#or worse. hating being a mistake
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I'm so confused cause what do you mean the butcher is a man in his late 50s with a bald spot he sound like a 20 year old twink. Just like the half of the cast of malevolent, all those that aren't drastically made lower in tone.
I'm sorry to say this but Harlan you sound like a twink
#the butcher#the butcher malevolent#malevolent#selfbloging#shitpost#text post#Arthur is got to be scared shitless because if i was folowed by a scary old bald guy#(even if with sexy voice) with a fucking shotgun i would be OUT of the country#or lie in a ditch somewhere#imagine being 52 abd having daddy issues#or worse. hating being a mistake#yes im gatekeeping mental illness from old people👎👎👎👎
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I rewatched Gravity Falls with my sister and holy crap being an adult and watching everything Stan goes through is insane.
I’ve been working through some stuff in therapy and like, this man has made some mistakes but definitely did not deserve what the narrative did to him.
Screws up his brothers machine on accident? Homeless at 17 and doesn’t speak to his twin for 10 years. Sees his brother again when they’re both at the end of their respective ropes and in their worst places mentally? Gets in a fight that lands his brother trapped for 30 years while he takes his death and tries to open the technical monstrosity his brother built when this man hasn’t even finished high school. Gets his brother back after 30 years? Doesn’t get a scrap of acknowledgement and is told to move out and leave him alone. Has spent 40 years trying to fix and atone for his mistakes? Not even a thank you and gets emotional about it such that the spell against Bill doesn’t work.
What’s left? Oh I don’t know, how about losing all of your memories and sense of self, letting the narrative boil you down to nothing more than a mistake and the only way you’re capable of rectifying it is by ceasing to be yourself, as literally as possible.
Like, I’m sorry, but if Ford really was so unreceptive to actually talking/working through things, I think Stan had more than atoned for his mistakes. I don’t think he was a fuck up or that his takeaway from everything should be that he wasn’t worth it. That his sacrifice was what he owed the world for everything he did.
Because he didn’t do any of it alone.
And boo fucking hoo that Ford had to shoot his brother. If their places had been reversed I doubt Stan could have done the same.
I’m sorry, you trusted an inter dimensional demon, kept secrets because you were too prideful to ask for help or admit to your failings, and again too prideful to say thank you to your younger brother who spent 3 decades doing everything he could to get you back? Stop throwing such a tantrum and get off your high horse.
Sure Stan made mistakes, but Ford never seemed to learn from his.
Rewatching it I was actually angry at the ending, at the idea that when Stan is facing Bill he’s not even upset at the hand he’s been dealt. At the unfairness of it.
Because it was unfair.
And if I had a single gripe with the series at all I would wish for maybe one extra episode after Stan losing his memories and before getting them back. Just one single episode of Ford admitting how he hurt his brother, the role he played in the apocalypse, just 20 minutes of him coming to terms with his own flaws.
Because we as the audience know Ford isn’t perfect, but I need him to acknowledge that too.
There is so much fanfiction where Stan’s life is horribly lonely or traumatic in ways the show can’t cover or makes light of and I get it but also it’s clear other people relate to Stan feeling like all he’s done is make mistakes and that he deserves what he’s gone through and that is so NOT the case.
And I wish the official narrative would acknowledge that too.
