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squarebracketsmileyface · 3 months ago

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holding my hands out like im oliver twist for the masterdoc of the cowboy au

Sadly, we didn't really put much of it down in a doc, it's just free-floating in our messages from like a year ago, there's almost no way I'll be able to find it with how much we talk to each other, but I can try my best to remember it.

My boyfriend sent me the little bit he'd written down about pre transition Alex's view of the cowboys (Tim and Brian)

Alex's parents owned a bookstore/library I think, and Alex was expected to take over the business at some point, so he was stuck cooped up in the little back room of the shop doing boring things, inventory or whatever, and spent most of his day staring out of the window at Brian and Tim riding around on horseback and stuff. I think he and Jay had been friends for a while, like since they were kids because they both kinda clicked with all their gender stuff, even if neither of them knew they were trans when they were younger. Jay's a trans man and Alex ends up as a trans woman.

I think Jay was friends with Tim and Brian already, I seem to remember something about Jay joining those two on a ride up to the pastures, either sharing one of their horses or riding his own? And then they all stopped at this waterfall and pool halfway up and all went swimming. I think there was smutty stuff that happened at that pool lol, like Tim and Brian being completely comfortable and shameless being naked in front of each other stripping down and jumping straight into the pool. And then Jay was more hesitant but eventually, after the other two encouraged/goaded him he stripped down too and joined them in the pool.

Then sexy times occurred. No idea if we ever fleshed out what happened there lol or if it was just general "they do the sex things" or if I'm completely misremembering and adding in smut where there was none. I'm pretty sure there was smut ideas for this au tho.

Anyway. I think Jay became good friends with the cowboys and ended up in a relationship with both of them, but then he and Alex had always kinda been sweet on each other, so like, everyone in the little town they all lived in expected them to end up getting married. And at some point Alex got introduced to the cowboys by Jay? Somehow Alex met the cowboys and they really hit it off, and Alex (who at that point was still "cis") had a bit of a gay awakening realising like, oh, no it's not just Jay, I just like men oh no.

Also I think Alex also got to have a good old smutty time at that waterfall at some point?

Some other stuff happened I think and at some point after the four of them had been "very close friends" (all dating each other) for a while, Alex had a gender thing and realised she was actually a woman. Then some other stuff happened and Jay and Alex moved in with Tim and Brian. I think they had their own house or whatever, but after that most of what I remember is Brian's mum being an absolute icon.

As my boyfriend says, she was the real main character.

She was just a saint. Also all of Brian's little sisters adored Alex, all of them wanted her to braid their hair and stuff. Also I think Brian's mum was a seamstress? She made Alex her first dress even when everyone else liked, frowned at it. She just invited Alex to her shop and measured her and let her pick out her fabrics and stuff and made the dress for Alex at a discount or something.

Also I think it was a thing that all Brian and Tim's clothes were patched to hell and back, but they were patched with floral patterned fabric scraps from the offcuts of the dresses Brian's mum made?

There was also something about Tim and Brian hooking up in a barn when they were younger (they're all like, late 20's in the au I think?) and Brian's mum just kinda knew and was a menace to them about it. I think they slept in that barn a lot together. Like, sex sleeping together as well as just sleeping sleeping together lol. I think?

I really don't remember I could be making all this shit up as I go along.

My boyfriend made them all in the Sims a while ago lol, they were so cute. Alex was so pretty :]

But yeah, cowboy au :D

Pretty much nothing ever got written for it, it was just a collection of picrews and us ranting at each other about it on WhatsApp lol

#marble hornets #cowboy au #cowboys #jay merrick #alex kralie #tim wright #brian thomas #polyhornets #mild nsft

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certifiedcodbabygirl · 9 months ago

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Guess who’s back w my bullshit??

Got inspo from my soap mactavish playlist & skater boy by Avril Lavigne was on-

He was a punk she did ballet, what more can I say?

Punk soap and ballerina reader im begging 😮‍💨✨🩰🤘🏼

Sorry this took so long 😭💗

Punk Johnny would be the type to listen to Electric Sockhead by Destructo Disk while waiting for you outside of your ballet studio. He's on leave and, contrary to what the others think, he doesn't wear compression shirts and gym shorts. He's got his battle jacket on with a pair of patch pants (I think he'd get too bugged by not washing his crust pants and would settle for patch pants). He's got his ear piercings (the same ones he uses various object to poke through while deployed to make sure they don't close up) and gels his mohawk so it's pointier. He doesn't use spotify, or apple music, or Amazon. He downloads music onto his phone (that he bought from a friend so he doesn't buy into a big corporation) and shops locally. I think the only reason Punk! Johnny is in the military and settles it in his brain is because he's part of a special task force, and not generic duty. He definitely has 1312 tattoo on his shoulder and some sort of tattoo for when Queen Elizibeth died (like that video of Irish people in the football stadium screaming "Lizzy's in a box!" when her death was announced mid-game)

He tries to not mess with your ballet attire, even if you had to shoo him away from drawing something on your leotard. The first time he came to one of your recitals and was looking for you, he got so many looks. To go from frilly tutus to spikes and leather boots was a lil bit of whiplash for most of the people there. The more recitals he went to, the more people recognized his and even began to refer to him as your man. He definitely bought some flowers from a small stand and brought them for you.

Every.

Single.

Time.

If you don't already like the music he does, he'll try to introduce you to it. I imagine he loves Destructo Disk (i'm projecting i love destructo disk sm) and would try to start you out with some of their softer songs (Goth Queen, Batty For You, Sockhead (not electric))

I like to think he'd make a light-colored battle jacket for you (they exist) and take you to local basement concerts. There's this thing that some people will do with their battle jackets where they'll get a piece of cloth, paint your initials on it, and then sew a patch over it so that it's like a pocket that can't be opened without taking the entire patch off. Once you two are engaged, he'd do that.

I have so many more thoughts on punk! Johnny so lemme know if you want more pookie <3

Source: me

Lore drop:

I was in the punk community for a WHILE (still am, just don't always dress the same. I do have a battle jacket tho) (Punk isn't just clothing btw. It's music, culture, politics, and clothing. You can dress however you want and as long as you got those others, you're good. A lot of discourse in the community tho unfortunately). I'm not 100% sure on Scottish punk culture, so I'm mostly going off of American punk culture. If anyone that's from Scottland or knows abt Scottish punk culture, lemme know in the replies!

#call of duty modern warfare #cod x reader #john mactavish #john soap mactavish #soap cod #soap mw2 #soap call of duty #soap mactavish #soap x reader #john soap mactavish x reader #john mactavish x reader #johnny mactavish x reader #johnny soap mactavish x reader #johnny soap mactavish

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kartana · 1 month ago

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[People I'd like to get to know better]

thank you tagging me @weepycat !!! I remember first getting on tumblr and seeing these all the time and wanting to do them so bad but I was too shy. I hope ur doing well!!!

