#she hates everyone in my middle school
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true-heart0922 Ā· 2 years ago
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The first character I ever made, Ikara: Look around, look around, look at where she is, look at where they started. The fact that it's alive is a miracle. Just help her stay alive, that would be enough.
My Middle School: FUCK NO. (PROCEEDS TO GIVE ME CRAZY AMOUNTS OF TRAUMA AND ANXIETY)
16 MONTHS LATER
Ikara: (Has a whole hitlist for the sake of having one)
The rest of my characters and me: (Very concerned about her sanity)
Ikara, just showing me the hitlist as I grow more and more concerned:
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themyscirah Ā· 10 months ago
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Vanessa didn't even die and yet her story is still sadder and more fucked up than jtodd's. He wishes he was on her level
#may be a controversial one but i dont care this is my house#dont think there are enough of you to get hate over this anything#anyways no she didnt die. she wasnt killed by voter poll. but like the stuff that fucked her up was so much more real than a psycho clown#like im sorry but what is ā€œyou get beat up and dieā€ to essentially getting taken and having the bad guys confirm to you that everything you#thought about yourself in middle school was true and everyone thinks youre ugly and worthless and not special and no one loves you. and then#ofc the medical torture. like im sorry but one of these things IS worse than the other imo#especially as the teen girl in the wonder woman comic like jesus christ#and while of COURSE the stuff about diana not loving her and all that is NOT true its something we see her struggle with as insecurity for#years beforehand. and then dc goes and brings her back into continuity in the past few years only to basically say ā€œyeah wonder woman DIDNT#care about her! what a loser to think so and get all worked up about it! abt a vers of her who only has the name in common#like she wasnt dianas baby freaking sister with 100+ appearances#blah#vanessa kapatelis#anti jason todd#she also literally did the red hood arc before he did#with the whole attacking the successor and everything#yet another woman for him to steal from lmao#(this is mostly a joke. i dont think anyone making anything about jtodd canon or otherwise even knows what a wonder woman comic is but the#comparisons are still there.)
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red-dyed-sarumane Ā· 10 months ago
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okay so this is super self indulgent but preface for those who arent aware i have this whole full world for my ocs & basically its like a 50/50 chance for any given person to have psychic powers called abilities & this ability is entirely dependent on the person themself & has nothing to do with genetics. ur either born with them or u can get them if ur from a different world & are isekai'd in. the only real thing about abilities is it has to be something a person can do with their mind/state of mind & isnt just like some super power like super strength.
anyway i realized this week i feel like i know the isotopes well enough so i ended up spending a lot of time thinking of what abilities they would have and i give u all my final decisions!!!
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Kafu: she has something im going to call window creation. basically the ability to call forth 'windows' which ranges from just invisible walls in the air to creating a pane that lets her (or anyone near by to see it) see into a different place, time, or both. these are in effect solid walls/windows so its theoretically possible to use them as a weapon but given how kafu is i doubt she would think that way & instead would take a more defensive route, using them as a sort of force field or to get info the group otherwise wouldn't know
Sekai: i'm calling hers shadow manipulation. she can take control of shadows in the area and turn them into a semi-physical thing & from there pretty much becomes a distance attacker or defender depending on both her mood & what's necessary. i would like to think she also keeps a little shadow as a pet & it just follows her around or sits on her shoulder. the shadows can change shape btw
Rime: pyromancy. she gets to create & control fire at will. i like to think she puts too much pressure on herself to learn it & ends up unable to do it at first because of that but the second she lets herself breathe she finally gets it & from there puts in so much practice that her style with it ends up absolutely beautiful to watch. default flame color is red bc thats her color but it changes color/temperature with her emotions. u threaten one of the others and watch how fast it ends up blue-white.
Coko: fox. by shifting her mental state she can transform into a fox & while in that form can do things like create wil o wisp/fox fire & force fields, but mostly i think she'd specialize in creating illusions. she probably actually has multiple tails in that form but after drawing the rest of her outfit i thought one was enough to get the idea across. yes this is the third time im giving a chara this ability its bc im not allergic to fun normally people cant talk in the fox form but i like her so i guess she gets a little telepathy as a treat too.