#gravity falls#stanely pines#stanford pines#pines twins#grunkle ford#grunkle stan#on my rewatch stanley is my favorite character and you can pry him from my cold dead hands#no real hate about anything i love the show but like let me rant about him please#i don’t believe for a second that he deserved any of it from being kicked out to losing ford to opening the rift#ford was the prideful one who believed only he knew what was best to the detriment of other characters and actively made situations worse#by keeping secrets or projecting his trauma onto dipper and mabel and sure maybe he couldn’t forgive stan right away because they never#properly talked but that’s also! on! ford! he could have reached out or tried at all instead of sitting on his high horse judging#sure stanley isn’t perfect but he’s my favorite and deserved to be allowed to do more than make mistakes and pay for them
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I can imagine anything guy image: “I can spiral into tears and convince myself I’m the worst person alive over anything”
#it’s soooooo easy#‘hey that thing you said was kind of insensitive’ -> feel awful and apologize immediately ->#try to explain that I’m a flawed human being in hopes that they don’t hate me as much -> realize I’m using it as an excuse -> feel worse ->#want to explain that I feel bad in hopes that it makes my apology sound genuine -> realize if I do I’m starting a pity party ->#Devil on my shoulder says that I SHOULD start a pity party bc then people have to console me even though I’m the one who fucked up ->#realize that if the devil on my shoulder thinks that that some part of me must think that. thinking that is kind of terrible ->#feel like I’m terrible -> start crying -> realize that crying will turn it into a pity party anyway ->#realize that I don’t want to feel like I’m terrible. that I do actually want people to console me -> realize I don’t deserve it ->#admit that I am truly horrible for trying to turn my fuck up into a way to make people comfort me ->#post about it on tumblr to vent (?) -> realize now I’m starting a pity party in front of almost 8k people ->#realize that makes me even worse. -> break down in tears feeling sorry for myself when. again. IM the one who fucked up#repeat at and slight inconvenience or mistake. feel like a piece of shit forever :)#it’s a flawless system. if someone sees me struggling and tries to console me I can redirect that to confirm that I’m a horrible person#try and tell myself that I’m spiraling bc of mental illness -> that’s an excuse ->#excuse = horrible person bc I’m not willing to own up to my mistakes -> return to spiral
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I am actually so sick of my tl on twt being flooded by complaints like be so freaking for real if you hate the game just leave stop playing it I promise it’s okay
#WAAAWAAAWAAA THEY DONT HAVE LATINO VAS#LISTEN alhaitham had a half Palestinian VA yk what he did ? BUTCHER EVERY ARAB NAME and so did everyone else#there’s other Arab vas and they too butchered their names. I hate it too#them vas being of the race the natlan characters are will NOT fix that problem ok because they can white wash the pronounciation like crazy#and yk what it’s lowkey WORSE if it’s an Arab va cause then everyone thinks that’s how you pronounce that name#when in reality it sounds as atrocious as nails on chalkboards BE FR#SMHHHHH#and it’s a new complaint every freaking day like what the heck#first it’s skin colour second it’s imaginary complaints like the vas nationality PICK A STRUGGLE#if you truly hated the game you would’ve quit. outright you would’ve quit#but the reason you don’t quit is cause the issues you claim to care so deeply about are things#you do not care ENOUGH about and hoyo has you wrapped around#their pinkies so if you’re gonna complain; then complain properly and QUIT THE GAME#I am so sick of everyone complaining and polluting the atmosphere#like yall can I say something controversial? when it was sumeru i genuinely do not care enough because it is not that bad#for the level of rep we are getting sure there’s some mistakes but if you’re gonna#sit here and whine about everything you would NEVER be satisfied#sure the inaccuracies are annoying BUT ITS ONLY MILDLY SO#now pls like … if you truly are a justice warrior quit the game alr and prove you care about these#“major issues” if I as a swana person who IS disappointed in some aspects of sumeru yet it is not that atrocious as you all claim it to be#then I think you natlan folks whining like the trumpet of the day of judgement has been blown should really pipe down a tad bit#dora daily
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Ramsey meets hooty from the owl house
He would HATE that bird tube
If i ever make a character torture tag I feel like i would add the tag to this I think it counts
#poor Ramsey#not only is being around Hooty qualify as psychological horror for anyone Ramsey HATES birds so thats like even worse#also i feel like hooty would mistake Ramsey for a rat and try to eat him#epithet erased where they shouldnt be#epithet erased#ramsey murdoch
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The editors at my job are TERRIBLE. I spend so much time writing my papers, fact-checking them, putting sources in them, proofreading them, editing them... and then what to the editors do? They go in and rewrite sentences and COMPLETELY CHANGE THE MEANING. Like not even in a way where they could conceivably have misunderstood. They just change things to be blatantly, OBVIOUSLY wrong. And then they cut the most important historical context that I've put in there like it's unimportant. The worst part is, I know it doesn't have to be like this. When I send my articles to external publications, it's completely different: they do a very light copy-edit and then post my papers virtually as-is. They don't rewrite them, and they certainly don't rewrite them WRONG.
