#shameless plug but i really like this scene lmao

[mantequillamcwhoremick]

You can pry K2 friendship dynamic from my cold dead hands

(Extract from Mystechaos fic "Chaos Plan" chapter 4 on Ao3)

[hiemaldesirae]

i have less than 24 hours left before i have to go through one of the most stressful days of my life so. heres a list of my fav radiostatic fic recs in no particular order

clarification: by radiostatic i mean fics where vox is 100% not the dom in the relationship. most of these dont contain explicit sex though, and im not recommending any straight porn fics here because you can easily find those with a click and search through the bottom vox tag lmao

most of these fics are unfinished, so be warned that i will not take accountability if you get attached to these without them being finished properly. in fact ill just laugh at you because then we'll be suffering together

now, that aside- starting off strong with some of the more popular fics:

RHTVS / Radio Healed the Video Star by Aspiring_Forest_Witch

notes: LONG fucking fic. like this guys almost 700k words long fic. one of the best things ive ever read in my life though and it has a plotline thats frankly more engaging than the actual showing of hazbin on amazon. so. you know. if you have the time to read it Please do you wont regret it

Unraveling Emotions by Xaelei

notes: one of my favourite fics ever on god. started my brainrot for dad!husk, portrays one of the most scrumptious radiostatic dynamics and is generally so very well written that i might end up trying to recreate one of the scenes in comic form. genuinely in love with this fic and im so glad i can say i was the first comment on this fic because my God its such a treat to see new chapters drop for this. unfortunately i havent had the time to write out a detailed comment as of now but if someone wants to let the author know that im still in love with their fic and will continue supporting it until i drop dead go ahead for me

Safe with Me by rillyrillo

notes: the prequel and main fic of this series is human radiostatic, though the sequel is set in hell. it comes with gorgeous gorgeous art and frankly one of the most exhilirating endings ive ever had the pleasure of witnessing play out. i recommend you guys check out their other fics too, the art continues in them + their radiostatic is written wonderfully across all universes!

A Month of Rut by Vylad

notes: this fic is very self indulgent to me. i love the way radiostatic is written in this one because theyre very soft and sweet, but others may not prefer it if theyre looking for freak4freak radiostatic. if you just want something to indulge in and relax with at the end of a heavy day though this is my #1 rec. i read this sometimes when i find myself crying at night lmao

Down, Up, and Back Down by CowboyEnthusiast

notes: made me sob like a baby. 10/10 no notes whatsoever read it for yourself because you WILL not regret it. i genuinely am always at a loss for words whenever i reread this because it is among the most gutwrenching but beautiful and poetic works that ive ever read and i think it deserves some recognition

Mind the Gap by ZLynn

notes: again, to reiterate, i do very much dislike the abusive!staticmoth portrayal i see in a lot of fics. but in this one... it's written so perfectly, i can definitely see it actually happening. i enjoy the way that val does still seem to care about vox, albeit in his own twisted way that eventually breaks and fractures their love and trust, and its just. Ugh. So fucking good

+ with the less popular but still wonderful depictions of radiostatic that i love to indulge in:

i'll give you a show (cause it helps fill the seats) by dead_and_dreaming

notes: absolutely shameless plug from me for my dear mk's work because i cant stop thinking about the way that she's portrayed al here. its actually insane how fucked up that stupid little deer is and i just. i really fucking love the way that their alastor is written, it's genuinely probably my Number One depiction of alastor ever. i demand more of this stupid little freak RIGHT NOW!!!!

Any of the fics by Rachello344 in the Hazbin Hotel Fandom Tag on their profile

notes: so remember when i told you guys i wouldnt be linking straight porn. looks away... okay in my defense though i read the smut for the characterization and their unique dynamics. its sooo interesting to see how their radiostatic is explored here and im honestly refreshed by the depiction of their relationship. im here for it !!!

The Read 'Em and Weep Series by TooManyPseudonyms

notes: so from what i was able to piece together (everything flies over my head when im reading, forgive me for my low media literacy) this is an au set before the hotel where (in the first work) al and vox are in a qpr relationship. in the second work this evolves into a romantic relationship, and the exploration of their dynamic through this is just... Yeah. please read it its 100% worth your time and so underrated it hurts my heart

Uneasy by Saezs

notes: this fic is one of the first radiostatic fics i read (the others being RHTVS and... i think i tried the 666 series, but it didnt appeal to me lol) and its actually just wonderful. i really love saezs's genderfluid vox and how supportive the other vees are of them <3 their portrayl of the characters puts a smile on my face whenever i reread their work

Heat Waves by HappyPRAWN

notes: i'll be fr dsmptsd hit me like a truck when i read the title but it is such an interesting debut! only at one chapter as of me making this post but the way the author wrote this is so engaging and it really makes me wonder what they have next in store for the fic

Do I have your attention now? by Chi_Chi25

notes: wow no way we have the same name... anyway ahem. ill be completely honest this ones a bit of a guilty pleasure for me. this fic is a bit fragmented and short, so for people who click off fics when they see imperfect grammar this one may not be for you. however if you can look past that, it has an engaging storyline and quite the juicy concept :)

Killer Ex by FanGirl48

notes: gorgeous, gorgeous little human! radiostatic oneshot. i love the relationship that vox and al have here... the reasons why they both stayed away from each other even though theyre still so very clearly down bad for each other... anyway. i think about this one a lot and i still go back to reread it sometimes lol

Negotiations by FanGirl48

notes: i didnt realize until i started making this list that this fic was also written by fangirl48.... go off queen keep feeding us (me). this one was a fic recommended to me initially by link nonny, and i can 100% vouch for how good it is. its got appletv interactions, radiostatic plus lucifer trying to navigate heaven, angels... basically everything needed for a very varied and well packed with flavour story

The diary of a Serial Killer by ShippersCave

notes: okay im running out of brain juice at this point but. yeah this fic is soooo self indulgent to me. this ones another human au, with al as a serial killer and vox as the journalist trying to conduct interviews with him. its got SUCH a good dynamic between al and vox, i encourage you guys to check it out and give it a chance even if youre not really into human aus.

My heart's been pierced by Cupid by ShippersCave

notes: pirate/siren au !!!!!!!!! RAAHH !!!!! i dont have to say anything else for this if thats not enough to get you to click then i dont know what is

System Shutdown by Swoolie

notes: i cant believe i nearly forgot about this one LMAO... vox goes onto a temporary hiatus and everyone goes crazy about it. im not really sure if this counts as radiostatic frankly because of the way its tagged but its so good i think you should give it a read anyway

Together in Radio Static by Anonymous

notes: QPR media husbands radiostatic au !!!! i love this one especially because it opens off with vox slapping alastor across the face for leaving him LMAOO (deserved)

What Has Been by Tianren

notes: another human au (YEAH YEAH I KNOW. JUST HEAR ME OUT OKAY i swear im cooking) look, as someone with religious trauma deeper than i can properly express and the worlds fifteenth worst parental issues, the depiction of vox in this fic just really hits home. i really adore the exploration of voxs past and how the themes of religious guilt and cults are woven in so far- and it blends very seamlessly with their human au, despite the characters eccentricities

you're too sweet for me by awestruck_atrophy and moonbeanies

notes: basically, vox and al make a deal where vox tries to help him out of the shackles or whatever that are bound to him because of his stupid dumbass lusting for power. its very intriguing so far and i love the setup and worldbuilding the authors have done, so you should check it out if you want a unique perspective on radiostatics relationship

candlelight by curtailed

notes: the best way i can think of to describe this one is like... fake marriage but instead of fake marriage its. fake roommates??? the author probably puts it better than me tbh. its super interesting so far, i cant wait to see where this one is headed especially with how unique its premise is!

Zero Day by Anonymous

notes: this one is like those time regression manhwas. you know, the ones where the protag goes back in time and proceeds to try and avoid everyone who made their life miserable- only to fail because for some reason now they're paying attention to them more than they would have had they stayed the same person. its certainly very promising, though! i do love indulging in time regression stories, especially when the mc is someone i love like vox. i really cant wait to see which direction this one is headed in :)

Never as Good as the First Time by IComeForFanficsNowin403

notes: okay. so, uh. um. so- this one is in spanish. HOWEVER its premise (serial killer alastor meets television star (?? i think. its not quite clear) at a party hosted by rosie, moves into his neighborhood to keep an eye on the pretty prey) is just so unique i honestly think its worth the experience to pull out google translate and try living the machine translated life. really. give it a chance. also its got beautiful art to go along with, so.. you know. thats just a bonus!

+ honorary staticmoth and one-sided/past radiostatic fic rec:

Freak-A-Zoid by Femalefonzie

notes: this fic deserves every single piece of praise its ever gotten because good lord. its SO good. i was not seeing the radiostatic twist come in, but it *is* mostly staticmoth. and also a/b/o but i mean. who *hasnt* indulged in a little bit of a/b/o before honestly

there are other fics that i personally like to indulge in, but i frankly wouldnt recommend to anyone else because they're either the kinds of fics that i myself can only bring myself to read after ive spent 8 hours at work crying into my pillow and need to look at something entertaining, or when im starved of content and cant be bothered to cook myself so i pull out the translator and start going at it. (technically i should know how to read french by now but. urgh. anywway..)

[skaruresonic]

So Sonic 3's trailer finally dropped today. Any thoughts on it?