Last song: Misty Mauve by Tatsuro Yamashita. I found a clean rip on SoundCloud and it's been my one song I repeat on there so I avoid ads. I've memorized phonetically 85% of the song since spanish and Japanese have the same sounds. I've played this song for years now it's crazy but also it's so good I highly rec it

Favorite color: there's a specific shade of yellow orange that just really brightens my day like what a sunset looks like right before the sky turns to night. Between Mandarin peels and Neon orange climbing rope. Specifically when it's like the splash of color in an otherwise muted scene idk. I feel like my answer changes a lot tho

Currently watching: I guess the last thing I watched was Dandadan with a friend of mine, I saw the first episode and ended up reading the entire manga so it's likely going to be the series I keep up with. Very excited to see turbo granny soon

Currently reading: I just fixed up my nook and downloaded all of Brandon Sandersons stormlight archive books, I've just finished part 1 of his first book The Way of Kings. I'm reading since my friend really wanted me n other friends ti read it so she could start a book club so I'm reading it partly for her and partly because I haven't bitten into a fat fantasy book in a while and I know I'd like it. I was starting his other book mistborn but was told off and instructed to read the way of kings first so im doing that. I'm also reading the manga Gachuakuta as it comes out chapter by chapter with one of my close friends it's been really fun being able to follow a manga as it releases and the art style goes hard.

Last movie: took me a second but I think it was Doctor Sleep at a friend's movie night. I have not watched the shining. Which I feel adds to the experience in a sideways unique way. Rebecca Ferguson's hat in that movie is so funny. I liked it but it felt kinda insane. Like it could've been weirder but it had some shining Hollywood ropes to jump thru. Very fun otherwise very silly.

Sweet/spicy/savory: Sweet I'm sorry to my spicy and savory lovers I'm right there with you but I've recently embraced and accepted I have a sweet tooth and it's been wonderful. I can still throw it down spicy style with only a little crying and savory is soooo close too but sweet. The grip honey in my tea has on me.

Relationship status: I'm dating someone rn 🫣 it's been about 2 months since our first date and it's been really nice🥰. It's been really helpful since in August I needed to get rid of a friend crush which is now back to being a good friendship and today I'm gonna introduce my date to a lot of friends so I'm half nervous half very excited for people to meet. Every day I thank God for Bi women. Bi4Bi baby

Current obsession: Competitive Pokémon TCG. It's truly taking over my life in a good way I love it so much. I want to get to worlds next year. I have like 4 decks rn and I'm making more. My strongest deck and most consistent(despite it being by nature an inconsistent deck) has been playing Lugia Archeops I love those two pokemon and I love how the deck plays. It's a joy to look at new cards and try and game theory new innovations or strategies against other met decks and I have been really good about not buying packs and gambling away money. I will buy singes and b happy. Please talk to me about this I will happily explain and help you get into it.

I will tag @hoth-damn @lieblingsfags @theflyingsealion @stantler @infernape @reptilepolice @poochyenas @kumatora @rexroads @ainawgsd @stylesheet @ava-stuck @castellla @shimptank @tzuyusgf @151 @vivillon @ithoughtitwasbroccoli @beleth

🎃!!!

#this was very fun to do while at work

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bitchin-tubs · 9 months ago

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Complain time again tee hee but I’m just like UGHHHH talking genuinely to these ppl is SO hardddddd

With girl A, I spent almost a whole class lecture (friendly) debating with this one girl on why people medically diagnosed as psychopaths and sociopaths are not inherently dangerous, are not narcissistic by default and how ‘masking’ is not a form a manipulation. Her source for all of these… You. The Netflix show…

With girl B, I feel like she’s sooooo,,,, dismissive ?? Idk like I tried to introduce her to my friends once and she genuinely did not gaf. Like I said hi B this is C then she says hi to me and me only. Like my girl C is right here. But at the same time she’s always bringing me into her friend groups which is fine but I dont connect easily so most times I’m kinda just there SPECIALLY if it’s an all men group when I have specially told her I tend to be uncomfortable with men for “no” reason

I was having a conversation with girl A and the topic of autism was brought up, I told her that I think I may be low on the spectrum but there are some things I tend to relate to with autism behaviors, and considering opened up to me about her anxiety and how she had previously talked very openly abt diagnosis I thought maybe she’d get it. I know,,, self diagnosis (u are free to feel any type of way abt it) but idk I thought she’d have any type of nuanced comment about it but I should’ve known from the psychopath talk… I had told her that I find meeting new people very hard, I have difficulty talking to said people and I tend to be very restrictive about who I make a meaningful connection to. She said that my personality is and I quote “mamona” (jerk/snob/asshole ish) and completely dismissed my masking, overstimulation, 10 year old special interest, taking shit to literal and not understanding social cues or instructions as “just being different” yeah so I thought… yknow I might not have autism valid but idk I felt so ignored at that moment

Also don’t think I just unpack shit on her unannounced, we talk and convos play out as they usually do and since the topic was out I was like sometimes I wonder if I have it because of so and so plus she was unwinded with me before so it wasn’t impossible for us to talk abt personal stuff, even though we not so tight we are still close

Another thing I’m very bad at making friends, I think I mirror good enough to have nice interactions with people but not to the point they invite me to shit or talk to me outside of classes. Back when I was in my exchange program I was sharing a room with 3 swifties so I had to pretend to like Taylor swift so I wouldn’t feel singled out, I also watched the summer I turned pretty and witnessed these girls thirst over bad boy #2 when I thought the character was so shitty (the actor is good looking but I’m not attracted to him) and also would also unknowingly spend all-nighters on school nights (as in I didn’t know they were meant to be all-nighters) with them watching a movie I didn’t particularly like and see everyone thirsting over annoying man on screen (one of them was some straight outta wattpad step-sibling story ew, the other pride and prejudice IM SORRY YALL I DIDNT GET THE HYPE 😭 call me uncultured it’s okay

A and B are sólo also hardcore swifties and I can only be neutral abt her otherwise they get on my ass about it and saying I like Taylor swift or her music is too big of a lie even for me

I told girl A about this (or at least a bit) and she said that I should’ve just been me. Girl I can’t be me we were both witnessing a girl being actively bullied (tv show ass bullying they printed a picture of her and drew over it ugly, taped it to her dorm room. Still hurtful and bullying tho) I’m NOT about to ostracize myself

HOWEVERRR these are not my main friends, these are like the friends I made to not be lonely in these extra classes for an American 🦅🦅🦅 diploma. My close CLOSE friends are from my same career classes and they are so much more understanding and can interact more naturally with. So in my day to day I got good genuine friends by my side

I recognize that I can be perceiving these memories differently than how they actually happened, misinterpret their actions and just be in my feeling right now but idk I feel like I’m so difficult and constantly just have to comply with people in order to make others comfortable

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organatwins · 1 year ago

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exploding you with my mind tell me EVERYHGIN about your padawan ocs i need to hold them very gently in my hands like theyre those bagged goldfish you get at the fair. i need them in my hands to hold and sob over because thyere so fcute im gonig to scream.

WAUGHH THANKIES TYSM THIS IS SO KIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay so first before i go into this you haveto know theyre originally from an outline for a dinluke visual novel gamei started coding and never finished. heheh. the story was originally just about din settling into life with luke and the students while training with the darksaber, but the players choices and how they had din interacting with luke andthe children deteremined the ending.

the padawan children in this au were:

Alluria- a young pantoran girl with bright eyes and a brighter smile, shes very happy with her life on yavin IV and loves studying the force with her fellow padawans, though tends to be alittle air headed and unfocused in her excitment. she wants to be everyones friend! has trouble actually,,, making friends,,, comes off kind of too strong and too much and scares away the other students who are much more reserved than she is

Reina - the youngest baby my darling reina...a young rodian girl who was seperated from her family during imperial rule- and has entrusted masterskywalker with the very important mission of helping her find them (her brother has passed without her knowing, they were extremely close- her mother holds vigil for reina every night and prays for her safe return) and believes whole heartedlysomeday they will. she was extremely shy and soft spoken when she first came to lukes academy- but has since warmed up enough that her very caring and empathetic nature is begining to shine through,, luke thinks she will be a healer

Lylah - a sleepy (almost narcoleptic) twilek girl who has visionsof the future when she dreams- when the force decides shes ready fora vision, she is already fast asleep. luke has seemingly endless patience for her, as he cant imagine having the burden of the future onhisshoulders at such a young age. Lylah is very reserved . quiet and to herself, but not in an aloof way. i think she just knows she wont be awake very long and tries to conserve energy.