#hate hate hate#sometimes our editors literally put spelling and grammar mistakes INTO my papers#and I have to be the one to proofread THEM#editors are supposed to catch errors... not create more fucking errors#also not to brag but I have been working in my field for seven years and I'm known for being an excellent writer... so the fact that#I'm getting edited to death every time I submit a paper is a BIG problem#I send a paper I've written to my coworkers and supervisors and they're like wow yes this is flawless#I send my paper to the editors and they're like yeah lemme rewrite that for you but worse#I'm sick of this shit#personal
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I'm so on edge today I hate it
#i had a bit of sound overload while playing league and its set me off#and ive got my mom visiting me tomorrow which is freaking me the fuck out#im just on edge right now i hate it#I need a hug#everything feels so wrong and everything I do feels even more wrong#mega feelings of being a big giant mistake#and i know its just me being negative and adding it all in my head and making it worse#but gah#i just need to breathe#I want to put my head through a wall but we dont do that in this house#its not gonna help and i deserve better than doing that to myself
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it just like does kinda kill me how much c discussion is connected to cc parasociality i do think it's like deeply bizarre. just because sm asshole is weird irl that doesn't have to mean anything abt a character they play. just bcs smone is nice irl doesn't mean the character is suddenly a good person. it's insane this even needs to be talked abt bcs like. can you not form your own opinions? 😭 i lwk think this is also why ppl took certain critique so personally, bcs now yr not just critiquing decisions or story directions or characters, you've secretly got an agenda against their cc of choice and aren't you so stupid for taking media as it is? you hateful asshole you hate my guy personally. you ppl r smthing else
#ppl portraying cwil as way worse thn he was (and i dont even like the mfer i think he's a weirdo a creep and things of that nature)#but leaning into it in such a weird way just bcs yhate the cc now...switching up their opinions on him just like that like what do you Mean#ppl hated ccschlatt whn the fandom came up and thts jst another reason cschlatt got dragged so hard WHATT does the cc have to do w it bro 😭#or the fact that cd*blr is so overrun w cc pilled freaks who extend their bullshit apologism goggles#to the real life piece of shit. brian cranston being a seemingly cool dude means walter white is a good guy#the guy who plays homelander is seemingly nice so tht means homelander is a good dude#gi hun is secretly a massive jackass and his entire arc isnt abt a guy who makes mistakes but ultimately has a v good heart. like cmon man#huri.txt#discourse#<- for tag reasons
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I must admit I'm getting this horrible image in my head of Tarn as that type of creepy guy who donates way too much money to a streamer and then absolutely loses it when he hears they're not single.
That's probably accurate lol. Although unlike (seemingly) most people in this fandom, I blame Megatron more for turning Tarn into that kind of obsessed freak than I do Tarn for being a freak. I mean, my view is basically "you reap what you sow/the monster you created turned around and bit you" so I don't really have sympathy for Megatron with regards to Tarn showing up and ruining his life lol. I actually really like the DJD coming in MTMTE as basically the living embodiment of karma and Megatron's comeuppance about not being able to run away from/ignore his past.
Like blah blah "no matter how sad your backstory is you're still responsible for your own actions" but also Megatron is literally 100% the reason Tarn is Like That, and Megatron also used parasocial manipulation, propaganda, and his grandiose personality to manipulate the Decepticons into worshipping/following him without question. So like. It's fiction, I don't have to be all "well they're all problematic" I can just be like "lol, lmao even" and point and laugh as Megatron gets fucked up by Tarn and the DJD because he can't talk his way out of this problem.
