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update: successfully gave my dog subcutaneous fluids today 🥳
#this is like the 4th attempt to post this >:(#anyways! she was calm!! such braverism!!#i had her in my lap and she trembled a little but stopped when i kissed her forehead 🥹#its such an honor to know she trusts me honestly i love her so much#shes always been extremely scared of the vet and generally easily panicked and reacted really really badly to needles#and she was abused as a puppy#but she would always let me and only me get rid of ticks if she ever caught any#best feeling in the world to know even if i have to do smth to her that will hurt a little - like having to stick a needle in her#she will trust me to do that and let me#i love her so much and im so relieved rn that i was able to do this and can take care of her#ill try to post pics of the Equipment for this later lmao but for now tumblr refuses to let me soooooo#dog blogging
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massages forehead So Ambessa hid Mel away because she was a weapon in the literal sense, a mage. But Ambessa came to Piltover for Hextech? And Ambessa had nothing to say to Mel about her powers having visibly awakened? Even when Mel offered to go with Ambessa, giving her the ultimate opportunity to make Mel a weapon for real? And Ambessa made no attempt to find or retrieve Mel - not just her daughter and the remnants of the family Ambessa professes to love, but also her ultimate weapon - when she disappeared? And Ambessa trusted Singed and Viktor on their home turf - neither of them hiding how insane and self-serving they are with every reason to take over Ambessa's soldiers or just blatantly turn on her as soon as it benefits them - more than she trusted Mel? While Caitlyn (and by extension Piltover) was visibly and clearly falling away from Ambessa's teachings before Ambessa's eyes? (as if getting rid of certain people allows piltover to get rid of fascism but we won't get into All That)
Not only do I struggle to be hyped for Mel's powers beyond how amazing and beautiful she looks, but I can't help but feel like Mel is somehow less powerful in season 2 than she was in season 1, and not in an interesting way. As if Mel's ability to bend all of Piltover politics and economics to her will in season 1 now means nothing in season 2? You can argue that Jinx's attack led directly to Mel losing ground in Piltover - because I expected Mel to have to claw back that power without being able to rely on people who are too easily seduced by Ambessa and authoritarianism, and she would have to get creative to go toe to toe with her mother. I expected pushback to her mage identity that she would have to navigate. But instead this went either unwritten, or was ignored or discarded. Instead Mel is removed from the main plot, cutting her off from what made her the most interesting - only for all of Mel's very real talents, her very real powers and abilities, to be not only translated but REPLACED with magical powers she doesn't know how to control, and by the finale, those magic powers are the only powers that are considered real. Mel takes a backseat to Piltover's governing and decisions, a backseat to Jayce of all people who was not only new to politics mere months ago but made poor governing, strategic, and diplomatic decisions when he had that power. In season 1 Mel stayed off the "throne" but she did pull its strings one way or the other, and she makes no attempt at this in season 2
In my least generous suspicions, Mel was gentled and quieted to capitulate to an agenda for other characters who had to be correct and heroic - or wrong and villainous - no matter what the leadup narrative said, given her powers to help sell the game and set up future shows, and was effectively ejected from the Arcane story with faceless soldiers and a role she doesn't want because she was inconvenient there
