#disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone
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heyyy a fellow math teacher! 🤝
I'm actually not a math teacher! I do special ed. I currently do most of the math inclusion support at the school, so between my actual classes and support from learning center/skill development hours and study hall hours, I'm doing everything from sub-separate Intro to Algebra all the way up to Pre-Calculus.
So my students know me as "the math lady" and they joke whenever they see me out of the math hallway that I've breached containment or "escaped [my] dungeon!" It's pretty funny!
I absolutely love working with the math department though! They are some of the best people in this entire school. Unsurprisingly, they're probably the department that the sped department is the closest with! They're so deeply passionate about public education and setting up the students for the best success possible after high school, and they really do their best to stand up against a lot of the silly top-down level grade inflation types of things happening within district admin right now! So yeah, can't hype these math ladies up enough! They go so above and beyond for the students, and it's unfortunate that they're some of the most underappreciated teachers cuz god damn these kids have nooooo clue how much this group of women care about them!
#not dp related#sorry to disappoint!#im a fake math teacher LMAO#i told the sped chair to put me in whatever math classes she wanted#cuz last year i had my sub-separate class and then an algebra 1 class#and i literally loved it so much#so she was like 'aight' and p much gave me everything!#i just got assigned today to the pre-calc class because of a student schedule change#so i spent an hour catching up on all the material#since i haven't taken this course since i was in high school#but it seems straightforward enough!#thank god for Khan Academy though I swear kajdsnkfsjn
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started stardew valley for the first time. born to remember villager likes and dislikes forced to immediately forget it the moment i take my eyes off thw wiki
#HELP. HEEEELPP <- THE FORGETTER#i have 18 different tabs open and im pretty sure half of them are duplicates. i have not made anything past 5000G i am so cooked#rn im at summer 11 ish?? i cant remember dates in real life either jesus christ GRIPPING THE COMMUNITY CALENDAR WITH MY BARE HANDS#my ass really went into this like “ill just take it easy and go into it blind so i get the newborn baby deer experience" completely ignoran#to the fact that i get anxious disappointing ppl and not having any background knowledge going into smth new. like a FOOL#also the walking speed is just slow enough to make me space out and forget where i was going and what i needed to do head in my hands#ive had to backtrack all over pelican town so many different times im in fucking adhd hell. resource management hell#im saying this like i hate it but its actually pretty fun and engaging when im not gripping my head trying to remember what i was doing#i got linus' 2 heart event and it made me whimper a little. LINUSSS LINUS I LIKE HIM. AND WILLY AND MARNIE THEYRE SO NICEYS#marnie kinda like.. reminds me of my friends mom even her face is pretty similar. shes sweet i like her. also willy calls me lad hes cool#i think im just gonna start a new save and NOT rely on the fucking mixed seed forages bc my ass was too stubborn to buy seeds#i just got sebastians 2 heart event too ughhh ive never had to work so hard for an emo boys approval. but it was satisfying#corn will fix me. its a replenishable summer-fall crop corn has to fucking fix me PLEASE#i also. made a stardew valley farmer. the one im playing as. their name is cosmo they have a backstory and everything im making#him a ref. his backstory is so fucking funny just wait#yapping#diary#puppy plays sdv
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The way I missed Jinx so much
#arcane#netflix arcane#jinx#arcane spoilers#arcane season 2#this season has not disappointed with the jinx content thus far for me I must say#is there enough? Never. But when she is there - SHE IS THERE
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Made cake at 11pm today to celebrate my engagement because my parents refused to be happy about it.There is perhaps a small amount of bitterness in me. Cake was good though. Even if it's kind of gray for some reason.
