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I love Pomme so much, her character development is one of the most impressive imo.
She was that lost little egg, sweet, loving to draw and build. But death was always nearby. The day of her birth is forever linked to her brother Dapper's first death. Bobby was confirmed dead two days later. Then the code attacked her repeatedly, she understood she was the only one with two lives and that all her siblings could die in a heartbeat. An anger and a fear grows in her. Fear that anyone might die again, and anger, thirst to take her revenge and end this threat once and for all.
So she took upon herself to become the main target. To put herself in danger so that the code would keep on focusing her. She was still afraid, but she became fearless, because she had no choice, she HAD to be the target, she HAD to keep the code's attention. So she grew stronger, she learnt to fight better, move quicker, think faster. The sweetheart little egg became a caring, protective sister, though for long being the youngest. She remembered the loneliness she felt before being found, and often said she wishes that to no one. So she would be frontline as long as it meant that no one would ever be as lonely as she was by losing their family. As long as they were safe, so was she.
Then Empenada, Pepito and Sunny arrived, and all the egges had two lives again! For a while, it was finally good time for the eggs, but a few of her parents were missing and her dad q!bbh is clearly dying so the worries and panick never truly stopped. But she had a new role now : being a big sister. And even though she didn't have her scythe at hand all the time, she kept on protecting, placing blocks for pepito at lucky ducks so that he has no risks to fall... She also tried her best to make them welcome, help them feel at home, and that was new for her.
And now, the code is back. Now, every one of her siblings can be target. Now, she cannot be there to be the code's main focus. Now, all the fighting skill seems useless if the code attacks her siblings and not her. Now, she feels as helpless and defenseless as she was before being found. But she has a family that she can count on. And she has this anger that fuels her to keep on going without hesitations. She didn't name her scythe Vengeance (Revenge) without reason.
So she put on her armor, goes to fix the Ninhos and she does what she does best: Protect.
#i love her so much#she really is brave and caring#a true hero if you ask me#with that selflessness and selfsacrifice spirit#full of anxieties but going to fight anyway#qsmp#qsmp pomme#qsmp egg#qsmp analysis
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can the funnybunny enjoyers of the tadc fandom and the funnybunny enjoyers specifically stop making jax and pomni so painfully heterosexual for five seconds. looking at you ao3.
#the amazing digital circus#some people write really good fanfics about the two. and i read them constantly!! but we dont talk abt the rest of them...#making them fall into the “alpha male jax” and “submissive and scared pomni” type of shit.#EVEN GANGLE WOULDNT WRITE THAT.#pomni is not a cinnamon roll who is scared all the time. jax is not secretly nice. scared of being vulnerable? that could work#but SECRETLY NICE? HELL NAH#this sorta thing is why half of jax's fans dipped after watching the second episode#jax is a bitch!!! he can still care abt someone (for example kaufmo. or in this case pomni) while still being an ass.#pomni has a backbone! STOP WRITING HER LIKE A CARBON COPY OF GANGLE#even gangle talks back sometimes you think pomni won't?#the only reason pomni was so paranoid in the pilot was becuz she JUST GOT HERE. and she wants to LEAVE but CANT.#she is NOT LUIGI!11!1!!11#well. maybe. luigi is brave. but thats not the point#funnybunny#pomni x jax#jax x pomni
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Just watched The Librarians S2E8 And the Point of Salvation and...
I loved it, for the most part. Cleverly written and a fantastic Ezekiel-centric episode! He had beautiful moments with each of the others and learnt so much from them. He had substantial character growth and was given the space to bear the weight of serious circumstances and respond appropriately. This episode had the potential to be incredibly pivotal for Ezekiel's character!
And yet....
That ending. What the hell?? What do you mean his memory is lost and he forgets all of those poignant moments???? All those conversations, all that learning to rely on others - are freaking serious??
I'm never a fan of time loop episodes, but I thought they were handling this one pretty well. Right up until they erased all of Ezekiel's character growth at the drop of a hat. This was literally the equivalent of "and then she woke up" being used in a novel. It's weak and strips all purpose of what the characters have just been through.
