#sexie von kat

[queers-at-the-theatre]

Cabaret in Düsseldorf

Aufregend, beeindruckend, queer und nachdenklich machend, so könnte man die Cabaret- Inszenierung von André Kaczmarczyk am Düsseldorfer Schauspielhaus kurz beschreiben. Aber will man das überhaupt, wenn es dazu so viel mehr zu sagen gibt? Lange habe ich dem entgegen gefiebert, die Erwartungen waren hoch und wurden dennoch übertroffen. Gerne wäre ich hier objektiv, aber das wird nur schwer möglich sein.

Wo fang ich am besten an? Es gibt so viele Punkte zu beleuchten. Vielleicht mit der Hauptrolle. Belendjwa Peter spielt den Cliff Bradshaw und sticht gleich zu Anfang besonders heraus zwischen den Tänzer*innen, die für das Cabaret gekleidet sind, anzüglich, freizügig, während Cliff zurückhaltend gekleidet ist. In dieser Inszenierung wird er definitiv als queer dargestellt, wobei für mich nicht 100% zu sagen ist, ob er schwul oder bisexuell ist, denn die Beziehung zwischen Sally und Cliff wirkt nicht eindeutig. 

Und das muss sie auch nicht unbedingt. Hier aber wirklich eine großartige schauspielerische Leistung von Belendjwa, vor allem in den Dialogen zum Schreiben habe ich mich als Hobbyautor immer wieder gefunden.

Als Sally habe ich sowohl Lou Strenger als auch Inga Krischke gesehen, beide haben mich absolut überzeugt. Es war deutlich, dass es hier einen Unterschied in der Tätigkeit gibt, da Inga hauptsächlich Musicaldarstellerin ist und Lou mehr Theaterschauspielerin, keins der beiden Dinge hat der Rolle jedoch einen Abbruch getan. Ich mochte die Darstellung der Sally hier wirklich sehr. Gesanglich als auch schauspielersich sind beide top.

Direkt in ihrem ersten Lied absolut mitgerissen hat mich auch Rosa Enskat in der Rolle der Fräulein Schneider. Eine wahnsinnig gute Stimme und unglaublich emotional. Die Beziehung zwischen Fräulein Schneider und Herrn Schulz war so schön dargestellt, dass man richtig mitgefiebert hat und sich doch immer wieder in Erinnerung rufen muss, wie ihre Geschichte leider endet. Rosa Enskat und Thomas Wittmann haben die Liebesgeschichte wunderschön emotional und mitreißend rübergebracht.

Ich kann gar nicht auf alle einzeln eingehen, wenn ich hier nicht den Rahmen sprengen will, aber über wen ich natürlich unbedingt reden muss ist der Conférencier, denn sind wir mal ehrlich, André Kaczmarczyk ist der hauptsächliche Grund, warum ich so aufgeregt war, die Aufführung endlich zu sehen. Mit dem Wissen, dass er Regie führt und diese Rolle übernimmt, konnte ich mir schon ein paar Dinge vorstellen, aber das Endergebnis hat mich dann doch aus den Socken gehauen. Die Kostüme wirken an ihm alle unglaublich natürlich, als müsse es einfach so sein. Bei dem Charakter war man sich nicht ganz sicher, existiert er wirklich? Was ist seine Position im Kit Kat Club? Einerseits schien er dort die Abende zu leiten, tauchte jedoch auch immer wieder außerhalb auf, um das Geschehen zu kommentieren oder auch nur zu beobachten. Wann immer Sally von den anderen Tänzer*innen erzählte, wurde der Conférencier nie erwähnt, auch wenn sie sehr eindeutig mit ihm interagiert, wenn sie dort ist. Er scheint irgendwie in einer Zwischenebene zu existieren und die Seele des Clubs darzustellen.