#my mom could not emphasize enough now disappointed she was with my lifestyle choice but that she wanted me to be happy#and like girl#okay thank you for trying but also#she was patting herself on the back so hard for being such a good ally and accepting of it#and like no#you're at best tolerent which I know is better than a lot of lgbtq people get#but god fucking damn it it hurts so much that I'm engaged was met with I'm so disappointed and became a long discussion about religion#like I know if my partner has been a man they would have at least said congratulations instead of how they're disappointed#I tried to show my mom the engagement ring and she gave me such a look of reluctant disgust before changing the subject#so she didn't have to actually see it#and I'm just#yeah#there's some disappointment and devestation#anyways#happy engagement chem 🥂wish you were here#id feed you my suspiciously gray cake so we could get food poisoning together#me as person
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Someone pissed me off a couple of days ago
So! Below are several links to programs and foundations that promote adult literacy! Hundreds of millions of adults world wide were failed by their education system and now must fend for themselves while trying to read contracts and hospital bills and infographics from the CDC. But they don't have to be alone, and it is never too late to learn!
ProLiteracy: A network of educators, researchers, and advocates which provides research reports, learning materials, and other support to adult education programs. They assist with connecting volunteers to local programs and provide guidance and support to community leaders trying to use their programs' findings to advocate for social and political change.
Adult Literacy League: An adult education program in Central Florida, which aims to provide students with one on one attention to foster growth and confidence. It also offers English Second Language courses and job skills training, and each new student receives a comprehensive assessment to determine the best plan for them.
Saint Vincent and Sarah Fisher Center's Foundational Skills Program: A 100% free adult education program aimed at adults reading below a fifth grade level. It operates year round and is either in person or remote, and they now have a GED testing center that is open to students and the public alike.
Washtenaw Literacy: A free network of trained tutors for adults in Washtenaw County, Michigan.
Adult Learning Program (Las Vegas/Clark County): Free education classes to those lacking a high school diploma, those seeking to learn ESL, and adults who read below an eighth grade level. Also assists in students' search for gainful employment. Nevada got so fucked by COVID and the education/literacy numbers in the South West are grim. Please help these guys.
Hawaii Literacy: In addition to helping adult residents of Hawaii Island learn to read and write AND bridging the education gap in Hawaii's underserved children, they offer computer literacy classes, ESL classes, and a bookmobile. 1 in 6 Hawaiian adults struggle to read and write.
#Not Stories#mutual aid#adult literacy#'uuhhhggg its soooo disappointing when i meet a girl who's like 'yeah omg i luv 2 read'#'and then she only reads booktok trash and grocery store thrillers and manga'#'like come on thats such a turn off :/'#'like aren't you bored??? what about reading The Foundation and War & Peace and Grapes of Wrath where's THAT girl haha'#nobody gives a shit what sort of high school reading list gets your dick stiff! NOBODY!#I'm too busy dealing with the fact that most public education systems hate students of color and anyone with a learning disability#from the very bottom of my very dyslexic heart go fuck yourself#'this chick only read 8 books in twelve months lmfao thats so pathetic'#'i read eight books a MONTH some people really give up after high school'#do you think my great grandfather or his father got to fucking finish high school????#or were they busy getting fucking shot at in germany in two different fucking wars????#thank every god you wanna name that my lunatic mother stopped abusing me long enough to put me through FIVE YEARS OF TUTORING#to get ME literate because that's what it fucking took#I watched more than one kid from my underserved semi rural district drop out at 17 or 16 or 15#because their parents needed a third paycheck or they were gonna lose the goddamn house#10% of my majority black school district graduated FUNCTIONALLY ILLITERATE and not an ounce of it was those kids' fault#our racist ass school district failed them and the district did NOT protect my white ass when I was diagnosed dyslexic#the adult literacy crisis is not about you getting a girlfriend who can discuss Ayn Rand with you#the adult literacy crisis is about us being exploited and neglected and made easier to control and manipulate#reading is FUCKING HARD and learning to read after the age of six is SO MUCH HARDER#so from the VERY very bottom of my VERY very dyslexic heart#FUCK. YOU.
