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The first character I ever made, Ikara: Look around, look around, look at where she is, look at where they started. The fact that it's alive is a miracle. Just help her stay alive, that would be enough.
My Middle School: FUCK NO. (PROCEEDS TO GIVE ME CRAZY AMOUNTS OF TRAUMA AND ANXIETY)
16 MONTHS LATER
Ikara: (Has a whole hitlist for the sake of having one)
The rest of my characters and me: (Very concerned about her sanity)
Ikara, just showing me the hitlist as I grow more and more concerned:
#my imagination#my oc shit#my oc stuff#memes#dark humor#she hates everyone in my middle school#hamilton references#just a reminder that i'm a she/they/it enby#enby#fanfic author problems#trust issues#trauma#so glad i never have to go back#john mulaney
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Y'know the longer I think about it, the more I think "To me, Mizuki is just Mizuki" or whatever it is that Ena said was Also a thinly veiled way of her saying "Ok well you're still a girl". Like I think the most glaringly obvious, not-behind-a-curtain-in-the-slightest line was when she pointed directly at "So are you like a guy too?" and correctly described that statement as an insult, but surprisingly, that line that pissed me off so bad, that line that really annoying people with limited ability to read have been parroting since the game dropped, might... actually be goated? A little?
Like. I don't know. Ena spent her whole friendship with Mizuki up to this point correctly assuming she was a girl, all she had wrong was the "cis" modifier. (And Cis Modifier isn't necessarily something she consciously thought of, because of the whole cis privilege makes you assume cis as the default and thus that modifier fades into the background thing.) Additionally, a hot fucking minute passed between Mizu5 and Ena5, long enough for Ena to ruin her skin with tears for her dead wife... And during that hot fuckin minute, the Ena5 4koma took place, where she straight up drew a lost girl while stressing about Mizuki. That whole gap between the events and what took place in the gap is very special to me... because the Girl Drawing combined with the Accurately Recognizing The Transmisogynistic Bullying As Exactly That really helps to make clear that Ena was confronting her "cis as default" way of thinking, and not anything else. I don't think she questioned Mizuki's girlhood even once, aside from maybe thinking "what the fuck are they on about" during her run-in with the bullies in Mizu5
#at this point I'm really really leaning on assumptions over given information but I Think Ena Researched. And I think that's cute...#Like did she know about trans people before The Outing? Beyond that That's A Kind Of Person That Exists?#I know that one poll shows that Japan is one of the lowest ranking countries in terms of 'amount of people that know a trans person'#at a meager like 9% of individuals polled. i say 'like' as if I didn't go check the actual poll#in any case really low number. much lower than the 38% where I live. so I assume general awareness over there must be lower?#everyone here in the US knows about transgender because Everyone Makes It Their Fucking Business. I hate politicians#is Japan like that ? I don't know. Probably not. Right? So good chance Ena had baby level awareness before Mizu5#Never considering that she would ever meet a trans person irl#SO I think she must have gotten to project-sekai-googling-equivalent.#Her stubborn ass came in handy and she firmly stuck to What She Knew About Mizuki#and she looked up 'my friend (girl) got called a guy as an insult why'#THIS led her to a rabbit hole in which she learned of the plight of the transgender people#and she was like hold tf up is Mizuki trans? is that it?#and she learned about voice training and remembered how Mizuki did use kind of a different accent + part of her throat in middle school#and from there she was like oh fucking shit I witnessed a hate crime against my bestie who faces extreme structural discrimination.#that's what I think happened. let me know your thoughts. it's 5 AM. sorry if this is unreadable I'm yapping#I should make a yap tag for when I get Like This#forgive me for my frequent sekai yaps it's just weirdly dissectable to me. Autism
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Vanessa didn't even die and yet her story is still sadder and more fucked up than jtodd's. He wishes he was on her level
#may be a controversial one but i dont care this is my house#dont think there are enough of you to get hate over this anything#anyways no she didnt die. she wasnt killed by voter poll. but like the stuff that fucked her up was so much more real than a psycho clown#like im sorry but what is âyou get beat up and dieâ to essentially getting taken and having the bad guys confirm to you that everything you#thought about yourself in middle school was true and everyone thinks youre ugly and worthless and not special and no one loves you. and then#ofc the medical torture. like im sorry but one of these things IS worse than the other imo#especially as the teen girl in the wonder woman comic like jesus christ#and while of COURSE the stuff about diana not loving her and all that is NOT true its something we see her struggle with as insecurity for#years beforehand. and then dc goes and brings her back into continuity in the past few years only to basically say âyeah wonder woman DIDNT#care about her! what a loser to think so and get all worked up about it! abt a vers of her who only has the name in common#like she wasnt dianas baby freaking sister with 100+ appearances#blah#vanessa kapatelis#anti jason todd#she also literally did the red hood arc before he did#with the whole attacking the successor and everything#yet another woman for him to steal from lmao#(this is mostly a joke. i dont think anyone making anything about jtodd canon or otherwise even knows what a wonder woman comic is but the#comparisons are still there.)
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i need someone to read my wips and tell me to finish them. but also i am not showing anybody my wips.
#and also i live in constant fear of everyone hating me and my work#i am also NOT bothering people with my wips. i want to stand over your shoulder and watch you read but also i dont want to do that#i think the best time of my life in this regard was middle school because i would write actual fanfiction#and bring it over to my english teacher for her to read and grade. as an extra assignment#i remember she changed schools at some point but before leaving she stopped me in the hallway to give me a hug#and to tell me that i should continue writing no matter what life brings#sometimes i think im doing it for her#anyway this is kinda about the jealousy fic but also metas pov of hangover cure lowkey.... cuz thats been sitting in the file for a while
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okay lol mini rant in the tags sorry i just HAD to get this off my chest đ sorry if this is very incoherent and poorly worded or structured or whatever i'm just. pretty out of it and i cannot really think to write this properly. well, that or i am probably just illiterate actually. Yeah that's it lol
#why are friendships so complicated#in my last year of senior high school at an all girls school#i transferred last year#and it's just cliques left and right#they all hate each other#i'm the type of person who can vibe with all of them even if their personalities are very very different#i am kind of friends with everyone in the sense that i can find common ground and have interact comfortably and enjoyably#my friend group from grade 11 (theyve been friends w each other for so long and i was the newcomer) dissolved this year bc things went down#i dont know the full extent of what happened#but those five friends split and three have merged with another group#the group that isolate my other two friends and seem to not like them#at least the âleaderâ of the group anyway. Not so sure about the rest#and now i am stuck in the middle lol. I have other friends from other groups but they have their own groups#the three girls already have each other and the new group (it's kind of a mix of me excluding myself on purpose and them not including me#in things presumably bc i am still âcloseâ with my other two friends they don't like#it is a weird dynamic because me and the other group the three other girls merged with can vibe with each other#we can laugh with each other and enjoy each others company when theyre not talking shit (they rarely do it in front of ppl so i havent rlly#seen the full extent of it)#and also my two other friends are obviously closer to each other than with me since theyve been friends for way longer#i remember i had a conversation with one of my friends from the three girls that split away#it was something like i have to tell the class this and that etc since im the president#and i am not a very assertive person i am also very scared of being disliked. I told her i didn't want the class to hate me and she said#âeverybody likes you you are friends with everyoneâ#it really doesn't feel that way. why do i feel like secretly they are talking shit#again i dont even know why we split up#but now i am just. Stuck in the middle#the thing is ive never even heard my other three friends talk shit and do nasty stuff with the new group/the main clique of the class#i havent seen the bad side to anything that i hear whispers about because ive never seen it#i havent been subjected to it either#i feel like i am wrong about a lot of things but i am just. blind or too deep into my people pleasing tendencies to not realize shit
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#havent ranted in the tags in a while#my moms bday is coming up.#it always fucks me up a little#i did a little internet sleuthing and found out that since my childhood home was condemned in 2020 due to her hoarding#they lived with my grandparents for a little bit pretending nothing was wrong#then did a fucking van life âroadschoolingâ thing for two years#and last year they moved to a little cute house in a 1500 person rural beach town#which i am sure my mother has already hoarded#i am really worried for my sisters.#theyre 9 and 14 and have been homeschooled their whole lives#and my mother ritualistically hobbles her children physically and emotionally so they depend on her their entire life#i mean shit when my middle sister was nine my mother insisted on wiping her ass for her. thats the kind of shit I'm talking about.#my sisters are isolated. and ive tried to reach out to them multiple times. and i know she is neglecting and abusing them#in the same or worse ways that she neglected and abused me#at least i had fucking SCHOOL to go to. they dont. they only have Mom. and our mom is a psychopath.#my poor sisters have no one outside of the family and my mom manipulates everyone around her into silence.#I know there is no one who will help them in a way that matters and i despair over it.#she reads my blog sometimes so hi mom. i still hate your guts. when i tell my friends stories about you they're horrified and furious.#oh and stop telling anyone who will listen that im a junkie. you know thats a damn lie to make people think im crazy when i tell the truth.#plus if i were a junkie it'd be your fucking fault <3
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entering into high school friendless really fucked me over in the long run ngl
#ive been thinking about volleyball recently and how much i loved it and how i was a starting player all thru middle school#on the varsity team etc etc. and how i didnt play in hs bc i was walking to the gym to try out and got so scared that they would hate me#or that i would be so terrible that they would all laugh or something that right as i reached the doors i turned around and left#and i loved it! i loved the game! i still do!! but i get so scared that everyone is going to hate me that i am paralyzed and never try#i think if i had had somebody to go with me i wouldve been fine. i think if i had known ANYBODY i wouldve been fine. but i was alone#anyway my new years resolution is to start playing at the community center bc membership is 1$/year and i want to play again#and im gonna drag my mom when i go on wednesday bc my sisters gone my friends live elsewhere and the fear sets in as it approaches#shell play pokemon so shell be fine and she seems excited about it#gets scared and doesnt do something that i like and was apparently pretty good and then continues for 14 years
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okay so this is super self indulgent but preface for those who arent aware i have this whole full world for my ocs & basically its like a 50/50 chance for any given person to have psychic powers called abilities & this ability is entirely dependent on the person themself & has nothing to do with genetics. ur either born with them or u can get them if ur from a different world & are isekai'd in. the only real thing about abilities is it has to be something a person can do with their mind/state of mind & isnt just like some super power like super strength.
anyway i realized this week i feel like i know the isotopes well enough so i ended up spending a lot of time thinking of what abilities they would have and i give u all my final decisions!!!
Kafu: she has something im going to call window creation. basically the ability to call forth 'windows' which ranges from just invisible walls in the air to creating a pane that lets her (or anyone near by to see it) see into a different place, time, or both. these are in effect solid walls/windows so its theoretically possible to use them as a weapon but given how kafu is i doubt she would think that way & instead would take a more defensive route, using them as a sort of force field or to get info the group otherwise wouldn't know
Sekai: i'm calling hers shadow manipulation. she can take control of shadows in the area and turn them into a semi-physical thing & from there pretty much becomes a distance attacker or defender depending on both her mood & what's necessary. i would like to think she also keeps a little shadow as a pet & it just follows her around or sits on her shoulder. the shadows can change shape btw
Rime: pyromancy. she gets to create & control fire at will. i like to think she puts too much pressure on herself to learn it & ends up unable to do it at first because of that but the second she lets herself breathe she finally gets it & from there puts in so much practice that her style with it ends up absolutely beautiful to watch. default flame color is red bc thats her color but it changes color/temperature with her emotions. u threaten one of the others and watch how fast it ends up blue-white.
Coko: fox. by shifting her mental state she can transform into a fox & while in that form can do things like create wil o wisp/fox fire & force fields, but mostly i think she'd specialize in creating illusions. she probably actually has multiple tails in that form but after drawing the rest of her outfit i thought one was enough to get the idea across. yes this is the third time im giving a chara this ability its bc im not allergic to fun normally people cant talk in the fox form but i like her so i guess she gets a little telepathy as a treat too.
Haru: consciousness walking. that is, she can separate her consciousness from her physical body & move around almost like a ghost. she can interact with the physical world on a minimal level in this state, but more importantly it allows her to see & interact with other people's consciousnesses in a way that's very easy to mess with their perception of the world & throw off their judgment & things like that. kind of like astral projection but not really, also if she gets really skilled with it she'd be able to move both her physical & spiritual forms at once although that is very tiring
#akire draws sometimes#this is purely to entertain myself i have no real plans to do anything with this#will i write fanfic will i draw it more whos to say i dont know yet only time will tell#on one hand i hate how simple rimes feels compared to everyone elses on the other i just know it suits her#sekai gave me so much trouble bc i was like. whats terrifying but not too extreme. i think this hits what i wanted#bc like. its only as scary as she wants it to be really. but it has The Potential#also fun fact for those who care: haru's is the same as what the human communication trio has at least in part#it was either that or possession for her but thats a special one to me im reluctant to give it to charas#i cant explain kafus it just feels right to me. shes a helper not a hurter.#sorry i never outgrew my middle school edgy power with pretentious name phase do u still think im cool
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what's ur fave one direction album.. cant believe we've never discussed this before
FOUR !!!! not a single skip 𫡠something about 2014 albums hits like crack
#perfect is my favourite song of theirs ofc i'm predictable enough#yk what the only reason i became a fan was bc i felt like i had to choose a side between them and jb back in middle school#and my bsf back then was absolutely obsessed with jb so i was like alright let me get into this band#and theirs was the first album i ever bought#anyway my favourite was zayn#pretty sure i had a crush on liam which is embarrassing considering he literally turned out to be the worst#anyway i literally remember buying teen gossip magazines every month and taping everyone and their mother's posters on the walls#i also remember when harry started dating taylor and not knowing or caring who she was#i couldn't understand the hate even at my baby age#but also at the time i was obsessed with i knew you were trouble bc it was on the radio all the time#but i didn't know about shazam or anything lol#so i didn't know that was the same person#fast forward couple years later i'm obsessed with shake it off and the mv#and i look her up on youtube and realize it's been the same girl all along ����đ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Żđ¤Ż#by that time i was not really interested in 1D#and the rest is history#sorry for the literal essay đ#now YOU#loz đ
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#Worst emoji combo ever but itâs gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up#donât you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years youâve only seen people the large total ofâŚ. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon#outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years!#Donât you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid#shit like your average high schooler would do and youâre just like âoh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the#entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over youâ oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking#ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so#thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck#And now Iâm debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me#There. I wasnât even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone elseâs shoulder#everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and Iâm just there talking to one friend who I donât even think is my friend#âHey man Iâm really fucking sad rn can I talk to youâ âwomp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when#you talk about anything else about meâ oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn#At least someone wants to talk to me#Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me Iâll change Iâm amazing at changing my personality to fit others#promise me on that Iâve done it my entire life#Even just messaging me more than once every year and Iâd consider you my best friend this is how bad Iâm getting#What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I donât care how badly you fucking word it just something#It shouldnât be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you#Oh dear did the gcâs without me in it thereâs one for every friend group Iâve ever been in why isnât there one for the main group Iâm in rn#Idfc anymore just tell me what Iâm doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place#And itâs always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject#Please if youâre someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I canât fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like#Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me#It shouldnât be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what Iâm in rn#I fucking hate everything
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Horribly easily to tell if my dads drunk
#vent! annoying vent!#like. the fact that everyoneâs mood is ruined being a massive flag aside#he has so many tells he thinks heâs slick lmao#voice slurs and sticks at certain points#nasally. very nasally#he talks over you and starts sentences multiple times#repeats a lot of points#it sounds like heâs constantly on the verge of a cough#and heâs just a bitch in general#the very regular tells of a drunk person but I think itâs easier for me to notice now#idk I used to think he was just tired and snappish as a kid then I discovered the concept of alcohol and ojhhh. so thatâs what does that#to be fair he used to take me to alcohol warehouses. when I was not even in middle school. I shit you not#I think? I dunno starting from the point where I realized that my brother indulged in a wee bit of cocsa my memory kicks the bucket a#little bit everyday#whatever idc. I say. whatever#yea I think there were alchohol warehouses? I donât. I canât find any when I google them now#they donât look like what I remember so it could just be me trying to fill in the gaps with what I have#but I know he used to take me and my sister there to get Jack Danielâs or whatever it was#I still think about that one really bad fight we had when he was drunk#I asked him if he loves me at all etc if he cares about me beyond my grades#and he just gave me one deadpanned long look and said no#like. ok okay ig? thanks for the answer king i loved that#another fight we had. well. no it wasnât us fighting he fought with mom#their fights r the reason im more active at night and hate sleeping tbh#anyways I ended up locking myself in the bathroom and screaming myself hoarse because I couldnât just fathom why he seems to just. hate her#which he doesnât. I donât think he does. they love eachother they really do but itâs like miserable at times#esp when heâs drunk#like I had my mom asking if me and my sister would be happier if we moved away from him#I donât remember what I told her I was honestly more worried about if sheâd be happy and if she could support us#ope. tag limit. Penis penis balls cock
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not my two co-teachers asking me if i know anyone who would want to work here bc we need more teachers. sorry but all my friends know about all the insane coworker drama i'm always complaining about so they wouldn't ever work here lol
#def not for 14 an hour be serious#but im always telling them how insane and bitchy all my coworkers are except for 1 so they would def never work here lol#this has been a shitpost#the office politics here is a warzone im always stressed af trying to get along w everyone lmao#it's very petty middle school drama except most of these people have actual power over me so worse than that lol#the two that are supervisors are bad and they hate eachother but the one thats just a co teacher is sneaky af#she loves to cause problems on purpose she's probably the worst of them all lol
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pretty sure im autistic. but its not really a grand revelation or anything im just like :( what now even
#explains why ppl will hate my guts but would still hang out with me and id be none the wiser#i had a friend in middle school who i thought i was still super cool with#turns out she was talking shit about me to everyone and i was just like :) so oblivious#anyway i dont trust theater kids anymore#if you know you knw!!!!
