#shadow vent

[shadow-genesis-yay]

CW//: small vent | TW: swears, suicidal intention

The one fuckin friend I trusted, turned out to be a facade.

An emotionally manipulative bitch who I trusted.

All I fuckin did, was take a small mental health break, and then once I talked to them again, they fuckin sounded upset and like they WANTED me gone.

I trusted them. I cried for them when things happened. I was there for them

I wanted to kill myself when I hurt them after I yelled at them over something stupid. I saw their pain afterwards, and hated myself, but didn't realize I was hurting them until later in the day. I had such a panic attack thinking I hurt them that I even tried calling 911 for a wellness check, and tried finding the helpline for their area (we have the same timezone, but we didn't live close)

I did nothing but care for them. I even loved them and asked them to be my online partner that was a mix of platonic and romantic. I panicked over confessing to them, to where I cried for two hours as I tried to gain courage, and scared in what would happen.

Everything was perfect for me, but it was all a lie. An illusion that manipulated my emotions.

I was completely open with them, and loved them. I would have gone through hell and back for them, yet they never wanted to do the same.

The things they told me about old friends leaving them seem like a cover up, but I never thought of it.

I was unintentionally wearing rose colored glasses, and seeing the world through them.

They knew more than I should have let them know, but I thought the trust was genuine. I had such a connection with them, that they even appeared in dreams.

I fucking feel betrayed, and hate the fact I called them a best friend, when an actual friend I have was there more for me, even if I got upset over a stupid thing and overreacting by blocking them as well.

[ducktracy]

there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so it’s very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that they’re not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world it’s such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously it’s important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might not—“it’s hard! it’s scary! people will make fun of me! it’s useless because there’s too much evil!” are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesn’t get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love

[bat-luun]

been struggling a lot recently but ill be dammed if shadow the hedgehog wont save my soul

[sparrow-in-boots]

EDIT: the viper example picture got changed to a proper viper species, thank you @/the-white-eye for the correction!

everytime i see the winged serpents drawn/modelled as vipers, my heart breaks a little bit

guys, they are specifically pythons!! :3 mouth shape and all!! the sole viper head we see is Messmer/abyssal serpent!!

pythons kill prey by strangling them with their bodies. vipers hunt through venom bite pounces. pythons are also more notably languid and slow compared to vipers or cobras. this isn't just a thematic distinction, but also a clear visual design cue, too!

in Volcano Manor and the Temple of Eiglay, you can see that the winged snake statues are Also python-headed. it's also notable that the snakes in the statues have fangs, and so do the winged serpents Messmer has. i doubt that's a coincidence.

and most importantly, the Great Serpent is also closer to a python than a viper or even a cobra. it's admittedly a more distinct head shape than any real-life snakes i'm aware of, but the longer snout, the scale patterns (particularly on the temples and side of the head), and the teeth type are not unlike an anaconda, actually.

[movie-robotnik-positivity]

Shadow's relationship with G.U.N is interesting. He doesn't seem to hold any resentment towards them and will even work with them if it helps his goal, but he also won't hesitate to go against them if they become an obstacle.

Commander Tower overlooks Shadow's trangressions as a way of paying him back for saving the world, but also because he's the only other living person who understands his grief.

[funhouse-mirror-barbie]

The Todd in Shadows video on Somerton makes me SO much angrier than Hbomberguy’s SOLELY b/c while Hbomb’s covers the terrible impact of his plagiarism and its terrible, Todd’s has more actual clips of Somerton’s stupid stupid condescending cadence where he’s just SMUGLY LYING about all sorts of bullshit that’s usually extremely self-congratulatory OR misogynistic and it makes me want to fuckin vomit.

[puppetmaster13u]

Halfa Jason Design

Specifically in thoughts to This but honestly might use it for other things too

[beebeedibapbeediboop]

Haven't I given enough?

Given enough

[amyrosedaily]

Day 63: Stupid

It's ok to be wrong sometimes.......right?

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[izuizzy]

not feeling too great so I made this shadow vent painting to help

[undercover-grisha]

The Crows: “oh you know Jesper, he’s just soooo dramatic all the time!”

Jesper, who had not been trying to be dramatic and had been trying to be taken seriously: “Yep. Haha. That’s…. That’s me!”

[eggskie]

[Image ID in alt text]

retrospective

I think sometimes that shadow thinks back about his time on the ark with maria, and with gerald. and that some of his memories of gerald aren't great. and that now, with the knowledge of what gerald did to him after maria's death, some of those memories may mean something different with that new context. he doesn't like thinking about it

[bottombaron]

you know, i can handle a little bit of fun "Nandor is dumb" talk, but i have a net-zero tolerance for any implication that Nandor is not educated.

Nandor would have been incredibly educated in his lifetime.

even (or especially) as a soldier in the Islamic World. being a soldier was more like getting sent to boarding school that's also a military camp. they weren't just concerned with creating loyal fodder for war. they were building the next government officials, generals, accountants, advisors, etc. it was important that young men knew how to read, write, speak multiple languages, learn philosophy...sometimes even studying art and music was mandatory.

if he was nobility (and its most likely he was), take all that shit and multiply it exponentially. Nandor would have been reading Plato at the same age most people are still potty training. he would have been specifically groomed in such a way to not be just a brilliant strategist and warrior, but also diplomate and ambassador of literally the center of scientific and cultural excellence of the age.

so like yeah, he can be a big dummy sometimes, sure. but that bitch is probably more educated than any of us will ever be.

[blu-ish]

It hurts more when your not allowed to cry.

[lilcritterdoingmabest]

some Shadow Company lore

theres rumours of secret poetry club.

most rookie Shadows don't think its real while others have made it a life goal to prove its existence

The secret poetry club thinks Graves doesn't know

he does.

he just chooses not to say anything

no ones sure if its because he's trying to gaslight them or give them privacy

[fukirvana]

cringy aaah angst