I had zero hype for this film because I didn't like the previous two and had no reason to believe this one would turn out any different. Lo and behold! ...it doesn't.

There's so much I could talk about.

• The shameless digging up of the corpse of my favorite Sonic game just to dress it up Norman Bates-style. Why yes, I love getting butchered adaptations of SA2 shoved down my throat. Keep 'em coming.

• The fact that the overly-furry aesthetic Paramount chose for Sonic and the other anthros still looks plug-ugly to my eyes no matter how much I try to get acclimated to it. In fact, it somehow looks even worse here than it did in previous movies.

• The fact that they ripped off a scene from Matrix Revolutions. Interesting choice, lmao.

• Jimbotnik continuing to register as "Jim Carrey in a costume" and not as Eggman.

• Agent Stone continuing to be a nothingburger of a character aside from being a living footstool for Jimbotnik. I thought everybody said he was going to be 3's main antagonist. Why is he even here.

• Jimbotnik calling Gerald "Pop-Pop," cutesy-ing it up for no real reason, when Eggman simply called him "grandpa" at most in the games. What, is his grandfather Mike Ehrmantraut now?

• The original game's "fuck the police" angle now being ignored in favor of maybe making GUN look like the good guys (what?).

• The fact that the ARK, an iconic location, is nowhere in sight is making me more than a tad apprehensive. Idk if this thing is supposed to replace it:

• This one really steams my hams: the fact that Paramount portrays Jimbotnik's weight gain via hateful stereotypes of fat men which the games do not employ in their overall portrayal of Eggman. It reflects a fatphobic attitude I could have told you was the case years ago judging by the fact that they cast a thin man in the role.

Games!Eggman is stylish and immaculately groomed, but Jimbotnik has to be a slob who dresses like The Dude just because he gained a little weight. Of course. 🙄

It really bothers me because Eggman is quite possibly one of the only examples of positive fat male representation I can point to, and they can't even let him be a little fat onscreen without literally exposing his belly with the intent to make fun of him in ways the games seldom do, if ever.

God fucking forbid he actually weighs the 281 lbs. he does in canon; Paramount would probably portray him like Fat Bastard from Austin Powers.

In lieu of being portrayed as dumb and weak, as is usually the case for fat male characters, Games!Eggman is portrayed as cunning, intelligent, powerful (physically and mentally), and stylish in a way that commands respect, despite whatever this Chili's says to discredit him. Eggman is fucking cool, and y'all are tripping if you don't think so.

• The fact that this movie is probably going to be cringe on the basis of its constant bathos-inducing insistence on making the characters crack mistimed jokes during serious moments.

• Doing a double take when Sonic called Shadow an "alien," possibly realizing that "alien" is the film universe's designation for anthros, then promptly short-circuiting and catching on fire. Can we not.

• Why does the trailer insist on making Shadow look like a wet cat? They did not deep-freeze my boy like they did in the games. Games!Shadow emerged from stasis minty-fresh, whereas Movie!Shadow looks like a newborn kitten yeeted straight out of the womb:

Disgustang. Stop that.

• The fact that everyone gives '06 flack for aesthetic whiplash but thinks Shadow looking like a muppet beside an irl little girl is fine, actually:

And the fact that said little girl may be killed just making dead Maria jokes 10x more uncomfortable than they need to be.

• They missed an opportunity for a fun visual gag by having the bathroom sign read "occupied" instead of "eggupied" or "hatching" (as in hatching a scheme. or a shit. maybe both, lol). Something like that:

They can pay homage to the Akira bike slide and the Super Burly Brawl from Matrix Revolutions, but God forbid we actually allude to Sonic games :v

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...But most of this can be boiled down to "Paramount gonna Paramount."

All in all, I'm likely to continue my time-honored tradition of seeing the movie when it releases in theaters because deep down, I'm still a Sonic whore and subsequently pretending the films don't exist thereafter lol

[raayllum]

1 - favorite fic you wrote this year. 3 - favorite line/scene you wrote this year. 12 - favorite character to write about this year. 14 - a fic you didn’t expect to write. 21 - most memorable comment/review. And 24 - favorite fic you read this year.

I have no precision on fandom or fic... You are free to choose which fandom. Thus, you may make us discover other universes.

1) favourite fic you wrote this year

Looked through and discovered that I wrote 20 fics this year, which is wild, even if the majority are oneshots so... certainly have my pick an picks for various reasons!

These are the ones, probably:

This Fall Might Just Kill Me is 10.2k of Callum trying and failing to get purified, post-S4, and was one of my favourites and one I return to pretty often for a personal re-read. Very Callum/Rayla centric, some magic worldbuilding, and lots of devotion. Oneshot

Twice as Many Stars is 8.7k of Sir Sparklepuff is an existential horror story, the fic, featuring more religious trauma allegory than expected. Also a oneshot

Teach Me How to Name the Bigger Light a fanon s6 currently of 5 out of roughly 26-30ish chapters, and at 41k and counting. Main characters are Callum, Ezran, Rayla, and Claudia in about that order. It's a lot of fun, and a lot of angst

3) favourite line/scene this year

"If it's not you, it's not anyone" has one of my favourite love / Rayllum confessions I've ever written. I also loved this line from a (now non canon) fic regarding Kpp'Ar's feelings on Callum/people "There are many ways to mend broken things, if you can". I deeply enjoyed Callum threatening Nyx over Rayla's safety in this pre-S5 fic and this piece of description as well: "Callum knelt down in front of her, her cheeks heating as he reached up and pried the shawl away again, looking at the way the scar crept over her shoulder like dark ivy" + this Rayllum passage from "this fall just might kill me" (edit in the link):

“It’s because if I die,” he said, squeezing her hands. “I want you to be the last thing I ever see. And you are good enough, Rayla. You are . I don’t care if you destroy me. I don't care if we make each other better or worse or both. I love you. I’ll fall for you every time. I’ll choose to, I’ll choose you, every time.” 

I also really enjoyed writing Callum and Lujanne in "older but just never wiser" because it was interesting to revisit their dynamic now that well, Callum is older, powerful, and much more jaded/angry.

Drabbles wise this Rayllum one has one of my favourite metaphoric uses I've ever been able to pull off and I always love 1) writing messy Ezran and 2) Ezran being a little done with his brother's less than favourable methods, so this one for Ezran's "underhanded" comment for sure

But if I had to pick a singular exchange fic wise, it is of course the end of the Callum and Ezran fight from Ch4 of fanon s6, because it was a line that hurt me so much I was sad the rest of the day, and I also thought of it before writing a decent chunk of the boys' argument, so making sure it felt earned and hit the way I wanted to was very fun if also angsty. I apologize in advance lmao:

Only this time Callum scoffed, peeling away, his green eyes glinting. “Yeah, right.”  “I am your king and I forbid you—” “You don’t get to forbid me from doing anything because guess what?” A manic gleam overtook his brother’s face. “I don’t fucking care what you think, nevermind what you fucking decree. I’m freeing Runaan, and that’s final.”  “Then you can do it without my help,” Ezran said with a ragged breath. “Because I am not giving you my seal.”  Callum stared at him with cold eyes. “Dad would be so disappointed in you.” But this time Ezran was ready for the blow, as he said, “Well at least I called him Dad."

A shameless plug OG fantasy world wise was definitely this lines from my sequel WIP. You can learn more about it/the fantasy world here <3

The Alpha of the Crescents may have worn her old friend’s face and mannerisms, but the girls they’d both been were long dead, just like their families.  It was time to finish the job and bury them.

as well as

“Good. Vita willing I won’t live to see your next lives.” “Because seeing you again has been so pleasant,” Jamie muttered.

from book one

12) favourite character to write about this year

Given my above answers it's clearly been Callum, but Ezran has probably been my standout in "teach me how to name the bigger light," easy, even if I think Rayla's POV is going to sneak up on me more and more as the fic goes on, especially once we reach the chapters at the Starscraper. I've also written a somewhat decent amount of Kpp'Ar POV this year, I loved writing Claudia in "twice as many stars" in particular. Everyone? Can I say everyone?

But if I had to pick, Callum. (Non fic wise it's all the OG chosen one kiddos running around, I love 'em.)

14) a fic you didn't expect to write

Many days of angry muttering and half concocted plot points predated "teach me how to name the bigger light" and I am still slightly internally salty about it. However, it does feel good to have one last fanon season foray, especially since it's been four years since the last one, and I've been having a fucking blast, lemme tell you.

21) most memorable comment/review

This is hard because I do cherish every review and kind word I get (as well as anyone who leaves notes in their bookmarks) but there are some standouts. Basically anything from twice as many stars is fair game as well as this review on fanon s6, cause I'm gonna go the typical write route and say the long bois make my day / when readers catch onto the smaller details, that's absolutely my favourite:

@inamindfarfaraway <3 hope you've enjoyed the most recent chapter!

24) favourite fic you read this year

Have already done some TDP fic recs here so I'm gonna focus on what's in my bookmarks for now! I mostly read LOZ or SOC fics when I'm not making my way through TDP backlog, but this one for Six of Crows centreing on Inej and Kaz called High Wire Act stood out to me and I'm really enjoying "for the children we couldn't be" for TDP because it's trio centric and the exact kind of time travel fuckery I like to read.