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TEENAGE DIRTBAG
ďšćˇˇčďšâââââ is riki really that irritated by you or perhaps is it your boyfriend ?
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đ anas notes: finally !! some of these were in my drafts for so long until i got a request from @woniefication MWAH THANK YOU
It was another day in Mr. Choi's history class, and you could already tell it was going to be a long one. The room was filled with the usual chatter of your classmates - the popular kids laughing obnoxiously at the back, the nerds trying to keep to themselves, and you, somewhere in the middle, just trying to get through another class.
You barely registered Mr. Choiâs lecture, too caught up in the swirling mess of your own thoughts. You were used to it now, the constant tension between you and your boyfriend, Jae. He was always in and out of your life, making empty promises that he never kept. He was the classic jerk - popular, arrogant. He had a way of making you feel like you were just another girl in his collection. You knew you should've ended it a long time ago, but his persistence, maybe even something else, however toxic it was - had worn you down.
But today, you werenât thinking about Jae. Your thoughts were, as usual, drifting to the one person who was always present â Riki.
He was a few rows ahead of you, lounging in his seat in his usual cocky way. His black leather jacket was draped over the back of his chair, and his headphones rested around his neck. Riki was everything Jake wasn't - mysterious, musing, and undeniably attractive in a way that made you want to get closer, even though he was the last person you'd ever admit you were drawn to.
As Mr. Choi continued on, you noticed Riki glance toward you. His eyes lingered just a second longer than they should have, and for the briefest moment, you thought you saw something in his gaze. But then, as always, he quickly looked away. It was like he had this quiet fascination with you, but he was too proud to show it.
And thatâs what pissed you off about him. He was just like Jae in the sense that he never gave a care about anyone, always too cool for school, playing the part of the ''bad boy.''
"Y/N," Mr. Choi's voice broke through your thoughts, pulling you back into the moment. "Care to tell the class the answer?"
You blinked, suddenly aware that everyoneâs eyes were on you.
You hadnât heard a word of the lesson.
Riki chuckled quietly from the front, the sound low and almost mocking. "I guess she's not paying attention. Typical."
You rolled your eyes, ignoring him as best as you could. "Sorry, Mr. Choi. Can you repeat the question?"
He sighed, clearly annoyed. "I said, what year did the Civil War end?"
"1865," you replied, without missing a beat.
"Correct," Mr. Choi muttered, before turning back to his lecture.
As class continued, Riki's eyes were on you again, just out of your line of vision. You hated how his attention made your heart race, even though youâd never admit it out loud. Riki was trouble. The kind of trouble you didnât need in your life. You already had enough with Jae
But that didn't stop you from noticing him every chance you got. You couldnât help but wonder - if heâd ever stop pretending to be so mean, what would he be like? Was he really the jerk everyone said he was, or was it just a act?
The bell rang, snapping you out of your thoughts. You grabbed your things and hurried out of the classroom, avoiding eye contact with Riki as best as you could.
The bell rang, signaling the end of another class. You shuffled through your papers, gathering your stuff, hoping for a peaceful exit. The tension from the gaze of Riki from yesterday still lingered, but you figured it was just another day. Another day of dealing with the mind games that seemed to follow you everywhere.
You were on your way out of class when you heard the sound of shoes shuffling on the floor behind you.
Of course, you didnât need to turn around to know who it was. But you kept walking, pretending you didnât notice him following you down the hallway.
"Whereâs your boyfriend?" Rikiâs voice cut through the silence, voice dripping with sarcasm. "Did he finally get tired of you?"
You kept your eyes straight ahead, the words stinging more than they should. He had a way of pushing buttons that made you want to snap, but you kept your cool.
"Heâs busy," you muttered, not bothering to explain further.
Riki snorted. "Yeah, I bet heâs busy with some other girl. Heâs a real prize, huh?" His voice was laced with mockery, but there was something almost... too pointed about it.
You clenched your jaw, trying to keep your composure. "What do you care?" you shot back, glancing at him.
His eyes met yours, and for a moment, there was a flicker of something â was it amusement? Frustration? It was hard to tell. He leaned against the locker, crossing his arms. "Just curious," he said, shrugging. "Wouldnât want you to get too attached to a loser like him. Heâs not even worth the breath you waste on him."
You narrowed your eyes at him. "Youâre a real piece of work, you know that?"
Riki raised an eyebrow, stepping closer. "Whatâs the matter, huh? Canât handle a little truth?" His words were like a jab to your chest. The way he looked at you, like you were some kind of puzzle he was trying to solve, made your stomach twist with confusion.
You felt a wave of frustration hit you. "You donât know anything about me," you snapped, your patience wearing thin.
"Do I not?" Rikiâs voice dropped to a low, almost dangerous tone. He was standing right in front of you now. His eyes glinted with something unreadable. "I know enough."
Before you could respond, Riki pushed himself off the locker and turned, as if the conversation was over. "Youâre just another girl caught up in a bad relationship. No different from all the others."
"Yeah, well, maybe Iâll get tired of it," you muttered under your breath. "Maybe Iâll just walk away."
Rikiâs smirk deepened as he glanced back over his shoulder. "Wouldnât surprise me. You donât seem the type to stick around when things get real."
You gritted your teeth, fists clenched. He was right about one thing â you were done with Jae, and maybe... maybe you were done with Rikiâs games too.
"You think you know me?" you said, your voice cold. "You donât. So keep your opinion to yourself."
Riki only glanced with a intense gaze, before walking off, leaving you there, heart racing with frustration.
But even as you were mad, you couldnât shake the feeling that maybe â just maybe â he wasnât wrong.
The circle of friends was loud â someone passed around a bag of chips, someone else was retelling a story that probably wasnât as funny as everyone made it. Laughter echoed through the group, but your smile was forced. You sat close to Jae, his arm casually slung over your shoulder like it was some kind of ownership tag.
You tried not to roll your eyes at his touch, but it felt heavier than usual. He leaned in, whispered something into your ear â probably a bad joke or some half-assed compliment â and laughed like he was so charming.
Across the group, you caught Riki watching.
He sat slouched in a chair, legs stretched out, rings glinting under the string lights. His expression was unreadable â the perfect mask of disinterest â but his eyes told another story.
You could feel the way they trailed over Jakeâs arm around your shoulders, the way they narrowed ever so slightly when Jake brushed a thumb along your collarbone. Riki wasnât saying a word, but he didnât have to.
His stare said everything.
You tried not to look at him too long, but it was magnetic. You glanced back, just for a second, and met his eyes.
Big mistake.
His gaze locked onto yours, sharp. His jaw clenched, his tongue poked the inside of his cheek in that cocky, irritated way he always did when he was holding something back. A smirk ghosted across his face â bitter, amused.
Jae didnât notice a thing. He just leaned closer, voice louder now, trying to dominate the conversation. '' You cold, babe?'' he asked, loud enough for the others to hear. '' Youâre kinda tense.''
You laughed lightly, brushing him off. '' Iâm fine.''
But Riki was still watching.
His fingers drummed against his knee, his eyes not moving once from the two of you. Then he spoke â finally.
'' You're pretty good at pretending'' he said, low and smooth, like a threat carefully prepared.
Everyone paused. The conversation hiccupped. A few heads turned. Someone chuckled awkwardly, thinking he was just being edgy. But you knew better.
Your eyes snapped to him.
''Whatâs that supposed to mean?'' you asked, tone sharper than you meant it to be.
He just raised a brow and tilted his head. '' Nothing. Just an observation. Didnât mean to ruin the moment.''
Jae scoffed. ''You good, bro? Sounding a little bitter.''
Riki grinned, but it didnât reach his eyes. ''Nah, just bored.''
And with that, he leaned back and looked away â but not before shooting you one last glance. The kind that made your stomach twist. The kind that said: You know Iâm right.
You looked down at Jae's hand still on you and suddenly, it felt even heavier.
The metro was packed, bodies pressed shoulder to shoulder, heat and noise filling every inch of space â except the one between you and Riki.
He stood inches from you, one hand gripping the rail above your head, eyes locked on yours like the chaos around you didnât exist. No smirk this time. No teasing.
Just that look.
Heavy. Quiet. Intense.
Your breath caught as the train jolted, bringing you even closer. He didnât move. Didnât flinch. Just kept watching like he was trying to read your thoughts â or bury his own.
You swallowed hard, pulse hammering in your throat.
Neither of you said a word.
Didnât need to. His eyes were loud enough.
And when the train screeched into the next stop, he still didnât look away â not until the doors opened, and you both pretended nothing happened.
But it did.
God, it did.
The school rooftop was your only escape.
Hardly anyone ever came here, afterall, it was a old forgotten place. Youâd started sneaking up there between classes just to breathe.
The rooftop was your escape - until today.
You pushed open the heavy door and froze.
Riki was already there, leaned against the low concrete wall, cigarette dangling from his fingers, smoke curling lazily in the breeze. His eyes flicked up at the sound of the door creaking, and for once, he didnât have that stupid smirk on his pretty face.
''Seriously?'' you muttered. ''Youâve got the whole damn school to haunt. Why here?''
He shrugged, taking a slow drag. ''Didnât realize you had it reserved.''
You walked to the far side, trying to ignore his stare â the way it always dug under your skin. But today, you snapped.
''You've got some nerve, you know that?'' you said sharply, turning on him. ''You follow me around like some smug parasite, making those cryptic comments, for what? To make me miserable?
He blinked slowly. ''If Iâm making your life worse, youâre doing a pretty damn good job of sticking around for it.''
Your fists clenched. ''Youâre unbelievable.''
He scoffed, flicking the cigarette. ''Why? Because I donât lie to you? Because I donât play sweet like your golden boy boyfriend?''
You stepped toward him, fury bubbling up from your chest. ''Donât talk about Jae.''
''Iâll talk about whoever the hell I want,â Riki shot back. âEspecially the guy who treats you like garbage and gets away with it because youâre too scared to leave.''
That hit hard. Too hard.
''You donât know anything about me,'' you hissed, your voice shaking.
''I know enough,'' he said, stepping forward. ''I know you act like none of this bothers you. I know you date losers because itâs easier than admitting you donât know what you want. And I know you look at me like you hate me â but you havenât stopped looking away, have you?''
Your breath caught.
''Youâre such an self absorbed asshole','' you whispered. ''You say all this crap like you know me, like youâre better than him. But youâre not. Youâre just meaner. Colder. At least he pretends to care.''
That did something. His jaw tightened.
He stepped even closer, now barely inches away, his voice low and sharp. ''You think I donât care?'' he spat. ''You think this is easy for me? Watching you run back to him every time he screws up? Watching you let him walk all over you when-''
''When what, Riki?'' you challenged, heart pounding. ''What, youâd treat me better? Between all your insults and dirty looks, where exactly was the part where I was supposed to feel wanted?''
Silence.
The wind whipped around you, tension so thick you could cut it with a knife.
Then he muttered, almost too quietly, ''I never wanted to want you.''
Silence. Your heart dropped. This wasn't a joke?
''I push you away,'' he said quietly, ''because if I didnât, Iâd be too close.''
You swallowed, hard. For a second, neither of you spoke. And thenâ
''Donât,'' you said, voice barely above a whisper. ''Donât say things like that unless you mean them.''
Riki stepped back like the moment had burned him, but he didnât take it back.
He looked at you like he did.
And for once, didnât hide it.
Your phone buzzed twice, then again. The third time, you finally checked it.
Jae. Another girl. His hands all over her, lips tangled, right there in the corner of some dim party room.
Reactions flooded in - shock, laughing emojis, ''omg''s, and ''yo wtf''s - but you just stared at the screen, thumb frozen over your phone. Your stomach twisted, but not out of surprise.
You were used to this part. The disappointment. The quiet, dull ache that never really left.
No message from him. No explanation. Not that you were expecting one. Youâd been waiting - waiting for him to end it, to at least have the decency to say it to your face. But maybe this was it.
You sighed, slow and tired, and threw your phone across the room.
Grabbing your jacket, you pulled it over your shoulders. It hung heavy. Your legs were bare under your skirt, and the cold air bit at your skin the second you stepped outside. You didnât care. The numbness was louder than the wind.
The sky was dark, thick with clouds. A silence hung in the empty streets, broken only by the crunch of gravel under your shoes.
Then you heard it â a low, familiar rumble cutting through the stillness. A motorcycle.
You paused, looking up just as it came closer, headlights flashing briefly in your direction. The bike slowed, coming to a stop a few feet away. The rider pulled off his helmet, and there he was.
Riki.
Hair messy from the helmet, brows pulled together in something dangerously close to concern.
His eyes scanned you â the jacket thrown hastily over your outfit, the bare legs, the way you werenât even pretending to be okay.
''You shouldnât be out here like this,'' he said, voice low but cutting through the quiet.
You didnât respond right away. Just tucked your arms tighter around yourself, eyes fixed on some point over his shoulder.
''Guess Jae finally did me a favor,'' you muttered.
He didnât ask. Didnât need to. Whatever had happened, heâd clearly already heard.
For a moment, he didnât say anything. Just stood there, one hand still on the bike, the other flexing by his side like he didnât know what to do with it.
Then, softer, ''You want a ride?''
You looked at him.
The part of you that would usually roll your eyes or spit something defensive was quiet now. You were too tired to fight. Too cold to pretend.
So you nodded.
And for the first time that night, you felt a little less alone.
Jae hadnât even read your text.
Weâre over. Sent at 11:42 p.m. last night
And yet there he was again the next day, strutting down the corridor as if you had done something wrong, gaze intense, jaw tight and fists clenched.
Youâd been laughing at something one of your friends said, just a passing joke â harmless, light. But Jae didnât see that. Or didnât want to.
''What the hell is this?'' he snapped, voice sharp and too loud, drawing a few glances from nearby students.
You turned slowly, spine straightening. ''What are you talking about?''
''Youâre out here, all over other guys, are you cheating on me?'' he accused.
You wanted to laugh, bitter and sad. But you didnât.
''Cheating?'' you repeated, raising an eyebrow. ''Jae, you cheated on me. I saw the picture. The picture that got sent around.''
His face went pale for a moment before turning bright red with rage.
''Thatâs not the same thing,'' he hissed, fists clenching. ''You think I care about some stupidâ''
''You care about it now, donât you?'' you shot back, voice rising. ''You donât even know how to break up with someone, so you just-'
Your words were cut short as he shoved your arm aside, stepping into your space, furious. His hand was raised, the tension in the air thick and crackling with something dark.
Before you could even react, someone moved fast from the side. Riki.
He appeared in a swift motion, stepping between you and Jae with a sharpness that cut through the tension.
He stood there, tall and confident, his posture straight, his eyes dark but calm, locking with Jaeâs. ''You better lower your hand,''
Jae blinked, caught off guard, as if he hadnât expected anyone to step in. ''What are you doing, Riki?'' he snarled.
Riki didnât flinch. ''What the hell do you think youâre doing?'' he replied, voice low but heavy with something dangerous. ''Because this? This is crossing a line.''
You thought it was over.
Jae had stormed off after Riki stepped in, and youâd figured thatâd be the end of it.
But oh boy were you wrong.
A few days later, you found yourself sitting in the school nurse's office, frowning down at Rikiâs face.
''Seriously, Riki?'' you said, irritation rising as you grabbed a cotton ball and dabbed it into disinfectant. ''You couldnât just walk away, could you?''
He winced when you dabbed the cotton over the cut lip. "I'm fine," he growled, trying to be cool like it was nothing, but you caught the way his jaw tightened, the minute tension on his shoulders giving him away.
''No, youâre not fine,'' you shot back, carefully applying bandages. ''You got yourself hurt because you couldnât let him walk away with it. What were you trying to prove?''
Riki just smiled weakly, but it never quite made it to his eyes. "Maybe I was proving something to you.".
''Youâre lucky Iâm not slapping you,'' you grumbled, trying to hold back the anger that kept creeping in. ''Youâre an idiot. Why didnât you just walk away from Jae?''
He didnât answer at first, his eyes locked on your hands as you worked. Then, quietly, he said, ''Because youâre worth it.''
You stood there, frozen, the words cutting you harder than they had any right to. You glared at him, but he didn't look at you. Instead, his eyes were fixed over your shoulder, face expressionless.
"Why do you always do that?" you asked, voice barely above a whisper now. "Why do you say things like that if you don't mean them?''
"I never said I didn't mean them," he replied, his eyes locking on you then, his eyes darkening from earlier. There was something there, something unspoken between the two of you.
You didnât know what to say. The moment hung thick in the air, the tension palpable.
''Alright, youâre done,'' you muttered, pulling away. You grabbed a bandage and wrapped it around his arm, trying to keep your hands steady. ''Donât get yourself into more trouble.''
Riki just nodded, his expression unreadable, but there was a slight curve to his lips that almost looked like a smile. ''You always say that, but I think youâre the one whoâs gonna get into trouble if you keep hanging around me.''