#arcane#spoilers#arcane spoilers#arcane s2#arcane critical#mel medarda#mel arcane#ambessa medarda#this is not helped by having watched Shogun recently with Toranaga in all his horrible glory#Toranaga and Mariko are FRESH in my mind Riot do not PLAY with me#MARIKO WAS TORANAGA'S ULTIMATE HUMAN WEAPON AND SHE DID IT WITH NO SUPERNATURAL POWERS OR REAL MARTIAL PROWESS#SHE DID IT BY BEING GOOD AT BEING A NOBLE IN HER SPECIFIC CULTURE AND GARNERING TRUST AND SYMPATHY IN HER FRIENDS AND PEERS#IN SPITE OF BEING A CHILD OF A CURSED AND SHUNNED BLOODLINE#NOW DOESN'T THAT SOUND FAMILIAR#cough cough anyway I like Mel being a mage but I don't like how they did it and I don't like how separating Mel from Piltover wasn't MORE#sidenote i cannot better express my BAFFLEMENT that viktor and mel were in the same room and mel made no attempt to speak to him#when he was INTERESTED IN HER WHOLE DEAL. he literally REACHES OUT and mel did not use talk no jutsu#season 1 viktor was never in her influence bc 1) he was not just her employee but her SECONDARY employee socially and politically and#2) he's implied to be aware and resistant to her. but in season 2 her mage abilities make him VULNERABLE TO HER physically AND mentally#and she doesn't exploit that???? not even to protect jayce???? let alone piltover?????#also making ambessa less cunning less scary and more predictable than season 1 silco ought to be a criminal offense somewhere
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ig ooomfie said i should draw xuanli and i kinda went crazy abt them whoopsydoodle
#xuanli#jin zixuan#jiang yanli#TALL! CHUBBY! YANLI! AGENDA!#mo dao zu shi#mdzs#jiang yanli most beautiful on the planet the yunmeng bros were right abt this idc if they were speaking out of loyalty to their cool sister#they were CORRECT! and i will draw her as such!#anyway whos ready for me to ramble abt yanli in the tags bc i have a lot of thoughts abt her#specifically abt how in my heart of hearts she does have SOME level of cultivational YMJ/MSY training - i know for a fact madame yu isn't#gonna let her just fuck around all day! i just think eventually they realised it wasnt doing much and stopped making her#i do like the hc - or i guess theory bc ive seen some p good analyses for it :)- that the reason yanli doesnt really participate is bc she#has a disability or smth that prevents her from being able to do everyhting the other jiangs do#but i also think that shes fine with that she doesn't really wanna do all this anyway! her disability has aligned in her favour really!#i ALSO love when ppl take yanlis lack of martial/magical skill and make her good at the administrative and political stuff!#someone in this house has to be!#jc scowls his way through every meeting WWX's negotiation skills start and stop at flirting#fengmians a helpless lil yesman and mdame yu terrifies everyone in her path - someone has to be the politician of the house!#lets be real shes an eldest sister its absolutely gonna be her. eldest sisters know more about conflict resolution than hostage negotiators#i like when she gets to actually show this in canon like. shes polite all the time but shes FIRM when she needs to be and she will get what#shes aiming for TRUST AND BELIEVE!#anwyay in the order of yunmeng sibling heights its wwx -> JYL -> jc but theyre all a lil insanely tall and thats the real reason theyre all#high on the attractiveness rankings. every1s a lil bisexual for them#jzx whos 5'10 and telling everyone hes 6'0 when he meets jyl: h..............heh...h.ey.y.y...
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Her first design pass is finally done!! Yippee!!!
Imma be honest shes basically been done for about a week now, I just got distracted with other things and then struggled with her colors a wee bit. Since this is the first pass things may change as I draw her more, but tbh Gangles design hasn't changed at all and Jaxs design had very minor tweaks (no more blots or the attempt at whiskers: both cluttered his design and added nothing) so--
The girly pop ever!! I hope you guys also like her design a decent amount because I will be drawing her a lot more now that she has a design since I have ideas.
The next may actually be Pomni, but it could very well be Zooble since they just need colors. Or it could be neither if I finally have an idea for Kinger or Caines designs who knows at this point.
#art#the amazing survival isles#survival isles au#tadc#tadc art#tadc au#digital circus#digital circus au#the amazing digital circus#ragatha#survival isles ragatha#tadc ragatha#ragatha the amazing digital circus#ragatha fanart#sorry for taking forever on everyones designs#trust me i wish i could go faster so i can actually finish planning the basic art stuff#i want to make their cards since i actually have cool ideas for that#but im being patient and letting myself go at the pace i need to#since letting myself go at a slower pace is leaving me with designs im barely altering#but anyways do with her what you will#just be nice she needs a break <3
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Octavia sees Blitzø as her replacement in Stolas' life. Blitzø sees Octavia as an addition to his own.
