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Porter Gage and my Overboss Lilly!
#porter gage#fallout#nuka world#she doesn’t always look like that….#sometimes I take off the glasses#(the hat gives you too many benefits I’m keeping that shit on)#porter gage x original character
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Shout out to @tessasilverswan for reminding me of the fact that I’ve never actually drawn mary even though she haunts my every thought.
#I have this Headcanon that despite what marry says Neil has a lot more incomon with her (both physically and in how he acts)#then he’s given credit for#she’s in the way he stands#in the way he holds himself#she’s in the shape of his eyes and the set of his brows#it doesn’t matter how much like his dad Nathaniel looks he will always have more Mary in him#even if she was a shit mom at least she cared about him enough to see him live through his childhood#aftg#all for the game#the foxhole court#the foxes#neil josten#aftg fanart#andrew minyard fanart#nathaniel wesninski#mary hatford
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the thing that really gets me about mizumono is that will doesn’t even fight back. he saw alana mangled outside. he knows jack might be dead. he has a loaded gun in hand. but not once does he try to hurt hannibal. he doesn’t even shoot. will just lets him caress his cheek, fingers curling into his hair. there’s no resistance. when hannibal stabs him, will leans into it. he doesn’t want to escape. and it all hurts so badly because it’s not like will tricked hannibal into loving him; he simply persuaded him that he might love him back. because that’s what will thought hannibal did to him in s1, and only now does he realise that maybe it was more real for hannibal than he thought. or worse, that maybe he wants to be with hannibal regardless of whether hannibal genuinely loves him. that maybe it’s worth it to be close to him, even if his touch splits his stomach open
#it’s midnight and I’m about to pass out so apologies if this doesn’t make sense#but I’m thinking about it and ohhhhh my god#the way will looks at hannibal before he gets stabbed always kills me#like he couldn’t look away even if he tried#so vulnerable and full of love#and then hannibal plunges the knife into him I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE#mizumono is the dead sister who haunts the narrative#she haunts my every waking moment#nbc hannibal#hannibal#will graham#hannigram#ghost speaks
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Just a girl who wants to be her mother’s daughter in the ways that matter
#Such a tenacious go getter & the smartest woman ik#Has NEVER looked back at a man twice. Knows she’s beautiful & that attention is guaranteed. Never desperate for male validation ever#The best fashion sense ik. She’s the epitome of classic & vintage#Doesn’t gaf what others are doing / is always tunnel visioned on her own goals#A mega workaholic and like. Maybe I’d rather balance but still she’s still an overachiever#I feel im becoming more and more like her by the day but still I have some work to do#Need to be more focused & to stop entertaining little boys fr#I just want to move w the unshackling confidence & elegance she seems to emanate effortlessly#I swear that woman was born that way!!!! So unfair for the rest of us mortals#Why does no one talk about the psychological torture that comes w having a naturally gorgeous genius mother#I’m dying over here I just wanna be like her but im pushing that boulder up the hill all the time#Meanwhile she’s always just On#HOW#Just an eldest daughter having a crisis about her mother who is also#The eldest daughter out of her and her two brothers#I need to journal about this I need to meditate#How to manufacture the drive that your mother was simply endowed with at birth#Not even joking I just got off my internship and now im sitting on a swing under the late May sun having a crisis about this
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Getting back to oc content with an oc I hardly draw (but she’s so cool)
#she weirdly looks like a friend of mine but I designed her way before I knew that friend 🤔#maybe I’m psychic or something#she’s one of the 3 gods in my oc universe and for narrative purposes she’s the most simplistic in design#but that’s BOOOORRRRING so I always draw her in more and more detailed outfits#she’s the one that wanted Finn as a pet she thought he was cute and fluffy and wanted to keep him in a little jar to watch (metaphorically)#and when he escaped I think maybe she recruited her raven messengers to always follow him and keep him uneasy (he doesn’t care)#(he also doesn’t remember meeting her so he just sees a bunch of ravens and it like ‘…huh i guess’)#she’s the god of death btw *points to lore post points to lore post*#my art#digital art#procreate#artists on tumblr#digital illustration#illustration#original art#doodle#my ocs#art#oc#original character#oc art#oc art tag#digital doodle#original character art#oc artist#oc artwork#drawing#digital drawing
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spoilers for chapter 429
idk if you guys remember but ochako does have parallels with All Might, specifically as the side who saves. It’s not that he feels the same for them both or something like that, they serve to represent the type of heroism he naturally goes to; his friend is not his love interest, from his perspective she’s out there having a crisis over not being able to save her, and Izuku reminds her that she is a hero bc she is his hero -she saved him multiple times, and she should be able to feel like a proper hero.