An ihm zeigt sich sehr die Veränderung der Außenwelt, auf die er reagiert. Wirkt zu Anfang noch alles fröhlich und lebenslustig, verändert sich besonders nach der Pause die gesamte Stimmung extrem. Die Kostüme sind nach wie vor unglaublich extravagant und sexy, doch die Stimmung ist sehr gedrückt. Jedoch wird auch schon zu Beginn gezeigt, was zu erwarten ist, ein Wahlplakat der NSDAP steht direkt in der ersten Szene prominent auf der Bühne, Streifen sind davon heruntergerissen und geben den Blick frei auf ein Bild von zwei sich küssenden Männern.

Gerade mir als queere Person fällt es auf, wie immer mehr versucht wird, die Queerness zu unterdrücken, besonders, als die Nazis schließlich selber im Club auftauchen, um zu kontrollieren, was dort geschieht. Der Conférencier versucht das Bild aufrecht zu halten, versucht sich und die Tänzer*innen zu schützen. Zu “Säht ihr sie mit meinen Augen”, tanzt er mit dreien von ihnen, versucht das Bild zu wahren, verhält sich ihnen gegenüber unglaublich sanft. Am Ende stellt er sich den Nazis entgegen und wird daraufhin niedergeschlagen. Die Art, wie die Tänzerinnen sich sofort über ihn beugen, deutet auf ein enges Verhältnis untereinander hin und macht die Szene dadurch deutlich emotionaler.

Auch ein Punkt, der den Unterschied zwischen vor und nach der Pause deutlich hervorhebt, ist die Ansprache des Publikums, während der Conférencier im ersten Teil immer „Ladies and gentlemen and everyone in-between the genders“ oder etwas ähnliches sagt, wird der letzte Teil davon nach der Pause weggelassen. Beim ersten Mal merkt man, wie er es sagen will, dann aber stockt. Ein unglaublich starkes stilistisches Mittel, besonders für jemanden, der sich von diesem Teil angesprochen fühlt: das Wissen, dass man unter den Nationalsozialisten als queere Person nicht existieren dürfte.

Der Morgige Tag, gesungen von Lara Hofmann, sendet hier auch eine deutliche Nachricht. Das Kostüm, geschnitten wie eine Naziuniform, jedoch in hellem Blau, und eine rote Krawatte in Form eine Pfeils, kann unmöglich missverstanden werden und muss auf aktuelle Ereignisse bezogen werden. Man möchte für die Leistung auf der Bühne applaudieren, aber nicht für dieses Lied, und so blieb es danach auch bedrückend still im Saal.

Die Entscheidung, hier komplett ohne Hakenkreuze auszukommen, begrüße ich sehr, ist es doch durchaus möglich, Nazis deutlich erkennbar zu machen, durch ihre Handlungen aber auch durch andere Teile ihrer Kostüme, ohne nationalsozialistische Symbolik reproduzieren zu müssen.

Mein Fazit: Eine großartige Inszenierung, die man sich definitiv mehrfach ansehen kann. (Leon)

[the-blackorchid1]

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The Bumblebeez - Dr Love (Crookers Remix)

Kittin and Plush. Magic at 3 am

[seniouesbabes]

Lily Maymac 🌸🍒💋🌸 Therapeutic

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Danger !!!

[saint-ess]

Hey there,CSGO and Chill?

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I guess I’ll grace you with my face

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master of disarray 𐐪𐑂 about lee

hi! i’m lee :-) CLICK CLICK N READ vvvvv

NOTE: i’m 20. too lazy to change the pic rn c:

: alternatively :

i’m 20,

and i’m really really lazy. it’s a chronic illness. late grades galore.

i’m in college! yay debt ! <3 — focusing on criminology, wanting to be a prosecutor , working with special victims

back when we heart it was still a thing, i saw a post of a girl who had her phone autocorrect THIS: <3 to HARRY POTTER whenever it was written. that’s what’s in my phone right now.

i wanna promo my wattpad for my original story (LOOK… i enjoy the format for novel writing. that’s it. not a frequent user so DONT get it twisted) @/jealouspring

music tastes range from screamo (sp?), kpop/jpop, hard rock, VOCALOID — top song rn is probably the jeweller’s hands (arctic monkeys). but christ what the fuck kinda drugs did they put in doughnut (twice) like i cannot stop listening to it for my life.

i keep freaking buying body mists . i don’t know why but i’m obsessed w them i need alll the limited edition victoria’s secret etc etc

building my bokuto shrine rn wbu

my placements !! pls lemme know what tf they mean.