#everything re: Via is so complicated right now because on one hand she's right to be upset at Stolas breaking his promise#but also she's just refusing to understand his point of view or even let him explain himself#unfortunately it's a trait that comes with her being still a teenager who's been likely sheltered her whole life#like from Stolas POV he had seconds to react to stop Blitz from being killed and clearly didn't think things through#(also this got me thinking if his pills might have a side effect since he only realized what he did after he started the withdrawal)#but from Via's POV she saw her dad willing to die for his fling after he specifically promised her not to leave her for him#do i think Via should have heard him out rather than cutting him off her life so fast? yes#do I also think she has a right to be upset after the most important person in her life made a choice that betrayed her trust? also yes#anyway let's see how this develop#helluva boss#helluva boss spoilers#helluva boss blitz#helluva boss blitzo#helluva boss octavia
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Pete, I need you to stay here.
#warehouse 13#wh13edit#past imperfect#mine:photoset#myka bering#pete lattimer#HELLO..... CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME...... FOR THE LOVE OF GOD HELLO..............#this episode possessed me so thoroughly that i had to open photoshop for the first time since december#i promise i will get a new computer someday so i can make gifs more regularly again (i made this on my work computer don't tell IT)#but HELLO............ WAAAAUGH#god. fuck. they love and trust each other so much. i'm chomping at the fucking walls over this#myka has so much trauma over this case and pete's the nicest guy in the world about it.........#but myka doesn't even let that stop her!! she's like no fuck that i WILL take this guy down for real#and she DOES#and pete's standing by her side the entire time providing support and helping but also not taking control since myka needs to do this#on her own and for herself in order to finally get closure#for this case that's been haunting her since literally episode one............#pete's like no you can absolutely be emotional. you have every right. so this time I'll be the observant one and help you where you need it#god.#anyway hi wh13 tag i am watching this show for the first time and i am Going Through It#since i know you all seem to be myka/HG stans can i officially claim pete as mine. would anyone mind. can i have him
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Mizi loves her friends, her family, so much. so I wonder how she will feel and what she'll do if and when she finds out Ivan, one of her second closest childhood friends is dead now and Till, the last of her childhood friends is still alive, but so...so different from the last time she saw him. How will she cope with the fact that she lost another one of her family members again? and all this happening after she lost and is still grieving Sua? (I am going to self-annihilate!!)
#alien stage#alnst till#alnst ivan#alnst sua#alnst mizi#alien stage ivan#alien stage till#alien stage sua#alien stage mizi#alnst#this will fuel her to set fire to alien stage trust me#notice how she's closer to ivan and sua (the most reclusive mfs ever) vs the person ACTIVELY trying to get closer to her#albiet#till is a mess when she even looks his way though so#if half the time they talked was just till yapping then idk#ivan and sua are so calm and cool she felt more comfortable around them#they just let her do whatever anyway
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follow the light
#qsmp#qsmp fanart#slimecicle#doodle#juanaflippa#qsmp slimecicle#qsmp juanaflippa#EPIJFIPJEUPJF IM KRILLING MYSELF TJIS LIVE WAS SRUE SOMETHIGN#still I got so happy to see her again I missed her so much I hope we can see her more#don't care if she's a code I love her either way#if she wants to punt an egg that's fine she can do it let her have more hobbies#and if she doesn't that's fine as well I missed her#also don't worry guys she types like that bc the admin got a new keyboard and probably theyre getting used to it trust me😁😁
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Post s2, Jinx travels the world (what’s the name?? Runeterra?? Right?) and cons her way into free rooms and food by claiming her name is Caitlyn Kiramman. Look me in the eye and tell me I’m wrong. Piltover became a global trading post and the Kirammans were already a wealthy and renowned family before. Being Jayce’s sponsor and Piltover being put on the map bc of Hextech and Caitlyn being dictator leader of Piltover for some time also made her name carry a bit of weight. But no one’s really seen her??? All they know is she’s pretty and has blue hair. Jinx just plays the dead mom card when being questioned (“I just had to see some of the world…as my mother always talked about when she was still alive…😔”) and people just let her be and give her what she wants.