This is tricky, though, cause I find most often the favourite things I participate in is like, the stuff I write because it's what I want to read and most tailored to my specific tastes? I also just don't read as much fic as I could / have in the past and it's hard to pick Just One Fic, y'know? So cop out answer, maybe, but this is the one!

[vacantgodling]

The Fool, The Magicuan, The Emperor, The Lovers, Justice, and The Sun !!

(Might send another ask later. It was a long list and I'm currently at a lecture lmao)

HENRIKEEEE firstly thank u secondly LMAO felt i usually do most of my tumblring whilst at work 💀

00. THE FOOL: BEGINNINGS (What is the opening line to your current work?) 

hilarious cuz i haven’t written the first chapter of paramour yet. however i am counting cage as a current novel/project (it’s gonna have 20 chapters so 💀 fanfiction be damned that’s a fucking book LMAO) so here’s the first line from that (and shameless plug u can read it here!

Sometime closer to dusk when the number of airplanes he could make out crossing the horizon was fewer and fewer, and the lights of Gibraltar’s closest neighboring city La Linea began to kiss the night with her bright lights, Lena came to find him.

01. THE MAGICIAN: SPARK OF MAGIC (What inspired you to write your novel?) 

going back to paramour tho honestly the biggest jumping off point where it slowly began to take shape was crimson peak. i remember really distinctly wanting to want a story of that vibe, with ghosts and mystery but then it eventually evolved into the form it’s in now by drawing from other inspiration sources. like it’s very much Not like how i initially thought it would be LMAO but i love this version more 💛

i’m just gonna put my influences slide from my powerpoint to fully illustrate but yeah like A Lot went into getting this wip started.

a lot of it also hinges on the development of both hya as a character (being the first Real Asshole i’ve allowed myself to write as a protagonist) and his relationship with amon—also my desire to write a romance on My Terms just for me that I Liked. ive always felt like i had to write what other people wanted to see or what was good and wholesome but like. i can write whatever i want and this story was the first step in doing that.

04. THE EMPEROR: STRUCTURE (How do you plot your novels?) 

this is a bit of a complicated question only because it’s kind of… all over the place. but in general what i usually do is i make a VERY detailed outline of all the events i want to happen in the book. chapter by chapter the whole nine. like down to adding bits of dialogue, plugging in any exploratory pieces i wrote before hand for context or to add structure

(and what i mean by exploratory is like basically i don’t tend to plot immediately, i write small blurbs to understand the vibes and feels. a old piece on this blog somewhere (perhaps) is when i wrote about hya asking amon to come to the masquerade reception with him in an extremely roundabout way, but that was written WAAAAY back when i was first trying to understand their dynamic; hell amon didn’t even have a name! and now that scene has a proper slot in the outline in chapter 9 lmao).

but i literally do this so i can KNOW what the hell im doing. i’m not a pants-person by any means literally or figuratively, so i need to be able to see the vision.

once i have an outline fully written out i can either write from the beginning down (like i’m doing with cage rn) or i can do what i’m doing with paramour and write based on interest level. writing based on interest level is probably going to be how i write my original novels just because whenever i’ve tried to write straight down (like i have with donut wip) i tend to get mad stuck. and i think it’s because especially in first drafts of my original novels i tend to have certain scenes… fuzzier than others. i need the context of the other scenes around them to build them up. or those are worldbuilding holes etc etc. either way my og novels i tend to get stuck in cuz there’s more thinking involved lmao.

06. THE LOVERS: RELATIONSHIPS (What are your favorite relationships to write about, whether romantic, familial, or platonic?) 

romantic >>>>>>> familial/platonic.

i’m just a romantic at heart generally speaking.

but on a deep level i have a weird personal struggle (it’s the ‘ism) with family and friends so like… i just find them more difficult to write because i don’t really experience them “easily” in my own life? — or at the bare minimum they just spark less joy to me than romance to me. i want to get better at writing other kinds of relationships but i also think writing them just makes me feel lonely lmao.

11. JUSTICE: TRUTH (What is the 'truth' of your novel i.e the prevalent themes or overarching motifs?) 

🤔 i think the most prevalent theme of paramour is truth itself tbh. finding truth yes, and the power of truth in itself sure, but also cultivating the truth within yourself—you’ll only be happy when you live truthfully to your desires yknow?

19. THE SUN: POSITIVITY (What is your greatest writing strength or skill?)

pretty prose in itself. i think i’m really good at creating saccharine, deep descriptions of emotions and those kinds of sentences long winding and emotional really tickle my brain personally so i put the most OOMPH into them.

[edai-crplpnk]

Okay, I have a three-part response to this.

Part 1: The Main Sentiment

Part 2: Shameless Self-Plugging

Maybe it would be a bit presumptuous to promise you my smut is excellent, but I can at least promise you that I put my entire switch and vers gay soul into being extremely in love with both my tops and bottoms, both my doms and subs, and into giving them many feelings about all of this, easy and difficult ones.

I have a BDSM T4T series (https://archiveofourown.org/series/3264934) that can be read fandom blind and that is mostly porn without plot, so there's not as big of dialogue/narration about this topic, they are there in the background, but all fics have aftercare scenes in which it's clear that both characters may need aftercare. (Fic 2 is almost exclusively bottom/sub aftercare from the top/dom, Fic 1 and 3 are mostly top/dom aftercare from the bottom/sub, and Fic 4 has some care/help/support to a novice dom from the experienced dom as they share a sub.)

I have a series with some long fics but also a number of one-shot smut (https://archiveofourown.org/series/2918376) that can be read fandom blind where the main character is a sappy mostly top who also is much into service topping (and I don't mean that as in subbing as a top, but really as is, being at the service of, which imo can be a dom thing, it's more a matter of who's pleasure is being put at the centre to me). There is one fic of his first time with a man (https://archiveofourown.org/works/44161606) that among other things addresses the realisation that both his partner and himself before that point have never really acknowledged that sex could be vulnerable for him too, and that he's always assumed and have been assumed to have to be the one to be careful and never been on the receiving end of this. There is one fic of him hooking up once as a top and once as a bottom with a trans guy (https://archiveofourown.org/works/40721961) where the difference for him between both of those things is discussed, and also that shows the very different way they both do it, with the other guy being more controlling and self-centred (I really don't mean that in a bad way, again, I think that preferences regarding whose pleasure is at the front if anyone's is core to the diversity of sexual dynamics and there's no right or wrong way if everyone is having fun, see pillow princesses and stone butches for example) regardless of the position while he's more of service and selfless regardless of the position. There are a bunch of other fics in the series, and in non-smut ones the question of various relationships to queerness and gender and everything is central, but those are the most sex-related ones.

And finally, I have a series (https://archiveofourown.org/series/2394742) that is not really fandom blind (it's Naruto) because the fics that this is discussed in are long fics with a lot of plot, but if you want to raw dog this and only read the smut scene talking about this accepting that some plot point in them will be obscure, I'll give you the chapter ref. The character this is centred about has exclusively bottomed thus far and is usually in a sub position, by genuine preferences in part, but also a shitload of trauma. So this isn't so much about tops and doms, but it is about him trying once to somewhat dom (https://archiveofourown.org/works/35525683, chapter 9, starting at "His fingers fumble around") and once trying to top (https://archiveofourown.org/works/46041961/, all of chapter 10) with discussion/internal monologue about how this feels a lot harder for him than bottoming and subbing.

Now I'd like also to write some thoughts and feelings I have on the matter but tumblr already deleted this wip post once while I was writing, so I'm not going to tempt my luck, I'm going to post this, and then I'll post the part 3 in a second reblog lmao.

In the meantime (or at any point in life), if you have recs of fics that are either naruto or fandom blind enough and that love their tops/doms or have discussions regarding topping/bottoming, domming/subbing in general, please feel free to tell me I'd love to hear about it!

I wish more fanfic writers were empathetic to tops and doms. I think a lack of empathy there explains a lot of the fandom discourse around the idea that it’s racist to make characters with darker skin the top or seme or whatever.

Part of why it bothers people, I think, is that in fandom spaces—for a variety of reasons—people have somehow come to a consensus that it’s fine to have submissive and degradation oriented fantasies, but not fantasies about making someone submit or doing the degrading. SOME people don’t let themselves think about the interiority of those that could actually deliver them what they want, sexually. And I don’t even just mean actual sex! I can tell when a fic author actually gets off on topping or domming. Those people are kind of rare in fandom, but their fics really stand out if you know what you’re looking for. Side note—I think there’s a lot of untapped potential in whump writers, who could probably write really wonderful nasty smut, but who are ashamed of writing something sexual and worried about backlash (so they just stick to narrative torture for now).

If you instinctively think that writing a character as a top or dom means they’re incapable of having interiority or complexity because YOU can’t write a compelling top or dom character for shit, then you might also think that any writing of people of color as tops or doms is inherently bad or offensive writing. And this is sad for everyone, but it’s especially sad for the actual tops and doms of color in the real world who have to read people saying that they don’t exist, or that characters who feel like them are offensive and racist.

Ironically, the people who claim that writing a character of color as a top or dom automatically makes that character a racist or brutish stereotype are reenforcing that stereotype. I want to see more compellingly written top and dom characters who have actual wants and conflicts. Give me more woobie, extremely emotional doms. Give me self esteem issues, or the struggles of being mistreated by subs, or feeling reduced to what they can provide sexually but not seen as a good person outside of that, please.

tldr; I wish more people knew that it’s not an insult to write a character as a top or dom, and therefore that it’s not an insult to write a character of color as a top or dom.

