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Good morning Tumblr, it is very much possible i just started off my day with rescuing a kitten and walking across the entire city with the little beast in my hands on the most active day of the week while wearing my many many many sizes oversized pajama t-shirt. Living life to the fullest
#im a massive loner so i know how to avoid busy paths#she was asleep the entire time...#my little baby#tjis is to say#i was gonna post quite a lot today but idk if i will now HAHAHA#dl
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R.I.P. Astrud Gilberto, March 29, 1940 - June 5, 2023. Seen here, performing "The Girl from Ipanema" in 1964 with Stan Getz on tenor sax, Gary Burton on vibraphone, Gene Cherico on bass, and Joe Hunt on drums.
#astrud gilberto#r.i.p.#the girl from ipanema#music#bossa nova#stan getz#jazz#samba#childhood memories#damn - hearing this song after so long literally unlocked#childhood memories from kindergarten? of music they played at nap time#not the school or the teachers but someone who lived nearby#close enough that we could hear it gently playing in the background#at 12 noon sharp every day for an hour#and i can remember that whenever it wasnt playing#all of us kids had trouble falling asleep#whenever i do hear it now (which isnt at all often)#it immediately relaxes my brain and my entire body#lol - they pavlove’d a conditioned response into us#hopefully there isnt another song ive forgotten that automatically turns on a murderous rage#anyway - the point here is that im almost 39#and (my fault) but this is the 1st time ive ever even seen what she looked like
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fuck every other 5star prediction i need saya vs syuri in the semifinals to get footage for an olivia rodrigo obsessed amv
#o#saya going full pop punk hot topic in the wake of utami leaving her and destroying the legacy of one of the longest running factions in#stardom because she wasnt good enough or smart enough to hold it down.#DELICIOUS.#fascinated by her. failgirl of all time#need her to get fullyyyyy fully psychosexual crazy in a big match against syuri#trying to figure out why she wasnt good enough for utami to stay. why utami was never as happy with saya as she was in that angle with syur#whether or not she can taste utami off syuri's mouth if she can just get one good hit in. -_- anyway#and obviously with syuri on the warpath against hate now she'll be looking for saya's blood too#i know shes been asleep on my side in your bed and i can feel it im starin at her like i wanna get hurt. hello. can anyone hear me.#i want saya to get weirder with momo too........#utami off in another company having a queen of queens match with io shirai#and neither saya nor momo's names even get mentioned in that conversation of who was the best#i need saya and momo as shitty evil rebounds and theyre both miserable the entire time taking it out on each other pretending they wanted#this and they havent ruined their lives/careers because they were too scared to really try#soundtracked by olivia rodrigo bad idea right. obviously.#omedia#owrestling
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peach (my cat) is having a full-day vet appointment to scan and possibly remove some teeth (the perks of only being allowed wet food)
completely unrelated, but anything regarding peach’s health or her being somewhere else or anything even mildly off with her routine or behaviour is probably by biggest anxiety and panic trigger
#not an exaggeration. peach stuff is more likely to give me panic attacks and entire breakdowns than anything else#like i have one other contender that’s a proper severe phobia. like panic attacks where i am completely convinced that i’m dying#but luckily that’s very situational whereas the peach anxiety is always there (because the situation of having her is always there)#i was gonna say the peach anxiety is also severely complicated by ocd but that’s probably more true for the other phobia i have so nevermind#but i will say. related to the ocd part. the fact that i am posting about this is a step forward for me#which i might talk about later once she’s home#hopefully they don’t need to extract any teeth and can just clean them#the last thing i need is for her to have trouble eating for a while#for context she had kidney stones a few years ago and basically each time she had about a 60% chance to survive#and there was NOTHING they could do other than just keeping her on fluids and hoping she passed them#(or $15k surgery to put in tubes to bypass her existing tubes. whatever tf the kidney tubes are called. which we couldn’t afford)#and whenever she had a new stone she would start by throwing up anything she ate or drank then stopping eating and drinking entirely#soooo i get stressed about stuff lmao 🙃🙃🙃🙃#anyway this is a good reason for me to be nocturnal so i can be asleep while she’s out rather than stressing#personal
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the way people talk about alzheimers and dementia on here as if it's some magical angsty whump trope is disgusting. unless you have watched it murder some of your closest loved ones and ravage your entire family then you have no right to be romanticizing it like that. you all make me SICK. I HATE YOU! I HATE ALZHEIMERS! IT IS TAKING MY GREAT AUNT JAN AWAY FROM ME, IT IS MURDERING HER, AND I JUST HAVE TO SIT BACK AND WATCH FANDOM BLOGGERS POST ABOUT HOW IT'S SO ANGSTY FOR THEIR STUPID SHIP TROPES. KEEP YOUR FILTH OUT OF THE TAGS THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FOR AWARENESS. i pray you never have to suffer through the slow death of your family and friends. you are lucky to have the privilege to be talking about it like it's just a plot device. i wish i could be as naive as you are. i wish my family was still whole. i wish i could have aunt jan back. i wish i could take her place. it's just not fair. it has never, ever, EVER been fair.