You didnât answer. Instead, you finished bandaging him up and turned to leave, but then you stopped and glanced over your shoulder.
''You still owe me an explanation,'' you said, voice quieter now.
He raised an eyebrow, that familiar smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. ''Maybe. But some things are better left unsaid.''
With that, he stood up, and for the first time in days, you werenât sure where either of you stood.
The silence between you was thick, but it didnât feel as awkward as it should. Maybe it never had.
It was late.
Most of the school was dark, except for the faint buzz of lights in the empty classroom â the one you found him in.
Riki sat on the windowsill, notebook balanced on his knee. His hood was down for once, hair messy, head tilted like he didnât hear you come in.
You hesitated at the doorway.
âYou break in?â you asked softly, lips twitching.
He didnât look up. âDidnât need to. Left the window open last time.â
You stepped inside, slow and quiet, watching the way his pencil moved across the page â steady, focused, way more careful than anyone would guess. âWhat are you even writing?â
Riki finally looked over, gaze catching yours, lingering a second too long. âWouldnât you like to know.â
You rolled your eyes and crossed the room until you were beside him, peeking at the notebook. âLet me see.â
He shifted it just slightly away from your view. âNope.â
You raised an eyebrow. âAfraid Iâll see all the little hearts with my name in them?â
That actually got a small laugh out of him. âYou wish.â
The silence that followed was warm, comfortable in a way it hadnât always been. You leaned against the window next to him, arms crossed, your shoulder brushing his. Neither of you moved.
After a minute, you said, quieter, âYou know... promâs coming.â
Riki glanced at you. âSo Iâve heard.â
âYou thinking of going?â
He paused, then shrugged. âOnly if thereâs a reason to.â
You bit your lip, heart fluttering with something you didnât want to name yet. âWhat if there was?â
He looked at you again, eyes darker now â focused. âAre you trying to ask me something, or just over the edge?â
You opened your mouth, then closed it again. â...Maybe both.â
He smiled â just barely â and looked away, back out the window like he needed a second to cool off whatever just passed between you.
You didnât say anything else. Neither did he. You just stayed there, shoulder to shoulder, both pretending you werenât waiting for the other to make a move.
And you didnât know it then, but that was the moment youâd end up thinking about when you finally gave him those tickets.
The moment when almost was already everything.
Prom was coming up.
Every hallway was plastered with glittery posters and cheesy hashtags. People were buzzing with dates and dresses and afterparty plans. Youâd told yourself you didnât care â that it was overrated, dramatic, not your thing.
But then there was Riki.
And the fact that despite all the tension, all the biting comments and late-night moments that felt way too close, he hadnât asked anyone. He hadnât even mentioned it.
So when you saw him leaning against his usual spot by the back stairwell, headphones around his neck, hood half-up like he was trying not to exist â you decided.
You walked up, heart thudding stupidly hard, something clutched behind your back.
He looked up at you with that lazy gaze, one brow quirking. âWhat?â
You cleared your throat. âI, um⌠I got something.â
Riki blinked, a little amused already. âFor me?â
You pulled your hand around and held it out â two folded pieces of paper. âConcert tickets.â
He looked down at them, then back at you, waiting.
âTheyâre for a night before prom,â you said, trying to keep your voice steady. âI figured, it'd be weird to not have dates, so we could use these as an opportunity to get closer and not be so awkward togehter at prom - because like mabye we could go as a pair?â
Something flickered in his expression â surprise, interest, maybe even something softer.
You hurried to add, âI mean, unless you were planning to not go. Or already have a date. Orââ
âAre you asking me out?â he interrupted, eyes narrowing with a half-smile.
You faltered. âIâwhat? No. I mean yes. Kinda. Not like that, justââ
He stepped closer, just a bit, enough that you could see the amusement tugging at his lips. âYou couldâve just said you wanted to go with me. You didnât have to bribe me with front-row tickets.â
You rolled your eyes. âIâm trying to be nice here, you absolute jerk.â
Riki laughed â a real one, low and warm. Then he took the tickets from your hand, carefully, like they were something rare.
âYeah,â he said. âIâll go with you.â
You blinked. âJust like that?â
He shrugged. âYouâve been making moves on me for weeks. I was wondering how long itâd take you to admit it.â
Your jaw dropped. âI have notââ
âYou literally patched me up in the nurseâs office like a rom-com lead,â he teased, tucking the tickets into his back pocket. âIt was very touching.â
You shoved his shoulder, cheeks burning. âI hate you.â
He grinned. âNo, you donât.â
And as he turned to walk beside you, hands in his pockets, you kind of hated that he was right.
It happened weeks after prom.
You were both sitting on the bench after yet another date. Heart lighter than it'd had been in weeks. The streetlamps cast a soft glow on Rikiâs face as he leaned back on his palms, gaze tilted up toward the sky.
It was quiet. Calm. The kind of peace that usually didnât last long with him.
Then he spoke.
âSo,â he said, almost too casually. âAre you gonna keep pretending this isnât a thing? Or are you finally gonna let me call you my girl?â
You turned to look at him, heartbeat stumbling in that annoying way it did whenever he got serious. âYouâre asking me out?â
âIâm saying,â he drawled, âofficially, that I want this. You. No games, no half-truths. Just us. If you want it, too.â
You stared at him, trying not to smile too hard, trying not to let him see how much that meant â how much he meant.
âOkay,â you said softly. âOn one condition.â
He raised an eyebrow. âCondition?â
You nodded. âYou stop smoking.â
That actually made him pause.
Then he laughed under his breath, shaking his head. âYou know,â he said, âthat day on the rooftop? The cigarette?â He glanced over at you, smirking a little. âIt was fake.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
âDead serious. I wasnât even smoking. It wasnât lit. I just... thought it looked cool.â He shrugged, clearly a little embarrassed now. âI was trying to seem badass. Impress you or something.â
You stared at him, incredulous. âYouâre kidding.â
He held up a hand. âSwear on my life. It was literally just for show. Didnât even inhale. I nearly choked.â
You burst out laughing, the image too perfect â Riki, fake-smoking to get your attention, acting like he didnât care when he clearly did.
âAlright,â you said, still smiling. âThen yeah. Iâll be your girl.â
He leaned in, face close, grin tugging at his lips. âFinally pretty.â
And when he kissed you â soft, careful, like he was making a promise â you believed him.
Because
Riki had proved he wasn't like Jae or any other guy.
He was willing to change. To let go of that stupid image.
For you, his Y/N.
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SYNOPSIS: One second, you were telling a little lie to impress the cheerleaders, and the next, the whole school thought you were dating Park Jongseongâthe cold, untouchable, and ridiculously hot guitarist. What started as a desperate move to boost your reputation took a wild turn when Jay decided to go along with it. Now, youâre caught up in nonstop gossip, awkward moments, and a fake relationship that feels a little too realâespecially with Jay showing a surprisingly sweet side that no one, including you, saw coming.
content tags: fake dating, lots of fluffs, comedy, slight angst, strangers to lovers, reader is in 11th grade while jay is in 12th, (but both of them are over the age of 18) reader is short, jay smokes vape in the middle of the story, jay hates everyone lol. warning: profanities, mentions of sex, mild smut. WC: 14.7k
song used: same ground by kitchie nadal
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You were a simple girl.
Simple, average, ordinary. Not the type to snag straight A's in every class, but not failing either. You were the kind of girl teachers barely noticedâjust another name on the roll call, another face in the crowd.
You liked pinkâjust enough to keep it cute, but not the over-the-top glittery kind.
You didn't obsess over fandoms or have bags covered in pins and but you have figurines. Your style wasn't edgy or pastel chic or anything that made you stand out. You were... balanced. Plain. Normal.
Your high school life reflected that. Simple. Average. No exciting detours.
You weren't a sports star who got their name chanted in the bleachers. You weren't a science geek impressing everyone with your brainpower. You weren't a mean girl, a party kid, or a cheerleader.
Oh, but you wanted to be a cheerleader.
You wanted to wear that uniform, flip through the air, feel the rush of the crowd. You wanted the applause, the way everyone's eyes followed them when they walked the halls.
But no one cared about a normal girl trying out.
Reputation was everything in high school, and yours? Too simple. Too... forgettable.
You could cheer. You could dance. You could pull off a backflip, a split, the whole routine. You had the skills. What you didn't have was the image.
"Do you have a boyfriend?" one of the cheerleaders asked, her voice dismissive as you landed your final jump during tryouts. You stood there, panting, sweat dripping down your face after nailing the routine.
"A boyfriend?" you repeated, blinking, stunned. What did that have to do with anything?
"From football? Hockey? Maybe Math Olympiad?" she continued, her smirk curling like she already knew the answer.
You froze. Of course you didn't have a boyfriend. You were an NBSBâNo Boyfriend Since Birth kind of girl. But how was that even relevant? You were here to cheer, not audition for a dating show.
"We'll let you know if you're accepted... or not," another cheerleader chimed in, her voice dripping with boredom. She wasn't even pretending to care about your performance.
You stood there for a moment, trying to steady your breathing, gripping your bag so tight your knuckles turned white. The sting of their indifference burned in your chest as you turned and walked out of the gym, sweaty and defeated.
Reputation doesn't matter, they always said. What a joke. High school was all about reputationâwho you dated, who you were seen with, who you weren't.
And being a simple, average, normal girl? That just wasn't good enough.
It was a warm afternoon when you found yourself face-to-face with them againâthe cheerleader tryouts.
So, before you could stop yourself, the words slipped out:
"My boyfriend is Park Jongseong."
The world seemed to stop for a second. All the cheerleaders froze, wide-eyed, jaws dropping like a scene from a poorly-scripted teen drama.
"WaitâPark Jongseong?!" one of them shrieked, her voice climbing several octaves. "The hot guitarist in the band?"
You nodded, keeping your expression sweet and innocent, careful not to let your fabricated lie crumble.
"Oh my god!" Another cheerleader nearly jumped out of her skin. "He's, like, the hottest guy in school! And so... mysterious."
"He's so cold, though," another chimed in, tilting her head suspiciously. "How did you evenâ"
You cut her off, spinning your web of lies before she could unravel it. "Oh, it just... happened," you said with a casual shrug, as if it were no big deal.
"We met at this cafĂŠ off campus. He asked me about my drink order, and, well..." You let out a dreamy sigh, painting a picture so vivid you could almost convince yourself it was real.
"He's so sweet. He cares about me so much. Like, he cooks for me when I'm tired, aftercare after sex, kisses me goodbye every morning, andâ" You leaned in conspiratorially, lowering your voice to a whisper. "He even lets me touch his guitar."
The gasps that followed were almost deafening.
"No way!" one of them shrieked, clutching her chest in disbelief. "Park Jongseong doesn't let anyone touch his guitar!"
You nodded solemnly, as if sharing a sacred truth. "Well, he lets me."
For a moment, you thought you'd pulled it off. You were a star in their eyes, a girl who'd managed to capture the unattainable Park Jongseong's heart.
But deep down, you knew the truth.
Park Jongseong hate everyone, especially you. And honestly? You didn't blame him.
The first time you'd crossed paths, it had been a disaster.
You'd been drinking water at your locker when he appeared out of nowhere, walking right past you. Startled by his sudden presence, you'd choked, spraying water directly into his face.
His jaw had clenched, his eyes shutting as he took a deep breath, clearly fighting the urge to lose his temper.
"Sorry!" you'd squeaked, your face burning with humiliation.
And then, like the socially awkward creature you were, you'd bolted down the hallway, leaving him dripping and furious.
Then there was the incident in the music room.
You'd been poking around the instruments out of boredom, your fingers grazing the strings of a random guitar whenâCRASH. Your foot caught on something, and the stand holding his prized guitar tipped over, sending it sprawling to the floor.
Right at that moment, the door swung open, and in walked Park Jongseong.
You froze like a deer in headlights, your heart dropping to your stomach as his gaze landed on his guitar, then on you. His face was unreadable, but the tightness in his jaw told you everything you needed to know.
"Uh... sorry?" you muttered, holding up your hands in a weak peace sign. Before he could say anything, you darted out of the room. You ran away, again.
And who could forget the volleyball incident?
You'd been practicing serves in the gym when he and his friends walked in. Your focus wavered for a split second, and the ball sailed in the wrong directionâstraight into his face.
You gasped as blood began dripping from his nose. "Oh my god, I'm so sorry!" you stammered, panicking as he grabbed his face, clearly in pain.
Without thinking (or, honestly, with too much thinking), you did what you always did. You ran, again.
And now, standing here, spinning lies about a romance that didn't exist, you had to fight to keep your composure.
"Wow," one of the cheerleaders gushed. "I can't believe you and Jongseong are, like... a thing!"
"Yeah," you said with a forced laugh, clutching your bag tightly to hide how sweaty your palms were. "He's... amazing."
But in the back of your mind, all you could think about was how Park Jongseong would react if he ever found out about this.
And...The story spread faster than you could have ever imagined.
One second, you were fabricating a harmless little lie to impress the cheerleaders, and the next, the entire school seemed to think you and Park Jongseong were soulmatesâor worse, a thing.
And not just any kind of "thing." No. The rumors had grown legs, arms, and a whole personality.
"Is it true that Park Jongseong is... like, huge in bed?" one girl whispered as you passed her in the hallway, her eyes wide with curiosity.
You choked on absolutely nothing, gripping your bag as if it might save you from spontaneously combusting.
Another girl caught up to you, practically skipping alongside you. "Oh my God, how was it? You know, with him? Is he all intense and broody like he looks, or does he have a soft side?"
You stared at her, mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water.
"He's... uh... great?" you stammered, mentally slapping yourself for sounding so unconvincing.
Her jaw dropped, and before you knew it, a crowd of girlsâyes, the famous girlsâwas swarming you, each one louder and more persistent than the last.
"I can't believe you got him to date you!"
"Wait, wait, waitâdid he really let you touch his guitar? Because I heard he doesn't even let his bandmates touch it."
"What's his favorite food? Does he let you steal his hoodies? Is he ticklish?"
"Is he actually the silent-in-public, wild-in-private type? Tell us everything!"
Your head was spinning. They were everywhere, and you couldn't escape. You tried smiling naturally, nodding here and there, but the panic bubbling inside you was threatening to explode.
"Oh my God, you're not even in the cheerleading pep squad yet? How dare they still not accept you!" one girl exclaimed dramatically. She flipped her hair with a loud scoff. "I mean, I saw your audition, and it was fucking amazing."
You blinked. She definitely had not seen your audition.
"Y-yeah, um... thanks," you muttered, clutching your bag tighter and taking a deep breath to steady yourself.
It was still early, but the hallway was packed. The questions kept coming, the voices growing louder, and you were just about ready to melt into the floor.
And then it happened.
You let out a tiny squeak as someone grabbed your arm, yanking you out of the circle of girls. You stumbled, blinking in shock, and turned to see who your saviorâor captorâwas.
Your heart nearly stopped.
It was him.
Park Jongseong!
Jaw sharp enough to cut glass, eyes darker than your worst nightmares, and hair falling messily across his forehead like he just stepped out of a photoshoot.
Except he didn't look like a model. No. He looked angry.
Like, furious.
Oh, you were so, so dead.
"S-see you later, girls!" you called out, your voice cracking as you tried to sound cheerful. You gripped his arm like your life depended on it, forcing a smile as he dragged you through the hallway.
The crowd erupted behind you.
"Oh my God, they're really together!"
"I knew it!"
"They're so cute! Look at how she holds onto him!"
Your face felt like it was on fire. You could feel every pair of eyes in the hallway locked on you as Jongseong stormed forward, his grip firm but not painful. You tried to match his pace, but his legs were longer, and you were practically jogging to keep up.
You tried to focus on breathing, but the more they talked, the more you wanted to just curl up and disappear.
Meanwhile, Jongseong hadn't said a single word. His jaw clenched, his eyes fixed straight ahead.
"Uh, Jongseongâ"
Before you could finish, he yanked open the door to a small storage room, pulling you inside and shutting the door behind you with a loud click.
"Heyâwhat are youâ"
"Shut up," he muttered, his voice low and sharp.
You blinked, startled. The room was small, cramped, and dimly lit by a single flickering bulb. Shelves stacked with cleaning supplies and dusty boxes surrounded you, and the air smelled faintly of bleach.
Jongseong leaned against the door, running a hand through his messy hair and letting out a frustrated sigh.
"What the hell?" he said finally, his voice laced with irritation.
You swallowed hard, gripping your bag like a shield. "I... I can explain?"
"Yeah, you'd better," he snapped, crossing his arms over his chest. His eyes locked onto yours, and the intensity of his gaze made your knees feel like jelly.
"Why is everyone in this school convinced we're dating? And why," his voice dropped lower, "did I just hear someone asking if I'm good in bed?"
You winced. "Okay, so... it might've gotten a little out of hand."
He let out a bitter laugh, raising an eyebrow. "AÂ little?"
You hesitated, trying to find the right words. "Look, I was just trying to impress the cheerleaders! They don't think I'm cool enough to make the squad, so I might've... um... made up a story."
His jaw tightened. "A story? About me?"
You gave him a weak, apologetic smile. "I didn't think it would blow up like this! I thought they'd just forget about it after tryouts!"
"Oh, yeah, because rumors about me always disappear quietly," he said, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
You bit your lip, your embarrassment growing by the second. "I'm really sorry. I'll fix it. I promise."