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[miyagihawk]

“into it; chase atlantic (this song reminds me so much of hawk it’s ridiculous, it gives me spicy fanfic vibes and idk how spicy you write but if you were comfortable with spice then this would be perfect for that)”

ty for requesting!!!

into it | eli moskowitz/ hawk x fem reader 

warnings: explicit!!! 18+ content!!! pure filth and smut lol and swearing too, drug use

summary: based on “into it” by chase atlantic

this takes place in college :) also im quite innocent so if anything is wrong just know that ive never experienced anything in this lmao

The weather's only sunny when I'm under it

And I haven't really changed, yeah I'm just confident



You watched from the across the room as he inhaled the line of white powder, a hand plugging one side of his nose and another holding a rolled up dollar bill.

If someone told you three months ago that the nerdy Eli Moskowitz from your Chemistry class would be snorting a line at a party, adorning a dyed mohawk, you could’ve never even imagined it.

But here he was, and honestly you were really fucking into it.

These girls they come and go between my bedsheets

And I've been doing blue and causing big scenes, yeah

Hawk had a reputation of having a new girl every night; the gossip had been that he’s never called one back for round two. Some may call him a womanizer, but maybe that was what he wanted. Girls fell at his feet anyway, wanting to be part of his long list of one night stands.

The truth is, you’ve already spent a night with him.

It started with some shameless flirting and you already knew the direction it was headed. He asked you back to his place, and out of half curiosity half lust, you agreed.

And after that night, Hawk was all you could think about.

It could be because he was good. Really good. But maybe you also loved a challenge. Knowing it was a one time thing left you wanting more, so that was why you were here tonight.

You were going to be the first girl to be taken home by Hawk twice.

Pull up and I'm higher than the big trees, yeah

She don't really like it but she needs me, yeah

She saying she don't really miss me

But fuck it, now I'm faded after all things, yeah

You walked over to where he sat with his head leaned back, basking in the snow high. His intense eyes seemed to stare you down as you approached, and you thought you saw a twinge of curiosity in them.

“Hawk,” you greeted, downing the rest of your liquor for some bravery.

“Y/N,” your name rolled off his tongue sweetly, and you internally cussed at yourself for feeling tingly already.

“I’ll sit here,” you said. You snuggled up close to him, and with one arm behind his head resting on the couch.

His eyebrow quirked at your closeness. “And what are you doing?”

You played with the hair at the nape of his neck, tracing a finger around his shoulder. He pretended not to notice and looked at you in amusement.

“I’m trying to get you to take me home with you,” you said bluntly. You blame the alcohol.

He chuckled at your straightforwardness. “Haven’t we had our time together?”

You imagined him running through a mental checklist of names, looking for yours, then seeing a line through it.

“I was hoping you forgot so we could do it again.”

Say she wanna fuck me later

Girl, I'm into it, I'm into it, I'm into it

Hawk tapped at his lip, fighting a smile. “Now how could I forget you.”

“So I’m memorable?” you said. You continued tracing his shoulder, before venturing up to his jawline. His eyes fluttered, and the reaction made you feel pleased.

“Of course, what if I told you that you were the best?” he professed, bringing heat to your cheeks.

“I’d think you were trying to flatter me.”

His blue dilated eyes scanned you for a second. “Is it working?”

You let out a laugh, “I’d say so.”

He smiled, genuinely, and you found yourself wanting to take a picture to keep forever.

“Well I’m not lying. You were the best. But that was just for me,” Hawk mused. For some reason, he seemed a bit nervous waiting for your reaction.

You found it hard to believe, but you let yourself be elated by what felt like the most meaningful compliment that could come from him.

“It was good,” you shrugged nonchalantly, “but we could do better. How about tonight?”

After a moment of silence between you both, the red haired boy broke into a fit of laughs. You watched in enjoyment at the way his whole body was in it, and how it was your doing.

He recovered, looking at you with a lingering hint of a smile. “You are just too smooth Y/L/N. Too smooth.”

“That sounded like a yes,” you leaned in closer.

To your delight, Hawk stood up with a hand reached out to you.

-

You two wasted no time, hungrily grasping at each other to remove articles of clothing.

He stopped the heavy make-out to look you up and down. Taking you in, he whistled playfully, before pushing you onto his bed with a hand wrapped around your throat.

You felt his tongue at your neck along with teeth, sure to make a mark for you to deal with the next day. You pulled him back up to your lips, slipping in your tongue to meet with his.

A moan escaped you as his hand massaged your breast and he squeezed your nipple, sending shivers through your entire body.

“Want me down there?” Hawk said into your mouth, and he took your shy smile as a green light.

His pretty lips trailed kisses down your chest, swirling his tongue around your nipple, then running his hands up and down your stomach.

He teased you with soft bites around your thighs, purposefully avoiding your sensitive heat. It made you antsier by the second.

When you couldn’t take it anymore, you reached down to touch yourself. But he grabbed your wrist before you could ease the unbearable desire.“Patience, sweetheart.”

“Just do it already,” you groaned, reaching to push his head down towards the spot you wanted.

He chuckled at your urgency, but finally gave in to your plead.

Hawk placed his tongue flat on your clit, sending electric pulses throughout your body. You moaned his name, making him harder than he already was.

“So wet. Did I do this?” he smirked up at you, before returning to your heat.

He lapped at your walls, pressing down on your clit with his thumb. You writhed in pleasure, making him have to steady your hipbone with his other hand.

He added a finger into your pussy, and it eased in with your wetness. Meanwhile, his tongue played with your sensitive bud and he added in another finger. You felt your high coming in as he curled up his fingers to meet your G spot.

“I’m- I’m almost-“ you breathed, suddenly feeling the overwhelming build up as Hawk’s fingers thrusted into you harder and his mouth moved faster.

He wrapped his arms around your legs to keep you still as you reached your high, and his tongue showed no mercy while you twitched in pleasure. As you rode it out, he placed soft kisses on your thighs, before moving up to put his lips on yours. “Good girl.”

“I think you need some help there,” you looked down at his swollen cock, pressing against his stomach pitifully.

“It hurts,” Hawk pouted, making you giggle.

You pushed him on his back and kneeled on your legs. You admired how defined his jawline looked from your view and you ran your hands up and down his sculpted abs.

He watched you with lustful eyes as you pressed a light kiss to his length. “Hey, no teasing.”

“Consider this karma,” you batted your eyelashes up at him.

With the tip of your tongue, you lightly trailed up his dick, leaving a little swirl at the top. He twitched, and a bead of pre cum dripped out of his tip.

You continued your teasing, feeling a warm ache in your belly at the way he grew frustrated.

When it seemed like he was at point of yelling at you, you took him into your mouth. He cursed in pleasure at the sight of your pink lips around him, bobbing up and down so slowly. You felt his fingers tangle up in your hair, tugging gently.

Suddenly you picked up your speed, and you watched his eyes struggle to remain open to watch your every move. “Fuck, Y/N,” Hawk groaned, pulling at your roots harder.

You hummed and the vibrations of your mouth ended him. Swallowing his cum, you felt wet at the sight of him undone in front of you. The tightening in your core longed for more. You gave his length one last kiss before licking up his body to meet his lips.

“God, you’re trying to kill me”, he said into your ear. You straddled his waist while laying on his chest and you felt him starting to get hard again underneath you. His hands went to your ass as you sucked at his neck; you hoped to give him a mark that matched yours.

You gasped when he suddenly moved your ass to make your core grind against his dick. The ridge of his tip brushing your clit caused your breath to hitch with excitement.

The rush impulsed you to take control and move his hands to your breasts. A hint of a smile took over his face when you rocked yourself on his shaft, up and down. He was fully erect again and you covered him in your slick wetness. Squeezing your breasts, you sighed in delight.

Then you took a pause, giving him a look that said, “Are you ready?”

“Go ahead princess,” Hawk said breathlessly, as he watched you position his dick at your entrance.

He loved to see you in control, the way your hands leaned on his stomach. The way your eyes rolled back as you took him in, so so deep. It was the hottest thing he’d ever seen.

Once he was all the way in, you stopped to let yourself adjust to his size and to bask in the feeling of his fullness.

Your breath picked up as you started to get into a rhythm of moving your hips. Hawk watched you carefully, using his thumb to massage your clit. When you clenched your walls around him, he let out a satisfying moan, which only made you pick up the pace.

He watched with low eyelids as you bounced on him and the view of your tits only pushed him further to the edge.

It felt so full and hot and so good. You knew your release was coming when the corners of your vision were turning black, and you knew he was also close from the twitching of his length inside you.

For the last few seconds, you went down hard, making the both of you curse in pleasure. You squeezed your walls around his cock at the end, sending you both into your second orgasms.

The warm feeling of his cum filled you and added to the haze of your release. You felt Hawk pull you to his chest where you felt the rise and fall of his shallow breaths.

You laid on him, his arms around your waist and his dick still deep in you. He kissed your hair sweetly, eliciting a satisfied smile from you.

“What did I tell you? The best,” his low voice spoke into your skin while he ran his finger through your strands.

