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hinamie · 4 months ago

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Your face in profile, with a look I'd never seen

jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

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ihatebrainstorm · 6 months ago

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wowowowoowoo teleporting the idea of Rogues Gallery! First Aid as Jenna Duffy/The Carpenter into all of your brains wowowowoowowwooo

Plus couple panels from Li'l Gotham #18 to get her gist vvv (Basically she's the person all villains hire to build their lairs and weapons)

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lunarharp · 8 months ago

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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petrovna-zamo · 1 year ago

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#go off #she had the time today #this is the Katya I know and love and miss #who’s outspoken on important issues #people were really missing the point that she said ‘the fool’#so I’m glad she cleared it up with full support #about fucking time #it’s never too late #tired of people using the lgbt community as a gotcha #being against genocide is not conditional #katya #katya zamo #katya zamolodchikova

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merevide · 5 months ago

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Nahum 3:6: I will cast abominable filth upon you, make you vile, and make you a spectacle. (Intro to Nope (2022)) / Interview with The Vampire (2022-): I Could Not Prevent It (2x07)

#connecting the themes of nope and how the underlying message of #exploration and addiction to the glamour of said explotation and particularly the exploitation of black people #(and their contributions to media) while treating people as less then human for it (literally the exploitation of animals in the movie)#and how it ties into the explotation that louis claudia and madeline go through this episode as people jeer for their deaths #being told it’s ‘fake’ and a ‘show’ while the coven doesn’t for no reason.#i’m too tired to speak on it #also how claudia’s last words are of the play that she was forced to perform in. yeah #interview with the vampire #nope 2022 #my text

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mementoasts · 1 year ago

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i'm obsessed with sixth fisherman daigo

#WHAT IF I SAID THIS IS THE SECOND CUTEST DAIGO AFTER EMO DAIGO...... TIRED DISHEVELED DAIGO FISHING WITH HIS GAY UNCLES.....#SHES JUST SO CUUUUUTE AND THE TURTLENECCKKKK AAAAAAAAAAA #there's so much going on man so much so much i'm still feeling ill abt the summit. and have yall SEEN the jjk leaks #AND SEPARATE WAYS IS TOMORROW IM STILL FEELING FERAL ABT THAT TOO AAUAGUFUH #ok ok im normal im normal. hey what if masato showed up in 8 wouldn’t that be cra-- OOKKAY CALM DOWN SHAY IM NORMAL #rgg #dojima daigo #yakuza #like a dragon infinite wealth #the void given form

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mabaris · 2 months ago

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no youre completely right - im a gay (trans)man and i legit wanna see so much more about the women bc There Is So Little. I wanna make a lesbian oc who gets bent in half by taash. im very normal.

i’m just tired man!!!! it feels so obvious how disproportionate it is when you’ve got. a cast of characters that we know almost equally little about. and a few of them explode in popularity and it’s like spongebob sticking his hand out the curtain. literally all a character needs to do numbers is to be a light-skinned man

#like you bring up taash!! we know equally little abt taash and emmrich. why is one FUCKING EVERYWHERE and i’m like. scrounging for scraps #sometimes i feel like there has to be a secret other main dragon age tag that has the real stuff in it #but maybe it’s just the tumblr userbase idfk #i feel like i’ve seen a little bit more of neve since the trailer but still not anything on the level as everyone’s fave boys #and before you hit me with ‘lucanis was in a couple short stories’ harding was in the literal entire last game. and she and neve had comics #there’s obviously something to be said about character types too. a lot of people love dark and broody #vs harding keeps getting described as Girl Next Door and that’s much less popular. fine i’m not going to argue abt individual tastes #but like. neve isn’t popping off??? on the columbo fansite????#everyone’s talking about emmrich’s experiments and research but no one talks about bellara’s??#like personally. ok. lesbian opinion so take that for what it’s worth. but i don’t understand all the lucanis thirst #davrin i could understand. davrin can get it. he gets way fewer thirstposts than the other men (hmmm interesting im sure it’s nothing 🙃)#i’m just like. tired. i don’t want to say people can’t enjoy what they��re excited about #but it adds up!#i feel guilty complaining when i am also not doing a lot of Female Character Poasting but like #there’s only so much i can do as someone who can’t draw and has been too busy to keep on top of all the breaking news