Ugh! Tell me I'm not the only one. How dare they give me such a good episode of growth and discovering potential for Ezekiel Jones, then take it all back with a just kidding!
#the librarians#and the point of salvation#ezekiel jones#john harlan kim#im so mad about this#legit ruined the episode#so many moments that were more important for ezekiel to remember than for the others to remember about him#learning to listen to jake and cassandra and value their knowledge and experience and what they bring to the team#but most of all eve#the way she stops him every time just to ask “how many times”#the way she sees straight to the heart of the matter. to the effect no the DAMAGE this is having on him#and she offers compassion and care and support#she tells him how brave he is. she honours him like she would honour another soldier. and that MEANS SO MUCH to him!!#just. the tenderness between them on the stairs in that one scene#his honesty when he says he likes the way she looks at him when she tells it#because she's acknowledging his bravery and sacrifice#and ezekiel has never really felt like a hero before. but it's comforting to be recognised now. recognised and honoured#ugh just#this episode could have been so much better had they never stolen his memories
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Modern au:
When Dorian started dating Manon, he was able to see a few things in her that made him suspect something was off. At that point, he was able to see the pressure her grandmother put her under and he felt helpless in the face of that kind of thing.
Manon was really going out of her way to make sure everything is perfect and yet her grandmother kept scrutinizing her.
At formal events, he got to see that first hand. Manon would be super stressed, it would get worse about 2-3 days prior where her anxiety is at it’s peak; she won’t be able to sleep, and can’t keep anything down.
Dorian can see all of her effort and yet her grandmother’s responses are a variety of
“Don’t embarrass me,”
“What a disgrace,”
“This is worthless,”
And it really angers him.
But that was nothing compared to what he saw when they moved in together.
Prior to that, Manon was able to maintain her mask of aloofness and perfection. It was only when they lived together than Dorian saw how she struggles with insecurity and abandonment issues.
He learned of the long months she’d spend at boarding school, her grandmother wouldn’t allow her to return home if her grades are anything below a 100%. She’d call her an embarrassment and let her spend the holidays studying and making up for those grades.
He also saw how she struggles with boundaries sometimes. Moreover, he noticed that she instantly panics whenever she thinks that she made a mistake. Like forgetting her jacket on the counter, or leaving some of her work behind on the coffee table.
Dorian hates hates hates how her grandmother turned her into this person. She honestly believes that as soon as she commits the tiniest mistake, Dorian is going to leave and find someone better. He told her time and again that he doesn’t want anyone else, better or worse. He wants only her and nothing will ever change that.
But of course, his reassurance does nothing to elevate those issues that have been there for two decades. All he can is promise to always be there, that no matter what happens he isn’t going to leave or find someone else.
Now another issue is their families. They attend the same social circles and their families no each other. Chaol is against their relationship because he wants someone other than a Blackbeak to be with his friend. Aelin doesn’t care much, she tries to get along with Manon but the two of them don’t spend any time together to have any sort of relationship.
Then there are his parents; Georgina wants to pick her son’s lifelong partner. The fact that he’s with the Blackbeak heir infuriates her to no end.
Now normally he would ignore everyone and does as he pleases. However, now that he lives with Manon and knows exactly how vulnerable she is, he had a meeting with his parents and Chaol.
He sat them all down, and told them in no certain terms that if he brings Manon over for a visit, if any one of them make her feel unwanted, he’d get her out of there immediately and never return back there.
Dorian is serious, she’s been though enough and he sees how she struggles. That the perfectly put up woman is hiding a lot of things underneath and he hates how he can’t shoulder some of those things. All he can do is love her through it all and hope that one day it will be enough.