Ryo - the oldest and most troubled of all my girlies... came from a very rough home life where her use of the force was punished from a very early age, despite her not being able to control it. using the force scares her, soshe rarely joins the other padawans during training. stays back and tries not to make friends really, becus she feels like this only temporary . and hey, maybe shes right, yknow? lylah has been having visions of a dark force watching them... maybe ryo should be tho one to go investigate,, she doesnt think anyone would even notice she was gone..... the bare bones plot to this vn (since i will probably never go back to it): Din is visiting Grogu at the Jedi Praxeum for the first time; he has met up with Luke on outer rim planets quite a few times but he is the first parent to be allowed to know the location of the actual school. He does not take this lightly. He is introduced to a small handful of other students, as well as invited to stay as long as he likes and observe any of Grogus classes. He does not take this lightly either. Din sits in on as many classes as he can, both enthralled by luke and the desperately need to be as close to grogu as possible. Theres DEFINITELY a scene early on where din walks in on luke training by himself in the dagobah tank-esque look like a little sweaty,,, its a dating sim, fucking sue me. Anyways. Din starts noticing more and more about luke, starts falling in love, you KNOW, the usual, but conflict wise he also notices one of lukes older students seems very troubled… Din points this out to Luke, who has very much noticed and is worried about this students pull to the dark side. He asks Din to talk with the student, give them an outside perspective from quote “a good mans point of view.” Din is hesitant, but agrees for both Luke and his students sake. The student is further gone than Luke had thought, and lashes out at Din, then runs away. Luke is very worried, but also wants this student to have the time they need to let out their emotions on their own… he's just scared of crossing the line either way and not giving them enough or too much time… defos DEFOS a scene where luke cries about how practically raising these kids by himself is so scary and he doesnt know if he's cut out for it, while Din assures him that ofc he is and that he isnt alone. He gives Luke a keldabe kiss, assuming he doesnt know what it means (he does) and assures him that he will never be alone if he doesnt want to be… later, Luke asks Din to come with him; as he has sensed the student off planet and where Luke suspects a sith artifact to be. They battle the student turned sith; and their sith inquisitor “master”... possible endings ensue.

#sw ocs #2sday ocs

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my-castles-crumbling · 3 months ago

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Hi Cas! I kinda needed a bit of advice so this is going to be a long rant

So last year there was a new girl at our school. I had just gotten over a crush, someone who I knew wouldn't like me back so I was pretty bored because what else can a queer teen girl do instead of fantasising about other girls. So when I saw her for the first time, she was reading a book. I thought she was new but I wasnt sure so I had to reconfirm. The next period turns out, she ended up in one of my language classes where she had to introduce herself.

Well, long story short (idk if ill survive) my best friend managed to make us sit together in another common class and that was the start of our friendship (i pined after her the WHOLE summer break because i was too shy to talk to her despite being an extrovert). We started texting and stuff So I established that i liked her and told her um one day before my besties birthday (pretty soon im excited) andddddddd guess whatttttttttttt. she rejected me. WEEEE

but one day in September i went to her art exhibition with my mom and our moms got to talking and i was still mad in love despite being rejected but anyway a day after that in school we had a small assembly about the lgbtqia+ community and how its okay to like girls, being in an all girls school so after that she texted me saying that she liked me and i FREAKED because i was so EXCITED welp. um. even tho she liked meeeeeeee we ended up in a situationship because she didnt wanna date and i was confused but didnt wanna force her

now my bestie has a theory which I directly quoted:

I think as a new girl, she wanted to make friends. And her best friend's nice, fine, whatever, but have you noticed that she rarely talks to your girlfriend once she's with her friends? Even your girlfriend must have. The point is, you were nice, kind, friendly. You wanted to be "friends" or so she first thought. It was a good friendship, and then you confessed. Our theory was that she didn't say that she liked you back then was because she didn't. Then you might've accidentally gone and done the thing where you avoid people, especially because you felt that you had ruined everything. So she confessed to not lose you. And then you ended up dating after whyever she didn't want to date was sorted out. She knew that you'd always treat her right and then she tried so it would be like a relationship. Then once you said you loved her, romantically, she knew you were going to be around. And then she eventually stopped trying. I think that she got attached to you at some point in time, and that's when the whole thing with the constant "I miss you"s started. The original basis of the theory was something we had discussed before, not you and me, but yeah, and I just elaborated with whatever information I've learnt today.

anyway most of my close friends disapproved of the relationship because she never reciprocated their efforts to get to know each other because both parties were going to be major parts of my life and never seemed to speak to me when they were around but i was blind and stupid and didnt listen to them and actually ended up ditching people to hangout with wonderful gf who said ok to dating 2 days after my bday

anyway so recently i been feeling like i wanna break up with her? so obv first person i go to is my best friend bc she's is the platonic loml and then she helps and we forget about it. mind you we're mid exams rn and like a few days ago i have had the nagging feeling i wanna breakup with her. bestie. my best friend makes me list out reasons and gets trauma dumped on.

basically I feel like we never have real conversations or communicate properly and it's always just kind of baby talk? even when it's serious, so like. yeah and then sometimes when i'm talking about my interests, she just goes "ew" and doesn't listen? and I help her when she fights with her best friend, but when I fight with mine she just replies "oh" and nothing else.

and the thing is we have very different schedules, but she always expects me to compromise on mine for hers like she stays up and I wake up early but she calls me late at night when i'm sleeping because "she missed me"??? she did this once on the day before a test and she knew that I wanted to get up early to revise. not to mention, she once also called my mom a psycho. yeah, so all of that and the fact that she never gave me gifts for our six month anniversary while I made her several boquets of paper flowers and shit I thought that maybe she didn't think we were doing that but I didn't get anything afterwards either. it's the same with gifts in general. and she doesn't really match my wild side or wants to do cliche coupley things that I want to do and I don't want to force her but I also really want to do them?

anyway i kinda got some shit going on in my life? and i kinda told gf that i may be emotionally unavailable but we'll talk about this after midterms. thing is. i may have told gf i wanna be friends but i dont actually now idk how to do damage control? But in my best friend's opinion it will just make shit more complicated and hurt both our feelings

idk what to do. everyone around me has biased opinions, so, yeah

Hi! <3

Okay, here's the thing. You're listening to everyone's opinion right now but your own. What do YOU want? Whatever you want, like really want, you need to decide that. And then you need to nicely tell your (ex)gf that. Because forcing your feelings for other peoples' benefit will only result in other people being hurt.

If you want to be with this girl, you need to communicate your feelings about her not being available enough. if you want space, you need to tell her that, too.