Stories of the odd Kiramman girl spreads all the way back to Piltover and people make jokes at Caitlyn and Vi and they’re just like “???? Wtf are you talking about??” And then people have to explain and that’s how Vi finds out her sister is still alive, bc she’s shitting all over the Kiramman name by just. Being her. And pretending to be Caitlyn. While being herself. “Caitlyn Kiramman” isn’t as fearsome as it was before anymore bc now people just associate the name with Jinx and her chaos rather that the Caitlyn Kiramman
#tell me she wouldn’t#tell me jinx wouldn’t do this just to fuck with cait#also yeah she’s 100% alive and traveling the world and seeing every damn therapist in runeterra#or whatever the name is#once she’s unpacked her trauma and on meds she’ll come back and see everyone#but for now she’s seeing the world#TRUST 🙏🙏🙏#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#kinda#jinx arcane#caitlyn kiramman#powder arcane#violet arcane#vi arcane#while she’s gone Ekko and the professor are working on a way to crack time travel without the use of the arcane#he wants to go back in time and save his and jinx’s daughter TRUST GUYS TRUST 🙏🙏🙏#that’s why the explosion paused on that one frame. bc Ekko and dingleberry went back to snatch Isha#thats when jinx comes back and reunited with everyone#when she sees Isha she thinks her meds stopped working but then Isha is running at her and grabbing onto her leg and her touch is so REAL#and jinx just falls to her knees and sobs as she holds her baby once again#okay okay okay that’s a whole other post I have to make let me shut up#EDIT FUCK WAIT THE PROFESSOR IS DEAD#it was just Ekko then#a father with a mission#good for him
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What's so funny about Jinx smelling Vander's jacket to me is not even that it's inconsistent with the story at this point (i. e. Vander is alive so there is no reason for her to smell his jacket, plus she didn't have a close relationship with him anyway), but because we already had a coat for her to interact with that was established IN SEASON 1 FINALE. SHE TOOK SILCO'S COAT OFF OF HIM. WHERE DID IT GO????? And most importantly why Jinx doesn't care about it at all despite her still coming to his office to "talk" with him? Like. You would think that Jinx, who still keeps keepsakes of her lost loved ones, would take some of Silco's things to remind her of him, but nah. We need a stupid thing with Vander and Silco's jackets where she doesn't even properly interact with the right one.
#also it's a personal pet peeve of mine that they should've given Jinx his cravat. because it represents his trauma (being strangled by a-#close person) and how he's coping with it this way. showing that nobody can do this to him again. but then Jinx kills him and. yeah#albeit unintentionally but it's just a throughline with Silco that he always suffers the most at the hands of the people he loves the most#so if jinx took it it would both serve as a keepsake and a reminder of what he's gone through and that despite thas he never gave up#and that she must keep fighting as well. no matter for who of what. the main thing she should always remember is to fight and survive no#matter how badly you were hurt or by whom. your goals your love and who you are at your core shouldn't change no matter what#keep going. keep fighting. keep being yourself my dear daughter because you are perfect#and yeah his coat should've been implemented in her design too you can't imagine how pissed off i was when i saw her costume and blimp at#the end of s2. yeah yeah screw me specifically i guess whatever#arcane critical#arcane season 2#arcane#silco arcane#silco#jinx arcane#silco and jinx#upd: oh yeah i forgot. taking his cravat from him would also mean that despite his efforts to nevel let his affections for others hurt him-#he still couldn't control this because. well. you can't really choose how much you love someone and trust someone. it just happens#it would add so much sauce and flavor to his tragedy#guuyyyys i'm insane about themmmm
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[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]
saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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I do feel it might be important to point out-
MAG100:
MARTIN: Sorry again that the Archivist isn’t actually in today, um… but I should be… absolutely fine to take your statement if it, um, if that’s okay with you?
LYNNE: Er… yeah.