#booklr#books and reading#throne of glass#manon blackbeak#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#aelin fireheart#aelin galathynius#chaol westfall#he was feeling helpless most of the time#and Manon doesn’t say anything really she just keeps going and going and going burning herself out only to be chewed out by her grandmother#but Dorian noticed it and he was mad#Manon is still trying to get her grandmother to notice her but it doesn’t work#she’s under a lot of pressure and he decided to be her safe space just to try and balance things out#and even back when she was young her grandmother didn’t send her to just any boarding school#it was an elite private school where academics were challenging and where many royals and other filthy rich families went#so it was very competitive and she told Manon that she has to be in the number 1 spot at everything#if she isn’t the first at everything she does then she’s a stupid worthless child who will only bring shame to their name#might as well bring the downfall of the Blackbeak clan#perhaps her grandmother needs to find someone else to be her heir instead because she would want nothing to do with her. just disown her#and move on. Manon spent A LOT of time alone when she was young and it certainly wasn’t safe. she’d still stay in Switzerland tho but not#on school grounds. starting at the age of 12 she felt brave enough to travel to nearby towns and spend some time there. just that she’s#actually a child and literally anything could have happened to her#when she was 14/15 she’s travel to other countries and just spend time exploring new places#that put her in danger because she nearly got kidnapped a couple of times#she got lost and snowed in while deep in the forest. and she knew that if she died or anything happened to her no one would know or even#miss her so she didn’t really care at some point. in the instances her scores were all miraculously perfect she was allowed home and spend#a whole month being subjected to her grandmother’s abuse
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do you think intelligent systems remembers that they gave eirika a character outside of her brother or did we just make that up in our heads because they dont seem to want us to remember that
#ann cries about feh#it was okay for her brave alt#gave her a pass cuz 1) i love her 2) she had a cute ponytail and 3) wada drew it and she was gorgeous#but its like#and shes STILL gorgeous here bc its eirika#but again….. she has to wear his clothes AGAIN…. get over it…….#if theyre gonna do this they have to make it even by putting ephraim in her mini skirt#but eirika also needlessly yapped about ephraim in engage too#like we know. hes literally in the ring with you.#and i love ephraim you guys i love him so much hes a character that is so dear to me#but so is eirika so its like. are you kidding#last i checked it was ephraim and eirika and not ephraim and his stupid little sister#like come on#…still want her tho. and forde. and i dont really care for the brave picks this year… i might take the bait yall…..
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hhey guys. i think i mayy be experiencing a hyperfixation 4 the first time. not sure. sorry
#asclexeposting#its doctor who. its all i want to think about its all i want to watch or talk about its.#i like this show a Lot. explodes. most of the episodes suck but i Really like this show#i dont think ive ever had a hyperfixation that i could detect. ik when i was young i would watch disney frozen like 3 times everyday#i watched that movie so much i wore the dv out. also disney/pixar brave. those two movies. i watched them a lot when i was young#anydrwho. im only on s7 almost s8 but. dude. its getting worse. i was normal about it until i got to smith’s era#and now its like woah. its one of the things that makes me feel good in my brain as of late. next to like. music. and being right and silly#yeah. like i need to finish nuwho and then watch classic who and learn a bunch of fun facts about it that no one cares abt.#i need to. bro. ugh. ragh.#rn im on late s7. its ok. i dont really Love clara bc of moffat’s weird writing i dont like how shes written idk how to explain it.#but she has potential i think. idk she doesnt go well with eleven but i think she goes well with twelve? idk. i have like 4 more episodes#until capaldi. he seems cool 👍#yeah. ugh. i knew from when i started watching it in july that it was joeover. i think i recognized that i would Really like the show br#and definitely i Really like the show. rip to my mom and my friends who have to hear about it. i Love talking about this show. ragh
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I keep getting this one attack ad on youtube that’s like “Tammy Baldwin is for they/them, not us” and I’m like Eric you don’t have to sell it to me
#she’s awful in some ways for sure. obviously leagues better than the alternative but like#eugh#still feels gross voting for someone who gets so much support from aipac#and like I’m gonna be real#supporting the governor vetoing a ban on gender affirming care is good ofc but like. her own work w queer shit is basically just#‘yeah your gay marriage is still valid in Wisconsin’#like cmon Tammy I thought you were for they/them#she wasn’t involved but I’m thinking now about at least one of those bills that I went to the public hearing for#wore my trans flag as a cape lmao#a guy did come into the Capitol with a loaded gun while it was happening so that was terrifying#idk man.#thinking in particular about one kid on puberty blockers who kept getting interrupted and he was so fucking brave#I hate that a middle schooler has to be so fucking brave#he should’ve been in school he shouldn’t have been fighting for this#thinking about another person who came up and silently did their t injection and then shrugged and was like ‘that’s it’ and walked out#ugh I hate this state I hate this state I hate this state#I hate that even Madison is still so conservative under the liberal veneer#there is compassion in the community but I am not really a part of it#I am excited to get back to Vermont idk#not to my parents’ house necessarily lmao. but I love Vermont a lot#I just. don’t want to be afraid. I don’t want the people I love to be afraid.
