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[selfsealingstimdolt]

Looking back, the abusive self-loathing side of /tttt/ culture didn't give me a thicker skin as promised, it just beat me down and made me weaker. After a certain number of cringe gigahon bonepill memes i didn't care any more, but only because they'd won: I wasn't bulletproof, I'd just completely internalised the idea that I was worthless and everyone knew it

[totalspiffage]

Heyyyyyy so I had COVID as well as some other health things pop up and I'm waiting on 3 paychecks from gigs, got 27 bucks to tide me over but bills are due soon. I should be okay once I get paid but with holidays idk when that will be. I know everyone's hurting so no pressure at all.

Hoping I can maybe do a couple streams?? but my back has been kinda rough so sitting for long periods is challenging.

Drop a tip here

[skiesalight]

walking back into my bedroom after a week away like "ahhh I see everything is as I left it" (a complete mess) 😌

[kinita375]

why do people keep saying kids with ipads are cringe, I USE THEM FOR A REASONNNNNN 😭😭😭

[youhalfwit]

I moved recently and am still looking for a job if anyone is interested in commissioning me 👀

Status: Open

New commissions sheet, now with a greyscale option!!

Dm me here or on Instagram or Twitter if interested :)

[madthimmy]

A letter for you Jaymee. - 12 / 27 / 2022

The year is about to end, and it's been a tough year for you. You faced a lot of challenges, I know. You were known as the caring, loving, and affectionate "ate" or "manang" to all. But, Hi, Jaymee! If I asked you how you were, would you answer me honestly? I guess not. Are you okay? Oh damn, I just remembered that you hated that question. But it's okay; it's understandable. As I always say to you and others, you are not obliged to explain to yourself whatever you feel now, tomorrow, or whenever. But, WOW! I'm so amazed, wherever you are right now. Remember the tough times? When you're on the verge of giving up when you're at a loss for words and about to lose it, You lost her at that time, but you couldn't feel anything. You woke up thinking how bad you were as a friend, and you questioned yourself about why she was there when you needed her and you weren't there when she needed you the most. People asked you about what happened, but you just can't speak. Remember those days? You tried so hard to hold yourself together so that no one would see you fall apart. You tried to love yourself and hate it at the same time. You have been hearing voices in your head, and most of the time, they are more credible than yourself. The pressure is everywhere; I know it's hard, and it takes years to fix a broken soul, and you're still bleeding inside. I know, but you survived; you chose to live. You choose to fight. You meet people who help you and make your life a little less complicated. I know you were thankful, and, hey, I'm so proud of you. You made it this far, Padayon. 

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[selfsealingstimdolt]

the dysphoria's really hitting hard today. sobbed a lot last night. every time i see my body i just deflate and it seems completely pointless to bother doing anything at all. i've got places to go but i desperately dont want to be seen. hard to deal with having failed.

[meandtheothermeh]

Hello to you who is reading this! I do hope you will keep reading this. As you can see I am new in this platform not particularly "new" I do have basic knowledge about it but my engagement throughout is not something that I can say I am well verse. For the past few years I am always on the verge of sharing something or meaning to say what's on my mind but after a few uncertain thoughts I would rather delete it and uninstalled the app because I am confused and I really don't know what I really wanted. And TODAY is the day where I made up of my mind. I will do this for the sake of my mind and for all those times where I don't value my words.

I am not fluent in English verbally or non-verbal but I am willing to improve though out my journey here.

Soon I will share my stories with you all.

I do hope that we will surpass what we are facing everyday. Do not give up for I know tomorrow is a gift from God.

[callmefaceache]

Old doodle from a month ago. Sleeping 2-D

[gourmettrebuchet]

been thinking im kind of like if an angel was sent to earth. and was a girl

[bloodpen-to-paper]

s.. so like-

I expect fanart of Philza carrying Tubbo through the sky by tomorrow morning, remember its 20% of your grade

[cvntywizard]

i can’t help it if i’m just a genuinely cool person

[selfsealingstimdolt]

i really hate when people say "it's never too late". it is often too late. it is more and more too late, for more and more things, every day.

[crazychicke]

I posted 10,215 times in 2022

83 posts created (1%)

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I tagged 7,575 of my posts in 2022

Only 26% of my posts had no tags

#favs - 372 posts

#friendships - 250 posts

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Longest Tag: 139 characters

#i like the idea of eloisie/theo being the rich girl/poor boy trope instead of benophie however i'm still curious to know how they will do 3

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[sakuraa]

Still looking for a model commission! I also offer regular commissions too please check out my VGEN you’ll be able to request to be on my waitlist!! https://vgen.co/cherrichus

Hie looking for a vtuber model commission to take on this month! Feel free to dm on twitter or discord (cherrichus) or email me at cherrichusart@gmail.com !! 

[juridicohildamuller]

olá para todos que estão vindo no meu blog <3

aqui vou falar sobre autismo, vivência e sobre hiperfocos (principalmente hilda furacão)

todos são bem vindos!

#hildafuracao #selfblog #autismo