We don’t actually see it happen, but it’s very likely that Martin introduced himself to Lynne/Celia with his full name here before turning the tape on – he already knows her first and last name to do the statement intro a moment later.
MAG190:
CELIA: Sorry, we haven’t been introduced, you are…?
GEORGIE: Oh, um, of course, sorry. This is –
ARCHIVIST: Jonathan. Jon. Sims.
MARTIN: Uh, Martin. Hello!
…And she gets Jon’s full name in the tunnels, as well as a reminder that a “Martin” associated with the Institute is traveling with him. It’s impossible to say how much she remembers from the time before the apocalypse, of course, but I do think it’s likely that Celia has known Jon and Martin’s names this whole time, and has simply been waiting for the right moment to bring Sam in to help her look for them in this new world, too.
#what i’m saying is i don’t think this is proof that she’s found any info on them#she’s just starting her search#i also think its relevant that she's dropping this right after sam says hes 'all in' and a few days after#he said hed do anything to help her and jack#hes earned enough trust to be let in on some of the deeper mysteries#the magnus protocol#tmagp spoilers#22 mixed signals#original post#my magnus protocol stuff#magnus protocol speculation/analysis#celia ripley#the magnus archives#<- for folks blocking spoilers#my magnus archives stuff#100 i guess you had to be there#190 scavengers#<- for me :)
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i was rereading through arlong park as you do, and remembering this moment gutpunched me. like i already know nami is dead-set on fixing everything alone and not asking for help because she's afraid of hurting the people she loves but like this is why
basically the last thing she did before being taken to join arlong's crew was ask for help. and even genzo, who's like a father to her, strong, and a leader, someone she trusts, was fucking powerless to do anything. this is what happens when you make other people help you, nami. this is what happens when you cry. if you want to save them you can't do that anymore. this arc is fucking insane (positive)
#and then she couldn't ask for help again for eight years. FUCK man!!!!!!!!#nami makes me so sadddddd i love herrrrrr#i love her story and how she learns the importance of friendship and being a burden on other people... and is able to trust in that again#because thats just how it is having relationships with other people!!#i love how much of this story is like. letting people do things for you because they want to#marineford made me cry so much for that precise reason#arlong park is such a perfect perfect end to the east blue saga... setting all this up as the first big story climax...#arlong park#nami
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Roshambogames Teammate tierlist 👍
its basically just my incredibly biased personal opinion on who i think ro would work well w in a team. (mapicc gets his own tier bc he is mapicc.)
#lifesteal#roshambogames#and yes i actually have reasoning for every single one of my placements#but i dont feel like writing an extensive post so ill explain some of the interesting ones here#yes the tag monster is back at it again LOL#N E ways! lets start w minute bc i gen think they could never last as teammates. esp w other people in the team as well#minute literally doesnt trust ro to stay loyal to anyone if mapicc exists on the server#its why i think that if ro ever joined the empire it wouldve been the beginning of the end for it bc even on the same team#minutes inherent in distrust in ro's loyalty [to anyone who isnt mapicc] would accelerate the teams inevitable downfall#but like thats only in a world where ro played the server LOL i wanna make a post abt this still bc i think abt it a lot#ANYWAYS next we have flame!! i actually rly think theyd be hella compatible#if ro locked tf in i do actually think he and flame could do some dastardly things to the server#ro is a creative and flame is someone who is incredibly loyal and has the strength to makr their shared ideas a reality#tho i think theyd also balance on the very thin line of “die with me or die by my hands” bc i cant imagine them splitting peacefully#either they end the server together or ro is banned by flame himself. no in between LMFAO#and for the last person ill talk abt hannah bc i feel like he and hannah would actually mesh rly well???#but only if they have other teammates too bc ro is very busy and hannah only rly plays when shes asked to#so they need teammates who play the server to act as the glue for them LOL#but like ya i feel like theyd bounce ideas off each other really well?? like hannah is similar to flame in her loyalty#and ro's willingness to do projects w her would encourage hannah in doing more on the server and having plans of her own#i also think they mesh well personality wise bc ro is silly and hannah needs someone to be silly w bc she gets stressed easily#tho that can easily backfire bc ro's silliness may stress her out More in certain situations so like .#they def need other teammates to balance them out LMFAO#okay im done being the tag monster thank u if u read my tag yapping#i have a headache LOL