He scoffed, shaking his head. "How exactly do you plan to fix this? Everyone already thinks we're a couple. You should've thought about that before you opened your mouth."
"I know, I know!" you said, your voice rising slightly. "But I didn't think people would actually believe me! I mean, look at you! You're, like... you, and I'm just... me."
He stared at you, one eyebrow twitching. "What does that even mean?"
"It means no one would ever think you would date someone like me!" you blurted out.
There was a brief silence, Jongseong blinked, his expression unreadable.
"Wow," he said finally, his tone flat. "That's... depressing."
You buried your face in your hands, groaning. "I'm making this worse, aren't I?"
"Yeah," he said bluntly.
You peeked at him through your fingers, your voice small. "Can you... just not kill me, though?"
He rolled his eyes, muttering something under his breath. For a moment, he looked like he was considering throwing you out the door, but instead, he leaned back against it, running a hand down his face.
"Here's what's going to happen," he said finally. "You're going to go out there, tell everyone you lied, and make sure my name is out of their mouths by the end of the day."
Your eyes widened. "I can't do that! If I tell them the truth, I'll look like a total loser! They'll never let me on the squad!"
"Not my problem," he shot back.
"Please!" you pleaded, grabbing his arm in desperation. "Just... let me ride this out a little longer. I'll figure out a way to fix it without dragging your name through the mud, I promise!"
He stared at you for a long moment. He let out a long sigh, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Do whatever you want," he said finally.
Your eyes lit up. "Really?"
"Don't make me regret this," he added,
"I'll do anything!" you said quickly, your relief overwhelming your sense of pride.
His eyes flicked back to yours, and you swore you saw a flicker of amusement in his expression. "Anything?"
You hesitated. "Uh... within reason?"
He smirked, shaking his head. "Unbelievable," he muttered, pushing off the door and opening it.
"Wait, where are you going?" you asked, panicked.
"Class," he said simply, walking out and leaving you standing there, still clutching your bag like it might protect you from the fallout.
"Oh my God, they just came out of the storage room together!" someone squealed.
Your blood froze as a wave of gasps and murmurs rippled down the hallway.
"No way! They're so freaky!"
"They couldn't even wait until after school? A quickie in the storage room?!"
"That's so wild!"
You bolted out of the storage room, your face burning so hot it was probably visible from space. "It's not what you think!" you stammered, waving your hands frantically. "Nothing happened! I swear!"
But your protests only seemed to make things worse.
"Did you see her face? She's totally guilty!"
"God, no wonder he's so obsessed with her. She's probably insane in bed."
"Wait, so does this mean she's, like, not lying about them being a couple?"
The crowd erupted into a chorus of giggles, whispers, and scandalized gasps, and you felt your soul leave your body.
At the end of the day, you got the news: you were officially part of the cheerleading pep squad.
This wasn't exactly how you pictured it, but hey, you'd finally made it. You thought practice would be all about jumps, flips, and cheers, but instead, it was questions. Endless questions.
All about your "boyfriend."
By the time practice ended, you were convinced the squad cared more about Park Jongseong than they cared about cheerleading. It was exhausting. They made him your whole personality.
Now, you stood outside the music room, foot tapping nervously as you psyched yourself up. You needed to talk to him. JongseongâJayâwalked out with his guitar slung over his back, his expression colder than a freezer. His eyes landed on you, sharp and annoyed.
"Why are you here?" he asked, as blunt as ever.
You forced an awkward smile. "Hi! Because... you're my boyfriend?"
Jay scoffed, walking past you like you didn't exist. Panicked, you scrambled to catch up, nearly tripping over your own feet.
"H-hey! Wait!" you called, gripping the edge of his jacket. "I'm Y/N! Please, for the second time, just hear me out!"
He stopped, turned, and stared at you with the kind of look that could burn holes in concrete. "What do you want now?"
You fumbled with your bag, your cheeks burning. "I just... I wanted to talk aboutâ"
"Fuck off," he snapped, making you flinch and throw your hands up like you were bracing for impact.
"I'm sorry!" you squeaked, your voice small.
Jay sighed, running a hand through his hair as he shifted his weight. For a second, his eyes softenedâbut not enough to let you relax.
"I already let you use my name. What else do you want from me?" he asked, voice low and sharp.
You bit your lip, tapping your foot nervously. You'd practiced this speech in your head a hundred times, but the words suddenly felt scrambled.
"I just... I got into the cheerleading squad, but they keep asking me questions about you, andâ"
His glare deepened. "After you spilled water on me, crashed my guitar, and hit me in the face with a volleyball, what more do you want?"
You gasped, offended. "E-excuse me?! Those were accidents!" you said, emphasizing the word with dramatic hand gestures.
"I didn't spill water on you on purpose! And I didn't crash your guitarâit fell! And your nose? Total accident!"
Jay's expression didn't budge. "Right. Keep telling yourself that."
He turned to leave, but you panicked again, grabbing his arm and walking beside him as fast as your shorter legs could go.
"Please, just help me for a little while longer!" you pleaded.
He glanced at your hand on his arm, then at you, looking like he wanted to throw himself into the nearest trash can. "You got what you wanted. Tell them we broke up or something."
You shook your head frantically. "No, no, no! I know I'm a loser for using your name, but I need to keep this up for a few more months!"
Jay's jaw tightened. "What now?"
"I just... need some information about you," you said, your voice small. "Like, your favorite color, or your hobbies, orâ"
He cut you off with a groan. "Just make something up. You're good at that."
"But it sounds fake!" you whined, stomping a little like a frustrated child.
Jay stopped walking and turned to glare at you again. "And the story about the cafĂŠ and me being good in bed doesn't sound fake?"
Your cheeks turned crimson. "I-I didn't say anything about you being good in bed!" you squeaked, waving your hands defensively. "I just said you were good at, uh, aftercare! They're the ones who assumed the rest!"
Jay stared at you, his face unreadable, but the way his lips twitched told you he was this close to laughing.
"So, you want more information about me so you can answer their next stupid questions?" he asked.
You nodded eagerly. "Yes! Exactly!"
He leaned in slightly, lowering his voice. "Like if I'm huge?"
Your brain short-circuited. "N-no!" you squealed, stepping back as your cheeks burned even hotter. "It's not like that!"
Jay smirked, adjusting the strap of his guitar as he stood up straight again. "Right," he said, his tone dripping with sarcasm. "Good luck with your cheerleading squad, girlfriend."
And with that, he totally walked away, leaving you standing there, red-faced and humiliated. But you weren't about to give up.
No way. You'd come too far and sacrificed too much pride to back down now. If groveling got you this far, then maybe going lower would get you what you needed.
So, you became... everywhere.
After his chemistry class, there you were, waiting outside the door with a bright smile and an awkward wave. "Hi! How was class? Did you learn anything interesting?"
He barely looked at you as he walked past, muttering, "I don't know, did you?"
At his band practice, you somehow sweet-talked your way in. His bandmates, thinking you were his girlfriend, welcomed you with open arms.
"Jay never told us you were so supportive," one of them said, grinning.
"Y-yeah! That's me! Super supportive!" you laughed nervously, while Jay sat in the corner, tuning his guitar, looking like he was plotting your demise.
But you stayed anyway, sitting cross-legged on the floor, watching him play with stars in your eyes. He was goodâlike, really goodâand for a second, you almost forgot how much he hated you.
After practice, you walked out with him, chatting non-stop about your cheerleading routine. "So then Karina said I should try a - "
Jay, walking ahead of you, sighed heavily. "Do you ever stop talking?"
You froze for half a second before jogging to catch up. "Not really!" you said cheerfully, ignoring the withering glare he shot you.
During break time, you plopped down beside him in the cafeteria, chatting away about your practice. You didn't even realize you were rambling until he looked at you, his expression blank.
"Do you ever run out of words?" he asked, deadpan.
You blinked. "Uh... no?"
He groaned, rubbing his temples.
It wasn't long before your cheer squad started noticing things, too.
During one break, Yunjin leaned over, lazily plucking at her nails. "Your relationship seems so... one-sided," she said casually, enough to make your stomach drop.
"Eh?" you squeaked, your chest tightening with nerves. "W-what do you mean?"
Yunjin shrugged. "We never see you guys together. And when we do, he looks like he's about murdering someone."
You forced a laugh, your hands sweaty. "W-well, he's just... had a lot of bad days lately!"
"Jay's always having bad days when he's with you?" she shot back, raising an eyebrow.
"And you two don't even kiss in public," Karina added, leaning her chin on her hand.
Your throat went dry. "Uh, well, he doesn't like PDA," you said quickly.
The two of them exchanged looks but eventually shrugged, letting it go. You let out a quiet breath of relief, only to freeze when Karina clapped her hands.
"Y/N, you said you can do back handsprings, right?"
You nodded eagerly. "Yes! Do you need me toâ"
"Great!" Karina stood, surveying the gym with a critical eye. "We need you to cover the entire formation during lifting. Can you do five in a row?"
Your eyes widened. "F-five?"
"Yeah, starting from over there." Karina gestured to the far side of the gym.
You forced a smile and walked to the starting position, nerves rattling in your chest. Everyone's eyes were on you.
You took a deep breath and started your back handsprings, nailing five in a row. When you landed, slightly dizzy, you raised your arms triumphantly.
"Hmm... it doesn't cover the right side," Karina said, tapping her chin. "Y/N, try seven this time."
Your smile faltered. "S-seven?"
They nodded.
You did as they asked, pushing through the dizziness, only to hear them call for more.
By the fourth round, you were practically collapsing mid-air. Ten was far too much, and by the end, your knees hit the floor hard, sending pain shooting up your legs.
"Oh, perfect!" Karina said, clapping her hands. "That covered the whole area. Great job, Y/N! But you need to work on your posture."
You winced, clutching your bruised knee as you shuffled to sit beside the others. The pain was sharp, and tears pricked at the corners of your eyes, but you forced a smile, trying to keep it together.
"I'm kind of craving boba tea," Karina said suddenly, standing up. "Who wants some?"
"Oh, me too!" Giselle chimed in, followed by the rest of the squad eagerly raising their hands.
"Perfect!" Karina said, pulling out a notepad. "Let's make a list."
A moment later, she shoved the list into your hands. "Here. And here's the money. You can go get it for us."
You stared at the list, dumbfounded. "Wait... me?"
"Yeah! Thanks, Y/N!" she said brightly, already turning to talk to Giselle about something else.
You blinked, standing stiffly as pain radiated from your knees. You didn't even have the energy to argue. Instead, you hobbled to the restroom first, tears spilling over as you washed your knees.
Violet bruises were already forming, and the cold water stung as it ran over the tender skin.
This wasn't what you'd imagined when you dreamed of joining the cheer squad.
You thought it would be glamorousâflipping in the air, cheering under bright lights, and finally belonging to something cool.
Instead, here you were, limping to a nearby boba shop with bruised knees and teary eyes.
Still, you told yourself it was okay. You were part of them now. You weren't just a simple girl anymoreâyou were a cheerleader. Their friend. It was normal to run errands and do things for your friends, right?
So why did it feel so awful?
As you stood in line, you checked the money Karina had handed you earlier, only to realize it was short. Way short.
You panicked for a moment, but what could you do? You had no choice but to pay for the rest out of your own pocket, all while swallowing the lump in your throat.
By the time you were walking back to school, holding a bunch of boba cups in flimsy plastic bags, you were crying. Pathetically.
Tears streaked your face, and your lips wobbled as you sniffled, trying not to let the world see how pitiful you looked.
But it wasn't their fault, you told yourself. They weren't bullying you. You were just having a sensitive day. Your knees hurt from all that back handspring practice, and the money situation had just been bad luck.
That's all.
You furiously wiped at your cheeks, determined to look normal before you made it back to the gym. But then, a voice startled you out of your thoughts.
"What happened to you?"
You nearly dropped the boba.
"Jay!" you yelped, turning to see him standing there with his guitar case slung over his back, his sharp gaze flicking from your tear-streaked face to the plastic bags in your handsâand then to your bruised, purple knees.
"Iâuhâhi!" you stammered, forcing an awkward smile.
He didn't return it. "You didn't visit the music room today."
"Oh!" you exclaimed, caught off guard. "I was busy with practice. I completely forgot! I'm sorry!"
He didn't respond, just reached over and took the plastic boba bags from your hands.
You blinked at him, muttering a quiet "thank you" as he carried them down the hallway beside you.
"What happened to you?" he asked again, his tone firmer this time.
You scratched the back of your head, feigning cluelessness. "Uh, what do you mean?"
He gave you a look, and his voice dropped. "Why were you crying? And why do you have bruises all over your knees?"
Your lips parted, but no sound came out. He was staring at you like he could see right through every lie you'd prepared.
"Uh, just... girl stuff!" you blurted, laughing awkwardly. "You know, sensitive day!"
"And your knees?" he asked flatly.
"Oh, that?" You waved a hand as if it were nothing. "They made me practice back handsprings today. I just, uh, had a bad landing. But I'm totally fine! See?" You gave him a shaky thumbs-up, forcing another smile.
Jay didn't look convinced. His gaze flickered back to your knees, then to your face.
"Why? Do you care about me?" you teased, lightly bumping his shoulder with yours.
He rolled his eyes, but you swore you saw the corner of his mouth twitch. Without a word, he gestured toward the gym door.
"You first."
You laughed nervously, pushing the door open and walking inside.
"Oh, Y/N," Karina called out from across the gym. "Coach said we're not allowed to have boba anymore since she's strict about our diet. Did you already buy it?"
Your face fell. "Yes..."
"Oh crap!" Giselle smacked her forehead. "I texted you, but I guess it didn't go through!"
"But the boba? The money?" one of the girls asked, holding out her hand expectantly.
You hesitated, your voice caught in your throat. "I already bought it," you said quietly, glancing nervously at Jay.
Before you could say anything else, he walked past you, heading toward the bleachers. Without a word, he dropped the bags of boba onto the benchâhard. The cups jostled, some of the liquid spilling over the edges.
"J-Jongseong?!" Karina stammered, her confident tone faltering as she gulped nervously.
Jay stood there, his sharp glare slicing through the room. "Are you serious right now?" he said, his voice calm but dangerous.
Karina shifted uncomfortably, swallowing a lump in her throat. "W-we didn't mean for her to actually buy themâ"
"Yeah?" he cut her off. "Because it looks like you had her running errands like your personal delivery service."
"Jay, it's not like that!" you blurted, defending them instinctively, though your voice wavered.
The room went silent. None of the girls dared to speak as Jay's gaze swept over them, so sharp.
"Is your practice over or something?" he asked, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "Because none of you look like you're doing any cheers anymore."
Giselle quickly nodded, her voice high and nervous. "W-we're on a break!"
Jay's eyes narrowed slightly, making Giselle shrink under his gaze.
Finally, he turned to you, and his expression softened just enough to make your chest feel weirdâlike relief, or maybe something you couldn't quite place.
"Come on," he said, nodding toward the door.
"H-huh?" you stammered, blinking up at him.
"Let's go," he repeated, already turning away.
Before you could argue, he noticed the way you hesitated, the way you winced with every step. His eyes flicked down to your knees, bruised and swollen, and without a word, he leaned down and effortlessly scooped you up into his arms.
"W-what are you doing?!" you gasped, your face burning red as you scrambled to hold onto him.
The squad collectively let out a series of audible gasps behind you.
"Oh my God, she's not like, totally lying," Karina whispered, her voice tinged with disbelief.
Jay didn't acknowledge them. His jaw was tight, his gaze fixed ahead as he carried you out of the gym.
"Jay, I can walk!" you protested weakly, even though your knees were very much not in walking condition.
"Yeah, you're doing a great job of that," he muttered, his tone dripping with sarcasm as he adjusted his grip on you.
You clung to him in stunned silence, trying to ignore the burning stares from the squad still watching as the door swung shut behind you.
Your heart raced, and whether it was from embarrassment or something else entirely, you didn't want to think about it.
"You're going to stop running around like this," Jay said firmly as he walked. "If they want boba, they can get it themselves."
"But I'm part of the team now," you mumbled, your voice small.
"You're not their errand girl," he shot back, his eyes flicking down to you.
You shut your mouth, letting him carry you to the clinic as the nurse tended to your bruised knees.
He leaned casually against the wall, watching the whole process like he was supervising. Every time you dared to glance his way, he raised an eyebrow, silently daring you to say something stupid. You wisely kept quiet.
The next day at practice, things hadn't gotten much better.
The girls were still bombarding you with questionsâexcept now, Jay had inadvertently raised your popularity to new heights.
"He's sweet but terrifying," one of them whispered, watching you stretch. "Maybe you should get him to smile for once. He's always glaring."
"Yeah, but it's kind of hot," another one added, fanning herself dramatically. "It's like he hates everyone except her."
You snorted at that, almost choking on your own air. If only they knew the truth. But you couldn't even laugh properly because someone tapped your shoulder, pointing toward the gym doors.
"Y/N, look!"
You turned and nearly choked on your own spit. There he wasâJayâwalking toward you.
The girls squealed, whispering loudly as they quickly backed away to give you "privacy."
Your stomach flipped as he approached, his dark eyes scanning the gym before locking on you. "What are you doing here?" you whispered, gripping the edge of the bleachers.
He ignored your question, dropping his bag and kneeling in front of you.
"How's your knee?" he asked, his tone softer this time as his eyes flicked to your legs.