Either way, decide what YOU want, you know? Stop listening to others <3

naming you paper flower anon

#ask #asks #ask cas #paper flower anon

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beantothemax · 1 year ago

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some accumulated stars thoughts over time for your perusal

a. hoooly shit they said nya

b. hoooly shit dile did too

c. WOK

d. cannot wait for either when there's 5 stools conviniently in one very close location or when sif just doesnt give a shit anymore

e. just realised their attack animations are the relevant hand sign i think thats very cool (except for sif i get hes trying to be cool but boss your pose is incomprehensible within the confines of square(my guess is he holdin a knife tho))

f. odile's dying face is awesome and she is very swagful for it

g. the "sif is literally me" file grows larger in evidence every passing line of dialogue, most notably the "you like bein near then and not contribuing to conversation, having friends is nice :)" bit

h. sometimes i just like to walk back and forth down hallways and looka those very crisp 2 frames of walking animation. isabeau is top tier, and boni is a close second with their naruto running

i. i dont quite understand the recording of levels in regards to the looping but im sure ill get it in time, it has been introduced for approx five seconds after all

j. games with many save slots always worry me as i then think that its gonna have some major choices that can result in different endings or perhaps a completely different route which is especially confusing for this as it seems like a linear ass game so far. also when i attempt to use them my brain hurts with remembering where and what i was doing in which save.

a: moment so important i took a video of it so it could be immortalized for all time

b: see above

c: WOK

d: sif is in dire need of a sit… pls provide stool

e: i can provide (1) image for this one!!!!!

it’s a lil hard to make out, but sif’s brandishing their dagger in one hand and making a scissors sign with their other!

f: odile is SO cool i love her dearly…

g: I THOUGHT THE EXACT SAME THING WHEN I READ THAT DIALOGUE……. they’re just like me for real….

h: the walking sprites are very good!!!!!!!! all the sprites in general are!!!! they’re so little!!!!!!

I: i THINK it works like this: the experience and craft skills your party has is recorded every time you interact with a save point. Whenever you loop to ANY save point, they’ll keep the highest recorded stats. so if you grind your party to level 52, save at a house save point, loop back to dormont, save again at a house save point with your party at level 46, die again, then loop forward to any castle save point, your party will be level 52. I think. it’s confusing.

j. i really hope there isn’t anything like that, or if there is, they at least warn you if you’re going to make a major voice so you can make extra saves accordingly…

#big fan of the organization here!!!! very convenient for answering thank you jay :]#asks #jayandthejets #jay gets boulder’d #crab dni

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sillygreenrat · 10 months ago

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I have some more smokeybat headcanons, got inspired now

#. Sam gets a big crush on Uzi, he wants to try impress her and hang out with her. So he tries asking her out whenever he can, Uzi oblivious to his crush agrees and hangs out with him a lot.

#. Uzi shows him anime and he ends up liking anime quite a lot, his favourite type being chill slice of life or the cooking anime. Makes him jealous they can't eat like humans can

#. He makes her a badge of their favourite anime character for her to wear on her beanie.

#. Sam is a talented artist and has a sketch book full of drawings and abstract work too. When he on magnets is when some his most colourful work is done. He has a very detailed drawing of Uzi he keeps special. It's of her in class reading, she looked so pretty that day.

#. Sam got a bit jealous when Thad started talking to Uzi , he could see Uzi seemed to like him a bit and was a little sad by that. He got more upset when N showed up because he could definitely see Uzi big crush on him.

#. He talk with Uzi about N and he encourages her to tell him how she feels, being a wingman.

#. Sam writes a love note to Uzi along with a drawing and sends it to her anonymously, hoping to impress her. He was too scared to sign it.

I have more if you like to listen to it

i am SO sorry for taking so long on these lmfao???? i really wanted to think abt these. tysm for sending me all of these delightful thoughts to grab and run with i would absolutely be willing to hear more

1 + 5: it was a crush that's been there since the begining, uzi was always kinda cute and charming, the way she interupted class with sarcastic wit on occasion, the way she would go above and beyond what the assignments were just to have her own fun. sam has always been the more quiet, shut in type, always following rules, never usually being the type to speak up or make a sound, but whenever uzi does something particularly silly he can't help but laugh a little (and boy shes a whole fucking circus so lemmie tell you). though he had to eventually start making moves once thad god involved.

for the record, i do NOT ship thad n uzi, i get it as a ship, but it just aint my thing, however im a big fan of unrequitted love, and i can absolutely see uzi just not being interested in the popular jock type (shes more into the silent stoner type COUGH COUHG(J)), seeing thad as more of a close friend due to him being so caring when no one else seemed to be.

unfortunately for sam the only time he was able to fully talk and get to know uzi was AFTER she was already introduced to his oil (lmfao)

2: this dude wants to eat so bad, let this man manifest some robot mac n cheese for his ass. its not 'hunger' but its like, some fuckin program malfunction due to the magnets that you could compare to stoner munchies but lord does he get angry when uzi puts on a ghibli or some shit and they start makin ramen or some shit.

on the topic of anime tho uzi would absolutely be into anime and try and get sam (and by extention N and possibly V) into anime

current hyperfixation is firmly beliving shes be a nutcase over jujutsu kaisen (would love the curses and their vibe of 'we wanna take over humanity' but the humans are pretty cool too she GUESSES) but i think shed also be into shit like kill la kill, evangelion, maybe even a smidge of ouran on the side bc damn it she wants to be surrounded by a buncha cute boys (and low and behold be projecting trasmasc feelings onto uzi but boy she'd feel a sense of 'man i bet i could pull off a suit' and she WOULD)

3 + 4: him being obsessed w/ drawing n stuff is honestly a small headcanon i had personally!!!!! glad its a thing for another person ugh (positive) he would totally pay attention to the characters she hyperfixates on and go CRAZY making her posters and small keychain hangers and such (probably has an old laminator in his house that he uses to seal the all to keep them from getting ruined). i like to imagine he likes to draw/paint skyscapes, trying to find really interesting cloud formations or spots where the moon shines through them to draw cuz he thinks that kinda shits beauitufl, would absolutely love earth sky's so fucking much let this man see them

6 + 7: N IS BEST WINGMAN. i ship all of them together in one homoginous poly so i can confirm this happened and it was real. would absolutely help sam before he even considered allowing his feelings for uzi show

#fitz posting #fitz answers shit #murder drones #md #sam murder drones #uzi murder drones #n murder drones #smokeybats #bluntbiscuits #smokeybiscuitbites #these drones take up!!!!!!!!!!#my brain space!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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heleizition · 10 months ago

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u cannot just present me with gold right when i have to go to bed. i have a sleep schedule to keep to! for health! and sanity! and brain! i love them so much. ur ocs. i love twin characters, so many dynamics and all are good. the art is also just -wants to squeeze- affectionately. who were they in their past lives? is josephines 'i failwd to protec' a thing that also happened in past life? bunny person very good. love how expressive the ears can get. also cute. i think i watched the first ep of d.gray man way way back?? or the first few? i have very little memory of it but a vague plan to get back to that sometime. angel love, angel life, angel delight. the concept of god being a baby of a big species of gods is -chefs kiss- love it. sleep tiiiime, sleep well when u do byeeeee

HEHEHEHE >:3 im evil .

i looooove siblings dynamics........... so so much ........... both chronos & nath and then nell & belly weren't even twins at first it just Happened lmao... chronos & nath were almost the same character in two different stories and i couldnt decide who to keep lmao and then belly was supposed to be nell's little sister he ran from after she saw him kill their father (to protect her) (nell is an idiot) but . it jst happened. anyway

SO THEIR PAST LIVES.