This conversation is not about the nature of their relationship, is about heroism; Izuku relates to a conflict between being a hero who saves and failing to save someone, and doesn’t want to see Ochako ending spiraling because she couldn’t also fulfill that role as expected. She’s his hero not because he loves her romantically -he’s a nerd I’m sure he would be way more nervous and blushing if he was confessing anything he thought was romantic- but because she’s able to go and do what All Might does to Izuku, save him physically and emotionally.
He knows she hides her feelings in order to not be a burden, yet he doesn’t talk about his own feelings outside of his guilt in heroics -what does he feel about losing OFA? About his own failures? About the people he personally lost? He can’t talk for others and claim Ochako is everyone’s hero, but he can speak for himself, and that’s his personal perspective -she is a hero to him, she’s his hero. And then the class appears to make sure she’s able to get support and understand she’s not alone, and she’s important to them too.
but Izuku doesn’t get support. Izuku cries a little and talks a little about himself, but he doesn’t get supported. If this was meant to be romantic, I don’t understand why he would hold back what’s inside of him.
the end of the chapter reveals that boy is going to be helped by that woman who regretfully ignored Tenko, and they both witness it and are happy about it while hearing izuku inspired that change, and iida wonders what’s up with them -this is the conclusion to their relationship. In their hearts these two are saviors who struggle to be heroes who save others, and they are happy there are appearing more people who want to be heroes like them. Heroes who save. Save like All Might.
That grandma for example, interpreting the narrative as what I think is intended, would be that boy’s All Might; she’s his hero.
Izuku and Ochako are heroes who save, and Deku is here to remind her at least she did save him many times, that she is still a hero because she is his hero. I don’t believe is meant to be interpreted as romantic, not that Izuku sees that phrase as it neither -after all, he said he does want to be like All Might and feels good to imitate him, but he doesn’t love him.
Ochako’s All Might hair moment, the parallels with Toshinori telling him he can be a hero, the trying to save from black suffocating quirks, the we can do it and do your best…
Do I need to remind you heroes arent a romantic thing for Izuku Midoriya?
#grrr talking#bkdk#dkbk#bakudeku#dekubaku#I’m not saying I’m happy with the chapter#I have my criticisms#But I don’t want to keep seeing ppl say this is romantic and “izu///ocha canon we won bkdk dead”#First of all no it’s not even if it was canon we would still ship them and make content about them#Second of all this chapter was about ochako getting comfort not a boyfriend#Are we really sitting there believing they are together when ochako doesn’t struggle nor think about her crush at all#And her character goes way beyond liking him or not#And izuku hero nerd midoriya calls her his hero bc he sees all might savior qualities in her???#Bitch where’s the romance#And you know what? I don’t get it now#Bc ppl were all like “yeah it’s platonic” when izuku said he admired all might but katsuki was just right there closer to him#But now they see the whole “you are my hero” as a romantic confession? Fuck off#Personally I always felt kinda strange about that scene in bk vs dk 2#It focuses on the closeness and and it’s strange bc izuku doesn’t strive to be like him at all#He doesn’t want to be the victorious hero side nor want to be a angry and disrespectful when he gets angry#He just is#So. Yeah#ochako is part of the saving chain and she saved him multiple times since the beginning#This is his experience with her and she deserves to be acknowledged as the hero she is#Even if nobody else sees her as that including herself he sees it#She deserves to hear it#When she saved him during black whip with shinso’s help everyone else saw a romantic moment#Mina teased her about it and made things weird for them always trying to look into it as a romantic gesture#And it wasn’t. That was ochako being the hero she is and Izuku confirms that to her#She is a hero not a love interest
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I know the König x secret admirer reader is not gonna be officially continued but I was wondering if you could maybe explore part of it😭 there’s a part that mentioned that König gets laid in the military and I was wondering how angsty it would be if reader found out?🤭
Yes of course! ^^ It would be angsty... and fluffy! These two are the silliest people who ever lived tbh 🩷🐥
König is young in this AU (around his early 20s) and wildly inexperienced compared to some of the other recruits his age.
His first time was with a girl who joined the army when König had been there for about 1.5 years already. Desperate as he was with hiding the fact that he’s still a virgin, he tumbled into bed with this lady after a night out at the bar. She thoroughly seduced him, and König’s instincts told him she was only looking for fun, but he went with her anyway because, well. Loneliness can kill you, you know?!