You looked up at his face, and to his embarrassment he was starting to get hard again, just from the view of you innocently gazing at him through your eyelashes. An uncharacteristic blush spread across his freckled cheeks as you slyly smiled; you felt it.

“It was good… but we could do better,” you teased, mirroring your words from earlier.

Hawk traced your lip with his thumb, then tilted your chin up to slide his tongue into your mouth. “How about tomorrow night?”

-

a/n:

so… how are we doing… ahh i feel so dirty now but what did you guys think?!?! this is only my third time writing smut, i hope the pacing and descriptions are okay

also i literally wrote another hawk fic but i deleted it because im so stupid!!! it took me like 4 hours too :(

anyways im not sure if im back to writing, i was kind of just bored, but yall can send me requests! i can’t guarantee ill write it but if it’s something i feel like i can do a lot with then i will :)

tysm for reading!!! i love u, be kind, be happy

[alleunwalk]

random theory rambling about ego jinpachi. honestly this is just an opinion and im just randomly rambling so if this offends you sorry. im literally just throwing ideas around. 

SPOILERS UNDERNEATH!  so all we know is that he’s the coach for blue lock. we see him as this creepy, arrogant, yet extremely intelligent and knowledgable individual. but what’s his backstory? when we first get introduced to him he’s described as “indispensable” and we see him be pretty harsh on the boys 

he’s blunt, cut-throat, and don’t ever count on him to sugarcoat anything.  however there are some interesting moments where we see a hint of who ego really is. (aside from being a total slob who wears crocs)

in these scenes ego pretty much has a “YOLO/fck it” attitude and seems to be planning on retiring from the soccer world asap. however the part when he mentions “all the things i couldn’t eat then...are the only things i eat now.”  it makes me wonder - what happened? was he ill?�� and this is where my other guess comes in-- what if ego was a star soccer player from the past? he was the egoist striker that he is currently trying to create. 

when anri talks about the “miracle” move nagi did - we see that ego dismisses it saying it’s “easy” and anri talks back implying that ego himself probably couldn’t even pull off. again- perhaps he was a player? 

in the second meeting with the soccer association the higher ups are demanding ego to hurry and find japan’s soccer star because they find the blue lock program a waste of time and money. however ego points a super interesting...and oddly specific example of how japan’s soccer association treats their athletes. perhaps ego has experienced this firsthand? or watched old fellow teammates go through what he described? either way it’s pretty suspicious (but also understandable) on why ego is feeling this way because he doesn’t want the same cycle to continue. also ego throughout the series has consistently talked about boosting your ego and constantly questions what exactly does it mean to be talented? maybe ego was someone who was talented but was unfortunately snuffed out by the soccer association? maybe he changed his identity and appearance after a bad fall out and became a coach to lowkey get back at the soccer association in his own way? 

in the third meeting when the higher ups are asking for a match between blue lock vs. u-20, ego once again brings out how they snuff out people’s dreams and seems to be holding a very odd grudge against them for it. 

when he tells the boys about the match he tries to basically project his desire to crush the higher ups onto them and thinking that they will be the new faces that overturn japanese soccer. he even tells them “ as for me, coming from a levelheaded and realistic standpoint, i say this with absolute certainty...you can overturn the world of japanese soccer”. 

finally we get to the u-20 match and ego suddenly brings back his “yolo/fck it” attitude. the team is in a dire situation and yet ego just responds with: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

was this ego’s goal all along? even if he loses the match- he planted his “seeds of revenge” (or whatever you wanna call it) onto the boys so now they have the potential to overturn the japanese soccer world like ego dreamed of? 

we also see ego actually genuinely complimenting the boys for once (shocker!) on how their “performances earned that” (they are all 100% going to be scouted and now have the potential to join whatever team they want) and that they should be proud of all that they accomplished from blue lock. (ok ego i guess get that shameless credit clout and free plug from the boys lmao)

HOWEVER--  isagi is not having it. 

he demands ego do something so that they can all actually win and mentioned the fact that having a big ego is what ego himself has taught everyone after all. 

anyways -- as the match comes to a close i hope the story continues on and we see what ego jinpachi is all about. what’s his deal? why is he so hellbent on projecting his ideals of an egoist striker onto the boys? also where does this immense knowledge of soccer- the good side, and the ugly side come from--personal experience?? was he a player or maybe in the end....he’s just a soccer otaku who’s there for shits and giggles?  let me know your thoughts. 

[merlinmeta]

Honestly I think my biggest issue with Arthur in this show is that the narrative spends so long propping him up as this destined savior and it’s literally never even slightly shown. It’s especially egregious in the ending where he’s apparently supposed to come back to save Britain and honestly, he really doesn’t deserve to be resting in Avalon. He’s not very impressive nor an especially good leader. He just exceedingly ordinary, which would be fine if the stupid prophecy and the narrative wasn’t trying to pretend he was some otherworldly king. He either has to be average or exceptional and he certainly isn’t the latter. I do like him but it doesn’t feel like he is the one who HAS to be king, which isn’t good when Merlin ends up having to do some pretty horrible things to save him with the only reason being that Arthur must be king. It feels like Merlin is basically sacrificing his humanity for a guy who has done nothing to prove he deserves it. It’s also why Morgana and the other villains have to become such caricatures (though this is also a holdover from Uther since reasonable people don’t side with genociders so they have to make all the antagonists with justified griefs suddenly omnicidal). If they’re shown to have valid points then Arthur might actually have to confront this and become better but the story won’t allow it. Sorry for the random rant, I just needed to post this somewhere.

LMAO honestly you're right like. what could canon Arthur POSSIBLY contribute to literally any modern issue, political or otherwise? That premise only works if Arthur is like...a force of nature, driven to bring people justice and revolutionize broken systems no matter how hard it is or what stands in his way.

Though I disagree that "it's never even slightly shown," because we DO see that side of him in some of my absolute favorite scenes in the whole series! The problem is that the writers prove again and again that they are committed to maintaining the status quo above all else, to the extreme detriment of their characters and the story they promised to tell in literally the first episode. They don't make changes that really mean anything.

But there are a lot of Arthur scenes that could have laid GREAT narrative foundations for legend-worthy change, and that's really what makes him so disappointing to me. (Shameless plug: I'm writing a fic about one of those scenes, even if it's on break right now because Life.) Someone recently recced me a fantastic essay called "The Triumph of Uther Pendragon" by Araeph on AO3 with a chapter about how the showrunners had to literally, physically bludgeon Arthur into ignorance (aka knock him unconscious constantly) out of fear that he would change the narrative otherwise. To be honest, I think that's giving canon Arthur a little too much credit, because quite a bit of his ignorance is self-inflicted throughout the entire series. But I think that view of Arthur is exactly the character he SHOULD have been.

I think the legendary version of Arthur is someone who was raised in hatred and ignorance--but when something comes along to challenge his beliefs, he CAN'T ignore it. Even if it's easier to just listen to his father when he says magic is evil, even if he tries to go back to the way things were because believing otherwise would be complicated and guilt-inducing and hard, he can't hide behind his pride and arrogance for too long when people are suffering. Maybe he falls back into old habits; maybe his deeply ingrained fears and biases rear their head again and again. But he keeps trying to learn and grow because he can't be satisfied with anything less than the best he can offer his people.

Show me Arthur fighting the outdated mindsets of his people and his advisors as his beliefs become more and more radical--struggling to reestablish communications with Druids, learning about the Old Religion and the people who practice it, listening to the people who hate him, refusing to live in ignorance. Shattering Uther's whole system the moment he has the power to enact change and dealing with the consequences of doing so.

Arthur shouldn't have just been sorta better than Uther in some ways. He should have blazed his own path--not Merlin's, not Uther's, not Gaius's or Kilgharrah's or anyone else's, even if they guide him at times. He should have kept on surprising us (Merlin included!) all the way to the end with how hard he is willing to work and keep working for justice, how humble he could be when facing those he had wronged, how ready he is to challenge his father's legacy.

He should have been a revolutionary.

[bottomvalerius]

F, H, J, L

Dirty A-Z Headcanons !

Thank you for asking 💕💕💕 I’ll be putting these under a readmore and answer for Donna and Sam :3c

🔞CW for discussions on kink and general nsft themes 🔞

F - Food play (do they like using food in the bedroom? are there any foods they prefer to use during sex or foreplay? any they’d like to try?)

I feel like Donna would be more into using food than Sam would, mainly because Sam does a lot more intense scenes than them.

Donna 110% enables Nadia’s feeder kink 👏🏻👏🏻 they will put on a show of being fed, especially if it’s in front of Valerius and or Lucio. Prefers eating sweets and fruit for the messy element of it

Has probably hand fed Valerius grapes though and greatly enjoyed it 👀

H - Humiliation (does degradation and insults get them hot? do they get off on humiliating someone else? what kind of humiliation is good for them?) 

Now we’re talking lmfao

Sam and Donna both need some sort of humiliation play when it comes to sex— Sam obviously prefers doing the humiliating and Donna prefers being humiliated.