#i said goodbye to her today. she was asleep the entire time. i petted her hair and said one of her favorite jokes.#i couldn't stop sobbing. alzheimers has taken everything from her. taken everything from my family.#she has a DNR and did not wish to be kept alive longer than necessary. she is on morphine for any pain until she is gone.#my mom and her family have been over there spending time with her. she always liked to be around people.#one of the last things she said to my mom before falling into a deep sleep was asking her to please stay by her side.#soon shes going to be gone and theres nothing we can do about it. she was taken from us. she's not here anymore.#shes breathing but shes not alive its horrible its horrible its HORRIBLE I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS#WHY DID THIS DISEASE HAVE TO MURDER HER?? WHY DID IT HAVE TO STEAL HER AWAY FROM US??#I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE I JUST WANT TO GO WITH HER I DONT WANT HER TO BE GONE I DONT WANT THIS#WHY COULDNT IT BE ME INSTEAD OF HER. WHY????#evie.txt ♡
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someone: how angsty do you want your identity reveal scenario to be?
me: so what if right after Anya's powers are revealed Twilight asks her why she tricked him into adopting her, if she was put into it by someone else in order to expose him, and Anya tries to tell him she wanted to help and he asks why would you want to help me and she's like "because you want a peaceful world where children don't cry" and he nearly has a flashback triggered by that and she runs and hugs his legs saying she wants to help and be good and Twilight just. Pushes her away. Gently and without physically hurting her but emotionally it's a massacre. And he sees her devastated face because of his rejection and realizes he has now caused her the pain he never wanted to see on another child's face, and he thanks whatever lucky stars he doesn't deserve that Yor is there because he cannot process anything else and just leaves out the door, leaving Anya to bawl in Yor's arms :)
#he would eventually drag his ass back home#but Yor would be so outraged she would slap him so hard his jaw would nearly dislocate#and look look I have an entire story planned for this#like Yor stays with Anya all day because she wouldn't stop crying#they call Yor for an assignment and she has to say no#cause she cannot leave Anya even with a babysitter at the state she's in#and then the Shopkeeper is pissed and orders one of his assassins to poison Anya#and she ends up in the hospital#Yor and Loid find out who poisoned her and Loid goes to kill the ppl responsible#but it was a TRAP! Shopkeeper captures him and orders Yor to kill him#but Yor kills Shopkeeper instead!! less for Loid's sake and more because of what he did to Anya#they cover it all up and they go back to the hospital#Loid has a breakdown and cries next to an unconscious Anya telling her how sorry he is about what he did to her#and that it's his fault that she was poisoned#she wakes up and he apologizes again and says he'll understand if she's mad#but she just hugs him and for the first time HE HUGS HER BACK and they're both crying#and eventually he falls asleep next to her on her hospital bed#Yor finds them sleeping like that and decides to give him another cautious chance#Spy x Family#sxf plot bunny#I can't wait for this to actually happen and for me to learn about it in seven years when it'll happen in the anime *clown emoji*
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why does my friend play rhythm games on silent...... literally deranged and insane.......