The group of oc is composed of many i havent introduced yet but the major ones are here i think except my Bad Guy. so keep in mind the story is cringy and bad lmao but i still like it to this day...

post apocalyptic earth where humans live under domes bc the outside is too toxic + technology evolved so now cyborgs exist + a while back some government doctors & scientists were working in a secret lab to implants animal genes w humans to make hybrids & something about genetic preservation whatever whatever. anyway.

eve is the protagonist. she's the only daughter of head doctor of that hybrid lab. it exploded 20 years ago which cause people inside that specific dome to mutate into hybrids (people woke up to agonizing pain bc their body was breaking and morphing and it wasn't made for that. josephine was one of those people ! she was a wolf hybrid :3)

we follow eve and her then group of friends until for some reasons (<==== guy who does not remember what that plot point was) the dome had to be evacuated. something about a deadly virus ? ofc as always the rich people got away first until the dome got closed off completely <3 . eve meets several people including chronos (human guy, future bf, hes a simp) maria & arthur (yes i will draw them at some point OTL) and they stick together to survive as the inside of the dome is becoming a battleground. doesn't help that part of the reason the dome was closed off so quick was that ~mafia~ (idk how else to call it, its not rly mafia tho oTL) boss stanislas was in here and has always escaped the government's assassination attemps thus far.

SO this virus slowly contaminate everyone but its slow and rots you from inside. terrible deadly soulcrushing. + stanislas is using every means he has to try to control the city & find a way out. except ex cop and also ex girlfriend jo (josephine) is here to basically kill him lol (he broke her trust & her heart and also killed a lot of people and revenge is her whole life). josephine at first is a lone wolf (haha) until she gets very badly injuried and ends up in a small alley where eve & her friends took quarters. they get her inside and find a way to keep her alive. also at this point the group has also met gabriel ! (bunny guy! he has a tragic past and i love him. hes my mary sue) and stephan ! (his not yet boyfriend who also has a tragic past and that jo feels very guilty about). gabriel used to be a test subject in the hybrid lab. he and eve used to know each other :] they are best friends now.

at the same time nath (who was supposed to be dead) shows up like hiiiiiiiiiiiii btw im here (hes one of stan's agent but when he was supposed to die he actually survived and got turned into a cyborg with special modification in his brain which makes him obey. but he did not Forget and he will fight what stan makes him do <3)

SO um after they all meet its basically just. a fight to survive and also moments where they're like. oh we're gonna die here. lets party so hard.

stan also realises he doesn't rly have a way out and dedicates himself to ending his and jo's fight for good this time which also put eve's group in danger since jo . stuck around . there are casualties which is why she feels she failed them..................

anyway . there are more stuff but its rly all over the place soobssss im sowwyyyy

LOOOVE D.gray man . one of my first and favorite manga if u ever get the chance to pick it up for a bit longer to see if u enjoy it ... yeah .....

#ask me #eve #gabriel #josephine #stanislas #chronos #nathaniel

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jaybutnotthebird · 1 year ago

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Back Somehow

(also on ao3) https://archiveofourown.org/works/49472875

Nina came back home to find her son sitting on the front steps, with the neck of his shirt and his fur all ruffled, holding his head in his hands. That girl, Ivy Pepper was with him. As she came closer she realiced that something had happened. His eyes were tired and filled with tears, and she too was looking rather downcast

"Rocky is... he's dead" he said, and Nina couldn't believe it.

Tho it also made sense. The boy just kept geting into trouble

Ivy did most of the explaining: his car had been ran over by a train, leaving the driver's body so mangled that he had to be identified by his clothes and posesions, tho the agents could tell that he had grey fur.

How did the car get in the middle of the train tracks was anyone's guess. Rocky's car was in poor condition and tended to stop at any random time, so maybe it just happened to stop at the most inconvinient possible moment.

Maybe Rocky actually thought he could beat the train and tried to drive past the tracks before it got there. They wouldn't put it past him.

Those who knew what kinda bushiness Rocky was up to wouldn't be surprised if he was already dead, or half dead or knocked out before the car was pushed into the tracks.

It was anyone's guess

Calvin drove the car to a little morge out on the field. He told her a friend had ofered to help with the cost of the funeral. It was going to be a very small event, he told her. Just a few guests, closed casket.

Upon walking in, though, Nina found that, despite the place being small and rather humble looking, and it being supposed to be a small event, it felt full.

There was a lot of people, or at least, more than she expected.

Calvin had told her most of the guests would be coworkers and aquientces, but they were greeted with a very close and warm demeanor.

The first to come up to them was Jasper, whom she recogniced: long black fur, with irregular orange patches and green eyes. He often waited by the car when Rocky visited. Her nephew descrived him as "his ride or die, his best pal, aside from Frekle, of course" they had exchanged a few words at some point.

He looked terrible. Despite dressing nicely for the ocasion his hair was kinda dishevled, his expresion sad and tired. Specialy compared with his usual, energetic and bombastic demeanor.

He had seemed so much bigger when standing next to Rocky

He assured her that he cared deeply for her nephew, that he was a very special man and he would miss him greatly. She had the feeling that not only he was being honest; he was holding back for decency's sake.

Next to greet them was a classy looking woman and a well dressed, elegant man. They introduced themselves as Mitzy May, Rocky's boss and her friend Sedgewick Sable.

Mitzy told Nina that her nephew was a very sweet and hard working young man, wich she struggled to believe.

"oh, I do hope he didn't give you much trouble" she realiced she was kinda talking about him like he was still alive. It had just happened so fast...

"well, he could certainly be... excentric and troublesome at times, but truth is he busted his ass for the team and we are gonna struggle to replace him, not to mention we will miss him, of course"

Nina was a little shocked by the sudden colorful and confident demeanor the fancy looking lady let out. The gentleman next to her cleared his throat

"I wasn't really very close to him but he was a real charmer, wasn't he? He did play a couple pranks on me... heh. He could really liven the place up. His abscense will be deeply noted"

Nina noded solemnly, somehow feeling out of place. She hadn't known that her ramboutious, messy nephew had any kind of contact with classy folks like these, let alone so close for comfort

"Im sorry, perhaps I shouldn't ask but... are you the benefactor I have to thank for helping with the funeral costs?"

Mr. Sable smiled and shook his head "no, maam, if anything it was a barn raising"

She had no idea what that meant. Calvin had said a friend had offered to help... she would have to ask him later.

Next, after letting him guide her throu the room she found herself in front of at least 5 men, all well dressed and sorrowful. One of them, a blond tabby that introduced himself as Sy told her they were the music band that Rocky was a part of. That they were like family.

It ocured to her in that moment that she had never had the chance to see him perform at his work, and only now she was meeting his companions. She eyed them carefuly, specially the one in red, who looked the most dishelveled. He was sitting with his legs apart, arms propped on them, smoking.

Zib, according to the yellow cat

"Zib" said Sy "it's Rocky's aunt"

"I know" a dark, heavy and raspy voice came from him. Her ears twitched

"Im sorry?"

He looked up from where he was sitting. His eyes were darkened by sleepless nights and an unforgiving expression "you are the one who kicked him to the curve. Im the one who took him in years later"

her tail puffed up. She turned up her nose and eyed the man, this skinny, unkept, questionable looking man that didn't know her and dared judge her first thing when meeting her

"you forget yourself" was all she could muster, keeping her composture.

The jazz player stood up. He was taller than her, but thinner, and his expresion was that of one who was tired of bullshit. Of her bullshit. Without knowing her. He went to step in front of her but Sy stoped him with an arm, and the one standing behind him -Ben- placed a hand on his shoulder.

