#she really ate that up for 4 straight episodes

[firelise]

I fear I will never again know joy like that ep 6, 7, 8, 9 run of Only Friends like that was CRAZY ??? If you or a family member has been affected, please contact a lawyer. They can explain legal options and help you seek compensation for medical expenses.

[formulawolff]

✧˖° a day in the life ✧˖°

pairing: female!driver x toto wolff

summary: as the season progresses, you decide to share some of your favorite snapshots to your instagram. however, as you post more and more photos, the fans are beginning to really starting to wonder who that mystery man may be.

a/n: these posts are set between chapters vii, viii, and ix of alkaline! they aren’t really super time specific. they’re just around the time golden girl was in brackley, her travels through england, and of course, the races!

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goldengirl: a day in the life :p

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lilymhe: oh my gosh!!! it’s me!!! ilysm!! 🥹

goldengirl: ofc!!! my bestie <3 ily more!!

goldengirlforever: these are so cute! 🤍

kikiayy: mother is mothering with the photo dumps lately

f1fanboy: i can feel her aura through the screen

alex_albon: who’s that cutie in the second photo? i need her number ASAP‼️

goldengirl: sorry but she doesn’t date nerds 🤓

alex_albon: if you keep bullying me, i’m going to go straight to james! i am not NOT messing around‼️👹😤

williamsracing: what’s 4 + 4? cause you ATE that! 💅🏻

f1fangirly: PLS WILLIAMS WHAT IS THIS!!?

goldengirlforever: i’m literally crying rn 😭 wtf

goldengirlstan: they really slayed with that comment though

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lewishamilton: why does it look like you’re in twilight in the first pic lol

mercedesgirly0420: ARIANA WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?

hastalavistababy: WHAT ON—

justaninchident: this is the weirdest crossover episode ever

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landonorris: can u send me the editing app u use you ur pics

goldengirl: idk can you use proper grammar first?

landonorris: can YOU send me the editing app that YOU use for YOUR photos? please and thank you mommy 🥺

landonorrisfan8383: MOMMY⁉️ 😳 HELLO⁉️

f1ismylife: WAIT WHAT IF LANDO IS THE MYSTERY MAN SHE HAS BEEN POSTING—

mclarengirly: OH MY GOD YOU COULD BE RIGHT!

goldengirl: ahahaha no. that’s not my man. it’s just an inside joke. nothing more, i promise :p

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goldengirl: recent travels ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

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lilymhe: you’re so cute i’m gonna throw up

goldengirl: i WISH a certain someone would flirt with me the way you do 😫

alex_albon: i’m still waiting on meeting the day you bring this mystery man to the paddock. 🤨

goldengirl: i will one day!

mercedesamgf1: hey! that looks familiar! 😎

goldengirl: thank you for showing me around! i had a great time! :)

hastalavistababy: THIS IS GETTING WEIRD.

goldengirlforever: PLEASE DON’T TELL US YOU’RE SIGNING WITH MERCEDES NEXT SEASON.

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lewishamilton: why didn’t you tell me you were in brackley? 🧐

goldengirl: because it was for business and not hanging out 🙄🤚🏻

mercedesfan737: BUSINESS?

ilovef1: this is getting insane. where is drive to survive when you need them? 😩 i hope they’re covering this for the upcoming season

formulaonefan4life: wdym business? this is fishy af.

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goldengirl: guys…. i literally had a meeting with some sponsors in london & then i decided to take a trip to brackley to see the mercedes hq & campus. just because i drive for williams doesn’t mean that i can’t just go look at the place 😭

totosgirl73738: it’s just a bit sketch because toto was in brackley the same time you were.

justaninchident: @totosgirl73728 girl… that man owns 33% of the company.. i think he works there.

totoswife1988: she’s just not making herself look good rn with all the affair rumors going around. that’s all. going out of her way to brackley to just ��see” the mercedes is weird.

justaninchident: speculating about someone’s personal life is weird. 🥱

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landonorris: was the mercedes campus cool at least? sorry ppl are being nosy af

goldengirl: yeah! i got to meet a ton of their staff & saw a lot of behind the scenes stuff! come with me next time. we can try fish and chips!

landonorris: omg!! the boys and golden girl take a field trip!! we can visit george and eat beans on toast!

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alexandrasaintmleux: where can i fill out the application to be you? is there like a tutorial or something i can follow?

goldengirl: brb i’ll post one to tik tok right now! 🤭

[thalialunacy]

[for the @calaisreno May Prompthagoreum Theorum. Cheers to ya'll for still following along despite it being, you know, June.]

(1) (2) (3) (4) (5) (6) (7) (8) (9) (10) (11) (12) (13) (14) (15) (16) (17) (18) (19) (20) (21) (22) 23: apology (24) (25) (26) (27) (28) (29) (30) (31)

At first, partially because it's 6am, neither of them recognise what Rosie is actually saying. But it's clearly directed at Sherlock, who looks at John from the table with an eyebrow raised.

John shrugs. 'What was that, sweetheart?'

She helpfully points at Sherlock. 'Say sorry!'

'Oh ba--balderdash,' John says. 'There was an episode of that Australian programme about apologising, I didn't think--'

'Be sorry, Sherlock!'

Sherlock looks merely amused. 'What for, Miss Rosamund?'

She moves her pointer finger to John, but her accusatory gaze stays on Sherlock. 'You ate banana.'

'I… ate your father's banana without asking?'

She nods decisively. 'Say sorry.'

'I'm very sorry, John. I shall ask next time before doing anything nefarious with your banana.'

How they manage to keep straight faces, John has no idea, but they deserve an Olympic sodding medal in parenting for it.

'She's not even old enough to really get the concept of apologising,' he says as it occurs to him. 'I can't--'

'Nonsense, she's brilliant. Aren't you?' This last is to Rosie, obviously, as he clears away her cereal bowl.

John rolls his eyes. 'Oh, so now you're in favour of emotional intelligence.'

'When it applies to my--' He smothers a wince, John is certain of it, but rallies immediately. '--my young flatmate, here, absolutely.'

He stands before John can say anything else. 'Time to be off, yes?'

'Sherlock,' he starts a few minutes later, but they're halfway out the door and he knows he's being cowardly.

Sure enough, Sherlock waves it off. 'You're for pickup today, correct?' John nods. 'Good. I've that case, have to go make several witnesses cry.'

John hides a grin, in case his newly-pious daughter is paying attention. 'Try not to get arrested, yeah?'

'I make no promises,' Sherlock calls back as he heads off down the pavement.

---

'John,' Sherlock says that night, once he's changed clothes and washed the distinct aroma of back alley rubbish off himself while John put Rosie to bed. 'You could take a turn from your daughter about the apologising. Be a good example.' His voice is light, but careful. Only a little bit mocking.

John, who is standing in the kitchen making coffee and around whom Sherlock has just reached to avail himself of the biscuits, is certain he didn't hear correctly. 'I beg your pardon.'

'No, you don't.'

John stares at him, mouth a little open. 'This? Coming from you?'

'Who knows you better?'

'No, I mean-- You never apologise.'

'Implying you yourself are a model for showing regret?'

John can practically hear the 'zing' of the direct hit, and it irks him. 'Fine, I apologise for nothing!' He stops. 'No, that's not true, I apologise for some things. A few things. Several things. I apologise for about half of the things!'

'That doesn't even make sense, you realise.'

'Shut up.' He pulls Sherlock to him. 'Shut up, you absolute wanker.' He drags their mouths together for a surprisingly filthy kiss considering how tired they both ought to be.

John has a suspicion, though, and he breaks the kiss. 'What's this really about?'

'Don't know what you mean,' Sherlock says against the skin of John's jaw.

'Sherlock…' He swallows, considers pulling back but isn't sure he'd be able to get through this if eye contact is involved. 'You know she's yours, right?'

Sherlock stills, his cheek brushing John's, and John feels him close his eyes. 'John, you mustn't say things that aren't true.'

'Oh for--' John does pull back, then, pulling on the back of Sherlock's neck and keeping him in check so he can't escape. He waits until Sherlock's focused on his face, on his nose today. 'Here's the thing: You're right. Beyond, you know, the big-- Beyond what we've worked out in therapy, I'm shit at apologising. I'll work on it for Rosie, and for you. Starting with--' He takes a deep breath. 'I'm really bloody sorry I ever gave you the impression I didn't want you as Rosie's father.' He sees and feels Sherlock's sharp inhale. 'I just thought you knew that you already are.' 

'John.' The air leaves Sherlock's body in a stream, warm and damp on John's skin. 'You're serious?' he asks, doubt small but lingering in his voice. 

John clears his throat, breaking their gaze to look down at Sherlock's collar. 'I asked-- Well, the papers have been drawn up, and I owe your brother now which will only come back to bite us in the arse, but--' 

Sherlock's mouth captures his in a desperate kiss, and John finds himself held so tightly he actually feels his heels parting from the lino.

'Sherlock,' John manages when they break briefly for air.

'Sorry, right,' Sherlock says, very near sheepishly, and loosens his grip.

'Don't be sorry, just, you know.' He tilts his head to indicate the hallway. 'Come to bed with me?'

Sherlock's eyes darken with a combination of lust and merriment. 'Where I can do nefarious things to your banana?'

John groans, then turns away and starts down the hall. 'Oh God, dad jokes now? I have so many regrets.'

'No, you don't.'

John smirks and holds the bedroom door open. 'No, I really, really don't.'

[ <3 ]

[rosstrytobe]

I didn’t want to analize it too much because I don't know how Eddie will react and what he will do (I'm clueless even how Tommy will react or Buck per say)

Anyway

As we see Buck and Tommy had already eaten pizza and took a gigant beer

So maybe they come before Eddie and Marisol date

Also maybe they almost finish their date i don't know

Also, how Buck is talking clearly is freaking out because it's his first date with a guy and he doesn’t know how to act or what to do

And it's fine. It's okay. It's normal to be scared when for all your life you thought you were straight ❤️

But maybe Tommy is surprised by that for how his eyebrows went up like...