Donna isn’t into being called like ugly or disgusting, but they love being called a slut, greedy, shameless, needy, etc. etc. they also like being put into humiliating/ potentially humiliating scenarios; being forced to wear a plug to work, getting fingered in front of someone else, getting passed around between friends, etc. etc. They love feeling very small and used. Facials and cum play in general are also a big bonus— they love being made to orgasm covered in their partners cum 😌

Now SAM is a different story. He loves degrading his partners obviously (he’s why Donna is even into this as much as they are lmfao), and he also loves public humiliation. However, on the rare occasion he is made to submit, he goes absolutely crazy at being degraded. If he loses, he wants it to be rubbed in his face. Once he’s pushed into sub space, he goes in hard; very little is off the table in terms of degradation and he loves every minute lmfao

J - Jelly (what kind of lube are they using? is it flavored? have they tasted it? do they prefer to use something other than real lube during sex?) 

They’re magicians so they’re definitely using magical lube and aphrodisiacs lmao

They both utilize @vesuvian-disaster ‘s Heron often for things like this heheh

Donna prefers using a lot of lube; they love feeling very slick and don’t like penetrative sex if they aren’t at least properly worked up for it

With Sam it depends on his partner and their wants; if they want it a little rougher and painful, he doesn’t mind obliging, but he carries a vial of oil on him just in case lmfao

L - Lighting (are the lights on? off? do they have some kind of mood lighting set up?) 

They both prefer lights on! Both of them like really taking their partners in and seeing every reaction. Neither are too self conscious when it comes to their own bodies, so they aren’t shy about being seen

Donna really likes using candle magic— it boosts the intimacy and it’s just really nice vibes lol I wrote something for it for kinktober but I haven’t reread it in a while tho LOL

[yorkesteins]

Gertchase fic recs

idk i’ve been revisiting a lot of my faves lately. this isn’t a super active fandom for fic, but there’s been some gems over the years and also i’m rly bored rn so here, have a list! it’s definitely not extensive, just some of my go-tos, please always feel free to suggest things @ me lmao. a lot of these are older, because a ton of great stuff came out circa the end of season 1 that i think gets lost in the shuffle sometimes!

MCU/Hulu compliant fic

I’m in the ruins, too (I know the wreckage so well) by monroeslittle this is a post s2 fic, so it’s no longer canon compliant, but it’s an absolutely gorgeous Chase POV of being in the algorithm. The actual gertchase interaction is brief in this, but it’s very emotionally gertchase centric

if you say it with your hands by eversall post s1 fic, so not canon compliant with 2 or 3, but this is a gorgeous exploration of the whole group after they first run, and a beautiful take on gertchase getting their shit together

and tell me what we’ve gotta do to make a right out of my wrongs by tryalittlejoytomorrow post s3 fic! deals with the aftermath of the battle with morgan, and is a really wonderful take on gertchase rebuilding their relationship and moving on. probably my favorite fic I’ve read for this fandom?

i remember that by stott183 pre-canon, pre-gertchase, sort of a missing flashback scene based on a line in 109. The writer absolutely nails Gert’s voice here, and the pre-pilot dynamic between Gert and Chase is so spot on.

castaways by fanfic_or_bust post s1, nico forces gertchase to get their shit together by spelling them to a desert island lmfao. really sweet, slow get together and some top-notch hurt/comfort!

Comic compliant fic

handwritten by hulklinging This takes place after Avengers Arena, and plays with the idea that the girl Chase saw at the end of volume 3 was Gert. Guys, this is fucking incredible. It takes the most frustrating cliffhanger of the comics and runs with it. It doesn’t shy away from Chase’s grief and trauma, Gert’s grappling with understanding her place in all of this, the relationship rebuilds so naturally.

Future Adventures of Yorkes and Stein series by magikfanfic All three fics here are wonderful, so I’m linking to the whole series. Kind of throws comic canon out of the window, but could reasonably exist in the future? Takes Avengers Leader Gert and runs with her. Really great for established gertchase.

To Build a Home by hulklinging pre-vol 5 Gert resurrection. domestic gertchase centering around the runaways gradually coming back together and rebuilding their family, super sweet.

Saving the Future by caveyoja I was only going to put finished fics on here, but I couldn’t help myself. This is vol 5 compliant picking up right before the gibborim arc. This fic is fucking brilliant and manages to weave a ton of messy comic threads into one arc. Time traveling future gert, Victorious, vol 3 cliffhanger, Hunter Stein, Alex? All here! Correcting the weird age gap issues? Absolutely! It’s a journey to get there, but gertchase in this really feels like a grown up version of vol 2 gertchase. This fic is basically everything I’ve wanted the comics to be for years.

AUs (mostly hulu characterization)

sirens in the beat of your heart by laylax soulmate au where you can hear the music your soulmate is playing. this is a slowburn, and they really do the work to build the relationship, and it’s honestly one of the coolest, most in character handlings of this trope I think I’ve seen.

A Life In Your Shape by knifelesbian no powers, college, best friends to lovers au. also an oblivious idiots to lovers au lbr. the friendship and history between them here really make this. They’re each other’s support system in this, and that’s the backbone of their dynamic. Also, bonus chase and nico stepsiblings!

i’m in the corner, watching you kiss...who? by stott183 no powers au, chase is bi gert is bi, it’s what i deserve! really great classic misunderstanding romcom tropes, quality idiocy and obliviousness. 

bonus gen fic

home by lulannie this isn’t really gertchase tbh so much as it’s a love letter to the group as a whole. missing scenes after the kids run away. a really beautiful reminder that these are teenagers in a shitty situation trying their best!

shameless self-plug

lmao all of my fics are here and i don’t really hate any of them! sry about the wips! 

[justimajin]

In the Imajining of: It’s a Reverse Basket

We’re back at it again! For those of you confused, this is basically my behind the scenes segment where I share the ‘imajining’ process of my stories. 

For this series, I’ll be talking about: 

The Initial Idea 

The Characters 

The Baseline Story 

The Overall Series 

Let’s get it!

The Initial Idea: 

Would any of you believe me if I said this series wasn’t meant for Yoongi at all? Once again, another member was my initial choice but after furthur developing the idea Yoongi ending up fitting the storyline more. Let me explain. 

The first concept I had for this series is pretty similar to what it ended up turning out to be - girl dresses herself as a boy to get into a basketball team and falls for the captain. I got inspired after reading a lot of manga and noticing the gender bender trope was quite common. I decided it would be interesting to have my own take from it and so the idea for this series was born. 

However, the story would have been completely different if we had Captain Jeon instead of Captain Min and boy, would it have been really different. Jungkook was originally going to be this very rude and stoic captain and the mc would have feared him until he started to chill lol. It sounded like a good idea at first but I wasn’t really in love with how the main couple was turning out. Additionally Jungkook was going to be known for hating liers and that would have put the mc into a even worse position, which I wasn’t a fan of either. 

So the whole concept was scrapped and I started shifting gears over to Yoongi. I thought he would have suited the role as captain wayy better and watching a couple of video’s of him playing basketball confirmed this more for me. I was really surprised with how fair Yoongi is with playing the sport and that helped spark a better image for the team’s captain. I also thought changing his character would immensely help the mc’s character and in ways support the growth she goes through (oof a couple loving and supporting each other’s dreams? sign me up) 

The Characters: 

> Y/N: For any of my old readers, I think it’s obvious to say that the mc’s personality here is considerably different compared to past ones I’ve written. One trend I noticed through all the manga I read was that the mc’s were typically extremely naive and somewhat clueless. I did think traits like these would fit Y/N’s character since her position of being in an all boys school with this secret that can be slipped out anytime leaves her with a lot of ‘uncertainty’ in that sense, but I wasn’t up for her being too clueless. In an indirect way, I wanted Y/N to be strong and sensible to deal with everything she goes through and I think her character turned out exactly how I wanted. 

> Yoongi: Oh my god. Not going to lie, I had the hardest time writing this boy’s character lmao. I’ve only ever written one fic for him and that was His First Love (shameless self plug here if you’re in need of some heart-wrenching angst) so you can say I’m not very used to writing about Yoongi. He’s the member that’s the most different in BTS and I really wanted to capture his personality perfectly in the story. This led to a lot of thinking on my part and I constantly had to ask myself: What would Yoongi do in this situation? I also have the tendency to observe the member I’m writing about a lot too, so you can say I did my fair share of “research” on him for his character (and by research I mean watching a bunch of compilations on repeat. #no regrets made). 

> The Four Weirdos Taehyung, Jungkook, Hoseok & Jimin: I was really keen on choosing characters for this and looking back now, I think I made the right call. My motive was to create almost a warm and welcoming atmosphere for Y/N when she first enters the school because 1. She’s already scared af from being there and 2. She’s aiming for competitive basketball, which means by default she won’t surrounded with what one would call the nicest of people. It was important for me to choose her roommates properly, because these two people would be the ones constantly around her and the ones closet exposed to her secret. After a lot of contemplation, I decide to go with Taehyung and Jungkook in the end. I’ve explored their dynamic a bit in His First Love and I found their duo was a bit iconic. I also discovered that there was more I could do with them in this story so I decided to go forth with them being her roommates. Hoseok and Jimin then became their neighbors and together, their group of five had a nice balance of characters that I was looking for. 

Also just a side-note about Jungkook’s character: he actually retains a lot of what his character would have been like as captain. I just toned it down more so he wouldn’t come off as harsh but just highly focused on playing basketball instead (which also ending up working because you know, Jungkook). He’s also very aloof because of this, which is why he never really tries to probe about Y/N’s identity and leaves it all up to the troublesome trio instead lol. 