"I'm fine! What are you doing here?" you repeated, feeling heat crawl up your neck as the gym filled with the sound of squeals and whispers.
He didn't answer immediately. Instead, he rummaged through his bag and pulled out something.
"I bought you knee pads," he said simply, holding them up.
Your jaw dropped. "Whatâwhy?"
He didn't answer. Instead, he gently took your leg, his hands warm as he began securing the knee pad in place.
"He's so sweet!" one of the girls whispered loudly.
You tried to ignore the growing crowd of gossipers, your face burning as you stared down at him. "You really didn't have toâ"
"Stop moving," he interrupted, his focus entirely on your knee as he adjusted the strap.
You sighed, crossing your arms. "Jay, seriously, what are you doing here?"
"I'll watch your routine," he said casually, moving to your other knee.
"What? No!" you exclaimed, flailing slightly. "What do you mean, you'll watch?"
He glanced up at you, a small, almost mischievous smile tugging at his lips. "You watch me practice at the music room. It's only fair I watch yours."
"That's different!" you sputtered, your face heating further.
"How is it different?" he asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Becauseâbecause I'm not good at this yet!" you said, flustered. "What's your deal?"
"What do you mean?" he said, his voice light with amusement. "I just want to support my girlfriend."
You froze. Your brain short-circuited. Did he justâ
"W-what did you just say?" you stammered, your voice cracking.
"Girlfriend," he repeated smoothly, standing up and slinging his bag over his shoulder. "Isn't that what you keep telling everyone I am?"
You wanted to crawl into a hole and die. The giggles and gasps around you didn't help, either.
"You can't justâ" you started, but he cut you off.
"Relax," he said, smirking as he turned to walk away. "Good luck with practice, babe. I'll be watching."
You watched him head toward the bleachers, still reeling from the fact that Park Jongseong, the untouchable cold Jay, just called you his girlfriend in front of everyone.
If you hadn't been blushing before, you were definitely on fire now.
The routine begins with a burst of synchronized cheers, the squad moving in perfect unison. You jump, spin, and dance, throwing in a split and a clean back handspring. When the lifting section comes, you step onto their hands with, you stick the landing, holding your pose as they lower you carefully.
You finish the routine without letting your bruised knees slow you down, your chest heaving as sweat drips down your temples.
The coach claps, giving feedback to the squad, but all you can think about is sitting down and catching your breath.
Unconsciously, you find yourself collapsing onto the bleachersâright next to Jay. He doesn't say anything, just pulls a water bottle and towel out of his bag, as if he'd been expecting you to need them.
"Here," he mutters, handing them over.
"Thanks," you say, too exhausted to overthink it. You take a long sip of water before draping the towel over your shoulders.
"How's the performance?" you ask him, still catching your breath.
"You're good," he replies simply.
You pause, blinking at him. "No, like... us. The cheering squad. How did we look?"
Jay shrugs, leaning back slightly on the bleachers, his gaze fixed ahead. "I don't know," he says, his tone casual. "I only had my eyes on you."
The water bottle in your hand almost slips from your grasp.
"W-what?" you stammer, turning to look at him.
He doesn't meet your gaze, his expression cool and indifferent, but there's a small twitch at the corner of his lips. "You heard me," he says, his voice even.
Your face heats up, and you're not sure if it's from the workout or his words. Before you can respond, one of your squadmates calls your name, pulling you back to reality.
"Iâuh, thanks," you mumble, scrambling to stand.
"Don't fall," Jay says, glancing at your knees briefly before leaning back and pulling out his phone, as if he hadn't just dropped a bomb on you.
Your heart races as you jog back to the squad, Jay's words replaying in your mind. "I only had my eyes on you."
What was that supposed to mean?
Over the following weeks, something shifted. Jay did seem to like youâno, that would be too strongâbut he definitely didn't hate you anymore. If anything, it felt like he had resigned himself to your presence.
Your schedules matched perfectly: you'd stop by the music room before your cheer practice, watching him play with quiet awe. After his practice ended, you'd walk together to the gym, where he'd drop you off with a gruff nod.
And during those walks, you talked. AÂ lot.
Jay didn't interrupt or roll his eyes at your endless stream of words, but he didn't say much either. He'd let you ramble about random thingsâyour favorite stories, songs, foods, or some obscure fact you'd read online.
One day, while rifling through your bag in frustration, you whined, "Crap, I always forget to bring an extra shirt!"
Jay didn't respond, just kept walking. You assumed he wasn't even listening.
But the next day, when you showed up for your routine walk to the gym, he handed you a neatly folded shirt.
"Here," he said, his tone flat, as though it wasn't a big deal.
You blinked, staring at it. "Wait, is this for me?"
"No, it's for the bench," he replied dryly. Then, seeing your expression, added, "You said you forget yours. Just take it."
Your heart skipped as you took the shirt, muttering a soft "thank you."
On another day, after practice, you grinned at him. "I really want a spicy ramenâlike, with crab sticks and shrimp! Let's go get some!"
He raised an eyebrow. "That's a one-way ticket to high blood pressure," he deadpanned.
You pouted, whining dramatically. "Come on, Jay!"
Yet not long after, you found yourselves seated at a small ramen shop. You happily slurped your noodles, your feet swinging slightly under the table. Jay glanced down at your feet before looking up at you, finding you smiling as you focused on your bowl.
"What?" you asked, catching his gaze.
"Nothing," he muttered, shaking his head as he went back to his own noodles.
Spending time with Jay made you lose your guard in the best way.
You weren't as self-conscious anymore, and little things just felt... natural. Like the time you were walking together, mid-laugh, and he suddenly pulled your arm to stop you.
"Look both ways," he mumbled, his hand lingering on your arm as you gripped it instinctively.
You giggled, wrapping your hand around his. "Okay, Dad."
He didn't respond, but his lips twitched ever so slightly.
Another habit of his? Waiting for you after practice, leaning against his motorcycle with his usual nonchalant expression. He'd nod for you to hop on, offering you his spare helmet.
It felt normal nowâholding onto him as he drove, the wind whipping around you as the city lights blurred by.
Sometimes, Jay and you didn't even talk. Like when you'd share a cup of ice cream on a bench after practice, the two of you just staring at nothing. He'd sit beside you, watching as you bit down on your spoon absentmindedly.
"You look dumb," he'd say eventually, breaking the silence.
You'd laugh and stick your tongue out at him. "Thanks, Jay. Love the confidence boost."
Jay's attention to small things surprised you most when it came to your ketchup obsession.
It started when you were both sitting at your usual fast-food jointâa chain with a bright red logo and the smell of fries and fried chicken wafting through the air.
You'd always order the same thing: chicken nuggets and fries. But what made you stand out (to Jay, at least) was how you hoarded ketchup packets.
You never even used them at the restaurant. Instead, you'd stuff them into your bag, mumbling something about "saving them for later." Jay didn't ask at first, but the mystery was solved when he saw you in their practice one day, pulling out one of those packets.
You ripped it open quietly, then tipped the packet to your mouth and slurped the ketchup straight out of it.
A week later, during a break, Jay casually handed you a small stack of ketchup packets.
"Where did you get these?" you squealed, your eyes sparkling as you grabbed them from his hand.
"My bandmates ordered fries," he said with a shrug. "They don't like ketchup, so I took them."
You stared at him, your heart doing an annoying little flip. "Jay, you get me," you said dramatically, clutching the packets to your chest like they were a bouquet of roses.
"Don't make this weird," he muttered, already turning away.
You ripped one open immediately, slurping the sweet and tangy ketchup with a grin. "Thanks, Jay!"
He rolled his eyes, but the corner of his mouth twitched againâhis almost-smile.
Then there was the time in the cafeteria when he handed you a tissue.
You stared at him, confused. "What's this for?"
"Your lip gloss," he said simply, his tone so casual it made your brain short-circuit.
You blinked, dumbfounded, as heat rose to your cheeks. How did he even notice that you always wiped off your lip gloss before eating?
You muttered a shy "thanks," taking the tissue as your heart thumped in your chest.
And then there were even smaller things.
Like how he bent down to tie your shoelaces without a word when they came undone during your walk.
Or how he fixed your hair once, brushing a stray strand behind your ear with a quick, almost annoyed motion.
Or how he straightened your uniform when it got wrinkled after a particularly rough practice, muttering something about how you looked like "a mess."
They weren't grand gestures. Jay wasn't the type for big declarations or sweeping acts of romance. But it was always the small things that left you breathlessâthe way he noticed you, the way he cared without saying much.
And maybe, just maybe, the cold, untouchable guitarist didn't hate you as much as he let on.
"That's Park Jongseong's girlfriend!"
"Park Jongseong's girl is so pretty!"
"I didn't know Park Jongseong's girlfriend is so good at dancing!"
But honestly? You weren't sure how to feel about it anymore.
People didn't want to know you. They wanted to know him. Even when someone started a conversation with you, it always led back to Jay.
"How did you two meet?"
"What does he do when he's bored?"
"Does he even smile around you?"
You started noticing how Jay wasn't immune, either. People would corner him in the halls, asking invasive questions about your "relationship," and he'd glare at them in that trademark way of his until they got the hint and left. He never complained, never said anything about it to you, but you could see it in the way his jaw clenched tighter these days.
You weren't cool. You weren't special.
You were just someone who had made a stupid, selfish decision to drag his name into your mess. And now? You weren't sure if you could keep it up any longer.
It was a quiet afternoon in the music room. Jay sat across from you, strumming his guitar in the golden light of sunset. Normally, this was when you'd ramble on about whatever random topic popped into your head, but today, the words felt too heavy to come out.
Instead, you pulled your knees to your chest, hugging them as you stared at the floor.
"I'm sorry if I always bother you," you said suddenly, your voice barely audible.
Jay's fingers stilled on the strings, his head tilting slightly as he glanced at you.
"I... I really don't have any friends," you admitted, resting your chin on your knees. "I think I'm too crazy for the good girls in my class, too dumb for the nerds, and way too soft for the mean girls."
He didn't say anything, but you felt his eyes on you.
"But, you know," you continued, your voice shaky, "you're the first person who's ever... tolerated me. And I really appreciate that."
You laughed weakly, even though it wasn't funny. "Thank you, Park Jongseong, for listening to me go on and on about dystopian movies. For putting up with me when I get loud and excited. For not judging my weird ketchup obsession."
Jay leaned back slightly, his expression unreadable, as you let out a long sigh.
"I thought dragging your name into the cheer squad thing would make me feel like I belonged somewhere," you said, your voice breaking. "But it hasn't. If anything, it's just made me feel worse. Like I'm not enough for them. Like I'll never be enough."
Your chest tightened as you fiddled with the hem of your shirt, unable to meet his gaze. "And... I feel like I've dumped all these responsibilities on you because of one stupid little lie I told. It's not fair to you."
Jay stayed silent, but you could feel his presence, heavy and quiet.
You swallowed hard, forcing the words out. "I think... I think it's time we break up."
Jay's hands froze on the guitar, his entire body going still. His gaze sharpened.
"Break up?" he repeated, his tone even but taut, like he was holding something back.
You nodded, your throat closing up. "Yeah. I've caused you enough trouble already. I think... I think it's better if we just end it. It'll be easier for you."
Jay's jaw tightened, his fingers gripping the edge of the guitar as he stared at you. "Is that what you want?" he asked, his tone calm but laced with something you couldn't place.
Your chest felt like it was caving in. You couldn't look at him, couldn't bring yourself to say what you really wanted to say. So instead, you nodded.
"Yes," you whispered, barely audible.
The silence that followed was unbearable. You expected him to agree, to maybe sigh in relief or tell you that you were right. But instead, he just stared at you, his gaze unreadable.
Finally, he exhaled through his nose, his voice low. "Alright."
Your heart sank at the word, even though it was what you'd asked for. You forced yourself to stand, forcing a shaky "thank you" past your lips as you made your way toward the door.
But just as you reached it, his voice stopped you in your tracks.
"But you should know," he said, "that if you think you're not enough, you're wrong."
You froze, your breath hitching. Slowly, you turned to face him.
He wasn't looking at you anymore. His gaze was fixed on his guitar, his fingers idly plucking at the strings, but there was a softness in his voice that you weren't used to.
"You don't have to try so hard to fit into their world," he said quietly. "You already stand out. You don't see it, but you do."
Your throat tightened as tears pricked at your eyes. "Jay..."
He looked up at you then, his dark eyes piercing but calm. "If you want to end it, I'll let you go," he said, his voice steady. "But don't do it because you think you're causing me trouble. That's just you overthinking, as usual."
The ache in your chest grew unbearable, and for a moment, you thought about staying.Â
But the weight of your emotions felt too heavy, and you bolted, muttering a weak "thanks" as you ran out of the room, tears already spilling down your cheeks.
You didn't look back, but as you closed the door behind you, you swore you heard the faint sound of his guitar stringsâsoft, steady, and full of something you didn't quite understand.
By the time you reached the bathroom, you were a mess.
You locked yourself in a stall and let it all out, tears streaming down your cheeks as you triedâand failedâto convince yourself this was what you wanted.
"It's not even real," you muttered, your voice cracking. "We're not a thing. We were never a thing. Why am I crying like an idiot?"
But no amount of reasoning stopped the ugly sobs from wracking your chest. You clutched some toilet paper, blowing your nose dramatically and telling yourself to get it together.
When you showed up to practice later, your eyes were swollen and red, your nose a little too pink to hide what had happened.
"Y/N, are you okay?" Karina asked, looking concerned.
You forced a shaky smile. "I'm fine! Totally fine! Oh, by the way..." You paused, sniffling slightly. "Jay and I broke up."
The words felt like ripping off a Band-Aid, but you didn't have time to process them before the room erupted.
"What?!" Giselle gasped, clutching her water bottle.
"No way!" Yunjin exclaimed, already pulling out her phone.
Within hours, the news spread across the school faster than you thought possible. Everywhere you went, you could hear whispers and murmurs about the "breakup."
And Park Jongseong?
He was still Park Jongseong.
You spotted him in the hallway, his face set in stone, his jaw tight, his eyes sharp as ever.
He walked like he was on his way to commit murder, every step filled with tension. People gave him a wide berth, whispering things like, "He's even scarier than usual," and, "God, she must've really broken his heart."
But when your eyes met his for a split second, he looked away, his expression you can't read.
Your chest ached painfully every time you passed him. And when you were finally alone at night, you curled up in bed and cried yourself to sleep, the pain in your chest refusing to fade.
By the time your classmates dragged you to karaoke, you were on emotional autopilot. You didn't want to be there, but they'd insisted.
"It'll help you get over him!" Sunoo had said, practically shoving you into the room.
It wasn't helping. At all.
Sunoo grabbed the mic, singing passionately as the lyrics flashed across the screen. "That's why I don't understand... why I'm feeling so bad now, when I know it was my idea."
You froze, staring at the lyrics like they'd personally attacked you. Your lips twitched, but you refused to let the tears fall.
Ni-ki leaned forward, grabbing the mic dramatically. "I could've just denied the truth and lied... why am I the only one, standing, stranded on the same ground?!"
You let out a choked laugh, trying to brush off your growing emotions, but then Sunoo turned to you with wide, knowing eyes. "Oh my God, what happened to you?!"
"Shut up," you muttered, pulling your cardigan over your face to hide the tears forming in your eyes.
The room erupted as Ni-ki wrestled the mic away from Sunoo. "My love, it's been a long time since I cried and left you out of the blue." Ni-ki sang into the microphone.
You couldn't help itâthe tears started spilling as you wiped them furiously with your sleeve, hoping no one would notice.
"It's hard leaving you that way... when I never wanted to!"
Your classmates were belting out the lyrics, screaming into the mic with way too much passion. And somehow, the chaos made it worse.
"Self-denial is a game!" Ni-ki shouted, practically falling to his knees. "It's strange, I never would've wanted it until there was you!"
You sniffled, wiping your cheeks again, but the tears wouldn't stop.
"Y/N, are you crying?!" Sunoo gasped dramatically, leaning closer, his voice high-pitched enough to rival a whistle.
"No!" you wailed, burying your face deeper into your cardigan. "It's justâthe lyrics are so stupid!"
Jungwon, ever the responsible one, grabbed the remote and immediately switched the song. "Okay, we need a vibe shift. No more heartbreak songs."
The opening beat of Apple Bottom Jeans blasted through the room, and everyone burst into cheers and laughter.
You couldn't help but laugh, sniffing back the last of your tears as Ni-ki grabbed the mic and jumped onto the couch.
You felt a little lighter. Sure, your heart was still aching, but at least now, you now had friends who made it a little easier to breathe.
The next day, you were required to attend the university baseball game. Every student was, but as part of the cheerleading pep squad, you had absolutely no excuse to skip.
The stadium was packed with thousands of students from your university and the rival school, the energy buzzing in the air. You tugged at the hem of your uniform skirt, your face burning with embarrassment. "Is it really this short?!" you whined, glaring at Giselle.
She shushed you with a wave of her pom-poms. "Relax. It's normal!"
"You don't have to be awkward about it," Karina added, flipping her hair. "Your legs look great!"
Your coach, however, was far less delicate. "We're making it look longer because your legs are short," she said bluntly, not even looking up from her clipboard.
You gasped, utterly dumbfounded. "Iâshould I be offended, or...?"
The coach just shrugged, moving on with her notes.
Before the game officially began, your squad performed a short routine to hype up the crowd. The music blared through the speakers as you stepped forward, executing a clean front handspring. The crowd roared with approval, but your face burned as your skirt rode up mid-flip.