Like maybe Tommy didn’t think he was his first esperience 👀👀

HERE I WANT TO POINT OUT SOMETHING:

1) Eddie was happy because he saw Tommy and as we saw him, Eddie was still holding Marisol hand and that's a normal reaction when you meet your friend with your girlfriend

2) When he saw there was Buck too: HE WAS EXCITED AND SCREAM HIS NAME OUT LOUD. ISTANTLY LEFT MARISOL HAND. Like he couldn’t belive Buck was there too. And his smile went brighter and said something stupid like "You guys are here togheter!" Like, Eddie we can see that. Why you have to say it so loud? That's not a normal reaction when you see your best friend 👀👀🏳️‍🌈

3)Marisol look at Eddie: she could sense something was off about Eddie because the moment he saw Buck she left her hand she just look at him pretending to smile. But maybe she knows too that that was a normal reaction to do when you see your best friend

4) Buck therorize look when he heard Eddie voice: i mean i'm sad for him. I really wanting he could enjoy at least his first date with a guy but I think they almost finish the date see they already ate and all. So maybe, what if Eddie came when things were almost ending with Tommy but then they had to stay a little longer because maybe Eddie wanting to be with them? Also, i'm so scared Buck could be outed by mistake by Tommy because he didn’t say anything to Eddie and Tommy doesn’t know but maybe he could think since Eddie is his best friend Buck would tell anything to Eddie right?

But the title of the episode is "You don’t know me" and it's sad because Eddie and Buck knows everything about each other expect Buck sexuality because he's still figuring it out

So what when Eddie will understand it was a date between Tommy and Buck, what if he will be hurt because Buck hide this huge part from him?

[justoneofthoseghosts]

Back from the dead to scream into the void about Bridgerton because the Polin brain rot is real. I've watched the episodes twice now and have some thoughts nobody asked for:

Colin with all that new found swagger after his hot boy summer just makes me cringe. That whole montage with the ladies - er, no, thanks. Give me back my sensitive Colin please.

Nicola Coughlan is amazing, truly a superstar. She embodies the role so well, in all the bits - comedy, romance, intimate scenes. Ugh. I hope she gets more leading roles!!

Love that Colin drops all pretenses when he senses Penelope's distress at the first ball - sensitive Colin is still there folks!

Also, I think we moved on too quickly from his apology. "There is nothing more I want than to earn back the favor of the one person who has always truly made me feel appreciated." Luke said in an interview that the best version of Colin was the one when he was with Penelope (or something like that) and it does ring true in the first half of the season even if he comes up with this disastrous and misguided plan to help her find a husband. He's always himself when he's with her - there's no postering, no swagger.

I am a huge rom com nerd so I truly appreciated all the rom com elements in this. Nicola just ate that all up. She was amazing in all the awkward moments in the second and third episodes and Luke did a good job too. You could really see their chemistry and how they fed off each other!

They talk about how they first met. Please 🥺 it's the same meeting as in the book and the way they reminisce about it while walking in the market was so cute, straight out of a rom com!

Kinda cringed at Colin's journals because they were about girls 🤡 should have kept them as they were in the book where they were more about his travels.

"We shall gallop along" is this season's "I oiled my way right in" 😂

The first kiss scene was incredible. I think I prefer it to the book because there is much more emotional connection between them - they've been lifelong friends as opposed to acquittances in the book (even if Colin was starting to see Pen in a new light by then). The connection between them is undeniable but they each get something different from it. To Pen, it's the ending. The last thing she would ask from him before she let him go. To Colin, it's the awakening, the shift of his feelings, the beginning of its growth.

Pining, yearning Colin is not as unhinged and chaotic as in the book but I think he might get there in the second half. At least I hope because chaotic, unhinged Colin in the book was pretty great. I mean, interrupting a dance was kind of unhinged of him to do.

But I do like how down bad he becomes after that one kiss 😂 Luke really portrayed it well in the first few minutes of the third episode.

I quite like Francesca and John even though I know how that will end. Curious to see if they'll take front and center in season 4 or if the show is renewed, it'll be in season 5.

I know it is an ensemble show but there seems to be a lot more subplots this season?

lol at Portia trying to get her daughters pregnant when one of them hasn't even done it yet since getting married 💀

Penelope and Eloise ❤️‍🩹 they miss each other ☹️ also, I do not care for Cressida.

I've always liked Violet's talks with her children and how in tuned she is with each of them.

Can't lie, I loved the carriage scene - Colin's confession, the momentary disappointment that he was getting friend zoned, the intimacy but most especially towards the end where they could just laugh together because at the heart of it, they were very, very good friends first.

Also, that look Colin gets when he realizes he's going to marry Penelope? Chef's kiss, 10/10, no notes. Luke really delivered and I think it helps that a lot of the Bridgerton actors are theater actors because they have a distinct way of showcasing little nuisances in their facial expressions.

Needless to say, I enjoyed it. Even if there were some key departures from the book, I think it was a fairly good job. I can't fault them for bringing in an external force (another suitor) to help Colin realize his feelings even more. In the book, a lot of it happens in his head, which can be hard to translate to a show. At least we got rid of the suitor early and it didn't become a legitimate love triangle.

I do need a Lady Danbury and Penelope alliance though. I loved that in the book and I hope they don't drop it!

[im-dehydrated05]

Not too confident with this one but enjoy!

𝐓𝐨 𝐁𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐀𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐅𝐚𝐭𝐞

Pt.1 | Pt.2 | Pt.3 | Pt.4 | Pt.5

Aurora made it to class just as the bell rang. She sat down, immediately getting a text message from Cassandra.

CASSI🎭

HEY YOU MADE IT TO CLASS IN TIME?

You're not going to believe me, but even though I fell and ate shit, I still made it in time—just barely!

🤣

YOU SURE YOU DONT HAVE A CONCUSSION?

🖕

Aurora smiled at her phone but placed it down when someone sat next to her.

?: "Hey, what’s got you smiling at your phone?”

Aurora’s breath hissed as she looked at the unhinged psychopath who tried and did stab her in other loops. Her hands trembled, but she tucked them neatly on her lap, trying to seem less panicked.

"Nothing, just my dumb theater friend texting me.”

Mia grinned, scooting over her chair closer to Aurora.

Mia: “Oh yeah, is she like your best friend?”

Aurora's breath got caught in her throat before she let out a shaky breath and finally managed to calm her nerves, giving Mia a calm smile.

"Nah, I already have a best friend.”

Mia frowned a little, resting her head on her arms.

Mia: “Oh yeah, who?”

"Oh, you know, just someone named Mia Winter? You know, it doesn’t really matter in what life I’m in; she just seems to follow me in almost every single one. She has been acting like a bitch, though, and I mean, who the hell stabs their best friend?”

Mia quickly stood straight in her chair, a look of shock on her face. She opens her mouth, but Aurora quickly excuses herself from the class, saying that something has come up, and sprints away. A few moments later, she could hear someone sprinting behind her.

shit. Shit. Shit!

Aurora walks out of the theater quickly, running to the forest, not noticing that Ms. President was looking at her from afar. The blonde frowns at seeing Mia come after the brunette, not shortly after.

Mia made it to the lake in the forest, looking around nervously, almost afraid.

Mia: “Hey Aurora, no hard feelings, right? I didn’t mean to stab you; I just... I wanted my best friend back!”

She took out her switchblade, opening and closing it again and again as she looked around, getting frustrated when she didn’t hear anything back.

Mia: “I don’t know how you remember me now, but it’s obvious that it wasn’t Miranda’s doing... She promised! She promised she would bring you back; that’s why—

Mia fell to the floor, unconscious. We see Aurora behind her, holding a big branch in her hands and breathing heavily. She put it down and grabbed Mia, putting her in a place where she wouldn’t get hurt or hurt others. Aurora turned around, looking at the lake. She cautiously walked towards it and sighed when she saw her reflection.

“Lᴏᴏᴋ ᴡʜᴏ ᴅᴇᴄɪᴅᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ʙᴀᴄᴋ.”

"Well, hello to you too.”

Her reflection chuckled, and Aurora smiled while sitting down in front of the lake.

“This is weird as hell.”

“Tᴇʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴏɴᴇ ᴍɪɴᴜᴛᴇ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴏɪᴅ ᴍɪssɪɴɢ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴡɪғᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴋɪᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴏᴡ I’ᴍ sᴛᴜᴄᴋ ɪɴ ᴛʜɪs ʟᴀᴋᴇ ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴏɴʟʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ sᴇᴇ ᴍᴇ.”

Aurora tilts her head, trying to comprehend everything that the spirit is telling her.

“Yᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴀ Bᴜᴅʀɪᴏʟɪ.”

“That’s my last name, yeah.”

“Sᴏ ʏᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴀ ᴡɪᴛᴄʜ.”

“I’m sorry, what?”

The spirit in the lake chuckled with a nervous tone and uncertainty in her voice.

“Yᴇᴀʜ ᴀʀᴇɴ’ᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴀ ᴡɪᴛᴄʜ. A ᴅᴇsᴄᴇɴᴅᴀɴᴛ ᴏғ ᴛʜᴇ Bᴜᴅʀɪᴏʟɪ ʙʟᴏᴏᴅʟɪɴᴇ, ʙʟᴇssᴇᴅ ᴡɪᴛʜ sᴋɪʟʟᴇᴅ ʜᴇᴀʟɪɴɢ ᴀʙɪʟɪᴛɪᴇs?”

The two stare at each other, the breeze blowing against Aurora’s hair.

.

.

.

“I thought my grandma was having another dementia episode when she started talking about witches, but uh, I have like a book of witchcraft...? And other stuff she left me there, all in a box back at the dorm.”

Aurora scratched her neck, letting out a nervous laugh. The spirit squinted her eyes at her with a judgmental look in her eyes.

“Yᴏᴜ’ʀᴇ ᴛᴇʟʟɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʙᴇʟɪᴇᴠᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜʀ ɢʀᴀɴᴅᴍᴀ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴʏᴛʜɪɴɢ sʜᴇ sᴀɪᴅ?”