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ok good night if I have to wake up to find out chandler lost I fear all of wednesday will be a a write off. due to the devastation
#ilona winning would be fair enough but I'd be pretty disappointed still....#like. that's literally chandler... she's perfect + she's tabby + we're never seeing tabby again + everything is terrible#let me have this!!!!#if she loses carrie ann can count her days.... anyway.#night night ^_^
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yet another oc that only exists because i wanted to write something very specific
(middle is a little older, hence her scar healing. i like to think she gets a glass eye at some point)
anyway this is mira! (they/she) since that wip is almost 20k words and counting i won’t give away too much but long story short she’s the result of meta going “one last time, i promise” and adopting yet another kid
also galaxia kinda indirectly picked the name :)
i’ve mentioned before that i headcanon that pretty much all astrals are autistic and this is just kinda an extension of that. whereas meta tends to suppress his emotions and conform to others, mira…doesn’t. she gets uncomfortable and upset and lashes out at people easily, and working through their emotions is no small task.
the main reason i chose to write them that way was for the sake of narrative but i’ve grown attached to it because there’s a lot of ideas there i’d like to explore. stuff about navigating emotions and relationships when existing is so suffocatingly uncomfortable. it’s not something i could center around Kirby himself, but i think it makes sense with a post character development meta knight.
they are very loved (omg oldee cameo???)
kirby was definitely very excited to have younger siblings after being used to being the youngest in the room for so long!! (with the like. one and only exception being gooey.) he’s super affectionate with both of them and wants to have a close relationship one day, but for now mira is pretty unappreciative of that fact lol. they don’t like being pestered for hugs
everyone else is okay tho
(i know that’s hard to read. oops. “obvious bite marks”. siblings being siblings.)
mira also has a very love/hate relationship with the egg kid, being so close in age they kinda Have to get along but in typical sibling nature they also fight a lot. sure it’s probably rough for a while but i think in the end they’d be good buddies. maybe not as close as Kirby and Bandee but still.
anyway i have a lot of thoughts and am very busy but. i’m really enjoying writing about all this lately it’s been fun ^^
#I picked a name and then proceeded to write a comic in pen in which i used that name and posted it#and only after all that did i learn that mira is becoming a very popular name. which i generally avoid#but oh well. it’s stuck#im gonna be completely honest a lot of how i pick names for characters is based off of how many puns i can make out of it#im sorry to disappoint you with that information /j#kirbyposting#my art or something#meta knight#kirby#king dedede#metadede#Kirby oc#semi future au#I swear i’ll introduce oldee one day im just bad at having drawing ideas#also trying very hard to not make self deprecating comments over some of this art cause i just. don’t really want to spend forever redrawing#stuff anymore. like I used to do for a lot of these posts. It’s whatever#anyway kinda a part two to yesterday’s post (as in: I made sure they were both ready at the same time so i could queue them together lol)#weirdly enough this isn’t all that different from my dmk interpretation#i can’t really decide what color she is either#part of me wants to say bright blue red eyes because i think that would look absolutely sick but that seems like a bit too much blue#all things considered#maybe bright yellow blue eyes idk ill figure it out later (maybe)
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I’m going to need people to STOP comparing the badly written king from wish to alma😭
#saw someone say it’s man hating#y’all were not there in 2022 alma was getting attacked left right and centre#like just cause wish couldn’t decide what they wanted to do with him doesn’t mean he’s like alma#this makes me think it’s actually the opposite#if alma was a man she would not have gotten that much hate#look I understand being disappointed about his story and how bad the writing is#but alma never became like a possessed dictator so#also no mirabel would not have forgave him instantly and she didn’t forgive alma instantly#encanto#encanto disney#disneys encanto#mirabel madrigal#abuela alma madrigal#they never showed the king as remorseful so it’s not really the same#alma literally went to the birthplace of her trauma just to see if mirabel was ok#enough alma slander!!!#mirabel encanto#disney’s encanto
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not sure how exactly to articulate this but i do find it interesting that there are so many posts about how it shouldn't register as weird that claudia and madeleine are romantically involved because claudia is fully and completely an adult, and at points yes, i do get the sense that S2 of the show wants you to believe this but i would argue that, at the very least from rice's perspective, the tragedy of claudia is more complicated than this concept of an adult in a child's body. like, the reality is that we can't fully understand the extent to which claudia will or can develop toward "adulthood" (itself a malleable and culturally dependent concept) and that's the true horror of it, that's what makes siring a child vampire taboo among so many vampires, that's what louis so selfishly took from her!
