#she had and she never regretted it

[nikinikori]

“What is honor compared to a woman's love? What is duty against the feel of a newborn son in your arms, [...] We are only human, and the gods have fashioned us for love. That is our great glory, and our great tragedy.”

— Maester Aemon Targaryen: "Game of Thrones"

[rath00ker]

Angst idea with Trein acting like a parent to Yuu and one day there’s a potion accident where Yuu is turned into a kid and Trein just has to realize that something broke this child who was so full of hope and dreams into what Yuu is now and he can’t help or save them because what is done has already been done.

[transmascissues]

me: *quiet and not looking happy because i’m 1 day post op and the anesthesia just fully wore off and shit hurts more now*

my mom: wow she looks so sad this must mean she regrets getting surgery just like i said she would this is such a horrible tragedy

[froggy-nebula]

vriska is really funny cause when you look at the shit she actually does shes not the best at manipulating people or flarp or combat she just cant win at any of her hobbies

[thegoldenappleofdiscord]

love how the fandom collectively reimagined drew's character. recently had a cousin of mine pick up the lost hero, and she told me, "reese, i don't get how you like drew. she's so mean to piper." and i kind of sat there for a moment trying to reorganize canon from fanon.

[lastofthe20thcenturygirls]

two people too closed off to everyone met through their love for a game she was the first face he saw they fell in love both of them not being people of too many words never could tell each other to be with him she ruined her reputation they got separated due to circumstances had a child born out of love couldn't meet again due to people this time neither of them could raise their child not together nor alone a child who would grow up to feel next to nothing for them one spent her life succumbing to madness and illness the other living in guilt and loneliness... a tragedy if there ever was one

[daritskaya]

one of the things about gaius' character that makes me terribly angry and confused is that he also tells merlin about destiny from the beginning, even though it's not even something he truly believes in. prophecy is important to the druids, it is - in one sense or another - important to kilhgarrah, it is important to the sorcerers. It makes some sense for them to throw this weight of knowing destiny on merlin. they don't know him; he is to them the messiah they have waited too long for. he is to them the long-awaited release and/or long-awaited revenge

but gaius has turned his back on the sorcerer community. he doesn't wait for the prophecy to be fulfilled, even if he believes it to be true. he's been convincing merlin all show that it's too soon for change - it's too soon for merlin to reveal magic, it's too soon for arthur to take the throne; when in fact it's gaius who isn't ready for change, it's gaius who wants to leave things as they are. He's comfortable where he is. all he's doing is making it harder for merlin to fulfill the prophecy - even if he does it unintentionally.

and he knows merlin. merlin is not just a distant image from the prophecy, not just a messiah, he is the boy that gaius calls son, a boy who is too young to carry such a burden.

and despite all this! he still keeps reminding him of the great destiny as something that defines merlin and everything around him, with absolutely no thought of how it affects merlin, because…. it's convenient? in the first, uh. two, maybe, episodes it could be just a (dubious) attempt to encourage merlin, after all, these are his first weeks in camelot. but later? later it turns into a way to manipulate him, to push him at crucial moments (one of the most striking cases in the first episodes: merlin doubts whether he should go kill the griffin? remind him of his great destiny! gaius just… uses it as a convenient excuse after which he doesn't have to explain anything).

"you have a great destiny, merlin" = "you have my permission to use magic, merlin."

gaius' approval is important to merlin. gaius restricts merlin a lot, (ultimately exacerbating merlin's fear of his magic) and if he turns a blind eye to his prohibitions, then the situation is very serious. and guess what? the only times merlin has gaius' approval are when merlin needs to destroy someone or save the prince and/or king. he literally learns merlin to think that his magic is good for killing and guarding pendragon and nothing more. that's all he can afford (that's what gaius can control. if anything changes, gaius loses control and he doesn't want that)

and that's one big reason why, in the end, merlin sees himself as a weapon in arthur's hands and sees nothing beyond that

what the hell, gaius.