"Hey, she said crazy shit all the time; how was I supposed to know that one was true?“

“Oᴋᴇʏ, ᴏᴋᴇʏ, ғɪɴᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ᴘᴏɪɴᴛ.”

“Thank you!”

Aurora stood up, looking down at her reflection with a hand on her hip.

“So what exactly is the point in all of this?”

"Well, to bring me back, of course. If you do, Miranda will leave you and your friends alone.”

Aurora’s eyes widen.

They’ll be free.

"Okay, I’ll do it. If this will stop the loops, I’ll do it.”

The reflection smiled brightly before a look of shock appeared on her face, and she disappeared, turning into Aurora’s normal reflection.

What the hell?

?: “So you remember the loops?”

Aurora turned around to see a familiar face standing behind her. It was Bela; she had her arms crossed, waiting for an answer.

Aurora nodded, her expression filled with both confusion and relief.

"Yes, I remember the loops.“

Bela is silent for a moment before she walks closer to Aurora, cupping her face gently. There was still no expression on her face, but Aurora still couldn’t hold back the content sigh that left her lips.

Bela: “Are you okay? I saw Mia following you.”

Aurora stepped back, a chuckle leaving her lips, before she pointed to the closes tree to them.

"Well, I didn't want her to hurt me or herself, so I duct-taped her to the tree.”

In the moment, Mia woke up trashing around. Aurora just smiled at her, and Bela looked at Mia with a distasteful look on her face.

Bela: “Where did you even get duct tape?”

“That’s for me to know and for you to find out.”

The blonde rolled her eyes, a tired sigh leaving her lips.

Bela: “Okay then.”

Aurora nods before walking close to Mia and untaping her mouth.

Mia: "Ow, Aurora, what the fuck!”

“You’re going to help me or not?”

Mia: “Of course I am dumb ass; you’re my best friend.

“Good.”

[lucystark12]

i very very rarely listen to running up that hill but i am right now and it's just like holy shit YOU HAD TO BE THERE (weird reflection post that i just randomly started writing and couldn't stop for some reason about my depression lol that was supposed to be cute and lovey about my love for stranger things but ended up being really somber)

i didn't immediately watch season 4 when it came out on may 27th, because friday may 27th was the day that i came back from a week long class trip to the deep depths of northern washington (hell on earth, no mans land, if you will) and since my parents were out of town for my mom's 50th birthday, i was going straight to my best friend's house to stay over for the weekend. that i did. my best friend everly, whom i was staying with, always falls asleep really early, so at some point in the early hours of may 28th, probably around 1 am, i pulled out my phone and starting watching stranger things. i had spent the entire spring rewatching after all.

i got to where chrissy got possessed and immediately had to turn it off because i was in seventh grade and the bone cracking thing scared me to death (this was before i watched GOT for the first time, my tolerance for gore was not as high as it is now)

such began the first of many times where i'd neglect watching my favorite show for no reason. i did it with house of the dragon season 2 as well. so, a few days later i left everly's house and my grandma came to stay at my house with me while my parents were finishing out the rest of their trip.

at this point, the whole internet was already talking about running up that hill. it was that sunday when i decided i had to watch the show. who the fuck was i kidding? i loved stranger things. problem was, my grandma is and will always be the worst tv hog in the history of the world, so with a shitty disaster movie playing in the background, i put in one airpod and finally started watching stranger things season four.

this was a particularly rainy spring for portland, something that literally scarred me at the time because i was nearing the end of the worst depressive episode of my entire life, and the sun not being able to peek out of the trees like it had in late may last summer and every summer before that was something so insignificant yet something that really was sending me off the edge. i didn't realize how far off the edge i already was at the time. my other best friend had just started taking medication for her depression, which manifested very differently in ways that mine didn't. she was mad. she was resentful. between the few moments that she was the same laughing, loving girl i'd always known, she hated me and our other friends and hated herself more. my cousin likewise had depression so bad he couldn't get out of bed. he hadn't been to school in three months. i wasn't like that. i thought i was happy comparatively. i was diagnosed with OCD the year before and thought that was an explanation. it took getting a new therapist and unpacking my behavior back then to understand what was really happening. i never cried. when i did, it was violent. it came in bursts that lasted all afternoon. i started and i didn't stop until i fell asleep. i threw things, i refused to talk to anybody. i was failing math, which i've never done before. i couldn't understand a thing. i didn't even care to try. i hated myself. the only thing i ate was a bowl of craisins at school every day because i couldn't physically force myself to eat. i thought i was just tired even though i got ten hours of sleep every day. i was always exhausted. my therapist couldn't diagnose me because after years of being taught i had to be perfect, i refused to tell even her that there was something wrong. i thought i was stupid, i thought i was ugly, i thought i was worthless. i thought i was just experiencing what it's like to be twelve years old.

so, another rainy and overly misty sunday afternoon passed me by as i reached the ending of the fourth episode, and finally, the fated song that i'd been hearing all over tiktok and didn't quite understand yet started playing out of max's walkman. i watched the entire scene with my grandma barking questions at me about why i was tearing up.

running up that hill was my most played song of 2022, just ahead of africa by toto.

now i'm not going to say that stranger things brought me out of said depressive episode, because it didn't. the four months ahead of me were four of the hardest of my life still to this day, just as the six before them had already been. but i've grown a lot since then, and two years later when i was in spain alone, sick and crying, experiencing a little week long bout of similar feelings to the ones i felt when i first watched season four, the show weirdly managed to find me again.

the week before i had left to study abroad in spain i had learned that i got a B+ in math instead of an A- in math because my teacher wouldn't round up my 89.9%. it might seem trivial especially because a B+ is incredible process from the algebra i had nearly failed for the second time in the row the year before, but sometimes things like that can be enough to cause somebody to fall back into old habits and feelings. estranged from everybody and everything i'd turned into coping mechanisms for hard times like these when i was literally half the world away, i didn't know what to do. so, when i was in my dorm with food poisoning from a salad i'd eaten the night before, i decided to press on the byler analysis video that had popped up in my youtube feed. such began what i've been calling my "stranger things renaissance"- a second stranger things phase that's been going on since late june.

not to sound overly bylerish, but i've been seeing a lot of parallels between this summer and the summer season four came out. for reasons out of my control, i've been forced to spend a lot of time alone. this summer when i've started feeling lonely, i've taught myself that rather than overthink, to channel it into something else like writing, or doing something that will calm me down. now when i'm home alone and haven't seen a friend in a few days, i'm not sad anymore. i think "well damn" and then i move on with my night. i'm no longer depressed. with the help of my new therapist, i've gotten really close to growing out of my OCD. i no longer have to pray every night. i don't wake up in a cold sweat if i go to bed at 10:31 instead of a "perfect number" like 10:30 or 10:35. i rarely lock my bedroom door anymore. and no, it's not perfect yet. i'm not "cured"- i still have my crying episodes. i still have moments, even though they're few and far between now, where i feel the same way i did back when i was twelve.

but i'm moving on. things have shifted in my life. i've grown up and this show has with me. i started watching it on halloween of 2019 when i was in fifth grade and my friends and i did the "goodbye mike" trend in my basement. i watched the first three episodes that night and finished it for the first time during covid. it was with me through that hard time back in the day, and for some strange (haha) reason, it's with me now, and will probably continue to be with me until the show ends, because like as typically happens when i fall back into obsession with something i liked when i was a little younger, (the mcu, harry potter which remanifested in the marauders) it becomes more than a phase, but a part of me in some weird way.

stranger things may have its flaws and it might not end the way i wanted it to, but for the rest of my life it will be special to me regardless. i'm finally for the first time in my life older than the characters. i was seven when season one came out, eight when season two, ten during season three, 12-13 and season four, and will be 16 in season five.

so thanks, stranger things, for helping me, and thanks even more for showing her that there's nothing wrong with the many different aspects of her that she'd been led to believe were wrong. as corny as it sounds, she couldn't have done it without you 🫶

(say hi to baby lucy, because it's always more fun with pictures, and because depression can happen to anybody no matter what they might look or act like on the surface)

rip 2022 lucy, you would have loved the byler sunset pictures that you somehow would have found a way to relate to reddie and your best friend that you were highkey in love with. you also would have loved mike wheeler if i could explain who he really is to you because said in an EARLY analytical essay that "All I really gained from season four though was that I absolutely hate older Mike and that I wish he would’ve died instead of Max." in the same essay you say you wish you could throw mike of a cliff. oh the irony. (please laugh)

ps: if you ever find yourself feeling anything like what i described in this post, know that it gets better even if it seems like that's what everybody says and it seems like it never will. there were times back then when i didn't even know if i'd make it to the age i am right now, and now i'm at one of the happiest points ive ever been in my life. know that even if we've never talked before, i love you and i believe in you. my blog is always a safe place if anybody out there ever needs anybody to talk to.

[hay1ock]

FFS, Boston. And there you have my review of Only Friends Episode 5. See you next time.

No but seriously, what the heck? There was nothing subtle or sly this time round, Boston went straight for the jugular with Ray this episode *takes a breath* My poor baby just wanted to drink, get high and avoid his problems. Give my puppy-eyed, depressed, alcoholic cutie pie a break would ya?

Ramble mode activated. I start these with good intentions of having some sort of order to my thoughts but think with every episode I get even more random and all over the place lol. So I shall apologise to anybody reading this in advance.

Where to (try to) focus first? I guess Sand (and Ray) as he opened the episode for us. I like the idea of us and our heroes sharing the same 24 hours. We might not fill them the same way but the fact it’s the same for everyone, not an hour less or an hour more, everybody gets 24, I never thought about it that way. I kind of like it. I don’t really have a ranking for the characters other than Ray, who is currently sitting very pretty at the top. And I think… probably… Top earned himself his position down at the bottom (yes even Boston’s outburst this episode didn’t have me yeeting him into the deepest darkest pit - I hate his actions, but also kind of love it all going to shit - however, this is under the assumption that everything, somehow, will work out for Ray and Sand in the end. If not, then Boston, sorry, I’ll be going ‘This is Sparta’ on your ass and you’re plummeting to the darkest depths of the rankings). The other 4 main boys currently all sit in between Ray and Top, shuffling around depending on the day lol. But I digress, what I meant to say was OMG I love Sand. He earned himself a little best boy badge this episode. For the time being at least, he seems the most grounded and stable.