> The Coach and The One You Wanted to Punch Namjoon and Seokjin: I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to write Namjoon’s character in a more involved way since Yoongi took some control of the practices, but nevertheless I’ve always found that Namjoon is great to write in admin characters. I also wanted to expand an arc about him and Taehyung a bit, showcasing some of the struggles Taehyung has gone through just to be at the school as mentioned in Chapter 2. I decided to drop this because the story needed to be concentrated on Y/N more, but I thought I share this tidbit so you guys know where I was thinking of going with that segment of the story. 

Moving on to Seokjin - I freaking loved writing this guy’s character haha. And I’m not saying this because I’m biased, okay? I just think he really suits negative characters so well and he’s so cheeky that you’re left confused whenever he pops up. I wanted to write him in such a way where he retains that joking and charming manner of his but at the same time, he’s the type of guy you want to just maintain some distance from for precaution. His rivalry with Yoongi, his interest in Y/N, his playful banter with Taehyung and Jungkook - it all tied in so well. I also wanted to keep his character in the loop towards the end and that eventually his differences would become resolved, but Taehyung and Jungkook would still highkey be annoyed by his random presences lol. I also hoped his sudden appearance would spark a lot of attention in Chapter 10 (which it did, of course. It’s Kim Seokjin!) because he’s the only character that’s introduced mid-series. 

> Hyerin, Soyoung, The Jackass That Ruined It All: So these characters were thrown in during the planning stages and they’re all extremely important. I’ll start off with Hyerin. 

Hyerin was a character I didn’t know I needed until I figured out Y/N’s character. After coming to the understanding that Y/N’s going to be this timid and naive person that’s going to be hiding a secret from everyone close to her, I realized she would need someone to almost confide in when things got tough. I’m not saying that Taehyung and Jungkook weren’t great friends, that’s the complete opposite of they were, but Y/N needed someone that she didn’t need to hide from. Hyerin also helps with the fact that Y/N’s entered a new school, so she really isn’t sure when to let her guard down around people and if she didn’t have a friend with her, she could have ended up feeling lonely. Hyerin is also veryyy vocal too, so when Y/N needed a voice, I wanted her to take up the opportunity instead and express things Y/N had difficulty with saying herself (remember that flashback scene from Chapter 9?). So yeah, Hyerin wasn’t a character I didn’t originally come up with but more so needed in support of Y/N. 

Soyoung. This girl’s story is a lot more messed up than you would think haha. I conceived two idea’s for her and didn’t like either of them, so she ended up being the friendly but strict doctor that kept popping up lol. The first one involved Hoseok, in which she would be a close friend of his sister’s and they would grow up knowing each other. Later on, she bumps into him at the school and starts falling for him, but doesn’t say anything because she loves his sister a lot and doesn’t want to compromise their relationship. You can see hints of this story in Chapter 3 where Y/N faints and her friends go to visit her. Hoseok introduces Y/N to his sister in Chapter 11 where you would see this play out more, but I decided to scrap this after the chapter was really focusing on what Y/N was going through. I’d like to think this idea lowkey happened in the background, and in my mind I would still correlate Soyoung and Hoseok together. 

Now, the second idea I had was, well, bad. lol. Soyoung could have ended being Yoongi’s ex-girlfriend guys. Damn, I’m getting cringe from just thinking about this again. So basically Soyoung and Yoongi were going to have some unsaid moments between them and then later Y/N would notice and Yoongi would tell her the truth. Y/N wouldn’t really be bothered by this because homegirl has enough on her plate with school and basketball but Soyoung would be and would try to cause problems. I’m still not a huge fan of the “bad ex comes to ruins your hopes and dreams because of their unresolved problems trope” so I ended up rejecting this idea and I am so glad I did. 

Moving on, let’s talk about the jackass lol. This is the guy from Chapter 9′s flashback and who appears in Chapter 20 again. He’s basically the guy that ends up spilling the beans for Y/N. I didn’t give him a name because I wasn’t hugely fond about his character at all, but he’s important in the sense of reminding Y/N of the past, which Hyerin mentions wasn’t the greatest because she wanted to play competitively but was stuck being part of the girl’s recreational team. So it was important for this guy to pop up once again and for Y/N to confront him during a game in order to move on from thinking she couldn’t fulfill her dream of playing competitively. Her family also influences this, but we’ll touch on that soon.

The Baseline Story: 

Alright, so I added this segment as a way to highlight parts I wanted to talk about more, as well as add in some neat unknown facts: 

>> Chapters 1-4 are meant to set up the series and get majority of the characters introduced. The part to highlight here is Yoongi giving a second chance to Y/N in joining the team after she falls sick. This moment was extremely important for Y/N since now knowing what happens in the whole series (her family, the old boys competitive team) she was strongly discouraged to play basketball. In a way, Yoongi was the first person to actually support her and in return, he felt she belonged on the team and wanted to see her grow as a player.  

>> Chapter 5 was the shortest chapter but I wanted to highlight the end of it. It’s the part where Hyerin cuts Y/N’s hair for her. Although this was meant in a way to help Y/N not having to wear a wig all the time, this moment was also to show the lengths at which Y/N is willing to go just to play competitive basketball. Even though she doesn’t show it, Hyerin constantly reminds her of how much she’s going to miss her natural hair. 

>> Chapter 6-9 is where the reveal of her secret shenanigans begins. This ends with Jimin almost finding about her identity and how he completely falls off the mark with guessing what’s actually up. I wanted to highlight here that Jungkook was originally supposed to find out and I was so close with going through with that idea. He was also supposed to keep the whole ordeal along the way and secretly help Y/N, but for some reason I don’t think that suited his character very well. So I instead chose Jimin and it ended up leading into some awesome bits of comedy. 

I also wanted to point out that this was the part where Yoongi slowly begins to get closer with her. I really wanted Yoongi to find out her secret and for her to be aware of this early on in the series since this helps Y/N a lot in these parts. Yoongi covers for her when she can’t and in return, Y/N feels a lot more calm when he’s around. 

>> Chapter 10-11 is the part where Seokjin first appears and Yoongi x Y/N have some issues going on. I think this part was the hardest for me to right because I didn’t want to seem like either of them was wrong in any way, but at the same time show that they seriously needed clear out what was going on between them. I don’t think I’ve shown this kind of conflict between one of my duos and it was strange to write, but I honestly think it did a lot good than bad (maybe I should make my duos fight more, hm). 

>> Chapter 12-16 is the initial progressions of Y/N and Yoongi’s relationship. It’s cute, it’s sweet, and it’s just meant to highlight what they’re like being a couple. My personal favorite is actually Chapter 13, which is when they go out on their first date. I remember contemplating a lot for this chapter, since I wasn’t sure on what place would be the best to draw something more out from these characters. You have to think of this way - both of them get flustered easily and aren’t the most vocal people, so I have to throw them into situations that helps them feel comfortable and open up more. So ultimately, what did I end up doing? Got them to go watch a basketball game together because it’s their natural domain and Yoongi’s teaching side would instantly activate. (apparently I’m a first date consultant now so if anyone would like some assitance hmu).

>> Chapter 17-18 is the part where you get deeper into Y/N and Yoongi’s characters. After the cute initial stages of their relationship, things get tense. I start this off with Yoongi bringing Y/N over to his family’s house, a thing that seems harmless at first until Y/N’s visits and realizes something is up. From meeting his family to issues with his dad, I really wanted to show that there was stuff going on in the background with Yoongi as well, stuff he didn’t necessarily try to sort out and instead ignored. Y/N does end up noticing and helps him here, but in Chapter 18 it’s shown it’s actually because she understands it. She has a similar situation going on but it’s even worse on her side, so she doesn’t hesitate in trying to make things better for Yoongi as she doesn’t want him to get to the point of her situation. Later on in Chapter 18, Yoongi also sees the similar effects and comforts her about it, understanding her better in return. I felt this part in general was extremely for me to properly write and communicate, because it was a strong turning point for both of them and for their relationship, taking what the previous chapters started off and making it into something deeper. 

Chapters 19-20 and the Epilogue are basically just the combined ending, so there’s not really anything there for me to highlight. 

>> Random Facts: This just popped into my head as I was browsing but the dorm that Y/N, Taehyung and Jungkook live in is 613, which actually means June 13th, BTS’s debut date. Uhh Y/N was originally supposed to mistake Yoonji for Yoongi and there was going to be a lot of mayhem going on regarding that, but I didn’t like all that chaos going on during a game so I went for the opportunity of developing Y/N’s character more instead. Yoongi’s jersey number is 9 which correlates with his birthday and Y/N’s is 7, which correlates to their recent album + apparently as an angel number, is known for being unique and positive, ironically also good at being secretive and keeping secrets (yes, I actually did research about a number lol). That’s all that comes to mind right now for me in terms of facts. 

The Overall Series: 

My lasting impression of this series is a very good one. I think I was genuinely surprised around this time since I was able to write 21 chapters without getting exhausted (something that often happens when you write for too long) and really enjoyed every part I wrote. This series ended up turning out a lot better than I initially would have imagined and in a way, I think I actually improved a lot as a writer through it. 