☉ aries ↑ pisces ☽ gemini

i’m currently watching legit nothing because depression. my favorite anime EVER include — haikyuu, bungou stray dogs, demon slayer, jujutsu kaisen, kakegurui TWIN bc MARY, and more that will later come to mind :)

gamer girl ? i play genshin impact, project sekai, tears of themis (marius whore), and ensemble stars (i’m trying, only and only for undead)(koga oogami jesus christ wolf boy) HONKAI STAR RAIL , MEET MY WALLET (sampo. blade. jing yuan come to me my sweet sexy babes)

i spend each and every dime i get my hands on on genshin impact. i spent 30 dollars for childe only to give up building him. can you say intj ??

SA survivor here! i fucking know how painful that shit is, and if u need someone to vent to or help understand the aftermath/dealing/etc. you can dm me :)

my current biggest thirsts

° bokuto

kAVEH KAVEH KAVEH LABEH LLEASE waseee 0@3PLEASEEEE🏢🏥🏥🏰🏰🏣🏦🏣👷‍♀️👷‍♀️🪶🪶🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

° sampo sampo sampo my kitty kat my little crook. .swindle me daddy

<blade … my scene slut …. >

° bakugo

° mary 🛐 saotome

° raiden shogun <ei>

° arataki itto *sighs*

° aizawa +_+

° ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*mArius vOn hAgen*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

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Keep Calm and go to London chapter 3

Tag list: Here’s the incredible people who showed me support (thank  you so much for that) and people who asked me to tag them too  ☺️   (I think I will write a few chapters of this story, if you want me to  tag you, tell me ☺️   ) @cavillanche​ @mary-ann84 @henry-owns-these-tatas @yespolkadotkitty @dancingwendigo​   constip8merm8  penwieldingdreamer iloveyouyen  littlefreya  wondersofdreaming alyxkbrl solariumss  sweetybuzz25 @thethirstyarchive​ @agniavateira​   @honeyloverogers​ @hell1129-blog​

Trigger warning: talking about low self-stem and body image issues.

The morning after you woke up exhausted, not just because of all the walking and the stunt practice you did the day before, but also because you had trouble sleeping because you could stop thinking about Henry. "It's ridiculous. I just met him, I cannot like him this much already." you thought, throwing your phone into the bed, after checking the selfie that you two took together that day, again. That's what you did all night long: you slept for like an hour or so, woke up, saw the photo, remember the day part by part and went back to sleep.

You had a work meeting that day. You swore that you were not there to work, but an old friend -acquaintance would be more accurate- found out that you were in London and call you to see if you could help him finish a few songs for an album. You accepted because he was a nice guy and because you enjoyed working with him in the past.

- Wow, I brought here because I thought that because of your breakup you would write some so "f-ck you" songs or sad songs, but they were pretty "I'm walking on sunshine" kind of type. - he said when was walking you to the door as you were leaving the studio. - Sorry, that was insensitive for me to say - he apologized.

-No worries. I guess you're right. - you replied, offering a sympathetic smile. " Oh, sh-t, what does that mean?" you thought.

Back at the hotel, you were about to take a bath and planning to go to bed and watch a movie when your phone started ringing. You check to see who was calling you and saw that was your friend.

- Hi girl! - you answered- What's up?

- Hi babe! - she replied- No much, just wondering why my friend had a date with my other friend and didn't bother to tell me about it.

- What?- you questioned confused and then you realized that she was referring to you hanging out with Henry yesterday - Oh, yeah...first of all, it wasn't a date, it was two new friends hanging out...and second, I'm sorry, I didn't know that I needed to ask you for permission to hang out with your friends.- you said playfully.

- Apologies accepted. No need for permission, just want to know when you're on a date, especially if it is with a friend of mine.