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deoidesign · 6 months ago

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

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pseudophan · 1 month ago

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gonna be so sad when tonight is the first preshow space with good audio and i'm asleep because i have a psych appointment tomorrow

#life update if anyone gaf we're now at the point where i know i'm getting the adhd diagnosis and yet i STILL HAVE TO WAIT #like she just isnt sure if it's adhd or add (its norway theyre not gonna update the terms any time soon just roll with it)#and im just like. girl i don't give a fuck #its been so many years i cant do this anymore #we've talked to my fucking kindergarten teachers like 😭 they've investigated my entire life atp #to make sure i did in fact have all these issues from birth #because my word and my mum's word just isn't good enough i guess #like lets rely on the selective memories of random ass people ive encountered growing up this is ASININE #anyway my godmother had a 4h consultation the other day and got diagnosed on the spot #so now my mum is mad at her LMFAO #cause my mum's like. that bitch doesn't even have adhd. shes fine.#which i feel like is probably wrong but i agree with the sentiment #where is the deep dive investigation into her wholeass existence 😭#its cause she got to go private but they refuse to refer me to a private specialist so i have to keep going publuc #public #and if i go private on my own its too expensive plus the waitlist is years long #so. whatever. i guess.#man im so tired.#i will never ever ever forgive my psychiatrist from when i was 15 who said i probably had adhd but because i did ok in school its fine #and they wouldnt set the diagnosis #because the fact that i have papers from when i was 15 saying i don't have it is what's making this all so difficult #even though if you read all the papers it says i hit on EVERY SINGLE POINT #which is why the One Psych who listened to me is absolutely fuming losing her mind cause she can't understand why any of this happened #man i hate my fucking life lol

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coldlikethestars · 16 days ago

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#yesterday i had this moment where i cried so much and so hard in a way i haven't cried in so long #it was a moment of pure soul crushing grief. it was like i had lost my dog already. i felt like i was never gonna see her again #(she's still here. tired and sick and currently sleeping. being very loved. still here.)#i was talking to my mom and sister a couple of hours ago and they said they had a moment like that too yesterday #and i think for me that was an extremely difficult but necessary moment of acceptance #in that crying i let go of my fear and denial and fully accepted that there is no getting better this time. she will be gone soon.#and god animals are so very sensitive aren't they? because it's like my other two dogs know too.#it's like thay had that moment of acceptance as well. they were so quiet yesterday. they didn't eat all day.#it's unbearably painful. i'm extremely sad and my heart is shattered. but i'm glad that i'm at peace #no dog has ever been as happy and as loved as she has been her entire life. i'm sure of it. and me and my family are going to be okay.

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prachelley · 4 months ago

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Based on yugioh, can you draw Joey and Seto in a roleswap au please? I imagine Seto as a poor boy while Joey became wealthy and powerful. Like a teen idol or yakuza. What do you think?

Teen idol Jounouchi, the star of the family, versus the somewhat familiar guy who hungers for victory

This was super fun to do! thank you!

#i initally said it was just going to be a simple sketch but when i got to the background i realized i couldnt leave it at “simple” anymore #it took me more time than what I anticipated but it was worth it in the end!#thank you for the request!#prachelley answers #prachelley draws #jounouchi katsuya #joey wheeler #seto kaiba #ygo #yugioh #ygo fanatt #yugioh fanart #yugioh duel monsters #ygo duel monsters #this actually caused me a severe brainrot. it sounds like such an interesting au. i have many thoughts that i may share sometime #y'know what. lemme elaborate a bit. because they make me have many thoughts #seto is not as traumatized as he was in the anime since he's poor and was never adopted and he has a brother to look after #and he feels like everyone looks down on him. he's the underdog who desperately tried to climb his way up. both for him and mokuba #while jounouchi has what his anime/manga version always wishes: the economical stability to be the pillar of the family and help his sister #and i see it as a way to keep in touch with his mom too. she never quite reached out to him in the original story #and i imagine that affected him a lot. made him feel worthless. not worth the effort or the care #but now he's a star! and his family is somewhat closer than ever. even if being an idol is tiring. or if it isn't all he wants for himself #ok ok. enough rambling.