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What will I do when I don't have you? When I finally get what I deserve
"Oceanographer's Choice," The Mountain Goats
ref used^^^
#IF YOU SAW ME POST IT BEFORE I FIXED THE FACES NO YOU DIDNT#anyway i do have thoughts about kami. a lot of them#yes let me stress that is kami not maka#see you can tell shes a mom because of her anime mom haircut#ANYWAY#i dont feel like i did this ref justice but thats partially bcos im drawing in such an anime style#what can ya do#spirit albarn#kami albarn#soul eater#also i know the faces look weird i cant draw profiles for my life#trust me theyre a lot better than they were in the initial sketch#my art#mine
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☆ i dream of embers
{☆} characters arlecchino {☆} notes no au, drabble, gender neutral reader {☆} warnings none {☆} word count 1.1k
The House of the Hearth is quiet — or, if you really wanted to be precise, the rats scuttling through the walls are working around the bubble you exist in. The children dare not tempt fates hand unless you asked for them by name, a contradiction. An order to the rules — they mustn't approach you with trivialities, but they must listen if you speak. Your words carry more weight than gold in this house, whether you know it or not.
A tenuous position.
You haven't done anything to earn their reverence, their almost acrid fear — but Arlecchino has. She wields her silver tongue with as much ease as her polearm, ensuring your care in her absence. Her devotion, her service, is felt in the warmth of her chambers, the silks she adorns you with, the bed so soft you feel as though you melt into it. A gift, a promise — a gilded cage need not be something undesirable.
You've grown used to the encumbrance of her presence, these days. The deep timbre of her voice, honeyed yet melting into something rougher, quieting into haunting silence as if she seeks not to disturb you. Dim candlelight is all that illuminates her broad frame as she slowly presses the door open and closed behind her, pallid skin streaked with darkening red, her bottom lip smeared with it like lipstick. There is a tension to her shoulders even when she sets aside her polearm, out of sight and out of mind, harsh lines on her face visible in the deep furrow of her thin brows.
Here, she let's the weariness settle deep into her bones — it's just the two of you, even if she hasn't acknowledged you at all. Still, it's a vulnerability she shows no other, even if that vulnerability is hidden behind layers of barbed wire and teeth.
You watch rather idly from the bed as she wets a cloth in a basin of water, the bed creaking beneath you as your feet sink into the plush rug beneath. You know from experience that trying to help her is like trying to soothe a wild dog, but your knuckles brush over the sharp line of her cheek anyway, free hand stealing the soaking cloth from her hands when her jaw flexes and tenses beneath the pads of your fingers.
It is only then that she looks down at you, eyes as sharp as blades yet so indescribably warm — like a flame licking at your skin, burning so deep you feel it linger for weeks after. Arlecchino is not soft, far from it — but she blunts her jagged edges for you anyway, brushes her lips against your knuckles and allows you a moment of adoration. Carves her worship bone deep in the ghost of her touch against your lower back as she leans down, let's you wash away the blood certainly not her own, never blinking as if you'd simply up and leave if she stopped looking at you for even the smallest moment.
You are well aware she is caging you in. You let her.
Though she is still stiff as a board up to the moment you set the washcloth over the side of the basin, her jaw flexing again, a moment of consideration given. She is not used to soft and brittle things, though — not used to touch that does not lead to steel at her throat, in her gut, carving out softness like a butcher carves up meat, section by section.
But this affliction of affection is stronger than the discomfort, at times.
You almost half consider letting her take the room and have a night of proper rest, but she is faster than you — a calloused hand tilts your head back, half lidded eyes glinting beneath the weight of exhaustion, her thumb firm against your bottom lip. She could kill you without even blinking, you are aware, but she is nothing but careful with her touch — not soft, not Arlecchino, but there is adoration in her touch. Like thumbing a locket portrait, trying to imprint their features into memory by touch alone.