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ANOTHER DEATH BY INMOLATION???? ENOUGH!!!!
#really happy about being wrong about oden. normally when you see something is badly written it is true but here oden being alive being bad#writing was a trally a gotcha moment.... well unlike with pell and laki and wiper..... and conis' dad....#ashura....... and kanjuro is still alive...... this man deserves an execution#is this orichi??? the beheaded one was a kanjuro drawing too???? jesus#orichis fruit is a dragon with a lot of heads.... maybe he can regrow them lmao....#omg double hakai.... goodbye my brave soldiers.... ZORO?? ENMA IS A GODSEND YOU OWN ALL YOUR LIVES TO HIYORI....#zoro got hurt and luffy is on the offensive again..... exactly..... YES RED ROCK!!! BUT DON'T MISS!!!#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1025#oden and kin on a flower field..... okay......#luffy stopping the attack meant for zoro.... oof#kaido's face knowing this was gonna hurt....#kid and traffy catching luffy too..... everybody loves luffy.....#how can luffy just stop kaido's attack like that's insane....#the others attacking big mom... that was such a big brain move.... they made teams here... luffy and then the brains (everyone elseÑ#jesus. that was something else#luffys giggle and smile when kid and tragfy catch him... he is so happy when people are there for him..... he loves fighting with friends :)#episode 1026#OMG GOODBYE BIG MOM!!!! SHE IS IN THE SEA I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!!!!#TRAFFY RATHER LET THE MISSION FAIL THAN ONE OF THEM DIE??? OMG#HOW IS PROMETHEUS IN THE WATER?????? FUCK OFF!!!!#they are bullying zeus lmaooo INTERNAL FIGHTING!! INTERNAL FIGHTING!!!#luffy knocked out and atill looking at kaido again.... ooff#this is insane. luffy just saved zoro and told him he wont need to die and here he goes again. oh this time i migh fr die. take care goodbye#the bleeding... oof THE SCAR JUST AS THE ONE HE HAS.... goodbye zolo..... rip bozo... don't fall like that man..... ass up like sanji...#he got a 2x1 hit..... goodbye law too.... kaido's eye when he notices luffy is up again.... also haoshoku..... i dont wanna look it up.....#nvm is the conqueror's haki.... i do not remember the og names AT ALL#episode 1027
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How about Eenek's family for blorbo meme? If it is ok
hiii of course its ok!! had a lot of fun making these<3
thanks for the ask bestie<33
#ask#my funky guys#this family has. so so many problems#eeneks parents propably met during military service and both miracoulisly survived being cannon fodder#theyve been through hell together and bc of that became very close (and pretty unhealthily codependent)#and what else were they supposed to do rather than stay together forever??and have children??? thats the only logical conlusion here ofc#she is. a very interesting character i think. i havent really thought about her much yet but GOD there was so much Wrong with this woman#she is a prime example of what the empire did to people and how it manipulated them into thinking theyre superior than everyone else#she killed innocent people and she didnt care. she followed her orders mindlessly. but every horrible thing she did- she did out of her own#free will. yes this is how she was raised and forced to be but that doesnt change the fact she DID those things.#before she died she managed to instill a lot of that in zora too#wnich at first glance seems weird bc she is a member of the blades of maromra!! shes one of the Good Guys!!!#but the way she views herself and what she does are still very reminiscent of her mother in a way. she sacraficed everything for#the marmoras and doesnt feel guilty for leaving her family bc that was The Right Thing To Do#and thus there are no negative consequences to her actions!! she had to leave them to become the perfect solider and hero-#ready to sacrafice everything for the cause#so noble#so brave#so young and naiive.#suffering means youre doing it right. suffering means your sacrafice meant something and that you will be rewarded.#after all#every hero has to suffer.#i think zora thinks eenek is so immature. they cling to their childhood and want everything to be simple! thats so childish and stupid!#she is not like them. she knows how hard life is. she suffered more than them. more than her father. they wouldnt understand her.#she can do this all by herself.