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bondagebimbo · 13 days ago

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LOVE when the pharmacy decides to fucking dick around with my meds so badly that now I’m off my mood stabilizer, my pain meds, and my fucking birth control (in a few days) because they’re insisting I should have extra fucking bottles of each one and I DONT because they don’t let me pick up more than a one month supply of narcotics at a fucking time so do explain where these extra bottles are, hmm ????? and they didn’t have enough caplyta ordered last time to even give me my usual 3 months supply of that so … ???? get your fucking heads out of your asses and give me the fucking meds you owe me ??? like ??? but I’m in a nasty headspace right now so if I call the pharmacy this morning, I’m going to be that cunt ass customer they bitch about all day because this isn’t the first time they’ve done this. in fact, the first time, they straight up committed insurance fraud by marking one of my scripts as filled and picked up WHEN, IN REALITY, THEY FUCKING LOST THE SCRIPT AND HAD NO RECORD OF IT BEING FILLED OR PICKED UP IN THEIR SYSTEM, BUT YET, MARKED IT AS SUCH AND CHARGED MY INSURANCE AN ALMOST 8 GRAND FOR THE FUCKING 3 MONTHS OF MY MOOD STABILIZER THAT I. NEVER. RECEIVED. I’m genuinely about to report this entire pharmacy to the pharmacy board because I’m so fucking done with this place. it needs to be shut the fuck down because you’re telling me, out of an entire pharmacy, y’all share the same IQ point AND dead brain cell, collectively ??? then don’t fucking work in healthcare where people rely on you to know your shit and keep track of their fucking meds because you’re just constantly making shit worse on people since you can’t seem to not fuck around with these meds and not ‘lose’ scripts. fuck out of here.

and I’m pretty much out of weed, which is usually my back up pain management method, without the money to afford a delivery order by their cut off time to order in 3 hours because I just paid my fucking bills and have SOME to go towards it, but not enough for delivery to be free, and I’d still have to walk my ass to one of the ATM’s nearby because they don’t accept my bank as a prepaid method OR any of the cards I have on my person. 🫠

I can literally feel my back spasming and seizing on and off while I’m laying on my fucking side, I’ve had a migraine with a stupid ass aura for almost a week now because chronic migraines fucking suck and i was REALLY hoping this one would be over by now, my muscle inflammations that my pain meds are supposed to limit are already beginning to start their itching deep in my muscles so soon they’ll blossom into a whole fibromyalgia fucking episode and become entirely inflamed, my joints in my hands fucking hurt because of the dreary weather so I really need to get into a rheumatologist at some point soon as well and get that shit figured out, I’m nauseas as fuck from all the pain, and I’m moody, hormonal, and just feel like fucking death physically.

I’m just. I give up.

this shit is exhausting and painful and so mentally fucking taxing to constantly deal with and I just want a fucking break from all this fucking shit. I wish I could just … not exist … for even just a little while with how fucking painful existing actually feels right now 🫠😭