It was great to get to see into his life and his routines. I love that he allowed Ray to experience his world. And I think that it’s the sweetest thing ever that despite all his whining, Ray went along with everything Sand said so he could spend the day with him - ate his breakfast, got on the bike, played dress up, waited in the crowd to save their spot, let Sand treat him to a beer, sang karaoke. He took an interest. He didn’t poo-poo the secondhand clothes simply said they weren’t his thing. He asked about Sand’s dreams (Like does Ray actually have dreams of his own? The hostel was a dream Mew had FOR him and his future. Does a guy slowly killing himself with alcohol think to dream, hope, plan for a future?). He wanted to help with the ‘debt collectors’ (I think even Sand would be willing to accept Ray bailing him out if for the sake of his mum), asked about Sand’s mum, answered Sand’s question about his own mum (god the way Sand faltered pouring that drink as soon as Ray said how his mum died), and even right at the end offered to answer any questions Sand had about what Boston had said about Mew (The way Ray said ‘okay?’ and ‘Sand’🥺). The little steps Ray, actually both of them had taken were made meaningless when Boston revealed what he did. I hated seeing Ray go straight for the alcohol in order to cope with what had gone down. I just hope they weren’t pushed too many steps back.

That last scene in bed was heartbreaking. They had shared so many intimate moments across the day, and not just the tension between them at breakfast and in the changing room. Ray had gotten to meet Sand’s mom - I couldn’t with his little face when he mouthed ‘Happy birthday’ when they sang the second time, as if it was a whole new world. I would assume his birthdays when his mum was alive were vastly different considering her depression and drinking. The girl at the concert, the way she was introduced to show that Ray’s attention was truly on Sand. And the way Ray was hanging off Sand and leaning against him so easily at the party and… Sighs. The bubble bursts and we’re in bed and Sand is turning away from him, thinking there’s no way he can fit into Ray’s 24 hours, that he isn’t special enough to get his own ‘extra hour’, gah I wanted to cry. I mean Ray had made time for you that very day, Sand! Noooo. It doesn’t help First plays the sad and hurt puppy face so well. There was a lot going on, they’d been drinking so don’t blame Sand for being overwhelmed and thinking it easier to back off, just shut the conversation down, at least right then. Hearing about Top again, the fact Top’s with someone Ray loves probably brought up some unwanted memories of his ex, along with finding out Ray had been in love with Mew for years and he probably couldn’t see how he could possibly compete with that. And then we have Ray, who I don’t know if he’s in any way equipped or sober enough to be able to comfort Sand or express himself in that moment, so just says ‘Happy Birthday’ as it’s now after 1 am. What a way to start the day 😭

Speaking of Ray. He was never going to win to be honest when he said he and Sand were just friends. Granted they’ve been all touchy-feely, and flirty (Ray has been that way from the start - ‘light it for me’) but we’re not aware of them discussing anything beyond the initial ‘friends’ agreement. We don’t know if they’ve had sex again, if Sand had kept to his one time rule. I would assume so. Is it just kissing and making each other feel good? Or has it mostly been Ray going round, drinking, and passing out? At first, when Sand said about Ray wanting to hang with him again I thought he was referencing the music store date and Ray driving him about that day. But when they were getting wasted, he did say any more than this and he would have to start charging rent, which implies Ray’s been hanging out and staying over a few times, probably not wanting to be at home, alone, drowning his sorrows in the bathtub every night. If they’ve been in each other’s company that much, I can understand Sand getting ideas in his head.

But what was Ray supposed to do? Go against what he still considered Sand’s wishes? Friends was what was agreed. Even this episode, regarding his birthday Sand said, “Who are you to think you need to know.” Granted, he’s expressed stuff to his mum and it’s written on his face (especially for the audience) that he does think more about Ray. But as far as Ray’s concerned Sand’s drawn, and keeps redrawing, the line at friends, very flirty friends, but friends nonetheless, and are far from declaring themselves boyfriends (I suppose he could have added they were friends who’d had sex and hang out and Sand likes sticking his hand in his pants… yeah maybe not). It hurts that Sand was hurt by what Ray said, but I can’t really blame Ray for choosing to say they’re friends. If one or both are feeling a way about their ‘friends’ label, they really need to have a proper talk. And soon. Sand saying, ‘It’s nothing to do with him’ and that he’s not special hurt him, Ray and ME!! And next ep we probably get the “What are we to each other?” argument. *Takes a breath* If Boston hadn’t interfered maybe they could have started to figure something out. But nope, he stole away any progress they’d been making, at least for now.

Extra random Ray and Sand things.

1. Sand has some interesting t-shirts. I liked the Home Alone one he had on when cooking breakfast.

2. Ray saying he’s no Bruce Wayne *eyes dead parents* I mean, Ray’s halfway there. Oops 🫢

3. I actually think Ray (Khaotung) suited the tighter fitting t-shirts. The yellow actually looked good, but gotta say that bold pink one… nice.

4. Sand’s mum is an angel (a loud, crazy, pretending to be in trouble to surprise her baby boy for his birthday angel) She’s so friendly and would love for her to dote on Ray a little. BL gods please protect her.

5. That cookie eating scene in the party montage 🫠

6. Yo is a queen and deserves to be treated as such.

Okay. It was quite a Ray and Sand heavy episode so not sure I have as much to waffle on about for the others but here we go. Top and Mew next. I just… why does their relationship fill me with so much anxiety? Taken as stand alone encounters, they’re actually super cute. The little dates this episode were really nice. A cute little bike ride and Mew snuggling up to Top’s arm. Like, they have some really sweet moments… BUT… I just can’t get over the small controlling aspects within it. Like this episode Top continues to trouble me with first saying about swapping the project to his hotel, the small dig at Ray and Boston over their parts in the project, then the LASIK thing (and the fact Mew appears to have gone through with it based on the preview.) The blind dating restaurant, I mean it sounds a really cool idea, but again it put Mew in a vulnerable place. I mean Mew was literally in the dark this time rather than figuratively over the fact Top slept with Boston. Ponders. Am I supposed to feel this way? Is it just because I know more than Mew does? They just leave me uneasy.

So, Mew decided to sleep with Top. I’m a bit sad he had feelings that he had to, though I do think he’d maybe reached a point regardless where he had fallen for Top enough and built enough trust to want to do it. I had wondered if the attention Top was getting from other men was in part Mew’s paranoia, though it might have been happening, whether his imagination was heightened by that fear Top might get bored. Despite the uneasiness I get from them, I do believe there are genuine feelings between the two of them. Mew was looking so enamoured in the end section of the date, but again, was the way that Top was behaving just part of Mew’s imagination. From paranoia to embellishing the romance of the moment?

The fact Mew phoned Boston though? 💀If not for last episode he probably would have called Ray, but as it was Boston was the next bestie in line. I can’t blame him for calling, there’s no reason for him to think Boston is anything but a friend. We don’t know how long they’ve been friends. They’ve been together 4 yrs via the uni course, but did any of them know each other beforehand? Anything Boston has done that we know of against Mew has been behind the scenes. And him sleeping with multiple partners isn’t what makes him a bad person. Also he is the one who introduced Top into the group, the first to voice his ‘concern’ about Top’s track record, and he’d certainly be the one to encourage Mew, and support what Mew had pretty much already decided.

The build up was again a sweet moment, I liked the clumsy knocking of Mew’s legs on the couch *side eyes the fucking huge bed* and I’m glad Top went slow and treated Mew well. And they’ve exchanged ‘I love yous’ so everything will hurt that little bit more when shit hits the fan. I can’t wait lol.

And then we have Nick and Boston. I can’t decide if I should be sad for Nick or a little bit scared of him. I do feel for him thinking that if he changes himself into a Top clone, he’ll maybe get Boston to want him more. But also, like if this was a horror movie I feel like it’d be going the direction of Nick actually becoming Top and taking over his life lol. I did wonder if it was more for revenge purposes, make himself more appealing, lure Boston in and then get revenge, but it seems he’s still as infatuated as ever and I do feel bad for him. Despite his questionable actions, there is something sympathetic about Nick. Well, apart from the fact he keeps walking in and interrupting Ray and Sand’s quality time lol. God damn it, Nick.

The pool scene. I don’t know what Boston is playing at. Part of me is suspicious of whether he’s found the wiretap in his car already (I mean dropping that mention of someone with a video is a bit of a coincidence) so he’s doting on Nick a little more than usual, or is it a kind of rebound thing? So Top’s discarded him but at least Nick is sticking around. Or is he being genuine and he’s looking for a change? Boston, genuine? Hmmm. Seriously, this show gives me trust issues lol especially regarding Top, Nick and Boston’s characters. The other three, I feel they’re more straightforward and as of yet haven’t been shown to do anything with malicious intent. Ray fucks up but his intentions aren’t from a bad place. Everybody looking at each other at the pool though… Top having some weird look of disgust/unease while looking at Boston with Nick, Boston looking back at him, Nick watching Boston, and Mew in his own happy world where Nick is nice and cute and he and Boston should definitely date. What a mess.

As soon as Boston hung up the call from Mew we knew he was pissed. I’m proud of him being able to keep up his performance on the phone to Mew. Boston likes sex, has been advocating for Mew to lose his virginity, so there was no way Mew would expect him to say anything but go for it. Boston - Safe sex ambassador. There’s probably a part of him hoping Top does fuck Mew and dump him, but I believe what Top keeps telling Boston about being interested in Mew beyond that, and think Boston believes it too. From here it was a series of unfortunate events. Because of the call he sticks to Nick for longer and then bumps into Ray and then all hell breaks loose. The way Boston was watching Ray and Sand… I really want to know if there is a reason behind Boston seemingly not wanting to see either of his friends happy. Or is it really just the fact he’s an asshole? Not everybody has some deep meaningful backstory. Some people are just assholes. He was mad Top rejected him, mad Mew and Top were going to have sex and he took it out on Ray? Saw an easy target, maybe thought he could blame it all on alcohol and drugs in the morning? And Sand was collateral damage?