He tried to woo her a bit after that until it became quite clear that this woman was not planning to settle down anytime soon. If anything, she was looking for a new conquest – and it’s fine, totally fine, except that König had surrendered a tiny piece of his heart to her along with his dick... That’s just how he is, and it took him more than a few months to get over the fact that it was “just a shag” and he “shouldn’t take things so seriously”.
That’s also why he closed off from people again, decided to concentrate on work and training and gym – until our cute little angel stumbled into his life like the prettiest saving grace! König was a goner from the start because this girl's approach was very different, so gentle and sweet compared to grimy shot glasses and smudgy lipstick and raunchy jokes. It’s a given that he was a little shocked when she sent her that pic 🙄 reminding him of promiscuous women who are not looking for a soul but a body, but because he is what he is the first thing he did was crank things up a notch and send her a dick pic back…
Yes, he’s desperate, but he’s also an go hard or go home man and this time, König is relatively sure he’s dealing with a lovely, delicate soul. Someone who wouldn’t just leave him out in the cold after getting what she wants.
And everything is like a fairytale between these two until she finds out he’s not a virgin despite he seemed a bit… like one… (in this scenario I think reader is a virgin and she thought König was one too because of obvious reasons? lol) And it’s fine, totally fine for her as well, except that the image of König having the night of his life with some military babe is haunting her from dusk till dawn.
There’s bound to be some drama when she starts asking timidly whether she’s still there… Whether they see each other every day. If they talk to each other, if he trains with her, etc. What if they test rifles together, or go out again with the sniper crew and get drunk and König feels… a little lonely?
She knows he would never cheat on her, not in a million years, but knowing how much of a wet dog he is she can’t promise that she’ll be all calm and relaxed during weekends, knowing her boyfriend is out there, full of testosterone and heart, his heart somewhat susceptible to female influence… Maybe even good old seduction…
And what’s even worse is the jealousy, the envy.
What if she’s more badass than her? That doesn't take much... She must be fierce if she’s in the military, something completely different, a forbidden apple König might want to taste again. It’s maddening, and when she finally opens up about it to him, spitting it out one night when he asks what’s bugging his sweet angel, there’s a big fat silence that follows.
König can't even believe she has torn her heart to pieces over something like this, alone and upset and ashamed when she's a literal angel. He sits her nice and pretty in his lap and talks her ear off about how he has nothing against this woman, truly, but that she is nothing compared to his first (and hopefully last!) girlfriend. Their love could never be compared to what happened between him and that girl, these things can’t even be spoken together in the same sentence. If he’s completely honest, his first time was... disappointing. Awkward, humbling, a total drunken mess of which he remembers nothing except that the woman wasn’t completely present either and that he was ashamed that his first time had to be like this.
Honestly, he felt like he lost his virginity on the night when he came to see her. She’s everything he’s ever dreamed of, all he thinks about these days... It’s quite annoying, actually, because he’s supposed to concentrate on how the wind blows and that the ammo doesn’t get wet and that he’s properly concealed.
He could be lying in a ditch with dummy rounds whirling past him and all he could think about are her eyes and lips and giggling and tits and, and… that. How warm it is, how nice it is, how he would just want to curl himself next to her when he hops back to his bunk in the evening. Her smile is the last thing he sees before he dreams, her voice is what he hears. All the things she said, all those sweet, silly little things, chime in his ear before he sleeps.
And all the precious moments they’ve already spent together, the times he made love to her under the trees... There’s nothing like that in the whole world and if she thinks something else can top that she's even sillier than he thought. He could comb through all the continents and he would never find a girl like her.
So tell him again... Why would he go to a shot glass of saltwater when he has a jar of wild honey right here at home?
#lmao what könig doesn’t tell her probablyyy is that the lady is not interested in him either#she just hops from D to D so she barely remembers König even exists#he’s only a co-star in some stories she tells her friends#like “Ooh yeah that one guy had a horse cock but he fussed around with the condom so much I almost fell asleep haha”#“what was his name again? shit I can’t remember”#meanwhile our angel reader is ascending to the 7th plane with the help of the horse cock in question like “Köniii T^T”#always the funniest thing when a secret admirer gets jealous of his object of obsession who’s actually fucking enamored with their no 1 fan#König gets jettisoned to the sun everytime she so much as *looks* his way#like are you both completely utterly dense or were you just born this way…#<3 sillies
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Silver doesn't need another father. He's already got one of those, technically, but the man turned out to be a weak, cowardly bastard who couldn't face his own problems let alone raise a child. The way he sees it, there's no need to set himself for more disappointment. He's got a roof over his head and food to eat, and that's far more than he could ever depend on in the last... however many years he'd been living on the streets. Lance and Clair are annoying as hell, but while he's training in the Dragon Den, he doesn't exactly have much room to complain. Not out loud, anyways.