When the routine ended, you cringed, tugging your skirt back down as you returned to your seat at the front. You waved your pom-poms enthusiastically, shouting the university yell every time your team scored, even if you were still mortified from earlier.
When the game finally ended and the crowd began to thin out, you found yourself standing near the bleachers, clutching your pom-poms and phone. The cheer squad was preparing to take pictures, but you hung back for a moment, trying to catch your breath.
That's when someone approached you.
"Hi," a voice said, warm and slightly out of breath.
You turned to see a guy standing in front of you, wearing his baseball uniform. His dark hair was damp with sweat, his cheeks flushed from the game, and his smile was boyish and shy.
"I'm Heeseung," he introduced himself, rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. "I just wanted to say your routine was really cool. And, uh... I was wondering if I could get your number?"
You blinked, your brain stalling. Wait, what?
You opened your mouth to respond, but before you could say anything, a loud voice called out from across the field.
"Y/N! Hurry up!" Sunoo waved his arms dramatically, yelling over the crowd. "We're taking pictures!"
Your face turned even redder as you looked between Heeseung and Sunoo. Panicking, you muttered a quick, "Sorry, I've gotta go!" before rushing off toward your squad, clutching your pom-poms.
By the time you reached your squad, you were out of breath and flustered, feeling like the world's biggest idiot.
You grabbed your bag, rummaging through it in search of a shirt to change into. The crowd had mostly cleared out, and the stadium lights were dimming, but you were too busy muttering to yourself to notice.
Of course, you didn't have a spare shirt. Why would you?
You sighed heavily, dropping your pom-poms into the bag and staring at the empty space inside. Without thinking, you mumbled, "I miss Jay."
The words hung in the air, surprising even you. You froze for a second, realizing what you'd just said out loud.
It had been months since you'd ended thingsâor whatever it was you'd hadâwith Jay. And somehow, instead of feeling lighter, you felt worse.
The more you saw him in passing, the more you missed him. The more you craved him. The ache in your chest refused to fade, no matter how much time passed.
Sometimes, you still cried yourself to sleep, clutching your pillow as memories of him flooded your mind.
You hated how much you missed him.
And then there were moments when your body moved on its own, as if drawn to him.
You'd find yourself standing outside the music room, staring at the door like you were waiting for somethingâor someoneâto pull you inside.
But you never went in. You just stood there, your heart heavy, before walking away again.
Or you'd sit at your favorite bench, the one where you used to share ice cream with him after practice. You'd sit there alone, biting the spoon absentmindedly and staring at nothing, replaying old conversations in your head.
It was during one of those quiet moments, as you sat with a half-melted scoop of vanilla in your hand, that the truth finally hit you.
You liked Jay.
No, you more than liked him. You missed him so much it hurt. And the worst part? You had no idea if he missed you, too.
You bit down harder on your spoon, frustration bubbling in your chest.
Why had you been so stupid? Why had you pushed him away when, deep down, he'd been the only one who ever made you feel seen?
Maybe you were too late. Maybe you'd ruined whatever connection you had with him.
But one thought kept circling in your mind, no matter how much you tried to shake it off.
What if you weren't too late?
"Do you party?" Sunoo asked casually, flopping onto your bed like it was his own.
You raised an eyebrow, not bothering to hide your skepticism. "Not really. I mean, I've been to a few, but it's not my thing. Why?"
"Let's go to a party this weekend! You know Sunghoon, right? The baseball player? He's hosting!"
You laughed, waving him off. "I'll think about it, but probably not."
Sunoo narrowed his eyes suspiciously, but you brushed him off, fully intending to stay home.
But when the weekend came, your plans to stay curled up in bed went out the window.
Sunoo, Jungwon, and Ni-ki just barged into your house.
"Why aren't you dressed?!" Sunoo exclaimed, throwing open your closet as Jungwon inspected your makeup drawer.
"What are you doing?!" you shrieked, clutching a pillow like it was a weapon.
"You are going to this party," Ni-ki said, arms crossed like he was your older brother instead of one year younger. "Get ready. Now."
With no way out, you reluctantly threw on a simple crop top and shorts, tying your hair into a ponytail and doing clean, light makeup.
When you arrived at the party, the atmosphere immediately overwhelmed you. The music was loud enough to shake the walls, the smell of sweat, alcohol, and something smoky lingering in the air.
You stuck close to Sunoo as he handed you a red cup with some drink you didn't recognize.
"Just take a sip!" he shouted over the music.
"Excuse me for a second," you said, escaping to the balcony.
The moment you stepped outside, you exhaled deeply, the fresh air calming your nerves. The cool night breeze felt like a blessing after the suffocating heat inside.
But then, you stiffened.
Sitting in one of the chairs was someone you hadn't expected to seeâsomeone you hadn't seen up close in months.
Jay.
He sat with one foot tapping rhythmically against the ground, a vape in his hand. The dim light from the balcony highlighted his sharp jawline, his pointed nose, and the effortless way his hair slicked back. He wore a simple white shirt under a blue Nike jacket, but somehow, he looked stunning.
Your chest tightened painfully as his head turned, his dark eyes meeting yours.
"Oh," you said awkwardly, frozen in place.
He stared at you for a moment, then leaned back in his chair, taking a long drag from his vape.
Without knowing why, you found yourself walking over to him and sitting quietly beside him, your gaze fixed on the stars above.
"I didn't know you actually smoked," you said softly, breaking the silence.
He hummed, his head tilting slightly as he exhaled the smoke in the opposite direction, making a point to avoid letting any of it near you.
"I don't. Not usually. I don't smoke at school."
He shifted in his seat, sliding the vape into his pocket and straightening his posture.
"Why'd you stop just now?" you asked, glancing at him.
He didn't hesitate. "Your nose is sensitive to strong smells."
Your breath caught, his simple answer hitting you harder than you expected. That was Jayâalways quiet, always watching, always knowing without making a big deal of it.
The ache in your chest grew unbearable.
"I'm sorry," the words came out from your mouth.
Jay's gaze snapped to yours, his expression neutral.
"For what?" he asked evenly.
"For just leaving," you said, your voice shaky. "For everything you've done for me, and then me just... walking away. I didn't know what I was feeling back then. I was hurt and scared because... you're you, and I'm just me. I'm not good enough for youâ"
Jay didn't respond immediately. His gaze softened, though his expression remained guarded. "And what are you feeling now?"
You hesitated, your heart pounding in your chest.
"I... I miss you, Jay," you admitted, your voice barely above a whisper. "I miss everything about you. The small things, the way you cared, even if you acted like you didn't. I'm sorry for leaving you. I'm sorry for being stupid."
Jay looked at you for a long moment, his dark eyes searching yours.
"You're really stupid, aren't you?" he said, his voice calm but laced with a faint humor that made your heart ache.
You managed a weak laugh, wiping at the corner of your eye. "Yeah, I am."
Jay exhaled slowly, his lips curving into the faintest hint of a smile.
"I thought you'd like me and never break it off because that's what happens in those books you always talk about, right?" he said, his voice softening. "But somehow, I fell harder than I ever expected."
Your breath hitched as he let out a quiet laughâso rare, so warm, it made your chest ache. He finally looked at you, his eyes glinting with something vulnerable.
"I've always waited for you," he admitted, his voice low. "Waited for you to stop standing outside the music room and just walk in. But you never did."
Your eyes widened, surprise flickering across your face.
"I saw you," he continued. "Every time you sat on that bench, on our place... I saw you at a distance, sitting there, staring at nothing. And I waited. I always waited for your eyes to look at me the way I was looking at you."
Tears began to swell in your eyes as you took in his words.
Jay leaned closer, his movements gentle.
"I'm sorry," he said softly. "For being such a coward. For not walking up to you when I wanted to. I told myself I'd wait, but waiting just hurt more because all I could do was think about you. About us."
He reached out hesitantly, brushing his fingers against your cheek, his hand warm and grounding. "I'm hurting. I've been hurting since you left. Do you feel the same way?"
The tears spilled over, warm and slow, streaking down your cheeks. You placed your hand over his, leaning into his touch as you nodded. "I do, Jay. I've been hurting, too."
He watched you closely, his eyes softening as you smiled at him through your tears.
"You're crying," he murmured, brushing a stray tear away with his thumb.
"Yeah, well, that's your fault," you whispered, laughing through the tears.
Jay shook his head, his lips tugging into the faintest smile. "You're impossible," he muttered, his voice affectionate.
"And you're annoying," you shot back, your voice trembling with emotion.
But neither of you moved away.
The balcony felt smaller, quieter, as Jay's hand lingered on your cheek. His gaze flickered to your lips for a brief second, and your heart jumped, but he didn't move, waiting instead for you to close the gap.
So you did.
You leaned forward, pressing your lips softly to his, your heart pounding so loud you were sure he could hear it. His lips were warm and hesitant at first, but then he shifted, tilting his head slightly as he kissed you back.
His hand slid into your hair, his fingers brushing lightly against your scalp as he pulled you closer. The kiss deepened, your lips moving in perfect sync.
When you pulled back just slightly to catch your breath, his forehead rested against yours, and his lips hovered mere inches away.
His voice was low, and soft as he whispered against your lips, "Don't ever think of yourself like that. You're more than enough."
His words struck you deep, and your eyes fluttered open to meet his. "But... you're you, and I'm just me," you murmured, your voice barely audible.
Jay didn't let you finish. His lips captured yours again, silencing your insecurities. When he pulled back, he looked at you with a gaze so intense it made your breath hitch.
"I like you for being you," he said simply.
You swallowed hard, your chest tightening with emotion. "But you're like a big star," you said, holding up your fingers to make the shape of a small star, "and I'm just... a little star."
Jay's lips curved into the softest smile before he leaned forward again, kissing you gently.
His voice was tender when he murmured against your lips, "A little star that shines brightest in my eyes."
Your cheeks burned, and you couldn't help but let out a flustered laugh, lightly hitting his chest. "How come you always know how to get my heart?!"
Jay chuckled, kissing your forehead as he hugs you.
Jay just wanted to play guitar. That was all. He didn't ask for the reputation, the attention, or the corny nickname the school had slapped on himâthe "cold, untouchable hot guitarist." God, how he hated that.
Every day felt the same: girls cornering him in the halls, asking for his number or accidentally brushing their hands against his arms or guitar case. His eyes would glare like knives as he gritted out, "Don't touch me."
He hated itâthe fake admiration, the empty attention. Everyone seemed to care about him for all the wrong reasons. And when they annoyed him too much?
"Fuck off," he'd mutter, his tone so cold it practically froze people in their tracks.
But you? You were different.
Jay remembered the school festival three years ago. He'd been sitting in Jake's booth, tuning his guitar lazily while Jake served spicy noodles to an occasional brave (or dumb) soul willing to risk their stomach for the thrill.
It was supposed to be a chill afternoon, but then you showed up.
You were the only person who kept coming back to Jake's booth. Every hour.
"I swear, you're going to burn a hole in your stomach," Jake had told you, half-laughing as he handed you yet another bowl of his stupidly spicy noodles.
"Totally worth it," you'd chirped, your voice high-pitched and cheerful. "Do you have a permanent shop? I'd eat there every day!"
Jay had glanced up from his guitar, staring at you through the slits of the tent. You were completely oblivious to his presence, happily slurping noodles as Jake made small talk with you.
Later, Jake stormed into the tent, tossing his apron onto the chair. "We're sold out," he'd announced. "And it's her fault."
Jay had raised an eyebrow. "Her?"
Jake pointed outside. "The spicy noodle girl. She's been coming back all day. We sold out because of her."
Jay hadn't said anything, but his lips had twitched, the smallest hint of a smile forming before he went back to tuning his guitar.
Jay hated everyone. He hated how they tugged at him, how they fawned over him for no reason. But somehow, he couldn't bring himself to hate you.
He remembered the little thingsâmoments that no one else seemed to notice.
Like the time you walked down the hallway with that cute little bag, the kind of bag that didn't really suit a high schooler but looked perfect on you.
It had a figurine hanging from it, neatly wrapped in a plastic pouch, and you carried it like it was your most prized possession.
Then, just days later, he'd found you outside the lost and found office, whining and crying. You'd lost the figurine, and you'd spent an entire lunch period pacing back and forth in front of the office, waiting for someone to turn it in.
Or the time he saw you clapping and cheering during a cheerleading pep squad performance, smiling so brightly that it felt contagious. You weren't even part of the squad back then, just a spectator, but you looked so genuinely happy that even he couldn't look away.
Then there was your PathFit (PE) class. Jay hadn't meant to stop by, but he'd found himself standing near the open door, his guitar case slung over his shoulder, as his eyes drifted toward you. You were on the floor, legs stretched into a perfect split, your forehead pressed to the ground as you stretched.
Jay once again noticed you searching frantically for a notebook you'd dropped in the hallway. You were crouched on the floor, mumbling to yourself, "This is why I can't have nice things."
He'd spotted the notebook a few feet away, picked it up, and placed it on the bench beside him.
When you found it moments later, you gasped, "Oh my God, it's a miracle!"
You always said you were just a simple girl. That no one really noticed you or cared about someone like you.
But in Jay's eyes, you were the opposite of invisible.
And every time he thought about you, he realized the same thing.
You stood out more than anyone else ever could.
When you'd spilled water all over his face.
His first reaction wasn't anger or annoyance, but something that surprised even himâhe noticed how beautiful you looked up close.
Your wide eyes stared at him in shock, your pouty lips forming a small gasp as you muttered incoherent apologies. The faint, sweet floral scent of your perfume hit him, and for a second, he forgot the cold water dripping down his face.
Jay closed his eyes, his jaw clenching as he tried to take in more of that intoxicating scent, grounding himself. But before he could say anything, you bolted, muttering a quick "Sorry!" as you sprinted down the hallway.
He almost laughed when you tripped on your knees, scrambling awkwardly to escape. He stood there for a moment, wiping the water off his face with his sleeve.
The second interaction was you crashing out his guitar. He almost didn't notice his guitar on the floor because his eyes were locked on you.
Slowly, you raised two fingers in a peace sign, your expression a mix of guilt and panic.
"Uh... sorry?" you muttered before immediately backing out of the room.
Jay stood there, staring at the empty doorway, blinking in disbelief. He opened his mouth to say something, maybe even laugh, but the sound never left his throat. You were gone before he could even start a conversation.
And then there was the volleyball incident.
Jay didn't even see the ball coming. One second he was walking into the gym with his friends, and the next, a sharp pain hit him square on the nose.
"Shit," he hissed, dropping to the ground and clutching his face.
When he opened his eyes, you were hovering over him, your face inches from his. Your hair framed your face like a curtain, and there it was againâthat scent. Sweet, light, floral.
He blinked up at you, stunned into silence. For a split second, he forgot about the pain, about the blood dripping from his nose. He was too focused on youâyour soft features, your panicked expression, the way your lips trembled as you tried to form words.
Before he could open his mouth to tell you he was fine, the blood started pouring out of his nose.
"Crap!" you yelped, standing up quickly, flailing in panic. "IâI'll get help! I'm so sorry!"
And then you ran. Again.
Jay lay there, groaning as Jake handed him a tissue, snickering the entire time.
"Shut up," Jay muttered, even though Jake don't even say anything.
The breaking point came when Jay heard about the rumor that he was in a relationship.
He was furious. Annoyed didn't even begin to describe it. He hated how his name was constantly dragged into things, but this? A fake relationship? With some girl he didn't even know?
Storming through the hallways, he cornered one of the guys he'd overheard spreading the rumor. Grabbing the boy by the collar, he slammed him against the lockers.
"Tell me who started it," Jay demanded, his voice low and sharp. His jaw was clenched, his dark eyes boring into the boy's.
"I-I don't know! I swear!" the boy stammered, flinching under Jay's glare. "They said it was some girlâY/N! Y/N told the cheerleaders about it!"
At the mention of your name, Jay froze. His grip loosened slightly.
For a moment, he couldn't believe it. Of all people, it was you.
Releasing the boy with a shove, Jay stepped back, his emotions in a whirlwind. He should've been angrierâshould've been ready to confront you and demand answers. But instead, he found himself... curious.
He should've been irritated. He should've hated you for dragging his name into a mess.
But somehow, he didn't.
Instead, he felt something he couldn't quite place. And he wasn't sure what annoyed him moreâthe rumor itself or the fact that the thought of being tied to you didn't bother him as much as it should have.
âOh my God, are you seeing what Iâm seeing?â
âDid they just come back together?!â
Whispers followed the two of you as you walked hand in hand down the hallway.Â
Jayâs tall frame dressed in his usual all-black outfit. His guitar case was slung over his back, the strap resting effortlessly against his shoulder, and his hand held yours with an ease that made your heart race.
Every head turned to look at you. It wasnât just the sight of Jayâcold, untouchable, and intimidatingâbut the sight of him with you, a cheerful and bubbly cheerleader.
You leaned closer to him, lowering your voice as you whispered, âDo you think a guitarist and a cheerleader is a weird combination?â
Jay glanced down at you, one eyebrow raised, his expression softening. âNo,â he said without hesitation, his voice steady. âYou and me? Weâre a perfect combination.â
You let out a laugh, lightly bumping your shoulder against his arm. âGod, youâre so cheesy.â
He smirked faintly but didnât respond, the corners of his lips tugging upward in amusement.