I kinda want there to be something more, like is it Mew or Ray or both he maybe has a problem with? When Top was complimenting Mew and calling him cute in glasses all the way back in episode 1, Boston’s eyes were on Ray and how he reacted. He poked at him by calling him a burden. Was he after fucking Top to mess with Mew in order to mess with Ray? It’s been 2 years since the kiss, no idea what’s been going on since then, but for Boston still to be in the friends group he couldn’t have done anything to the degree he did this episode, and certainly not this direct. Though I guess maybe he could have around Ray, as who’s to say Ray would even remember anything that went down if he got himself blackout drunk like he did in episode 1. Also some of what he said. Why is he so obsessed with the idea Mew and Ray slept together? He keeps saying it like it’s a fact. But I don’t see why Mew’s flashback would be a lie. So I can’t see anything having happened between them after Mew rejected Ray. And then Boston mentioning ‘two-timing’. Is that in reference to anything in particular, or just a way to say loving Mew but dating Sand would be equivalent to cheating/two-timing? And asking why Ray was getting angry??? Dude, you just ruined his night, brought up Mew, told him you took photos of a not traumatic, but a personal and vulnerable moment, and were ‘keeping track’ of him, said him and Mew slept together, and everybody’s emotions were heightened because of drink and drug cookies. Still in love or not, I’d be pissed off too. *Deep breath* It’s fine. Everything will be fine… totally fine… Right?

Random things.

1. Sand telling Boston (and Nick) to go to their room. I love Sand.

2. Nick, come on baby. Everybody be telling you Boston is trash. I know you think you love him but, you know, maybe it’s time to take a hint.

3. Boston, you little shit. It’s a good job you’re entertaining and the whole point of this show is about messy relationships lol.

4. Drake’s character is back?! Why do I get this weird feeling Nick’s gonna go along with something he doesn’t really want to… threesome??

5. Very 6 mains heavy this ep, so hoping to get a bit more of some of the side characters next week at uni and Mew’s party. Though if I’m honest, I was so engrossed in the main boys I didn’t miss them. I’m sorry okay lol.

6. Shit is going down next episode. Am I ready to see Ray getting punched by who up to now has been his one shining light in his shitty life? No 😭

Right, I need to stop lol. I was going off in all directions lol. It’s so hard to believe we’re coming up to the halfway point with next episode. So much has already happened.

Thank you if you read all that.

Can’t wait to see what’s next.

Previous rambles

Episode 4

Episode 3

Episode 2

Episode 1

[your-sweetest-nightmares-blog]

I binged the entire show on YouTube the day it premiered and am now about to dump my thoughts about it on you all. Warning for spoilers below the cut, obviously.

• More focus on characterization! It’s funny and rather fitting that Duck is snooty AF. Love this high and mighty gremlin grandpa. He’s one of my favorite characters.

• The phone honestly sounded like she was trying to seduce Red Guy at first. I mean, I know that just being friendly to someone doesn’t mean you’re flirting with them, obviously, but her voice just gave me such an infatuated vibe for some reason.

• I thought Duck Guy was going to swallow the coin. He did not, in fact, swallow the coin.

• Everything Duck says is funny. “Attention freaks” and “they’re pretending they don’t respect me” are my favorite quotes of his so far.

• As a person who likes the sound of screaming, the screaming in this show is lovely.

• Speaking of screaming, Red Guy screams a bit in this show. 1.) I never thought I’d hear him scream and 2.) I think he happens to scream the perfect amount for someone in his situation.

• Duck’s coffin shenanigans were pretty funny. End of story.

• When you meet a business man, you must shake him by the hand! When you meet a family man, you must shake him by the hand! When you meet the choo-choo man, yoU MUST SHAKE HIM BY THE HA-! 🎶

• “There’s Four of Us” was even cuter than “There’s Three of Us”!

• The teacher cameos are nice. Crazy how the gang are so chill with them now, huh? Larry sounds different (maybe that’s his Sober Voice) and Steak Guy’s appearance genuinely startled me. No sketchbook, though. Wonder if we’ll see her again?

• ROY RETURNS AND WE HEAR HIM SPEAK. I don’t get why he ate the Freak Family, though.

• *When Duck Guy and Red Guy start fighting over who the dad is* Me: Ladies, please! You both can be the dad.

• Fr though, when Duck said he is the dad and Yellow is the pet, I deadass thought he was going to say that Red is the mum.

• Duck looks so fab in drag. ✨

• What’s with the Colin plant at the start of episode 4? Can Colin dispense seeds or computer chips that act as seeds or something?

• Colin said “I love you.” 🥰

• The gang fighting killed me. Yellow Guy really went at the other two with a CHAINSAW. Imagine being one of the teachers in the house when this was happening lmao. And I’m pretty sure Duck called either Yellow or Red a bastard as well.

• Also, is it just me, or are they generally much meaner to each other now? Maybe it’s because we didn’t get many interactions in the web series.

• In fact, how did they end up living together under one roof in the first place? They can’t even eat food together in peace.

• Let’s be honest here: Duck is probably going to do with that rock what he wanted to do to the Mayor’s prized bowling ball. “Private business”, ey? Also, my man is definitely down bad for that shredder.

• Those three legit drove a “corpse” through the wall and went on long ass ride with it. Would that be considered grand theft auto or kidnapping? Maybe both?

• Poor Red Guy. :( He just wants a happier life away from the teachers’ horrid lessons. :(

• The scene with the Time Child and Tony’s “They’re not here!” was pretty cool. What a time to leave the house, am I right?

• My least favorite teacher is Warren the worm/eagle. Sorry to those who like him, but the little motherfucker is insufferable in my (rat) eyes. He does need friends, though.

• “WHAT ABOUT MY SHREDDER?~” 🎶

• Come to think of it, all of Duck’s songs are straight fire. 🔥

• The whole “I like looking at you” scene was ✨Gay✨ and no one can tell me otherwise.

• Also, the “Why don’t you experiment on each other?” scene that came before that was sort of fruity as well. Duck Guy: 😏 “So, would you be keen-“ Red Guy: 😒🤚“You’re not to touch me.” I feel that most of the fandom slept on this moment.

• LESLEY!!! I wonder if she is aware of what Roy did?

• Something about this show gave me a sort of “off” feeling for some reason, but other than that, I enjoyed it. I hope we get another season.

[is-on-its-way]

Christmas, perhaps, means a little bit more - 5 And what happened then...?

Post-Episode: s06e06 How the Ghosts Stole Christmas

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5

Part of the Scully is a human Series

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Monday December 28th 1998

Scully walked into the bullpen Monday her chin up and looking oddly at Mulder seated at his desk. 

“Hey Scully” he said when she stopped at his desk. Hearing no answer he looked up and then raised his brows at her in question. “Is everything okay?”

Scully looked at him incredulous. “You had lunch with my mom?” A head from the desk next door turned in their direction. 

Mulder looked in that direction and turned his chair towards her and away from them.

He had the decency to look slightly ashamed. “Yesterday? I had tea with your mom” he answered carefully.

“Sorry I just didn’t know you two were that close.” 

“We aren’t. I mean we, in the past… when you were taken, she and I, she’d invite me for lunch and I’d go over. I... I think she knew it was the only time I ate really. And it reminded me of you.” He swallowed, looking straight ahead at her stomach, speaking with an air of forcing himself despite all his natural impulses screaming not to. “But she just wanted to apologize, for Christmas. I told her she didn’t have to.” He looked up at her.

Scully swallowed and bit her lip. Nodding in understanding. There was nothing more to say. 

She went to her desk and sat down.

“What do you two talk about?” She said to his back

He swivelled around to her.

“Oh you know. Mostly she fills me in on her grandchildren and her sisters grandkids and…” he reddened “church gossip.”

Scully looked at him bemused and incredulous “Church gossip?”

“Say what you will about organized religion Scully, but church gossip is better than any network television.”

She couldn’t help herself, she broke into a big smile and snorted.

“And what do you talk to her about?”

“Well, I like to listen to her mostly, she’s asked me about my childhood a bit, and she likes to hear about baseball.”

Scully raised her eyebrows. Her mother had never liked a sport of any kind “Baseball?” she said incredulous

“Oh yeah, you know, which player cheated on his wife with some other players girlfriend, stuff like that.”

"So you two... gossip together..." she trailed off she bit her lip to hide a smile.

Mulder shrugged

“Do you… talk about me?”

He met her eyes “We have…we… she'd tell me things she missed about you, she asked me to help her pick up your gravestone, things like that.” 

Scully’s lips parted in surprise “Oh” her face looked like she was rearranging her mother and Mulder into new places in her mind. She picked up a file he'd left for her and opened it. 

“What's this…” she opened it.

Im off to investigate that case right now, want to come along?” He held up an evidence photo.

“Mulder, is that a taped together crime scene photo you fished out of a certain basement garbage can?”

“Not the can, no… I have an in with janitorial.”

Scully rolled her eyes. “I think I'll stay here and do the work we’re expected to be doing so we don’t get fired.” She said thoroughly exasperated

She turned on her computer as he got up and took the file from her.

“Later Scully, I'll call you if I find anything.”

"Mulder will you at least come in later so we can interview Mr. Donovan? He's a..." She trailed off as he offered a raised hand in acknowledgment as he left. She shook her head and pursed her lips muttering "Typical" as he made his way out the door.

End.

[bambiesque]

New thread for Pertwee!Doctor

Serial: Spearhead from Space - Ep.1: It's 1970. We have a new Doctor. We have colour. We have Liz and the Brig. Let's go!

It's a bit Carry On Doctor with the whizzing around in wheelchairs and comedy hospital staff.