#i hate that CT weed is so fucking expensive #half a fucking ounce shouldn’t cost me $250 …….. not when I can go to MA and get an ounce for $108 after tax ……..#but I don’t have a way to MA because my fucking best friend. who made plans with me OVER THE WEEKEND. HER. SHE INITIATED THEM.#canceled on me last second even though I texted her early the night before when I know she would see it 🫠#nope instead she waited from the text I sent at 6:30pm until noon the next day to cancel because her period is kicking her ass #NOT FOR FUCKING NOTHING BUT SO THE HELL IS MINE ???? AND IM ANEMIC ??? AND DEALING WITH ALL THIS EXTRA PAIN ON TOP OF IT ????#and I know I’m being irrational and insensitive because pain tolerance is a sliding scale for everyone #but like fucking come on you do this 3 out of 4 times YOU make the plans to hang out and I’m fucking over it.#plus I’m the one that always pays for everything and does she ever even OFFER to hit me back for the COUNTLESS ounces of weed I’ve got her #all because she couldn’t afford it so I said I’d cover it and she never paid me back. I’ve bought her at least a grand’s worth of weed #just over the last couple months and she’s never ONCE offered to pay me back for a single one #like ……… I don’t expect it. I give if I have it. but you can’t even just offer ??? like the invitation to pay me back would be enough to no #leave m ragingly pissed off and feeling used as an atm again for yet another ‘friend’ because they don’t even OFFER to be considerate #of course I’d say not to worry about it but it doesn’t even cross your fucking head to ask if I want anything towards it #like the next time you get paid ??? when you go and spend your own money on weed that day but can’t reimburse me for anything IVE paid for #oh and I always have to give her gas money if I even simply just want to hang out because she’s always fucking broke somehow #and she works in healthcare like bitch I know what you make and you can’t play that you don’t have enough to get by or throw me 50 bucks #towards YOUR weed that I’m buying every once in a fucking while when I’m already paying for everything fucking else #I’m so angry and I know I’m being irrational and bitchy but this is what happens when you’re tripped off your meds cold turkey #and one of them is a mood stabilizer that makes it so you DONT feel this way about people and aren’t so bitter when you’re let down 🫠🫠🫠#because now my rejection sensitive dysphoria is going to be triggered even easier than usual and I’m just.#I actually fucking give up. I don’t even know what to do here. the pain going through my body is so fucking intense #I keep losing my train of thought because everything hurts and then every once in a while a DIFFERENT pain acts up and throws itself in too #I just. I just can’t fucking win.#I hate fucking struggling with my mental state like this when I’m off my meds.#and because I have to be a month without my stabilizer/pain management/birth control it’s going to take me ANOTHER month to get readjusted #to those in my body so I won’t feel normal again until nearly fucking mid to end January the earliest #and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m going to fucking **** myself by the time I get back on these fucking meds since it’ll take that long #fucking hell I just. I give up. I give in. I’m self isolating and cutting myself off from everyone because it’ll be in THEIR best interest #for me to do so when I can’t control my mind like this. I’m so tired of feeling so fucking shitty and I’ve only been off them for two days

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secretarysong · 1 month ago

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for no reason in particular (Lying) i headcanon Mayday's obsession with Kul Fyra to be hereditary. more specifically it was Directly passed down from her mother who owned. like. almost every piece of The Goolings merchandise under the sun; shit ranging from the collectors' edition of their debut album to the drummer's autographed crash cymbal ... it was almost as if the only notable thing missing from her collection was Kul Fyra's Guitar...

#nettsy rambling #and may had inherited it after she passed #i know the Dead Parent trope is TIRED but i promise there's actual significance to it #i think the simplest way i can put it (because going into the details would require me to talk about Kul Fyra)#is that it's all supposed to be an allegory for death and rebirth #kul fyra 'died' and was reborn as tatiana qwartz #and with her ... rock music's reign over vinyl city died as well—#—but was reanimated with mayday (and zuke)#mayday's mother died at an age where may was too young to fully (begin to) process the grief #yet she lives on in all of the one-of-a-kind Goolings memorabilia she'd left behind #not only in her eyes but in her grandmama & papa's eyes too (which only spurred her slightly neurotic obsession on)#which lead her to Pretty much imprint on kul fyra #and mayday couldn't let rock die as an art under NSR's suppression of it #lest her mama's and kul fyra's memory die with it too #...#and this isn't even taking account the things i said about mayday being a lower class citizen in the shadow of NSR #the post on june 30th specifically #'the simplest way i can put it' ONE WALL OF TEXT LATER #sorry for rambling in the tags 😭😭😭#this is a display of the Ultra Nettsy Cope in retribution for the mayday backstory SCRRAAAPPPS they gave us ingame #errrmm i can elaborate on any of this if you guys want #preferably in the form of an ask okaayyy byee

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mars-ipan · 1 month ago

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god i cannot wait to be off these steroids…