#squiggle answers#i'm not mad at you or thinking you're saying anything#i'm just very fond of dying of the light and i enjoy megatron suffering#i love how dying of the light is like megatron's personal torment nexus of getting trapped by his bad decisions#but also getting other people dragged down with him by accident#and then he's so fucking pathetic that he can't even compromise his 'pacifism' to save those people he dragged down#and then he lashes out in anger and becomes violent and hateful again and slaughters the whole DJD#i love that shit. love when megatron is fucked up and dysfunctional#i'm not saying i wanted him to become WORSE and like die a horrible fate per se#i'm just saying that i disagree with most of the fandom when they're like aww let this old man rest and tarn should fuck off he's a loser#i'm like nah. put megatron in the blender. don't let him just suddenly decide to be a pacifist and then that's it. make him fuck up#ough sorry it's just. i like megatron getting better but i also like him staying bad lol#like i want him to get redeemed but i also still want him to be fucked up and full of anger and hatred. if that makes sense#but yeah. not to be a tarn defender or anything but like#sometimes the fandom seems like it listened too much to the part where megatron was like#'i was happy i was at peace and you ruined everything'#meanwhile i'm sitting there like: yeah they ruined it. and so what. it's your fault. you don't get to be peaceful and happy#when you still have mistakes that you need to address and do something about instead of running away#muah. muah. muah. love dying of the light#i wanted to rip megatron apart from being so pathetic but i was also like. awww sad old man#mostly i wanted to rip him apart tho lol
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got fed up and pulled the 'I'm a vet"-card on an impolite and obnoxious guy calling me "nurse" in a belittling way every other word today and the immediate change in attitude was frankly disheartening
why am I suddenly more deserving of respect than my coworkers just because I have a different job title
#he was in a hurry and wanted some slightly more complicated things than your standard feed/otc med sale#and he got increasingly agitated when it took a moment to get everything sorted out#and the accounting bit of it done#(which mind you i was never officially trained for)#(i just asked my boss how to do it because he's away quite often nowadays leaving me to run the show with my coworkers)#(and i didn't want him to be the only one able to handle returns and protocols and stuff)#(so i take extra care in doing these things because every mistake WILL mess up the software)#(to a degree that even the software's own IT support needs two days and a specialist to fix it)#(so. never again.)#and while i understand being low on time it's no excuse to behave like he did#and even worse. i told him i was already doing my best and that it takes some time and he wasn't exactly making me work faster like that#and the ONE thing he caught on was the vet thing#not the first time this happened either#i hate it honestly because respect should be given no matter someone's degree#(the automatic assumption that i can't be a vet based on my appearance is another can of worms)#(but it's partially my fault so that's alright)
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I don’t think the weird anxiety/panic will ever leave my tumblr experience🧍♀️
#idk like I feel like I’m in the worst place imaginable rn#dora daily#there are no words to appropriately explain how unimportant I feel on this site 🧎♀️not because of anything but like#bad things keep getting worse and I just don’t get it. im just so in shock like I don’t think I have it in me to be shocked anymore#this is my life forever#🧎♀️#actually im a liar when i said not because of anything#I mean it’s because of some things#specific things#that make me spiral#then those things make me think about existing things and I have no idea if im being reasonable or not but#it makes me doubt the legitimacy of literally everything else#I’ve had this level of anxiety for academics because it’s the only thing that truly ever mattered to me but not my social life becoming a#source of panic too 🧎♀️#I say this soooo much and im sick of saying it but idk why im always ignored or it feels that way most of the time#bla bla bla#I make so many mistakes when I feel that way like what if something else happens and we turn that 3 into a 4#🥳🥳🥳#whenever I leave the house then I come home I have the most existential dread because I hate it here#I hate being on dumblr but as mitski said it best “you have so much to do and I have nothing ahead of me”#I’d just watch paint dry atp
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i love the block button
#bad vibes? block#bad takes on stuff i like? block#so freeing#when i was a kid (like 2013-2015ish) i was afraid of blocking people for some reason (i think i thought it was rude?)#so i constantly existed in a relative state of paranoia/walking on eggshells on this website#always anticipating some bullshit drama/anon hate/callout posts in response to a mistake i hadn't realized i made if that makes sense?#i was genuinely scared of some people on here bc of how aggressive they were over fandom stuff lol#(and tbh it seems to be getting WORSE somehow? i don't envy the kids of today. fandom is meant to be fun and silly guys!!!)#mostly a twitter issue since tumblr and ao3 and stuff seem to be primarily populated by adults nowadays lol#anyway point being i like being an adult and not caring what people think of me and blocking anything and anyone that mildly annoys me