Park Jongseong as a fake boyfriend was good.
But Park Jongseong as a real boyfriend? He was so much better.
You used to think of him as just the guy with the sharp jawline, the deadpan expression, and those sharp, eagle-like eyes that seemed to shoot lasers at anyone who got too close. He was the âfuck offâ and âshut upâ guy, the untouchable guitarist who kept everyone at armâs length.
But now, as you walked hand in hand with him, you realized how wrong youâd been.
Jay wasnât just sweetâhe was unbelievably sweet.
You remembered all the little lies youâd told about him when you were trying to fit in with the cheer squad.
âHeâs so sweet,â youâd said back then, fabricating stories about how heâd treat you like a princess.
But now? Those stories felt laughable because the reality of being with Jay was so much better.
When you were tired, heâd carry your bag without a word.
âLet me take it,â heâd say simply, slipping the strap off your shoulder.
He opened doors for youâevery single time. If you walked through a doorway together, you didnât even have to reach for the handle because Jay would already be holding it open, waiting patiently for you to step through.
Once, when you were getting into a car, youâd bumped your head against the roof. From that moment on, Jay always, always put a hand over your head to make sure it didnât happen again.
âCareful,â heâd murmur, voice low but gentle.
Youâd joked about him cooking for you once, completely unaware of how true it would become.
One evening, after a particularly long practice, Jay had brought you to his house. âYouâre tired,â heâd said. âLet me make you something.â
You hadnât expected muchâmaybe instant ramen or a sandwich at most. But then youâd watched, wide-eyed, as he moved around the kitchen with surprising ease, chopping vegetables, seasoning meat, and sautĂŠing everything.
âDo you cook often?â youâd asked, leaning against the counter as the delicious aroma filled the room.
âSometimes,â he replied, glancing at you briefly. âJake says my food is too good for him, though.â
You laughed, resting your chin on your hand as you watched him. Jay, the sharp-tongued guitarist, was making you a home-cooked meal. And it wasnât just goodâit was amazing.Â
Then there were the kisses.
Youâd made up a story once, saying, âHe kisses me goodbye every morning.â You thought it was the perfect romantic lie to impress the cheerleaders.
But now? Jay had made it a reality.
Every morning before he left for his own class, heâd touch your cheek lightly, his fingers brushing against your skin.
Then, heâd lean in, his lips meeting yours in the gentlest, softest kiss.
âSee you later,â heâd say, before turning and walking away.
Each time, your heart would flutter uncontrollably, your fingers brushing against your lips as you watched him go.Â
"Aftercare after sex"
Except now, the real thing had turned out to be even better.
âJay!â you whined, your hand gripping his hair as your hips moved uncontrollably against his mouth.
His tongue worked magic against your clit, circling and sucking gently while his long fingers moved inside you. His fingers curled just right, hitting your sweet spot effortlessly, and you gasped, your jaw going slack from the overwhelming sensation.
Your stomach tightened as the heat pooled low in your belly, and you felt yourself getting closer with each passing second.
Jay let out a low hum, the vibrations sending shockwaves through your body. His free hand moved up to intertwine with yours, grounding you even as you felt like you might fall apart.
âFeel so good,â you sobbed, your eyebrows furrowing together in pleasure. âDonât want to stop.â
Jay pulled back just slightly, his lips glistening as he murmured, âAre you close, baby?â
You nodded frantically, your breathing erratic.
He leaned up, capturing your lips in a deep kiss. You tasted yourself on him, your tongue meeting his as the kiss grew messy and desperate. His fingers didnât slow for a second, pumping relentlessly inside you as you gasped against his mouth.
When you broke the kiss, your eyes were teary, your chest heaving. Jay looked at you like you were the most beautiful thing heâd ever seen, his own breathing labored as he took in your flushed cheeks and swollen lips.
âFuck,â he muttered, biting his lip as he moved back down between your legs. Without hesitation, he latched onto your clit again, sucking hard.
Your body jolted, your hands clutching at the sheets as you screamed his name. âGonna cum, gonna cum, gonna cumââ
Jay hummed in approval, his tongue working in perfect sync with his fingers, coaxing you to the edge. His free hand squeezed yours gently, the small gesture making your heart flutter even as your hips bucked uncontrollably against his face.
âI love you,â you gasped, your voice breaking. âI love you, I love youââ
Your back arched as the tension inside you snapped, and your vision blurred with stars. You cried out, your body shaking as you came, the overwhelming pleasure leaving you breathless.
Jay stayed with you through it all, his tongue and fingers slowing to help you ride out the waves. When you finally slumped back against the bed, exhausted and trembling, he moved up beside you, brushing the hair from your face.
He kissed you softly, murmuring sweet nothings against your lips as he fixed your shirt and wiped you down with gentle care.
âYouâre okay,â he whispered, soothing. âYou did so good.â
Jay was definitely good at aftercare.
âIs it true that Park Jongseong is⌠like, huge in bed?â
You flushed instantly, your thoughts flashing to the one time youâd seen him fully exposed, when heâd let you take him in your hand.
Yeah, he was definitely huge.
"Did he really let you touch his guitar?"
You stared down at the sleek Stratocaster electric guitar now resting gently in your lap. Jay handed you a white marker, his eyes soft as he watched your expression shift from confusion to awe.
Your fingers lightly brushed over the strings and the smooth, glossy surface of the guitarâs body. âWhatâs this for?â you asked, holding up the white marker he had placed in your hand.
âI need you to sign your name on my guitar,â he said casually.
Your eyes widened as you looked between the guitar and Jay, who was now sitting beside you. âW-wait,â you stammered, your voice rising slightly. âAre you sure? I donât want to ruin itââ
âBaby,â he interrupted, âyouâre not ruining it.â He leaned closer, gently pointing at a spot near the edge of the guitarâs body. âRight there. Thatâs where I want it. Sign it for me, hmm?â
You swallowed hard, this wasnât just any guitarâit was his guitar. The one he cherished.
âOkay,â you whispered, nodding as you carefully uncapped the marker.
You hovered the pen above the guitar for a moment, practicing your signature in the air as your nerves fluttered.
Jay chuckled softly beside you, his voice warm. âYouâre acting like youâre signing a million-dollar contract.â
âThis is more serious than that,â you shot back, your lips curving into a nervous smile.
Finally, with a deep breath, you pressed the tip of the marker to the glossy surface, your hand moving carefully as you signed your name. The white ink glided smoothly across the black body, and when you pulled the marker away, you stared at the result with wide eyes.
âPerfect,â Jay murmured.
You turned to look at him, your heart skipping a beat at the way his gaze lingered on the guitar. His usual sharp, stoic expression was replaced with something softer, his eyes shining as he traced your signature with his finger.
He looked up at you, his lips curving into a rare, genuine smile. âThank you,â he said, his voice full of warmth. Then, leaning in, he pressed a soft kiss to your forehead, his hand resting lightly on your shoulder.
Your cheeks burned as you gripped the marker tightly, unsure of what to say.
Jay pulled back slightly, his smile still in place. âNow itâs perfect,â he said simply, taking the guitar from your lap and standing up.
You watched as he adjusted the strap and slung it over his shoulder. His fingers moved instinctively to the strings, testing a few chords, and you couldnât help but notice the way his eyes kept flickering to your signature.
âLooks good, doesnât it?â he asked, his voice casual, but you could hear the pride beneath it.
âIt does,â you said softly, your chest feeling warm and full.
It was the school festival again, and you couldnât contain your excitement. Still wearing your cheerleading uniform from your earlier routine, you tugged at your cousinâs arm, practically dragging her through the bustling crowd. The stadium was alive with energyâstudents cheering, music blasting from nearby booths, and the smell of snacks wafting through the air.
âCome on, weâre going to miss it!â you squealed, your ponytail bouncing as you hurried forward, your pom-poms tucked under your arm.
Your cousin groaned dramatically, trailing behind you. âYouâve been talking about this all day. Who are we even going to see?â
âMy boyfriend!â you said, grinning from ear to ear. âMy boyfriend's in a band!â
âBoyfriend?â she repeated, narrowing her eyes. âSince when do you have a boyfriend?â
You turned to her with a mock gasp, clutching your chest like sheâd insulted you. âExcuse you. Iâve had one for months now.â
Your cousin raised an eyebrow, clearly unconvinced. âAlright, then. Letâs see this mysterious boyfriend of yours.â
The two of you found seats near the front, and you craned your neck, scanning the stage as the band members set up. The noise of the crowd grew louder, students and visitors alike cheering as the festival program officially began.
And then he appeared.
Jay stepped onto the stage, standing out against the bright festival decorations. The strap of his guitar rested comfortably on his shoulder, the instrument gleaming under the stage lightsâand there it was, your signature on its glossy surface.
Your heart thudded wildly in your chest, a giddy smile tugging at your lips as you clapped your hands together in excitement.
âOkay, but which one is your boyfriend?â your cousin asked, squinting at the stage as if trying to piece it together.
You didnât even hesitate. Pointing toward Jay, you said proudly, âThe guitarist. His name is Park Jongseong. Thatâs my boyfriend.â
Your attention was locked on Jay as he adjusted his guitar strap and tested a few chords. His sharp, eagle-like eyes scanned the crowd, his usual stoic expression giving him an air of effortless cool. But then, something changed.
His gaze stopped on you.
Jayâs piercing eyes softened, his lips curving into the faintest smile, the kind of smile he rarely let anyone see. It was small, barely noticeable to most, but you knew it was for you.
Your hand flew to your mouth, trying to hide the giddy grin that threatened to take over your face. Your cheeks burned, and your heart raced as he looked at you.
After a brief moment, Jayâs gaze dropped to his guitar. He adjusted the tuning, his fingers moving skillfully over the strings, but you could tell his mind wasnât entirely on the music. He stole one last glance at you before focusing on his task, a quiet confidence radiating from him as he prepared to play.Â
Your cousin, still in shock, nudged you. âOkay, heâs hot. How did youâlike, how did youâend up with him?â
You laughed, brushing her off as you continued to watch Jay. âItâs a long story,â you said, your voice dreamy.
As the band began their set, the crowdâs cheers grew louder, and Jayâs fingers danced effortlessly over the strings. The sound was mesmerizing, and your chest swelled with pride as you watched him command the stage.
And as you sat there, smiling like an idiot, you realized once again how lucky you were to call him yours.
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THE BOY IS MINE ęŤ - JJK
synopsis: your big sister has a new boyfriend that you canât wait to try
parings: jk x sister in law!reader
warnings: infidelity, reader is a heavy bitch, she doesnât care at all, strained relationships, traumatic sibling rivalry, dom!jk, fat cock!jk, sneaking around, exhibitionism, voyeurism, penetrative sex, oral sex (m. and f. receiving), fingering, rough fucking, multiple positions, readerâs pussy is an OCEAN, all hyewon does is cry, reader is actually evil, jungkook is just as bad, if not worse
nothing could have prepared jungkook for the influx of strange events that would take place over the next month. his time starts as it usually does: hyewon, his girlfriend, freaking the fuck out about every interaction heâs had and will have with her family. however, something was different this time. hyewonâs usual dread of embarrassment had shifted into full blown panic and anxiety. he was utterly confused since she had never been this bad. did something happen? he was sure her parents liked him, no? why would they let them date for nearly a year if that was the case?
jungkook had come to know why on the three hour long drive to her parents lake house. after prying he had found out it was you, her baby sister who is supposedly the devil incarnate. âiâm sure this is just a normal sibling rivalry hye, baby, my brother and i are the same way.â
âjungkook,â she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. âim telling you itâs not the same.â
she excused it when you were kids, but after a certain point of awareness she knew that this wasnât a silly little rivalry, you hated her. despite you being younger by three years you had always went out of your way to make sure she was miserable. in your childhood years it started out as lying to your parents about her hitting you, or sneaking gum into her hair, breaking her dolls. these little things progressed to stealing her clothes and ruining her makeup products in middle school. once high school came around whatever she did you had to do it ten times better. clothes, shoes, sports, friends, boys. your parents had just seen it as a cute thing between a younger and older sister. little did your parents know that soon your behaviors turned cold with sinister intent, from ruining her friendships, straining her parental relationship, and fucking every single guy sheâs ever bought home.
hyewon grew up with the same speech throughout her middle school and teenage years, even now in her 20s.
âshe just admires you.â
âyouâre her role model.â
ây/n has it all, have you ever thought that youâre the jealous one?â
bullshit.
your parents also werenât shy about who was the favorite. although the two of you had done nearly every sport and form of hobby together, your awards were hung the highest, your interests were more funded, and you were taken more seriously. they insisted that it was just in her head for so many years, more like they were being heavily manipulated by you. now finally her boyfriend of 11 months was going go meet you in less than an hour to see for himself how fucked up you were.
the boyfriend that she so desperately has tried to keep away for so long. now her time was up.
hyewon was successful with that aspect for a while since you were dorming hours away at college. she successfully avoided holidays, family dinners, special occasions, all for almost a year. while she did limit how much she posted jungkook, she was never too sure with the extent you would go with things and has kept you blocked and hidden from all things him.
she could have avoided it for longer if this hadnât been your first summer back from school in years and your parents were adamant on having the entire family together. usually you were able to make an excuse on why jungkook couldnât come, work, family matters, etc. but everyone was to be at your family lake house for a full month, and that included jungkook.
âhye ill be there, all month. you have nothing to worry about.â he gave her thigh a soft squeeze and flashed his reassuring bunny smile.
âpromise?â
âpromise.â
jungkook couldnât be more unaware about what exactly he was promising to. and as he rounded the corner and pulled into the hidden entrance and drove down the dirt road, hyewon grew more anxious and clammy. she felt her heart sink deeper as jungkook pulled into the driveway and parked. once she saw your sunglasses go up she knew she was fucked. skin tight red bikini, slurping on a melting strawberry popsicle, with her boyfriend ogling every curve of your body. she could have shot herself right there.
over the next month hyewon would watch her perfect relationship crumble to dust. if you were going to be trapped here all summer with your insufferable sister the least she could do was share her boyfriend. her first mistake was pulling you aside that night before bed for a talk. you followed her out to the patio and faced her, finally dropping the innocent facade youâre forced to have around others.
âwhat now hyewon?â you scoffed. âi havenât seen you in a year and youâre already about to scold me about something?â
you were trying so hard not to laugh at her angry demeanor. âstay away from him. y/n i understand you canât keep a man but that doesnât mean you can help yourself to mine.â
you pouted at her, prying her folded arms open and taking her hands in yours. âbut hyewonniee~ thatâs not fair, we share everything, what would mommy and daddy say to you right now?â you tsked obnoxiously.
she snatched her hands away. ây/n, this isnât the time to play your sick games. what the fuck donât you get? iâm not asking you, im fucking telling your twisted ass to leave us alone.â
âcome on sis live a little, i promise ill give him back,â she felt like she was going to throw up right into the lake beside you two.
âplease y/nâŚâ her voice cracked.
all you could do was give her that fuck ass smile as if you were clueless about every goddamn thing in the world. âi just wanna try him, no need to get fussy.â
that night at dinner she kept a close eye on you whenever you were near him. she allowed the small talk and conversations about his family and work, but was steadily getting annoyed when no one had been asking a single thing about what sheâd been up to, obviously not you, not your parents, and not even jungkook, in fact her very far gone boyfriend was looking at you as if you had hung the stars and the moon with your bare hands. he hadnât taken his eyes off of you as explained your college stories and travels. your sister on the other hand had her head down in her phone, earning a scowl from your parents and a few words from her own boyfriend.
âhyewon,â your father cleared his throat. âdonât you think itâs poor manners to not listen to what your sister has to say? she listens to you.â
âright, sorry.â she mumbled, putting her phone down to pick at her food.
âapologies jungkook, theyâve been this way since they were young. just a little squabble here and there.â your mother leaned over the table a squeezed his hand, to that he replied with a smile.
do little squabbles consist of fucking someoneâs boyfriends and sending them the tapes of them doing so?
âtrust me i understand, my older brother and i are sworn enemies but heâs my entire world.â
you decided to chimed in too. âhyewonnie doesnât ever think i have anything interesting to say,â you pouted. âactually enough about me, sis howâs your desk job? still letting that old hag of a boss order you around?â
any normal boyfriend would take his girlfriends defense when a backhanded comment was made. instead jungkook, who was seated in between the both of you, pealed his eyes away from you for once and turned to his girlfriend. he was also waiting for her response to that. all eyes were now turned to her. you have her that knowing smirk, a smirk that knew since your lasting meeting a year ago, she had accomplished absolutely nothing but scoring a hot boyfriend. and even that was going to be ripped away from her shortly.
âiâm working on finding a new job.â
âwork harder then hyewon, look at your sister.â ah here we go. your father was about to go on his comparison spiel. ây/n is set to graduate early after studying abroad and even has a job lined up for her after school, meanwhile youâve been stuck at this little start up company for how long?â
âwe love you honey, dearly. but itâs time to start being an adult.â your mom had delivered the final blow. hyewon stood up from her seat, fork clinging against the china plate.