Serial: Spearhead from Space - Ep.2: Nope. Nope. Nope. I hate Autons. Loving Pertwee!Doctor's tattoo. Nothing like starting a regeneration with a bit of joyriding.

Serial: Spearhead from Space - Ep.3: I love Liz. I love the Doctor's cape. I really do hate Autons. Theyre the creepiest Who villain imo.

Serial: Spearhead from Space - Ep.4: The shop mannequins coming alive and walking the high street, killing people is something I remember watching as a kid and being utterly terrified. This has been a fun serial, though. Great start to 3's run.

Serial: Doctor Who & the Silurians - Ep.1 - 3: Bessie! I wish this guy wasn't called Dr Quinn. Liz is so smart. The Doctor is so gentle with her.

Serial: Doctor Who & the Silurians - Ep.4 - 7: The Doctor immediately offering his hand to the Silurian was genuinely touching. This was a nice introduction to The Silurians. I have enjoyed the serial, though I think it could have done with fewer episodes.

Serial: The Ambassadors of Death - Ep.1: The TARDIS control room looks like a late Victorian Gentlemen's Club. Nice to see the Doctor is still upset with the Brigadier over the end of the last serial.

Serial: The Ambassadors of Death - Ep.2-3: The Doctor is stealing again. Oooo that was a surprise! I was expecting aliens. I love Liz's outfit. Well you can't see the astronaut's faces so something is definitely up.

Serial: The Ambassadors of Death - Ep.4-6: I love Liz. Have I mentioned? She is amazing. Benton! The Doctor wants to go back to space so much he's willing to travel in one of Britain's crappy rockets.

Serial: The Ambassadors of Death - Ep.7: Of course the sady General was behind everything. The Brigadier has saved the day though. The aliens and the astronauts are saved and Liz looks fantastic. Whee!

Serial: Inferno - Ep.1-4: That was a lot of set up for a parallel universe story. Evil!Liz looks amazing. I don't know how they dragged this story out another 3 episodes. 4 total would have sufficed.

Serial: Inferno - Ep.5-7: This is very exciting but I still think it should have been shorter. I'm sort of weirdly invested in Greg and Petra. I love the Doctor & the Brig as BFFs. I am going to miss Liz

Serial: Terror of the Autons - Ep.1: The Master ❤️😭 Jo ♥️😍 Pertwee!Doctor's snazzy new smoking jacket 💜�� What's not to love about this?

Serial: Terror of the Autons - Ep.2: The inflatable chair ate someone. I remember that horrid creepy doll. Nope, nope, nope, nope. I hate this doll. However, I love that this Doctor is a sarcastic little shit.

Serial: Terror of the Autons - Ep.3: I really do hate Autons. Last season Pertwee!Doctor was big on car theft. Now he's moved on to safe-cracking.

Serial: Terror of the Autons - Ep.4: Everything got wrapped up very quickly and easily, but I did enjoy The Doctor and The Master flirting.

Serial: The Mind of Evil - Ep.1: There is so much going on. Priso riots, Mysterious deaths straight out of Room 101. Intrigue at the World Peace conference.

Jun 28 Serial: The Mind of Evil - Ep.2-3: There was a dragon! I am very much enjoying the Doctor speaking other languages. I love Jo. She's very brave & she just managed to single-handedly stop a prison riot. The Master started it again 30 seconds later obvs, but it's still impressive.

Serial: The Mind of Evil - Ep.4: So, the Doctor is afraid of Daleks, and the Master is afraid of the Doctor laughing at him. Sounds about right.

Serial: The Mind of Evil - Ep.5-6: The Doctor and The Master had some fun science times. The Brig played dress-up. Benton got a weird promotion. The Doctor and the Master flirted some more. UNIT blew up a factory for no reason. And then they all had tea.

Serial: The Claws of Axos - Ep.1: The Axons look awesome. The poor Master has been kidnapped and he looks so humiliated. Jo is being brave again while the men are being very stupid.

Serial: The Claws of Axos - Ep.2-3: Emergency. There's an emergency going on. These tentacled slugs doing interpretive dance don't look so awesome but they're certainly creepy. I loved The Master critiquing the TARDIS.

Serial: The Claws of Axos - Ep.4: Love a good fake out. A time loop is pretty self-explanatory, Brigadier. The Master trying to sneak past the eyeball was hilarious.

Serial: Colony in Space - Ep.1-3: At some point I would like Doctor Who to prove to me that any story set in a quarry is interesting. The machine with the claw hands is ridiculous. Always here for Pertwee!Doctor doing some "martial arts" though.

Serial: Colony in Space - Ep.4: The "brain" people are weird enough but the baby brain person is possibly the creepiest thing I've ever seen on Doctor Who. The Master voted for capitalism - shocker.

Serial: Colony in Space - Ep.5: Every time the Doctor and the Master are in the same room, my brain is yelling, "Just kiss, you morons!" I suppose it's not surprising that (Friends to) Enemies to Lovers is one of my favourite tropes with these two in my brain for 40 years.

Serial: Colony in Space - Ep.6: Well it picked up towards the end but it's probably the weakest of Pertwee!Doctor so far.

Serial: The Daemons - Ep.1-2: The Master is having the best time summoning "the devil" but his minions are definitely phoning it in. The Doctor is not dead despite being frozen to a block of ice, which makes Mike happy because now he doesnt have to tell the Brig.

Serial: The Daemons - Ep.3: I love this serial purely for the frustrated eyeroll response everyone has to finding out The Master is behind it.

Serial: The Daemons - Ep.4-5: There is literally nothing wrong with this serial. Everyone is magnificent. It is one of my favourites. Mike and Benton get plenty to do. Jo is brave and gentle. The Doctor is clever. The Master is a scoundrel. Bessie saves the day more than once. A+

Serial: Day of the Daleks - Ep.1-4: The Daleks are looking very colourful but they feel completely superfluous to this story. I enjoyed the non-Dalek parts more.

Serial: The Curse of Peladon - Ep.1-4: Princess Josephine taking her rightful place. An enjoyable serial with a very nice supporting cast of characters.

Serial: The Sea Devils - Ep.1-2: This is giving me Sherlock vibes. I bet the Master is running the prison. Oh look, the Master is running the prison. Did anything else happen except the duel and a lot of flirting? Nothing of importance.

Serial: The Sea Devils - Ep.3-4: I'm now half-way through Classic era Who. Jo is so amazing. I love her. Will she ever get to eat again?

Serial: The Sea Devils - Ep.5-6: Jo is ruining her suit crawling through ventilation shafts while the Doctor flirts with the Master over circuit diagrams. He reversed the polarity of the neutron flow!!!

Serial: The Mutants - Ep.1-6: I quite enjoyed the first and last episodes but the middle dragged a lot. Not one of the best.

Serial: The Time Monster - Ep.1-6: I really liked this one, though it felt a bit like two halves slapped together. Loved Benton getting turned into a baby. Love the Doctor's very important scientific equipment that was exactly the same shape as a thingy. Love Jo, always.

Serial: The Three Doctors - Ep.1-4: The Doctor meeting himself and other companions is always my favourite things in the Who-niverse. It's nice to see Troughton!Doctor again and in colour. I love how easily Benton takes it all and how weary the Brigadier is.

Serial: Carnival of Monsters - Ep.1-4: I've throoughly enjoyed this. It's mad and fun - mini time loops, creatures being dragged out of time, very grey aliens wanting to commit treason. I loved it.

Serial: Frontier in Space - Ep.1-6: The Master is back! Jo is usuing the excuse of providing a cover to lecture the Doctor on his relationship with the Master. This is only part of the reason Jo is The Master's favourite.

Serial: Planet of the Daleks - Ep.1: The Doctor is dying, which is an excessive reaction to being sort of shot imo. Jo is talking to a cassette tape. "Dear Diary, the Doctor is still unconscious…" Oop! The Daleks seem to have gained the power of invisibility.

Serial: Planet of the Daleks - Ep.2: Noooo, Jo has been poisoned. But she's still battling on because she is the best ever. I love Pertwee!Doctor's jacket. I would totally wear all of his clothes. I too am a dandy at heart.

Serial: Planet of the Daleks - Ep.3-4: That shaft suddenly got big enough for four people. And one Dalek. The Doctor and Jo are reunited; I'm possibly as happy about it as they are.

Serial: Planet of the Daleks - Ep.5-6: Why is there so much goo squirting everywhere in this story? I'm glad Jo didn't end up going to Skaro. Imagine how much more angst the Doctor would have had later if she had.

Serial: The Green Death - Ep.1: I don't want Jo to go. I will go with you to Metebelis III, Doctor. On second thoughts… The Brig is looking very dapper in his sports car. I love Jo even more for her environmentalism. She's the best.

Serial: The Green Death - Ep.2: I thought Pertwee!Doctor was going to slap Prof.Jones across the face with his driving gloves, but actually they're just bonding over science like the massive nerds they are while Jo is down a literal mine, trying to save the world.

Serial: The Green Death - Ep.3: Jo doesn't want to go to Metebelis III and be eaten by a snake. She wants to go to the Amazon with her boyfriend and be eaten by a snake. The Doctor, however, will not be allowing Jo to have any sex with Welsh professors on his watch.

Serial: The Green Death - Ep.4-5: The less said about episode 4 the better. The megalomaniac computer is kind of a brilliant villain. The Doctor is so done with it. Uh oh, Mike's in trouble. Benton will be beside himself.

Serial: The Green Death - Ep.6: Jo is getting married. The Doctor is sad and I am sad. I hope she hasn't been saving that wedding cake for him for the last 50 years. That was lovely.

Serial: The Time Warrior - Ep.1-2: Hello, Sarah Jane. Can you explain the Doctor? No one else can. I do like the Sontarans. I think they're cute. This has gone a bit Bedknobs and Broomsticks, with the armour moving and killing people on its own.

Serial: The Time Warrior - Ep.3-4: Sarah Jane is now leading an army, apparently. "I never lie." What a liar. Well that was lots of fun. You can't complain when you've got Pertwee!Doctor swinging on chandeliers can you?