Haru: consciousness walking. that is, she can separate her consciousness from her physical body & move around almost like a ghost. she can interact with the physical world on a minimal level in this state, but more importantly it allows her to see & interact with other people's consciousnesses in a way that's very easy to mess with their perception of the world & throw off their judgment & things like that. kind of like astral projection but not really, also if she gets really skilled with it she'd be able to move both her physical & spiritual forms at once although that is very tiring
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longagoitwastuesday Ā· 3 months ago
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Going through the Utahim.e tag had me checking several times if at some point I had clicked on the G.ojo/Utahim.e one instead
#It's mainly the ship and mainly ship art. Very pretty btw. There's people with gorgeous styles there#There isn't even a lot of x reader fics haha I guess people don't want to bang Utahime?#Anyway... lowkey wished this happened with Ijichi lol#I so wanted Ijichi to mention or even hint at a mention of Gojo one last time like they did with Nanami#If nothing else for the weight of it all. The weight of feeling your youth dying piece by piece alongside the people who made it out#And everything it implies#Art of Shoko dealing with Gojo's death even in a cold way always strikes hard for that motive but I always love it#with pretty much everyone of those years. There was one piece I saw once that was not explicitly or necessarily romantic about Utahime#being hit by Gojo's death and I don't recall exactly how it was (I think I may have queued it?)#but it moved me more than any piece more clearly emotional that I had seen before#I don't know. I thought it held the potential of that. That weird uncomfortable heartbreaking feeling#of hearing bad news about old friends or classmates and how it makes you realise the weight of time#They suffered and accident. They tried to kill themselves. They are very sick. Their sibling or parent died. And you knew these people#You saw them daily for years. Maybe you weren't close but you knew these people. They cut my bangs when I was eight and I punched them#I tripped over them playing hide and seek and we both lost at the same time. We both hated each other's favourite teacher#They borrowed my pen once and then never gave it back. I once drenched them at the fountain after PE and it was winter but they laughed#Their mother got mad though. Now she's dead. We were made to sit together in French class in middle school. They loved to keep their hair l#Now they're sick and have lost their hair#Their little sibling was so annoying always trying to make us play with them during recess too. It was kinda cute. Now they're dead#I don't know. That kind of stuff#Utahime boosts Gojo and then he dies. Shoko opens him up to make a tool of his body#Ijichi accompanies another kid to clean after him in the meanwhile. And then the realisation hits. He is dead#He was annoying. He was my friend. He was so rude#He had such a sweet tooth. He laughed so loudly. He used to lean over people when talking with them#We were kids once. We are here now. He isn't here anymore. Some of us haven't been here anymore for a long while. It's been so long#He was still young. I am still young. We felt so old. At times it feels as if the time back then didn't happen at all.#And now he's dead and oh it's true he was so annoying but he also had such a sweet tooth. I forgot. What do I do with this memory now?#At times it felt as if the time back then didn't happen at all but then at times it shone through. He brought it back#He asked me a favour knowing I wouldn't betray his secret. He still teased the same way. He still leaned on people. But now he's dead#I don't know if I'm explaining myself well xD I think it's a pretty common emotion when it happens.Oh I forgot to censore words again sorry
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charlesleclerctv Ā· 9 months ago
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what's ur fave one direction album.. cant believe we've never discussed this before
FOUR !!!! not a single skip šŸ«” something about 2014 albums hits like crack
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lanshappycorner Ā· 1 year ago
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im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal
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#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate#she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk#she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3#i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her#so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation#i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not-#-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded#(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things#when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs#but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her šŸ’€šŸ’€#anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine#ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am#there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well#i miss her actually :(((#my second roommate tho. she scares me
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jikigo Ā· 8 months ago
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you ever just see a post and just
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#Worst emoji combo ever but itā€™s gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up#donā€™t you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years youā€™ve only seen people the large total ofā€¦. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon#outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years!#Donā€™t you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid#shit like your average high schooler would do and youā€™re just like ā€œoh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the#entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over youā€ oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking#ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so#thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck#And now Iā€™m debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me#There. I wasnā€™t even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone elseā€™s shoulder#everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and Iā€™m just there talking to one friend who I donā€™t even think is my friend#ā€œHey man Iā€™m really fucking sad rn can I talk to youā€ ā€œwomp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when#you talk about anything else about meā€ oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn#At least someone wants to talk to me#Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me Iā€™ll change Iā€™m amazing at changing my personality to fit others#promise me on that Iā€™ve done it my entire life#Even just messaging me more than once every year and Iā€™d consider you my best friend this is how bad Iā€™m getting#What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I donā€™t care how badly you fucking word it just something#It shouldnā€™t be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you#Oh dear did the gcā€™s without me in it thereā€™s one for every friend group Iā€™ve ever been in why isnā€™t there one for the main group Iā€™m in rn#Idfc anymore just tell me what Iā€™m doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place#And itā€™s always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject#Please if youā€™re someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I canā€™t fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like#Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me#It shouldnā€™t be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what Iā€™m in rn#I fucking hate everything