[randomestfandoms-ocs]

Can I just say, from the bottom of my heart, holy shit

When I started this chapter, I expected it to be another 2k that I had to force myself through, that would feel rushed and stilted and like it was really only there to get me closer to the chapters that I’m excited for.  I didn’t expect to write such a long chapter, or to write a chapter that I love and am beyond proud of.  As a writer, I honestly believe that this is one of the best chapters I’ve ever put together, even if it’s taken me since before quarantine even started to get it done.  

But it’s done!!!  And it puts Wayward Daughter above the 100k mark, and that’s insane – the last time I wrote a project that passed the 100k mark, it was a full novel at 150k and has since been lost forever due to technical difficulties.  This is such a big milestone for me that I just really want to do something to celebrate!  I have a few ideas for creations that I plan to make, but what I really want to do is to celebrate/thank everyone who has supported me and this fic so far!

Every kudos, every reblog, every vote, every favourite, every comment, all of it has led me to this point.  And I really want to show all of you wonderful readers how much this means to me, but I have no idea what to do!  

(shameless plug, if you haven’t read it before: AO3 | FFNET | WATTPAD)

So I’m throwing this out into the universe – 

What suggestions do you guys have?  Anyone who has hit a big fic milestone before, did you celebrate?  What did you do?  Any thoughts, opinions, feedback, or advice is more than welcome!

And while this chapter hasn’t been published yet (it’s currently two in the morning and I have to actually edit now rip), I do need to say a few thank yous!

@lorettastwilight​

God, I don’t even know where to start!  You have been my biggest cheerleader since day one!  You showed up less than a week after I posted the first chapter, and have read and commented on every single one, offering endless love and support and feedback.  You’re the reason that I started using this blog, that I became confident in sharing my characters, and the reason that Wayward even got a second chapter let alone all of this.  You have listened to me rant for hours on end about every single detail and have helped me plot out even the most complicated pieces of this puzzle.  You have always been there for me, whether it’s been with kind words or another hilarious comment, or with an edit to get me out of as slump, or even with four pages of venn diagrams on the various relationships in this universe (and the eternal judgement of everyone in that Denny’s lmao).  Thanks to that very first comment, you have become one of my closest friends in real life and on tumblr, and I am eternally grateful 💖💖 I truly hope that you enjoy reading this chapter as much as I’ve enjoyed writing it, and that when quarantine ends we might be able to get together and update that diagram!

@themildestofwriters​ @gottaenjoythelittlethingzz​

I’m putting the two of you together since so much of what I have to say to each of you ties into one another!  From the day that I first joined the JU discord, the two of you have been the biggest supporters of Amy and Wayward Daughter.  When I first joined, I was beyond hesitant to talk about this project because it wasn’t an original fiction piece, but you were both always there to encourage me to talk about my project and every other idea that I’ve had since.  Since moving into our no-longer-rp server I have gotten a chance to get to know all of your characters better than I ever could have hoped, and have fallen in love with all of them, and I truly hope you have both come to love Amy as well!  Your constant support has been more valuable than I could ever put into words, whether I’ve needed someone to bounce ideas off of, a beta, or even someone to just yell at me to stop hurting my poor girl.  With this chapter especially, having the two of you there to help me get past every hurdle and to help me celebrate every completed scene has meant the world to me, and I can say with absolute certainty that I could not have achieved this without you both, so from the bottom of my heart, thank you 💖

@papergirlverse​

TESSA MY LOVE MY DARLING!!!  I know that we’ve really only started talking in the past few months, but it feels like I’ve known you forever!  When we first started talking I was a little bit terrified of you, especially with how wonderful your writing is and how dedicated you are to actually updating your fics!  I definitely never expected you to be a bitch or anything, but I also definitely didn’t expect the day that you started yelling at me about how much you love Amy/Wayward!  Being able to talk to you about this project has truly been a gift, and your insights and feedback always mean the world to me!  You have been an amazing hype man throughout this chapter, and I really don’t have the words to express how much I appreciate that – so I hope you’ll accept a token of my gratitude in the form of that video that I can finally start working on lmao 💖💖

@ocfairygodmother​

Oh my god, where am I supposed to begin?  From the day that I joined the OC community, you have always been there to support everything that I’ve done, and without that support I can safely say that most of my ideas would never have seen the light of day.  You do so much for everyone all the time and it always inspires me to try to do more for the community as a whole.  I could talk for hours about how much your positivity has shaped my experience in this community, but I’ll save that for another day haha!  Today I just have to say thank you – every comment you have left on Wayward (and the rest of my fics, but today is Wayward day), every gift you have ever made for me, every encouraging ask and comment you have ever left, all of it has pushed me to become more confident in my abilities as a creator, and all of it has given me the confidence to share my work with this little corner of the world.  Your endless support has meant so much to me, and your enthusiasm about Amy has gotten me through more periods of self doubt than I ever want to count.  I may be a writer, but I’m not sure that I’ll ever be able to the right words to tell you how much it has all meant to me, so for now all I can say is thank you 💖

To the rest of my oc fam, who have all been there to support me as a creator every single day, thank you all 💖💖

[burnedbyshoto]

You actually wrote that omg

time to answer house sitting & concupiscence responses (shameless plug because once again.... its not showing up in the tags): 

I did do that, if anything we gotta thank @expressyourstarstruckrebel for sending me all those porn gif references. I didn’t expect it to exceed 4k words but then... lmaoooo, I was obsessed with 10 different gifs and the storyline cemented in my head and there was no going back

HOLY FUCKING SHIT IT WAS LITERALLY THE WEIRDEST THING IVE EVER WRITTEN AND I AM SO HAPPY I DID ITTTTTT. now excuse me while I try to find todoroki shouto irl

forgive me for that.... I just had used pussy, cunt, slit, and every other word so much I needed to change it up for my own sake LMAOO and youre welcome, it was an honor getting to write it :D

....im ashamed to admit that I finally got this... I saw this when you first sent this in misty, and I was like ??? what????? *insert the what meme* BUT HAHAHA HE STASHED YOUR PANTIES IN THIS, HE DIDNT BURN THEMMMM

thank you for supporting my 18k fic, I was really nervous no one was going to read it because good lord its LONNGGG and then 80% smut which can get boring so I was so very... apprehensive

thank you!!!!! i was debating between including that bonus scene, but my porn fried brain needed that fun stuff at the end

if this happened to irl...... good god, I dont even know??? being fucked with enough force to break a bed and a chair??? i’d probably propose the next morning

THAT WAS SOMETHING THAT SPAWNED WITHOUT ME INTENDING TO DO SO LMAO!!!! I WAS LIKE “oh readers on her back sucking dick, while being fucked, and its shooting down her throat that sounds choke worthy!” and then that one tiktok where people try eating cereal on their back shot through my mind and I was like CUM SHOOTING OUT OF HER FUCKING NOSE OMGGSHIOGHRAIGHSR

im so sorry, I hope the tiredness was well rewarded owo

cherry bby, I just *smooch* thank you so much im so glad that you liked it because I totally cry whenever I post things im not so confident about!!!!!!

anyways, thanks all for reading that whole ass minibook I wrote!!!!!!!!! enjoy your day or night ilysm

[sassymajesty]

Hi! I was checking out your account to have some reread of your stories, I love theeem, and I was wondering if you have some moodboards for 'keep you (in the dark)'? or even for 'behind the stars'? that forest/mountain lexa vibe is veery good to imagine, I liked that story very much, maybe i'm gonna reread that

i should REALLY take some time to organize all the writing tidbits i have thrown all around my blog. i might do it over on my edits blog, since the tags are more coherent there (shameless plug, i know lmao)

but for now, here are the moodboards you asked for! keep you (in the dark) which might be one of my favorites, and behind the stars although it’s more like a sneak peek scene of sorts.

and i did make two moodboards before i even started writing the story that i didn’t post on tumblr because it doesn’t really have their faces and i felt weird about it lmao these are from back when i was still getting the feel for the story, but here’s one from clarke’s pov and here’s one from lexa’s pov.

[jacensolodjo]

On one hand i totally expected more St*lin in Bitter Harvest. On the other, the times he did pop up were in pretty pivotal scenes but would probably have been better spent in a different kind of film... if that makes sense? and it was probably good he appeared only a couple times

I feel like we really need a movie with no romance plot (not subplot because uh it was flipped. Holodomor was the subplot in a way not the romance). I know there are a couple more movies out there I just haven’t gotten around to.

But I know why they chose to do it this way. It gets people in the door, metaphorically. But I’ve been hoping that it would also open the door for more. more films, more docuseries, more books, more exhumations of records. 

I have similar complaints with the Battle for Sevastopol/Indestructible. The big important things were just these kind of 2D backdrops. In favor of romance. It’s more of a shame with Sevastopol tho because of all the other inaccuracies that make me a bit twitchy but that’s more a subjective opinion i guess?

Less Titanic, more Inglourious Basterds, might be a better example of what I’d prefer seeing?

Anyways like I said, Bitter Harvest isn’t terrible. But if you already know about the Holodomor’s existence, your time might be better spent actually reading things like Red Famine instead. (Or, shameless plug, my sparknotes variety of posts on this blog lmao) 

Note: i haven’t seen The Guide/Povodyr yet nor Mr. Jones. I haven’t been able to find a full stream for the former and just haven’t gotten to the latter but might eventually. So take the above with a grain of salt with all that in mind lol