#fish.txt#sorry i should be asleep but i just found out she's been play sekai on mute THIS ENTIRE TIME
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I think spencer had a crush on caleb before they left high school, but it wasn't really about him then. She thought he and hanna were perfect for each other, and she craved that type of relationship. She saw how caleb was as a boyfriend, and that was what she wanted for herself. She knew it was unobtainable, and that also made it safe. She felt disconnected from Toby and foundational parts of their relationship were no longer true. She didn't think he cared where she was or even remembered that they were in a relationship most of the time. She no longer felt safe with him, but she did feel safe with caleb. She watched caleb work on himself and try to help hanna, while roby was nowhere in sight and not checking in with her. He represented everything she wanted before she realized he was everything she wanted.
#muse: spencer hastings#meta: spencer hastings#thinking about tyler & troian talking about there always being a spark and them making sense#but in general he was one of her best friends#and that little crush was there bc shes not blind & hes caring empathetic everything she wants#it was about the idea of him and the relationship they could have#but when they found each other in madrid the stars literally aligned and she let herself fall completely for him#it didn't take any time at all#dyn: it's like my heart stopped until you (spaleb)#spaleb defender forever#anti spoby#anti toby cavanaugh#just to be safe#s5-6 is just a bad time for them and spencer feels entirely out of control#and caleb provides that safety she wants from toby but isn't getting#anyway tiffany is asleep so the dash gets my trying to sleep thoughts
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mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW
#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again.#sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does#like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful#while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child#like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all.#imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child#only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you#his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you#agree deep down#and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept#but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide#and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke#and you discarded it and got a new one#and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow#and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it#until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly#and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different#and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child#and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da#and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand#but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs!#so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee#his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing#and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately.#but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when.#like. imagine that. jesus dude.#like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love#or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do#with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here.#but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like
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y'all i slept for 21+ hours uninterrupted? haven't done that in a a while.
#i did take extra trazodone bc taking it the first time is what triggered immediate vomitting lol i guess it still managed to take effect#i didnt even think it had time to reach my stomach or anything that's wild#unless i just slept that long bc i was so ill#that happens too#tyrell knew i was asleep that whole time and she didnt let arlo out give him food or anything :(((#he just held it im so sad#i know she cant feed him his food bc he wont let her but she could have brought him human snacks or dog treats from outside of the room :(#i know helping with their dogs is how i earn my keep since i dont help with the mortgage but like#he's a libing creature and his parent is essentially comatose how could you just leave him to hold it for nearly an entire day :(#he's too polite to wake me even if i were wakeable#is it reasonable to be upset about that?#we function as a family not as roommates#arlo is very often left out of familial things#keep in mind though arlo chomps tyrell sometimes#but not when shes letting him outside and stuff its only if like#like she cant put a cone on him#but she can do normal things like bringing him outside and stuff and she says shes not afraid of him#and has admitted that it's been her fault for the chomps bc she wasnt watching for the signals#what im saying is its not dangerous for her to let him out and she is not afraid to do so#she does when i ask her to when im very ill#but i couldnt ask while unconscious
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Ink October day five: Repose
Cessation or absence of activity, movement, or animation.
To lie at rest.
To lie dead.
#Xion#kingdom hearts xion#kh xion#xion kh#xion kingdom hearts#kingdom hearts#kh#blue boi draws#ink october#ink October 2023#ink October 2023 day 5#aug Xion. my girl Xion my daughter Xion.#also why do the org beds look like funeral alters. I swear those things have got to be so uncomfortable#Xion gets to sleep in a proper bed for the first time post kh3 and she’s fascinated by how comfy it is.#Lea gets her and Roxas the softest pyjamas and they get so many stuffed animals and they are enchanted by the Good Textures#also Lea getting to sleep in a proper bed for the first time in over a decade and getting jumpscared by the springs in the mattress or smth#anyway extremely off topic ramble over this drawing is about the time she sleeps like the dead for 21ish days#in the cutscene comp they made for 1.2.5.whatever the collection is called she is completely still the entire time it’s creepy#when in actual days she moves a bit and is positioned more naturally like she’s actually asleep#it’s a weird little difference but I noticed it all the same.