[usefulquotes7]

Suddenly she realized that what she was regretting was not the lost past but the lost future, not what had not been but what would never be. F. Scott Fitzgerald, A Nice Quiet Place

[cruelplatonic]

ruminating on 'the vees died despondent nobodies' thoughts

velvette interrogates vox after she hears him give various conflicting and bombastic accounts on air. a selection of these include: blew his brains out on live television, administered the death penalty for killing his "bitch wife," a tragic accident involving two shetland ponies, dubiously legal iranian yogurts, and a whole lot of cocaine. the actual cause was shockingly ordinary- a heart attack in front of the television, alone, his corpse only recovered after two weeks passed. he was watching a game show and his last mortal regret was never even learning who won, because he died during the commercials.

[tinystepsforward]

ngl it makes me want to die a little bit that it's so often trans people who feel that sex is mutable but oppression is always-forever based on asab in ways that allow them to demand that information from other trans people. like it feels fucking bad. it feels bad when it's people holding up someone who posts a lot of selfies as transition goals to a degree they have to clarify what they have or haven't done or what "direction" they're going in, it feels worse when people are out there like "caster semenya is not tma" or whatever the fuck. i am, as always, not a trans woman, but here's a sentiment echoed by many of the trans women around me who log the fuck off, quoted directly from one: "people who draw a clear line where they say that semenya or khelif are tme and then call me tma are just calling me male at this point".

like i get it. i really do. we seek community and shared experiences, and we feel betrayed when people have less in common with us than we thought they did. [*more on this later.] but that's not those people's faults and my god in the case i'm seeing play out on twitter rn this poor person did absolutely nothing to intentionally mislead people, just posted pictures of their actual kid self. who looks a lot like i did, because shockingly enough "we can always tell" doesn't fucking work for trans people either!

on the one hand i move in intersex circles which are unapologetically welcoming in cis "dyadic" people with pcos, because it serves nobody to draw a clear line where mutilation or genetics or some ineffable childhood suffering are what make somebody intersex, especially when most of us (esp in places like nz) have never been karyotyped and are being treated for symptoms without a pinned-down cause anyway. the more of us there are the stronger we are, the more pressure we can exert on a medical profession which doesn't like to consider how common outliers are, how uneasy sex is at all. and then on the other hand there's dyadic trans people on the internet who've yelled me out of spaces because a couple of traumatised incarcerated trans women i worked with as a prison abolitionist assumed i was also a trans woman and i didn't immediately tell them my entire csa-involved history of being sexed in varying ways as an infant and child and/or exactly how big my phallus was at birth or where in my junk config my urethra lives so they could decide i was tme or whatever.

returning to the * for a related but not identical thought: i think presuming shared experiences leads to some fucked shit in general! "oh we all had a radfem phase" or "oh we all were channers" no we fucking weren't and it's particularly obnoxious when me & mine are trying to build trans community locally to organise and resist the growing wave of far-right backlash against our existence, and there's just white people in there on a spectrum from "straight up being antisemitic and trying to get the n-word pass" through "handwringing about how they need to make space for people who aren't politically correct" to "handwringing about how brown people are right to be mad at them but doing shit fuckall". and then the other fucking brown people in the space are on some identity politics shit where they're like "trans joy inherently excludes those of us who could get deported" or "big city white queers are killing us by being visible instead of going stealth bc it stirs up the discourse" or whatever the fuck i've heard pulled out this year. there's a bunch of reasons i primarily organise outside of trans spaces and that's one of them. i've never felt more alone in spaces where people claim we're all the same than being left as the brownest moderator or organiser in a space full of people to whom "this is a safe trans space" apparently means they get to abdicate all other responsibilities not to lapse into presumed shared patterns that are fucking racist or otherwise alienating. i've never felt more alone than surrounded by exclusively trans people who sort people into boxes and assume everyone in those boxes has the transition goals they have. like i was on cypro until it disagreed with me to the point of endocrine crisis and now i'm on t and at both those points people were so fucking presumptive or entitled to my reasons or journey or personal relationship w my body

literally just submitted on (and was invited to consult on) the nz law commission's review of the human rights act and like. it's straight up fucked how many nz trans people fully do not comprehend that any "sex assigned at birth" type definitions fundamentally exclude migrants who have no way of proving it and many intersex people who happen to have been reassigned later or many times or never assigned at all as a baby. we can't make law with this shit and that's why we have to have symmetrical protections for all genders/sexes/expressions/presentations, bc naming and defining a protected class here often leaves the people who already are left out from those shared experiences of marginalisation out in the cold when they face violence

[laurapetrie]

It's impossible to say how many roses he bought me. Roses spilled onto the ground as I went. If I've ever been pretty, it was on that early Paris morning with roses overflowing from my full-to-the-brim arms.