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I can never look up anything about Skylar white on any site other than this one ever people really do just hate women so much ??? Even her wiki page is chock full of misogyny it's so depressing
#breaking bad#even ppl being like 'well walt was worse but she still sucked'#did we watch the same show??? she was being super gaslit all season 2 & forced into a relationship she no longer wanted in season 3#it makes me angry but also really scared how much the word bitch gets thrown around#i think everything skylar does after yelling at jesse to stop selling walt weed is actually completely understandable & okay#& everything ppl are mad at her about. walt did first & worse & longer#i will never get over this its honestly terrifying#he almost fucking rapes her early season 2 what is wrong with people?? i hate this world#straight up the creators have been like uh yeah we dont get why ppl hate her so much#we kept pushing the limit w making walt sympathetic but ppl just only care abt skylars 'mistakes'#it is literally PURPOSEFULLY WRITTEN INTO THE SHOW that skylar is a victim. that was their INTENT#sorry im preachng to the choir here ik but the more i see of the show the angrier i get about her treatment
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i love you guys so much meme left is Mia and Ethan from Resident Evil and Bellamy Blake and Clarke Griffin from t100
#the 100#resident evil#bellarke#mithan#will i elaborate? maybe#simple answer (as I haven't watched the show in a bit)#characters make mistake and do very dark things#hated by the fandom to a extortionate amount? check#ethan for killing the lords/ not being a therapist to the people trying to fucking kill him#mia for being involved with evie (valid however most of the hate i've seen has positioned Mia in a position of power)#and made no mention of her boss director (actually called that in game) douche and makes no mention of how much worse lucas/miranda is#clarke for being forced into hard choices (both in show and out of show she is hated for being forced between bomb or gun so many times)#bellamy for attacking an innocent army of grounders (bleh) and just daring to exist in the presence of a white woman etc (lot of it is bs)#and the positives clarke protecting bellamy not knowing what will happen to her/ sending her daughter to the frontlines of a war#(i do have problems with the latter on account of 12 year old and other things)#bellamy seeing morse code being tapped out on clarks arm and going clarke is still alive lets get her back/ the entire CPR scene#valeveira (and cleon) is somewhere between them and jeresa n a bi4bi way#you know devotion connections etc#mia winters#ethan winters#bellamy blake#clarke griffin
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still insane about moon and pebbles sorry. will not stop being insane any time in the foreseeable future. sorry.
#rainworld tag#thinking about like. their dynamic is unique but its also just what having siblings is like.#moon being the older one‚ the 'experiment'‚ the one they had just to see if they could do it right (or at all)#so they messed up and she couldnt be everything they wanted. she never asked for this#pebbles being the younger one‚ the prodigy‚ the one they had to fix the mistakes with the first one#he's supposed to surpass her but she's supposed to teach him how to do it right and she'll always be seen as more competent -#- wiser more intelligent etc. he never asked for this#and in the end all they have is each other. they know each other better than anyone else but does that mean theyre supposed to hate each -#- other or be the closest of friends?#they killed each other because nobody else could. they bring each other back to life because nobody else can. do you understand.#and theough it all how are they supposed to feel? neither asked to be made with the responsibility of being one of a pair#its moon&pebbles. for better and for worse one is nothing without the other#maybe im projecting a little.
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genetics? what even are genetics who fucking needs genetics fuck your genetics fuck
#chatterye#i am being demolished by the punnet mfs#god damn i hate genetics#calculate the pr- SHUT THE FUCK UP LEAVE IT TO CHANCE OH WAIT IT IS CHANCE BECAUSE ITS GENETICS#if i breed the most ungodly creature with this regular ol' joe what children do they have#fucked up ones and dead ones no in between#oh but rye they make more sense than chemistry does NO IT DOES NOT. IT DOES NOT.#orgo i apologize for anything bad i said about you i hadn;t met genetics yet#also side note i messed up my knit i'm workign on rn and i'm debating what to do because i can't frog it because it's mohair and the only#thing worse than genetics is frogging mohair#i'll just work around the mistake and hope for the best ig#maybe i'm genetically inclined to being stupid who fucking knows
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