Lance doesn't particularly want to be a dad either. He's already got too much responsibility on his plate as Champion, and this kid clearly needs so much more emotional support than he feels like he can provide. Simply convincing him to move into his guest room was enough of a struggle, and it only really worked because Lance had promised Silver he could "earn" his keep. What the hell is up with that, anyways? He's not sure what Silver's past looks like, and he's not about to go prying, but the bare minimum he can do is make sure he doesn't have to rough it out in the woods anymore. At least Clair seems to be having fun training him...
Clair is more than ready to be an aunt. The other two refuse to admit to caring for each other, but unlike them, she's not afraid of something as stupid as her emotions. The brat's slowly but surely been mellowing out during his training, and her idiot cousin has actually been taking care of himself for once in order to be a "good example." Silver has even caught on to calling Lance "old man" like she does, on account of those ugly-ass reading glasses the all-mighty Champion has to wear, and she couldn't be prouder. Best part is, she doesn't have to spend a dime except to treat the kid every so often! That's a win in her book if ever there was one.
#pokemon#pokemon hgss#hgss#rival silver#champion lance#gym leader clair#warning! lots of rambling in the tags >_>#love me some Father Figure Lance(TM) but the way i characterize him and silver doesn’t completely allow for it#they end up caring about each other deeply but as mentioned neither of them would feel comfortable labeling their dynamic as father/son#doesn't mean lance can't be silver's “old man” and silver can't be lance's “kid”#clair meanwhile is just delighted to have someone else to beat up on /affectionate. she's a big fan of tough love#she understands silver's not looking for a family and accepts it just fine but she's still going to adopt him in her head#the three of them are family now. he can't escape. he's going to be welcomed and taken care of So Help Her Arceus.#part of her likes to spoil silver in a way she never really got as a child#(though that doesn't mean she's ever going to go easy on him during training. if anything it makes her push him that much harder)#(this definitely doesn't make silver think she hates him or anything until lance explains she's Just Kinda Like That)#(she's actually much nicer to silver than most people---she's extremely assertive and has a very strong sense of justice)#(which makes her seem a bit bitchy to others at times (and they wouldn't necessarily be wrong))#((this is making me realize i need to just write a breakdown of my characterization for her tbh))#meanwhile lance tries to give him more freedom and space to breathe since that's what he always lacked growing up#he's still going to be there if silver ever asks but he also recognizes that trying to get too close too quickly will just scare him off#anyways#*vibrating in place with the intensity of a million suns* i am so normal about them. i love them a perfectly acceptable amount.
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I have a small crush on this girl right, and brooo 😭
#I dressed nice yesterday bec I was like ‘oh she always dresses nice why not try wearing smthn nice today’#like to impress her a teeny bit bec I usually just wear comfy clothing#and she wasn’t there#and TODAY#when I decide to wear a shitty looking hoodie and jeans#bec im tried as SHIT from studying#SHES HERE#KMSKMSKMSSSD#p: not aph#anyways she’s out of my league so it doesn’t matter but Wah )):
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oh how quickly we’ve gone from shauna saying “she’s obsessed with my baby, tai!” to shauna’s baby actually being obsessed with her (it’s been 25 years)
( https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNdJ8yyNP/ )
#it doesn’t convert tiktok links to video automatically?????#who amongst us hasn’t been a 17 year old with a raging crush on your moms insane cult leader cannibal friend that you once shot with a gun?#yellowjackets#i do think they have an interesting dynamic that will be important though#like callie who is desperate to connect with her mom and needs to know what happened but shauna won’t let her in#and lottie who is always looking for who or what she thinks the wilderness wants and i think probably IS willing#to tell callie a lot of the things that shauna won’t#so I think that’s what’s really going on instead of callie having a crush….that’s just the funnier answer though#and I’m glad we all agree that it’s fine actually for Callie to have a crush (if she does) but draw the line at actually like…encouraging it#because gross! and illegal! and not in a fun way like cannibalism or murder
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Naw bro y’all are making my OCs seem more interesting then they actually are ☠️☠️ /j
Every time this happens though I’m like well it’s intentional NOW 😈😈😈😈
#doodle#doodles#Someone said they liked how the markings on one of my OCs eyes looked like mascara and they said they liked how it fit the OCs character#BECUASE she was sad all the time…. Gusys…. Who’s gonna tel them.. /j#The only intental detail I put on an OC that someone noticed was that Obsidians marking represents a third eye because he knows the truth o#What’s going on in the foundation gigiles#Ok they just said it looks like a third eye and they were right but it has a meanin so liek#GUYS…. HAZELS MARKING ON HIS FACE LOOOKS LIKE A HEART….. 🥺🥺🥺 OMG…. I learn new things about my OCs every day /j#I MADE IT LOOK LIKE THAT BECAUSE ITS LIKE… A CLOSED EYE COMPARED TO OBSIDIANs OPEN EYE MARKING I NEVER THOGUHT OF IT LOOKING LIKE ANHEART#And his heart marking is always covered up…. Because he doesn’t want to truly show he cares about to others…. O h my fucking god#How did I not realize this ABOUT. MY OWN OC. WHAT.