and it does feel like S2 overextends itself in its desperation to convince the viewer claudia is in fact 100% developmentally matured and simply & only frustrated with her appearance and the limitations of her body. like...she is permanently pubescent!
not necessarily suggesting one approach or the other is "wrong" and obviously the show can reinterpret the text in any way it chooses, but i think the latter not only makes for a more compelling claudia arc but also asks some more interesting questions about the nature of human development, which is something rice has always been heavily concerned with.
the similarities between lestat and claudia are always a huge topic of discussion on here, and i think you do also feel that loss in light of the fully and "successfully" matured claudia of S2, who lacks the childish impulses, temper tantrums and mercurial nature of S1 claudia almost entirely. she endures louis's neglect and abuse with a level of grace that makes it kind of hard to suspend disbelief at points imo!
#i wouldn't go so far as to say she loses her 'fire' but she certainly loses her wildness and unpredictability#have been trying very hard to vibe with delainey hayles' claudia because i like the casting on its face#but the writing is really against her for me#she's not fucked up enough frankly! 'claudia did nothing wrong!' is kind of just not a reading i'm super interested in#and 'claudia did nothing wrong' PLUS 'claudia matured into an adult w/o issue & is just pissed off she has to look like a child'#is doubly boring!#and in hindsight it's a little disappointing considering how morally complicated every male character comes across in S2#that claudia was ironed so flat#but i think i am possibly in the minority here and i haaaaate to be a bummer
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Anyway they can change between being tiny and human sized. And when they're tinier they can only be seen by the other fae or their selected humans. So if you just passed Noll on the street while Shavuli was perched on his shoulder chatting away you wouldn't see or hear her.
#my characters#a lot of the fae who are trying to get noll to pick a human take turns joining him as he wanders if he opts to be human sized#if he opts to be small and fly around none of them can actually find him to follow bc he does it precisely to be alone#and makes careful to avoid all of them when he dips#which furthers their friendly obsession with him being their void like where is he we lost him we gotta go bring him back from the abyss!#and hes just off on his own being crippled by anxiety at being a disappointment bc what if he isnt fun enough#absolutely unaware that all his friends are like we gotta go find him hes too good at this#hes going to win the game we have clearly set up to involve humans before he even recruits a human#cause he is TOO GOOD at slipping away ITS NOT FAIR we love him what a weird fae thats our lil guy!#noll really is just out there impressing all of his friends and not knowing hes impressing them bc hes too scared of being abandoned#and i was telling rae but when he does find the human he wants as his for the game#hes like ok so im gonna be honest here i turn into a big sword and you are definitely not going to be strong enough to carry me#and the human just like ok then pick someone else?#and hes like no no i cant you dont get it youre resourceful and im resourceful THEREFORE! i have an idea! just for us!#and then proceeds to shatter himself into shards basically#so that the human can have many smaller easy to control swords rather than one too big sword#and when all of the other fae see it they are absolutely delighted bc they didnt know he could do that! thats so cool! wow! they love him s#and he doesnt tell them that it actually really flippin hurts and being broken is agonizing but he wants to win so badly#anyway hello appreciate the void fae noll and his lil buddy shavuli who can turn into a spear C:#in her human form though she loves to wear hoodies instead of just like .... a skin tight suit with draping fabrics#she does wear biker shorts bc leggy.... she likes to have legs free#but she likes hoodies a lot
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Hey guys can we like please love “ugly” trans women? Can we please love fat trans women? I just really think we should love all trans women thanks
#okay story time#news has a segment about the ‘very demure very mindful’ girl y’know the one#and I’m all excited because holy shit trans woman success story!!! (she got enough money from the trend to medically transition wooo!!!)#all of a sudden my mom talks about how ugly she is and body shames her?????#and I tried shutting that shit down immediately I was like ‘that’s so rude literally what did she do to you?’#then my mom is like ‘I’m also fat so I can say that’ NO YOU CAN’T???? I DON’T GIVE A SHIT IF YOU’RE FAT DON’T BE RUDE TO PEOPLE???????#like genuinely it was mind boggling that negativity came out of nowhere#she ask kept misgendering her as ‘they’ even though it was mentioned twice that she’s a trans woman and the newscasters used she/her#idk that shit just really pissed me off#she’s such a hypocrite too. like if there’s fat models in a commercial it’s fine (which I agree ofc)#but as soon as a fat trans woman is not conventionally attractive it’s some big issue and we have to make mean comments about it#fuck off with that shit#anyways I just really had to vent about that I was FUMING#usually parents are disappointed in their kids not the reverse#trans women#trans#transgender#queer#transfem
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#one of the reasons why i started lifting a bit heavy is bc i wanted to get strong enough to carry stuff for mom so she wouldnt have to#anymore#and i could really say i feel stronger and carry heavy things with no struggle anymore#but GIRL what did you put in this bag which i had to carry a long way for few minutes from where i left the car#i felt like i was carrying another person lol#wanted to take it until home but my shoulder almost fell off and had to call dad to lend me a hand#and got disappointed for not being able to do it on my own🤡
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Fucking OBSESSED with this one scene in the cockpit cos MAN I wish we knew what the fuck they were saying right before Jimmy came in!!!