Serial: Invasion of the Dinosaurs - Ep.1: Loving this post-apocalyptic London. Did the Doctor cut Sarah's hair during that quick TARDIS trip? Wow, that is a terrible dinosaur puppet. The poor Brigadier's life is so hard.

Serial: Invasion of the Dinosaurs - Ep.2: Nooooooo. Mike! Noooooooo. Benton is going to be heartbroken. I am heartbroken. The betrayal!

Serial: Invasion of the Dinosaurs - Ep.3: Sarah is waking up the awful dinosaur inflatable by taking pictures of it. Poor Benton - he hasn't even found out about Mike yet

Serial: Invasion of the Dinosaurs - Ep.4-5: WTF is that? Where's Bessie? Benton is such a good boy. I love him. I have enjoyed parts of this story but it could have been 4 episodes and I'm very sad about Mike.

Serial: Invasion of the Dinosaurs - Ep.6: Benton is the absolute MVP of this story. And the Doctor wins by reversing the polarity. With a nice anti-pollution message to end on.

Serial: Death to the Daleks - Ep.1: The Doctor has wandered off on his own and been captured, surprising no-one except poor Sarah, who just beat a burlap sack to death with a crank handle. The Doctor has escaped but Sarah is going to be sacrificed by the sacks.

Serial: Death to the Daleks - Ep.2-3: The Daleks arrive to the jauntiest music ever and can't kill anyone. Then they go off to have a little pow-wow. Hilarious. A giant vacuum cleaner has risen from the water to set one of the sacks on fire. This serial is wild!

Serial: Death to the Daleks - Ep.4: The Doctor has to get out of an escape room to blow up the evil city. Utterly bonkers.

Serial: The Monster of Peladon - Ep.1: Sarah is sick of tunnels and I can't say I blame her. I do like Alpha Centauri. How can you not like a green eyeball with arms and legs?

Serial: The Monster of Peladon - Ep.2-6: So much of this feels like a repeat of the last Peladon story. The Doctor has a sword though and I'm never going to argue with that. (I miss the Master)

Serial: Planet of the Spiders - Ep.1: I can't believe I'm on the last Pertwee!Doctor serial already. I don't want him to go. Mike! Mike interrupting a weird ritual. I like Sarah's 1920s hat. Jo! I miss Jo. And she misses everyone. Sarah you are being so dumb right now. Uh-oh.

Serial: Planet of the Spiders - Ep.2: The fake master stand-in has summoned a giant spider that shoots electricity. Poor Benton! Thinking he's expendable and then getting beaten up twice. Then there's a car chase, an air chase AND a boat chase.

Serial: Planet of the Spiders - Ep.3-6: So many giant spiders. Oh no, Sarah is been controlled by the Queen. That's terrifying. Mike!!! No!!! Oh phew, he's okay. Goodbye giant spiders. Goodbye Pertwee!Doctor. "Here we go again."

Pertwee!Doctor Era Round-up

Favourite Companion: Jo. No contest. I worship her.

Least favourite Companion: N/A I love them all

Favourite Serial: The Daemons / The Sea Devils

Least Favourite Serial: The Monster of Peladon

Pertwee!Doctor is a sexy bamf and I love him.

[deliciouskeys]

001 for Maevelander :)

* when I started shipping it if I did:

Episode 3 of season 1! They had so many good interactions. I was really intrigued by what kind of person Maeve was to be able to not only date HL, and also somehow manage to extricate herself out of a relationship with him, still be alive, and still have him clearly pining to get back together.

“See that’s what I like about you. You always tell me the truth”. And then in episode 4… the harrowing plane scene. The Boys writers say it sets up a contrast between HL and Maeve’s moralities, of course, but I thought it was also a fascinating example of someone staying silent about a serious crime because it’s their ex-partner who did it. Her evolving and increasing disgust and self-judgement as events spiral out afterwards was very interesting to watch.

* my thoughts:

I do think with each season their interactions got less satisfying 😕 But I adored morallygray!Maeve walking with the devil side by side in season 1 ❤️❤️❤️

* What makes me happy about them:

I thought Maeve was a badass female character, and I really like to think/read about how she first discovered and tapped into HL’s mental subbiness.

* What makes me sad about them:

Well, the fact that they were never really on the same page at all about the relationship is pretty sad. The scene in S3 where she tells HL that she hated him from the start makes her yet another person gaslighting him (don’t think the writers intended this scene to be tragic but it was)

* things done in fanfic that annoys me:

I have to say none of the Maevlander fics I’ve come across have annoyed me. Hypothetically, I’d be annoyed by a fic where HL was cruel and abusive to Maeve and she was meek and long-suffering.

* things I look for in fanfic:

Maeve being dominant in bed, but also Maeve being afraid of HL. The fics that pull off both of those aspects really rev me up. Also, it’s not a requirement but I’ve been delighted by the percentage of fics for this pairing that involve a pegging element— not a necessity by any means, but makes me feral.

* Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: 

Maeve can be with Elena if that makes her happy (maybe this is my own problem but I wish Elena were written as a more interesting character. I didn’t quite feel the chemistry.) I loved Maeve with Butcher, even though it came out of left field— but it would have been an interesting endgame, imo. For HL… he probably needs to end up with someone who genuinely loves him. Which might be impossible if he doesn’t get depowered. He’s going to have to be single dad parenting Ryan :/

* My happily ever after for them:

Homelander harvests her eggs and makes super babies via surrogate…. Juuuuust kiddingggg. I would have loved if Maeve never broke up with him but stayed on as the jaded, cool kid vaping in the bathroom while HL tries to reason with her and please her with romantic gestures, and never dumps her even though she’s undermining his clean cut earnest image and costing him points.

* who is the big spoon/little spoon:

I love HL being possessive of her, hovering around her, coming up behind her, trying to get into her space (Clarification: don’t condone irl, just compelling dynamic). He’s the big dumb eager spoon that her little spoon has to stave off periodically.

* what is their favorite non-sexual activity:

Apparently he liked weekend getaways to Europe with her. I think HL is into the glitz and PR of the relationship. But Maeve didn’t really enjoy any of that. I’d love to have had a glimpse into what HL references as understanding what it’s like for one another, being lonely at the top of the fame pyramid. Did they have quiet nights in where they watched movies and ate ice cream straight out of the pint container? We’ll probably never know from canon.

[sleepdeprivedandoverthinking]

More random headcanons for my twst ocs.

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1.

Estella had tea parties all the time as a child, and would force Vil to sit with him and drink water out of one of the tiny plastic tea cups, and Estella would not stop bothering him until he agreed.

2. Epel used to tell Lux and Oscar embarrassing stories about Ace and Deuce whenever he had to babysit them, and almost a decade later, both of them still bring it up during arguments

3. When Celeste was a child, and they had a sliding glass door, she would repeatedly run face first into it a lot, since she can't see glass.

4. Pawka once fell off one of the apple trees and cracked his head open when he was little, and straight up just walked inside to eat dinner like nothing happened.

5. The one thing Aba and Lilith bond over is shit talking most of the royalty they meet. Most of which assholes.

6. No one really liked picking up Ivy as a kid, because they didn't know if he'd bite them or not.

7. Every other week an "ex boyfriend" of Ivy's shows up at the house and starts demanding to see Ivy. At first it was a little scary, but now Floyd just has fun running them off and scaring them.

8. Jewel makes Azira sit with her and watch those girl dramas and reality TV shows. He pretends he hates them and will defend that statement with his life, but he's actively invested in what happens and has missed zero episodes of her shows, because he wants to find out what happens next.

9. From the time they were able to eat solid foods, Lilia and Emerald were tasked with feeding Lilith, Kaba, Toxic, Aba, and Cleo when their parents weren't there. Just like Lilia, Emerald's food is God AWFUL. And these kids would find every reason or excuse under the sun to hide food or not eat it. Lilith would regularly play possum and pretend she'd fallen asleep so she wouldn't have to eat. Aba started hiding food in plants and other places, and taught Cleo to do the same thing.

10. Celeste wasn't watching TV much as a kid, but she was OBSESSED with old school cartoons, even though since she was born in 2013 and most of them weren't still going. Her favorites were the valentine's day Monster High movie, The Addams Family, Ruby Gloom, Invader Zim, Monster High, Are You Afraid Of The Dark, and Courage the Cowardly Dog.

11. Croka hates olives, and Jazmi scrambles to eat them like a hungry cockroach.

12. Jazmi regularly ate sand as a kid.

13. The hyenas have tied Rokita, the baby, to a ceiling fan more times than not.

14. Jazmi accidently put Rokita in the fridge. She had the baby in one hand, and the sandwich in the other. She meant to put the sandwich in the fridge, and without thinking put Rokita in the fridge instead and walked off. After a few minutes she looked down she was holding the sandwich, and not the baby.

15. Physically, Emerald is the coldest mf you will ever meet. He is sorta dead, so of course his body is as cold as a Corpse.

16. When Ivy got his wisdom teeth removed, he kept flirting with Virsk, and eventually leaned over to kiss him. He instead fell out of bed, onto the floor, and smacked Virsk dead in the center of his face. Poison recorded the whole thing.

17. The reason Mouse has a bend in their tail, is because when they were around three, they had a nightmare and snuck into their parents bed for comfort. They were laying on Che'nya's back, who was still asleep, and when rolled over, Moise fell off the bed and landed RIGHT on their tail and tailbone.

18. As a toddler, Kaba would hang onto Silver's back like a koala.

19. When Lux was a toddler, he had a habit of headbutting people to show people affection. One time, he headbutted Ace so hard, he broke Ace's nose.

30. Spider, oblivious to Sam's fear of arachnids, would run up to him when they were younger and show him the spiders or tarantulas they found.

31. Cleo likes chewing and pawing at the thorns outside the palace, despite being told not to MULTIPLE times.

32. Estella cannot STAND the texture of those wooly, chunky blankets your grandma sometimes has. He will have a full on meltdown if he feels it. Sapphire will sometimes chase him around with one if he pisses her off.