#marzi speaks #marzivents #<- it’s late n i’m kinda pent up abt this #i’m so TIRED of themmmm #i’m probs gonna be on them for the rest of the year. which SUCKSSS #i don’t like how many ppl comment on the moon face #i don’t mind it. like i look in a mirror and i’m okay.#it’s a little weird. but like. just because it’s different. like getting used to a new haircut #but every time i see someone for the first time in a bit it’s ‘woah your face got rounder’#and i have to go ‘oh yeah it’s water retention- steroids thing it’ll go away when i’m able to go off ‘em’#and they go ‘oh alright :) you still look good btw don’t worry’#and i just. i HATE how people talk about it!! like jfc. it’s so clear that they think it’s like kinda sad #my dad said he thinks it’s cute and he’s the only one i actually think is telling the truth there #my mom and i agree that it doesn’t matter. but even then she tries to tell me not to panic #like a little extra squish in my face is something to panic over #it’s so clear that so many people see it as another thing to pity #oh poor thing. has that chronic illness for the rest of her life. and the steroids made her jaw look rounder :(#like jfc i knew fatphobia was prevalent but come the fuck on. literally i’m like barely retaining water for steroids too #like. i’m still very much skinny (i JUST finished being malnourished ffs) but bc i’m retaining water in my face #now ppl feel the need to comfort me. over this tiny cosmetic thing that does not matter #like. i wouldn’t feel weird abt it if it weren’t for everyone else making it such a THING. why is everyone so weird about it #i’m not insecure about it but when ppl try to comfort me or go ‘it’s not that bad’ it makes me feel like i’m SUPPOSED to be insecure abt it #and it drives me NUTS. bc there are things about being on steroids that i would love to be comforted about #but the water retention is not one of them. i couldn’t give a rat’s ass about the water retention #y’know what i’d like to be comforted over? the mood swings. the irritability. the insomnia. the appetite fluctuation #the slow healing of skin. thinning and dryness in the skin. having to take like 3 other medications alongside the steroid #bc taking the steroid causes side effects that need to be medically treated or prevented #even outside of the steroid! i’d like some comfort about having to build back my stamina from scratch #i’d like some comfort about having the worst balance i’ve had in years #there’s. more to this. but i’m out of tags. maybe i’ll make some replies idk. i’m just. UGH

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opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months ago

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#i walked into a situation today where my mom was effectively already dead. effectively bc her body was and is still alive. still breathing #painful groaning purrs. but her mind was gone yesterday. my dad said he showed her a picture of the mountains i took that day and told her #i loved her and she smiled. thats what he said. maybe he was just being nice. or maybe thats the last time she thought of me. i dunno. but #the human body is an incredible thing. shes got a heart still powering a broken body. too full of tumors to function anymore. stomach #streched like a pregnant mother. it happed really fast and now its happening very slow #im somehow probably better off than the rest of them. i only got here for the aftermath of a downslide. my daily life will b least effected #i only really saw her twice a year living so far away and she didnt text much. didnt call often. so life wont change much ill just kno shes #not there. which is sad. but theres nothing to b done abt it. life goes on. it hasnt been all bad tho. its nice to talk to my family abt her #how incredible she was. bc she was. wish her mom wasnt here tho. she doesn't deserve to b here. my mom wouldnt want her here. she didnt want #her here. but anyway. i wish her body would just let her go now. so we can sleep. so this can be over. so she can rest #but even like this shes stubborn and resilient. they say it could go on for days but i hope not. may the universe let her rest shes gotta b #so tired after 10 years of this. but i have no regrets. she knew how i felt abt her. and i dont think she had regrets either. she did so #much up to the very end. went out on a high note without the burdon of knowing it was coming #i dunno. its just such a strange experience to watch the empty shell of your mother sleeping like a gurgling baby #unrelated

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anotherpapercut · 9 months ago

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today at work one of the kids asked me to show her a video on my phone and I said no and another kid said "if they did that they could get FIRED. and it's REALLY hard to find a job in this market right now" and I did not know how to respond to that for a second

#sometimes they say things that catch me so off guard i just stare at them for a second #last week one of them was going home kinda early and completely unprompted she goes #'yeah its probably cause my dads in prison' and my coworker and i both stared for a second just out of shock #and then my coworker said 'im gonna be totally honest with you i was not expecting you to say that'#another one of them did that yesterday too she just randomly said 'my aunt is in prison' and we were like. um. im sorry?#just realized i wrote that this happened the other day. but it was literally today. im tired #i edited it

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