On one hand Anya sounds defeated, possibly disappointed, on the other hand Swansea sounds pissed af right after Jimmy talks down to Anya.
Did Anya tell Swansea not to do anything brash and so he's resentfully holding back from decking their new captain?? Did Swansea tell her he "couldn't" do something about Jimmy and so she's begrudgingly saying she understands his position?? Did he tell her about the pod or???
Is2g this fucking game man-
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing anya#mouthwashing swansea#mouthwashing spoilers#ughhhhh to be a fly on the wall in the cockpit in that moment#i get the feeling he might have told her about the pod and how there was only one#i wonder if he saved it for daisuke all along or if it was anya#or maybe he was torn#because he said he 'wanted to give the kid a chance' off the ship but like kid could either mean Daisuke or-#so which is it??#but it could very well be he was more cynical to her and told her that jimmy was a motherfucker but they couldn't exactly do anything#in that situation and she was disappointed but accepted that 'it's how things have to be'#he most definitely hates Jimmy's guts at that point but could have been cynical enough to think they needed him around despite everything#but then again he seems to know Jimmy ain't shit quite early on and definitely doesn't trust him from the beginning#so????#is2g I've watched like 4 playthroughs at this point plus a few highlights vids and can't figure it out#it's gonna keep me up at night#it's gonna be my own personal dead pixel#*screaming into the void*#I'm totally normal about this game guys i swear
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i love when you're just vibing w a new game and you have loose ideas of the characters and suddenly you're hit w a "oh man i have a new favourite don't i" bc uhhhh yeah
#shut up danni's talking#i should make a dragon age liveblog tag maybe bc inquisition is making me feel things#like i was already sucked in w the first two games but inquisition upped the game in some areas#danni liveblogs dragon age#anyways. one of my very minor pet peeves in da is that you get new companions every single game and very very few stick around#so i wasn't expecting to like a lot of the companions in inquisition and that kinda came true considering i have mixed opinions on like.#at least three of them i think. two for certain but one im still unsure abt#those are solas and sera w the other being cole#so i am INCREDIBLY pleased to be like new fave#bc i didn't really have one in 2 it sort of ended up being fenris i liked best but not enough to feel so strongly abt#my new fave btw is dorian he's just so dramatic and though he's prideful its not to an extent that it becomes a vice its endearing#he knows when to push it away sometimes and its great#my favourite non-companion is krem tho#he's so cool#not bc he's trans which he IS and i love him for it but bc he's just really a nice character????#slightly disappointed he's voiced by a woman but his voice actor is one of my favourite game voice actors so i have conflicting opinions#(its jennifer hale. she did female shepard in mass effect and rivet in ratchet and clank)#my second fave companion is varrick he's just. a wonderful friend and i love him.#he's so aro-coded and i love that for him. genuinely would love to be his bestie irl#he's also so supportive of hawke and the inquisitor he's like 'hell this one gets into all kinds of shit i have GOT to be there for them'#anyways. back to dragon age lol
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