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idontliketomatoesleavemealone Ā· 4 months ago
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My heart is beating so hard Iā€™m so pissed about Everything rn
#you see there was really no one my age in our neighborhood#There were kids slightly older than me or slightly younger than me#And for some reason a lot of teen girls and little boys#so my siblings both got on fine. Her with the slightly older kids him with the boys#and I was just kind of stuck in the middle#always#now. I am a middle child. My whole deal is being stuck in the middle#so I was used to it#But like it does suck#I never really had any friends except this one boy that everyone accused me of being in love with#and like heā€™s a good kid but we never shared any interests so it was hard to hang out past kindergarten#(Yes we were already accused of being bf/gf at 3 years old yes thatā€™s fucked up and I hated it with my entire being)#so I didnā€™t have friends save for him in school#I didnā€™t get along very well with my sister because she was very very bossy when playing so I had to do exactly what she said#(or get yelled at)#I had the choice between hanging out with like. Girl that only lives here every second weekend. Snippy girl that was chronically ill.#older girl thatā€™s okay and friends with older girl that hates my guts#The Twinsā„¢ļø (their mom didnā€™t like me and their dad made me deeply uncomfortable. He turned out to be physically abusive.)#and those two neighbours#which you guessed it lead to the aforementioned teaming up and me being stuck with the kid my mom now thinks is like my best friend or smt#so I had the choice between that or my mom inviting people I didnā€™t know that I didnā€™t want to play with or playing alone#and thatā€™s just how I lived until I was ten#which is when we moved and I started secondary and OH MY GOD I COULD HAVE FRIENDS?? WHO COULDVE GUESSED#og
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icharchivist Ā· 1 year ago
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i understand the point people are making with those posts but it's always a bit funny to me when i see those posts about like "god people are so weird with how they talk about Japanese/Korean culture, imagine we do the same thing with Germany and suddenly start to drop German words into our sentences like that that'd be so weird" and it's like, yeah, i can imagine that, very well, that's what living in Europe in the late 2000s during the Tokio Hotel mania was like.
Like, unironically exactly like that.
I get the original point, i really do, but this might be the wrong example.
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makkie-is-screaming Ā· 1 year ago
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actually went really well with my friend :))
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fragglerockopinions Ā· 2 years ago
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I'm like. actively being abused at home. What do I even do about that.
#://#Today she said I am disgusting and unapproachable and will never have friends or find love because I make everyone I meet uncomfortable#Because I don't shave my legs#When I told her I keep blacking out from my chronic pain she said 'that's a little dramatic'#When I told her I should probably go to the hospital for that she shushed me because she was trying to watch her fuckin. Fringe show#Always with the shushing. Every time I speak :((#She said I should go out & do something and quit being so lazy. So i said I would ride my bike but the tire is flat#She said 'why are you so useless' :((#When I was projectile vomiting for three days I told her I had a 104Ā°F temperature and she said 'darn'#I asked if she wanted to watch Ponyo with me and she said 'oh my god I don't want to watch your stupid crap shit'#When I dropped a cup of gatorade and mopped it up (agony for chronic pain btw) she felt where it was still sticky and said#I'm so stupid and it's my fault we have ants (we do not have ants)#So I said 'yeah mommy I think my fine motor skills are getting worse I can't hold things or swallow very well'#She said 'have you tried paying attention??' :((((#I told her I had a sunburn and it hurt and she said 'youre so needy'#I got beat up in middle school and I was crying about it and she said it was all my fault because I was annoying#I was also sexually assaulted that same week but after the way she responded to that I was not going to tell her#One time when we were at the doctor and checked yes for suicidal thoughts she started screaming and crying#About how much we hate her and think she is a bad mother and how ungrateful we are#If I read this list to her she would say I was making it up and trying to make her look like a bad evil person#Because she is!!! She insults and belittles me so much I genuinely wish she would just beat my ass instead#I'm 20 years old why are you talking to me this way#I know it's all verbal abuse but. I'm so fucking miserable I want to die living here#Oh wait one time she strangled my little sibling because they complained about finding blood in their can of tuna
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jaimeski Ā· 2 years ago
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or maybe itā€™s just because i hate rich people yknow
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violet-woodnymph Ā· 2 months ago
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Although I had my first words at a normal time, I barely talked at all for like a year or two afterwards. Then one day mom mom had dropped my older siblings off at school, and she started singing a lullaby to me to get me to sleep. APPARENTLY I didn't like that because I spent a full five minutes yelling at her about why I hated it when she sang me lullabies. Full sentences and everything. It wasn't until that incident that I started talking regularly, so we count the beginning of that rant, "STOP SINGING" as my first words.