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daily whistlepaw until ah becomes PoV day 1167
I think I finally understand how people feel when around a crush, can't say I enjoy it
#warrior cats#whistlepaw#windclan#medicine cat apprentice#this isn't my first crush lol but this one has had me feel the strongest of feelings (and might be my first genuine crush lol)#the fact I have been building up A Lot of stress for the entire week probably didn't help.#and the fact my stomach hurt is also probably at least partially to explain by the fact I barely ate last night#but MAN seeing my (latest) crush in such a pretty dress and then go on stage and play (a goddess!!!!!!! she's a goddess)#(I already bought tickets to go see the full thing; I will die but I will die happy (I hope))#but yeah I struggled for a good 2 hours to fall asleep and also had stomach weirdness happening the next morning#man it was not fun#(and then she came to sit next to me during class and I had to play it cool (I was too deranged on sleep deprivation to really care about#being my typical brand of weird but I do sometimes feel like an idiot around her and feel guilty because then I fear that she finds me#annoying and will hate me and I will fail this again (losing a friendship over a crush once was not that fun lol) and Traumas don't help#either at all so uh I'm just trying to spend time with her I just always feel a bit worried that I'm annoying her and it's consuming my bra#I do also still feel a little guilty about having this crush; internalized homophobia/issues around sexuality are hard to shake off#and while it's very normal and stuff I never dare to go the entire way when my brain conjures fantasies that are a little too risqué#I just feel guilty man I know I shouldn't but still it fucking sucks in my brain#and god talking about this in therapy would be a mess#I might have to eventually but I don't wanna#anyways; wild vent in the tags aside; yay a whis!
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Babysitting my coworker’s 5 month old baby tonight while he and his wife go see the Who’s Tommy on Broadway. He was like thank you so much we really need this — upon further questioning, they haven’t had a night out (sans baby) since she was born 😨 I am literally doing God’s work but more importantly I’m building my social karma for when I move to ******** in T-2 years because he promised to help me find a job
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when you suddenly realize that you have no idea what your dnd characters personality traits are 🧍
#like yes i play her....no i couldnt describe her personality to you#except maybe shes the responsible on of the group but not the leader?#and shes a lesbian but unfortunately femme lesbian is not exactly a personality trait#having this realization because im trying to make her a playlist#but none of these songs are her vibes#cant ask the crew for their opinions either cause its like 3am so everyones asleep#unfortunately she has side character energy :(#theres an entire thesis i have in my brain about what characters i create to be rp support characters but we arent here for that#good news is that ive played so much ttrpgs that i can autopilot a personality bad news.......i can autopilot so well they just exist#like i can yes and like a motherfucker and come up with hills to die on on the spot#but i need to actually be....on the spot any time outside that im like hhhhhhh idk what id do#gonna go play 20 questions with myself rlly quick brb
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A cute thing I like to imagine with sashamilla is just them holding each other. There’s the obvious “moments after a traumatic mission experience and all you can do is silently grasp the closest to you.” But I was more thinking of lovey-dovey random excuses to pick up my significant other bridal style.
Their coworkers have of course seen Sasha and Milla lift each other up after an emergency where one of them got hurt, but they’ve noticed it’s different between the two of them. Sasha’s brought in a lot of suspects, criminals, terrorists, test subjects, and even other agents who’ve been incapacitated or injured back to the Motherlobe. And whenever he does that, they’re always floating near him being held up by his telekinesis. But agents at headquarters have taken careful note that whenever Agent Vodello specifically gets injured or incapacitated, he’s always holding her in his arms. And with very visible physical strain mind you.
Milla bringing people back to headquarters by carrying them or holding their hand is not strange by any means. She’s one of the best people to deploy for a rescue mission or just to bring in new psychics because she has the ability to easily put others at ease. Agents will just chuckle amongst themselves that Agent Vodello has another kid now everytime it happens. What did turn heads, however, is that one time she burst in off the landing pad with an unconscious Agent Nein in her arms like he was weightless. She yelled that they needed help, and everyone for five seconds just looked at this display before she impatiently just started sprinting, yes, sprinting towards the infirmary with him still in her arms.
These observations have left the employees at the Motherlobe with four possibilities about Nein’s and Vodello’s strength levels.
Milla is actually pretty heavy, and that’s why Sasha struggles to lift her up.
Sasha is actually pretty physically weak, and that’s why he struggles to lift Milla.
Milla is ridiculously physically strong and thus can easily lift Sasha and sprint with that extra weight like it’s no big deal.
Sasha is ridiculously light, so Milla doesn’t struggle with lifting his weight.
None of these theories are totally right nor totally wrong.