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i think one of the things i want to do over break for funsies is like. rewatch every pak drama of the major contemporary writers nationally hailed as progressive (e.g., umera ahmed, farhat ishtiaq, sameera fazal, etc.) and see how many of the male leads i come out actually still liking. like i want to make an excel spreadsheet cataloguing every red flag that went under my radar as a kid. for science
#bc if we are being real. sooo many of these guys are nothing short of rancid#and while i get the point of a lot of these dramas is to show emotionally stunted men grow#idk how much tolerance i have for certain behaviors now like idk..#tangentially this is also why complaints of saif from kuch ankahi Really amuse me#like ok so all of the most toxic and insecure men imaginable aren’t a problem for most pak drama fans#but a man who simply lacks agency and is maybe a bit cowardly bc his mother overimposes on him is horrible and unappealing..#like i’m not saying people have to like him or have a crush on him by any means#but i think it’s weird people are blatantly ignoring he’s being used to comment on how mothers emasculate their sons and strip their agency#and how that doesn’t always translate to those sons being weird toxic alpha males but can simply make them cowardly and unable to stand up#for themselves. which yes. is totally worth criticizing. but it’s strange people think samiya is coddling him#simply bc she’s willing to ask him what he thinks when his mother does or says certain things#if she were coddling him she wouldn’t even bother worrying that he’s a pushover#but instead what she does is prompt him to slowly recognize that he has his own thoughts and feelings and that he can act on him#and that she’s not going to solve his problems for him bc he’s capable of solving them himself#and idk i think that is a narrative worth telling. and i am so willing to cut him slack for being a coward bc he’s the farthest thing from#a toxic alpha male. people have twisted him into being this horrible liar cheat etc for liking someone else prior to his marriage#despite the fact that we are literally being told and shown he’s forced into the marriage and his mom Knows he likes someone else and she#doesn’t care. saif cannot realistically say no without effectively running away and he’s incapable of that bc he fears his mother#he’s not a bad person. he’s just a coward. and his growth will entail that he becomes someone brave enough to take a stand for himself#and personally i am way more open than whatever shite we have in other dramas where it takes a saas abusing her bahu for her son to wake up#to be deleted
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Constantly torn between writing a character to be just a nice guy and writing that character to be the most fucked up creature in existence
#the klock keeps ticking#like theres a line at some point where you cant make this all one guy but you just. really want to#like yeah lets say we got some fucked up guy who tries really hard to be nice and sweet despite the horrors#but you know what if i want him to get kinda bitchy too cuz how can i expect him not to be? hes been through some shit and hes only human#but how bitchy can i make him before he just kinda becomes an asshole#i guess though people are pretty complicated so sometimes its just kinda like that#i must once again hail rebecca gales as the character ever like girl shes sooooo#shes so genuinely sweet and caring and attentive and shes so bitter selfish and jealous#shes gotta make like the biggest effort to be nice and simultaneously the biggest effort to be mean#its just so refreshing to see idk someone who is generally a good person but shes really fucked up about it#like this doesnt come easy to her! everything in her wants to act like a petty child!#and she does! shes really fucking immature and she thinks shes above it all when shes the worst out of everyone!#and thats just such a nice thing to see just a very human character#and shes just like me for real aaaaaa god like guys this freaking character has helped me cope so bad#like shes not a monster shes just. a person having a bad day and not coping very good#yeah this post wasnt even about her but I made it about her now ive just been thinking about rebecca a lot lately OKAY#we cant all be perfect sometimes we just gotta be rebecca at least im brave enough to admit it#anyways i have pretty similar tangents about ryuki shin marianne shinjiro and junpei
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other things that happened in fashion class:
- had to take the class twice bc the teacher who taught it the first time got fired and they didn't think we learned anything w his curriculum
- got consistent marks of 95 which were better than the marks i got in my actual major, even tho my work was subpar, bc the teachers clearly didn't know how to grade properly
- the teachers the second time around all also got fired or left (the fashion course at my uni was just MESSY)
- we didn't have a proper button-hole machine despite the fact that we really really needed one
- and of course the aforementioned fact that half of my class had no idea how to use sewing machines
#my friends who actually majored in that course are so brave for sticking with it bc honestly it was so messy. there's so much more shit#that i just don't remember bc it was second hand info. but it was just so convulted#we also got a new dean like a year into my course and she was very much a fashion girlie (aka actually important in the fashion world)#so she really cared more abt that than any of the other courses but she just managed it so badly lmfao#also worth mentioning is that we had an interior design course that completely isolated themselves from the rest of us#and made really subpar work😭😭like it was not good. it was ugly. the spaces they made were ugly.#sorry to my 2 friends from uni that have to see this feel free to disagree#diary
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exene talking about the state of the world. the good stuff starts at eight minutes. or you can just read the transcript complete with the usual errors that accompany robot transcribed speech (the irony of which is not lost on me). maybe it's not about transhumanism and living forever (or maybe it is who knows), but there's definitely an agenda of surveillance and control at work which is designed to keep the powerful in power. cash rules everything around me and you will own nothing etc. the future is worse.
#google has helpfully flagged this as a 'conspiracy theory' which let me know it was definitely worth paying attention to#sometimes a conspiracy theory turns out to be flatearth-tier but anything those in control are putting effort into discrediting#concerns me and makes me look deeper. if they're going to the effort to control the discourse there's something there that#threatens them. anything google calls a conspiracy theory is worth a closer look. it often means someone has gotten too close to the truth.#she's brave to be talking about this shit they basically cancelled her and forced her to apologize for talking about how they want#to take our guns and the media is lying to you and stirring up fear so they can get away with passing gun control#like wtf leftists should be all about gun rights. a disarmed population is totally at the mercy of the state's authority#it's not very punk to surrender entirely to regimes in power and let the only people with guns be the police#like c'mon guys we need guns. and it's like drugs. they exist anyway. better they do so in broad daylight than in the shadows#they let adam curits talk about this stuff for some reason and no one calls him a conspiracy theorist idk why but there's a reason#i guess his stuff is not a threat to them bc it's dense and heady and seven hours long so the masses will never absorb it#ex punk rocker yelling about new world order in plain language monologues of digestible length is a much bigger threat#i swear there are secretly fifty people in control of everything and their entire aim is to make sure it stays that way no matter what#but it's really gross how obvious it's getting like the whole system just funnels money straight to the top and they don't even care#about hiding it anymore they're just doing it out in open and denying objective reality with confidence it's too much sometimes#i swear i can feel my grasp on reality deteriorating. it's as if there were a loud buzzing in the out of doors that was getting#louder every day and nobody ever said anything to acknowledge that it was real nobody talked about hearing the buzzing but it just#keeps getting louder and i'm finally like wtf is with this buzzing and everyone gets mad at me for shouting over their netflix show#that they weren't really enjoying in the first place. like no one is happy in the modern world. why can't we talk about why without#turning against each other. that's why doug saying 'maybe we're all the same' is such a big deal to me. anyone who is trying to unite us#is doing important work. that trump supporter is not the enemy. they are the victim just like you.