Calvin pulled her arm and said, in a sad, begging tone "please, it's a funeral. Let's be at peace"

The tom and the queen eyed each other, as Calvin led Nina away. Zib followed her with his eyes before going back to his post on the chair.

They all sat down, with Nina and Calvin being granted an advantage point at the front. The priest, a tall, very thin man with pale fur stood at the podium and said a few words, wellcoming them, reading a few lines about dust to dust and trying to offer some cold confort.

Nina didn't know how to feel about the sudden death of her stranged nephew, so she instead turned to a much more familiar place for her and concentrated on the words of the lord

then the priest asked if anyone wanted to say a few words and Calvin got up. He stood behind the podium. He cleared his throat, and looked down

"I ah- ...Im not very good with words so I've written what I wanted to say. ...I use to exchange letters with him, with my cousin, Rocky when eh- he was traveling, so it felt easier"

he pulled out some folded paper from his front poket, unfolded it, and took a deep breath.

"No one knew my cousin like I did. He was more like a brother to me, since we were raised together as far as my memory reaches.

Those who knew him knew he was troublesome and excentric, and those who knew him well also knew he was troubled himself. But no one did as well as I do.

My cousin Rocky was a troublemaker from the begining. He got into so much trouble when we were kids, and often dragged me into it. Aparently this is just a thing kids do, some kids are more messy than others and it is normal for brothers to get each other in trouble, but it seemed like he was specaily prone to do so. In comparison I seemed like the perfect good kid.

This one time, Rocky messed up big time. He took the neighbor's car without knowing how to drive it, and he had an accident. The car was broken and someone got hurt. My mother was so cross with him she kicked him out. And so, he was left on the street at the age of fifteen, while I stayed home and continued with my studies.

Only, as it happens, actually he didn't do it"

It took a moment for Nina, siting just a few paces from him, to process what her son was saying now

"...I'm the one who took the car, and Im the one who crashed it, and caused the accident. Rocky simply took the blame for me, to protect me" Calvin took a deep breath and didn't look up from the podium as he passed to the next page of the letter "it happened so fast and I didn't know what to do, so I just did what he told me: I kept quiet as he took the blame, becouse he thought that it was better this way: it was normal for him to get into trouble, everyone expected it from him, and it would be easier this way.

He could have given in and told the truth when my mother kicked him out, but he didn't. He didn't tattle when he found himself cold and hungry nor when he had to leave town and spent the next few years traveling from one place to the other doing odd jobs.

What is more" he took a deep breath "he could have been resentlful or angry, but he didn't. He kept writing me letters, telling me that it wasn't so bad, that it was better this way, that he was actually having fun and it wasn't all my fault.

He didn't blame me. Even when, years later I failed to get the job that I wanted, that I had worked so hard for, and he had sacrified himself for, when he found out and came up to me, he didn't even mention it. He should have hated me but he just invited me for a sandwich. He found me a job and he introduced me to the lovely lady who has been keeping me company ever since and throut this whole ordeal"

Next to Nina, Ivy let out a strangled wimper. She had a hand over her mouth, muffled with a soaking handkerchief. Calvin continued

"maybe I shouldn't be teling any of this. Maybe I should respect his wishes and take the secret to the grave like he did, and let everyone think that I am a perfect good little boy and he was allways hopeless, but he is gone now and I don't want to carry this guilt anymore"

"My cousin could be extravagant, and troubled, and prone to mania, but what I alone know is that he was also noble and self sacrificed, and he cared a lot. Sure, his methods were questionable, but in his own way he allways took care of me, and those he cared for and all of that with a smile allways on. This I know, and God does too.

Looking back I wonder if perhaps we both were just kids geting into trouble after all, since it is normal for brothers to keep each other's back and get you out of trouble"

Calvin finished reading and folded the pieces of paper and put them back in his front pocket.

"thank you all for coming, I really apreciate it"

Nina watched him in shock as he calmly walked down and up to sit back next to her, and she barely heared the wimpers of some other atendants or the confused priest now reading the part about the noblest of sacifices. She turned to her son and asked

"is that true?" Calvin noded solemnly. He didn't look at her. Ivy placed a hand on his and he held it tight. They got over with the rest of the ceremony pretty fast and came out in a small, quiet procession to bury the casket.

As it was being lowered to the ground Nina thought of how much of a stranger he had been. She wondered if she had ever known him, even as a child. She remembered him as a little, exausting, infuriating boy and as an equaly infuriating, good for nothing young man...

she remembered her sister

and the man she had married, whom she had never liked and who had left them as soon as things got tough.

She was a very religious woman and she had allways been sure her nephew would go to hell, but now, as the casket was being buried she wondered.

She wondered if things could have been diferent had she known the truth. She wondered if Roark's sacrifice and some other good deeds he may have done could possibly gain him mercy in the eyes of the lord.

They were invited for dinner at the little daisy cafe, courtesy of Miss M. Maybe that's what Mr. Sable had meant when he said it was a barn raising. She didn't feel like eating, or being arround people, but she didn't complain as they got in the car, did the whole way in utter silence, and then they got down and now they were here.

There was a small cake, and little sandwiches, and small talk, and even at some point, there was Rocky standing at the bar, with a piece of cake and that smile of his with teeth poking over his lower lip

...or was it just aghost?

Wait, no. He was talking "so, what did I miss?"

"R-Rocky?" Ivy could not believe her eyes.

"yeah?" he said, face stuffed with cake

"you..." Ivy turned to look at Calvin, wide eyed, just standing next to her and back at the aparition "you can't be"

from behind, Jasper came in a rush, pushing people apart to roughly grab Rocky by his shirt. His hand weighted down on his shoulder, visibly holding him, forcing him to turn. He was solid. He was really there. Jasper stared into his blue eyes, his chipped ear, his familiar, shocked face.

"hey, what's the idea? Jass, pal, what's gotten into you?"

Jasper just engulfed him in a tight, overbearing hug, nearly crushing his thin frame. Rocky's legs were not enough to support the weight in that position but they didn't have to. His voice kept coming, muffled against Jasper's chest

"woah cat I still gotta breathe you know?"

Jasper laughted. His laught came at first confused and raspy, but then it turned hysterical and bombastic as usual, and one could visibly see how all of his old streingth and posture came back to him, as he lifted his friend in the air, before placing him on the flor and slaping his back, nearly throwing him off

"YOU BLODDY WANKA GAVE US A HEART ATACK!! then he added, in a more snarky tone "and you owe me money cat"

"what?" Rocky gave him a questioning look, but now it was Zib coming closer, eyes wide, sad, scared, shocked... so many emotion twirling in them, and a cigarrete still hanging from his mouth. He just placed a hand on Rocky's arm, looking at him, up and down, uncapable of understanding

"Zib? Man, you ok? ...lad, what is it? Zib?"

"man, you really outdid yourself with this one!" said Sy as he and the rest of the band sourranded him to slap his shoulders, mess his har, tease him, touch him, hear his voice

just look at him.

He was alive

Aunt Nina was furious "ROARK RIKABY"

"WOAH!" Rocky Jumped, looking terrified now, ears tilted back, tail curled arround himself, his whole body languaje cowering next to Jasper "who invited my aunt!?"

"YOU FILTHY SINNER!" she slapped him right across the face, so hard it actually turned. The members of the band laughted as she continued a rain of impressive slaps and he tried to cover with his arms "YOU LIER YOU... YOU UNREDIMEBLE MONSTER!"