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“you know where to find me…”
“…and i know where to look”
River Song and The Doctor
#idk if this makes sense#but i feel like this works for them#in the sense that the Doctor can always find River either because she’s just in Stormcage or she makes it easier to find her#and she’s always looking for him because he’s never stationary and doesn’t always have the same face#but she always manages to leave messages where she knows he’ll be able to see them#the doctor#professor river song#river song#river song x the doctor#doctorriver#tenriver#elevenriver#twelveriver#doctor who#you know where to find me#you and me. time and space. you watch us run
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Nothing to see here just Alcina and her three mini-me’s
#house dimitrescu#daniela dimitrescu#resident evil village#cassandra dimitrescu#bela dimitrescu#resident evil 8#re8#alcina dimitrescu#she’s just so proud of them#she loves them to death#no y’all don’t get it it’s how she looks at them like mama do you ever actually get mad at them??#she gets annoyed and irritated because they’re silly and their banter can go too far sometimes#but she doesn’t lose her temper at them#she just adores her three big spawns and in her eyes they’re always going to be her babies no matter how many people they kill and eat#*bug spawns
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i look at you and my eyes are so so so wet like with tears tears of pure emotion and extend out my closed fist and then I open up my hand and you see her. my troll oc. the greatest oc. from 2013. I brought her back and redesigned her and im insane about her again. i begin sobbing on the ground. she’s so small. itty bitty……….
#this is melosa she is everything to me#weeping crying sobbing oh my god look at her awwwww AWWWUGHHH WEEHEHHH#sorry for not answering asks I was drawing this and buying some little bug guys who really rule.#id like to answer them soon im just a little burnt out#yeah she has an ankle monitor and hidden shock collar… little guy gets into a lot of trouble.#she’s the first jadeblooded cicada on her colony so they haven’t culled her for her antics.#the cicadas are essential to communicating with the mother grub#however by sabotage/accident she was given to a lusus for a more normal jadeblood and the nest parasite process went wrong#leading to her being rejected by her lusus : ( <im sooo edgy.#she spent a good deal of her time as a pretty young wriggler wandering around stealing from other trolls in the complex. the youngest troll#are raised in the interior layer of the planet.#she’s always been a rambler. she’s in the WALLS. she managed to break into somewhere super secret she wasn’t supposed to which got#The tracking device stuck on her. if she gets into areas she’s not supposed to be the collar might shock her.#she’s pretty miffed about the whole thing!! it doesn’t help with her exsisting issues with aggression#she likes making people mad and making people fight. just an angry wrath filled little guy#she wears the collars on her horns to stop anyone from trying to calm her down#bugstuck#buggy trolls#homestuck#homestuck oc#fantroll
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Dorian is the kind of boyfriend who spoils in every way imaginable because he just loves Manon so much????
Like, he knows how hard she is on herself and how she just works constantly (trying to get the approval of a grandmother who would never utter a word of kindness at her yet she keep pushing herself)
Dorian knows he can’t stop her, so he tries what he can while she works herself to the point of exhaustion.
He loves cooking. And he especially loves of when he cooks for Manon (because often times she doesn’t turn him down and actually eats the food he makes)
When he wants to order food he doesn’t even ask if she wants anything because her answer would be ‘no’ and he doesn’t work with that.