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soooo i was right 🫠😐🫥 the Friend like likes me and it seems e v e r y o n e around me has known sINCE FEBRUARY
#SO 👏🏾 let’s just let it be known that i’m an Obviously Silly Clown so no one needs to tel me that ik already so i already told y’all how he#said he needed to Talk to me and i was planning on avoiding him but my friends said not to bc it’s not the Adult Thing To Do and he is my#friend and i care about him so it wouldn’t be nice so i didn’t me and my roommate went to dairy queen with him after i finished braiding her#hair so we were getting out the car to go get ready for bible study at church but then he’s all like ‘VK i need to talk to you can you pleas#stay?’ and i was like KAJDJDJFJFJJD NO but on the outside i was such a Normal Girl and was like sure :)) so we’re in the parking lot and i l#left the door open bc i didn’t want to feel claustrophobic but i lied 🤥 and said it was hot so he starts out all like sorry i made you anxio#us by prolonging this talk and i was like lol no it’s fine i was busy with exams and stuff and he just kinda gets quiet and he was like sooo#i like you and i’m like#🤔😃🫠😶🫥😧 processing#and then i was like ok elaborate and he’s like i have feelings for you so i’m SHOOK BC WOWIE ppl aren’t cowards like me cause i could never#and i say well thanks for telling me and i think you’re really brave for that but i’m sorry i don’t feel the same way but i still want to be#friends but if you need space then it’s fine as well and he’s like ya i didn’t expect anything from you i just didn’t want to regret not#saying anything so i was ABOUT TO CRY BC I HAD TO REJECT HIM BC I REALLY DONT HAVE THOSE FEELJNGS FOR HIM so i left and went home and my <3#almost exploded from my chest i was on the verge of a panic attack and i told my roommate and she was LAUGHING BC SHES SUSPECTED HES LIKED#ME SINCE FEBRUARY when he paid for my pizza and aPpArEnTlY hOw He LoOkS aT mE 🙄 WHATEVER#AND THEN I TOLD MY SECOND ROOMMATE AND SHES LIKE O YA IM NOT SURPRISED#so i’m just an oblivious silly goose who doesn’t USE HER BRAIN like kajdjdjhddjd and and now i’m thinking of the things i’ve done that made#him think i like him too like i baker him a pie for his birthday and i just feel silly and need advice if anyone has any but if not it’s fin#just an update on my life if you’re interested#vk overshares in the tags
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#feeling scared to death but also..enlightened and brave??#after talking to my counselor today(not my main therapist) she encouraged me to talk to my therapist about going back to inpatient#I told her that I’ve just been so scared to admit to myself that I need to go back to a high level of care#but truthfully the way i am living isn’t sustainable#i really need to look at this from an objective lens because everything in me does NOT want to go back to inpatient#but like. i have to be real with myself..#personal
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Sitting on these but I may rename my Cubone hero "Vega" (referring to the "fallen star" meaning) and Skitty partner "Milo"
#also want to rework skitty's personality because i feel like his dynamic with vega is too similar to the partners in other games#like ''the partner is the one with more drive and pushes the hero to succeed despite their own troubles''#is something im leaning into with psmd and gti already#its hard cause like... im sorry rt partner easily has the least going for them out of all the pmd partners and its kinda sad#i mean they have content but personality wise theyre just... generically kinda supportive of you#it could just be that i have less emotional attachment to the character than with the other partners but yeah#but like rin is happy to be a vulpix and is deeply curious while nimbus is the anxious one who needs a push#and eris had already given up on his life before transforming and is now stuck in a pikachu body and pushed to save the world#and elliott doesnt let xemself express or feel negative emotions because xey think forcing xemself to be happy constantly#is better for them#and still ironing out the psmd team but froakie (hero) is a deeply anxious person who is terrified of the world and their new body#while riolu (partner) is loud and overconfident and has a genuinely kind heart and wants to see the entire world#so while thats still kinda similar to pmd2 its a roleswap and theyre still different#but like... idk what dynamic to go for with cubone/skitty that isnt too similar to those#ive decided that cubone is definitely fucked up cause shes a cubone. im thinking she's someone who is kinda desensitized to things#and is so determined in her goals that she doesn't care if people who oppose her get hurt. which is why pkmn square believes gengar#but where does that leave skitty bc i already have ''hero who is a pessimist while partner is an optimist''#i had him as this really determined guy who was brave and stuff but i kinda have that already with psmd partner#i have the idea of him being a gardevoir parallel so maybe he'll actually be really gentle?#echoed voice
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