#it’s never too late

[petrovna-zamo]

[soulinkpoetry]

Do you ever have the urge to reinvent yourself? To become all those things that you admire but not possess? I feel that it’s never too late when the urge is strong enough.

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[andallshallbewell]

[rubixcuby]

So. I just remembered this name I really like: Aster. I associate it a lot with the stars for some reason (edit: it literally translates to “star��� in Greek) and I was considering replacing Castin’s name with it today. But I just learned that it’s a FLOWER. And guess what color the flower is.

Yellow and Purple (and green including the stem). Now I’m losing my mind cuz it’s a name I love with a nice correlation to my character. AND ITS GENDER NEUTRAL?!

I know it’s a big change, and it’ll take time to get used to, but I think it might be worth it, since his name has bugged me since the dawn of time; I kinda just made it up off the top of my head, and it rhymes with his rank (Captain) too much for me to take seriously. I don’t know if I should retag my old posts or keep them as is if I do change it? Lemme know guys, I wanna hear ur thoughts, even if I do end up making the final decision.

[loosethreadsofyoursoul]

it’s never too late by steppenwolf (aka the song from the end of 13x5) is thee dean winchester song. let me elaborate.

(i haven’t seen any posts about this so if there are any i would love to know about it bc i am passionate about this.)

firstly, i could pick that entire scene apart with how it relates to dean and what he’s going through as well as all the symbolism—the mother losing her child, billie in death’s library, the shots of the impala, the neon signs in shot when they finally drive up to cas—but honestly i would never run out of things to say about it.

the overarching themes of both that scene and this song are regret and guilt and wishing you could go back and do things, treat people, differently, and so putting them together in that way is perfect. more specifically, the song is about a man who had all these ambitions, mostly because of pressure from his parents, but finds himself grown up having achieved none of them and because of that, it starts to affect the people around him. sound familiar?

especially right now, dean is suffering so much loss, and (somewhat inadvertently) is taking it out on sam and jack, both his kids in a way (on your woman and your child / you release your bitterness). all he wants is his family back (i.e. mary and cas) but since there’s nothing he can do to go back and fix what took them away from him, he has a lot of trouble seeing the point in going on.

although you’re trained to make your mark / you still don’t quite know what to do

yeah. he’s lived like that for a while, but he’s especially feeling it now. his reaction to billie telling him he still has work to do was not exactly enthusiastic.

as he says to sam in this ep, he’s taken every previous loss in stride and just kept going, kept working, and (in some ways) kept starting over despite it all. but he might not be able to do it anymore. we’re seeing him at his lowest, all he wants is to die, but he’s finally let sam in, even if neither of them are sure where to go from here. and what happens next? his phone rings, and his best friend is on the other end.

we all know there’s a stark difference in dean from one episode to the next (13x6 is tombstone), and why is that? dean got the win he needed. he got cas back, and he’s no longer just watching time slip by until his death. a reason to live just walked back into his life. he’s learning that, maybe, it really is never too late.

this happens a lot for dean, specifically with losing cas, where it feels like he’s finally lost for good this time, but he’s always managed to get cas back or to find some way to keep going.

another line i find very fitting for dean is in the second verse:

the god of your childhood you can’t find / to save you from your emptiness

obviously, this could be about chuck and how unreliable he is, especially when dean (and sam) needs him most, which we saw most recently at the end of 13x1. (“the god of your childhood” could also be the samulet, but thats a different discussion.)

again, there’s a lot of lines that i think reflect dean’s character and everything he’s been through really well, but rather than enduring the essay i could write about it, go (re)listen and you’ll see what i mean. it’s just so beautifully fitting, especially given it’s 60s/70s rock which i think dean would appreciate.

that ending scene of dean and cas seeing each other again, particularly with that song in the background, is one i think about a lot and, to me, is criminally underrated in terms of destiel moments. it’s one of my favs and it makes me cry like a baby.

so yes, it’s never too late by steppenwolf is THEE dean winchester song and i hope you agree. it’s also just an excellent song tbh go listen to it and cry with me xx

[celestie0]

now i kinda wish i made kickoff gojo an engineering major bc that would make him 10x more fuckable

[survivingandenduring]

@javierpena-inatacvest i made this for gift exchange 2024 for you; ositas secret stash of Columbia era Javi Polaroids

[garnetcoloredsky]

“do you think I care for you so little that betraying me would make a difference?”

is sO DURGETASH-CODED, MY GODS!!!

[i-me-mine]

“Don’t let anyone say you’re past your prime” – Michelle Yeoh

[seashellsandteacups]

[echosandroses]

Who said age had to be linear?

I’m currently in my mid-20s and went to Build-a-Bear last week, finished building a LEGO today, and had myself tucked in by 10 PM with a good book in hand.

In my 30s, 40s, and so on, I plan on traveling, partying, meeting new people, and creating new life experiences I haven’t had the opportunity to fulfill just yet.

Never let your age limit your freedom or happiness.

[bromelianana]

Sisters From Another Mister

Roomies! and It’s Walky! were my first exposure to webcomics. They hold a special place in my heart, so I really shouldn’t have been surprised to realize that Atta is a Joyce expy.

[schumi-nadal]

He finally got a visa for the Indian Grand Prix 🇮🇳 🎉

[gayhokage]

in the year of 2024 if any of my mutuals want to start their naruto phase you just let me know ;3c

[fifthmoon0]

I didn’t fully realize things about myself until I was close to 30. Since I was a teen I would get into relationships but I didn’t ever have crushes until my 20s when I had a few crushes that weren’t even very strong and were very short lived. I mainly got into relationships because I liked the attention I was getting (I lacked self esteem tbh) and because everyone else did it. Also I only ever asked one person out and it’s because I knew they liked me. Otherwise it was always someone coming to ask me out and I would just say yes without much or any thought at all…. I never really questioned things at all, even though I really should have, because there were a lot of issues…

But now, with having all of this awareness of myself (finally), I have come to the realization that I never had actually crushes on people. Not crushes like allosexual people have anyways. I learned that when I did feel romantic feelings or attraction it was always pretty grey and it was ALWAYS & ONLY at the beginning of the relationship or hookup & it would die off SO quickly. Most of the time I didn’t even have romantic feelings or feel any actual attraction. (I’m pretty positive some of these moments were just manic episodes…) I learned that both my sexuality and romance levels were inconsistent but mostly just non existent. I learned that sometimes I had spikes of romantic or sexual feelings but I didn’t want to actually be physical or romantic with an actual person. Like ever. Still don’t.

To sum things up, the way I acted in relationships and just in general just started to make sense. I’m aroace. I have always been. There are a few micro labels that fit me as well (ace & aro -cupio, aego & spike), but generally speaking, I’m aroace. It’s still sometimes very difficult to deal with since I learned this kind of late in life, but it helps so much to understand myself. And I believe it’s a form of self love too. Very important! 🏳️‍🌈❤️

[ihavealittlesecret0410]

Sometimes I do for sure R xx