- I told you already, not a date. By the way, how did you know that we went on a dat... that we hung out together yesterday?- you asked confused

- Henry told me.

- Did he tell you? - you repeated still confused

- Yes. He mentioned after you left the party, he left right after you left because he wanted to get some rest because tomorrow you two were going to visit the set of The Witcher. And also, I call him too today, because I tried to talk to you but your phone was off apparently because I was directed to voicemail.

- Yes, I was working in some songs with a friend so a turned it off. Wait, you talked to Henry today?

- Yes. He basically told me the same that you did, that you were two friends hanging out and that had a great day.

- Yes, we did. - you agreed.

- Hey, by any chance ...- your friend started to ask you a question and then took a slight pause - do you have a crush on him?

"Oh, sh-t!...sh-t...sh-t! Was it too obvious? Did he asked her to ask me that?" you thought. You sighted before answering your friend question.

- Is it too obvious? He told you that, didn't he? He noticed that I starred at him like a creep and asked you to tell me that please don't do it in the future because he's no interested in me in that way, right? - you asked her

- So you do have a crush on him.-she repeated looking for confirmation

- Yes. I'm absolutely crazy about him, which is insane if you ask me... I mean, c'mon, I just met him two days ago, TWO DAYS! - you replied, almost screaming the last words searching for an affirmation of the insanity of your feelings.

- Y/N! - your friend screamed excited

- What? - you answered holding the tears for falling. You felt so stupid.

- He has a crush on you too - she told me excited

- What?! Did he tell you that?

- Not exactly with those words. Let me explain - she began - The day of the party after we left to the ladies room, he and Edgar started talking about you and how cool you are, and Edgar encouraged him to ask you out, but Henry thought that you were still dating you know who, and then Edgar told him that you were single  - and even show him the news of your breakup in his phone- but Henry still had doubts about asking you out because thought you may found it disrespectful that he was trying to get a date with you while you were dealing with something personal and might not be ready or might not be interested in going out with him at all. That's why Ed started to ask you all those questions when we got back, to see if you were ok to date, to convince Henry to ask you on a date and that's the reason why we left you two alone, so he would make his move. He didn't dare to ask you out directly, so he did it to hang out with you as a friend and then see. Today when we talked, he told me that he likes you, a lot, those were his exact words. I know that might not seem like it, but he's quite shy. He doesn't want to seem desperate, especially since he thinks that you want him only as a friend, so he will wait sometime before talking to you again.

You sat down on the edge of the bed while trying to process the information that your friend just gave you. He liked you too. It wasn't just you, he felt the same way about you. That thought makes you smile and your heart was beating so fast of excitement.

- So, you want me to call him and tell him to call you and ask you out? - she questioned

- No, I have another idea on the mind - you said playfully - By any chance, do you have his home address?

- Lucky for you, I do - she replied curiously - Why?

- I'll share my plans later, could you please send me the address?

- Sure, I'll send it to you via text.

- Great! Thanks a lot! Seriously! I got to go, talk to you tomorrow, ok? - you said while standing up and picking up some clothes and going to the bathroom to take a shower.

- Sure. Good luck with your plan! - she said and after saying goodbye you hung up the phone and ran into the bathroom.

You decided to put on a white dress with long sleeves and short to the knees, sexy but cosy for the cold weather. You also put another pair of comfortable boots and a camel colour blazer. You decided to continue your new trend of natural makeup look, with some foundation, pastel colour eyeshadow, eyeliner barely visible and mascara and your favourite nude lipstick - Ludwig of the line Kat Von D Beauty Everlasting Liquid Lipstick -.

Once you were outside his house, you walked to the front door and were greeted by barks. "Kal, his dog" you remembered. "He told me he's very friendly, relax" you remind yourself. You love dogs, but sometimes loves don't like strangers, and that's what you were to him. You knock on the door and heard a voice so deep and beautiful that gave you chills, a voice that only could belong to one person.

- Who is it?- Henry asked

- It's me, y/n- you replied.

- Oh...yeah, wait a minute, please. I'll look for the key. - he told you, for the tone of his voice you notice that he was surprised by your visit.