The reality of the situation is that since Sasha relies on telekinesis so much, he doesn’t have a lot of upper body strength so he’s just not used to physically lifting weight in general. Also he’s committed to the idea of lifting Milla up with physical strength. Something about absentmindedly lifting everything/everyone, but Milla is different and so he actually wants to put more effort in. Though every time he does Milla has to ask if he’s alright, and is constantly reminding him that she is not going to like him any less if he can’t lift her. Over time he gets better at lifting her. But he’s probably accidentally dropped her at least once or twice and they’re both glad she’s a master levitator.
And for Milla, she’s not ridiculously physically strong nor is Sasha really light, Milla’s just smart. She can achieve the goal of having her boyfriend in her arms without any physical strain by just… using her telekinesis to support his weight and still have him in her arms. That’s all. The reason he seems weightless in her arms is because she’s making her brain literally do all the heavy lifting. This also means if she were to let go of him and step away he'd just float, suspended in the air. But surprisingly, not many people have figured out her little trick yet. She does have great joy though with being able to lift her 7’2 boyfriend and have people gawk at her strength though.
Back to the “random excuses” from the beginning… Sasha constantly has at least one reason why he’s holding Milla. Whether it be that she fell asleep and he’s just moving her, or it’s technically an emergency, or she felt tired “to the point of collapse,” or that she’s just frozen in fear from a flashback and needs to be in a place where she feels less threatened… he always has a “totally reasonable” explanation. Which is kinda redundant when he mostly just lifts her up when they’re alone, because he doesn’t have to justify it to anyone. Though oftentimes Milla will just request to be carried, which he honors most of the time after some banter about the “World’s Foremost Levitator needing mobility assistance.”
Meanwhile Milla doesn’t need one at all. She’ll just randomly sneak behind a corner, run up and pick him up with a twirl. She’d laugh as Sasha just looks up at her with a bewildered expression and asks “yes?” And she’d just smile and say “hi.” And he’d just break into a dumb grin responding back with “hello to you too, Milla.” He does get a warning whenever she’s about to do it, a telepathic message along the lines of “prepare yourself” and three seconds later he’d suddenly be swept off his feet. He’s never really concerned about her dropping him, but does get a brief moment of panic when he realizes he’s not securely on the ground.
I had a little drawing idea(that I don’t think I’m doing anytime soon, so here you go) of Sasha catching Milla after she faints mid-levitating while on a mission, which is supposed to be romantic and smooth and is actually successful, he does catch her. She has this flustered moment that they share a nice moment together before they’re back into battle. The less romantic thing about the exchange though was the impact and height of Milla’s fall actually broke Sasha’s leg. Everyone on the mission found out when he was hesitant to stand up and apply any amount of pressure to his leg to walk back to the jet. It’s okay though because Milla got her turn to carry him back. Meanwhile she’s laughing telepathically that she wouldn’t mind getting used to him in her arms while his leg recovers.
#psychonauts#psychonauts 2#milla vodello#sasha nein#sashamilla#headcanons#has anyone made that meme of “if I run up to X they’ll surely catch me” but with sasha and Milla#but it’s Milla saying it and the other person would be like “yeah obviously. Sasha doesn’t have any issues with surprise telekinesis”#”no I mean he’ll catch me in his arms” “no way” and she does it and plays out the same#i think it would be funny#I had a cute scene idea of them hanging out one one of their couches and Milla falls asleep and sasha tries really hard to actually-#-carrying her up to one of their beds because he doesn’t want her to get like back problems but he’s very unequipped to do so#he’s really struggling the entire time and when Milla finally gets to lie down in a bed he realizes she woke up halfway through and was-#-pretending to see what he would do and also tryin to contain her laughter and joy
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taking in a kitten off the street is sooooooo stressful but you see them behave like a normal kitten ONCE and it's like oh the world is beautiful and we are all capable of healing
#it's possible she will be nervous about people her entire life#BUT#she can play and she can lounge in sunbeams and when the stars align she falls asleep on my hand#the joy i felt watching her go ballistic about her pink fluffy ball#like the time spent sitting on the floor in the closet with her paid off#gently dangling a piece of string in front of her carrier until she swatted at it was worth it#tatum i love you i'm so happy you're going to live a normal indoor life
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