[lenyul]

To Sir, With Love Episode 6: The psychological horror of family lunches returns

Cai Xiaotong tells Song that Dong’s relative is just pretending. He decides to confront Ma about this by dragging the pretender into an association meeting. This might be an intentional parallel to the first episode. Or maybe there are only so many ways (1 (one)) to drag someone into a meeting. But in the end it’s very he said, he said, she accused, he counter-accused, so it’s all just going in circles.

Well, if you can’t prove other things, try to charge them with tax evasion or other white collar crimes. Like sure, it would be nice to prove that he paid someone to pretend to be a relative, or that he is ordering the murder of people he thinks aren’t corrupt enough. But we only have evidence for embezzlement, so you get what you get and you don’t get upset.

It’s nice of Jia to confirm that these are the corpse mushrooms. Fun fact, after I watched this episode, I ate mushrooms in every meal for 3 days straight. It wasn’t intentional - and largely beyond my control - but the fact that I can still eat them really shows how much I love mushrooms. Unlike Li, who is currently having the worst time of her life. This scene is probably my favourite one so far in the series, I have a huge soft spot for the incredibly dramatic group meals gone horribly wrong. Li’s day keeps getting worse, as  she gets nightmares where Dong haunts her.

But not all is bad in Li’s life! Sure, her son definitely has to get married, and he definitely doesn’t want to. But she looked for an auspicious time, and found one a month and a half away! Surely things can’t fall apart in six weeks!

Chan is on her own here. Her husband says he’ll throw her out without evidence next time something happens. Her son won’t share the secret that could ruin his brother and put himself in a better position. Even Nuan says they should just learn to take the L. It makes sense that she would try to find someone who’s on her side, but she is still providing information that will help Ma kill Tian.

Jia kills the mushrooms with “fermented water”, which I’m sure doesn’t have any other effects, as she would mention them here (wink wink, nudge nudge). It’s a shame she didn’t do this sooner, because now Bua and Yang have some mushrooms and are eager to find out more about them. They only have good intentions, really, they want to find out why Li got sick from eating a tiny bite of the mushroom, when others are perfectly fine. But after literally no one they ask recognises the mushroom, they start to have suspicions that it might be connected to everything else that’s going on.

Tian and Yingpin are informed of the auspicious date, and they immediately oppose it. “Wow, the kids both think the date for the wedding is too soon. This means they are made for each other, and should get married on the next possible auspicious date” is the type of advanced logic that only parents who don’t care about their children’s feelings can pull off. They have a mini-after-meeting with Yang. Nangnoi really shines here, she tells Yang the wedding is the next day, and suggests a pretend-marriage (which I appreciate as someone who watched We Are Gamily at least 4 times, and has been waiting for this suggestion since episode 2). But this gets shot down by Tian, who knows that they would just be pressured for children. Yang promises to interrupt the wedding, and Tian thinks the hets are adorable, which he is very right about.

To prevent Yingpin from being trapped in a loveless marriage, Tian looks for the deed of her house. He almost manages to sneak it out of Li’s room when he gets caught. He then gets reminded that ripping up the deed - while it would be very dramatic, and he would look cool doing it - won’t have any actual legal effect.

The problem with accusing someone of fraud is that you might face some backlash in the form of them putting out a hit on you through your crush. We’ve all been there.

Next time, things get a lot more murdery, but also a lot gayer. It's very much a win-win situation.

[ashh-does-art]

Ashh Morningstar lore!!

(Made this for my masterpost)

Daughter of Lilith and Lucifer.

Backstory/Essential info:

Lucifer and Lilith had Ashh while they were still in Heaven (before Lilith ate the fruit.)

When Lucifer and Lilith fell, Ashh was placed under the care of a high ranking seraphim angel.

That angel, Jordan, was incredibly abusive.

Ashh fell from Heaven at age twelve because she was a dreamer, just like her father.

Cooped herself up in the palace for a while after that.

When Lucifer went to visit Charlie, (episode 4,) Ashh tagged along, which is how she met everybody.

Due to a lot of their shared interests and beliefs (and Alastor's infatuation with this confusing weirdo) Ashh and Alastor quickly became close.

Ashh and Alastor got married! Radiostar!! The cuties ☹️🤧

She lives at the palace, but often stays at the hotel.

Fun Facts:

Favorite band is Mindless Self Indulgence!!

Favorite food is hamburgers

Favorite drink is Mtn Dew (despite popular belief, it's not battery acid)

Favorite animals are fish and deer

She's really good at sewing, crafting and DIYing things

She's an artist! Almost always has her sketchbook on her

Has wings like Lucifer, along with a demon form like his and Charlie's.

Her powers are extremely similar to Lucifer's; she can heal, fly, spawn shit into existence, and move shit with her mind.

Swears like a sailor.

She's bisexual

She likes to go to the human world (in her human disguise) and go to shitty bars and pubs just for the burgers

PTSD, ADHD, anxiety and depression

She's also gone to countless MSI concerts (in human disguise) and she ABSOLUTELY paid the dollar (iykyk)

She's emo & punk

She likes setting shit on fire

She's got daddy issuessssss

Relationships:

Lucifer is her father

Lilith is her mother

Charlie is her younger sister

Vaggie is her "honorary younger sister" (in her words)

Alastor is her husband

Deadly sins are her aunts/uncles

Stolas is her best friend

Hotel guests (main cast) are her close friends

Pre-answered questions:

"Ashh, she sounds just like you. You literally have the same name." She's my self insert sona OC thing idk what to fucking call her BUT SHE IS ME LMAO!

"How did Lucifer and Lilith have Ashh in Heaven? Wouldn't they be punished?" Lucifer carried the baby and used his magic to cover the bulge & speed up the process. She was born four days before Lucifer and Lilith fell. Her birth was one of the deciding factors in their banishment.

"Let me get this straight- She has ADHD, PTSD, depression and anxiety?? Don't you think that's a bit much?" It is! It really is, and it sucks to live with. I've been officially diagnosed by my psychiatrist and therapist with ADHD, PTSD, anxiety and depression. I'm just giving her my issues.

"Do you have to project your MSI obsession onto everything..?" Yes.

[navree]

Regarding the rhaena ask as somebody who adores fanon rhaena i think people for get how little characterisation ALL the team black kids have in cannon they basically just exist either to die or build out the family tree in f&b and the show doesn't help with this cutting jace and cregan which is like THE ONE THING JACE DOES??, Rhaena and Baela have like 4 lines each it's insane

Yeah I've been singing this song for a while, the younger gen of Team Black got absolutely no characterization. Jace had a bit in episodes 6 & 7 about having some hangups over Harwin being his father, but I think they abandoned that when they realized that Jace having issues about his birth might make him conflicted about his mom and we can't have that, no one is allowed to view Rhaenyra unsympathetically ever and we can't allow subtleties because this fandom is made up of 90% morons who wouldn't catch them and then would get pissy. Luke also got no characterization other than what appears to be budding sociopathy given that he's never shown any remorse or guilt over nearly killing a person in a fight where he was at fault. It's why I burst out laughing when 1x10 opened, because that whole "mummy I am small bean give me kisses while I bat my doe eyes" scene was so transparently a way to get people to care about Luke so that we wouldn't all be left scratching our heads going "oh OK" when Vhagar ate him, since they utterly failed to develop him at all at that point.

Baela and Rhaena I've always said have it most egregiously. I cannot stress this enough, I could not name five individual characteristics for either of those girls. Did they even have any lines after the second time jump? The writers put no effort into them at all. Zip, zilch, zero. And I'm getting pissy anons (honestly I think it's actually one person who's obsessed with me and just jumps on my ass the second I talk about either Baela or Rhaena because they have nothing better to do than stalk my little blog but that's just a theory) about the fact that I'm not invested in the character? That I don't care about her? That her actions are illogical to me as an audience member because they belie an emotion that was never shown because she got no characterization? No, I'm sorry, blame the writers. I am the consumer of the product, I am the audience, it is actually not incumbent on me to create a character out of whole cloth for the writing team. If they want me to care about Rhaena, put some fucking effort into her character. Give her lines, give her a personality, give her a fucking storyling (I mean, other than Nettles, seeing as how Black women are not in fact interchangeable HBO and it's not even just a racist writing decision, it's straight up bad), put in a modicum of work into her. That's the canon fact, there's nothing there, I'm surprised I have to say this outside of the Batman fandom (fanworks Tim Drake my nemesis) but fanon is not canon, and when I'm asked about canon, I'm discussing the canon, save for when I'm specifically asked to theorize and move beyond it.

It is not my fault that I don't care about a character because the writers decided not to give her anything, nor am I a bad person for fucking pointing it out and just being a bit blunt in my language while doing so. It's not that hard for these writers to actually put their backs into it and write a story, especially with the room they have with Rhaena, since she didn't even fucking do anything for the entire Dance anyway except faff around in the Vale.

I also think the absolutely atrocious way Rhaena and Baela were handled can't really be divorced from some internal prejudices the writers have. I mean, it really hasn't escaped my notice that the two younger gen characters who got the most development were Aegon and Aemond, two men. And it absolutely has not escaped my notice that, even though Helaena got significantly less character moments than her brothers, she still got a base characterization that's remained consistent and can lead to further personal plots in coming seasons (like her dragon-dreaming). Helaena, played by a white actress, was allowed this dignity, while Baela and Rhaena, played by two Black actors, were not. Combined with the lack of care given to the Velaryons as a whole, I've mentioned this before but it doesn't paint a great picture of this writer's room and any real attempts to be diverse and inclusive beyond performative casting that they aren't willing to work with in any meaningful way. Not all of it is internalized prejudices, there was clearly just no effort put into characterizing any of the younger TB characters as a whole (or even any of the TB characters other than Rhaenyra and Daemon in a meaningful way), considering Jace had nothing and Luke could have spent his entire time on the show being played by a literal shrub and it still wouldn't have made a difference. There was clearly more effort put into characterizing the Team Green kids, and conversely none to their Team Black counterparts, but it's still bad writing, and I'm gonna call that out when I see it.