- Sure. No worries.

A moment later you heard the key turn on the door and this opened as Henry greeted you with a smile.

- I wasn't expecting company, sorry for the mess.- he said as he let you in.

- What are you talking about? Your house is lovely and very clean. - I assure him.

- Thank you. - he said - It's a lovely surprise to see you.

- Oh, yeah, sorry for the impromptu visit. Probably was not polite of me to show up without notice. - I apologized

- Don't worry, I'm delightfully surprise.- he affirmed.

- I just wanted to thank you for the lovely day that I had yesterday thanks to you. I brought you a gift - you said as you handed him a bag.

- Oh, thank you, you didn't have to.- he replied as he took the bag and opened. It had two packs of the finest Guinness beer and a box with some expensive swiss chocolate. - Thank you so much, this is amazing! - he said with excitement in his voice. You smiled happily because you knew that you choose the perfect gift for him.

- You're welcome. I'm really happy that you like it.

- I do a lot. Thank you. - He said and starred at you smiling for a moment, while you were thinking "how is it possible that this man likes me? He's so incredibly handsome" but at the same time, but the way he looked at you, you saw it, it was true, he likes you, you can see it now. He must have noticed that he was looking at you for a little too long so he blushed and started to act a bit nervous - You want something to drink?

- Tea would be great.

- Sure, I think I have tea somewhere. - he said laughing slightly - I don't drink tea, but sometimes, when I remember, I buy some for friends and family when they visit me.

- If you don't have tea, water will be fine. - you assure him.

He made his way to the kitchen and you decided to look around the living room. Before that, you pet Kal that, just like Henry said, was very friendly and anxious for the attention. In your tour on the living room, a blanket with the British flag on it caught your attention, and you put on a big smile thinking on how adorable it was that had that.

- You wanted something to remind you that you're from Britain in case that you forgot? - I said loudly so he could hear me from the kitchen.

- What?... oh, that - he said seeing the blanket as he approached you with a cup of tea that he handed you. - It was a gif from my brother.

- I love it. It's adorable. - you assure him and smile.

You took a sip of the tea and continue walking around, looking at pictures that he had all over the place.

- Is that your family?- you asked

- Yes. Those are my mom and dad - he said as he pointed at one photo; then he pointed at another - those are my brothers. This was taken on Christmas two years ago and I'm with my nephews and my niece.

He showed a couple more pictures of his family, one with his assistant and a few that he had with some close friends and then sat down on the couch. After a moment of silence, in which you were distracted looking at the blanket, you continue the conversation.

- You know, I'm thinking about moving to London.

- Really? - he asked curiously and trying not to sound way too excited

- Yes. I've always loved the city, but this last few days have been some of the best days of the last few years of my life. It's like I finally feel alive again. I get this homie vibe that I've got from LA in a long time.

- That's great! I mean, not that you went through something awful, but that you're feeling much better and that you like the city. I'd be great to have you closer. - as he was saying this he blushed - I mean, you always will have a friend to chat with when you need to - he offered and smiled.

- Thanks.- you smiled back.

(PS: chapter four will continue exactly where I left off 😉 )

[fruitchouli]

can u recommend me a perfume? i want to smell sexy, mysterious and a little goth but still feminine

lol the first thing that came to mind was sinner by kat von d 😩 dont @ me . i think this is only good if u find it at tjmaxx for 10 dollars but it fits the criteria it’s like a darker dupe for narciso rodriguez if u want something in that realm but just wanna dip ur toe in before spending the money on a narciso

or u could just try something from the narciso rodriguez line though they’re definitely not goth i think if u could go test them maybe one would fit, i think in general they’re all pretty good sexy soft feminine ..

if u wanna get boujie and more classy i think jasmin noir by bvlgari is rly beautiful dark mysterious sexy night blooming jasmine

and in the chance you like cosmetic / lipstick type scents, l’ange noir by givenchy is really beautiful almondy soft but dark powdery scent. it’s along the lines of lipstick on by margiela if you’ve ever tried that