"that's enough, lady" said Jasper, as he gently but firmly separated them, and stood between the two with his own body, one hand on Rocky's shoulder, the other on her's

"don't you dare touch me! And don't you tell me how to discipline my nephew!"

"whatevah you need to tell him you can say from two arm lengts apart"

it was admirable to see how fast he had reverted to his no nonesense bodygard mode after the return of his buddy. The woman huffed with anger, giving Rocky time to recover and struggle to stand straight, puting both his shirt and his fur into place

"no, seriously, what is she doing here?"

Calvin was now in front of him "how are you alive?"

"whatever do you mean, Frekle? I just got here"

"we just burried you"

"what?"

"you lied" said Nina outloud, slowly "about the accident"

"what accident? What did I do now?"

"the one years ago, when I kicked you out! You lied! You didn't do it, how dare you? How could you lie about that!?"

it took a slow sinking moment for Rocky's whole expresion to shift, from confusion, to shock, to actual anger. He turned to his cousin like a resort "you told her?"

his voice was diferent, a tone darker, serious. His eyes wide, pupils thin, fangs showing "you told her about that?"

his cousin responded in kind "yes"

it was not everyday that you would see them like this, but you could tell they were related in their cold, still anger "why? Why did you do that?" Frekle didn't answer "why would you do that, Frekle?" his voice started rising in an actual frustrated scream "she didn't need to know that, she could have died happy thinking that you were good and I was allways hopeless!"

Frekle's sneer couldn't hold his words anymore "how are you alive?"

"what?"

"we just burried you. How are you here?"

"we just got back from your funeral, Rocky" Jasper made an effort to catch him up to the situation "This is the afterparty. They found a dead guy in your car, wearing your clothes. We thought you were dead. We just buried you. At the Arbogast's"

Realization slowly came to Rocky as he listened with wide eyes. His hands went to his head. "no!" he said "no way...! wait, they found my car?"

"it was run over by a trian"

"what?"

"the body was so mangled it couldn't be recogniced. They thoguht it was you"

"nooononono wait wait MY VIOLIN WAS IN THERE! Did it survive?"

Rocky grabbed onto Jasper's jacket and Jasper grabbed him back by the showlders, shaking him a little "Rocky, answer! Who was it in your car?"

"I... ah I dunno ok? I may have lost a bet to this guy, and then I couldn't pay, and so I gave him my finest clothes but he was still kinda mad, you know, next thing I know, my car is gone"

Jasper stood back, took a deep breath. The whole room took a deep breath, with understanding.

It was someone else. Some other guy wearing Rocky's clotes, driving Rocky's car, who happened to also have grey fur. Rocky may or may not be telling the truth about a bet, he would have to clarify that in privet later, and who knows how the poor bastard got himself run over? Perhaps he planed on geting Rocky's car destroyed out of spite and he miscalculated, perhaps he run into Rocky's enemys, who mistook him for the actual target...

It wasn't Rocky in the car. It was someone else.

The whole room took a colective sigh.

"man how do you keep messing up this bad?"

"I dunno, look" now Rocky sighed, sounding very tired "I had to walk all the way over from the next town, ok? And this is all I got" he gestured to his shirt and pants that weren't his and didn't quite fit him "and its chilly at night" he rubbed his arms. Jasper actually took of his jacket and threw it over his shoulders. It looked so big on his frame, like it was actually a blanket, nearly reaching the floor. Rocky wrapped it arround himself, looking actually relieved and content all snuggly all of the sudden.

"ah, thank you" then he saw Jasper's look, with one eyebrow furrowed, the other arched. He knew this look. He thought for a moment "oh, OH! And... ah, sorry for being an idiot?"

Jasper gestured comicaly for him to keep going, and Rocky looked arround himself, actually looking clueless. Everyone was looking at him in silence and expectation

"wait, you were all that worried for me? Nah, come on! It couldn't be that bad"

"ARE YOU SERIOUS" Ivy yelled now, looking like herself again, looking angry "we thought you was dead! We were mourning you. I CRIED THE WHOLE WAY AND BACK HERE!"

Rocky finally seemed impressed "ok! OK! Im sorry! I didn't know! How could I know? I just spent the whole day in the middle of nowere, trying to get back here, Im sorry!"

"ah, just do try not to scare us like that again" said Miss M, coming up to him now, carasing his cheek in a tired, gentle gesture "at least for a while, ok, sweety?"

"uh, sure Miss M, anything four you"

"it is good to have you back" said Sable, lifting his glass at him. Rocky didn't respond to him, too caught off

"no kidding" said JJ "you mean to drive Zib deeper into the bottle or something?"

"Im not talking to him" said Zib, and actually turned to walk away. The rest of the band followed

"woah, guys, come on" Ben turned and gave him a calm but stern look "no, man. You really scared us this time" before he too, walked out.

This seemed to resonate with Rocky, his ears turning droopy.

"ah, they'll come arround" said Jasper "you have to admit you did a number on all of us"

"but... but I..." Rocky didn't finish the sentence. He looked down. Jasper knew the turmoil beneath his constant smiles and toxic optimism. This had to be stirring all that

"look, for one, you no longer have an excuse not to bunk in with me. So let's go"

"oh, no no, that's ok"

"don't argue. You don't even have the car anymore. You'r coming with me. Period"

Rocky made an atempt to resist but he didn't have words anymore. He just followed Jasper as he opened the door for him, unaware that his aunt and cousin were just now puting together he had been sleeping in the car.

(Author's note) this was also inspired by Aveen's fic wich starts with Rocky's death and aparently has an open ending. Here's the link to that one: https://archiveofourown.org/works/47728090/chapters/120311308

#lackadaisy #rocky rickaby #humor #drama #fanfiction

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goodmorningdove · 8 months ago

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Rgu ep3 liveblog under the cut! :3

Interesting that she has no memory Of meeting the prince. Is this something unique to utena or do all the rose ring wearers have this amnesia. Furthermore, what makes her so fundamentally different from the others? I do believe the show intends me to be asking these questions.

I love utena pointing out the inherent abusive nature of Himemiya not really having any friends. And the monkey mouse doesn't really count. He holds no power and cant really help Himemiya should things go south

Utena: im straight and want to date a normal boy, Kiryuu: allow me to introduce myself

Wow ok that 3 seconds of utena slapping Kiryuu for touching her hair was beautiful and perfectly showed me what the dynamic between these three is going to be

“Why do you have that” “so i could meet you” fucking liar. So many of these men suck lol

No he is not the fucking prince!! Girl you summoned the prince last episode. I know that was audience only info but like girl. Do not trust him. He hasnt explained shit and has only so far been a sly pos

Ok so confirmation utena is being left in the dark. Which is like really rude. Is she even supposed to have a ring? That would be very interesting. I hope blue hair stopwatch asks utena some questions they(?) Seem to be the kind to care about accuracy. Though they(?) Might not see a need to do what the end of the world people have also not done (explain to utena what the hell is going on)

I fucking love wakaba

Oh shit people are being mean to Himemiya. Utena get your ass over here

Hello Nanami. You are clearly important. I like you, you stood up for Himemiya.

Oh Himemiya does not need the stress of being dance queen. Shes already the rose bride. Shes already got so much going on she does not need petty school drama too. Nanami can you unnominate her?