He also loves baking!!! Tho Manon is not into sweet things but he still makes cookies (which she loves because the way Dorian makes them is ‘unique’ and they’re about the only cookies she’ll eat ever)
Dorian makes sure Manon stops working at some point during the night and just… relax. He made a small rule: she has until he finishes cooking dinner to finish work, because from that point on she is his to spoil. It starts with food, then a hot bath followed by either reading in bed or watching a movie (they take turns picking) he just focuses these few hours on Manon and makes sure she’s relaxed and that she goes to sleep at a reasonable hour
He hates it when her grandmother calls in the evening. After these phone calls Manon is usually feeling bad and she ends up staying in the office well into the morning. No matter what he says or does, she doesn’t leave the room. She doesn’t eat, doesn’t sleep and just power through whatever shit her grandmother said to her. It usually takes 2-3 days of her being like this until she crashes from exhaustion.
Speaking of, Manon is terrible at being sick. For all her life, her grandmother has drilled into her that sickness is a weakness and weakness is not acceptable in a Blackbeak. When she was younger, any time she got sick, her grandmother didn’t want to know about it. She’d isolate her in her room, ordering her to stay there and not come out until she is recovered because she doesn’t want to deal with her or her sickness (doesn’t have the time for it) so Manon grew up brushing sickness aside and carrying on like nothing is wrong. Dorian learned that nothing he says will change her mind, and unfortunately he has to wait it out. She either gets better in her own (rare) or get worse to the point of passing out and that’s when he interferes. It’s still something they’re working through, but the fact remains: Manon doesn’t let sickness stop her, not unless she’s actually unconscious.
One time she got a cold and recovered, except for the cough which stayed persistent for well over a month. She thought nothing of it, it would clear out on its own. But it didn’t, Dorian could have sworn it got worse. It got to the point where Manon was having difficulty breathing to get her to finally see a doctor. Turns out she had contracted an infection and it took her about three weeks of hospitalization to get over it.
Dorian really hates her grandmother but he also knows that she’s her only family and the sole parental figure she had her whole life. She won’t cut her off or stop talking to her.
So he decided to be the opposite of that; whatever damage the old woman did, he will be there, offering his unconditional love and support because Manon deserves the world and none of the unnecessary harshness her grandmother keeps subjecting her to
#booklr#books and reading#throne of glass#manon blackbeak#tog#dorian havilliard#manon x dorian#manorian#idk just manorian thoughts because they’re not leaving me#I just know he will spoil the fuck out of her#always telling her that she’s enough and worthy and doesn’t need to push herself too hard#but she doesn’t listen because he can’t just undo a lifetime of her being mistreated like that#he doesn’t mind though he just continues looking after her because she is his world and she deserves the best
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(anthytouga voice) why would i be compassionate to nanami ew disgusting nanami’s literally the worst nanami is a cockroach i hope she dies she’s so fucking stupid oh my god being compassionate to nanami is the worsttttttt so what if the worst things ever happen to her and it’s my fault that’s just lifeohhhhhhhhhhh oh? utena is experiencing the worst things ever and i helped? and i helped? oh well i should just kill myself. oh well i should just kill myself and save her because actually utena is Good. and stupid. but Good. unlike nanami lol nanami was born cursed to suffer haha nanami’s got that karmic punishment coming lollllll But Utena Does Not <3
#i find this ‘discrepancy’ (for want of a better word) FASCINATING#bc it’s not like anthy and touga don’t both identify with utena at times#in a manner VERY similar to their identification with nanami (‘you don’t know what i know but you feel and experience the same things’)#but with nanami. die kill maim vibes. and with utena. look at that poor kicked (noble) puppy vibes#something about utena being brought into something so obviously#when nanami has always been here. crab bucket moment idk#nanami in 32 vs utena in 39…. i think the thoughts#like why would nanami extend a hand to anthy. she wouldn’t#what’s crazy to me is she TRIES to do that w touga bc of course she does#but she realises he’s not gonna do that. and her wanting him to doesn’t outweigh her wanting to live anymore#utena reaches out to anthy bc she wants to#it’s like. nanami’s rejection of the system and in turn anthy and touga’s worldviews is that cold hard realisation one needs#perhaps more obviously touga but it impacts anthy all the same — next episode is 33!!!! hello!!!!!!!#but they still feel more or less powerless. just cogs in a machine it’s just that now they’re more aware of their own pain and others’#and touga gets left behind in this bc he’s ruined his meaningful connections with like Everyone Ever#but utena reaches out to anthy as i said before. and utena says ‘i care about you’ and it’s not for herself as much as it is for anthy#ohhhhhh i am just. i am Just#dais.txt
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