Clarice Lispector, Too Much of Life: The Complete Crônicas (January 6, 1968)

[shvroyism]

I will never recover of the way Olivia speaks about Alicent. I love when actors understand their characters so well.

[frogwithastrawberry]

What if the masks that girls were at the Menagerie were those that covered just the eyes and so when Inej escaped and became The Wraith she got a covering that covered only the lower half of her face (a hood is attached, but she doesn't often wear it when she isn't collecting information). She said that it was for practicality when she was Kaz's spider, but then she realized somewhere along the way that there was a satisfaction in being able to look into the eyes of men who had done horrible things so that in their last minutes the only thing they can see of her is that she doesn't regret what she is doing to them.

[nukacourier]

Mentally calling Arcade a dumbass for this like I'm not the one writing him being a complete fool

[scourgebff]

absolutely love mothwing but the concept of mothstar is so utterly bleak to me.

she’s a cat who has already walked the path of a warrior to the point of being awarded her full name, and yet still yearned to be a healer in her heart. she was denied the post solely due to her heritage, not to be permitted unless starclan blessed her with a sign. it was not starclan who provided this holy signal but her brother, and despite the stress, guilt, and trickery which stemmed from the false omen she still finally got to be a healer as she had always dreamed. fully committed to her post, she was giving the practice her all despite everything and it shows. you could tell this was her true passion. when it got out she was not appointed by starclan, she was stripped of her title in an instant. it didn’t matter how loyal and dedicated and skilled she was, she’s just a faithless half-clan loner to them. always reduced back to being a warrior like a goddamn punishment. when she finally regained her post due to a genuine sign, it only lasted a few seasons before the kin and then the imposter took turns tearing riverclan apart. she was exiled, apparently not even fit to be a warrior this time although shadowclan thankfully took her in and let her work as their healer. still, all mothwing wanted to be was *riverclan’s healer.* that is literally all she wanted her entire life and she has had to fight every pawstep of the way to cling onto a role most cats overlook entirely in the first place.

and now she’s forced to leave it all behind once again with not even a moment to fully settle. temporarily sure, but if she returns and is made to become mothstar? once more giving up her passion for the good of riverclan, but this time it’s permanent. she’s already over eleven years old, and now with nine more lives she’ll be spending each and every one as a warrior. all the current cats in her clan will likely die before she does, and the ones which come in their place will only *ever* know mothstar, the warrior, the leader of riverclan. not mothwing, the healer, the thing she committed to through thick and thin when her dedication to the clan was called into near constant question over things out of her control. and when mothwing finally, FINALLY dies, it will be as mothstar. she will give the leader which succeeds her a life, that too will be as mothstar, a life bestowed for leadership and not for healing. but it never was about what she truly desires, only what others thought best.

this is just my opinion of course formed over all we know about her and the several arcs she’s featured in but dude. Dude.

[crownspeaksblog]

I really hope that in season 2 something comes out of the daemon choking rhaenyra scene, i really really hope that the show doesn't treat it like he made a little oopsi, like it's an unsignificant, tiny moment of anger that almost means nothing and that i should move past it..

Also I hope that the writers know that i wrote off the idea that aegon could ever be sympathic the second we were told he raped someone. I hope rape isn't supposed to be one of his character quirks. I hope.

i wouldn't be afraid of this happening in another story but with this shows/this worlds track record of making men do evil shit and then moving on like it didn't happen, especially since daemon is the one who delivered the news of lucerys' death, i worry, alot.