Her touch is fleeting, but the warmth lingers long after — you don't need to be touching to feel the weight of her attention. She stokes the flames of the dying fire, has one of the children bring a fresh pot of tea, lingers even when she doesn't have to. You're sure her desk in her office is far more comfortable to work at, but she'd crammed a small desk into the room anyway, stayed even long after you fell asleep most nights. You never did get to stay up long enough to notice her slip in beside you, nor wake up early enough to find her there with you, but the heat lingers — she leaves breakfast at your bedside table, a small note of affection if she's feeling particularly sappy. Even when you don't see her, she makes sure you feel her presence however she can.
Neither of you need to speak to express it. The silence is..oddly comfortable, filled by the shift of paper or scratch of a pen, the clink of a cup or crackle of fire. It's a little too easy to get lost in watching her work, masking a smile whenever she glanced back at you with a question on the tip of her tongue that goes unsaid.
It's better that way, you both think. The silence was best left undisturbed — as if trying to break it would be like breaking the mirror to each others lives. You don't busy yourself in the affairs of the House of the Hearth, and she doesn't make you. It's better that way, too. Maybe that makes you naive, blind even, to the bodies at her feet piled so high she could drown, but you don't want to give up this fragile tranquility.
So you let the dull scratch of a pen lull you to sleep, try not to smile too much when a hand reaches out in uncertainty to cup your cheek, thumb brushing over your cheek with so much affection it makes it hard to breathe.
It's a tenuous balance, but come the next night you will wipe the blood from her cheek again and she will care for you the only way she knows how — distant service.
And when you wake up to an empty bed, warm despite the fires long burned out, you'll still feel her presence in the allure of a warm drink and pastries at your bedside, a note tucked beneath the plate.
Just like the day before, and just as you expect tomorrow to be. But one day you'll gently pull apart the barbed wire and be let in — not today, no, but someday. It's a slow process, but you're patient enough to wait — and when she let's you in, you'll tend to the scars that it left like you've always done.
One step at a time, one day.
#fic tag#genshin impact x reader#arlecchino x reader#genshin x reader#gender neutral reader#so yall know how i said i probably wasnt gonna be writing like. at all. um.#so i lied <3#IN MY DEFENSE ARLECCHINO IS HOLDING ME HOSTAGE YALL#dangled furi like a set of keys as a wishing ritual w just enough pulls 2 guarantee c0r1 CLORINDE#won on weapon banner..cool i have pulls left over so i can get a guarantee for next banner bc my luck SUCKS#let me friends choose. they chose arle banner. 0 pity first ten pull. CAPTURING RADIANCE C1 ARLE#sweating bullets. keep pulling. 50/50 win for c2 arle. end call#do ONE extra ten pull to try for c6 CHEV and get ANOTHER 0 PITY FIVE STAR. qiqi#guaranteed c3 furi now#i had enough pulls for 2 guaranteed 5 stars at high pity. i got FIVE.#i wasnt even really interested in arle cons but she had other plans man#sorry 2 whoever i stole arle from TWICE my bad#now im obligated to do a 5 part deep dive dissecting her brain#this is just the appetizer. i need distant arle who doesnt know how to function in a relationship. loser (affectionate)#arle just going well it kinda works for the kids surely it will work this time too right..#(spoilers it doesnt. she gets dragged into being loved and cared for kicking and screaming.)#but also butch who does acts of service as a love language ough............shes such a weirdo i need her#also no angst just arle being Traumatized tm. acting like a strict and unfeeling father...GET THERAPY!!!!#i could expand on how her story relates to gender and her masculinity but if i keep yapping ill hit the tag limit LMAOOOOOO#also lesbianism. bc arle is a lesbian this is true AND real trust me hoyo said so themselves guys#arle is like peak butch lesbian i am not even kidding#okay im packing up see yall in 6 months
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