She says it was one of the first signs that I was autistic. Second sign was the fact that I taught myself to read at age 3 and was reading high school level books by age 8.
it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore
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checkadii Ā· 2 months ago
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Horribly easily to tell if my dads drunk
#vent! annoying vent!#like. the fact that everyoneā€™s mood is ruined being a massive flag aside#he has so many tells he thinks heā€™s slick lmao#voice slurs and sticks at certain points#nasally. very nasally#he talks over you and starts sentences multiple times#repeats a lot of points#it sounds like heā€™s constantly on the verge of a cough#and heā€™s just a bitch in general#the very regular tells of a drunk person but I think itā€™s easier for me to notice now#idk I used to think he was just tired and snappish as a kid then I discovered the concept of alcohol and ojhhh. so thatā€™s what does that#to be fair he used to take me to alcohol warehouses. when I was not even in middle school. I shit you not#I think? I dunno starting from the point where I realized that my brother indulged in a wee bit of cocsa my memory kicks the bucket a#little bit everyday#whatever idc. I say. whatever#yea I think there were alchohol warehouses? I donā€™t. I canā€™t find any when I google them now#they donā€™t look like what I remember so it could just be me trying to fill in the gaps with what I have#but I know he used to take me and my sister there to get Jack Danielā€™s or whatever it was#I still think about that one really bad fight we had when he was drunk#I asked him if he loves me at all etc if he cares about me beyond my grades#and he just gave me one deadpanned long look and said no#like. ok okay ig? thanks for the answer king i loved that#another fight we had. well. no it wasnā€™t us fighting he fought with mom#their fights r the reason im more active at night and hate sleeping tbh#anyways I ended up locking myself in the bathroom and screaming myself hoarse because I couldnā€™t just fathom why he seems to just. hate her#which he doesnā€™t. I donā€™t think he does. they love eachother they really do but itā€™s like miserable at times#esp when heā€™s drunk#like I had my mom asking if me and my sister would be happier if we moved away from him#I donā€™t remember what I told her I was honestly more worried about if sheā€™d be happy and if she could support us#ope. tag limit. Penis penis balls cock
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ofstoriesandstardust Ā· 3 months ago
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i went through old photo books tonight and i have thoughts i need to get out but no one to share them with so im putting them here
#kylie rambles#itā€™s genuinely so hard to see old family photos of my dad and watch how he slowly starts to disappear from them#until heā€™s just not there entirely#and i respect his reasons for cutting his family off but it hurts that i have so little memories of them#and it makes me so sad to see my grandma battling cancer in these photos#and looking at photos of both sets of grandparents iā€™m always reminded how much they loved each other#like thereā€™s a lot i wouldnā€™t take away from their relationships#but i just hope that i find someone who just loves me and genuinely enjoys me#and really is just my best friend#and i hope i make my grandma ellen proud#though i know im a lot of what she would hate#even though everyone always talks about how she wasnā€™t a hateful person#and itā€™s so hard to see photos of little me#because of how much self hatred i developed at a young age#when i was seven and realized my arms didnā€™t look like other girls#or when i was in middle school and i knew i wasnā€™t skinny like the other girls#because maybe iā€™m still not very confident in who i am#but it hurts to know i was so young when that started#because little me didnā€™t deserve that#she deserved to play four square and go to english class and not think about boys running away from her#or calling her a monkey cause she had armpit hair#cause her mom thought she was too young to shave#idk shit just hurts#and sometimes i donā€™t know that it ever stopped hurting
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guinevereslancelot Ā· 6 months ago
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not my two co-teachers asking me if i know anyone who would want to work here bc we need more teachers. sorry but all my friends know about all the insane coworker drama i'm always complaining about so they wouldn't ever work here lol
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