âi need to use the restroom.â
no one tried to stop her, instead everyone fell back into a steady stream of conversation. jungkook however couldnât even bring himself to have another thought other than you. he couldnât have made his attraction to you more obvious. you were so fucking pretty, he hasnât seen a being like you. sweet and delicate tone with hints of seduction. he wanted to feel bad for being more attracted to you than he was to your older sister, but fuck. your hair was pulled back into a neat bun and your dress had just reached below your ass. he tried his hardest to not stare for too long, but when you had suddenly dropped your fork and bent over to go get it he was in for quite the treat that couldnât be passed up.
when you rose from your chair, slick trails followed behind. you hadnât been wearing underwear and your pussy had been drooling all over the wooden chairs, leaving you with a pool of pussy juice in your seat. your cheeks burned, knowing his eyes were on you and your pretty pussy. he looked between you and your parents, hoping they werenât seeing your antics so he could bask in it longer. luckily they were immersed in conversation.
âwhoopsies, iâm so clumsy sometimes!â you sat down in your seat again, making sure he heard the wet plop! of your ass on the sticky chair. you flashed him flirty smile, once again starting small talk. âso youâre a personal trainer right?â
âmhm i am, you know anything about it?â
âenlighten me.â
âwell itâs-â his face dropped and went bright red at the feeling of your hands on him. your palm had sprawled out on his thigh, inching dangerously close to his hardening cock. âitâs um- it takes a while to um-â
âsomething the matter?â yes something was the fucking matter. your acrylic covered hand was now covering the growing tent in his pants. his girlfriends baby sister was palming his dick at the dining room table, in front of your fucking parents. âsounds like an easy job, maybe you could train me too, iâm a fast learner, and i havenât worked out in agesâŚâ your eyes narrowed, tone getting lower and heavier.
âhey weâre going to start cleaning up, you kiddos finished with your food?â your mom started confiscating the plates and dishes as you worked at jungkooks zipper, desperately wanting to get a look at the huge cock you were groping.
âweâre not kids mom, weâre in our early 20s.â
âoh fine fine, when your sister comes back from her mini temper tantrum tell her i put her food in the fridge if she wants to finish it.â once your parents were gone you could finally cut the small talk and get right to the point, except jungkook had halted your actions, removing your hand and holding it in his while you bit back a grin.
âwhat the fuck is wrong with you? do you know how much this would hurt your sister?â
âso?â
âso? are you out of your mind?â
you rolled your eyes. âoh now you wanna play moral police after youâve been eye fucking me the entire night and almost came in your pants from my hand alone?â if he really didnât want it you were going to back off. you pulled away completely and scooted your chair over.
jungkook leaned in closer, pining you against your chair. âyou wanna feel up on my dick? go ahead sweetheart, but not at the same fucking table your parents are eating at. hyewon could walk in any second too, you really wanna risk her seeing this? risk her ending this before i get to ruin you?â
oh. oh.
âyou wanna ruin me? your girlfriends little sister? you really donât care about her do you?â your eyes lit up once again.
jungkook looked around, peering around the corners of the house to make sure it was clear before what he did next. lust was fully taken over, any thoughts of hyewon were gone, and it was only a few hours into knowing your little minx ass but he wanted to be consumed by you. his hand went around your neck, gripping it to the point where your circulation was almost severed. âi just wanna try you baby, see if i chose the wrong sister or not. and anyways, whatever hye doesnât know wonât hurt her right? now câmere pretty.â
the stars had aligned in that moment for you. you had jungkook right where you wanted him.
however she did. hyewon knew exactly what would happen once she left the table, it was her way of accepting defeat. as hyewon sobbed in the bathroom she knew her sister and boyfriend were exchanging more than holy words and touches. she knew how quick you worked. when it came to ruining everything she loved and desired you were always quick. luckily she couldnât witness the vile things happening at that dining room table.
âgosh, this fucking pussy,â he landed a slap to your sopping cunt. poor baby was crying down there for some action, clenching that tight hole around nothing and pushing out more and more thick ropes of slick. âdamn baby i knew you wanted this dick, but fucking hell.â he couldnât believe how soaked you were, he knew heâd slip his cock in with ease, nothing like your sister.
âaw kook, you must be so bored with her if you feel this comfortable with playing in my pussy. look at you throwing a year down the drain.â and you couldnât be happier about it.
âfucking tell me about it. love my baby to death but a man has needs you know?â he took another glance around before unzipping his pants fully this time and placing your hand over his fat cock once again. âhye never knows what to do with it, but iâm sure a slut like you will.â
he tugged his boxers down and you watched his angry member spring up, slapping against his stomach with a mean, red tip that was throbbing for attention. your mouth gaped open at the sight of the pretty thing. lengthy, girthy, veiny, and in need of a tight little pussy gripping around it. âmake it quick and iâll make sure to take good care of you later sweetheart.â he guided you to your knees, sat back, and enjoyed your mouth. all while hyewon sobbed her heart out a few feet away.
later that night after you were coming back from a late night jog, hyewon was ready in the living room for you. she needed to put her foot down for once. every other time was different, but this was her chance to salvage her relationship. once you stepped in the door she stood, to which you didnât pay her a second glance. âthe hell do you want? youâre stalking me now?â
âif you keep trying your luck with jungkook im telling mom and dad.â
you let out a mocking cackle as you made your way to grab a glass of water. âwhat are we? fucking five? maybe if you knew how to pleasure your boyfriend we wouldnât be in this situation,â
her mouth went dry. âwhat?â
âoops⌠well cats out the bag. when you decided to go be dramatic and cry in the bathroom as if anyone cared, jungkook was very quick to say how much of a bad fuck you were.â you provoked her farther. you were younger, you were shorter, but still you loomed over her, in every aspect, in every way, of every day of your lives. âyou always pick the easy ones. the ones who hate you more specifically.â
âjungkook loves me, something youâll never experience.â she spat.
you grinned, leaning against the counter nonchalantly before breaking her heart in two. âand heâs gonna love this pussy even more. he already loves one of my holes. ask him about it.â you shot her a wink before leaving for bed.
there was still a month to go and as the weeks progressed she watched his eyes linger more as your clothes got tighter. she watched your touches get lower. she watched your hangouts go from the three of you to just you and her boyfriend. she watched how you two would talk for hours then get silent when she entered a room. she watched you press your ass up against him when squeezing around tight spaces. it was only a matter of time before she was phased out completely, but she still wouldnât go down without a fight. jungkook was the greatest thing to ever happen to her, he was worth fighting for, she felt it, she knew it.
yet obviously he didnât see her the same. he couldnât care less about his relationship more than ever now since you had given him the best head of his life. now every night, just like this one, he was nose deep in your cunt, devouring you. jungkook waited until hyewon was sound asleep before he slipped himself into your room in the late hours of the night. thank goodness she picked the ones who were skilled with their tongue, because this was just the stress reliever you needed,
cumming down her boyfriends throat for the third time tonight.
âf-fffuck!â your back arched upwards from the feeling of his tongue dragging down your slit. he simply pushed you back down, using the weight of his hand to keep you there. âtoo much, âs too much koo!â you pulled at his hair roughly, making him groan deliciously. how the fuck did you taste like this? you were becoming his favorite flavor.
âoh yeah too much?â he took two fingers, plunging them inside of your cunt and watching the disappear deeper with every thrust. âso fucking wet for me doll, look at how youâre drenching my fingers.â he kept his voice low while your screams went wild. part of him even hoped your cries awoke your sister. he was so fucked up for wanting this, wanting her to see how good he fucked her pretty little sister. he wanted her to see how he fucked her sister in every way that he would never fuck her. he was sick as hell.
his fingers rammed against your g spot roughly. your mind fogged up, making your words start to come out in nothing but incoherent babbles. your body went limp from the amount of times he had dragged your nut out of you tonight. âcâmon princess, gimme one more, right on my fingers. be a good girl and cum baby, cum.â
âholy shiiiiii- awh fuck fuck, fuck iâm- jungkookk!â you whined with tears streaming down your face. with one more clench of your hole and a few more angry thrusts of his fingers you were soaking your sheets and his face. once jungkook removed his fingers you released everything he was keeping inside. he dove right back into you nose first to catch all of the creamy slick dripping from your hole. you couldnât handle overstimulation, trying time and time again to get him away from your pussy before you came again.
âstop, stop stop- fucking hell stop!â trying to push him away was useless, you were starting to realize he did this shit for his own pleasure.
once he decided he was finished his meal he pulled back, looking up at your flustered and tear stained face. he smirked to himself when he saw your needy pussy still clenching around nothing. it took time for your body to shake off the after effects of your orgasm, but he stood by and waited for you to come back to earth. âbetter get back before your sister wakes up, you good mama?â he sucked your essence off of his fingers, making you lick your lips at the action.
âalready? one more hour, please?â
âitâs starting to get harder to say no to you.â he laid between your legs, trying his hardest not to accidentally push against your sensitive clit. you admired him from this view, his soft features and the various piercings that graced his lip and ears. he was so goddamn handsome, you felt bad that he had to settle for your basic sister. âwhat are you thinking?â he chimed.
ânothing much, just about how glad i am hyewon bought you home, itâs like she just knew you were right for me.â fuck, you were twisted.
âyouâre going to get me in so much trouble doll, what will your parents think of me if they find out?â
you shrugged. âthey could care less. everyone knows she canât keep a guy.â
âand iâm guessing thatâs due to you?â he smirked.
you tried to fight your smile but it was useless. âi wouldnât say that. itâs just that every guy reconsiders when they see she has a sister.â
that was exactly what was happening here now. jungkooks brain chemistry was being altered to only think of you, to only want you, and the month wasnât even over yet. the way he had pulled away would be the reason for hyewonâs nagging every night after bed from now on. she garnered argument after argument every night in bed, trying desperately for jungkook to see where this behavior was wrong. he was too far gone by now, getting defensive when hyewon would state the obvious.
âyouâre acting fucking crazy!â jungkook fumbled out of the bed angrily, snatching a pillow and extra blanket to take to the couch. âsheâs your sister, do you hear yourself?â he yelled, as if you didnât just have a face full of his cock for dessert under the dining room table two weeks ago, as if he wasnât knuckles deep in you the night prior. he knew it was wrong, he knew it was disrespectful to do it while staying in the same house as your parents. but fucking hell.
he felt like needed you more after tasting you once. he felt sick for not even being attracted to his girlfriend anymore. he felt disappointed in himself for letting almost a year go down the drain. but you felt better than anything.
âjungkook sheâs trying to steal you from me, sheâs- do you not see? has she manipulated you that far already?â hyewon was on the verge of tears, lower limp trembling as she stared back at jungkook. he gave her an annoyed look and sighed, getting ready to pull out manipulative tactics of his own.
âi understand you might envy her, sheâs younger, she gets along well with your parents, but when you start making shit up out of jealousy it doesnât look good hye.â what the fuck could you have done to make him so far gone? what the fuck had you been spewing to him?
âdo you fucking hear yourself? youâre defending a bitch youâve known two weeks!â she was losing her mind, truly. âyouâve been so distant kook, you donât hold me anymore, you barely kiss me, and it all started when we fucking got here! you told me you be on my side for this trip, mine, not hers.â her voice cracked but he still couldnât find it in him to care.
âuntil you sort your hissy fit out, iâll be on the couch.â he shut the door behind him and she could hear shuffling down the steps growing fainter. her head was pounding from all this nonsense. she hadnât had one normal day since stepping in this lake house. her family was indifferent to her and now another boyfriend of hers was trying to convince her she was crazy. jungkook did a terrible job however, because once she heard your door creak open in the middle of the night, she knew exactly where you were going.
and she followed.
hyewon crept her way down the stairs, careful not to let anyone hear. she could hear jungkookâs raspy voice and your soft giggles, along with a very smacking noises followed after. even though she has witnessed you ruin her relationships time and time again, nothing could prepare her for what she was about to see. when she rounded the corner her heart dropped to the pit of her stomach. there you were, on all fours in front of her boyfriend, with your pants pulled over your ass, and a big, heavy dick fucking you into the pillow cushions. her boyfriend, the love of her life, fucking you into the pillow cushions.
her hand flew over her mouth and she bit back tears, watching you and jungkook fuck her over in plain sight. it was over. everything she worked to salvage, it was gone. yet she couldnât peel her eyes away from the sight. from seeing how much more intimate he was with you. she flinched when he smacked your ass harshly. she needed to stop this, but why couldnât she? hyewon was frozen in place, forced to watch jungkook give himself to you.
âshiiiiitt- pussy squeezing me baby, control that cunt so i donât cum quick.â he pulled out, pumping your slick up and down his shaft. you wiggled your ass around, smacking it against his pelvis in desperation. you needed your cunt filled again. âcalm down mama, fuck.â
âcanâtttt,â you dragged. âhmph. fuck me or iâll do it myself.â you should have never said that. jungkook pulled you back by your hair, his hand gripping your jaw and forcing you to look at him. your back arched in a painful way and your pussy was leaking on he cushions.
âspoiled fucking brat, think iâm obligated to fill your holes? donât get this twisted.â he removed his hand from around his cock to smack your tits around, mesmerized with how the perky mounds looked. âmaking me cheat on my girlfriend, making me fall in love with this pussy. all this is your fault, now get down and throw that shit back.â without warning he slid in. the stretch was painfully addicting.
âkoo! youâre so fucking big- nnnnghhh shiitt,â once you were used to the stretch you started to move back on him, when he saw your hand moving to circle your clit he yanked it back. he held it behind your back to ensure you didnât make the same mistake again. of course your bratty ass couldnât resist pissing him off even more and tried again. now both of your arms were folded behind you with half your face being smothered in the couch.
âyou know- hmph-â he started saying in between strokes. âone thing about your sister? she knows how to listen. trained her well. guess you need the same donât you?â you nodded with a bright smile on your face that would soon be wiped. hyewon sobbed softly around the corner, listening to the way jungkook carelessly spoke about her. âfuck, youâre perfect. i wanna see you baby câmere.â you were flipped on your back now, switching from one position to the other.
when you didnât think it could get any better, jungkook dragged your legs up to his broad shoulders and he was now face to face with you. you shook your head no repeatedly, something that just provoked him more. his big brown eyes narrowed as he slammed himself into you. âohhhhh-â you were so fucking done for. he hit your soft spot repeatedly, abusing your mushy walls with his heavy cock. you tried keeping your whines to a minimum but once jungkook saw a certain someone lurking he wanted to hear more.
jungkook had looked up and made direct eye contact with hyewon, unfaltering eyes burning holes into her skull. he picked up his pace, slamming his hips into you and knocking the breath out of you every time. what a dumb bitch was all he could think. did she really expect him not to indulge in her minx of a sister? she trusted him to keep his composure while you were walking around in little to no clothes? pathetic. jungkook kept stroking you mainly because he knew hyewon wouldnât do a fucking thing. she would sit right there and take it, just how you were taking him. âlook princess, got a visitor.â
your head whipped around, seeing your sister trembling. if you were normal this would hurt you just as much, betraying her in such a foul manner. however, you hated her. youâve hated her ever since you figured you werenât the only child. you had been ruining her life forever to guarantee she would get the hint and leave the family. that was why you started targeting her boyfriends, if she kept getting them taken then naturally she would stay away. but she didnât, and now here we were again, you wished you could say you hated to do this, but she needed to learn. after this you were going to guarantee sheâd be far from not only you and your parents, but jungkook too.
âhyewonnie!â a squeal sounded from you. jungkook slowed his pace down. âgod heâs so good, iâm so fucking glad you found him big sis,â your hands went up and stroked his round cheeks, running your acrylics over his skin. âafter he fills me up with some babies weâre gonna get married and have a nice big wedding that youâll never set foot on.â
blow after blow. you knew how to make her hurt.
âbabyâŚâ he panted on top of you. he buried his face in the crook of your neck and pressed kisses to the sweet spot before mumbling into your skin. âno need to be so harsh, i think she gets it love.â
âi fucking hate you both. youâre nothing to me, this entire family is nothing to me.â she finally spoke.
âmhmm, right there koo, so fucking deep-â your eyes rolled back and you tuned her out, focusing only on the sensual way you were being fucked. âwant you to cum in me, fill my cunt up baby, make me a mama.â something feral snapped in jungkook. as his speed picked up his kisses became rougher, biting up and down your shoulders and your neck to mark you. hyewon watched as you two shared such an intimate moment, hating herself for wishing she was you.
âcum with me doll.â that was all it took for you to release all over his cock. plop! plop! plop! was all that could be heard once he emptied his balls inside of you. jungkook struggled to catch his breath. once he pulled out you both watched the waterfall of cum drip from your fucked out hole. he took his cock in his hand and with the tip, pushed it all back inside. âcanât let that get away now can we?â
that had sent hyewon over the edge truly. she stomped up the stairs and barged into her room, starting to repack her suitcase early. yet she was trapped. jungkook was her ride here. she could ask your parents but it was such a long drive back to where she lived. she was stuck here with the both of you for two more weeks. how was she supposed to explain this to her friends, her co workers, everyone who thought jungkook would be her final. this was the icing on the cake that made her despise you. any love she had was far gone now. she sobbed and sobbed while listening to yours and jungkooks shared giggles, hearing him run you a shower and talk the night away.
once jungkook was asleep in your bed, you stood in her door way, basking at how much of a wreck she was. she didnât need to look up to feel your presence. âwhat now? what y/n? youâve done enough and after this consider me gone from all of your lives.â
âyouâre so dramatic oh god. youâre acting like i didnât warn you.â you welcomed yourself into her room. âthink i might keep him around, i actually like him. thank you sis.â your hands went over your heart.
she backed up farther onto her bed. âstay away from me you evil fuck.â
âhyewonnie, i told you from the moment i saw him, the boy is mine.â
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