“Ive wanted to be your friend for a long time” somehow i doubt that! I suspect you wish to be dance queen instead of Himemiya, but you dont realize Himemiya (probably, she hasnt voiced her thoughts yet) doesnt care about whos dance queen. Anyway Nanami i now hate you.

Im sorry what are those things that chu-chu pulled put of the dress box. Are they spare buttons or pills? my instinct says buttons but they have no holes

Oh nevermind i guess they were candies?? Chuchu is eating them. Ok. Sure whatever.

Oh no theyre those keep things from going moist dehydrator things. Or maybe moth balls. They were not supposed to be eaten. Anyway more important things are to be revealed, like Utena's outfit! considering its from kiryuu, my Money's on it being something super feminine utena doesnt normally wear

I WAS RIGHT

Himemiya is so based. Large crowds are way too stressful

Oh god i hate but also love how himemiya Is only going to the dance and try to make friends because Utena said so. Its so fucked up but i love it

Hello magia record uwasa girls. What is the uwasa today??

A man trap what the fuck do you mean by that

Ah i suppose they mean that the girls are going to freak out over boys. Except for utena and Himemiya.

Oh boy nanami is kiryuu’s little sister! i am curious as to how they will handle this. Theyre starting in an… interesting direction. But i can see how they could also make a commentary on their situation. But i dont know if i can trust rgu to make those narrative choices

Hang on is there no dance king??

Noooo utena is wearing the dress… i do like that she is visibly unhappy tho

Ah so Nanami thinks Kiryuu likes Himemiya? Nice touch that despite their close relationship, Nanami actually knows very little about Kiryuu's Life

Utena i dont. I dont think they are friends.

Please kill him please kill him

Nanami you bitch do not instigate Himemiya's anxiety like this! She is not competition For your brothers attention

Oh no that dress is boobytrapped in some way isnt it.

She! Is not! Competition! For! Your brother!!!!!!!

UTENA SAVE HER

YESSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Holy shit i was not expecting tablecloth dress. Props to utena For that major skill

Nanami how do you not know who utena is. Everyone screams her name when she enters school

Utena is also not competition for your brother! She does not give a shit about him except for the fact that he might be her prince. Which he isnt.

#revolutionary girl utena #rgu liveblog

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yangwonz · 2 years ago

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enhypen as boys i’ve had a crush on

pairing: enha x gn!reader (except sunoos im sorry (implied x fem!reader))

genre: my sad-sad love life

warnings: implied alcohol consume in jakes, haven’t proofread, if u notice something pls let me know and i will add it!

a/n: this is not even half of my crushes i don’t think i’m doing very well 😭 thank god my life is so messy tho there’s always something to write about.

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heeseung

-> a close friend, who will never know about my true feelings

you and heeseung met when you switched schools and you two ended up attending the same class. you guys didn’t have much to do with each other, given both of you had your own people to hang out with, besides talking a few words, but you had your eyes on him since the very first day. weirdly enough, a year later your friendgroups merged and just like that you obviously befriended him too. this could’ve meant the beginning of your friends to lovers story, but you had to find out that heeseung was indeed taken already. it hurt you, of course it did, but you settled to just being his friend and wished that as the time goes by your feelings for him will fade away. even though you exactly know, that the more you hang out with him, the deeper you’re falling for him.

jay

-> the boy who fell in love with my best friend

jay and you got to know each other, when he was in the ninth and you were in the eight grade. he was a close friend of one of your friends from his grade. he was quite nice to you sometimes, but your relationship mostly consisted of him teasing you for whatever. you never understood as for why, but you somehow developed a crush on him, even though you swore that he was totally not your type. gathering all your might and braveness, one day you confessed your feelings for him. you didn’t have much hope, but his apologizing look and him telling you that he is in love with your best friend did devastate you.

jake

-> an old classmates friend i met at a birthday party

you both were a bit tipsy the time you met an old classmate of yours, who then proceeded to introduce you to the boy next to him: jake. it was one of your friends birthday party, so you obviously had a few drinks. he offered to make you another drink, promising you that he was a pro, to which you just had to agree to, because damn he is indeed veryyy pretty. you have seen pictures of him on instagram already so you knew he looked good, but he was just even more mesmerizing in real life. nothing much happened between the two of you other than a bit of flirting, but that’s totally okay.

sunghoon

-> the boy i ghosted because my best friend from back then fell in love with him

in fifth grade, you and sunghoon got a lot closer. he texted you every day after school, just about whatever was on his mind and the two of you ended up talking until late at night (your mom wasn’t very fond of this behaviour). he gave you chocholates sometimes saying that “he has way too much at home”, or downloaded all one direction songs, because he knew you loved them, and shared earphones with you, whenever you and him went home from school together. he stood up for you when you told him that some boys from your grade were mean to you. it was a blooming puppy love between two kids, which had to end, because your best friend at that time told you, that she’s head over heels in love with sunghoon. because you loved her so much, and didn’t want her to be sad, you decided to stop talking to sunghoon (you even blocked him lol) and promised her to help her with her crush on him. only for her to announce a week later, that she doesn’t like him anymore. you tried to make things good again, but sunghoon was just so mad, that he never heard you out. a few months later you moved to a different country, but wherever you are, you never fail to think back to the very first time you were truly in love.

sunoo

-> my first crush from kindergarden whose dad forbid us to be friends

you will never forget your first day in kindergarden. you were a shy kid, but were brave enough to go up to this on girl on the swings, who later became your best friend at the time. she introduced you to sunoo, and the three of you ended up being unseparable. you often thought of sunoo when you were at home, how cute he looked when he smiled all-so-brightly and how nice he was to you. it made you sad, whenever a day or week came to an end and you had to say goodbye to him. you weren’t sure what this feeling was, but you wanted to be around him all the time. one day though, everything changed. he didn’t come to play with you and y/f/n, sunoo straight up acted like he didn’t know who you two at all. you couldn’t understand as of why he is acting like that and tried to talk to him while apologizing in case you did or said something hurtful without noticing. nevermind your efforts, he ignored you and proceeded to find new friends. later, your friend told you that he stopped playing with you two, because his dad didn’t want him to be friends with girls.

jungwon

-> the boy i became friends with when i was at the hospital but never saw again

you were sent to the hospital when you were around seven years old and the thought of being there absolutely scared you. after your mom had to leave for a bit you totally lost it and just cried (turns out rather loudly) in your room. a little boy, who was in the room next to you, and his mom heard you and came over to ask you if everything is alright. they kept you company until your mom came back. the two started a conversation and got along very well, and so did you and the little boy aswell. you spent the remaining days playing together, and he never failed to make fun of you for crying so hard on that day. but also, he always gave you his favourite car toys and in exchange you let him think out a storyline for when he agreed to play dolls with you. years later, you just randomly remembered of him, and found out that you never even asked him what his name is. your mom came to rescue though, and told you that the boy is named jungwon. you hope that wherever jungwon is, he is doing just alright.

ni-ki

-> the boy from my dance course i always wished to get paired up with

your mom signed you up for a dance course when you were in the first grade. it didn’t take you long to notice ni-ki, who just seemed so talented and cute in your eyes. he took the spotlight in almost all performances, always dancing in the front, while you were behind for most of the time, like he was an idol and you were his background dancer. sometimes, you would have to dance in pairs, and you wished and prayed to just be able to dance with him one time, but there was a certain girl by his side all the time. but they complemented each other well, and you never failed to notice his saddened look in his eyes, whenever she missed practice. so ni-ki just stayed your, once again, unfullfilled crush.

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